#night driving hhhhhh

[septimus-heap]

Okay okay wait I know I talk abt this all the time but I am once again thinking abt how marcia was the one to offer septimus a home. She offered him an apprenticeship when hed spoken like 3 sentences total to her and I am INSANE over it

[sukunasun]

i always thought of dilf geto suguru loving skin-to-skin contact with his newborn baby😔❤ with the twins by mama's bedside as she rests from the birth days ago while suguru, shirtless, sits at a chair nearby, lovingly cradling his baby, who only has a diaper and a cap, in his chest looking at his family with so much love in his eyes

dilf nanamin too....skin-to-skin contact with his baby in the nursery as mama rests in their room hhhhhh why arent they real :*(

"we're not having a baby," you tell him time and time again. and geto just chuckles then, getting lost in the smell of your shampoo, in the lingering perfume by the nape of your neck, arms encircling your waist, and just...accepting it as fact. he's content with this. he's already got two beautiful girls who call him by the name papa, so why should he want more. he doesn't. he's sure of it.

then he'd pull back, looking to where his forearm rests against your middle, bringing his palm down to your lower belly and kinda...feeling the space there. wishing and wishing, that tug in his chest calling out to him, urging him, "what if..." he whispers, words caught in his throat, unable to say the rest of that sentence for fear of what might come next. your reaction, your rejection...would be too hard to bear.

and you know what exactly it is because you've seen the way he lingers just a little bit longer inside you every time he finishes, eyes staring at what's not there. lost in a daze, in his own world imagining his release taking root with hands splayed across your womb. for a second picturing you full with his child, glowing and resting under warm blankets, burrowing in soft pillows, waddling around your kitchen in the middle of the night hoping to satisfy a craving. he'll stop at nothing to deliver, not even if he has to make a drive out or if he needs to pay extra for same-day shipping.

you'd smell so good, feel so soft...my wife, my wife, my wife—is pregnant. she's carrying my child. he won't stop saying it, he wants it so much... and he knows you've talked about it, you don't need to have a baby now, had agreed that your parenting days are yet to be over anyway. of course, you'd want a little baby made up of the two of you, but the thought of going through a pregnancy is a lot. or at least, just for now. "its for the best," you tell him while on your tip toes, leaning in to kiss the pout off his face, "besides, we could still make babies, isn't that the fun part?" so he'll swallow it down. you'll seduce him, and the both of you will forget about it for the time being.

but his want only grows stronger. you'd see it on his face, in the way he looks at the pamphlets at the nursery when he drops the girls off, at the squirming little bundles in incubators and carriers, newborns swaddled in pink and blue, he stares at strollers by a display window and when they cross him by on the street, his fingers caressing the wool straps of a onesie at a store as he sighs fondly. "how cute..." he mutters, in awe of the detail and the craftsmanship at work, olive greens and navy blues with the cutest embroidered stitches of flowers and woodland creatures, "this would keep him warm...a warm portable boy..." he chuckles to himself, doesn't even realize the things he says, or that he says it aloud, but your heart clenches at the thought...would it be so bad to give him another.

and maybe you should have seen it coming, but the two of you weren’t the most particular when it came to protection, and by the time winter arrives, your belly swells and so do your ankles. “this kid doesn’t move or make a sound, i think he’s only kicked once the past six months,” geto says from behind you, his hands feeling over your bump. and you sigh, leaning back into his hold, about to nod off into slumber when he feels so warm, so comfy, relieved when he takes some of the weight off in his arms, lifting your belly up and keeping it there.

“you’re just looking out for mama aren’t you?” you coo, hand over geto’s and at that very second, your baby kicks and you both feel it in your palms. “im thinking he’s a mama’s boy," he laughs, can’t stop caressing where his baby’s foot had been. grinning wide, you admit to him something you already know, “you're gonna be his favourite...i feel him responding to your voice more, and he'll be just like you…i bet you’d been a quiet baby yourself…”  

he's not geto when he holds his baby for the first time. special grade curse user or villain extraordinaire, but suguru...just suguru holding a baby in his arms while he gingerly feels the fine hairs, fixing the little cap atop their head, watching as a tiny fist wraps around his one index finger. oh, his heartbeat pounds when they gurgle and fidget, pulse jumping with sudden fear, before he calms again, smiling, cooing at them, a steady lup-dup, lup-dup beats through the cotton, soft and constant against his palm, trailing up his fingers, and down his spine. a life he holds onto. a life he's made.

[crossdressingdeath]

Astarion: Nearly two hundred years and I never came back. Not since the night I woke up down there. Astarion: I had to punch a hole in the coffin and claw my way through six feet of dirt. Astarion: Then when I finally broke the surface, retching up dirt and congealed blood, Cazador was waiting. Astarion: From that day on I was his. Until today. Kyvir: You were never his. Whatever he had, he took by force. Astarion: Maybe, but he did take it. There's almost nothing left of the person I was. Just a name on a rock. Astarion: For nearly two centuries I stalked the streets like a ghost while the person I was lay here, dead and buried. Astarion: Now I need to figure out who I am. What I want. Kyvir: You're the person I love. The person I want. Astarion: I feel the same. Astarion: You were by my side through all of this. Through bloodlust and pain and misery. You were patient. You cared. You trusted me when that was an objectively stupid thing to do. Astarion: I feel safe with you. Seen. And whatever the future holds for me, I don't want to lose that. Kyvir: You won't. Whatever comes next, I've got you. Astarion: Thank you. Astarion: Well, I should probably fix this. ... Kyvir: Pick up a flower and lay it on the grave. Astarion: Cute. Astarion: I've been dead in the ground for long enough. It's time to try living again.

The imagery of Astarion having to claw his way out of his own grave... Once again, Cazador seems to have been being cruel for the sake of cruelty. Unless there's something in DnD lore that I'm not familiar with there was no reason for him to leave Astarion down there and not even clear some of the dirt away! Presumably the graveyard had emptied out by the time Astarion dug himself out, Cazador could've at least tried to help, but he chose not to.

The way Astarion glances back over at you as he's carving the new dates onto his tombstone is fantastic, I love it. The way he's having to come to terms with the fact that the person he was back then is gone and he needs to move forward is sad but also very satisfying! And it's great how having avoided his grave for almost two hundred years Astarion wants you at his side when he finally does go back. The way you can support Astarion and be there for him throughout his quest is so good. I also love how in the middle of all this serious emotional stuff there's that brief moment where Astarion just straight up says that trusting him was incredibly stupid. He's not wrong, either; you meet him when he tries to kill you, you learn he's a vampire when he tries to drink your blood in your sleep, he's constantly pushing for you to make Evil Choices, there's really very little reason to trust him! But if you do trust him and put faith in him ultimately being a good person he proves himself completely worthy of that trust. Like so many things in DnD and related media, it was very stupid but worked out perfectly. We love to see it! And him feeling safe with you when his desire for safety was a huge driving force in him wanting to go through with the ritual to begin with... hhhhhh it's so good I love it. He might not entirely know who he is right now, but he knows he is the person you love and whatever else he may end up becoming he has that for the foreseeable future!

Also, Astarion finding you putting a flower on his grave cute is fantastic. It is cute, I love that you can do that! Just a silly little gesture, but it matters.

[bnesszai]

OH? HAVE I NOT GIVEN YOU THE MISANTHROPOLOGIST RANT?

hi I'm going to scream at you about will wood lyrics this is a threat

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Starting off strong with the opening

I wanna meet your maker

Shake him by his ensanguined damask lapels

Holler "Look what you've done, gave this planet a sun

And made a man to wonder if he's more than just the sum of his cells"

This whole song is pmzai about Chuuya to me. The lyric gave this planet a sun especially reminds me of how Chuuya indirectly gave Dazai a reason to live quite literally being a sun for Dazai to orbit.

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'Cause you defy creation

I hate you, I hate you, I do

Hands to the night sky, praying you might die

Before I fall in love with you

HHHHHH this lyric THIS LYRIC. This is just skk in general to me. Especially from a Dazai perspective. 'You defy creation' and 'praying you might die before I fall in love with you' both just drive me up a WALL

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Then skipping ahead a bit to these line

But I can hate myself

So you don't have to

Do I need to explain why this is Dazai coded? it's Dazai coded. It's SO Dazai coded.

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'Cause I like you, don't you see?

I just like you a little more than me

I, I like you, don't you see?

Oh, hey, I just like you a little more than me

This is once again pmzai core. "I just like you a little more than me". Makes me vomit blood actually. Something about being loving someone someone more than you love yourself. Someone else's light being your whole world. *dies*

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I've seen the face of nature

Wasted constellations crumpled up in my hands

Knowing if you're supernova, your light show is over

But too slow to know for sure if it's a pa-part of the plan

"Constellations crumpled up in my hands" <- so you know how in touch fic there's the line "Touch used to be spilling blood and manipulating death. Touch used to be stopping destruction before it can kill it's vessel." that vibes. If Chuuya is a star to Dazai and his touch stops Chuuya. Then Chuuya's constellations crumple in Dazai's hands. This whole bit is corruption from Dazai perspective to me.

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I hear your heart beating under the floorboards

The rhythm is a gospel to me

So how could I stand a chance, let alone dance

With the way you sweep me off these two left feet?

"I hear your heart beating under the floorboards the rhythm is a gospel to me" I don't have the words to explain this one it just makes me feral

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You're dangling a lantern

Over the event horizon

Thinking it'll thank you

For the light you're sacrificing

Bide time in orbit like a satellite

Remind yourself

The world don't revolve 'round you So don't you revolve 'round someone else

OKAY OKAY THIS ONE. HEAR ME OUT.

this is 15skk to me specifically Dazai watching Chuuya interact with the sheep.

Chuuya sacrificing his light to protect the sheep. and especially the line "The world don't revolve around you, so don't you dare revolve around someone else" is that.

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God don't explain the way time and space made us

Though with the wavelengths bending, it makes sense to me

The only thing that's meant to be is gravity And what comes up must go down

*screams*. I don't have the words for how skk coded this is. this is them. next question.

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Oh, beat by beat and heart by heart Oh, this won't have to end if it doesn't start Beat by beat and heart by heart This won't have to end But it just did

Cou pointed out in the ask I sent them about this but "this won't have to end if it doesn't start is just Dazai in general". The idea of keeping your distance from people because then it won't hurt when you leave. And then the end "this won't have to end, but it just did" Dazai leaving the mafia, and Chuuya.

I love this song. It's skk. I need everyone to see it.

Squish. I will go feral with you. let's goooooooo

this is literally like!!! it's so them. Chuuya makes Dazai want to live and Dazai hates it. He is so mesmerized by Chuuya and his liveliness and every bit of stardust that makes Chuuya Chuuya AND JUST.

His heartbeat is a gospel to Dazai. The only religious thing Dazai will ever believe in. Hhh.

if it never starts it can never end is so Dazai coded I'm gonna throw up.

also HOW DARE YOU quote my own fic at me HOW DARE YOU. touch fic my beloved.

[lavenoon]

*cracks knuckles*

(gonna copy this to AO3 too, after sending it, but I don’t know it just feels like tradition to send the big ones to tumblr first haha)

Ok let's get right to it!!

So first of all I gotta say I love everything about this first ever interaction! It really gives a good look at what it was like for both Dusk and Robin before meeting each other. 

Like, the fact that Dusk was so sure he would be able to get there before them, because he took a “shortcut”, but it’s clear who is the most familiar with the city and the actual fastest routes. He’s so impressed that they were able to get there faster than him, haha! The fact that he did this at all makes me wonder if as a way of proving himself as capable as he is, he has taken it upon himself for a while to get into jobs above his ranks and steal the show. He certainly seems to have had a plan from the start to outdo this agent, even if he didn’t know who they were at first.

But I adore that Robin immediately shows him it’s not that easy. They are a star agent for a reason. Beating him there, stealing his cap, and not even a lick of doubt when they say they are sure they could take him in a fight. Dusk might be used to people outright being scared of him, but Robin shows none of that.

Not that they’re unaffected of course. We see it through all the chapter and Dusk throws a couple of low blows even if he doesn’t realize it. “The prickly agent that no one likes”, and especially the “If that’s how you treat your fellow agents, maybe it’s no surprise you’re unpopular.” Because oof. We know a younger Robin likely tried. Really tried to get along with others before any illusion of camaraderie was broken. And it must have felt like they were the problem because of something natural to them. And now Dusk is telling them that they are the problem for how they choose to act. Damned if you do, and damned if you don’t right? (and while I know that it’s probably not necessary at all I am just a bit curious if Moon ever thinks back and realizes his words might have stung more than he realized at first)

But aaaah, it seems Robin’s honesty does seem to have piqued his interest! Because there are implications in what Robin says about him needing to try harder to make fun of them. That maybe it wasn’t just once or twice that they received worse. Also there’s Robin saying that he doesn’t trust him, because he can hardly argue against the fact that they haven’t seen him work, and they have already shown that they are ahead of him in the game twice in the night so far. So it’s not a dismissal of him being incapable, it’s very much just that as an agent they can’t just go ahead and make careless assumptions, and Dusk knows it. 

But oooh it’s so nice seeing how they can clearly connect a little, even if Robin tries to resist it. Because Dusk reminds them so much of their own early days and how he shares some of the same interests and likes that they need to keep guarded most of the time. 

(sidenote: ooough my heart when he asked if they had given up on the fun, because while clearly they haven’t it’s such a lonely way of having fun and I worry that eventually they would have lost the drive to even try and keep that aspect of their job in the future ;-;)

And pffff it was hilarious seeing Dusk so cocky, confident that he’d just stolen the job from the top agent and was on his way to impress the office XD I can just imagine whoever needed the info looking at what he brought and going “ok… where’s the rest?” and him suddenly a mini panic because uh oh, what rest?

Kinda deserved tbh XD

(But aaaah again with the “you’re no fun” bit ooough, because trying to be fun only brought them rejection among their peers HHHHHH)

But it’s clear that with every moment that passes Dusk doesn’t really think they’re not fun. Actually it seems he really finds them the most fun to be around, and it’s nice that he seems to bring out that a bit more when he himself reflects what Robin wishes the job could be more about, cool stuff and booby traps or even just the secret agent theme being a cool thing to think about. Bet Dusk counted it as an absolute win when they finally ended up laughing freely. Also the fact that he was so offended at the notion that he is boring because he keeps telling them not to swear is so funny XD How dare they imply he’s as dull as the other agents!

And awww when they mentioned him in the report! It’s not nothing to receive a commendation from the star agent, but to Robin it was probably just giving credit where credit is due. But oof, the small doubts that he is still just using them to serve his own image are still there and they definitely come to play later in the fic.

It’s nice to see how from then on Robin half takes him under their wing (had to, sorry Robin XD), but it also is not precisely mentorship, but a developing friendship with a pinch of helping out. The fact that they let him know the rookie mission was a setup to alleviate the pressure from the “failure” after all. How it’s a cynical practice to harden the agents. Knowing that would definitely help him be more aware of how EVOC works. 

But aaaaaa then we get the nice routine established only for the doubts to come back with a vengeance.  And ooough it hurts! Because Dusk was likely just looking for some guidance on what to expect if he did get the promotion. So from his perspective the sudden hostility likely felt like a slap on the face! But it comes back to that right? Robin’s fears, that once again them being them is what will make them lose it all. That once the newbie climbs up to where they are he’ll kick them from their place, because now the higher ups found someone better and if they keep slacking off it’ll go beyond that. Deep down they probably know Dusk isn’t trying to hijack what they have, but even if aware of their practices, Robin is still affected by what the company has done to them. Having left behind nearly everything else, the prospect of having the one thing they cling to torn away is too much at that moment. And so they snap at the main threat, who is also the closest they’ve had to a friend. Makes me think a little of the non canon scenario, where the boys get a promotion, actually! Because no wonder if this was the initial reaction, in that case it would feel even worse! 

But omg! The part where they defend him AAAAAAA Because gosh, if that didn't mean everything I don’t know what would! Just everything about it! The fact that every time he looks at them his eyes turn blue! The red reserved for those antagonizing him! Robin at first thinking that it’s best for him to just handle the situation alone like they had to because nobody helped when they needed it, only to become so angry at the agent discrediting all Dusk has done that they automatically intervene. Because they saw the potential! They know it’s not true! They literally had a freak out because Dusk is that good that they felt their rank was in jeopardy! And they put a stop to the mockery because it just isn’t right! Makes me remember Dusks words from a couple chapters ago. When y/n says they weren't always nice, but he replies that they have always been kind. He likely saw that way before this incident, but I can see it staying with him for a long time.

And ooough the confrontation! Dusk really deserving an explanation of what was all that about and Robin knowing that if there’s anything they do to fix it, it’s going to involve opening the slightest about their insecurities. And at first it must seem like a dismissal to Dusk. A finality of Robin saying that he’s the problem that will make them lose what’s most important, but then they call out to him! And he sees that they really don’t want to throw him aside and this must be the most vulnerable they’ve seen this hardened agent that doesn’t drop the facade around anyone else. And they’re about to offer, but they’re scared. And he can see that. But they retreat before he can even reassure them and it’s a glimpse of the person no else has likely seen, and he must understand as well. He just faced a whole lot of rejection, it’s no wonder he recognizes it in someone else’s face. 

(also shaking Robin’s hand about fearing disappointment most of all)

But aaah that’s such a sweet ending! Dusk finally got to deliver the smooth line that got interrupted before XD Makes me wonder if he intended to deliver it that first night when they met but was just completely thrown off by finding Robin there hehe

A complete delight of a chapter, Luce!! I adored every second of it!! <3

In the most affectionate way, I'd love if tumblr allows read mores for asks just so I could un-collapse your asks like those comically long unfolding scripture rolls or something. Y'know in cartoons when they start unrolling and it just keeps going? I want that FHDJS

but without further ado, the actual reply!

The thing about Dusk (and Dawn) at the start of their agent career is... They underwent a year of training, where especially Dusk quickly realized that he excels at the sneaky stealthy aspects, and he's a gremlin who likes to climb. Equipped with his special grip gloves (courtesy of Eclipse), parkour works out just fine for him, and while he technically hasn't started so long ago, he's gotten used to being better than human agents! And those human agents, too - except they don't even wait to see his performance, rather dismissing it because "he's an animatronic, of course he's good". He doesn't want that - it's empty validation.

So when Dusk sees a certain someone leave, with people around him sparing them only disdainful glances, if anything... Well, he decided to prove his merit and show that he's good! He gathers it's a star agent, asks where they're headed, and thought he could get a headstart, only to get there at top speed and they're already there. Spiderman pointing meme moment.

And it that sense, Robin's insistence that he's a rookie is refreshing to him. Because yeah, sure, it can rankle his pride - he wanted to prove how good he is, and there's someone insisting he's not that great! But then he just. stays. and realizes they see him as a beginner agent, which he is. They don't see him and say "ah, animatronic, of course you're great". They basically tell him "no matter what, you just started out. Stay vigilant, or it's going to bite you in the ass." He's intrigued!

He's still a little shit, and he throws those low blows - without realizing. He tries to match the energy Robin puts out while still adapting his plans from "show up this star agent" to "tag along with this star agent", and he ends up hurting them. And he realizes it quickly, too. Because he doesn't need to look back far into the future - he falls silent right then and there. Robin tells him outright they've had worse, try harder, and Dusk walks behind them with the realization that 1) they just admitted that they think he wants to hurt them, and 2) they have gone through a lot that made them this prickly. He's already getting prickly! He's been doing proper field work for just a few weeks there! All his attempts to be seen and acknowledged and taken seriously while having fun, fruitless.

And then they have their little conversation where Robin locks up when it's their turn to answer, and still he gets it when he spots the sticker on their little gadget.

Their honesty is crucial here, too. They keep secrets, yes - that comes with the job. But they tell him he's a rookie, they tell him they don't trust him, and they refuse to be vulnerable for the same reason. Dusk can appreciate that, and he refuses to push more of their buttons after that moment in the staircase.

Robin appreciates it, too. He's "clear", he doesn't mock them for those crumbs of joy they held on to. They're scared of connection and crave it at the same time, so it's a strange mix for them still. But hey, surely it's a one off!

(Also I need you to know that I am currently trying to stomp out another timeline thought at "Robin does give up on fun")

Well, and then Dusk goes back to his initial plan (: He grabs all the information they were sent to gather, but he's superficial, sloppy. Robin figures that not everything is kept digitally, and goes for the papers - and they find additional information. So it's not that there's a rest that's missing, but River gets two reports, one technically fine and just what she asked for, the other going above and beyond with even more information. She tells Dusk that next time he should save her some time and make her read one report only, and that'd be the report with the extra leverage he didn't provide.

Cue a little confrontation - and once again, Robin reminds him that he's a newbie and has a lot to learn! He's prickly about it, but he also just enjoys that they talk to him without bias, because whelp, obviously it's not a bias to say he's a beginner! He can admit that! (Dawn can't, not as well. Another reason the reverse rivalry starts out tenser). Dusk catches a glimpse of where Robin is headed next, and decides it's time for little shit, round two!

(And he immediately gets schooled, again. He nearly got a sizeable dent into his shell for spooking them, and he takes the moment to process that they absolutely could hold their own against him. He's a weirdo, so that only excites him)

Another mission where he tags along against their will, but they threaten him marginally less and he takes it as a win. Again the honesty strikes him - he's being silly, probing to see how Robin would engage, and they catch him by surprise with the mental image of automated suits of armor! It's again a proof for him that they're not as prickly as they pretend they are - and how ironic, that later on they start calling him the cactus!

He gets delegated to standing watch, but then he does actually get to see action. Takes care of it quickly, only to spot Robin standing in the doorway, and for the first time there's the notion of surprise, and in their moment of whiplash and in his own expectation, that looks way too much like fear. He thinks now he's going to lose that connection, make them realize that he's got inbuilt weapons that give him an unfair advantage, all the things he's been told before.

He cracks a joke. They laugh - openly, and maybe just a bit too much, but neither of them is going to complain. They make a joke back, and he gets to run with it, and thus the banter is born! So he pouts extra when they call him boring after that, but he also takes it as a challenge to turn it up a notch! Despite acting affronted, he's mostly relieved that it doesn't seem to have changed what Robin thinks of him.

Robin of course is still paranoid, and since Dusk himself burned them just the mission before by ditching them, trying to steal the credit (what they think - he did credit them in his report!), they opt for revenge. They leave him behind. He takes it as a hint.

But Robin is honest. They credit him in their report - and later on, too, when their shared missions become a pattern. That's the "good word" the higher ups mean when they promote him. He'd be good enough without that input, too - or Dawn wouldn't have been promoted in the same breath, but it's something Dusk remembers.

The rookie mission? It didn't go badly. Not for Dusk (and Dawn). No, they did well, but received backlash from other agents for all the usual things. Robin doesn't know that, and assumes when they find Dusk avoiding everyone and acting hissy, but they're genuine in their reassurance. It's what makes him relax, in the end. He still hates the outcome of the mission, so they were right as far as that is concerned, but they tell him it's okay, that's how it's meant to end, and it's not a personal failing.

It tells him more about Robin, too. The fact that they seek to reassure him. The fact that they're so competitive. The fact that they offer him distraction, and fun.

But even the nicest routine doesn't erase their insecurities.

Dusk asks them what it's like to be a star agent, and they demonstrate. He's baffled, because he's been told they advocated for him, only for them to lash out like this - he doesn't know how terrified they are. Losing their rank would prove everyone who made fun of them right. They have no friends, they barely have a life outside of work, and since they were a recruit of the "work for us or we're going to make your life hell after 'infiltrating' our base" sort, they're just waiting for the higher ups to get rid of them. They're too unconventional but now there's an agent who is obviously more efficient, and they have seen him in action. They know he's good.

And they're scared. They can't lash out against the higher ups, so they tell Dusk to stay away, and he does. They're both miserable for a good while, and there are so many changes in their life. Robin avoids Dusk like the plague, and Moon is too hurt to even want to introduce himself to the very nice new landlord Sun found for them.

It's been a throwaway thought that Dusk, in moments of stress when he's expected to look at people but he just doesn't want to see, switches to thermal vision because it's shapes, and less detail. He doesn't do that when it comes to Robin. He sees them duck away, but they don't leave.

And then someone makes the mistake to say Dusk isn't actually a good agent, and just got the promotion because he's an animatronic.

Imagine you're Dusk, in that moment. (Ironic, maybe, given that Robin is the reader insert, but shh). The closest person to a friend "breaks up" with you just a few short weeks ago for being too good of an agent. They avoid you. You see them when they run into you and some other agents in the middle of insulting you, and they lock up. They don't interact, but they also don't leave - and then one insult makes them snap back up and just yeet their snack at the offender. That split second of widened eyes as they realize what they've done. Instinct. They did that on instinct, for you. And then they double down. There's the prickly star agent that no one likes. But they channel all that venom into your defense.

Dusk, of course, is still pissed. And he's well within his right for that! They lashed out, they haven't apologized, and they also don't really do that, not explicitly. He asked an innocuous question (as he thought) and got that in return.

But he stays, to ask. Tries to make sense of things. He gets that explanation, but it doesn't have much hope for him in that moment. For those few seconds he feels like he'll just have to accept that being promoted was the end of that friendship. But Robin doesn't want to lose that, either. They're the one who pushed him away, and now they're the one trying to reach out - and with everything he knows about them, he sees them withdraw, back into that hardened shell they hide behind, and he wants to reach out and stop them, but the hurt is too fresh and they're not that close - he doesn't know how he could.

This is the moment that future Moon looks back to with the thought that he should have stopped them from leaving. It worked out fine for them all, sure, but he now realizes just how scared they were, and wishes he would have held them back and reassured them then and there. It wouldn't have worked! They wouldn't have accepted it! But it's something on his mind, when he gets to know them better.

But it does work out for them. Dusk goes back to what he knows best, and what kept them entertained for so long. Before, it may have been a somewhat mentorship flavored friendship, but they're both star agents now, the same rank, and now it's a full fledged rivalry. He gets them by surprise, gets to be smooth about it, and he gets his friend back <3

[direwombat]

wip weekend/last line(s) tag

tagged by @detectivelokis, @simplegenius042, @gaeadene, @adelaidedrubman, @socially-awkward-skeleton, @cassietrn, and @inafieldofdaisies to share some wip stuff

not tagging anyone this time around because hhhhhh am late to the party and brain soop with the sunday night scaries, but here's the sketches for the screencap redraw (based off this spn gifset) i was originally going to do digitally but was forced to do traditionally (slightly distorted because i took this with my phone rather than scanning)

and under the cut is the start of an early scene for the werewolf au :)

It’s nine p.m. and Sybille is all of thirty seconds off shift when Eli calls her. 

With a waggle of her fingers, she waves Joey goodbye before snapping her flip-phone open and pressing it to her ear. “Y’know? Small as the county is, it does take time for me to drive from Falls End up into the mountains,” she smiles. 

“I know, I know,” Eli laughs warmly. “Just wanted to catch ya before you were on your way.” 

She makes her way through the main lobby where Nancy sits manning the phone. Wishing the older woman a cordial goodnight, she walks out the Sheriff’s Department’s doors and into the parking lot. “I’d’ve picked up either way,” she states simply, fishing keys from her jacket pocket.  

“That’s exactly why I wanted to get you before you started the engine,” he explains. “Listen, I haven’t heard from Chad in a few days and I’m gettin’ worried.”

A frown tugs at the corners of her lips. She unlocks the door to her truck, flings the door open, and climbs inside. “Eli, I’m off duty,” she huffs as she pulls the door shut. “You should really be callin’ the non-emergency number for stuff like this.”

“Syb, honey, if I thought he wouldn’t just open fire on a cruiser, that’s exactly what I’d do,” he says patiently. “His place is on the way up to mine,  just hook that second left on Forest Road 135. His cabin’s at the end of that little dirt road.” 

Her brows furrow, and she flicks on her headlights. “And you’re sure he ain’t just gonna open fire on my truck?” 

“He knows you,” Eli says. “And if he doesn’t recognize your truck, at the very least he’ll send that warning shot into the air and not to your windshield.”

“Oh, well, that makes me feel real comforted,” she says flatly. Shoving her key into the ignition and giving it a turn, the engine of her old cherry-red Chevy rumbles to life. “Fine,” she relents. “I’ll check in on ‘im. Need me to pick anything up from the General Store or grab food from the Spread Eagle, while I’m still in town?”

“Nah, I’m good,” he answers. “And I really appreciate it. I wouldn’t be asking if I wasn’t worried.” 

[heartpascal]

CHECK UNDER THE DOORMAT

(reader)

• memories - conan gray

"now i can't say, 'goodbye',

if you'll stay here the whole night,

you see, it's hard to find an end to something that you keep beginning,

over, and over again,

i promise that the ending always stays the same,

so there's no good reason in make-believing,

that we could ever exist again."

• already gone - sleeping at last

"i want you to know,

that it doesn't matter,

where we take this road,

but someone's gotta go,

and i want you to know,

you couldn't have loved me better,

but i want you to move on,

so, i'm already gone."

• requiem - laura dreyfuss, michael park, & jennifer laura thompson

"why should i have a heavy heart?

why should i start to break in pieces?

why should i go and fall apart for you?

why should i play the grieving girl and lie,

saying that i miss you,

and that my world has gone dark without your light?

i will sing no requiem tonight."

(joel)

• ghost of you - 5 seconds of summer

"so i drown it out like i always do,

dancing through our house with the ghost of you."

• somewhere only we know - keane

"oh, simple thing, where have you gone?

i'm getting old, and i need something to rely on,

so, tell me when you're gonna let me in,

i'm getting tired, and i need somewhere to begin,

and if you have a minute, why don't we go,

talk about it somewhere only we know?

this could be the end of everything."

• rescue - lauren daigle

"i will send out an army to find you,

in the middle of the darkest night,

it's true, i will rescue you."

• fourth of july - sufjan stevens

"did you get enough love, my little dove?

why do you cry?

and i'm sorry i left, but it was for the best,

though it never felt right,

my little versailles."

(tommy)

• you are enough - sleeping at last

"when we grew up, our shadows grew up too,

but they're just old ghosts that we grow attached to,

the tragic flaw is that they hide the truth,

that you're enough, you're enough, you're enough."

• talk to me - cavetown

"you don't have to be a prodigy to be unique,

you don't have to know what to say or what to think,

you don't have to be anybody you can never be,

that's alright, let it out, talk to me."

(jesse)

• open arms - jorge rivera-herrans & steven dookie

"this life is amazing when you greet it with open arms,

i see in your face, there is so much guilt inside your heart,

so why not replace it and light up the world,

here's how to start,

greet the world with open arms."

• this side of paradise - coyote theory

"are you lonely? (are you lonely?),

our fingers dancing when we meet,

you seem so lonely (are you lonely?)."

(reader and jesse)

• better in stereo - liv & maddie

"when you say yeah, i say no,

when you say stop,

all i wanna do is go, go, go!

you,

the other half of me,

the half i'll never be,

the half that drives me crazy."

• brother - kodaline

"if i was dying on my knees,

you would be the one to rescue me,

and if you were drowned at sea,

i'd give you my lungs so you could breathe,

i've got you, brother."

HOWL!!! sobbing. heartpascal works hard but h-owlpost works HARDER. every time. i’m literally gonna scream and cry hello????

memories by conan gray: literally perfect. those EXACT lyrics are so so fitting. like r might’ve been ok eventually if joel and ellie had never come back, but now that they’re in jackson, she just can’t move on 😭

already gone: has me hollering and screaming and yelling and in pain. as well the lyrics “remember all the things we wanted, now our memories are haunted” HHHHHH this whole song is SO PERFECT HOWL STOP IT RN.

requiem: A BRAND NEW SONG FOR ME. oh my god. oh my god? i cannot articulate this one. *

i love ghost of you but my attention is stolen by somewhere only we know: I HAVE KNOWN THIS SONG FOREVER AND I DIDNT EVEN THINK. it’s so perfect. it’s too perfect. HELLO???? “i’m getting old and i need something to rely on” JOEL MY BELOVED 😭 *

rescue: oh yes. this song is so joel miller coded.

FOURTH OF JULY IS OUT OF POCKET I AM GLING TO SCREAM!!!!! *

cavetown is so so close to my heart. i cant even tell you. “it’s so dark tonight, but you’ll survive, certainly. it’s alright, come inside and talk to me” i am yelling so so loudly *

open arms is so good for jesse and r. I LOVE HOW ITS UPBEAT AND AND AND. also i think it is so reader and jesse coded with how different they are. LIKE R WOULD DEFINITELY BE MORE DEFENSIVE!!! at least at their ages rn, whilst jesse is like. dude relax 🙄 *

this side of paradise: yes. and “IF YOURE LONELY COME BE LONELY WITH ME!!!” need i say more.

BAHAHA BETTER IN STEREO IS SO THEM I LOVE IT. maybe one of my FAVOURITE CHOICES EVER. they are both menaces to each other it’s TRUE.

BROTHER: this one. this one. i love this song so much. this is them. THIS ONE. if i could choose any song it’d be this one. *

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

I just scared the absolute life out of myself.

7am, right? Dark winter morning bit foggy and my commute to work is a forty five minute walk of this:

I'm on edge the whole time and I hate it so much. It's too dark for comfort but how else can I get to work when I can't ride a bike and I don't drive?

And right beside me on this stretch of road, where I never ever look unless it's broad daylight, is a graveyard.

Well, today I thought, you know, it's all in my head, my fear of the dark is evolutionary biology, it's okay, you can look over into the graveyard.

So I did. And then immediately almost fucking shit myself because someone was walking without a torch and all I saw was a figure darker than the rest of the night with a pale face, hood up, looking quite content but they scared me so bad I thought my heart was gonna bust outta my ribcage.

I'm in fucking tears hhhh nope nope NOPE 😰😰😰😰😰 that's why I never fucking look around on my morning commute, I just keep my head down and blast Ozzy and Metallica and Dio and I walk and I don't stop til I'm at work.

That'll teach me to try to face my fears.😂 (I jumped so hard I actually inadvertently scared myself MORE. 😂💀)

Still trying to catch my breath and calm down five minutes later hhhhhh that put some serious fear into me💀

[klavierpanda]

Colours ask game: yellow, goldenrod, mahogany, ruby, pink, violet, pink, green, jade, pink <22

Yellow - every time i see you on my dash you're always so happy and it's so lovely!

Goldenrod - i really wanna sit next to you and watch a sunset/sunrise. or maybe just look at you.

Mahogany - let's go on a late night drive together and listen to one of your playlists.

Ruby - you are such a gem, you deserve so much better <3

Pink - biting you biting you biting you biting you licking you biting you biting you

Violet - honestly i just wanna kiss you just to shut you up. yeah.

Green - wanna go touch grass with me?

Jade - honestly you have some of the best takes on this hellsite.

Hhhhhh yeah! Thank youuuu <2222

P.s. all the bites back! >:DD

[screamingay]

baltimore goats show had the most banger setlist ohh my god going to queens damn these vampires first few desperate hours prowl great cain HE SANG SOLIDARITY FOREVER!!!!! not to mention the new album like fr mark on you and make you suffer were SO good and closing the QUADRUPLE ENCORE with training montage was so so so fun i mean it closed with either that or no children i dont rember rn anyway point is favorite band go brrrrrr lol OH and the opener was great listen to lightning bug

[kanadian-bacon]

can we just invent teleportation already?

like i want to go to the barn i just don't want to do the getting there part

[inkyquince]

hhhhhh just the thought of briar or bailey really going full obsessive over the house spouse. like, they've "bumped" into you multiple times and keep flirting with you. Your home phone rings one night, and your spouse answers.

"Hello. Is your partner home?"

MAKING SURE to sound smarmy and snide. Wants to inspire that distrust in your partner, just to drive a wedge between you.

Or even, asking for you by using an intimate nickname, or such, like something that only they would call you, or a new name that's obviously linked to your name.

It's about the smaller power plays

[emetkoto]

Hey, please tell me your favourite Emetkoto headcanon? - @littlelordalphinaud

honest to god have to go with the wedding thing it drives me insane to think about its SO good and hurts SO much...im working on a long ass rambling post about it so i wont talk your ear off too much here but basically tldr (shadowbringers and endwalker spoilers)

near the end of shb before the vauthry fight when everything was looking good irt k'oto containing the light and suck emet-selch came to him one night he wasnt called and woke him up to take him down to the shade of amaurot in the tempest and the two got married in a traditional amaurotine ceremony <3 then after the ceremony and the obligatory ""first night"" he waited for k'oto to fall asleep and used his magic to seal away his memories of the night, took his ring, and sent him back to his inn room so it was as if nothing ever happened at all :,) if he had been able to contain the light from vauthry and prove mankinds worth emet-selch would have broken the spell and allowed him to have them back so they could just stay together but things didn't work out and the next chance he got was after the dying gasp which uh...ummmm... well. k'oto was pretty fucked up since he yknow, didnt plan to kill him at all and was not in control when that axe was swung so letting those memories loose right then seemed like a terrible idea so he just. didnt! he thought k'oto would be better off without the burden so he went on and on missing him and wishing that he had something, anything to remember him by, or any truly good times to look back on to numb the pain but he didnt!! so emet-selchs whole 'youll be better off without them' thing kinda backfired, oops! after elpis he was even more of a mess since um. wow. that all was kind of his fault for not really doing anything even though doing something would literally make him stop existing huh! when he got down to the aetherial sea and met hydealyn he was pretty distressed...angry at her for putting him and emet-selch through All That Shit and just generally grieving all over again but wait, she could see something wasnt right with his aether....a magic she recognized cast on his memories! so as a last act of good will to show that she truly loved him and was so very truly honestly sorry...she broke the spell for him :,) it was a genuinely good memory of him, not at all plagued by doubt or uncertainty or emet-selch saying some weird shit about how inferior sundered beings are it was just them. happy and in love for once and now he had it!!! he could think of it whenever he was sad and missing him and it gave him strength to carry on after that second devastating blow in elpis!!! and all of ultima thule!!! and pseaking of ultima thule when he's reunited with him there again emet-selch has no idea hydealyn has cleansed his memories and he Still Doesnt Plan To because he worried the memories would drag him down instead of empower him (like how his memories of paradise kept him trapped in the past unable to move on) so when k'oto tells him that he DOES remember he is. very surprised but also so so so sosososo glad that at the very end everything is finally out in the open. nobody is missing any memories, nobody has to lie or obscure the truth or hold back information to further their agendas theyre just. two lovers saying goodbye at the end of all creation hhhhhh,,,,,,,,,,,,,he gives him back his ring, puts it back on him all romantically the same way he did at their wedding and k'oto never takes it off ever again

this got a lot more rambly than expected but it still will get worse when i finish that other post. you have been warned

[equestriagirl16]

Hhhhhh...l-late night drive..with Sero..windows/hood down ashjdkdk JUST-your feet up on the dash while you feel the cool night air blow against your face. You look over at him while he’s one handing the wheel veins very prominent and rings shinin. Using his palms to turn every so often. He glances over, looks you up and down then stares directly into your soul. Right before turning back to look at the road, licking his lips and flashing that MFKN SMIRK I-(WHEEZE). Y’all are probably ever so slightly buzzed from a small sesh you had before leaving, cause you can’t be hittin it too much and decide to drive. Responsible moderation. DID I MENTION- Indigo by Chris Brown is blasting. Yes. YES. He’s boppin his head and hyping you up while you absolutely murder the chorus. The bass is bumpin through the car and you’re bodies, you can just feel it in your core and god it’s such a vibe. Just stick your head out the window and belt, harmonizing with the wind while he looks at you all awestruck and gives you the “that’s my baby” look. It’s such a carefree and sensual moment he can’t help but rest his hand on your thigh and grip ever so slightly. You intertwine your fingers with his while you feelin yourself and dancing with the top half of your body. Y’all are just super giggly, and like half make out a few times at red lights when things start to feel a lil more intense. It all tips over the edge though after another particular song comes on. I’m thinkin something like. No Guidance. pls PLS imagine him mouthing “fuck around give you my last name.” while side eyeing you. Lowkey I hc he can dance, he’d absolutely fuck it up to this song. In fact combine those, him singing/lip syncing the lyrics and just tearin it up-I’m on the flOOOOR I CANNOT. Anyways, it’s in fact now his turn to start feelin himself, he sings the chorus lowly to you and-how’s it getting so warm all the windows down tf. At the last breakdown you both slow down with it, now your just rollin your body to the tempo singing some more. In a moment while the songs wrapping up y’all both exchange very intense yet soft stares, like you both needed something but couldn’t say. Yep, you guessed it, you both came down with a case of bedroom eyes👀. Cue him grabbing onto you and making a full U turn, and maybe goin a liiiiiiitle bit over the speed limit. Mans is on a mission and it’s all thanks to you.~ (and what happens when y’all get home you may wonder? That’s a song and a story for another time~)

[lovelywingsart]

Got a little bit of a pin-up for y'all uwu

Censored nudity (as well as some... 'fun' damage) under the cut!~

I like your ‘67 Chevy ride

Tell me, will you let me drive it all night?

Or sit me on the passenger side? Yeah, what a side

'Cause you're as sexy as that '67, Mmm

And I'm lookin' for a ride

'67 (Winchester)' - Reyna Roberts

-

Sometimes you just gotta steal his jacket... 😏💙

//Two versions because I love you all, and I just... REALLY wanted more bruises and bitemarks on her, but I also liked the clean version. QuQ"

Karl... MAY have lost his shit.

In a good way. 😏

This song is also too sexy for it's own good. Also, if you're here from my main account on twitter, congrats, you now know the OTHER meaning for the birth year. 😂 (1967- I had already said she was born in the mid-late 60s, I just didn't know what exact year until now. Which, yes, also makes her 54 at time of game events. uwu)

...

Supernatural.

It's a Supernatural reference.

GodDAMN that car is just... 🥵💙 Bless this song for existing because HHHHHH-//

You can check out the uncensored on my NSFW Twitter, as always~

[hanadolphieron]

wooyoung as a boyfriend~

how you met;

yoooo okay what if you were at an arcade with your separate groups of friendly humans

and there was one of those foam pits where you can try to smack each other into the pit using those huge cylinders of gymnastic mat material?

i’m so good at explaining things

so you’re in line

woo’s on the other side

and you offer to fight the little gremlin

to which wooyoung’s like “what yeah, i can take them, what are you talking about yeosang- hey! i told you not to talk about that it’s embarrassing”

and you’re just there like ... can you shut up i wanna fight

anyways wooyoung gets into this fancy fighting stance while making sound effects

you’re less dramatic but do the same

and then you charge at each other

slowly, because the battle is commencing on a balance beam

but ~nyooming~ nonetheless

you’re both c o w a r d s (kidding) and stop, waiting for the other to make the first move

and then you both go yeet! and attack each other, but aren’t able to shove the other off

so you prepare another attack, and end up shoving wooyoung into the pit

the force of this offence sends you tumbling into the foam alongside him

wooyoung, the polite stranger that he is, goes “YAHHHHH! HOW DARE YOU?” which makes you scream in shock

then he apologizes bc you know, probably shouldn’t have yelled at a complete stranger wh00ps

but you end up following his large group of peeps around with your friends

and get to know your jousting opponent

very well, in fact, and promise him to meet up sometime again

because you just ~click~

the basics;

let’s see wooyoung is just about the most affectionate person you will EVER meet 

and he takes great pride in that so make sure to appreciate his constant need for attention and hugs

love is something woo like to ~put on display~

expect lots of PDA

will also talk about you/your relationship relentlessly to anyone who will listen

f l i r t a c i o u s

seriously, you may have strangers worrying about you because this libra venus is not acting like your boyfriend he’s acting like some dude trying to hit you up because he’s just like that

omg okie his favorite thing is cuddling while talking about your day

the conversations don’t have to be deep/emotional, he just loves hearing about the more mundane things in your life

your opinions, habits, whatever happened throughout the day, etc.

wooyoung wants to listen to all of it while he has you in some sort of comfortable snuggling position on the sofa or bed

and his cuddling positions are pretty normal

well actually i take that back

it depends on the time of day

during the night, expect him to hang upside down with one foot in the air, another arm across your stomach trying to hold you or some dumb shit like that

but afternoon/morning-ish? he’s much more normal and cliche

likes being the big spoon but if he’s had a hard day you are the big spoon no questions asked

sarcasm 10x it’s his love language

his words could mess things up a lot

he takes chances and says what he wants, and for some reason enjoys lying just to see what he can get away with?

which could be an issue if you’re not used to that

but if you don’t mind him lying about weird stuff to make jokes he will love you so much for it, he really just wants someone accepting

scorpio mercurians are used to people being skeptical/accusing of what they say

because it’s hard to not want to fight them, you know?

i see a scorpio sun/mercury/rising and go AHHHHHH sometimes

so anyways PLEASE be nice to him 

try not to push arguments, like if he gets the memo and knows he messed up don’t go any further or try to drive the point in because wooyoung hates that 

headcannons;

wooyoung would invite you every time he hangs out with the ateez members

you’re practically part of the group now

hongjoong pulls him aside like, “hey, this was supposed to be just for ateez. we love your s/o and all, but not right now.”

and woo’s like ??? they’re my bestie tho?! we’re in love!?!!11!!

actually listens to joong tho 

just won’t admit it to his face

anyways back to the two of you

gosh can you imagine a vacation with him?

it would be the most memorable experience ever hhhhhh

you’d never sleep because of how much you’d be travelling around 

because wooyoung will see something he wants to do and have tunnel vision for only that thing

he wants to go to a waterpark? you’re going to a waterpark with him. now.

loves going to places that have a dark history tied to them

don’t take it the wrong way, but wooyoung is interested in history that scares or makes other people uncomfortable

he still gets frightened easily

but that’s what makes  him go !!! coooL!! 

did i mention you do everything with him

because i feel the need to really drill that in

like you are by his side all the time- he’s got an arm around your shoulder, is squeezing your hand, holding your waist, placing a hand on the small of your back, you name it

and you’re skipping literally through the day with each other 

nicknames;

-honey-

used by you

headcannon that wooyoung absolutely ADORES being called sweet nicknames

but only in private

he gets secondhand embarrassment if you call him this in public

but when you’re along his eyes get all and woo is BIG happy

-chips-

used by wooyoung

i don’t know ok

but i think it’s cute and i think wooyoung would love to call you this

chips is such a nice word, it’s got that crispy ending and yummmmm