#no bc this particular ‘friend’ actually just makes me so upset

[lovelysakuryay]

yo why the fuck would you offer your home to me as an escape from a) my home life b) my brain but every time i ask you when i actually need to and not just to hang out it’s always no.

WHY EVEN OFFER THEN?

[butnotbubblegum]

using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, don’t read them if you’re having a bad day, they’ll probably not help in the slightest.

[letstripdotcom]

9:00am- matt sturniolo x fem!reader

summary: it took a while for you to get used to matt. he was hard to read and could come off as mean. once you got to know him you guys started to become friends. after a long night out matt falls asleep in your bed.

warnings: smut bc you already knowwww

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“y/n this is matt, matt this is y/n” my best friend nick explains. from what i heard, matt was a pretty cool person and i i was excited to meet him. “hey nice to meet you” i said cheerfully

“hey” he said flatly, giving me a flat smile. he walked off into the kitchen as nick and i got situated on the couch. that was rude. i thought to myself. matt definitely didn’t seem like the person nick had told me about.

after a while, matt had got situated on the couch with us and helped us pick out a movie. once we finally decided on a movie we all liked, we turned of the lights and got comfortable. matt sat on the other end of the couch and i cuddled up next to nick.

after the movie ended we were all hungry. we eventually decided on ihop, since it was the only thing open at this hour of the night. “i’ll drive.” i offered, getting my keys off the hook.

when we got to ihop i found myself trying to make small talk with matt, trying to see the side of him his triplet brothers saw. i eventually gave up on the conversation, feeling it was very one sided. we ate our food in almost pure silence, then left.

“i’m tired so i’m gonna head home. goodnight guys.” i said as we pulled into the driveway. i dropped the boys off and drove home. the whole drive all i could think about was the way matt acted. he definitely wasn’t the sweet guy i heard about.

-

i hung around matt more often, trying to figure him out, but almost seemed impossible. when i would go somewhere with him and his brothers, he would sit quietly and let them do the talking. conversations with him were almost impossible, because he would try to cut them as short as possible

one day i’m particular, you felt like you needed to know more about matt, and why acted the way he did towards you. you thought out what you were gonna say as you sat on the triplets couch.

“hey matt can we talk for a sec?” you whispered, trying to not be a distraction from the movie that was currently playing. “uh- yeah- i- sure” he stuttered, being caught off by your question. you guys got up and went into the kitchen.

you sighed, and decided to just rip off the bandaid. “is there a reason you don’t like me, or…?” you spoke. “what?” he asked. “i don’t know nick just tells me how sweet you are and all so i just get the feeling you don’t like me” he soaked in my words.

“i don’t not like you, it’s just hard” he paused “ you know, meeting new people, it’s hard to- i don’t know” he sighed, running a hand down his face. “sorry” he muttered.

“hey no it’s okay” i said reassuringly. “i didn’t mean to come at you like that. i guess i was just upset.” he smiled at me softly. “you’re cool, y/n and i would like to be your friend.” “yeah of course” i said semi-cheerfully. we went back to the couch and continued the movie.

-

after that day me and matt became much closer. we talked more often and we found out we actually had a lot in common. we both liked to read and write. we had the same music taste, and we disliked the same people.

one night, me and the triplets sat out by my pool and just talked. hours passed as we changed subjects, talking about life, friends, dreams, and anything you could imagine. “ok ladies i’m going to bed.” nick announced.

shortly after, chris got up too. “i actually have somewhere to be, so see you never” neither of us questioned where he might be going at three in the morning, and we continued our conversation.

“hey i’m hungry, wanna hit up ihop?” matt asked. “i’m so glad you said something because i’m starving.” we got in matt’s car and made the drive towards the restaurant. the whole way there was a blast. we blared music through the speakers and laughed about whatever.

we sat in the empty ihop for about an hour, laughing at the dumbest things before we decided the employees were tired of us. we went out to matt’s car and talked for another hour and a half in the ihop parking lot. we eventually got tired and drove back to mine.

we went up to my room, walking quietly past where nick was sleeping in the living room. “wow chris has been gone for a while” i pointed out. “yeah” matt sighed. we talked some more, the time now almost 6 in the morning. i looked at my phone then i looked over at matt who was passed out in my bed. i didn’t bother to move him so i just closed my eyes and went to bed.

at about 7 in the morning i woke up to feel matt’s arms snaked around my waist. i felt a strong sense of comfort like this, but his breathing on my neck made me slightly nervous.

without knowing i fell back asleep, and woke up at around 9, matt’s arms still around me. this time something was a little strange. i adjusted my position slightly, making me feel matt’s hard on. fuck. i sighed trying to go back to sleep and ignore it, but i could tell matt started to wake up.

“you okay matt?” i muttered, half asleep. he groaned and started to grind his hips into my ass, turning me on a little. “fuck y/n please” he whined. “please what?” i teased.

“m’ so hard” he whined “i need you” he placed his hands on my hips and grinded into me harder. “fuckkk feels so good” he whined. even tho i could probably get off to the sounds he was making alone, i decided to do something more.

i turned over, and pulled away, making him whine at the loss of contact. he looked at me with desperate eyes. “do you trust me?” i asked. “mhmm” he nodded frantically.

i threw one leg over him to where i was sitting on his lap. i pulled down his pants and boxers, just enough to release his dick. i took it in my hand and gave it a good squeeze, making him moan. i pumped it up and down a few times.

i then stood up and discarded of the clothes on my bottom half. i sat back down to the position i was in before. i rubbed him up and down my folds. he whined desperately under me. “let me fuck you” he pleaded.

“okay” i said, turning over as we switched positions. he was now on top as i lied under him. he placed sloppy kisses on my collar bone and chest.

he reached down and his thumb came in contact with my clit. he rubbed to slowly in circles. i moaned and threw my head back into the bed. he hit the sweet spot, making me squirm. when he noticed my actions, he rubbed that spot repeatedly til i came.

“fuck so pretty” he sighed, removing my shirt and bra. “ i wanna see all of you when i’m fucking you” he smirked.

without warning, he started to push into me. he gave me time to adjust before ramming into me forcefuly “fuck mattt, someone’s needy” i joked. he didn’t reply and just continued fucking into me.

he got so deep at one point that you can see it poking my stomach. “fuck matt just like that” i yelled, disregarding everyone sleeping downstairs. i gripped his back with my nails, slightly drawing blood.

“fuckkk- feels s-so good. i can feel you clenching pretty girl” he groaned “taking me so well.” i could hear his words forever. he looked down seeing my fucked out expression. “you doing okay baby?” i tried to come up words to answer his question. “mhmmm” is all i could say. he smiled at me and tucked a loose hair behind my hair.

he thrusted a few more times before i reached my orgasm. i breathed heavily, and raked my nails dow on his back, leaving bloody scratches all the way down. “cumming matt f-fuck” i managed to say as i came.

his orgasm wasn’t far behind. his thrusts started to become more sloppy. he whined and his face twisted as he came inside of me. he pulled out, the both of us breathing heavy. “good morning” he smiled. i rolled my eyes and laughed. “sorry bout your back”

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a/n- the end sucks but i liked the majority of it😍

[baby-yongbok]

OK I saw an anon asking for another hyunjin fic bc of the vmas (tbfh same) and have an idea for another vmas hyunjin fic (if you’re up for it) hear me out:

apparently people were freaking out the other day bc there was this video going around of Sabrina carpenter waving at hyunjin when it turned OUT she was actually waving to Dixie damelio bc they’re friends…what if y/n saw that and thought she was waving at hyunjin too and got super jealous? I know I would even though I love Sabrina lol. so she starts giving hyunjin the cold shoulder and answering in one word responses etc and he’s confused so she says something like “why don’t you ask your new girlfriend” and he thinks it’s cute that she’s jealous and reveals Sabrina was waving to Dixie not him. And even if she did wave to him, he’s 10000% in love with you and absolutely does not want anyone else. Then after their performance and skz is backstage he pulls you into a closet/private room, locks the door and proves to you just how much he wants/worships you and no one else, in his sweaty state 😫 something like that? I haven’t been able to stop thinking about vmas hyunjin either and who can blame me

ps I’ve written to you before and idk if you take emojis for anons but if so can I be 🪽 anon? I love your writing sm and I know I’ll be back! I wanna be friends but I’m a lil shy lol… 🙂

I DID IT. IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT, DON'T HATE ME. 😭 Here you go, my love ❣️🪽

Let Me Show You

Hyunjin × Fem!Reader

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 3,442

Warnings: Semi-public sex?, Cum tasting (That should be it ❣️)

✨️Masterlist✨️ ✨️My First VMA Fic✨️

Surely you were seeing things right? You had to be seeing things. Maybe it was the stage lights or the adrenaline from the boys' win getting to you but you swear that the very beautiful and very talented Sabrina Carpenter just tried to shoot her shot at your equally as beautiful and talented boyfriend. Maybe it was harmless, Sabrina is a K-pop fan so maybe she was just trying to grab his attention and give him a friendly thumbs up or something.

You check your phone while you make your way backstage to meet the boys, of course they’re trending on every app that you have but a particular twitter post catches your eye. You stop in the middle of the very busy backstage hallway as you read the video caption for the third time, ‘Are Sabrina Carpenter and Hyunjin flirting?!’. You click on the video quickly, bringing the phone closer to your face as if you could zoom in on the interaction. It’s right there, it’s in very poor quality but it’s there nonetheless. Hyunjin definitely gave Sabrina a look and according to the video he did it more than once. You can feel your stomach turn as an emotion runs over you but you can’t figure out if it’s anger or jealousy, maybe it’s both? You take a deep breath and start walking again, you stuff your phone into your purse and shake your head a bit to try and get your thoughts together. This is a big night for the boys and you don’t want to ruin it for them by having an attitude but you also don’t know how to deal with this cocktail of emotion bubbling in your veins.

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“Baby, can you help me put this on?” Hyunjin holds his necklace out in your direction and you take it from him quietly. He furrows his brows a bit before turning around and allowing you to put the jewelry on him. He noticed your shift in attitude since they got their award but he thought that maybe you were just overwhelmed. He watched you as they got ready for their stage, you laughed with everyone and were talking to staff casually but when it came to him you were silent and short spoken. He instantly started replaying the last hour or so in his head. What could he have done to upset you?

“Thank you.” He turns to you and leans in to kiss your cheek but you pull back slightly, looking in the opposite direction. “Angel, is everything alright?”

“Yup.” Your eyes look everywhere but at him, even when he moves to your side to sit next to you.

“Are you sure? You’ve been quiet, did I do something to upset you?” He places his hand on your knee and you promptly cross your legs to get him to move his hand. You shrug your shoulders in response. Your gaze falls on Felix as he takes pictures of everyone in their finished looks. “Baby, come on.”

“Don’t you have someone else to talk to?” You huff, an over exaggerated sigh following your statement.

“Hm? What do you mean?” Hyunjins brows knit together as he racks his brain trying to understand what you’re referring to. 

“Why don’t you ask Sabrina? You seem pretty interested in her.” You roll your eyes and Hyunjin raises his eyebrows at your sharp remark. Felix had shown him a couple of the trending tweets along with the video of Sabrina waving in his direction, they laughed about it and Hyunjin told the guys that she definitely wasn’t waving at him and if she was he didn’t even notice her. 

“Ah, you saw that video?” You shift in your seat scoffing at his question. A small smile pulls at his lips as he watches you, you don’t get jealous often but gosh was it hot. Something about you giving him the cold shoulder turned Hyunjin on, maybe it was the way you rolled your eyes at him and how sassy you were everytime he tried to touch you. Whatever it was, he was enjoying it. 

“Everyone saw the video, so yeah.” You bite back, glancing at him for only a second before looking back over towards the rest of the boys.

“Baby, she wasn’t waving at me and even if she was I didn’t notice her. I was looking at the Stays that were seated in that direction.” Your heart starts to hammer in your chest as his words sink in. You can feel a blush spreading over your cheeks and a tinge of embarrassment in your core. He had pointed out the row of Stays in that direction earlier in the night but in the heat of the moment you completely forgot about it. 

“Why would I look at her when I have the most stunning woman in the world here with me tonight, hm?” He snakes his arm over your shoulder and pulls you into a side hug. “Is my jealous girl blushing?” 

You hide your face in his chest, trying to avoid his gaze. How embarrassing is this? Looks like you got jealous for nothing.

“Look at me, angel.” Hyunjin tries his best to gently pry you away from him but he’s interrupted by Chan calling everyone to get ready to go over to the stage. You look up, only because you know he has to go but his fingers catch your chin before you can look away again. Your shy gaze meets his and he smiles down at you, but it’s not a regular smile. It’s the type that he uses when he’s up to something. He plants a quick kiss on your lips before standing and holding his hand out to you. 

“Come, you can watch on the backstage monitor.” You take his hand reluctantly, an apologetic smile on your face. He shakes his head, chuckling a bit. 

“My possessive baby.”

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The boys absolutely killed their set but that was to be expected. You heard loud clapping and cheering as they made their way from the stage, a mixture of praises both towards the boys and the dancers. You join the busy crowd, clapping and looking through the sea of people for Hyunjin. Suddenly, you feel large hands on your waist and you turn around to see your boyfriend looking down at you with a grin. He’s sweaty and his breathing still hasn’t calmed down completely, He’s discarded the vest that he had on during the performance leaving him in only his black tank top. You open your mouth to congratulate him but he puts a finger over his lips, hushing you before taking your hand and pulling you with him. He makes his way in the opposite direction of the boys, towards the quieter part of the venue. You recognize the hallway from when the boys took pictures earlier, Hyunjin leads you into a small cut off hallway where some extra supplies seem to be stored. He closes the door behind you, placing a piece of paper over the latch so that you two don’t get locked in. He turns to you and you look up at him with confusion woven in your features. 

“What are we doing here?” You look around thinking that maybe you missed something.

“You know that you mean the world to me, right?” Your heart starts hammering in your chest again, your grip on your clutch purse growing tighter as embarrassment washes over you again. 

“I know, I’m sorry I should’ve asked you instead of drawing conclusions.” 

“Don’t apologize, you were being protective of what’s yours.” Hyunjin takes a couple of steps towards you, one hand sliding into the pocket of his brown designer pants.

“You know that I’m yours, right?” Your mouth goes dry when you take in his deepened tone, what exactly did he bring you here to do? You press your thighs together, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. Your black form fitting dress rides up a bit from movement. “Answer me, angel.”

“Yes, I know you’re mine.” You clear your throat, trying not to show how much his words are affecting you.

“I only want you, you’re the only woman I ever think about, the only woman I ever look at.” He steps closer, reaching up to cup your cheek. You close your eyes and lean into his hand. His fingers brush against your lips. “Do you believe me?”

You shake your head, opening your eyes to meet his. He smiles at you before leaning down and pressing his lips to yours. You kiss him back, melting into him. Your arms find a home around his neck as he deepens the kiss, his tongue parts your lips, slipping into your mouth and stealing a taste of you. You moan into his mouth and he smiles against your lips. He pushes you back gently, prompting you to take a step back. He leads you backwards until your back hits the wall, you gasp, breaking the kiss and Hyunjin takes it as an opportunity to trail soft kisses over your jaw and down your neck.

“Hyunjin…we can’t do this here.” Your words are anything but convincing and you know for a fact that you don’t mean them. After the rush of jealousy that you felt earlier topped off with the breathtaking performance that he just put on with the boys’ you know that your body is more than ready for him.

“Let me show just how much I love you.” He plants a wet kiss right below your ear before whispering. “I want you to feel how much I want you, only you.” 

Hyunjin presses himself against you and you moan at the feeling of his hard dick straining against his pants. “Only you do that to me.”

“Hyunjin.” His name leaves your lips in a breathy moan, you can’t think of anything else to possibly say. He’s completely fogged your mind.

He starts leaving sloppy open mouth kisses on your neck, rough yet slow actions of affection. His hands trace up your sides, lightly scratching at the fabric of your Versace cocktail dress, dragging the fabric up your soft skin and exposing your plush thighs.You trail your free hand down his arm, moving to palm him through his pants but one of his hands swiftly grabs your wrist, pinning your arm to the wall behind you. 

“This is about you, baby. Only you.” He whispers against your skin before his lips make their way down to your chest, sucking and biting at your skin leaving red marks in his wake. His other hand grips at your waist, pulling you towards him and making you arch your back off of the wall.

 “I’m all yours baby.” He slides down onto his knees. Sitting in front of you, his large hands trailing down the soft skin of your legs. He looks up at you, his sparkling eyes surrendering to you. “I would never worship another woman like this in my life.” 

He leans forward, pressing soft kisses to the outside of your thigh and making his way to the sensitive skin leading to your core. You spread your legs a bit to give him better access and he groans at the gesture. His hands snake up under your dress, he hooks his thumbs into the thin straps of your thong and leads the garment down your legs. You step out of them, and Hyunjin wastes no time bringing them up to his nose and taking a deep inhale. 

“Fuck, I love the smell of you.” His words are breathy yet stable, he stuffs your thong into his pocket, a treasure for him to remember this moment by. He peers up into your attentive yet fucked out gaze, watching you as he sneaks the pad of his pointer finger up to caress your soaked folds. You jump at the contact, a deep moan leaving your throat, you hadn’t realized how much you needed his touch until now. You relax as he runs his finger up and down your heat, circling your clit and teasing your entrance a bit. Your hips buck against his hand, silently begging him to stretch you. Small whimpers fall from your parted lips as you keep your eyes on his.

“You sound so beautiful, angel. You’re so fucking perfect.” He pushes his finger into you slowly, curling it upward to caress your g-spot. You bring your hand up to your mouth in an attempt to drown out your moans. Hyunjin shakes his head, fucking his finger into you a bit faster. “Let them hear you, I don’t care who it is, Let them hear what I do to you.”

“Hyun- Fuck” He adds another finger, scissoring them inside of you to stretch you out. “Oh my god, that's so good.”

“Only the best for you, this is only for you.” He leans up on his knees, sticking his tongue out and licking up the wetness dripping down your inner thigh. His tongue works its way over to your cunt, flicking your clit at a delicious pace that makes your back arch off of the wall further. He hums against you as you buck your hips, fucking yourself on his fingers and tongue. You feel yourself getting closer and closer to the edge, your body trembling as you beg him to keep going. He keeps up the pace, his tongue never stopping until you're finally pushed over the edge. You cry out in bliss as you cum hard, your body trembling with pleasure. He laps up every bit of your arousal that he can catch, leaving light kisses on your swollen clit as he allows you to come down from your high just a bit. 

“You taste like heaven” Hyunjin groans as he pulls away from you, licking his lips to clean up the mess you made. Your mind is clouded with lust, the jealousy from earlier nearly forgotten. The only thing on your mind now is how badly you want the man in front of you. How badly you need him inside of you. 

“I can feel like heaven for you too.”

“This is about you, angel.”

“Then fuck me, please. If this is about me then make me forget about that stupid tweet. You’d do anything to please me right?” Hyunjin, stands from his position in front of you. Your eyes stay locked on his dark ones as he towers over you. 

“I’d do anything to please you.” His words are soft and strong, he leans into you, catching your lips in a sweet kiss. You can taste yourself on his tongue as the kiss deepens, the gentle nature that Hyunjin held seconds ago melting away into a frenzied lust. 

“You drive me insane.” He whispers against your lips and you moan into his mouth. Your hands run down his clothed chest, taking in his firm core and his shirt damp with sweat. You run your hand over his hard cock, palming and stroking him. A pornographic moan erupts from his throat, he breaks the kiss and his jaw hangs open in bliss. You look up at him, watching as he bites his lip with his eyes shut tight, concentrating on the way your fingers move against him. 

“I want you to fuck me like she’s watching.” Hyunjin groans deeply, furrowing his brows at your words. “Show her that you’re taken.”

Your words flipped a switch in Hyunjins head, he grabs your hip, turning you around and swiftly pulling your dress up to expose your bare ass. He lands a firm smack on both of your ass cheeks, the sound echoing throughout the room.

“I’ll show her.” He presses his clothed bulge against you and you can feel him unbuttoning his pants with one hand. “I’ll show her who I belong to.”

He runs his hands over your bare skin, his touch gentle yet possessive. He leans in and whispers in your ear “I’ll let everyone know I’m yours.”

You gasp as you feel his cock part your dripping folds, stretching you out deliciously. He pushes in slowly, allowing you a bit of time to adjust to him. Your moans fill the air as he slides into you, once he bottoms out he leans forward, pressing you into the wall so that you’re flush against him.

“I’m yours” He moans as he starts to move, his hips pushing against yours in a rhythm that intensifies with each thrust. The sound of skin slapping echoes through the hallway but is easily drowned out by your shared moans. Your head falls back against Hyunjin’s chest giving him the perfect view of your fucked out expression. He leans down, leaving soft kisses on your forehead, a sweet contrast to the rough thrust of his hips. 

“You’re mine.” Your words make Hyunjin’s hips stutter, pushing into you deeper, he bites his lip as he takes it all in. The way you’re clenching around him, your moans mixing with his, the way the head of his cock hits your sweet spot. It all drives him closer to the edge. 

“You were right.” His thrusts become faster and harder and you squeeze around him as you draw closer to your release, meeting his rhythm with pleasure. “You do feel like heaven.” 

His fingers dig into the soft flesh of your hips as he comes undone, his moans mingle with yours as he fills you. The feeling of his hot release throws you over the edge, you fall apart seconds after him, his name falls from your lips like a chant as your pleasure washes over you. You both still, his dick stays deep inside of you as you both try to catch your breath.

“Thank you.” Hyunjin hums in response, soft pants falling from his lips.

“For what?” 

“For showing me that you’re mine, this might’ve been the best type of reassurance ever.” You chuckle and he follows, a wide smile spreading across his face.

“I’m glad that you enjoyed yourself. But, please remember that I mean this, there’s never anyone on my mind but you. You’re all I think about.” His sweet words send a shiver down your spine and you can’t help but to clench around him. 

“Oh fuck.” Hyunjin groans with a chuckle and you can’t help but to smile. “I need to pull out, I don’t think I’ll be able to control myself if you do that again.”

He slides out of you slowly, whines escape both of you from the sensitivity of the action. He tucks himself back into his pants and you turn around to face him, still leaning on the wall for support. 

“How am I supposed to go back out there with your cum dripping out of me?” You look down at the mixed arousal running down your leg and Hyunjin smiles at you. 

“Here.” You watch him as he kneels before you, dipping his tongue out and licking the stream of cum running down your leg. A groan falls from your lips as you watch him taste your mixed arousals. He trails his tongue up your leg, collecting all of the juices that drip from you until he reaches your swollen cunt. He runs his tongue over the sensitive flesh and you shiver in response, your head falling back against the wall and a moan escaping you. 

“Baby, I’m so sensitive.” Hyunjin hums in response and the feeling of the sound vibrating through you makes you clench around nothing. He dips his tongue into your hole, lapping up most of your arousal and cleaning your cunt to perfection. Once he’s satisfied he pulls away and stands, wiping his chin clean and smiling at you. He gives you a moment to recover before taking your chin between his fingers and tilting your head up to meet his gaze. 

“Next time that you get jealous just remember that you and I are made for each other. We’re perfect together.” You smile up at him and he leans forward kissing you with wet lips. He parts your lips with his tongue and gently runs his over yours. The taste of your mixed arousals flood your mouth and you relish the flavor. He breaks the kiss just as you move to deepen it, a slight whine falling from your lips. He grins down at you before running his thumb over your swollen bottom lip

“See? Don’t we taste good together? I only want you to mix with me, no one else, okay?” You nod your head, a sweet fucked out smile pulling at your lips. “I love you, angel”

“I love you too, baby.”

[bubbles-for-all-of-us]

could i request a gavriel x reader where reader is the best friend of aedion but also rowans sister, she flirts with gavriel and aedion and rowan hate it so much. she calls him dilf and has a crush on him but doesn’t actually make any move until one day where he snaps and they kiss bc the teasing is too much. they sneak around for months and become mates but they don’t want to tell anyone bc she doesn’t want to upset aedion and her brother, so they consume the mating bond in secret but when they come down for dinner, no matter how hard he tries to shield her scent, they smell gavriel all over her, they also notice how she’s clinging to him.

I settled for her being Rowan's sister and there are some other little tweaks. Hope you don't mind them.

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To keep your heart

Gavriel hated himself for it. He hated himself more than he could even imagine he could. Rowan was his friend. A lifelong friend. Someone whom Gavriel trusted. Someone Gavriel was ready to die for and yet here he was in a bed, pressing his sister against his chest.

It ripped at Gavriel. There rarely were secrets between them. Rowan was like no other. He had listened and inked Gavriel's skin when grief ripped at the lion immensely. But it took one look. One look in you, wrapped in Rowan's cloak, soaked through by the rain, trembling and scared. Blood dripping from the side of your head for Gavriel to know that his fate was cruelly intertwined with yours.

"You're thinking about it again", your voice was barely a whisper as you tilted your head upwards. Gavriel exhaled, eyes still on the ceiling above him. He felt your worry growing and his fingers, as if working on their own, moved to stroke your back. "I've known him for most of my life. I watched him mature, fall in love, lose the ones he loved, fight in deadly battles", his voice cracked slightly.

"We can... I could just go", you moved to pull away from the male you had been sneaking around with for some time now but Gavriel gripped your wrist. "That's the problem, my heart", Gavriel turned to you this time, his ancient eyes soft as he watched you, "I don't want you to go but I fear the storm this might unleash". You knew this was coming. You could hide this for the time being but you were marked by Gavriel now. He had taken your maidenhead. His scent was intertwined with yours now. It was a miracle that Rowan or anyone else hadn't felt it yet.

"I don't want to cause you problems, Gavriel. If this might split up the cadre...", you were willing to pull yourself away from the man you had fallen in love with. But it felt as if he hadn't heard your voice as he spoke, "I'm serious about you. I haven't just done this on a wimp. I value the gifts of your body that you shared with me", he moved to cup your face softly, "But most of all I value your heart. I want to keep it. I don't want to let go if it", his words were barely a whisper. You leaned your forehead against him, "Then it's yours to keep, lion".

It was late the next morning when you awoke from slumber. Gavriel cursed under his breath as he reached for his clothes that were scattered over his bedroom floor. You moved to sit up, eyes still sleepy as you watched your lover nearly falling over while he tried to pull up his pants. You chuckled, making Gavriel growl, "Don't you laugh at me, woman", but that only made you let out a proper chuckle. That made Gavriel still before he leaped onto the bed. Making you let out a shriek as he attacked your neck with kisses.

You were surprised to find all of the males still sitting around the table when you finally made your way to the kitchen. It was oddly silent and you halted on the last step. "Did I forget to bring back eggs?", you asked innocently, you know how particular some of them were about their breakfast. But Fenrys only smirked at your words. Even Lorcan had a smug smile on his face. You stepped closer toward them. A gust of wind, catching your loose curls. Rowan's hand gripped his cutting knife tighter. A deep growl rumbled within his chest.

"Rowan, let's talk about it", Gavriel pleaded but Rowam made a beam line over the table toward him. A scream slipped past your lips as you moved to run towards them, only to be met with Fenrys and Lorcan blocking your way. "No, Roro, please. Please, you can't hurt him", you shouted through the sound of the tassel that was leaving the kitchen in shreds.

"You filthy bastard, how could you?", Rowan snarled, fangs out as he shoved Gavriel onto what remained of the dining table, "You sworn, all of you did. She was off limits". You trashed against the two males that held you. Gavriel fought back enough to not let himself get killed but allowed Rowan's blows to strike true. "And it ate at me all this time. I care for her, she...", but his words were cut off by Rowan's fist, "I'll gut you", he promised.

You let out another cry, "You can't and you won't", and you yanked at your hands. Rowan held Gavriel against the wall now. The fear within you. The pain that started to grow within you finally broke loose, "You won't harm him because Gavriel is my mate", the room stilled. It felt as if there was no oxygen in it. "If you kill him... You'll kill me too, brother", you muttered, the hands holding you loosened and you wasted no time as you rushed forward. Rowan took a couple of steps backward. You quickly took your brother's place and cupped Gavriel's bruised face softly. The tug on the bond told you enough. He was fine. As fine as he could be for now. A loud banging of the door made you flinch but you didn't need to turn around to know that it was Rowan who had stormed out.

Gavriel moved to wrap his arms around your shoulders, bringing you closer to his chest. You let the warmth of him soothe the ache in your chest. You hoped Rowan would come to terms with it. You didn't want to lose him. Gavriel pressed a loving kiss to the side of your head. "We'll watch over him... you two... just...", Lorcan said before his own words failed him. "We'll have your backs. Congratulations, guys. This is big", Fenrys smiled at you both, before tapping Lorcan's shoulder as the two males stepped out as well.

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for getting angry with my mom for trying to help me with my self-esteem?

Okay so I honestly have no idea if I’m the AH or not, bc I’ve come up with mental arguments for both. It’s nothing too serious, just something I’ve been wondering about for a while. The whole situation is just so weird that I’m throwing it to the courts of Tumblr.

To make a long story short, I (2XF) dislike being perceived just like… in general. I’m fine in private contexts but whenever I’m going out in public I’ll typically wear looser clothing, long sleeves, etc. There’s no particular trauma or anything for this, it’s just the way I’ve always been since I can remember.

Recently I told my mom (5X F) about my reasoning (don’t like to be looked at) and after a brief panic where she thought I meant someone was making me uncomfortable she understood that it’s just like. A general thing. I know it’s kind of weird but I thought that was it and moved on.

After that conversation started bringing home clothes for me that were more form-fitting, low cut, sheer, etc. I liked them and wore them around the house and when visiting friends but again, not in public. I didn’t think much of it bc she’d say things like “I bought this for myself but I don’t like how it looks on me, if you like it you can keep it” or “my friend was getting rid of this, do you want it?” but apparently she was actually buying these things. I didn’t think anything of it (before I knew she was buying the clothes) bc we do that sort of thing all the time, one of the things we bond over is secondhand searching and clothing swaps.

But one day she came back with a bikini. On one hand this was very thoughtful of her, bc she knew I was looking for a new swimsuit since mine had gotten all faded. On the other hand, my previous swim suit was a tennis skirt and a tee shirt so. It was a large departure from my norm.

I told her I wasn’t going to wear it. Eventually it escalated to an actual fight, and she ended up admitting that she was encouraged I was wearing the clothes she gave me regularly and was really worried about my self esteem. Specifically she said I “shouldn’t be ashamed of my body” and that wearing a bikini was “the next step”. Our argument went in circles and both if us walked away mad.

This remains unresolved but has since blown over.

On one hand, I think it’s AH behavior to try to force someone to change how they dress just bc you don’t agree with it, and to assign meaning to what they wear - in either direction! Clothes don’t equal consent but also. On the flip side. Just bc someone is layered it doesn’t mean they have some sort of body issues. I’m an adult, I can choose what I’m comfortable with, and if I’m not comfortable with a bikini then that should be that.

On the other hand, the way she tried to “help” was subtle and respectful, and tbh I know the whole “don’t perceive me” thing is weird so I get where she’s coming from and I don’t think I should’ve gotten so upset with her over it. And part of me says I should’ve just gone with it bc what’s the harm? If I felt uncomfortable then lesson learned, if not then maybe I’m “getting better”.

Idk man. I don’t think I should’ve yelled at her, but I also think it’s weird she brought it up in those terms. So *shrug* it’s up to ya’ll now

What are these acronyms?

[1eos]

I moved to the Midwest and everyone there hyped up """Midwestern hospitality"""" so much I had the craziest culture shock when a friend had to explain to me that hosts always offer you food but your not really supposed to accept it. How are you being hospitable if you only offer food as a gesture to make yourself look good??? Anyway I actually got into my head about it like wow am I greedy for expecting my hosts to feed me???? Then I went to a black friend's family's home to help him with something and his mom made me stop helping him to eat a full meal so I feel like I'm validated.

offering food just to be upset when ppl say yes is literally worse than not offering at all. like huhhhh????? it's so sad that hospitality is being watered down to just mean seeming pleasant on the outside bc real hospitality is when the guests leave full and with leftovers 😭😭😭😭😭 and im biased but no one does hospitality like the south even the rich white friends i had in school if i went to their house EVERY TIME i was going to be fed and would ask abt allergies to make sure i was included likeeeee when i had sleepovers my momma got the griddle out the next morning bc every girl was going home FULL. black hospitality in particular isn't a joke like we will be throwing food at ppl as they leave we need it all GONE.... DRINKS INCLUDED

[fantastic-bby]

SKZ vs. Rich AUs

Pairing: -

Word count: 1.7k

Genre: Headcanon

Stray Kids as Rich Protagonists

Warnings: -

Masterlist

Chan (The Kind CEO):

No one really knows how he got to CEO, but they assume it was because he was trusted enough to take over

Extremely respectful

Hot, young, and rich and lowkey a celebrity

Is basically the most wanted bachelor in his industry

Lets his s/o into his office anytime they want bcs he wants to see them 

The kind to show up at his s/o’s office in his big expensive car regardless of where they work 

Ignores hate comments because he knows he’s worked really hard to get where he is

LOVES his job

Doesn’t matter what it is, he LOVES it and puts his all into it 

Is openly a workaholic which means his s/o needs to just get used to the fact that this man lives in his office

Tries to make up for lost time by going out on dates or sending gifts

Plans extremely romantic dates regardless of how lavish it is; rose petals in his living room for anniversaries, clearing out restaurants for birthdays, etc

Has a live-in maid only because he knows that his giant ass penthouse would turn into a dump with how busy he is

“No occasion, I just wanted to give them to you to remind you how much you mean to me”

Minho (The Cold and Sarcastic Entrepreneur):

Rags to riches 

Acknowledges how hard he’s work and extremely protective of his business

Comes off as very cold and doesn’t trust people easily

Mysterious, eccentric, and handsome 

Wouldn’t outwardly agree in letting his s/o visit him at his office, but appreciates whenever there’s a surprise visit he’ll never admit that it makes him feel so loved

Walks to his s/o’s office because he knows the kinds of rumours that could come out of him using his expensive car

Can get pretty upset when seeing hate comments, but composes himself through boxing and taking care of his many cat babies that he spends most of his money on

His business is his little baby that he’s nurtured from the ground up

Is actually extremely affectionate of his s/o despite his sarcastic comments and is practically glued to them at all times

Is really particular and protective about how clean his home is, so he refuses to pay anyone to clean his space

“Do you want to meet my cats? That’s basically me telling you that I love you by the way”

Changbin (The Trust Fund Gym Rat):

His grandparents are so unbelievably wealthy that he doesn’t even need to work

Got bored one day and just decided to buy a whole ass gym because why the fuck not right

Extremely wealthy, funny, and thoughtful

Partially aware of life outside of his class but only because of the gym he goes to

Can be very childish only because he basically can, is really mature when he needs to be 

Likes to show up at his s/o’s office unannounced and hangs around until they’re done bcs he wants to spend time with them

His s/o is completely allowed to just show up at his gym 

Showers his s/o with whatever fitness equipment, food, supplements, whatever that they want because he loves working out together

Doesn’t really care about how other people see him 

Has like three live-in maids for his penthouse because he’s actually spending most of his time with his friends and s/o, but when he is at home, he doesn’t really care about doing anything himself

“You mentioned you were out of protein, so I bought you an extra ten”

Hyunjin (The Self Made Artist):

Started selling his art and basically became viral overnight

Less so of rags to riches only because his family was already in the upper middle class, he just got bumped up to high class when he started selling his art for hundred thousands

Gorgeous, talented, and romantic

Lives in a large rooftop apartment with a skylight because he wants natural light for his art 

Has a room just for his dog to run around in

Is extremely romantic and he loves so unconditionally 

The kind to spoil his s/o with whatever they wanted 

Also the kind to shower w his s/o in his massive bathroom with a rain shower because he said it helps him feel inspired basically he wants to cry in the rain without being in actual rain

Has sketched, drawn, and painted his s/o countless of times

Doesn’t give hate comments that much mind because he thinks it’s not worth his time

Has a scheduled cleaner who comes once a week and keeps his place clean but only because he sometimes gets so lost with art and work that he completely forgets that he hasn’t done anything

“No words or images will ever be able to capture your beauty, my muse”

Jisung (The Masked Musician):

One of the most popular musicians in the world and is credited on hundreds of songs 

Gets really anxious being in the public eye so he decided to keep his identity completely secret

Adorable, shy, and silly

Has a four bedroom apartment in the city which he turned into a home studio 

Loves taking his dog on walks because it gives him a reason to get out of his apartment where he’s usually just cooped up in for days 

NOT the kind to make the first move on his s/o 

Got asked out and almost exploded purely out of embarrassment because he had proceeded to trip right in front of them

Has regular movie nights with his s/o and always tries to get them hooked on anime so that he has more to talk about with them

Has dedicated almost half of his discography to them because he gets so struck with inspiration that it needs to come out somehow

Very very very susceptible to spiralling due to hate comments, but he tries to turn his anxiety into inspiration instead

Cleans his apartment himself because he doesn’t like having strangers in his space

“Here’s another song. It’s also about you, but like it’s different from the last one I promise. Yes it’s also still kinda sad I LOVE YOU A LOT OKAY”

Felix (The Master Chef):

Became a world renowned chef at a surprisingly young age

Loves food SO much, he’s always trying new food and always has a fully stocked kitchen

Considerate, bubbly, and sweet

Always tries so so so so hard to keep his loved ones safe and comfortable

Remembers everyone’s food preferences, dietary restrictions, and favourite foods by heart

Owns a flat with a huge kitchen to accommodate his cooking needs 

Is honestly as shocked as everyone else that he became so famous so young, but is extremely proud of his food and his taste buds

The kind to fall in love with a cafe or restaurant owner who can share his love for food

Can get extremely wary of hate comments especially if they’re directed to his s/o

Handles all the meals and even a pretty regular breakfast in bed situation or late night baking where he insists on doing everything himself while his s/o sits on the counter and watches

His s/o’s also the first person to try his cooking and baking experiments and he always spoon feeds them

Has a cat that he named ‘Eclair’ because he thought it would be cute

Very messy, so he has a scheduled cleaner to help keep his space clean

“Give this a try, bubs, I tried something new”

Seungmin (The Professional Athlete):

A baseball prodigy 

His parents are also athletes, so it wasn’t really that big of a surprise when he basically came out of the womb playing baseball

Quiet, protective, and affectionate in private

Extremely humble despite knowing that he’s considered one of the best baseball players in the world 

The kind who would also date someone in the field because of the shared understanding of sports tournaments 

Tries to get his s/o seats at every one of his games because it makes him feel super energised and motivated knowing that they’re watching -he wants to make them proud-

Owns a pretty lavish apartment that’s nearby a field where he usually trains at

Likes to pretend hate comments don’t exist

Would also try to be at every single one of his s/o’s important events or tournaments because he wants to hold up an embarrassingly large sign that says “THAT’S MY PARTNER!!!! <33333” 

The kind to turn playing respective sports into dates like teaching his s/o how to play baseball or trying to learn his s/o’s sport if it’s something else 

“You almost got it baby! Just a bit more on the aim and you’ll get a strike, trust me!”

Jeongin (The Nepotism Baby):

Got handed down the company by his grandparents 

Has to fight for his place everywhere because no one takes him seriously since he’s young and comes off as relatively inexperienced

Charming, smart, and mature

Is actually extremely mature and only acts childish in private 

The kind to laugh at a joke he found funny the moment he’s alone

Lives in a duplex in the heart of the city

Is more efficient with his money when it comes to spending on his s/o

Understands that he doesn’t need to buy everything for them, but gets things that make sense like gifts when he feels like it or something that they can’t seem to get or afford 

Knows his company like the back of his hand and is so insistent of being involved with the movement because he wants to know every single thing that happens 

Wouldn’t really have his s/o in his office often because he believes in a work-life balance which he thinks could break if he gets too used to working with them around 

But does allow a few lunch breaks if they don’t have enough time to go somewhere else for lunch

Has one live-in maid that has actually been with his family since he was a child 

“Baby, they’ll think I’m too nice if they see me completely in love with you all the time :(“ 

[wheresmymilliondollarman]

WAIT THAT ANON WAS ONTO SOMETHING. I NEED MORE BRAT TAMER AARON 😩😩😩. Also your work is gold. finding you after sm time scouring for warner fics felt like i won the lotto. love you!!

-🪷 (i’ll use this as my anon emoji)

HI ANON! omg my first anon emoji LOVE IT !!! and always makes me so happy when someone says they love my blog TYSM!!! happy to provide more brat tamer aaron so here are some quick & brief hcs that are canon bc in my aaron warner universe while i finish pt 3 of the other piece :D (very short so won't label it as a full hc thing)

aaron warner is naturally a brat tamer, it is basically in his genes. he was raised by a supreme commander, how could he not ?

big part of his casual dominance thing.

helping you dress, even choosing your outfits most days, if you’re wearing a dress he’ll make sure it’s not too short, helping tie shoes & strap on heels, making sure you wear a coat if its cold, holding your hand on walks, stopping you when he feels you’d had enough drinks at parties, etc.

you’re normally not bratty, aaron dotes on you so much, it’s hard to want to push his buttons. –but there’s always a time where your brattiness makes a show, intentional or not.

brat tamer aaron is pretty patient, not too strict if you act out a little. it takes quite a bit for him to get fed up with the way your acting.

gives him a little sass? he’ll just smile or even give a quip back. if you complain about something, he’ll accommodate to satisfy you. rolling your eyes would get you a stern look, but he wouldn’t verbally call you out on it.

you get major princess treatment so aaron can easily let a little of your brattiness slide.

he finds it entertaining when you try and rile him up, on the contrary it’s very annoying to you and more you act bolder in your brattiness.

what really makes aaron go full brat tamer mode on you is when you deliberately disobey him.

you ignore the dress he laid out for you and change into one that definitely will have your ass showing if you bend over too much? you’ll get at max five steps into the room before aaron lifts and carries you on his shoulder out back to his room. (he’ll you his coat over you to ensure you dont flash anyone on the way out).

or when you’re really upset at him for an issue he caused, you’ll ignore him. if you see him coming your way - you’ll walk the opposite, you act deaf anytime he calls your names, and show him no form of attention.

this will definitely bother aaron the most, especially since he’s the clingy type. he’s devises a sneak attack plan, and catches you off guard when you’re alone. before you can even digest the situation — he has you against the wall.

he'll apologize for whatever he did, beg for forgiveness, then scold you for ignoring him. you'll get away with little punishment if you end your behavior there, but if you're bent on pretending he doesn't exist - aaron is going to fuck the silence of you. and to be the extra person he is, he's going to handcuff you two together for a day, so you're essentially forced to be with him. leash kid type treatment.

there's even times when you're not even trying to act bratty, and you accidentally set him off.

one particular day you were just looking extra pretty, according to aaron. you were talking to your friends and just doing what you usually did. however, aaron saw it acting out behavior and you obviously were trying to get his attention. he actually just wanted a reason to call you a brat and punish you.

aaron’s punishments vary. he always starts with a warning for you to starts behaving good again. usually it’s enough for you to act like a good girl again. if it exceeds that, then get ready to be dragged back to his room, somewhere private if you’re not close to it. then, you start getting a realization of what you just did.

if it was a rather simple punishment like giving him attitude the entirety of the day, you’ll get bent over his lap and spanked, aaron will keep making you apologize for acting like a brat the entire time.

if it’s something like the dress stunt; you’re going to get ailed on the nearest surface available. you’ll be in teary-eyed and empty-headed by the time he’s done with you.

either way, you won’t be able to sit properly the next day. or even rest of the week.

[libra-stellium]

no bc I have beef with Uranus omg

this whole time I've been like saturn saturn saturn meanwhile uranus has been sifting through my life with her dirty little fingers!!

Once upon a time on March 6, 2019 Uranus entered Taurus and took a vow to be a nuisance in my life for the next 6 years!

Tomorrow Uranus is going to be exact on my 3H until June 15 and I'm expecting something to happen with my neighbors that is going to be the most annoying thing I've ever dealt with. Now I could be right or it could be something worse because i'm expecting the neighbors issue and uranus is unexpected shit smh

ALSO on May 21, 2024 I started my Uranus trine Uranus transit and one of the things for it is "you may be inclined to throw over an existing personal relationship in order to liberate yourself from the restrictions it imposed" and I feel like I'm gonna have to go no contact with my aunt as well bc she's making the choice to be on my mother's side. Literally on May 21 she shared pics of my trip with my mother without my consent and I specifically told her multiple times don't talk about my business with this person i'm no longer in contact with and now my mother knows where I was, when i was there, what i was doing, who i was with like what the fuckkkk??? and my aunt had the nerve to be like "oh I'm tired of lying to my sister she was sad and asking for you so i showed her" YOUR SISTER IS A MANIPULATIVE NARCISSITIC BITCH and you can get cut off too!! Her and her sister with their aqua moons in my 12H are probably gonna be completely out of my life next year and that's insane to think about!! I literally won't have any immediate family in my life after that......bc they cannot stop themselves from fucking me over.....just wow

But Uranus isn't done with me!!! I've got a lovely (derogatory) Uranus opposite Pluto transit June 25 2024 - November 10 2024 and what can I expect??? "Change may come through persons with upsetting surprises" G R E A T bc my birthday is right in the middle of that with all the Libra transiting my 8H

It's not all bad (I guesssss) bc I just finished a Uranus sextile Saturn transit from April 14, 2023 - May 18, 2024 in my 1H and it was:

opportunity to make creative changes through a system

I tried many different routines during this time to work on my physical body and my mental health

superiors will be impressed with innovative ideas, you may be rewarded with a higher position in that particular system

Stuff at work came pretty easy and they did end up seeing me like someone the other staff could go to for questions

I also have a Uranus trine Neptune transit right now ending July 1 and that one is cute it's about being more involved in spiritual studies, working hard with others to actualize beliefs about how the world should be and try to help loved ones grow and that's honestly the norm for me lol I'm always looking up something for astro and tarot or literal religion, telling people what I think of the world events (free palestine) and telling friends what they can do to improve their lives!

I still want to throw hands with Uranus bc this is still ridiculous! I have 5 Uranus aspects in my chart I never paid attention to but they would explain a lot!!! I would like a surprise birthday party not surprise traumatic events lmfao

[snakebites-and-ink]

Hi! I’m @snakebites-and-ink. 

I’m not gonna put any part of my real name on here, so you can call me by my username or call me Snake for short I guess. (Though I feel kind of weird giving myself my own nickname bc I feel like nicknames are usually assigned by other people. Is that weird? Anyways) My pronouns are he/him. I’m aroace. A couple of fun facts about me are that I love dragons, and that even though I reblog more cat posts I am a dog owner.

I’ve been lurking around the whump community for several months now, so I decided it was time to un-lurk, and hopefully work up to posting some of my own writing (...if I can stick to any of my WIPs long enough to actually make a somewhat coherent story 😓). So, I made one of those intro posts!

A few of my favorite tropes to read:

CONDITIONING MY BELOVED <3

Caretaker whumping the whumper 🙃

- You know what actually whumper-turned-whumpee in general

Carewhumpers (yes pleasssse)

- In a similar vein, the "new whumper is nicer than the former whumper" trope

Pet whump in general tbh

My Big squicks:

Anything sexually explicit

Most whump of a minor

My milder squicks:

Hand gore

Non-medically-necessary tooth pulling

Non-medically-necessary amputation

Most kinds of extreme animalization

Some kinds of eye gore

Stuff I want to write eventually:

BBU

Other pet whump

(modern-ish) fantasy whump

Other speculative fiction whump

Also, a note about social interactions: I have social anxiety and I can be socially awkward sometimes. Because of this, talking to people, even over the internet, can be hard, and I tend to overthink things and worry about it a lot. So please be patient with me and if I take a long time to respond to something, or if I say something kind of off or weird or awkward, please know that I’m not upset and that I mean no offense or anything, it’s just Social Situations Being Difficult.

That being said, I do want interaction! I just figured I should warn that I’ll likely be less graceful at it than the average person. I would love to have people in my askbox and be tagged in things and to acquire some mutuals. (Seriously I want to make some internet friends.) Come on in and engage with my blog, I don’t bite! (...in spite of the name lol)

Thanks for reading this post even though it got kinda long! Hope to see you around, and have a lovely day/night! 😊

PS I should specify my squicks are not the same as a dni. It just means I probably won’t read those particular posts.

[sheyfu]

shey!! I’m here to annoy you (lovingly) hehe! Hope you’re doing well :)

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

GRAHH THANK U FOR ANNOYING ME (lovingly) I LOVE IT WHEN I GET ASKS AAAAAA and im doing well <3 i hope you are too!!

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

okay so i had to ask my friends for this q bc i actually dont know LMSADOSAOD SO HERE: happy - when i giggle/cackle/laugh and yap a lot irritated/annoyed/upset/angry - whenever my voice goes stern and i become direct and whenever i get really passionate about that topic (or person LMASDAO). basically when i yap with reason tired: - when i become silent and just listen instead of yap bonus: dejected (my favourite big boy word) - whenever they see tears in my eyes or when i become less energetic. they can also tell when i brush it off like its nothing/make a joke out of it LMDOASDO

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

japanese pancakes by fran vasilic!! - ok so to be honest i had to search the meaning of this song bc im actually SUPER DUPER bad w song analyzation 😭😭😭 BUTTT i love how its main theme is the journey to self-discovery and acceptance. and as someone who's very young, i have yet to accept myself for who i am; the struggle to see my flaws as my sunshine, and frustrations/challenges/problems in life as stepping stones to truly understanding my self prove to be difficult, but i believe with enough faith and time, i'll be able to reach that point of self-acceptance :D

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

for this i guess in a place where there are people who have excelled more than i have HUSADAUSHD - not sure why but ig seeing people who are better than me inspire me to do better than them HUDHASUDH

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

earrings! i dont really have a specific pair of earrings that i cant let go of/not wear bc i change them from time to time HUSADUAHD but ofc every pair is dear to me as theyre either gifts from relatives or my mom >:D

AAAAAA THANK YOU SM FOR THESEE HUASHDUYAHDS

[antirepurp]

time for me to be obnoxious about an april fool's game at almost may wahoo ft. an unexpected moment of character analysis because i have no chill

TRAIN.

i hope this game is canon because rouge doing petty pickpocketing is my favorite thing actually

he has a wallet? and a home?

i could go on about how much i love these kids being unhinged and chaotic but unless i want to reblog this post a million times i have to cut it down. let it be known that i adore the kids and their antics tho

you know what i also adore? blaze committing crimes in the chaos dimension because she can get away with it. i think i need more of that in my life actually

although right after he says he doesn't wanna do more crimes i'd like to think he grows out of that opinion eventually. let the little guy steal stuff i want him to hang with rouge and have her make him worse actually

look here shadow's had it rough in the writing department for a while but i very much appreciated this plot point of him going out of his way to get concert tickets for amy and even (reluctantly) agreeing to go with her to said concert even if it isn't his cup of tea. i know it's more presented as him trying to y'know be polite and considerate and he's going about it in an edgy way but i'd like to think it's just his way of presenting things if you will? like he know what amy's favorite band is and sees how hard the tickets are to get so he goes out of his way to get them because he cares about his friend and knows how much attending a concert like that would mean to amy. and in terms of this screenshot in particular i also appreciate amy appreciating her friends' presence at her party even if they hadn't gotten her anything! sure it does kinda come across as her being bummed about not getting gifts from them and maybe she is but i think that's okay? like she's 12 (or 13 now i guess?) getting excited about presents is pretty normal, and it's not like she's super upset about it anyway. i think she genuinely appreciates her friends attending her party more than anything

i also found this a lovely little detail lol and it does kinda make sense! the bitch has been in stasis for 50 years and computer technology has taken leaps in that time, of course he'd be a lil rustier with them compared to his peers

more on shadow, this guy's brain goes overdrive the second he realizes he fucked up and needs to get something nice for his friend now. like i don't have the brain power to form it into words atm but i just love what this all says about him as a character!!

i could flail about the art in this game the whole evening honestly it's so lovely and colorful and pretty and i love how this scene is composed and shadow being seated on the windowsill idk this just put a big smile on my face when i saw it :)

frankly obsessed with amy's unhinged energy can we please get more of this bc i live for it

the fucking blowdart. i cannot tell you how fucking off the walls these teens are like espio's instructed to use a blowdart on sonic with non-lethal poison and he's like yeah that checks out and sonic's just like wow cool guess i'll snooze for a bit then like this shit is exactly why teenagers should be given superpowers and be put into Situations(TM) i love it

not an april fools game making me emotional over trains

and why yes i am obsessed obviously

it was a fun game! like tbh with a bit more content i would've been happy to pay a bit for this honestly (like. when im not broke lmao) like it's so charming and there were a lot of fun details and the jokes were enjoyable too. i just think it's neat :)

but yea that is all im glad sonic the hedgehog got murdered it was a great time

[carmenberzattosgf]

okay as much as i liked season 3 i do have two things i can think of off the top of my head that genuinely irritated me. (more continuity things honestly). Spoilers under the cut!

we did not get to see the first service at the bear. not even a little snippet. I'm still trying to figure out if the second episode was directly when he gets out of the walk in but i cannot tell because everyone seems way to normal calm for it to be their FIRST actual service that night not to just friends and family. I wanted to see Carmy physically walk out of the walk in, in complete embarrassment and shame over what happened. I loved episode one so much, but because it was back and forth in timelines, it make episode two confusing because there wasn't an established timeline.

and i have like some additional things about the kitchen in general. it felt off in doors? i mean like according to Natalie four of their chefs quit in the episode before hand? like... does that not mean that only Tina, Carmy, and Sydney would be cooking for an entire service? In particular their FIRST service and the ones after? it felt so strange for them to get all those actors involved and actually have some lines in season two just for them to not be there. the only thing they had was the people who take out plates but they do not speak. they never showed any wait staff and there was no hostess shown (which! i find even weirder bc carmy specifically mentions the hostess desk when talking about putting the critics photos in a binder). like babe. what hostess. where is she? In season two I thought Natalie was acting as the hostess but yeah no that did not continue. Now, I was sleep deprived while watching the show, so I think? I remember there being chefs in the background cooking that wasn't the main cast, but what makes that weird is there is no interaction with them. I know we can't see everything because the show doesn't have hour long episodes, but we saw SO MUCH in the last two episodes of season two. I know that clearly by the way the season was directed that the kitchen was suppose to be chaotic and toxic, but with the lack of staff it was just downright unbelievable at times!

2. Natalie had a BABY and we didn't see RICHIE OR CARMY, rush there after service. BUT THE FAKS DID????? bro i know Donna was there but what difference does that make. I literally cannot even remember if Carmy acknowledges he has a WHOLE NIECE now. I'm a Carmen defender and I really felt for him this whole season because he was struggling, to put it plainly. However, Sugar is literally the only sibling he has left. You're telling me he would miss seeing his niece for the first time at the hospital? Even if they just didn't show it that's still upsetting to me because that's something that SHOULD be shown. Just thinking about the show in perspective of the family dynamics, I think a scene with just him and Nat looking at her baby girl would be GUT WRENCHING. Because there's a person who should be there but isn't. They both lost a sibling, someone they grew up with, who now this little baby will never know. I could go on more about this but I cannot believe we lost the chance to see Carmy meet and hold his newborn niece.

3. fun third thing. RICHIE DIDNT GO TO THE ERAS TOUR??? he got tickets for him and eva to go! The eras tour in chicago was june 2, 3, and 4th. Now I wasn't expecting it to be a whole *thing* but I thought there would be a mention?

[hidefdoritos]

Currently losing my actual mind bc my friend won't answer me and we have tentative plans for tomorrow that Must End Before Work.

On the one hand, this human has lots of issues with info processing and goes nonverbal pretty often.

On the other hand, this human also regularly uses the silent treatment as a way to punish people she's upset with.

I can also truly never guess what's going to make her upset with me on any given day. She punishes people who don't meet her expectations, but her expectations fluctuate wildly from day to day (think "Why didn't you tell me all of your schedule today?" to "It's ok! Go do your stuff. I'm easy to get along with.").

I love her and she needs someone to be a consistent friend.

This particular thing is just bothering me so much.

[lallouette]

I saw The Outsiders musical last week and I’ve listened to the cast album a few times since it came out on Wednesday, and it’s so interesting how I’m still chewing on it. I’ve had the privilege of seeing a bunch of Broadway shows recently. One was just kind of bad and I forgot about it immediately. One was perfect, luminous, no notes, I gushed about it to everyone I know (Merry We Roll Along). This is the one I have the most thoughts about. It emotionally devastated me and a lot of aspects of it were really well done. Other aspects of it. . . I have thoughts about? Here are my not-entirely-sober, rambly thoughts about this show, beneath the cut bc this is gonna get long and no one asked for this (also spoiler warning just in case): 

-I was able to buy into it, but it took me some time to get there. The first little bit had me skeptical. By the time they were at the drive in (fourth song) I was like, okay, I’m definitely down with this. The book also has a lot of exposition up front, but it’s a LOT of exposition in the show.

-I was wondering how they were going to handle profanity, given that the book has a lot of “he swore” and the movie is very tame on that front. They say fuck multiple times, which is. Very much warranted given the situations that they’re in but it did surprise me a little!!! Also somebody makes a reference to eating pussy in like the second song which was WILD

-I think they did really well with the character of Johnny, acting, directing, and writing wise. My greatest fear is that they would Tiny Tim or Beth Littlewomen him, given that he is quite literally Too Good For This Sinful World. But I actually think he felt more like a fully realized person than in the movie. Sky-Lakota Lynch did a great job of looking haunted not just with his face but with his whole body. He was always pacing or fidgeting or something, and that nervous energy worked for me. And then of course he’s very, very still. And the contrast is very upsetting. Also they put him in sunrise colors 🥲

-Speaking of Johnny and Ponyboy, they’re very gay in this. I never really got that vibe in the book or movie (probably because I was 11 and didn’t even know I was gay yet), but here they’re close in a particular way that reminds me of certain friendships I had before I came out. Fantasizing about running away and making a home with your Extra Special Best Friend is the gayest thing I can possibly imagine. There’s a DIFFERENT song that I have dubbed 2 bros chilling in a hot tub because they are gazing into each other’s eyes singing about how they’ll never leave each other, HANDS CLASPED OVER THE KNIFE THAT JOHNNY USED TO KILL SOMEONE TO SAVE PONY, but they are sitting as far apart as physically possible. If the intent was to make it look less like they were going to kiss then they failed. 

-I went in knowing what they did with Dally’s death. And it works bc Dally in this is a completely different character. He feels much older, closer to Darry’s age, and he’s less loose-cannon-dangerous and more paternal toward Johnny and Pony. While book!Dally’s death is a final fuck-you to the world, this Dally is much more calculated about it. Thematically, do I think they should have changed the manner of his death? No. I think they should have engaged with the source material head-on, even if that scene is bound to take on different connotations now. Also Ponyboy has a monologue after Dally’s death that should have been cut down if not cut, make us sit with that 

-Joshua Boone, who plays Dally, is FANTASTIC. His performance of “Little Brother” (breakdown song after Johnny dies) is so much more intense than what’s on the cast album. I want to see him in les mis, which is high praise from me. Beautiful voice, wonderful ability to sustain notes while also sounding like his world has just been ripped out from under him. 

-they did cool stuff with lights and projections every time Ponyboy gets concussed! (Which is alarmingly often). The whole using lights/sound/projections to make the audience feel what the character is feeling reminded me of Curious Incident of the Dog In the Nighttime, as did the framing device at times. 

-the choreography/staging is amazing. The church fire! The rain! The whole thing taking place in the lot!!! I could have watched 10 more minutes of the rumble. 

-some of the lyrics are a little questionable. Love the book scenes! Love the music (I’m always here for a guitar-y folk ballad). But like. There is a scene where they dip into this almost recitative thing to describe how they just killed someone and I’m like ??? There’s so much dialogue in this musical, why is this not just dialogue. The songs are definitely strongest when they’re expressing inner thoughts/emotions instead of trying to advance plot. 

-The Stay Gold song WORKS. Musical theater is truly the best visual medium for letters bc you can have the person who wrote it come out and harmonize with the person reading it and UGH. Now that I’ve seen it staged it makes me so much more emotional 

-the way I’m tempted to go rush it so I can see it again. The brainworms are so real