#not me forgetting how to tag Remy lmao

[simsandgiggles]

sweet beginnings tag

I was tagged by fellow crusty simblr elder @bastardtrait <3

This tag is all about looking at your past. All you need to do is to find one of the first screenshots you ever took (preferably also published), and post it beside the recent one! And tell everybody when you took that first picture! Oh, and don’t forget to tag your posts! #sweet beginnings tag

I deleted A LOT of my old posts so I had to DIG. First picture is from my first ever legacy the Schipano Legacy. I know I started posting on this blog in February 2014, but I believe this screenshot is from late 2013? I was lurking on simblr from my superwholock blog (no, not kidding) starting in 2013 but at the time I was really intimidated (lol I KNOW) because everyone had these poses and custom hairs and elaborate soap opera story lines. So I prepped for months to come up with the perfect legacy backstory LMAO. That toddler - Starr Schipano - was an orphan raised by her grandfather and ended up in a love triangle with the generic white boy next store and her adopted cousin??? It was 2013 okay idk.

Second picture is from my current Normal LEPacy gameplay this is (spoilers, I guess) Bunny Normal the generation 21 heiress of the legacy!!!

I literally want to see everyone's version of this but I am especially tagging @getboolpropped @resurrectonomitron @magicbats @pixelswirl @faeriefrolic and @hypnofrogs

some bonus firsts under the cut since I have a lot

First berry sweet sims were the mango perfect genetics challenge which I believe I started posting in summer 2014? I even did my first bachelor challenge and only completed bachelor challenge with gen 2 of that legacy. This was the founder Margot Mango and her son ... Remy? apparently I was in a french phase lol

First time ever playing the sims 4 was when I started my pancakes legacy in October 2015 (literally 8 years ago HOW). But I still didn't like the sims 4 so that quickly led to me creating John Waffles, founder of the Waffles Lepacy in November 2015.

Lastly, generation 1 of the Normal Lepacy (when I was neck deep in my cut out phase) which was February 2021. The Normals are my both my chaos and my comfort save. Funny story the other day my partner saw me editing my new family tree the other day and asked me "wait, you're still playing with the family of the guy with the weird name who looked like John Oliver???" and then we went through every heir to see who he remembered (honestly a surprising amount lol)

[dystopiagnome]

You’ve seen one part of it! But wait!! There’s more!!!

[indimlights]

✨Merry christmas Cille✨

To: @birthdaysentiment 💛

-> From: @indimlights (Rodrigo)

Hi Cille! I guess it's up to me to kick off this "little" surprise but I don't even know where to start...

I remember really well the first time I saw a post of yours, I was still lurking back then and the moment I read it I felt so many things, things I don't know how to describe and that I never thought words could make me feel and I knew, I just knew that I had to see more. Fast-forward a couple of hours I knew your blog by heart, I had looked at so many of your posts and every single one was as amazing as the first one, as touching as the first one and as deep as the first one.

The meaning you put on words still gets to me every single day, you have such a way into them and don't even get me started on your music analysis. The moment I read the first one I was mind-blown! The things you catch, the connections you make between the music and the scene, the way you describe the scenes, it makes me go back, relive the moment and feel everything I felt the first time I watched it and all this just by... reading your words! If that doesn't tell me how amazing you are with them I don't know what will.

From that day I always wished I could talk to you, get to know the person behind the words, behind the masterpieces, behind the blog because you seemed like such a sweet person and now... After some time, I got that chance and I'm so happy I got it. You are everything I thought you would be and 1000x more, you are sweet, caring, smart, loving, wise, joyful and so supportive to me and to everyone in this community! You always spread love and that's so important and so nice of you to do, the way you write essays in the tags for everyone's posts just shows that! It's such a simple thing but means so much.

And I'm not even mentioning how talented you are with non-written posts because those are on another level aswell, I mean you always surprise me with your ideas and creativity and just knowing that whenever I come here I will have some sort of attack waiting for me just keeps me going and I love everything you do so much.

I'll never be able to thank you enough for being so welcoming when I barely knew anyone and for making me feel so much more comfortable here! Getting to know you better and to share this experience with someone like you has been a blessing and I wouldn't change any second of it, thank you for everything you have done and for always being so sweet to me. I don't understand what I did to deserve all that but that just shows again how wonderful you are.

I'm wishing you a merry christmas! Surrounded by everyone you love and that makes you happy because you deserve that and so much more, please never change, never stop being like this, a special and wonderful person. I hope you enjoy this surprise :) Have a wonderful day Cille 💛

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-> From: @remy3010 (Remy)

Hihi Cille❤ I love your blog so much especially music analysis! I just fall in love with your music analysis since your first posts.

For me whose mother tongue is not English, it takes a while to read but I'd love to. Because these articles deserve more people to see (including me)！

I have read every article of yours, the content touches me all the time. (Sometimes I have a lot of words want to tell you, But I don’t know how to speak in English..sorry🥺so I give❤ and reblog)

Anyway, thank you for writing beautiful words and sharing with us! I hope you can keep this passion forever, and everything go well. May you have wonderful days my friend ❤

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-> From: @franboos (Francine)

hi bb cille,

wanted to tell u that i love u blog and the time u put into analyzing stuff is shhshdhdhdhd. queen shit. u seen so genuine to talk to idk, i get those nice, non judgmental, relaxed and cool vibes from u. lmao. pls stay on tumblr for as long as u can cuz i love ur posts. u notice such little things in clips from wtfock, like u have a very detailed eye miss hehe. i really want to get to know u more cuz i really think we could vibe v well together, and that’s on perioood 😌. i hope u have a great great day while reading this queen. never stop what you’re doing cuz ur great at it. i love you !!

many kusjes and knuffels*,

fran

(*knuffels means hugs but also stuffed animal in dutch, did u know that? otherwise now u do, nice isn’t it)

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-> From: @dagcutie (Pauline)

hey hey cille!!

I must admit i’m very much a fan of you and your blog

first of all, your posts? chefs kiss!! i mean your music analysis are amazing and so on point, your photo edits are always perfect and the colorings are so beautiful, your long text posts 'drabble/headcanon style' are so cute and always makes me so soft and emotional...

your love for black and white? that’s a big yes!! anyways everything you do is perfect!!

also can we take a moment to appreciate your person? i think we can and we must do it..

you’re always so supportive and kind, all the nice tags you let under peoples creations are so sweet!! I also could cry about how cute you are always leaving lovely messages to people inbox or coming randomly to them to say something nice.. you’re the most beautiful soul and a blessing for this fandom!! please never stop being you!! ily a lot, sending you all my love and i wish you an amazing day<3

knus og kys til dig💛✨

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-> From: @allee-sander (Tanya)

Cille, you are an amazing person. you are so kind and loving. every time i see you on my dash, my face lights up. you are a literal angel. you are loved and appreciated, never forget that.

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-> From: @tsjernobyl (Emma)

Cille, you are a genuinely kind and loving soul who's just on this site to talk about the things you love and spread a little joy and everyone can tell that the moment they go onto your blog. i've seen you be nothing but lovely to everyone you interact with and it's a real honor to be mutuals with you and interact from time to time. You are always one of the sweetest and most supportive people here, and i hope you feel that love flowing back to you at all times because you always have my warmest wishes and love!!!!!

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-> From: @dreamaur (Ann)

How does it feel to be so cool and sweet and supportive??? I love you and your mind and how you see so many details and capture them so well with words,,,queen keep going with your top tier analysis and text posts that make me emotional everything single time

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-> From: @annonymannonym (Alice)

Where do I even begin ummm ... well words may not be enough to describe such angelic human being that Cille is but today is about her *about you Cille* !♡! Honestly I’m so so happy and honoured and so grateful to have meet and know you and come along your blog and your amazing posts and edits , let’s s not forget about the masterpiece that your analysis is cuz I live for every single one of them ! Always so on point and touchy and so so emotionally, they give you a whole new perspective and point of view and helps you connect with the person that goes throught those feelings , helping you understand so much deeper the feelings and the emotions he experience in that right moment( so thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking your time and writing these it really shows how much passion and love you put on making these! they absolute helped me to understand and feel much more the meaning behind all these little moments you captured so so well and wonderful ! ) You’re always such a blessing here so lovely friendly so goodhearted and sooo on ... < insert here all the good compliments in the world > cuz they all applies to you ! Know that you’re so special and such a light a sunshine wherever you are and go , you always spread so much positivity and good energy and love and compassion and you support every single people your way comes along with and you shown so much respect and love and understanding ! Always with a wise and thoughtful mind and with the right words at you using them with so much care and mining fullness ! And your blog i love love love it the b&w aesthetic and your love for it owns my heart !! I adore your posts so much ( or ramblings or thoughts as you may call them but know they are so so much more than that its a way of yours to express yourself and open up and pour every feeling you experience and many people found themselves and feel with you , I find myself in them and resonate with them every time ! ahh and your tags that you write in every post are sooo sweet and cute i could read them all day long just coming on your blog and read them makes my day so much better ) they are such a good way to brighten your day and they put a smile on my face whenever i see you on my dash truly a blessing to have you here! Never forget how unique and special human being you are and every one who has you in their lives are very blessed to have you ! Never change being this beautiful inside and out but most importantly inside ! literally a tresure your soul is and must be protected at all cost so take very good care of it ! Don’t forget to always do what makes you happy and gives joy and peace and just you know that good feeling you have in your chest and heart whenever you do something you love and like with passion and joy. I could say so much more but maybe I’ll repeat myself cuz there are never enough compliments to say about how wonderful person you are! you deserve every single one of them ! I really meant every word i said from the bottom of my heart and know that i really apreciate and love all you do and I’ll be here to support you anytime! You deserve the absolute world and more!! love you Cille! ♡ Okey bye✿

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-> From: @robbesdriesen (Bianca)

Cille ~ such a lovely presence to see on my dash always!! Your support towards everyone in the fandom is more than appreciated and so is your love that you continuously aim to spread <3

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-> From: @happilyinsane (Dharaa)

Hey Cille 💕

Just wanted to say that I think you are really sweet and lovely. I see you everywhere on the tumblr. Wanna thank you for keeping this fandom alive during the drought and keep us entertained. I see your tags on people's posts and I always feel like you are so kind and sweet to spend your time appreciating people's work. Doesn't matter if its a photo or an edit or whatever. You are so nice to pay attention to everyone individually. You are such a good friend/mutual, always appreciating and sliding into their asks and just making their day a lil bit better. You definitely bring so many smiles on our faces. I am sure everyone is very thankful to have you in this fandom, I know I am.

I know we haven't interacted that much but thank you for sliding into my asks and giving me an opportunity to interact with you. You are the sweetest, baby. And I hope you like this whole thing that Rodrigo is doing, because you definitely deserve it. Keep lighting up our dashes with your posts, pls. Ilysm 💕

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-> From: @alwaysaneverland (Sarah)

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-> From: @theflowerisblue (Lola)

Cille! You’re such a present part of the tag! You’re always interacting and posting and I love reading what you have to say. Your music analysis are so interesting and I also think you’re really funny! I love your black and white aesthetic and most of all I love how supportive and positive you’re towards everyone!

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-> From: @fvae (Fae)

hi cille!! I'm really glad to have met you through this fandom and I hope you like the surprise!! I loved to read your song analysis because they're always on point and well thought of👌 💯  and your edits!! *chef's kiss*

sending you lots of love and hugs 💕💖💫

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-> From: @embeddedinmybrain (Tasfia)

Hi Cille! You are just a ray of sunshine!! And you are the sweetest and kindest person here. I loved following through with your wtfock music analysis posts bc everything you felt is exactly what I felt. They made me really emotional!! And of course I (and Sarah and Fae) appreciate your tags for moyo season so much. We wait for them and we read them to each other and we just love seeing your reactions to it. Your edits are incredibly amazing too and I love the colouring in them. You are just an amazing sweetheart and I’m so glad to know you 🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕

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-> From: @veerledejaegers (Soph)

Cille, you are very friendly and sweet, always insightful and seem like an incredibly lovely person that i hope i can get to know better ❤���(also love the black and white aesthetic)

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-> From: @sanderxrobbee (Semri)

Cilleeeeeeeeeeee loml!!!! Merry Christmas to you! I genuinely wish you all the best and I hope you get to spend all the holidays in the best way possible! You’re such a blessing to this fandom because you’re talented in every single way, whether it’s your writing or your godly Photoshop skills, oh and let’s not forget your dedication because you’re there all the time to brighten our days and make us smile. I haven’t known you for long, but I truly love and appreciate all you do and I’m grateful that you always take the time to compliment everything and everyone. You have no idea how much it makes me smile when you say my gifs are good because I’ve yet to learn a lot, but you are seriously one of the biggest reasons I haven’t given up the second something got too complicated. Where am I going with this? No idea. Anyway, I adore the fuck out of you and I’m happy to take part in this “project” because you really deserve all the love in the world. Once again, happy holidays!

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-> From: @hopelessromanticvirgo (Elene)

Talking about you Cille is making me always so emotional but I will try my best not to burst out from love and emotions. You’re one of the sweetest person here and I will never get tired of saying that.

We haven’t talked that much directly but I don’t need that to know you’re one of the greatest person here, I just know that for sure. I’m also sure about it because I can see the way you treat people? Even speaking about your tags? Like you take the time out of your day to make sure everybody gets love and everybody gets attention. You make all of us smile and I adore your tags on my stories. You can’t even imagine how many times I have reread your posts about it, like I crave it, I’m in love with it, it makes me feel so happy and so loved and I’m certain that everybody else feels the same way too. You always know how to make everybody’s day better and how to make them feel special.

And please, don’t even get me started on your posts! Your song analysis. Like I know I’ve told you this thousands of times before but I don’t care, I’m saying it again! The way you pictured and described all those songs and scenes!!! Like wow! I’d always reread your posts about that one specific scene after rewatching the season countless of times. (And you also did so many scenes!! I’m in awe and I’m emo from just thinking about it)

Watching clips were different but reading them with lyrics were a whole other thing. I just felt so connected with the whole story and scenes when I’d ready your posts. And connect scenes with the music and it was the best thing ever. Sometimes I still go back and reread some of my favorite posts of yours. I never get tired of it.

And you’re so kind and so sweet that I could write essays about it! Such a blessing to this world! I just love you a lot okay? Everybody needs somebody like you, somebody who shines from kindness and love and people around you must be so lucky who get to meet you everyday and talk to you!

Thank you so much for everything you do, for being you and for making my day better and making me smile every time you reblog my posts or every time I just see your username on my dashboard! It’s such a small gesture but means so much!

Thank you for existing, babe! I hope you’re gonna have a wonderful day! And I’m sending you the biggest hug and my positive vibes! I hope a smile never leaves your face! And I only wish the best things up onto you! I love you! ❤️❤️❤️

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-> From: @itubainaretro (Esther)

Cille, my queen!!! Hi, sweetheart! Just dropping by to say that I hope you’re having a good day, despite the situation that the world is in, and that you’re feeling happy, loved, cherished and warm today, because you’re you and you deserve to feel all the best feelings in the world! I wish you all the happiness in the world and that all your wishes come true too, because you sure deserve it! Thank you for being this amazing, inspiring, talented and sweet person that you are and that I’ve come to know a little bit in the past few months! I know we don’t exactly talk that much, but I want you to know that I love seeing you, your beautiful edits and your extremely heart warming “moments that live in my head rent free” posts on my dash daily! They all really make my days! Thank you for sharing your posts with us and making this fandom (and the world, honestly) a better place! You’re amazing and I’m really glad I pressed the follow button the day I did when I started following you! I hope this little message makes you smile today, babe! Best wishes and lots and lots of love,

Esther (itubainaretro) ♥️

PS: don’t forget to hydrate yourself, wear a mask and stay safe haha xxxx.

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-> From: @driesendotkom (Marie)

Dear cille,

the reason i‘m writing this is to simply say thank you. thank you for being such a stable part of the fandom. every time i go into the tag i know i will see you there and it makes me smile every time. i can’t tell you how many hours i spent reading every one of your song analysis. even now a year after season 3 ended i find myself going back to them now and then to reminisce and relive those moments all over again.

i also want to say thank you for being such a kind and welcoming person. you care so much about the people you are close to. you are so easy to talk to and you make the people around you feel comfortable instantly. you brought a little bit of hygge into my life and one more time i want to say thank you 💛

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-> From: @driesenrobbe (Becca)

my dear, sweet, cille! you never fail to make me smile and im beyond happy that we became mutuals! im sure i’ve already said this a million times before but you really do have the biggest heart and i couldn’t thank you enough for all the love and support you constantly share to everybody in the wtfock fandom. plus the talent you possess... girllllll i love seeing your edits and reading your posts (honestly your mind is just wowowowow, it’s on a whole other level of incredible and i hope you know just how wonderful you are). also the way you always write entire essays in the tags of other posts... like you really do take the time to make everyone feel so welcomed and loved, and I’m sending you an infinite amount of love and appreciation in return! you really are the sweetest, most caring person who deserves all the happiness in the world, an actual ray of sunshine! i hope you know how loved and cherished you are, and that good vibes are always being sent your way. Many hugs and kusjes, ilysm!!!! <3

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-> From: @mijnlief (Eline)

Dear Cille,

This year has been a weird one, but I do know that it has also been one of the best because of meeting you. In such a short time we became so close, and I am so grateful to have met you during these weird times. We are so alike in many ways and I love that so much. Our Skype conversations are my favorite and the essays you send me about my writing and just about me being me always make me feel happy and loved. You are the kindest and most generous person ever. I hope you know how special you are. I am so proud of you for everything you have achieved this year and for choosing yourself in situations where it got hard to make a choice in the first place. I know I tell you that everyday, but it doesn’t hurt to say it again right here. I hope this post makes you smile, because you deserve that so much for just being who you are. You bring happiness to all of my days and I can’t wait to hug you one day soon when everything in the world calms down again. I love you lots! 🧡 Eline

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-> From: @onzeziggy (Laurien)

My sweetest Cille, where do I even begin? I suggest we should just begin from the very beginning and I’m sorry in advance if this is going to be a long, sappy text! But now that I have the chance (shout out to Rodrigo) for saying everything I want, I’m not able to tell you how long this will take.

So Cille, I still remember very clearly the first time I saw your account appearing on my dash. It was a music analysis from one of the songs from season 3. I was so amazed by it, because I could imagine how much time it takes to make it and observe every little detail in a single clip. I immediately fell in love with the concept of it and one week later, when you posted another one, my mouth dropped to the floor. Another music analysis? From the same person? Who is she and how do I become her friend? After that second post, I immediately started following you and became your little fangirl. I don’t lie when I say I was waiting every week for a new update of your incredible music analysis nor when I say I loved every single one of them (and still do). I know I already said this a million times, but your words of telling what was going on in every clip, about the emotions present in them, and how the music blended all of it together… No one, and I mean no one could have done it any better! I will forever be grateful for those posts and I want to thank you once again for wanting to share them and your talent with us!

After the music analysis adventure, your picture edits catched my eye. I love them so so much and I also took some creation of it for making some myself. Still, I was this little fangirl, knowing your name is Cille, but also wanting to know so much more about the person behind one of my favorite blogs. And now, during this hiatus, I can say I’ve got to know you and I couldn’t be any happier about it! Starting with little comments in each other’s tags, having little chats in the comment sections to screaming about a possible drawing of Robbe from Sander on their one year anniversary. And look at us now, reblogging almost every post and writing essays in each other’s tags hahah! Honestly, it keeps me alive during these times and I’m so glad I can do this together with you! I live for your attacks! Aaaah now that I’m talking about an attack, the fact that you have a dimples post ready is making me so excited and I think about it every day! We both know what’s important in love and life and that’s Robbe’s dimples! But this right here shows once again what an amazing sweet person you are! No one on here has ever done anything like this for me before, so I can’t thank you enough for this and all the other things you did and still do for me! And the privilege I have to be able to call you my friend warms my heart <33

I’m going to end this with a little quote Robbe wrote in one of his Instagram posts. When I read it again a couple of days ago, I immediately thought of you and what we’ve been through together the last few weeks :’)) Once again, thank you so much for everything you do for me and for everyone here in this fandom and being the amazing person you are! You deserve the whole world for it!

“Sometimes it’s like we just met yesterday, but other days it seems like I already know you my whole life, I love you Cille!” <33

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I hope you enjoyed this💛 If you didn't know this community loved you yet (and I don't think that was possible), now you definetly do.

Extra: I'd like to thank once again everyone that took part it this surprise, you are all the sweetest for taking some time to write this and to help me with it! Thank you so so much✨

[whereisstevethestove]

Vines and Frost: Fae AU

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Characters: Virgil, Logan, Remy

Relationships: Familial AnxSleep

Additional Tags: Death mentions, le magical slavery, abusive parents, 

Word Count: fuck if I know.  jk, it’s 596

Summary: When Virgil’s ten year old brother is decided as the town’s Fae sacrifice, he takes his place, knowing that as bad as their mother’s abuse is, it’s better than becoming a Seelie’s thrall. Unfortunately, the Seelie don’t accept him and he’s stuck with a cold Unseelie that doesn’t really want him. or does he?

(cough cough, if Mahogany and Teakwood won’t give me endgame analogical, I’ll do it my fucking self.)

Notes: I know I said this would be out by five thirty cali time, but I got distracted lmao.  please reblog:)

AO3

Virgil really didn’t want to be sacrificed.

Well, at least it wasn’t his little brother on the culling block, wrists up and bound in vines.  It wasn’t the most ideal place to be on the spring equinox, and Virgil is slightly choking because when the people in his town dragged him out here, they forgot to loosen the vine around his neck.

In literally any other circumstance this would probably look odd, but due to the forest that their growing town is by, the creatures inside had started… asking for offerings to prevent them from razing the town to the ground.  So every equinox and solstice, one unlucky person was picked.

Four people a year was better than losing ten thousand in one swoop. At least, that’s what they convinced themselves.  Virgil thought it was dumb, surely there were other ways to appease the fae that didn’t involve murder.

Right?

…

“Mamma, where’s Vee?”  Remy looked up at his mother, waiting for an answer.  The bed that his brother usually slept in was empty and never in the ten years of Remy’s life had he seen it like this.  Yes, sometimes Virgil came home late from the forest, but his bed was always unmade, a mess.

Now it was made neatly, and his side of the room didn’t have anything left that reminded him of his big brother.  Mamma sighed.

“He’s not coming back sweetie.”

“Why?”

“It’s a long story.”

“Why?” Remy demanded, sitting up in his bed.  “I want Virgil!” “Virgil is doing something important for our people, and so you will go to sleep and forget that he even existed.”  Mamma snapped and Remy blinked at her outburst before falling into tears.

“He’s gone?”

“Yes, go to sleep.”

…

The shadows seemed to leech out of the ground and Virgil didn’t bother looking up as footsteps crunched towards him.

“What a pretty little gift!” 

Virgil didn’t respond as the creature sliced through the vines and gently tilted his head up.  Glittering silver eyes met brown and Virgil blinked tiredly.

“Oh, you’ve been out here for a good while.  Can you stand?”

When he didn’t react, the Fae sighed and brushed a finger across Virgil’s forehead.  “It’s very rude of them to leave me something so damaged, but I suppose I’ll make do with you.”

Then the Fae scoops the small teen off of the culling block, bringing him deeper into the darkness of the forest and the town is safe for another season.

Virgil knows that he isn’t though.  But he’s too exhausted to fight back or even snark, so he lets his head fall back limply, drawing a laugh from the creature carrying him.

…

The Unseelie knew that he really didn’t have a claim to this human, but when his brother refused to take them, he had to step in before the poor thing died.

It’s not that the Seelie are picky, well, they are and Remus and his twin are no exception, only taking the most favorable and it is clear that whatever this human is, they are not.  The Seelie like pretty things, things that are breakable.  

This human isn’t really pretty and he already looks broken, if the pale scars lacing his face and neck are any confirmation.  Add in the brown hair and eyes, even if he is pretty by Unseelie standards, he’s monstrous by Seelie’s rules.

The Unseelie looked down at his human, who had fallen asleep.  How annoying, he didn’t even have a name to call him yet.

Well, that could be sorted out in the morning.

[destroyed-conscience]

Be Good {Analogical} (Part 9)

Oh... My God... It has been like an entire y e a r I am so unbelievably sorry for the long wait. I made it a bit longer to make up for it! So hopefully y’all can forgive me lmao. This is a very important chapter! It’s all starting to come together now!

As Always: Reblogs > Likes

Trigger Warnings: References and Descriptions of Physical Abuse, Swearing, Referenced Infidelity, Recreational Drug Use, Cheating, Domestic Abuse, Toxic Relationships, Dark!Logan, Ask to Tag!

Virgil should have known that it wouldn't have lasted. Granted, the calm period had lasted longer than usual, giving him what was now proved to be a false sense of hope. But the peace had still been eventually broken by an equally broken glass that had fallen to the floor.

The shouts had taken him by surprise, more so than the actual slap itself that soon followed, or the corner of the counter jabbing into his thigh when he was shoved before he fell to the ground, hands landing in the shards of glass in a vain attempt to protect himself from further damage. His hands stung from behind their new bandages, the cuts from the jagged pieces of glass not liking the way Virgil had his hands clenched into fists as he walked.

Logan had been quick with his apologies, immediately seeking out the first aid kit and gently removing any shards from his palms that had pierced his flesh.  

The guilt in his eyes as he saw the blood staining the shards caused Virgil to pull him into a brief kiss. It hadn't been too big of a deal, just a gentle press of his own against Logan's, an attempt to tell him 'You're forgiven.'

The smile that Logan gave him was enough to make Virgil forget the warm sting in his cheek.

Still, the moment Logan had left for work, Virgil was out the door not five minutes later. He needed to get out of the house for a little while, the air was too stuffy despite the windows that had been opened, the silence threatening to drown him in his own thoughts.

That had been hours ago and, despite it now being midnight at the least, the moon having risen hours ago, he was still wandering aimlessly.

He didn't want to go home just yet.

Still, he wasn't exactly sure as to where he was walking, or what it was that he wanted to do. He just knew he didn't quite want to return at the moment. Rather, he would like to admire the scenery, the darkness falling on the objects around him painting the area in shadows, looking unfamiliar to his eyes that were so accustomed to seeing it in the daylight.

Logan didn't like it when Virgil stayed out too late, but right now, he felt he needed it. Besides, Logan seemed to be trying to get better -despite the earlier events-, maybe he'd understand? Just this once.

When the sun dropped from the sky, the temperature followed and Virgil was just now feeling the effects of the chill. He buried his hands in his hoodie, which he had luckily remembered to bring with him. As he buried himself in the warmth of it, he looked around his person, freezing for a moment as he saw a familiar face just footsteps away from him.

He almost outright laughed at the sheer coincidence of having run into Roman again, after what had previously happened as a result of the last time. Virgil could still feel a slight pang from where he had been injured from Logan's rage over Virgil's closest friend. And here he was. Again. Right when Virgil did not need him to be.

Virgil prayed silently that Roman hadn't noticed him, but seemed to have no luck, as the other man's eyes widened in recognition and immediately sped up until he was stood in front of darker clad man.  

"Virge, hi!"

Virgil ducked his head down in greeting, mumbling out a quiet "Hey.." In response to Roman's. The taller of the two seemed to deflate a little at the other's lack of enthusiasm, cocking his head slightly in a visual display of his confusion.

"What's wrong?" He questioned him, Virgil quickly scanning his brain for one of his many, pre-written excuses.  

"Nothing, really! I'm just... really tired." Virgil let out an awkward chuckle, hoping for Roman to just drop it and move onto another subject, or even just leave.

He didn’t seem to have luck on his side, though. Roman merely quirked an eyebrow, obviously not believing a word he said. “So, you’re going for a walk? At night? Because you’re tired?”

Okay, maybe Virgil should have given a more realistic lie.

The paler man heaved a sigh, removing a hand from his pocket to drag it down his face. “Sorry, Roman. I just—me and Logan had a fight. I just had to get out of the house for a while.”  He glanced at his friend from beneath his hand, seeing Roman’s eyes soften.

“Aw, Virge. I’m really sorry. Hopefully you guys will be able to talk through everything...”

Virgil scuffed the ground with his feet, pushing his hands back into his pockets. He ducked his head. “... Yeah.. I hope so.”  

The two stood in a semi-awkward silence for a few moments, neither knowing what to say. Until Roman piped up with an idea, that is.

“I know exactly what will take your mind off of all this!” Virgil looked up, eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

“What?” He asked nervously, almost regretting the words before he even said them. After knowing Roman for so long, he could already guess what the other was going to suggest.

“My friend is actually having a party!” Yep. Should have known.

“What are the odds.” Virgil muttered, although Roman chose to ignore it.

“My friend, Patton, is hosting it with his flatmate! I think you and Patton would get along pretty well, maybe I could introduce you? I’m not sure about his roommate, though...” Roman continued talking, but Virgil blocked out most of it.

Every aspect of his life seemed to be melding together. Virgil would laugh if it wasn’t so tiring.

First, he finds out Logan had a secret relationship he never told him about, then he finds Logan and Patton together, now he finds out Roman and Patton are friends? Honestly, he wouldn’t be surprised if he were to find out Elliot is Patton’s brother or some shit at this point.

Virgil was snapped out of his train of thought at the sound of his name being said. Looking up from where his gaze had subconsciously lowered to the ground once more, he saw Roman looking at him expectantly.

“... Huh?” He murmured dumbly, causing Roman to chuckle.

The man ran a hand through his hair “I said,” He let his hand drop from his hair, instead holding it out in front of him and towards Virgil instead “Are you coming?”

Virgil studied the hand held out to him for a few moments, weighing his options and the outcomes before heaving a sigh and taking his friend’s hand.

The grin that broke out of Roman’s face when their fingers intertwined almost made the squirming feeling in his gut go away.

The music coming from the house was loud enough for Virgil to hear when he and Roman entered the block the house was situated on. Roman gave his hand a reassuring squeeze as he opened the already unlocked door, the pair being greeted with even louder waves of music and crowds of people (mainly college students, by the looks of it).

Virgil took a deep breath, trying to calm himself and focus on the fact that Roman was there in an effort to ground himself. He could trust Roman. Roman always protected him when he needed him. Roman wouldn’t lead him into something that could hurt him (at least, not knowingly).

Roman weaved his way through the crowd, Virgil trailing after him and clinging to his hand with a vice grip. The last thing he wanted was to end up stranded in the crowds of people.  

It’s been so long since he was at a party.

Virgil looked up as he and Roman came to a stop, stiffening upon seeing who his friend was greeting.

“Patton! Hey!”

“Oh my gosh, Roman! God it feels like I haven’t seen you in forever, I’m so glad you made it!” The bespectacled man grinned, freckles still so obvious despite the darker environment. His grin turned teasing, eyes crinkling “I was worried you wouldn’t show up, at the time you seemed to be taking! Did you get preoccupied?” The question was punctuated with a wink, to which Roman huffed a breath of laughter at.

He gave Virgil’s hand a soft squeeze, tugging him forward gently, although leaving Virgil enough room to decline and back out should he not feel comfortable enough.  

“Patton, this is Virgil. My best friend! I hope you don’t mind me bringing him along,” He smiled sheepishly.

Patton, however, was too busy staring at Virgil. His smile never left his face, although Virgil –who was staring right back- noticed his lips twitch downwards by the most minuscule amount in surprise. He kept his smile on, though; quickly turning his gaze to Roman.

“Not at all! I never said you couldn’t bring a friend, after all!” He turned to Virgil once more, holding a hand out “It’s nice to meet you, Virgil.”

Virgil looked at the hand extended to him before looking back up at Patton. He knew this wasn’t just for show with Roman. He knew what Patton was trying to convey.

Start over?

Virgil bit his cheek for a moment, contemplating. It felt like eternity (although it really was less than a second) before he made a decision.

He shook Patton’s hand.

“Nice to meet you, too.” Virgil gave a small smile to the other, who’s shoulders relaxed slightly.

Patton gave his hand a soft squeeze before releasing it.  

“Well!” The other man smiled at them both, having to yell as the crowd suddenly had a surge in volume. “I should go and check on everyone else! Make sure nothing’s broken around here. If I can’t trust Remy around my Grandmother’s vase, how can I trust anyone else?” The joke seemed more aimed at Roman, which made sense, seeing as he was the one who was actually friends with Patton.

Virgil watched Patton leave, Roman grinning at him as he disappeared into the crowd. The older of the two turned towards Virgil, grin still on his face.

“I told you that you two would get along, didn’t I?”

Virgil gave Roman a shaky smile, finding the other’s smugness adorable despite it all. “Yeah, Ro, you did.”

Virgil had no idea what amount of time had passed since he got there, he just knew it was probably a lot. He was forcing the twisting in his stomach to calm down, having lost Roman somewhere in the house, when he jumped at a tap on his shoulder. Turning, he was met with a man around his age, if not maybe 2 or 3 years older at most. He donned a leather jacket and had sunglasses on, despite it being dark out and being indoors. Virgil brushed it off, he’d met plenty of strange people in his life, anyway.

Instead, he looked questioningly at the stranger in front of him, wondering why he had tried to get his attention. Was he standing in his way, perhaps? Maybe he thought he was someone else?

The man quickly answered his internal thoughts, tilting his head slightly to the side. Despite the dark sunglasses he had on, Virgil could practically feel his gaze surveying him from behind the shades. He tried not to fidget, not really knowing what to say. He didn’t want to risk his words coming out as confrontational when he didn’t mean them to be; it had happened with Logan plenty of times, after all.  

Virgil just didn’t know how to conduct himself properly in a social situation. But it’s alright, Logan could always do the talking for him, it was better that way.

He was yanked from his thoughts as the leather-clad man in front of him finally spoke. He glanced at him, eyes peeking up over his sunglasses as he scrutinised the younger man before him.

“I’ve never seen you before,” He narrowed his eyes, studying him in the dark room as people bustled around them, dancing and just exploring the house, stumbling drunkenly. “You that friend Roman’s always talking about? Virgo?”

Virgil gave what he hoped was a good-natured smile “Virgil, actually. Most people just call me Virge, though,” He scrunched his nose “Virgil sounds like a Philosopher or something.”

His attempt at humour managed to get a laugh out of the man in front of him.

“I can relate to that,” The stranger snickered, stepping closer so they were now properly face-to-face, rather than the awkward few inches apart they had been. The other man was relatively close to Virgil in height, maybe only having an inch or so on him. He stuck his hand out to him, Virgil hesitantly taking it.

“My parents for some god-awful reason decided to name me Remington, of all things, but if you ever actually call me that, we’re gonna have some serious issues,” He said, surprisingly serious before smiling blinding teeth at Virgil “You can call me Remy, instead.” And by God, Virgil could feel Remy winking at him from behind his sunglasses.

Virgil nodded, giving what he hoped was another smile, the process coming easier to him this time around. “Consider it done.” He promised earnestly, receiving a grin from the leather-clad man in return.

Remy released Virgil’s hand suddenly “Well, Virge,” He said, emphasising Virgil’s name pointedly, a smirk pulling at his lips. “How about I show you how to really party?”

Virgil tilted his head slightly “What do you mean by that?”  

Remy simply offered him a grin, raising an eyebrow “Ever gotten high before?”

Virgil hummed from where he was stretched out, eyes not leaving where the lights were flashing. They had seemed so dull at first when he came here with Roman but now, they were so bright and alive and beautiful. They flashed along to the beat of the music playing in the background and Virgil could feel the music practically wrapped around him. Maybe that’s what was making him move so slow? Maybe.

He looked to his side where Remy was sitting, criss-cross apple sauce –oh, apple sauce was so good, he needs to buy some immediately- currently lighting another blunt, the other was currently being passed around and clearly Remy had no patience to wait for it to reach him again. Whatever, Virgil mused, it was his weed, anyways.

Logan would have never allowed Virgil to try any type of drug (hell, he rarely had alcohol) but when Virgil had timidly mentioned that his boyfriend wouldn’t approve of him getting high, Remy had just scoffed and rolled his eyes, having pushed his sunglasses up to rest atop his head, and given Virgil the blunt anyway.

Now, fast forward to them now, and here they were sprawled out and high as all hell.  

Virgil was busy musing about past events and appreciating the bassline of the song currently playing –bass... whatever happened to Meghan Trainor? Her songs were catchy- and didn’t hear Remy the first time he called his name, the other man having to call his name a second time to get his attention.

He slowly turned his head to look at the other brunette, who was holding a now lit blunt and looking at him expectantly. Virgil blinked at him for a moment, only uttering a non-committal “Hmm?” as he examined how the lights reflected off Remy’s hair, the colours pulsing like a heartbeat.

“You ever shotgunned before?”

Virgil furrowed his brow “I’m pro-gun control.”

Remy snorted; the weed-induced haze placed on his brain concluding what he said was the funniest thing ever. “Not that shotgun. Shotgunning, it’s when you take a hit, inhale a bit then exhale in another person’s mouth so they get the rest of the smoke.” Due to how long the sentence was, it took quite a bit for Remy to coherently get it out, but Virgil was pretty sure he understood what he was talking about.

“Oh.”

“Yeah. It’s fun,” Remy nodded, almost mater-of-factly to himself. A silence hung over them again, although it wasn’t exactly awkward, the two of them just allowing the faint buzz to roll over them in waves.

Remy broke the silence.

“Wanna try it?”

“Try what?” Virgil asked, looking over at him again.

“Duh, shotgunning. Do you wanna try it?”

Virgil contemplated for a few seconds, before deciding it probably wasn’t that bad of an idea. He nodded “Yeah, sure.”

“Cool.”

Virgil found himself, after a few seconds of lazy effort on both their parts, kneeling so he was straddling his new friend’s lap, their mouths level. He watched as Remy took a hit from the blunt that had been burning away for the entirety of their silence, their eyes staying locked on each other’s the entirety of the time.

Remy’s eyes were coffee brown.

He didn’t need much more coaxing than a hand gently placing itself at the nape of his neck to place his mouth over Remy’s own, allowing the smoke to pass to him.

If either of them lingered, they simply blamed the haze for slowing them.

[nadineselfships-archived]

I was tagged by @lildreamysoul!! Thank you for tagging me! ^w^

Rules: Bold the statements that are true for you. Tag 9 people you’d like to get to know better.

APPEARANCE

I am 5′7″ or taller (5′8″ i’m a tol lady OvO)

I wear glasses (I don’t need them for my vision, I was prescribed them to help with these hella bad migraines I get)

I have at least one tattoo (One day,,, I actually want to get a gaster blaster on my wrist)

I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes (Fun fact my eyes are my favourite thing about myself ;0)

I have short hair (I have an undercut and I'm Mclovin’ it)

My abs are at least somewhat defined (I am soft and squish and am a perfect pillow so I have been told)

I had or have had braces

PERSONALITY

I love meeting people (I have severe anxiety but I do love meeting people and making new friends ;;v;;)

People tell me that i’m funny

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me (I may be depressed and should be focusing on bettering myself but other people come first always)

I enjoy physical challenges

I love mental challenges

I am playfully rude with people i know well (if the people are comfortable with it i get super duper playfully rude, we’ll call each other names back and forth and the word bitch is thrown around every second and we say stuff like “ew it’s ---- gross” but then hug and ahhh it’s great i love my friends)

I started saying something ironically and now i can’t stop saying it

There’s something i’d change about my personality

ABILITY

I can sing well (I want to say i can so badly because i sing a lot and i love singing and someone told me i have a jazz voice but i think i sound like a dying whale so nah)

I can play an instrument (NOT TO BRAG BUT I’M A  PRO AT THE RECORDER *snorts* nah but i have a keyboard and i’m trying to teach myself how to play it)

I can do over 30 push-ups without stopping

I’m a fast runner

I can draw well (drawing is one of the only things i’m good at lmao)

I have a good memory (i walk into a room and forget why i’m there, so no, no i don’t)

I’m good at doing math in my head

I can’t hold my breath under water for more than a minute (i can get to like 30 seconds but that’s it)

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch (i was a very violent child and i have a real good right hook)

HOBBIES

I enjoy playing sports ( i loved playing soccer and baseball, basketball to but i wasn’t too good at it)

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

I’m in a orchestra or choir in my school or somewhere else

I’ve learned a new song in the past week (it’s mostly a rap song but like yeah)

I work out at least once a week

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing (I have a writing blog and a bazillion unfinished stories on my computer lol)

FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION

I do or have done martial arts (did karate when i was a smol child, got up to like brown belt or something idek)

EXPERIENCE

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been to an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past years

I have beaten a video game in one day

I have visited another country (One day ;;v;;)

I have been to one of my favourite bands concerts

RELATIONSHIPS

I’m in a realationship (i was in one recently but it was long distance so we fell apart)

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone i know (I have a crush on anyone who pays attention to me hi)

I have been in at least 3 relationships

I have never been in a relationship

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily (*coughs*)

I have had a crush on someone for over a year (It was bad for my health do no recommend lmao)

I have had feelings for a friend (most of the people i dated were my friends first and then stayed my friends when we broke up)

MY LIFE

I have at least one person i consider a best friend

I live close to my school

My parents are still together (which is weird cuz they basically hate each other but o well)

I have at least one sibling (Two siblings, my big sister and MY MOST AMAZING BIG SIBLING WHOM I LOVE, REMY, my best friend, my homeslice, my dude, my dudette, i love ‘em couldn’t live without them)

I lived in the United States

There’s snow right now where i live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month (I haven’t seen my friends for 6 months rip)

I have a smartphone

I have at least 15 CD’s

I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT

I have breakdanced

I know a person named Jamie (i have known two people named Jamie and i had a crush on both of them lmao)

I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce

I have dyed my hair (hell yeah i have, i’m planning on dying it again soon i just need to get the frickin’ dye)

I’m listening to a song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the last week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I know what i want to do with my life

I have eaten a waffle today

I speak at least 2 languages

i have made a new friend in the past year

I tag @k1ng-fisher @selfshipshiba @dateacrab @selfinsertheaven @emmshipping @alotta-lovin @reecheecx @marookooart @smoochesforseven and anyone who wants to do it because i wanna tag you all but i can’t ;;v;; (you don’t have to do this if you don’t wanna either <3)