#never expected to clear it ever
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Mobile Tumblr US users spend an average of 4.04 minutes per session on the app.
Text
" . . . There was no other way . . . " -
DSR cleared on 4.9.2024
#a bit late with this gpose but i cleared DSR finally a few weeks ago!#one of my dream ultimates and my first ultimate clear#never expected to clear it ever#grateful to my static#dragonsong war#dragonsong reprisal#gposer#miqote wol#seeker of the sun#warrior of light#ff14 screenshot#ffxiv gpose
85 notes
·
View notes
Text
actually we don't write about women because women are just tooooo mature! xD women are so smart women aren't like those silly boys who always get into trouble and situations. that's why we don't write about them. they have no room for character growth because women are perfect. women are best situated as supporting characters so that they can support those silly men who don't know what they're doing with their feminine wisdom. i'm a feminist
#this started as complaining about one thing but then turned into another. whatever#late tag edit: yes this IS about that one persona interview#but I didn't make it clear bc I was a bit embarrassed by the implication I'd ever expect persona to not be misogynistic#(persona writers voice) we need to pander to the members of our fanbase that want to fuck the teachers#women? gay people? never heard of them
356 notes
·
View notes
Text
I think that the party's communication issues can be summed up as "man, is it awkward to tell someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with them if you've only know them for a few months? Probably."
#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#listen they will kill for each other but also its such a short time???? like??? thats part of the tragedy tbh#like!!! yeah theyll go back to their previous lives bc who in their right minds throw out everything they were doing before for people youv#only known for a few months and it turns out all of them do bc theyre insane for each other but!!!! like!!!! thats still a big ask!!!!!#yeah lets throw out everything we've ever know to be together lets fucking go and then they do in the end!!!! but!!!#thats because theyre all are ride or die to the extreme for each other!!!!!! far more than siffrin thinks anyone will ever be for him!!!!#anyway I have a lot of feelings about the party and just how bonkers (affectionate) they are#yeah no siffrin I too would not expect people to put aside their previous lives especially if its clear they have other plans#'yeah im gonna invite myself over to your house to live here lol' yeah no I would not assume that!!!!!!!#the issue is more that issue doesnt communicate what he really wants because if they do and his family says no then... being together truly#will end so he doesnt ask so they never will get a no so it never has to end (and has his reason to keep going)#this is turning into an essay in the tags but like. God its a wild set of circumstances so#tbh Siffrin not thinking the party wants to travel together is not wild to me neither is family not communicating#them wanting to be together ALL OF THEM wanting it is... unbelivable in these circumstances#but they do bc theyre all insane and ride or die but the extent of which is a mystery to all of them#anyway thats my essay in the tags#just read the no loops fic where the adults minus siffrin all offer to bring bonnie to bambouche and had FEELINGS about it#my posts
234 notes
·
View notes
Text
AU where Loki doesn’t interfere with Thor’s banishment at all and it takes Thor years to prove himself worthy and when he returns to Asgard everything is just. The same. Nothing seems to have changed at all and everyone greets him like his absence was a minor obstacle that didn’t fundamentally change Thor and the worst part is Loki stepped down from the place as regent without any delay and Thor can’t help but feel there’s something underlaying the way his brother looks at him now and won’t let him touch him and Thor doesn’t know what he could have missed because he doesn’t think he would have found anything wrong with the things around him and how everyone behaves if he hadn’t spent time on Earth reflecting.
#the warriors 4 not being interested in anything Thor ‘learnt’ at all#and making it clear that Thor was punished unfairly and the AllFather’s decision had been harsh#Loki saying he’s happy for Thor and Thor sees the way the smiles are forced and he sees the way Loki avoids any touch#Thor hating the way Frigga talks about Loki’s short regency and Thor’s absence like it wasn’t two whole decades or something#like she’s so grateful to have her other son back without ever addressing why he was gone#Thor just. growing during his time on earth and being much more aware of the behaviour around him#he learns to be critical and assess why people around him may act a certain way#once he realises that it’s possible for him or anyone else to be fallible and make mistakes it’s over for Asgard for him I think#Thor returns and Loki gives him the throne and everyone expects him to obviously have the throne#and Odin is sleeping and Thor isn’t comfortable with the way everyone accepts him as king regent after the banishment#Loki who either never lashed out against Jotunheim or did and it was brushed away and no one thinks about it as anything#but Loki is still deeply affected and acts the way he always would have but Thor can feel it’s not the same#he knows something is wrong and Loki won’t say anything about it and Thor doesn’t know how to bring it up#Thor sees Loki metaphorically receding into the shadows to become a nonpresence so loud Thor hears it even after returning from decades away#Thor goes to Earth and gets his priorities in order gets a new worldview learns not to take what he has for granted#and finds out he actually despised Asgard#he’s been back a week and he can’t stand it
427 notes
·
View notes
Text
'unless youre begging for mercy you shouldnt be on your knees' - my physics teacher wondering why we werent sitting down during our lab
#boycritter et al#WHICH BTW#WE WERENT SITTING DOWN BC AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR SHE TOLD US WE WERENT ALLOWED TO#SHE WAS VERY CLEAR ABOUT HER RULES FOR LABS#1) no sitting down during the lab. 2) she has to sign our data. 3) we never ever get to keep our lab packets afterwards#and now ??? she is wondering why were arent sitting down. looking at me like im insane for asking if i need her to sign my data.#and giving us back our lab packets#if theres one thing i hate more than teachers with a bunch of random rules its teachers who change their expectations CONSTANTLY
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
February 19, 2020
#my friend was like NOOOOOOOO DONT LEAVE ME HERE#and I never downloaded it again#rare moment of follow-through#bravest I’ve ever been etc etc#mobile#x#TikTok#(I’m clearing out unnecessary photos from my phone so I can make the iCloud backup as painless as possible)#(expect more such divulgences)
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
the aroaceness of twelve/river means everything to me.
#i'm so normal about the husbands of river song. i promise#need to look up some fics before i go to sleep i guess#(also imo twelve is aroace & river is aroallo)#i just love how their dynamic shifts from eleven/river being very physically affectionate to respecting twelve's touch averseness without#ever trying to say that their relationship is lesser (if anything it's a lot deeper)#the fact that whether the doctor loves river is a central question of the episode but it's never answered directly#it's clear that the doctor (at least twelve) doesn't really do conventional romantic love and a lesser episode would have had him say#i love you and make all of river's speech meaningless because love wins or whatever#but *caring* and having a connection with someone isn't less meaningful than love#do you expect a sunset to love you back? no but the sunset will always be there for you when you need it most#ending the episode in perpetual sunset. inspired.#anyways i'm just rambling now#my posts#new who
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
I know a lot of people think Ceroba and Chujin are destined for divorce and while I do think they would be better off with one if Chujin had survived they would not be getting one
#undertale yellow#both of them are too stubborn & traditionalist to ever admit they might want/need a divorce#chujin who sees having a wife and children as the expected outcome#and ceroba who dedicates herself to being a housewife and mother#even if they grew to resent each other and the love stopped being there they are NOT getting a divorce#with the very clear patriarchal roles the ketsukanes fall into. they would never get a divorce they would just suffer#they have to stay in this failing relationship. they can't admit they failed to perform normalcy.
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
you know i do wonder how many sonic characters actually have living parents. like knuckles is the last of his kind so obviously his parents arent around anymore. both guys who could be considered shadows dads are 100 percent confirmed dead. sonic is canonically an orphan im pretty sure. and on the other side of the coin cream is like the only character in the game cast who has a living parent we actually see onscreen. but what about everyone else i dont think theres a straight answer for any other character. other than rouge's mom being mentioned a couple times i Guess but we dont even know anything about her or if shes still alive just that she existed at some point. are these kids constantly putting themselves in danger because they dont have parents around to stop them or because their parents just dont care
#like what about tails. im guessing he didnt have any sort of family he was attached to if he left to be with sonic so quickly#but that doesnt really mean he didnt have parents at all. maybe he had parents and they just sucked i dont know#what about amy. what if she had parents this whole time we just never see them.#what about blaze. considering shes a princess id assume she was born into that role#but i dont know if her parents are ever actually mentioned#maybe theyre dead and there was no one else to take on their role and thats why blaze has so much responsibility at such a young age?#silver . he was born in a wet cardboard box all alone i cant really imagine him hvaing parents sorry#considering charmy is 6 and living with vector. an adult whos obviously not his biological dad.#i feel like something probably happened to charmys parents#espio i dont really question as much#becuase it feels very common in the sonic universe for teenagers to have more freedom than would be expected in real life#or maybe its not that common and the teenagers we're actually following are just living the most fucked up lives ever. i dotn know#but either way. espio where are your parents buddy. are they still alive. vector where are YOUR parents are they still alive#i dont know if i actually want canon explanations for all this though#because its kinda fun not knowing every detail about every characters life and being able to speculate and insert your headcanons n stuff#to be clear im talking about game canon#i know stuff like archie sonic and the sonic movies and the 90s cartoons will sometimes give characters new family members#or talk about their family situation even if the games dont say anything about that sort of thing
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
……………..who was gonna tell me the BEN drowned arg was gonna make me weirdly emotional huh
#yes i have not watched it until now#fake fan…. i know…….💔#BEN has been my fav for literally my whole life! i say with a suspiciously unwatched shaped arg behind me#but seriously damn😭#my little BEN loving heart and inner child loved the whole thing#ive been meaning to watch it forever but#im horrible at remembering to watch stuff LOL#and i’ve been having so much trouble with trying to design BEN in my au i thought oh this should help#…………it did but now i’m emotional#still gonna watch an analysis video as well bc… jadusable did not make anything incredibly clear and i need more context for AU writing#especially about….. yk. BEN himself. bc the videos were largely just following sarah#which is nice! love sarah i rooted for her the whole time and i almost cried at the end#but…. she aint the one getting an AU design here🤫#BUT!!! 10/10#fun fact: i begged my parents to buy me majora’s mask on my 3ds as a kid bc i loved BEN so much#but i could never even get past the deku link parts LOL#im notoriously awful at zelda games…… ironic i know.#tried majora and botw and twilight princess#sucked actual ass at all three it was unfortunate#but i haven’t played one since i was a kid#i would play it again if i still had my 3ds :(#anyways i just needed to babble#expect more BEN soon…… very soon………………..#i say as if i will ever NOT post about him HAHAHA#my shaylaaaa#obligatory heart eyes heart eyes#rambles#ben drowned arg
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
Battle vest is still a WIP but I wore it out for the first time last night :3
#went to one of the weirdest shows I have ever been to#it was like a small metal show my boyfriend found#the band we were there for was called velociriffer and they were fucking fantastic#and the other two openers were pretty fucking sick death/thrash metal#and then the last band came on#and it was like. blues.#I have never seen a crowd clear out so fast.#they weren’t even bad (aside from the vocals)#they were just. not who I expected after 3 death metal bands#they were from Pueblo Colorado tho and that sure did make sense#me <3#metal#battle vest
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
🌷
#‘If you don't want to answer’ anon#yeah it’s a bit to early to talk about it and knowing this fandom it probably will never be the right time either#i tend to agree with you because I’m that sort of person that stands up for others when I feel there is something wrong going on#i like to confront people and I like to make things very clear#knowing this about myself I always struggle when the others dont do the same#and yeah if you keep Louis out of the equation#as you said he suffered from it too but still took the chance to speak up#(even if his fans are nasty and mostly stupid and i tell that with any possible intention of sounding rude and pretentious)#so you know his words fell a but unheard because that rage and hate kept going#i tend to agree with you on that#but they don’t ever talk or take any position like ever#it’s frustrating because you can’t take actions and try your best to soothe such strong negative emotions#and the fact they didn’t and never do… yeah it’s disappointing but also not really?#cause i don’t expect them too yk?#i think that if they were aware of what was going on now they are now already guilty tripping#i hope they’re taking care now but also i hope this is some sort of wake up call#to stop such waves of criticism and anger towards someone unreasonably#and just show support and do whatever you can to protect humanity#with kindness and respect. not only with words you know
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
yaoi readers astonish me. how come these people slutshame seme (just to hate on him specially not even being frustrated at the trope) for sleeping around (instead of being faithful to the teenage situationship where the other party cut him off) while swooning over the second lead ship with groomeresque dynamic just because the the dude is hot or whatever🤣 how does this moral police even work. more ironic is how they completely miss the point author makes regarding seoins debauched lifestyle when it's self admittedly him "falling to the rock bottom". dude calls himself a whore in self deprecating way multiple times. like he clearly gave up on himself and thinks that's what the only way of being he deserves and capable of. god forbid seme to have depression and self medicate.
#backlight#also i don't get hate seoin gets for fucking over haeyool i lowkey thought it was hilarious ok all methods are fair in war and love#ppl act like he sent haeyool to get gangraped or something lmfao#when it's clear they are both made from the same cloth and haeyool isn't a wilting flower#i love haeyool hope author would get him an interesting endgame and he won't be just a third wheel forever#i DON'T like this gangster whatsoever tho tho i get he's needed to get seoin to jealous psycho state lmfao#i lowkey hope gangster and haeyool will end up together somehow i think it would be fun and tie loose ends#i don't have any expectations tho i am just watching all this with popcorn#sorry i had to rant about this yaoi apparently#like hilarious they bring that whole sex stuff up as in to undermine seoins feelings for yeongwoon when it's literally opposite#since seoin didn't ever try to get emotionally close to anyone else ever since yeongwoon left#he had to numb himself to everything because it was so bad mentally after the heartbreak💀#seoin they can never make me hate you 😁#those people really hate psychologically layered characters what to say#yaoi log
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
it's amazing how almost all of my friendships (and by almost all i mean Every save like three) are ruined by my own self essentially swerving into a wall and crashing on purpose due to my inability to believe my company could ever be even slightly desirable to anyone and i'd rather just burn it all and die than see myself as someone who intrudes and abuses people's kindness out of my own selfish desire to want companionship.
#i was going to post something similar the other night but i fell asleep instead#but i was thinking about how truly all cases for me boil down to#>i talk with someone and we have a great time >they express a level of joy in interaction >i get weirdly attached too quickly#>i am comfortable enough to openly be myself which inevitably ends on a weird interaction >i talk too much and am too clingy#>i convince myself that that was actually awful and annoying and not something anybody wanted to hear#>i decide to leave and never be seen again because i don't want to be hated more than i already am in my head#>i am miserable because i really wanted to keep talking to that person#i just had a random two day-long chat with someone who messaged me and we had a good time talking about chainsaw man#and it truly took not much time for me to start going off about other shit until i noticed replies got so much shorter and alienated#and i just stopped altogether. because yeah man you're not here for this and you're probably too polite to tell me to go fuck myself so#i'll just do it for you.#and I KNOW that that's a me problem.#I KNOW that that's my own brain convincing itself that i am worse than i actually am in the eyes of others#and i am AWARE of how unfair that is to anyone else. it speaks to a clear lack of trust that is also my fault#but there's also a reality that i'm just. Not someone that people are particularly Excited to talk to#and i feel like i've wanted nothing more than that ever since i lost it when i was 15 years old#i am Tolerable at usual and a Cartoon Clown at best. and none of those serve as particularly deep connections.#and i know that that's once again a me problem. and i shouldn't ever place that expectation on anyone. that is not fair. and i try not to.#but like. is it bad for me to want that to begin with?#should i just abandon the idea altogether and accept that yeah i am just destined to be a crazy hermit murmuring ramblings by themselves#is that the Morally correct thing to do? to just be alone? that's for sure what it feels like to me#that yeah that's what my life is always going to be. no joy in connection or sharing. just an endless stream of thoughts by myself.#that way at least my life won't get in the way of anyone else's lives.#and like. i am always hoping that someone would make a deliberate attempt to reach out to me even if i'm hell bent on isolating myself.#because that would be a proof that someone cares enough you know? that I Am an active choice that someone makes.#but that never comes. and that's not something that would be fair for me to expect or ask for either. would it?#might as well hope for a unicorn while i'm at it.
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I can fix him*
*bad writing, underutilized gameplay mechanics, characters with unfulfilled potential, funded by bootlickers
#ra speaks#personal#sorry I made dr phone calls and have like. ten minutes til I gotta get ready for first class of the semester. let me have this.#I think I should get every COD game ever for free. it’s MY tax dollars at work after all (actually anything produced w us military funding#should be free I think I can trap even my bootlicker tax hating dad into getting onboard w this one)#anyways. ghosts was…decent. but jfc if you give me a silent protag I expect SOME self awareness in the writing.#why are characters calling to him on comms when they know he won’t respond? why doesn’t he have an AAC device or something more futuristic?#I’m just saying if you explicitly limit a character you need to respect those limits in te writing. it’s not that hard.#like non of the characters even acknowledge that Logan never talks. esp weird when he first meets the ghosts#also. obv not a big fan of ‘all of South America has United into evil space terrorists’ but it was 2013 so ¯\ _(ツ)_/¯#wish we got to see some SDC civis y’know? get a bear on the average attitudes abt the whole. invading the US thing.#(jfc do not get me started on The Wall like this is a 2016 trump voter’s power fantasy)#also Riley was such an interesting mechanic why couldn’t they have at least substituted him w drones or something on the other missions??#you get him for like. two missions. and then he gets shot and you have to protect him (gosh I actually loved that section)#just. it was clear Logan was The Dog Guy with an aptitude for tech. honestly Hesh felt more like the MC than Logan.#and while Logan doesn’t have a ton of personality we can glean as a result of non speaking + ZERO communication at all ever#seriously he doesn’t even like. wave or give thumbs up to people wtf dude do ppl just assume he’s psychic or something???#I do LOVE the few scenes we get with him acting outside of player control/where he actually has agency (Elias’ death. the final cutscene)#and like it’s not much but it’s enough that I WANT to see what happens next#but alas. a decade old game without a true sequel (I think??? haven’t actually looked into it.)#my brother is making fun of me for being a COD gamer now like boy. I have no defense pls be nice to me T-T
38 notes
·
View notes