Scene ; Joseph Quinn
Leave it to me to see one comment asking for a full fic based on one of my Moments drabbles and actually write that shit 😭 I've been working on this piece for weeks and I'm pretty happy with how I left it so here it is for your reading pleasure ;)
Before we start, a couple of things:
This is pre-Feelings (tho reader is very much in love here but doesn't realize it)
The death scene is from the POV of Stacey, your character, and is mostly my dialogue bc i tried watching the actual clip and got less than 10 seconds in before i started crying 🙃 so I'm not gonna torture myself like that y'all sorry lol
Reader is portrayed as having anxiety and overthinks a lot, kinda like in Feelings. I write her like this bc that's pretty much how I am in real life about my own thoughts, feelings, and basically everything else. Aaannnd that's basically it lmao
Pairing: Joseph Quinn x Fem!Actress!Reader
Warnings: Unedited content, strong language, ANGST, description of Eddie's death scene, mentions of blood, mild depictions of anxiety, some fluff, and touching, duh ;)
wc: 3.6k
I already linked the other two fics so read Touch here
Pt 2 here
Prior to this day, you had your assumptions that actors filming a death scene would be pretty tough.
But, now that you were in a position where you yourself would be at the borderline center of one, ‘tough’ was kind of an understatement.
‘Tough’ wasn’t nearly a suitable enough word to describe having to cradle your co-star who was covered in prosthetic wounds and fake blood as he sputtered out I love you’s and goodbye’s, and then ‘died’ in your arms.
Maybe ‘tough’ would be the appropriate term here, if said co-star wasn’t your best fucking friend and the person you were undoubtably closest with on set. Him dying in your arms, even if it was just for the screen, was still an experience that would feel way too real-even if you tried to remind yourself that, at the end of the day, it wasn’t. No matter how true to life it would seem. No matter how damn realistic those wounds looked (why the fuck did Amy and her team have to be so talented?), and no matter how fucking incredible Joe Quinn was at pretending to die.
The words ‘calm down’ echoed in your head like a broken record all day. They had blended into one, to the point where they were incoherent and didn’t seem to make sense. Thus, they did very little to offer comfort.
The day had been frustrating, to put it lightly. But, at least you had Joe.
That morning, during your daily-or hourly-sanctioned bear hug, your heartbeat was so strong he practically heard it pulsing in his ears. That alone told him your anxiety would be working double time that day. It was a serious pain in the agss sometimes.
You and Joe had always been attached at the hip over the last year and some, always hanging off of each other in some way or another. And today, it was with good reason attached to it-not that (consensual) physical touch ever had to have a purpose other than wanting to be close. Having that gentle contact, even if it was just a hand on your shoulder-was more than enough to ground you and halt the overactive thoughts-even if for a couple of minutes.
Although he’d say he was only trying to comfort you, it was obvious your embraces and touches held mutual benefit. Just as he was able to sense your anxiety, you could sense his. The sweaty palms when your fingers laced together during breakfast and lunch weren’t from you, nor were the goosebumps you felt against your collarbones when he held you from behind after you got your makeup done for the scene. This showed you that, despite acting his ass off during rehearsals, it didn’t mean he wasn’t nervous.
But, in typical heartthrob-from-a-90s-novel-written-by-a-woman fashion, all his energy was put into making you feel better, comforted, and assured that everything would be okay. Even if he had no idea what the true driving force was behind your anxiousness.
You couldn’t have asked for a better on screen boyfriend. Stacey Miller-Rhodes was a damn lucky gal. Well, up until her boyfriend got chunks of his flesh ripped from his body by demobats. Meaning he died. Meaning Eddie was gone.
Calm down. Calm down. Calm down.
A sharp knock on your trailer door interrupted your useless mantra, as you jolted, just a little, before giving permission for whoever to enter.
In walked Matt and Ross, warm smiles on their faces. It didn’t do much to ease you, because you knew why they were here.
“Hey, Y/N, you ready?” Ross asked. Matt stood by the door keeping it open, since it was time to go.
You nodded. “Yep,” your voice was even, masking the heavy feeling in your throat. You were not ready.
“Figured we’d come get you ourselves, Joe’s busy with makeup on set, for, you know-”
“I know. Thanks,” you said quickly, cutting Matt off. “Let’s get going, then,” you said, standing up and walking past Matt, exiting your trailer. You heard the door shut softly and their footsteps following behind you.
You were being short with them, but that was because you really only wanted Joe at this moment. Unfortunately, he was currently being ‘deadified’ on set, which is where you were now headed. You two had a little cuddle session in your trailer, where he held you tight and layed kiss after kiss on your forehead, cooing that it would be okay and that you would both be fine. After that, he had to go to the makeup trailer to get his prosthetic wounds applied. The process had taken hours, and then he had to film the scene where Eddie actually got attacked by the bats. This meant it had been a while since you saw him last. So, his mamed and mangled appearance awaited you, when the last time you saw him, he was totally unharmed and at ease.
You entered the building, in which there were only a chosen few people. It was a closed set, just you, Joe, and the necessary crew members. The Duffers believed that because a death scene with a couple was so intimate, you and Joe were the only actors that should be on set.
That, you were thankful for. You were your best self when it was just you and Joe, so you could be your best ‘acting self’, when it was just the two of you as well.
Your eyes were immediately drawn to the ‘Upside Down’, a set made to look like the particular spot in the alternate universe where everything would go down. It was tinted blue and almost sent a chill down your spine to look at, from how cold uninviting, and eerie the general vibe of the scenery was. And a little depressing, which was pretty fitting. The backdrop was a blue screen, which would be used to add the background of the setting, to make everything look as real as possible.
You spotted Joe in the middle of the set, the makeup team applying fake blood to his very real looking wounds.
“C’mon, we wanna talk to you and Joe for a second before we start,” Matt told you, and as much as that made sense, you wished Joe was more than just a few feet away so you could prepare a little more for seeing him….like that, outside of the context of the scene.
“Okay,” you said as you three began walking towards him just as makeup finished up their job. When you got to him, you felt yourself tense up at his appearance as you lingered back, just a little bit. He stood awkwardly with his arms slightly hovering away from his body, clearly not wanting to disrupt the fake damage. You could tell from the sight before you that with how much fake blood the team used, those demobats would really do a number on Eddie.
You hated those little CGI bastards.
“Hey,” Joe said, gaining your attention, though his tone was light. You met his eyes, narrowly avoiding the blood streaking the lower half of his face.
“Hi,” you said back, feeling just a little bit of air release from your lungs, not even remembering when you took a breath in. You wanted to make a sarcastic quip to lighten the mood, but words failed you. You didn’t really feel like being funny right now.
“So, you guys remember how the scene goes, Eddie just sacrificed himself and got attacked by the bats, and Stacey runs up to him afterward and sees his body laying there, barely alive, covered in blood and wounds,” Matt began.
You curled your lips in and nodded stiffly, feeling the slightest of shocks run through your body. Calm down.
“I know you two are gonna kill this scene,” Matt continued. “No one understands or could have brought to life Eddie and Stacey better than the two of you,” he said warmly, clamping hands down on both your shoulders. Yours was tense under his touch and Stacey’s clothing.
You had to admit, though, he was right. You had a lot of input into Stacey’s character, taking her from Eddie’s shy girlfriend who was just a tool to enhance how eccentric he was, to a girl with a backstory and reasons for her reserved nature. Knowing Stacey’s history would make the scene even more gut wrenching to film. A girl raised in a household with a domineering step-father who believed women should be seen and not heard, who made her life a living hell under the watchful eye of her mother who did nothing to stop it. Upon turning 18 she left him and his toxicity behind, but carried the burden of years of being forced to subdue herself. Eddie got her to open up to him, but she still carried herself quietly around others. The fear of judgment was damaging.
Because of how much you put into Stacey and the influence you had on her storyline, you knew none of your nervousness had to do with how you’d perform in the scene. You were confident in your abilities as an actress and knew you could carry this scene with the help of Joe perfectly.
“Thanks, guys, that means a lot,” you said to them, gripping the moto jacket you wore, canonically taken by Stacey from Eddie’s closet.
“Yeah, truly, we’ve come a long way from me thinking I would completely ruin the show,” Joe chuckled, the smile on his face juxtaposed by the blood caking it. It was actually kind of off putting.
“Alright, well, let’s get this show on the road!” Mat clapped his hands and walked with his brother offset.
More like let’s get this over with. You were about to walk off to get in your spot, when Joe grabbed your hand gently, stopping you. You turned to face him, brows raised expectantly.
“You good?” he asked.
Deciding to keep this short and sweet, you settled for a quick nod, and a soft ‘yeah’. Satisfied, he released your hand so you could go to your place, just as one of the Duffers yelled “Places!”
When you got to your mark, you looked over to Joe one more time, who was already looking your way. You could feel the intensity of his stare from where you stood, those gorgeous brown eyes and the way they sparkled no matter the lighting or setting. He gave you a smile, and you returned one, unable to ever not do so. It managed to give you a new found confidence you lacked just seconds prior. He took his position on the ground, and then, it was time.
There was no turning back once it began. Unless you swiveled on your heels and ran in the opposite direction, which was tempting.
Once it happened, everything you were worried about could become a possibility to follow suit.
You sucked in an unstable breath and closed your eyes, savoring a final moment of calm before those two little word were uttered-
“And….ACTION!”
You took off.
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Stacey’s heart was ramming against her ribcage the moment she re-entered the upside down, but when she saw her boyfriend lying limp on the cold, wet ground, she swore her legs would give out as her heart seemed to cease in its entirety.
He had gone back. He wanted to be a hero. He didn’t want to run anymore, but God, she wished he did.
“Eddie!” Stacey called out, voice unstable and legs threatening to give out from underneath her as she sprinted towards him. Somewhere in the corner of her mind that was swarming with fears of what would happen to him, she began to pray to whoever there was that could hear her and help him.
Please let him be okay. Please. Please. Please.
“Ed, babe, oh my God,” Stacey whispered, and fell to her knees before his broken down form. His torso was torn to shreds, his Hellfire shirt almost completely soaked with blood from his wounds. She took hold of him and pulled the upper half of his body into her lap, feeling the red substance begin to seep through her jeans.
The demo bats surrounded the two of them, incapacitated, laying limp on the floor of the upside down-taunting you. Blissfully unaware that they had probably just taken the love of Stacey's life away from her, brutally, with no remorse, as he tried so desperately to be the hero, not the coward he convinced himself he was.
“Ed, are you with me? Can you hear me?” Stacey asked him softly, not wanting to scare him. She brushed his hair from his face and tried to meet his eyes, his gaze unfocused and teary.
Eddie’s voice came out shaky and weak from his blood coated mouth, his cheeks smeared with it. “I did it,” he choked out. “I didn’t run anymore,”
There was no denying he felt some semblance of pride at what he did, and because of that, Stacey couldn’t help but let out a small laugh, though the tension in the noise was palpable. “Yeah, yeah baby, you’re so brave,” she told him.
The proud smile he bore was distorted by a look of pain as he shifted slightly. “It’s bad, isn’t it?” he groaned, in clear discomfort.
One of her hands applied pressure to one of the many wounds that marred his torso as he shivered in her arms. “No, no babe, it’s fine, you're gonna be okay,” she stumbled out, trying to sound as confident in her words as possible, when everything about the situation told her that her words were not the truth. “We just….we just need to get to you to a hospital and everything’s gonna be okay, Ed, don’t worry,”
“No. I think this was it, baby,” he met his girlfriend’s gaze, his jaw trembling as more blood dribbled out the sides of his mouth as he took in barely there, labored breaths. “This was finally my year,”
Stacey choked out helpless cries, caressing his face, and shaking her head. This couldn’t be his year, this couldn’t be the way it ended. He was supposed to finally graduate and the two of them were supposed to get the hell out of Hawkins together, away from all the bullshit media propaganda and pearl clutching PTA moms. They were going to get out of there and be happy together. That was how it was supposed to fucking be, goddammit.
“No,” Stacey gritted.“This isn’t over yet, you’re gonna be okay, Ed,” she nodded stiffly, lips trembling as salty tears flowed into the seam. “We’re just gonna wait a little until the others get here, then we’re gonna carry you out of this hellhole and take you to a hospital, and the doctors there are going to fix you, baby, they’re going to make the bleeding go away, and stitch you up and give you some meds, and then you’re gonna be okay, you’re gonna be okay, you’re gonna be okay,” she chanted weakly as her cheeks became soaked with tears. She wanted to speak it into existence, even as reality clawed and fought its way to the front of her mind.
“Baby,” he cooed. He placed a cold hand on hers, the one that still pressed against one of his wounds, gripping it weakly. Always the one who wanted to comfort her, even if he needed it way more in this situation. “I’ve fulfilled my duty as Eddie the Banished, I didn’t run, and I saved the town,” he told her.
“That town doesn’t deserve your sacrifice, Eddie,” Stacey argued pathetically.
“I saved you,” he stressed, making it known that this act was with only one person at the forefront as motivation, the rest of the town behind her. “And you’re worth it, Stacey. You’re so. Fucking. Worth it,” he said to her, lacing their fingers together, pulling the back of her hand up to his lips, and pressing a bloodied kiss to the cold, dirty skin.
“I love you so much,” he said as firmly as his shutting down body would let him.
It hurt her to not say those words back, but she knew why he said them, and she didn’t want to accept this as the end.
“Ed, don't you dare say goodbye,” she told him through her tears, trying to sound strong and sure, but it wasn’t possible. “This isn’t the end for you, this isn’t the end for us,” she said.
“Stacey, baby, I want you to listen to me,” Eddie began, the wobble in his voice impossible to ignore now as he tried to raise his head as much as he could, wanting her to truly take in his next words. “When you go back, I want you to go home and pack all of your shit, as much as you can carry, and I want you to get on the next bus out, because you’re gonna leave that shithole Hawkins. You’re gonna tell that place to kiss your ass and you’re gonna run like hell out of there without so much as a single glance back,”
Stacey shook her head, understanding where this was headed, not wanting to hear a word more. “Ed, no-”
“You’re gonna find some place for the both of us, somewhere where the people aren’t shallow minded assholes, where we can be whoever the fuck we want to be with each other, and I want you to live your life everyday as you would have if I was there,’
“Eddie, I can’t-”
“Yes, you can. I don’t want you to cave back into yourself, baby. You’re the most beautiful, brilliant, incredible human being I’ve ever met and everyone deserves to know you and appreciate you as you are. Do you hear me?”His proclamation to her ended with that simple question, and he left no room for argument.
She absorbed all his words, every letter, every syllable, struggling to accept that the life they wanted to have together, would have to continue on without him. The life she wanted with him would totally and completely absolve her from the one she had growing up. Could she do it? Could she move on?
Those answers remained to be determined, but the one thing she absolutely couldn’t do was argue with him anymore. She just didn’t have it in her to deny him his dying wish, or keep fighting what he had already accepted.
Closing her eyes, more droplets fell, mixing with his blood. She felt herself nodding before she could even consider another response in her mind. “Yeah,” she whispered in a watered down voice. “Yeah, baby, I hear you,” she opened her eyes and met his own once more.
“Good,” he replied. “Good,” his voice was noticeably more floaty that time.
They fell silent. They just looked into one another’s eyes, exchanging so many words and feelings that would completely consume what little time they had left together. His hand was still laced with hers, pressed against his chest, where she could feel his weakening heart beat.
“I love you so much,” he repeated his words from earlier, breaking the hauntingly peaceful quiet. It was barely above a whisper practically mouthed, but she heard him, loud and clear. And as soon as those words came out, he looked ahead blankly, his eyes slowly beginning to lose the light in them Stacey loved so much.
“Eddie, no, please,” she gritted, tears dripping from her eyes uncontrollably. “Stay with me, baby, please,” she pleaded urgently, brushing more of his damp hair out of the way and patting his cheek lightly, trying to get him to remain alert….alive. She just wanted one more moment with him. Just one.
But then, she felt it.
His body stilled.
His grip on her hand went limp.
His eyes lost any life left in them.
“Eddie,” she whimpered, hand remaining on his cheek. Her body shook uncontrollably as she let the tears fall freely onto him, her agony and pain taking over as she held his lifeless form close to hers. She repeated his name through her cries, trying to wake him, trying to make this nightmare end. She leaned down and pressed her forehead to his, wanting to feel him as close as possible, for what was the very last time.
“I love you, too,” Stacey whispered, her lips touching the skin between his eyebrows. If those words meant anything anymore, she wanted it to be at this moment.
Because she truthfully didn’t know when-or if- she would ever say them again.
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“CUT!”
It was like a switch went off in you, as reality made its presence known once more.
The scene was done, the Duffers yelled cut, it was over.
However, the moment fully sank in when Joe rose up and took your hands in his, pulling you upright and bringing you into a warm embrace. You didn’t care about the fake blood that would get all over your front or the fact that his back was soggy and caked with damp dirt, you threw your arms around him and held on tightly, rivaling the hold he had on you.
“You did so incredible, babes, I’m so proud of you,” he whispered in your ear, his long fingers running up and down your sides lightly, almost tickling, but you reveled in it and his touch. You closed your eyes blissfully as you came down from your high, feeling the tears drying on your face, thankful makeup used waterproof eye makeup.
“Yeah, you too,” you said back for his ears only, as the Duffers and the rest of the crew approached you both. You let each other go, though his arm remained on the small of your back, as everyone began delivering their praise. The voices became so jumbled you could barely register who said what. So, you just smiled and nodded and gave your gratitude along with Joe, whose hand rubbed soothing circles against your waist.
Now, to face reality.
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Part 2 where Joe and reader discuss why she was so nervous coming Saturday 🥰 it was originally part of this fic, but it was getting way too damn long, so a split was needed lol. Stay tuned Joe girlies 😘
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Wife, girlfriend or Whatever: Chapter 3
-- I'm alive lol! I would like to apologise for how long this took me, the rest should be faster but omg life just kicked my butt these past few days (weeks really :/) Hopefully I should be back on track tho!!!
Also a huge thanks to the wonderful @lgg5989 who beta read this :D you're the best bestie!!!
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You hurriedly brushed your teeth before changing yet again, removing the dress and opting for a thick pair of tights, a nice long skirt and thermal, albeit flattering black top. Being a Texas native, you had never fared well in the cold, and even like that you were scared you’d end up with the flu. Still, time was running out and if you didn’t set out soon, you’d be late in the lobby. Before stepping out of your room, you quickly applied the bare minimum of makeup you usually allowed yourself to walk out of the house with and made sure your lipstick wouldn’t budge by blotting it against a tissue.
You rushed out to meet him, but as usual, you found you were the first one there. Beau, despite his reputation as a stickler for the rules, rarely made it anywhere on time if you weren’t there to annoy him into hurrying up. Sometimes herding Beau Simpson to and from places on a tight schedule felt more like performing a series of very impressive minor miracles. As organised as he was – and you were sure he must be, because the base ran fine before you started working there – he was more than comfortable relaxing when he knew you were handling things. Not that you minded, you really quite enjoyed it, but you sometimes worried that the stress of it all would encourage a few early white hairs. Although, if you had told Cyclone, he would have remedied that in the blink of an eye, so perhaps the fault was on you.
The lobby was warm, heated up by a roaring fire near the reception desk. You moved closer to it, turning around to warm yourself up evenly, but every time you faced the large glass doors and saw the white coat of snow New York was sporting, the heat lost a little of its appeal. You had seen snow before but only in movies and commercials and the need to know if it was just like you had imagined was too great to ignore.
You stepped outside into Time Square, letting the cold air hit your face and redden your cheeks before squatting down next to the two small christmas trees decorating the left side of the hotel’s main entrance. You removed your glove and put it in your pocket before gently lowering your hand into the snow under the amused gaze of one of the Edison’s uniformed doormen.
“First time?” Beau asked, appearing behind you, scaring you enough that you lost your balance. You fell hand first in the snow. The footman lunged forward to help you up, but Beau was faster. He slipped one hand under your arm and lifted you up.
“It feels funny,” you said, “I thought it would feel softer. This is so gritty.”
You shook your hand free of whatever clumps of snow had clung to it but some debris remained, to dry it and make him pay, you wiped your hand on his beautiful black velvet trench coat.
“It’s mostly ice, I think. Plenty of people have walked through it, it’s probably more like city slushie by now,” he replied, amused at your small act of revenge, “We’ll find you some nice snow.”
“It’s okay,” you smiled, the hand you had fallen on now cold and pale, “Do snowball fights hurt? They look so fun,” you asked, putting your glove back on.
“Depends, snow is pretty nice but ice is so painful. My family has a snowball fight on Christmas day every year. The first one to go inside would lose and be on chores duty for a week. My brother, because he’s a cheater, used to pack his snowballs with ice and throw them straight at me, I used to get bruises the size of my hands all over my legs and arms,” he laughed.
“Must be nice,” you smiled.
“It is. We tone it down nowadays, my siblings have young children so we have to be careful,” he said, returning your smile.
“Such a good uncle,” you patted his arm, “You seeing them for Christmas?”
“Yes, can’t wait to get another round of ‘oh Beau, still single?’” he groaned, “Can’t get you to be my fake wife for that one too, I suppose?”
“Depends,” you replied, “What’s on the menu?”
He chuckled, “A traditional dinner, board games, roasting smores by the fire and outrageous amounts of Christmas music,” he said.
“And a snowball fight?” you questioned.
“Obviously,” he said, his voice deep and convincing.
“Christmas mass?” you questioned again.
“No,” he replied, “We’re not – you know… Are you?”
“Sure,” you replied, not meeting his eye, suddenly scared it would change things. Your faith was private to you and you’d never advertised it, revealing it amounted to telling him one of your most precious secrets. It was only normal for you to be nervous.
“We were just never raised that way,” he said, wincing at the awkwardness of the situation.
“That’s fine,” you replied, “We were.”
He let out a surprised, “Oh,” under his breath.
“One of the only two things my mother and I agree on,” you volunteered, “Ain’t nothing in the whole wide world like a Southern girl, and fighting’s best done on your knees.”
You looked at Beau, who had suddenly turned bright red, “Oh you pig!” you exclaimed, hitting his shoulder with the back of your hand.
Someone cackled behind him and you looked around to find the doorman and a valet. The valet, a young man of about your age, at least had the decency to turn around and shove his fist in his mouth to keep himself from laughing, but the doorman was turning purple, silently screaming in laughter.
“I hope you’re laughing at him,” you told them, they suddenly turned very serious.
“Yes ma’am,” the valet said.
“Yes ma’am,” the door man agreed, hiccuping as he tried to stop one last bubble of laughter from coming up to the surface.
“I’m sorry,” Beau said, having composed himself, “I’m sorry,” he repeated.
“You’re late,” you stated, turning your attention to the clock. Even without your snowy intercession, he was, as usual, running behind schedule.
“Fashionably late,” he replied with a lazy smile and a wink.
“It’s rude to make a lady wait,” you said.
“Oh there’s a lady? Where is she?” he asked, looking around and over you, pretending to look for someone else.
You gasped in outrage, “Piss off!”
“I’m sorry,” He laughed, “You scared of being cold there, Michelin Man?”
“Rightly so, some asshole made me fall in the snow,” you replied with a small smile
“I’m not an asshole, I’m your husband, you adore me. I’m the light of your life, your one and only love --”
“I want a divorce,” you deadpanned.
“Sorry, sweetheart, you need grounds for divorce in NYC,” Beau shot back as the two of you began to walk down the street.
“I have grounds, my husband bullying me is grounds,” you said firmly.
“Nope, not admissible,” he replied, his voice light as he smiled at you with his eyes.
“Yes it is, I believe it falls under cruel and inhumane treatment,” you replied, pointing an accusing finger at him.
“Nuh uh,” he said, wrapping his hand over your finger, “You need five years of specific acts of cruelty for that to be admissible. The cruelty must rise to the level that the Plaintiff is physically or mentally in danger and it is unsafe or improper for the Plaintiff to continue living with the Defendant. I believe that’s the rule,” he added with a laugh.
“Oh, love it when you talk legal to me, Admiral,” you said, trying to make your voice as sultry as possible. He looked at you with a raised eyebrow, “How do you even know that stuff anyway?”
“I watch a lot of court tv and true crime,” he shrugged.
“Court tv?” you repeated, astounded, “Can you act any more elderly?”
“It’s interesting!” he laughed.
“It’s boring, nothing ever happens,” you retorted before pausing and taking in his appearance. He wore a blue button up shirt, and presumably the same pair of jeans he had worn the evening before, together with the cream knit cardigan and carefully styled hair, he hardly looked like the type to enjoy hearing about gruesome murders, “Wouldn’t have pegged you as a true crime guy…”
“No?” he asked, “What would you have pegged me as then?”
“Hmm,” you thought for a second, “You seem like a documentary kind of guy.”
“True crime is kind of a documentary, right? And it’s not my fault, my last girlfriend got me into it,” he replied.
“Right,” you said, “Ex-girlfriend?”
“Yes, I have some of those,” he replied, looking amused.
“When was your last ex-girlfriend?” you asked, thinking back at your entire working relationship. You had always known him as a single man, or rather, he had never mentioned a woman and you had been quite happy to assume he didn’t have anyone to come home to as it made you feel slightly less guilty about the thoughts you were having about him.
“Aren’t you getting curious?” he laughed, “I don’t know, about three years or so?”
“Huh.” you said. You had been right in your assumption, you’d started working as his secretary a year and a half ago, but the confirmation was slightly overshadowed by the fact that a flutter of butterflies had suddenly taken flight in your tummy at the thought that Beau might be single. As if that meant you had a chance, your brain scoffed.
“Anyone since?” you asked.
“No,” he replied with an amused smile.
“Really? Not… a crush? No one you like?” you prompted, your stomach suddenly full of butterflies.
“Oh God, this is like talking to my mother,” he rolled his eyes before smirking, “Just you,” he said, “My darling wife.”
“You’re insufferable,” you told him, trying to mask yet another pang of hurt as the butterflies died and gave birth to confusion.
“True, but you’ll have to put up with me if you want the best cup of coffee of your life,” he said.
The promise of coffee was enough to get you moving and after a short cab ride, you found yourself standing in front of a charming little coffee shop hidden between two ivy covered houses. You walked in behind Beau, feeling slightly self conscious about the way the high heels of your boots clicked on the tiles, drawing attention to you as you descended the few steps towards the main floor. You stopped short when people turned to look at you, suddenly very aware of how much you stuck out like a sore thumb.
Beau turned to you, sticking out his hand for you to grab. You placed your hand in his and came down the remainder of the steps, shooting him a grateful smile. He nodded towards a booth at the end of the room, hidden away from stares and loud conversation and you made your way there while he ordered. He came back a minute later with two chocolate covered waffles and two large coffees.
“Anything you want to see specifically?” he asked after sitting down next to you on the plush bench.
“Nothing really, there’s too much to squeeze into a day…” you said, “I kind of want to go window shopping…”
He hesitated for a second, “Okay,” he said, “But we’re going for a walk in Central Park… And we’re doing the catacombs.”
“Fine, but you’re winning me something at the holiday market on Union Square,” you shot back.
“What my wife wants, she gets,” he winked.
“Uh uh,” you shook your head, “You haven’t proposed yet. I overheard the cabbie, I know what you’re planning,” you added, playfully squinting at him.
“Drink your coffee,” he ordered you with a grin. You made a big show of huffing and pouting before grabbing your mug in both hands and taking a sip. Beau hadn’t been joking, this was quite possibly the best coffee you had ever had and the gingerbread syrup they had drizzled in tasted homemade.
“Holy shit,” you breathed.
“Told you,” he smiled, taking a sip of his own drink, “I used to come here every Saturday when I lived here. Didn’t live too far away actually,” he said, leaning back against the back of his chair. You could see the mental map he was consulting, calculating the time and amount of miles that separated him from his old home, “It was so bad. The showers kept breaking, our windows were shot twice in our first year of living there, and there was a really funky smell coming through the vents whenever we turned the aircon on…” he laughed.
“I thought you were from Missouri,” you said.
“Hmm,” he agreed, “I was deployed here for a few years before they moved me to California though.”
“Do you miss it?” you asked.
You knew how much Cyclone secretly hated California. In the summer, he spent half of his days complaining about the heat and humidity and when winter came around, he kept up the lamenting, raging against Cali’s lack of white Christmasses and fake Christmas trees.
“No,” he replied with a smile, “There are worse places to be deployed to, though. Anchorage Alaska is pretty bad.”
“Hey! Anchorage is nice!” you protested.
“Sure, if you like mining towns and mind numbing boredom,” he said, “Please tell me you’re not from Alaska,” he added, looking at you with a frown on his face.
“My dad is, he moved to Texas and met my mom there in the eighties. I’ve been a few times in the summer, it’s not too bad,” you shrugged, “Chugach State Park is amazing. The trails are really nice and the views are spectacular. When we went to visit, we did a glacier walk, stayed the night in a camp and by complete luck we managed to catch the northern lights -- I don’t think I’ve ever seen anything more beautiful in my life -- I also think we managed to go dogsledding and we definitely went on one of those flightseeing tours, which was so cool. It would probably be quite boring for you though,” you said.
“Why would it be boring?” he asked, looking at you with a strange look in your eyes. If you had been any less oblivious, you would have seen it was love.
“You fly F-15s,” you replied, thinking the tiny aircraft you had flown in wouldn’t even compare to the speed and exploits his usual planes managed to pull off.
“Flew. I haven’t been in a plane for years now, unless you count the minuscule amount of flying I have to do in order to keep my licence,” he sighed, looking a little sad.
“I’m sorry,” you said.
“It’s not your fault. It’s part of the job, I knew that when I accepted the promotion to Admiral,” he said, sounding sad, “I miss it sometimes, but seeing what those kids do up in the air sometimes makes me think I’m better off on the ground.”
“I know it doesn’t matter, but I’m happy you don’t fly too often. I don’t have to worry so much about you crashing. I know you’re safe,” you said, looking into the pools of chocolate on your plate to avoid crossing his gaze.
“Careful,” he chuckled, “I might start thinking you care for me,” he added, brushing a strand of hair out of your face and gently tucking it behind your ear. You felt a blush creep up your chest, washing over you like angry waves crashing onto the beach, it seemed to fill your lungs and your breath caught for a second. He removed his hand and picked up his cutlery to tuck into his own waffle, unaware of what such a small touch had accomplished.
“So, what do we start with?” he said, as soon as he had swallowed his last mouthful. You were still chewing on a piece and hurried up when he looked at you with an amused smile, “Come on, we only have a day,” he teased.
“I,” you started, covering your mouth with your hand, “I say we take a walk through Central park first.”
“You’ll be okay to walk on those shoes?” he asked.
“I don’t really have a choice, do I?” you replied, “I guess you’ll just have to carry me when my feet hurt,” you winked.
He chuckled, “Hey, like I said, anything my wife wants, my wife gets.”
“Okay so Central Park then what?” you questioned as the two of you made it out on to the street once more.
“Window shopping, catacombs and Christmas fair? We can end on dinner to talk about the bet?” he offered.
“Sounds good to me, Boo-bear,” you replied.
Beau let out a annoyed laugh, indicating just how much he hated the new nickname, “You’re on, Honeybunch.”
----
Central Park in the snow was truly something to behold. Even though you had never really been fond of cities and their parks -- it all felt a little too much like keeping nature caged like a bird -- you had to admit that under its white blanket, it looked lovely.
You looked at everything, immortalising it all in your mind, from the tiny blades of grass poking out of the snow to the top of the branches of the tallest trees, looking beautiful with the backdrop of New York peaking through, busy as ever with its bustling traffic and rushing people. You stood there for a while, so concentrated that you didn’t notice Cyclone had gone until he was already back, bumping your elbow with his gloved hand, handing you a cardboard cup.
“We’ve just had a coffee,” you said after taking a sip of the warming beverage.
“Don’t pretend you don’t have like, nine espressos a day when I’m not there to stop you,” he scoffed.
You rolled your eyes, unwilling to concede he was right, “Could be worse,” you said, glancing at him, a cup in one hand and a cigarette in the other “I could be addicted to something deadly… Like cigarettes.” you said, like you, you thought.
“Will you stop?” he asked, annoyed.
“I don’t know, Beau, will you?” you retorted.
“No, I won’t,” he bit back, “They’re calming.”
“So’s a stress ball,” you replied.
“Oh, the weather outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!
It doesn't show signs of stopping
And I brought some corn for popping”
“The speakers are new,” he mumbled, searching around to find where the sound came from and finally seeing the box speakers hidden in bald bushes.
“Hmm,” you replied, taking a sip of your drink.
“How’s the coffee?” he asked.
“Not bad,” you replied, “Want me to hold yours while you smoke?” you offered, holding a hand out to take his cup.
He nodded, placing his cup into your open palm. You turned it around in your hand, trying to see what he’d ordered, something had been written on the sleeve, but whoever had been writing down his order possessed the worst penmanship this side of the equator, you were sure, as you were entirely unable to decipher it. Your curiosity couldn’t be reined in, however, so you took a small sip.
Catching you in the act, Beau raised an eyebrow at you.
“Wanted to know what Admiral Simpson liked to drink,” you explained, “Wasn’t expecting vanilla latte,” you added with a teasing smile, “Is that almond milk I taste?” you asked. You had been witness to many a rant about milk substitutes, and although he had calmed down once he figured out you liked soy milk in your coffees, you never would have thought he’d crossed to the ‘dark side’ as he put it.
“You breathe a word of this to anyone…” he threatened, the corners of his lips coming up in a smile.
“I already put it on the base facebook page,” you joked, waving your phone at him, “Admiral Beau Lloyd Simpson likes to drink girly starbucks drinks,” you pretended to read from your dark screen.
Beau squinted playfully at you, “You better not,” he replied, “I’d never hear the end of it.”
“You’re right, I haven’t. HR would be wondering why I’d be having coffee with you in the first place,” you said.
“We’re allowed to get coffee. I get coffee with you all the time,” he said, sounding confused.
“No, you get coffee for me all the time,” you replied, “Which you’re not even supposed to do, by the way. I’m your secretary, it’s part of my job.”
“You’re not my P.A,” he said, his tone bordering argumentative.
“All I’m saying is that there’s a difference. A line we’re not meant to cross, and we’re already toeing it now,” you said, “They’ve already made comments about me coming here with you… I don’t want them to think --”
“To think what?” he asked after a moment of silence, his voice quieter than before.
“That we’re --” you hesitated, “That you’re more than what you are…”
“Which is what?” he asked, “Your friend?”
“My boss,” you replied. Beau froze, stopping in the middle of the path. You followed suit, much to the displeasure of a group of dutch tourists visiting the city for Christmas. They walked around you, throwing annoyed looks at you that you were too distracted to notice.
“Right,” he said, “Make up your mind, would you? One second you’re pissy because you want to be friends and I don’t and now it’s the opposite, you’re giving me whiplash.”
“I’m not making you be my friend,” you laughed, “But I’m not in the habit of hanging around people who aren’t friends, so I’m going back. Call me when you need me for the function, or text me, I don’t care,” you said, turning around and walking back down the path towards the metro station, fully intending on going back to your room and drowning your broken heart in cheap wine while you cried your heart out in front of a silly romcom.
“No, please,” he said, running after you, “Please come back. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that.” he added, grabbing your arm.
“Beau, let go of me,” you said, you body stiff and your face stoney.
“Y/n please,” he begged, “I’m sorry.”
“Fine,” you breathed.
“Why did you ever leave?” you asked, changing the subject, “This place is magical.”
“I got my orders,” he shrugged.
“Hmm, I forgot. When the Navy calls, you answer,” you replied.
“For now, yes,” he said, kicking a snowball with his foot.
“Oh?” you asked.
“I might not, if I had someone else to think about,” he said quietly, his eyes still on the ground.
You gasped, “Oh my Goodness, is eternal bachelor Beau Simpson looking to settle down?” you asked with a smile, slightly surprised by the admission. The butterflies that had died in your stomach in the hotel lobby came back in full force, fluttering about your insides with all the energy of a toddler on a sugar high.
Beau chuckled at your teasing, “Yes, weirdly, I don’t want to die alone,” he replied, half-serious.
“Oh you won’t,” you said.
“Not what my tinder says,” he laughed uncomfortably, “I think I got like, seven matches in the past three months? Turns out older guys aren’t prime real estate,” he added, a certain sadness around his eyes that you couldn’t quite place.
“Okay, first off, you’re a person not a cottage,” you retorted, eliciting a laugh from your companion, “Second off, any girl would be lucky to have you,” you said, “You’re nice, you’re funny, you’re smart, you have a good career --,” you added, counting his qualities on your fingers.
“Seriously,” he chuckled, “Stop it or I will think you care for me.”
“Would that be so bad?” you asked, your voice so low and barely audible that when a group of children ran past you, laughing as their friends threw snowballs, your words were swallowed by the noise.
“What was that?” he asked.
“Nothing,” you lied, remembering his comment about whiplash. Quit toeing the line, you thought to yourself.
“When we finally kiss goodnight
How I'll hate to go out in the storm
But if you really hold me tight
All the way home I'll be warm
The fire is slowly dying
And my dear, we're still goodbying”
“So HR spoke to you?” he asked.
“No, but I don’t want to give them a reason to,” you replied, “Or give them a reason to withhold your promotion.”
“They wouldn’t,” he said with a scoff.
“With all the fraternisation rules? You bet they would, and there would be an investigation and I can’t have that marring my record. I don’t want my next job asking questions and possibly going back on their decision to hire me,” you said firmly, a fire in your words.
Beau let out a sigh, “Where are you going? I don’t think I ever asked you.”
“Advertising firm in Santa Barbara,” you replied quickly.
“Santa -- that’s like a three hour ride,” he said.
“It is, why? You thinking of visiting?” you teased.
“If you’ll have me,” he said, looking at the floor.
“Of course I would, you’ll tell me all about your new secretary,” you smiled.
“Hmm, about how horribly incompetent she is,” he grumbled.
“Oh hush,” you said, gently swatting his arm, “She’ll be fine. Don’t jinx yourself by saying these things…”
“We still haven’t found one, and you won’t be there to train her. I’m not holding out much hope,” he grumbled.
“Oh, is that why you’re so pissy? You’re cross I won’t be there to train her?” you said, teasingly.
“No --” he started, only for you to interrupt him.
“Look, there’s nothing to it. Half of my day is spent nagging you to look at your diary, and the other half is just nagging you about other things,” you said, poking him in the side with your finger, “Easy peasy.”
Beau hummed, taking a sip of his vanilla latte.
“Promise me you’ll check your diary for her,” you asked, stopping him with an arm in front of his waist and turning him around to face you.
“Could be a ‘him’,” he replied..
“Beau,” you said, “Promise me.”
“Have you ever been ice skating?” he asked with a grin, evading your questions.
“Beau, I’m serious,” you said, trying not to laugh.
“So am I,” He grinned, pointing in the distance at the Lake, where hundreds of people whizzed around on ice skates, making tiny trails in the ice.
“No,” you said, “Oh, no. That’s not happening.”
“It’ll be fun!” he exclaimed, trying to grab your hand. You swiped it away right in time, holding it behind your back.
“No, I’m not dying of hypothermia after skating on a stupid lake and falling through the ice miles away from home!” you exclaimed.
Beau laughed, “You’re not going to die, the ice is thick, it’s safe!”
“You don’t know that,” you replied, feeling your eyes widen at the sight of everyone on the ice.
“Look, I’m way heavier than you are, if anything breaks, I’ll be the one going down. All you have to do then is run,” he laughed, “You won’t mind, you’re already such a chicken.”
“Don’t call me chicken!” you exclaimed, your previous fear long forgotten.
“Then come ice skating, Mcfly,” he said, smiling at you, “Tell you what, you come ice skating with me and I’ll promise to check my diary.”
“Ugh,” you said, pretending to sound annoyed, “Fine.”
You followed him down the path towards the lake, trying to calm your nerves by watching the scenery. Too soon for your liking, you made it to the crowd. After getting ice skates, you gingerly walked onto the ice, Beau sliding right behind you.
“Your teacher has arrived,” he grinned.
"The fire is slowly dying
And my dear we're still goodbying
Long as you love me so
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!"
Frankie sang. Cyclone stretched his hands out in front of him for you to take. Secured by his strong grip, you dared to take a step forward.
“See, it’s safe,” he smiled.
You skated forward, doing as he told you, getting a little more confident by the second. After a few moments, he let go of you, moving backwards so you would skate towards him like a child taking their first steps.
“You’re a natural,” he laughed, despite the fact that he had been trying to teach you for over forty-five minutes and that you had only moved about three metres away from the bank. His eyes were trained on you, ready to catch you in case you slipped, and before you could warn him someone skated straight into the back of him, pushing him forwards. He tried to catch himself but the more he tried to, the more he slipped, making him look a little like Wile-e Coyote running in the air seconds before falling off a cliff. Eventually, gravity won and Beau fell straight into your arms.
“If you wanted to hug me, you could have just asked,” you teased, both of you laughing loudly. You helped him up, steadying him with one hand firmly against his chest.
“I’m so sorry,” the bumper said, “Are you hurt?” the girl asked Beau. She wasn’t much younger than you, college aged probably, but her hat and scarf, so large and warm, made her cheeks red, giving her a pleasant baby face.
“Only his pride,” you replied for him.
“Good,” she grinned, “He seemed like he needed humbling,” she winked at you before turning on her heels and skating away.
Beau opened his mouth to say something but as soon as Let it Snow finished, another song crackled through the speakers.
“New York on Sunday
Big City taking a nap
Slow down, it's Sunday
Life's a ball, let it fall in your lap
If you've got troubles
Just take them out for a walk
They'll burst like bubbles
In the fun of a Sunday In New York"
"Now--" you said, pausing.
"That's not--" he started.
"Yeah, that's Bobby Darin," you chuckled.
"Must be a mistake..." he mumbled. You had heard so much Frankie that the change of voice felt jarring.
"I mean it's a good song," you said, looking at him confused, "It's just... not Frankie…"
"Aww look at you," he smiled, "Frankie... Y/n, do you have a crush?" He teased
"Stop it," you laughed
"Frankie and Y/n, sitting in a tree, k-i-s-s-i-n--" he sang, the end of it lost in your glove as you brought your hand to cover his mouth.
"Just teach me how to ice skate," you laughed
"You can spend time without spending a dime
Watching people watch people pass
Later you pause, and in one of those stores
There's that face next to yours in the glass
Two hearts stop beating
You're both too breathless to speak
Love smiles her greeting
Then the dream that has seen you through the week
Comes true on Sunday in New York
Comes true on Sunday in New York"
“Speaking of stores, how about we go window shopping,” he offered, “I think I’ve done enough skating for today,” he added, skating back towards the bank and his shoes. You followed right behind, finding your boots amongst a pile of trainers, covered in brown slush.
“Was your pride that bruised?” you teased, trying to wipe the grime off.
“No,” he laughed, “it’s getting close to lunchtime, and I’m starving. We could go to that Christmas fair, if you want, it’s really not that far away,” he offered. You nodded, feeling less like bambi now that you were back in your own shoes, despite the heel and height difference.
“Sure,” you said, “I’d kill for a --”
“Coffee?” he finished for you.
“No,” you lied, earning you one of Beau’s brightest smiles.
“You’re such a liar,” he replied, shaking his head in mock exasperation.
“Fine! I need a coffee,” you admitted, “I’m getting the withdrawal shivers.”
“Junkie,” he teased. You stuck your tongue out at him and he reciprocated, “Come on, sweetheart, let’s get you your drink before you pass out. At this point I’m sure it’s the only thing keeping your heart beating.”
“You’re pretty good at keeping my heart beating too,” you said, “No that’s not what I meant,” you quickly added as soon as your words sank in.
“Nothing wrong with being madly in love with your husband, my dear,” he replied, a sly smile on his face.
“Shut up,” you replied, “And you’re not even my fiancé, you haven’t proposed yet,” you shot back, pointing an accusing finger at him, “I need you to put a ring around this finger before you call yourself anything other than my boss,” you said.
Beau chuckled, making your heart skip a beat, “You’re high maintenance, you know that?”
“And proud,” you grinned, “I don’t do wife stuff for secretary prices,” Beau looked at you, returning your smile, laughing a little. You let your eyes wander, a rare treat you never usually granted yourself for fear of betraying your distinctly unprofessional thoughts about him.
He looked good. He looked relaxed. He looked nothing like his permanently stressed, high-strung California self. His hair had started off as neat and gelled, but the New York breeze had tousled it, making it look adorably dishevelled. Together with his cold-induced rosy cheeks and easy smile, it was hard to deny that New York suited him.
“What are you thinking about?” he asked, his eyes searching yours.
“Nothing,” you lied, “What are you thinking of getting?” you asked, spotting the USS Maine monument in the distance and its seasonal market, already bustling with people despite the fact that it had only opened half an hour ago.
It smelled fantastic. The mix of mulled wine, baked goods, and savoury dishes floating over to you suddenly made your stomach growl, you sped up a little walking past the first block of stalls and towards the B block where most of the food kiosks stood. Beau bee-lined for a stall, getting himself a loaded portion of chilli but you hesitated. Despite what your stomach had loudly proclaimed, you weren’t actually all that hungry. Still, it was lunchtime and scared you’d faint, you bought yourself some oranges and a coffee from the nearest beverage stall.
You sipped on your drink, immediately feeling the rush of caffeine surge through your body. Your hairs stood on end, and the beginnings of a headache you had been feeling for the past hour suddenly disappeared. Huh, you thought, putting your oranges in your coat pocket, maybe I do need to cool it on the coffee.
“I found a bench,” Beau said, coming up beside you.
“Go you! Shall we cross that off your bingo card?” you replied, sarcastically.
“Meanie,” he said, “I’m not eating standing up.”
“Okay,” you replied, expecting him to leave you alone in favour of his bench, but the hand that wasn’t holding his chilli came up to tug at your sleeve.
“Come sit with me,” he said
“Is that an order, Admiral?” you questioned, raising an eyebrow at him teasingly.
“You’d like that wouldn’t you,” he asked, winking at you.
“In your dreams,” you said, laughing, “You promised you would win me something,” you pointed at a stall towards the back. Little metal cowboys made their way around the scene on a track, ducking behind and in front of wooden mountains, evading players with ease as their owner looked on, occasionally letting out a “Next time maybe,” or a “Almost got him,” whenever they missed a shot.
“A sharpshooting game?” he asked, sounding unimpressed.
You let out an airy laugh, “Scared you’ll miss, Boo-bear?”
He stood up, “What do you want?” Cyclone asked.
“I want that big sailor bear,” you answered, pointing towards a huge stuffed bear, wearing a little sailor’s cap and collar.
“Okay,” he answered, walking off in that direction with you hot on his heels, “You know I have a marksmanship medal, right?”
“Prove it to me,” you said, holding back the wink you wanted to send him.
Beau gave the man five dollars and picked up the pellet gun.
“Don’t forget, you need five cowboys down for the bottom tier, ten for the middle tier and fifteen for the top tier,” the attendant reminded him, sounding bored.
“How much for the bear?” Beau asked, nodding towards the pedestal.
“All of them need to be knocked down on the first shot, sir,” the attendant said.
Cyclone raised the gun and nodded at the man. He pressed a bright green button by his side and the music started, a familiar song from the soundtrack to The Good, The Bad and The Ugly, as the cowboys slowly came up to speed, circling around the circuit on their tracks. Beau looked down the scope and steadied his footing. You looked on with bated breath as he pulled the trigger, shooting down every little figurine with one single shot.
“I’m impressed,” you said, “It would appear you didn’t get your medal from cereal box tops after all.”
“You better name the bear after me,” he winked, barely hiding his offence at your jab.
You stood up on your tiptoes and kissed his cheek, “I’m teasing, I never doubted you,” you whispered in his ear, wondering if the close proximity had the same effect on him as it had on you, “But you do look adorable all huffy and offended…I need to rile you up more often.”
You lowered yourself back down, accepting the bear from the man and hugging it tight, laying your face against its fluffy head, “I think I might call it Addy. Short for Admiral, because having a bear named after my boss is just a little weird.”
“Addy is still naming it after me, though,” he said with a wink.
“True, but it’s a whole lot more covert than calling it Beau, especially since my family and my friends know who you are,” you replied, cheekily.
“Oh,” he smirked, raising his eyebrows in surprise, “Am I often a subject of conversation?”
“Sure, I tell my sisters aaaaalllll about how much of a pain you are,” you said, purposely bumping into him, “and that you never check your diary.”
“Oh my God, what is it with you and that diary?” he exclaimed, exaggeratingly rolling his eyes to make sure you knew he was trying to annoy you.
“Because,” you poked his side, “I spend hours of my day making sure it’s up to date,” you poked him again, “And you,” he grabbed your hand, spinning you around into his arms, immobilising you in the process, “Never,” you wriggled, “Check,” you wriggled again, “It!”
“Bullshit,” he laughed, “you’re just using it as an excuse to talk to me.”
You blushed. It was a jab, but what had started with genuine annoyance at the fact that he never knew what needed doing during the day had, at some point, become an excuse to visit him in his office. You suddenly felt acutely aware of how Beau’s arms were wrapped around you, squeezing you against him, and how horribly inappropriate all of this was. An embarrassed blush washed over you, feeling ashamed of both your feelings and how pathetic it was for you to resort to finding excuses to talk to him.
“Sir,” someone said, tapping Beau on the shoulder, “A rose for your wife?”
Beau froze, much like he had in the cab. Taking the opportunity to make him pay for accidentally making you embarrassed, you spoke before he could.
“Oh he’s not my husband,” you corrected the salesman in your most innocent voice, erasing all traces of your usually noticeable southern accent to match his midwestern one, “He’s my daddy.”
“I’m so sorry, miss,” the salesman smiled, “You here for college?” he asked. You were grateful, probably for the first time in your life, that you looked a little younger than you were. Out of your office clothes, carefully curated to look mature and competent, you could pass as early instead of mid twenties.
Granted, there wasn’t all that much difference, but men had a tendency to treat you differently based on which one you portrayed, getting the right one to get what you wanted was an art form that you had just started to master.
You tucked your hair behind your ear, smiling sweetly at the salesman, “Sorta, I’m doing a phd,” you replied.
“Well, that’s wonderful,” he said, “Sir, a rose for your little girl, I’m sure there’s nothing in the world that would make her happier. A beautiful rose for your beautiful daughter,” he winked at a dumbfounded Beau.
“Yeah, daddy,” you cooed, “Nothing would make me happier.”
Cyclone took the rose, and paid the guy, before turning to you, “You’re going to pay for this,” he threatened, handing you the rose after gently slapping you over the head with it.
“What? Don’t like it when I call you Daddy?” you asked, pushing your luck.
“Stop it,” he demanded, his voice leaving nothing up to interpretation. Just when you thought you were actually in trouble, Beau smiled.
“You’re no fun,” you said, teasing him now that you knew you hadn’t made him cross, “Thanks for the bear, and the rose.”
“You’re welcome,” he said, “Should I be worried?”
“What are you talking about?” you asked.
“The blatant manipulation,” he simpered, looking shocked you’d even ask.
You chuckled, “No, I’d never manipulate you,” you smiled, holding Addie up in your arms, squeezing him tight.
“You are a menace,” he grinned, “Where did you even learn how to do that?”
“Youngest daughter,” you shrugged, “And it’s the whole ‘gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss’ thing women need these days to get out on top,” you winked.
“Wow,” Beau said, “I’ve never felt older… I understand most of these words individually but put together…”
You laughed, “If you can’t convince them, confuse them,” you replied.
“See, I might find that funny if I even remotely understood the context,” he said, sounding confused.
“I’m not sure it fits, to be honest,” you replied, taking the last sip of your coffee. You threw the cup into a trash can with a pout, “No more coffee, makes me sad.”
He chuckled, “Tell you what sweetheart, you quit caffeine and I quit smoking,”
You turned to him in shock, “You serious?”
“As a heart attack,” he replied, “Which is what you’ll have if you keep drinking coffee like that.”
“Deal,” you said, sticking your hand out for him to shake.
“Deal,” he replied, “You ready for the catacombs? If we leave now, we’ll get there right on time for a tour to start.”
“Did you memorise the times?” you asked, peering over at him.
He nodded, “It starts at the hour.”
“Still creepy,” you said.
“Shut up,” he smiled, “Want the rest of my coffee?” added, handing you the cup.
You took it gratefully, bringing the rim up to your mouth before stopping short when you caught his eye, “You ass!” you exclaimed, swatting him on the shoulder.
“You don’t want it then?” he inquired.
“You’re so mean,” you said, dropping the cup into the next trashcan you passed.
---
“I hate this,” you mumbled, watching the guide take out an old fashioned dungeon key from his pocket. Beau had sworn this wouldn’t be creepy, just something fun that he never got to do when he lived there.
It didn’t seem fun. Even the raving review on the brochure didn’t seem all that enticing to you. Although, you had to admit that half of the creepiness of the catacombs were, at the moment, due to the guide. You had never seen anyone so well suited to the role, but his easy charms, generous winking and colgate-commercial smile had quickly become unnerving in the underground lights when you realised just how much he looked like Anthony Perkins in the 1960s version of the film Psycho.
The guide walked ahead of the group, guiding you all in a massive hallway of concrete with a domed ceiling. Despite being underground, a puddle of water pooled by one of the doors.
“Relax, will you?” Beau chuckled, “Someone probably dropped their water bottle.”
“You don’t know that,” you whispered back, unconsciously scooting closer to him. He swung an arm around your shoulders protectively and leaned closer to whisper in your ear,
“You’re right, we’re trapped in here with zombies, one of them must have gotten up during the night to take a leak,” he whispered, his hot breath fanning across your neck, making you blush. Your heart sped up, although you weren’t sure if it was because of him or because of the sudden flash of fear you felt when he mentioned zombies.
“I can assure you, miss, that there are no zombies here,” the guide said, “Despite what your companion is telling you,” he added, winking at you.
You shot him an uneasy smile as he stared, fixing you with an unblinking look that made your hair stand on end.
“This is more like -- errr -- an apartment building for corpses. A middle class option for people who wanted to have the luxury of a mausoleum without having to pay to build something of their own,” he added, as if that was meant to reassure you in any way.
“Right,” you answered, trying hard not to imagine what that would entail, but the more you tried to erase the picture from your mind, the more it came up, flashing before your eyes every time you blinked. A loud bang resonated in the catacombs, making you and the rest of the group jump. Beau instinctively grabbed your upper arm, dragging you behind him to protect you.
Footsteps approached, loud and echoing and followed by an incredibly unpleasant shriek, getting louder as it got closer. Beau backed away diagonally, practically sandwiching you against a wall, his large frame covering you almost entirely. You could just about see the tour guide, still staring at you. He winked, and smiled.
The noises got closer and closer and closer. It seemed only yards away now, and then, it turned a corner and a small man appeared, dragging a rusty maintenance trolley behind him.
“Alright, Jim? Gave my people quite the freight,”
“Aye, sorry about that,” Jim replied, raising a hand in apology, “Just fixed a leak in maintenance closet three. We’re all good for the concert on Friday.”
“Ah yes! I almost forgot!” The guide exclaimed, “There will be a Christmas concert here on Friday, tickets are five dollars a piece but people who have done the tour get a one dollar discount. If you’re interested, you can find all information about attendants and ticket pre orders on our website.”
“It’s a good one this year,” Jim said.
“It’s a good one every year, Jim,” the guide corrected him, his tone so final it made Jim pause.
“Aye,” Jim replied, “It is a good one every year.”
The rest of the tour went by without a hiccup. The history of it even began to sound interesting, but your enthusiasm never failed to die down a little whenever the guide turned to you. You managed to catch a glimpse of his name tag halfway back up the stairs towards the surface, and if you hadn’t already been so unsettled by his unblinking gaze, which seemed to always be trained on you, you might have laughed at how well it suited him.
“Don’t forget to tip your guide,” Henry Danger said, throwing yet another one of his smiles, his teeth as straight as a tombstone in a cemetery, their whiteness seeming just as fake as the kindness in his voice.
“Well, he gave me the heeby jeebies,” Beau said as he stepped away, guiding you towards the tube station, “Did you see how he was looking at you?”
“I was starting to wonder if he even had eyelids,” you shivered, “You realise I will never be able to sleep tonight, right?”
“Yeah? Scared of zombies?” Beau smirked.
“Scared he’ll be hiding in the darkness of my room,” you replied, nodding behind you where you had left your tour guide.
You walked down the steps to the metro line in silence, not wanting to alarm anyone with the conversation you were having, not that you would have been able to anyway, the noise of rush hour traffic paired up with rush hour metro users drawing out pretty much anything. You swiped your tickets against the machines and somehow managed to squeeze yourselves into a packed carriage.
“I’m sure he’s not that bad in real life,” Beau said, picking your conversation back up where you left it as if nothing had ever disturbed it.
“He did look like a batman character, didn’t he?” you said.
Beau hummed in agreement, “I’m hungry,” he said, “We’re not too far away from the restaurant.”
"Can we go back to the hotel? I'd like to look decent for dinner," you said, "I feel yucky, all that -- whatever that was, has made me feel dirty."
"You're so precious," Beau said, looking down at you with an almost sweetness in his eyes.
"You're right, let's go now so I smell like wet dog,” you said sarcastically, “What wine do you think pairs well with miasma and ancient bone dust fumes?"
"I feel like red would go well with it… maybe a nice Barolo or a New World Cabernet," he mused playfully.
"You're right, something rich and full bodied… I'm thirsty now," you said, clicking your tongue against the top of your mouth.
"Let's go back, I think you're right. I could use a shower," he said, turning right into a side street. You could see the back of the hotel from where you stood. Beau slid his hand behind you, resting on your lower back.
"So precious," you teased him, repeating his words back to him, "Where are we going? I need to know how to dress."
"Just wear whatever, you always dress nice anyway," he replied, looking down at you with soft eyes.
"Is that code for 'I haven't decided where we're going yet'?" You asked.
"No," he smiled, "I've made reservations. I'm just trying to pay you a compliment."
"I'm flattered," you replied, "but I do really need to know."
"I told you," he said, sounding a bit exasperated.
"Please," you begged, "I'm not good with surprises."
"You must be fun at Christmas," he shot back, holding the Edison's main door open for you, its doorman nowhere to be seen.
"My parents bought a safe to keep presents in. I'd always start looking for them to open them beforehand so they had to take drastic measures," you explained, a devious smile on your face.
Beau laughed, "I hope your kids'll be just as bad."
"I was charming as a child, I'll have you know," you said, your head held high in mock prissyness.
Beau let out a laugh, "You still are."
"You're handing out compliments like candy, Beau. If I didn't know better, I'd think you were trying to sleep with me," you winked. Beau looked down at his shoes, a deep red blush covering his cheeks.
To escape the embarassement of your teasing, he pressed the elecator button.
"So easy to embarass," you whispered under your breath, climbing in when the elevator dinged.
"Hmmm," he hummed, "You'll regret it."
"You promised me that at lunch, and yet…" you said, tapping your chin with your fingers.
"Anyway, see you in thirty? Is that enough time?" he asked, looking you over. You exited the lift, followed by Beau, making your way down the corridor to your room.
"I'll hurry," you replied, unlocking your door. You waved him goodbye and locked it behind you, immediately removing your shoes, shedding your clothes, letting them fall to the floor without a second thought.
Opening your case, you rifled through your clothes, trying to find something appropriate for dinner. If it had just been dinner with your boss, you might have just gone for a nice pencil skirt and a shirt. Something that said 'this is a work thing'. But this wasn't just dinner with your boss. It was dinner with Beau, the man you developed a crush on 0.1 seconds after meeting him.
In the end, you settled on a burgundy cocktail dress you thanked yourself for bringing and paired it with a pair of red bottomed heels. After a shower, you quickly curled your hair and brushed it through, letting it fall in graceful, slightly vintage looking waves upon your shoulders.
Then, just as your alarm rang to warn you you needed to meet Beau in ten minutes, you started on your makeup, applying a layer of red lipstick and fixing your winged eyeliner which had, miraculously, not bled in the water and steam of your shower.
Finishing it off with a spray of perfume, you walked out of the door and straight into Beau, who was, for the first time in his thirty year career and almost fifty years of life, on time. He looked stunning, freshly showered and smelling of soap and aftershave, he had finally gotten rid of his stubble -- which you kicked yourself for missing -- and gelled his hair again. He had changed out of his shirt, jeans and cardigan and into a nice navy coloures suit, and an, accidentally, matching shirt to your dress.
"You clean up nice, Simpson," you said, as if nice was the appropriate word to describe how he looked.
"You look wonderful," he returned the compliment, "See, you didn't need me to spoil the surprise for you to dress nice."
"Well, you mentioned a reservation… I figured it wasn't Mcdonalds,"
"So is this standard dress for anything other than mcdonalds?" he asked, "Or are you dressed like this because of me?"
"It's standard dress," you lied, making your way down the corridor towards the lift, hoping to hide the blush on your cheeks.
Beau caught up with you just as the doors closed, he pressed the lobby button on the wall and squeezed behind you as the elevator stopped at every floor on its way down, allowing more people into the tiny cabin until it was completely packed.
"Where to, Admiral?" you inquired quietly.
"It's not far, we'll walk," he said, "Where's your coat?"
You groaned, "I'll be right--"
"No time, we'll be late. Take mine," he said, shaking off his coat, again. You really weren't made for snowy NYC.
"Let me just --" he said, grabbing your hand in his, "Just to make sure you don't fall," he grinned.
"Right," you answered, hoping that the butterflies you were feeling couldn't be heard fluttering in your voice.
Beau crossed a corner into the theatre district, sandwiching you between him and the buildings of NYC to protect you from oncoming traffic. Moments later, he guided you into Le Rivage, a traditional french restaurant that you had seen many pictures of.
While you had appreciated the art deco style of the Edison, you had to admit that the restaurant's architecture and decor was more your cup of tea. The walls of naked bricks, paintings on the wall and overall rustic style made you feel like you had stepped straight into the little hole-in-the-wall bistro you liked to frequent during your studies in Paris.
"Do you have a reservation?" The woman at the door asked, her beautiful red dress showing off how fancy this place truly was.
"Simpson, for two people," Beau replied, shaking off his coat before helping you with yours.
"Agnes, please lead Mr and Mrs Simpson to table 13," she barked at a teen.
Agnes brought you to a small round table near the back. Although the lights were dimmed slightly, the feeling of privacy you felt was counterfeit as its position near the live band meant everyone was bound to look over your way.
You sat down and Agnes disappeared for a second, coming back almost immediately with a pitcher of water and a notepad. Beau ordered wine while you looked at menus and while you had had something to drink since breakfast, you had completely forgotten to have your orange. Alcohol was a terrible idea, especially considering your feelings and who you were eating with, and yet you let him pour you a glass, which you clinked together.
"Cheers," he said.
"Cheers," you replied.
"So, did you win the lottery or what? This is a very nice place," you stated, your gaze travelling over the restaurant.
"I just wanted to say thank you for coming with me," he said, "I really appreciate it."
"Oh, it's okay," you said.
"No, I know how unconventional it was of me to ask you to attend with me and you would have been well within your rights to refuse," he replied. Beau licked his lips and you couldn't help but stare, hoping that your slight perving would be interpreted as attentive listening.
"I'm so thankful that you didn't," he added, "So far it's been fun," he smiled.
"It has," you agreed. You opened your mouth to add something, but Agnes appeared with her notepad to take your order.
By the time your mushroom risotto arrived, you were both three large glasses of wine deep. Food dampened the effects of the alcohol a little, keeping you from teetering over the edge from tipsy to drunk and by the time dessert finally arrived, a crème brulée for you and a chocolate mousse for him, you were feeling pleasantly buzzed, having managed to cut yourself off from wine when the first bottle was finished.
Conversation flowed easily, as it always did with Beau but soon enough you ran out of topics and you directed the conversation towards the bet.
"So, first person to spill the beans loses and pays for all lunches and coffees til I leave," you said.
"We get to be as embarrassing as we want," he said, pausing to take a sip of his wine, "Provided we don't do anything that gets us arrested, fired or court marshalled."
"You're no fun," you grinned, "But it sounds sensible. I'm in," you added, "When does it start?"
"Now?" He asked and you shrugged. Beau stood up. You thought for a second that he was getting up for a smoke break as he had done twice already, but he looked at you with a strange expression. Giving you a mischievous smile, he knelt down on one knee, producing a small black box from his pocket.
"I suppose there's only one thing left to ask you then," he said, his voice low enough that only you could hear it, "Y/n L/n, will you marry me?" He asked, so loud that it cut through the noise in the restaurant. Conversation stopped, the live band put down their instruments and everyone waited with bated breath for your answer.
"I despise you," you whispered, "Yes, I will," you replied, the restaurant erupting in cheers. Acting the part, you stood up and beckoned him up, pulling him into a hug.
"I told you I'd make you pay," he spoke into your ear.
He pulled away, opening the ring box and taking your left hand in his to slip it onto your finger. As soon as it touched your skin, the black band turned pink.
"Huh, apparently that means you're nervous about something," he said, barely holding in a laugh.
"You better pray no one asks to see the ring because I swear I will tell them you proposed with a mood ring," you threatened, and, still acting like the excited fiancé, you stood up on your tiptoes and planted a kiss straight onto his lips.
The second your lips made contact, fireworks went off in your head, your heart skipped a beat and you felt so dizzy and electrified you could barely think straight, which, in truth, might have had more to do with the wine than the kiss, and you hoped the blush that covered your face would be blamed on embarrassment rather than the giddy excitement of having kissed your longtime crush.
You broke apart when a smartly dressed server appeared. Unlike Agnes, he wore slacks and a waistcoat, covering his perfectly ironed button up.
"Compliments of the owner, sir," he said, presenting Beau with a bottle of champagne
"Thank you," Cyclone replied, rousing himself from his stunned silence.
Both of you sat back down and you smiled, pleased to see that the kiss hadn't only had an effect on you.
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