#ok im paraphrasing but that's BASICALLY what he says

[nonbinarypirat]

Learning how to be selfish (another iruma focused deep dive. Spoilers for iruma kun manga)

I promise I won’t ONLY focus on iruma as a character. I plan to do a post on many characters and scenes, especially since I have been breezing through the story. As a hobbiest writer and actor, I love to go back and reflect on scenes, read them multiple times, and learn why a character did what they did. And I want to share these thoughts with y’all. It’s just that, I have hit Opera becoming a teacher and decided this is the perfect time to take a pause and reflect on this new side of iruma we are seeing poking through. (And YES I most definitely screamed when they became a teacher, my nonbinary icon.) so yeah, I plan to make a lot of posts, but it’s another iruma only one today. Take a shot every time I say selfish or greedy in this tho, I repeat it so often. No thesaurus is being used today.

Ok, im loving that Iruma is becoming more selfish. I especially loved Iruma telling Purson that he’s learned that it’s ok to do selfish acts and stick with what you want to do rather than doing what people want or expect of you. This is the first sign of Iruma breaking out of just saying yes to things. Saying no can be so difficult, especially if you have lived your entire live thinking that was the only option for you to do. He’s too kind, and trained, so he said yes to basically anything even at the risk of hurting or exhausting himself. I appreciated this moment because Purson similarly doesn’t feel like he has many choices. He loved his family and wants to support the family business, but feel dragged along with the whims of his father.

Though I guess it’s kind of a misnomer to say that the scene with Purson is the “first” time we have heard greedy being applied to Iruma. Amelie was the first person and at first I didn’t fully get what she meant. I think I kind of just dropped that part of the conversation as unimportant. But it’s actually super important for us as the audience to understand his character going forward. At the beginning, Iruma didn’t have a lot of motivations, merely being led by whatever happened in the Netherworld. He was in a manner of speaking, selfless to an unhealthy degree. It was only by learning to set a goal for himself that he started to feel (at least to me) as an active participant to the world at large. And Amelie was the one who inspired that in him in the first place. Amelie was the first one to call him selfish/greedy (to my recollection) which is fitting as the character who pushed him so far.

I also think I should clarify that I don’t use the term selfish in this case as a negative. In fact, I’m happy he is becoming a greedy character. Because Iruma won’t abuse this trait of his. Selfishness without kindness and care is dangerous. Without empathy and compassion, greed quickly turns into cruelty. Iruma has these traits though. He has the morals and love to utilize his selfishness to the fullest. Selfishness and kindness can go hand to hand. In fact, I think this is the best quality for one to have. The desire to strive towards your wants while understanding that you can’t treat the people and environment as expendable. And Iruma has the deadly combination of selfishness, caring, and determination.

Which leads us into the 13’s Dinner in which they talk about food bringing out who a demon really is. I loved this scene because it highlights what people could see on the surface when faced with Iruma’s gluttony (aka greed). Baal said “it’d terrifying to think of what he’d be like as a king” (paraphrasing) but that’s without understanding the core fundamentals of who Iruma is. We see him try to force this idea onto Sabro too, saying iruma is pushing his grandfather’s weight around to turn him against Iruma. That’s just widely untrue. Baal, and honestly so many of the Six Fingers from what we’ve seen so far, believe that people are just like them. That deep down, they are (or could be forced into) the rotten type of selfishness that their group takes pride in. True, people can be forced to do cruel things. That doesn’t mean thats who you are fundamentally however. Baal lacks the love that Iruma is overflowing with. And so he equates selfishness with cruelty. He thinks that if he experiences this certain flavor of the trait, that must mean everyone else experiences it the same way too.

Either way, Iruma is a character that is shaping up to be someone who has many desires. From zero to infinity, And what makes him so likable is that he’s willing to do anything to protect those desires. To protect the life he has built and the people he has come to cherish. He wants it all. His friends, soulmates (and yes you better believe I will post a screaming post about that at some point), Amelie, family, good food, fun, adventure, Balam, Kalego and so much more. He wants everything. And he’s also willing to do anything it takes to protect these desires. More than that, he’s always grateful to the life he has built here, to the people who have opened up their hearts to, and for the beautiful home he has created. And that’s the reason why I can’t wait to see Iruma grow into the wonderful selfish person he deserves to be.

[starzfandomblog]

Rody Lamoree Character Analysis (At least I think.)

I'm really bad at doing analysis of characters + this is my first time doing one so here I go!!1 Note that quotes from the game are paraphrased bc I can't remember anything ------------------------------- Rody is shown to be a bright, but brash man. (Described as "brash" in the newspaper review about the bistro.) Rody is also described as "exhausting" by Vince. (During the climax.) Overall, Rody could be described as exhausting, bright, forgetful, messy, and an optimist. Looking closer, RODY IS JUST SOME SAD SILLY AND HE DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER. But all jokes aside, Rody seems to be going through a lot during the events of the game, despite how "happy" he may act/be. At the end of his first shift when he returned home, we see his apartment, and it's a mess. It looks like he hasn't cleaned it and days/has the motivation and/or time. When you enter the hallway, Rody exclaims, "The bathrooms flooded... again!" When you interact with the dirty dishes in the sink, he says, "I'll get to that. Someday. Eventually." Literally almost everything you interact with is messy. He doesn't exactly have a proper apartment either. I'm pretty sure having no motivation to do things you NEED to do/used to enjoy is a sign of depression. (I could be like entirely wrong on this point.) Also while watching many gameplays, (cough I've only watched two) I've picked up that Rody is a people pleaser. When Vince asks his favorite food, he says, "I eat whatever my girlfriends into." When Vince asks why he needs so much money, Rody needs it because he wants to buy a gift from Manon. He's basically devoting his life to her, he's so in love with her he can't see how terrible-ish of a girlfriend she is. ("WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!? SHES AMAZ-" SHH I'LL EXPLAIN ON A LATER POST.) Imagine the pain in his voice when he found out Vince killed her. The desperation in his voice just to hear Manon's voice on the phone. He doesn't realize how much he's hurting himself, he's oblivious. Also what I found interesting is that the creator has stated he's "bi and bi-phobic at the same time." I'm prolly thinking about this way too deep, but maybe Rody's just like, in denial, for Manon. Moving on, there's various reason as to why people will become people pleasers. It could be trauma, stress, childhood experiences, etc. I imagine Rody being from the poorer side of France, as he grew up in a somewhat loving family. His parents pressured him to be good in school, and although Rody KNEW his parents had good intentions, but he couldn't help it. Despite this he just brushed it off, and continued to please everyone, although this isn't exactly possible. Basically burnt out gifted kid. (ok i just realized that went on to be a hc thing SO LETS MOVE ON TO THE MORE LIKELY ANSWERS) In the ending where Rody burns down the bistro (I forgot the ending name) Rody seems so desperate for Manon not to leave him. But she just kind of did anyway. He could have become a people pleaser because of his (maybe) deep fear of rejection. He made Manon his whole word, and it fell apart when she left him. Also, I feel like Rody's prone to comparing himself to others, especially after the interaction with his former classmate at the dinner party. Seeing how well his classmate was doing, the feeling that he wasn't doing as great just stung. Overall, Rody Lamoree tries his best to be happy, but he NEEDS to take care of himself more, maybe insecure, and realize he can never please anyone. ---------------------------- im sorry this was so random uh

[emmetofthestars]

hi if its ok to ask can you say what happened in the ask discord? i'm in it but don't know anyone and barely ever look at the chat so i don't know much about the admins but i'm worried what they did...

of course don't answer if you don't want to talk about it, sorry for bothering and have a good day

basically what happened is that the server owner, within the first day i was in the server, decided to for some reason derail the conversation happening in general into NSFW, and they posted cropped nsfw, and asked IN GENERAL whether anyone wanted the full. this contradicts THEIR OWN SERVER RULES which says if you post nsfw you need to spoiler it and add in text WHAT you spoilered. i tried to point this out, and they spoilered it (But didnt add text describing the context...) and basically immediately started guilt tripping in front of everyone, which completely destroyed the conversation me and other people were having in that channel. they said shit like "i thought i was a friend but i guess to you people on the server im just a messenger for the asks" and "nobody likes me", garbage like that makes my blood boil and i promptly left the server and told them to take me off the list. it made more than just me uncomfortable too, i talked to somebody in the server in dms and he said he also felt uncomfortable and didnt like how the situation was handled. i paraphrased the quotes but it was along those lines, as close as i can remember, i didnt take screenshots because i was so mad i couldnt focus. i absolutely advise to stay away from this server, with a owner as immature as that.

but also, this is just about the owner, i dont know much else literally because i had to leave promptly. idk what goes on in the server now but i wouldnt say its peaceful

this is also setting aside the fact that this server isnt the goddamn place for nsfw. its a public group, keep that shit in your pants or between your friends for fucks sake.

[kfruityouth]

i have heard your plea for people talking to you about chnt! it's been a while since i listened but i'll ask some questions that i like thinking about...

who do you think the agents are? and what are they doing?

what's the deal with clocks? is it just symbolism or is it a plot-relevant thing do you think?

honestly i don't remember how much lore was revealed in the muse of the elephant/elephant in the room and how much is just my own theories so this is just me asking a question about canon- what's up with the camp? is it a pocket dimension, time loop, or what? was that even properly explained?

hey. i love you. OKAY SO ive discussed some of this on discord with a few friends before and here's what i've kind of put together: (spoilers obviously for all of season 1)

for the agents: personally i believe that the events of chnt arent in the present; theyve already happened. the files are what the agents are listening back on to make sense of what's happened at camp after some big 'event'. i like to believe that the 'event' was triggered so to speak at chnt and spread to the rest of the world or whatnot from there. the entity stuff is classifying who each person is, and how much of a danger they possessed/how powerful they were in an attempt to clean up and organize the disarray. the clocks? HOOOOO BOY. should i even go into this one? ok so this is completely a friend's theory BUT. to sum up and paraphrase, basically, there was someTHING related to necromancy that jedidiah worked into the clocks that is too powerful to be read plainly (as we see his father died because of it), thus meaning sydney cannot stray too far from camp. when he says that he can't leave camp because he feels sick being too far away from lucille, the theory is that it's actually the clocks keeping him tethered to the camp. the extension of this is also that necromancy isn't impossible, just EXTREMELY illegal and contraband etc etc, as well as unreasonably dangerous, which is why they push the "necromancy is impossible" line so much. TLDR: the clocks are keeping sydney alive. as for the camp: personally i think it's a mix of It's Just Like That (think gravity falls), something to do with the consistent theme of warped time throughout season 1, and as i mentioned earlier, being a retrospective of the "event" or the "limn" as i believe it's referred to by the agents. but thats a whole other can of worms. im sure some of what ive said here can be easily disproved but if im being real ive only listened to chnt twice (listened to the finale a few times tho) and only read the transcripts in part so im not all that sure about everything, but that's just my thoughts on the matter :)

thank you so much for asking

[pesterloglog]

Dave Strider, Karkat Vantas

Page 291-293

DAVE: i dunno who the flower is in this case

DAVE: shit what if im the flower

KARKAT: SO

KARKAT: DAVE

DAVE: no hold up that makes no fuckin sense i gotta rewind back to the beginning

KARKAT: ARE YOU GONNA KEEP MUMBLING TO YOURSELF OR CAN--

DAVE: oh shit sorry what

DAVE: i was just thinking through some really convoluted metaphorical horseshit

KARKAT: YEAH THAT WAS PRETTY FUCKING EVIDENT.

DAVE: my b bro

DAVE: what were you saying

KARKAT: I WAS SAYING I THOUGHT WE MIGHT GO, I DUNNO, ANYWHERE ELSE ON THE ENTIRE SHIP WHILE THE CLOTHES WERE WASHING.

KARKAT: SEEING AS THIS DECREPIT MACHINE WE WERE SO BLESSEDLY PROVIDED WITH MAKES A WHIRRING SOUND SO PANCHAFINGLY ARHYTHMIC THAT IT THREATENS TO ERADICATE THE ENTIRE CONCEPT OF TEMPO FROM THE UNIVERSE.

KARKAT: AND YET SOMEHOW BASICALLY ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED SINCE WE STARTED THE LOAD IS THAT YOU’VE BEEN USING IT AS A FUCKED UP BEAT TO WHISPER TO YOURSELF ABOUT FLOWERS TO.

KARKAT: AT THIS POINT I'M EITHER GOING TO NEED YOU TO SPEAK UP OR FOLLOW ME THE FUCK ON OUT OF HERE, BECAUSE THIS IS EXCRUCIATING.

DAVE: ok fine ill do the first one

KARKAT: GREAT. TURN UP THE FLOWER TALK VOLUME.

DAVE: so uh

DAVE: kanaya was telling me this kids story the other day about this dude who didnt cherish a flower enough until it peaced out to do flower stuff idk its not pertinent to the story

DAVE: except the flower was a person

DAVE: because it was a metaphor

KARKAT: YEAH LIKE YOU SAID,

DAVE: really convoluted metaphorical horseshit

KARKAT: REALLY CONVOLUTED METAPHORICAL HORSESHIT.

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: anyway what goes down in the story is that once the flower lady is out of the picture

DAVE: the main character goes around making all these connections between her and everything else in the universe until every damn thing feels like a symbol for how much he fucked up and how much he will never see her again

KARKAT: THIS SEEMS PRETTY FUCKING INTENSE FOR A KID'S STORY

DAVE: yea thats pretty much what i said

DAVE: but i guess its not so much what the story was technically textually about but more like the version of it kanaya internalized and then told me when we were talkin about how she misses rose

DAVE: so like now im taking the story she told me she was projecting her feelings onto and projecting my feelings on top of that

DAVE: this is just one big game of emotional projection telephone so feel free to go paraphrase it to roxy later and make it about whatever fuckin thing youre currently missing

KARKAT: YOUR ABILITY TO GET TO THE POINT

DAVE: gotem

DAVE: anyway you’re not gonna have to miss that skill of mine for long

DAVE: get ready for this shit because i am about to slap you with the point so hard youll fall ass first into the washer

DAVE: just scrambling around in there getting all sudsy

DAVE: but your brain is gonna be so blasted from the mindfreak of a point im about to make that there wont be anything left to clean

DAVE: are you ready

DAVE: karkat you havent made any kind of comment about how youre ready in a few seconds so

KARKAT: YEAH DAVE DROP THIS FUCKING BOMB ON ME.

DAVE: ok thanks

DAVE: so its genuinely cool that kanaya can go around creating meaning that may or may not be actually present in every little thing

DAVE: connecting every feeling she has to the idea of her wife existing out there

DAVE: so i told her she should keep that shit up

DAVE: but im having the opposite issue where im struggling to find anything to be that kind of tether because every single thing i could possibly consider about what it is were doing just reminds me of yet another thing to be afraid about

DAVE: so if you were looking for a more concentrated point

DAVE: the real point thats that point simmered in its own juices into a perfect point reduction

DAVE: here it is

DAVE: everything fuckin sucks huge cosmic donkey sack and im terrified

KARKAT: OK, SO I FEEL LIKE YOU SKIPPED A COUPLE NECESSARY STEPS IN YOUR POINT CLARIFICATION PROCESS.

KARKAT: I’M GOING TO RESIST THE URGE TO CONTINUE YOUR REDUCTION METAPHOR EVEN THOUGH I HAVE SOME INARGUABLY GOOD SHIT LINED UP FOR IT BECAUSE I’M AFRAID OF US GETTING TOO FAR OFF TRACK, HERE.

DAVE: ok but were you going with sweet or savory please give me that much at least

KARKAT: YEAH IT WAS GOING TO BE SUNDAE-BASED.

DAVE: nice

KARKAT: YEAH.

KARKAT: DO YOU WANNA WATCH MORE GBBO AFTER THIS?

DAVE: absolutely

KARKAT: GREAT. ANYWAY, LIKE I WAS SAYING, FOR THE LOVE OF SWEET HUMAN CHRIST, PLEASE BACK UP TO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU’RE ACTUALLY SCARED OF.

KARKAT: ALSO COME HERE, IDIOT.

DAVE: ok yeah this is a better position to unleash all my inner fears n anxieties from

DAVE: so uh

DAVE: like i said i talked to kan about it some

DAVE: and its not like weve not talked about it either but i dunno

DAVE: those times its like my mouth was saying words about the situation wherein our friends are AWOL and maybe dead but my brain wasnt fully letting me experience the emotion that goes along with them

DAVE: man its like i cant even start genuinely thinking about how afraid i actually am for rose and john without my brain flippin its wad and whiting out

DAVE: like haha fuck i hope theyre ok

DAVE: now i better make a fuckin joke before i succumb to the gaping mouth of despair waiting for me to fall in it as soon as i look down and acknowledge that its there ogling how juicy my ass looks as it trembles with terror

DAVE: and then if i think about either of them then its only a matter of time til i have to think about dirk too

DAVE: its an if you give a mouse a cookie situation but instead of more snacks its just another layer of fear about my loved ones

DAVE: and with dirk its

DAVE: whew

DAVE: i guess im just fucked up about how to worry about dirk and be angry at him at the same time

DAVE: because if i get as unholy pissed at him as i sometimes wanna be i also gotta admit to myself that maybe i coulda done something different there

DAVE: like if wed kept up better maybe there woulda been a point along the line where i could have said the right thing somehow and hed idk

DAVE: not stolen rose away on some nightmare family trip

DAVE: forcing us to accept the fact that hes our enemy now and chase after him for an unreasonably indeterminate number of years

DAVE: also like

DAVE: and this by the way adds a whole other layer of guilt on there that i dont really know how to fuckin reckon with but

DAVE: even with all the shit hes pulled and the fact that we are more or less heading toward having to take him down

DAVE: whatever that is gonna mean and whether or not he planned it like that

DAVE: i just

DAVE: me and him had come so far with each other and it was really cool for a while to have him and i

DAVE: ugh

DAVE: i dont WANT to hate him

KARKAT: IS THAT ALL? I’M POISED ON THE PRECIPICE OF REASSURANCE WITH MY COUNTER-RANT LOCKED AND LOADED BUT IT FEELS LIKE YOU’VE GOT MORE SHIT YOU’RE HOLDING BACK ON.

DAVE: yeah i got another thing

KARKAT: WELL THEN QUIT FUCKING PICKING AT THE SEAM ON MY SHORTS AND SPIT IT OUT. THEY'RE BARELY HANGING ON TO THE DEFINITION OF "SHORTS" AS IT IS.

DAVE: ok fuck its just

DAVE: ...

DAVE: the part i mentioned before about how we really have no goddamn clue how long this trip is even gonna take

DAVE: i cant help but feel like its barely getting revved up

DAVE: and for me and roxy and jade and callie and kan thats normal shit at best and boring at worst but we all have our immortality to thank for that

DAVE: we can just dick around in space for near-eternity waiting to catch up to our friends who may or may not be our enemies now and itll be fine

DAVE: i mean no itll be categorically miserable

DAVE: but well survive it

KARKAT: HOLD THE FUCK ON.

DAVE: but you

KARKAT: DAVE.

DAVE: no lemme say this

DAVE: we dont talk about it much and i got shit to say about it

DAVE: its not like i never thought about how youre mortal before but i just thought wed be able to figure it out before it mattered

DAVE: come up with some kind of plan

DAVE: i was just distracted being happy with you i fucking guess and so i didnt think up a way to fix it

DAVE: and now thanks to dirk we have to work it out right the fuck now

DAVE: because i cant spend this trip just sitting around watching you get old and die

[blacktinnedpeaches]

anyway - cw for eating disorder / weight loss talk. this is gonna get really long probably. im actually ok now im just typing to get my feelies out

my alpaca arrived today! it's really nice, i will buy the rst of it for sure

after my minor menty b earlier ben cornered me on the sofa and was so lovely about it all actually. i get the feeling that the ED stuff freaks him out more than anything else that one might call Cham's Madnesses, but he was v encouraging and kind + i think we're basically on the same page really - im genuinely ok but as he put it he's concerned ill be ok until the second i fall off the ok-cliff, and i know what he means lol ofc. he was like not really surprised by any of my feelings bc he (paraphrasing this) basically was like you like to talk about it like it's all in the past but in reality you've not spent any time at all dealing w/ your eating disorder thoughts (as opposed to behaviours) and i mean he's not wrong is he lol?? ah i hate it when he's right :/ he told me to put the brakes on re: the weight loss (to be fully transparent here ive been eating in a calorie deficit on purpose for ~9? months, and i say that only bc ive danced around the truth on here bc im v v v embarrassed that i "caved" to it) for the past ? years ive been fully on board w/ the idea that there is very little that separates purposeful restriction from "real" eating disorders + i am not sure where that leaves me now to be honest. i've said this before but i think the wedding + more specifically the fact that the bride is the absolute nexus of all the ceremony just freaked me the fuck out + the thought of looking how i looked in lockdown for this event was just unbearable and i was honestly just not able to cope w/ it. i honestly dont really know where THAT leaves me either - i feel in a v weird place atm with it all - it's not the same as when i was a teenager - im happy eating v varied foods and things i would have rejected outright when i was in my starvation era - like im literally eating 3 nougat bars for my breakfast atm bc i like them + they're fuckin delicious, which doesnt feel like big trouble. but the fact remains i have been purposely losing weight + betraying my own ideals for months. and i feel very frustrated that i wasn't "over it" enough to just fucking deal? just be a fat bride? ??? i cant even tell you how many hours of curvy brides boutique i have drilled into my own eyes to try and literally like force myself to believe that i as a fat woman was worthy of anything. oh my god!! in a slightly bleak way i do think that being more able to cook for myself now and making huge huge strides wrt contamination fear really just opened the door to this again. which would be v funny if it wasnt a bit tragic lol. THE MONKEY'S PAW... anyway as i said at the beginning i feel ok now + i guess im just wondering wtf to do now like i dont want to invite the devil to dance with me and i think that's inevitably what im doing every time i purposely restrict my intake but i also dont know if im strong enough to stop dancing?? i dont mean this to sound woe-is-me or anything like i am feeling quite pragmatic about it all i just am thinking like: how do i match my desire to feel beautiful at this huge event with my desire to not be a total bellend and finally: this is a personal blog, thi sis me typing about my feelings not an instruction manual for life, i am unsure if this is something i should be posting, but i think this is the reality for a lot of women to be honesttttt so idk if pretending it's not happening is that great either what should i do lads?

[lonlonranching]

ok venting bc i dont have therapy until friday tw: weird dudes being creeps, drinking, idk people not respecting me being aro

oh im losing my mind actually. told some dude i thought i was becoming friends with im aromantic today after he asked my sexuality (which, first of all, thought that was weird, but figured it was important to tell him in case he was interested)

he was interested. literally responds “interesting” when i tell him. couple hours pass. he tells me hes crying at work. i assume its a work related thing so i make a joke about the downtrodden proletarian struggle. he goes on to send me mass amounts of texts basically saying (paraphrasing) he got his hopes up for a crush that isnt reciprocated and now hes empty. then tells me hes day drinking and just weeping. i dont know what to fucking say so im just like im sorry. reassures me he still wants to continue being friends. bunch of other stuff. i dont text back right away (still havent bc im still figuring out what TO say) and hes like can you text me back so i dont think you hate me. this is unhinged behavior actually and heres why:

i understand someone you like not liking you back sucks. its even fair to shed some tears over it. but its completely inappropriate to make them feel guilty about it? to really hound into them that basically they hurt you emotionally because they didnt satisfy the reason behind you talking to them for the last couple weeks. because of how my own fucking brain and heart works. what the actual fuck is wrong with people.

also it sucks. bc im not fucking dead? wtf? you can have just as meaningful friendships as one can have meaningful romantic relationships. im fucking tired of people not understanding that. im sooo fucking tired of having to make others comfortable at the cost of my own comfort. thats what i did for years in so many ways, but especially around allo people interested in dating me. everything about this conversation made me not want to talk to this person anymore.

completely fucking ridiculous. people dont owe you your own feelings if they dont feel the same. deal with them accordingly.

[hobisexually]

x

[fagcrisis]

my deepest apologies to robyn for copying this from our dms. also just HUGE SPOILERS FOR DISCO ELYSIUM MASSIVE SPOILERS LOUISE & DRAGON & KOSTEK DONT READ

so like to paraphrase esteemed scholar cj the x rick sanchez from rick & morty is a huge shithead bc he believes himself to be the main character of a show and while all the other characters learn and grow they leave him behind because he hides behind the excuse of "none of this is real" so he doesnt have to get better; he isnt static because hes a character but because he chooses not to change. yes he is a character but from his internal perspective he isnt and he cant continue treating his family like side characters.

don quixote (its been so long since i read that book ngl) pretends to be/believes himself to be a knight who has to save a princess because he cant get pussy. and he also cant be anyone in the real world bc hes a loser ok im being needlessly mean but anyway u get what traits these characters share

n then u get HARRY

who has, by his own brain projections admission been a cop so long that he cant communicate like a normal person and imstead has dialouge trees

depending on your build the things dora says change in the dream but she always says that harry believing himself to be a superstar/hustler/savior of the working class/mind reader ruined their relationship

even before they separated harry was living in a half imagined world placing himself into the role of superstar cop/whatever else and acted like everyone else was an npc basically

like hes a self aware character but in the shitty way where him knowing he is a character and him acting like it only makes it worse because there isnt a story to escape from, he just cant cope with the real world

*gestures* you get what i mean

[nicomrade]

top 5 jiglup moments?? 👀👀

omg this... this is a treat let me think for a sec cause theres SO MANY...

one HAS to be ... it has to be ........ ok it has to be the scene in fujikos lie the 2nd best scene in that movie where theyre in the car together and lupins like "heyyy still wanna go through w this job? were not gettin any money" and jigens like "im here for the mystery <|^) " and lupin SAYS the ICONIC "you're pretty whimsical, too" and JIGEN SAYS the "you're one to talk" you have to know theres also lupin handing him his pack of cigarettes, jigen picking one and then lupin LIGHTING it AS he says the whimsical line. jigen leaning into the flame before he replies. THE CIGARETTE THING IS! A HUGE JIGLUP THING! this brings me to the next one

EPISODE 0 (the movie) THE WHOLE THING. the motif of lupin trying to woo jigen (this is a prequel type movie) and keeps offering him lights, that jigen first refuses, then the 2nd time he ignores it i think?, then FINALLY FINALLY the 3rd time, at the end of the movie, when jigen has become lupins partner in crime, jigen leans into the flame and lets lupin light his cigarette. THE CIGARETTE LIGHTNING IS. their relationship. the dynamic of it IS their relationship evolving over the course of the movie it drives me insane its really basic but its SO EFFECTIVE it gets me

ouaouaoua i think them going to hell together in seven days rhapsody was really iconic i gifed it right after watching the movie cause u really have, first jigen and lupin agree to take a week-long break to each do stuff on their side. jigen is approached by a guy from his past (lets say it, an ex!) looking to "patch up their relationship" by doing a job together. when it becomes clear to that guy that jigen will ALWAYS choose lupin over anyone else, ALWAYS stay loyal to lupin, the guy says VERBATIM "live happily with lupin in hell" (as he tries to kill them both) THIS DOES NOT STOP THERE. they survive this and the very next time we see them well and alive they have this convo musing about what if they DID die back there and now theyre about to enter hell together. they call each other "partner" with a lot of emphasis and playfulness to it its a gorgeous scene its like. wow. theyre literally gay.

i have to.. who would i be if i didnt mention part 1? its such a love letter to the characters and it shows in how lupin and jigen are written too.. there arent as many Flashy Big moments but its an atmosphere of them always being around each other of being so COMFORTABLE around each other... them cooking together, jigen laying in the couch and not even moving when lupin throws a knife at him (sorry hes evil in this part) because he TRUSTS that lupin wont hurt him. that jigens the one person who never abandons lupin (goemon notably just leaves midway through episodes sometime if he stops vibing. fujiko betrays, obviously) .. the scene at the end of episode 2 where they just lay together side by side in the grass looking at the sky as the sun sets. its a moment of quiet reflection of just enjoying each others company. the iconic "you[jigen] made for a sexy maid" line.... lupin faking his own death and jigen bursting into tears immediately... the ONLY time he cries in that part im pretty sure???

i feel like im forgetting every single jiglup moment i like ever what the hell o(-< ok rapid fire part 2 moments that are really fucking good they make me ache. theres in the target is 555 meters away the iconic dialogue of "youre the number one sniper in the world, jigen" thats filled with so much tenderness so much praise and adoration. the promise to get him the french doll jigen dreamed of as a kid. its JUST love its only there to be loving and its so good. in the same episode actually is the 2nd moment i thought about where lupin asks jigen if hell accept the job (its a really challenging job) and jigen says "what if i say no?" "you wont." "then dont ask" (paraphrasing) WHICH IS. ITS ABOUT its about its about. its about not wanting to take jigen for granted, letting him know lupin respects him as an equal, doesnt want him to feel forced into any job. and its about jigen not letting himself be misunderstood- i will always use my skills for you, dont question my love and adoration, dont imply i would ever leave your side, dont take me for someone im not. YOU KNOW? they adore each other. theyre each others whole world. theres so much unsaid here they understand each other.

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yo when did george drag train i need to know

ok so i finally watched the sexuality segment on that train podcast i was referencing and in conclusion george didn’t like DRAG drag train uh ok so let me break down what i just watched was. basically train m austinshow (who is gay) were arguing about stuff n i wont get into it but a very dumbed down version is train going “i get that some people r gay n i support that but i could never be gay! not me! im straight!” and austin was going “hey you never really know because sexuality is fluid n can evolve”

but they kept talking themselves in circles and dream was trying to mediate like “look i think u guys actually have the same opinion ur just approaching it at different angles”

and george was mostly silent, occasionally laughed or smiled when train said something like “look i could fucking suck george’s cock right now! i could lick the cum from his dick and taste the salt on my lips!” but at one point train said “look HERE’S why i know i could never be gay ok? a girl told me to kiss a guy once n i did it n i felt disgusted” and george was like “well. what if the reason u felt disgust is because that’s what u were taught to believe was normal?”

and dream went “yeah! internalized homophobia” and then dream eventually went on to say “i think this is what it is. u should be Comfortable in ur sexuality, but you don’t have to Confident in your sexuality. what that means is that while u might not know exactly what ur sexuality is or what it will be in the future ur comfortable with what it is and who you are” and im paraphrasing but that conversation eventually led to train and austin coming to a common ground

also at some point dream said “well some people have said this. if someone who didn’t use a product wrote a review about it and someone else who did use the product wrote a review, you would trust the person who used the product” and applied it to dick sucking n i guess his whole thesis of being confident in ur sexuality and at some point i think he also said ‘yeah x action/stereotype doesn’t = x sexuality so we shouldn’t try to prove train is gay/not straight but also there’s no reason train should think he will be 100% straight always and forever since sexuality is fluid and can evolve’ n quite frankly if dream never said a word everyone (excluding george who didnt say much) would’ve continued to argue for ages w train over sexuality and god it was funny to watch but also so exhausting

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Hi Mack! I'm curious what your thoughts are on Frank's solo stuff in terms of its trajectory. In the interview with Zack Sang (sp?), he is asked if starting over from scratch was important to him (ie, doing small shows, being an opener, no state of the art buses, etc). The interviewer said that if Frank had wanted, any manager would have made sure he had a head start. I'm paraphrasing but that's what I got from that section of the interview. Anyway, the important part is how Frank answered the question. He basically brushes it off and acts like there were no options, he just had to start over and it makes me wonder... like in his mind, does he doubt his talents/career so much that he can't see that as an option OR was that legit not an option for him. To him he had to start over from the bottom and earn his way up and I wonder if that's partly a comfort level thing AND partly an "I'm not good enough without MCR" thing AND partly the type of people he works with (who presumanly aren't a bunch of sycophants). I think Frank is quite humble and I don't think it's an act but what do you think?

If you compare his solo stuff to Gerard (and I think you'll know more about this than me too) did Gerard headline most of his shows during Hesitant Alien? Do you think that was important to Gerard? I'd love to hear your thoughts.

ok so hmmmm. like to your one point, YES frank doubts his talents and fans. like not doubts us but like, i think anytime he announced a show or a tour he has like half a mind thats worried that no one will buy tickets and no one is going to show up. which is like stupid, especially as time goes on and we repeatedly prove over and over that we're going to show up for him, but yea he's still like that. like in the 'in conversation with frank iero' kerrang interview on youtube, its an interview from 2019 where he like sat on a couch with the interviewer and there were like. 30? i cant estimate like that. but there were a handful of fans like just standing there as an audience. and he SAYS that when he parked the car he was like 'well what if nobody showed up?' and he actually said the same thing at my frist frank show which was an acoustic in jersey in 2016, he said something like 'i wasnt sure if anyone was gonna show up today' and i was like ???? and i legit argued with him about it after the show but he was like 'i just never know' so yea. he doubts himself constantly.

anyway like about the solo thing and like small shows and being an opener and stuff like. i think thats just to do with the size of his fanbase. i did watch the zach sang interview like last week and im not sure i agree that it could have happened much differently. frank has done opener AND headliner tours throughout all of his solo eras. it just depends on the size of the band that he wants to tour with. and i think the thing about frank is that like he's ok with being an opener if he's playing with friends of his who are more established or have a bigger following that his solo stuff does. and like of course he could have been like "im frank iero from my chemical romance and im not gonna be an opener." but then he couldn't have toured with the used or tbs etc. idk like i don't think of that aspect as him thinking he's not good enough. cause he plays small shows and not all of them are sold out, or they don't all sell out right away. i think its just realistic?

and i never saw gerard solo but i think he did headline mostly? and he played bigger venues but also thats like, i mean i think gerard is more likely to be the "im gerard way of my chemical romance and im not going to open for someone else" type of guy. but also the bigger venues is reflective of his role as the singer and more well known member of mcr. like mcr fans know that frank is like co-spokesman for the band, but to the general public, they've heard of gerard. so yea. i hope this answered your question...

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ok um very random rusty lake thought I had that I will probably expand on later BUT one thing that rlly stood out to me in case 23 (and I think in other games too) was that Dale always referred to the crime scene where Laura died specifically as the MURDER scene��� which I thought was sort of strange because it seemed like (based on that headline on the news channel) that people weren’t sure whether it was a suicide or murder. and I had previously been of the opinion that Laura had probably committed suicide, or that was at least the impression I got from Seasons, so when i noticed dale called it a “murder” scene my first thought was just “oh I must’ve been wrong and it rlly was a murder” but now I’m thinking… maybe it rlly was suicide (or at least unclear if it was) and the reason Dale specifically says a murder scene is more a reflection of him feeling responsible for it. not saying that he in any way was, I still am not sure if he even had met Laura before her death, but there is like this recurring theme with the lake about “one having to die so the other can live” (paraphrasing here) and it seems very much to apply to Dale and Laura, and especially in Paradox there were a lot of things that elaborated on this idea that both Laura and Dale couldn’t live one of them had to die, and im definitely gonna have to make another post about that cuz i don’t think im explaining it very well and I just have a lot of thoughts about Paradox in general… but im too tired for that rn so basically im saying that maybe the reason Dale calls it a murder scene is because he feels like (maybe unconsciously) that Laura is dead, to some degree, because he is alive. Idk just a thought I had it could also just mean that it literally was a murder, or maybe it was just a meaningless word choice, I’m not sure and I’m definitely gonna have to make another post but if anyone has any thoughts on this pls let me know I’d be interested to hear what ppl think :)

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Trollhunters Rise of the Titans…

I loved the Gun Robot vs Volcano Titan scene. Many other things too but were here to question and criticize it - especially the ending.

Alrighty I’ll try to paraphrase ( ha not) my opinion and points - a few are ones that i read and overall agreed upon other I haven’t yet seen other people mention. 

So what now? Does he still have the stone? If he went back in time to reset everything wouldn’t that reset the time stone to where it was before?

Disappointed that the canon made the canon an AU. Like everything we knew is gone. Its the ‘it was all a dream’ dream turned reality approach. 

Wa ca cha ka im happy it wasn’t an interactive movie, cause i like to have a definite answer or know exactly what happened rather what could have been. Its also easy to lie back and watch the movie unfold. Batman: Death in the Family, is interactive movie where you see many possible ways things could have happened. However the non-interactive version of the film is just a narrated version of Under the Red Hood by Bruce. And you don’t get the possible events that would have happen cause its really a ‘what if’ movie. However i feel like that many possibilities of what could have happen was what they may have been going for. But i like to imagine that the story could have also ended with Toby’s death and no time traveling. But also with the new reality, could they have at least shown us a flash forward perhaps of what the world came to be? Like an older jim telling his nephews about how he lived the future where he is the trollhunter or at least something. Can the truth set him free??? 

What if Jim dies and Toby tries to start it all over to save him?

I luv Draal, he was probably my favorite character from the start. But even I let him go. He was willing to die for the cause. It was great knowing him. And the death was like… wholesome?  I cant find the right word but like it didn’t feel rushed or careless when he died. I wished he hadn’t but … was at peace with it? When Nomora died, yeah i was like ‘wat nooo’ but we were gonna lose characters along the way. They are fighting a war. 

And honestly a nice lesson could have been to learn to let go and not regret and to not dwell on the past. To move forward into your future, not redo the whole damn thing again. And even if he did have to go back in time, did it really have to be all the way back? 

Did Toby really have to be trollhunter? Like did the amulet make a mistake in the first place for choosing jim? 

Or was it like it knew jim would go back and let Toby his best friend be trollhunters and with jim the mostly all knowing would then be able to set things right in a way that not many die? 

Can it remember things? 

What if he reseted things and now while he gets a good life someone else doesn’t???? 

Was jim tired of being trollhunter and figured though he has like years of experience on what is like to be trollhunter decided that, that grueling experience is what his best friend would want. In the beginning of the show Toby was like nah, I’m not looking for adventure. Later on Toby asked Jim whether or not the amulet gave him the excitement he was looking for.  Jim reply no it was toby. MaYbE this is what he was going for? If thats the case could he have not just have had a kid? Or some career change? Did he think he couldn’t have a good life without toby? He left him in Arcadia at the end of trollhunters. He could have made some sorta memorial for Toby (edit: oh and maybe the god/desses like the ones who fell in the park) and saying that it was because of him that he got to make the striking blow on the last deity who wanted to rebirth earth.

Wasn’t there a lesson when toby was saying how its ok that his parents died and that he likes to think that they are the reason so many good things in his life happen? Guess jim doesn’t want to apply that same mindset that Toby had to Toby.

The trollhunter seemed to be marked as the leader (in the beginning.) So wouldn’t it be easier for jim to be leader since he knows what will happened. (edit: Will many even believe him about how he time traveled.) And then be able to guide others. Like where the Bridge is. He can be there sooner. Or is he planning to go under the radar since how the spotlight isn’t on him?

(The following is mostly copy and pasted from a commented repost of mine. I still wrote it, just copied it from where i had originally posted it to and added a few tweaks and points.)

Is jim even the sorta person that would let his best friend go through what he did? Dying at one point. Risking the safety of loved ones? Running and climbing extensively? Toby doesn’t have the chef skills Jim did, is there ever a fight for when they enter trollmarket? Does he now know trollish and could impress Vendal on how he knows to much? Would he confess that he went through and a timeline (his original timeline?) where he was the trollhunter and therefore is skilled in many aspects of trollhunting?

They didn’t find it together, sure Jim may be there to guide and advice Toby and the others but the thing the two of them had going on was that they found it together, they were in this(that) together. Now its not that. 

Plus, sure maybe Jim matured so now he’s willing to bring people in for help and support and such. Unlike he was in the beginning where tried to protect everyone by not having them involved or really you know in the field. For example, when he tried to keep his mother from the whole dealio, or when he went into the darklands alone. Later I think he did say that he’s not stupid enough to go at it alone and that they are stronger together. But ughhhh Jim and Toby now aren’t together at the start.

And we didn’t really get closure for the Tales of Arcadia franchise thing. The end is more like an alternate beginning. In my opinion. But Guillermo del Toro, ‘creator’ of the franchise - i think - tweeted how the ROTT movie would be the final chapter/ending of tales of aracdia. Ughhh was that what he was going for? To end it and everyone’s pedestal for it?

(stops here)

I could just pretend they didn’t travel back in time. As far as im aware - all the merchandise is for the previous canon. Most of the merch was for trollhunters and not 3below or wizards. And since trollhunters is my favorite out of the three, im ok with that. Wizards sit at #2 for me. Though i luv Queenie Aja in the movie.

Am I missing anything? I dunno. My thoughts are a mess.

edit: IT WAS BASICALLY AN EFFING REBOOT, not earth rebirth but canon rebirth. 

Well its canon to have the canon not be directly canon. And not canon but it’s still canon. Confusion…

Like does dreamworks not know how a population of people automatically feel about reboots and remakes WA CA CHA KA there was no heal time. no time to let the fairy dust of our beloved story settle, marinate under the rug, nope. Reboot will began in 3, 2, 1...

Not trying to hate on the movie or creators (hoping u didn't read the whole thing with a negative tone heh heh) i just wanted to express some thoughts I had on the movie. Didn’t hate the movie and the entirely of the choices made during its production obviously, just questioning what could’ve happen after or what could have been.

[thisoneisstrange]

OK IM BACK. LETS DO THIS. This is going to be broken down into sections because i’m a mess and this cannot be.

Ok. J’onn first

I’m dying. this is one of the first times we actually hear him say “i consider her a daughter”. like, we already knew this, Winn called it like four years ago, but it still means something. him also saying “i need to leave my emotions behind and focus on being a soldier” IS GONNA COME BACK AND BITE HIM IN THE BUTT SOON I CAN JUST TELL. Because his emotional connection to the Danvers Sisters tm is basically what’s keeping him going. trying to find his daughter figures and keeping them safe and alive is THE ONLY THING PROPELLING HIM FORWARD. Yknow except for M’gann. this is gonna come back to haunt him soon. him snapping at Silas was also not ok, but we can understand why he did it. Alex/Kelly: there relationship was definitely a main focus in this episode, given that it’s focused on trying to get Kara back from the phantom zone, and obviously they’re a part of it. but the main focus was Alex (not) telling Kelly about Supergirls identity, but Kelly picking it up through context clues. because we all know that Kelly is extremely observant. a pair of glasses and a ponytail wouldn’t have fooled her in the slightest. but the fact that either the writers slipped up or they just didn’t write that scene where Alex actually verbalizes that Kara is supergirl is a huge mistake. like when Alex says “i don’t know if karas coming back/ i can’t live in a world without her” (paraphrasing) and the Welcome Home Kara sign is just URGHHHHHHHHHH because they should have at least touched in it after Lena had told her to tell her, because that leaves a lot to speculation. which i know is what the writers do best but PLEASE. Lex: Lex FUCKING lLuthor deserves all of the bad karma right now. IM PISSED AS SHIT. i mean, leave it to a manipulator to pull the “they’re just women and they’re clouded by emotions” card like what the actual fuck is wrong with you?!?!??!! Like, u want to have Lena investigated when SHES. OT THE ONE WHO ACTUALLY WENT THROUGH WITH THE MIND CONTROLLING. No offense to Mr. Cryer but if i could fight one fictional character it would be lex luthor. well, him and Severus Snape but that’s a different story. AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON LILLIAN AND THE JURERS. Like, leave it to the white men to fucking AQUITT HIM. Like ofc u don’t find him guilty. URGHHHHH IM GONNA START PULLING MY HAIR OUT. And then Lillian thinks that she can just SWITCH UP??? LIKE PICK A SIDE DEAR. Brainia: @ the supergirl writers. please leave my babies alone. they haven’t done anything to you. Supercorp: not very much of a supercorp episode, but they gave us a lot last week, and this one wasn’t focused on it so i can let it slide. Thank you for letting me rant and congratulations if you’ve made it to the end!! I’m going to go to sleep, but i will probably be back tmr ranting again about stuff i forgot. enjoy the peace and may the odds be ever in your favor :)

[genius11rare]

Chit Chat 72821 AH 13 year anniversary

Chit Chat 13 year anniversary stream 72821 with Jack Michael Jeremy and voices of Geoff , lindsay , sudden matt and Ky

Jack: welcome to our birthday stream , sponsored by expressvpn if you don't have a vpn why don't yo- and i already lost all my frames…. Its our 13th bday we are no long preteens we are teens (someone , i assume michael uses airhorn sfx) Jack: hang on i got one (sarah no sfx x7) , we also got voices of geoff , alfredo is here , weve got Ky Deafened (jeremy wheezzes) and lindsay possibly and see trevor too… ok lindblad im switchin to firefox this is broken. Geoff: earlier we had our company wide All Hands meeting talking about whats going on… i don't expect you guys to go (jeremy uh oh) but i go cuz i care , trevor gave a speech about AH history and it was great , better than i couldve done so thanks trevor. Michael: wish i had boos and Hisses on my soundboard but i don't. Jack: todays also my wifes birthday so… im actually not supposed to be here today so *laughs* thanks to everyone whos supported over the last 13 years… Ky qwasnt even born yet (Michael: and she already made that joke) i know i said that in hope to get her to respond but shes deafeand. Michael: but that's how Deafen works… Jeremy: no shes like a jedi she would feel the joke. GeoffL di you get your internet fixed this week which then broke it 2 more times (jack: no , sounds like you tho) oh i guess that's just me then. Jack: geoff you hit record? Geoff: you know i didn't! *showing lucky 13 merch , at a poker table* Jack: so now that were 13 we can gamble. Geoff: 13 is legal gambling age in some counties of west virginia and mississippi  Jeremy: and we should ALL model ourselves after those 2 states. Jack: the beacons of america. Michael: if you can see over the poker table you can play Jeremy: well guess im out Geoff: hes 5’4! Lindsay: are we sure about that? GeoffL some of us are , some of us have never not been sure . *moves onto Camp Betrayal* Geoff: out of curiosity who were your fave non AH on that shoot Alfrdo: ooohh calen (i think?) was a lot of fun but Noel surprised me the most. Michael: Kayla was fun cuz it was 3 overnite shoots so we actually somewhat hiung out… also charlotte (jack jeremy and lindsay: yeah charlotte was cool) Jeremy: is this a camp betrayal thing or a face jam thing , everytime i see someone post a pic of Eric everyone in the comments tell him to eat dirt. Michael: its camp betrayal Geoff: speaking of eating dirt  were you ever the kids that ate worms for like a trick or to be brave (jack michael and jeremy: no) i wasn't either but… i feel like Matt Bragg probably did Matt: hey you're wrong *lindblad switches to a zoomed in photo of matt from the earlier lucky 13 merch drop shoot , starts shaking camera as he talks a bit* Jeremy: nice lindblad Matt: -et fucked geoff ! “are AH crew fans of cake or pie for bday?” Jack: who eats birthday PIE?!?! Ky: im just gonna step in , what about Ice cream cake (paraphrasing)... Geoff: …. I had cotton candy for dinner last night… whole kerfuffle getting it at HEB , grabbed it and the whole display fell on my head “Whose standup in austin have you seen and whos fave?” Jack: i havent seen stand up in a long time… last time i saw a routine of some kind was Penn n Teller in vegas 4 or 5 years ago. GeoffL i  just saw Tom Seguarra (idk how to spell) in vegas a bit ago , and he moved to austin recently… *moves on to Season Pass* Geoff: talked about how i lost millie at that park once… tune in to find out if i found her. Michael: oh replaced her like Avril Lavigne? Geoff: yeah an almos identical millie… doesnt sound the same when she sings but its close….. Michael: and that's the one question… “Phoenix Edit: what has been  proudest moment at AH?” JAck: doing any live show like selling out chicago… Michael: just hanging on i mean… Ky ill jump in (jack: whats your proudest moment at AH) you mean for the last month you mean? (Michael: yeah you have it alot easier) id say representing AH in last laugh season 2 Jack: you got knocked out like immediately though Geoff: can i give a sappy geoff answer? Its the day i invited you guys to my GFs house and we went swimming (michael: oh that was cool - i wasn't there) it was basically a perfect day , everybody - well almost everybody that mattered was there (michael laughs) and THAT day was when i told Jack and Trevor i was leaving AH . those conversations were really hard to have .. and i ws so comforted by how.... Oh idk *sigh* i just - i - i just how good a hands i felt it was in and you guys seemed so ready, and i knew it was going to continue and grow without me… sorry im getting so emotional in my old age, i yelled to much when i was younger. Michael: its weird to geoff cuz i couldnt make it and you went “oh no big deal, nothings going on anyway” and then trevor told me after wards geoffs leaving , and trevor kept saying “ive been waiting for this day ive  ben waiting for this day” Geoff: he hi5 me before i even got it out of my mouth….. He fist bumped himself it was weird… Trevor: yeah did that and said “God took ya long enough”  *cue airhorns and sarah nos* Jeremy:… alright let's play golf Jack: thanks for showing support from our live shows to our.. Our… idk the shows weve done *laughs* Geoff: GET IT OUT CMON! (Lindsay: GDI *jeremy and matt laughing* )  Jesus Christ! Jack: i had weird place , hardcore minigolf i got all them stuck in my head and couldnt get out the door