#n now im emo

[shakingparadigm]

modern college au where model ivan comes home late after photoshoots and listens to till's demos for hours on repeat to wallow in his agony (the songs are always for mizi)

[sk3tch404]

Late Night Hanma Blurb

A/n: Thought abt this during an itty-bitty road trip today. Smoker Hanma does smth to the chemicals in my brain. Forgive me for any lengthy bad writing. I've had a long day and I just wanna yip yap about one of my fav crazies 🙇

CW: Hanma can give two shits about your lung health but chooses not to when he feels like it, intimidation, threats of forced drug usage, sometimes forced participation in violent activities, thoughts of lovers suicide/murder(?), and whatever other yappin I put in here.

Hanma who smokes a fuck ton and doesn't mind giving you the good ol' second-hand effects of it, but absolutely detests you doing it on your own.

He snatches the stick from your mouth and holds it up and away from you with a small grit in his teeth. Hanma glares down in some curiosity but clearly squints in irritation.

"The hell is this? Don't tell me I'm being a bad influence on you now. If I catch you with one of these again, I won't let you off the hook so easily. You got it, Y/n?"

When you retort, telling him it's no different from when he does it and it is your own choice whether he likes it or not, he merely scoffs with a tilt of his narrow head. Throwing down the cigarette, the sound of his sneaker stomping and scraping it out against the pavement echos through the air with an annoying presence. Shuji demands the rest of your stash with a looming stare that can only put you into a state of sinking discimfort.

"Come on, don't be stubborn. Ya know, if you wanna do it so bad, why don't you try the whole pack? Mine too since it's a shitload better than that cheap stuff."

Reluctant on suffocation and early lung cancer, you begrudgingly hand over your smokes to him. Hanma smacks down on the box with an evidently loud shot of noise and slides it out of your palm--- pocketing it. He stretches out narrow smile as he leans down towards you.

"See, now it ain't so hard to listen."

He's still ticked off by the fact you think you can do whatever to your body without his permission, but since Shuji is so generous, he'll let you learn from your mistakes. See, he can be nice.

Don't test him though. Next time you're caught defying his selfish wishes, he's beating you down with degrading language and probably also beating whoever was involved. The convenience store employee that sold you the cigs, vape, or maybe even chewing tobacco? Yeah he's taking out his held back frustration on them. Bro is jumping over the counter and tearing their shit up.

Avoiding him because of his brutal and honest-to-God psychopathic personality? Now that's just cruel. Shuji is dragging your ass by the back of your shirt and pushes you to his motorcycle. The leopard print on the back of the bike makes you wanna barf every time you see it, but you got to keep it down if you wanna have enough energy to deal with him. He'll take you out no matter where you are at in that point of time and make you remember who he is; who you think you're messing with.

"Y/n, how many times do I have to tell you? Aim for the nose. That's easy for amateurs like you. Actually, lemme show you how to really deliver a jaw breaker-"

Yeah, he'll show you just how bad it can get with some random thugs on the street. You should be grateful with how gentle he's treating you. Instead of ending up with facial fractures, you have nice dates and thoughtful gifts. He's even teaching you a few tricks. How lucky can you get?

"I'm all done. Shit, I'm starved. Let's go grab a bite to eat, kay?"

Hanma thinks the only way you'll ever keep paying attention to him is if he keeps you and your actions in line. If you go off doing your own thing, his usually unmoving heart can't just stand there and watch you slowly leave him. Despite the negativity be brings into your life, he actually gets really fuckin anxious when he doesn't know or understand what you're doing. It's so troublesome how you make him feel. Yeah, being bored as shit is bad, but seeing you, the only thing that could ever bring him down to his knees unwillingly, slip away with nothing but disdain for him? Fuck no. He won't accept it. Shuji would rather kill you and then himself than have to bear the strange feeling of pain, or what other people call heartbreak, by his lonesome self.

Should he ever say he loves you, that would be the point of no return for the both of you. His hands have you tight in his clutches. No way out, no way back in for anyone else.

[nymphaerie]

two beers in and actually for real irl sobbing about kim and the kineema its just like. kim cares so much about this damn car. but truly he cares so much about all the possessions he keeps, about machines in general, these finely tuned objects that can do so so much for humanity but rarely get recognized for it. do you think he empathizes with them? engines made to live and breathe revachol? he’d never admit it out loud how much he loves them, and especially not how much he hopes they love him back, but they do!!! he cares so deeply, takes such careful, meticulous care of the things he loves. maybe he loves them because they can’t tell him that they love him back. but then harry comes along, this strange, impossible man who talks to walls and ties and tells kim his kineema loves him. isn’t it the exact thing kim won’t let himself believe, because it’s too indulgent, too far fetched? that something he loves could love him? that the objects he cares for, that he puts so much effort into maintaining, could thank him for it?

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

sorry no matter how often i play i will never get over his jrpg ass looking design fdslfkjlksf

[c-kiddo]

thinking a little bit about jester and caduceus as mirrors of each other. opposite in ways and also the same. isolated and sheltered and hiding that there's something wrong and so lonely underneath the important task of keeping the group healed or fed or laughing or singing a silly song. something about leaving your home (lavish and luxurious or a humble temple, both with anything you could ever need, mostly.. maybe..) and realising that the world is really scary, its really tough and really harsh and bloody, but also like. theres pastries to eat and friends to annoy (affectionate) and straw hats to weave and outfits to buy for your friends etc etc

[brainworms-all-night-long]

While I do think that Nine and Uzi (not) getting along would be pretty obvious (emo nerd loner who mightve killed a couple people or destroyed a planet that dabbles in powers way outside of them which leads to lasting consequences, but deep down is just somone that wants a single person to care about them)

N and Rusty would also be an interesting combo because there's something about both of them being nothing but kind to their core and wishing nothing but to protect and nurture those around them, but having been twisted into mindless killing machines not allowed to question, only follow orders at the whim of uncaring and egotistical humans who also made them reliant on a powersource that is essentially the life-force of those they would otherwise kill and die to protect. In this essay I will

[boxwinebaddie]

i'm sorry, this has nothing to do with sp or my fics, but i just need y'all to know that i accidentally liked too many posts about death note on here bc i was rewatching it and now my tumblr dash is all fucked up

[afterthelambs]

November Rain is actually a really good shuake song. I mean it has the lines:

"Nothing lasts forever and we both know hearts can change" IF YOU TAKE THIS LITERALLY IT'S PERFECT

"If we could take the time to lay it on the line I could rest my head just knowing that you were mine" <- tell me this isn't how akira felt in the engine room knowing he'd never get to see akechi again but at least he got to finally understand him completely

"I know it's hard to keep an open heart when even friends seem out to harm you" <- because like akechi had that whole thing about not wanting teammates because they 'dont actually care' while they were all trying to convince him they do :')

"when your fears subside and shadows still remain, I know that you can love me when there's no one left to blame" <- I feel like this is exactly akira's wish in maruki's world. that he would get to start over with akechi without any of the gods or revenge plans or the metaverse getting in the way

PLUS the song references November and November is when the betrayal happened. what more do you want

[1975wasmyyear]

INTRODUCTION POST :33.

heyy, this is my first actual post! Sorry for any mistakes, English is not my native language and also I really dunno how this shit works, I'm an old soul trapped in a 19 years old body☠️.

first of all: My name's Tom and I go by he/they. I particularly love Nirvana, Taylor Swift and Metallica and I've been on Tumblr for an actually really long while, without writing anything at all but I finally took courage soo... Here I am! :)

what I will write for (just at the moment):.

—Metallica, Stranger things, Nirvana (not Kurt), Megadeth, Guns n roses, Dsmp (expect dream ofc, bro's disgusting fr.), Josh Hutcherson, Rodrick Heffley/Devon, The strokes (especially julian casablancas <3), Male y/n.

—Smut, Fluff and angst. And yes, I do take requests and I accept suggestions/constructive criticism.

what I will NOT write for:

—Daddy kink, pedophilia, homophobia, racism, incest, piss kink, big age gap relationships, underage y/n, furries (nothing against them, I just don't feel comfortable.)

remember to be kind to people and to yourself, take care🤍

[missr3n3]

Uranium suite from ride the cyclone is a roulette boys song to me

Especially the end...

yea, i definitely get what u mean abt the ending

thank u for the song recommendations!

the over all concept of that song did remind me a bit of this could be anywhere in the world by alexisonfire, which honestly i think might be an aftershocks song now

[taegularities]

Kook, if things did not work out, you think you can only be friends with her? You’re in the same group and your friends are dating so…

jk told me to answer off character for him bc he refuses to think about such a horrifying scenario. it's... painful sigh :')

so like, in their desperation, they'd wanna stay friends but would notice very soon that it's p much impossible. not bc it's generally impossible — they could make amazing friends. but by the time they separated (if ever, this is highly hypothetical >:( !!!), they'd have way too much history and l*ve for each other to act casual. living together, fighting their literally city, being there for each other through thick and thin.. they'd spiral at every friend's gathering and circle back to each other and things would just never end. being friends with the same people could be.. ugh yeah, a problem. and then when one of them (kook/oc) started dating again, the other would.. crumble thoroughly lol.

and to the second question, no.. he would literallyyyyy go through an absolute breakdown after watching oc leave. he'd see her in literally every room. they would both not eat much or well anymore (and cooking/eating is smth they love doing together/for each other!!), wouldn't sleep, would generally be v anxious. would wake up automatically reaching for the other side of the bed. would be a lot worse than what we saw back in cmi7/8. being with someone for so long and waking up next to them becomes a routine v fast and to have a break up shatter it messes you up hard. these two would not be in a good headspace for a long time :(

[barkingangelbaby]

venting so much i ran out of tags lmao

[clambuoyance]

do you have any favorite hyper-specific tropes you enjoy? like a certain line of dialogue or character type or something

OKAY LETS SEE

1) Since it’s on the mind bc of toh—i’m an absolute sucker for found siblings. Of course, i enjoy the found family trope in general and most variations (middleaged character adopting a random ass kid, etc etc) , but when its focus is on siblings? I eat that shit upppp. I mean relationships like luz and hunter, any of the dc families tbh, the rgb siblings (nya lloyd kai), or my ocs keiko and rolin—they scratch a special part of my brain.

Maybe its because i’m eldest sibling myself, and my brother is only two years younger making us pretty close in age, but i just really like sibling relationships and they hit more than parent/child ones for me😭🙏 We don’t always get along, but i’d say we have a pretty strong relationship now

Something about going through the same motions, esp if ur both still trying to find ur place in the world, and knowing you have someone to rely on is just so special to me. Even with blood siblings, it doesn’t really feel like unconditional love at first. Like, you have to choose to be someone who will care and be there for them. Urgh idk it just feels different even though with parents it’s also a choice to care about someone. Like with a parent or guardian, it’s like you want to expect them to have all the answers, but with someone closer to ur age who chooses to treat you like family, it’s like—well we both don’t know what we’re doing but we have each other to lean on.

And the “found” part isn’t necessary but just a nice treat bc i feel like it highlights that Active choosing to care for someone like family. waaah. Like Kai in s1 of ninjago having a whole arc that leads to him leaving behind his own desires to save tiny lloyd, and then literally promising to always look after lloyd after , or luz promising to keep hunter safe bc he’s family now, and then my story with my ocs rolin n keiko is all about them becoming siblings to each other😭 it just makes me feel sooo emotional

also sibling banter 💥💥💥 i feel like u can say more uncalled for shit w siblings

So yeah if you look at my list of faves don’t be surprised if u see a lot of characters who have a significant sibling relationship in their story 🙏

2) Now i dont know if this counts as a trope, but as for fave character type theres usually this One scene that makes me go Oh i love them. and that scene or line tends to go like this: Character up to this point has shown a fun, perhaps confident or carefree personality, but as soon as they’re alone, it’s revealed to the audience they’re capable of feeling so much more. Idk i guess im thinking kon at the campfire, or wukong in lmk specifically always being chill then being serious when he’s alone

3) Also in category of things that make me love a character: slapstick comedy to highlight dorkiness. or honestly just any type of comedy that undercuts a character’s supposed Cool/Importance Factor. 💀 like the amount of slapstick a character goes through has to be proportional to how unaware the character is of their own dorkiness. Im thinking Kai bumping his head while threatening garmadon or bragging about his skills only to get slammed by a tree (or a rock. or a wall. the list goes on.). Or Kon saying he’s fine cuz he can fly only to wham his head when the ship turns and then subsequently get flung around while the ship flies, or slamming his face straight into the ground cuz he’s an idiot.

Or like, Karkat’s whole thing. he’s a walking clown circus. sollux going “do NOT run that computer virus” and karkat ignoring him only for the computer to explode in his face. idk that shit makes me laugh

4) When characters start talking about how they don’t wanna be left behind—it depends on the writing but that usually Hits for me 😭

um i could probably think of more but thats all i got for now

[iagreewithlilithsrightsnwrongs]

smth that ive thought abt n that i dont think ive ever seen touched upon is how similar bea n lilith should be in terms of life experience. like we know canonically that bea never drank. probs never went to a party, or rave or anything like that. didnt have partners most likely, probs never had her first kiss before ava n stuff. theres a lot of first times that beatrice probably experiences cuz of ava in s2, a lot of just. normal regular first times, things teenagers or young adults do, maybe college students, whatever. the most freedom she had was when she was younger, when she "was stepping out of line" as she said, probs doing child things n being dumb, ofc.

lilith is probably the same, except even worse. because i think she was taught to be the warrior nun as soon as possible. bea was actively repressing herself; lilith doesnt even acknowledge theres anything to repress. shes just the future warrior nun, not a mere 12 year old. shes a sister warrior, not just your average 16 year old. as long as her parents were there to watch, she is nothing but a legacy. and i do think lilith had her rebellious phase, ofc. but i dont think it was while she was living with her parents, or even when she was a minor. she knew to make all those obedient, nice years count and as soon as she left for good, she declared she was a new girl, n she would now do things she wanted to do. except... she cant.

she still has to train to be a warrior nun. sure she read books, non religion books. but the guilt of not upholding her end of the bargain of being born in her family as the next in line warrior nun would soon overcome her, n she would drop it. "i'll read it in the future" "i'll try that when im older n independent" its smth all teens, especially teen girls think. when im older, i'll be free. but lilith is not allowed that at all. she knows she likes things... but can she even allow herself the time to enjoy them?? can she watch movies in peace? can she go out, maybe make friends, go on cafe dates, go to the cinema, go shopping? without thinking abt her destiny? can she??? is she allowed peace???

lilith wanted to be free, cuz she thought it was only her parents holding her down. little did she know, while her parents built her cage, she was painting it finished. with how she was raised, lilith was never thought to feel *her* emotions as lilith, but only as warrior nun. n even if her parents ever allowed her peace, she wouldnt have taken it. shes going to be the warrior nun. she has to be. what else is she, but that?

[k-atsukibakugou]

alexa play slipping through my fingers by abba

[lokislytherin]

jaeyeol missing anon here….

i’m literally in shock… no words.. can express what i’m feeling now…. HEAHRAHFAHFSJFZ *muffled screaming*

now that he’s back and joining the crew, i’m sure we’ll see way more of him now AS WE SHOULD 😤😤 but yes, thank you ptj… STILL i really hope he didn’t bring jay back just because he so very conveniently forgot him and he’s only back for some daily dose of queerbaiting but instead, i want jay back because he was planned to come back since the start and he’s actually here to get in on some of the action to show his true potential and so we have a chance to see his backstory…! BUT WHATEVER I’M LIVING IN THE PRESENT I MISS HIM SO MUCH AAAAAAA 😭🥹😩😩😩❤️❤️❤️

hello hello! i think we are both in shock rn i could not believe my eyes when i saw the chapter i was just like :O for half a day before fanfic writer brain started working again and i planned out a whole chainsaw man au in my head at the airport… yes i was on a plane when you sent this ask lol i got home last night

AS WE SHOULD INDEED! ptj please take this as a chance to build jay’s character and make him less 2d bc he has so much potential!!! i wanna see jay’s improvements in battle! i wanna know his probably-tragic (bc we’ve seen everybody else’s) backstory! i wanna know what he’s been doing so bad. ptj pls catch us up on what our blonde baby boy has been doing after you introduce the last member of daniel’s crew. pls. 홍재열 주세요.

let’s live in the present tgt!! i missed jay sm i hope he’s been living well 🥺🥺 i hope he wasn’t too lonely without daniel… must be sad living in a giant penthouse when you’re mute and the guy you like / the only person you’ve probably only ever invited to your penthouse for fun has been mia for god knows how long… home alone for half a day is fine but more than that n i go kinda crazy bc it’s too quiet so jay u can have all my hugs. if ptj won’t give u the happiness u deserve in canon i’ll let you have all of it in my fics i swear on my writer’s honor

also joy content when. hong sibs keeping each other afloat when. ptj-nim im making the hong sibs content i want to see by myself rn but i wanna see more canon interactions bc hong jae siblings are the best siblings in lookism