#most days I don't have the desire to get out of bed tbh

[crazyforhwa]

Between hard and soft hours tbh but I really can’t stop thinking about a lazy make out session with Seonghwa… with lots of tongue obviously because come on, it’s Seonghwa.

It’d feel so amazing to just have a whole make out session with him, hands on each other’s face or neck.. and maybe an other member (*cough* Choi San) witnessing it and ending up joining the fun……

✩LAZY MAKE OUT SESSIONS WITH SEONGHWA✩

anon, that's so fucking hot.. (seonghwa is just hot yk)

I feel like lazy make out sessions with him usually happen during gloomy or winter days, as he thinks it feels the most romantic that way. He would be the one to initiate them by doing seemingly innocent things that end with him pushing his tongue past your lips in no time.

It would be such a mess, the perfect contrast between lust and love. Just two bodies laying on the bed, some rnb music playing quietly in the background to spice up the mood.

I feel like he's the 'breathy moans' type of guy. Whining into your mouth, describing how much he desires you.. that's what he's into. He isn't afraid of letting out sounds, and he expects you to let out some too, especially when other members are around. It definitely makes him hard as a rock, knowing that his colleagues are listening.

And oh boy.. talking about exhibitionism, I feel like he would purposely leave his door not fully closed, BEGGING in his mind that somebody(ehem, San) would catch you guys in the act. And don't even start on joining. I don't think he would be 100% comfortable with every member, but he would definitely share you with San, Hongjoong or Wooyoung (boy would be already close just by seeing them play with you).

We all have seen that fucking tongue of his. it's long, pointy, and he knows how to use it. he constantly sticks it out during performances, so I imagine him to be an absolute freak. He wins every battle for dominance, even at such slow paced moments.

Spit. SPIT. He loves when your make out sessions are messy, long strings of saliva forming whenever he detaches his plump lips from yours. He would randomly pull away just to stick his tongue out and let his spit slowly drip into your mouth, quickly getting back to business after.

Let's also mention that not every make out session with him is just lips. Oh no no, he is paying attention to everything. Sometimes he lowers himself and plants soft pecks against your neck. Sometimes he gently bites your earlobe, his warm breath tickling your skin. And sometimes he just smothers your whole face with smooches, grinning while he does so. He is a man of passion, but in these moments he just loves to chill out and show you love in a slightly different way.

Oh, and that smirk of his. He would grab different parts of your body unexpectedly, making you let out soft gasps that would trigger his cocky smile. Sometimes it'd be an innocent booty grab, but one second later his hand is slowly sliding under your shirt, his warm fingers exploring your body, getting closer to the sensitive areas on your chest.

After about half an hour, he will lose the ability to think straight. His hand would slide into your pants and quickly find your opening, slowly forcing two fingers into your tight hole. He would hit every sweet spot while still kissing you, getting "annoyed" and spanking you every time you get distracted by the pleasure.

Oh, yes.

I love him, man😭😭😭😭

should I make it a fic? 👀 (I feel like this is way too short, I'm sorry)

[yan-lorkai]

Can I request a part 2 of Sebastian's S/O accompanying him on contracts? Maybe sebastian gets a bit upset/jealous because Y/N has acted like a parent to Ciel recently by reading him bedtime stories and things like that.

Y/N tells Sebastian. "Darling, when was the last time our room was checked for cats?" And Sebastian realizes what Y/N is doing. (I might arguably like cats more than Sebastian)

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ A/N: This is such a cute rq 🥺🤭, I loved writing this tbh. Hope u like it too, darling and sorry for the huge delay hehe!

.⁠｡⁠*⁠♡ Warning: Yandere content, implied possessive thoughts, biting and kissing, angst if you squint bcs Ciel. Possible typos.

The clock ticks tick-tock, tick-tock incessantly. The soft sound wouldn't bother the demon on any other night, but today the sound drags on and on, the hands dancing rhythmically, over and over. On any other night, Sebastian would have you beside him as your fingers comb his raven hair and he leaves soft kisses over your cheek and forehead and lips.

Sebastian is not a jealous demon, at least he thinks so. Considering the way other demons treat their partners like precious jewels and lock them away to protect them from the world, Sebastian makes sure he gives you enough freedom and cares for your happiness enough that you always come back to his arms at the end of each night. Except a week ago, as soon as the day's business is over and everyone retires to their rooms, you don't return to him - not right away, anyway.

And your thirty minutes late makes him uneasy, he needs his mate by his side. He needs you in his arms to finally feel relax from the routine. And yet, you'd rather go to the young master's room and read to him every night - a ritual you started a week ago.

A week when Sebastian has to stand longer and watch you read Ciel children's books and fluff his pillows before retreating with an almost parental smile. As an observer, Sebastian can only speculate on the reason for your odd behavior - surely you don't want children, you would have said so. But what if that's the way you found to express that desire and he didn't realize it? His head is full of "what ifs".

He moves to close the windows and curtains as you sit in the armchair next to Ciel's bed and open a book. The demon's reddish eyes find their way to the boy's rosy face, annoyed and uncomfortable, so alien to the small, simple moments a child should have. Sebastian could almost feel sorry for him if the scent of his soul wasn't so good and tempting.

'You are cruel', Sebastian thinks. You are cruel when you read to him, making funny and different voices, expressing the events of the books through exaggerated gestures, even though Ciel asks - asks, but doesn't order - that you stop. You are cruel when you smile and lean in to pinch the earl's rosy cheeks, yet he flinches from the contact as if his skin is burning.

You're cruel when Ciel's eyes close, but you keep holding one of his hands, pretending not to notice the slight tremor and stiffness because he's afraid you'll disappear and this new routine will end. You are cruel when you lean down and kiss his forehead, cover him with his warm blankets and ruffle his blue hair before sighing and placing the book on the desk, sending a cunning look at Sebastian.

The same look as when you found out you were soul mates and kissed him fiercely, the same look as when you said you would accompany him and be by his side. Sebastian loved that look. He was weak for that look.

Your movements are full of elegance as you beckon him with your index finger as you leave the earl's room, taking his hand in yours as you walk slowly back to your room. The ticking sound fades away, saving Sebastian from a growing headache now that he has you by his side.

"Darling, would you mind clarifying something?" He asked once you were back in the safety of your room, wrapping his arms around you like you were the most precious thing to him.

You let yourself be guided to the bed, laying your head on his shoulder and closing your eyes. A great weary sigh leaves your lips as you feel the warmth and security emanate from your loved one's arms, wanting more, wanting to be closer, wanting to be embraced by his essence. It was almost impossible to put into words how right it was for you to be there.

After a few seconds, you open your eyes and face him with a small smile, almost as if you know the confusion he felt and the thoughts he had. And you probably could, soul mates, especially supernatural soul mates, could share a lot of things: feelings, thoughts, memories, learnings, it was an almost unconscious process, but you were a sneaky little thing and he's sure you could figure out how to get into his mind.

"The reason why I started reading for Young Master?" You ask, turning to cup Sebastian's face in your hands carefully, placing several small kisses all over his face. And he nods, making a smile grow on your lips.

"Why, my love, reading to him is like playing with a puppy." You think, remembering the furtive glances, skittish demeanor and blush on the young boy's face. He was so cute you could almost bite his cheeks until they bled. "But yeah, there's a reason, honey, tell me, when was the last time our room was checked for hidden cats?"

You stifle a laugh at Sebastian's thoughtful expression as he puts together the pieces of the little puzzle that has been bothering him for that entire week. A sigh of disbelief escapes his throat as he looks up at you and takes in your smug gaze.

"Perhaps, you are more cruel than I realized." Sebastian thinks aloud, laughing at the sound of indignation that fell from his lips. He smiles, and it's his turn to shower your face and neck with slow, hot kisses, just the way you like it. It turns you to jelly right away. "I appreciate it, but I would still rather have my soulmate by my side at night. It's almost torture to endure all these minutes without you by my side, besides there are several other hiding places that I haven't shown you yet. Hiding places the young master would never find."

You let yourself be pulled into his lap, still feeling every place he kissed burn slowly, lips scraping over the foot of your ear as the demon watched you gasp. "You were very cruel leaving me and reading to the brat night after night."

"Is that jealousy I hear, Bastian?” You teased him. “Jealousy and clinginess?”

The lips that were close to your ear closed on your neck, biting the skin hard enough to draw blood and the pained moan that echoed through the room was inevitable. His warm tongue licked every red drop that ran down your neck and you felt him smile.

You knew Sebastian was proud, he just wouldn't admit he was jealous, especially of a human child. He would perhaps rather pretend to be a priest and deliver a sermon to a packed church than admit how jealous he felt and the thought made you laugh, even if your neck burned and the funny attempt to punish you was in vain. You could almost double over with laughter. You could imagine him wearing a signature robe with his hair slicked back and his reading glasses draped over his face. He would be the perfect sinful image that believers should turn away from.

"Oh darling, you can bite and kiss me some more," You said in a tired voice, then added, "But I only speak the truth."

"That's rich coming from a demon." He snarled.

"Ah, shut up." You silenced him by laughing. "Let's go to bed already, I want to sleep cuddling with you."

Sebastian smiled. He couldn't deny you that, even joking, when you asked him with that voice and that sweet look, he was incredibly weak to you and promptly did what was asked, parting with you to get rid of his shoes and tailcoat while you did the same with your uniform.

Within minutes, you found yourself in each other's arms, red eyes meeting yours, as you leaned in to share one last kiss.

Demons didn't need to sleep and Sebastian preferred not to, but you used to take a little nap after a long day to recharge and your strong grip on his waist ensured that Sebastian wouldn't run away from your arms while you slept, the thought of the empty, cold bed beside you bothered you, even in unconsciousness your grip would not loosen.

Your head nestled against his chest, your eyes slowly closing as you listened to the soft sound of his heart synchronizing with yours. The world slowly blurred as you felt Sebastian's loving gaze on you.

"Love you my jealous demon, see you in a few hours."

And with that, you entered the world of dreams, letting your soulmate take care of you and watch over your sleep.

[misc-obeyme]

Congrats on the followers!!!! WOOOOO!!!

could I request “I really want to kiss you right now.” with Beelzebabes please? something about him just saying that out of the blue…ugh. it fuckin GETS me. NSFW af please (the naughtier the better ;) lol), and if I could request AFAB but gender neutral pronouns for reader?

Also if it’s not asking too much could you avoid using the word “cunt?” Just a personal turn off, tbh.

btw i’m @libidinous-weeb on here! (side blog) and your smut writing skills are top tier!!! you’re sooo good, i’m a huge fan! <3

Hello hello!

Ahh thank you so much!! I'm still not very confident in my smut writing, so it means it a lot to hear that you like it!!

Okay, so hopefully this one turned out okay... I love Beel so much I think he would just be really sweet the whole time lol. I didn't really end up using pronouns aside from you/yours, so hopefully that's okay, too. But MC is AFAB! As it turns out, I don't like using the word "cunt" either so I didn't, but I would also like to say that it is absolutely never too much to ask me not to use a word like that. I am happy to accommodate any such preferences!

Thank you for participating!

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AFAB!MC x Beelzebub with prompt "I really want to kiss you right now."

NSFW MDNI

Warnings: face-sitting, penetration (reader receiving)

You had been flirting pretty blatantly with Beel all day, hoping against hope that he'd pick up on your meaning. It wasn't as though he didn't already know how you felt. You had already spent several nights together, all of them mind blowing. But you found yourself wanting more and more. And it had been too long.

It was a slow afternoon and most of his brothers were out of the house or otherwise occupied. For once, you didn't really have anything demanding your attention. It was the perfect opportunity to spend a little quality time with Beel. He seemed happy enough to do whatever you wanted, but he didn't seem to be picking up on exactly what you wanted.

You asked him to join you in your room to watch some TV. Sitting together on your bed was the perfect situation. You could cuddle with him, maybe kiss him a bit, and if he still wasn't getting the message, you might need to just say it directly.

But when you were there, cozied up to his side, you found the TV so boring and his presence so relaxing that you felt yourself getting a little drowsy. Being cuddled up with him like that was so comfortable, you forgot all about your earlier attempts at flirting, your eyelids actually starting to get a little heavy.

"MC," Beel said.

His tone was so serious, you sat up straight to look at him. "What is it?"

Beel met your eyes. "I really want to kiss you right now."

You blinked in surprise for a moment. And then you were no longer sleepy. You turned off the TV, climbed into his lap, and kissed him.

Beel's hands went to your waist and when you opened your mouth for him, he took the invitation readily. You felt the hot spike of desire that ran through your body at the feeling of his tongue against yours. The kiss got hot and sloppy, your motions growing desperate as all the neediness you had been feeling previously returned to you full force. When you felt his erection stirring beneath you, you took the opportunity to grind down on it.

Beel moaned low in his throat, his lips still on yours, his hands running over your hips and your backside. You broke away to pull in a breath, leaving Beel to put his lips on your neck. He sucked and nipped just a little, which made you gasp and grind down on him again. The throbbing need between your legs was almost too much to bear as you gripped Beel's shoulders.

Beel ran his hands under your shirt, breaking away from you so he could pull it over your head, exposing your chest. You tugged on his, too, and it was gone in moments, both of them forming a little heap on the floor. And then Beel's mouth was on one of your nipples. You clutched at his bare shoulders, nails digging in enough to leave little half moon indentations in his skin.

And then you felt Beel's fingers tugging on the waistband of your pants. You slid off of his lap to remove them yourself along with your underwear, too eager to let him do it for you.

Before you could do anything else, though, Beel was lying down on your bed on his back. You frowned at him because he was still wearing his pants.

"Um, Beel," you said.

Beel tugged on your hand and you let him pull you back up onto the bed. His hands guided you until you were straddling his face, your knees on either side of his head.

"Beel," you said again, a note of uncertainty in your voice.

"Is this okay? You can trust me, MC," Beel said, his hands resting on your hips.

You nodded your willingness to let him take the lead and he pushed gently on your hips. You lowered yourself down, holding onto the headboard for balance.

The moment Beel's tongue made contact with your hot flesh, your body clenched and you were thankful you were already gripping the headboard. You held on as he plunged his tongue inside of you before pulling it up to swirl around your clit. You moaned, feeling the wetness dripping from you, imagining how it must be dripping down his chin.

Beel moaned into you and the vibration of his deep voice made you shudder. Beel pushed down on your hips again, making you sink even lower. You had a vague thought about potentially suffocating him, but it fled as soon as he began to suck. He was moaning continuously now, clearly doing it on purpose because of the way you were reacting to it.

You held on to the headboard with both hands, not sure how long you could last like this. The sweet hot feeling gathered deep within you, building and building. You moaned Beel's name as you could feel yourself getting closer and closer until your orgasm finally burst upon you, rolling through you and making you see stars.

You couldn't stop yourself from moving your hips as you rode out your high, not even able to think about what that might be doing to Beel's face.

When you were able to think clearly again, you moved back, half sitting on his chest because you didn't have the strength to go anywhere else.

Beel smiled up at you and your stomach fluttered at the sight of your cum on his lips. He licked them and you nearly orgasmed again just from that.

You leaned forward, letting your head fall on his shoulder. "Beel, you're making me crazy."

Beel rubbed your back. "Do you want me to keep going? Or is it too much?"

You looked at him and smiled. You didn't say anything, just sat up, moved so you were sitting next to him on the bed, and tugged at his pants.

Beel took the hint. He got up from the bed to discard them on the pile of all your other clothes.

This freed his massive cock and you wondered briefly if your eyes were shining excitedly at the sight of it. You could feel the thrill that ran though you as you reached out to touch it.

Beel let you stroke it for a little bit while he stood beside the bed, biting his lip and trying not to groan.

After a minute though, he looked down at you. "MC…"

There was a note of desperation in his tone that sent a stab of desire spiking up your spine. You instantly lay back on the bed, scooting yourself toward the edge. Beel helped you by pulling your legs up to rest on his chest, but paused with the tip of his cock at your entrance. He looked down at you, a question clearly on his face.

"It's okay, Beel," you said. You pushed yourself closer to him. "I want you inside me."

Even with this permission, Beel went slow. You knew it was because he was aware of his size and didn't want to hurt you in any way. You were already so wet, but you were also sensitive after having orgasmed on his face moments ago. Every inch of him that entered you shot sparking sensations through your entire body. You were already squirming and moaning beneath him by the time he was fully inside you.

You reached up to grab at his hands, which were resting on your hips, as he began to slowly move in and out of you. It was almost agonizing how careful he was being.

You arched your back and said, "Faster, faster, please…"

Beel always listened to you and this was no exception. He immediately picked up the pace, pounding into you hard and fast, hitting that sweetest spot deep inside you and making you cry out with the overwhelming pleasure of it.

Beel seemed to be just as lost in sensation as you were, his thrusts becoming frantic, your name spilling from his mouth in a repetitive mumble.

You were already nearing your climax again. It was only a matter of a few more hard thrusts from Beel and you were clenching around him, everything tightening as you did your best not to scream. Your hands clutched at the sheets beneath you as Beel kept going. You squirmed, rocking your hips with him, the feelings running through you so intense you couldn't help the praise spilling from your lips, telling him how good he felt, how amazing he was, how full he made you feel.

It seemed hearing you saying such things, even incoherently, was the last push Beel needed. He groaned as he filled you up with his cum, his hands clenching on your hips, his thrusts stuttering and then slowing.

The two of you stared at each other for a moment, both of you breathing heavily. After catching your breath, you would clean each other up, carefully and sweetly, before returning to your bed. You pressed yourself into Beel's side, his arm circling protectively around you and pulling you closer. The feeling of his skin against yours was so nice, you found yourself filled with a sense of happiness. It wasn't long before you both fell asleep, completely exhausted.

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[beloved-belittled]

Gods/Titans x Sick! Reader

Characters: Shinnok, Raiden, Fujin, Liu Kang, Cetrion, Kronika 

A/N: Did not have the brainpower to work on my other stories so I drafted up this instead. Influenza is a bitch.

TW: Implied yandere, mentions of drugging, kidnapping, death, SFW

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Shinnok 

Can probably detect that you're getting sick before your symptoms show. You know how some people can smell sickness? It's like that with Shinnok. Thankfully, you don't have the waft of death he's so accustomed to being around. He's not worried about you dying from this. Still, he'd rather not his plaything be ill.

He's a bit confused on how you got sick in the first place though. He doesn't exactly take you outside once he's kidnapped you, and it's not like he's affected by any mortal disease so ???. It's especially puzzling if this happens while you're trapped in the amulet. At least in the cell you came into contact with demons who may have carried something. 

Regardless, at this point Shinnok realizes his arsenal of healing magic is rather… Lacking. He's much more adept at rending flesh than mending it. But he's a skilled sorcerer so it takes him little time to learn a healing spell. A few test subjects later and he feels confident at curing your cold.

All this takes less than 24 hours for Shinnok to achieve. You're probably bed ridden at this point with all the chills/fever, coughing, and weakness. Speaking of beds, I think this is one of the few times he'll have you sleep in a bed rather than your cell. He wants you to recover after all. The only way you’re dying is by his hands and not some petty mortal disease. 

His magic works better than any herbal healing or medicine tbh. One moment you're on death's door and the next you've completely recovered. No sign of illness anywhere in your body. Even though being Shinnok's darling is not desirable, it does come with a few benefits like this.

Raiden 

Raiden doesn't know you're sick until the symptoms show. Might not discover your illness until 2-3 days of you being under the weather due to his busy schedule. He likely hears about your condition from a monk he's trusted to watch over you. Man immediately teleports to the Sky Temple to see how you're doing. He finds you laying in the bed barely able to move. Wearily, you greet him only to immediately fall into a coughing fit.

Unfortunately, he can't fry the disease out of you with his electricity. So, herbal healing it is! You drink more tea this week than you have your entire life. Seriously, you have to beg Raiden to stop because your stomach is about to burst. He does, only to immediately pursue some aromatherapy. Your room smells strongly of flowers and eucalyptus afterwards.

Would frequently check on you nearly every hour. If there's an extremely urgent matter that calls for his attention he'll leave his most trusted colleagues to look after you. Right after he's done with business he'll ask the person if your status has improved. 

He's super mindful of making sure you don't get bed sores or any other complications from laying around all day. At the same time, he only wants you getting up to bathe or use the restroom. You're essentially stuck in one place until he can 100% guarantee you've recovered. 

If your condition worsens he would hire a doctor to come see you. If the doctor suggests you go to a hospital, Raiden will take you there. I imagine the admission process would be a bit awkward though. He has no idea how all this works so you're left doing most of the speaking. You get admitted in though, and no his constant visiting doesn't stop even now. The hospital staff would likely have to kick him out.

Overall, he's praying that you'll make it through this.

Fujin

Well, Fujin actually lives among mortals so he has more knowledge on how to take care of you. Like Raiden, whenever he's on important business he hires someone to watch over you. I could see him having a phone unlike his brother. Definitely more hip with the times. Anyways, because of this he probably gets a worried text from your caretaker that you've fallen ill.

He arrives back home ASAP. Seeing you in this condition pulls at his heartstring the most. Out of everyone he's the most worried, as he's had his most favorite mortals pass away from illness. He wastes no time getting into Dr. Fujin mode.

He has you on a liquid diet until you heal. Tea, soup, broth -that's all you're eating for the next week. He’ll get whatever you need medicine wise. Got a headache or cramps? He'll get some painkillers pronto. Are you coughing with an irritated throat? Have some cough syrup/drops. He's very attentive in giving you a balance of home remedies and prescribed drugs.

It pains him every time you cough or groan in pain. He wants nothing more than to cure you right now. He hates seeing you suffer from illness. You can expect him to keep you company for as long as necessary. He'll also bring whatever entertainment you want, long as it isn't too expensive. 

Again, if your conditions worsen he'll take you to a hospital. It's a smoother process getting in with him though. He also understands the concept of visiting hours, but best believe he's taking full advantage of them. He'll only leave your side if he has to and will be back the next morning.

Liu Kang 

He doesn't have an ability to detect disease but he does have impeccable intuition. Something just changes about you before you fall ill. He's not even sure how he predicted it, but sure enough you're bedridden a few days after his spidey senses tingle.

He tries not to be too worried about your cold. He hasn't crafted your destiny to be one where you die from disease. But, there are some externalities even he can't control being Keeper of Time. So, it's off to the Wu Shi's medbay with you!

The Fire God checks up on you regularly, but not as often as Raiden or Fujin. It's not that he cares less, but rather he understands boundaries more. You don't need him breathing down your neck while you're recovering or sleeping. He makes an effort to see you every day though, giving you updates of what's going on at the academy. 

If you're suffering from chills though at least you're in luck! He'll keep the room more than warm enough with his fire powers. It's like having a heated blanket around whenever he's in the medbay. At the same time, if you have a fever you may find his presence to be a little too warm. 

I believe if you don't get better he'd take you to a sorcerer skilled in healing. Luckily, there's a whole multiverse at his disposal so it's extremely easy for him to find someone to cure you. You won't die under his care. You're far too precious for him to lose.

Cetrion

Can detect your sickness way before symptoms show. Honestly, you probably wouldn't even realize you're sick before her magic heals you. With her around you don't have to worry about such mortal afflictions. 

If there was an illness that her powers couldn't heal… Well tbh you're probably going to die. But, I think it would leave her spiraling into a pit of worry beforehand. How did you get this disease? What can she do to help you? I think she'd try a lot of home remedies like the other characters here but doesn't have as much faith for it working. After all, no mortal medicine can surpass her powers as an Elder God.

If you pass away from this she'll likely just keep your soul in Heaven with her. If she's Keeper of Time she may just restart the Timeline. Although, I can't imagine it'd be too hard for her to just put your soul in a surrogate or artificial body. Regardless, she's not going to let an illness take you away from her. The consequences be damned.

Also, in a weird way I could see Cetrion getting you sick on purpose. Drugging whatever you eat/drink with just enough poison to make you lethargic and sleepy. Or manipulating the timeline so you're purposefully born with a weak body. It feeds her ego to take over a caregiver role for you. Having you completely dependent on her love and attention gives her a much needed dopamine boost. It's very unfortunate for you.

Overall… Probably the best person to have if you get sick. As long as she decides to heal you immediately of course.

Kronika

Is even more confused than her son about how you got sick. After all, she had you trapped in a pocket outside of time. Even if you caught a pathogen, it wouldn't be able to progress due to time being paused there. And not only that, you've been in there for far longer than the incubation time of any disease. Briefly, she wonders if your safety inside the bubble has been compromised. She dismisses that idea though. No… No one has the ability to tread that space without her permission. Not in her New Era.

Fortunately, she can just reverse the “age” of your body to before you got infected. She's reversed time on your body several times at this point, so she's not the least bit worried about doing so. A wave of her hands later and you're cured. And feeling a bit younger too.

Not much else to really say here. I doubt she would intentionally get you sick. Also with her being a Titan and succeeding against Liu Kang/Raiden in this timeline, the arc of history really does bend to her will. So basically -you're not getting sick on her watch.

[mncxbe]

Hi, it's my birthday next week, so may I please request Bram, Tetchou, Sigma and Ranpo celebrating their s/o's birthday with them (could be anything.. from headcanons to scenarios to oneshots and from fluff to smut, I don't mind)? No rush, take your time, please!

omg happy early birthday nonnie🎂 and ofc I loved writing these hcs hope u like it too. I was planning to do smth lengthier but I got caught up with work and couldn't buuut enjoy♡♡

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Spending your birthday with them♡

𝑩𝒓𝒂𝒎, 𝑺𝒊𝒈𝒎𝒂, 𝑻𝒆𝒄𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒖, 𝑹𝒂𝒏𝒑𝒐 𝒙 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓

𝑮𝒆𝒏𝒓𝒆: fluff♡

𝑩𝒓𝒂𝒎

"Ah, birthdays. I've had plenty of those"

he's not really sure how people celebrate anniversaries now, so he has to ask Aya about it

his original plan was to organize a big feast for you but he ends up making you dinner instead

if you want to have a party with your friends he'll agree to join, but he'd much rather spend time with you alone

in the evening the two of you would take a bath; with bubbles and candles and then just cuddle and watch a movie

Bram is especially gentle with you on your birthday and right before you go to bed he's gonna confess his love for you in the most old fashioned, romantic way possible. considering his status in the past I think he's highly educated so he knows his way with words

I see him gifting you jewelery

𝑻𝒆𝒄𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒖

Tecchou would ask you days before if you want to have any fancy party and would lowkey be relieved when you tell him that you only wanna spend your bday with him

due to his job he can't spend all day with you, but as soon as he gets home from work he hugs you and spins you around, wishing you happy birthday

then he takes you to a nice restaurant for dinner

he's the type to write you birthday letters and leave sticky notes with little heart shaped drawings around the house

Tecchou tries to bake you a cake and asks Jouno or Tachihara to taste it, but because he uses weird ingredients it turns out terrible so he just buys you a small cupcake instead

BIRTHDAY FLOWERS!!!💐💐

as for presents he gets you anything you want, really. if you're not willing to tell him what your heart desires too bad he's gonna contact all your friends and ask them what to get you

he cuddles you to sleep and tells you how much he loves you, how happy he is he got to spend another year with you♡

𝑺𝒊𝒈𝒎𝒂

Sigma would panic at first cuz he dosn't know what he's supposed to do for your birthday; he never celebrated his own so... yea

when he researches it on google and finds out he's supposed to get you a gift he freaks out again cuz he doesn't know what to get you

but eventually he ends up buying smth small like a plushie or books you've got on your reading list and a box of chocolates

he makes you a homemade birthday dinner and decorates the table with candles and flowers hhhh he's so romantic

now Sigma would be willing to get a little spicy with you if you want it; he doesn't mind it at all. you want bday sex? ok. but at the end of the day he still wants to cuddle you♡

in the evening he probably asks you what you usually do for your bday so he can be better prepared next year

I don't really see him being keen on big parties so he won't organize anything of the sort

𝑹𝒂𝒏𝒑𝒐

he wakes you up in the middle of the night like 1 a.m just to make sure he's the first one to wish you happy birthday

if you don't work for the Ada Ranpo would get a free day from work to spend time with you♡

and oh my if you know his colleagues he would throw you a small birthday party with them (Dazai's idea ofc)

baking a cake with Ranpo for your birthday is a must. Poe helps him do the shopping the day before so you've got all you need and of course, you end up doing most of the work while he just admires you and keeps sticking his fingers in the dough to "sample" it.

I don't think he'd get you a big gift tbh; he has the "what do you mean sugar? am I not enough of a gift for you?" mentality. he's also so much clingier than normally

now two words: birthday sex. this man is wakes you up with head and doesn't let you go to sleep in the evening until you've came at least two times.

Ranpo is usually lazy in bed but for your birthday he's willing to do all the work; after all, your special day is only once a year♡

[sky-is-the-limit]

It’s up to you, any kind tbh<3

Well, you're leaving it up to me so you know what that means...

🔞 NSFW headcanons ahead. More specifically,

Kinks I think Phillip Graves would have:

➳ Orgasm Play

Specifically denial. It would be his favourite activity on his days off. Why? Denying orgasm can be a profound way to build tension, make sex last longer, create and prolong desire. It would be his expertise, torturing you like that to have you beg and beg for him to let you finish.

It would feed the dominant Commander inside of him to watch you struggle and whimper while trying your hardest to convince him that you deserve it. "Only good girls get to cum, baby and you were nothing but a filthy slut tonight."

The mascara running down your cheeks along with hot tears, sweat forming on your skin like raindrops and your voice strained from pleading would only fuel him to do it more, again and again until he was satisfied enough with your efforts.

➳ Degradation

His favourite. Both verbal and physical. Yours too, don't deny it.

His Southern accent would be dripping like hot wax on your skin whenever he'd whisper against the shell of your ear pure filth, even in public settings. He would love to do it in a room full of people just to watch the goosebumps decorate your skin and desire pumping like hot blood visibly on your face.

"Who was that, huh? You can't help but act like a little slut to whoever gives you attention. Who do you belong to." His arrogance and ego would set off his jealousy quicker, wishing to put whatever man dared to make sweet eyes at you under the ground and teach you a lesson or two.

He would adore it if you played along, acting all helpless and eager for his touch “Treat me like the little whore I am, Commander.” He would drag your ass into the parking lot and fuck you against the side door, in plain sight.

His mouth would put the worst sinner to shame. "You dirty little whore, you love chocking on my cock, don't you? It's the only thing you're good for." His tone pure mockery for your fragile dignity and he'd love every second of corrupting it.

Physical degradation too. Having you on your knees for way too long or cumming all over your body and refusing to let you take a shower just to see his far you'd go for him.

➳ Impact Play

Phillip Graves would be a traditional man. Don't imagine whips or paddles with him, just his large, strong hands.

He would have a fascination with your ass, firmly grabbing it whenever you'd straddle his lap, playfully slapping it when you'd pass by in front of him and, oh, his favourite..

Discipline. "Actions have consequences. Now strip and bend over my knee, doll." In his office, in the living room, he wouldn't care. You defied him? Made him jealous or worried? He'd have you count out loud while spanking your behind so intensely that you'd feel the sensation for the next days to come.

➳ Restraints

Handcuffs would be his favourite. One tool, many positions. Cuffing your hands to your front or back to have you only use your mouth when sucking him off or binding you on the bed to restrict your movements whilst he'd fuck you merciless would be the most common.

It'd be another way for him to assert dominance and power over you, whether he'd be using softer materials or metal handcuffs and ropes, that would be judged by the environment or your behaviour.

If you were good for him, he'd cuff you to the bed bare naked and spend precious moments kissing all over your body, stimulating your sensitive areas and giving you pleasure after pleasure without you having to lift a finger.

If you were in need of discipline and a reminder of who's in charge, Graves would not just restrict your arms but legs as well to make the build up even more torturous and unbearable to break you down completely before using you as he sees fit.

➳ Power Exchange

He does it with his soldiers, he does it with his enemies, he does it with the world. What makes you think that you'd be an exempt?

For Graves it wouldn't be just a sign of respect but also one of his biggest turn ons. To be called 'sir' from your sweet lips and watch your attitude change entirely to please him and show submission? This man would be over the moon.

Call him by his rank and he'd make sure that you wouldn't be walking properly the next few days.

➳ Sensory Depravation

At its core, you're giving up control to another person and allowing them to take control. His favourite would be a blindfold, specifically his tie. Imagine him fully dressed in a suit, his white collar shirt undone at the top to show off his defined chest and the red silky tie that was decorating it now over your eyes.

When you’re blindfolded, all of your other senses become enhanced. Graves' touch on your skin more acutely, smells become more vibrant, and orgasms can even be more intense.

The arousal rushing through his veins would be enough to send him over the edge. Just sight of you fully naked on the bed, not knowing what his next move would be, your surprised sighs and gasps whenever he'd decide to touch you.

➳ Brat Taming

I'm a firm believer that this man was born to be just that. He would enjoy the bickering, the sarcastic remarks, the delusional idea that you could have the upper hand in any way with him and the journey to have you begging on your knees to be forgiven for your attitude.

He'd find it thrilling for you to attempt to disobey or question his dominance just to have it proven to you over and over again. All the playfulness, the cat and mouse play would fuel his passion and sex drive even more.

"Since you want to be a brat, tonight you will only speak when spoken to unless I tell you otherwise, you are going to learn to watch that little fucking mouth of yours, understand? Now come here and put it to a better use."

All the taunting, pushing boundaries, and really testing the Commander's limits in hope of causing a reaction would only unlock his filthiest fantasies and excitement.

"Oh, yeah? What’s the worst that can happen, Commander?" Oh, you have a long night ahead of you.

➳ Gun play

This would only work if you were under his command. It would start with you interrupting him when he's performing his sacred gun cleaning ritual. He'd have you sit on his lap and rub the head of his gun against your clit as though it was a harmless toy then force you to take it in your mouth and lick it clean.

The motions of your tongue sliding up and down, your lips wrapped around it without breaking eye contact would be enough to have him come undone in his pants.

Just the sight of you recieving pleasure from a weapon that took lives not so long ago would flip a switch in his brain chemistry, turn him into an animal and fuck you in a way that would guarantee you needing to be carried out of there.

[painted-bees]

I’m interested in Blood, Lipstick, and Strawberry for everyone! (Especially strawberry after Tess enters their lives)

Raf has no strong feelings either way. He knows he has a nice face and a charismatic personality to go with it. he has a bit of a complicated relationship with all that, but it doesn't occupy a lot of space in his brain--not in any direct manner. He does have a skincare routine that, from Margie's perspective, mostly just looks like part of his shaving routine. But he washes and moisturizes his face in the morning and before bed [and retinol], exfoliates a couple times a week during his showers, and is very particular about his razors, shaving cream, and aftershave products. Raf... really loves maintaining his well established rituals, and skincare is definitely one of them. It gives him a sense of control over his life.

Margie does....uh...none of this. Margie is lucky if she remembers to shower without having to be reminded. She thinks her face is too squat, that her forehead is too high, and that her lips and eyebrows are too thin...also that her eyes are too wide. She gets nervous over her perception that she looks wide-eyed and manic in photos, with her big, broad smile. She used to wear a lot thick, gothy eyeliner and lotsa lip balm on highschool--and then stopped applying makeup completely for years. Nowadays, she'll apply--no--Raf'll appy make-up for live shows and such...and sometimes she'll wear light makeup if she's feeling fancy on a sunny day...but by and large, she's pretty negligent haha

Cortes doesn't have to apply make-up! She can make her face look as dolled up or plain as she wants without external cosmetic supplies..! Also, she's ver content and pleased with her crafted appearance--even if it is kinda a half-assed construction. It does its job!

Raf and Margie are both kinda squeamish, but Raf is a lot more stoic about it. Neither of them are happy to see blood, neither of them want to look at that kind of thing.

I guess the worst either of them have had to deal with in this regard was when Margie sliced herself up real bad on an oyster bed and turned her hands and knees into ground beef for a while. Even after she received her stitches, she couldn't stand to look at them for long. Raf wasn't very comfy with it either, but someone had to keep them clean and dry and well cared for, and Margie couldn't use her hands for much of it--and so he took care of them for her. Squeamishness took the backseat to his desire to make sure she was healthy, clean, and healing up well.

Tess isn't squeamish at all. It's all just meat, and meat is delicious tbh. Nothing gross about any of that.

Margie and Raf are both kind of...Animist lite? agnostic, I suppose, is a good term for it. They understand that there are things beyond their understanding and things there are no answers for, and their spirituality sits in that space unique to each of them. They both perform superstitious rituals of respect to entities they're not fully sure exist in a capacity to appreciate it, and they don't do so consciously most of the time. Raf is more prone to these kinds of things than Margie, though. Margie, at most, will host very one-sided conversations with the wind that shut her bedroom door or such. Raf is prone to leave food and other small offerings out for things...incase those things are hungry. For no reason other than a sneaking suspicion that there is something present who might appreciate the guesture. An impulse on a hunch that he doesn't even really question.

Margie thinks it's very sweet.

Margie has a passive curiosity for things like tarot cards and astrology, but nothing very serious. She'll happily take any manner of good news from these sources, though.

Neither of them were raised by very religious parents. Raf, even less so than Margie. But Raf has had exposure to a lot of other cultural superstitions and such that Margie hadn't been exposed to, and this is perhaps why he takes it just a shade more seriously than she does.

Cortes is acutely aware of what exists and what doesn't. She has never encouraged or deterred the other two from their spiritually motivated mannerisms [or lack thereof].

♡♡♡ yisss thank you for sending these ones!! Q vQ!!!

[loststarphounix]

It's Gundham's birthday rn (it's 12am, December 14th in my timezone lmao)

and so, I decided to gift him the best thing I can offer atm:

✨ Kazuichi in lingerie ✨

Kazuichi comes home earlier than Gundham does, and so he has time to prepare his gift to him at home! The devas also joined him for his duties for the day so he won't have them to snitch on him, which is good-

Kazuichi's gift to him is his very own lover wearing the most beautiful lingerie he's seen. Don't ask Kazuichi where he got it, he just does- xD

Gundham comes home later a little after dark, and notices Kazuichi not on the couch waiting for him, which was odd. He goes upstairs and finds him on their bed wearing the pretty pink lingerie he got especially for his birthday~ >.<

( tbh this is just me using gundham's bday as an excuse to ramble about kazuichi in lingerie bc i personally love the idea LMAO )

Ah I feel bad cause I don’t have a fic ready for him, so this might have to do lol TW: pic of lingerie and hand job

Kaz got this lingerie thanks to Sonia 🤣

He asked her for help picking out something nice and she looked in square in the eye and said “say no more”. She actually bought several - nearly a baker dozen all varying in different colors and cuts and some even have faux fur lining. She went to town and they all fit like a glove lol

But the one he decides to wear, is a cute little light pink piece that fits snugly against his hips and chest, which is perfect because Gundham does like seeing Kazuichi’s masculine body incased in feminine clothing. And this is particularly feminine (spoiled caused slight risky photo)

So he has it on, feeling pretty cute and good about himself. He looks good and though the thigh straps were a bitch to get right, everything is just perfect. And to add the perfect touch, he puts on the custom made pleather dog collar Gundham had made, complete with a dog tag with Kazuichi’s name engraved snug against his neck.

He knows he make a pretty sight and desperately wants to take a picture for future use, but holds off because he can’t trust himself sending to his boyfriend and ruining the surprise 😏

When he hears the front door open, he feels nervous, it keeps his ass firmly planted on the bed and waits anxiously for the other to come into the bedroom.

“Paramour?”

“In here.” He calls, voice high and excited. “I have a surprise for you~”

And wow ok. Taking him a bit of a minute to get there. Could be his anxiety but it takes Gundham an eternity to get to their bedroom, but it’s worth it when he opens the door, talking about how some irritable parrot was refusing to eat or groom itself and stopping mid word as he took in Kazuichi, sitting in the middle of their bed, legs tucked in to push the strain of the thigh straps taunt against his skin and a gauzy dark pink short shift splay around him like some Disney princess.

Kazuichi is so proud of Gundham’s reaction, he wiggles a bit in excitement as the breeder continues to stare at him in a mix of surprise and desire and in a genius move, he shoulders the shift off, exposing his slightly tan shoulders and he could be seeing things but he swears the others nostrils flare as his eyes focus on the collar.

“You like it? Happy birthday baby-“ is all he can get out before he is suddenly pushed against the sheets and is silenced by the other kissing the soul outta him.

Gundham is just pawing at him, kneading his thighs; hands tugging at the bra to flick a nipple and a wide wicked tongue making a wet strip at the hollow of his throat. Kazuichi was already half hard and it takes no time at all for him to be full mast and he moans as those cold hands brush against his groin.

“My dear, you look delightful. Absolutely delectable.” Gundham growls and Kazuichi shivers cause holy shit he really likes it.

And Kazuichi preens at that, because fuck yeah he knows it. Gundham is just pulling more at the bra and has already pulled down the delicate fabric of the crotch panties, long fingers wrapping loosely around his length and his arches his back on the bed. Something rends in the air and it barely phases him as he thrusts into that pale hand.

“I find that you will enjoy me unwrapping my present fare than I will.” Gundham rumbles I’m part amusement and part hunger as he speeds up his hand slightly.

“Nigh ~ Never know until you do.” He replies with a toothy grin that immediately crumbles as he rides out his orgasm.

“Indeed.” And he watches in semi conscious bliss as pulls away to quickly remove his clothes.

And yeah, this gift was a great idea.

[justajsworkshop]

You've mentioned meditation in your posts a couple times and I was wondering what meditation is for you? Like what do you do and what your intentions are? Also any tips would be much appreciated! Thanks

oh, this is a good question. thank you! tbh, i'm like... the laziest meditator ever. lmao. mostly because if i get too caught up in the technique, i'm overly fixated on "doing it right" over just being. so i'm all about having as few conditions as possible. basically, the total opposite of zen buddhism.

these days, i just lie in bed with the intention to tap into the void state. it's not even something i always consciously think/affirm at this point. i just know that's an experience i desire to have, and it will be given to me.

sometimes i listen to a sub. sometimes just brown noise. sometimes music. i like having my headphones in because it gives me something to focus on. i just listen to whatever the audio is while not getting super caught up in all the mental activity going on.

if i feel like it, i'll affirm. if not, i just let my mind wander, and i watch what's happening inside my mind, like clouds floating by. sometimes i'll observe my breathing... other times not. sometimes i'll affirm for other stuff because i'm just there and chillin... other times not.

i know it's not a very helpful answer in the sense of "here's step 1, 2, and 3." but i really just focus on being present and doing what feels good at that time. every moment is new. every meditation is different. so, i found the less emphasis i put on "doing it the 'right' way", the more i could allow myself to discover what "the right way" was for me, and that changes moment to moment, meditation to meditation.

yes, i absolutely drift in and out of sleep, and i do not care. i don't judge it as being unfocused or undisciplined. tbh, i used to have the most atrocious insomnia, so i would gladly take any moments of sleep. i've since manifested myself significantly better sleep, but i still don't mind if i fall asleep when meditating now.

i think my biggest tip to just suspend judgment of your experience and to instead just experience it. like i said in my recent post, resist nothing. don't resist the thoughts, the sensations in your body, the narrative you're spinning around it. resist nothing, allow everything. and you'll see how it's all temporary, and it all passes through you, but you are still there. this is how you center yourself as your true beingness over the ever-changing thoughts, feelings, sensations in the body/physical mind.

just chill. just watch. just be.

[ruewrites]

Kinktober 2022 Day 27: Prostitution

AO3

Ship: Asmodeus/Diavolo

Word Count: 1007

Warnings: Smut

A/N: I have been so excited to write this one. Tbh I crave more Asmodeus/Diavolo in my life.

It was that time of year, and the need to take the edge off was starting to become unbearable. All of the lust demons had been excitedly flitting around, ready to not only have their fun but also line their pockets with a bit of extra cash. Extra cash meant new clothes and longer hours spent at The Fall. Of course their own desires had a part to play, but it also assisted in more success in getting others to desire them. Not to mention, requests were a nice ego boost regardless of whether they were in person or online.

Asmo had many requests, so many that he had to put a limit on how many in person requests he accepted and with who. He was picky, and only his most trusted clients got him in the flesh this time of year. After all, just because the Avatar of Lust was paid for didn’t mean he accepted just any treatment, and that was something some demons just didn’t seem to understand. 

Everyone was crawling, and everyone was begging. After all, the season didn’t spare a denizen.

And of course, the future demon king would only get the best of the best. 

Asmo flopped back onto the giant bed, rolling from one side to the other, like a cat unsure of what position they'd like to relax in yet. All the while, he was more than aware of his lord's eyes on him. Diavolo was a kind man, and a large man. Asmo would be lying if he said he hadn't been absolutely giddy when the future demon king sent him an offer over Devmo.It wasn’t like he hadn’t been expecting it, but the notification still made him scramble to his phone. He could always change his mind, but why would he? Asmo knew he was the prince’s favorite little lust demon, and he had a wonderful personality (among other things). Not only would he be able to buy that new outfit he'd been eyeing, but he could buy out ten whole stores if he wanted too! 

Asmo always got offers around this time of year, and it wasn't his first time with wealthier demons, but it still made him giddy seeing the amount and the name of someone he trusted on his screen.  Speaking of Diavolo-

A small trill left Asmo as two large hands caged him in on either side.  The prince was trying to keep himself composed, but Asmo knew better. He could see the hardness straining against his thigh. He was being polite, for now, but Asmo would get him to unravel soon enough.

"You look very tempting right now."

The words caught in his throat, and Asmo couldn't help but grin. 

"Do I?" he asked innocently. He couldn't help but laugh as the way Diavolo's pupils widened. Asmo was in control now, every card was in his hand. "Don't worry my lord, you'll be getting a taste, it's what you're paying for after all." 

"I'm paying for more than a taste," Diavolo frowned as Asmo slipped out from between his arms. 

He walked over to the bag he brought with him and started to go through it, laying each item out for the prince to peruse.  

"You certainly are," and if it were any other time Asmo would have let this man fuck him for free, "And I'm going to make sure you get your money's worth."

He watched as Diavolo's eyes scanned carefully over the items. Based on his reactions Asmo could craft the perfect experience for him, and they were both going to get their fill. Some of the items he lingered on were a surprise to Asmo, and others were completely unexpected. Whatever the case, Diavolo was his customer today, and he was going to get exactly what he paid for. 

***

Legs shaking and covered in cum, Asmo let out another whine as Diavolo thrust into him yet again. His back ached delightfully so from remaining arched for so long. His front was pressed down into the plush mattress below him. Those large hands gripped at his hips and every touch felt like fire against his skin. One hand snaked down in between his legs to touch and grope at anything he could. Diavolo was a large man, and his length left no part of Asmo untouched. His thrusts carried the perfect amount of force and left Asmodeus in a state of nothing but bliss. His breath hitched once more as the demon prince licked a stripe up his neck. 

"You feel wonderful," he groaned, "I am impressed you can take me, tiny as you are."

"That's what you wanted right?" Asmo purred. A sharp gasp left him, "You picked me because I'm so cute and tiny, and you wanted to breed me with that giant-"

Asmo let out another squeal as Diavolo hit  a particularly delicious spot within him. He squeezed around the demon prince as another load filled him once more. His legs were shaking once again, but that was fine, he didn't need to use them anyways. Diavolo lifted him without issue, and the next thing Asmo knew, he was straddling Diavolo's hips, both of them repositioned on the bed.

"I want to see how I fill you from this angle," the demon prince growled, pressing a hand against his abdomen.

Asmo couldn't help but let out a whimper. He felt amazing. Being a favorite had perks, and Asmo wanted to continue to stay in favor. Walking wasn’t going to be possible for days, and he’d get a free pass from attending classes while he recovered since it was the prince himself who was the cause of his ailment. Like many royals, Lord Diavolo took care of his favorite little playmates, and Asmodeus was one of his favorites, if not his top choice. He would be fed in the morning too and given as much care as he needed. The payment was nice, but to receive pleasure along with it? Now that was his real reward.

[uhgood-girl]

people are having a lot of interpretations on the line jk used in his apple music interview my views were different but messed not clear when he said I will never cross the lines with armys which a singer or artist should maintain everyone taken it as he is saying he will not use them for his benefit, sexual desires, hook up nd all crap they assumed but I don't think he want to say that can u please explain ur point of view not share it please.

hi anon, i hope you can forgive that i'm not sure how to answer this without sharing it? maybe i was supposed to post about it unprompted but to be perfectly honest, the quote in question didn't stick out to me at all before this.

i personally haven't seen any discourse over it either and am confused as to why there would be any as it seems within the lines of the normal boundary setting most of the members have done at some point or another to me.

but to be fair to you and this ask, i went back and watched it again just to make sure i didn't miss anything. the section being discussed starts around 26:13 and ends around 27:40 and in summary the interviewer asks jk about the special relationship bts have with army, how unique and symbiotic it is and what is jk's favorite part about this dynamic. jk answers that he agrees it's very special and how it's important to him personally to continue to try and have "authentic and comfortable" convos with army that show a real version of him. he adds the disclaimer that he knows that there's a line that shouldn't be crossed between performer and audience and he won't cross it but he wants to be our "friend" as much as he can.

so, do i think the "line" he has no intention of crossing here refers to not using army for his benefit/sexual desires/hook ups? uh, no, i'm with you anon, i don't think that's what he meant at all. but not because that line doesn't exist for him, i think it does, but like, that goes without saying, right? assuming jk is a decent human being who would never use his fame or money to unfairly take advantage of anyone, which is something i hope we're all on the same page about here as i don't know why anyone would ever willingly be a fan of someone they thought with high probability would do such a thing, would that not be saying the quiet part out loud? is there some group of genuinely delusional y/n's in a foxhole some where needing this spelled out still? (rhetorical, please don't make me think about saesangs today)

i put quotations around the word "friend" up there because at the end of the day, there will always be a (needed) barrier between idol/artist/performer and fan and jk can't really be our friend in the true sense of the word, which he's aware of. the nature of this type of relationship as a whole already maintains a weird, fluctuating power imbalance between both parties as one cannot exist without the other and you won't get very far, on the artist side of things especially, without understanding this.

but jk has kind of, sort of already crossed some "lines" with us in how willing he has been to show and share so much of himself with us, over the last year, in particular. in case you just fell off the turnip truck yesterday, as my very southern grandmother would say, getting to witness someone as famous and untouchable as jk chilling in real time in their home and bed even, is highly unusual. most celebrities with that level of status wouldn't be caught dead sharing something like that and understandably so, tbh, as most fans couldn't handle that level of intimacy with their idol. hell, a lot of people who consider themselves fans these days apparently can't handle it either, which makes me very sad and tbh how dare you potentially ruin the trust so many of us have spent years building up with them. rude. taking things for granted is how you lose them and the special relationship bts and army share only stays special with effort, but i digress.

i think jk's disclaimer here was an assurance that he's very aware of what he has chosen to share could be perceived by some as having already gone too far but that his boundaries are still firmly in place. "authentic and comfortable" are a priority to him but he's not going to exceed our shared comfort zone. he may be a lot more candid than some, say seokjin, who may as well be an international man of mystery for as much as he's willing to show off the clock in comparison, but jk knows what he's doing. and considering how young he started and how long he's been in the spotlight, he seems exceptionally well adjusted and savvy overall at navigating these extremely tumultuous waters, imo.

anyway, respect your artists as human beings and know your own fan boundaries, folks. there's always some nuance to be had, especially on a site like this where it's a mostly contained bubble for us, the audience, to throw around our fiction and theories and odes to how beautiful they all are but when you leave this space with any of that (minus the odes, maybe) and put it in front of these very real people in question, you've gone too far. don't be that asshole. everyone despises that asshole. (including said artists! they're never going to say it that frankly but i will ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

[goldxnfemme]

tips for reading more frequently and managing time for it? I admire how much you read and love looking through your book tag. I've also just started Persistent Desire: A Femme-Butch Reader! how did you like it? I'm really enjoying it so far

Mostly anxiety tbh, I've been digging deep into a couple psychology books and I'm just so stressed out 🙃 but I found that being able to get audiobooks to listen to while I read really helps keep me focused on the book, that's how I got so far into rereading the locked tomb (I'm halfway through Harrow now, took a bit of a break, got distracted listening to the Nona audiobook), so if you're able to get that, I'd definitely recommend it. Also reading one chapter before bed each day, or just overall one chapter a day whenever you get the time, I'm kinda big on setting goals for my day/week when I have time or letting it consume me when I have time too, sometimes I get stuck reading lol

Make it a comfortable time for you! For me, getting a Kindle was seriously the biggest factor in me reading more, because I get really impatient and really uncomfortable having to shift position to hold a book and turning the pages, my wrist is really fucked up and it gets tiring and painful for my wrist and back when reading a physical book and having a Kindle has made it so so so much easier, I can take it anywhere and all my books are there and the case helps it stand by itself and I'm honestly really happy I was able to get it. But even before that, just reading on my phone was still easier but maybe it's just my disabled body influencing this , point is, find the most comfortable way for you to read, make it enjoyable, a relaxing experience, not an uncomfortable one. It took me a really long time to admit that my body was in the way of me reading the traditional way, but once I admitted that and found a better way to accommodate myself, that really helped me read more

But yeah I'm sorry I don't have a lot of good tips for reading, I'm kind of chaotic with that. If my followers do, please add here ♥️

I'm glad you like the tag!🥰 also you remind me, I badly need to update my book tag. Oh, that's one of my favourite books about butch/femme history, I loved reading it, I'm really interested in knowing more about butch/femme history and the changing contexts of our community and that book does a really good job of that, specially because it has so many different contributors and perspectives, but my favourite so far still is Butch is a Noun by S. Bear Bergman, though I'm really enjoying My Lesbian Husband by Barrie Jean Borich, definitely do recommend (uh, all of these are in the drive that I have in my book tag that I'll put here too if you want to check it out)

Tldr.: Uh, audiobooks to listen while you read, setting goals for your day/week of reading - do achievable, specific, objective goals, start light just any reading is already amazing -, make it a comfortable time for you, it could be if you're able to get a Kindle/read on your phone or just finding a nice place to read etc/accommodate yourself physically if possible, because it can be a bit taxing physically unfortunately

Tldr.2: Bella displaying neurodivergency, heavy on the ADHD, and physical disabilities

[caracarnn]

‘✩’ - dreamteam

ship meme thing - @luckhissoul / @agoldenlily

Disagreements: Who is more likely to raise their voice? Elayne Who threatens to leave but never actually does? Mat Who actually keeps their word and leaves? NONE Who trashes the house? none of them Do either of them get physical? no! not at all How often do they argue/disagree? they disagree often but it's never taken too seriously esp after a couple of days Who is the first to apologise? Rand would be

Sex: Who is on top? it switches but usually Rand Who is on the bottom? see above Who has the strangest desires? it's all experimenting together Any kinks? see above Who’s dominant in bed? Rand but Elayne is very demanding Is head ever in the equation? always If so, who is better at performing it? Mat? Ever had sex in public? nope I don't think so Who moans the most? Elayne Who leaves the most marks? none of them Who screams the loudest? n/a Who is the more experienced of the two? Mat is Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? they do a bit of everything Rough or soft? both! How long do they usually last? they try to make it last LONG ok Is protection used? sometimes other times nOPE oops Does it ever get boring? never! Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? uhmmm idk a small hut in the mountains but that's not really STRANGE

Family: Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? IT WASN'T PLANNED If so, how many children do your muses want/have? no plans Who is the favorite parent? Mat Who is the authoritative parent? Rand Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Mat Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Elayne and Mat Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? usually Rand or Elayne Who goes to parent teacher interviews? same as above Who changes the diapers? Elayne says they should take turns Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? take turns Who spends the most time with the children? all of them Who packs their lunch boxes? idk ? Rand Who gives their children ‘the talk’? Rand. Mat tries but he's terrible at it haha Who cleans up after the kids? Rand would Who worries the most? Rand Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Mat and Elayne

Affection: Who likes to cuddle? they all enjoy it but Elayne insists on it Who is the little spoon? none of them. usually they just crowd around each other Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? Elayne lol Who struggles to keep their hands to themself? Mat How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? NO BEING UNCOMFORTABLE Who gives the most kisses? Elayne What is their favourite non-sexual activity? spending time together. finding some peace tbh. Where is their favourite place to cuddle? in bed! Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? Mat does How often do they get time to themselves? as much as they can find

Sleeping: Who snores? If both do, who snores the loudest? Mat LIGHTLY snores or so Elayne insists Do they share a bed or sleep separately? they share whenever they're together If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? COZY UP it's that or death Who talks in their sleep? none of them Are either of your muses insomniacs? yes Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? not in these times Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? they all hold each other. it's a habit Who wakes up with bed hair? she does do you see all of that hair? Who wakes up first? Rand does Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? Elayne would or Rand What is their favourite sleeping position? one on either side of the other tbh Who hogs the sheets? Mat does Do they set an alarm each night? Nope. Can a television be found in their bedroom? n/a Who has nightmares? Rand has too many ew Who has ridiculous dreams? Elayne actually wait Mat might Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? Rand Who makes the bed? Elayne does What time is bed time? they don't have a set one Any routines/rituals before bed? they spend time together and then fall into bed and then eventually they fall asleep Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Mat

Work: Who is the busiest? they all are Who rakes in the highest income? they all make tons of money Are any of your muses unemployed? no Who takes the most sick days? Mat says he does but probs not Who is more likely to turn up late to work? none Who sucks up to their boss? I don't think they have bosses? What are their jobs? General / Queen / Dragon Who stresses the most? so much stress between them three Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? Mat and Rand have this in common Are your muses financially stable? yes

Home: Who does the washing? in the mountains? probably Elayne Who takes out the trash? Mat Who does the ironing? Elayne Who does the cooking? Rand or Elayne Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? Mat lmao Who is messier? Mat Who leaves the toilet roll empty? neither Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? Mat and Rand of course Who forgets to flush the toilet? neither Who is the prankster around the house? Mat. oh god Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? n/a Who mows the lawn? n/a Who answers the telephone? n/a Who does the vacuuming? n/a Who does the groceries? all three of them Who takes the longest to shower? Mat does. he takes too long wtf Who spends the most time in the bathroom? Mat! fml

Miscellaneous: Is money a problem? nope How many cars do they own? they have horses ok beautiful horses. Do they own their home or do they rent? own Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? they have a secret place in the mountains Do they live in the city or in the country? see above Do they enjoy their surroundings? always when they're together What’s their song? take on the world ; you me at six What do they do when they’re away from each other? be a general. be a queen. be the dragon Where did they first meet? Mat and Rand grew up together and they met Elayne in Caemlyn Who spends the most money when out shopping? Mat or Elayne but Mat says NOPE Who’s more likely to flash their assets? they all do lmao Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? Mat Any mental issues? Mat and Rand have quite a few tbh. Elayne is far more stable. Who’s terrified of bugs? none? Who kills the spiders around the house? Mat Their favourite place? together. wherever they're together Who pays the bills? money isn't something they think about anymore Do they have any fears for their future? there are so many worries for the future. theirs and the worlds let's be honest here Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? Elayne does this Who uses up all of the hot water? Mat does fml and Elayne whines that she has to heat it up Who’s the tallest? RAND Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? they do this to each other ok Who wanders around in their underwear? Mat does this too much fml get some clothes, sir Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? Mat ugh sometimes they're like BRO STOP IT What do they tease each other about? they are always teasing each other about something too often lol Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? NONE OF THEM DO THIS because they're all fashion icons lol Do they have mutual friends? yes most of their friends are mutual Who crushed first? it was pretty mutual Any alcohol or substance related problems? Mat has a problem ok Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? Mat does ugh Who swears the most? Mat says it's him but it's really Elayne because she will say ANYTHING

[twistedhxart]

‘✩’ //i know we haven't been rping dev/lian but i miss them

Who is more likely to raise their voice? - I think neither of them would. They both seem to be so very very calm Who threatens to leave but never actually does? - I can't see how either of them would have an argument like this. And if it came to leaving, they would have to talk about it first Who actually keeps their word and leaves? - See above Who trashes the house? - I think they're both very clean and tidy up everything together. If it came to Lian unleashing the demon inside, it would probably be him lol Do either of them get physical? - Never. At least not intentionally How often do they argue/disagree? - I can't see them arguing tbh. At least not now. Maybe it comes to some arguments in the future? Who is the first to apologise? - Lian! Oh no, Devlin! Damn Idk haha

Sex:

Who is on top? - Devlin Who is on the bottom? - Obviously Lian then Who has the strangest desires? - I don't know if you could call it "strange" but maybe Devlin sometimes has some... kinky desires? Any kinks? - That remains to be seen ;) Who’s dominant in bed? - I think this would be Devlin, although I'm not sure if he's THAT dominant Is head ever in the equation? - Sure If so, who is better at performing it? - Maybe Devlin bc he's... older and therefore more experienced? Ever had sex in public? - No Who moans the most? - Lian haha Who leaves the most marks? - Devlin possibly? Who screams the loudest? - So far, no one has made the other one scream, but that remains to be seen ;D Who is the more experienced of the two? - Devlin I guess? Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? - Make love! Rough or soft? - Soft, soft, soft How long do they usually last? - I have the feeling that they are taking their time, savoring everything ♥ Is protection used? - Not that I know of. Does it ever get boring? - Don't think so Where is the strangest place they’d have sex?  - No strange places tried yet ;)

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? - No If so, how many children do your muses want/have? Who is the favorite parent? Who is the authoritative parent? Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? Who goes to parent teacher interviews? Who changes the diapers? Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? Who spends the most time with the children? Who packs their lunch boxes? Who gives their children ‘the talk’? Who cleans up after the kids? Who worries the most? Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from?

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? - BOTH Who is the little spoon? - They can take turns, but I think Lian would prefer to be the little spoon ♥ Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? They're both certainly very good at holding back, but still, I see that tendency more in Devlin than Lian Who struggles to keep their hands to themself? - / How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? - They have a loooooong cuddle span Who gives the most kisses? - Lian What is their favourite non-sexual activity? - I see them still going to the gym and working out together. Devlin can show Lian more new tricks and moves or Lian can rest by sitting on Devlin's back while Devlin does push-ups haha Where is their favourite place to cuddle? - On the couch while watching some stuff on TV ♥ Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? - Devlin haha How often do they get time to themselves? - They try to spend as much time together as possible. But sometimes they both have to work, so their only option is to spend the evening together

Sleeping:

Who snores? - Lian doesn't, but does Devlin? :D If both do, who snores the loudest? - / Do they share a bed or sleep separately? - Sharing is caring! ♥ If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? - Of course they are not laying far apart, helloooo?? Who talks in their sleep? - I think they both sometimes do What do they wear to bed? - Lian usually wears a shirt and long or short pajama pants. Maybe Devlin only wears pants? Or maybe nothing at all? :D Are either of your muses insomniacs? - Lian isn't, I'm not sure about Devlin Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? - Not on Lian's side of the bed Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? - If they are extra cuddly limbs are involved :3 Who wakes up with bed hair? - Definitely Lian. He just has the longest of hairs haha Who wakes up first? - Lian usually wakes up early but can definitely sleep a little longer when he's not alone. So maybe Devlin? Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? - Devlin ♥ What is their favourite sleeping position? - Face to face right close to each another or Lian sleeps on Devlin's chest being hold tight aww Who hogs the sheets? - They share :3 Do they set an alarm each night? - It depends on whether and how early they have to get up the next morning. If they have to go to work, they set an alarm in any case Can a television be found in their bedroom? - No Who has nightmares? - I think both have ;-; Who has ridiculous dreams? - Everyone has ridiculous dreams from time to time, right? Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? - Devlin maybe? He's big boy :D Who makes the bed? - Both! What time is bed time? - Again, it depends on whether they have to get up early the next day. But I don't think either of them go to bed too late Any routines/rituals before bed? - None that I know of (atm) Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? - Lian isn't but maybe Devlin? :D

Work:

Who is the busiest? - I think they are both busy so I don't see one of them being busier than the other Who rakes in the highest income? - Devlin probably Are any of your muses unemployed? - No Who takes the most sick days? - I have the feeling that they hardly ever get sick or take sick days just like that. I even think they would still go to work sick <_< Who is more likely to turn up late to work? - Probably both when they got too involved in each other? *smirky smirk face* Who sucks up to their boss? - Neither of them does What are their jobs? Lian is working in a coffee shop and I think Devlin's a paid warrior and does have different clients? :D Who stresses the most? - Lian probably since working in a coffee shop can be v stressful? Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? - Lian does it mostly for the mon mon and Devlin kinda enjoys what he is doing I think? Are your muses financially stable? - I think they are

Home:

Who does the washing? - Devlin Who takes out the trash? - Lian Who does the ironing? - WHO IRONS THESE DAYS?? Who does the cooking? - Lian Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? - Lian can cook very well but I'm not sure about Devlin haha Who is messier? - / Who leaves the toilet roll empty? - Lian when he's lost in thought Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? - Devlin? Bc he does the washing and therefore can just pick up his clothes when it's time to do so? Who forgets to flush the toilet? - / Who is the prankster around the house? - / Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? - Devlin? Bc Lian can't drive haha Who mows the lawn? - Devlin Who answers the telephone? - Devlin Who does the vacuuming? - Lian Who does the groceries? - Both! Who takes the longest to shower? - They both take long when they decide to go shower together ;) Who spends the most time in the bathroom? - They are both v quick when it comes to cleaning themselves and stuff

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? - No How many cars do they own? - One? If Devlin owns a car Do they own their home or do they rent? - They haven't decided yet :D Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? - It depends on what Devlin prefers. Lian is rather the countryside type of guy Do they live in the city or in the country? - If they can manage somehow they live in the country Do they enjoy their surroundings? - Yesssss What’s their song? - OH! I haven't thought about a song for them yet but let me think about it! What do they do when they’re away from each other? - Texting each other even tho Lian's not very skilled when it comes to smartphones Where did they first meet? - In Lian's house when it was about to crash lol How did they first meet? - Devlin saved him from his crashed apartment and told him that he is his assigned advisor ♥ Who spends the most money when out shopping? - Probably Devlin... for Lian aww. He's the kind of guy who likes to give gifts to his loved ones Who’s more likely to flash their assets? - I think they're both very modest, so I can't imagine it with either of them Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? - THEY WILL IMMEDIATELY RUNS FOR THE OTHERS RESCUE AND WORRY IF THEY HURT THEMSELVES ;-; Any mental issues? - They both definitely have mental issues ;/ Who’s terrified of bugs? - / Who kills the spiders around the house? - They don't kill, they set them outside bc they're kind hoomans Their favourite place? - Probably at home and somewhere in nature. Together ♥ Who pays the bills? - Devlin? Bc he has the higher income? But while Devlin pays the rent, for example, Lian pays for the groceries Do they have any fears for their future? - I think so, because nobody knows what will happen when Lian one day regains access to the world where he actually belongs and where his family lives. But they don't think too much about it and try to live in the moment Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? - Devlin with a fancy dinner out in a restaurant and Lian with a fancy dinner at home ♥ Who uses up all of the hot water? - / Who’s the tallest? - Devlin I guess Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? - Devlin haha Who wanders around in their underwear? - Also Dev! Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? - Does Devlin sing? Bc Lian usually doesn't haha What do they tease each other about? - / Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? - / Do they have mutual friends? - Not that I know of Who crushed first? - I think they both had a v BIG crush on each other! Any alcohol or substance related problems? - No Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? - / Who swears the most? - /

[songliili]

OOOOH LILI!!! tell me about “your body is the sistine chapel” wip!!

oh boy am i glad you asked about this! it's gonna be long so bare with me.

it's a known thing by now that dean was supposed to be tattoed and a smoker from ep one of spn, but the budget was too low for fake tattoes so we didn't get that.

it always felt stupid to me cause like they could've made his tattooes hidden by his clothes! like have him in a shirtless shot in ep one (there's the occasion too, when he washes up after being covered in mud, just have him putting his layers on!) and then call it a day until the next time you have to write him shirtless. and then as the show progresses and gets more money maybe add some tats to his forearms, since those are the only thing we see often enough (there's not many shirtless scenes, or even in short sleeves tbh!)

so one day i think two years ago now? i went on a whole rant about this and came up with a timeline for which tats dean winchester would get. at first he'd get them in placese easily hidden so that john doesn't know, but then there's a injury in one of those parts and john finds out, so he starts getting them in other places too, but still hidden (no arms), and then after john dies he gets some there too.

i have a super detalied spreadsheet with placement, meaning, and age for each tattoo, this image for the visual of where in his body every tattoo that i came up with is placed. (yes, the yellow dots are tattoos too)

and this fic has the lines that i am most proud of, i think i'll never write something as good as these words and i am very okay with it.

Years later, when he's in bed with Cas, his head resting over the moth and his hand tracing the anti-possession tattoo lines, basking in the after sex glow, he asks the angel.  "Did you take care of my tattoos when you rebuilt me?"  "Of course, Dean." "Why?"  Castiel stays silent for a while, and Dean thinks he won’t get a reply. Then, Castiel gets up on his elbow, to look Dean in the eyes. He stares back, his hand caressing his lover’s arm. "When I held your soul I could see its beauty, I could see why they called you the Righteous Man,” the angel’s hand slides across Dean’s chest, resting it over the mark he left all those years ago, “but when I saw your body I was… in awe. You decided to decorate your skin with beautiful art, to honor the people you loved with it. You treat your body as a weapon, but your body is the Sistine Chapel. It is a place of worship, and you graced me with the privilege to do so.” Dean ducks his head, trying to hide, but Castiel has other plans; he sits up and grabs the hunter’s face with both hands, keeping their eyes locked. Castiel's eyes are shining with tears, but he's smiling, he's happy and Dean can only see love swimming in the sea of the angel's eyes. “I didn’t know this at the time; what moved me to restore your frescoes was the desire to keep you whole, to celebrate the artists who you entrusted with painting your walls forever. I was and will always be your curator.” Dean cries and can only kiss him, his beautiful angel. The day after, he adds new ink to his skin.

i don't have much more written and i still need to figure out some designs for some tats, but i'm going to try and post this for dean's birthday on the 24th of this month. we'll see what happens, but i really hope i manage, cause i love this fic so much and i don't want to let it rot in my folder forever.

WIP tag game

[we-pay-for-everything]

I'm only an episode away from finishing season 1 of Kung Fu (don't get the title tbh), but I really have to vent about it, even though I'm very sleepy and should be going to bed... Soooo, a few things:

The show is obviously very cheesy sometimes. What bothers me the most is that it tries to tackle real life issues such as sinophobia, BLM, sexual abuse, etc. but offers fairytale-like solutions that don't do those issues justice and even undermine them to some extent. For example, Nicky prevented Joe from getting arrested at a BLM protest by standing up to the cops, prompting everyone else to do the same. So, you're telling me the police just backed off because a bunch of black and Asian-American protesters stood up to them? How about when she saved a girl and her mother from an abuser by, again, standing up to the guy (and kicking ass)? The show even made mention of programs to help women like them. Counting on the American government to help anyone is pretty risky, especially the most vulnerable. The show is obviously not pro-police, but it also isn't as anti-police/authority/capitalism as it should be. If the goal is to educate people and bring attention to such huge issues in society, you can't offer up bullshit, Disney-like solutions - that's just misleading your audience. The writing is completely on the nose and cliché when it comes to this.

Actually, the writing is pretty inelegant overall and lacks direction. The writers want to avoid falling into certain clichés and attempt to put a twist on some tropes, but the delivery is so predictable. For example, the "love triangle", it was obvious from the beginning that they were going to work that in, but it was equally obvious how it was going to unfold. Love triangles are so overdone and the writers seemingly wanted to stay clear of that kind of drama, so why make it a thing to begin with? If you don't want a love triangle and aren't willing to explore both relationships, just don't add the character of the ex - it was so unnecessary and unsatisfying. I prefer Evan so that annoyed me, but I don't care about Nicky and Henry for a lot of reasons. They're cute, but they were pretty much a couple from day 1. Their story unfolded in a rather predictable manner and the power couple angle imo only works if you actually care about the couple. Was I supposed to care about how badass they were only two episodes into the show, when I didn't care about any of the characters yet?

What the show does best imo, and quite well at that, is the lore and mythology of it all. It's fun when Nicky goes on an adventures and any time Zhilan shows up.

Zhilan, to me, is the most nuanced and interesting character on the show alongside Mei-Li (they're also the best actresses imo, especially the actress who plays Nicky's mom). I like it when the show explores these characters and their strengths, vulnerabilities, and how their fears and desires drive their actions and lead them to make the wrong choices. I could say a lot about Zhilan. I think she's the most fleshed-out character. It's very easy to understand where she comes from and to relate to her... That leads me to the reason I had to write this post:

Zhilan and Kerwin... Stop killing my ships! I knew from the moment Kerwin killed someone for Zhilan that he was either going to be killed/die in front of her - forcing her to grow even more cruel and determined to reach her goals - or she was going to choose power over him and let him die or kill him herself. This was so obviously going to happen that it was even more upsetting and disappointing when it did. The writers hit gold with those two. They had great chemistry, they were similar, they were fun. They were an actual power couple that was fun and exciting to watch because it felt earned. We saw them falling for each other and overcoming their fears to be together - in Zhilan's case it was trusting someone, and in Kerwin's it was loving someone more than he feared his family. I absolutely understand that Zhilan loved Kerwin but was scared for herself - she was scared of losing sight of her goals, scared to fully trust Kerwin, scared of the changes she saw in herself. All she had was herself and the thought of losing that was terrifying. Loving someone changes you and she was scared of becoming someone she didn't fully control or understand. She was scared of trusting someone completely too, especially a Tan, but I think the fact that Kerwin was a Tan didn't even matter as much as it was a reminder of everything she'd lost. From her perspective, she lived alone for decades so she wasn't scared of being without him - it was actually the opposite. So yeah, I get why she killed him, but wouldn't it have been better if she hadn't? What if she trusted him instead? What if they were a power couple? Loving someone wouldn't have made her any less evil. It's boring that Nicky is good so she trusted Henry but Zhilan is bad so she couldn't trust Kerwin. She still could've..? That would've been funner and opened up many exciting avenues for her character. How do you write a villain with trust issues who's in love and wants to have it all - revenge and romance - but the guy is kind of the enemy? He wants all of her and is willing to accept he can't have it, but can she change and do better? Can she change and grow while remaining the villain and not being redeemed? We could've had it all: a good villain with a compelling backstory and an exciting romance!!

TL;DR: I loved that couple a lot and their scenes were the ones I actually 100% paid attention to. Now that Kerwin is gone, I guess I don't have to worry about being invested in the show. I can go back to only half-watching it. I had my romance and now it's over. I like Zhilian less too. I know a strong, evil woman like herself can't have a boyfriend so they're going to pretend like she was never in love.

Also, I don't know if this will happen, but from the beginning I also had the feeling Evan wasn't going to last long. When Nicky figured out who she wanted, he would be kicked to the curb and leave the show. Still feel like that might happen...

Anyway, the show is good and has (had) a lot of potential, but some of the writers' ideas need a better execution or follow-up