#modular did

[redactedsys]

Introduction

About us/the blog: We're a polyfragmented DID system that recently realized we're modular and even more recently that we're fractal. Due to our inherent isolation from the plural community(especially from other dissociative systems) and the lack of resources and written accounts from other modular systems, we're starting this blog. Sharing our story and experiences is also part of us trying to heal so cvnt on thattt too

We're in DID therapy. Our brain has audhd and PNES amongst other things, and those play major roles in how our modularity works and presents.

Our system has no individual alters nor fragments, however we've named different clusters and patterns. Plural they/them is preferred when referring to us, but when referring specifically to the host cluster, we use she/her and the name Basil.

Bodily we're a transgirl, adult, and from an eastern european country. We don't expect to vent about our trauma history, but also let's be real, one isn't the most likely to be like us if OEA wasn't involved, at least imo..

Terminology we use: To aid us in understanding and communicating our experiences, we've coined several terms that we'll use throughout this blog: Particle - that's what we call the smallest 'base' dissociative parts of the system. They have no sense of self, hold only one very particular trait/memory/sensation/etc, and feel unique to our modularity rather than like fragments non-modular systems might experience Flare - when multiple(usually dozens) of particles come together and merge, the result is a flare. It's a temporary type of system member that exists to fulfill a particular purpose or because of a trigger. once their work is done (may take milliseconds may take hours, rarely more than a day), they get disassembled back to particles. There's a flare fronting(and probably constantly switching) at all times. Once a flare is disassembled, it's near impossible to see them again, although a similar flare might come to existence at some point. Nebula - this is the clustering and grouping of particles. These clusters have an overarching theme (such as shared trauma, shared general purpose, etc) and the flares that come out of them often have many similarities. Basil, for example, is the 'host nebula'. These clusters have formed naturally and, due to how messy having so many particles and complexity is, they tend to be big and nebulous. Hence the name, heh

For more info and more terms we've coined, we have a list here: https://pluralpedia.org/w/User:RedactedSys

DNI: We don't have a dni criteria, but we'd like to keep syscourse and similar away from this blog as the point is to journal about our modularity, not get into discourse

[rottenteeth]

I think I have modular did...

I believe I found the article that talks about modular DID (Clinical Presentations of Multiple Personality Disorder by Richard P. Kluft), and it also has a bunch of other presentations such as:

Classic DID

"The overt and readily observable behavior of such patients fulfills diagnostic criteria for MPD on an ongoing basis for periods of months or years, or even for a lifetime."

frequent changes of executive control (switches) cause easily observable memory gaps and altered behavior

includes "amnesia for amnesia" (forgetting that you forgot)

Latent DID

"patients whose alters are generally inactive but are triggered to emerge infrequently by intercurrent stressors, many of which are analogous to, symbolic of, or trigger memories of childhood traumata."

examples include patients who become overt when their children reach the age(s) at which they were traumatized, or when their abusers become ill or die

Posttraumatic DID

covert until the patient experiences an overwhelming contemporary event

Extremely Complex or Polyfragmented DID

"occurs when there is a wide variety of alter personalities and their comings and goings are so frequent and/or ephemeral that it is hard to discern the outline of the MPD behind the rapidly fluctuating and switching manifestations."

subjective experiences of confused and fluctuating identity and memory is an indicator

Epochal or Sequential DID

"occurs when switches are rare—the newly emergent alter simply takes over for a long period, and the others go dormant."

often missed, and can be suspected in patients with dense amnesia for periods of their adult life

Isomorphic DID

"a group of very similar alters are largely in control, and/or the alters try to pass as one."

only overt manifestation may be an unevenness of memory and skills, a fluctuating level of function, and inconsistency that is striking in view of the patient's apparent strengths

can be seen as puzzling due to the apparent lack of alternating personalities

Coconscious DID

confusing for its apparent lack of amnesia (patients with this presentation would be diagnosed with DDNOS in the DSM-IV)

"Such cases present with apparent alters that know about one another and do not demonstrate time loss or memory gaps. Usually there is amnesia, but it is covered over or relates to events long past, and becomes apparent only in therapy."

Possessionform DID

"occurs when the alter that is most evident or the sole manifestation presents itself as a demon or devil."

Reincarnation/Mediumistic DID

"presentations in which the presenting alters are egosyntonic within certain unique belief systems but are found to overlie more typical alters."

Atypical/Private DID

many patients are quite high-functioning

"occurs when the alters are aware of one another, and the isomorphic presentation is consciously adapted to pass as one."

Secret DID

closely related to Atypical DID

"the alters, although classic, never emerge except when the host is alone, and unlike the private form, the host is unaware of the alters."

Ostensible Imaginary Companionship DID

"occurs when a patient is found to have an apparent adult version of imaginary companionship with an egosyntonic entity that is coconscious and copresent and engages in friendly and supportive dialog with an otherwise socially constricted host. Examination reveals, however, that this entity does assume executive control, and that (usually) other entities are present as well. "

Covert DID

the truly classic form of DID

may be subdivided roughly into Puppeteering (hapless or accepting), Phenocopy, Somatoform, and Orphan symptom varieties

Puppeteering or Passive-Influence Dominated DID

"occur when the host is dominated by alters that rarely emerge. If the host is unaware of what is transpiring, he or she feels him or herself the hapless victim of influences that force behavior in ways not willed or chosen."

Phenocopy DID

"most important of the covert forms. It occurs when the final common vector of the alters' influences create phenomena that are similar to the manifestations of other mental disorders, or when the urge of traumatic materials overwhelms the patient's ego strength."

should be considered when a patient who appears to have another mental disorder fails to improve with the application of a therapy appropriate for that condition or if the condition is associated with a prolonged therapy or a poor prognosis."

a useful approach to suspected phenocopy presentations would involve the DES and an interview

patients with high scores on both the DES and Hypnotic Induction Profile (HIP) are much more likely to have DID than any other condition.

Somatoform DID

very common

"occur[s] when the discomfort associated with a painful event is reexperienced, with no conscious connection between the symptom and the historical event."

Orphan Symptom DID

closely related to all covert categories

"Dissociating patients are prone to divide their painful experiences along the behavior, affect, sensation, and knowledge (BASK) dimensions described by Braun. The intrusion of any such element into the ongoing mental life of a patient should initiate the search for a DD—an unwilling motor act, the unexplained intrusion of a strong affect, a sensation for which no medical cause can be found, or intrusive traumatic imagery."

Switch-Dominated DID

"In this form the switch process is occurring so frequently and/or rapidly that it rather than amnesia or the clear emergence of alters dominates. The patient appears bewildered, confused, and forgetful."

most common in extremely complex DID with a large number of alters

patient may be thought to have an affective disorder, psychosis, or a seizure disorder

Ad Hoc DID

very rare

"a single helper alter that rarely emerges persists and creates a series of short-lived alters that function briefly and cease to exist. The helper may speak to the host inwardly to advise on how to frustrate inquiries."

Modular DID

quite uncommon but most intrusive

"occurring when usually autonomous ego functions become personified and split and when personalities are reconfigured from their elements when mobilized. More standard alters may or may not be present. Such patients have an "MPD feel" about them, but once one has talked to qn apparent alter one may appreciate its vagueness and may never encounter it in exactly the same way again."

"The few patients in whom this form has been found have been seriously abused, brilliant, and creative... There are clear analogies between this form of dissociative defense and computer functioning, and it may well be that this form will be seen with increasing frequency in the future. In all cases thus far seen, the common factors have been stellar brilliance, bizarre symptoms, and an inconsistency in the manifestations of the apparent alters, who appear generally similar on repeated encounters, but never quite the same."

Quasi-Roleplaying DID

very rare prior to 1985

"A personality plays out what has been learned of the other alters as deliberately enacted roles, and then informs the interviewer that he or she is feigning MPD. In another form, the patient immediately follows up apparent alter behavior with statements that the patient is aware of what has occurred and has willfully generated it. With further assessment, it is discovered that the patient is upset about the possibility that the diagnosis is MPD, and is attempting to preempt the chance of receiving the diagnosis."

Pseudo-False Positive DID

quite common in the 1970s and early 1980s, but became more rare as DID became more widely recognized

"The patient makes a questionable presentation that is clearly based on a well-known case or is so flamboyant as to appear contrived. The presentation is dropped as soon as the patient appreciates that the clinician is competent, caring, and interested in him or her as a distinct human being rather than as a curiosity."

[phlurrii]

Relistening to Epic the Musical and realising that Odysseus is Mewtwo and Circe is Newtwo really makes me so sad because imagine Meau and Odysseus singing Warrior of the Mind. Imagine it. Imagine it in your brain. Then cut to My Goodbye. My heart is breaking, shattering. In PIECES. If I see any of your characters named Calypso I'm crawling out of your drywall and eating your keyboard

What if I told you there’s an old animatic of Meau and Ody singing “My Goodbye” on my Patreon XD

There’s a lot one of Meau singing warrior of the mind, but that’s an old one I did with a mutual, so that’s staying in my vault lol

Idk I I might remake some in a non cannon light because I really just haven’t had the motivation to work on the finale animatic in months 030

[sdmsims]

welcome to sdmsims!

we only make bad things here

[thefrogdalorian]

The UCS Lego Razor Crest figure of Din made a fine addition to my collection...

[dying-suffering-french-stalkers]

Every time I look at the Tengwar table I feel like

screaming a little bit

apologizing to Tolkien that I only had time to take Linguistics 101

(but in my defense, that was because I was too busy taking 800 other language classes)

[petaliiss]

☿ — MODULAR SYSTEM

Modular systems are systems with many fragments that “merge” or “combine” to create temporary alters, then “unmerge.” The fragments may not be the same after this.

This term was coined by Richard Kuft in 1991. He describes several different presentations of DID. It is not my own term, just a flag for the term.

[noelements-setempty]

The circular hex numerals are back, this time in a visualisation of the period of each number under addition modulo 16

The pencil marks are there because protractors are for losers (or non-constructible polygons)

[sketchydmitrix]

shoutout to modular systems!!!!

it's hard out here

[wastelandhell]

i want to like the nuka girl outfit but it has a few things that are bugging me; time to put way too much effort into another mod. i cut out the harness into a separate mesh, converted the fake heels to real ones, and added more polys to the areas people would want them. now im working on painting out the harness and all the baked ao so the jacket can be worn without the gloves/helmet/jetpack and not look odd.

[po-matoran-workshop]

I keep turning small projects into really big things help

[synths-and-sensibility]

It's almost July, which means I can think about my monthly toy budget and there's a *lot* of stuff I wanna make that I'm totally not going to have time for, so I really shouldn't get all the supplies at once

- power supply for case (the micronova is fine until I build up my power needs)

- sequencer (I still have a ton I can work on virtually and I don't even have anything to sequence*... or anything to drive it)

- clock (this one's actually furthest along conceptually, I think I only need a rotary encoder for it... but I don't have anything to clock)

- poorly defined DSP project (I am planning to order a teensy soon and start playing with it during summer vacations, will it probably be the prototyping platform for granular, reverb, delay/chorus, karplus-strong... etc)

- mixer + output (line and headphone outputs... possibly audio interface and/or recording too, yet another teensy project)

- I still need to finish the monosynth voice, the core of the DCO is mostly complete, but she needs tweaks and also input/output processing. Then I gotta do VCA, function generator, I really should do a filter or three at some point...

- also, my oscilloscope is being a brat, so let's throw that on the list too

(*I say nothing to sequence, but it would be crazy easy to incorporate a midi USB interface, also there's a lot of codependencies here, like I need x for y and y for x, I'm trying to serialize my workload to keep it mentally manageable, but there's sooooo much to do before I have a functional instrument)

[phoenixiancrystallist]

Month 4, day 5

Well I WAS gonna do a couple tutorials for new materials, but the second one I decided to try was redoing the icy snow material that crashed my computer that one time. I fixed the crashing issue but it's gonna take four and a half more hours to render. So, procedural glass shader for Cycles that rendered in like two minutes it is!

This one has ~*fancy shit*~ I can do to it, like make it cracked or warped or add smudges :) I didn't think to play with those to show it off, but I'm sure I'll find use for them in the future!

[starch-lord]

Just a test animation featuring the floating head of @unhinjedgator's gator sona, Jed! This was also done as a birthday gift so happy birthday, Jed!!

[low-hazard]

i’m too young to be getting obsessed with things like mattresses. but i’m having so so much fun. let’s hold hands and spend hours on the underground mattress forum together,,,,

[longroadstonowhere]

welp, stayed up way too late doing so, but i finished horizon zero dawn

i did get all the collectables, and i completed most of the quests (honestly i think the only unfinished ones were the hunting ground stuff and the tutorial quests for all the various weapons i picked up), so suffice to say i did the vast majority of what was meant to be done

beautiful story, and for the most part a well designed game (i have some issues with how things are laid out weapons-wise, i think they let you throw yourself into the deep end a little too much, and there were a few places where climbing paths could've been waaaaaaay better marked), so i'm very glad i finally played it - only took me about seven or eight years after my previous attempt apparently ahahaha

i do intend on getting the sequel at some point, but i probably shouldn't get it right away cuz school starts on wednesday and i didn't have much self discipline when it comes to playing this one, so i should expect myself to have a comparable level with the sequel ahahaha