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[faunandfloraas]

[noemitenshi]

I can’t really get my head around what Troy would be like in a relationship, the man loves to push boundaries yet seems to get obsessive about people and want to please them 🤔 what do you think?

Oh what a fun (but also difficult) question to answer haha. As I've written over 500k words of Troy in relationships I've put quite some thought into it and I'm not too sure I can distill all of that. Or, well, I'm sure I'll forget to mention things ^^0 But I'll give it my very best!

The most crucial part I think, about Troy's behavior in a relationship is that it is very much dependent on his partner(s). He will let himself be molded, even if the partner doesn't intend to, you know, do that. Like, if the partner likes to be pushed around (😉) he's gonna do that gleefully. If the partner likes to push him around (all in good fun though. I mean, I think he'd also let himself be pushed around NOT in good fun but let's not go there for our peace of mind), he's gonna fold and be into it. So in a sense he'll always follow his partner's lead (no matter if the partner is more dominant or submissive leaning (and those terms don't necessarily need to describe Dominants and Submissives…)).

Furthermore I do think, once he realizes (or is made to realize - mayhaps by a frantic kiss) he is in love, he'll be all in. I think I said this once before (and I'll probably say it again) but Troy seems like the type to move incredible fast to deepen a relationship. It probably stems from the emotional abuse and neglect he has suffered his whole life - so once someone gives him even a smidgen of that he's gonna be addicted to it. He's not gonna let go of that and do anything to get more of it, frankly. Maybe there's even a time, in the beginning of the romantic relationship, where he is kinda playing pretend. See, he could never be what his parents and his brother wanted him to be (mostly bc his parents were abusive drunks and because his brother doesn't understand him and the black sheep position the family put Troy in, instead reinforces it), so he always felt like he was coming up short, like he didn't have the ability to do things right. And probably doubly so the first time he finds himself in a romantic relationship. So he's gonna act in a way he thinks people act when in such a relationship. Probably ignoring his own boundaries in the process and I really do hope his partner knows him well enough to get that something is wrong and ask him about it otherwise that one could end badly (=turn easily into a toxic relationship).

Now I seem to have written quite a bit about the wants to please people part of your ask haha (you see, I agree, he does want to do that, badly. Needs to, I'd argue, even) but not so much about the pushing people (I have a whole seperate post about that btw, maybe give that a look to, HERE). So, the post in short. With all people he interacts he likes to push boundaries to a) get to know them better, get to know what sets them off (since he's always lived in a VERY unstable environment with both his parents being erratic and abusive due to drunkenness) additionally, this gives him a sense of control (b)) - he controls when they get angry. That's what his pushing is about. I assume that if someone enters a romantic relationship with Troy they already have found a way to handle that part of him. And honestly, I think the best way to handle this is to show him respect. Like, sure, call him out on that, don't let him bullshit you but not meanly (=not like Jake). And even beyond the whole pushing thing, I think if Troy is treated with respect, generally speaking, this antagonistic nature in him receeds. He doesn't feel like he needs to be on guard the whole time so there's no need to set people off haha. Or not as much. Mostly in a teasing way (I think he doesn't ever lose it completely, but it changes its meaning, the pushing boundaries. I think he'll learn AND respect which boundaries are, you know, actual boundaries he shouldnt touch and which ones he can poke a little uh fun at).

So, I think a romantic relationship has the potential to be VERY GOOD for Troy (the same btw is true for a HEALTHY platonic one - which we also didn't see him having thus far. He just needs for someone to take his pain and rage and himself serious and be kind and respectful to him. Don't think ANYONE has ever done that, sadly enough). It has potential to allow him to grow into himself and become more confident in the type of person he is. And it naturally would curb this need for erratic behavior. HOWEVER a romantic relationship could also lead to Troy kinda losing himself in it. He's very emotionally vulnerable as we see in his relationship with Madison in s3 (and also lack of meaningful and reciprocal(!) relationships with anyone else) so it would be relatively easy for him to end up in a toxic relationship.

No matter what, I think Troy is gonna be fiercly loyal, protective and affectionate in such a relationship. Needy, I like to call him too since he's been touch- and attention-starved all his life. So my advice to potential suitors would be HANDLE WITH CARE.

I hope I answered your question to your satisfaction. If there is something I missed or something you'd like me to expand on, just shoot me another ask :) Thanks for the ask and have a great day 🧡

[vyloy]

NSFW?? Uh uh uh uh uh uh amab male reader

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100 Followers Event

Albert James Moriarty(アルバート・ジェームズ・モリアーティ), William James Moriarty (ウィリアム・ジェームズ・モリアーティ), & Louis James moriarty (ル イ ス ・ ジ ェ ー ム ズ ・ モ リ ア ー テ ィ) x Male reader

Fujoshis and Minors dni, you will be blocked

Tw: Degration, Double stuffing, non-con, subtle mentions of kidnapping and torturing, foursome

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A normal day in London, what could possibly go wrong?

Everything

"That will be 2.8 pence!", the baker enthusiastically says the total, "alright, keep the change", you say, walking out of the bakery, you're an aristocrat, a known one at that, an heir to one of the most well known and respected family, the L/N family, known for their cold nature and ability to always come up with strategies to overcome problems no matter how big they were, no matter the situation, you are the 3rd generation, in your early 20's and is expected to have a wife in the near future, you on the other hand, aren't ready for a wife, you haven't even started dating for god's sake.

On the way out, you bump into a man, "apologies...", the man mutters before looking at you, all you gave was a subtle nod before walking away as the blonde haired man stares at your figure until you inevitably dissapear into the crowd of people.

When you got back home,

"Dear, come here, we have some news", your mom said, gesturing you to sit next to her and your father.

"What is it?", you asked, "We are now working with the Moriartys, they have asked us to help them out with some their plans, this might be a good way for you to learn, son.", your father said, without a hint of emotion in his voice, typical.

"Who?", you asked, "The moriartys, they'll be arriving here shortly.", your mother answered as you took the bread you bought out of the plastic bag, placing it on the table.

A few moments later, the sound of a carriage was heard outside the l/n manor,

"That must be them", your mother comments.

"Good afternoon, Lady l/n, Lord l/n", Albert, the eldest of the three, greets as the three of them bow before walking to you, "It's a pleasure to meet you, sir l/n", he then takes your hand and kisses the backside of it making you flinch and instinctively slap his hand away, his smile doesn't waver as he gestures for his brothers to sit down as he sits next to them.

"Apologies for my son's behavior, he hasn't had a lot of interaction with others", your mom says, "That's alright Lady l/n, i shouldn't have done that all of a sudden", Albert says with a warm smile while you just sat across them, trying to process what had just happened.

"Sir l/n?", you were snapped out of your trance, turning to look at Albert without saying a single word, "would it be alright for you to show us where we will be staying?", your eyes widened, "They'll be staying for until we finish the strategies, this is the perfect time for you to make some friends, son", your dad says after seeing your expression, you just nodded, not wanting to cause a scene.

"Corridor", you said blankly, you really were trying to avoid conversations.

"These three rooms next to each other are yours, if you need anything, ring the bell next to your beds, i shall leave now", you say, walking away.

Once you got to your room, you made sure to lock it and started to write down on your journal that was on the table near the window, you wrote everything in there as you didn't have anyone to get pastry with or even talk to, not that you minded not having any friends, your life was peaceful and you liked it that way.

"Y/n", your father said at the dining table, you looked up to face him, "yes father?",

"You have to start finding a wife, i'm not going to live forever.", he sternly said,

You sighed, you already knew this was coming but never figured it would be this soon, "but...", "we have delayed it enough, son, starting next week we will be gathering all the noble maidens and you'll be choosing from one of them", your heart sunk when you heard this but all you could do was nod, "yes father..", you said before eating your dinner bitterfully as the three brothers were giving each other glances.

" sigh , what can i do to avoid this marriage...", you said to nobody in particular, trying to come up wih a plan to avoid the marriage when suddenly you hear a knocking at your door, " Excuse me sir l/n, would you be as kind as to let us in?", 'William? But why would he be up so late and visit me', you thought to yourself, "hello?", you heard another voice which seemed to have belonged to Louis, you got up to open the door, "mn?", you made a small noise as if to ask why they were at your door this late, "ah apologies for the disturbance sir, but we would like to propose a plan seeing as you don't want to be in a marriage", Albert smiled, "no thank you", you say before shutting the door, do they think you're incapable of coming up with your own plan? How ridiculous, you're an heir to a family of strategists, it would honestly be humiliating your ancestors if you didn't come up with a strategy by yourself.

"Honey, you have eyebags, did you not sleep well last night?", your mom asked as she rubbed your eyebags, "seems like i drank a bit too much caffeine, mother", you respond, trying to swat her hands away, "if you say so, if anything is troubling you, don't be scared to let me know", she says before walking away to attend to her duties, just then the three brothers walks towards you, "Good morning sir l/n, how do you feel?", Louis asks ,noticing your eyebags, "if you need, i would be honored to brew you some tea, it'll help with your tiredness", the youngest offers but you declined with a wave of your hand, "I'm alright", with those words, you walked to get your breakfast.

" Lord l/n, is it possible for you to help us with Britian's downfall", William asks as if he didnt just say something insane, you immediately look at him with shocked eyes, your father still with a stoic look, "That wouldn't be a problem", your father responded while you stared in shock once again, "f-father..?", your voice cracked a bit, "Son, you'll be assigned as their strategist", "EH?!", you yelled in shock once again, "I don't get it, father, why?", " make our ancestors proud", was all he said before he got up and left the room entirely.

You stared at the three brothers who seemed awfully calm, "so sir l/n, are you up for it?", Albert asked with a serious face, you took a big breath in and said something that would change your life forever

"Yes."

That was several weeks or even months ago, you have lost track of time by this point, if only you weren't as naive as to agree to it, maybe you could have lived a normal life.

It all started with that one word,"yes", after that, you started to spend all your time with the brothers, at first it was all casual and business related but as time flew by, they got up and personal with you, they started to call you by your first name in private then started to talk dirty with you, "i wonder what face you would make if you were pinned to the ground", "your legs would look so much better on my shoulders ", "it's so hard to resist devouring you", then the physical touch came in, touching your thighs while you were sitting next to them was a frequent thing they would do, their hands would move from your thighs to your crotch area before trailing back to your thighs, this would repeat, then they would grab your chin to face them whenever they needed attention, they became clingy, possessive.

Once you were set up to choose from hundreds of duchesses you had chosen someone to marry, the only duchess you could tolerate and see yourself with, but, she vanished with only a note next to your bed, it wae her handwriting there was no doubt about that, it had read

"Dear Sir L/n,

I regret to inform you that i think we aren't a match, i have ran away from my kingdom with the intent of starting over my life, don't try to look for me as i have made my decision

Signed, Duchess Kyesta"

It was quite odd as she was always happy around you, not even once was she sad, not showing a hint of sadness around you, her smiles were genuine, losing her made you a bit upset, while you were being upset, the three brothers consoled you, "She wasn't worth it, you deserve so much better" was something they always brought up.

The day you found out what had happened to her was the day your fate was sealed, you were snooping around one of their rooms to find a whole paper with a strategy to get 'rid' of the duchess, you were horrified and tried to hide the fact you knew what happened to her around them, but of course, they caught on,

"Hah~ our little strategist found out", Albert said, amusement lacing his words, "Guess we have little choice now", William continued.

Because of that, you were now stuck with them, with your parents now out of reach, you had nobody, no siblings, no family members who were looking for you, nobody, all you had was the brothers, "you've been so good, dear"

"We should give you a reward"

You had gotten used to being a fuck toy for them.

You sat obediently on Albert's lap as he sat on the chair, The eldest's tongue slid into your mouth as Louis licked and bit your nipples, stimulating them, William walked over to the table to grab a bottle of lube, they had bottles upon bottles of lube just for when they feel like fucking your brains out, squeezing the lube onto his fingers, he inserted 3 fingers into you immediately, causing you to yelp in shock, "shh", albert hushed you.

"How about we try something different today?", William suggested, "What is it?", "Double stuffing", he smirked, "no pleas-", you objected but albert connected his lips with yours to shut you up.

Now, the eldest's cock was inside of you as the youngest was preparing his own cock to thrust into your hole, with every inch his cock got closer, you braced for the pain before it was in, "ahhh!", you moaned yet yelled before William gripped your hair and made you suck his hard cock, you gagged on his length, the three brothers were in no way average, their sizes were beyond that.

As both the youngest and eldest's cocks were inside of you, they began to move slowly, not wanting to hurt their precious fuck toy, "You like this huh? What a slut", William taunted, he wasn't exactly wrong, you enjoyed every second of their cocks in both your holes, eventually the two began thrusting faster into you, you closed your eyes while william also throat fucked you hard, "It's so tight here!", Albert commented, you moaned but since William's cock wad inside of you, no sound came out, your voice only vibrated his cock a bit, making him moan out of pleasure.

"I could cum right now, you feel so good inside~", your body was getting absolutely destroyed by the pair of siblings, not having the energy to even fight back, you let it happen, you could feel your release close, as if on cue, the two brothers inside of you came, shooting both their loads inside of you while William fucked your throat harder, "I'm cumming, dear~", was all he said before climaxing.

As soon as their cocks were out of you, your body layed limp on Albert's chest, you could barely keep your eyes open, fighting the urge to pass out, but it was all in vain, the last thing you saw and heard was 2 of the brothers infront of you,

"You're all ours now, nobody else's"

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Taglist: @ohdearalatus @secretivemessenger

Got a lot of mtp reqs💀

Also early post

[relmint]

Hello! wanted to ask you something, so I have realized that in jttw, Wukong always turns to Guanyin when he needs help and she also comforts him when he feels sad, and it seems that Wukong trusts her and respects her a lot, it is like a relationship between a younger brother and an older sister. (correct me if I'm wrong, sorry I'm just getting started and it's a lot of things) but shouldn't Wukong be mad that she was the one who gave tripitaka the circlet in the first place? Does Wukong know this? why does he trust her if she was the one who gave tripitaka the circlet in the first place? Pd: I love your art! <3 have a good day

Before I start, I would like to say that I have not finished reading the book myself, so some of my interpretations may seem off :0 For folks who are more knowledgeable than me, feel free to add on and share what you think as well! Now, let’s begin!

Yup! I also see them as having a younger bro and older sis bond :0 Also Wukong did grow mad when he learned it was Guan Yin who taught Tripitaka the magic! 

From Anthony C. Yu's translation, page 320, Chapter 14:

"I wouldn't dare strike you," said Pilgrim, "but let me ask you something. Who taught you this magic?" "It was an old woman," said Tripitaka, "who imparted it to me a few moments ago." Growing very angry, Pilgrim said, "You needn't say anything more! The old woman had to be that Guanshiyin! Why did she want me to suffer like this? I'm going to South Sea to beat her up!"

Wukong also chewed Guan Yin out for her tricks the next time they met on page 327, Chapter 15:

The Bodhisattva and the Guardian soon arrived at the Serpent Coil Mountain. They stopped the hallowed clouds in midair and saw Pilgrim Sun down below, shouting abuses at the bank of the stream. The Bodhisattva asked the Guardian to fetch him. Lowering his clouds, the Guardian went past Tripitaka and headed

straight for the edge of the stream, saying to Pilgrim, “The Bodhisattva has arrived.” When Pilgrim heard this, he jumped quickly into the air and yelled at her: “You, so-called Teacher of the Seven Buddhas and the Founder of the Faith of Mercy! Why did you have to use your tricks to harm me?”

“You impudent stableman, ignorant red-buttocks!” said the Bodhisattva. “I went to considerable effort to find a scripture pilgrim, whom I carefully instructed to save your life. Instead of thanking me, you are finding fault with me!” “You saved me all right!” said Pilgrim. “If you truly wanted to deliver me, you should have allowed me to have a little fun with no strings attached. When you met me the other day above the ocean, you could have chastened me with a few words, telling me to serve the Tang Monk with diligence, and that would have been enough. Why did you have to give him a flower cap, and have him deceive me into wearing it so that I would suffer? Now the fillet has taken root on old Monkey’s head. And you even taught him this so-called ‘Tight-Fillet Spell,’ which he recites again and again, causing endless pain in my head! You haven’t harmed me, indeed!” The Bodhisattva laughed and said, “O, Monkey! You are neither attentive to admonition nor willing to seek the fruit of truth. If you are not restrained like this, you’ll probably mock the authority of Heaven again without regard for good or ill. If you create troubles as you did before, who will be able to control you? It’s only through this bit of adversity that you will be willing to enter our gate of Yoga.” 

“All right,” said Pilgrim, “I’ll consider the matter my hard luck. But why did you take that condemned dragon and send him here so that he could become a spirit and swallow my master’s horse? It’s your fault, you know, if you allow an evildoer to perpetrate his villainies some more!”

As you can see, Sun Wukong and the Bodhisattva were not off to a great start. Guan Yin gave Sun Wukong the fillet to ensure he kept his promise of bringing the Tang Monk to India, attaining enlightenment in the process. From my point of view, the purpose of the journey was not only to introduce Buddhism to China but for the pilgrims to redeem themselves as well. It's basically like community service lmao. In the beginning, Sun Wukong was not very committed to maintaining his deal with the Bodhisattva, running away when Tripitaka scolded him for killing the 6 robbers. Sun Wukong does come back after having tea with his bestie the Dragon King, and to ensure Sun Wukong won't change his mind Guan Yin decided to give Tripitaka the fillet. In the beginning, you could justify why the fillet was needed. You can't deny that Sun Wukong was a dangerous warlord, managing to outmatch the might of Heaven itself (Absolute king, he wrecked those guys in Heaven <3). It seems reasonable how the Bodhisattva would think of the fillet as a necessary item to keep Sun Wukong in check. Sun Wukong, along with being overpowered, is seen to be impulsive and rash. That makes for a dangerous combination. But as the story progresses, you can see how Tripitaka overuses the fillet (Tripitaka sucks at being a teacher). I think the Bodhisattva was not aware of this. Or at least, not aware that Tripitaka used the fillet to such a degree. She is not omniscient, as proven by how Sun Wukong has to go to her to fill her in on all the tea. 

I think I have to also mention corporal punishment. Corporal punishment is a common thing in a lot of countries back then, especially in East Asia! This way of disciplining was the norm. It was universally accepted, so there was a big chance people didn’t really think of the fillet as such a big deal. Confucianism is deeply embedded in Chinese culture, and it puts great importance on filial piety and good behavior. Teachers and parents are granted a lot of authority in this philosophy. If it’s for the sake of discipline, then corporal punishment is justified (obviously this is a damaging and flawed way of thinking but that’s just how it was in ancient times. Luckily, values are changing and people are becoming more aware!). Unfortunately, Sun Wukong and a lot of others r probably not aware that this was actual abuse. ….I think I digressed and I am sorry if I did but back to Wukong and Guan Yin! The way I see their relationship, it’s…complicated. In the beginning, their relationship was def strained. Wukong was mad at Guan Yin for the fillet. As for Guan Yin’s feelings towards the monkey, I think she genuinely wanted Wukong to succeed. She def disapproved of Sun Wukong’s rambunctious nature, but time and time again we see her offer her assistance throughout the pilgrim’s journey. Because of this she probably grew fond of the monkey, and Sun Wukong to her. I mean, she lets Sun Wukong crash at her place and allows him to vent his feelings to her. She is also stern whenever Sun Wukong’s resolve for the journey falters. She wants Wukong to stay on track. I think she genuinely wants Wukong to attain his merit, achieve enlightenment, and succeed. Isn’t that why she became a Bodhisattva? To help people? But this is just my interpretation! Also out of pure fun and brain rot, I want to share this song that reminds me of Sun Wukong and Guan Yin <3 

Also, I just wanna say one of my fav interactions between them is when they worked together to save Tripitaka from Black Wind Demon! I loved their light bickering <33 I personally think Chapter 17 was when Wukong and Guan Yin’s relationship became better and they started opening up to one another :> Also aahh thank you so much for liking my art! Sorry for the long ramble XD I hope you have a cool day anon! 

[mythica0]

What about some post Thanks to Them tickles with Lee!Hunter? Poor boy needs some comfort x’0

Still here

🎂: The Owl house

🧁: Hunter

🍫: Luz

Summary: Luz provides comfort to Hunter, who is upset about FlapJack.

A/N: sorry it tooo me so long to notice this! Also, even if it’s not canon, I include some things that makes FlapJacks ‘death’ less sad.

TW: grief, lots of angst (happy ending though)

Still here

Grieving is a process, one that hunter is going through hard.

He skipped almost all the stages of Grief and went straight to depression.

He was always in his room, crying or staring off into space. FlapJack was the first friend he’d ever had, and he was taken from him, so fast.

At that thought, Hunters tears grew in intensity.

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In the other room, Luz heard Hunter’s crying. She felt bad for him, knowing what he was going through.

She decided she wasn’t gonna sit there and let him be sad if she can do anything about it, if she can provide even the slightest comfort to her brother.

So, she “stormed” (more like walked calmly , but determined) into the room next door and her heart nearly broke at the sight.

Hunter, curled up in a ball, tears covering his face and a horrible gloomy expression, covered in blankets and looking at nothing in particular.

“Hunter?” She whispered.

“L-Luz? Is tha-at yo-u? “ hunter spoke with a breaking ,wobbly voice thick with tears.

“Yeah, it’s me.” She said, before sitting next to him.

A silent moment passed, before Luz softly said , “do you want to talk about it?”

Hunter nodded, and slowly started to speak.

“I just… miss him so much . He was my first friend, my only friend , for a while. I … I didn’t have enough ti-me!” His voice broke at the end.

“I know, and trust me , losing a loved one always sucks. But, Y’know, even if Flapjack isn’t here,” she pointed around the room .

“He’s in here.” She poked hunters chest, noticing how he flinched a bit.

“And I’m not talking just figuratively, either. We all saw what happened out there, FlapJack went into your heart , he’s still here, he’s just part of you.” She said, letting it sink in for a second before poking Hunters belly and sides.

“He’s here, and here, and here and here andhereandhereandhere-“ she sped up as she went.

“Lu-luhuhuhuz!”

“Yes?”

“Stohohop ihihit!”

“Stop cheering you up after that whole convo , no way!”

Luz only intensified her ‘attacks’ , poking and scratching all over Hunter’s torso.

“Luhuhuz! Thahahat tihihihicklehehes!”

“Well,duh, that’s kinda the point.”

Hunter seemed to be fine, protesting but yet not really trying to get away. That is, until Luz went for his ears.

“OHOHOHOH TIHIHIHATHAHAN! PLEHEHEASE NOHOHOT THEHEHREE! “

Lux only smirked and continued to trace along his extended ear.

After a minute, when Hunter started wheezing, Luz stopped. She got him a bottle of water while he was still recovering to help him out a bit.

“Here you go.” She said with a smile.

“…Thanks Luz,” he started hesitantly , “and not for the water bottle. “

[yuumaofc]

//EP. 2; He’s just like a puppy, How annoying.

//TW; Transphobia; FTM, Bullying(??)

MC POV

Oh wow, for once there’s silence in the halls. Usually it’s bustling with demons and their cruel laughter but not today it seems. Although I think I may be talking a little too soon.-

Felix- “MMMMCCCCCC!! Hey waiiitttt!”

Great. Now I have the lost puppy tailing me. What could possibly go wrong?

Felix- “Hey! MC! Hey hey! Where ya going?? Can I eat lunch with you?? Please please let me! I don’t wanna sit at a table full of unknown demons!”

MC- “groan.. I suppose you can. But just until you’re done settling in and have a group of your own to sit with.”

I pinched the bridge of my nose, he just does not know how to stop talking it seems. Always trying to make conversation with me, can’t he see that I’m busy?

Wow I sound like Lucifer.

Felix- “Waahh! Thank you thank you! MC I love you!”

I turned my head at break neck speed, perplexed at his comment and boldness. As much as it would be a good thing, where was this confidence a week ago when he first arrived?

MC- “That is not possible, we met a week ago.”

Felix- “It’s called ‘Love at first Sight’! Doesn’t that sound amazing??”

MC- “It sounds horrendous and I would hate to be the one on the receiving end of that said ‘love at first sight’.”

Felix- “Ahhh you’re such a killjoy, MC :(“

MC- “Well then I guess we wouldn’t go together.”

Felix- “:0”

MC- “:|”

Felix- “Are you suggesting something?-“

MC- “No.”

It was mean but I had to shut down his suggestion before he can say it fully as he might do something with the idea and get himself hurt in the process.

???- “Well well well, look at who we have here! Little old MC and their new boyfriend!~”

???2- “Snicker”

???3- “Haha, hey MC. Why is he so small?”

MC- “What?”

The newly appeared demons circled us mockingly, throwing in snide and cruel remarks about Felix and his body.

???2- “Why’re you so feminine, Felix? Aren’t you supposed to be a boy?”

???3- “Maybe she’s just confused!~”

Felix stiffened at this remark and looked at the floor, it got to him for some reason. Why did it? Was he hiding something?? He’s tearing up and shaking.. I shouldn’t be standing by and letting this happen.

MC- “Is there a problem with his body? Incubi have the exact same body as him. So it seems as though I fail to recognize the problem at hand right now.”

Felix raised his head and stared up at me through his long lashes and glassy eyes, clearly appreciating my attempt to silence the annoying new arrivals.

???- “Hoh? Is that really all you’re going to say and do? Look at her MC, she’s pathetic! I don’t see why you would rather stick with her than with us in all honesty. She can’t even stick to the gender than she was born with!”

MC- “Felix is new and human at that, so as the human ambassador and representative of the human realm, it is my responsibility and duty to make sure that he feels comfortable here. And I WILL NOT. Tolerate you disrespecting him. I’m front of my face no less!”

???2- “Big talk for someone so small!~”

I scoffed at this, don’t they have anything better to do than bother us? I guess it can’t be helped then.

MC- “Hear me and for my call, Oh great one I summon upon thee! I summon you, Avatar of Greed, Mammon!”

???- “Oh shit! Let’s go!”

A upside down pentagram formed and bursted with a bright golden flash of light before Mammon appeared out of thin air, demon form at the ready.

You might be thinking, ‘Why’d you summon mammon when you can summon any of the other brothers?????!!?!?!?!?’ Well let me tell you why.

Unlike Mammon, Lucifer is busy with paperwork and keeping his brothers in check.

Unlike Mammon, Leviathan would panic and most likely pass out or be angry at the sudden summoning when he could be watching his anime or playing his games.

Unlike Mammon, Satan could be reading a book or tending to a cat and get angry at the sudden summon like Leviathan.

Unlike Mammon, Asmodeus would be with friends or fans or planning parties in his spare time.

Unlike Mammon, Beelzebub could be eating and possibly choke after being summoned so suddenly.

Unlike Mammon, it’s funny to know that you would actually think and try to summon Belphegor the one who killed you with no hesitation a whole year prior.

But unlike his brothers, Mammon is always ready and prepared to be summoned by you as he expects you to. I mean, he’s your first man! Of course you’d think of summoning him out of all of them!

And as much as he expects you to summon him, and despite that he’s greedy and “scum”, Mammon is one of the most powerful demons in Devildom.

Mammon- “Oi! Where’s the-! Huh?”

Mammon looked around in confusion as there was no one around but him, Felix and I. Where was the danger?

Mammon- “Oi MC! Why’d you summon me if there’s no danger?? I could be at the casino right now!”

MC- “And blowing all your grim is what you’d be doing but okay.”

Mammon- “OFBCOC- NO! I would be winning the lottery!”

MC- “Keep telling yourself that.. How are you feeling, Felix?”

I looked back at his shaking self from over my shoulder

Felix- “mumble..”

MC- “What was that?”

I turned my whole body to face him. He didn’t look up but he jumped into my arms sobbing his eyes out into my chest.

Felix- “Thank you MC..! I- I appreciate you standing up for me so much!”

I looked at Mammon, who looked quite jealous of him, and asked him for the time as I awkwardly wrapped my arms around Felix.

Mammon- “It’s 12:13, Why?”

MC- “Ah shit.. Felix come on, we gotta go if we don’t wanna be late.”

He nodded but still refused to let go of me, he’s just like a puppy.. How annoying.

I sighed before picking him up, wrapping his legs around my waist then walking to our next period, that we, fortunately, had together.

Mammon- “WHA- HEY WAIT FOR ME!!”

//

Yes hello again, I’m sorry for the transphobia as it was a last minute thing. Please don’t call me transphobic as I’m still trying to figure out if I’m trans or not myself and would never try to offend the LGBTQ+ community. I just decided to throw it in last minute as in RMCAU’s the rival is mostly always AFAB and never really AMAB or trans. So I thought I’d try to be original🧍🏻‍♀️

Anyways I don’t know if imma do another take on the RMCAU since this one could be an alternative on it if it does end up going in a different direction since that tends to happen sometimes with me :p

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9,10 and 13 for the weird writing ask :3

[from this ask game]

I'm late getting to these! when I ask for asks, never trust that I'll respond promptly (send them anyway, though, I like attention)

9. Do you believe in ghosts? This isn’t about writing I just wanna know.

kinda, maybe? There's been some times where my mom was sure she was visited by something.

She was downhill ski-race training at night once when she was younger than me, and she tripped on something and fell. Her dad came running up the hill because her light went out. She was a junior olympic racer, the snow was fresh powder, and the place she fell was clear of debris - but if she hadn't fallen, she would've slammed face first into a tree at 70 mph and died. The light on the course was out; she would never have even seen it. Falling saved her life, and she fell over nothing, over thin air.

She's also been visited by her grandmother twice. On the worst night of her life, she said she felt her grandmother, who had been dead for twenty-some years, sit down next to her and this feeling of peace came over her. Almost a decade later, I was out in the forest with her, somewhere her grandmother would have liked to be. I was doing something with our gear, and I turned around and she was kind of crying. And she pointed down the path and said "I just saw my grandmother. She stopped by again to say goodbye, because I don't need her any more." And I genuinely can't remember if I saw a person on the path or if I'm imagining what my mother saw.

On a more pragmatic note, I think people feel strongly about ghosts for one of two reasons: sometimes you get a gut feeling that something's wrong, and that's usually worth listening to; and respecting the dead/the passage of time and life is part of the grieving process and being able to let go of people who have passed in a healthy way. I think science affirms, not discredits, the need for a mourning period; people might dismiss them as a thing of the past, and the economically minded certainly begrudge bereavement time, but what's profitable isn't synonymous with what's kind or what's right. You need some time and some space to get right with your love and your sadness. So traditions around mourning and paying your respects to your ancestors are very interesting to me!

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

Haunting is like, when I can't stop thinking about something, and I keep turning it over in my head. This can be a good, bad, or neutral thing, depending on if I enjoy thinking about it, or if it torments me. I don't think I've ever been tormented by my own writing (except perhaps in embarrassment); I don't think I've ever managed to write anything that soulful (though I've certainly tried). Right now I'm being haunted by that Tom Stoppard quote, let me find it:

“What do I want? Nothing which you'd call indecent, though I don't see what's wrong with it myself. You want to be brothers-in-arms, to have him to yourself... to be shipwrecked together, (to) perform valiant deeds to earn his admiration, to save him from certain death, to die for him - to die in his arms, like a Spartan, kissed once on the lips... or just run his errands in the meanwhile. You want him to know what cannot be spoken, and to make the perfect reply, in the same language.”

I am being haunted by this because 1) this is what it's like to be a gay man, 2) this is what it's like to be a trans man, 3) this is what it's like to love a man. And I am in a really weird place where I love my partner, I covet what he is, and as supportive as he is, I also get the sense that 0% of this makes sense to him. It's all impossible to talk about, I want him to understand it intuitively, and to know what to do. Instead he asks me if I might grow my hair out again.

13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?

I am having a weird-hard time writing about women who want to be women. In the sense that: I would be cool with being a woman if being a woman meant nothing and I existed in a void without anyone else around me. Introduce one person to the void and I have to get as far away from being a woman as possible, because their idea of being a woman is always different from mine. Had a big row over my hair - I actually like having long hair, but not when people tell me I ought to. So because I'm having a weird-bad time with being an (ex)woman, it's hard to think or to write about why that's actually enjoyable for many people.

It was never hard before, and once I get this worked out it will be good and easy again and I will write about lots of women. Unfortunately right now all of my women start drifting into manhood.

Otoh: it's very easy for me to write about sex.

my newest fic is about 1) women and 2) sex and that's why it's taking so long to finish. The sex is done, the women are not. Apologies to the intended recipient :'(

[polyamorouspunk]

When I was 17 (I'm now 24), it came out that my father had had a brief (literally twice) affair with my mother's best friend back when I was 2. She was like a second mother to me, and her kids were practically my siblings. I found out because I got home from a weekend away with cadets and my mother was out (she'd just found out and had gone for a drive) and my father was having a massive anxiety attack, so I cycled 5 miles to her house because I thought that was a safe place and she told me. I didn't touch my father or speak to him in anything other than monosyllables for eight weeks.

Growing up my (Savvy) favorite thing in the world (and still is) was canoeing, a love found from joining a canoe team with my best friend where we practiced 5 Sunday a year before going up to the Catskill Mountains for a weekend every year to race in what was the best weekend of my life and at times the only thing that kept me going when I was considering suicide. Today, in fact, my best friend and I are going to get matching tattoos of raccoons in a canoe together as “us” to commemorate those memories and the times we shared and how it brought us together.

When I was 14 my mom took us (my best friend, my neighbor who is basically my sister, and our other friend who we no longer speak to for various reasons) to our scheduled weekend in New York and a few months after that my parents started the divorce process. It wasn’t a “messy” divorce but it was enough that as a minor my mom sheltered me from it as best she could with the help of my brother, who was living with us at the time while he attended college.

Later I found out from my mother that my dad had been in love with her best friend for their entire 25 year marriage and had just “settled” for my mom until her best friend, who has been in 3 marriages or at least had 3 different kids with 3 different fathers, had decided to cheat on her current husband with my dad starting that weekend and they didn’t intend to stop.

My mom advocated for me to have a healthy relationship with my father which I whole-heartedly rejected and she worried that someday I would “regret not maintain a relationship with him”. To this day at 22 I still have 0 regrets with cutting him off by the time I moved from where I’m staying rn (CT) to NC. When he inevitably dies I do not plan on attending his funeral. I only kept contact with him from age 14-18 because my mom insisted on it because she felt like it was the “right thing to do” as she felt guilty in “taking away a parent” from me. I think she’s come to really truly believe that I meant what I said when I said I wanted no contact with him and regrets setting up visitation with my father, however she has told me he would sometimes be pushy about seeing me “only around my birthday and Christmas, like that’s the only time he remembers he has a child” so.

Thankfully they’re all in their 50s and I do not have another step sibling because I do not know how I would feel about that. She was my “aunt” and my godmother, my mom was very close with her kids, I wasn’t really, I’m fact my younger cousin (not blood, obviously, it’s not incest just the terminology we used of like “we’re best friends we’re gonna be like aunts to each other’s kids”, which is the same language my best friend and I used as kids too) bullied me quite often and my mom doesn’t really vibe with the resentment I had for him but I remember hiding in my closet when he would come over crying because he fucking traumatized me so like I have 0 problem with not seeing anyone in that family anymore, though her husband and my mom are still close and talk.

Tl;dr been there, done that, got the t-shirt, not as bad or messy as that it seems for me personally but yeah big oof.

[adjuchasalvaje]

Honestly, the spoilers have left me surprised in certain parts but in others not much since I feel that it was something that was obviously coming in a certain way but that I would still like to comment on.

Note: Long text, read at your own risk.

On the one hand there is the fact that there is a timeline 0. In this timeline Mikey apparently died (possibly before or at the same time as ch. 241 happened) and the plane was the cause. Because of this Shinichiro made the first time travel to prevent that from happening but doing so unintentionally caused the timeline we know now to change but not for the better. It can be said that timeline 0 was the "best" for some, meaning that nothing that has actually happened in the manga happened there. Although he managed to save his brother on that timeleap, he inadvertently caused the fate of others to be harmed in the process.

Knowing this did take me by surprise because I did not imagine that everything had been like this but on the other hand I felt that the rest could be seen coming. Several times in the manga we have been shown the consequences of altering destiny despite the fact that one does it with good intentions. So this is no exception.

On the other hand, there is the timeline that we know as "the original" that in the end turned out to be the result of an alteration to the timeline 0. In this timeline, it can be said that everything has happened differently, but at the same time it also brought certain consequences, becoming one of these Mikey's dark impulses. Until now it was not understood where such impulses came from or what caused them. When the ch.241 came out many, including me, thought that the origin of these was due to the incident that occurred in that chapter but even so the reason seemed very vague to me. But with the little that was given in the ch. 268 and with what will happen in ch.269 it can be understood that the origin of these is as a consequence (so to speak) granted by the change to Mikey's destiny since originally he should not exist.

At the end of last year (before all this) I decided to see the movie Butterfly Effect since many in the fandom associated it with its similarity to the plot (time travel) and I found it very curious, especially the ending. Many commented that the end of the manga would probably be like the end of the movie or something similar and that Takemichi would end up as the protagonist, sacrificing himself. However, for some reason I thought that the one who would end up doing it would be Mikey and not him. From then on I couldn't get that idea out of my head.

I even considered the idea of a loop after reading a tweet since certain events were repeating themselves again but at different times, even so there were things that didn't quite fit and I had doubts about it. I remember that I made a thread about it with what I thought because the idea did not fit me well.

When I read the last (published) chapters of the manga, I understood that everything that had happened so far (including the alternate timelines), had been the consequence of the bad decisions that Mikey had made without being aware that these would affect the lives of the people closest to his environment putting them at risk at the same time. And that's where I thought that it would probably be better if he wasn't in everyone's life but at the same time I also wondered what would become of him if that happened? In the end the ch. 269 gave me the answer.

A part of me knew that Mikey would not end well and that it would take a miracle for that to change but I did not imagine that it would be such a bad thing.

The only thing I can do now is think and wonder how it will all end. Although now more than anything I need answers but for the moment I do not expect anything.

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Tariq and effie

#TARIQ AND EFFIE FULL#

#TARIQ AND EFFIE TV#

Daniel Bellomy as Ezekiel "Zeke" Cross, Monet's hidden son with Mecca and Carrie's new love interest (seasons 1-2).

Lovell Adams-Gray as Dru Tejada, the artistic middle child of Monet and Lorenzo and brother of Cane and Diana who is secretly gay.

Melanie Liburd as Caridad "Carrie" Milgram, one of Tariq's professors who had a secret relationship with Zeke (seasons 1-2).

Gianni Paolo as Brayden Weston, Tariq's best friend and business partner from Choate, as well as current roommate at Stansfield.

Shane Johnson as Cooper Saxe, the attorney protecting Tariq, despite failed attempts to catch Ghost, Tasha, Tommy and Tariq.

Patrick, who is slowly following in his father's footsteps as a drug dealer Along the way, Tariq gets entangled in the affairs of the cutthroat Tejada family, adding further complications as he tries to balance his drug operations with his education, love life, family affairs, and mounting pressure from Cooper Saxe. He was murdered, so keep that in mind.Ghost follows Tariq navigating his new life, in which his desire to shed his father's legacy comes up against the mounting pressure to save his family. “And if you remember, dear readers of the series, Effie’s brother is dead. But I’ll tell you about that later.” perfomance Universe creator Courtney A revealed Kemp in a 2020 Instagram Live. More than that, the third season of Spirit will reveal much more of Effie’s backstory We’re sure if he finds out, it will change the dynamic of their friendship forever.

#TARIQ AND EFFIE FULL#

▶” src=”” frameborder=”0″ allow=”accelerometer auto play write clipboard encrypted media Gyroscope Picture-in-Picture” Allow full screen> Season 3 of Power Book II: Ghost will reveal more of Effie’s backstoryĬurrently Effie and Brayden hold the truth about what happened to Lauren from Tariq. My energy is strong and bold when I walk into a room.” There’s a contrast, but we’re similar in that I have an angular side. We differ in that she can be cold and I am a warm spirit. My relationships mean the most to me, more than anything else. She will hurt everyone in the process, get into trouble and not care at all. ‘With Effie, as you said, she will stop at nothing to get what she needs.

#TARIQ AND EFFIE TV#

“We have some things in common, but for the most part we’re very different,” she explained TV Insider. However, Lapri says that she and Effie are not the same. We saw that when she lured Lauren (Paige Hurd) to her death in Season 2 Spirit. TIED TOGETHER: Power Book II: Ghost fans are convinced Tariq will kill Monet and Lorenzo Tejada to take over their drug empire Alix Lapri says she and her Power Book II: Ghost character Effie are not the sameĪlthough it looks like it Effie loves Tariq, we know that she comes from a very different background than Tariq and Brayden. “Yes, she’s the one.” It’s very unusual for that to happen right now.” He walked into the room and was pretty much like. After I finished, the director leaves and says, “Wait a minute.” He comes back at 50. “A lot of people don’t even know when I first auditioned Den of Thieves‘ Lapri said TV Insider. In fact, he offered her the role on the spot. Calculating and intense perfomance Universe Executive Producer Curtis “50 Cent” Jackson knew Lapri was right for the role when he met her on the set of Den of Thieves. In fact, the trio sold drugs together at Choate boarding school, and when the boys tried to expel Effie, she turned against them, was expelled, and took over the school’s drug pipeline for herself.Įffie mostly took care of herself. Though she and Tariq have become more connected and intimate SpiritEffie has known the drug dealer and his best friend Brayden (Gianni Paolo) since high school. Patrick and Alix Lapri as Effie Morales in Power Book II: Ghost | starz 50 Cent immediately offered Alix Lapri the role of EffieĮffie was there that perfomance universe for some time.

[spatio-rift]

OK AAH hmm i hope u dont mind me talking abt izuki i wanted to kinda tell u about my rarepair and why it came up!!

like ok like as a character izuki gets 0 coverage and 0 anything, he just appears to narrate events happening to other characters, give info on other people, get crumbs of personality and get undermined. overall a kind of sad existence but no time to linger on that! at least he makes goofy faces tbh!

hes a pretty normal guy but he has some really interesting POTENTIAL ideas to work with and for that im like ooh i could pluck him and write side stories about him! because i dont think i could like reasonably refit him into knb without fucking it up, but i still wanna write about him. namely like izukis a Totally normal middle child guy but hes also a smart, observant dude who shows hints of his quick wits, also hes like super stubborn and kinda, kinda like p pragmatic when u notice it. it's like if you like himuro's only child / older brother crisis with being possibly Not able to be the best ever, what if a guy who just accepts his complete and utter normalness is faced with that ALL THE TIME and he just accepts it to the point of possible absurdism.

and so in the process of this thinking its like what character should he interact with that can spawn the most interesting stories with? and i ended up settling with hanamiya because i think in a weird way (its a long story) they have similarities in their thinking and stuff and it's funyn if someone as extreme as hanamiya could get izuki a normal guy to behave like his most deranged self and vice versa where a completely normal guy with the slightest hint of hm maybe hes not normal could drive hanamiya insane. then they realise huuuh we might be similar then the horrors start. i just want hanamiya to psychoanalyse this guy tbh

but tbh it kinda started from a completely random thought, it just happened to work out and im now too attached to stop. i just like izuki for some reason like maybe he's pretty but also just wooaah yea. im like a sucker for side characters. ik like outside though, izuki is a pretty like "shippable" character outside of the like english speaking fanbase so he's got his niche outside too

I DONT MIND AT ALL i asked for it !!! i am taking notes on what u said abt his character so i keep it in mind when i start rereading... i really want to pay more attention to him this time around. ive been trying to do that while reading the weekly chapters on the mangaplus app but i think itd be easier if i could read it all at once though. also ur right i like his silly faces LOL

no but i totally get it i think its really fun to explore how different some characters can act in a new dynamic see what new sides of them another chara can bring out etc i love that! so i really dont think theres anything weird or anything abt it even if its hanamiya i know ive got my fair share of those. also i always love seeing hanamiya being annoyed to no end by any other chara its always so funny lol. it would def be very interesting to see izuki with hanamiya im convinced

[independentartistbuzz]

Indie 5-0: 5Q's with Animals In Denial

Introducing Animals In Denial, the visionary musical project led by Christian Imes. 

A talented songwriter, producer and performer, Imes’ journey began at 14 when he picked up a guitar for the first time. From there, he went on a relentless path of exploring music and creativity. His self-taught approach led him to master not only the guitar, but also synthesisers, drums, and bass guitar. 

In his personal studio, Imes is a musical powerhouse, crafting compositions that brim with emotion and authenticity. 

Occasionally collaborating with his wife, Jeanine, Imes adds depth and dimension to his already multifaceted work. With over a dozen singles and four full-length albums released in 2016 alone, Animals In Denial captivates audiences with its diverse and emotive sound.

We caught up with the dynamic Christian Imes himself to find out more about his dedication and passion for creative music: 

You've been dedicated to your music journey from a young age, starting with your first guitar at 14. How has your journey evolved from playing in local bands to creating your own music as Animals in Denial, and what drives your passion for music?

When I first started playing guitar, I had no ambitions to write anything. I simply wanted to be a  guitar player in a band. Not even the lead guitarist, just one of them. There were several local  bands not able to get out of the garage, or play more than a show or two without disintegrating. I  also ran into the problem where we weren’t writing any original material, but rather just playing  bad cover versions of songs. 

When I started down the path of wanting to write original music, I had no ambitions to write  anything on my own. I wanted to write as a band. All of the local bands that I played with,  seemed to only want to play covers on the weekends, in whatever local bar we could. I  remember trying to get everyone on board with saying “ok, that’s a cool beat, now let’s have the  bass do this, and I’ll do this other part with a guitar.” Trying to wrangle songs out of these  situations generally just got me standoffish attitudes, since I wasn’t a drummer, or bass player,  etc, yet, so who was I to say what part should be played. This was a process that I attempted  with three different local bands. The drummer in the last of those bands said he didn’t like being  told what to play, and the bass player agreed with him. They were brothers, but this had also  happened in the other bands I was in.

Not to be mean but we weren’t doing anything else, and I  wanted to do more. I was ultimately asked to leave these situations. So, I looked around and  thought of my heroes and said “well, if you claim to have so many ideas, then write them down.”  That is what lead me into figuring out how I could make recordings, which is what led me into  computers and synths. 

Of those previous experiences, I joined the last of those bands when I was 16 and that was  where I really got into synths. I responded to an add in the Mountain Express paper and met  with a guy. He was a bit older than me, but he grew up in the synth heyday in the 80’s and  exposed me to synthesizers and multitrack recording at home! 

He gave me a cracked copy of acid pro 4 and I was off to the races. That copy of Acid Pro 4  was a huge upgrade from Sound Recorder and a massive leap over my Tascam 4-track. The  first song I did was done in a car with a Gateway solo laptop. I remember being amazed at how  powerful I felt knowing I could get sounds for and from any style and meld it into something cool. I wanted to make big alternative rock records, with artists and producers who I considered to be  the greats, I wanted to make music videos, and take what inspired me and move the ball  forward even if only a tiny bit. I wanted to make a difference somewhere to someone, as it was  music that saved my life. 

I have loved music since I was a little kid. I remember me and my younger sister would perform  for people my mom would have over when I was about 7 or 8. We loved to sing and dance in  front of people, and they always got into whatever it was. It made us feel great. 

I recall sneaking to watch MTV and once, I had seen a music video from Smashing Pumpkins. I  was around 9 or 10, at the time. Someone in my neighborhood had offered to give me his old cd  since he had moved on to rap music. That copy of Siamese Dream I credit for the reason I  literally didn’t kill myself as a kid in the mid-90’s, as my home life had disintegrated around me from drugs, death, and divorce by that point. I used to pray to God to just kill me because I was  tired of suffering. That whole album from beginning to end let me feel things and made me feel  like “This person gets it, he gets what I’m dealing with.” I never forgot that and someday I  wanted to return the favor to someone out there that was staring into the abyss and needed to  know that they weren’t alone. It made me feel like there was a reason for my suffering and that I  could hopefully be that comfort for someone else. Music literally saved my life. 

Your ability to play multiple instruments and program synthesizers is impressive. Could you share your process for self-teaching and expanding your musical abilities, and how does it influence your creative process as a musician?

When it comes to instrumentation, I play by ear and feel, so I tend to just get my hands on the  instrument and start experimenting. Being that I started playing guitar pre-youtube and my mom  barely could afford the guitar pack, lessons were out of the question, but the pack was a Squier Strat Pack and it was $250. I only got it after begging for two years because she got a child  support back payment. So, what I did was I just used CD’s and tv commercials to learn how to  play instruments. I would just sit with my guitar and listen to songs and just sound them out and  so I learned how to play my entire music collection that way. When I wasn’t doing that I would  watch tv and try to figure out the melodies from the commercials before they ended. 

When I moved into synths and drums I focused with drums learning how to play to anything that  Jimmy Chamberlin or Josh Freese were playing on. Synths was a bit different as I learned how  to play keyboard, then I got into sound design, which the internet played a huge part in, and so,  I spent entirely too much time on Vintage Synth Explorer.com. Synths was a bit weirder as I started off first playing with presets and tracking layers at a time. I got into actually programming sound design not to dissimilar to how I got into computers and that was by needing to  understand how the machine worked to know exactly how to do it again. 

I tend to learn music that moves me and makes me feel. Everything I listen to also has a color  to it, like an actual color hue, that’s similar to ambient lighting in the car. Every sound or song  has one and so depending on where my head is at, it’s what I’ll gravitate towards. 

Learning instruments by learning songs, helps to keep you focused on what it is you’re actually  trying to do and that’s not really trying to master any instrument for me, it’s trying to write more  songs. So I keep a big focus on song craft, and learning songs written by others helps me keep  my ideas fresh. I really don’t believe artist’s write the songs as much as they are channeling  them from some other place. I hear the songs in my head before I write them, and I am drawn to  listen to stuff that has a piece or a snippet that I need in order to get the idea out of my head. 

I’ve since learned a lot about music theory and would like to get deeper into it, but I tend to get  caught up in another song as I am always hearing something in my head. In a big way, my  approach is what helps me stay creative, as by learning from everything I listen to, I am able to  not get married to one type of process for creating songs.

Playing multiple instruments forces you to think about the entire song, and how every part plays  with others, so, I am never trying to show off on any instrument unless the songs asks for it. If a  song is going to have a guitar solo, or a big crazy synth jam, etc it’ll be done tastefully and fit the  song. I think it really helps keep the ego in check, and to me, generates the best songs. 

It's fascinating that you handle almost every aspect of your music, with some production assistance from your wife, Jeanine. Could you tell us more about the collaborative dynamic between the two of you in the creative process?

Me and Jeanine have a few ways we work together. In Animals land, I tend to write the music  first and usually write the lyrics second, and she helps me with deciding vocal approaches. She  really is a big part of why I started to use my voice more, as before it was a lot of yelling. So,  after we have the basic outline of the vocal delivery decided, I record a bunch of vocal takes,  anywhere from 4 -12 of each part, she then has the Herculean task of picking the best takes  from each part. 

After that, I mix for the most part but there are some songs that she actually mixed the bass, as  it’s her favorite instrument. Then I master everything, using Izotope’s AI mastering software. 

In the past, Jeanine would then get anywhere from 3 to 15 versions of a song to listen to in the  car and pick the best one from that. Now, with the AI assistant it’s down to 2 or 3 versions, with  most of the time it being right the first time. Jeanine is also instrumental in helping me with track  sequencing, as we both still agonize over the order the songs flow. We both love when albums  are good from start to finish, with the idea you don’t need to hit the skip button. 

When it comes to the live show, Jeanine is who I entrust to handle main electronic duties, so  she’s playing keyboard and triggering any backing tracks or samples we need. She also does  backing vocals. She also is directly responsible for things actually getting released as I tend to  be really good at making stuff, but not so much with the business side of things. It also goes  with out saying that she’s my biggest cheerleader, but still critical, so, when a vocal isn’t making  her feel it, I know to keep digging. I couldn’t have finished this many songs without her. 

We also have a side project that’ll be coming out early next year we call MOD CON, that’s a  EDM project, where we basically just jam out with synths and sometimes other instrumentation  and it’s purely instrumental although we’re open to collaborating with vocalist, just not either of  us. I also do most of the music for her project we’re working on called Lady Destro, where she’s  lead singer and lyric writer. 

In 2016, you released a significant amount of music, including singles and full-length albums. How do you manage such a prolific output, and what inspires your songwriting and music production during these periods of creativity?

Well, I’ve always written fast because I just constantly hear music in my head. I really can’t shut  it off, I finish one thing and before I can finish one song, 2 or 3 more pop into my head. In 2016,  I wrote 88 songs in 3 weeks, and I only stopped because Jeanine told me I needed to slow  down and decide on some to release. I started out saying I was going to write 10-20 new songs  and it ballooned into 88. There’s still an entire album worth of songs from those sessions that I  haven’t released yet. 

I have ASD so I tend to be super detail orientated so, I hyper research every piece of gear and  tech I have, to set things up in a way that I can’t help but record something. I currently have over  700 pieces of new music I am working on, and a little over half of it is Animals music, and the  rest is for other projects. I just am constantly hearing new songs in my head, so I have to get  them out. I have multiple tracking rigs set up and an audio interface on every computer I own,  even upstairs in my bedroom, and with the price of old Macs, and studio gear for pennies on the  dollar I am close to putting a small rig in my bathroom. 

I am basically always on or working on something. The vocals are really the hardest part for me,  as the music is what I hear the loudest in my head. The words are almost always jumbled in my  head and that’s where my wife Jeanine is invaluable as she helps me zero in on the right  method of delivery. I honestly don’t think I can really help but create and write songs, as it feels  like I’m going to wither away and die if I don’t. 

I’m inspired by my heroes and all of the great music that was made before me, and there is so  much to draw from. I like to think of myself as “song agnostic” approach wise, meaning the  instrumentation or method of recording everything can change. No formula, just taking what I  hear in my head and bringing it into a format everyone can hear. 

The lollapalooza festival in the 90’s is probably my biggest source of inspiration as to me it really  was the second pinnacle of music. I think we’re due for a third and I’m trying to do my part, but  that festival and the artist’s that played it, being so different from each other but, all sharing  stages and audiences was incredible and I wish I would’ve been older to be able to experience  it. Everyone I meet that went might as well be a celebrity to me. So, to me, AID is a direct by product of that festival. I think it also set me up to always chase where the next good song is,  and to know that not every guitar part needs a distortion pedal. 

It’s a similar bent with production and just like I have guitar heroes, drum heroes, songwriter  heroes, synth heroes etc, I also have production heroes. That list is small when compared to the  number of artists I listen to but it’s a mighty list. Alan Moulder and Flood are at the top of that  list, as well as Butch Vig, Steve Allbini, Ken Andrews and the great Rick Rubin. Trent Rezonr is  one of the heroes that overlaps in so many areas. To me they’re the finest producers in the land  and can’t be beat. The albums they had a hand in are just beyond top notch and are the gifts  that keep on giving. There’s certain parts or certain songs that come on and the room is just  flooded with color, and you can feel it light your whole body. It’s like that feeling you get when  you get a bottle of water after mowing your lawn on a really hot day. It’s like your insides  become super alert! It’s exhilarating and probably why I don’t do drugs.

As an independent musician, what are your goals and aspirations for Animals in Denial, and what can fans expect in terms of new music or projects in the near future?

My biggest goal’s with AID are to get to work with my heroes that inspired me to pick up an  instrument in the first place. I’d probably be satisfied with just knowing that they heard it, and  thought it was pretty freaking cool. But I am doing everything I can to be able to make records  with my heroes as I feel like we could do something that would shake up the world! 

We have another of the revisited series singles just released, and the first ep in that series will  be out November 10th. We have several batches of the revisited songs that I can’t wait for  everyone to hear, as it is what I meant to say, it’s what I heard in my head! 

Currently we are working to build up the live show and possibly tour, although, we’re looking at  the modern world here and so making live streaming a key component to all live shows is goal  1. Also, thinking about how to reach the most people, the most efficient way. Fans can expect  

to hear more music! There’ll be lots of new music and they’ll see more performances and  videos. We have the revisited series that we’re releasing now and then after that will be another  round of albums of new music, as I have so many new songs! 

I also will have side projects that are releasing. MOD CON being the first of them, and some  others to follow. I’d like to have them further along before I can give details but one of the  projects is a guitar record, that’s mostly for other guitar players, so think of John 5, Joe Satriani kind of thing. I’m also hoping to find a band I can play drums in and just be the drummer, but  that’s a pretty good ways away so we’ll just leave that out for now.

Stay up to date with Animals In Denial on the Website, and Facebook. 

Stream music on Spotify, Soundcloud and YouTube music.

[chrysolipsist]

Pre-Milkshake Ducking

It's probably better if you find out someone is a shithead before you expose their personality to the rest of the world. I was thinking that there is basically 0% chance anyone will ever pay any attention to anything that I post, should some post I make become viral and people try to guess at my identity and what-not and scrutinize the content of my posts to try to figure out if I am some sort of *-ist, how would the conversation be like with the public?

public: Are you a racist, sexist, homophobe, transphobe, or in other ways bigoted?

me: No.

public: Have you ever abused another person or animal?

me: Absolutely not!

public: Are you fair in your dealings with others? With people over whom you have power?

me: Yes, I do my best.

public: Oh yeah, how about unions? Do you support them? Are you in one?

me: I, uh, am not in one but I support them.

public: yeah, you support them up until you have to make a personal sacrifice, right? Would you be willing to walk off the job if your colleagues needed it? Refuse to do your duties? Even if it meant you'd lose pay?

me: I, um, don't know, that's a very hard question to answer but I'd like to think that I would do the right thing and stand in solidarity with my fellows.

public: Oh, "solidarity" is it? I guess you stand in solidarity with the globalist backers who control those unions, don't you? And want to make sure you get held down with all the other lazy-asses who don't want to hustle a little and make more. You stand up for them because you're lazy, aren't you? You're one of the lazy rats dragging down those better than them, like that analogy about the crabs in the bucket, also let me work in that other one about a frog not noticing that they're boiling if you turn the heat up slow. (((They))) control you, don't you? Admit it!

me: How do you even begin to answer this shit, is my question.

public (100%): Okay let's do this differently. We're adding a rating. Let's change the subject and start with less consequential questions to get at how you are as a human being. How do you hang your toilet paper? Over or under?

me: Over.

public (75%): Okay. What's your opinion about astrology?

me: I don't believe in it myself but I think it's a mostly harmless and fun thing. I mean how many decisions do we make that are purely arbitrary anyway?

public: (68%): Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? No fence-sitting. You have to pick one.

me: I like both, but since you're forcing me, I would have to say cat person because they're less demanding animals.

public: (55%): Let's go back to astrology. Remember when you posted that (ahem) "funny" image but you put "Astronomy" instead of "Astrology"? How stupid are you?

me: Look, I didn't even notice it. It was a stupid mistake. I posted a correct version later.

public: (42%): Oh sure but nobody saw that or cared about it. Look at you, you lamebrain loser. You don't know the difference between astronomy and astrology.

me: Look, it was a stupid mistake like I said. Listen, I'm so hard-wired to not confuse it the other way, like look how stupid you look if you mix it up the other way and say astrology when you mean astronomy? Like, "how's your astrologer brother who runs a planetarium doing these days" is way more embarrassing don't you think?

public (21%): That's what you call COPE, lol, COPE HARDER BITCH

me: Don't use your twenties neologisms on me, I don't know what you're saying.

public (13%): This piece of shit is OLD. He remembers when 9/11 happened, he probably can tell you exactly what he was doing that day and everything. He was alive when the USSR was still around. That's right, he's older than Crystal Pepsi. His balls are probably saggy and he probably smells like piss.

me: None of these statements are wholly untrue.

public (4%): Okay, well that's the end of the process and you are left with a final score of 4%. That's right, your approval rating is 4% of the mainstream of normal people, but since this is the Internet there is a vast number of people who do like you although they're not connected to you but guess what! You don't particularly like them! Ah but that's the whole "principle of maximum irony" thing going on isn't it, maybe you'll post about that sometime, if you haven't already done so! Who knows, someone may even read it!

[lornahansonforbes]

Tonight at the job, a group of people came in and stayed way too long for my liking. At one point they had been there for over an hour and I was patient. Oh so patient. Because I had overheard them saying that they were waiting on a ride. I asked them about that ride and where was that ride coming from Springfield? Illinois or Massachusetts? Okay? What a fucking three hour tour? I said that whatever was happening they should wrap it up and move along. I heard some chatter amongst them and I couldn’t give a flying fuck on a rolling doughnut.

A few minutes later, my coworker came to me and said something about them being homeless or some shit. I told her that I had been homeless too and she comes back with she knows someone who is homeless and that this person is unable to get out of the situation. I said forty-five years ago, the safety nets did not exist as they do today in 2023. I was not going there with her.

From first hand experience, due to my drug addiction and my inability to cope, I fucked up. Today, I take responsibility, ownership and I hold myself accountable for my actions and my mistakes. For two years I was homeless. I was running the streets and I was a thief, a Shitkicker, a prostitute and I was sucking dick to support my drug addiction. I was giving my body to some man just to get $20 bucks so that I could buy more pills. Whether I was in a dress and high heels or in jeans and a T shirt, I’d say something like, “Oh, Daddy. That big old fine car all by yourself and it’s cold outside. Need a date? You spend, I bend.” Or something like that. Whatever I said, it got his attention and off we went. A few hours later, I had a fistful of pills and off I went to cause more trouble. Sometimes it was a good time or I’d end up alone in a cold dark dank basement quietly enjoying my high.

Regardless of the history, I fucked up. I allowed it to happen. I opened the door and let the shit hit the fan. As I recount the conversation with my coworker, I call bullshit. There’s a part of the story that she’s not telling me. Then I see homeless folks and families. I feel bad for them but god damn it to hell, y’all got here and y’all ain’t taking absolutely no ownership etc and y’all don’t hold yourselves accountable for Jack shit. The bullshit I see on TikTok. “He was out with another woman” and blasé blasé blasé. Someone somewhere did something that led to this situation. As an example, I know someone who’s Ex is not stable and is not in a good place. She did what she had to do to get a roof over her head but her Ex allegedly has done nothing to move forward. There’s help available. There are avenues to visit and explore but The Ex chooses not to do anything to help himself.

As I mentioned earlier, someone I know has her abuser in our shared space and she gets on other social media platforms and posts about how wonderful things are and how much she loves him. Again, I call bullshit. It may be okay as I write this but trust and believe, it’s going to happen and 5-0 will show up at the crib. My abuser is dead and he can’t hurt me anymore. I allowed him to hurt me. I gave him entree. I gave him Carte Blanche. Why? Because I thought he loved me. He may have actually loved me but in retrospect he didn’t love me.

In 2023, I look back and I see the mistakes I made but the other people don’t see that they aided and abetted the process of destruction. They are not the ones. They’re completely innocent? Nah. I don’t think so. Like one person I know who I had been close with because I was close to another person who I knew long before I met them. They had asked me how the other person was doing. I went to another social media platform and read verbatim the words that they themselves had written. Unbeknownst to me, this person then got on the phone and left voicemails saying that I had said this that and the third. I got a phone call from the brother who said that I was under fire. I said stop rocking the boat. I told him exactly what happened and I was sticking to my story. He rang off. Then some time passed. Absolute silence. I cut both of them off. I have spoken to the brother since and said they both will have to live with the consequences of their actions. I know I’m guilty of telling what was written on social media. Yet I’m better because of it. I took my penance. Not them. They still blame me for the dissolution of our friendship. Wrong.

That person stirred the pot and the other person believed it. I said it from jump, they’re just going to start shit and say, I am innocent.

The point I’m making here is: YOU are not innocent. You had a hand in this. You allowed shit to happen. Have you taken ownership, responsibility? Have you accepted, acknowledged and affirmed that you had a hand in this? If you haven’t yet, then you will continue to besmirch your good name. If you have done any of the aforementioned and you are working on yourself, then we have something to talk about. Like I said, you don’t end up homeless without having a hand in it. Should you choose to get help, great. If not, zero sympathy from me.

I’m going through some shit and I’ll come out the other side. But know I’m working on myself.

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Media Workout Notes: Devin Haney & George Kambosos Jr. Ready for Second Undisputed Down Under Showdown

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Published: October 13, 2022

MELBOURNE, Australia (Oct. 13, 2022) — Undisputed lightweight world champion Devin “The Dream” Haney first came to Australia in June with one world title. He returned home with all the belts and is intent on repeating his virtuoso performance against George Kambosos Jr.

Haney will defend the titles in enemy territory against Kambosos on Sunday afternoon (Saturday evening prime time in the U.S.) at Rod Laver Arena in Melbourne.

The two combatants faced off yesterday, but at today’s open workout, they were kept separate. Haney (28-0, 15 KOs) received a warm reception from the local fans, who witnessed him unifying all the titles just four months earlier at Melbourne’s Marvel Stadium. Kambosos (20-1, 10 KOs) enters the rematch as the betting underdog and hopes to recapture the magic that propelled him to a stunning title-winning effort over Teofimo Lopez last year.

Haney-Kambosos 2 will be broadcast live on ESPN, ESPN Deportes and ESPN+ at 10:30 p.m. ET/7:30 p.m PT.

Undercard bouts — streaming live and exclusively on ESPN+ at 8 p.m. ET/5 p.m. PT — include twin brothers Jason & Andrew Moloney in separate contests. Jason Moloney will take on Thailand's Nawaphon Kaikanha in a final eliminator for the WBC bantamweight world title, while Andrew Moloney battles the Dominican contender Norbelto Jimenez for the vacant WBO International junior bantamweight strap. This is what the main event fighters had to say. Devin Haney "We've definitely made some adjustments, learned from the first fight. Obviously, we all know he's going to come with a different game plan. The same things that worked in the first fight may not work as good in the second fight, so we're preparing for it all." "We just have to see how the fight plays out. We're prepared to win by any means necessary, so that's our main focus is winning. If a knockout comes, then it comes, but my main focus is winning." "He definitely should've been humbled, but at the end of the day, his head got big. It got to his head." "I enjoy the process, every step of it. I enjoy the whole process, and I'm excited for the press conference tomorrow and the weigh-ins." "He's making up every excuse in the book. He said he wasn't going to, but now they're saying I was holding, it was this, it was that. Whatever you want to say, he can keep saying it. The talk doesn't matter. I'm going to go in there and do what I'm going to do regardless. No matter what referee is in there, no matter where the fight is at, it doesn't matter." George Kambosos Jr. "I feel a lot of energy, very relaxed, very zoned in. Like I said, I'm a fighter. I'm not trying to do anything else. It's going great, going fantastic. We're very focused. We're very zoned in and hungry for victory. That's all." "When I went back to that dressing room {after the first fight}, my mindset changed right away. I'm a challenger again. I wasn't upset. I'm in a familiar place, and this is where I've been most of my career. Doubt me? No problem. I love when they doubt me. I love when they think I have no chance. That's OK. We'll prove them wrong once again." "We've come with a fantastic game plan, so we're ready for whatever. If he brings whatever style, if he's the same style, if he brings somehow an Arturo Gatti kind of style, which I doubt very highly, let's see. Let's see on Sunday what he tries. Man to man, let's fight!" "I have a smaller team. I don't have too much of an entourage, but I got a team I'm very comfortable with. I'm taking it old school. I'm going back to what got me there." Follow the Top Rank YouTube Channel for daily fight week content ahead of Haney-Kambosos 2. Haney and Kambosos recently sat down for the first time since their June showdown. Click here to see what they had to say.

Saturday, October 15 ESPN, ESPN Deportes & ESPN+ (10:30 p.m. ET/7:30 p.m. PT) Devin Haney vs. George Kambosos 2, 12 rounds, Haney's Undisputed Lightweight World Championship ESPN+ (8 p.m. ET/5 p.m. PT) Jason Moloney vs. Nawaphon Kaikanha, 12 rounds, WBC Bantamweight Final Eliminator Andrew Moloney vs. Norbelto Jimenez, 10 rounds, Vacant WBO International Junior Bantamweight Title Cherneka Johnson vs. Susie Ramadan, 10 rounds, Johnson's IBF Junior Featherweight World Title Adrian Sosa vs. John Mannu, 6/5 rounds, junior welterweight (SWING BOUT) OFF TV (6 p.m. ET/3 p.m. PT) Hemi Ahio vs. Faiga Opelu, 8 rounds, heavyweight David Nyika vs. Titi Motusaga, 6 rounds, cruiserweight Amari Jones vs. Tej Pratap Singh, 6 rounds, middleweight Lorenzo Simpson vs. Marcus Heywood, 8 rounds, middleweight

(Featured Photo: Mikey Williams/Top Rank via Getty Images)