#might delete later. idgaf

[spitblaze]

Tumblr fucking sucks ass and I'm not joking. I think I might hate this place actually. I hate the shitty circular queer discourse that ALWAYS assumes malice or disgust and nobody is given the benefit of the doubt and if they do are also presumed guilty, I hate that every single statement needs to be couched in qualifiers and conditions and speaking on One Topic about One Group is not fucking allowed, I hate that this website has built a transphobic surveillance culture around itself, I hate that people will see ONE POST that sucks and spend the next several months publicly ruminating over it and extending the discourse long after it's run its course and assuming the worst about everyone involved, I hate that seven out of ten posts about feminism are made by the terfs who run rampant on this site and have nothing better to do than spew vitriol and hate because they don't care to develop the emotional maturity to see anything from a point of view other than their own, I hate that the moment a transgender person dares to have sexual wants and desires outside of the vanilla ideal you’re a freak and a deviant and a pedophile somehow, I hate that for SO LONG we let depressed anti-recovery teenagers dominate the attitude regarding mental health and self-improvement here and it has had lasting effects TO THIS DAY, I hate that as the internet has gotten meaner and crueller and less accommodating that the place that loves to pat itself on the back for its openness and tolerance has 100000% followed suit, I hate that every single fucking topic is dominated by overconfident white shutins who do not talk to other people irl let alone queer ones, I hate how every interesting and important topic of social justice is co-opted and bastardized into an unrecognizable cudgel that only further enforces the status quo rather than challenging it as they're meant to, I hate how often the gender binary is re-invented and deviations from it are punished, I hate that we love to say shit like 'be cringe be free uwu' but the second a member of the cringe queers du jour makes something twee or says something stupid everyone jumps on the dogpile to talk about how that entire group should be prevented from speaking or making art or associating with REAL queers, I hate that making points about double standards and discrimination always involves using people we should be in solidarity with as a gotcha if not throwing them directly under the bus, I hate that for all the talk about engagement with fandom we have nobody ever decides to actually examine their engagement thereof and how so much of it is still a cesspool to this day, I hate how everyone makes such huge generalizations and expects everyone to agree (guilty but I'm pissed), I hate how people take fucking everything personally (including myself), I hate that people are going to read this and get mad at me because everyone here has worse reading comprehension than the average fifth grader, I hate that people cannot self-express without other people getting indignant because they didn't see themselves in it, I hate that the only other regularly inhabited parts of the internet anymore are fifty times worse about ALL of this, I hate how much of a fucking nightmare for my mental health this has become, I hate that people are probably gonna give me sarcastic or smug 'yeah you should probably just log off king's in the comments or to me personally, I hate how much of this I personally am guilty of, and I especially hate that I'm still fucking here.

[mrsmiroir]

im not watching rings of power because im a lore accurate akallabêther till i DIE but apparently they’re giving old man celebrimbor and annatar/sauron toxic yaoi vibes which. i have always been saying this. sauron absolutely fucked that elf.

[dangoulains-devotion]

yuffie has many interesting elements to her but people refuse to move past "i find energetic kids annoying" and it makes me sad

[cankersaurus]

Little nitpick on the dream nd Nicholas cantu video

When nick said "im like this cuz i got autism, adhd yknow nuerodivergent" nd then dream said "i have adhd too" BRO

Having adhd nd having adhd AND autism r too wildly different experiences

Nd the fucking tone he had like "i have adhd nd i dont act like you so you have no right to say wut ur saying" GRRRRR

[kachimera]

Seeing a post that said (vry grossly resuming here) how pirate show bad bc it had slave owners and honestly... y'all know what pirates n corsaries were right? Like y'all thought it was abt being cool swordfighters n rebels on the sea?

[goth-automaton]

*stumbles upon a nice looking person on Tumblr* Oh, another Org13 lover! Maybe I should follow the-

"DNI if you ship incest"

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*clutching Spardacest to their chest* I take it back.

[gomzdrawfr]

bunch of doodles

Today, I bring you a list of unhinged doodles, some were studies, some were requested by my friends in discord and some were made out of spite

and no i will not give context

the hermitcraft doodles are some of my earlier art, i forgot i even have those until i was clearing space on my laptop xD

some sketches with cod characters as well, these are like some of the first few attempts i made when i first started out digital art I think like last year? back then I didnt know shit about bushes, canvas, layers and whatnot...not that Im any better right now maybe just a bit better *flashback to drawing lineart on the same layer as the sketching layer 2 days ago*

[vampire-fanboy]

actually on the topic of erasing characters identities and such what the hell is peoples issues with aroace characters?

like holy shit we all agree its bad and horrible to change a characters orientation....... until theyre aroace

why? hm? why is that? why is that suddenly okay?

(just now added a "read more" bc this became longer then anticipated lol oopsie)

and you fuckers always try and beat around it too like "oh i think think theyre xyzromantic but still asexual!!!" "i think theyre actually demiro not just aro!" and SO ON when said aroace character has not shown any interest in anyone anything ever attraction wise

and before anyone says anything. YES. I FUCKING KNOW BEING AROACE IS A SPECTRUM. I KNOW SOME ACES FEEL ROMANTIC ATTRACTION AND SOME AROS FEEL SEXUAL ATTRACTION. I KNOW!!!

Why do i know? BC IM FUCKING AROACE SPEC idiots

im grey-ace demiro, so dont even fucking try and argue with me people are just using aroace microlables "just for the sake of hc's" NO!! you are ERASING characters identities!!

asexual and ace-spec are not 100% the same aromantic and aro-spec are not 100% the same its a spectrum for a reason, theres microlables for a reason, and some people literally just feel fucking zero attraction point blank period! and you have to fucking respect that!

ugh i swear

and another fucking thing people always go "oh there isnt a shipping problem in fandom culture there isnt anything wrong with shipping culture you just hate fun!!" and i BEG TO FUCKING DIFFER

people ONLY EVER CARE ABOUT SHIPPING IN FANDOM!!! EVER!!!

It is so fucking hard to find normal ic things about characters without someone pulling some bullshit ship out of their ass just... BECAUSE!!! BECAUSE THEY CANT FUCKING CONSUME AND INDULGE IN THE MEDIA LIKE A NORMAL PERSON UNLESS ROMANCE IS INVOLVED!!!

ugh whateverrrr this turned into a rant and i dont wanna do that, im super tired i dont care enough to write an essay

[no1ryomafan]

Yknow what really fucking peeves me but I see all the time in fandom that is probably semi controversial for saying this? When old fans feel the need to unnecessarily be fucking gatekeepy about someone getting into a series from its newer entry because “it sucks” “it ruined the series”.

I don’t mean to be this person because I know sometimes there can be a really awful iteration of something new but holy FUCK can you guys stop being such fucking babies about it. You are making people who like older parts of a series but doesn’t mind newer fans entering from the latest stuff all look bad-because guess what? Not all older fans hate the new thing!-it’s fucking embarrassing and I hate how I see this constantly no matter where the fuck I go unless I do happen to like something that hasn’t gotten shit in literal years. It’s fine to be disappointed but don’t take it out on newbies, you’re just making them not wanna try a series past what they’ve already seen.

It’s not welcoming, your just fucking toxic.

[wikiangela]

I was gonna write today and finish the fic but gonna have to get to it tomorrow

I slept most of the day bc I was sleeping off the night shift, and also I'm sick, and got my period and I'm lowkey miserable today lol

so spent my evening playing the sims lol

but tomorrow it's back at writing for sure

[spcckystcries-a]

my dad got pissy at me earlier today because we were watching cinemasins do s.cream 2 & i said something about 'my friend who writes billy' & he like scoffed/made a judgmental comment & when i questioned it basically said it's like dumb? or whatever? i guess that people write characters from scream because it 'wasn't even that good of a movie' & then ... when i got understandably upset - got mad at me for being upset because it's 'just his opinion' & threw a tantrum that he's 'not allowed to have an opinion' & it's like dude i never said that but i'm sorry??? i got upset??? when you insulted something i like & something & i & my friends are passionate about like???

[urmadiik]

Dude im so tired of this fandom sexualizing minors, the mis-characterization, proshipping, the fetishizing, etc. I try my best to ignore it bc it’s so draining going back and forth with ppl who don’t deserve my time but it’s actually so annoying and Ik I can’t control who’s in a fandom and who isn’t but I’m honestly abt it leave if I see ONE MORE smut fanfic of a CHILD IDGAF IF UR THE SAME AGE AS YOU UR STILL NASTYYYYYYYY

And this isn’t even just miles, it’s Pavitr, Gwen, PENI PARKER??

And I don’t post abt this stuff and it’s gonna be my last post abt anything like this but I jus had to vent 🤷🏾‍♀️

how y’all got me rn :

Y’all are gonna make me rage quit

I might delete later bc It’s like every time u talk abt this kind of SOMEONE gets mad

[merlucide]

HIII!! okay i saw your post abt having four months to “look good” and just to preface — i’m sure you’re already absolutely beautiful regardless but as someone who kind of did smth similar i figured i would share what helped me lose weight and look better and be sustainable about it without being restrictive or unhealthy (since that’ll lead to rebounding and regaining the weight as well as a host of other possible health issues which we don’t want 🙂‍↔️). disclaimer i’m in no way considered a professional or anything this is just what happened to work for me!! so take it w a pinch of salt (and also i hope this isn’t intrusive or rude or anything 😰 ik you asked for help but also idk since we’re not mutuals or anything i hope i don’t sound like a jerk or weird KFDNKSS feel free to delete if i do!!)

so the biggest thing to remember is no food is necessarily bad or good it’s really about portion control and eating things in moderation!! i’ve lost weight while having chips and dessert every day 😭 if you want to be super scientific and guarantee you’ll lose weight you can calculate how many calories per day you need to maintain your current weight and then figure out what deficit you need to be in to lose it (lots of calculators online to figure this out) and measure food appropriately but to be honest this can make eating stressful and it’s a very hard mindset to break out of even once you’re at your “goal” so def be careful with that!! honestly just being cognizant of what you eat and only eating when you’re hungry instead of bored/thirsty (top tip is just drink a glass of water when you think you’re hungry and if you’re still hungry afterwards then you should 100% eat!! and if not then you were probs dehydrated) would probably be sufficient too

in terms of working out (resident gym lover here) the key is that it’s better to go less times but be consistent than trying to go everyday and burning out and quitting entirely!! i go to the gym 2-3x a week and then i have a horseback riding lesson once a week so i never really exercise more than 3 or 4 times a week which would probably make hardcore gym bros freak out but 🤷🏻‍♀️…if i’m ever too busy and miss a day (or an entire week LMAO) i don’t freak out either because muscle memory is strong and you won’t lose everything that quickly!! just get back to it when you can and remember that even going and only doing half of your exercises is better than doing none at all (i had a lot of trouble w the all or nothing mindset where if i didn’t feel up to doing EVERYTHING i was like ok well might as well not go but it’s been really helpful to remember that a lighter day is better than nothing)

as for the actual exercises i do i usually warm up with cardio which isn’t necessarily recommended but i do what i want and what works for me so idgaf 😭 when i first started working out i would go on the treadmill at a 12 incline and 3 speed for anywhere from 10 to 30 minutes depending on my mood but now i usually do a 15 incline because 12 is too easy…this is def dependent on you though find what works for you/what you enjoy and stick with that!! in order to get the “toned” look you’ll have to lift weights…trust me i hated the idea of lifting at first but it’s honestly pretty fun and you don’t have to go crazy!! i just use dumbbells KDJFJSJS nothing massive by any means just enough that i feel like my muscles are actually working 🤩 you don’t have to do a ton of exercises or use a million machines or anything either — just pick a few that you like doing and that target diff parts of your body (i really like RDLs, squats, and lateral pull downs) and stick w those ‼️ there’s also a million beginner’s guides to lifting with videos for form and all online that you can access for free too so definitely a lot of resources 🤞🏻 but if you’re not into the whole treadmill + lifting vibe then just pick any form of exercise you enjoy and be consistent with it because again even if it’s not as perfectly suited to weight loss or toning or whatever you will get 1000x more results if you keep exercising than if you do smth you don’t enjoy and quit within a couple of days

ALSO make sure to stretch after you workout!! i think i read somewhere that you build 300% more muscle if you stretch after exercising which idk if that’s true or not but why not do it if ykwim…also it helps if you’re lifting because your muscles can get tight and be more sore if you don’t stretch them out afterwards 😨 and music always helps like if you listen to hype music (i always go for meghan thee stallion) it makes working out sm more fun and enjoyable!! and as a side note i know personally i struggled a lot w gym anxiety and even now i hate being perceived at the gym but you really just have to remember that everyone there is doing there own thing and you have just as much of a right to be there as anyone else!! so ignore anyone who’s being annoying but also keep in mind that you’re probably overthinking it and no one is really concerned w what you’re doing ☝🏻

OKAY that was so much omg like i said if any of this doesn’t resonate def disregard it and also if you feel uncomfortable please feel free to ignore and delete this!! i wish you luck and you’ve got this i’m rooting for you!! but please remember that things like weight are arbitrary and at the end of the day the most important thing is how you feel about yourself — as long as you believe you are a baddie you will exude baddie energy no matter what 🙂‍↕️

oh my goodness

thank you so much 😭😭

This is seriously so, so so helpful 😭🙏

ugh this makes me feel so much better tysm😭 seriously this is such great advice tysm for taking the time to tell me this

I head to the gym about 2-3x a week I’d say and focus on legs and cardio ig?? I’ll def do the incline on the treadmill (weights scare me but I’ll woman up 🫡)

tysm for all of this info + and the kind words you made me feel very good 😭🙏

edit: do you know any good free websites to find which deficit I should do? 🫠

[xeaiheai]

Hello. It is Admin here. Maybe this is an introduction post. Who can tell.

Tag for my drawings: #drawing tag

Tag for nonsense that comes out of my mou- keyboard : #yapping

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[theyovngveins]

Sometimes I feel bad for how much I hate [redacted] because I know some people love him the same as I love dream… but then I remember he’s a clout chasing self-centered spineless brat and his fans are just as spineless as he is and are largely the culprits of all the (in-fandom at least) hate thrown at dream and they invalidated him when he came out and then I decide I don’t care& he can choke 😊👹👹

people like him because he has no backbone and will bend to their will and do whatever they want and will not speak against them that’s the only reason he has a fanbase like if you look at the way his numbers have dropped he does not have that huge fanbase he used to people started dropping him when they realized he was not happy with his job and the only people who stuck around are the ones who get to push him around

[girzapata6]

I HAAAAAATEEEEEE YOUUUUU TUUUUUMBLRRRR. YOOOOOUUUU ARE THEEEEE WOOOOOORSSSSSTTT WEEEEEB PAAAAAGGGGEEEEE!!!