#neil josten with ocd

[andrewminyardsleftfoot]

hello followers! it's me asking for advice again.

i will write (or attempt to) a fic that has ocd andreil because i need to express these. i want y'all's opinions on what kind/theme andrew would have. themes are the main obsession and things that your ocd focuses on.

neil is already a pre defined one: harm + checking. harm ocd refers to thinking you'll hurt people and checking is repeatedly doing actions (compulsions) until it feels right.

andrew though. i have discarded sexual orientation ocd (ppl think that theyre gay when they're not and vice versa). i am, though, thinking about delving into sexual ocd for andrew, like affirmations after sex & all. but i don't want to transform his trauma into MORE trauma (i feel like that wouldn't be right) and i don't know if people can develop sexual ocd from sexual abuse. now, i have contamination (because of the sexual abuse, several researches point out that it has correlation) OOOOOOOR some form of checking too, esp related to his family and safety, but. well.

this is NOT coming from someone who is inexperienced in OCD. i have been diagnosed with it for almost a year now. this is not something im doing without research.

ideas, advices and opinions are SOOOOOo appreciated. also don't ask about the pjo fic. it will be updated. some day.

[starrycassi]

Andrew minyard has bipolar + BPD + alexythimia and Neil Josten has cptsd + OCD + panic disorders because I SAY SO

[thief-of-eggs]

Neil Josten is autistic and you will not change my mind

[silena-laney-laney]

i don’t think people really appreciate how smart neil josten really is. in the very first chapter, before kevin had even walked into the room, he figured out he was going to. he realised that betsy was ocd immediately. he speaks like every european language. he was literally the only person that was able to read andrew. and, most impressively, HE WAS ON THE RUN FROM THE MAFIA ON HIS OWN, AND THEY DIDN’T FIND OUT WHO HE WAS UNTIL HE WANTED THEM TO. neil is not as ‘dense’ as you guys make him out to be.

[lavendermemoriess]

hi, welcome to my page!

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about me!

⊱ my name is laura, but you can call me lau

⊱ she/her | ela/dela

⊱ brazilian girlie

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⊱ ocd haver

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content!

⊱ formula 1

⊱ books

⊱ games

⊱ random girlblogging

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drivers i like and support!

⊱ lando norris

⊱ max verstappen

⊱ carlos sainz

⊱ kimi antonelli

⊱ others: george russell, alex albon, pierre gasly, yuki tsunoda, sebastian vettel, gabriel bortoleto, ayrton senna, franco colapinto, arvid lindblad.

⊱ team(s): mclaren (because of lando and lando only).

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other faves!

⊱ aftg characters: neil josten, andrew minyard, jean moreau, kevin day, allison reynolds

⊱ stardew valley characters: sam, victor (sve), haley and abigail

⊱ omori characters: hero, sunny, aubrey, kel. (suntan & sunburn truther)

⊱ other games: sims 4, minecraft, genshin impact (neuvillette main)

⊱ artists: tv girl, green day, frank ocean, kali uchis.

⊱ books: aftg, trc, pjo, agggtm.

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rpf ships!

⊱ like: norstappen, carlando, nortrell, brocedes, charlos, maxiel, yukierre, frando, bearnelli

⊱ neutral: loscar, lestappen (the fans ruin it for me), britcedes, galex, norrix

⊱ dislike: landoscar, carcar, choscar, max and oscar (dk the ship name), lestappen + oscar

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warnings!

⊱ unapologetically anti piastri.

⊱ mental health talks (ocd & depression, esp. i will talk about it at some point.)

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if none of these bothers you, welcome! if they do, welcome, but don't hate on me for it. i'm not responsible for your reactions to content i've explicitly stated i share.

i'm always happy to receive asks, anon or not :)

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[song-tam]

i made several notes during this time, enjoy:

[when neil goes into the bathroom pukes about signing onto the team and apologizes to his dead mom] "oh. fuck me i am emotionally attached now ig"

[on description of neil's last moments w his mom] "OH. OKAY" (pikachu face at the angst)

[kevin freaks out & andrew talks him down the first time] "INCH RESTING" (what the fuck what the fuck what the fu)

[the??????? taking out contacts scene??????] "ah i am sensing a hint of romantic tension"

"me when some dude who is in his fifties calls me a fucking idiot and tells me to call people next time and stop trying to do everything alone even though it is a knee jerk instinct. also what the fuck (in tears)"

[upon neil speaking in german to andrew for the first time] "LMAO" [upon The Conversation and the "Whatever this look was, it was dark and intense enough to swallow Neil whole."] "LMAO WHAT THE FUCK"

no notes but highlighted these two lines wordlessly: "Are you stupid?" Seth asked. / "Yeah," Neil said.

[on random moment where aaron and nicky are fighting or something and then they all go dude shut the fuck up and then seth just, CALLS NICKY A FAGGOT AND LEAVES?] "i am fucjing crying"

[THE FUCKING?????????????? CLOCKING BETSY AS OCD HCJWHCJFHFJDHKFNDNDJFLSHCMWNFKBXMAJDKAJFBSKJDKSJFJ??????????????] i dont have any commentary this is what i did though i laughed so hard i knocked my yarn off my bed

"ok what the hell kind of a loser team is this why are they not playing on CRAPPY TARMAC why the fuck do they have a HUNDRED THOUSAND DOLLAR COURT"

my guy slighting renee like ten times "oooh the cross necklace and smiles ooh she must be innocent and not know what gang violence is or have any otherwise tragic backstory whatsoever because she is christian and has a positive disposition" staring directly at my entire family

im gonna go through and repsond to these in order hold on

OKAY YEAH emotional attachment to neil josten is unavoidable. theres just something about him. like you cant not be obsessed w this man its impossible

REAL AND TRUE oh god theyre sooooooo complicated i love

kevin and andrew. have real tension going on ill be real. like whats happening there??? insane

romantic tension. does it ever go past that. well youll see wont you

OH MY GOD THAT SCENE!!!!!!!!! wymack is SUCH a dad and i am sososoososo obsessed with him hes their coach hes their father figure he gives a shit abt them im soo not normal

god yeah no theyre so. like whats happening there miss nora. what were you thinking. why is he a wattpad bad boy

seth and neil. theyre. interesting

SETH BEING A HOMOPHOBE WAS THE MOST IRRELEVANT SHIT EVER LIKE WHY WAS THAT EVEN NECESSARY ITS BARELY ADDRESSED i cant

BETSY !!!!!!!!!! but yeah the whole neil & betsy dynamic is an intersting one i wish i could say it gets better and it. slightly does but only slightly

did i mention i love tfc. anyway

NO LEGIT like renee is so terrifying shes like a silent killer i would not trust her at all in a game of mafia also i think the foxes should play mafia together that would be fun

ANYWAY!!!! glad youre enjoying the next two are even more of a doozy so thatll be fun <3

[manic-andrew]

HEADCANON that andrew noticed the tags being folded a certain way on Neil's clothes he just DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK because he's an INSTIGATOR at heart ( :

[waestlandbaby]

Andrew seems to be developing something like separation anxiety, ever since Neil went and got himself kidnapped. But he knew It was something a long time in the making, Neil the straw that broke the camel's back; he let Aaron out of his sight, his reach and Tilda put her hands on him, he let Nicky out of his sight and a bunch of homophobes put him in hospital, he let Kevin out of his reach at the Kathy Ferdinand show and Riko played with his mind like a mouse. He let Neil unhook his claws and he almost lost him forever.

It starts with counting, in his mind, whenever he leaves them; one, two, three, four. All there, all safe, all close. But it gets harder and harder to reassure himself that they're safe. Any moment that he can't be there for them is a risk.

It progresses to touch pretty soon after he realises he can't go on like he is, his mind bending and twisting in four different directions. Bee says it's compulsion-- and she'd know all about that particular mind fuck-- that he should text them, visual confirmation that they are okay. It helps but not really. He begins to let his shoulders brush against theirs, no he begins to seek it out. The firm press of a warm arm against his shoulder, who knew a new trauma could actually balance out an old one? Oh don't get him wrong, his skin still crawls in aversion but it eases off somewhat, because these bodies are his to protect.

He didn't count on Nicky being the first one to notice of all people (well, apart from Neil but Neil was always in his own category, the nuisance). "Is something going on? I feel like you've touched me more in the past couple of months then you had in the entire time we've known each other?"

"I can stop." He says it like it doesn't matter, like he won't twist his own mind into doubting whether Nicky is even real if can't prove it with touch. He will never be like them.

"No! It's just, you were being so careful about it, always making sure we see you coming, always giving us time to move away. It's... Andrew you know you can touch me any time, right? Like, I know you'll never want to hug me or anything but a hand on my shoulder? Or something?" Nicky looks him in the eye and sets his shoulders. He's been talking to Neil. "I give you permission, Andrew. Whatever you need."

Andrew leaves the dorm without a word but the next day, when Nicky is gathering his things for class, Andrew claps him on the shoulder on his way to the kitchen (one), eyes firmly in front of him. He doesn't see Nicky's beaming smile. He doesn't see Aaron's confusion, suspicion. He does see Neil, his soft eyes.

"146 percent." He grunts as he pushes Neil against the kitchen counter (two). He'll have to go shoulder barge Kevin soon (three), and make brushing past Aaron seen casual (four). The need to feel them alive and safe will motivate him into it. But for now he sips his coffee and pretends not to hear when Neil says he's proud of him.

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(Just a hc that Andrew develops something of a compulsive disorder to deal with the fact that he can't protect his family all the time)

[bubble--berry]

i’ve seen a lot of people post about kevin w/ ASD which is cool but i always thought he had OCD and that neil was the one w/ ASD

[andrewminyardsleftfoot]

one of the things i miss the most about accidentally deleting my old blog are my andreil ocd posts. it amazes me how i could never write it that way again. i can try to rewrite it, but it just wouldn't be the same.

[andrewminyardsleftfoot]

neil josten has OCD. the type i think abt the most is harm. in my mind, he is constantly worried about snapping and hurting his foxes. that's not just it, though. he has a hard time going over speed bumps, because he is constantly worried that he actually ran over someone, or some animal. most of all, we all know this man would have intense PTSD, and with that would come the habit of checking their dorm every single night for anything suspicious. and he checks it until it feels right.

on the other hand, you have andrew. andrew with ocd too. his main compulsion is checking if people are okay, despite never leaving his sight. that explains SO MUCH about the protectiveness, and andrew will always be taking extreme care with animals, afraid of hurting them too.

thank you for listening :D

[manic-andrew]

psa since andrew started his Nothing with neil they have shared 13 new years kisses,

[aftgficrec]

staff favorite 40-50k fics please?

We had a great time revisiting our favorites and hope you enjoy! Here’s a link to our 30-40k staff faves. - A

The Real Folk Blues by moonix, nefelibata [Rated E, 42365 Words, Complete, AFTG Big Bang 2018]

Captain David Wymack and the bounty hunter crew of the Bebop spaceship might be a little out of their depths chasing down the infamous hacker and notorious runaway Neil Wesninski, whose bounty exceeds even Kevin’s wildest dreams. Worst of all, Andrew might actually enjoy it.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: implied/referenced noncon; tw: references of past abuse; tw: panic attack; tw: suicide mention

NB: Art for this fic by @louviart here and here

they used to shout my name (now they whisper it) by badacts, broship_addict, PuckB [Locked, Rated M, 46940 Words, Complete, AFTG Big Bang 2017]

Neil is a bound witch on the run, making a choice between fleeing, slavery, and death. To Andrew, he looks like a useful weapon - at first.

It turns out that ‘useful’ isn’t all he is.

tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced past abuse, tw: implied/referenced child abuse

NB: Art for this fic by @coldcigarettes here and here and @broship-addict here

you looked at death in a tarot card (and you saw what you had to do) by SashaSea (SHCombatalade) [Rated T, 48506 Words, Complete, 2020]

“Somebody wants me dead?” There must have been something far deeper than his bones damaged, something broken in his brain or even his DNA, because the thought only makes Neil grin a little wider. “That’s nothing new.”

tw: violence, tw: blood

to know a man by moonix [Rated M, 47928 Words, Complete, 2017]

In which the Foxes all work at a coffee shop run by Wymack, Neil is their newest recruit with a dark past, Andrew is obvious, Neil is oblivious, and everyone ships it apart from Aaron, who just wants to study in peace. With guest appearance by a stuffed jellyfish called Josephine.

tw: implied/referenced torture

NB: Art for this fic by @broship-addict​ here

Skilled by wildfrancium [Rated T, 46925 Words, Complete, 2017]

Part 1 of the Neon Lights series

Neil has a talent for deactivating sensors that tell doctors when a patient takes their medication. Andrew, a famous Exy player, has a sensor that needs deactivating.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: ocd, tw: violence, tw: panic attacks

Avengers Assemble (series) by gluupor [Rated M, 2 works, 49441 Words, Complete, 2018]

Something has to be done. Science is advancing rapidly, creating enemies and weapons that standard security forces can’t stand against. People are gaining superpowers, attack robots are being built, dangerous new chemical compounds are being engineered.

SHIELD director David Wymack has an idea: to bring together a group of extraordinary individuals to deal with the threats that no one else can.

He calls it the Avengers Initiative.

tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced rape/non-con, tw: ptsd, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: violence, tw: past non-consensual body modification, tw: implied/referenced suicide, tw: implied/referenced murder

[aftgficrec]

Any fics where neil has ocd? Thanks!

We found a couple where Andrew has OCD, but only one with Neil, and it’s shown but not explicitly talked about.  It’s an absolutely gorgeous fic, though, so we are very happy to recommend it!  And if anyone else has other fics with this theme, please send them our way!  -F

take yourself home by moonix  [Rated T, 18846 words, Complete 2020]

Despite his best efforts, Andrew finds himself a family.

(tw: ocd, tw: references to past abuse, tw: referenced self harm, tw: referenced addiction)

[aftgficrec]

Hi! Can I have fics where Andrew has OCD?

There are a few of these!  Andrew has OCD in the entire Neon Lights series but it’s highlighted in the two sections below, and then there is a nice little Tumblr fic with him demonstrating that as well.  -F

Neon Lights series by wildfrancium [Rated G-E, 98102 words, Incomplete, Updated 2020]

Part 3: Safety [Rated M, 1974 words, Complete 2018]

A night at Eden's Twilight. [one shot set pre-Skilled]

Part 4: Weight of Time [Rated T, 2385 words, Complete 2018]

This is the end of Skilled from Andrew's POV aka Andrew rescues Neil.

(tw: violence, tw: injury, tw: blood, tw; panic attacks, tw: references to past abuse, tw: implied/referenced noncon, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: drugs)

Andrew seems to be developing separation anxiety by @waestlandbaby [Tumblr, 2018]

Andrew seems to be developing something like separation anxiety, ever since Neil went and got himself kidnapped.

[aftgficrec]

Hey! Their fics get recced all the time on here but I just wanted to give a shoutout to moonix on ao3 for the fantastic writing and ace rep!

We could not agree with you more, anon! Moonix is a treasure in the fandom. She showcases our beloved Foxes with inclusive representation, pathos, humor, sass, and charm in compulsively readable stories. And have you noticed each work includes a tea reference? I’ve learned fun facts about tea...and uh...other stuff from Moonix.

Here are her works that we’ve previously rec’d; I’ve noted ace rep with asterisks:

‘Knives And Spoons’* in aaron protective of neil

‘The Real Folk Blues’* in sci fi

TFC High School AU*

‘Fits and Starts’* in demi Neil

‘take yourself home’* in Neil with ocd 

‘Fox Sleep’ in hurt/comfort

‘Berlin, du bist so wunderbar’ from Nicky in Germany

‘Foxglove Fridays’ from Andrew looking at Neil

‘Inside Your Mind’* series in Neil masturbates

‘to know a man’* here

‘Movie in My Mind’ here

‘Nothing Secret Everything Sacred’ here

‘After The Night’ in andreil first time

‘At A Whisker's Distance’ here

‘Die Young’* in ace!aaron

‘Josten's Eight’ in favorite trans fics

‘Take Shelter’* in embarrassed andreil

‘Spookies & Cream’ in meet-cute

‘in bars, in cars’* in aspec Neil

‘Milkshakes And Mathematics’ in professor AUs

‘Lucky Strike’ in team bonding

‘Like a River’ in Harry Potter AUs

‘Skates and Bruises’ (jean/renee) in rarepairs

‘Doors, Wide Open’ in Wymack & Abby

‘winter, formal’ in blushing Neil

and ‘forgetmenot’ in Stuart & Neil

Also see 

‘dating & other disasters’* (co-written with lolainslackss)  here

‘No Place Like Home’ (co-written with gluupor) here

and ‘Surreal But Nice’* (co-written with fuzzballsheltiepants and gluupor) here

I’m posting her latest work below; it also earns an *. - A

In Too Deep by moonix [Rated T, 8386 Words, Complete, 2020]

Neil works as a lifeguard at the local swimming pool. Andrew can't swim.

tw: car accident reference, tw: implied/referenced self harm