#okay i think I'm done ranting for now

[allgirlsareprincesses]

I don't go here and I realize I'm in the minority with this opinion, but it looks to me like GRRM is just trying to distract from the fact that he's never going to finish his f*cking story. I hardly think he's in any position to criticize someone who may have created a flawed product but at least GOT IT TO THE AUDIENCE. Also he's a misogynistic, entitled hack and I will die on that hill.

[fnaf-flags]

The Progress Flag picked from the FNAF Movie Poster!

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[haggstroem]

finished rain world . i need to throw something against a wall

[syxnewt]

my parents want my little brother, who has had a fever no lower than 100 F for the past 2-3 days, to go to school tomorrow

[tvrningout]

tbh i understand that character deaths have to happen occasionally, but sometimes a creator will go and kill a character prior to using them to their full potential?? and it won't even hit hard bc it's not a purposeful decision. it's not " it's so tragic that gary died before his time and this arc/story examines that tragedy and how it could have been avoided. " it's " it's so tragic gary died. woulda been more tragic if i put in more work. " like i'm not gonna be sad that you killed gary if you don't do the groundwork before/after. i'm gonna be mad bc you killed a character, and it was a wasted death bc nothing interesting or meaningful happened as a result, or it didn't even need to happen.

i dunno?? maybe people will disagree with me, but i feel like so many series and movies will fall into killing characters for shock value -- or maybe there's a reason, but they poorly execute it by rushing the story or failing to ever tell the story beyond " oh these two mean a lot to each other " without much detail. and that's so frustrating when you get attached to those characters and i'm sorry to rant all of a sudden asdfg i'm just feeling salty as heck over this rn (｡•́︿•̀｡)

[altruistic-meme]

dear Abram,

i hope there have been Gentle Moments between the Horrors. dont forget to take it easy, but Take It.

how has the Horrors been going, by the way? last posting i recall you were halfway to acquiring a Vehicle? how goes The Hunt?

with much love,

Milo

P.S.

thank you milo ;;;

there have been some gentle moments!! despite everything, there have been a few good moments this month :) including cat cuddles. i have gotten so much cat cuddles and boy did i need it.

the Horrors. man. i have now MOSTLY acquired my car! unfortunately there was a mix-up while at the bank which means i have to go back again tomorrow, and to the dealer as well, BUT the dealer was very VERY nice and he let me ""borrow"" the car i'm buying since he knew i was actively without a car right now. so the car is parked outside!! i get to drive it!! i have it now!! i just have to finish up with all the financing stuff :') and also with dealing with my sad little VW rip

the rest of the Horrors........ well. i've mostly only talked about my car here bc it's the only one that i can have any like actual control over and it's the only one where it's like "ok this is an issue and this is how it gets solved and all of these things are achievable" so i've been making myself put most of my focus on it since it IS the only issue this month that i CAN solve. the rest is stuff that. sigh. 2 of my family members died this month, one of which was my last living grandparent. and it sucks!! and my mom is currently halfway across the country having to deal with all of the paperwork and logistics of that more-or-less alone.

i know my job has bereavement leave, and i have been deeply considering figuring out how to use it so that i can go see my mom and give her some support. but i can't afford time without pay so i need to figure out if it's paid or not. OUGH.

but SOME good! like my new car being so fucking funny to me. it has push to start. it has android auto. it is so fancy. also it has roll-up windows. and little knobs for the side mirrors. i die. the contrast. her name is also Tails in honor of my favorite Sonic character. and she will be getting flower magnets.

and TSC coming out!! and rewatching Bungo Stray Dogs!!

and Blue! Blue is good too :)

[idklackingimaginationapologies2]

periods and god

I think my period would be a LOT more bearable if it was just cramps and blood (still sucks but I would prefer it) but I become a whole other person. And that person is either really happy (but in a hysterical way) or really aggressive or really sad or numb (there is also rarely an in-between it always has to be extremes).

Honestly the cramps and the blood are the least worse part.

The real problems are the joint pain, the headaches, the eye pain, the brain fog, the weird food cravings, the decreased dexterity, the increase of strength, the decrease of strength, the finding everything annoying or upsetting, the confusion, the increased crying, the get easily injured, the skin sensitivity etc. (a lot if the pain things I get anyway but during my period they get like 10 times worse)

Also because I often get more clumsy I end up banging in to stuff more and get hurt, and because my skin is more sensitive it hurts a lot and I end up crying and getting mad.

So many weird things happen. I mean I could literally start performing witch craft in the days leading up the my period or during it and just be like, yeah okay then.

Also I get the urge to rant a lot more about my period (can you tell I'm on my period now lol) and anatomy and random stuff.

And I become so confident and unreasonably annoyed that seriously, if a staircase appeared (or something) that would lead me to heaven I would march up there and rant to god and probably attack him. And I'm not even a Christian or religious, which is another weird thing, when I'm menstruating I become religious briefly but in the sense that I believe in God but I really fucking hate him, like I want to fight him.

Also recently learnt that apparently not everyone experiences these things??? Apparently some people just get blood and cramps???

If anyone comes across this can you tell me if you just have blood and cramping or if you get possessed by a demon, become a witch, start preparing for war against god etc etc.

(also what does everyone call their menstrual cycle, I say period just because that's what people I know say but I would like to know what others say and what other ones there are)

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

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[necrothezma]

I know I shouldn't give these kinds of people the time of day or any attention but I'm just like ... How do you think like. How do you think like this. what is your thought process of " it's a fictional character so they can't be a child or teenager " like ??? I think they're just trying to defend ns//fw of children because hurr duhh uhhh durr fiction doesn't affect reality I can draw horribly disgusting things of a 14 year old character because it doesn't hurt anyone it's not a REAAL child !!1!!

[so-long-soldier28]

when you’re so chronically sad that irl people stop asking if you’re okay

[deesi-academia]

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[pa-pa-plasma]

i don't think i'll ever get over how people treat kids that aren't good in school as worthless no matter what. "oh it can't be that bad" my guy idk how to tell you this but the last time i went to a normal high school the principal called me into his office to brag about how he failed me in all of my classes before the semester was even finished & i should quit while i'm ahead cuz i'm too stupid ("officially" diagnosed as such by a school counselor & a psychiatrist!!) to succeed. & this is considered normal

[liedownquisition]

ugh. tfw u figure out what you SHOULD HAVE done to write your fic's main/first sex scene but only realize it AFTER you've already posted it with mediocre smut.

[aso-bi]

Me when I finally finish the commission I was k*lling myself over

[ihopethisendswell]

I am once again thinking about Jolee's eyes.

[maganne-studies]

"My father said it looked very sad: a stairway in a field of ruin, going up to nowhere."

- The Woman Who Had Two Navels by NIck Joaquin