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kiisuuumii · 10 months ago
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Ada Limón, from "Trying," featured in Leaning toward Light
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larkwinged · 1 month ago
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𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐒 𝐅. 、𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐊𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓
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PROFILE. a self-righteous knight who is too willing to throw their life away, and too eager to charge into battle. underneath their stubborn exterior, they are riddled with the pressure of upholding a family title that has long been lost to time.
FULL NAME. artemis elise fröhlich
PRONOUNS. they / them
GENDER. fem-presenting non-binary
AGE. early twenties
HEIGHT. 5”1
BIRTHDAY. november 12th
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OCCUPATION. knight
AFFILIATION. knights of favonius
ELEMENT. pyro
CONSTELLATION. columba bellicosi
WEAPON TYPE. sword — “herald of the dawn”
Now stripped of its original purpose as a vessel to store all the memories of an ancient god king, this sword has been passed down in the Fröhlich family since the dawn of time.
Once wielded by the god of memories herself, this sword was blessed by the winds and presented as a gift to her youngest child upon the morn of their knighting ceremony.
“You, who represent the grace and bravery of humanity,” said the Queen, “take this and go. Become a pillar of hope to those wallowing in the darkness, and guide the lost onto a chivalrous path. You, the Dovewing Knight.”
And so, the first Dovewing Knight set out, protecting the people of Cairnfelle and standing tall as a beacon of hope, just as they were requested.
At the edge of the world, when the brilliance of Cairnfelle collapsed and the mountains crumbled, the sword found its way tumbling back into the hands of its previous owner to defend her honor, and upkeep her legacy until the final trumpet sang … announcing her defeat.
With no definite home, the sword lay in the ruins of its kin, preserved well by the Anemo Archon and his will — until the day it found its way into the waiting hands of the inheritor of an ancient title.
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• demo music concepts. one two three
• ENG voice claim : keath òsk as cole seymour from yaelokre’s “meadowlark” project
• JP voice claim : marina inoue as armin arlert from attack on titan
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CHARACTER STORY 1: eastward of eden
It is true that Artemis has long held resentment towards their older sister and past caretaker, Lilith. As a child, Artemis was refused of many things — including choosing their own clothes, partaking in certain activities, and having their own privacy. There wasn’t much they were allowed to do, and even the hobbies they enjoyed ended up ruined by Lilith’s excitement and pushy nature.
To this day, Lilith is unaware of the mental anguish she caused her siblings over the course of their entire childhood. However, in her own eyes, she has done no such thing, and has succeeded at being a “mother.”
Many citizens have told her, “My, you exercise much control over them,” and yet, she has failed to see the error in her ways. It is not entirely her fault, as she was forced into the role of a mother when she wasn’t ready for such a task. Even though she failed in many aspects of her parenting skills, there was one thing she has always truly succeeded at: caring deeply for her family.
However, no amount of love could undo the years of fighting and hurtful words thrown around between the siblings.
CHARACTER STORY 2: legacy
Long ago, in the days of yore, the archaic land of Mondstadt had been ruled by a monarch older than Decarabian. Her rule was rumored to last longer than his, and her birth is now nothing but scattered fragments along the wind.
When the Queen of the North Wind descended and claimed Mondstadt as her home, a mighty kingdom formed under her feet. Small huts grew to larger, firmer homes, and gargantuan cathedrals made of marble were erected in her honor. Trumpets blew, the wind howled, snow fell, and mountains as high as the heavens towered above humanity.
In later years, the prospering kingdom of Cairnfelle was officially born. Serving as a haven for travelers and poets alike, the kingdom sang with energy as it thrived under Queen Catalina’s guiding hand. The god of memories was exceptionally gentle, with a kind and compassionate heart that moved even the most stoic-faced men to tears. Her words were wise, her complexion glowing, and her promises true.
Cairnfelle, as much as it prospered, gained an enemy from a distant land. With no choice but to face the beast she prodded, the Queen set out to befriend the raging phoenix that had enough of her games. Ever the charming soul, the Queen did not have to do much to make the phoenix bow to her every whim, and before the citizens of Cairnfelle had the chance to acclimate to the visitor, the two were to be wed.
There is not much to say for the years in between the joining of two god kings and the fall of Cairnfelle, but this: Four inexplicably brave and virtuous souls were born from the two gods — four demigod knights who carved the way for the future of Mondstadt: The Four Archangels.
The Blair Family — the origin of the Fröhlichs, is no longer the raging flame of life it had once been, but a snuffed out ember of its former glory.
Only in passing on the titles of the Four Archangel Knights can the present day Fröhlich family hold tight to what was once a name feared and adored by all.
CHARACTER STORY 3: composition
Many questions have arisen over the years; all pertaining to a certain facet of Artemis’ composition.
“Is it a curse?” They’ve inquired, only to wind up receiving a simple, “I’m not even sure myself!”
However, that it is a small white lie they’ve grown to tell. In fact, Artemis is very much aware of the reason why they consistently find themselves on the brink of death and luckily make it out alive. It is because of the unique composition their ancestor, Lowen, was made of: pure and unbridled wrath.
The story goes as such: In the days of yore, when gods and monsters still yet walked the earth, a beast born of flame and rage took flight. They seared their enemies and allies alike, and roused the hearts of warriors all across Natlan. They utterly refused to lay their past life to rest. In doing so, they made a promise to their newfound family. The wrath that lived inside them was nothing but a blessing, and deserved to be passed on through their children, and future generations. And so, the endless wrath that boiled in their veins was passed on — consuming the lives of their children, and overtaking the brilliant flames that became their descendants.
To be a god’s descendant has always been an honor in the Fröhlich family line… Yet, Artemis — like the direct children of the god of wrath — see it as naught but a curse; For what blessing could bring about destruction and the devastation of any living being in one’s wake.
VISION STORY:
The blistering pyro vision attached to Artemis’ belt was said to be a gift from the gods, and maybe even a gift from the long gone god of wrath themselves.
What else are visions besides gifts from the gods? A tool to wield, and yet another curse Artemis must deal with.
At the young age of eleven, Artemis was sent out on their first escorting mission. It was their first mission given to them by Grand Master Varka, who was elated to test their strength and endurance. Not many were willing to accept an escort from a child — as was the case with the Fontainian aristocrat Artemis was talking their ear off to. However, the man said nothing, as the child’s directional skills were second to none. It was only when they hit a bump in the road that the man questioned Artemis’ capabilities as a knight.
“I should’ve known better than to trust a child!” He yelled, waving his fist in the air as he pushed them aside and ran off ahead by himself in the rain, leaving the young Artemis to fend for themselves amidst a hoard of abyssal monsters.
Although panic was steadily rising throughout their body, they forced themself forward — slashing at every monster with a shaky grip on their sword. The rain poured, sagging their clothes, and dragging their arms down to the dirt. The grip on their sword slipped, as did their footing, and they tumbled to the hard ground with a rough clash.
Their shoulder-piece scratched the bridge of their nose on the way down, and a thick line of blood began to spill from the open wound. A rifthound drew closer, baring its teeth and snapping its jaw as its claws outstretched, striking Artemis across the head. A clap of thunder sounded, and amidst the ringing in their ears, Artemis felt the weight of ten large wooden planks collapse on their back.
Even so, they shakily grabbed their sword, their nails digging into the wet earth, and began to stand. Their blood boiled as a wrath they were only warned about once crept up to the surface, prickling along their skin until it caved inwards, tugging at their ribcage and burning against their racing heart.
In a flash of white and gold, the hoard of rifthounds lay motionless on the grass, their bodies turning to dust as Artemis panted heavily. The wrath inside their veins bubbled, and their vision turned red. It was all consuming. It was destructive, and it was total annihilation. They struck down every monster seeping from an abyssal pylon until finally, they tore the pylon in half with nothing but their blade and their bare hands.
The rain continued to fall as they dropped their sword and collapsed to the ground in a heap of sore limbs and bloodied grass. Their eyes fell close for a moment — at least, what felt like a moment — and when they opened, a shining vision sat amongst the pool of blood left behind by their foes.
Indeed. The god of wrath, whose curse ran rampant in their veins, rewarded them with yet another “gift.”
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𝐕𝐎𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒
𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐀
• hobbies: When they are home in Dornman Port enjoying their days off, they like to wind down by practicing the art of crochet. Not only is it soothing to sit by a windowsill while the afternoon breeze filters into their bedroom, it is also a hobby their late mother held dear. By partaking in this hobby, they feel closer to their mother, and can preserve her memory longer. Another hobby is sports. Artemis can often be found playing with the kids in the port during vacations.
• beliefs: The Fröhlich family have always dedicated their lives to the protection of Mondstadt, and hold a firm worship to a god king who has long been dead. Although they have accepted Barbatos as their new savior, they still hold their original god close to their hearts. Artemis has naturally followed this belief and considers their worship of the god of memories their religion. During rough times, they find solace in a temple far north and meditate there for as long as they deem necessary. Once a month, they offer up a few of their most important memories— a ritual that has been passed down in the Fröhlich family for over 3000 years.
(This act of offering up memories is akin to the way some worshippers will offer animal sacrifices to the god they serve.)
• about — fate: Artemis is a firm believer that fate will guide the worthy and ultimately lead everyone onto the path they are destined to walk. However, they do not include the meddling of gods and higher beings into this equation. They believe that fate is its own entity and not dictated by the Archons nor Celestia. It acts of its own accord, and the gods are mere victims of fate, as well. Not even Celestia will be spared.
• about — death: Artemis believes that death is a stepping stone to a greater afterlife. Akin to their many family members, they believe that life is temporary, and death is eternal. When one dies, they are not truly dead; for they are shedding their mortal shell and accepting their true form, which is the soul. The soul will live on forever in the afterlife, while the physical body is nothing more than a temporary shell to house said soul. With this belief, the Fröhlich family does not fear death, but welcomes it with open arms— greeting it like an old friend.
#⟢ ── artemis f. .ᐟ#art by dearest koue 💋#TIS FINALLY FINISHED !!!!! holy hell. i have#<- MUCH to say.#first off let me start by apologizing for the small ass text 😔 big text stressed me out sometimes and often looks incredibly wonky/janky#at least to me it does#and it bothers me a hell of a lot#OKAY!!! ON TO MY DARLING ARTEMIS NOW :3#this took me. so so so long to do man. i unfortunately dont have a reference pic for them yet but i hope to have one in ->#the future !!!! some artists ive considered commissioning dont draw armor so 💔💔 i have to find one that DOES#bc artemis’ standard fit/fit they’d wear if they were playable would include armor#u guys have only seen snippets of their casual/home wear so far#second — artemis’ weapon !!! i’ve known since their creation that they would wield a sword ! ik it’s basic af but it’s the only weapon that#<- fits them. if i had to choose a diff weapon for any reason then they’d use a bow. it’s already kinda their secondary weapon anyw since -#they were trained and r skilled at archery. that’s only in recent times though bc venti was the one who taught them archery !#‘herald of the dawn’ is a name i came up with on a whim. and imo it def suits as the name of their sword !!!#also artemis shares a birthday with me 🫣#‘columba bellicosi’ means warrior dove - or smth of the like. yuomi helped with the constellation name so shoutout to my goat 🤍#it’s also kinda cool bc catalina’s constellation is ‘columba mortis’ or - ‘dove of death’#ofc i had to include lowen into their character stories LOL#lowen is the reason artemis is rumored to be a demigod#also … THE BLAIR FAMILY MENTIONED EVERYONE CHEERED !!!!!#still not sure whether or not i like the vision story and i can always change it … i had a rlly hard time with it. i knew how i wanted them#<- to get their vision but i didnt know how to go about it. i think it turned out alright#me and artemis share the same views on death ! cool fact for u guys hehe :3#one last thing !!! the voice claims were a bit hard to choose#i had NO idea where to start but then yaelokre began releasing more content of their character cole ->#and i KNEW i wanted cole’s voice to be artemis’ voice claim. it suits them perfectly#the jp voice claim was also a struggle bc i didnt know where to start 😭 but then i remembered my goat marina inoue and her ->#outstanding performance as armin and knew that had to be artemis’ jp voice 🙂‍↕️
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waywardstation · 6 months ago
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hi! i havent been on tumblr in a Hot minute but i wanted to come here JUST to tell you that hfbe might be my fave pla fic ive read ao far! the worldbuilding and the characterization of everyone just feels so so right i fall in love
i reread it on ao3 and even tho its not completed its still a joy to reread everytime
Hello hello!! Anon you have no idea how much it meant to me to get to read this. Knowing I put something out there that you wanted to back to and reread means A LOT.
I’m glad you like it so much but man I have been editing the first two chapters (fixing errors, making characters say and do things that are more in line with how I write them now, and just adding scenes in between to help things seem more clear or hit harder), and I’m like man this really isn’t that good haha.
It’s fun to see how much I think I’ve improved since I’ve started trying to write fanfics (I wasn’t aware of how obsessed I had been with commas and run-on sentences at the start lol)
So reading this nice message really gives me such a boost of motivation. I’m so glad you like the worldbuilding, and it makes me excited to get more out because later chapters are when I really introduce specifics on a lot of things. Namely the Pearl Clan’s hunting parties, that has been my favorite.
Now I just gotta get more out! Hoping to put more out for you to read soon kind anon, I really appreciate that you find it’s something you like to reread!
For now, here is a snippet below the cut; I am unsure if I have shared this before, but it’s a scene where Ingo is preparing to advocate for the Clan to use pokeballs to store their pokemon in, so that there is less food consumption (as in HFBE, it’s emphasized that pokeballs put pokemon into a stasis where they don’t need to eat, drink, sleep, etc. for as long as they’re in them. Ingo does it with his pokemon, and he wants the clan to do it too, for their own sakes).
Wording is subject to change (VERY MUCH SO), but enjoy!
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“Excuse me Miss Irida, but may we talk for a moment?”
The Pearl Clan leader turned back to see Ingo – he was trailing behind the group, purposefully so. He had been waiting for the right moment to approach her.
“Right now?” Irida’s eyes flickered back over the tops of people’s heads, up towards the communal hall at the top of the hill. “I’m sorry, but can it wait until after the meeting?”
“It is actually about the meeting.” Ingo’s grey eyes were unwavering, waiting — he wanted to ask her something. And Ingo was not one to usually ask for things.
“Ok,” She relented, pausing in the snow both so he could catch up, and they could have their conversation with some privacy. “You have until we reach the hall.”
“Thank you, I assure you it will be quick.” Ingo fell into step beside her, shuffling through the snow as they now both trailed behind the group heading towards the warm hall. He kept his head tilted down just like her, using the brim of his hat to protect against the wind and snowfall. “I, well… I am planning to re-propose a proposition at this meeting tonight. I’d like to make another attempt at advocating for the use of pokeballs.”
“Tonight? Are you serious?” Irida lowered her voice for his sake, looking back between him and the group. How could he possibly think about proposing that when this meeting was for them to discuss how to prepare for this famine? “I’m saying this not as your leader but as your friend, Ingo; now is absolutely not a good time for that. Everyone is already going into this meeting angry. And if you try and start this again, they’re going to-”
Irida took a deep breath; she was already getting stressed over it.
“You know how people are going to react to that. You know who it’s going to upset, Ingo. Especially after last time. And you said you’d let it go.”
“I am well aware of what I said and I intended to stick to it, but these circumstances have changed our tracks, and I believe this may save us from derailing!” Ingo whispered back. He kept throwing quick glances at the nearing hall, gauging how much time he had left to persuade her. “Pokeballs can help us much more than the clan realizes – I’m confident that this can bring us closer to a solution, if not at least be a part of one!”
Irritation and confusion were replaced with genuine curiosity, but a fleck of doubt hesitantly followed after. Irida shook her head, not understanding. “How could they possibly help with all of this?”
“I will explain that in the meeting.” Having conquered the snowy hill, the two reached the warm light that spilled through the hall’s windows to project onto the snow. “But to do that, I need to actually present my proposal, and I’m afraid that will be difficult with the elders tonight. I am trying this for the fourth time now, and I’m aware of how this will most likely be received. I expect they’ll call to send me back to my seat before I even start.”
Ingo paused just outside the doors, waiting for Irida to go in first — she could do so and end the conversation right now if she wanted to, but she didn’t. Instead she stood there, staring at their fading shoeprints in the snow.
Irida could see why he approached her about this now, and a part of her felt sorry for him. “So you want me to vouch for you.”
“Not the proposal itself. Just the time to talk.”
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guesst · 6 months ago
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💖🫘💥~
ask game
💖 What is your primary writing goal for this year?
i wanna get another longish fic or oneshot done and dusted! i know i yapped a lot ab fake grandson au when i was writing it but while it got tiring towards the end it was also REALLY SATISFYING so i want to replicate that this year 😌😌 if i’m ambitious, maybe even two!?
🫘 Spill the beans. What's a new project you're doing this year?
i am going to take this chance to talk about THREE okay so first of all. i did a poll last week and “iruma goes back to the human world” won. so thats one. im gonna do the au where iruma gets sent back with his memory wiped because he got outed (and the other two in the love trio follow). technically this ,, isn’t exactly new, but i don’t like how i wrote it so far so i think i’m gonna scrap the whole thing and start again lol.
next! miss laurence !! again i already wrote a littol bit but its not even that much so it totally counts as a new project !! i just wanna play with her and harcourt you know how it is. and i think the research will be very very fun. i may have to crack open some classics even heehee
finally! original fiction! ive done a bunch of planning and figuring out the worldbuilding blabla but i havent actually started it and anyway it’s about this guy who’s like., 30, and he ends up fusing himself with his pet goat in an awful accident. his old maid now has to try to get this reversed before he DIES of ORGAN DAMAGE. cue running around everywhere with a ten year old and a goat chimera.
💥Is there a chapter, scene, or WIP you're most excited to write? Share a snippet or tell us about it!
mmm lets do another wip. i looove the httyd au it’s so funny. dragon kirio is ‘tormenting’ iruma who is just some poor sod living in a village. here’s the start (mind there’s a dead rabbit):
It’s a wonderful day, and Iruma is holding the regurgitated remains of a dead rabbit in his hands.
It was on his doorstep in the morning, the body headless and steam curling off the somewhat mangled flesh. The rabbit was a big one too — even with the damage, it’ll make for at least a week’s worth of stew, and he’ll be able to share it besides. 
He knows where the rabbit came from, of course. Or who, rather. He just doesn’t know where the thing went off to.
Iruma looks to his left, towards the houses a little ways off and closer to the heart of the village, and then to his right, where the Old Wood lies. The vague hope of spotting gleaming eyes or a flash of scale is dashed very quickly; it was a fruitless idea, anyhow, since any dragon worth its salt knows how to make a quick escape.
Azz in particular is of the opinion that it isn’t worth any salt at all, and sometimes Iruma would agree, but — he hefts the bedraggled looking rabbit in his arms. The dragon does make a compelling case for itself.
“Thank you!” he calls out in the general direction of the woods. There’s no visible response except for a sparrow startling away from the sudden noise. Iruma shrugs, secures his grip on the body, and plods round to the back of his house to prep it.
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scourgefrontiers · 4 months ago
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Reading your thread on Bluesky, it might help to just keep your projects to yourself. Not even in a mean way but more so to feel less like an obligation to do everything all at once. There's nothign wrong with coming up with plot lines and new stories! But I've seen through the years everytime you come up with au's stories etc you make a blog you dump everything into it and reasonably get burned out. It might be better to treat some things more casually so you don't always exaughst yourself and that way to maybe you'll be able to enjoy it more if it does become more casual so you have more energy for the projects you really want to work on. TLDR: Try not to bite off more than you can chew and be ok with that its fine to just post little snippets or ideas and have fun evenjust like single page comics etc, focus on enjoying yourself and less of the next big hit.
I MEAN HONESTLY thats what im tryna do with heart of camelot and i had planned to move forward with other stories in that way as well (just making a sideblog to dump shit onto at my leisure in the form of little posts instead of a huge comic project) so i guess i am already trying that lol. i dont ever desire to make my story projects into the next big hit or whatever u.u;; i just really really love visual storytelling and its rly fun for me so i always have the desire to make projects like that bc its my passion! but the caveat to that i guess is that i get so fixated on it and wrapped up in it that i tend to overdo it lol. weh. that might be a different issue tho tbh
but ya i do appreciate it o<< im actively trying to take a different approach to my story projects tho dont worry. as much as i really super want to make more big comics im pretty aware that it always takes a lot outta me and probably would be a better decision if i dont go thru with it. unfortunately i cant rly help but feel the strong desire to do it anyway 😭 i kinda hate it
ive been thinkin for a long time abt maybe waiting until new game is done at the very least before thinking about my next project. it was either that or like. start other projects but dont fixate/focus on them too hard and let myself just work on them when the spirit moves me if that makes sense? like, if i dont feel like working on them for months then so be it, but allow myself to work on them when i feel like it too, just without feeling that obligation to do so, yknow?? idk. i'll figure smth out surely. its just been hard lately bc my mental health has been rly bad and affects my energy and motivation even for commission work which makes me feel even worse so its an awful cycle :( i just rly wanna create stuff thats enjoyable for both me and the ppl i share it with, it makes me super happy to do and its all i ever wanna do. so idk
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junietuesday · 2 years ago
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7, 16 & 66
ask game here!
7. How do you choose which POV to write from?
i mean usually the story im trying to tell will make it clear what the pov should be. if im writing a story to explore a specific character’s experience/emotional state, obviously it’ll be their pov, and for romances, its down to which character will have the more interesting perspective to explore and which character will be more interesting in the story if you (and the pov character) Dont know their every thought and have to piece it together yourself. (i think ive only once written a fic w switching povs, and while it was the right choice for that story since the romance was deeply abt their intertwined character development, i dont usually read like those ya romance novels that swap povs between the protags bc to me it feels like a copout LMAO)
16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?
oh man i. have countless fic ideas in hibernation but for the ones im Actively working on… i have three revalink fics, two miphvalink, and one thats loosely sidlink but in a particularly aroallo way bc its also abt sidon’s relationship w mipha again lol. plus three linked universe fics (thatve been in my drive for YEARS) still chugging along. i still think im really funny for my “revali and link work at rito mcdonalds fic” (i went into more detail abt it here) so heres a snippet of that:
Link looked at him, expression unreadable. Revali felt something in his chest tighten. There was no trace of the focused but cheerful cook he’d spent today working alongside—outside of the kitchen, he’d reverted right back to the wall of impenetrable silence.
Revali pivoted on his foot to leave. He’d already crouched down on the landing platform across the restaurant and spread his wings when Link’s voice cut through the silence between them.
“Where are you going?” he asked. Quieter than he’d been in the kitchen, and Revali didn’t think it was just because of the lack of noisy coworkers.
“I’ve already lost a whole day of training,” Revali snapped. He could feel something inside him burning. “I can still reach the Flight Range before dark.”
He didn’t turn around. He waited for Link’s response, but as the moment stretched taut, it became clear that none was forthcoming.
Of course. Who was Revali kidding, thinking anything had actually changed between them?
Beak clenched shut, Revali shot upward into the sky, leaving Link watching silently on the landing.
66. How do you deal with writing pressure (ie. pressure to update, negative comments, deadlines, etc.)?
i. dont LMAO. luckily i havent gotten any negative comments before, and random strangers’ telling me to update doesnt really pressure me to write unless its like, a nice request and its out of sympathy that i try (keyword: try </3) to get back to it. deadlines on the other hand are Wonderful i actively miss the fanfic competitions i used to be part of bc i was churning out 1-3k oneshots every two weeks, it was so much fun and i wrote so much. but i dont think they really have those anymore esp for any fandoms im actually part of, so theres no external pressure for me to write and so im the slowest writer ever.
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duckmumbo · 2 years ago
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22 and 29 for the writer's ask
22. Do you know how your fic will end before you start writing?
For the most part yeah! either because i've written a short little bare bones outline or because ive like imagined the whole thing in my head lol. The only exception is probably my alphabet challenge series on ao3, most of the time I started writing and didn't know how I was gonna end it until I was almost done
29. Share a bit from a fic you’ll never post OR from a scene that was cut from an already posted fic. (If you don’t have either, just share a random fic idea you have that you don’t plan on getting to.)
Chapter 2 of Can't Go Back (This Time) almost had a completely different (and much more dramatic) version of it, and here's a little snippet of that
“That's honestly probably our best bet,” Impulse said, staring into the void surrounding them, “Jumping into the void right now would just make us lose all our stuff, and then we’d have to grind for everything again before we can try again. Walking will take a while, but I’m not exactly looking forward to losing everything this early in the season,” he tried for a smile, but it didn't quite reach the mark. Pearl saw the tension around his eyes, saw how they kept straying to the void around them, how he kept glancing at his communicator every few seconds, trying to see if anyone had responded to them. If anyone was coming for them.
This was almost too close to how it felt to be floating in the void after season 8. She felt off kilter, like if she closed her eyes for even a second, by the time she opened them again, she’d be back in that endless void, nothing but her fellow Boatem members surrounding her and desperately trying to keep each other sane. 
But it wasn't the same, she told herself. This time, they had solid ground under them, this time they didn't have to wear space suits just to be able to breathe, this time they had gem with them and all of them were well rested.
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lqfiles · 1 year ago
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dude… everyone hear me out… “come do it for me?”… yeah, YEAH, i would’ve been on my way to his room and knocking on the door and i would’ve been singing him a lullaby or something and then bicker with him so he can call me sweetheart again
(also i noticed the “watch your mouth” and i just stayed silent bc he was being a little bitch so he wasn’t gonna have me fawning over him 🙂‍↔️)
ALSO Spanish lesson:
“la mano” = the hand
“el hombre” = the man
the first one is feminine and the second is masculine. you can use them in a sentence
“la mano del hombre está quebrada” = the man’s hand is broken
so, no, you won’t be able to tell immediately if they’re a woman.
again, mind you, i didn’t even realize we had gendered words 😭 i need to go back to AP Spanish… ive let down my ancestors! 😭😭
(answering your questions from before) and yes I’m busy!! but i have so many ideas im just excited about everything. so, im focusing on the series since i update twice a week, and am focusing on this other imagine that is almost done. so those two are my main priorities for now, and when the imagine is done, imma focus on this imagine that is so far 9k words and im barely in the beginning 🥲
AND SNEAK PEAK?! oooh i would but, i write for a different fandom (BTS *cough*) so imma just stand here 🧍🏻‍♀️🙂
(ALSO I SAW YOUR MARK IDEA? YOURE GONNA EAT SO BAD JUST LIKE HOW YOURE EATING WITH THIS SMAU you’re so talented 🫶🏼)
and yes! i have a digital camera like those 2000s ones and i think i might be able to connect it to my camera so if i can!! i’ll send you Bella’s pictures!!!
AGAIN TY FOR UPDATING SORRY FOR THE LONG RESPONSE IM THROWING YOU YOUR FLOWERS BC YOURE SO AMAZING! 🩷
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(bella is looking like a stuffed animal lately. her breed “maltipoo” are known to be called teddy bears and you should see how she looks 😭)
you best believe i would show up to his door with milk and a bed time story like don’t you worry one bit haechannie~ and you not reacting to that just because you don’t wanna be seen fawning HSJDHSK you stood on business sis i respect it..
that’s actually so confusing like why would you use feminine terms for a HAND, i didn’t know spanish was complicated like this 😭😭 (though i feel like its not that complicated, you just have to memorise patterns) PLSSS if it makes you feel better i can barely speak my own mother tongue like it’s an actual disgrace 💔
i wanna say 9k is crazy but i literally have a jaemin fic drafted that’s like 10k+ rn that has barely started loll WE TWO TAKE SLOW BURN SERIOUSSS.. that sounds fun tho i hope you’ll have the motivation to finish them off ^^ and you can still share a snippet don’t worry i’ll just pretend it’s haechan 🤫
AAAACKKK lets hope i will ive already started writing the mark fic and it’s at like 2k (or 3) words rn, i kinda got the gist of what i wanna do so the rest is just prayers that i stay motivated, thank you tho :D <3333 THATS SO COOL BTW real y2kish of you, i will patiently wait for the pics of bella when they’re ready 😋 i bet she looks rlly cute as a stuffed animal (not in a threatening way..) if i ever could get a dog i’d probably want that breed too lol
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gettingfrilly · 2 years ago
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F, I, K, M, S, T :3
TY okey dokey let's do this
F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.
“Is it like the ceremony in ‘They Came from the Back of the Fridge: Part Four’, when the chuck roast from the mutated omega cow gains sentience and plots to sacrifice Timmy, Tommy, and the string bean boys to return from whence it came?” Ed asks excitedly, his red eyes wide with wonder and sleep boogers. “Yup, exactly like that.” Eddy answers just to shut him up, then gives Double D’s back a hardy slap and leads him over to the bed. “C’mon, let’s pop that cherry.” “Must you be so vulgar?” Double D complains with an accompanying pained expression, rubbing his assaulted spine. “Eddy is saucy like gravy, Double D.” “Shut up, Ed.” Eddy reaches over to grab the bong, placing it and his lighter in Double D’s waiting hands.
i got praised by a few people on how i write ed's dialogue so i have a very inflated ego over this lol. I like this dialogue in particular because it's a good encapsulation of the dynamic between the three of them.
I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?
answered this previously by saying im shameless so ill share something i like that other people might consider a guilty pleasure. i like ANYTHING that has to do with gender fuckery (mpreg, ABO, gender swaps, cross dressing, feminization, etc) because gender is a funny made up toy i like to play with. i know these tropes bother some people because when written poorly it can come off as offensive and transphobic but i firmly believe that some of it is just good kinky fun.
K: What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?
HMMMM gosh i've had a lot of ideas ever since i was a kid! i can be pretty morbid. to speak on something more recent, ive been toying around with a fic idea where eddy's bro outs eddy to their homophobic dad.
M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?
whoops kinda answered this one already lol. well i can share that the angsty idea is for a possible long fic where eddy and edd run away from home (and bust ed out of military school in the process)
S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?
meet cutes pls
T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?
as a said before, i think any trope can be good when well written. hm i guess i typically dont care for crossovers
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butchniqabi · 3 years ago
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You definitely know how to leave a reader thirsty for more lol I have some questions about The Sea, the seas, the open sea if you don’t mind? Also! Also! The covers for that story are absolutely fantastic! I had a hard time choosing which was my favorite. Both covers (if one were to read the synopsis) give a hint of what the device does to the two remaining crew members but the cover that says “the connection was unearthly.”…ominous, if I do say so myself and especially great foreshadowing that the characters seem to not make it on the other side as they once were. But I’m getting ahead of myself 😅😅😅 I’m acting like you’ve written and published your story already and I have read it in its entirety (not just the two snippets). The gethsemane covers are beautiful too and I wouldn’t be able to pick from those options either lol Anyway! Do you have face claims for Alishba and Luevenia? Also, they are both beautiful names 😊 Do they mean anything and what made you pick those names out? When your reader gets to the end of your story what do you hope you’ve made them feel? Or a point you where able to get across? Lastly, I saw that isolation is a theme so I curious if it’s an entity in this story or a very tangible feeling? Ofc, noooo pressure to answer any of these if that’ll spoil your story 😁 thank you for sharing your stories, however small and brief, with not only me but the world! - 🌊 anon
gotta break this up into chunks hehehe
1. its okay sometimes i talk about my work like ive finished it too qdgebendnd. the binary code cover originally looked like this:
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and if the binary code converter i used is accurate (no guarantees) it should say "i love you i hate you i am you" over and over. and heh...the connection is unearthly and it is as beautiful as it is. kinda gross!
2. i generally dont have faceclaims anymore! idk what shifted but as i got more into writing the less hm...clear? the faces of my characters became? like i have vague ideas and i know what they Dont look like, but no concrete visual references. as for their names, they are very pretty hehe but i didnt choose them for any symbolic meaning, the names just suited the characters!
3. what do i want my reader to feel? hm. well for context this story was inspired a large part by this astronaut comic (tws for gore and body horror </3) and its not really the same, its not like their bodies are broken down or used for parts, stuff like that. but i want to leave people with a similar feeling when you read the last line of that comic. a strange pitiful longing with an undercurrent of unease (or even disgust?). if i say what i hoped readers took away from the story though id be spoiling it a teensy bit...but i ill just say sometimes you only realize your place in the world and with others after youve destroyed everything else.
4. isolation in this context is kind of like a character? perhaps? ive been treating the story as one with 4 protagonists: alishba and luevenia, obviously, but also the love-in-winter and "the space left behind" by their crewmates (aka isolation and loneliness). i suppose in a sense you could go so far as to say that isolation is the antagonist of the story, pushing them to desperation.
5. and finally, THANK YOU SOOO MUCH IM GLAD YOURE ENJOYING IT 😭 sending you a thousand kisses 😚
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inyoursheets · 5 years ago
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2, 16, 18, 23!
Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project
wow ok this is surprisingly hard to answer! confronting! im not even sure, there isn’t anything specific ive got planned out that im excited to write. i don’t have any future projects planned out yet. or. i mean.....there are some things at the tips of my writing fingers but i can’t allow myself to think about them properly yet bc i need to focus on and commit to finishing warm water. and my thesis (ugh).
there are some things from warm water that ive already written that im excited to share, but right now im in a place where writing just isn’t going smoothly, so whenever i have an idea (like the eloquent “sweatpants dick” note i took recently) (my only contribution that day) im not all that confident or excited about it bc im afraid the actual writing itself will be a pain? that i’ll drag my feet for days and it won’t come easy and i’ll hate every second of it -- until things click and the words start flowing, not unlike this post describes. idk i keep really wanting to write and sitting down for it and then it just--won’t happen. or if i do actually try putting pen to paper i just start hating it all, which i don’t want.
so! this is a sad note to end on! here’s some vague things i am looking forward to: i’m looking forward to being excited about writing in general! i’m looking forward to writing something i’m proud of, either in terms of plot or theme or characterization or dialogue or whatever! i’m also looking forward to having that oh-my-god-the-words-are-flowing-from-me moment, regardless of the result tbh, bc i just love that feeling of loving writing and having it come easily. that’s what im excited about -- being excited about writing again.  
Tried anything new with your writing lately? (style, POV, genre, fandom?)
ok so i have this terrible writing tendency to not know how to not describe every single action characters make -- every movement, every gesture. particularly on first drafts i feel the urge to describe it all, otherwise i can’t continue. i know that it’s not always necessary to write what happens every single second of a scene, but i can’t seem to stop?
idk if im explaining what i mean correctly -- there’s probably terms for this that i dont know -- but someone who i think manages to do the opposite of what i do very well is @fairhairedkings, who is really good at time jumps and not going overboard w the minute-to-minute descriptions, the way i tend to.
i know it can be pretty tiresome and it’s one of the things that annoys me a lot about my own writing, both in terms of reading it (it can be plain boring?) and for the writing itself. it blocks me! but i can’t seem to stop doing it, feel like i’m glazing over things otherwise or lose track of where im going. i have to keep reminding myself that leaving out certain things doesn’t mean that nothing happens or that people assume nothing happens.
so, to answer the question, ive tried to be a bit more concise with it’s hidden in heartbeats, exhales and in the hope of open hands when i started writing it. that fic is a product of being fed up with my other WIPs and it didn’t take more than a week from its initial idea to the finished product, so i really wanted it to be a quickie, and i thought something tight and concise could work for the plot. i didn’t actually manage to succeed though, still ended up describing just about every action there, too. i don’t think i’ll ever manage to write something concise tbh. i do bad with time jumps, i do bad with less is more, which is unfortunate, bc less can truly, truly be more. so! im gonna try this again some time!
Do any of your stories have alternative versions? (plotlines that you abandoned, AUs of your own work, different characterisations?) Tell us about them.
mmm well, warm water originally didn’t include mutual pining -- beth wasn’t supposed to be in love with rio yet, we were gonna watch her fall in love slowly, while he already felt things. but then i ended up almost turning that entirely on its head and now we’ve got the mess that is that this fic in its current state lol. there’s also an AU to warm water that i briefly considered bc of you which i won’t go into now bc of possible spoilers -- but ive considered things!!! 
also for it’s hidden in heartbeats, it was supposed to be more about petty!rio and haha, look, exes trying to get “revenge”, and to be light and funny, but i realized that idk how relationships work, let alone how exes work, so i couldn’t really find any good reasons for them splitting up, at least nothing that could generate comedy, so it ended up getting fairly angsty? idk why this keeps happening -- me planning to do something rom com-esque and it developing into something wayyyyy angstier, but it did!
What’s the story idea you’ve had in your head for the longest?
oh wow idek! ive definitely been working on warm water the longest, so i guess technically that one, but there are some other ideas that have been drifting near the surface that have been there longer and are very underdeveloped and need time and nourishment and attention and love, all of which i can’t give them yet bc im trying to stay focused on warm water and thesis writing. maybe the beth/stan friendship snippet ive got hidden in somewhere in my docs!
thank youuuu for indulging me!!! meta writing asks!!!!
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thesunnyshow · 5 years ago
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Name: reya
Writing Blog URL(s): @chu-ni
Age: 19
Nationality: african-british
Languages: english, swahili, korean
Star Sign: libra
MBTI: enfp/entp (it always changes lol)
Favorite color: purple!
Favorite food: i really love chicken burgers
Favorite movie: princess and the frog
Favorite ice cream flavor: vanilla!!
Favorite animal: elephants
Go-to karaoke song: fancy - twice
Coffee or tea? What are you ordering? caramel frappe with whipped cream, in general i prefer tea though
Dream job (whether you have a job or not)? secretary general at the UN….or an author
If you could have one superpower, what would you choose? making anyone agree with me and do what i want them to do
If you could visit a historical era, which would you choose? ancient egypt!!
If you could restart your life, knowing what you do now, would you?.....no.
Would you rather fight 100 chicken-sized horses or one horse-sized chicken? neither if i could lmfao but i’d go for 100 chicken sized horses
If you were a trope in a teen high school movie, what would you have been? the nerd who’s actually really pretty after she gets a cool makeover 
Do you believe in aliens/supernatural creatures? im not sure about aliens, but i definitely believe in ghosts and spirits.
What are some small things that make your day better? when i can have moments to myself to enjoy my own company. or when someone asks me what i want to eat and they bring it for me 🥺
Fun fact about yourself that not everyone would know? uhm…...probably the fact that i write fanfiction lol..but outside of that! i sing in the shower. and i talk to myself a lot.
What fandom(s) do you write for? nct dream currently, but in the future i want to expand to other groups!
When did you post your first piece? 17th of June 2018.
Do you write fluff/angst/crack/general/smut, combo, etc? Why? i can never write just one genre. predominantly i write fluff with a dash of angst for spice simply because i love a story that has an issue and then having that issue be resolved for a happy ending. when i started my blog i was 17, and so i said i wouldn't write smut. now that i'm older im feeling more and more comfortable writing suggestive content at the very LEAST.. so maybe in the future i might write smut, who knows? i like writing fluff because i like making people feel good, but i like adding angst to it because i feel like the contrast between the two is very *chefs kiss* to me.
Do you write OCs, X Readers, Ships...etc? i only write x readers!
Why did you decide to write for Tumblr? i first got tumblr when i was 13 years old and i was a fresh kpop fan lmfao. i wanted somewhere that shared my interests. of course i discovered x reader fics on here and i was in awe, i guess of how much power writers had in contributing to fandom content and keeping readers satiated. i’d always loved to write and so i’d always wanted to start my own writing blog, and for 2 years i did write for other blogs! it wasnt until 2018 that i finally took the leap and decided to start my own, because i wanted to impact people's emotions and take them on a journey through my writing.
What inspires you to write? what inspires me….teen movies, music!! music is a big one for me, and also the books that i read. i also grew up playing otome games so the plots and writing from those influence my writing a lot.
What genres/AUs do you enjoy writing the most? i really enjoy writing royalty!aus as well as exes!aus. i love to do them cause they require me to build a world and with royalty aus specifically i love weaving together bits of political intrigue, or arranged marriages, etc. its so much fun!!
What do you hope your readers take away from your work? that if this world is too rough or too much, you can always escape from it. it might not be physical, but immersing yourself in a universe that's entirely different for a little while can help soothe you.
What do you do when you hit a rough spot creatively? usually i try and take breaks. the problem with that is that my breaks can go on for longer than i’d like and im trying to fix that. so my other solution is to read read read!! read as much as i can, or go back to books that i loved. ask myself what i liked about the writing, what are some parts that i thought were amazing examples of good writing - i note them down then see if i can apply that to my own work. another thing i do is take a break from writing my longer, fleshed out works and write blurbs! blurbs are a great way for me to write but not feel like its tedious because i don't have to spend as much time on them and it gets me into the groove of writing without feeling stressed out.
What is your favorite work and why? Your most successful? my favourite piece of work is miscommunication. it took me months to write that, even after i lost all the work halfway through, and its the longest piece of work i have written so far, so its kinda like my baby. my most successful is candy jar. its also the work i owe my blog exposure to - it was the first piece i published, and it was also the first piece of writing i did in around 4 years.
Who is your favorite person to write about? i don't have much out for them, but i really enjoy exploring mark’s and jeno’s characters. they're people, but in my work i enjoy analysing them and judging how they’d act in different contexts.
Do you think there’s a difference between writing fanfiction vs. completely original prose? the only difference for me is that fanfiction (depending on the fandom) has some of the stuff fleshed out for you already, such as the world its in. if youre the type to write AUs then the only thing you already have is the characters - the planning, the writing, the drafting, and everything else is still the writer's responsibility. therefore there isn't much of a difference between the two for me.
What do you think makes a good story?  a good story, to me, is one that takes me on a journey. it could be any genre, but i like to feel immersed and connected to the characters and the world in it. also aside from the obvious, like good grammar, a good story feels natural to read. i don't feel like skim reading half of it.
What is your writing process like? my writing process consists of me getting inspiration - usually from a song, or a film or a book ive read or a game ive played - i note down my idea and who i want the story to be about, and then bullet point the whole story, with some snippets of particular dialogue i want the reader or the other person to say at certain scenes. i then open another document ( i have a writing app on my phone, called werdsmith, so i use that!) and set a word count goal i want to hit so i can track my progress and start writing the fic, with fleshed out language and exposition. when im done (usually after a couple weeks up to a few months, depends on the length of the plan) i read through it to fix any mistakes, then i transfer it to docs so i can read it again and italicise any areas i feel need it.
Would you ever repurpose a fic into a completely original story? i...don't think so. mainly because the original fiction i read and would like to write for myself is predominantly fantasy, whereas the fanfic i write on my blog is usually non-idol, normal fics. 
What tropes do you love, and what tropes can’t you stand? im a SUCKER for enemies to lovers, royalty ofc, “and they were roommates”, and i think superhero aus are really cool but there isnt enough of them :( idol/you as member aus....not feeling her… also abo/werewolf/vampire aus….not feelin em
How much would you say audience feedback/engagement means to you? a LOT. a HUGE amount!! i said before how i like giving my readers somewhere where they can immerse themselves as an escape, even for a short while. hearing about how my work affected them, made them feel, makes me feel less insecure about what im writing and thus more confident to publish it.
What has been one of the biggest factors of your success (of any size)? i’d say reblogs. and also putting out more content. when i first uploaded candy jar i went to my one of my favourite writers (jaeminlore) and asked her if she'd be okay with reading it and giving feedback. to my surprise she loved it and her reblogging it to all her followers is literally what gave me a bunch of followers all of a sudden who loved what i’d written. to keep that momentum i created more and more content, and while i haven't uploaded as often as i've wanted to or written as much as i’d wanted to, i can say i have a good amount of work on my masterlist for people who are looking for more to read.
Do you think fanfic writers get unfairly judged? 100%. fanfic has an unfair reputation for just having bad writing and cringey fics (and i feel like this is because of the way society views the demographics who predominantly consume and create it), when in reality i feel like those who write fanfiction are extremely talented and selfless people. they're on the internet creating content for free for people to enjoy and like any other work of art they're putting time and effort into it. i think it should be respected. any form of art is going to have its good and bad sides.
Do you think art can be a medium for change? hmmm….yes. i feel it can be a way to reflect the thoughts of people and also be a way to inspire people to do more.
Do you ever feel there are times when you’re writing for others, rather than yourself? sometimes. sometimes i feel like i'm forcing myself to write because i feel like if i don't then people will forget about me or they’ll forget about my blog. while what i choose to write about is for me, i feel like the speed of my writing and what im writing isn't to the quality i want it to be cause i feel like i gotta get it out for people to read.
Do you ever feel like people have misunderstood you or your writing at times? i've never felt that way!
Do your offline friends/loved ones know you write for Tumblr? only 2 of my friends know, and i only told them like. a week ago!
What is one thing you wish you could tell your followers? i wish you guys would message me more! i'm quite a sociable person, and i’d love to have regular anons who talk to me 👉🏽👈🏽
Do you have any advice for aspiring writers who might be too scared to put themselves out there? i think one common thing amongst all writers is that we write what we want to read. so don't feel like nobody's gonna read your work, cause somebody will. you gotta act like your work is top tier even if someone says it isn't - always write the best you can, and just do it! like don't even give yourself time to overthink it, write that fic, make it look pretty, upload it onto tumblr and do not be afraid to ask your favourite fic writers to read your work once its up!! i’d be happy to read and give feedback for any fic writers as well so don't feel afraid! 
Are there any times when you regret joining Tumblr? ive been on here for 7 years….i grew up on this site lmfao. but i don't think i regret joining tumblr once.
Do you have any mutuals who have been particularly formative/supportive in your Tumblr journey? shes not very active anymore and i miss her very much but user hyuck-s was so supportive and i love her!!
Pick a quote to end your interview with:
she believed she could, so she did.
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hellbabyfromhell · 6 years ago
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why (if you don’t mind me asking) is your house taking such a large toll on your mental health? Im sure you’ve explained it already but... I’m out of the loop
i havent explained it, and tbh i didnt explain it to my friends fr a long time because i felt guilty AND embarrassed even though i should have just been madif you happen to know these people irl, i respectfully ask you dont share this with them. i need to speak to them at my own time in my own way. its long
basically my (then gf, now ex’s) fmaily “took me in” right after my dad traumatically died right in front of me and ruined my brain. i was all fucked up and they “took me in”. i felt very safe with them. but the way it ended up was with them  bleeding me dry with money because ive been  paying my ex’s rent since my dad died, and if you know me you know thats a long, long time. now, i felt that i owed it to them because they took care of me when my dad died, and that kept me from changing things despite everyone’s warnings, saying they were using and taking advantage of me. but they called me their daughter, they cared about me, i thought. but it really went downhill abruptly......it started with small disrespects. first off, i’m paying half the rent of this townhome for an uninsulated attic with no central air or heat on the third floor. it is alternatingly freezing and fucking makes-you-nauseous hot. this family tried to convince me that i had vents and they were just covered by my trash lol and thats why my attic is worth [REDACTED] (its too much). when i literally showed them the floor plans and there was no vent they basically just went Oh.
Then, they changed my name on the neflix account to my ex’s mom’s mom’s name, because there were too many people on the netflix to make a new profile, so they changed MY name, rather than rowan’s boyfriend or their random ass friend, ME, who pays HALF THE RENT AT THIS HOUSE. that seems petty but its like, im really the least important out of everyone?then came the thing that made me really start reviewing my situation:my ex asked to come over, and they said yes. THEY said yes. not me. this was like maybe a week or two max after we broke up. ex’s mom texted me to say “okay, he’s coming over” and i was like “:0( okay thats fine but i wish you’d told me before cementing down stuff because thats a little inconsiderate” and she was like “Well it would have been inconsiderate of me not to tell you at all.” I thought that was really disrespectful bcause like, they REALLY didnt know our situation at all, and i live on the third floor so if i needed something from the kitchen or something id have to walk past my ex because my ex and my ex’s mom wanted to be fucking friends. it was weird and rude and she would NOT budge on the idea of INVITING MY EX INTO MY HOME WITHOUT CONFIRMING WITH ME being rude!!!!!and then i started looking back, and likethis is one of the worst things, like a couple months after my dad died, i was like catatonic, barely present, sick with grief and majorly traumatized. and these people had me sel my father’s car, with everything in it, so that my ex could get a new car “to drive me around safer : )”...... now i have to BEG to get a ride down the street to baskin robbins unless someone themself needs something. i gave up my father’s car and everything inside of it for this, and they let me. at the time it hurt too much to look at but i wish with everything i could have what i left in that car. i will never forgive them for that. i have so  little of him and some of out favorite things were in that car and i know they knew that.ive mentioned moving out a couple times and they always say “well give 2 months notice!” done. i have. but they kept saying i needed to stay longer or convincing me it was bad to leave until the ex’s mom’s bf needed surgery and then now i cant leave till after january. i wasnt happy about this at all but i was like Okay well i guessbut then the other night, the ex’s mom’s bf (who has his own medical card) had the audacity to get mad at me for not wanting to get him a bunch vape carts from the dispensary i JUST got hired at even though id just bought a lot, AND HE WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE SMOKING!!!. he asked me a favor and i said i was uncomfy with it and he went fucking off on me. 
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this is a little snippet. i know you dont know everything just from what im telling you, but what i can say i have done a TON for this family, and this is NOT the only thing he has asked me for, and i don’t know if the doctor prescribed him crack rock because all he does is sit in the living room and watch kill la kill. i was so disappointed in him because i thought he was least complicit and it turns out he hd some issue with me. i’ve done a lot for this family. it was really hurtful.since this i never leave my room, they rarely address me if i do or look right through me. the ex’s mom’s bf asked to speak once in a way that implied that he expected a sorry from me too. you ma believe this to be once sided, but i believe with my whole heart i have done not a thing wrong. i don’t want to apologize. it’s been about 5 weeks now i feel like and they have barely spoken to me. they laugh wildly downstairs and don’t feel even a bit bad that i never come downstairs. that i have to rush around to get packages. that i never use the kitchen or am anywhere near it (not that id want to be because its always stacked high with dirty dishes). my ex’s mom lost her job staying home too much from an illness that shouldnt affect her working since she works a desk job an all she does at home is sit on the couch, do nails, ply overwatch, watch safiya nyagaard and hang out with their friends. i never go downstairs because i feel like its not my home. also my ex’s mom’s bf walks around all hours of the night now so i never feel safe to go downstairs EVER so i ration water and food and when i go to te bathroom people jiggle the doorknob and i say IM IN HERE :0( and also my ex’s mom’s bf walks around puking with the door open  and blowing his nose (he did this pre surgery too) and i just am going crazy here i have to get out. they dont give a shit about me . i dont know if i sound entitled, but it really does suck but i feel so trapped. this isnt my house. OH , and when i sked about moving out ex’s mom said well if we all paid the same amoun it’d be [200 less] .  theyre using me and dont care and i hate being here and it’s making me really want to die. thank you, it kinda felt good to let that out
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natalie-goodman · 5 years ago
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F, I, K, S, T
F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.
ALWAYS: “We can’t keep trying to fuck our way out of this one,” he tells her, while not doing anything to help avoid it.
sorry its the entire thesis of dimya for me lol
I: Do you have a guilty pleasure in fic (reading or writing)?
I have an entire bingo card full of them lol. i’m MOST guilty of having dmitry lift anya up and her wrapping her legs around him in almost every fic
K: What’s the angstiest idea you’ve ever come up with?
i answered this already but i think scars is angstier than dbatc itself but the entire trilogy is the angstiest ive done 
S: Any fandom tropes you can’t resist?
enemies to lovers, friends with benefits
T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?
making anya shrill and dmitry perfect as the source of tension between them to make them not get along 
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