take the edge off. [suna rintarou x f!reader] chapter four.
>>You struggle with your weight and body image, but Suna extensively and thoroughly undoes all the damage done by other guys.
or
You haven't gotten laid in over a year, and your best friend takes it upon himself to fix that for you.<<
series status: [complete]
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a/n: some time apart only serves to solidify their obsession with each other,,,, featuring me falling a little bit in love with miya osamu
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The fall into something more with Suna is easier than you’d thought it be.
The weekend before he leaves is spent exploring his every fantasy, the dam broken on his hesitation to show you what he’s imagined with you. You’re awoken on Saturday morning to his head buried between your thighs, and you spend the day in every state of undress imaginable, his apartment familiar in a way it had never been before. Sunday is spent much the same, his thoughts of that beach trip come to life and the things you’ve always wanted to try made eagerly into reality.
On Sunday night, you sit in his bed, freshly showered and sporting uncountably many hickies. Suna moves around his room packing for his trip, stopping every five minutes to join you in bed for ten. It easily stretches his 30-minute packing chore into a neat 3 hours, the time spent holding you in his lap and telling you how pretty you are while he kisses gentle comfort into the bruises he’d given you.
You fall asleep that night with his head on your chest, a sleepy admission mumbled into your shirt, so quiet that you think you maybe weren’t supposed to hear it.
“ ‘m gonna miss you. ”
–
He’s gone before you wake on Monday, but you find a note in his place, his handwriting slanted and rushed.
‘ Stay. You promised.’
You linger in his bed with that note pressed to your chest until there’s absolutely no way you’ll be on time for work.
He calls while you’re driving, and you feel a tingly excitement burst in your chest when his name flashes on your screen.
“Miss me already?” You say, leaving him on speakerphone in the middle console.
“ We both know the answer to that .”
You grin, your skin warm. “How was your flight?”
“ Got sat next to a mom and her baby. Baby was cute, mom was not. ”
You grimace, knowing that Suna’s external appearance is not a fan favorite among middle-aged mothers. “‘m sorry, Rin.”
“ It happens. ” He hums on the other end, and you hear the telltale sounds of airport announcements and people around him while he figures out where to go. After a moment, he seems to decide, because he comes back to you. “ You heading to work? ”
“Mhm,” You start. “Luckily, this cute guy lent me his car, so I’m living the good life this week.”
“ Oh, yeah? What’s he like? ”
“Oh, he’s really something. Ladies love him, moms hate him.”
“ Is that right? Does he know you’ve got a man? ”
“Something tells me he knows.” Your face is burning as you pull up to a parking spot in front of your shop. And then you hear a woman’s voice on the other end, and you’re lifting your brows as you put the car in park.
“ Excuse me. Are you from here, by chance?”
Suna hums in response. “ Does it look like I’m from here? I just got off a flight .”
You shake your head and laugh to yourself at his tone.
“ Oh, well, I’m not, either. Maybe we could be sightseeing buddies? ”
“ Sightseeing–Does that normally work for you? ” He laughs. “ Is that an actual line you use? ”
“ Oh, I just- ”
“ Look,” He cuts her short, and you hear the amused edge in his voice. “ My girlfriend’s on the other end of this call right now, and she will actually kill me and turn me into a mannequin if I don’t stop speaking to you in the next 12 seconds. Is that what you want for me? ”
Your jaw drops, and you’re laughing loudly, knowing he can hear it. The girl he’s with starts to stumble.
“ A manne-What? Your girl- ”
Suna keeps it up with ease. “ See, now it’s 8 seconds. When she gets to 5, she’s gonna start using forensic technology to track your voice back to your identity. It’s gonna get ugly. ”
“Suna!” You yell, laughing when the girl chokes and rushes off with a panicked ‘ Never mind ’.
He laughs back. “ That worked remarkably well. I think I just found a new tactic. ”
“I’m glad you found a new use for me.”
“ You’re very multi-purpose .”
“Suna Rintarou-”
“ Okay, okay! No need for the government name. ”
You’re about to respond, but there’s a harsh knock on the window. You scream, turning, and find Osamu on the other side. He raises an eyebrow while you roll the window down.
“You plannin’ on workin’ from in here today?”
You roll your eyes with a smile. “I get my best work done in Suna’s car, actually.”
Suna bites before you can even realize you’ve put out bait. “ Woah, babe! He doesn’t need to know all that. ”
Osamu’s face splits in a grin, his pained groan loud despite his obvious amusement. “It’s not even 9am.”
You just smile back. “Imagine dealing with this 24/7.”
“ Don’t make me embarrass you, Y/n. I have some very choice memories that would make Osamu’s hair curl-”
“No, thank you!” Osamu crosses his arms, backing away from the car. “I’m very happy in my sweet, vanilla relationship.”
“ There was this one time on my kitchen counter- ”
You and Osamu scream at the same time, and you slam a finger down on the End Call button before Suna can get too far.
You and the younger Miya stare at each other for a moment, and then you very awkwardly roll the window up and pull the key from the ignition. When you join Osamu on the sidewalk, all he does is give you a deadpan look.
“The kitchen counter is actually insane-”
“Please don’t,” You laugh, pushing past him toward the shop.
“Don’t you know how unsanitary that is-”
“Samu!” You shake your head, heading back into your office with an exasperated smile. Your phone buzzes while you’re greeting Haru at the bar.
[8:55 AM]
Sunarin : i didn’t get to tell him about the ice cubes :((
You : youre a menace and you need to be gagged
Sunarin : is that a request :))
You : did you know that distance does not in fact make the heart grow fonder?
Sunarin : really? im feeling pretty fond rn
The day passes with a funny little tingling in your veins, one that makes you think of him often and puts a stupid smile on your face, subject to Osamu’s constant teasing.
Suna texts you repeatedly throughout the day, and you’re reminded of the very first days of your friendship, when he would spam your phone with videos and memes and little else. Now, he sends you pictures of Tokyo – tourist spots and food and trinkets from the street stalls, attached to messages that make that excited tingle in your chest sing.
‘ Come back here with me.’
‘This place has spicy food the way you like it.’
‘This little old lady was making hair ties and stuff, so I got some.’
You scold him despite that wonderful little feeling, telling him he’s only going to fill his suitcase with things you don’t need. He ignores it, sending you more pictures of things he’s buying you.
You call him when you’re leaving work, the cafe locked up and Osamu waving you off with a knowing grin while he turns in the direction of Yachi’s flower shop.
“ Great timing, ” Suna answers, surprising you. “ Green or blue ?”
“You did not just answer the phone while buying me something,” You say, exasperated.
“ You’re so right, babe. You do look better in green. ” He ignores you, and you hear him putting something back.
“Suna!”
“ Stop complaining, or this is gonna be a long week. ”
“You would never buy me these things if we were just friends.” You say it without thinking, too busy getting into his car and settling in. You realize belatedly that you’re the first to really say it, to say it properly and truly and privately, even though it had been obvious to both of you from the start.
That you and Suna are more now.
Your heart stutters briefly, and you wonder why that had been so easy to say. Wonder what he’s going to say in response.
“No, maybe not,” He says, distracted by the store clerk while he pays. “But we’re not just friends, are we?”
Your skin warms under the coo of his voice in your ear – under his mutual acknowledgement, just as easy. “No, I don’t suppose we are.”
“ I don’t suppose we are, either-Thanks- ” He shifts his phone, and you hear the jingle of a shop door. “So I get to do what I want now. ”
“And what would that be, Rin?” You make your way home, his seat and mirrors and steering wheel all shifted in ways that’ll drive him crazy later. You smile at the thought of these minor, domestic traces of you, left all over his life.
“ Guess you’ll just have to stick around and find out. ”
You bite your lip, your fingers tapping against the steering wheel while you wait at a red light. “Good thing I don’t plan to go anywhere.”
There’s quiet on the other end, and then-
“ Good thing I planned on keeping you for a while.”
You drive in silence, your very soul aching to see him. After a few minutes, you make a quiet admission. “Gonna be a long week . ”
Suna breathes a soft laugh. “ I miss you, too. ”
You pull into his apartment and sigh as you put the car in park. “Made it home.”
His voice is teasing. “ Whose home, baby? ”
You warm, realizing what you’d said and deciding to simply stop talking. He clicks his teeth when you don’t respond, but he doesn’t push.
“ Whatcha gonna do now? ”
You stare down at your lap, your ears burning. “Cook dinner. Eat on the couch. Go to bed early.”
“ Without me? ”
You roll your eyes with a smile. “Goodbye, Rintarou.”
“ Send pictures! ”
You hang up, your heart still racing a little, even as you mumble to yourself. “Stupid man.”
You send him pictures anyway – your simple pasta dinner, the book you’re reading while you lounge on his couch. An overhead shot of you in his bed, showered and wrapped up in a bath robe and looking silly.
He sends back a voice note of him screaming incoherently about how pretty you are and then sends an overhead shot of himself in his hotel bed, equally showered and surrounded by no less than ten bags of gifts for you.
You scream incoherently, too, but into his pillow and without his knowledge.
You really, really like this stupid man of yours – more than you thought possible.
–
On Tuesday, you unexpectedly get a bit of good news.
The day starts as warmly as Monday had, with texts already pouring in before you even leave for work. Pictures of the convention venue, a massive room lined with artist booths and a stage in the back for the week of scheduled panels. An awkward selfie of Suna wearing his nametag, brightly colored and labeled ‘ Speaker ’ for everyone to see. Texts demanding to know your clothing sizes, with additional texts warning you against interrogating him for details.
By the time you walk into work, your mood is bright and sunny, and it only improves once you’re in the shop.
“Boss!” Haru’s eyes are bright when he calls for you, waving with both arms despite you being two feet away. Mayuri’s leaning against the bar, smiling fondly at Haru when he’s not looking, and Osamu’s watching from window into his kitchen.
You stop in the doorway, sending Haru a confused grin. “Haru?”
“I got a job!” He bounces behind the bar, doing a little jig.
You gasp, rushing to bar to join Mayuri. You know he’s been looking for full-time jobs with graduation so near, but you hadn’t been expecting one to come so soon. “What? Where? When?”
He giggles, and you wonder, not for the first time, how he’s only five years younger than you.
“Apparently, the Jackals need a social media manager.”
You stare, shocked, and drag your gaze over to Osamu. “The Jackals…. Since when do they-”
Osamu shakes his head. “What Haru means to say, is that he managed to convince Tsumu that they need one.”
You stare longer, remembering suddenly that Haru had applied to work with you three years ago not only because he was a broke college kid, but also because he’s a die-hard fan of the current MSBY lineup. He’s deceptively good at hiding it, but it seems the time for his cool exterior is gone.
“He-” You turn to Haru, watching the boy dance and turn and shake his butt in excitement. Mayuri just drops her head into her hand with a smile she’s clearly trying to hide.
You start to laugh, imagining just how easy it would have been for Haru to compliment-bomb Atsumu into agreeing to literally anything.
“Haru, I’m-” You burst into laughter, clutching your sides. “-so proud of you.”
“I start next week!” He yells at the ceiling. “Part-time and then full-time when I graduate!”
You shake your head, secretly glad he’ll keep working with you until graduation. “We’ve gotta celebrate, Haru. This is great.”
The boy becomes shy now, his dance slowing as he turns to you with warm cheeks. “Oh, we don’t have to-”
“No-” You cut him off with a shake of your head, rounding the bar to deposit your bag. “I was drowning in work before you came in – you literally saved my life. We need to celebrate.”
He flushes, scuffing the toe of his sneaker against the floor while you compliment him. “Thanks, Boss. That’s super nice of you.”
Mayuri teases quietly, pulling him out of his shell. “Don’t get all shy on us now. We need at least one extrovert in the shop, or the whole thing’ll go under.”
Osamu cackles as he disappears into the kitchen, and you leave Mayuri with Haru and head to the back, laughing to yourself. You pull out your phone, smiling at the ten messages from Suna, all different items being sold at the convention.
[9:17 AM]
You : haru convinced tsumu that the jackals need a social media manager and now he has a job
Sunarin : thats
Sunarin : SO FUCKING FUNNY
Sunarin : im buying that man a drink
You : we’re gonna throw a party in the shop
Sunarin : good, i can be nosy and watch him and mayuri awkwardly flirt
You : right??? make a move, girl, we all know boys are dumb
Sunarin : excuse you?? i totally made the first move
You : when? when you were jerking off in college?
Sunarin : BRUTALLLLLL
You laugh loudly, the sound bouncing off the walls of your office, and put your phone down with a warm smile. But there’s a knock at your door, one that brings Osamu’s grey hair and a knowing gaze.
“What’s up?” You ask, smiling.
“I have something to propose which was not my idea but will give me answers to all of my questions.”
You narrow your eyes. “Okay?”
“Hitoka wants to go on a triple date.”
You stall, your face warming. Osamu starts to smile.
“So you are together.”
“What?” You laugh, your ears starting to ring now that the words have been said out loud in precisely that way. “We’re… Uh-”
He steps into your office, clearly excited as he sits across from you. “Yes or no?”
“I-” You scratch at your brow. “Yes? Maybe?”
“But it’s not just sex.”
“No…” You avoid his eyes. “It’s not just sex.”
“I don’t think it ever was,” He says, like he’s been waiting a long time to say it. “But you probably won’t agree with that.”
You say nothing, just remembering the way Suna had admitted that things were never as casual as he’d thought they were. That he’d never gotten over you, that he had tricked himself into thinking he was okay with a no-strings-attached arrangement with you.
That from the very beginning, you’d always secretly felt that starting something with Suna Rintarou would never be nothing .
Osamu watches you carefully when you don’t answer him. “Oh. It’s serious, then.”
You meet his eyes and look away, your heart starting to flutter and that nervous excitement making its daily appearance.
“Yeah,” You say, unable to meet his gaze. “It’s serious.”
He smiles slowly. “So… He would be okay with us setting up a date?”
You swallow, nodding and keeping your eyes away from that smug little grin.
“Yeah. He would be okay with it.”
Osamu leaves you after that, and you open your texts, typing with fingers that tremble just slightly.
[9:30 AM]
You : samu asked to set up a triple date with tsumu/sakusa
Sunarin : NOT A T S U M U
Sunarin : god theyre so insufferable and gross
Sunarin : how will i ever finish my food
You : im sure youll manage
Sunarin : you hate me, i just know it
Sunarin : wait
Sunarin : did you already agree to it???
You blink, confused by his urgency. Were you not supposed to?
You : …. maybe?
Sunarin : bro
Sunarin : our first date is NOT going to be with miya atsumu in the room
Oh. You hadn’t realized that you and Suna have never been on a date.
You : oh
You : its nbd
Sunarin : it very much is NOT nbd
Sunarin : im taking you out
You : i dont need dinner and a movie rin
Sunarin : i didnt say anything ab dinner and a movie
Sunarin : thats not special at all
Sunarin : thats just a tuesday
You shake your head, trying not to let his words warm you to the point of distraction. You put the phone down and fight the pounding in your ears, the cold tingle in your fingers subsiding the longer you focus on work.
You manage about two hours of it, your phone forgotten once your head’s in the right place.
Suna succeeds in ruining it in a matter of seconds.
[11:58 AM]
Sunarin : thoughts on getting each others initials tattooed for a first date?
You breathe out a shaky sigh, telling yourself he’s joking.
You : youre an idiot
Sunarin : yeah it’s a bit much
Sunarin : maybe for our ten yr anniversary
Sunarin : lets start smaller
You groan, dropping your head into your hands.
You : i think dinner and a movie is great
Sunarin : no no dont go back on me now babe
Sunarin : not when im so attached to the tattoo idea
You : i dont have tattoos
Sunarin : oh i know :)) i would have seen them by now :))
You : you continue to be an idiot
He ignores it, just sending back a photo. You stare down at it, your heart swelling in your chest when you see the cartoon art he’s scribbled haphazardly on a napkin, ink stains on his fingers and a ring of moisture still on the napkin from his drink.
It’s just a fox , you tell yourself. Just a small caricature of the Inarizaki fox, something you could easily get with all your friends.
But the fact that he’d chosen it now – now that things are not what they were at Inarizaki, now that things are more than they’ve ever been. It makes you question how you could possibly have gone this long without falling for him.
You swallow the feeling of permanence and give in to it, knowing there’s no way around it.
[12:02 PM]
You : i would allow you to draw that on my body for a first date
Sunarin : that was a love confession if ive ever seen one
Suna Rintarou is really starting to affect your productivity.
–
It’s on Wednesday night that things get serious.
The jokes, the passing comments, the unspoken meanings – they all fall away, leaving only Suna’s quiet voice, laced with a hesitation that makes you nervous.
“ I’ve been telling people I have a girlfriend.”
You forget how to breathe.
You’d been lying in his bed listening to him tell you about his day, flirty comments shared between you. In the lull between topics, he’d admitted that.
You sit there in silence, waiting for him to continue. When he doesn’t – the air conditioner in his hotel room loud between you – you clear your throat.
“That good of a deflection tactic, huh?”
Relief floods you when he laughs under his breath, but you still feel tense, unable to move from where you’re curled up under his blankets. They smell like him, and there’s a part of you that feels you can only handle this silence because of that comfort.
“ A couple of younger girls came up to me at a booth and said they saw my work on Instagram, ” He starts. “ They asked if I had a girlfriend – I was expecting them to get upset when I said yes, but they just started squealing and asked to see a picture of you. Said we looked good together. ”
You breathe slow while your heart beats fast.
He says the rest to you in words that speak louder than he does. “ I liked hearing that. ”
You swallow. “So, you kept saying it?”
“ ... Would you be upset if I did? ”
You stare down at your hands, wondering if he’s saying what you think he is. Your voice cracks nervously when you respond. “ No … I don’t think I would.”
When he breathes into the phone, it sounds like the first he’s taken in a while.
“ You can say it, too – if you want. ”
Your fingers start to go numb, and your face starts to burn. “That I’m your girlfriend?”
“ Yeah – if you want to. ”
“You’d be okay with me telling people that?”
“ Yes. A hundred percent. ”
You swallow, unable to process this conversation. There’s nowhere that your heart isn’t beating right now, and you wish so desperately that you could be with him right now. Just to see what he’s thinking, always written so clearly all over his face.
“You’d be okay with me introducing you to people like that?”
“ Yes. Y/n, yes. ”
“You’re okay with that title? Suna Rintarou, Y/n’s boyfriend?”
There’s silence on the other end, and then the cut of the dial tone.
You blink, your heart pounding in your ears, and stare down at your phone.
He’d hung up.
Your phone buzzes just as you’re starting to spiral.
[7:22 PM]
Sunarin : fuck i panicked
Sunarin : you made me nervous
Sunarin : sorry
You start to smile against your will, your stomach filling with relief.
You : find a better coping mechanism
You : i hate that one
Sunarin : i want it
Sunarin : the title, i mean
Sunarin : i want it
Your heart starts to pound for him, just like it always does.
You : you want to be my boyfriend?
Sunarin : fuck
Sunarin : yes
Sunarin : fuck
Sunarin : sorry, im still nervous
You : youre kind of a mess rin
Sunarin : i know
Sunarin : that was the first time i thought about saying those words
Sunarin : and it fucked me up
You stare down at your phone, watching him fall apart and wondering if this is really, truly happening.
He calls again.
You lift the phone to your ear wordlessly.
“ Hi. ”
You really like him.
“Hi.”
“ I feel like a fucking teenager. ”
You swallow, laughing tightly. “Yeah. I don’t really know what to do. I feel like I just got hit by a truck-”
“ I really want to be your boyfriend. ”
Your heart stops in your throat.
When you respond, it’s weak. “There goes the truck again.”
“ I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want this to be unclear anymore. ” He’s starting to ramble in your ear. “ I want to be your boyfriend. And I want to tell everyone you’re my girlfriend. ”
You press a hand to your chest, leaning back against his pillows and squeezing your eyes shut while you try to breathe.
“ I want you in my apartment, Y/n. I want you in my bed and in my kitchen and on my couch and in my car. I want you everywhere.”
“ Rin ,” You choke, every cell in your body burning.
“Everything I look at reminds me of you. I want to buy you everything. I want to bring you everywhere.”
You think you might cry.
“ God, Y/n, I don’t know what you did to me, but I think I- ” He cuts short, breathing hard.
You stare at the ceiling, your heart stuttering painfully.
“You what?”
You hear when he swallows.
“ I want this. All of it. ”
You have the distinct feeling that that’s not what he was going to say.
“ Do you… want to be my girlfriend? ” He laughs nervously. “ I guess I haven’t asked yet. ”
You close your eyes, head fuzzy. “I think you ruined me, Rin.”
When he laughs, low and warm in your ear, everything that’s not him falls away from you.
“ Weird way to tell me you love me. ”
Delirium is the only way to explain why you smile and say-
“I want this, Rintarou. All of it.”
You’re not surprised when he hangs up on you again.
–
The first person you tell, unsurprisingly, is Atsumu.
On Thursday, after a series of morning texts from Suna that leave you blushing like a schoolgirl, you rush into his bathroom, washing up with icy water and trying to talk yourself into a sense of normalcy. And then, when it doesn’t work, you snatch your phone off the sink.
“ This better be good, ” Atsumu says when he answers. “ Because Omi-kun’s lookin’ real scrumptious this morning, and I ain’t above hangin’ up on you. ”
You stare at your reflection when you say the words to someone else for the first time. “Suna asked me to be his girlfriend last night.”
It’s Sakusa’s voice you hear first, muffled and distant.
“ What? When? How- ” There’s a scuffle on the other end, and then Sakusa’s in your ear. “ Say more, Y/n. I require more. ”
You laugh, hearing Atsumu’s complaints in the back, and then you tell them everything. Everything from staying at Suna’s place while he’s gone to finding out how he’d felt about you in the past. Everything from him treating you like more than just a situationship to you falling for him harder and harder with every second that passes. Everything from joking about your relationship to the very moment when it had stopped being a joke.
“ Oh, my- ” Atsumu had taken the phone back at some point. “ Y/n, he’s down so bad for you. I can’t believe ya didn’ realize- ”
“I never claimed to be smart!” You joke, sitting at the edge of the bed. “I was too busy being shocked he could ever be interested in me-”
“ I’ve been watchin’ him follow you around like a lost puppy for years – this ain’t surprising, darlin’.”
Sakusa’s voice cuts through from beside him. “ It seems like he really didn’t want to ruin your relationship, especially if he lasted all throughout college without making a move-”
“Yeah, that part actually was unexpected, ” Atsumu agrees. “ I had a feelin’ that he was a little sweet on ya, but I thought he just had no idea how he felt, either.” There’s a moment of peace, but peace never lasts long around Miya Atsumu. “ Come to find out he was probably thinkin’ aboutcha in the shower every night- ”
“Atsumu!” You protest. You hadn’t told them the more private details of Suna’s thoughts in college, only that he’d had some feelings he’d decided not to act on. The fact that you can very much confirm Atsumu’s speculation makes you flush in embarrassment.
“I gotta go. I have work,” You say, suddenly missing Suna very much, lovesick and awful. Atsumu must hear it, because he just chuckles under his breath.
“ Oh, yeah, I’m sure. Tell ‘work’ we say hi .”
“Shut up, Tsumu.”
“ Happy for ya!” He yells into the phone just as you’re cutting the call with a smile.
You get ready for work while on the phone with Suna. His panel’s tomorrow afternoon, so he’d stayed in the hotel today to prepare some general answers and recharge socially. It only makes you fall more, the fact that this perfect man would consider you the exception to the limits of his introversion.
You run through potential questions with him on your drive to work, but you eventually have to cut it short because he won’t stop flirting with you.
“Alright, I think that’s enough of that,” You laugh, rolling your eyes when he asks if you ‘ have any tattoos you’re down to show him backstage ’.
“ Wait, don’t go, pretty audience girl! ” He protests. “ I’ve got so much I wanna show you! ”
“I’m at work!” You yell, pulling into the parking lot.
“ Come find me after the panel, we can talk in my hotel room-”
You end the call with a bright smile, hating how easy it is for him to get to you. You shake your head, grinning to yourself as you walk into the shop.
The feeling drops when you see who’s sitting at one of the tables.
He looks up from his phone, empty coffee cup in front of him. He’d been here a while, then.
The guy from the party – the one who you hadn’t realized had resembled Suna when you’d tried hitting on him.
“Oh, hey,” He says, laying his phone on the table. He smiles, something smooth and easy and so Suna-like that you actually take a step back.
It doesn’t look right on someone who’s not Rintarou.
“Uh, hi,” You say awkwardly, moving to round the bar. Haru gives you a confused look, and you can see Osamu lingering on his side of the shop, Mayuri shooting him equally strange looks while he wipes an already clean counter down. Osamu just meets your eyes over her head, scrubbing the clean counter like it’s filthy.
The guy stands from the table, sliding his cup across the counter to Haru, who has to fumble to make sure it doesn’t crash to the floor. Haru’s embarrassed flush makes you irrationally angry.
“Can I help you?” You ask, the edge in your voice cold.
He leans on the bar in something that seems effortless and cool, but you already know that’s not how Suna would have done it, so you hate it by default.
He sticks a hand out in your direction. “I never got your name at the party, so I had to track Bokuto down and get him to focus long enough to tell me where you worked.”
You raise a brow and stare down at the hand, unimpressed. Later, you’ll realize that you’ve adopted some of Suna’s mannerisms in the last few weeks, but right now, you just want this man out of your shop.
“Well, Bokuto’s a busy man. I’m sure he had more important things to focus on.”
He drops his hand easily, but you see the tinge of annoyance in his eyes when he does. “I’m Ren.” He waits while you stare blankly up at him, and then he lifts a brow, smiling teasingly. “And you are…”
“Working,” You say blankly. “Are you here to order something?”
He glances around, taking in Haru beside you. The boy’s pouring espresso shots into a cup, but they’re not for any customer in particular, and there’s starting to be a concerning number of them in that cup. You almost smile at his auto-pilot functioning, because he’s clearly distracted with listening while trying to look like he’s not.
Ren glances to the right, and you follow it. Mayuri’s alone at the counter serving cake to a little boy, and you realize Osamu’s moved only when he literally materializes behind you at the door to the storage room.
Ren meets his eyes over your head, and you look back, finding your friend leaning against the door frame with his arms crossed over his chest. He doesn’t look to you, keeping his eyes firmly on the man across the counter.
“I just came to ask for your number,” Ren says, and you turn slowly back to him with raised eyebrows. He smiles, and you get the feeling that that smile works on girls more often than not. “I didn’t exactly get the chance that night.”
“Lucky me,” You say. “Unfortunately for you, the trip here was pointless, because you will, once again, be leaving without my number.”
“Aw, don’t be like that.” He pretends to frown, clearly thinking you’re playing hard to get. “I came all this way.”
“I hope you enjoyed the coffee, then,” You continue to push. “Since that’s all you’re getting.”
You start to turn away and catch out of the corner of your eye that he’s decided to reach across the counter for your arm. His fingers only brush on your elbow, however, before he’s pulling back – Osamu had stepped toward you, suddenly the tallest man you’ve ever seen in your life.
“I wouldn’t,” The twin says simply, glancing down at the hand lingering offensively near you, arms still crossed over his chest and eyes devoid of emotion. He seems to tower over Ren, despite their similar heights. “I really wouldn’t.”
Ren steps back, shoving his hands in his pockets with a hard swallow. He meets your eyes. “Come on, doll, we could have so much fun together.”
You face him fully, his lack of boundaries near-insulting. In your periphery, you sense Haru standing tall – inhumanly tall like Osamu and clearly unhappy with the turn this conversation is taking. You’re warmed by him, by the safety they both grant you. So you make sure to be very clear when you look Ren in his eye and say-
“I think my boyfriend would disagree.”
Osamu shifts behind you, perhaps trying to gauge how much of this is the truth, but you keep your eyes on the man before you. The one who looks so much like Rintarou, yet so, so unlike him all the same.
When he lifts a brow and smiles like he doesn’t believe you, you wonder if punching a customer would be bad for your shop reputation.
“Your boyfriend,” He says, humor in his voice.
“My boyfriend,” You repeat. “You might remember him from the party.”
A look of recognition passes over him. “ That guy?”
“The very same.”
“Right,” He says, nodding very seriously while a smile pulls at his lips. “ That’s your boyfriend.”
You feel your eye twitch involuntarily. You’re painfully glad for the courage that rises when your friends shift in shared annoyance. Slipping your phone from your pocket, you pull up your photos quickly, finding one in particular and holding it out for him to see.
It’s one of you in Suna’s bed, wrapped up in his arms while he naps against you. His face is pressed into the crook of your neck, hair fanning out all over your neck and face. He has an arm curled around you, and it’s clear even from the selfie that he’s holding you tight and pulling a warm smile out of you.
Ren’s eyes drag over it while you stare emptily at him.
“Would you like me to call him? I’m sure he’d love to chat.”
He meets your eyes and then straightens, brows furrowed. “Whatever. Don’t hit me up when he dumps your ass.”
You call out mockingly while he exits the shop. “Thanks for coming!”
As soon as the door jingles, you sigh under your breath. “What a piece of work.”
“I’m starting to think you don’t even need us anymore,” Osamu says, and you see he’s smiling when you turn to him. “A lot’s changed since high school.”
You step forward, wrapping your arms around his waist and hugging him tight. You’re shaking just slightly from the confrontation – the confidence needed to stand tall during that entire ordeal had drained you. Osamu’s familiarity recharges you in the way only an old friend can.
“I’ll always need you.” When he squeezes you affectionately, you admit what he’s dying to know. “Did I mention that I have a boyfriend now?”
He smiles against the crown of your head, mumbling, “ Fucking finally. ” He snatches your phone from you and peers down at the photo of you and Suna. “This is terrible and gross. I love it.”
You both laugh, interrupted when Haru slumps in exhaustion in the corner and holds out a cup full to the top with espresso shots. “Can I assume this is coming out of my next check?”
You pluck it from him, shaking your head as you separate it across three more cups to make everyone a free drink. “This is a heart attack waiting to happen. Mayuri, come yell at him, please.”
The girl appears in an instant, grinning wide. “My favorite pastime!”
Osamu disappears to the back, mumbling ‘ Terrible and gross ’ to himself as he goes.
Later, when you call Suna on your way home, he answers with exasperation.
“I swear to God, woman. ”
You laugh, surprised. “Hello to you, too.”
“ Did the universe send out some global signal that you’re taken now? It’s been less than 24 hours. ”
“Oh, I see. You’ve been speaking to Miya Osamu.”
“ You should have taken that guy’s number so I could track him down .”
“I think he got the message, Rin.”
“ And his name was Ren ? What kind of tacky, off-brand version of me- ”
You laugh, accepting now that you’re in a constant state of needing him. “When’s your flight back?”
There’s silence, and then a response so clearly said through a smile. “ I miss you, too. ”
“Shut up. Answer me.”
“ Monday, baby girl. ”
You warm, pulling into the parking lot with pursed lips. “That’s too far away.”
“ I agree. Want me to come back early? ”
You desperately want to say yes. “No, you shouldn’t. You need to stay and network – this is great exposure for your shop.”
“ You’re annoyingly reasonable. ”
“One of us has to be.”
You talk to him for the rest of the night, pushing down this terrible yearning that you feel. It’s best for him to stay, to speak to people and promote his work. But you can’t help that his bed feels horribly empty tonight, so you ask in a quiet voice at the end of the night if he wouldn’t mind falling asleep on the phone with you.
When he whispers ‘ Anything for you ’ while you’re curling up under his blanket, you think that what you feel for Suna Rintarou might be more than just more , and that it probably has been for quite some time.
–
On Friday, you wake to the sound of Suna groaning sleepily beside your head. You shift, lifting your head to glance at the alarm clock on the bedside table. It’s only 7.
You groan back at him. “Why the hell are you awake?”
“ I set my alarm super early just to be sure I wouldn’t oversleep.” His voice is groggy and low – it spreads warmth all over your skin and draws a heat from your navel that you really don’t need this morning. You’d managed to keep it down all week. “ I really regret that now .”
“Your panel’s not even until 11,” You whine, rolling over with every intent to go back to sleep.
“ Great. Now I’m thinking about it. Guess I’m up for the day. ”
You laugh into his pillow, almost missing when he mumbles the word ‘ cute ’ under his breath.
“You’re really that nervous?”
“ Terrified. I hate people, and I hate talking. ”
“Oh, man – Can’t imagine talking in front of peopl e, then.”
“ You’re a smart-ass, you know that? ”
You pull the phone to your ear with a pleased sigh. “It’s gonna be fine, baby. You’re gonna be great, and all of your socials are going to experience viral internet success.”
There’s silence on the other end, long enough to make you wonder if he’d hung up.
“Rin?”
“ Sorry. You made me nervous. ”
“How?” You laugh. “The prospect of your viral internet success?”
“ No. You called me ‘baby’. ”
Your ears burn, and your stomach flips in that lovely excited tingle. “Well, get used to it. I plan on saying it for a long, long time.”
More silence – and then a soft ‘ Fuck ’ whispered through the staticky connection.
“ I’m gonna be in big trouble for a long, long time, then. ”
You beam, clutching the blanket to your chest. “Go get ready for your panel, Rin.”
“ Okay, ” He says in a daze. “ Sounds good .” Silence, and then. “ Yeah, yes- I should go. Yeah. ”
You snicker into the phone, overcome with the urge to scream your adoration for him. “You’re gonna do so great, baby. And then you can come home, and we can celebrate.”
“... Fuck. ”
“ Go, Rin-” You throw your head back and laugh loudly, hearing as it echoes off the walls. “Go. Eat breakfast and get there early and network your ass off.”
“ Yes, okay – yeah. ”
“ Goodbye , Rintarou.”
“ Okay. Bye – love you .”
He hangs up.
You stare down at nothing, the dial tone ringing in your ear.
Oh.
Oh.
Suna Rintarou just told you he-
Oh.
Your phone buzzes against your ear with an incoming text.
[7:06 AM]
Sunarin : fuck
Sunarin : y/n im
Sunarin : fuck
You swallow, feeling the layer of panic smothering his texts. Your own heart pounds in your ears – that pounding of more, ever-present and painfully clear now.
You can’t imagine the horror he’s sitting in, not knowing what to do or how you’re taking it – not knowing just how much he doesn’t need to worry about this.
With shaking hands, you call him back. When he picks up, he’s in a mental spiral.
“ Y/n, I’m sorry. I wasn’t thinking, and I- ”
“I love you, too.”
And then you hang up.
It takes a full minute for him to text you.
[7:08 AM]
Sunarin : you fucking
Sunarin : menace
Sunarin : youre so fucking done for when i get home
Friday passes so irritatingly slowly without him, but that little mumbled ‘ love you ’ ringing in your ear is all you remember.
–
“So?” You ask, throwing your keys in the bowl at the door, a wide smile spread across your face. “Tell me everything!”
“ Holy shit, Y/n, it was- ” Suna laughs, and you hear him kicking his shoes off at the hotel door, too. “ I can’t even remember all the people I met – so many names. ”
“Wait, start at the beginning!” You whine, undressing as you make your way to his shower. “Start over, from the top.”
“Okay, okay.” The shower turns on on his end, too, and you feel your heart swell at your paralleled routines. “So I get there at 9-ish, and people are already coming up to me. I didn’t realize this, but I guess once it was announced that I was on the roster, people who like my work started talking about it all over Twitter, and it kind of blew up-”
“What?!” You step into the shower, keeping your phone on the sink so you can hear him. “You went viral before the day even started!”
“ I guess?! ” His voice is muffled, and you laugh at the mental image of him screaming over the running water. “ I was bombed with people coming up to me for two hours, and then there was a huge crowd at the panel! There were so many questions! ”
“Say more, damn it!” You joke, needing every ounce of detail.
You shower and eat dinner while listening to him recount the entire panel – that there were three other artists with him, all in different specialties, and that he’d gotten along well with them. That he’d joked about his social introversion once he’d started getting a long stream of questions, that the entire audience had found that funny and wanted even more interaction with him after that. That people had asked about his background and college experience and future plans for the shop and everything in between.
“ Oh, those girls were there – from the other day, ” He says, both of you in bed now. “ One of them got up and asked if my girlfriend and I had any matching tattoos. I told her ‘Not yet, but we’ve got a tattoo date planned for when I get home’.”
You laugh, chest warm with affection. “I bet everyone loved that. That’s charming and smooth.”
“ No kidding, ” He agrees. “ She has no clue what she started – I had people coming up to me afterward asking about you. ”
“Yeah?” You ask with interest.
“ Asking what you do, what you think of me and my work, how you’ve supported me while I was starting my own business – all of it. ”
“I like that you got asked about me…” You admit, picking at a loose string on the blanket.
“ I liked talking about you. I think everyone could tell that was my favorite part. ”
“God,” You laugh. “You’re like those celebrities that always talk about their wives in interviews. Everyone loves a guy like that.”
“ You tryna tell me somethin’? ”
“Huh?” You blink, thinking.
“ I can take a hint, babe .” He jokes. “ We can skip the dating phase if you want .”
You laugh loudly, surprised. “Don’t even think about it, Rintarou. We said ‘ I love you ’ within 48 hours of dating – let’s take one thing slow, please.”
He sighs dramatically on the other end, but you can hear how pleased he is.
“ Fine, fine. Whatcha gonna do for the rest of the night? ”
“Probably just read something. Maybe watch a show.”
“ You’re in bed? ”
“Of course.”
“ Show me. I miss you. ”
You roll your eyes but pull your phone away, snapping a quick overhead picture and sending it to him. You listen to the shuffle of him checking his messages, and then there’s quiet on his end. You wait, a brow lifted.
“Rin?”
“ Shit. ”
“...What?” You’d heard the shift in his voice, deeper and heavier than it’d been just a moment ago. You recognize it, and that warmth from the morning – the one pulled from your navel, molten and dangerous – returns.
“ Is that what you’ve been wearing to bed all week ?”
You look down at yourself. You’re wearing one of his t-shirts and a pair of panties, frumpy and simple.
“Yes…?”
He breathes a heated sigh. “ That’s fucking unfortunate. ”
Your nerve endings start to tingle, a suspiciously familiar electric crackling in the pit of your stomach. “Why’s that?” You ask weakly.
He doesn’t respond, but your phone buzzes with a message.
Your breath catches when you look.
It’s an overhead of him, too – shirtless and sporting a pair of grey sweats, he’s got one hand on the band of his pants, his silver bracelet glinting in the light. His inked skin looks warm, a slight sheen from his shower still lingering in a way that makes your mouth water. But it’s just below the waist that your eyes are trained.
Because Suna Rintarou’s just sent you a rather compromising picture of himself, one capturing the heat in his eyes and the rather noticeable tent in his sweats.
You swallow hard. “Seems like something needs your attention, Rin.”
“ That’s too bad. My attention’s elsewhere. ”
You shift, the needy feeling setting in. “Rin…”
Your phone starts to beep in your ear. You lift it, seeing the incoming notification.
Your face burns when you accept the FaceTime request.
He looks the way he had in the photo – eyes hooded and glazed slightly, distracted. He meets your gaze, a smile pulling at his lips.
“ Hi, pretty girl. ”
Your eyelids flutter, and your thighs press together involuntarily. “Hi, baby.”
He inhales sharply at the name, tugging the lip ring between his teeth. His eyes drop to the t-shirt you’re wearing. “ Still got that on? ”
You shrink under his gaze. “‘s yours. Wanna keep it on.”
His eyes are sharp when they find yours, and his gaze burns through you. “ Well, when you word it like that… ”
You laugh nervously, seeing in the camera how red your face is. “Still got those sweats on?”
You’re granted the satisfaction of watching his cheeks color at your question, eyes looking away from you shyly.
“ Want me to take ‘em off? ”
“ Yes ,” You breathe, hooking your thumb into your own underwear. “Please.”
Suna throws his phone on the bed, and you hear the shuffle of him removing his pants. You join him, sliding out of your panties and shivering when the cold air hits your heated core.
His voice wavers when he’s back in the frame. “ Show me? ”
Your stomach swarms with nerves, but you flip the camera around anyway. You watch in real time how his eyes widen, flicking around the scene of your legs spread open on his sheets.
“ Fuck, ” He groans, training his gaze on the spot that makes you most nervous. “ You look so good in my bed, Y/n. ”
The only thing that keeps you from turning the camera off in your embarrassment is the way his eyes have changed. His gaze has taken on a slightly unhinged edge, razor sharp and unmoving from that heated spot between your thighs. And when he swallows hard and breathes out an uneven sigh, you remember that this is the only person in the whole world you don’t ever have to be afraid of.
With shaking fingers, you put your hand on your knee and slide it slowly down your thigh. Suna tracks it, eyes widening when you get close to your core. When your middle and ring fingers push down against your clit, circling slowly, his jaw goes slack and his eyelids flutter.
“ Shit, ” He breathes, and you watch that lip ring disappear between his teeth again. “ I’ve never watched you touch yourself before. ”
The realization of that fact makes you more nervous, but the way he’d said it – desperate, eager – makes you whimper, and you swipe your fingers over your clit again. When you drop them to your folds, sliding through once and then again, Suna groans quietly.
“ You look so fucking good, Y/n.”
The camera shakes with movement, and you realize he’s starting to touch himself.
“No fair,” You whine softly.
He swallows, blushing, and turns his camera around, too. The sight of his hand wrapped around his cock, stroking slowly, has you moaning his name and swiping your fingers hard against your clit.
The strain of his voice affects you more now that you can’t see his face – it sounds more desperate, more needy.
“ Shit. I was doing so well before this. ”
Your stomach flips nervously. “Me, too. I swear I’ve been good all week.”
He laughs low, but you hear when it cuts into a moan as he thumbs at the head of his cock. “ I believe you, baby. You’re always good for me. ”
You shiver, pushing the tip of your middle finger against your entrance while you breathe his words back to him distractedly. “ So good for you. Promise. ”
He sighs shakily, groaning your name when your finger disappears past your entrance. “ Go ahead, baby girl. The other one, too. ”
You slip your ring finger in beside your middle, sliding both in as far as you can. He moans at the sight, and you echo it back when he finds a pace to stroke himself, flicking his wrist.
“You look so pretty, Rin.”
He groans through pursed lips, laughing roughly as he squeezes tight around the base of his cock. “ You can’t say things like that, Y/n. I’m actually trying to last longer than thirty seconds.”
You giggle, sliding your fingers out slowly and thrusting back in, sharper than before. “Not my fault – you made me needy.”
“ Yeah, well, you’re gonna make me embarrass myself if you don’t cut it out. ”
“I’d love to make you embarrass yourself. You’re real pretty when you blush.”
“ Y/n- ” He complains through annoyed laughter. “ I will start begging. ”
“Don’t threaten me with a good time,” You smile. “The last time you begged for something, I had an earth-shattering orgasm, so…”
When he laughs this time, it’s heavier and full of desire. “ Keep going, then – maybe I can help you get there again this time. ”
You whine, curling your fingers once before pulling them out. You repeat the motion, feeling the coil start to form in your navel. You keep that pace, fingering yourself slowly while you remain entirely distracted by how Suna’s hand looks around his cock.
He notices that you’re not focusing after a moment, his voice low when he speaks to you.
“You can do better than that, can’t you?”
You groan, arousal flaring in the pit of your stomach. “Not my fault I’m so distracted.”
“ Gotta be stronger than that, baby. I’m really in the mood to watch you fuck yourself.”
Your breath leaves you instantly, and your hand jerks, your fingers harsh when you thrust into yourself. It makes you jolt, and you moan his name involuntarily.
He sighs, strained, and whispers ‘ that’s it, love ’ when you find a faster pace, one that arises entirely out of you forgetting to keep control. Your eyes roll back, and you whisper his name again and again, on each slam of your palm against your clit.
He groans low, his own hand matching your pace and sliding against his cock. He’s rough, the same way you are with yourself.
“ God, you look so good like this. ” His voice shakes, and he groans your name again quietly. “ Show me again when I get home? ”
“ Rin, ” You whine. Your brain is hot with static, your fingers not nearly close enough to how he feels. “Yes. Anything. Yes.” You watch his hand move, the coil burning when you think of how much better this would feel with him here. “ Not the same without you, ” You mumble.
He laughs. “ Miss my fingers, love? ”
“ Miss your everything. ”
“ Y/n, ” He breathes, and you watch his pace become a bit uneven. “Miss you. So much. ”
You shiver, the static spreading down your neck and shoulders as you come close to the edge. “ Love you, Rin- ”
His breath cuts sharply, and yours follows when you realize how that had affected him.
“ Fucking shit, Y/n- ” He says it on a harsh exhale, his cock twitching hard in his grip. “ You gotta warn me- ”
“I love you, Rintarou,” You repeat, stronger this time. He groans loudly, and you hear the sheets shift when he throws his head back against the pillow.
“ Y/n- ” His breath stutters, and he stops moving, his hand shaking. “ I love you- ”
The coil in your navel twists so hard that you gasp as you watch him fall over the edge.
“ I love you, Y/n, I- ” He moans your name, voice cracking, and his muscles contract as he spills onto his skin.
Your back bows off the mattress when the coil snaps, and you’re following his lead, his name a mantra on your lips when your vision goes white. Everything else falls away, and all you hear is his voice, telling you he loves you.
You come back to yourself some time after he does, your body slumped with exhaustion and your heart pounding hard in your ears.
“ Y/n- ” He says, panting. “ You okay, baby? ”
You hum sleepily, shivering as you draw your fingers away from yourself. You flip the camera around with half-closed eyes. He’s doing the same, and you find yourself laughing quietly when you see how flushed his face is.
“Hi, pretty boy.”
He rolls his eyes. “ Feel okay? ”
“Mhm,” You nod. “Would have been better with you here.”
“ Why? ‘Cause I’ve got longer fingers than you? ”
You flush hard. “I was trying to be wholesome.”
“ I need at least another minute before I can be wholesome. I have cum all over my skin. ”
A giddy laugh bubbles out of you. “God, I love you. You’re so dumb.”
Suna’s face burns, and a shy smile tugs at his lips. “ Yeah, whatever. I love you, too. ”
–
On Saturday afternoon, you drive over to your apartment, windows rolled down and music blasting. Summer’s officially made its debut, and your boyfriend is less than 48 hours from coming home – you feel pretty damn good, and you want to do something to welcome Suna home on Monday.
When you walk into your place, though, the first thing you notice is the thick layer of dust on all the surfaces. How long has it been since you’ve properly been here – eaten here, slept here, worked here in your home office?
You can’t remember. You know that Suna would have been here with you – before his trip, you hadn’t slept alone in a bed in weeks, let alone your own bed.
With a hum, you start to pick up around the house, wondering if you should start looking to downsize. If you’re going to be spending all your time with Suna, there’s no reason to pay such high rent on a 2-bedroom apartment. Maybe you can find a 1-bedroom, or even a studio. Something cheaper, something that wouldn’t feel like such a waste to pay for if you’re only in it once or twice a week.
When you finish cleaning, you start digging through your closet for what you’d come here for. You remember purchasing a few select pieces that you never ended up wearing – a set of lingerie you’d intended for some one-night-stands, months and months ago. Back when you were more confident that you could go out and find a guy on your own – back before you could ever conceive the idea that your best friend might become anything more than that.
Now, as you pull the lacy black set out of your drawers, you’re infinitely glad that the first man to ever lay eyes on it will be Suna Rintarou.
You drive next to the shopping center, quickly slipping into a lingerie shop and buying a few more sets. The one you already have is nice, but you hadn’t bought it with Suna in mind. Now, knowing him – being able to imagine his reaction to every set that you consider – you’re certain about the riskier pieces that you never would have looked at before.
The girl who rings you up looks surprised at what you’ve chosen, and you catch when she scans your body judgmentally. But you just smile back at her, finding that you couldn’t care less what she thinks. And when the girl working next to her sees the sets and just shoots you a knowing wink, you feel confident in your body for the first time in a long while.
Back at Suna’s apartment, you tidy up, cleaning his place until it sparkles and smells like summer. You set the lingerie on the floor by his closet, deciding that you’ll wear a set to bed on Sunday night so that he’s surprised on Monday morning.
And then, after making dinner, you settle into his couch and turn Netflix on, choosing a random movie for the night. You’re swaddled up in a fuzzy bathrobe, donning equally stupid, fuzzy socks, your hair up in a mess. But you feel comfortable in it, warm and comfortable and excited for the morning of Suna’s return while you watch your silly rom-com.
It’s only when you hear a key in the lock of the front door that you think maybe you should have prepared for this – now painfully obvious, given his tendency for terrible decisions – turn of events.
Suna Rintarou steps through the door, fresh off a plane and two days early, and all you can do – in your stupid outfit with your stupid hair – is stare.
He stares back, eyes scanning you as he tries not to smile.
When he finally opens his mouth, what comes out is something that he’s only said once before -- at the dining table in your parents’ house, on a morning full of rain and exasperation toward a strange boy who’d seemed content with walking you to school in silence every day.
“I like your pajamas.”
You can’t help it.
You run.
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