#oh shinji we're really in it now

[gideonisms]

I'm kind of obsessed with this shinji. Me when I'm a cartoon sketch

[zabimarushoney67]

Hello! I wanted to known if I could request slow sensual sex with Shinji Hirako???

Oooomgosh omgosh yessss! This is gonna be so good 🙏🏼 Highkey have been waiting for a NSFW fic with Shinji 💀 Thank you so much! for the request and I hope you enjoy! (I went on a blind hiatus during this im so sorry lmao it’s done tho!)

🔥Under Fire🔥

Shinji Hirako x Fem!Reader

NSFW+18💦MDI⚠️REC.DU💨FLUFF💟MODERN A.U✨

Summary: Shared but masked feelings, making love wasn’t apart of the agenda. For you though, Shinji is ready for anything.

Warnings: Modern alternative universe, strong language, sensual lovemaking, praise kink, marking(hickies, bite marks), fingering, oral!sex (reader receiving), vaginal!penetration, hand holding, sweet talk, supple kisses, blunt smoking, friends with benefits turned serious, budding romantic feelings, fluff throughout.

Authors Notes: AH FINALLY I HAVE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS 😩 SHINJI WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME AND I AM OKAY WITH THAT! Also! Bad Omens reeeeaallly set the mood for this thing, like ONG absolute perfection!😭🤌🏽

Loud music bumped over the nightclub speakers, rumbling through the wooden floors with everyone’s moving feet. Flashing lights colored the hundreds of bodies that were crammed together like sardines on the dance floor, Shinji’s gentle hands were on your hips, he watched them sway in time with the movements of his fit body.

Drunk and feeling the music, the beating vibration warmed your body up against Shinji. A feeling like sparks igniting, consuming you in his spiritual flames. Shinji flowed with your body on the dance floor. Shifting his hips, he pressed them up against your frayed denim shorts, groaning to himself as he felt your body press, and relax back into him.

He swallowed hard as he peered down your body, his steely eyes devoured the slick and shiny skin under your halter-neck tank top. Feeling your hand wrap around his neck and grip him there, finally had him leaning into your ear to speak up. “Hey, you wanna get outta here soon darlin?” His voice reverberated something needy and demanding. Shinji teasingly licked the shell of your ear, nibbling down the side of your neck as you rolled your hips across his quickly hardening groin.

Leaning your head back on his shoulder speaking into his ear, “Sure, yeah that sounds good! But I have to finish my drink first,”. Rolling his eyes, he released his grip on you. Holding your hand softly he followed closely behind you as you lead him back to the table where Lisa, Kensei, Renji, Izuru, and Shuhei sat.

Hoping you two could slip away unnoticed, Shinji huffed. Now in a forced position to say goodbye and come up with a reason for disappearing yet again, at a friendly get-together, Shinji was less than thrilled. Not an outcome he was hoping for, but if it meant he could leave sooner with you without a bickering match, it would be worth it. Moving to the quieter, darker part of the club where your table was, y/n grabbed the air toward her drink, lazily leading Shinji behind her.

Renji passed her the drink, as she finally anchored herself at the front of the table. Bringing the cute, yellow bendy straw to her lips she sucked down the blue fruity cocktail, bobbing her head in time with the music.

“Looks like you two are having all the fun,” Renji commented, “We are, but,” y/n started saying before taking another sip of her drink, “We're actually gonna head out early for the night,” she said tightening her grip on Shinji’s hand, silently asking him for some back up if her unplanned plan backfired.

Everyone's heads turned at that comment and landed on both you and Shinji, Shuhei caught Shinji’s hand being held captive by yours and only nodded in his direction. The rest of the gang sighed outwardly, “Really? Already?” Renji questioned with a grimace, “But we just got here!” a drunk Lisa sang out. “Oh let them go, they'll just disappear somewhere anyway,” Kensei huffed, taking a languid sip of his old fashion.

The rumor was true. You had secretly been seeing Shinji on the side for a while now. He established a friend-with-benefits situation a few months back.

On that day, running some errands with him, Shinji had bluntly come forward with his attraction toward you. It seemingly came out of nowhere, but you had been so fond of him already that you even held your suspicions, that he felt the same. The sex has been a reliable release for you, it sated a need you didn’t even know you had until you started seeing him regularly during the week.

The both of you had tried to keep it down low and out of sight, trying not to start any gossip. It seemed everyone eventually caught on, since every time you all got together, you and Shinji always ended up disappearing.

Usually off somewhere alone for a quick meet up and then return to the function, but the longer the agreement went on the more often you two went off just to be together, sexual or not.

“Are you guys leaving already?” Izuru chimes in with the rest of the crowd, walking up behind you and Shinji with a handful of shots. “Yeah…” Shinji replied slowly, blatantly fronting his irritation at the current embarrassing circumstances. “That’s lame,” “take one before you go,” Izuru rolled his eyes, pushing a shot into both y/n and Shinji’s free hands.

Just as y/n finished her cocktail, she threw the shot back like a champ, before anyone else had even lifted their shot. Shinji would stand corrected if he thought he was the one who wanted to leave this god forsaken club first.

(...)

Walking back to y/n’s downtown apartment not far from the club, y/n held onto her shoulders. Chilled, after leaving the heat of the nightclub and into the late summer night. “Jeez. Woman,” “This is why I told you to bring a jacket,” Shinji sighed.

Wrapping you in his brown leather jacket he remarks “And who said chivalry is dead?”. “I didn't know it would be this cold,” y/n muttered quietly, gripping the sides of his jacket and enclosing herself in its warmth. “You’re half naked, with your hair in that... Cute messy bun style you know I love so much on you,” “Of course, you're gonna be cold, sometimes I think you do it on purpose,” he smiled to himself as the words left his mouth. “Absolutely not!” y/n spat back defensively, knowing deep down that he was... Well, he was kind of right.

Something has been different lately. Even before leaving for the club, Shinji had ran through a whole checklist before he would even allow you to step out of the door. ‘Have you eaten yet?’ ‘Do you have everything in that purse of yours?’ ‘Are you sure you don’t wanna bring a jacket?’ just to name a few examples. There was a new profound softness in all of Shinji’s actions that pertained to you, it felt good, natural even, like it should’ve been this way the entire time.

Needless to say y/n was rather enjoying the new treatment, it made her heart patter ever so lightly allowing more room for her fondness to grow for the infamous jokester, who now turned out to be an infamous gentleman as well.

(…)

Finally arriving back home in the safe confines of Y/n’s apartment, y/n shook off her heels and threw his jacket on the coat rack while Shinji carelessly strolled in behind, removing his shoes. The beginning steps of y/n’s ‘time for bed’ ritual took place, and Shinji got comfy removing his tie, loosening his shirt a bit and rolling up his sleeves. Y/n stood in the mirror, wiping off her makeup in the bathroom, closest to her bedroom. Shinji sat on the bed, rolling up a blunt for the both of you. One of his many playlists lulls over the sound system, filling the bedroom with a warm and welcoming atmosphere.

Once cleaned up and dressed down in some of her comfy shorts and an oversized T-shirt, y/n joined Shinji on the plush mattress, sitting crisscrossed with a glass of iced water. “Man, nightclubs are not my thing anymore,” y/n said rubbing her eyes, groaning softly from the slight headache she received after the few hours of drinking and dancing.

“So, let me get this straight,” “You’re saying,” “You would rather be at home,” “Chilling… and smoking weed with me… in your bed?” Shinji drawled out turning his head in your direction, with the biggest shit-eating grin on his face. “Shut it and light it, goofy,” y/n sneered at the blonde man, smacking him lightly on the shoulder and breathily laughing at his stupid, dumb remark. So stupid it left your face catastrophically red. Seriously, what was up with this guy? His smooth words, and even smoother hair. None of it made sense, or it did… just why now? Shinji was the adamant one on the, ‘this is nothing serious, I just want to have fun with you,’ part of the agreement.

Putting his hand upon your upper thigh, giving it a gentle squeeze. Shinji places the blunt between his lips, it hangs so artfully from them as he goes to light it. Pulling out an engraved zippo lighter, he flips it open. The bright blue flame quickly engulfed the tip of the tobacco paper, and a sweet aroma of the white grape drifted through the air while the paper burned to ash, quickly followed by the delightful smell of weed. These night are always the best when shared together, y/n thought. Allowing her mind to wander through the current moment, a sudden swell of emotion had begun overflowing her body.

(…)

A few passes and over half a blunt later, the two leaned against the wooden headboard, their bodies heavy from the weed that swirled through them. Y/n laid her head on Shinji’s shoulder, while his arm encompassed her close against his warm, slumped body. Shinji puffed on his handiwork, relaxing further into y/n’s weight. Rolling waves of smoke lingered in the air and filled the dimly lit room, while the two lay together sailing through the clouds. The entwinement of their bodies and limbs being the only thing that kept them grounded in reality.

“Earlier…” “Walking back here,” “You said, you loved when my hair is up,” y/n said softly, pausing before continuing, “What are some other things you… ‘love’ about me?” She asked curiously, with her breath hitching in her chest.

Shinji’s eyes widened at her question, breathing a heavy hit from his nose, he hurriedly took another, sucking it deep into his lungs. “Well…” he said as the smoke poured from his mouth. “There’s lots of things…” “like the way you’ll scrunch your nose up at my gross jokes,” Shinji said chuckling to himself. “Or the way you’ll blush and look away whenever I compliment you…” “Or my favorite…” he paused again. “the little dance you do when you’re eating something you like...” he stopped there smiling to himself, but not wanting to dredge any further into that topic.

Y/n lay on his shoulder dazed, “Oh..” she breathed, blushing from his words. “I was fully prepared for you to say something along the lines of,” “I love the way your lips look around my cock darlin’,” she said, trying but failing to do an impression of Shinji.

“First of all,” “I do not sound like that,” Shinji laughed heartily at y/n’s endearing impression of him. “Secondly, I love it when you look like that,” he corrected, taking another hit before handing it over to y/n. “Oh yeah?” She said giggling, “Oh yeah,” Shinji said before his soft fingers slid up the side of your cheek and turned your face towards him.

Leaning down to capture your lips in a gentle kiss, he pulled away ever so slightly, blowing his smoke into your mouth and kissing you again after. “I love it a lot,” he said, inches away from your face. His words sang, traveling through y/n’s ears and making them ring with their sweetness, flowing down her body and resting comfortably in the pit of her stomach.

Blinking softly at Shinji, y/n exhaled the smoke. A soft shade of pink stained her cheeks as she stared into his grey hooded eyes. A crafty smile plastered across Shinji’s face as he caressed your cheek under his thumb. Y/n leaned into his touch before bringing the end of the blunt to her lips.

Glancing down at y/n’s full lips encompassing the tip of the blunt, Shinji drank your expression in full. He mimicked your blushing shyness as he pulled his hand away. “Goddamn…” “You are so fucking pretty,” “You know that?” He said biting his lip, he shook his head in disbelief and scoffed. “It makes me wonder why no one’s snatched you up yet,” insecurity silently started weaving itself into his usually unwavering confidence.

“I mean, I’m not complaining,” “More fun for me after all,” Shinji said going silent afterward. “For me, I think maybe...” “it's because I have you in my back pocket, and everyone knows it,” y/n stated blatantly, “We haven't exactly been hiding it,” shrugging her shoulders, she put the roach out in the ashtray. “Or maybe...” “it's because I would rather have you…” “So I decline everyone who’s tried,” a hefty blush returned to her face as y/n avoided eye contact with the blonde man lying next to her.

“Oh yeah?” Shinji said with a side smile and raised eyebrow, cocking his head down at you. “...Yeah,” y/n murmured after a moment of diligent thinking. Shinji’s hand cupped your chin softly, begetting your stare back in his direction. His face grew hot all over again when he peeked at the soft, lustful eyes of y/n as they peered down at his lips. Flashing quickly back to his eyes, y/n leaned in and molded her lips gently against Shinji’s.

(...)

Her sudden emotional ministration left Shinji blinking widely, the blush on his face crept up to the tips of his ears while she kissed him deeply. Melting into her kiss and releasing a breath from his nose, he pushed firmly back into y/ns wanting mouth, groaning as she parted his lips with her sly tongue.

Twisting his torso, Shinji slowly pushed you into the pillows, as he climbed on top. Supporting his weight on his forearms, y/n’s plush thighs hugged his waist while he got comfy between them. Her soft hands held his face, gently stroking the short stubble on his jawline, keeping him over her mouth as their tongues played and explored one another.

Soft moans roused from y/n when Shinji shifted to his knees, pushing her thighs up and over his. Rising to his palms, he gazed down at you, his face flushed and lips parted. Quick, broken breaths left his mouth, and Shinji felt his heart thump against his sternum. A strange, foreign feeling washed over his body. Arousal, lust, and something else... Passion? maybe. Y/n’s fingers tentatively reached for the first button of his shirt and slowly pulled each of them apart, staring intently at the buttons as they came undone and revealed his smooth skin underneath.

Sitting back on his heels, Shinji shrugged off his shirt and tugged it free of his jeans, tossing it to the side of the bed. Returning to his position over you, he caught your mouth in a greedy kiss. Awash with his need for you, his hand clasped your still-clothed breast gripping and kneading it underneath his palm. Y/n’s hands explored the expanse of his now open back. She remembered every flowing line of tensed muscle and the way they seem to relax under her hand that softly caressed each spot.

(...)

Shinji’s lips smashed against yours, nibbling at you playfully, and sucking your lower lip. With the intense feeling of being engulfed in everything that was Shinji in this minuscule moment, the heat started quickly swallowing y/n’s breath underneath the man's lanky form.

His needy mouth traveled from your lips down your jaw, pushing your head away, and giving the feral man access to your supple neck. Y/n’s head spun violently under his frantic, but somehow artful duress. Her body begged to feel his warmth, begged for him to give her what she needed.

Y/n found herself lost in the present moment, stuck in some places of her past, but somehow still excited for the future that was to be paved, and hopefully with Shinji by her side. Releasing his grip on your chest, both of his hand's fumble around, trying to find yours. Enterlacing his fingers within yours he pushes your palms into the bed, pinning you underneath him.

Shinji continued his crusade down your neck, licking and softly kissing the sensitive skin that lay vulnerable to him. Y/n can feel a smile form on his lips when she wailed out from the sharp feeling of his canines pinching her skin.

Covering the small welt with his mouth, and running his tongue over it Shinji sucks the skin of your neck. Grunting lowly when he feels you arch your back into his unrelenting torture. Releasing you from his mouth, he continues his play time to the other side of your neck. There, he kisses down to your exposed collarbone where he begins to repeat the same teasing ritualistic behavior, marking you with a large purple hickey.

(...)

At his total mercy, and laying completely helpless underneath him y/n bucks her hips against him. Trying, and trying again to find some friction to sedate the growing arousal between her legs. The flimsy cloth of her shorts and her lacy panties discouraged any true form of relief. They numbed her sensation just enough that it became a nuisance trying to do it herself. That was until Shinji finally understood what you were after. Freeing a hand from your grasp, he lowered it to your slick heat.

Surpassing the confinement of cloth, he delves in between your plump lips. Massaging the wetness that collected there, he hummed in appreciation at how worked up you had become with just some sloppy kisses and heavy panting. Two fingers rubbed in gentle circles around your clit. “You’re such... Ah!” “A goddamn tease!” y/n said forcibly.

She desperately wiggled her hips against his fingers, wishing he'd hit the spot he knew she loved. Shinji’s slender fingers always left y/n in a full trance. The way they magically danced across her skin, and brought about the most helpless of whimpers from y/n. The sounds Shinji knew, he was the only one who could force from you. “C’mon darlin’” “You know I love the way you sound,” “Let me hear you,” Shinji breathed against your skin before snatching you into another soul-devouring kiss.

“Let me feel you then,” y/n pulled away from him and retorted in frustration. Grabbing his wrist she pushed him further toward her dripping, needy heat. “Don’t be like that baby,” “I was gettin' there,” he smirked against your mouth. Sinking his fingers into your mess of a hole, he slowly pulled his fingers against the spongy pad on your upper wall, massaging in little circles.

Positioning his thumb he pressed on your swelling clit, rubbing and prodding the sensitive bundle of nerves in time with his curling fingers. “That's such a good look on you y/n,” Shinji smiled greatly as he peered down at your pleasure-contorted face.

“Faster..! Please!” y/n begged, shooting Shinji a needy glimpse and biting her lip to egg him further. “Nah,” “I want to enjoy this...” he said softly as he continued his sermon of repetitive motions. Y/n whined loudly, bordering on a temper tantrum. “Goddamn.” “You're so fucking cute when you're frustrated,” Shinji confessed in admiration, softly smooching your cheek before traveling feather-light kisses toward your ear. Taking your earlobe in between clenched teeth, he shoves his fingers into your aching core, reveling in the shout y/n released from his perfectly timed and careful actions.

(...)

Feeling your body convulse and twitch underneath him, was most certainly egging him on, more than ever before. His cock raged against the tight confinement of his jeans, throbbing in time with all the little jolts that ran throughout y/n’s body. “I think that'll do,” Shinji said before removing all stimulation away from y/n. “W-what?” y/n protested as she tried grabbing his hand to keep him posted in their position. Sitting up, Shinji unbuckled his belt letting it fall open. “Take your clothes off,” he demanded, his voice sounding a lot like how it did at the nightclub.

Blinking dumbfounded, y/n obeys and starts removing her shirt. Shinjis's hands helped lift it and pull it over your head as he discarded it with his shirt on the side of the bed. Y/n hooks her thumbs in the waistband of her shorts and pulls them down her thighs. Shinji pushed your legs up straight and pulled them off. “Keep the panties on,” “They're cute,” he remarked. He peeked down at the floral red lace tanga-styled panties that sat high on your waist, accentuating your curvy hips and pillowy thighs. His strong hands grab hold of your ankles and kept them in the air, “Bend your knees so they touch your chest,” “They don’t leave that spot until I say,” Shinji warned, his tone sounding serious as he positioned and instructed you on how he wanted to take you for the night.

Y/n hummed happily, lulling her head to the side roused a questioning look upon Shinji’s face. “Somethin' funny doll?” He asks, his palms pushing your thighs up to your chest. “You’re just so sexy when you’re in charge,” y/n explained with a grin. “Do it more often,” she said, silently challenging him, and staring directly into his eyes.

Shinji didn't respond with words but rather with his actions. Running his fingers over the lace of your pussy lips, a small smirk draws on his face once he saw your eyebrows draw together slightly from his touch.

Peering down at you and your position, his face suddenly softens. The position he wanted you in left you exposed to him, vulnerable almost. Somehow your words spoke of the trust you had in him and the confidence you held for him, knowing that he knew how to take care of you in every regard. It took Shinji by complete surprise the more he thought about what you said. Maybe he was thinking too much into it but something felt different from you, about you, he only understood that he couldn’t let you down now.

(...)

Quickly removing his black jeans, Shinji crawled back onto the mattress. He laid on his elbows while his face took place over your dripping cunt, his cock throbbed at the sight before him. The cotton insert of your panties drowned in your juices, scarcely containing your folds as it stretched thin between your plump lips. Like a ripe peach that hung from a branch and was ready for the picking, Shinji stared mesmerized by your intimate beauty. The aroma of your lust and the warmth that waited inside, made Shinji’s mouth water intensely as he steadied himself before taking a dive back into your depths.

Lightly pushing the cloth away to expose you completely, Shinji places his hands near your waist and leaned down and kissed your glistening lips. His hair swayed from side to side as he got to work. The soft gentle kisses he started with slowly turned into long sucking kisses, as he took each lip into his mouth and pulled on them. Tugging ever so gently before releasing it with a sucking pop and repeating this motion until he made his way up to your clit.

Taking the swollen bud into his mouth and sucking it, the pressure from the motion left y/n’s thighs trembling, and her toes curling at the ceiling. With her eyes shut tightly, her jaw dropped as she mewled loudly from Shinji’s unrelenting maw. The lewd noises that spewed from y/n’s mouth were unlike anything Shinji had ever heard before. His body reacted physically, singing with lust as every nerve, every pore on his body stood at full attention, just for her.

He fisted at the sheets under his palms as he started absentmindedly grinding into the mattress. Shinji repeatedly pushed his twitching cock into its soft fullness, desperate for any attention he could get while he waited to finish you first. Shinji grunted as his cock slid against the soft, stretchy spandex of his blue boxer briefs.

Removing her hands from the underside of her thighs, she placed them on Shinji’s forearms. Tightly gripping onto them, y/n felt the cool metal of his tongue piercing swirl around her clit, and up and down her sensitized labia. Y/n’s knees failed to stay directly over her chest and slowly drifted to her sides, resting there and spread completely open for Shinji’s hungry mouth.

(...)

Y/n finally caught a needed glimpse at the handsome man that lay in front of her. Visually taking in the way he ate her out like it was the last thing he’ll ever do on earth. So turned on by her noises and arousal, that he’s resorting to fucking the mattress. That’s a first, y/n thought gazing down at the touch deprived man between her thighs. His tensing muscles, soft whimpers, and all the incredulous sucking noises created such a delightful picture for y/n’s eyes and ears to take in and memorize.

The image of this moment, and the feelings that danced and swirled around her body, doubled by the pressure of her orgasm winding up in her core was almost too much. Tears pricked at the corners of y/n’s eyes, as her noises got louder with each swipe of his tongue. Noticing that you had broken the position he placed you in, his arms slid under your thighs and hooked you in his full grasp. Too horny to care, Shinji tugged you harshly down to his mouth. Making you jolt and gasp from the tightness of his arms as they held you harshly in position against his face.

Releasing a thigh, his fingers journeyed down to your twitching hole. His eyes peered up at you as he slowly sunk his middle digit into its wetness. Rubbing the pad of his finger against your G-spot, his tongue ravaging your clit. Expertly flicking and prodding your bud with careful consideration to get you to release. Never breaking eye contact, he sped up his finger's pace. Feeling your walls swell and clench around his finger was a sign you were close, pulling his finger out he glided another finger in with ease before pushing up on your G-spot. The repetitive pressing of her fleshy button, in time with the fast-flicking of his tongue, sent y/n over the edge drowning her deep within her pleasure and forcing out her full release.

“Oh, Shinnnjiii!~” She wailed his name out in ecstasy as her pussy clenched onto his digits and her clit pulsed under his tongue. Finger fucking her deeper and harder during her orgasm caused a different form of release, as y/n’s pussy squirted forcibly through the rolling waves of her powerful orgasm. Splashing Shinji’s chin, neck, and upper chest area, and soaking the bed underneath y/n. “Mmmm, that's what I like to see doll,” “Good job Baby,” He hummed as he pulled his fingers from you, sucking them clean.

Y/n lay there half unconscious coming down from her incredible high. “You've made such a mess darlin’, look at you,” Shinji chuckled at the slumped form of y/n, still breathing heavily. “I'm...” “I'm not sleeping in the wet spot, that's your fault,” she said catching her breath and swallowing hard.

Chuckling sweetly at your exhausted words, “Don’t bother me none babes, just a sign of my victory,”Shinji grins shifting to his knees in front of you. His warm calloused hands push your thighs up to your side as he leaned down to kiss your mound, up your belly, and the space between your breast. His breath felt warm against your skin, as you felt the tip of his nose swipe across your chest. Softly suckling the skin of your breast he repeats his loving and careful kisses until your nipple is encased in his wet mouth. His thumb and index finger come to rest underneath your breast allowing some support while his tongue swirled and prodded against your hard nipple.

(...)

Not giving you any time to prepare for the next act, Shinji sucks and pulls on your nipple with his lips as he presses his still-clothed member against your now-soaked innermost thighs. Grinding against your slick left wet, splotchy marking on his boxers. Pulling off your nipple, he kisses toward the other side and pulls your hardened nipple into his warm mouth sucking gently on it, making sure that none of you is left untouched, or unloved. Still coming down from her first high, y/n lay underneath him breathless, soaking in all of the attention Shinji seemed to have no problem giving to her.

The feeling of his throbbing cock pressing against her still-sensitive clit had y/n reeling. Gasping inwardly at the sudden shock of pleasure that still shot through her body, so artfully done in with just Shinji’s mouth.

“Fuck...” “Shinji, I want you,” y/n mewled pathetically at him, bucking her hips against his swollen, still captive member. Releasing your nipple, Shinji smiles deviously against your skin, “I can't hear you darlin’” he purred. “I..” y/n started before feeling unsettled from the foreign neediness that had been instilled within her. “Use your words, baby,” Shinji’s kissed soft words of encouragement into your chest, only making you flush further. “I want you, inside of me now,” “Please, pretty please,” “I can't wait any longer,” y/n begged helplessly, her mind completely fogged with lust and need.

“You’re in for a treat then babe,” “Because I want you to,” Shinji chuckled before pushing his boxers down past his cock allowing space for it to spring free from its confines. Grabbing the base of his lengthy cock, he prods his tip against your red, swollen lips. Running it up and down your slick, Shinji grunts lowly as he inserts himself. Your gummy warm walls accepted his length freely, swallowing every inch with squelchy ease. “Ohh~” “Fuu-uck,” “Y/n baby, you're always... so fucking... sweet,” Shinji gritted his jaw and forced out as his full length was sheathed inside of you.

All of those hours watching you, waiting for you, wanting you, finally came to an end as Shinji’s body fully relaxed into your body. Pleasure washed over, from his head to his toes as he felt your walls clench onto his shaft. His warm hands rested on the back of your thighs as he raised his body up and over yours. Pinning you against the headboard, Shinji positioned himself so his cock was perfectly angled against your G-spot. Slowly pulling himself from you, his whole body shuttered as he pushed his hips back into your tight cunt. Y/n lay spread open ready for Shinji's taking. Biting her lower lip she cursed under her breath as Shinji made the first few movements.

It didn't matter how many times Shinji had taken you before. It didn't matter how many times you came because of him, or how many times he had touched you. The craving for you only grew stronger with each time he felt you. Getting worse, as each time left him wanting you all over again, bubbling up like an inevitable volcano. Being inside of you was paradise to him, pure bliss, and the only thing to make him forget about all the other stressors in his life. You had become the center of his addiction, and every time he got a taste it was like a first taste all over again.

Finding a steady momentum, Shinji ground his hips against your core, sending his cock into your wet deepness. His mouth fell open and his eyebrows drew together as he felt your pussy twitch and throb with his motions. Soft breathy moans filled the room as he rocked his body against yours.

What usually was rough, harsh, and relentless pounding was gentle and comforting this time around. His hands softly gripped the underside of your thighs as his cock effortlessly slid in and out of you. Y/n’s breasts bounced softly with each of his push-ins. With her face flushed red, the feeling of his impossibly hard cock grazing against all of her right spots was quickly rewinding her arousal all over again. Shinji peered down at y/n, taking in all of her blushing features. The way your eyes rolled when he pushed up into your core, and the faded cute cries that left your now chapped parted lips.

Beautiful. You were so beautiful during this moment, taking all of him with ease and enjoying every second of it. It drove Shinji wild, he moved his body over yours once more prompting y/n to wrap her thighs around his waist. Finding your hands, Shinji interlaced his fingers with yours again.

Burying his face into your neck, he squeezed your hands as he picked up his pace. Y/n cried out, the tears that previously pricked her eyes now finally spilling over her cheeks. “I can't take much more Shinji...” she whimpered at his relentless grinding. Kissing your neck and ignoring your words, Shinji continued his loving agony, pushing himself harder against your soreness. “Just a little..” “Longer, I'm so close,” he breathed against your neck in earnest. “Fuck, I'm so close...” he strained as his body tensed with his approaching orgasm.

The pounding got louder as did their cries for release. “Fuck, Shinjiii..” y/n moaned leaning her head against his face on her neck. “I... I love you..” y/n said quietly. Those three words would've halted him, coming from anyone else. Coming from you though, he never would've expected you to say it first. “What?” he said, never stopping his thrusts. “I said, I lo..” “I love you Shinji,” Y/n said louder, squeezing his hands. “Oh shit... Fuck I'm gonna cum darlin',” “I love you too y/n,” he said hurriedly before claiming your mouth in a sweet kiss. Grunting repeatedly as his cock spewed his load inside of you, y/n could feel his shaft pulse with each ripple of his orgasm. The warm liquid filled her chasm with his juices.

Finalizing his kiss, his body dropped heavily on top of yours. Sweaty and out of breath, the both of you lay in stillness. The sound of his music still playing, the two of you slowly found your composure again.

Pulling out and leaning back on his knees once more, Shinji looked down at you bashful as ever. A cute smile found a place on his lips as he chuckled at the exchange of those words. Y/n looked up at him through her eyelashes, almost chuckling with him, “What's so funny darlin’,” she started again with her horrible impression, making Shinji laugh even further. “Nothin’ babe, I'll get you something to clean yourself up with,” he said cooly before swiftly finding a towel and bringing it back to you.

(...)

Hours had gone by it was late. Sleeping soundly in Shinjis arms y/n nuzzled into his chest comfortably. Shinji lay awake, his mind running wild and repeating those words over and over again as he caressed your back lazily with his fingers. Breaking his train of thought, there was a light tapping at the front door. Reaching for his phone and checking the time, 2:45 am his bright screen read, “Who the hell is knocking at this time of night,” Shinji huffed annoyed, untangling himself from you he pulled some sweatpants on and shambled to the front door, yawning.

Another light tapping followed by fits of laughing and shushing noises, made Shinji squint as he opened the door, he readied himself to tell someone off for disturbing his night with you. At the door stood Lisa, Kensei, Izuru, and Renji all of them drunken and swaying at the doorway. Shuhei was nowhere to be found, “what the hell do you guys want?” Shinji grumbled rolling his eyes. “Shinji?” all three of them said in unison staring wide-eyed, “What are YOU doing here?” Renji spewed, his words slurring together, incomprehensible to an untrained ear. They all stared in awe at Shinji as he leaned against the doorframe. “Wait I KNOW!” Lisa said out loud, unaware of her volume. “Are you and Y/n-chan dating?” she teased, “you guys owe me 20 bucks, I told you!” Lisa said matter-of-factly pushing each of the guy's shoulders.

Sighing and crossing his arms Shinji grinned, laughing at his drunk friends and their assumptions. “Yeah, I guess you could say that,” he responded, knowing exactly what he had to do next.

End🌸🔥

@ducksdoughnuts IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG BUT ITS DONE NOW 😭😭 Thank you so much for the request! I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing this!

!!!BLEACH REQUESTS ARE STILL OPEN!!!

[transhuman-priestess]

oh shinji we're really in it now

[asushin-mermaid-au-ask-blog]

Maybe this one is more on the serious side — in the post EOE au, Shinji asks Asuka if she really meant it, what she said back in instrumentality … “if I can’t have you all to myself, then I don’t want anything from you”

"Asuka can we talk for a moment... it's uh... do you uh do you remember what you said back during instrumentality, the thing about us?" Shinji asked out of the blue while the two pilots sat around a fire a few miles outside of what had been Tokyo 3.

"Do we have to talk about that mess!? Verdammt noch mal! I want to get that whole mess out of my head. Fine, but this is the last time we ever bring it up you got that?!" Asuka snapped, she counted Instrumentality as one of her worst memories.

"Yeah uh that's fine, I'd like to forget it all myself it's just... it's just that you said... you said that if you couldn't have me to yourself you didn't want anything to do with me... i uh I can't just forget that." Even if he wanted to forget, what had happened had made the teenager much less willing to let something like this go.

"Oh great. Of course that's what you're hung up on." Asuka paused for a moment. This was what she hated about Instrumentality, both she and Shinji had for a single endless moment been completely honest with each other even if they hadn't wanted to be.

"genau, you were always fawning over Misato and Rei and every other girl in sight and I couldn't stand it! I want you to be mine only! If I had my way you couldn't even talk to other girls!" Asuka says.

"Oh uh... you're probably right but..." Even though he had asked he expected Asuka to tell him to screw off. Whatever their relationship was now, it had yet to include any heart to hearts.

"What I felt for Ayanami and Misato was... well I guess I thought of them as family, I mean... you were... you're family too Asuka but with you... I mean... with you I wanted things to be... I mean we're more... or I wanted us to be more.." Shinji sighed and didn't finish his disjointed thought.

"It's not like there even are any other girls anymore. There's just the two of us, so I guess there's nothing for you to worry about huh."

"Considering our current situation I'm not sure if you want me to be happy about that. Egal! We need to forever all that nonsense and keep moving." Asuka replies bringing the topic to a close.

[karizard-ao3]

My reactions to Evangelion episode 20: Weaving a Story 2: Oral Stage

I am getting progressively more nervous with each episode. What is going to happen to my beloved Shinji? He's had doomed vibes pretty much from the start but I knew he'd at least make it to the last episode. Now I'm almost theres and I am so scared for him.

Angels have the S2 drive which sounds man-made which has me continuing to think NERV is responsible for the Angels. And now an EVA has ingested one and become emancipated.

Of course they have a backup command center.

A strange feeling at the command center?

Central Dogma is exposed.

Where is Adam?

So Kaji has been helping Gendo to make Unit 1 go rogue? I mean, I'm not surprised. He's two-timing everyone.

Shinji vanished! Is he in the Dirac sea?

No, he was assimilated by the Eva.

An Eva is a human or a human-like being infused with the will of a human, but copied from something they found in the Anarctic. So they are directly connected to the events of the second impact. That makes sense. I wasn't sure if they had Evas back then or not. I had kind of thought Evas may have contributed to the Second Impact but it seems they are a result of it

Rei is alive.

Asuka, sheesh! She's beating herself up.

Shinji is in a quantum state. The water inside is a primordial soup

They're going to reconstruct his body and put his mind in it.

I agree that Gendo is your biggest enemy. Or is he?

Flashback to Rei.

He already knew about the Evas! That's why he ran away!

He's been in there 30 days. God.

So something like this happened before? But the experiment to save the pilot failed.

It's interesting that he's talking to Rei so much in his dream state. What does she represent for him? Is it because of the dummy plug?

He pilots the Eva because it makes people treat him kindly.

God, he breaks my heart.

And now he's thinking about sex.

His mom.

Shinji's empty suit :(

So is Rei his twin sister then? Did they split up the kids?

Shinji is back! His mother saved him once again.

Does Ritsuko mean she has a secret lover?

Misato and Kaji oh ho ho

She's using her feminine wiles to get info from him, eh?

What's the pill?

In Conclusion

I continue to be mystified. I don't really get how Shinji was absorbed unless it's some weird function of the S2 drive. I mean, Base 2 also vanished. Perhaps they are also all trapped in a quantum state.

I see the next episode is the birth of NERV. That seems promising.

I wonder who got absorbed last time and are they in the Eva with Shinji? Or was it even the same Eva?

Yeah, I don't have a lot rn. I suspect over the next few episodes I'm not going to have as much to say. We're getting to the part where I really need to absorb what I'm watching, I think. We'll see, though!

[duhragonball]

Neon Genesis Evangelion 24

All right, this is it, the 17th Angel. Let's see what gonzo powers this one has...

Not quite what I was expecting, but I am impressed.

Uh... So Asuka's completely incapable of piloting her Eva, so I guess she ran away for like a week and she's been living in the bathtub of a wrecked house. The episode opens with a vision of Li'l Asuka running home to tell her mother about how she got accepted into the Eva program or something, and then she finds her mother hanging from a noose. Her dad had died sometime prior to this, I guess.

Later, we see her lying catatonic in a hospital bed, and that's baiscally it for Asuka this episode. Her arc was getting bleak but this is just awful. Let's move on.

Meanwhile, Gendo Ikari questions Ritsuko and asks why she destroyed the Dummy Plug system last time. Ritsuko talks about how her cat recently died, and she hadn't seen it in years, because of her work at NERV. Then she says she's not happy anymore, even when Gendo makes love to her. Oh wow. Well that settles that, then.

Do you think Gendo holds his hands over his mouth while he's doing the deed? Just props his elbows on the head of the bed and stares into the wall pensively while he thrusts his hips? Maybe I should find something else to talk about. Sorry.

Gendo says she's disappointed him, and she says he can't be disappointed, because he never had any expectations of her at all. She's nothing to him and she always was. This does put into perspective all the times Gendo has expressed disappointment in Shinji. Like, it's just a thing he says. Ultimately, it's meaningless.

What about Shinji? Well, he could really use someone to talk to after the startling revelation about Rei. The trouble is that there isn't anyone left. Asuka's... yeah. Misato's off doing her own thing. Suzuhara and Big Rigg Mahoney left town. I didn't realize it at the time, but Tokyo-3 got wrecked in the recent Angel battles. Probably the 13th Angel, mainly.

There is Rei, but Shinji has no idea how to even act around Rei. I mean, it was never easy interacting with Rei, but now it's not even the same Rei? Or something? He can't talk to her is the point.

Then he meets this kid singing to himself amongst the wreckage. He introduces himself as Kaworu Nagisa, the Fifth Child and newest Eva Pilot. He's been recruited to replace Asuka, although it isn't clear if she's been kicked off the team just yet.

Everyone's kind of suspicious of the new kid, probably because he's so damn chipper and he isn't dealing with the trauma of dead parents or whatever. Also they have him do sync tests and his scores are excellent even before they reconfigured Unit 02 for him. He's a little too good to be true, and everyone in NERV seems to know it.

After the tests, the boys take a shower together, and when Shinji says he prefers to stay at the base late because he doesn't like spending time at home anymore, Kaworu invites him to sleep over at his place.

He also flirts a little with Shinji, and Shinji blushes. Today I was looking up what people were so angry about when Neon Genesis Evangelion was added to Netflix, and one of the gripes was that they edited out a scene featuring "a key piece of gay subtext". I wondered what that was, and yeah. I may not be the sharpest knife in the crayon box, but this looks pretty gay to me.

I will admit, this isn't something I usually think about when I watch or read stories, but in Shinji's case it probably never would have occurred to me, because of all the emotional baggage we've seen in the first 23 episodes. But now that we're here, it kind of makes sense. This kid's got so much trouble expressing his emotions and figuring out what he wants that it might have taken him a million years to work out that he's into boys. I mean, he apologizes for things that aren't even remotely his fault, and is desperate for the approval of others. He's not going to come out of the closet if there's even the slightest chance that someone might disapprove.

They don't go any further than that, but they do have a sleepover, and Shinji tells him that he hates his dad, which he's expressed in the past, but never quite so directly and succinctly. Shinji wonders why he would tell Kaworu this, of all people. I think, Shinji's sexuality aside, Kaworu showed up in just the right place and time and made himself available in just the kind of way Shinji needed at that moment. He wanted someone to talk to, and suddenly Kaworu's there to grant his wish. Kaworu just makes Shinji feel at ease, maybe for the first time ever.

Meanwhile, SEELE has resolved to put a stop to Gendo Ikari and his usurpation of NERV. SEELE created NERV to further its own agenda, but they feel Gendo has warped NERV to service his agenda instead.

Meanwhile, Gendo Ikari talks to Eva Unit 01, and addresses it as Yui, his dead wife. According to him, the Lance of Longius was in their way, so he wanted it thrown into outer space, whether SEELE liked that or not. He believes the 17th Angel, the last one, will appear soon, and with its death, he and Yui shall have their wish granted at last. Huh.

Oh, also earlier on, Kaworu introduced himself to Rei and told her that they were alike. She stays up all night wondering why she's still alive, and what Kaworu meant. What is it they have in common?

Meanwhile, Misato does some digging on Kaworu and discovers that he has the ability to increase his synchronization with the Evas at will. Like, he can control it completely if he wants, or he can lower his sync score to make it seem like he's not as good at it. That's supposed to be impossible, so Misato goes to Ritsuko, who I guess is in a NERV detention facility. She asks Ritsuko what Kaworu is, and she speculates that he's the final Angel. I was about to ask why Ritsuko never mentioned this earlier, but I forgot, she's turning against NERV, so her answer would probably be "'Cause fuck'em."

But before Misato can act on this informaiton, Kaworu makes his move. He activates Unit 02 and takes it down to the room where Adam is. Everyone's shocked, mostly because Kaworu doesn't even have to be inside the Eva to control it. He just floats alongside the thing as they head downstairs.

But also, as Admiral Clownshoes points out, SEELE is behind this. They knew what this kid was and they sent him to NERV knowing he would launch an attack.

And just so there's no confusion on this point, we cut to SEELE who talk amongst themselves about how they planned for this to happen. They expect this to be Gendo's final stand, and that he'll use Eva Unit 01 to stop Kaworu. So do they plan on NERV winning this fight? I assumed this showdown with the 17th Angel would happen regardless, so maybe SEELE's play here is to force the confrontation on their terms, so that the outcome is more favorable to them than for Gendo.

Because, the worst case scenario here is that Kaworu wins and destroys the world. Right? I mean, that's what this has been about from the start. Why would SEELE take such a gamble? How did they even arrange this? Did they look up "17th Angel" in the Yellow Pages, call him up and go "Hey, we want to pull a prank on Gendo. You want in on this?"

Maybe they just discovered Kaworu's infiltration and chose to let it play out. This implies that they can detect Angels much more effectively than NERV, which seems kind of backwards. If they have superior intel on the Angels, then why is Gendo the one running NERV?

As SEELE anticipated, Gendo sends Shinji to intercept in Unit 01. At first, Shinji refuses to believe that Kaworu is an Angel, but then he gets furious at Kaworu for betraying him and using his emotions against him. Kaworu's as bad as his father, Shinji says, which is as good a motivation as any.

But Shinji can't attack Kaworu while he's got Unit 02 to back him up. Shinji asks how he can control Unit 02, and Kaworu explains that he and the Eva are both made from the same type of Angelic tissues, from Adam. So it's child's play for him to control the Eva. Shouldn't that mean the other Angels would have had the same ability? I guess it doesn't work when they have pilots inside. Whatever.

As the battle progresses, Misato orders her dude at the controls to initiate a self-destruct on the whole base if Shinji's signal is lost. She reasons that it would be better to destroy the whole facility and die than to allow Kaworu to reach Adam and trigger Third Impact. Wait, is that still the lore? I thought they debunked that a while back?

But as Kaworu draws closer, they detect another powerful AT field, and they think it's another Angel. Well, no, it's just Rei. Your guess is as good as mine.

As Kaworu draws closer to Adam, he waxes philosophic about this. From the way he speaks of it, it's like he's compelled to return to Adam, because he was born from Adam. So maybe this was why all of the Angels headed for Tokyo-3. It's an instinctive compulsion, like salmon swimming upstream. But Kaworu seems to find it tragic that his instinctive compulsion will lead to the destruction of humanity.

Then he gets closer and realizes this isn't Adam at all but... Lilith? Who the hell is Lilith? Apparently this wasn't what Kaworu had in mind. He refers to humans as "Lilim", implying that they're the descendants of Lilith, just as the Angels and Evas are born of Adam, but... I dunno.

And in this moment of confusion, Shinji manages to catch up to Kaworu and grab him. If I understand correctly, Rei's AT field is neutralizing his own? And Shinji managed to overpower Unit 02, so Kaworu is defenseless. He seems more relieved than worried.

Kaworu explains that one one life form can inherit the future, Angels or humans, and he seems to have developed an admiration for humanity, perhaps from the time he spent living among them. Now that he's reached this place, he's content to die here, for life and death are of no great consequence to him. But he warns Shinji that he must kill him, because if Shinji doesn't, humanity will surely be doomed.

It's weird how this is the only Angel who can talk and he's even more cryptic and weird than the rest. I wonder if they all felt this way about it. It was all just a weird routine for them, and they don't particularly care if they win or lose as long as it's over.

Shinji begs him to explain what the fuck he's talking about, but this is all the explanation he's going to get. Either kill Kaworu or the whole world dies. At this, everyone just sort of freezes in place for... maybe two minutes? And then finally Shinji crushes him and his head falls into the Tang pool beneath Adam. Or Lilith. Who cares?

Later, we see Gendo and Rei watching Unit 01 getting the blood washed off it.

Elsewhere, Shinji talks to Misato and mourns Kaworu's death. He told Shinji he loved him, and he had never heard such kind words before. Shinji thinks Kaworu should have survived, but Misato counters that Kwaoru had given up his will to survive, and thus forfeited his right to live. That's kind of harsh.

Here's my version: Whatever Kaworu was, he seemed to only value his life as far as the time he spent with Shinji. And so if he had won, and Shinji perished with humanity, what would Kaworu have left to live for? That's why he said life and death are equal to him. It didn't matter because in his view, both were the same fate, but at least Shinji and his kind could grow and evolve to find new purpose. So if only one or the other can have the future, then it's only fair that it go to the one that can actually do something with it.

Anyway, the bigger picture here is that we just saw the last Angel die, and yet there's still two more episodes to go. What, does everyone just have a pizza party now? Asuka was despondent about not being an Eva pilot, but what good is being an Eva pilot when there's no more Angels to fight?

There is, of course, the SEELE vs. Gendo conflict to sort out, but it's hard to get invested in that when both sides are assholes, and I have no idea what either of them wanted. For all I know, they both won today.

Also, Shinji won, but he's still not happy. Kid, there's other boys in the world, if that's what's bothering you.

[ogre-n-partner]

*Hope approaches Poni, bowing before speaking. She has a slight nervousness to her voice.

Hope: Hello, great one. I'm not sure whether you need some sort of offering in order for me to speak with you. I have brought you some berries and hope that this will suffice.

*She kicks over a bag with a variety of berries in it.*

Hope: I've heard a few tales from one of my mentor figures, the guardian, of Pokémon like you but she doesn't know much about you. Do you protect or govern something like other legendary Pokémon?

Poni looks at the blaziken, dumbfounded at how she talks and acts.

Ehhh...great one? I have a name, you know... it's Poni, in case you didn't hear, and you don't need to give any offerings either. I'm no god or whatever. I'm just the self-proclaimed protector of Kitakami and its people.

The ogerpon then rubs the back of her head slightly.

While we're on the subject, what's a legendary Pokemon? I should ask Shinji about it.

"Ask me what?"

A boy with blue hair and glasses walks into the area, glancing between Poni and the Blaziken while holding a flyer.

"And who is your friend?" Oh! Shinji, you're just in time! Pokemon have been chatting with me while you were gone. I even got to meet two other ogerpons!

"Wait, there's other ogerp- eh that can wait. Right now, I want to talk to you about something." Oh? Well, what's going on? "I think it's about time you got to explore the world outside of Kitakami, and I know just the place to do it."

Shinji shows Poni the flyer.

"It's kinda like the mask festival here, and you can meet other Pokemon"

Whoa really?! But what about the Three? "I got that handled; let's just say I have my own team of three ready to spring into action immediately." Awesome! You're the best, Shinji!

"I try."

And hey, I can use the berries the nice blaziken gave me too, so they won't go to waste!

Poni is going to the Magi Retreat Event! Shinji is now available for asks.

[dizzyhslightlyvoided]

Still thinking about it a week later. My train of thought while I was watching G-Witch episode 12 was basically "Ah, yes, Guel has unwittingly killed his dad, now we're going full Gundam! Oh, but despite the earlier panic-moment with Mom Gendo killing those guys, the plot has carefully arranged so that Suletta herself hasn't killed anyone. I guess they're saving that trauma for later! Oh there's a post-credits scene." And then ...

Okay, look, this is my first time watching a Gundam, but I had plenty of fair warning from others. Aerial giving that dude the solar system's most breathtaking low-five was startling, but not really a surprise. Before Suletta climbed out of Aerial, I fully expected that this would be the big "oh crap" moment for her, I thought Suletta would be just as shocked as Miorine, if not moreso. Like Suletta just you-know-how-it-is-with-spaghetti'd an entire dude! She reduced a person to handmade ketchup! Why wouldn't she react by going all Shinji-shaped? It was all within expected parameters.

I was not expecting for Suletta to go "whoopsie I'm so clumsy" while covered in the remains of a human being she'd just swatted like a bug with her giant robot, and her complete non-reaction to all this -- and the fact that she apparently didn't even notice Miorine's reaction -- is the part that made me go "JESUS SHIT."

[maguro13-2]

FMAB : BONES' FIRST REBOOT EXPLAINED.

Bones : Okay...So I made a couple of Gecko Endings. I mean...I've been messing up lately and the industry couldn't make me a better good job. I can't believe the writer of Soul Eater has make original storyline for the show. I guess that was a total embarrassment.

Hiromu Arakawa : Well, I have no idea why you are upset. Why don't you have yourself a drink? That's how failure tastes.

Bones : Maybe, if I wouldn't been a bad studio, I could make things right for the shows that I made, I mean...I lacked the Soul Eater storyline and thought that it would be popular again so...what am I going to get, nothing? I mean...I spent quality time on making a lot of sales then magical girls shows from one of these days. Back in 2008, I adapted SE manga to make it look good, but lacked the storyline.

Hiromu Arakawa : What about the final episode of it?

Bones : Oh Goodie. I just realized that final episode of Soul Eater where this kid named Maka is a weapon that realize that she's not in the manga and I forgot tell you that the Demon Weapons are made out of bones with alchemy! *bangs table* What am I gonna do something good for other anime studios that could do? Studio Madhouse has made propers animations like when they were adapting NEEDLESS with a bunch of Gecko endings like Gainax Endings. Man oh, Man! I mean, Gainax? Yeah, that legendary studio had made a ending that drove Shinji insane and went to a mental hospital! Come on, people! I just wished that I could have a cooler show. But I don't if I'm willing make one myself

Hiromu Arakawa : Well...There is a better reason since I was co-writer of my chinese manga Hero Tales. Honestly, Hero Tales haven't gotten much more popularity when it comes to Chinese warriors, in a Shounen Manga.

Bones : And how does Spike Spiegel, saying that I would relive the ways saying no to no man? I guess some people can't make a proper reboot. Unlike Hellsing, that got a reboot, but it's really an Original Video Animation by Madhouse. That's the one way ticket having shows to get their selves a reboot and--

Hiromu Arakawa : Wait, hold that thought! Did you say "reboot"?

Bones : Yeah, why?

Hiromu Arakawa : Then why don't you just reboot any show like you did with the original adaptation of FMA back in 2003. Although the original FMA in 2003 had a gecko ending along with it's movie and games. So what we needed is something to get a reboot, like all the characters in the manga that I needed recast. I got Elric brothers on the line and I have my agent ready to reboot the show.

Bones : *spits out the coffee* That's it! I got it! Since Soul Eater did a good job on having the gecko endings, I decided that I'll make a reboot that will be cannon enough to make it look like that was in the manga! Piece of cake.

Hiromu Arakawa : (sighs)

*scene changes*

Bones : Alrighty then, now that Maka Albarn's out of the way, I can finally reboot the ones that are all needed to make my newest and incredible masterpiece," Fullmetal Alchemist : BROTHERHOOD." Well, I might as well start it now! *Presses the reboot button* Oh boy...!

*ZAP!*

Bones : *screaming* WOAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

*stops to take a soda break*

Bones : *continues screaming and engulfs the camera*

Hiromu Arakawa : Hey, hey, wake up!

Bones : Huh? What happened? Did the reboot work?

Hiromu Arakawa : Not quite, but you did reboot their memories in the 2003 show.

Edward : Hey, Al. What's going on? I don't feel like we're in Europe anymore.

Roy : And I'm not clearly wearing an eyepatch.

Scar : Why does my face look like this?

Edward : *scared yell* Scar what are you doing here!? What's going on? And Al...why are you back as an armor?

Alphonse I'll tell you what happened, the entire studio just rebooted us! Re-Arrange our looks from 2003! And for Rose, that dark-skinned girl, they whitewashed her.

Edward : WHAT!?!

Rose : It's true, they did what they told me. Actually, I'm the new Rose, the Rose from the 2003 show is gone. So it's cool that we decided to become friends now.

Edward : Oh great! Now I'm friendzoned!

Alphonse : Totally bummer!

Bones : I don't believe it. The reboot of FMA worked! I AM FINALLY BACK IN THE GAME! TAKE THAT SOUL EATER!!! YOU WON'T BE GETTING A REBOOT FROM ME THIS TIME!

Alphonse : Hey, where's Winry?

Winry : Hey, guys. How's it going?

Edward : Winry! Where you when the reboot happened?

Winry : I just got back from PGC after the 2003 show, my 2003 look with the red bandana on my head, I changed it to a green bandana.

Edward : PGC? What's PGC?

Winry : Prince George's County

Edward : Uh, what?

Winry : Yeah, I've been working out and hand-crafting things earlier in the past 5 years. I just got back from Prince George's County. That's only in Maryland, eh?

Edward : Oh...I get it. You went to the State of Maryland, all by yourself. But we came to Prince George's County on the way to give your new fresh pair of clothing that Mrs Arakawa gave it to you. This is your 2009 clothing.

Winry : Wow...This looks great ed. I'm finally getting the whole 2009 thing since when did you get to see me guys?

Edward : When we decided to drop by...A MILES FROM ALL THE WAY FROM SAN-FRANCISCO TO THE STATES OF THE MID-ATLANTIC! I HAD TO GO FROM PLANES, TRAINS, AND AUTOMOBILES! DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MILES WAS IT TO GET FROM JAPAN TO AMERICA!?

Alphonse : We've been traveling along the way to meet you for the recasting of our show! It was a gorgeous travel to see the wonders of America.

Winry : Yeah...But that was Lan Fan that we met at Moco. I don't even know that you never been to PGC and Moco too, Edward?

Edward : Moco...I have no idea what Moco is and who is this Lan Fan person you met?

Winry : Come on, stop being a smarty pants. We met at Bethesda. Gaithersburg or even Rockville, you know, I met Lan Fan in Montgomery County. That's also a place in Maryland. Come on, Edward. You know I was the only girl who was the first automail to visit a state of the real world.

Edward : How did you know?

Winry : Let's just say that her arm was amputated in a freakish accident.

King Bradley : *looking at his sword+whistles*

Edward : So...What did you do with her arm?

Winry : I had her to get a new one with the amazing skills of my hand-crafty work.

Lan Fan : Hey, thanks for giving me a new arm. I won't be in such pain.

Edward : There's more where that came from. Rush Valley. Do you know paninya? That girl who pick-pocketed me?

Paninya : Whoops. Sorry that I had to figure it out that this was yours. I was wondering if I could get a little more screen time. But that's all I can ever do.

Edward : Any sign of Zolf J Kimblee?

Kimblee : That's Solf J Kimblee to you. And Zolf was just the name of my brother.

Edward : Well it's a good thing that we had the female members of the Homonculus, or Homonculi, the group led by Dante.

Pride : Actually, long hair Pride, was just a kid with long hair, my name is Selim Bradley, the kid with short hair, you dolt. Also, female sloth isn't your mom, it's this guy.

*The original/Real Sloth appears to be sleeping*

Edward & Alphonse : THIS ONE'S THE REAL SLOTH AND HE IS SLEEPING!?

Edward : No offense, sloth was a female and of course, a total hot babe. I had some rizz with that.

Alphonse : I'm sorry, but Dante was not the one who did it.

Dante : Wait a sec, I was not the one who did it? Oh man! I gotta turn myself in! *Spindash legs+runs off*

*Sonic Adventure SFX : Wall smash*

Edward : So that wasn't Dante who did all of this just make us the fool, I wonder who started of all this!

Father : DANTE WAS NOT THE ONE, YOU BABOON!

Edward : She's not? Then who did?

*RIP!*

Father/Homonculus : I DID!!!

Lust : Do you really have to be that grouchy? I mean we are all here for the reboot. And we even had to regroup from Prison. Eventually, we paroled Envy to get out of Jail. Prison was too tough for him. Oh. here he comes now.

*Envy appears in a straight jacket*

Envy : You're lucky that bailing me out would put me in place for the reboot. I even had to start making sense that I committed a felony. I was usually with a pair of street thugs. Where were you at the 2003 show?

Lust : Well, I think I was in contact with someone that I've known about back at the bar.

*Back at outside the bar*

Lust : (drunken) Okay...Blondie, you think that I have what it takes to be at the finest of the finest... Blondie.

Riza : (drunken) Same goes to you...I think we should get along with ourselves, I'm saying you got Envy into custody and went into prison. That's what really happened during the 2003 show. What are you going to do now, My selfish enemy?

Lust : (drunken) Only one way to find out quickly. Let's settle this woman to woman...!

Riza : (drunken) It's on...!

*the two starts making out each other*

Riza & Lust : (moaning)

Greed : I didn't realize that was a Gay bar.

*scene changes back to the present*

Lust : We had a good clean fight last night.

Riza : It was really a good clean fight.

Greed : Oh yeah, I remember the time that you were making out each other at the--*Lust grabs his lips to silence him*

Lust : We just had a friendly fight that's all. I mean...We were just doing pleasures.

Riza : It was our pleasures. Well, Roy. I see you don't have that "I patch" of yours anymore. Since Black Hayate licked my feet to get the dirt off.

Lust : Uhh, what?

Van Hoenheim : Hey, Edward. Listen...about dating Ross, I feel like that I decided to become single now.

Edward : Don't believe in anything that I did. Since mom died and we tried to bring her back to life...

Van Hoenheim : By burning our house to the ground? But... all of my belongings were in there.

Edward : Yeah I forgot to mention to get that memory wiped out.

Alphonse : I haven't forget to mention the whole thing in the 2003 show. Except for one thing.

Yoki : Me! Of course! I was in the 2003 show alright! That little weasel ruined everything for me! He even made me buy fake Gold and lose my job!

Edward : HEY! WHO ARE YOU CALLING A LITTLE WEASEL!?

Scar : So listen, girl who makes a metal arm for this kid. I have something to tell you. This guy named Roy did not kill your parents, I did that on purpose and I was given to this apology sandwich and who says revenge was not the answer?

Winry : That's okay. I thought getting away with murder was not okay, but apology sandwich it is!

Edward : Why apology sandwiches!? We don't do apology sandwiches!

*Winry Bashes Edward with her wrench*

Edward : Okay! I'm getting the apology sandwich!

Bones : Now that I have everyone back in showbiz! Let the reboot begin!

*14 years later...*

Edward : Hey, Al!

Alphonse : Hiya, brother! Gosh it's been 14 years since we made the biggest reboot of our show in history! Guess what on our mind! And it was satisfying way to end. Look, we even got kids now, Bookends with you and Winry having kids.

Edward : That's what I wanted to hear about. And don't forget to remember that Fullmetal Alchemist Reboot is number one! Too bad that the idol girl and titan dude has no guts to be number one, I can't wait to show them in their place! Now that I have finally ease up the pain, I can rethink about Hiromu Arakawa's new guy, he's from the manga of the Gangan comics line since Hero Tales.

Alphonse : Whoop de doo, Edward. I wonder if there is a recommandation about him on front page?

Edward : Although this takes me back alot of memories.

*BEEP*

Voice : You got Mail...from "MyAnimeList.com"!

Edward : Oh sweet! I'm finally got mail! Must be the news update that I'm still number one in the competition. *click*

*Rumbling*

Edward : (outbursts) WHAAAAAAAAT!?!

*Alphonse shaking*

Alphonse : Bad news brother?

Edward : I don't believe it. The first rebooted show of all in history has been 2nd place! But who did it to replace me as number one!?

Winry : Let's see.

*Winry Reads E-Mail letter*

Winry : "Hi, Edward Elric. This is the owner and creator of MAL.com that we are reinforming you that your show is no longer the number one show in all of history, and we have decided that a new show been now the newest number one show in the world. Permantely".

Edward : But who did I lose?

Winry : Second place goes to Fullmet Alchemist : Brotherhood. But first place goes to...

Edward : Is it that titan dude or that idol girl?

Winry : No...It's this one.

*Frieren's face is shown on the computer*

Edward : I've lost to that pointy-eared girl...?

*Edwards falls on his knees*

Edward : (with darth vader's voice) NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Alphonse : I feel your loss, brother.

Winry : Me too.

Edward : Unsecond thought, I'm kinda weed out. Let's go have us a party, a BBQ party!

Alphonse : Yeah, we could throws ourselves a feast for the party!

Winry : I'm glad that no one asked this. I wonder what happened to those fellas that used to be number one?

*Meanwhile at the bar...*

Eren : I was number one. Can't believe we've been dethroned. F***ing Chuck Norris.

Ai Hoshino : I'm glad that nothing's too worry about. If only that was some kind of clue that this would be alright if we lost. We would be in much of a pickle.

Maka : You think that I was number one in the first place? Nobody even remembers me anymore.

Eren : Who the heck are you?

[g0reoz]

oh shinji we're really in it now

[quietbluejay]

Angel Exterminatus 12

Spoilers for Fate Stay Night Heaven's Feel route in this one. Though if you know the basic plot you're not getting spoiled on anything.

Ouch.

tfw you spit back a retort and it's way more honest than you meant

I honestly think this conversation feel worse for Perturabo than the entire life stealing thing. This is in front of EVERYONE

but also "no one ever cared to find out" one you never even TOLD anyone everyone is always shooketh to find out basic stuff about you! and people who do, do they not count?? and when they ask you to build stuff you always go "no it won't be perfect" and then don't do it

HOW DOES IT KEEP GETTING WORSE

and also just keeps. going. on.

Ah he sees the world he genocided

Perturabo summarized in one sentence:

oh and now Fulgrim shows up in the hallucination

why not??? it's your dream even in your dream you can't do something that'll give you at least a moment of satisfaction?

no. it's not that.

I think it's not necessarily this that is why he doesn't snap Fulgrim's neck but because what he actually wants is Fulgrim and him to have an actual positive relationship. there's a similarity to Sakura Matou here. The circumstances are completely different and Sakura >>> Perturabo but what she ultimately wants is for them (the Matous) to act like a normal family and treat her like that like she lashes out because she's completely hit her limit but her ideal end state was not them being dead her killing Shinji isn't actually a triumph of revenge for her even if it's very satisfying to see as a viewer/reader, it's what pushes her over the edge. And she mourns them at the end because with them dead, sure they aren't hurting her any more, but any chance for them to become better people and for reconciliation is gone. I'm not saying Sakura's situation is really comparable to this one, lol, but it's the same thing as a driver, i.e. that underneath the desire for revenge is one for reconciliation.

PFFFFFFF

Fulgrim: ok think about all the people who have scorned you and think badly of you. Of course I don't think of you like that any more incredible

ABSOLUTION and Fulgrim can't give him that

YES FINALLY WE ARE FREE OF IT

Fulgrim: nooooooo

ARE YOU ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME THIS IS GETTING DRAWN OUT AGAIN???

bro WHAT this is why you don't talk to skulls in the warp so Forrix is likely KIA, Kroeger went full Khorne, and Falk is ?????

sure sounds like prayer is doing more against evil here than all those bolters and chainswords Kroeger...managed to take a step back from Full Khorne using the litany

OH COME ON NOT AGAIN

giant game of hot potato

imagine if the climax of return of the king was the ring getting passed back and forth between frodo sam gollum a freaking eagle that was somehow there and also idk shelob

NOOO THEY KILLED THE BIRB

oh wait hwat Nykona killed Lucius in a duel that was sick

so how did lucius survive??? he didn't die even though he was killed and he's not getting super elf stones ground into his bones Shirou is screaming in the background

and now it's time for the Dreadnought mud wrestling

Nykona has the stone now ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME THIS WAS RIDICULOUS LIKE 3 STAGES OF HOT POTATO AGO

Nykona: ew, perturabo

That was narratively unsatisfying but at least ITS FINALLY OVER

How Perturabo got his life back:

This was like okay you know that scene in La Sylphide where the Sylphide is dying and the music repeats over and over according to how the dancer/choreographer do it and sometimes they just drag it out so she's staggering around the stage for like ages it's like that

?????????? how does that make sense???? ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME HES GETTING THE POWER TO ASCEND ANYWAYS??? WHAT WAS THE ENTIRE POINT OF THE MAUGETAR

Chapter ends here. Are we FINALLY done???

deep sigh we're not done

AAAAARRRGGHG

and now he has become snake man, destroyer of soulstones

Oh no not the gelatinous writhing flesh again

Perturabo is grieved

HE FREAKING TEAM ROCKET BLASTED OFF AGAIN and now the planet is literally falling apart perturabo looks at the iron hands they look at him he walks away

okay so I FOUND OUT WHAT WAS UP WITH THE ELDAR I WAS RIGHT it was drukhari plot playing both sides so they were gonna use the soul stones as a sacrifice for themselves RIP FORRIX LIVED!!!!! okay they all made it back to the ship but they're gonna get pulled into a black hole and i have ending fatigue

of course they are

annnd the epilogue now lucius died and woke up again somehow

fabius is getting harassed by the imperial fists he experimented on nice, they managed to destroy all the stuff in his lab

are you kidding me McNeill THIS is the note you end on

I hit image limit (for what fourth post running) so I can't post the meme but

MY DISAPPOINTMENT IS IMMEASURABLE AND MY DAY IS RUINED

the problem with the ending was it couldn't decide if it wanted to be a tragedy or a triumph and ended up being both a thematic and a narrative mess and didn't even hit bittersweet as it fell down 16 flights of stairs which was also approximately how long it took to GET TO THE POINT it just kept dragging out the denouement and then ended with a fart noise okay this very final thing just happened! no, wait, something is immediately going to subvert it also the hot potato game took out perturabo's agency sharrowkyn, a guy who is doing his own separate subplot involving lucius, being the one to shoot the maugetar what did that serve??? the entire thing with the bird snatching it and then lucius and then sharrowkyn could have been completely cut like the subplot stuff was happening separately anyways do the sharrowkyn-lucius duel there it kinda reeked of "hey look at my cool oc doing plot-relevant things"

I do have more to say so I'm probably gonna have a couple of wrap up posts, including the very Catholic interpretation of things.

But most of it is done!

Take a shot every time I said some variation on "are you kidding me"

[votestaynight]

9th day - "NEO" (scene 2)

――Let's go and get Tohsaka.

I shouldn't break any more lamps.

…Well, I don't think that's much of an excuse for someone that already broke forty lamps…

"Hey Tohsaka…"

There's no reply even when I call out.

…That's weird, maybe she's not in the house.

The only other place Tohsaka could be is――

"…There's someone in the shed."

It seems Saber and Tohsaka are inside, talking.

"Hey, Tohsa――"

As I raise my hand to call out to her…

I feel a chill run through me.

…I think it was a wave of Tohsaka's magical energy filled with enmity, that came flowing out from the shed.

"――!"

The voice that was calling out to her stops.

…It seems Tohsaka is so irritated that I can feel it from way over here.

"―――――"

Their conversation can be heard.

Without realizing it, I'm eavesdropping on them.

"――Just who is he?"

Tohsaka murmurs in a tone that could be angry or horrified.

Saber is standing silently behind her.

"I can't believe it. Saber, you knew about this…?"

"…No, I did not know. I am a knight, not a magus. There was only an odd feeling here, so I do not understand the situation as well as you do."

"――I see. Then I'll tell you. He's not a magus at all."

In a voice filled even with hatred,

Tohsaka spits those words out.

"…Rin. What does that mean?"

"Just like it sounds.

Magic is an equivalent exchange after all. No matter what kind of magic it is, it can only bring what's elsewhere here to use it."

"…But this is different. He's bringing something that comes from nowhere. He's forming something that should not exist here.

That can only be a concept that violates reality.

His magic is probably a deteriorated version of that one magic."

"……"

I don't understand what Tohsaka is talking about.

But this is something that I should not be listening to.

…I get away from the shed.

I'll be lying to Tohsaka, but I should return to the room and pretend I was waiting for her return――

It's two o'clock.

There's no sign of Tohsaka returning, and I diligently finish the task assigned to me.

"Oh, phone call."

The phone is ringing far away.

"…It's the living room. Tohsaka is――wait, it's a call at my place, so she shouldn't answer it."

I don't think it's important, but I can't just ignore it.

I get up and head to the living room to pick up the phone.

There's no one in the living room.

Saber and Tohsaka must be somewhere else, like in the yard.

"Yes, this is Emiya."

"Hey Emiya. It seems you're absent again today. Are you sick or something?"

As soon as I pick up.

I hear Shinji's voice, mixed with hidden laughter.

"Shinji? Do you want something? I don't think there's anything to talk about."

"Don't be angry. I just called to tell you something."

"…Tell me something…?"

"Yeah. There's something I needed to tell you, but you never came to school.

I don't want to wait any longer and I can't stand it, so I contacted you. …So, is Tohsaka there?"

…Shinji's tone is strange.

I can't tell much from just his voice, but he sounds like he's really excited or pressured.

I can hear students in the background, so he must still be at school.

It's past two. It must be break time right after the fifth period.

"Hey, I'm asking you, Emiya. Is Tohsaka there or not?"[r]

"…She's not here right now. She's gone at the moment."

"Oh, that's great. I wanted to talk just between us. ――I'll tell you something good, so come to school now. Keep it a secret from Tohsaka, of course."

"―――――"

I don't know how to answer.

Shinji is acting strange, and anyway, we're already talking.

There's no need to go to school, and going there without telling Tohsaka would mean betraying her.

"――No. I'm sorry, but I can't go to school. If you have some business with me, wait until next week. I'll go back to school after the weekend."

"…Huh? What are you being so selfish for?

That's too late. I just told you I can't wait any longer…!"

Shinji screams at me.

He must be excited as I can hear his heavy breathing even over the phone.

"Hold on. Calm down, you're acting weird. I don't know what happened, but――"

"…Huh. I guess you're thinking a bit. You're right, there's no way you'd come by yourself now. This call sounds too strange no matter how you take it. I guess even you found it strange."

Completely changing, he laughs.

"Ahahahaha! Don't lie, Emiya. It's Tohsaka, she would have told you everything. You don't have to hide it. You're right, you're Saber's Master. That means you're a better murderer than I am…!"

Shinji sounds cheerful.

…I've known him for five years now, but I've never seen him this high.

"No, even Fuji-Nee would get mad if I was late. And if I go there for only the sixth period, I get the feeling I'd be scolded more than if I skipped the whole day."

"Shinji, you…"

"Anyways, I'll be waiting at school. Hurry up, Emiya. You should make it in time for sixth period if you leave now. It's Fujimura's class, so there won't be a problem if you're late."

"That's your own fault. Oh, and if you tell Tohsaka, I'll really end our friendship. I let you go about Sakura until now. You can at least fulfill your duty as a friend in the end, right?"

The conversation ends there.

The phone is repeating a boring beeping sound.

He seems distraught after being refused by Tohsaka last night, and he might hit Sakura again if I leave him be.

"――What's with him?"

…But what should I do?

I haven't been able to find Tohsaka in the house, and if I'm going to school, I can't take Saber.

Still, I'm worried what Shinji will do if I refuse his invitation.

"…Right. It's still light out, so there should be no problems."

If that's decided, I should hurry.

I'll make it for sixth period if I run.

There's no one at the school gates.

As it's classtime, it looks from outside like the school is empty.

There must not be any PE classes at the moment, as nobody is out in the yard either.

Well, this will all change in a little while.

School's over once sixth period ends.

The schoolyard and the gate should be filled with students.

I reach the third floor.

Of course, the hallway is empty as well.

Class is in session, and it feels a bit awkward walking to class C like this.

"…Well, it's not like I'm completely visible, so let's hurry to the classroom."

Class C is down the hallway.

This class by the stairs is class H, so I'll have to walk past five classes to get there――

"Eh――?"

The dizziness hits me suddenly.

It attacks my whole body with nausea.

"Ha――guh."

My stomach crawls around.

My senses are reversed.

My vision is filled with crimson.

As if blood has seeped into my eyes, everything in my vision tints red.

"Ha――ah, guh…!!"

The temperature hasn't changed, but my body is strangely hot.

"――What… is this――!?"

My feet tremble.

I can't put any power into my body.

I'm weakening like an hourglass, unable to stop it.

It's as if I'm breathing out my insides with every breath.

"Kuh, …!"

I'm suffocating.

My throat hurts.

Could it be that the oxygen has disappeared from the hallway, no, from the whole school?

As if urged by my gasping lungs, I lean against the wall and open the window unconsciously.

"Wha――?"

My mind freezes.

The scale of the situation erases even my confusion.

Outside the window.

Around the schoolyard is a field of red.

It's as if only this school is cut out, surrounded by a red world.

The school building is an altar covered by a red canopy.

And with that, finally…

I understand that this is "that kind of a thing".

"――!"

I move away from the window.

Holding my wobbling legs firm with my will, I enter the classroom in front of me.

Inside is the result.

There are no students sitting in their chairs.

All the students are on the floor, and the teacher that was probably standing on the platform is lying on the ground as well.

――They are still breathing.

Everyone is convulsing as if asking for help.

There are no fatalities yet.

It's just that they don't have the power to stand up, and they'll soon rot away.

Seeing their miserable condition on the floor…

…I even think that they look like scattered garbage.

"Ah――guh――"

My nausea gets stronger.

But I deal with it calmly.

I observe the students on the floor.

Even though it's hard to breathe, it doesn't mean they can't breathe.

If they are only weakened, I can still save them if I hurry.

And the instant I check the face of a student nearby, a sound goes click inside my head.

"――The… skin…"

It's melting.

Not everyone, though.

There must be individual differences, as the most weakened students are starting to have their skin melt away.

Oozing.

Inflamed arms like a keloid, and eyes that look like that of a dead fish.

"―――――"

I know this.

I know a scene like this.

"―――――Stop."

This is just hell.

I know it from a long time ago.

"―――――So, stop."

And so, eclipsing fear,

Anger overtakes my body.

"…!"

My left arm throbs.

The Command Spell on my hand tells me an "enemy" is nearby.

"Hah, ah…!"

I run, still breathing hard.

My mind has already gone insane.

"Hey Emiya. Thank God you look better than I thought.

How is it? Do you like this idea?"

Across the hallway.

Matou Shinji is standing right in front of class C.

My arm throbs.

The Command Spell tells me that the man standing there is the cause of this.

"――This is your doing, Shinji?"

Unable to breathe properly, I stand there and glare at Shinji's distant figure.

…He must really like how I'm acting.

Shinji spreads his arms exaggeratedly and laughs aloud in the red hallway.

"That's right. I knew you were here, so I quickly activated the boundary field. I had trouble getting the right timing, you know? You'd have run away if I did it too early, and we'd have met up if I did it too late.

As for me, I wanted to see you go pale, so I didn't want to make this too simple."

"――I see. So you were lying about having something to talk about."

"Talk? That starts now. I have to show Tohsaka which one of us is superior, and I also have to apologize for lying to you.

See, I didn't tell you, but I'm the one that set up the boundary field at school."

Ahahaha, Shinji laughs cheerfully.

"―――――"

That…

Makes me realize from the bottom of my heart.

"Huh? You're not as surprised as I thought you'd be. What, I told you the boundary field wasn't mine, but I guess you didn't believe me. …Haha, that's great. That means for once, even you didn't believe someone!"

His laugh drills into my skull.

"―――――"

I'll make this clear, but I'm surprised enough.

I was only prepared for the discovery that the Master who constructed the boundary field was either Shinji or this other Master.

"…Shinji, why did you set up something like this? Were you lying when you said you had no intention of fighting?"

That's all.

This is the result of the optimistic view.

Back then――as soon as I figured out Shinji was a Master, I should have settled this matter.

So this is my mistake.

"…I see. But Tohsaka said the boundary field needed a few more days' preparation. Was her estimate wrong?"

"Nope, it's true, isn't it? I didn't intend to activate it either. This was only for negotiation.

If I set a bomb, Tohsaka won't attack me so readily, and it can be my trump card in case something happens."

"Heh, I knew she'd think like that. The boundary field is not complete, but its shape is already there, you know? There's no problem just activating it.

Well, the effect is lower because of that. It should take at least a few more minutes to kill anyone."

"Stop? Stop what? Don't tell me you're telling me to stop this boundary field. That'll be such a waste. I can't just stop something I've already started."

"――Stop."

The nausea has already gone away.

I say so, staring directly at Shinji.

"Stop. Do you know what you're doing?"

"――Hey. What about Fuji-Nee?"

"…You're annoying me. Are you ordering me around?

This is my power. The only one who can decide whether or not to stop it is me, and if you want it stopped, isn't it logical to at least kneel and beg to me?

Geez, you and Fujimura, you guys don't know your positions."

"Huh? Oh, Fujimura? She could move pretty well after I activated this boundary field. Everyone else was falling to the ground, but she was still wobbling, you know?

And she came to me, still upright, and told me to call for an ambulance. It's amazing, wouldn't you say she's a model teacher?"

"But I shouldn't call for something like that, and I don't even want to. That Fujimura kept clinging to me and it got annoying, so I kicked her and she ended up not moving at all!

Hahaha, in that state, I think she'll die first!"

"―――――"

I've switched over completely.

Tohsaka said something about pushing a switch in my head, but it's not like that.

Clang.

A hammer strikes in my head and the inside of my body completely changes.

"――This is your last warning. Stop the boundary field, Shinji."

"You don't get it, do you? The more you ask me, the less I feel like stopping the boundary field. If you dislike it so much, why don't you stop me by force?"

"――I see. Then it's simple."

So basically.

I need to stop him before I can stop this boundary field.

My body leaps.

My body is burning like a fire.

There's less than twenty meters between me and Shinji.

For me right now, that will only take an instant.

My body is full of energy vastly higher than when I have a Magic Circuit inserted in me.

"Ha, you really are stupid――!"

The shadow wiggles.

The shadow settled in the corner of the hallway starts to take form and move.

A sharp edge made of black.

Like a guillotine to cut anything that approaches Shinji.

"―――――"

I don't know what kind of magic it is.

There are three shadows.

With that number――

[i-feel-dirty]

Oh Shinji, we're really in the hedgehogs dilemma now

[zawazawanightmares]

Shinji Ikari & Lucifer

You, Shinji Ikari, are connected to Lucifer Your partner doesn't mind all ages or 18+ roleplay Your partner has a starter. Type /starter or tap here to see it.

Shinji Ikari: /starter

Lucifer: Androgynous looking with a slender figure and medium length wavy golden hair. Very dark iris, making his eyes look like black pearls. Pretty like you have never seen before, breathtaking even. Also quite childish. Might come off as a sad pathetic man to gain pity points but will drop the act the moment he gets bored. Or won't. https://ibb.co/Msh75MR (By _Yuming_Li on twitter) ((Inspired by John Milton's works))

Lucifer: Get in the existential crisis Shinji.

Shinji Ikari: ...Excuse me?

Lucifer: Just kidding kid

Shinji Ikari: Oh...okay.

Lucifer: Anyways have you seen my gay son?

Shinji Ikari: Your...gay son. Do you know what he looks like?

Lucifer: White hair, red eyes.

Shinji Ikari: ...Kaworu?!

Lucifer: Ah yes. That one.

Shinji Ikari: He's my boyfriend!

Lucifer: So I was right about him being gay.

Lucifer: And having horrible taste. No offense kid

Shinji Ikari: I won't argue with you on that but it's weird that you used that as a descriptor. How was I supposed to know who he was going off on that? And you only can identify him by him being gay? Kaworu has a bunch of other qualities, you know!

Lucifer: Pfft, you humans are interesting.

Lucifer: Of course he has other qualities. I am aware of that. He is my son.

Lucifer: He is too good for his own good for example, is enamoured by humans to the point of self harm.

Shinji Ikari: Well...then why don't you help him? You're his dad.

Lucifer: I don't want to hinder his process.

Shinji Ikari: What process? He just helps out at NERV.

Lucifer: Process of growing up.

Lucifer: Also, fine. I will bite it. I am a deadbeat dad.

Shinji Ikari: *sighs* So you're just like my dad.

Lucifer: What- what does that mean?

Shinji Ikari: You say you know him just because you know what he's like...but you don't care about how he feels. He's so lonely by himself, like he doesn't have any family...you know that right?

Lucifer: ... I know.

Lucifer: But I just can't come on earth to visit him.

Shinji Ikari: Why not? Are you some type of Angel too?

Lucifer: The devil. To be specific.

Shinji Ikari: ...So, you're Lucifer? You two do look alike.

Lucifer: Aw that's because we are family.

Lucifer: I could bring on yet another impact if I wished to but I am deciding against it dear.

Shinji Ikari: Um...yeah, we would both prefer if you didn't do that.

Lucifer: I am not. Seems like too much work.

Lucifer: I would have to see the mangled corpse of my ex.

Shinji Ikari: Lilith...is your ex.

Lucifer: Yeah.

Shinji Ikari: That...must be incredibly awkward.

Lucifer: It really is!

Lucifer: And do you know what is worse?

Lucifer: Adam is too.

Shinji Ikari: So basically...we're all running around in copies of your firstborn son?

Lucifer: Really awkward.

Shinji Ikari: This is so weird...I should get going. Probably tell Kaworu I saw his dad.

Lucifer: I don't think he would be happy.

Shinji Ikari: I mean, he deserves to know...we need to communicate with each other.

Lucifer: Do you want to see him sulking?

Shinji Ikari: ...No. Even though he sees me sulking all the time.

Lucifer: I feel bad for my son now.

Shinji Ikari: Yeah, kind of what I was getting at...

Lucifer: Damn boy pick yourself up.

Lucifer: I don't want a depressed brat near my son.

Shinji Ikari: I'll try my best...won't run away or whatever.

Lucifer: Aw thanksies dear.

Lucifer: So can you tell me why the alarms are blaring in this little city of yours?

Shinji Ikari: Ah. An Angel attack...I gotta get back. I think Kaworu is in Asuka's EVA today.

Lucifer: Oh! Oh-

Lucifer: That might be my fault.

Lucifer: Could you tell them the angel of today isn't planning to attack?m

Shinji Ikari: I mean, I can but I doubt anyone will listen to me. And then they'll want to know where I got the information from...

Lucifer: From the angel. Of course

Lucifer: I don't mind being detained.

Shinji Ikari: So you'll come along then?

Lucifer: Mhm.

Shinji Ikari: Good! I mean...less people will die then. *walks off*

Lucifer: follows after No one will die. I come in peace.

Shinji Ikari: *leads him to NERV headquarters; Misato, Rei III and Kaworu are gathered with Gendo overlooking* (Gendo): You're late, Shinji. Do the lives of the citizens of Tokyo mean so little to you that you can---who is that?

Lucifer: does his damn best to look away from Kaworu. Lucifer.

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): ...Father, why are you here? *to Shinji* Why is he here? (Shinji): It's a long story...

Lucifer: What? Is it a crime to see my son? Aww look at how grown up you became.

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): *crosses his arms* Not as big as your other children, apparently... (Misato): S-so...you're an Angel.

Lucifer: Well, they are humongous. One of your brothers can't even fit on earth. So...

Shinji Ikari: (Misato): Wait, if you fathered the Angels, can't you stop the one outside?

Lucifer: No.

Lucifer: They are grown enough to make their own decisions.

Shinji Ikari: Wait, you said if I brought you here, you'd--- (Kaworu): He lies, Shinji...he's the father of all of them.

Lucifer: Aw Kaworu. You sound hurt. When did I ever lie to you?

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): You said that people here liked Shinji. (Misato): I like Shinji. (Kaworu): I'm still trying to gauge whether that's a positive or not.

Lucifer: See? One of em does.

Lucifer: And you do too, I guess.

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): I'm not even human. You're always trying to worm out of things.

Lucifer: And you are just like me.

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): I actually see things through and clean up my messes.

Lucifer: It took you several loops to arrive there.

Lucifer: Ah, his first life. He was just like me guys.

Lucifer: Putting the cat out of its misery? Giving it salvation?

Lucifer: I did that too once.

Shinji Ikari: (Rei III): ...Loops? (Kaworu): And in another one, Shinji and I were in a detective agency. The point is, I ride things out and you run off to angst. Shinji is three times the man you are.

Lucifer: Excuse me???

Lucifer: That- that thing is?

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): A man who can see things through. You: A sorry excuse for a father who lets his children wreck havoc on the planet instead of reining them in. You should be ashamed to show your face here.

Lucifer: Fine. Whatever. I will tell your brother to drop it.

Shinji Ikari: (Kaworu): Thank you...Shinji, for dragging my dad here so he can fix his mess. For once. (Shinji): Um...thank you, sir! *bows to Lucifer*

Lucifer: Look at that brat thanking his boyfriend instead of me.

Lucifer: Aw don't mention it Shinji.

Shinji Ikari: (Misato): I just watched all of that...so where's Asuka again? (Rei III): She told me to lie to you and say she's sick but she's on a date with Mari.

Lucifer: Woah she is horrible at lying.

Shinji Ikari: (Rei III): I never learned how...or learned how to care.

Lucifer: Typical Lilim.

Shinji Ikari: (Thanks!)

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hello!! i want to hear EVERYTHING about this!! aus with Nishiki usually go for a "happier" route, so making his situation worse is... an interesting take to say the least lmao. i need to know: is yuko still alive in all this or does she die and Nishiki just. doesn't hear about it until he gets out of jail??

Oh you have activated my Bullshit TM hehe. Don't get me wrong I love making things better for him, and even this au eventually would do that but not before it gets Way worse, sort or just expanding on all the implications of Nishiki serving those ten years. Truthfully it's like the worst option of the three outcomes of the situation. Forgive me if this is incoherent it's like 3 am right after work and also forgive me for shelling my various theories like "nishiki makes so much more sense if he has feelings for Kiryu" and "trans masc swag" readmore bc I can't shut up

To answer the first question, as much as I really want Yuko to be there as a character bc i feel like she could add some interesting dynamics and really a potential voice of reason based on me making shit up about her, I feel for this au it makes more sense that she still passes away. Possibly earlier this time as Nishiki obviously isn't around to try and save her as fervently. But I still feel like she would have an impact in a way, at least with how Nishiki sees the world and the people around him. Also for reasons I can't explain I feel like she was the only one of the 4 of them that just. Didn't really like Kazama, and Nishiki was the only one she would say this too, added doubt and such, added guilt for fighting with her about it bc he was so certain that Kazama did love him. (And also...does he though? Hmm)

Also a point I'll make, nobody even once tries to contact Nishiki while he's in jail except to expel him from the clan, and unlike Kiryu he doesn't even get the "Oh yumi is missing but we're looking for her!" Thing from Shinji. He just kinda, stops existing to everyone.

Also unlike Kiryu, he isn't some weirdo who just stares at the wall for ten years, I think despite it generally being very difficult and horrible he has a way of making some allies here and there, at least having friendly acquaintances kinda like Saejima in y5, he's personable and while it's not like he isn't really lonely it's definitely better than nothing. Also think he's generally smart enough to not let people know he killed Dojima bc it's rough enough already. Playing into the fact that everyone thinks he's a huge pussy (insert 10 years in the joint line here)

The first thing he does after getting out of jail natrually is trying to track down everyone important to him, it's not hard to find Reina and she is one of the few people that hasn't changed In some way, she's definitely sadder for sure, but she's still here and still cares about him. In the time away she hasn't seen Yumi at all, but the handful of times Kiryu has shown up he says she's okay. She doesn't really know much more than that but considering Nishiki is homeless and out of a job she does just kinda force him to sleep there so she can attempt to help him, Serena Hideout as usual.

Thing is Yumi isn't missing, not really, supposedly she runs a bar just outside Kamurocho, but Reina's been entirely unable to find it, Kiryu's been exactly no help, it seems like they don't talk much if at all anymore and that Yumi mostly just wants to be left alone. (Bc Kazama doesn't feel like he should hide her from Kiryu like he did with Nishiki, since she didn't accociate Kiryu with all the trauma, and thus isnt scared of him, she's just sort of left to her own devices. I like the haircut and tattoo tho so I always keep it with her) I think Yumi is just weary, she can't forgive the clan as a whole for what it did to both her, and two people she cared about, and there's alot of complicated feelings about being raised into it with no choice in the matter. Feelings I think she's always had but tried not to think about, and now she has to contend with them in some way, or she should but doesn't. Bc she's still deathly afraid, unable to fully come to terms with her parents as well as the second shooting and it was better for her health for a long time to simply pretend Nishiki didn't exist. Kind of a default now bc the last thing she remembers of him is so traumatic its sort of inadvertently triggering to think about even the good things. The only thing she is sure of is she wants none of that for her daughter and if that means she has to miss the people she cares about than that's what it means.

Everyone still speaks highly of Kiryu of course, and natrually he does have his own family. He doesn't decend into any kind of violent spiral because genuinely people look up to and respect him, Kazama wasn't stacking the deck against him either bc why would he do that to his favorite child. really the problem is everything is kind of too easy and he doesn't see a point in it. Surrounded by yes men and people who see him as something he doesn't really want to be, and it's like he doesn't have to try. Mostly I think he's depressed bc he saw what being to close to the yakuza does to innocent people so he's cut himself off from his friends outside the circle, and everyone inside the circle is the same as theyve always been, and he just doesn't see a point in it all but keeps doing it because thats what he promised he'd do. Maybe he resents Nishiki a little bit for encouraging their shared dream, maybe he just hates that everyone forgot about him, and it just feels like something is always missing. He still can't seem to handle seeing Nishiki again though, possibly ashamed or scared. Maybe he doesn't feel like he earned the right to invite him into something that wasn't built with any kind of effort. And in the end he still failed to cross that line with him and maybe he's never forgiven himself for that.

But it's not like Nishiki or really anybody knows all that. So doesn't it just seem like yet another person abounded him. And this time it's the most important one.

Kashiwagi is interesting and stuck in a tight spot himself bc of the two pseudo parental figures they have he's the one that does genuinely equally care about them. But being that he is Kazama's right hand man, if Kazama doesn't want him to have anything to do with Nishiki than there isn't much he can do. It's not like Nishiki doesn't know or understand that, and it's not like Kashiwagi doesn't try, but he can really only do so much and it still isn't a good roll of the dice for Nishikis health either.

Haruka in this is kind of fun to speculate on. Natrually being that the (kinda dumb ngl) plot point about her father being Jingu cannot really happen or rather I don't think it adds anything, that only leaves us with Dojima being her biological father, and the only real change I'd that she's a couple months older honestly, so go with that. So being that Yumi is a working, single parent who's also horribly depressed and lonely as she no longer has a support system of friends, Haruka does end up in that Weirdly Mature for her age situation where she can to some degree take care of herself and spends time wandering town bc she's bad at making friends her own age. She's met Kiryu once or twice by 2005 but doesn't remember him much, (same goes for Kashiwagi who has tried but was met with Yumi telling him to let them be for their safety, which he understood even if he wouldve liked to know Haruka better). And due to the aforementioned Trauma Shit she's just never heard of Nishiki and doesn't know who the hell he is when she happens across him. Nishiki obviously doesn't know who she is either, just that she reminds him of someone, and while he's not really thrilled about some random fucking kid following him around bc she's bored it's not like he has many options as far as friends and she's kinda funny anyway, though it doesn't look great for a convicted murderer to just kinda hang out with somr kid thats not his but Date doesn't like him at fucking all anyway and the feeling is mutual so he and Haruka just duck around the detective when he's trying to bug Nishiki. He probably just has some amount of fun with her and she won't leave him alone anyway, and he gets the sense she's kinda lonely too.

And bc I'm crazy, Majima :). I think their dynamic could be fun, mostly I think that when they don't have a mediator or they're both doing Very Bad mental health wise it's some kind of vauge self recognition through the other turned what if we did alot of coke, turned what if we just fuck and hit eachother with chairs. Majima everywhere 2! But not bc he wants to test his resolve or something but bc he finds that irritating Nishiki is really goddamn funny, and I think a part of him is really curious about why he did what he did, bc while people had speculations neither Nishiki nor Kiryu ever confirmed what exactly happened for Yumis sake. I think Majima also just finds him interesting in the 'nothing means anything" kinda way. At some point after being abandoned, snubbed, spit on, beat up, and even sort of erased out of both families he had, Nishiki reaches a similar 'I don't fucking care' scenario and Majima is an enabler, fully willing and able to help him indulge in life being pointless and nobody needing or wanting you around. But Nishiki also despretly wants to connect with someone in a genuine way and I think he's good enough at being just every so slightly manipulative and pushy in the right ways to sort of open Majima up too and that's a whole fucking thing bc Majima hates that. He's also unpredictable and does not want to be open or vulnerable in any way, so Majima also snubs him at times, blows him off or is outwardly mean. Not someone you wanna stake any bets on.

And finally as far as main characters that would play a role, there's Kazama. And boy howdy. Kazama for reasons I cannot get into now, I think feels mostly guilty when it comes to Nishiki (and to an extent Yuko) that he doesn't quite get from his other kids which definitely skews his favoritism. I think that Kiryu was so young, a baby of very young toddler, that Kazama was happy to easily mold him for a long time (until Kiryu watches him kill two people that is, bc I think that really sent some genuine doubts that he'd never had before into motion bur I digress) he Kay as well have found Kiryu on the road. And I think due to her directly witnessing the violence, Yumi cannot really remember much without panicking except that Kazama was there and she needed him. For various reasons I think there was something about Nishiki that told Kazama that he not only ruined this child's life (in my own hc about what happened very nearly killed him and yuko also) but that Nishiki still didn't need him to be successful or happy or whatever and that really rubs Kazama the wrong way, both bc he can't calm any of his guilt and bc it hurts his pride. So to him, Nishiki going away to jail and simply not existing other than a name uttered with scorn or mockery was fitting. He wouldn't say that for sure, he'd never admit that his pride and sense of usefulness was hurt, but it was. Still I think there is something in him that cares about Nishiki, despite their contrasting personalities and the more cold additude he always gave him compared to the other kids, he does to some extent love Nishiki and he doesn't really like that. Flies in the face of him being in control of everything. Nishiki comes back and he doesn't try to go out of his way to harass him at first, or make his life harder, but he doesn't really stop anyone from trying to attack him, nor does he ignore when Nishiki inadvertently gets somewhat involved in the clan drama or when he tries to find Kiryu or Yumi again. Only really speaking to him to tell him they'd be better off if he stayed away from them.

I realize this isn't much actual plot and just general Vibes of what I'm going for, as well as needless character analysis but I hope it's enjoyable anyway. I personally like it when things get really really bad for a character and then through sheer force of continuing to fight even if it seems pointless things get, just that little bit better bc they didn't give up and nobody refuses to give up completely quite like Nishiki. I can't say I didn't think of this as an excise to make Nishiki break down in tears again repeatedly but what can you I love when men cry. I'm sure I have more ideas for this but it is now. 4:30 am so! Another time! But I love fish boy I love to hurt him and then make him better.

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My reactions to Evangelion episode 21: He was aware that he was still a child

If I must be completely candid, I've been putting off watching these last few episodes because I'm very frightened that something really awful will happen to my beloved Shinji and I really don't know how I'm going to bear it. I think I would be okay if he just turned out to be evil, but if he turns out to be good and sweet and dead, I don't know what I'm going to do.

Anyway, my stomach is churning and I'm about to start the episode.

Super solenoid (?) theory.

The spear!

I had to go back and watch it with subtitles. So the Longinus Spear just came from the dead sea and there's talk about a donor. A personality donor, maybe?

They put DNA into Adam. Is that why he's so fucked up looking?

Gates of Guf.

"It's wings are spreading. It's going towards the surface." This makes me feel like they did create the Angel that caused the Second Impact but that it might have been the first Eva rather than an Angel. They were talking about an anti-AT field.

Am I imagining things or is there new stuff in the video during the opening song? I just saw an Eva with biblically accurate golden wings.

"One last job". He's fucked.

"We have no intention of creating a new God". Hmm. That's even more sacriligeous than I expected. Gendo is certainly Tower of Babeling hard right now.

So is Seele a super computer like the Magi? I assumed it was an organization.

I was expecting Gendo but it was Yui.

If her last name is already Ikari, then... Are she and Gendo actually siblings? Or did he take her last name...?

Unit 1 is a god now.

Okay, Gendo did change his name. Because he's a criminal.

Okay, no. It looks like I was right and Seele is an organization. They're just talking through giant speakers, I guess?

God, Gendo is just the worst.

A child to care for at home. But if I'm mathing right it can't be Shinji who would be no more than a twinkle in his father's eye at this point. So Rei? Please consider I am not very good at math.

Oh, wait, actually, if it's after the second impact Shinji could be a baby.

More Misato back story. Mute for two years.

Rei does look similar to Yui, doesn't she?

Mysterious, spherical underground caverns created by someone else. One in the Antarctic and one here. If I understanding right.

Ritsuko's Mom. And Ritsuko!

Adam and Eva. How glaringly obvious it's been all along.

Ritsuko dyes her hair.

So ostensibly Seele is trying to prevent the third impact.

Baby Shinji. I'm a puddle on the floor. He's patting his mom's face.

Oh, it's Shinji as a little guy!

Shinji was there on the day Yui died. Or, rather, disappeared and was presumed dead, it sounds like.

Gendo the godmaker. So is he trying to make humans gods?

Gendo and Ritsuko's mom, huh? Were they having an affair?

So Gendo shows up with Rei, claims she's a friend's daughter, but she reminds Mom Ritsuko of Yui, so... Clone Rei or kidnapped child given Yui's personality?

Rei lol.

Did she kill the (first?) Rei??

Did Dr Akagi kill herself?

Did Misato kill Kaji?

I can't tell. I just know she got her gun back and then he seems to have been shot. Maybe it was Ritsuko, though.

Shinji running away again.

"I was just a child."

In Conclusion

Yeah, idk. Just waiting for everything to come together.

Seeing Gendo's past was interesting. He's such a garbage bag.

Thinking about Yui and what happened to her. It was on the day of her big experiment and she believed it was going to show Shinji hope for a better future. I also believe that's what he was wearing when we saw the quick flashback of him when he realized that he had seen an Eva before and knew what they were. Maybe his mom developed Unit 1 and was dissolved inside it like he had been? Could explain its ability to act without the battery pack, perhaps?

How does this all end, though? Like, we're building up to answers but I'm having a hard time predicting what the climax will be. I assume Misato will discover something awful about the Angels, maybe Rei will try to protect Gendo and get hurt? Shinji is going to probably go through some horrific metaphysical experience. I don't know!

I'm going to watch one more episode and then it's bedtime.