#my health has tanked so i just do this all the time so i dont go crazy lol

[acheyri]

hello tumblr i wanted to share my little crochet things because i crochet a lot now

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

[trashbaget]

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[thesicklycowboy]

If you are a physically disabled peep who thinks pd folk are above mentally disabled folk in the struggle? Go fuck yourself and dont talk to me. (Second image example)

If you are a mentally disabled peep who thinks md folk are above physically disabled folk in the struggle? Go fuck yourself and dont talk to me.(1st image example)

Disability is disability. Diff shit, sure. But same stink and equally as valid. And yes I get peeps have fucked each other up before in the struggle for rights and humanity before. Which is exactly what Im talking about rn. Because its that punching down bullshit again. Walking over each other and then pointing out how "well were better than them atleast?" Shove it up your ass if you got one. Or any other hole. Im not picky.

Were in this shit. If we like it or not. And we gotta figure it out together. But youre scum if you think demonizing others makes you a punk. Or a real activist or whatever.

And yeah. That included self diagnosed folk too. Diagnoses are a privilege. Hard to come by. And sometimes very dangerous. And if youre a real one you know that.

So shut the fuck up and quit being assholes. Fuck the system up. Not each other.

Image Description: A pale woman in a striped pink and white tank top with darker pink tone pants stands besides a man in a wheel chair. She has a ponytail, is looking at him to her right with both hands raised in anger and with frown. Man sits beside her with tan skin, an uncomfortable frown, full body cast and neck brace. There is a text bubble leading from the woman asking "Why don't you just try harder?" (The words "try harder" is underlined for emphasis.) Text at the top reads [#mentalillnessfeelslike]. There is a logo at the bottom left for Mental Health America. And the artists watermark on the bottom right that reads [Gemma Correll]

Image description: There is a plain white background with pink and black text. The pink is in a more elegant font. The top line is in pink and larger than the rest. It reads, "I AM SICK". The next line is in the smaller simple, black font. It reads, "I'm not stupid or mentally disabled. I'm not crazy. It's not stress, it's not in my head. I'm not causing this to myself. I'm not making it up. I'm learning about myself everyday. How well I deal with this sickness. I can still do things for myself. I like my independence, but sometimes may need your help." Then the font changes to an equally small pink, elegant font and reads, "Don't take that as weakness, or that I'm giving up. I'm trying the best I can." Finally, in the black font again it reads, "We all need a little boost from time to time, lend a hand. You never know how much it could mean."

[poetthewriter]

HAII POET:3

the one and only baby girl here.one I hope ur doing well and safe:D [if not I'll just magically make u feel better!!]

and two I wanna know some of your mooner!mumbo w his partner headcanons bc the season 8 brain rot is strong rn. if that's okay:p

- 🪶

MOONER MUMBO X READER HEADCANNONS

𝑯𝒆𝒓𝒎𝒊𝒕𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒇𝒕= 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒃&𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒄𝒆𝒔🌱🧄🌿

A/N- OMG FEATHER DEAR I HAVE MISSED YOU BRO I FEEL BETTER JUST FROM TALKING TO YOU! btw im so so sorry i havent been around i dont know why but i hbave been feeling very uninspired. <3

Boatem forever is my saying i swear the best group in all of Hermitcraft.

-what a worrisome man mumbo is, from the bigginging of you and mumbos relationship and before you even started dating you were always concerned about the mans physical structure, being a very tall and lanky man you always made sure to take care of his health

-i know its a common head cannon but i could 100% see mumbo as a moth hybrid but I also like to head cannon him as a deer or elk hybrid

-i think that his deer half, his personality and the fact he hasn't slept in so long he would extremely jumpy. I could totally see you just walking up to him and tapping him and he just freaks out jumping out of his skin.

-he definitely calls you things like My moon, Star, different names of constellations and stuff like that

-you try everything to try and get him to sleep, every night you try and get him somewhere comfy and warm and try and make him some type of warm drinks like tea and cocoa.

-you stay up most nights when mumbo is up to some task outdoors and fight off all the phantoms to protect him.

-i feel that with how much free time he has now he would like to read when hes bored and i would like to think he is really into history books and folklore.

- im sorry but bro he has some messy ass hair his hair is 100% always messy (im not sorry messy hair is cute bro) i also think he would wear alot of tank tops and sweaters.

-mumbo and you both go star gazing often, over time the two of you two learn all the constellations and point them out to each other and telling their stories, id like to imagine the two of you have a game of making new constellations and creating story's for them.

-mumbo is infatuated with every thing you do and everything you do for him and when you do stuff for/with him like baking, stargazing, reading, and all his other hobbies he melts.

-after months and months mumbo and the mooners realize that the moon and the gravitational issues wont change even in they warship the dear moon mumbo finally returns to you, you both cuddle up in your bed as a fresh breeze runs through your room and then you two fall asleep under a pile of blankets and each others warmth.

[raideo]

Bruh ...... let me tell you, I actually started paying attention to my nutrition intake and I was not eating as healthy as I thought I was like goddamn...

I mean the things I was eating WERE healthy but like, the pacing/frequency of food intake, ratio of macronutrients and micronutrients were completely and utterly fucked six ways from Sunday, I had no idea my diet was so screwed up and thats why I felt like I was DYING ALL THE TIME!!!!!! BECAUSE I KINDA FUCKIN WAS, LMAO!!!!!

I feel like a whole different person this is the best thing ive ever done for myself omg

If you feel like shit all the time please consider getting a nutrition tracking app and DONT!!! DO IT FOR WEIGHT LOSS!!! THAT SHOULD NOT BE YOUR GOAL UNLESS YOU NEED TO FOR HEALTH REASONS, Just do it with the goal of trying to get the macro/micronutrients you should be getting and oh my god it will make such a difference if your diet is unbalanced I promise you.

I was not getting nearly enough protein or fiber before omfg. No wonder i could exercise as much as i wanted and i never seemed to get stronger and i always fucking hurt all the time! Jesus christ!!! 🤦‍♂️ i feel so stupid but also I cannot be the only one who struggles with this PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD BALANCE YALLS DIETS

Also extra note about the fiber- if you get very little you should not go straight to getting the full recommended amount you will have a BAD TIME. Im glad I knew about this already and did not have to learn it the hard way. You gotta give your body days or sometimes weeks to adjust to increasing it, because gut bacteria is responsible for helping you digest that stuff and if you don't have enough they cannot handle a large amount- you gotta give them time to multiply 👍 (i cant believe my fish tank cycling knowledge applies to my own human body this shit is wild)

Anyway nutritional education in this country is fucked so bad, overhauling my diet has only made me more angry that shit is so expensive and school/workplace culture is so hostile to you snacking often like you should be. How the fuck is a person supposed to get the nutrients they're supposed to to fuel their body and brains when they're only allowed to eat once like every 6-10 hours?! Im so glad my job doesn't have an issue with me constantly snacking on stuff because it's extremely physical and I have come to realize it's quite literally imperative to my body's optimal function that I have that.

🪓 capitalism die

[halinski]

Tagged by @all-or-nothing-baby 🥰🥰

15 QUESTIONS, 15 (or whatever) TAGS

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYBODY?

My mother's hs best friend basically! She lives in Bosnia so i don't know her much but I have met her

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

Uhh i can't remember but probably like last week or so. I dissociate too much to remember when or why lmao

3. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

nope

4. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?

Not much tbh. Im afraid of being misunderstood too much bc people generally do

5. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?

Softball mostly!

6. WHAT’S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT SOMEONE?

My gut feeling about them, and if they might understand mental health stuff or not

7. EYE COLOUR?

Hazel-green

8. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

Scary movies for sure. Irrational happy endings make me angry

9. ANY SPECIAL TALENTS?

10. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

Central europe, meh

11. WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?

Nature, reading, writing, sports, chilling with animals, learning stuff

12. DO YOU HAVE PETS?

2 cats! And a few past darlings in spirit

13. HOW TALL ARE YOU?

173cm

14. FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

I used to always try to come up with some answer to this to please people but i didnt have one past 3rd grade bc i absolutely detested school, the educational systems and academia so fuck no, no favorite subjects. Fuck schools.

(The one good school i went to grade pre till 3rd i enjoyed also had really good pedagogists. In 3rd grade i think i loved math the most bc my teacher designed individual plans for us and my classmate and i raced to finish higher level work, in 2nd i think it was the class where we read and wrote and were creative like think tank and reading dino topia and writing our own magical treehouse, in 1st grade it was science and experementing and the frogs and butterfly class.

On my own time i watched so many animal rescue shows and nation geography and we had so many of their magazines and natyre magazines my mother got that were sorted out from the library. And i read a lot of history books about ancient and pre-historic times and different cultures and that was great. I was also obsessed with animals and read cyclodpedias and had them quickly memorized. But by the time i was 9 i was too depressed and i dont know shit anymore my brain too forgetful

and that's why i'm so mad about the school systems bc i truly loved, loved learning. But even the good school would give me failing grades for my social behavior. And without ranting even further, lets just say math used to be like breathing for me and now i can barely put 48+32 together without a calculater anymore bc my brain is so dead

So much more complicated issues yeah but school still makes me so fucking mad)

15. DREAM JOB?

somehow i got lucky and i kinda ended up in the field of my dream job: vet tech/nurse

i wish i could save any animal i come across though. Regardless of money, laws, etc. I wish i could save nature. Fix what humanity has done to the earth and to so many animals. Relieve suffering. Give love to every stray. Make sure every living being has a home. Get rid of ownership over land and living beings of any and all kind

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If you see this, tag you're it and pls @ me!

[i--antimony]

tuesday

i am bruising my fingers from how hard im knocking on wood but my health has been ??? good ???? are we back baby???

listening: IM ALMOST DONE WITH TWILIGHT MIRAGE...i just started the finale episodes and i think ill finish it before the next tuesdaypost!! and also the over the garden wall soundtrack as per the 'watching' section, and also delta's synthtober playlist :) it's. good. i'm really sad the spooky scary skeletons got removed though.

reading: fanfic!

locked tomb: ptolemia, like the gates of hell, explicit, mind the fuckin warnings fr

in the season of mirabells, very charming jodybeth

homestuck: splickedyhat, aliens sure are weird, fun little exploration of making the homestuck aliens More Alien

watching: my roommate decided she wanted to do a Yay October night so she made non-alcoholic hot toddies (by cooking off the alcohol lol) and pumpkin ravioli in a pumpkin sauce and we rewatched over the garden wall. i didn't even cry this time! i love that show so much.

making: working on my market bag more, i'll add photos once it's recognizably a market bag! and also trying valiantly to finish my fucking tank top. i've been working on it for over a year. literally all i have left is the straps but i'm full of indecision over them.

so i decided to be clever and over-engineer straps instead of committing to normal straps, a tie, or a racerback. i sewed some buttons on and technically finished one of the straps, but it looks. so bad with the buttonholes. i think because of the pattern, it's not just a knit strap but a knit one/slip one purlwise with yarn in front alternating type deal which does create a cool tube-like texture but it does mean that breaking it up to make buttonholes totally fucked it. i'm deciding now whether or not i want to unravel it and just redo it in a normal knit or stockinette so that it won't look like shit with the buttonholes, or if i just want to commit to making it normal straps because let's be totally real, i will never wear it without a bra (so neck tie right out) (UNLESS...i sew bra cups into it.....)(no i wont do this i dont think it'll look good) and i basically never wear racerbacks either. so. much to consider for that. maybe ill make a tumblr poll for it later with some photos lol id love to solicit some opinions.

i've also been working on my songxuexiao college fencing au fic. it's really silly and self-indulgent but that's what makes it fun to do lol.

misc: bro the kerr metric can suck my entire ass <3 that's all. the math for this week's homework is so nasty haha

[jennilah]

Happy NYE! Every year I enjoy taking a moment to write a somewhat lengthy roundup of my year, good and bad. Its a moment for me to reflect and summarize & expand on things that in hindsight ended up being bigger moments than it felt at the time

like always, I dont want anyone to feel like you have to compare your successes to mine. I simply enjoy being an open book. I like reading other people's personal posts too ♥

This year was incredible for me. This was the year of taking back my life after covid took the last two years. Vaccinated & approaching things as safely as possible according to health guidelines, I was able to do things again, and boy what good things they were!

First off, this was the first full calendar year that I've spent in the new apartment. I swear, this accounts for at least a third of my happiness this year. I can't believe I've already lived here for over a year now, it feels like I just moved in yesterday, and yet I can't believe I dealt with my old apartment for as long as I did. Even thinking about how much that place sucked ass ruins my mood, no wonder my mental health was TANKING when I had to work from home there.

New apartment, new me. This place is incredible and I really feel like I can breathe and live how I want to. Working from home is actually nice instead of unbearable (I now work in a hybrid system, home for a few days and in-office for a few days, since I like aspects of both equally.)

First things first, right away in January I got my first VR headset and I absolutely love it to pieces. That opened up a whole new hobby for me, going into VR and exploring and making whole ass new friends in VRchat. I just think it's so fucking rad and I am so glad i bought the headset.

I then joined a new private art community (lmao that sounds so nefarious. I promise it isnt. I just get to have 1 secret, okay?) that has been so fun and really uplifted my mood at the start of the year, and it continues to be very fun! I am so glad I joined!!!

In fact, that very community helped a lot when it came to silencing my two-year-long streak of "Hell Brain", what I affectionately call the daily swirling anxious thoughts in my head that constantly echo when I dont have a special interest to occupy my daydreams. (Reminder: I am autistic! I am using the term in the autistic sense. By this point, i hadn't had a special interest/hyperfocus in years and I was having a really hard time silencing the Hell Brain on my own.)

It wasnt a perfect solution but it helped a lot, at least. It also drew me even closer to an already-close friend! bonding, yay! and I have met some really cool new people in that community too, who I really hope to keep connecting with!!

I also started to get real about my physical health, trying to eat healthier and exercise more.

Then, the summer of a lifetime began.

(First of all, I saw so many fucking movies. I love going to the movies, and I ate well this year!!! so many amazing films came out.)

I had my first salary negotiation with my bosses, and it went so well that they even asked the higher-ups for more money than I asked for. Because they were super cool, and I guess they wanted to make it very clear how much they appreciate me too. They have already made it extremely clear already how much they value my opinions and skillset, but translating that appreciation to $$ was certainly a bonus.

Then, my fucking god, Top Gun: Maverick finally came out and it has felt like a dream ever since. I couldn't believe- I still can't believe the reception it has gotten. My head is in the clouds. I'm floating. I'm every happy feeling, okay? I wonder if I will ever work on something like that again, that becomes such a worldwide phenomena like this. Completely utterly blown-away. I saw the movie 3 times in theaters myself, so I cant say I'm too shocked. I loved it too!!! I am so proud and just... amazed.

Shortly after, I got to fly home and see my family again for the first time since 2019. I made the most of it. It was one of the most fun trips home I ever had. It was even more fun that I got to see Top Gun with my parents, and I got to finally talk about it with people. It was also fun being home in the summer, hanging out outside, pool parties, BBQ... perfection. I love the vibes of summer nights.

I came back to Montreal refreshed, and then Con Season started up. Comic/Anime cons are probably my favorite events ever, and I was very sad not being able to go to any in the last two years. So it felt amazing to go back again (and buy a lotttt of nerdy stuff lmao)

I even went to a virtual convention in VR! lmao. it was super cool though!

I went to a Woodkid concert for the first time. It was incredible. It also felt like a dream. A+, would go again. Absolutely love his music.

My cousin visited me here in Montreal! That was so much fun. She's the closest thing to a sister to me, and we hadn't hung out just the two of us alone since we were kids. We went to Osheaga, my first music festival, and that whole experience was incredibly fun. It was great hanging out with her and catching up and everything, and I am so glad we got to go to the festival together.

She also helped me try weed for the first time LOL

She taught me how to properly use a bong. I have since switched to a dry-herb vaporizer, but indeed this is a new sort of hobby thing that has slotted into my life this year as well.

It has actually been quite lovely for tackling my aforementioned Hell Brain and anxiety, and also just for funsies.

Then, Prey came out, and I consider it another absolute win. Two movies I worked on that came out in the same year, that have both been critical and fan successes??!!! I am so, so happy. Will lightning strike like that again next year? We will just have to see!

Then there was a really fun street food festival that I thoroughly enjoyed for hours and hours on end. And Splatoon 3 came out, which I also enjoyed for hours and hours on end.

I definitely heavily mourned summer ending, because as you can tell, I was having a lot of fun cramming in events before the weather could turn.

But, like, that's kind of okay because I had no idea that my two year long streak of not having a special interest was about to change VERY suddenly lmao

This October I worked up the courage to really dive into slasher films, like I tried doing last year. (Last year I only really worked up the courage to watch the first Halloween, lol)

and, well, oops. you know what happened next.

(In case it isnt clear: they took hold of my brain and have been squeezing the juices out every day since october. meaning: I FINALLY have a new special interest! It's not something I choose, it's not something I plan, it just happens. and while sometimes fandom drama can wear me down, I am ultimately at my happiest when I have an active special interest. It gives me something to fill my brain, it gives me something that I am excited to draw, I have so much fun talking to other fans and enjoying memes, I discover new music, old music has new meaning again for new characters.... I missed this feeling so much. It feels so good it makes my chest feel tight, like I have butterflies in my stomach. I never know how long it will last, but it's not going away soon thats for sure)

So, I've obviously been having a lot of fun with my new blorbos and my new hobbies. Sometimes I smoke a little weed while rewatching Friday the 13th films, it's so much fun haha

Then, late November, I was accepted into the Visual Effects Society. That is more of a personal badge of honor. It's something I've been wanting to do since college, so as soon as I hit the required 5 years of industry experience I applied. I got in! I am excited to check out some of the more exclusive membership perks and events, but for the most part I am just proud of the achievement. I remember when 5 years felt like a lifetime to wait to apply.

I have been working on some more extremely cool things at work that I can't wait to share. Unfortunately I am waiting for a whopping three films to come out with a trailer. Cmon, hollywood!! You're killing me!!!!! I am so excited for those movies to come out, it's eating me alive not being able to say anything.

At least the Transformers: Rise of the Beasts trailer is out. That was a fun 'un. (But I want the trailers for the other things too!!!!)

And to round off the year, I just got back to MTL after finally spending Christmas at home with my family for the first time since 2019. That felt really special. I got to see everyone in the summer, yes, but our traditional family christmas get-together is what I look forward to every year and I was so glad to be able to do it again.

And there you have it. A much, much, much happier year than the last two.

My new year's resolution is to keep going with the physical health habits and to not fall off the wagon. It's also to keep living my life and go to more events to make next year feel just as full and eventful as this one was. Hang out with my friends more. Watch more of my silly little movies.

I'd also love to try to plan a trip outside of montreal, maybe to Toronto or something. I want to go on a real vacation trip alone again (or with friends.) I think that would be really fun!

[samarecharm]

some combat hcs for akira (based off of how i actually played my first run of base p5) bc if i dont write them down i will succumb to My Thoughts infinitely rotating in my brain like a rubiks cube

-one of the weaker thieves in terms of raw damage output which is made up for with his flexibility. A diverse roster of personas makes him a very good supportive teammate

- ideal weapons are throwing knives, but can use Regular knives just as efficiently. Getting hit with Rage makes him unable to use throwing knives the Correct way, so he stops using them against new enemies. He still likes using them in mementos where Most shadows are documented

-guns are Strong. They make him look cool (subjective). They also have insane recoil that he is Not used to so he avoids them for the beginning of the game. Hes not a terrible shot either! Lots of training goes into just learning how to withstand the recoil without hurting himself

-(goro is the only thief that doesnt need to practice this)

-Focuses heavily on making sure his teammates perform the best they can (as a leader™️). He and Mona are the main support of the team despite ann learning a healing skill early on. Mona is the main healer/debuff cleanser while Akira focuses on debuffing shadows/buffing teammates

-inadvertently becomes the main tank of the team due to painstakingly min/maxing his shadows. Hours of experimenting in the velvet room to get the best combination of skills in order to block/repel as many typings as possible.

-he is the personification of that ffxiv tank post: “look at me. Look at me. You wanna fight me so bad; dont look at the hoes i came in with, look at me”

-LOTS of personas that cast Forget, Confusion, and Charm. Unhealthy interest in fuckin around w shadows. Like. Very minor sadistic tendencies as the game progresses. Knowing that the shadows ‘late game’ are exceedingly powerful and dangerous to mess with, and it takes a simple spell to completely disarm them; eventually that kind of power goes to his head (just a little bit tho; hes here to make money, not fuck up and get killed)

-very attached to some personas, so none of them are ‘late game’ and therefore none of them have any almighty moves which is Okay with him.

-TECHNICALLY the game ends if joker dies but i think thats dumb, so theres a couple of times where Joker will misjudge the speed at which a shadow will cast something like Mudoon and instantly die. Its VERY jarring the first time it happens; first time encounter means No One knows what it is, and No One knows what the fuck happens. It prompts him to fuse personas that have block/repel curse and light by default

-i played joker very safe; not alot of moves that have low accuracy. But i like to think hes a bit more of a gamblin man, and would try his hand at skillsets that let him do a shitton of damage IF the stars align.

-lots of evasion; he is just too nimble and good at dodging. Getting hit is Very scary tho bc he also has Very low health. A tank with no health is asking for problems, but w a list of personas filled w null[type], it works out for him.

-Akira can use Ryujis bats VERY well, like shockingly well. Its not until Ryuji goes to the batting cage with him that he gets it. DPS is nowhere near as high as ryujis but hes good at clockin shadows RIGHT in the head, enough to disorient (and even kill sometimes, which never fails to make Akira whoop n holler excitedly; hes a dork)

-VERY good at using Anns whips. Not alot of strength required and he uses it more as a way stumble/disorient shadows. Using anyone elses weapon but ur own is very rare and its almost always because

a)someone got disarmed and the weapon just so happened to land close to someone else

b)someones in the right position to kill a shadow but their Own weapon isnt going to get the job done.

-he can also use Harus battleaxe but its So clunky and hard to swing. He would only use it if Haru Needed him to use it. Otherwise, Makoto, Yusuke, Mona, and Goros weapons are all too difficult for him to use. All of them require stance control and he is just not cut out for that.

-not combat related but. He always has brewed coffee (and teas) and curries for the team to drink and eat. He learned in Kamoshidas palace that having no energy in fights was a quick way to get them nearly killed. Its routine now to stop every once in a while to eat in a safe room and chill and it takes Goro a Long time to follow along w that.

[zapsoda]

Hey.

What is Postal? I find myself increasingly attracted to the Postal Dude and I would like to know.

Uh.

Everything I suppose.

hell yeah!! based! so postal is a video game franchise (and also movie). the games are typically first person or isometric shooters (although in some of the games you are presented with the option not to kill anyone).

the games typically revolve around this fuckin ginger (some version of him anyways) and his deal is that he just keeps wnding up in situations where everyone is trying to kill him.

if ur interested in getting into specific games ; postal 2 is the classic, its a banger, everyone likes that one. lil bit cringe and edgy and dated but its a lotta fun. the deal w this game is that you can kinda do whatever the fuck you want (main appeal). like it has tasks that you needa complete to progress the game. but you can do those at whatever pace or order you want and in the meantime just fuck around exploring the map. you can pick up cats in the game :33. you smoke crack to restore health. theres a piss button and a suicide button. lotta bangin dlc

the first game (postal 1), the april fools game (poostall royale), and the third game (postal 3) are all free 2 play. the first two are on steam theyre cute lil isometric shooters. the first one has a lot of appeal with the story going on. between each level theres these little bits of text like journal entries from the dude. i did not read these the first time i played it and thus i thought it was boring. (eheh). poostall royale has a girl version of the dude (huge win for bisexuals everywhere).

postal 3 is generally considered the worst game ever made by redditors and the creators themselves, so you can only play it if you pirate it (which is endorsed by the creators lol). i cant say much about this one my only experience with the game is a russian speedrun of it.

more recent games are postal 4: no regerts, and postal: brain damaged. i have heard mixed reviews of the former, but there is a drag outfit and you can pet animals so those are pretty enticing imo

the latter is GREAT. fucking gorgeous trippy silly game. the dialogue is unbelievably cringe. love this one. 10/10. been trying to 100% it. slowly.

the movie is on tubi its. unrecommendable. but. i have a soft spot for it, it was kinda funny sometimes to me... i hate what it did to zack wards place in my brain. its like. edgy 2003 type shit. Based 9/11 humor. take this as you will (maybe give it a try?)

on tumblr you may find many people referring to a version of the dude who is ripped and dressed in a blue and white striped tank top. this is shtopor he is from some russian version of postal 2 made by a different company. its called postal: corkscrew rules by many, but thats not the most accurate translation afaik. it never got an american release, however it did get a japanese release which was dubbed in english. game itself is utter shit from what i can tell but i have heard good things about the music (banger russian indie metal). i dont think i can mention this game without mentioning that the plot revolves around sexual reassignment surgery shenanigans. idk how to elaborate on this one its a lot. lmfao.

anyways. i focused mostly on the franchise itself rather than Him, i can elaborate on him more if u want. hope this was helpful nonetheless :-)))

[thatpunnyperson]

I dont talk about it much, but I have 3 pet snakes--one (1) ball python and two (2) california king snakes--and I love them very much. But this is going to be a long post and I dont know how to do a "read more" on mobile

This love I have for them managed to make me forget just how long it takes to clean their tanks. I try to replace their tank substrate every 2-3 months because I use orchid bark (fir wood chips traditionally used for growing orchids, but also excellent reptile bedding) because I spot clean the substrate once a week when I feed my snakes. So the substrate stays fairly clean despite the length of time it sits in the tank becsuse I'm removing the poops and urate deposits shortly after the snake poops, but I am adamant about replacing all the substrate in each of the 3 tanks at least every 3 months, preferably every 2 months.

But oh my god my ball python lives in a 55 gallon 18" by 18" by 36" tank and the substrate is about 1"-2" on the bottom, which ends up being absolutely heinous to scoop out. The king snakes are in ~20 gallon 12" by 18" by 24" tanks that also have 1"-2" of substrate on the bottom, but the math works out that I can buy two big bags of substrate from the pet store, put one in the ball python tank, and split the second between the two king snake tanks, which gives them all a good amount of bedding to dig in and push around (not sure why they all like digging but I love it).

So the tank cleaning always involves going from one tank to the next, removing the tank furniture and spraying it down with an enzymatic cleaner and disinfectant, then removing the old substrate, using a small dustpan and brush to clean out all the dust from the substrate, then spraying the tank down with the cleaner/disinfectant, then washing the furniture off in the sink and letting it air dry a bit, wiping out the inside of the tank and then spraying it down with water and then wiping it out Again and letting it air dry a bit, then adding the new substrate in, spraying it with water to help bolster the humidity, putting the now-clean water dish into the tank and filling it with clean bottled water, putting the rest of the clean tank furniture back into the tank, and then spritzing it all down again with water to really boost the humidity.

And THEN, closing the tank doors (cause these tanks have little front doors) so the humidity can have some time to really seep into the substrate and the tank furniture. I have a bunch of stuff piled on top of each tank to both keep my cats from climbing onto them and to keep the humidity and heat in as much as possible (the tanks have a mesh top that makes it hard to keep the humidity and heat in, and ball pythons like fairly humid environments)

This all takes me about 30 minutes per tank, so I obviously do it when my snakes are scheduled to be fed, because I like to feed my snakes in little dedicated feeding tubs that I then cover with a thick blanket so it's dark and quiet for them. And THAT is because, when I first got my ball python 13 years ago, the guy at the pet store was like, "ball pythons are shy so you should feed them in a low-traffic part of your home so they dont get disturbed and spit up their food," to which my family was like, "okay, so we have a ton of decorative tea towels and we're going to put them on the snake tub because we're gonna feed her in the kitchen in case she bites someone and we need to clean up the blood." She has only bitten me 3 times in the 13 years I've had her and all times were my fault for confusing her.

Anyway, I love my snakes and the painstaking process of cleaning their tanks is a small price to pay for their health and happiness, but my god the substrate is the worst. I get splinters every time because I refuse to wear gloves despite literally using my hands to push the wood chips around.

[blacktinnedpeaches]

ok so: another friend drama recap post

i've known this woman, we'll call her Claire, since i was 17 + she was about 25. the other members of the group are ana: (2y older than me) and our parisian friend who we'll call Dora (I wanna say like 1y older than me). anyway suffice to say we've all been friends for over 10y, not just online but irl as well. (WE MET ON LIVEJOURNAL! yes even ana and i met on livejournal) ages not really important other than to make it even more baffling lol

anyway claire has been v weird and unstable for a few years now, i want to be charitable and say it is potentially a reaction to the collective trauma of covid (and also she's had a HORRIFIC few years personally - a lot of death) but i don't know how to deal w/ her at all anymore like i know she's struggling a lot but like i cannot deal with it, it's just maddening

all she really does is infodump about her current fandoms that NOBODY ELSE IN THE GROUP HAS ANY INTEREST IN WHATSOEVER interspersed with these wildly disturbing one-off sentences like "oh i think my wife lost the baby" like. (she hadn't btw) the emotional whiplash from going from her angrily screenshotting comments on her fanfiction that she agree with to talking about the horrific shit going on in her life just makes it so difficult to talk to her + also i cannot pretend to give a shit about k-dramas ive never seen like... i literally just cant lol. so i tend to just ignore the group chat + leave ana + dora to deal with it. (ana mildly resents me for this but my position is they dont have to deal w/ it either and social consequences for being totally unbearable is not the worst thing)

anyway so i think i mentioned this before but a few weeks ago she mentioned taking herself (chronically ill) + her pregnant wife to paris at the beginning of december. on public transport. like i know no one gives a shit about covid anymore but long-term disability from it is really a gamble for the healthiest of people let alone people w/ her problems. they've both also had it before + negative outcomes do seem to stack the more infections you have

she brought this up, i could not stop myself from politely saying i thought this was a dreadful idea, ana backed me up and i also got a DM from dora thanking me for saying something (dora had previously told her not to come but didn't feel comfortable having th esame conversation a second time)

SHE HAS NOT SPOKEN TO US SINCE. she's privately started DMing all her hyperfixation bullshit to dora instead of the group chat + dora is like idk wtf to do with this either lol. like she's literally just totally stopped talking to me and ana AT ALL bc we politely told her we were worried for her health if she went to a huge city in the middle of winter LMAOOO like i know age / emotional maturity don't go together but like can you fucking believe she's nearly 40 + this was enough to apparently tank a 10y+ friendship???

if i wasn't already pretty much done w/ the friendship id be v hurt + offended that being like "hey we'd rather you didn't put yourself at risk here" was apparently evil enough to just totally cut off

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I was rereading tmrlg as I do because it’s the love of my life and I has new stuff to ramble about

So Ponk is a nymph, and he can ‘body-share’ which I’m assuming is very taboo because it means you can control someone (and I’m assuming the fear of it has blown it all out of proportion) which I’m assuming is even more taboo b/c crimson mind control. So she don’t want peeps to know

Im so excited to see punz/boomer reaction to Ponk healing Gumi. Also if they put anything together about velvet

Also extending on my previous theory re: ponk loosing foot b/c healing velvet

- @cool-new-side-blog

So Ponk can’t really bring people back. I’m assuming velvet either got really close to death or had just died. Ponk didn’t have her tree. So sacrifice foot to get the power to heal velvet?

oooorgh you need to stop asking really good questions i have no filter and the overwhelming urge not to spoil anything and it makes it SO HARD to answer thigns

honestly i hadnt even thought about pok being abel to control people through bodysharing. if they can, theyre definitely not aware of it, and itd be something very minor partially bc i dont wanna make them too op and partially because itd SUCK on ponks end. bodysharing with someone feels weird on both ends - like, if gumi had known ponk was bodysharing wiht her (or had been coherent enough to like... feel it) she would've felt that something was off. like it makes ponks spirit feel to-the-left but it makes whoever he's bodysharing with feel three-steps-back. both participants aren't quite in their bodies, so trying to control someone would be like trying to pull a remy ratatouille while in a sensory deprivation tank.

beyond like. REAL concerns i think ponk keeps the bodysharing a secret just because its awkward and hard to explain. like if you were talking to someone and you were like "hey yeah man just gotta... inhabit your body for a bit dw its all good its good for your health" no matter what they'd be like "hey what the fuck???" and real concerns-wise i think that like. if you can invade someones body pretty much without resistance from them youre gonna inspire a witchhunt. like yeah sure ponk cant do anythign HARMFUL with it but thats some dudes body hes in. what if she was like "ooooo you wanna give me your credit card information sooooo bad ooooo" and subliminally effected their thoughts. does she deserve to steal someone's credit card? fuck yeah but thats generally frowned upon and also not-very-neutral of her lmao

also ngl im not entirely sure how ponks tree works with the healing kekw i am. literally making this shit up as i go. it definitely nullifies some of the harming effects of healing, though - its like.... mmmm this isnt a perfect metaphor but like if you gotta sustain a certain amount of burns (we're in saw, i guess???? not like... killer burns. like 20 first degree burns.) and you can choose between burning only half your body or all of it, its gonna be way more damaging to put it on half because now HALF your body is out of commission. if you spread it out over the rest of your body, its still gonna fuckin suck, but it's not condensed yknow? so when ponk heals without his tree, its like putting all those burns on half his body, but when he heals with it, its all over, and he has the added bonus of like.... default dissociation with half of the burns since he isn't actively in his tree all the time. his tree takes on some of the damage.

okay fuck it i AM spoilering bc now brain go brrrr so ignore the rest if you dont want minor spoilers

okay so ponk healed gumi's back. she

set and healed bones - broken and chipped

healed muscle

restored skin

treated burns

pushed out remaining shrapnel (which she isnt aware of)

(gumi's injury was nasty and it fucking sucked, but she was stable. if ponk had the equipment and the confidence, they could've fixed her up without healing her, but it would've left her incapacitated for so long that even if ponk thought they were capable of healing her manually, she would've been sorted into the "heal with ability" category. like.... it was BAD, but due to gumi's own regenerative abilities, it wasn't life threatening with proper treatment.)

in the next chapter ponk wakes up with a MASSIVE headache and she feels scorched out. like, it fucking sucks, and she's going to be fatigued and have some fairly bad headaches for a week or so, but it'll be manageable.

if he hadn't had his tree, he would've been completely incapacitated for over a week. (cannot elaborate for plot >:(((.) his healing is essentially just ...giving, so it takes a while for him to get himself back.

and thats an injury that technically wasnt life threatening :D velvet got it bad :D

[mothsantics]

life update

i dont do anything but reblog things here lately so some updates maybe: 1. i havent been drawing because of reasons i will mention. sorry about that 2. i moved back in june but am struggling to pay rent and bills, also for reasons i will mention, i would like to do commissions for money but idk how many people would be interested 3. i am possibly struggling with chronic fatigue and pain. im not sure but all i know is for weeks now i have been constantly exhausted and getting random achy joints, back pain, and headaches. as a result i cannot work and because of mental fatigue it has been hard to come up with any ideas for what to draw and when i do its just difficult to keep going due to bad concentration and low motivation. i went to the ER and they have no idea whats wrong with me (literally got diagnosed with “malaise” because they didnt know what else to say) 4. my mental health has also tanked and i had to find a new psychiatrist because my old one was terrible and couldnt prescribe me stimulants due to shitty rules. i found a new one but do not have an appointment until weeks later and ive been struggling to pay for medication on top of bills, which is fun. if i cannot afford medication next time i need more, i will be in a worse spot tl;dr sorry for no new art. there havent been any because im dealing with some shit but i would be willing to open commissions to try and solve said shit and this was pretty much actually just an advertisement for commissions. dont feel the need to commission me if you cant afford it though, i will likely be fine even if no one commissions me. it would just help a whole lot. thank you for reading even if you just read the tl;dr lol

[tinyspringtrap]

played the OW2 beta again and literally couldn’t keep playing past a small handful of matches before getting a headache.

The lighting is done horrendously, even on nighttime maps, and I have lowered gamma and brightness by default bc I’m sensitive to things that are bright. I cannot fathom how much more painful the betas graphics would be on the default settings and honestly, I don’t want to lmao.

The red effect you get on screen when you get hit by something is absolutely obnoxiously bright and there’s no setting to either customize the brightness or turn it off altogether - it’s incredibly distracting and disorienting when you’re mid-fight and trying to concentrate. Like yes, I took half my health in damage game that’s nice, it’d be easier to get out of this situation if my entire screen wasn’t currently assaulting my eyes with brightness. I can’t see shit through it when I’m playing Mercy and it got me killed several times because it just hurts to look at and makes visibility nonexistent.

Gameplay wise it’s marginally better now that Mercy has an ult that actually functions - I can actually keep my team up now, yay!

On that note please god tone down how often her voicelines trigger it is so obnoxious how often she’s chattering on like please. please. I need to be able to hear things as Mercy that aren’t just Mercy never shutting the fuck up.

Doomfist is. not terribly effective? I feel like they could have kept his reworked kit on him as a DPS with very minimal issue honestly. like i had a doomfist just pingpong balling me around as Mercy and it was about as annoying as a fruit fly hovering around you

Dive tanks/flank tanks are in a really fucking weird place now as solotanks. I can’t say having a winston being maintank isn’t interesting and a little fun but. if they have a sniper and there’s a teamfight on point he can’t really be in two places at once? there’s fewer ways to shut down snipers outside of your dps actually killing them and like. im sorry but i dont trust my dps to do anything honestly. 3k hours in this game has taught me far better than to have faith in my teammates, that is a fools errand. have no faith and be pleasantly surprised when you have competent dps players. 

Lucio is pretty fun to play on beta, however playing zen is spawn simulator and I am not touching him again during beta unless he gets some changes

nobody is playing dva.

games are still basically ‘whoever forms into a deathball first wins’ which is kind of unexciting. still mostly rolls in todays games. no real exciting drawn out teamfights with cool clutch plays or anything.

still not terribly impressed with the beta. it feels like overwatch but worse honestly. the characters were all made for a 6v6 game and balanced around 6v6, making them work 5v5 is... not really going to work that great for some of them without changing their kits entirely.