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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.."
MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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blacked out and came to with a document full of macden
#ada speaks#ada writing macden in 2024........ hm#its all dennis introspection but i have a Plan#the funny thing abt macden is that mac is so goddamn dense i can commit to usual den shenanigans#charlie is way too perceptive it doesn't usually work#i will laugh if i manage to post this before any of my longass fics#its. playing with some concepts i have used before (i will say. victoria being conceptualized as an entirely separate person.)#i find den's separation of self really fascinating bc for me the trans experience has been. hm#playing a part for the masses but knowing who i am beneath that#its opposite for dennis but also the same. he doesn't see vicky as himself but he doesn't have a core either#he's a shell hosting her in his body but she also feels like the most authentic version of the self#and thus. gender euphoria. very weird and complicated gender euphoria.#one dennis holds himself back from expressing to its fullest extent#what was i talking about again#oh yeah macden. that's there too. i think probably den's gonna put the moves on mac but i haven't decided how itll go.....#this fic is just dennis doing psych student brain things thinking abt mac and their relationship and breaking it all down
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it's really a shame I have to sell 40+ of my life hours every week for poverty wages instead of spending all my time and energy on dozens of creative and technical pursuits with unlimited resources
#nerd alert#lets see if i can list all the hobbies i wish i could be doing instead of working#drawing. both traditional and digital. painting mostly acrylic but id like to get good at watercolors. drawing/writing comics#writing in general. fiction nonfiction poetry lyrics whatever. composing music. music production. singing. practicing piano and guitar#performing someday maybe!#sculpting too. i always forget bc i never do it bc i am never in a place to justify buying clay. i should just get some#i think im fairly good at it tbh. anyway.#knitting. sewing. mending and modding clothes in general. embroidery. id like to learn to crochet at some point#photography and scrapbooking sound appealing. photo editing.#web design. game design. 3d modeling. these are all things i dont really know how to do much of but id like to#animation. voice acting. regular acting. honestly a lot of stuff in the filmmaking process sounds fascinating id like to try some of it#tarot reading. is that a hobby? im gonna say yes. jewelry making.#lots of these ive only dabbled in and some i havent even done that but would like to. but i have no time and or money to get into them.#i would hardly call myself a master at any of these. jack of all trades as it were. and thats fine im fine w that#but given the time and resources i think i could make so many different diverse perfectly average to good things#that people could enjoy in passing or say 'oh how neat :)' about
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excerpt on the form of klingon opera from the introduction of the paq'batlh
#this will never cease to fascinate me.#diary#trek#one thing about klingons thats underrated is that i didnt really understand how the children of tama ended up speaking the way they do#but i can see how that might happen now with all this- stylization- oh we're not gonna go into it in the opera because everybody#is familiar with that story. points thats sooo darmok of you#that klingon idiom that talks about being an idiot and you fully have to know the story of the fool and the wind to get why it's worded#the way that it is.
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william: your dad hates me, doesn't he ?
raven:
raven: i honestly ??? i'm not sure if he even knows himself ????? can i get back to you on that --
@spring-lxcked !
#。 ·ﾟ ❪ 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙧 ❫ — and they said 'speak now.'#。 ·ﾟ ❪ 𝙝𝙪𝙢𝙤𝙧 ❫ — a day without laughter is a day wasted.#no but that ask is so funny to me bc it's like.#her dad is absolutely the entity to kill humans bc it's fun.#and i think. ( at least the way i see him. )#guy would be kinda fascinated by the willrae dynamic ????#but also confused and lowkey petty bc 'oh so when /i/ ask you to embrace your d.emonic heritage.#u shy away from it. but anything happens to this guy or any of your superhero friends. you're not above considering it ???'#he's just. 'how does that work daughter. i'm lost --'#whose gonna tell him that's it's bc the titan.s gave her the healthy family dynamic he is incapable of giving by nature.#and bc william makes her laugh <3#smth smth 'love makes monsters of us.'#anyway. wow i love leaving the dash for a bit.#and coming back to unhinged lmao --#holy shit can u imagine this guy at the wedding ???#' congrats. i give you an entire dimension as a gift.'#bc maybe if /he/ can't convince her to take it over maybe her boyfriend can ????#tbd.
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#finished the ballad of songbirds and snakes last night and im still kinda forming an opinion on it#really interesting to be in the brain of someone who is such a bad person#who barely knows what remorse feels like#someone who forms their emotions and behavior based on what he thinks the other expects#someone who doesn't see depth in people or situations#and all of that was shown really well by how we barely get to know lucy gray#but now i'm like........ SO WHAT ABOUT LUCY GRAY#her and sejanus's stories are so fascinating and i want to know more so bad#and this story was just.............. like#most of it was empty blabber about snow and his incredibly stupid life and empty thoughts#oh right aside from all the crimes and killing and fascism#i have determined that that's the point#but that doesn't mean i'm satisfied lmao#it was eerie tho to be in snow's head especially in these times#where people in the settler colony of israel are completely behind their genocidal regime#// the capitol and its citizens and how they see the people in the districts#gonna watch the movie now to see....... if it suddenly shows me something completely different bc#i don't know how you can transfer the vibe of a book like that into a movie#since it's so in snow's head? and his inner monologue is the most important aspect of how the book's angle is built?#so... we'll see#books
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a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)
#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have#heart disease.#scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it#but it's been years now so I don't remember the details#just that that's a thing apparently#and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that#do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :)#it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week.#like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭#also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary.#like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and#yeah it sucks.#specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't#need to say it where anyone can see#it's embarrassing enough#though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about.#like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45.#it's so unbelievably exhausting.#but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :)#oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently#that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me#haha isn't that fun :) )#ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very#well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part.#and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for#this long. so. guess I'm just fucked.#personal
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After too many years here I've final what hornets' nests I am not brave enough to kick
#m/cc#thought about making a certain post and decided... no... I would rather not#I am not prepared for responses to that. it might actually kill me#specifically it was:#'going gluten/dairy/food dye-free CAN improve certain neurodevelopmental things but it cannot 'cure' autism/ADHD/Tourette's'#I already know I'd get vitriol both from people claiming I think autism comes from gluten or 'needs cured' because they can't read the post#and that I'm trying to trick everyone into going gluten-free because Toxins or something and lying about a connection#(even though (neuro)dev disorders can be made worse by flaring immune issues like - oh I don't know - undiagnosed gluten intolerance?#hypersensitivity to certain food dyes?#we already know autism and ADHD in particular have HUGE correlations with gastro and immune issues#which is why some mommy bloggers genuinely do see symptom improvement from diet changes)#and from people saying 'um actually no-gluten DID cure my nephew's ADHD?? the science is on our side/big gluten is covering up the research#and I don't know if I could handle dozens of people per day telling me I'm a science denier AND a eugenist from both sides#I am simply. ADHD. and autistic. and incredibly interested in the wild amount of comorbid physical disorders that correlate with these#autoimmune and gastro issues but also loose/hypermobile joints; epilepsy; delayed sleep phase disorder; COPD; skin conditions#it's so fascinating to me and provides a huge chunk of data to run with re: the gut-brain axis#whether [neurodev] causes [other]/[other] causes [neurodev] or an underlying thing causes both is unknown#but honestly with the huge interest in the gut-brain axis and microbiome in the past decade or so#I think we're going to see a lot more research in the next thirty or forty years examining physical comorbidities with neurodev stuff#I'm probably not gonna link to research because I don't wanna just start the war anyway and I'm too tired to go back and find the articles#but the TL;DR of the tags is neurodev stuff isn't caused by gluten intolerance but if you're unknowingly aggravating a gluten intolerance#you're probably not gonna feel great and it's gonna make your symptoms worse because of the effect it has on your body#it's like a very mild long-term allergic reaction and yeah if you get rid of that it'll improve other areas (e.g. sleep cycle; irritability#so of Course it's gonna improve a bunch of things-that-get-worse-with-poor-sleep/decreased-stress-tolerance#if you were always sitting on a slightly uncomfortable chair you'd probably do a lot better if I switched the chair#just because you can focus better or you didn't know the chair was uncomfortable doesn't mean it caused your ADHD#also in this case the chair affects your hormone levels and immune response and what chemicals accidentally leak into your bloodstream#if you're interested look it up there's been a Ton of research on correlations of specific physical issues with neurodev in recent years
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Fellas is it neurotypical to treat large social gatherings as a psychological simulation where you are both the scientist and subject
#And when things go well it's like I won the simulation. And I either implemented or observed the right elements for a good time w/ x group#people are so interesting#it's not like people watching bc that's passive. Advanced People Watching ig bc I intend to act in the mix#Like I've been like this since I was a child doing a sociological study of The Boys and how to fit into their hierarchy as a 'girl'#But with social events you have the basic elements like music. Venue. Number of people etc.#Which is the foundation of the night. If elements are lacking ur gonna have to do some maneuvering to keep it lit#and then you add the people. Oh the people.#depending on location I tend to separate them into 3 rough populations: guys girls and gays#And it's so fascinating to see how they interact or stratify#And comparing the reception of peers vs the reception I receive I learn my standing and strategize who I'm around#seeing how the different populations receive me is so interesting. how peers interpret my gender#so I'm constantly collecting data on that#And when I pursue ppl successfully it's like The World Is All A Part Of My Game-meme. I win the strategy application prize#everyone else is dancing and vibing and I'm playing 4D chess conducting psychological experiments. And dancing#and all of this is very very normal#like super normal#everyone does this haha right? ...right...?#my posts#my additions#rambling#neurodivergent
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During their confrontation in season 1 episode 8, Shadowsan accuses Coach Brunt of being soft on Carmen. Interestingly, instead of denying, she deflects, saying "we were all soft on Black Sheep before she betrayed us and took a new name".
This lulls the viewer into a false sense of security because she doesn't refute it. Combined with her previous affection for Carmen and her discretion all season long, this makes you believe she's not a threat to Carmen.
Yet she says "we were soft before". A subtle way to imply she's not anymore... As shown in the very next episode.
#carmen sandiego 2019#cs coach brunt#csweekly#rewatching s1 slowly & carefully & watching all the little things that build up towards that crushing finale: oh no its all coming together#i'm not gonna talk about how the 'we were all soft' is not even true#thats so funny. like only brunt openly cared. shadowsan constantly acted like an ass. the others clearly didn't care about carmen#coach brunt is always projecting her own feelings on other people#(ie the way she truly cares about the others as family and is shocked when it's not mutual)#i knowwww i've already talked about this and you know what. you'll hear it again!#i had already noticed some interesting things regarding her during previous viewings#but i'm surprised by how much i see now that i watch 1 ep a week and take the time to think about them#another one of those fascinating characters who weren't developed as much as i thought they'd be given the hints we got
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.... Oh god
I have to do conversations tomorrow 0-0
#johnny's silly rambles#.....i just hope they have a lot to talk about#i mean they all do one of my friends has been abroad for a while now#and one friend moved#oh god oh lord#i mean I'm happy to see them don't get me wrong#but they're living an absolutely different life from me#and i don't have much to talk to them about#so i can hopefully just sit and listen and hope they're not gonna ask about me#idk what i would say#that i started my thesis? wow not too much information here jeez🥲#anything else is either meh or they don't understand#It's not even that I'm particularly disappointed or sth (at least atm)#im just very fascinated#by how different it all is
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ok so i was looking at translation comparisons for the A Link to the Past manual and
It says that the group (of thieves) pushed each other, their eye color changing, as they drew nearer (the Triforce).
...it might just be a coincidence (the note is just like 'it's meant to represent them becoming frenzied') but I am o b s e s s e d with this myth tidbit in light of the Gerudo having amber/gold eyes. Like I can so easily picture an in-universe folklorish xenophobia tidbit being 'the Gerudo have gold eyes because of their desire for treasure/the Triforce'.
...unrelatedly, this
When the leader touched the Triforce, his hands stained in fresh blood, the crest's spirit whispered: "If thou hast a desire, then I shall desire it as well."
is extremely sexy. that is all
#also i love how they're like ganondorf. nicknamed ganon like that's what people mainly called him#which especially in light of I've just been using ganon by itself as meaning 'king' in my fic lol#outsiders seeing people call ganondorf by his title: oh so that's his nickname#also the thing of 'we know he gained the Triforce but nobody knows what he wished for' is so fascinating to me...#like it would have been so easy to be like 'and then he wished for World Domination' or smth. but no we have a sexy bit of mystery#love it#it's an old song and we're gonna sing it again#vic talks
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i finished all the big starting quests in totk
this game is so fucking pretty omg
#tears of the kingdom#totk#legend of zelda#loz#tears of the kingdom spoilers#totk spoilers#(in the tags)#where is everyone going? i think i'm gonna go check kakariko and then start that promising journalism career in rito village#maybe i'll head to the great plateau too i wanna see what's there#after that#who knows#the depths are fascinating#might go hunting for poes there#i also saw a rock fall in castle town ruins so i might go check where that leads me#maybe snoop around the parts of the castle that stayed on the ground#it's fascinating to see people where a lynel was just a little while ago#also really cool to see that purah didn't devolve into a baby and is now teenager-shaped#lolicons are in shambles; their 100+ yo 10 yo waifu is now too old for them#oh i need to go visit sidon#and i think a lady mentioned lurelin village has a pirate problem#ig that'd also be worth looking into#it's so weird there's no guardians#there are however most likely test of strenght shrines and i hate those#but the puzzle shrines are really cool! i went into one that was like one of those didactic baby puzzles#where you need to find the right shapes for holes#my fav great sky island shrine is probably the ascend one tho it was really cool#rauru is kinda babygirl 😳#i knew he was a zonai#and that zonai were dragon people the same way the rito are bird people and the zora are fish people#now to wait for confirmation that zonai are their ancestors
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Consider this a spiritual successor to my Re-Animator Youtubers post, but boy howdy do I love being part of niche ass fandoms that have a surface level audience of cishet guys in their 30s who’s experience with nuance in media starts and ends with knowing Raleigh wasn’t really the main character of pacrim. I’m fighting for my life in these fucking YouTube comments.
#guys really out here saying newt just like Charlie Kelly he think he smart but really he dumb#I’m begging on my hands and knees for the most infinitesimal crumb of media comprehension#please#please can we understand that just because newt gets beat up by his own technology on multiple occasions throughout pacrim does not mean he#doesn’t know what tHE FUCK HES DOING#ALSO if I have to hear one more guy say it’s ‘unrealistic’ to have a guy in this monster movie be really into the really cool and awesome#monsters I swear-#the whole fucking point was the fact that humanity got complacent and hubristic because we kept winning against the kaiju + newt already had#an intense fascination with the kaiju because he is neurodivergent and a biologist so it actually#makes perfect fucking sense for him within the societal climate to have this kind of interest in them.#like they had religions for these bitches. ofc some weird little gay guy was gonna get tattoos of them.#i can’t deal with them calling him stupid tho#these guys got what I like to call ‘iasip cisman brainrot’#they see Charlie Day in any piece of media and think ‘oh hey the guy from sunny’ and then their brain just shuts down#chronic inability to separate him from this ONE SHOW#it’s soooo fucking annoying#like I get it he definitely has a unique energy that kind of carries over between characters but like give the guy some damn credit#the bitch can act if you’d just LET HIM#anyway it’s midnight and I’m not in my right mind#goodnight y’all#pacific rim#pacrim#newt geiszler#newton geiszler#charlie day
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im so serious that more rpgs need to just have a game full of offputting weirdos with their own individual diseases. it makes it SO fun
#twist rambles#sorry like. cohlune every disease haver its kind of insane to me.#♟#<- due to that being what i made the post about.#like cohlune (who is a king) goes not even remotely in disguise into the woods next to a weird cave meets the most autistic guy (shalvas)#and hes like wow ok cool. im gonna chastise you for ignoring my question and be gone after ur done fighting. but i think of u VERY highly.#shalvas does NTO realize hes a king. so is jsut like huh ok whatever. and then u do another mission in his kingdom and he has a soldier#fetch shalvas and bring him into talk. and cohlune is like hiii i think ur sooo cool and talented i spent over 1000g just to see you work.#and shalvas is over there like. oh. you have an important position in this kingdom (he cannot pick up any social cues to save his life. eve#tho his coworker was talking abt who cohlune was after the first mission in EARSHOT of shalvas). and cohlune just like brushes it off by#joking and keeps praising shalvas like crazy. also important to note that cohlune has a habit of faking falling asleep mid convo except we#are never really made clear IF its faking. but he can still hear shalvas and it makes shalvas so fucking confused when he pulls this shit.#hes literally such a fascinating guy to me.
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google how to get someone to stop reading about crypto and using degenerate
#jesus christ. i tried to move them over to tumblr to get them off reddit but they just go back to the tumblr subreddit every time.#if i tell them to do something they do it but then they put a new and fascinating /neg spin on it#like i told them to follow more ppl on here and they followed about 50 ppl that seemingly never post and i told them to make their cute#little project a sideblog so they can rb stuff but they made it their main and cant rb anything now#i tell them to be vague about the details of homestuck so that their mom doesnt stop trusting me and they decide its a better idea to keep#calling it a cringey bad old webcomic that i really love because i have bad taste#i tell them to stop using degenarate because its a nazi dogwhistle but they decide thats just stupid i guess and keep using it#i think theyre gonna become a crypto bro they have like 5 books about it#they've been on reddit since they were like 10 i dont think i can get them out of there but they should at least go on better subreddits#instead of r/iam14andthisisdeep and r/tumblr and r/whitepeopletwitter and r/nonpoliticaltwitter and who knows what else#its especially the r/tumblr part that i dont get. because they literally have a tumblr account#if theres a specific user that you see making posts you like on the subreddit go follow them! scroll thru tags of things you like and follo#all the blogs! be annoying and put out a post asking for mutuals tagged with fandoms you like!#oh and they rlly like r/nosleep i wish i could get them to go on the creepypasta wiki instead because at least thatll give them some shared#references with the wider internet and ppl their age. their mom has literally no pop culture references whatsoever so im trying to help the#but its honestly really hard when they dont do what i tell them to do. jesus i sound awful dont i#real sasha waybright moment. “you are going to follow 100 more blogs and turn off algorithm stuff now. end of discussion.”#it's not like they have a community and friends on reddit they dont even have an account theyve been lurking for years#they dont even have the app they use the mobile website. ugh im being so bitchy rn ill just shut up#maybw if yall see that this is how i think then youll realize that im not exactly worth interacting with#sorry for spiraling on ya. im pmsing.#and i have a whole disorder about that so
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