#nt a new fucking concept

[unproduciblesmackdown]

reread the rest thus far of lackadaisy and there's the both v easy & difficult task of gathering a shit ton but only a shit ton of excerpts (like every single page is a highlight i'm not exaggerating)

and every single element is superlative and the way it all only becomes More So....already mentioned the way the like smooth gradient shading made the successful evocation of 3D Shapes more noticeable, along w/the consistent geometries of character design & details in fabric folds; the way Lighting & Coloring only goes on to become more prominent elements only enhances that further. the compositions, backgrounds, pacing, angles....everything is so dynamic & expressive, such as including the expressions which you know i also Love / absorbed

going "hell yes for people to discover this superlative comic" then having to occasionally refresh past site traffic overloaded server errors like "nooo" but actually yes

whilest clapping & cheering for the fun of everyone who's been here a minute. My God the invigorating reward when again i started reading in '07 & the concept of rocky & freckle on a "proper" run had only manifested via fun official bonus art, then a literal decade later as it was actually happening in the comic like screeeeaammm i can feel it coming in the air tonight oh lord etc....i've loved following it, again, if i see another new comic page. i am going to be Enriched

i also really was right on the ball myself this time around like okay okay yep i have picked up on Everything, at least to the degree i can lmao. i love the mysteries. i love how Character Focused it is too ofc and there's no characters i'm uniterested in / dislike. you gotta point to one of them, truly, and i have been a [pointing at freckle] enjoyer these fifteen years but fr i am a connoisseur of everyone, i love that so many characters are a weird mysterious chaos element story driver in their own right. i considered mordecai more intently than ever, love his like ultra mystery (and that we leave off on him doing some detectiving even) and truly fun that like, the source of the more Immediate problems he keeps having in every damn interaction isn't the like [wow mordecai with the just diving into the hatchet murdering] factor so much as it's that he's generally like "i am just standing here" and is not nt in any way that matters and people insist on fucking with him on that front. the peak tragedy of him in a bonus comic getting bullied into having to dance with someone to Be Polite like i'm so sorry i wish you could be that ficus too. anyways intrigued with the marigold &/or mordecai mysteries including that it's like, how coincidental is it that he talks about marigold having a thorn in its side & the savoys' nickname for him is peekon = thorn. there is so much to consider, love that for us truly. and i'm rooting for mordecai & nicodeme's dynamic out here, is another conclusion....very enriched by comparing & contrasting that serafine nicodeme mordecai triumvirate with the rocky ivy freckle one, to be sure. im enriched

i'm also enriched by every footnote that's got like historical facts / research notes / [this is inaccurate for xyz prioritization but here's the disclaimer] explanations. i Love information. and everything else like i loooove this comic it's Soooo Fucking putting my hands to my temples and inhaling at length through my teeth

[beardisable]

Im so falling asleep so idk if this will even be comprehensible but

AAAAAAA THE NEW DW SPECIAL WAS SO COOL IM LISUNG NT NJUNNBFFGGÕ

I'm so glad the doctors gender stuff got explored more explicitly, And rose absorbing half of the power is such a cool concept, so so happy to see all the small but magnificant moment where transness was so aknowledges Ns in our face!!!!

I don't understand the "male presenting" and "women can let the metacrisus energy go" stuff but maybe I just need to rewatch when it's not nearly 5 am ..

I'm also a bit lost how rose being trans and nonbinary was like Connected to her being anole to take on donnas memories and powers, but I haven't got to donnas run in my rewatch so maybe it's clearer then

But feel free to offer your opinions and discussion ! I'm def seeing this as a mostly great episode tho which is awesome to experimce

Anyways LMAO FUCK TERF ISLAND ONE OF YOUR BIGGEST ICONIC MEDIAS MAIN CHARACTERS IS GENDERWEEEEEEEEEEEEE(genderqueer but with zoomies)!! Sooooooo cope!! 🫶

[altschmerzes]

Hey! I just read your post about the John chapters in Nona the Ninth and their corresponding book of John verses, and I'd love to read more! If you have a link to share, that would make my day.

YES OKAY CRACKS KNUCKLES HERE WE GO

for context: the john chapters in nona the ninth correspond to the book of john in the gospels of the new testament in the bible. i'm a theology nerd who has a degree in religion and - after first going a little nuts about the positioning and regard of john compared to matthew, mark, and luke in the gospels - i looked up the verses before reading the sections, jotting them down as i went, only to discover the verses had a pretty much DIRECT literal or thematic link to what was about to go. under the cut, i'll go into the verses and the summaries i wrote of the john chapters in nt9 to explain this to some friends. (my familiarity with the christian NT is a liiiiittle less than my familiarity with the torah, Being Jewish And All, but i think i'm pretty on the money with this one.)

for ease of clarity, the structure is 'verse from john, followed by what i refer to as a summary of the corresponding section in 'the gospel of the world's smallest violin.'' also, sections of the bible are sometimes given titles. so the title bit there with the quotes from john refer to that section's title.

also worth noting some of these quotes make me, as a jew, kind of. uncomfortable or annoyed but i'm putting that aside for the moment for the sake of ~literary analysis. also also, the quotes are from the nrsv for the most part.

John 20:8

The Empty Tomb Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside, and he saw and believed.

summary of the gospel of the world's smallest violin section:

we're introduced to the whole bit of that. john starts his story about what happened. he talks about how they believed what they were doing was going to work and it would be okay. the cryo plan. the others had questions but he knew it would be fine.

John 5:20

The Healing At The Pool

For the Father loves the Son and shows him all he does. Yes, and he will show him even greater works than these, so that you will be amazed.

summary of the gospel of the world's smallest violin section:

they get shut down by the gov't. john and company start to get creative. the general public realizes everything is fucked vis a vis climate change. john starts getting into it with ulysses and titania - naming them, spending time with them, etc. most importantly, the bodies he touched stayed uncorrupted. they do not rot.

John 15:23

The Vine and the Branches

Whoever hates me hates my Father as well.

summary of the gospel of the world's smallest violin section:

they start believing him with what's going on. the bodies still don't rot. they're trying to figure out how to make it not real, how to make them respond the way they should, it doesn't work. nobody was paying attention to them yet. augustine was trying to get him to snap out of it and knock it off. mercy had been trying, but had stopped by then. he 'introduces' mercy and augustine to the bodies - ulysses and titania. he's able to move them for the first time.

(that one doesn't quite connect as well but i think it still resonates thematically - the concept of pushback, of him producing these 'miracles' and basically being like. if you love me, you'll stop trying to make me stop. you'll listen to me.)

John 5:18

The Authority of the Son

For this reason they tried all the more to kill him; not only was he breaking the Sabbath but he was calling God his own father, making himself equal to God.

corresponding smallest violin bit:

everybody else learns about what he can do as he gains more control over the body. everybody freaked the fuck out at first, they 'had a big fight over what it meant.' they ultimately believed, bought in, and john knew that 'it was fine.' he knew he'd 'touched something, come away with something, that could be used for good.' the line: 'Two scientists, an engineer, a detective, a lawyer, and an artist walk into a bar to help me become God.' they run trials. they knew if they were caught they'd be shut down and hushed up. he says they 'decided to stream' to tell the world.

John 8:1

this is a disputed part of the gospel of john. from the website i was using to reference: [The earliest manuscripts and many other ancient witnesses do not have John 7:53—8:11. A few manuscripts include these verses, wholly or in part, after John 7:36, John 21:25, Luke 21:38 or Luke 24:53.]

the included verse is: "Unbelief of the Jewish Leaders

-but Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.

corresponding smallest violin bit:

john starts telling the world. making their big announcement, getting attention. the audience members walk away and freak out. people say he's a satanist, or an alien, or something. everyone starts asking him to fix their problems. they actually talk about jesus directly here, that helping people 'was christ's whole problem' and 'got way too much attention and brought the heat down on everybody.' the mount of olives bit, for context, is a time when jesus is interrogated by leaders of the community and basically put through some paces, authority and legitimacy is questioned, and he works in the community. etc.

John 19:18

The Crucifixion

There they crucified him, and with him two others - one on each side and Jesus in the middle.

corresponding smallest violin bit:

they all end up with interpol warrants. the world is closing in on them, only the inner circle left. he talks about being unable to bring back people once they're gone. he talks about how the gov't announces they've got this plan with the ships. he talks about how they kept being called monsters, crazy, etc. the uh. cow thing happens. he tells harrow/alecto 'they didn't give a fuck about trying to save you. they left.'

John 5:1

The Healing at the Pool

Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for one of the Jewish festivals.

corresponding smallest violin bit: they decide they're going to get people to take them seriously. the people who ask him to reanimate a world leader who's died show up and he goes to this very important meeting. he does it. they pay him a shit tonne of money and they're given the nuke.

John 3:20

Jesus Teaches Nicodemus

Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the fight for fear that their deeds will be exposed.

corresponding smallest violin bit:

he says they never wanted to actually use the nuke, just have it to use as leverage. force people to take them seriously, listen to them. among other things john says 'either you're the evil wizard and everyone wants to know what you think, or you're the good wizard and nobody cares.' the plan to leave earth is still accelerating, they're still not listening to him. they paid people to find facilities where the gov'ts are making the ships. they see the whole story is kind of. bullshit. he finally gives up trying to be a scientist and announces to the world he's a necromancer.

John 9:22

The Pharisees Investigate the Healing

His parents said this because they were afraid of the Jewish leaders, who already had declared that anyone who acknowledged Jesus as the Messiah would be put out of the synagogue.

corresponding smallest violin bit:

"They made it clear that they'd arrest anyone who tried to join us. Floods of people came anyway." talks about the general reaction to his necromancer announcement. he's kind of. scaring everyone with what he can do. he's still trying to figure out the soul question. there's an exchange of fire b/w the local cops and the new people trying to join them. john kills people for the first time i believe. he..... 'forgot' to start their hearts again. they dragged in all the corpses.

John 1:20

John the Baptist Denies Being the Messiah

He did not fail to confess, but confessed freely, "I am not the Messiah."

corresponding smallest violin bit:

the escape plan from the gov'ts escalates. they work out the truth about the plan - that there will be one ship, one leaving, and everyone else is big fucked. nobody was listening to them anymore. and they - the other og lyctors - are asking john for a miracle. to fix this. he says he has to stall the ship leaving. they use the nuke as blackmail. the ships are counting down to launch. he sends gideon to the meeting with the nuke. he tells everyone the nuke is armed. he also takes over the man he's been puppeting around to have a second nuke threat. they start telling him to stop, that he still has time to walk this back. he walks away from everything, doesn't want to deal with this anymore. cristabel uh. kills herself. and he touches the soul and then walks away from her. he's touched the earth too, alecto, and that's what he's after now. everyone is dying or dead. he absorbs alecto, or as much of her as he can. he makes her body. he Becomes God. blasts through the planets. etc.

John 5:4

The Healing at the Pool

One who was there had been an invalid for 38 years.

corresponding smallest violin bit:

john and harrow talk about god. about loving god. he keeps on going with his story. says he'll bring back the good ones. fix them. the ones he can stand to look at and forgive. he talks about how he took their memories. talks about how the deaths happened broadly. he talks about alecto, i can't die if she's alive, etc. he needs the lyctors around him etc. the tomb is the death of god. harrow talks about how she wants to find god. maybe she's in the tomb. she walks into the river and to the tower in the river, and says she'll start there.

OKAY. so. there you have it.

it's not always a perfect or clear analogy but given what i know of the gospels and the context, and in a more thematic rather than specific sense, they all line up pretty fucking directly.

this has been: a guided tour through the gospel of john and also the gospel of the world's smallest violin with your host, gav

[harbinger-of-chaossss]

Why do nerotipical people only love autistic people as a concept. Like they love Jessica day from new girl, eddy Munson from stranger things and now Wednesday from her new show, but the thing is when an autistic person points out that those characters are autistic nt’s respond like “why would you say that” or “you’ve ruined the character”. like they were made for us so why can’t we fucking enjoy it.

[chordpauloverstreet]

Just wanted to give a fond farewell to @winkrp; from the very first time Brandi @janesln told me about the concept of this game, to my time as an admin and player, I’ve had a special place in my heart for it. Brandi has worked tirelessly to create a safe place for all her many members and I think everyone should take example from what a patient, understanding, and consistent admin she’s been. Thank you for giving us the privilege of being part of something so creative and unique.

To members taking the closing hard; remember it is extremely time consuming and tedious to run a group of this level, as shown by my own exit from a group I love; give Brandi (and other current admins) the love and respect they deserve, as I know that this choice has been EXTREMELY tough for her to make in closing it down. Sure, it sucks that the group closed, but I can assure you it sucks 100% more for the CREATOR of this amazing group.

[definitely-not-an-alb]

Currently getting a lesson on How To Make A Good Presentation Handout :)))) with 'obvious' tips, and ya know, good thing I'm getting this now after we already handed in the first set of präsis, because idk what 'standards' they have this from, but non of this is how we did it during Abi, and in fact if I had handed something like that in I'd have gotten a failed grade on the handout lol

[shepard-ram]

Hello its the terraria anon coming up with more terrarian!reader ideas for HC

- perhaps the reader is a singular class person (because there are 4 classes in vanilla and you kind of builf your playstyle around them) and just so happened to pick up some extra wespk s that they dont use, so they hand it off ti a hermit like grian and immediately regret the consequences because tHAT was a bow that turns its arrows into HOSTILE BEES and THAT melee weapon is a god damn BANANA. Xisuma has to confiscate all of those weapons much to everyones dismay.

- theres a lot of fun usless items in terraria. Smoke bombs, flasks that make your fists erupt confetti when you punch something, unicorns in a stick,strange dyes that make you look permanently on fire, stink potions.. so dont introduce them to the concepts of pranks, otherwise you may end up drinking a gender swap potion unintentionally.

-one day aomeone sneaks around their stuff and accidentally summons a boss. Cue everyone panicking until the reader diaplys how fucking overpowered they are in this gosh darn world by one shotting it with the best weapon of their class and just saying that was the weakest of the lot theyve fought. Cue the potential awe,fear and worry.

-the sheer. Utter. Confusion. Of their initial arrival. "WHY DONT THE STARS FSLL FROM THE SKY I NEED AMMO" "so you're telling me... you have infinite water... from a 2x2 square??? I had to go through SHIT to get this bottomless water bucket." "Why can i fish up individual items from fishing but nt crates??? Give me crates!" "What the hell is a shovel?" "Why is hell in an alternate realm?" "...enchantments? what are those?" Thembo supreme

-cue the hermits exploiting his to hell. "Oh yeah, [name], if you hold this item (cuse of binding hoe) you'll be loved by the villagers!" "Despite the mining fatigue the elder gives,guardians are actuslly friendly!" "Ooh yeah, yeah, gunpowder can make one immortal for a bit!" They're certainly lucky this reader has upward to 500 health.

-no more elytra. the new hermit gathered a bunch of various beautiful wings and other flying machines on their journey that dont require rockets that the hermits can finally wear a chestplate and look fashionable all ehile in the air. Joe and tfc still remain elytra users.

- they do not. Trust the mycelium biome. Looks too much like an evil world plague calked the corruption. Cue a wholesome momsnt where they meet a mooshroom, and a weirder moment when they try to cleanse the biome using purification powder and nothing happens.

-HOMESICKNESS HURT COMFORT BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THERES SOME HEADCANNONS OUT THERE THAT MAKE GRIAN MISS THE PREVIOUS WORLDS HE BEEN IN.

-oh my god they could make shops out of the unique blocks they could offer as well as paint blocks. They'd be the richest hermit on the server!

Might do more in future because oh my god brainrot

Awww I love these so much! Especially the idea of this god-like warrior just going soft over mooshrooms. That's just way too cute, and bonding with grian over your shared homesickness is sweet in such a sad way

[soulvomit]

I love my parents but I also resent them a bit and feel weirdly alienated from them. 

And lest you get the impression that growing up in an ND family is all eccentric cutesy uWu shit, yes the fact that they’re both totally just bubbled up inside their own worlds, has been a problem for most of my life, particularly while I was being raised. 

Somehow I ended up both less successful in lots of ways than either of them, while being more actually “functional” in lots of ways, and I think about that all the time, and a lot is because of how the culture they came up in, and social/romantic/work opportunities they had, were very different for both NDs and NTs.

And I think all the time about how somehow I ended up way, way, way less “bubbled up” and I don’t really know how that happened. 

I wish I could connect with them, but my mother has never really accepted me as I am and I’m faced with painful reminders all the time that if she met me as a total stranger, she wouldn’t like me as a person. She might even leave a group I was in, if i were not her daughter. I can only stand to be around her when she’s high, because that’s when she drops the bullshit. The worst part is that my mom is a giant fucking sperglord who won’t admit that she lives in a prison of her own making, and that her obsession with masking hasn’t really gotten her anywhere because a ton of masking discourse won’t admit that - for “passing” NDs - the issue becomes classism as much as ableism/normalism. It’s funny that since losing some of her teeth (and losing a social group she was in, because of it), she is finally admitting some of this.

And my dad is just... in his own world. The world has always revolved around him. He was the golden boy of his family, raised as an only child. His whole orientation of the world is that the world revolves around him, though if you are in his orbit, you may not notice. Sometimes I’m not sure if he’s autistic or not, though his evaluation answers “having an autistic or schizoid flavor” was brought up by a psychologist when he was 14. I know relatively few autistics who are actual solipsists.

This is his fundamental orientation with the world and he’s never really had a reason to question it or change it. If you are not in his actual personal orbit then you cease to exist; it’s “out of sight, out of mind.” I feel like his decades of being into psychology and communication workshops etc did not change this orientation, it just made him better at faking it. His whole social world revolves around a workshop space that he can no longer afford to participate in, now that he’s on a fixed income, and maybe now he has to admit he’s not socially All That.

He’s managed to avoid appearing like a total narcissistic wanker because of how much he’s arranged his world to be visibly in a “helping” or “coaching” role to other people. 

We have whole conversations about the terminology he learned in the communication/leadership program he was in for the past two decades. You have to be in these same workshops with him basically to interact with him, because he can’t hold a conversation that does not use this terminology. He does not think of human/social/mental stuff in any kind of conventional language whatsoever and can’t translate between the concepts and language of his decades of New Age stuff, Diet Scientology, and Landmark Education, and even regular academic psychology, let alone plain English. 

My brain absolutely fucking BREAKS on these kinds of discussions. I can only really relate to abstract conversations about feelings when I’m allowed to use my own words for these experiences, and... I guess he is the same way. Except what he describes as a “missed withhold” (?!) I learned to describe as “projection,” a term more people are familiar with. Is there a thing for when you experience your thinking as so individual and unique that you can’t relate to ANY attempts to connect it to or describe it in terms of other human beings’ mental processes? I don’t even know many autistics who are quite like this.

In common with many men of his generation, regardless of ND status, he has a wife who manages everything for him. 

What’s more is that he is convinced that he can just imagine things and they will come to him (both of my parents are heavily into Law of Attraction). I don’t think it’s occurred to him that 100% of this is because he came up during a time with far more social mobility. 

It’s funny how my parents were atheists when we lived in the Barrio and then the motel, but they became big new age true believers as my dad became a tech worker. (And after their divorce, my mom went on to marry another tech worker.) LOL.

[blackwoolncrown]

I KNOW I don’t have the spoons for this rn but I’m getting kinda irritated @ the lack of nuance in the argument that’s like “ADHD is a real thing and it’s not created or exacerbated by society” that generally trips up on thinking capitalism is the only aspect of life that might affect this and also completely overlooks the false objectivity in the fact that ADHD as a concept (separate from the lived reality of it) is named, constructed and treated by a system that centralizes white men and colonized bodies as the normative human being.

LIke, as someone on the spectrum who has the privilege (*dubious bc I got it by being a sex worker so I’m really just trading one set of issues for another but whatever) of staying home and being largely in control of my day and is generally unobserved for like, a majority of my waking time--- I can COMPLETELY forget that I have a neurodivergence or rather, I am completely free from seeing this neurodivergence as a problem.

This is of course after years of adjusting my own internall dialogue to stop criticizing and pressuring myself so intensely.

But that being said and done, it doesn’t matter that I will start something then stop and switch to something else 20 times a day bc I’m the one setting deadlines. I do not have to hold myself to arbitrary rules and regulations bc time isn’t real and I’m my own boss. I will get around to everything I need to get around to eventually, and actually what seems to be distractability is just my brain managing dopamine vs effort very well. I stop a task when I get distracted/bored and the new task is interesting instead. I keep doign this and I’ve made steady progress on 5 business projects. I do this every day.

And the shitty symptoms? Like losing things or having a hard time following conversations I’m not interested in? First off a lot of those are EXACERBATED BY STRESS they aren’t just fixed. Ppl with ADHD/Autism are fucking FRAZZLED 24/7 by NT’s fucking expectations. You’d be amazed what life feels like without them. Turns out our brains just might take longer to switch to the mental state of ‘remember where you put that notecard’. That doesn’t matter when there’s no one pressuring you to find it ‘now’.

There’s not enough dopamine in a shitty classroom or office to sustain us, but go out in nature and pick up all the cool rocks you see and let your hyper-attentive mind spread out into the leaves and the breeze and the sound of the insects and every bird and suddenly you’re fine again.

Regurgitating historical terms by rote feels like death but sit and whittle or paint or craft something and that’s such a relief.

Now imagine that that was your social role and environment even half of the time.

I used to have meltdowns and shit and ugh it was just so bad but idk my point here is that ADHD is a real thing AND it is exacerbated by colonized society. Capitalism isn’t the end of it. That dopamine deficiency ADHD ppl deal with is not unrelated to the universal trauma of living in a colonized society if for no other reason than the fact that IN REALITY ‘so - called’ Sensory Processing Disorders/ Attention Deficits are just neurological differences with distinct biological purposes. It’s just that they run intensely counter to how we are expected to function, and while we are still developing- aka during childhood- we are forced into a social machine that hammers down pretty much every one of these differences, resulting in secondary traumas and disorders related to this violent negation of our nature.

So the kids that are very communicative get punished. THe kids that don’t want to talk get punished. The kids that don’t follow social scripts get punished. The kids that would just like to sit and do one task for hours get punished. The kids that need to use their bodies differently get punished. The kids that have heightened senses get punished. The kids that ‘talk back’ to adults when the adults say something illogical or factually incorrect get punished. So on and so forth.

After all that, they’re traumatized and then we toss those symptoms back on them and go ‘yeah this is your personal mental problem’. No one is fucking born with RSD lmao that’s someone whose needs did not get met as an infant/child. ND children get institutionally traumatized then the institution labels the trauma as part of their ‘mental disorder’. Ask yourself just who is this ‘norm’ we’re being measured against.

[alagaisia]

Sometimes I remember that my roommate’s boyfriend wants to be a whole ass cop. Like what the actual fuck is wrong with you. It makes me so unspeakably angry. He’s not like an actively terrible or stupid person so I don’t know why he refuses to idk watch? The news? Or understand that yes all cops and yes the system is shitty and corrupt and no you’re not going to fucking help people by joining it like fuck you dude what the shit hell is wrong with you. Do like, a minimal amount of research. There are so many articles from people who tried to go in and be the good cop about how it doesn’t fucking work and they either become complicit or get fired or quit because the whole place is shitty like. Why do you want to work somewhere where MOST of your coworkers are actively racist, many of them have done police brutality, probably killed someone for no reason, a bunch of them will just straight up rape people in custody, 30% beat their spouse, PLUS your LITERAL JOB is shit like raiding homelessness encampments and beating the shit out of people who already have no power at all and destroying their belongings and communities for no goddamn reason when you KNOW there’s nowhere else for them to go. Like have you seen the news this year. Which cops were the good ones. The one who killed George Floyd? The ones who only watched? The ones who condemned the murder but then beat protesters and patrolled the streets all summer and during the trial suppressing everyone’s rights to free speech and assembly? Fuck you. Fuck you. If you’re not stupid or an asshole then this is willful fucking ignorance which is almost worse because you COULD make better choices and you’ve just decided to not do that for no reason at all. I literally have no idea what she sees in him I used to hang out with his roommate a lot and he’d be playing games online with a guy who used to go to our school but dropped out (who I stopped being friends with after he sicced his nazi friends on Facebook on me), and just say like borderline racist shit about whatever game they were playing and use the word c*nt way fucking more than I was comfortable with and once me and his roommate argued with him for like half an hour because he didn’t think that mansplaining was a real concept and we couldn’t convince him otherwise. But no dude I’m sure you’re capable of understanding the nuances of why cops suck so much and you’re gonna fix it and do good in the community. Your belief that those things are possible at all within the existing system definitely doesn’t disprove that. God. Fuck cops fuck every goddamn one of them. Quit your job and go do something that actually fucjing benefits society. Quit your job and sit at home and stare at a wall 24/7 because that will have a net better impact than working forty hours a week at actively causing harm

[goldtips]

okay so ya girl is back at it again. this was originally going to be a reply to someone but well. it got out of hand. i shat all over babylon the anime a while ago and honestly kind of feel bad. there are definitely things that the show does that makes it stand out, esp as a seasonal anime bc you dont expect dir. to spend much time on them!!!! like if we’re comparing this to shows like fanservice anime or any .. mediocre seasonal isekai then ofc this show is better lmfao. the only reason i shit on it is because i expected this anime to be Better ;;;;;;;

mind, i’m not rescinding my statement - as far as i’m concerned, babylon is still a hella frustrating anime because it tries to showcase humans as nihilistic, utilitarian robots that don’t seem to consider the topic of suicide emotionally even though thats supposedly humanity’s defining trait ??? and it deals with the topic of suicide with the care of elephants gallivanting in the fucking savanna :))) the whole show has also been pretty lacklustre in terms of characterization, trying way too hard to be intellectual and feed edgy plot points instead of giving any development - the plot feels reactionary overall and placid rather than exciting. also, the fact that the anime started as a mystery / politico-legal sort of show just makes the transition from that to abstract theory even more forced...........

HOWEVER im promised im going to stop shitting on babylon so lets talk about what the anime does right shall we. more specifically,,, the biblical imagery!!! is great !!!! : D

the show is called babylon. in the old testament (ot), babylon is humanized as a “brutal, callous and proud” woman who “believed that she would reign over the earth forever.” in the new testatment the phrase “she who is at babylon” refers to the new world culture currently at war with the covenant community. in such that rome, as a mistress or whore of the new world, is seeking to seduce and subvert people of god, enticing men to fall “drunk with the wine of her fornication.”

yes,,,, a whore who uses sex to entice innocent men into complying with new culture? who believes herself to be akin to god and also in this context, above the law and morality - im gonna say its not too far a stretch to say that magase was intended to symbolise the whore of babylon.

however, that’s not all - links can be made between the enactment of the suicide laws and the seduction of new culture. who exactly is leading the front? kaika itsuki ( 齋 開化 ), who’s name literally means culture. that aint a coincidence. also, that weirdly-placed reference to roman law / norms during the suicide debate as a way to convince the masses to revert / adopt roman ideology??? also not a coincidence. :))))

in addition, there are two other major biblical events related to babylon:

the book of revelations; and

the tower of babel.

its safe to say that both narratives are being pushed atm.

revelations:

in revelation 17, the spirit of babylon decends upon earth through the whore. she arrives on the back of a beast with 7 heads, “arrayed in purple and scarlet”, “drunk with the blood of the saints, the blood of the martyrs of Jesus.” “seven heads are seven mountains, on which the woman sitteth.” the revelations also prophesizes that she will be defeated by a beast, but it is unclear as to which. there are two beasts in book of revelations. the first beast comes "out of the sea" given authority and power by the dragon/serpent. the second beast comes "out of the earth" directing people to worship the first beast, a "false prophet".

in a similar vein, nomaru had secretly vouched for itsuki’s, providing itsuki with the necessary resources for him to rise up in ranks and become the new mayor. the kanji for ryuichiro nomaru ( 野丸 龍一郎 ) contains both the kanji 野 and 龙 which respectively mean field (i.e. earth) and dragon. they are key references to the beasts of revelation

plus according to nomaru, it was also purely because of magase that the political struggle turned out the way that it did, meaning that she is ultimately the one controlling the entire operation. this mirrors the way she is sitting on the heads of the beast (i.e. the proverbial brains of the campaign that itsuki is heading) 

we also see that when magase uses her powers her eyes and hair glow in a sort of purple/burgundy color to support the imagery as well! 

the book of revelations is the final chapter of nt. it is merely an allegory of struggle between good and evil and doesnt refer to actual people or events. kinda like the show huh. nyyy way, we see that the protag john the apostle writes down what is revealed to him through visions to send it to the 7 churches :))

kinda like how zen keeps on seeing magase through visions and has to document !! his findings and report back to admin? ik this isnt exact but there’s a bit where he has to write down her confession and it really struck me as weird until this bit popped up, maybe that was included to as a way of tying in :))

tower:

according to the myth, there were plans to build a city and tower high enough to reach heaven - god who observes this confounds their speech so that they can no longer understand each other. why? because “now nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do.”

while not entirely similar, we see recurring themes in babylon that deal with miscommunication and new ideology. the conflict mirrors the myth in that unity of language (or ideology in this case) and its subsequent discordance once differentiated. 

the interrogation scene in ep 4 deals with reconciling differences. magase asks whether those with different values should be accepted, despite them being contrary to norm. all this time, society has been developing an ideal set of norms - the entire country shares the same values and priorities with no deviation. growth has stagnated. in similar fashion to how god commands for many languages to be created, magase sows the seeds of doubt towards long-standing assumptions and moral values in order to create discordance and push japan into a state of new development

in the new campaign, itsuki proposes to apportion shiniki city from japan and instill new values. this confounds the population and sends them into disarray - the tower that they have created is crumbling, in similar likeness to the parable of babel.

SO TL;DR this show has a really cool starting concept i cant lie?????  i for one am not shitting on its supernatural elements (even though the flow was a little inorganic) in hindsight there’s no point in expecting a show called babylon not to delve into supernatural/biblical elements lol :)))

as a right hoe for imagery and philosophy/ethics, this gave me high hopes but the execution of everything else was way below average. why bring in a discussion about suicide that’s poorly researched + try to be edgy abt it and have the citizens to have support it so easily???? ruins the immersion so much

if the anime really wanted to focus on philosophy there should be some mention of ethical theory to justify his point. like, being aimlessly philosophical only ends up being flowery and pseudo-bullshit lmao. one of hte reasons why i was so frustrated with magase and zen’s discussion in the interrogation room. like woman what was your fucking point. its only wasting screentime if you don’t get anything from the conversation. the philosophy was so fucking unnecessary - babylon could have been executed as an in-depth political/psychological anime instead. WITHOUT THE SUICIDE.

this and the lack of good characters really bummed me out. i think that the show was expecting me to connect to some of the characters before they were fucking killed off but i didn’t end up giving a single shit about any of them so. :) the whole show feels more about the shock factor and gore than about interesting plot.

concept 10/10, execution 1/10

[longeyelashedtragedy]

this has been the most wild fuckin year so let’s do a Year in Review shall we

in terms of internet and fandom life, that is. my real life has been atrociously boring but who cares about real life amirite folx

january probably the only calm month of the year.  i spent the first day of the month watching the brazilian inauguration in burgos, spain with one headphone in, while ordering for my family in a restaurant where nobody spoke english (my sister speaks decent spanish, but my whole family has like 8194814 food restrictions so it kind of went past her level of ability). translating between spanish and english with portuguese in one year was kind of awesome. i watched bodyguard and it was amazing!  what else...in january i briefly owned the issue of spanish GQ with Luka on the cover which i then forgot about until november. other than that...? nada.  the calm before the storm. (fav music)

february was so long ago that i keep forgetting how insane its 28 days were.  probably the wildest month of the year really. i got involved in an absolutely batshit and exclusive group chat with a famous person’s family member (which must remain confidential). it was all sunshine and rainbows for a week and a half and it then devolved into the most absolutely insane Lord of the Flies situation ever--it turned into 1 main chat and then 1 chat that was less puritanical than the main chat, and that chat spawned another chat that didn’t trust the previous chat, and then that chat had a massive argument and a like 6-person bitchy chat modded by a gay guy who does voodoo (shoutout to ALCIDES) spawned from that one.  i made it into every level of group chat and was asked by the tiny bitchy chat to spy on the other bitchy chat (i did not lol). i was a member of the tiny bitchy chat until i got a new phone and was logged out of whatsapp for like a month.  these words can’t even convey what this chat was like--oh and did i mention it was all conducted in only my 3rd-best language? it’s no wonder my weird ass survived middle school almost entirely unscathed.  as this was winding down, on the very last day of the month, I found out about Justin’s involvement in the SNC-Lavalin scandal and decided to go public about my years-long boner for him; Lavscam definitely changed the course of the rest year ~ Oh, also i began helping to repair a friendship that had had some Drama go down so that was p cool ~ (fav music)

march was a Time. The insanity of lavscam helped me finally finish the macdeau I started writing the previous December when a bunch of tungelr people called me disgusting for writing it.  i wrote my first straight-up serious explicit porn in years which has wound up being the third-longest thing i’ve ever published on ao3. Also, Hozier released Wasteland, Baby! which made a huge impact on me as well.  i spent like half of march staying up till 3:30 am writing said Long Fic, and i was firmly in the closet about stanning manu. also justin almost got a vote of no confidence or something and he got busted for eating a chocolate bar during a parliamentary all-nighter.  (fav music)

in april i wrote a ton of fanfic thanks to declining mental health(tm).  i think this is when i started my emmanuyell insta account and became really into making weird edits (which i still love doing just...don’t anymore.)  i started meeting some cool people thanks to macdeau.  what else happened in april? i feel like it wasn’t actually too eventful other than writing a lot of fanfic and being Annoyed about manu.  feel free to jog my memory lol.  oh i think i wrote “Okay so who from the French national team are we gonna ship Manu with” on twitter after seeing photos of manu + antoine griezmann at the World Cup but nothing came of that...at that time... (fav music)

may saw me having to deal with my shit mental health and up my meds but that seems to have had a good effect because i seem to not be too depressed to write in the winter/fall anymore! it was the 2nd anniversary of manu’s election and at the Christchurch Call in paris, macdeau took that amazing fairytale princess photo together that was completely unrivalled in Gay Shippy Feels moments until ivan went out of his way to kiss luka during the el clásico gameplay last wednesday. someone wrote ao3′s first griezmanu drabble and at the end manu gets down on his knees in front of antoine, takes off his shoes for him, and sucks his dick, and i achieved another state of being entirely.  my sister graduated from grad school and when we went down to DC for the weekend i went to eat at this restaurant manu famously ate at while there and ordered the same stuff he did and i have no idea how he consumed all that grease.  i learned about the song O Come, O Come, Emmanuel *snort*. i feel like other things happened in may too?  OH YES--i got the idea for my magnum opus, Trophy Boyfriend, and started to write it. the first scene i wrote was justin blowing manu in the hallway. then the same day i wrote the scene at the airport (which was the ending for a solid month and half till i realized it shouldn’t be), and the saddest scene in the fic--but we’ll stop to open presents.  oh! and i stumbled across the macronists discord chat which is such a delightful little community *weepy sniffles* (fav music)

june was Eventful.  a french neonazi on tumblr told me to go let manu fuck me in the ass because i was a fucking degenerate.  what a start!  then came the ceremony in which manu awarded everyone on the french national team the legion of honor medal and the way he and antoine looked at each other was truly...Wait it was the 3rd Gay Shippy Feels moment of the year.  as soon as the ceremony was over i wrote a fic about it and haven’t looked back.  between this + watching almost every 2018 World Cup game and the women’s world cup (during which I cried during argentina’s last game because of that miraculous penalty) i finally achieved my years-long goal of getting into Futbol(TM).  Antoine dropped his spotify playlist and my crush on him turned into Intense Love (TM) and also he introduced me to some legit awesome artists.  which led to (fav music)

july, in which i wrote “ça c’est ma dope” which is definitely the best thing i’ve written since i wrote “modernity towering in front of the sky” almost exactly 10 years before. got embroiled in Soccer Transfer Drama and learned its pain for the first time (unfortunately, since i wound up attaching my heart-wagon to barça’s Suddenly Least Favorite Player, the transfer drama pain has...never ended) became a full-fledged culé, O the joy O the honor.  i wanted to ship antoine with someone on the team, which in their current chemistry-less season is a real challenge, but after seeing a few photos i decided it would be fun to casually ship antoine + ivan rakitic (partially because, ever since i went from Enemies to Lovers with the croatia NT during the World Cup, he was one of the only players i knew anything about other than messi, suárez, and piqué lmao). while looking on ao3 to see what kind of headcanons people had about him--and the fic is definitely in general better than what’s out there about antoine, which is perplexing because antoine is much easier to write than ivan--i found That Amazing Rakidric Fic and thought “oh wait that ship makes a lot of sense” and started also shipping ivan and luka with the fire of a thousand suns.  oh and my air conditioner was broken for like 3 weeks. i worked on more fics, seriously outlining the path of Trophy Boyfriend, and my music taste was killer. (fav music)

in august i finished Trophy Boyfriend in my neighborhood Starbucks after writing the scene that was giving me the most trouble (the scene at the beginning where they’re organizing their book collection). the fic has made multiple people cry and people disagree on whether justin’s choice at the end was the right one and god i’m so proud of it.  Instantly went on to write ‘i might not mind,’ a lively lighthearted Friends to Lovers ivantoine~ romp which was definitely going to be a one-off and i was definitely not going to get an extra celeb crush out of it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, (fav music)

in september ivantoine became A Thing in my mind and it’s a whole ongoing slow-burn character-arcy series that has taken a very different turn than i had expected. i’m not saying it’s like, the most deep writing of all time, but it’s gone to some interesting places emotionally. honestly, ships and boners aside, the concept of a person who made some really stupid homophobia 101 comments many years ago slowly realizing over and over again that they have gay feelings for a man who seems rather comfortable with gayness is a fascinating one and one that’s really cool to explore in writing.  Or at least, i think so.  in many ways ivan is my most unreliable narrator because of the many layers of Discomfort, Emotion and Repression at play in the fic while he’s interacting with this pretty cheery and uncomplicated seeming-dude who’s still perceptive enough to sort of know what’s going on (and that’s not even adding in the star player/falling from grace former rockstar dynamic!!!)  i know in the current climate it’s Not Allowed to write about someone who said a bad, but luckily i’m too old to give a Fuck. ivantoine is hard to write but it’s my bff’s favorite ship of mine and has a few other excited fans on ao3 which tbh is kind of an accomplishment considering i made it up out of thin air and it’s not something you’d ever think would be a thing. instantly also developed ‘getting called out about ivan by a child on the internet’ as a goal.  and...i achieved my dream of leading high holiday services!!! (fav music)

october had more high holiday services and i worked a lot on certain fics (including d*janfic which would be fun to finish). i came up with the idea of a Very Long Rakidric Fic based on the translation of a gorgeous croatian folk song i sang in college (Janko fell asleep under the poplar/My dear and beloved/My beautiful dark eyes/Look at me/Under the poplar's golden branch/My dear and beloved/My beautiful dark eyes/Look at me/I tore off the golden branch/My dear and beloved/My beautiful dark eyes/Look at me--in which the golden branch is a reference to a way to get into the underworld). decided to start quarter-assedly learning croatian for fun.  Fun...ha.  other than fangirling a lot and watching the croatian NT play, october was pretty uneventful? i think? Justin got reelected and mauricio didn’t ;( (fav music)

in november i finally achieved my dream of having a literal child on the internet call me out about being attracted to a homophobe.  (they were a madridista even!) accidentally started writing some more rakidric and now i’m seriously hooked.  also accidentally came out of the closet about the secret crush i’d been harboring on luka modric and then one fateful day in the ihop on 14th st i realized i’d had this crush already and repressed it from my memory. Don’t do that kids! now it’s Hurting Really Bad. Ivan dropped the most pathetic and candid interview like...ever and i hope “¿Cómo puede disfrutar uno? Jugando al fútbol. ¿Cómo se siente mi hija pequeña cuando le quitan un juguete? Triste. Yo me siento igual. Me han quitado la pelota, me siento triste” goes down in the history of most epic futbol quotes of all time.  (still haven’t actually been able to watch this because no one has uploaded it anywhere)  What else...............Am i forgetting anything? i celebrated my birthday with @tender-vittles in epic fashion after two years of Not doing that, and turned 32 going on 15.  enjoyed my first-ever “x reader” fic (zlatko dalic x reader LOL) and finished “drive your plow over the bones of the dead” which was real fucking good. i saw hozier live and it was a religious experience and i unexpectedly cried during nina cried power and then called myself “Luka B” when ordering at the classy taco bell across the street after getting a glimpse of alexxx ryan in the flesh. (fav music)

now it’s december and my seasonal depression is a little worse than it’s been the past few years but i’m managing.  still shipping and writing and i just got called out about ivan again last week.  i’m 2 for 2 here!  el clásico was boring but also it was gay and my heart my heart my heart ! Anything could happen in the last 10 days of this year and honestly...I’m pretty sure I’m ready.

Most importantly this year, despite it being not that great in a lot of ways, I developed a lot more self confidence, made many important realizations, and became a lot more peaceful (despite how this post makes me sound) and wiser and less bitter and pessimistic.  And i became outspoken enough about antisemitism on the left to lose friends over it...3 for 3.  i can’t say i’m displeased with these developments.

Hasta 2020! <3

[realtalk-princeton]

Latios, what is the process for freshman skipping MAT 216-218 and going straight to 300/400 level courses? Is it just solving the sample problems on the website? Thank you so much!! (And thank you to all the contributors, as a pre-frosh this site helps find out so much more about the school :) you guys are amazing)

Latios:

hi! i took 216 (i really shouldn't have tbh) but skipped 218. I kind of just... did?! I did enroll in 218, I took a look at the first PSET, said "fuck that, this looks boring," and just up and dropped it. then I just vibed and had a fantastic time in algebraic NT and algebraic topology. idk how serious they are about that stuff these days but if you want to skip it, just start off by enrolling in 3-400 level classes and don't enroll in 216. the math department will. not. care. your res college advisor might give you crap about it (mine did not; I hope most would not) but you can just ignore them. maybe they'll make you sign up for certain classes but even if so, you can just drop them then sign up for the math class(es) you actually want during add/drop. (even if they're filled, just come to class and email/talk to the prof and you'll get in a.s.-- the only people extra students add work for is the graders, not profs, who are giving the same lecture and psets no matter how many people are in the class).

all that said, it is probably worth thinking about, is it *really* a good idea for you to skip 216? looking at the sample problems that are up now, I'd say they are reasonably similar to 216's material from when I took it, but I would add "Prove Bolzano-Weierstrass". if you can do all those sample problems + "prove B-W" without consulting a resource (except maybeee looking up definitions), *and you find them routine* (if you can do the problems but the concepts and ways of reasoning are new to you-- then take the class!), then yep skip 216. the reason the course exists is to get you familiar with how mathematicians think about and do math, through point-set topology and basic geometry in R^n, and also because linear algebra and basic topology show up literally everywhere. 216 is also sorta a weed out class, in the sense that it's a big time sink, the amount of problems on PSETs is more than many higher level math classes, and the graders and ease of getting extensions are harder than in higher math classes.

if you do decide to take 216: the class may or may not be a huge time sink for you. it is a huge time sink for most people who take it (to be honest: it was not for me). if you're doing badly on the psets, even like sub-50's, literally don't worry about it. that will get curved to a C or maybe even a B, the curve is VERY generous.

general advice: talk to upperclasspeople about math classes! join nullset and come to math club advising events! make sure you talk to as many people as possible about getting advice, since different people have different experiences and different advice, and you can calibrate this way! never take more than 2 math classes whose numbers are 214+ in a semester (altho this last one is more subjective)!

good luck with princeton math OP. I'm always happy to give advice and answer Q's if you have any in the future.

[angel-nero]

voltron tag meme

guys im so stressed about the new season and cant literally concentrate on anything els e??????? i was tagged by: @flusteredkeith @gayhura @belovedsheith @ficdesignhub thank u!!!!!!!

How did you discover the show?

the only 30 blogs i used to follow for snk started to only post about voltron and 2 of my favourite artists created content for it so i saw it also i was bored at work and used to watch yoi on my uhhh one free hour to eat so i got even more bored and watched voltron and fell in love like a good bitch

Was it love at first sight or did it take you a while to get into the show?

listen i also started to watch cus i thought keith was amazing and i wasnt wrong i liked a lot the concept and the 80′s space show and u sound effects and tajnhjsdb that sounds dumb anyway,,,,, y eah i loved it i even had my brother watch it w me

Do you have a favorite Paladin?

im what they call a uh shiro kin for loving keith a lot and a keith kin for loving shiro a lot..... b ut yeah... keith is... my b oy

Do you have a favorite Lion? (If it’s different from your fav paladin, why?)

i love red sm for doing what i couldnt in s2 ok also keith loves her and my heart melts sm

Do you have a favorite Villain?

i hate zarkon, sendak, haggar sdjhnjs lotor,,,, whatever he is... i love he... the generals too

Do you have a favorite Alien Race? (recurring and/or minor)

the mermaids, the fluffy babies that helped pidge in s2e1, the good galra...

Favorite side / other character(s)- Rebels, General, Blade of Mamora, Garrison, etc?

m att??????????? acxa.......... krolia,,,,,,,,,,,,, i also love rolo ok

How/Why did you join the fandom?

bc i liked the show and since i found out about it in tumblr... i also liked the art a lot so stayed here? idk 

Care to share a favorite headcanon?

idk rn i c a nt im 

What do you think is the best part of the show?

diversity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Any hopes and wishes for future episodes / seasons?

:)) i wanna know what happened to keiths dad, i wanna see shiro use his fucking bayard and have a n u, i uh want more garrison stuff i wanna know if sam is ok??? is that man ok???? 

Do you think you’ll stick it out until the end of the show?

i mean YEAH

Tag your friends or someone you want to get to know better

@glaspaladin @otasucc @phaltu @kcgane @pining-keith @saltyshiro@paladinlion @sshiros @flashedarrow @red-paladin @dracosh50 @kerberosheith @vers-shiro @jaja-han @asahisbutt  @starlaynes @stargazershiro @silkshiro @the-wenzel @joltron @shirogaenes @z-ayauitl

and the girl reading this 

[heartxshaped-bruises]

🌻...?

New ask game. Send me a 🌻 and ill just tell you whatever the fuck I want

🌻I finally started to watch Bates Motel but why the hell is everyone so annoying but Dylan and Caleb?? Zane was crazy af but still a better character than the rest. I hate the concepts of the female characters in this show… especially Emma. Like, she’s so nosy? Why’s she always offended if everyone tells her to stick with her own business bc they’re clearly right? Ugh… I could rant about this show for hours.

[thelamekorbat]

A much needed -though half assed- ref post of my neo OCs, since I haven’t posted them much. Take in mind that they’re still being developed, so I haven’t drawn most at all.

Main:

KrankyTim (Tim): A good big brother. He likes to explore the world and discover new places. A full blown adventurer. Loves her little sister, so after a trip he always comes back to her. _Amber_water_ (Amber): The cute little sis. She practices hard to be an artist. Wishes to be a water korbat (once those exist) and carries along a water korbat plushie wherever she goes. She loves her brother and wishes he’d stay with her, but also wishes he has fun in his trips. SozoSora: Though fearsome and tough, she’s a sweetheart to Tim and Amber. She often takes care of Amber while Tim isn’t around. Often ends up acting like a mother to the two. She’ll protect them both, no doubt.

Others:

Clawrence_: A wizard apprentice. Bookworm and eager to learn. He’ll often be practicing spells he read of somewhere or training with his teacher. Shy and fragile but trying his best. Counterspells: An expert witch. Evil? Good? She’s her own thing. She is very strict to Clawrence but she sees potential in him. That won’t stop her to work him to the bone, tho. (if there were chinese/shenkuu style robes for her, id give her that, she’s wearing the closest thing).

Vague others:

Constami: Space adventurer! spaaaaaace! Toryd: She could fuck you up. Probably. Soymin: The embodiment of cheerfulness. Happiness and fun all around! Ceevay: Elegant and content. Functor: (wip robot)

I thank instagram for not making it easy to copy-paste images, but sometimes it’s a bit inconvenient, so here’s  some links to some doodles:

https://www.instagram.com/p/BUzcvcDBcvR/ (bori: designing sozosora. draik: when clawrence was magma. bottom-left: tentative constami)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BVHBP1lBnZ4 (picture set of the main 3 receiving the other korbat, electric was constami)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BVCPd1OhMsE (main three, simplified or no clothes, for the nt)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BUv65bLh-ne (Tim and Amber ready for the last AC)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BS95h77BQ9W (Tim, Sozosora and a few Amber with her plushie)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BTIKRCVBIqo (sozosora) (”Now, you must acquire a taste for free-form jazz” *jazz plays*)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BSZDQddBjbs (main three. Amber receives Tim, sozosora babysitting amber)

https://www.instagram.com/p/BYewFG6A4pf (concept for counterspells)