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creature-from-unknown-orgins · 1 year

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Shoutout to fidgettoys for being the only thing to make my brain go quiet

#it has been going off all day and then I sat down with a figdgettoy for 10 minutes and I had the best time ever #I love popping bubbles back and forth (unironicaly)#possible neurodivergency :)#but nobody knows #my brain do be just quirky #I love rambling in tags #fidget toys #fr fr

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moghedien · 8 months

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i swear if you people start uwuifying OCD like you did with ADHD and autism I'm going to start attacking

#the general idea of what OCD is already so fucking wrong and harmful #if you start being like 'oh my little meow meow is so OCD' or 'its not a disorder its just a different way of thinking uwu'#I'M GOING TO FUCKING KILL #ALL OF MY EARLIEST CHILDHOOD MEMORIES FROM AGE 3 AND UP ARE OF HAVING PANIC ATTACKS #PLEASE GO FUCK YOURSELVES THIS IS A MISERABLE FUCKING DISORDER ITS NOT CUTE ITS NOT QUIRKY ITS THE REASON I HAD GRAY HAIR AS A TEENAGER #i saw this like 'i let the intrusive thoughts win' isn't something people use all the time for like dying their fucking hair #its exhausting how many people what to be all 'mental illness needs to be more accepted'#and then in the next sentence want to deny that your mental illness is actually harmful to you and doesn't negatively affect you #and its just because society doesn't accept your different way of thinking uwu #NO I LITERALLY WOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF AS A TEENAGER IF SOMEONE HAD CONVINCED ME THAT MY MENTAL ILLNESS WAS NORMAL AND FINE #figuring out that something was Wrong with my brain was like the best moment of my life #and this 'no you just think differently don't try to change' attitude may be helpful in SOME CASES #but that shit needs to me pulled back on A LOT online because that framing can be extremely harmful to some people (like me)#knowing exactly what is wrong with my brain is literally the only way I'm able to not let it affect me #and it not affecting me is literally the only way I can function and live happily #like you understand that some people do genuinely have things wrong with them #and telling them they don't is beyond cruel

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steakout-05 · 6 months

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autistic coded men who have orange cats my beloved

#star trek tng #star trek #star trek data #garfield #garfield jon #jon arbuckle #jetpack joyride #professor brains #jetpack joyride 2 #this is my type. weird silly or otherwise quirky guys who have orange cats #brains being autistic is more just a headcanon i have rather than deliberate coding #but he's been shown to have a few autism-like behaviours and traits across the shorts and jetpack joyride 2 #it's kinda stereotypical but he's more of a logical simple thinker and he finds strings of numbers to be easier to remember than names #which i find to be interesting! he just has different thinking patterns from what i've seen in neurotypicals. and it's like.#it's the autism radar. i can always tell when a fictional character seems to be Not Neurotypical because holy shit they act like me-#-or another autistic person i know!#also all these characters are like. different facets of autism and i think that's so interesting #on the left we have highly logical direct and ''idk what to do with my face or my hands help'' sherlock spin autism #and then there's slightly unhinged dorky possible ADHD combo and complete lack of social skills autism #and finally there's the evil autism #and i love all three of them <3 #i just realised they're also all sitting in big comfy chairs!#jon's armchair looks so comfy though. like i really wanna sit in there #it's probably slightly dirty and most definitely scratched up by garfield but my god that's what make it more homely and comfy #i wonder how many armchairs jon has gotten over the years. i should count all the instances of him having a differently coloured armchair #anyway yeah. autistic cat dads my beloved <3

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echthr0s · 7 months

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I'm not gonna lie, at this point the main reason I keep playing Control is because I want to find Dr Darling (and find more of those in-game videos of him in the meantime) 🖤

#i'm so serious. that is my main motivation to keep playing #idk why i'm so fixated on him but Whatever Gets the Job Done!!!!!#(i do like the game and even the gameplay very much; i just have a hard time sticking with playing things that aren't my Ol Reliables yknow #(gotta hack the demand-avoidance brain by fixating on a quirky and very cute guy 🖤)#lol i went into the tags of that gifset and i see i'm not the only one who has been driven to lust-blind madness. ok good

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toxifoxx · 3 months

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i need my brain rewritten bro

#i cannot keep existing in the way i do now #i mean i could but its awful. Not the worst version of me but still bad #i need a different personality i need a different way of thinking i need to stop being mentally ill #but there is literally nothing i can do about the way i am and i feel so helpless #i want to talk to people i want the motivation to reach out and take what i want and need #but my anxiety doesnt budge. my chronic fatigue doesnt budge. i just cant. and im so sick of being told i can #if i were to just try harder and put my mind to it #what i need is like. Someone else to permanently take over my brain for me #i cant fucking live the way i am #i need to be someone different #EVEN COMPARE TO EVERYONE ELSE. I AM A UNIQUE CASE OF AWFUL #no one else is fucking struggling to interact! or do like most things in their life!#i genuinely cant come close to living a normal or good life as i am now #i can even look the *direction* of other people. i go full silent on group calls.#i go full silent in text chats of people i dont know well and it prevents me from connecting entirely #i freeze up i get scared i retreat into my shell or give up cause who cares its not their job to coddle me #i literally. i should not exist #im not human and not even in a fun or quirky way. i am just fundamentally incompatible with like . life itself.#whats the point man. this isnt a life

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dont-offend-the-bees · 9 months

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Quirky representations of dementia should go die actually

#pardon me my friends i know I'm in a Good Mood today and will probably continue to be once I've taken some time to be mad/sad #but god the other night our ex-neighbour was obvs trying to comfort me #by talking bout a lady with dementia she knew who was onviously sick but in her mind she went out and did things and danced #and i was at the dinner table with my own sick lady #and therefore could not say honey. good for her i guess.#but my mum is almost aggressively trapped in her here and now #she doesn't know how to exist without us #her safe person is the husband her marriage was failing with #if we go out for five minute she panics and scratches at the door #she is sad and confused 95% of the time #content and confused the other 5%#and i can barely even visualise her as my mum anymore #because the mum who raised me would've killed herself if she knew this was coming #(like she used to tell me that. frequently tell her small child she'd rather kill herself than be unable to look after herself)#(which had a very normal impact on me I'm sure)#anyway. I'm a huge hypocrite and will still go and listen to marbles by the amazing devil and think it's the loveliest most romantic thing #and maybe some people do get lucky and find some joy in their minds when they have nothing else #but i have to just watch her brain fester and decay every day and there's just nothing quirky or beautiful about it #and all i can think is about how there's those mums who don't like raising small kids but enjoy parenthood when the kids are grown #and how that was supposed to be her #for a little while it was her #for a brief window of a couple of years she and i were each others best friend #and now she's this sad scared anxious thing shaped like my mum #who doesn't trust me as much as the man she was maybe a year or two out from leaving #and she's trapped in her brain and swiftly rotting #and it's just not cute and it's not funny #anyway #it is what it is #mr. bees speaks

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majorasnightmare · 4 months

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like just for the record ive been using this lil freak as a coping method to get through TWO moves and im so invested. he is NOT well in the head and i thought too hard about ketheric and him pre head stabbing and isobel with autopsy scars and i am just losing it like jesus christ. you probably restored her corpse and then bhaal tells you to kill her again! and this is AFTERRRR being used as a goddamn medical manikin so kressa can croon to her hubby how cute your intestinal tract is. giving me mental illness for REAL

#ANNND HES GOING THE RESIST ROUTE LIKE??????? YOU NEARLY KILL UR BEST FRIEND ABOUT IT LIKE!!!!!!!#AND HES BESTIES WITH ISOBEL TOO. HER *AND* AYLIN. BASHING MY HEAD AGAINST A WALL #and then i was talking to my partner last night about him pre tadpole and how hes like. a Legitamate Bad Person not just quirky serial killr #pro tip to give yourself brain worms. make a character thats basically an open and shut book with a very basic personality #and belief system #now. and heres the kicker. make them spend most of their formative years doing the exact opposite. what comes out is a goldmine

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shrimp1y · 11 months

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they don't know im about to drop the wriolette fanfic of the century

#'i thought you hate—' yeah i do these are my ocs now #krill livestream #from the creator of jjk hatepost we now have #genshit #that is uninspired i apologize #idk if ill actually post much about it bc im publishing anonymously and i dont know if i wanna be associated w the fandom at all #but then it'd be silly if i end up making fanart of my own fanfic and i have to pretend i didnt write it. or well. idk #woe is a shrimp with autism.#oh man i think if i cared more about my social image id be crying pissing about being seen as contrarian just to be quirky #'whys the two fandom u make content for the fandoms you hate huh???!!' you see the way my brain works means that if somethings Good #I would happily enjoy it and then let it go. but if its bad. in my hatred i gnaw unwittingly sinking my teeth into putrid flesh #and making it a part of me forever .#just kidding its just until i loose the hyperfixation n then its meaningless to me

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zer0point5ive · 10 months

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this is how i saw post

#having a quirky time w it #just realised this is nojoke i do actually have mold on my windows maybe that is the cause of my delusions behaviour etc #would make a lot of sense #this is your brain on a crazy amount of substance abuse for too many years nd mold exposure #💽

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mikeru-funzies · 4 months

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would have rebloghed this if I could find it but

(rant in the tags)

#me when my hair started falling out #and my immune system deteriorated #and the structure of my brain physically changed due to over use of the amygdala #that was actually mostly bc of a different reason but my point still stands #and the whole time you get called lazy? helpless? needy?#😛#it’s so hard explaining to people why having adhd is ass #adhd is a disability #yes. it disables you.#its not just being quirky or fidgeting too much or being talkative #it is a lack of executive functioning.#your memory. your spatial awareness. your tense of time. your motivation. your satisfaction. is all FUCKED #the only way for me to be productive is to work myself to death!!#and I can’t even explain it by saying I have adhd #because to them that just means I get bored in math class #I GET BORED DOING THE YHINGS I LOVE #I PHYSICALLY DO NOT GET SATISFACTION FROM COMPLETING TASKS #there is ZERO motivation to do any work #OF COURSE IM GOING TO NOT WANT TO DO IT #it feels like I can’t do anything #the simplest of tasks take so much of my energy #sigh #doomed to obsess over something ; loose all interest ; abandon it ; and start the process again #it’s not a super power #it’s a disability

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thesecondmost · 4 months

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rip moriarty you would have loved tiktok

#(;shitposts)#seasoned war vets (bbc sherlock watchers) could you imagine tho. that show in a tiktok era? my god. /neg #i just have a horrid mental image of a Martin john trying to explain it to a Benedict sherlock for some episode revolving around it #or moriarty doing some weird quirky joke about 'Doing a TikTok like the silly normal people'#and it physically pains me. gotta rid my brain of these horrors

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running-in-the-dark · 7 months

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the thing is. I've said many times that it'd probably be better if I didn't post on here so much, especially when I'm not doing so great. it does not feel good. but. when I don't, it just all stays inside my head and it feels so much worse for far longer, so I really just don't know how I would cope without this.

#I mean I used to write in my diary instead. but it's not the same. it's like talking to myself which is like thinking which is the whole #damn problem in the first place #I can't bother my friends every time I feel like shit because it happens so much #and they don't get it #except my best friend but I already message them too much and they have their own shit going on #it's either this or lie in bed imagining [current blorbo] and talking it all out with them and basically just. daydreaming therapy.#but that tends to not be great because then I get stuck and don't want to do anything else because I'd rather be there forever.#which. idk but it doesn't feel that healthy to me.#I juuust want to be normal it's all I want it's all I've ever wanted #and then people say being weird is good and they love me for who I am and it's so so sweet and lovely but. I don't mean that. I mean I feel #like I'm insane and there's something wrong with my brain and it's not the fun quirky bits that people love about me. it's the never ending #constant relentless bad thoughts that I can't make go away OR even the good ones really. like I'm. so fucking obsessed right now and all I #want is to think about Dan and Jenkins but if I'm not careful it takes over everything and I. can not stop.#so. yeah I'm. not gonna leave because I can't and I don't really want to and I'm sorry because that means I'll have to keep posting #dumb shit like this every time my brain gets stupid #😭

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lightyaoigami · 1 year

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i'm sorry i didn't post a new chapter of alignment this week my dudes i am gonna try for next week though<3

#truly i wanted to post but #my brain was completely zapped by returning to work #its easy to forget that neurodivergence isnt just like. being quirky and fun. its also disabling #anyway hopefully i will do better this week and we can get some more corporate rot for the boy bffs #fic: alignment

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carcinized · 2 years

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feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

#i mean i had other stuff too. and so do probably most of my followers bc Trans Things. i never had dysphoria from being trans tho #it was all from discomfort during puberty + depersonalization #so now that both of those have lessened + ive gotten better at managing them. HOLY SHIT ITS NICE #i dont feel ashamed of my body!!! ive achieved complete body neutrality its so fucking awesome #i dont even feel like i need to dress up anymore. nor am i uncomfortable with the idea that someone could find me attractive #bc i understand its not my job to be or not be attractive its just my job to EXIST. other ppl can think whatever they want about me #its SO NICE. i am growing into my life its so lovely.#just a bit of positivity for you guys :] this site (and online spaces in general) can be so negative bc it’s a safe place to ent #so heres a break from that. from someone who struggled heavily w mental illness for multiple years #i don’t want to disclose what or why but it wasnt just quirky depression anxiety etc it was like from real scary shit + near death experienc #<- not to say anxiety & depression don’t suck. what i mean is that it wasn’t quirky ‘omg i have anxiety im so scared of everyone 🥺👉👈’#type shit that every white girl highschooler insists they have. it wasnt just beingn sad cus of high school LMAO #NOT TO DOWNPLAY THAT BUT LIKE. U KNOW THE PPL I MEAN. u dont have anxiety/ocd/depression dude youre just Sad. fairly so but itsnot Disorder #but. from someone who went thru all that. IT GETS BETTER. also if ur like 13-15 ur brain hormones suck and it gets better 100%#like everything feels So Bad but its just uour brain chemicals and i am so sorry uour brain does that. BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE. <3 #it doesnt make your struggles easier but you should know that it DOES get better. <3 love u #ok <3 take care guys #tobin talks

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handgiven · 8 months

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going through my old emmanuel blog and not judging my past self per se but very much disagreeing with so many things on it -- and wondering how did it come about that i'd settled on emmanuel being the way he is right now over the years when i didn't do any writing, i just kept rotating him in my mind and ---- here he is

#ooc tbt #past me: 'em just miracles cups clean after drinking tea bcs hes quirky and lazy like that haha'#me now: 'WRONG he enjoys the sensation of water upon his skin AND savours the sanctity of such mundane rituals and he would NEVER'#past me: reblogging cool dapper kind of vintage suits as a wardrobe reference #current me: ........... 'he exists mostly in sweaters and other loose and layered attire. the last time he wore a suit was in 1953.'#it's funny the way he's evolved past just. whatever he was before.#but the funnest part abt ocs really is that it doesn't feel like i'm making them up but rather. discovering them.#like. they are a certain way and i get to figure out why. and when i do it well they /feel/ realer because. they make sense.#idk if this makes sense rn my brain is a piece of jello :')

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andromerot · 1 year

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i wish i had less impulse control and better impulses

#basically i want to do weird bad shit all the time but rarely do #not intrusive thoughts even. just my quirky beautiful brain #not very fucked up just unlikable #i end up not doing anything ever and being scared when i do anything slightly out of line

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