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landmineboyfriend · 4 months

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its so fucking annoying that when youre looked down upon by society in any way winning arguments stops being some stupid online thing. you have to do it. you have to overpower them when they're being belittling you about your differences and their so called superiority over you at school at work at daily life everywhere. you Have to be stern and logical and disprove their "arguments" but you can't get too angry or start shaking because god forbid you show weakness. when youre queer or mentally ill or disabled or whatever the fuck existing with others is just a neverending argument you have to win otherwise they'll see you as an easy target and gang up on you. and they'll feel good about it. what if i killed everyone

#normal thoughts in my head today

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puppyeared · 1 year

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learned something about myself lately

#i dont think its even the fact almost all my characters are somewhat beasts in one way or another. i just #really like tails and wish i had one myself #and then my oc designs are a little tame theyre mostly human shaped with animal features. but they always have tails #my eyes have recently been opened to the appeal of long whiplike unicorn tails.. so flowy and curly #something about the tuft at the end being long and swirly just does something for me..#maybe it would make sense to change auggies tail shape so it looks like a meteor. her design is mainly pink with hot pink accent #so it would be cool to use that and orange to make it look like a fire meteor.. maybe itll help complement the blue/green in her design #head full of ocs today so expect a ramble later #if i had a tail i think it would be long with a kink. so it kind of folds over once but not in a curl #when it wags its kind of a swaying motion. i have thought about this a normal amount #yapping

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feelo-fick · 2 months

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um ok cool thanks for letting me know .... why are you telling me this

#yeah so on todays episode of guys who cant communicate their affections normally :#THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN DESCRIBE IT. I WANT TO EXPAND AND I WILL MAYBE. BUT THIS COMIC IS HOW THEY ARE IN MY HEAD #I CANT EXPLAIN IT IN ANY OTHER WAY OTHER THAN SHITPOSTS #for some reason i cant stop making shitposts that i take 100% seriously and put alot of thought into but cant say it in any other #form than a stupid shitpost #im hoping. praying that someone gets this #WHATEVER. YOULL GET IT WHEN I DO THE DAMN THING I WAS MEANT TO BE WORKING ON WHEN I WAS DOING THIS #OH ALSO I EXPERIMENTED WITH SCARS ON LAIOS because i saw someone else do it and i think its cool #chilaios #fucking sure ill put this in the other tags too #chilchuck #laios #thats it #otherwise ill get embarassed #guhhh DO YOU GET IT DO YOU UNDERSTAND MEEE

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invisible-brandy · 10 months

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meow?

please open it and zoom in on his face im obsessed with it personally

#he lives in my head rent free and drinks up all the milk #the milk being any normal thoughts i have #and im sorry but i didnt have it in me today to draw the design of the sweatshirt too #daniel howell #dan and phil #catboy dan #dnp art #phanart #dnp #daniel howell fanart #hdgh.jpg

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krikidilly · 3 months

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Here's the life I've always longed for

#sowwy its a veennnt.. i wanted to draw normal things today but i cant get much of anything so👍 good nuff #dont look into this to much i put thought into it but its also just venting thru douma lmao #douma #kny #demon slayer #not tagging the kochos i think.. i dunnooooooo #my art #itches my head

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averlym · 1 year

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the one who pulls the strings (click for better resolution!)

from adamandi by @melliotwrites,, consider this my pitch to get you all to watch it

#beatrix valeria campbell #adamandi #this image was originally too big to save. but like im so tempted to print out the og as a poster to hide somewhere in my bedroom #anyway!!!! adamandi. im so obsessed. i have particular soft spots for vincent and bea they are my comfort characters i love when they appea #especially together. ''keep your deflections rehearsed''... aaah #shoutout to me being very normal (/sarc) about this in studio and showing it to my friends who were very indulgent with me #and also vastly entertained that i have yet again found another musical to obsess over!! shoutout also to my friend who saw bea and instant #instantly did The Face where its like. disbelieving smile. and then went #'' idk if i love her or if i want to be her''#they're so gender. also on another note the whole asian roots things called out to me with lin!! like #the cutting fruit part in the ambrose entry had me screaming internally. oh my god cut fruit. oh my god ambrose Not Getting It.#anyway vincent's so real for all the biology references. science my beloved (<- i no longer takes bio and thus remember it fondly)#also the way they all only care about specific people-ish. i identify with that selfishness tbh. like it's good all my loved ones are stabl #bc vincent's ''this was all a gift for you''? in a darker universe probably me fr #anyways!!! stunning music and lyrics and bg and plot and costumes and acting!!! i cannot give a more glowing review akjdfhdsjk #so much of this lives rent free in my head. i have snippets of the songs memorised.#also shoutout to the shadows on the official adamandi poster.. the stained glass shadows for quincy and blood for vincent.. insane #now tag ramble about this one! highlights include i have been wanting to paint this for a Week and today i gave myself a Rest Day and got i #like this pose. went insane over it. help. the lighting. the pose. the strings #bea is such. lowkey manipulative girlboss i have so many thoughts.#trying to Not have spoilers here but! i like how the tips of the white strings in this little fanart of mine are a slight bit tinted :33 #also i moved the layout of the eye-boards a bit and added in strings of them hanging away. i realise in the original they are on stands.#but call this artistic liberties!! speaking of. for the textures it's photoshop noise filter + old paper + literally to my delight #one of the google images for. and i quote. ''old newspaper 1930 usa student'' that i then blurred out. and it looked so good!!!#journalist bea so beloved. i think i messed up the gloves a bit though :OO but nothing's perfect.#discovered this show on a 2am tumblr scroll and watched it thrice the next day as i did studio #the core message of. ''word to the wise- there's a whole world outside'' i am grasping so tight this exam season

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rin-hanarin · 8 months

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Sometimes I realize how much self-indulgent dirkjohn I made and it's like. Genuinely impressive to me. I'm impressed by my own art/fic and even analysis posts because damn, I miss my own energy, you mean I was able to just make shit up because I tend to be a little bit bonkers when I'm really passionate about something? For real?

#i did it with other things too but dirkjohn is one thing that keeps coming back when i least expect #they live in my head like freeloaders and never leave #just get quiet until i think about them literally out of nowhere #i was kinda spacing out in a bus the other day because there wasn't much to look at #and BOOM suddenly I intercept a dirkjohn braincell #they were talking about how to break the news about their relationship to the others btw #today I thought about earth c john accidentally conditioning dirk to be more honest #which just made dirk speak his mind and be a little more snarky in conversations he'd normally overthink in one way or another #john enjoys the mutual teasing and banter with this slightly more bitchy dirk who doesn't hold himself back #but other people like dave and jake aren't exactly prepared for his douche side even though they're supposed to be #but dirk was too afraid to disappoint them in any way #so he was actively biting his tongue on many occasions #dirk's most honest thoughts are mixed blessings #...and here's what I mean by 'freeloaders'#they just live their lives in my head #good for them #dirkjohn

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chiropteracupola · 1 year

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this round's my treat!

#em draws stuff #team fortress 2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #this is a story called I Would Like To Be Having A Flavor of Soda They Don't Stock At The Grocery Store #and so instead of having any myself I shall send the fictional characters to the soda fountain of the imagination #another continuation of cliftonsimage I fear. but then again cliftonsimage does continue consuming my thoughts to this day.#[tilts my head to one side and my neckbones make a noise like a bundle of spaghetti snapping] I'm very normal about them #currently experiencing a curse of little time and many ideas and also did not feel like doing inks and colors in my usual way today #so it goes so it goes.

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moonshynecybin · 28 days

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fully forgot i had a rosquez fic for the kinkmeme like 85% written forget what i said last week i’m kind of having nothing but wins

#new job agreed to work around grad school #coworkers at my current job pulled together and bought me a travel backpack that i was obsessed with as a going away present #and i thought someone stole it so i got so into sherlock holmsing the whole situation they had to blow the surprise and give it to me early #which was SO sweet #and my head was normal today so i’m hoping my meds are helping #AND I TEXTED MY FRIENDS 💓 and we’re hanging out monday after a MONTH. feeling better.#callie speaks

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b-blushes · 5 months

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summited TWO mountains today (cared for all my plants and made pasta bake when i did not want to do ANYTHING). my power 👍

#don't feel like myself today!#didn't even want to listen to music while i did my morning stretches and normally that's the thing that gets me to do them! :P #no thoughts head empty kinda day i guess!#almost made it through this one and did a pretty good job so! peace and love on planet thursday and roll on friday!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#what do you call it when a mind is lacking in depth of m thought? is there a word for that?#because all my mind can do is spin in tiny circles. never push any further. no depth of thought #i cant even carry out this line of thought to completion in my head. i have to write it down like this or else it remains stuck in an eddy #its so frustrating. when my thoughts are pressured i spin so fast it feels like my head might pop but the thoughts never go anywhere #bc they just repeat the same god damn things all thr fucking time. they drag me around in circles. then when im feeling low or even like #normal. my head just feels empty and it freaks me out. i have no intersting thoughts to think. theres nothing behind my eyes #possibly its just my brain on 0cd. but how am i suppose to escape the spiral if its in my own head? i guess im just supposed to changr my #reaction to it. recognize what it is and let it go. but i dont like it #i just want to curl up on a warm tile floor. press myself into a quiet corner and not think anything #in an aquarium or a conservatory. specifically the conservatory in Columbus. i love that place #i went there for my birthday when i was like 12 bc i liked it so much. the botanically gardens and the butterflies and the stained glass #i dunno. i just like it there. ugh. im just tired #god. there was a really cool talk today and im always like im not that inattentive lol but then i cannot for the life of me follow a talk or #read a paper all thr way through. my short term working memory is just a tiny little cup. easy to overfill #so i miss mostly everything. its so frustrating #its all frustrating. whatever. back to the psychiatrist tomorrow. probably up thr lamicta1 dosage #bc im past where i was last time i had a reaction to it 💪#i just wish i wanted to draw. drawing just makes me tired and impatient rn #unrelated

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maiaacchiato · 1 year

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thinking thoughts

#mia's ramblings #thinking abt that one time i was so uncomfortable with my friend's pda thing that i left them behind at the koi pond #like i literally just. stood up. started walking away #i still have no idea why it made me uncomfortable and even now just thinking about it makes me sick #for some reason idrk #also thinking about those times where i was so mentally exhausted from everything that i didnt have the energy to stand up so i just #didnt go to school #obviously i told people i was “sick” or “masakit pakiramdam ko” etc which i mean #its a half truth? atleast ???#and thinking about how i just want to avoid Her bc i do Not want to be dealing with their relationship problems at 6am but yk #the moment she starts up conversation i just #put those thoughts at the back of my head and pretend like im not fucking tired of her bullshit #i could be so. mentally drained. to the point that i just avoid everyone by going to coop on my own or going to 7-11 just to Breathe #but the moment someone talks to me like jack or salve or heck even kui my brain just. forces itself to act “normal” and by normal i mean no #-mentally drained yk?#like the moment literally anyone starts talking to me the thoughts of being mentally tired just get pushed back and idrk how to tell people #-that im mentally exhausted without sounding rude so i just #let my brain just bottle it up until im so tired mentally that i literally cannot function #i think its called being overstimulated? yea #which yeah basically this shit happens every. day. until my brain just goes nope youre shutting down no school for today also youre getting #-a fever too #which like??? idk why it happens???#and its not like i dont want to talk to them either #like #obviously i do #but talking to anyone when im like this makes it feel like an obligation #which fucking sucks because i dont like being obligated to do stuff i just want to do it because well #i want to??#and i feel bad for peewee bc usually he'll talk to me when im at my limit so my responses are very short and yea #this is why i always say 'im tired' whenever people ask how im doing

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apathyfairy · 5 days

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i always said that once i stop caring what other people think about me it’s over for you bitches and it’s finally happened i’m literally untouchable

#everyone else my age like oh i’m getting married ! oh i had a baby ! me i’m becoming evil #i decided months ago that i’m done i live in the worst place in the country or on earth even and these asshole people are not getting any #more out of me. i don’t smile at anyone anymore. i don’t make eye contact. i’m done with this place and these rude ass people #so today i was at the gas station and pulled up behind someone and got out and the pump didn’t work so i got back in #and waited for the girl in front of me to be done bc everywhere else had a line anyway #so when she finally leaves the asshole in the jeep behind me is yelling at me through his window and literally about to rear end me #and i’m trying to tell him that one doesn’t work so he’s still yelling at me through the window and i keep mouthing IT DOES NOT WORK #bc he simply is not getting and finally he sticks his piece of shit head out the window and LISTENS to me and i said it DOESNT WORK.#it’s BROKEN.#and i realize he thought i was just waiting to be at the first pump and holding up the line but i don’t fucking care #so then he goes. oh. and he gets out and i said you can try it but it says it’s broken.#monotone bc i’m not trying to be nice #and he’s like oh ok. then i take back everything i said about you in the car LOL #and i said. ok.#and he said nah i wasnt saying anything about you #and i said nothing #then he’s a fuck face so he’s all embarrassed and acting like we’re buddies now #so he’s like huuuh. usually there’s an attendant walking around.. and i say i havent seen anyone. not looking at him #and he goes huuuh usually they put a sign or something out that it’s broken and i said nothing so like #the slimy piece of shit he is he silently gets back in his car and waits and then i leave and i’m like #in this circumstance 100% normally my heart would have been pounding out my chest bc i’m afraid of confrontation and who isnt afraid of #men yelling at them but this time i felt nothing except anger bc why the fuck are you trying to start something with me in the fucking gas #station go to another fucking line if you’re in that big of a rush and also learn how to fucking read when it says pump out of order #before you try to fucking rear end me which go for it btw bc i have dash cams and anyway #i’m so fucking sick of living here and i’ll never get out #but. i’m proud of myself for not being afraid or scared and just dealing with that piece of shit straightforward

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girlspecimen · 14 days

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well goodnight

i hope tomorrow is kinder. i called out of work and i think i might take an uber or walk somewhere. maybe hang out with my mom but admittedly she is 1/2 of the current cause of my tension rn. so maybe i just need to stalk off somewhere alone and stare at strangers. if i take some thc i could talk to them.

i’m going to try not to dwell and just rest deeply

#thoughts #normally i feel so guilty about calling out esp for a mental health day #but my head felt like it was going to splitopen at work today and i had my first panic episode in weeks. so i know i need to just pause #everyone will survive without me the most they will suffer is mild annoyance

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newfeeling77 · 9 months

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im starting to accept the fact that i have a really hard time functioning sober and thats not good, and when i think about that i get scared that it means ill never be able to drink or do drugs again, which probably means that i definitely shouldn’t

#i have therapy today which is good #bc ive been doing nothing but hurting myself every which way for 2 weeks #i just have to actually make myself go bc i havent slept normally all week i feel terrible #i dont know its so embarrassing honestly #but when im sober i cannot relax i cannot be happy #im so overwhelmed by feeling and seeing and hearing every single thing happening around me #and every thought in my head coming at me at once #i just freak out and i cant focus or shut my mind off without getting high or drunk #so im so fucking high strung and cant sleep or eat bc i wont stop thinking #so i have to do something right #i dont know how else to cope with it

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vulpinesaint · 1 month

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guy who is normal about his interests. btw. guy who is really really regular about his interests

#valentine notes #my face #i’ve had this shirt literally forever but it feels so silly wearing it rn cause i haven’t worn it since i started uh. y’know #thinking about nothing but venom for multiple weeks on end #makes me feel like a caricature of myself. not that i don’t feel like that all the time anyways #pros of being cool alt/slightly goth friend. get to be cool goth friend. cons. You Have A Brand Now #like a self-fulfilling prophecy…#thought i was gonna be so normal today nd wore this to go to the zoo with the coworkers #and uh. ended up talking at length about the venom comics anyway. while wearing the venom shirt.#it’s fine my friend is so into spiderman that it’s part of his little camp name. he gets it (something going on in his brain as well)#he brought up the symbiote giving eddie brock cancer which was cool. got to talk about that :)#i lasted SO many hours too we were literally half an hour from going home…#and i said i would be going home and reading comics. and then. well. head in my hands i never change

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