#normal thoughts

[conchiglies]

Stone grows his hair out after shaving Ivo's head

[lilithsterrarium]

i do admittedly get blushy whenever mutuals reblog from me. i like to imagine my mutuals leaning down and audibly going "awwwww!" before taking whatever post i have and reblogging to a REAL person's blog and dbfhfjvivigjgjg um i gotta go jerk off real quick

[psicheanima]

I find myself thinking frequently about something which is not real, so I am not certain what the thought itself consists in. Yet, I know that everyone is involved or scheming behind my back - without me being made privy to their plans - but I am well aware of the animosity. It is painful. I do know.

Could it be a conspiracy? I don’t know. But it hurts me. I am aware of the dislike towards me. I have not mistaken it. It is something that is being contrived and hatched, and which I am not a part of. I believe my enemies are in cahoots to do me harm. I understand them. They hate me.

Perhaps it is nothing but an illusion! I cannot know for certain — I am clueless about any life that has been lived. What do I know? Perhaps I am too cynical and it is only my own imagination that people want to harm me. I see conspiracies at every turn. And perhaps it is not real. I am not certain, I am just being paranoid.

No. It is a sham. It is all fabricated — the entire landscape is nothing but a lie. We should abandon it, we can no longer endure it. It is becoming unbearable. It is such a terrible place here. The surroundings are artificial; it is all make believe. It is time to throw in the towel, as it has become unbearable. It is so horrible here.

Staying here anymore is too much — it is time to escape to outer space right at this moment! It is no longer habitable here! I mean to begin anew on a remote planet where the water-courses are of gold and the air impregnated with sulphurous vapours. The atmosphere burns in my chest like sunburnt flesh - I feel I am roasting on a spit.

A galaxy star meat boy - I'm being raised to please aliens? Is this my life? No - no - this can't be - people detest me — must these aliens have taken me? No - they are so friendly — their faces so affable. I can't believe it -- their smiles! -- I've found a family to embrace me; the universe is no longer empty and my life has value.

We were both sitting on the bed. I was happy. I was still very new to everything. I'd lost all shame. I felt as if I'd discovered the way to be happy in life, and I was certain of the truth of what I'd been told, that I was loved, that I would be happy, that I had only to keep quiet and not talk about what I had been told: that life was beautiful, that we made our own happiness, that it was simple as longas one was loved.

But as I sat there, happy, proud, I became conscious of a slow, persistent, gentle pressure on my left side. Something was being removed from me; I wasn't sure what. I was still quite naive. This thing, whatever it was, they said they loved. At first I did nothing. The extraction continued, and my contentment gradually ebbed with it. The feeling of being emptied, deprived, was not painful - merely an absence of pleasure. And then I started to realise that I did not want to lose it.

A part of me is gone, an absence where only the shadow of sensation remains. However, all is not lost. My cats amuse me, and I can still take pleasure in their comical antics. My mundane life as a market-gardener proceeds thus: I wish to eat a dish that has never been cooked; I want to be clothed with garments cut to my measure; I would like to lie on distant meadowland in high hills. Such songs I would hear that have not been sung before — such joy I want to know; so much life do I crave.

Can it be right that one who is detested longs so intensely? Is there a limit? I ask — perhaps you will tell me – but this is what I feel: I should have the answer. Someone like me, who is unconnected, who's not at all involved, should have an explanation.

That is all it seems to be; the answer is that we’re not involved, and we can return home and sleep. We are a tired person. I suddenly yawned, a long, gaping yawn: the tears trembled in my eyes ready to fall. I felt I had never felt so sleepy in all my life.

I love you! Let’s meet each other as soon as we can! I love you in daylight, by the moonlight and at any time! Thank you for your words. I'm alright, I can manage. I shall sleep, it will help, it will be alright. I am here now and when I wake it will be alright. I shall still be here for a while.

Oh, how long is that, then? To be here? Oh… Well.

In my way, I'm devoted to all of you.

But please don't hate me...it's all just verse.

[ur1ckyb1gbr0]

Thinking bout teasing my lil bro til all he can think abt is cock, then making him hump my boot while he sucks me off<3

[normalcoin]

i would love to explain my thought process about my Hazama genderbend - or mostly why the Lost Saga design made me go "lemme. do this one myself actually"

maybe this is terrible and i'll have to delete this and formally apologize for my horrible takes.

one way to find out - doodles included!

while my opinions on redesigns vary, i think if it's done for fun and with no malicious intent, its probably fine. probably. my opinions on genderbends are as follow - gender shouldn't change their whole personality, the character should be recognizable and the key design elements should stay or be adapted in some way. (says the guy who forgot a chain? on the 'my motif are snakes and chains' character? ok.)

i am not a guy who works on games or does character design professionally. neither am i bashing the studio or intend to disrespect the work of artists who work on this game. this type of character design can exist, as can anything. someone loves it, and i think that's wonderful. i never wish to tear these people down, i honestly think she's cute as a standalone character. not as.. Hazama. my fanon design is not a fix, nor is it a better one. it's honestly just me drawing what i'd imagine her to be, i think there's a point to be made about characters who do actually depend on their gender, like their identity being rooted in toxic masculinity/femininity, genderqueer characters and if their gender plays in how the characters around them view them or what they have to do. though that last one is more of a story thing, rather than a visual thing, but as both storyteller and brushstroker (huh.?) i tend to think about that too

honestly i find the most based genderswap designs to just be like, the same character exactly. like that's what im talking about. but that's not very creatively challenging. but very funny

so why did i feel upset at the Lost Saga design, a game i know nothing about, with a character i am familiar on the surface level?

well. have you ever had a friend who loves a character very much. so much. you see their dumb ass blorbo every day and you do get familiar enough and feel a touch of respect. that's your friend's blorbo. their little touy. and let's assume it's a boy. boytoy if you will

boytoy in action, for those unfamiliar - in official art, with different styles

and one day they tell you, "oh there's a fem design!". and imagine: you love women!!! so this is thrilling news

and then you're met with

this...

huh.?

who. hwo is that. WHOI IS THAT.

i respect a shamelessly sexy design, i can respect sexual fanservice, i think there's always an audience for that and it works and it can be done well. but who is tha.t. and why

she's cute, really. she should have a knife too

and a tangent on characters being sexually appealing, or hypersexualized, you do you, sex sells, etc - i am not the market for it, i don't find this design sexy and i am more interested in the original one, but i am a korean mmorpg player so the design genre of sexy woman it's something that i grew accustomed to. and yet. um. i DO find it weird when only women are sexualized, i find it frustrating, even. i love sexualizing men. that's one of my favorite hobbies and being deprived of that is devastating

now. benefit of doubt: perhaps lost saga has a perfectly logical lore explanation to why she looks like that. where everything makes sense, and it's totally necessary for her character design to be this way. the rolled up sleeves add more aerodynamic to her, actually, making her superior to the male counterpart - and when she kicks people with a high kick and flashes them it actually makes for a stronger combat strategy, as it stuns them for a turn.

but i don't know and will work under the assumption that this is simply a genderswapped design

let's start with what i agree with:

THE HAIR!!! YES!! KEEP IT SHORT!! i like the style they went with, it reads a touch more feminine, but otherwise is short :) and that's awesome. i don't always fancy when masculine characters get long hair in their feminine designs. short hair are perfectly fine and often make so much more sense (though i love long hair on characters, so i am guilty of doing this too. absolutely hypocritical.)

SKIRT AND STOCKINGS! its a very businesswoman look, though i'd go for tights instead (and i did). a girlboss vibe. (ominous noise)

next, things i am neutral on: confused about:

the .. hat? why did they feel the need to change it and add studs? that's, uh, cool. i like his original hat shape more. i'm more or less just confused by this choice

...rolling up the sleeves? okay? i suppose? i don't think that's something he does, ever. i don't think it takes away much of anything

and then, i just kind of dislike every other choice that was made in adapting this character in feminine attire:

the SHOES! they are NOT! striking shoes. do not be cowards. add metal to it. make em hurt. she's wearing high heels - they can be at least metallic or something? i think there was a better way to adapt them in the design, if we are choosing a heel

the skirt and stockings. (ominous noise) again. truly, not bad at all, .. in concept. however, the way it is in this artwork is... a choice? it makes me think of a cheap sexy teacher halloween costume instead. which is fine, but that is not in any way how Hazama presents himself (or how the designers present him to us). he's a police/military captain, basically, and while i wouldn't say the original design evokes that too much either but he does read as someone classy, sleek, shady. she does not.

the cropped ... everything? cropped shirt and vest? again, i just don't understand the choice. Hazama, as a character, doesn't use sexiness as a weapon as far as im aware - he pretends to be normal (couldnt be me) and rather meek. i think his waist has enough of an accent without the shirt being halfway up and my final point - the face. Who is that woman. if i give them the benefit of the doubt; her expression looks soft and not very threatening. but she doesn't look meek, either, with her frowned eyebrows meaning to convey some sort of fierceness. so. So i do not think that this is them having a "mask on" moment; i think this is just a denial of a freaky woman. look at Hazama's expression, face, the shadow and how obviously evil he looks. he is allowed to be so. however, when he is genderswapped. she is not allowed to be a freak. she is forced to be normal. and that is MY job. not hers. LET WOMEN BE WEIRD. LET WOMEN BE EVIL. THAT IS ATTRACTIVE. I PROMISE.

with these points, i think you can already see how my design came to be. it's just hazama with boobs, tights and a pencil skirt. and heels with metal tips. i also gave her some makeup: black lipstick as that is correct (looking at shego and kanaya). green eyeshadow, and green nailpolish. those came around when i was drawing her in black and white, it was a fun pop of color, and i just liked them as design elements - that's something i'd just add to the masculine design if it was mine anyway. i am aware of makeup having a gendered implication in the current society, but i lack the ability to care about that

i still feel guilty for forgetting her chain, though. i love hip chains <3

my image of her was an office siren, basically. the artwork is meant to portray her seductively and dangerously, somewhat menacing but inviting. the snake that makes the apple look so good. like in them bibles.

she's really silly

...

and to everyone who made it here.

i think he looks great

[citrine-elephant]

doesn't this make you wanna grab him by the neck, throw him into a wall, tie him up, force a rag in his mouth, and then shove him in a small and confined space?

[aduckwithears]

Jim's fair isle sweater vest/jumper... especially the bit right by the neckline that looks like an hourglass.

Little things to love about Good Omens S2 (19/?) - Masterpost

Detail:

*Edited edit: I found the knitter! See the reblog!

[venomouslilith]

I watched him skin a mango and now I want to be fucked at knifepoint

[themaclean]

so lucy knows what cooper tastes like (blood included)

[chaotic-history]

ough i need to reread the symposium

[charletsart]

ilkka villi as kim and jessica grabowsky as anna from kullannuput season 2 !!!

[sqrkyfemme]

I have got to get more normal

[t8oo]

ngl i cant stop thinking about Columbo and how much I want to kiss him and how hed smell so bad coz of the cigar but i wouldnt give a damn and i wana run my hand through his wavy hair and hold his hand and giggle and eat eggs with him. hed be so small and sheepish but also radiant

[andrew-nobody]

Reblog if you want to taste my cleaver.

[normalcoin]

making art is so embarrassing. like. here's a piece of my soul i guess. whatever

[ihatedean]

i wanna sleep in eric's eye wrinkles.... right there between the lines.... honk mimimimimi..... and then id be extra warm whenever he smiled... like he's tucking me in.... honk mimimimimi... thank you eric....