#okay... im prob not done rambling but thats it for now

[jadeee]

I lied. My previous post was not my last Nanami drabble. I'm down bad ya'll, you just have to deal with it or scroll lol. More dad!nanami bc it's a full moon and I'm on my period.

Nanami prepares for the torment of tears when the 1st day of kindergarten rolls around. He's carefully explaining how it'll go. That he'll be dropping them off to class where they'll have a teacher they should listen to and a place to make new friends. That it may be scary but they'll be fine. Your kid looks up at you both with slight fear and curiosity in their eyes. Their tiny feet slowing with each step toward this person called "teacher". They hid behind your leg then peer up at the tall lady. She bends down to offer the small child a smile and kind words. Nanami is just about to hand them their favorite stuffed animal when they suddenly walk toward the teacher, unabashed. He's still in shock when they face you and wave bye before heading inside.

"But..." the stuffed animal dangles in his hand as the door shuts. He turned to face you, feeling the familiar touch of your hand in his. You take the stuffed toy to clutch to your chest "C'mon, we'll be back soon enough."

Nanami couldn't help but stare through the glass window at his mini-me. The small child was playing with someone. The sight made him smile softly. His heart ached and grew because they made a friend that wasn't him.

p.s.: obviously he's happy but it sinks in that baby boy/girl is gonna grow up and have tons of friends and experiences away from you two. that makes him feel a lot of things but what overshadows it all is pride and joy. he wants to be there for all of it - not just the good but the bad too. the scraped knees, heartbreak, horrible job, broken down car; bc that's what life is about. it's about going through the shitty moments then allowing yourself to relish in the good ones.

[s0lar-ch3ri]

OAUGUOAGHUAHGJK2WEFJNRGJTW?f??????????????????? HELLO??????????????????? DUE YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME IM THE DAKOTA KINNIE EVER.

"THEY WERE ALL ALONE" DIES AM ILLION BILLION DEATHS.

OKAY IM GONNA FUCKING RAMBLE THEN

SPOILERS FOR THE GREYSCALE ARC, WHICH IS LIKE. EP 34-36 S2 I THINK AND ALSO ALL EPS BEFORE IT ARE FREE GAME FOR ME

vyn - being alone must be new for a guy who got used to having people in his head. he was always around a friend or something. yet, even in that elevator, with tide (i think tides unconscious body was in there) physically there and origami in his head, he still talks about himself solely. huh, funny. sol-ely. vyncent sol, yet its never really been sol-ely him. hes not somebody who can be alone physically, yet hed know the feeling of being alone so well. an alien to this planet, unable to tell someone whod understand how he feels. he isnt able to listen to his friends, however, because they dont talk. and sure, he does that, but i dont think they realise it. hes alone because hes the only one here whos put more then random thought into his choices. hes alone because hes stepping down from a choice he regrets.

will - being alone is not something new to will. hes been used to being a loner since the start of his unlife. hes a man who couldnt seem to commit well enough to his plans. he ran from being a hero, hes ran from his powers, yet for once hes made a choice. a choice hes not running from. so why is he standing alone. why is everyone looking at him like hes made the worst decision of his life. maybe because he has, but it hurts the most that even his best friend wouldnt stand by him for this. he couldnt blame him, thats for sure, but that didnt make it hurt less. this time, will doesnt want to be alone. not when hes done this. hes alone standing by the wrong choice he made hoping to turn it right.

dakota - hey i actually touched on how dakota probs felt in my lil cover of vyncent in a vador i did ("kota in the bago", never put it on tumblr but if requested, ill see what i can do)! maybe dakota has learned by now that he can ask his friends for help, but does he *know* he can? hes failing all the checks to look for lightspeed. this is his first time where hes been seperated from his team since they came back together, and hes doing horridly. he would never want to rely on his friends, thats not something someone as great as the dc would need to do. hes really just alone, left out of the other adventure as he does his own job to help. then he finds the chaos that happened when he wasnt there. maybe it warmed his heart the smallest amount to hear they missed him, that in a way he kept them in line, in a way he was needed. it felt horrid, but he couldnt help it. cantrip became another person he failed to save, because he couldnt have possibly been there to help her. so maybe it wasnt just that dakota was alone that hurts him. he left his boys alone when they needed him most. he left them alone.

[aphnatasha]

LISTEN I've been wanting to make them as bjds for a year at least the urge is so strong it's grabbing my neck

Although in my case I want to do the designs I have of them and also I am determined to figure out how to design fat bjds cause I refuse to make my girl Mary thin 😤

I actually have no experience whatsoever with bjd making but I've been watching some videos and I might save to get a bunch of supplies 👀✨

Like part of the reason I'm so excited about it it's because it requires different skills – character design, hairstyling, painting, even sewing!!!! And idk it just brings me joy to be able to create something "out of thin air", so to speak

Okay rant's over wjfhejfhe I wish you happy holidays!!! ✨✨✨

BRO IVE BEEN WANTING TO DO BJD'S FOR AGES its only recently that i kinda want to make the sandersons sbndndndnd. i still wanna do the plushies first cuz im not super great with making things by hand and i dont have the materials to make bjd's of 'em yet. i do have some old dolls, but i get the feeling that if i try to work on them, theyre gonna get really badly messed up

initially i wanted to make the redesigns i have for some of my fave monster high characters so they look more monstery, mostly headmistress bloodgood cuz i am determined to make her look more like a dullahan cuz i have so many thoughts about that in particular and im a lil saddened they never really took that route, but its understandable cuz a) that'd probs take a lot of time to animate and b) dullhahan are actually really terrifying and i dont think they wanted to make her so scary that she'd frighten kids (i feel like if they did go that route, lil kid me wouldve fallen even harder for her than i already did and that is saying something sbdbdn)

i feel like you could probably use some kind of sculpting or modeling clay to add on to the dolls to make them fat, but idk what types of clay would work for that dbbdbd. like, ive seen so many people use clay to sculpt out horns or thicken and/or lengthen a doll's arms or legs, so i dont see why you couldnt do somwthing similar for mary

i swear its something about creating a 3 dimensional thing that feels so exciting and so intrinsicly human, if that makes sense? like, being able to make dolls and figurines and charms and stuff out of clay and puting it together onto something sturdy to make sure it doesnt fall to pieces, something people have done since forever and changed it over time with new materials to work with and new processes to use it just. idk if im maoing a lick of sense, i just woke up shdjdnnf

i dont really have much experience in the sculpting area, but i think thats what makes working with new mediums so much fun. just being able to mess around and learn firsthand what works and doesnt work and learning from that, using your old creations and inspiration for something new. thats part of the reason why i keep a lot of my sketches, even if theyre really old. i always wind up inspired by it, and i wind up recreating the thing with how i do art now, or i try to put it into a new medium i learned as a sort of testament to how much that thing meant to me

aahh, i rambled on too shdjjd. i really wanna make dolls of them now. maybe i should see if my community college has any sculpting classes, that way even if we dont quite learn to make human/human adjacent things, it might give me just the help i need to be able to do it

(⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧ happy holidays!! ☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡*⁠.⁠✧

[raksh-writes]

I hope you'll feel better soon, and that you'll get over these awful feelings ♥️ we love you and are here for you whenever you are ready, and while I cannot speak for everyone else, I will wait upon LitA with the same excitement for years if that's what it'll take for you to be happy and healthy and alright. I wish you all the luck and love and that you may feel better soon and succeed with what your thesis and life in general♥️♥️lots of love ~Kris

And here you go, you, making me cry ;_;

I am feeling a little bit better today, but I'm also extremely exhausted after this depressive spiral of a weekend xd I've stayed in bed for an hour longer than normally - skipping classes? why, yes, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do, or smth xd - cause I decided I'm taking today off to somewhat stabilize myself mentally and laying in bed in the morning is peak self-care. Definitely needed that xd Im gonna be back to trying to figure out how to make progress on any of my assignments/thesis without straining my wrists whenever I feel mentally okay enough for it. Inactivity only makes me feel worse and stress will def catch up to me, ehhh xd Anyway, todays a selfcare day, so Im gonna try and stay positive 💗

Good thing that weird staticy-numbness has mostly subsided, it was really messing me up xd Tho, my fingers started bothering me more instead and thats not too good either, ehh - it's a bit weird that they started hurting few days after I didnt even touch the keyboard, but last time it started few days after all my uni stuff was done and I wanted to go to my fics in that break, so maybe the reaction is delayed or something xd My left wrist still feels weak too, but I think to a lesser degree? So for now Im tentatively hoping my braces and this anti-inflammatory ointment is working enough. Im gonna keep it up, but if it doesnt keep getting better, then tonight Im gonna have my meds anyway. Im kinda iffy that it's so soon after last time, like only 1,5 month, but oh well, maybe I wasnt careful enough xd But yeah, Im feeling a bit better and a lil bit more hopeful its gonna turn around.

I know you didnt ask for a whole-ass rambling update so sorry for that! Kinda wanted to give one after all the depression of the weekend xd

I really, really appreciate your words, truly, they mean the world ❤❤❤ I was still feeling very fragile last night when I got your ask and, well, you can imagine ;_; But, that aside, I don't think I could last more than few months without my fics xd They have my heart and soul hostage;p And I kinda "realized" that as much as days might go slow, time actually flies by really quickly xd So even if I dont manage to get back to LitA in the next months, it'll prob pass far quicker than expected xd Which also presses me more on my thesis, cause goodness knows its three months left and I need to get a move on to make it xd But I work in burst, so I think - I hope - I will make it. But, no more of that today! Self-care day! (Maybe, maybe I will try hand writing a lil bit for my Beauty and the Beast AU? 👀 That is a comfort fic, after all, so if my right wrist feels up to it, the who knows ;p)

Hope you’re well and healthy and having a nice monday out there too, love, I appreciate you more than you can imagine, thank you and have all my love ❤❤❤💗💗💗

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: How do you like your  🥚🍳 in the morning? Carly: no 🐣 Carly: ha Ali: 🐔 didn't show up in your roost later, did he? Carly: he must be scared of you Carly: 🔮 Ali: or my 🐺 Carly: maybe Ali: eggs aside, how you feeling, chick? Carly: 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮 Ali: 👎👎👎👎👎 Ali: unacceptable! Ali: what do you need, kill or cure? Carly: cure forever Carly: im too young to die Ali: I'll swing by with my witches brew Ali: actually doesn't taste like ☠ either Ali: pure 😇 Carly: aw Carly: really? Ali: 'course, not gonna half-arse the job Ali: and it makes a full pot, no sense in not sharing the 💚 Carly: 💙 Carly: wat does it taste like? Ali: like Christmas 🎄🎅🤶🎁❄️🌨️☃️✨🌟 Carly: 😋😊🥰 Ali: it's got ginger and peppermint in Ali: the only other person hanging out their arse is my brother and he would rather die 'cos he's grumpy 👴 man energy so Carly: no 🦃 tho yea?! ha Carly: oh no he sounds like my da Carly: which cute bro is it? Ali: definitely not 😂 Ali: some greens but not sprouts Ali: the freckly one Carly: did u heal my heart to 💔😢? Carly: course itd be the most beautiful one Ali: oh no, you're delirious Ali: I'll come quick 😜 Carly: dont b jealous 👼 hes only the most beautiful boy Ali: 😏 My ma'll be gutted Carly: do u have a tea for that? Ali: 🍋 'cos she's so bitter? Ali: I'll see if she goes for it Carly: noooo 🍯 so she wont be Ali: you're too sweet yourself, Walsh Carly: aw Carly: but ur the 1 who saved me Carly: ur the sweetest Ali: anyone would Carly: nah ur the 1st Carly: not just saying it to u get ur fairy wings Ali: had to fly away from that particular 🐔 plenty myself Ali: harmless and flightless though he is, most the time Carly: yea Carly: he talks about u wen hes been on it Carly: the 1 that flew away Ali: uh oh Ali: can't let a boy ✂ your wings Ali: ever Ali: ever Ali: 👼🏽 🐔 🐧 🐦 🐤 🐣 🐥 🦆 🦢 🦅 🦉 🦚 🦜 🦇 🐝 🦋 🐞 🦗 🦟 🐓 🦃 🕊 Carly: im 😕💫🙃 but idk if those were the guests i danced with Carly: did get a cute lil 🎶🎤 to fall asleep to tho 💙🕊 Carly: 🌚🌝🌛🌜🌞 Ali: very 👸 of you though Ali: I can 👀 it Carly: my ma is trying to make me clean Carly: 🐇🐁🐀🐿🦔🐾 pls Ali: also unacceptable Ali: not 'til you're better Ali: use my wings to fly through and 🤞 he don't get the wrong idea about who I'm there to see Carly: [sends her a pic of whatever caravan mess she caused last night that her mum is raging about] Carly: so u can play a game of spot whats got her 😠 Carly: cuz idk Ali: Fun 🧐🤔🤨 Ali: angry mothers are my forte Ali: [does the circling the hazzards moment on the pic] Carly: making her angry is mine but nah to knowing y ever ever Carly: k ur cute & smart Carly: 🌟 Ali: it's rarely logical, but 🤫 on that or it's hulk levels in 0-60 Ali: how are you this nice when you're 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮 Ali: that's a skill, rare one at that 💎✨ Carly: my da is looking green must of had his own 🎶🍻💃 ha Carly: idk i can b nicer? but k now i know ronan aint been talking bout me when hes 🍺 or 💊 Ali: can be a tea party for three Ali: have to bring his own 🎩 though Ali: not to me anyway Ali: but as you can tell Ali: 🐺 keeps all the 🐓🐓🐓 away Carly: 🐇🐇🐇♠️♣️♥️♦️🐇🐇🐇 Carly: she is fierce Ali: she likes to think so Ali: 🐶 really Carly: course ur not scared of her silly Carly: u love her Carly: im a 🐈 person ha Ali: [sends her a load of pictures of Bluebeard she didn't ask for rather than being like do I love her hmm] Carly: AW!!!! Carly: 🥰🤗 Ali: he's captain ☠🏴 but there's always room aboard Carly: thats the best offer ive had from a gentleman ever ever ever Carly: whats his name? Ali: Bluebeard Ali: and he is MOSTLY a gentleman if you can handle some toe nibbling Carly: 😍😍😍😍 Carly: into it Carly: ive done more for lads i just met who aint as beautiful so Ali: 😂 I feel that Ali: honestly, it's quite comforting, when he doesn't sneak attack you with it Carly: [sends her a selfie that shouldn't be as adorable as it is] Carly: now u can introduce us Carly: 👋 baby blue Ali: the 😍😍😍😍 are mutual Ali: I can tell Carly: yay Carly: 🧡 Ali: is there anything else you need/we want for the tea party? Ali: en-route at last Carly: ur really coming? Ali: yeah, sorry I was ages, it's a whole process brewing it Ali: also a dead giveaway you're 😷🤒🤕🤢🤮 which obvs my ma takes as her cue to be all Spanish inquisition about it Ali: 📚 of my mostly-fictional-but-which-are-and-which-aren't-mother exploits later Carly: sorry iou so much magic Ali: nah, don't worry about it 👸 Ali: who doesn't love a little scandal with their morning brew? she deffo does Carly: its too late im looking for 🍀 Carly: among the 🌼🌼🌼 Ali: awh Ali: I'm never turning down extra luck Ali: we can make daisy-chains Carly: its the dresscode Carly: soz da Ali: does he have a 🧔? Ali: that's a #look Carly: not rn Carly: my ma wasnt on @ me only to clean up Carly: he had his turn Ali: damn it Ali: maybe a nice belt Ali: I'll be 🤔 Carly: dont b 💔😢 he has bushy eyebrows Ali: same Ali: he's earnt his invite back Ali: your ma gonna have to chill though Ali: and it ain't that kinda tea 💔 Carly: you wont b able to tell if shes angry or surprised Ali: 😚 ⬅ I know the vibe Ali: you do you babe Carly: she used to let me sort em out but there was an accident Carly: which im sworn to secrecy about Ali: I'm so good with secrets 🙏🙏🙏 Carly: k Carly: my head zoned out but my hands kept going like Ali: you were meditating you can't help having  🌌🧠 Ali: I'll 🤭 now and never tell, don't worry Mrs W Carly: @ school yea im meditating on your q sir relax Carly: ha love that Ali: they just ask questions to answer it themselves, what is the point Carly: u coming for my ma again? Ali: 🤫 bad first impression, that Carly: shes heard it from ronan too sorry Carly: lad has loose lips Ali: honestly Ali: 🙄 can't keep up with my bad reputation Carly: ud think hed be better at kissing Carly: its talk talk talk Carly: more good things about u than ive made it seem like tho Ali: he was a big talker Ali: probably 'cos he ain't allowed with the lads Carly: if he talked about what a 👼 u are & how 💔😢 he is theyd uninvite him from the bonfire Carly: its sweet really how hung up hes got Ali: he only thinks I'm an 👼 'cos he took my virginity probs Ali: that's more suitable 🔥side chat Carly: he goes on about that alot but I thought he was lying Carly: oh no that sounds bad Carly: not calling u a slag ur obvs not its y he likes u more Ali: 😂 I'm fine with slag Ali: all definition dependent anyway Carly: yea same Carly: can be hot if ur in the mood Ali: right, and if I'm a slag 'cos I didn't marry him then I'll take it Carly: & hes not allowed to marry gorgers theyd wanna throw him in the 🔥 Ali: exactly Ali: we can't both be 💔😢 forever can we boy Carly: just me @ the party til u came to my rescue Ali: 🥺 Ali: What was he even on about then, like? Ali: dickhead Carly: idk i zone out wen he shouts @ me too Ali: I can always poison a cup and send it his way Ali: just say the word Carly: hes not that bad Ali: okay okay, just some laxatives Ali: 'cos he's a bit 💩 Carly: ha Ali: no 🌼🌼🌼 unless he says soz then Carly: but his beautiful curls 🥺 Ali: hmm, a good point Ali: be strong, baby Carly: ill throw one @ him & run away Carly: back to u Ali: you're so adorable Carly: says u Carly: 👼👸🏼 Ali: 💚 we're gonna have an adventure when the tea hits okay Ali: I've decided Carly: k thats the kinda 🎄🎅🤶🎁 it is Carly: i do want the energy of a kid on xmas morning Ali: that's the best Ali: how I'm tryna be every day Carly: 💫⭐️🌟✨⚡️☄️ 🚀🛸 Ali: if only 🚀 Ali: this bike can only go as fast as my lil legs can carry, like Carly: aw baby Carly: i shouldve asked u where u live before this 2nd rescue was launched Carly: im sorry Ali: No distance is too far for a fair maiden Carly: ill have to see what other 🔮 i can find before u get here Carly: dont love ious Ali: there's no ious Carly: [sending her loads of pics of her with or just pics of the cat lady's cats that she's rounding up for this tea party and they're adorable] Ali: 😍💞😻 Ali: okay, non-debt fully paid though Carly: [just rambling about the names she's given each cat cos her and cat lady don't know each other properly til Ali comes along and like facts about each cat/her fave things cos she's a big nerd] Ali: I love them Ali: I'm gonna get them some 🐟🐟🐟 when I get tea party tings Ali: some cream, awh, okay, this is happening Carly: im picking enough 🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼 for everyone Ali: should've put Bluebs in my basket Ali: next time Carly: aw Carly: Humbug might try & fight him Carly: youd b there to protect him tho Ali: I can ref Ali: my little brother is always trying to play-fight everyone so I'm well-versed Carly: is he ticklish? that works for me Carly: broken up lots of fights Ali: big time Ali: his kryptonite Ali: reckon it's against the rules in professional fights but preparing him for anything like any good big sister Carly: ha Carly: aw i bet ur an amazing sister Carly: if i had 1 maybe id wanna be on site sometimes Carly: my ma's eyebrows r hardly a call to home Ali: he might disagree but he's 5 so what does he know 😉 Ali: feel that though Ali: home is just a base, whole 🌍 out there Carly: wen ur 5 you argue to argue Carly: yea if u dont use ur wings theyll think u dont want em 💔😢 Ali: flying is like riding a 🚲 though Carly: r we goin on a 🚲 adventure? Ali: definitely Ali: ugh, need one of those wagons for the 😻😻😻s Carly: ☺️its gonna b so fun! Carly: we might meet more 🐈🐈🐈🐈 Ali: way better than 🐔 Carly: ha Carly: do u have 🔮 left to help me find shoes? Ali: have you checked the fridge? Carly: [a pause while she do] Carly: theyre not there 😕🧐 Ali: damn, that'd be the last place I'd look though Ali: were they in the mess your Ma was sounding off about fr Carly: o mayb Carly: if i was wearing any when you dropped me off Ali: 🤔 I don't know if I recall any glass slippers Ali: I'll ask Lene hold up Carly: 👸 energy Carly: but idk if i wanna scary 🐺 at my door Ali: turns out she's actually your 👵 Carly: ha my grandma is 💍 to god Carly: its not close to the energy shes putting out Ali: she'd probably tell your actual that God is a gay girl Ali: nah she's well 😇 around fam, just hide behind your Ma and me, baby, you'll be fine Carly: ha that wasn't in any of the kids bible stories she sent me every 🎄🎅🤶🎁 Carly: her god is 😠 than Humbug Carly: he likes to shout so i gotta zone out Carly: aw that's sweet ur ma loves her too? Ali: Hooray for Catholicism, yeah? 😏 Ali: she loves my Ma, more like Carly: we spend our sundays on our knees nana but its 🚽🤮 or u kno a bigger sin Carly: u do look like her i remember Ali: that's not QUITE 🚽🤮 levels but close 😂 Carly: nah its nice u have the same 👀💙✨ Carly: idk who i look like Carly: postman maybe Ali: now I don't know whether to 😳 or be 🤨 you like my Ma too Ali: you look like you and that's Ali: 💛 😍 😘 🥰 😚 👸 👼🏽 🐰 🌼 🌻 🌞 🍓 🍑 🍨 🍰 🍭 🍬 🎆 💜 Carly: yea 🤞🙏🌠 the postman isnt my da cuz hes a ride Carly: aw now youve got me 😳 Ali: rude, my postman is not Carly: 🚫💌 then baby Carly: ill text u instead Ali: so grumpy, don't stick your hand right into our house if you don't wanna get bitten, sir Ali: not by me, whatever Ronan has said Ali: though I'm well flattered I'm getting a text back Carly: ha its k its not that u use too much teeth Carly: & course ur my hero Carly: tho 🤞🙏🌠 wont b an sos every time Ali: good, can't have him putting you off with blatant lies Ali: it won't be if I do a better job at the heroics and get there before any bad shit can happen Carly: its k i like it Carly: helps me remember what i did Carly: 💔😢 no lads r spelling their names out in bruises for the who Carly: 🐇🐾🐇🐾🐇 Carly: nooo theres no better u could do Carly: ur flying to me faster than anyone has ever ever Ali: amateurs, like Ali: so rude, ain't they heard you're 👸 Ali: I'm basically there now, prepare for the best tea party you've ever been to Carly: aint wat theyve heard but idc Carly: yay 💙 i havent had 1 since me & my 🧸🧸🧸 Ali: I'll be 🎶🔊 it so get in the know lads Ali: awh, can I meet them too? Carly: not too 🔊 or ur gf will bite me which could b fun but im not trying to do u like 💔😢 Carly: some r shyer than others but if u work ur 🔮 how u did for me ull make friends Ali: fill your boots, babe, I don't reckon she's your type, like Ali: I'll be on my best behaviour 🤞 Ali: the loveliest guest you've ever had 🤞🤞 Carly: be fun though Carly: not boring Ali: 😲😲 Ali: Is that the impression I give off? Ali: or another Ronan tale, either way Ali: gonna have to prove otherwise now in the most extra ways imaginable Carly: nahhh Carly: he don't lie to me its his 1 saving grace Carly: its just like a pls Carly: to u & the universe Ali: I won't be boring Ali: trust me Carly: k Carly: i do ur a lifesaver Ali: nah Ali: just happy to help Carly: im happy we r mates Ali: me too Ali: idk why we weren't before, like Ali: too many people at school Carly: & i dont go much ha Ali: this is true Ali: lesser spotted walsh 🐦 Carly: oooh wat colours am i Ali: 💗💜💛🧡💗 Carly: cute Ali: very Carly: wats ur fave colour? Ali: It's a harder question than people reckon, that Ali: like, there's so many beautiful things of every colour Ali: if I can decide for the day, I feel like I'm doing a disservice to all the others Carly: sorry Carly: i havent decided on mine either Carly: when i was a lil kid it was 💛 for the 🌞 then wen i started goin out it was silver for wat i thought the 🌚 looked like Carly: but ive seen so many new colours since Ali: kids always know Ali: they're much smarter than adults about everything Carly: i bet ur lil bro is the smartest Carly: like u Ali: he likes red for 🚨❌🛑⛔️🚫💯‼️🥊🥤 Ali: and I see the appeal Carly: does he like 🍎? i kno somewhere that sells the reddest shiniest 1s Carly: or we cud just throw 🍅s Ali: he's at the anti-fruit stage Ali: but I reckon he could be convinced if we let him smother 'em in caramel and sprinkles Carly: its a date Ali: Me first

[lazunight]

Tagged by @flaming-grape (thank you!)

What is the smell of your shampoo?

'Ocean Breeze' i believe. Not my favorite scent from that company but it's the one my family always gets.

What's your aesthetic?

Skulls and watercolor flowers, angel stuff like wings and churches, gold and white

What's your favorite type of day and why?

Sunset and dusk. It's quiet and relaxing.

What do you like most about the beach?

The sound of the waves and the smell of sea water.

What's a song you've cried to before?

Ayano's Theory of Happiness. I know there are others, but it's the only one coming to mind atm.

What are some relaxing tips for your followers?

Uh idk put on your favorite quiet song, sit somewhere comfy, do an activity you like (like gaming, sewing, knitting, drawing; stuff like that)

What are some things that make you tear up?

Uh fuckin. Everything. Mostly for movies or tv shows. Character writes a song for a loved one, talking about how much they love them? Tears. That scene in Love, Simon where Simon's mom tells him it's okay to be who he is? I'm sobbing, bye.

What is your favorite from each sense?

Sight: color

Sound: music in general, im pretty much constantly listening to something

Touch: soft and fluffy things

Smell: home cooked teriyaki

Taste: sweets and chips

What is an alternate reality you want to live in?

Uhhh.... idk lol maybe something like Stardew Valley where you get away from society and live in a little town where everyone is pleasant.

What are some troubles you face on a daily basis?

I'm pretty much constantly worried about money lmao; i dont have a job rn, i dont know what i ultimately want to do, and i have a medical condicion meaning i have to have health insurance or i die. 🙃 im very stressed out lolol

What is one scene from a book that makes you really sad?

Hm... I honestly haven't read a lot of books recently that had anything particularly sad in it so I guess I'll just choose something from a manga lol.

The only thing I can think of rn is Nabari No Ou when it concerns Yoite. [Spoiler warning for the manga if anyone needs it lol idk maybe its old enough by now] There's just some aspects of him that I see in myself especially about gender identity (and knowing that the mangaka themself is nonbinary, it makes sense). His character development is wonderful near the end and its really sad he ends up dying before he could live to his fullest but he went with a smile, finally at peace with himself. It's beautiful but also sad af (mostly bc of Miharu's reaction to the whole thing and thats a whole other rabbit hole of character development that I could ramble about).

Anyway! Read Nabari No Ou and other works by Kamatani Yuhki. They have other lgbt+ related works. Nabari wasn't about lgbt+ stuff prob bc it was their first work before they came out but it does have a couple of lgbt+ characters.

Sorry this turned into a ramble about Nabari No Ou. I just. Love that series.

I don't usually tag people in these things bc i never know who's done them before but @lunargfs if you haven't done this yet, feel free!

[detached-souls]

story time

ya'll prob wont care but here's the time i fucked up a potential relationship i couldve had because i have a thing called anxiety & depression. this was like 4 years ago btw.

so i met this kid. he was like 2 years younger than me so like he was 20 i was 22. Honestly the sweetest, most caring person i have ever met. He had tattoos & made music & loved to write & loved anime & liked singing with me. we went to the beach a few times at midnight to play guitar and drink. and there was one time we went and he knew how my mind was. just a constant racing track. but he looked right at me & i mean he really, really looked at me. He grabs my face & just kisses me. It was one of those kisses that you felt. the kind that sends a shiver up your spine. after, he looks at me with a smirk on his face and says, "you probably were overthinking about everything that entire time werent you?" i said yes. i lied. in that moment i felt so clear headed. i had not a single thing running through my mind once our lips had touched. & thats all i ever wanted. for someone to have the ability to erase all my minds worries for just a moment so i could breathe. but like an idiot i said yes. and that, was just the start of the short lived saga of me pushing him away. he said all the right things. he did all the right things. he called me ocean eyes because of the deep grey blue color they gave. he would always invite me over but his mom was always sleeping in the next room so we'd have to whisper. i remember one time i set my car alarm off on accident & we scrambled to turn it off & we failed miserably. he was always so sweet to me but i still distanced myself. he even held my hand when i said i hated it but he knew i secretly wanted him to. he had walked me to my car one night & i was nervous and i had rambled on & on about god knows what. he had this goofy look on his face then just puts his hands on my face & kisses me to shut me up. it was the best worst thing he ever did. because right after he looks right at me and says, "i love your hair, your eyes, the way you hate when i sass you back, how short you are, i love your hands & your thighs & your lips." i went home that night & i cried. not because i was sad, but because i knew i was going to push him away. i didnt understand why he liked me. at all. why me? i wasnt skinny or pretty or anything. looking back now i regret not saying things i shouldve or done things to show i cared. i remember the last conversation we had. he asked if i wanted to grab lunch on his break. but me being the anxiety ridden mess i was, made up some stupid excuse & the last thing he said was "okay." the next day i had no texts from him. same for the next. i text him. no response. 4 days go by & im realizing i fucked the start of something good up. a week goes by & he still ignored me. by then i just knew. i fucked up. ME. i ruined 2 weeks of happiness because i was scared of what would happen if i had let this boy love me. i was scared to find out what it felt like to be loved by a boy. i let my anxiety & depression keep me from something that couldve been great. it was the best/worst 2 weeks i ever had. sometimes i wish i could rewind time and redo it all. but this time let it just happen. but we all cant have a 2nd chance now can we.

[thetruejesterofgenocide]

i dont know what to call this honestly “am i sleep deprived or just feeling deprived without her ?”

THIS IS ALOT OF READING WARNING NOW )welllll here i am its 1:00 in the morning about and im just sorta sitting here thinking ya know ? like about life and like what i wanna do with my life and im left with a question. why in gods green earth do my thoughts still fall to you hmm ? cause honestly i dont know you've moved on to somebody new and so have i yet im coming to realize im the only one who isnt happy in this situation i dont love her hell i barely like her haha .. you see up until this point ive just been doing what everyone has been telling me” too do get over you , be happy , find someone else “ haha little does everyone else know im a fucking mess you know though dont u ? i bet you know alot more then u let on haha you have always been able to read me like a book honestly u might not even read this now that i think about it cause god only knows the last time you checked my tumblr but fuck it im gonna write it anyway like i was saying ive just been doing what people tell me to do and well im fucking sick of it but it doesnt seem like i can do anything about it so ive just been biding my time and thinking playing my mask as well as i can to everyone else ya know ? cant have people realizing im a manic depressive freak ( amongst other things ) haha this is probably the last time i might ever mention this topic cause like i told u i would and well i sound pretty damn psychotic now that im sitting here reading this so if anything it prob is just gonna scare u so im sorry but let me stop rambling and just get back on topic and type what i was gonna type if the person who this was intended for gets this far then well thanks and this is what i actually wanted to say

 “ honestly i dont know what to do anymore i miss u so fucking much its honestly wild but i cant tell u that now can i ? your happy with him he makes you smile i dont know how deeply that thrives in you but it seems special to you so ive been accepting of it cause you may be my ex but you where my best friend first so my first thought has been to make sure your happy haha and ik you want me to be happy to and well im trying hah it isnt working but i am trying for you ya dork haha but well ya let me get on with what im saying is i felt like i was loosing my mind before i met u i had no drive to do anything at all till you came along and when u did god damn did u hit me like a fucking mac truck beautiful funny relaxing charming ( yes girls can be charming ) smart trust me i could go on for hours but to put in simply you where well like me in a way u understood me and i understood u in a sense but in a more proper sense i didnt understand a damn thing about u and maybe thats what brought me to u you where a fantastic puzzle of a person this shell of faked joy and excitement to cover up a more delicate inside that had been hurt one too many times  and i could tell u just wanted a friend someone that wouldnt leave no matter what which from what i had gathered in a short time had been promised to you and broken way too much so i told my self “ john your gonna be her friend no matter what the cost “ and years went by of me helping u and you helping me and sure we had our rough spots im not gonna lie but we got threw it together and in that time well i grew to well i guess youd call it love you and in that moment i relized that ive been going threw this relationship thinking you needed me that u depended on me which may be true im still not sure but well im trying to say i needed you and need you maybe even more then u do me haha youve done more for me then i think u could ever happen to understand 

and well ya lets flash forward to about a year and ahalf ago when i felt like the luckiest guy in the entire world thanks to u haha cause i finally gained the confidence to ask the girl i had been crushing over out and surprisingly you said yes ! then proceeded the most interesting 10 months of my life haha also probably some of the happiest cause whether you believe it or not you where the damn best girlfriend i ever did have haha and then well we broke up and well im not gonna lie even though it was for good reasons i sorta felt something inside me creak and snap a very serious internal conflict if u will . cause on one hand u wanted to better your self which im perfectly okay with but on the other hand well we broke up haha and i had no idea how to handle that like at all so l sorta lost it for a bit there alot of anxeity and panick attacks and nights alone crying but then things started looking up honestly it seemed like we might get back together and i was honestly excited shit haha we basically did for a little while and well during the brief time of your little fling i guess youd call it you showed me another part of my self a more confident part of my self that well genuinely ment to protect you but well dominate u at the same time which was a very interesting feeling to have this innocent person give her self to me and to be responsible for her happiness and health and well being and during that time to me you where everything i never knew i needed or wanted i wouldn't trade that experience for the world i swear on that much cause we might be separate but your still my angel and u always will be i promise did u know i refuse to call “her “ angel ? well ya i wont do it its the one name i wont use cause well its yours haha the single name u liked me calling you besides your own name and u best believe i abused the shit out of it  but anyway back on track then that ended you and him got together .. which well it hurt alot like a fuck ton i didn't really know how to react so i just tried to revert back to my original function be happy cause your happy and well it just isnt working anymore so i dont know im just sorta trying anything at this point cause ik you dont like seeing me upset especially when it has something to do with you 

   so i got a girl friend and i fucking hate it so much haha and if you think this is some thing im trying to to take u from him or something isnt haha you know i wont interfere with your relationship well guess what all of this brings me to what i was actually thinking about

 am i stupid or in love or maybe just stupidly in love 

? is there a future for us ? cause you only ever tell me maybe haha ?

 is .. is he better then me ? 

 im sorry for hurting u

 . im sorry for not always being there im sorry for well alot of things 

 But im thankful for you , for how much you have been there , for putting up with my shit , for being open with me for being my friend for being an amazing girl friend for caring and so so much more yes believe it or not this is a note of me trying to thank u cause i dont think ive really ever shown just how much i appreciate you dork 

 you dont have to answer these questions and well im damn surprised if you've read this far down aha to those who have read this that is wasn't meant for this far down sorry aha it was just one of those nights where i needed to vent and this is one place where i can actually do that without my family freaking out on me  thanks y'all im gonna go do something else for the rest of the morning

[rose---child]

dumb mcu rant

i didnt like captian marvel but its because of the imperalist/militent subtext not her being a women and ive been raised on militent subtext my whole life so like i can ignore that like without my dumb assholeness it was a wellmade film.....actually i hope the muslim charicter ms.marvel gets a introduction .....hopefully not mcu but like spiderverse or deadpool style maybe idk but her comics from what i know seem like a very well done charicter .....ill be honest though i didnt read her comics though but i might have to find a copy or if you want a america based girl hero there is ms america which is black/mixed idk tbh and yes i know this just sounds like a rambling but but actually female and poc and queer and exc chareters in comics are some of my faves like comics sadly havent been adopted well into movies which is a shame but there has been alot of great arcs and charicters........for example in the comics the marvel civil war was this big fight among all the heros and everyone was just trying to servive and you gave the tony v cap thing but like it had weight to it like you had the whole world among many many writers having to write for this event and i thinkcap even dies and bucky becomes cap for a while or something????            where as civil war the movie was just some argument among a bunch of adult cosplayers with military weapons whining with aderall in their system and  Don Cheadle haveing to parent tony  ......................

also in the movies they refrence events that happned in the comics but its done so just like oh yeah thats a thing you dont realize that this means something in the comics which whatever

like speaking of the cap dieing thing falcon die become cap since cap and falcon were partners for decades which atleast the movies build up a relationship between the 2 but like ......whatever

i do like that cap marvel did take the skrull invastion arc and put it in that movie 

i do wish the ultron movie had him be mr.fantastics but i understand disney wasent the monoply it is now (its odd how this is the one time im making it seem like they arnt even though they were still a monoply at the time)......uhhh yeah but ultron was cool i guess AND WE GOT VISTION QUCIKSILVER AND SCARLET WITCH which actually makes me happy since wiccan from younf avengers is related with s.w. charicter but thats probs not gonna happen as a movie..... also house of m isan either but thats a event where with and vistion wanted kids but cant and she like destorys the world because of it or something and i think the m in house of m is magento since sc and qs are his kids but whatever...........................

also i just realized something okay so in the comics tony makes spidy a suit in civil war which has legs on it and spidy is all badasss........if i remember correctly thats in endgame oratleast the legs are on  his suit but not the right colours but stll

oh also you know how in ragnirock hulk was in space in a areana well there was kindof 2 events or arcs this could be a ref to 

1st planet......3evengts but i have to give backstory so if i remember correctly the hulk was trying to kill the whole world which this was called world war hulk or something and so they sent him to space then the 2nd part which is where hes on a war battle areana planet or something and he becomes like a god of sorts then the 3rd where thor goes there for some reason and fights him

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #6: "My brain does not math at this hour. Stay tuned." - Sharky

I'm so sad. Everything worked out just like we thought it would but it's still not what I wanted. Charlie went home and he was actually a really good ally. I feel like I maybe could have done more to try and save him but then I would have lost other allies.

OKAY. LET'S. DISH. This swap also worked out really freakin well for me. My #1 Brian is still with me by my side. I was reunited with Dennis who is part of Four of a Kind, plus he is a challenge BEAST. Nick actually thinks I voted to save him which is not the case but made me looks like such a good ally to him, so I had to do 0 damage control. And I'm finally on a tribe with Matt who I've been wanting to work with. This is actually the best case scenario.

Welp. I knew something was happening but a swap wasnt it. Lucky i talked to Bryce earlier so he has my back. We also have Keaton and Marie but we have to see where their heads at. Nate is talking to me and right now i really like his vibe. Annebelle i havent had a chance to but wasnt able to make it so idk if they’ll be here. Hopefully we can win immunity tonight.

So we swapped. Again. AND I AM THE ONLY FUCKING OG MADIGAN ON MY TRIBE. THIS IS SOME BS. James the lil'bitch had to fucking quit over a fucking flash game so we could have MERGED but NO! I see how it is. At least I have Dennis and Brian (who i would literally DIE for) and nicole as well! Sharky is an FB ORG legend so im looking forward to getting to know him. Nick already seems dry asf so yay? Like I think I can blend in quickly with this tribe, but I am still nervous about what would happen if we merge. IDK if the FBers (its weird to me how im considered one now LOL) will team up or whether we will wither and die and I have to pull out my idol (yah i still have some sanity!) WOO TIME TO CRY AT ENDURANCE

ok well we swapped and im kind of loving it but not. like i love that maynor and nathan are here. but so is kirby! so! i miss dennis and brian seems like a legend so i wanted to play with him but oh well maybe merge if i survive! its awk this live challenge bc marie prob wont be doing it like even during the good times for her timezone KJHFADKSJDF. but! ugh dennis is gonna slay this so sad i have a good sleep schedule yikes. its fun that nicole is on the other tribe hopefully that evens it out for us having marie. annabelle hasnt spoken to me yet either so. hmmm.... maynor wants to work with me so thats GREAT love him wooh!!!

Okay we are actually working really well as a tribe on this challenge. No shade to my previous tribes but I haven't seen this much teamwork in a challenge yet this season. Feels good.

This swap was really good for me i think. And I had 2 swaps today and I was going crazy. I have now Bryce and Keaton both wanting to work with me which is good because now we atleast can make it a tie if the others dont want to work with us. I really like Nate so Im going to try and see where he’s heads at. Marie doesnt talk much and is offline. And starting to talk to Anna. I dont think we are going to win this immunity.

Matt is great. End of story.

3:51 am. Dennis, Matt, and I have really stayed up to pull this challenge together. And we are so close. This would give Brian and I a much needed break from tribal council and considering I can see myself working with all of these players I'd rather us win so I can have as many options as possible when we merge. I just need to stay up for another hour or so to get this done. Matt and Dennis have already stayed up all night to get it done. Also though in the back of my mind I'm clocking how Dennis works REALLY hard at these challenges...maybe too hard. And now I'm rambling...because it is now 3:54 am.

4:21 am. We think we have won. Unsure. My brain does not math at this hour. Stay tuned.

SO WE WON IMMUNITY WOOOO! Thank god, live tribals for some reason would make me really nervous so i am happy to be safe! hopefully the merge is soon as well, would love to get there and know i made jury (something which doesn't happen too me that often ngl) Sharky and I really hit it off last night, and i know this cause we established that Betty white is very dom but also caring about her subs. so thats a sentence you just read. If feel like even if I went to tribal, im likeable enough to make into into the majority alliance that could spring up, so I am happy with how I am playing tbh. Will it make me a threat further down the line? probs but i'll deal with that later

Can I just say that the laptop Discord is way better than mobile Discord. But catch me still using mobile discord all the time. Anyways.... It looks like the target might be Marie for tribal. TBH I really hope this tribal goes smoothly and everyone just votes for Marie. She was one and didn't help out in the challenge, as far as I could tell. Haven't seen the ones after I deadass fell asleep on my phone. Bryce and Keaton have my back so that's all that matter. Nate I have to keep an eye on because he threw my name with Marie because he didn't talk to me. (He was telling Keaton this.) I was like bruh why you lying. We literally talked for a couple of hrs after the swap before you went to bed. I'll update if there is any more spicyness. but It sucks though. Now only 2 people to have not gone to tribal is Dennis and Nicole.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vk_Ur9d_wY8&feature=youtu.be

only audio this time. Like switching it up hehe

everything is so quiet i think im going home which is super sad bc the game is pretty fun and i really wanted to work with maynor dennis and nathan somemore but oh well!!! am i a meninist? also i stan annabelle again she like kind of doesnt talk to me but when she does shes a legend league goddess. marie is so inactive that im going to vote her but i wish keaton left instead!

Hello! I am still safe and probably will remain so until merge, so.....this is fun! Lots of fun! Every time I try to contribute to a challenge I wake up and we've already won or finished it. I...is this the work ethic of Discord games? If so, I love being carried like this. Anyways, hoping that anyone who was cordial to me on my last tribe doesn't get the boot. I'm figuring Maria might go just because she has been so inactive (except that one time Keaton called her inact in the chat and she came on like AND WHAT ABOUT IT???). So anyways that's my thoughts on that. See ya at merge (?) or maybe we are gonna have another round before that.

Today is the day i go to my first tribal. Its kinda nerve wracking but also not because everyone seems to be unified to vote out Marie tonight. Its barely 11:22 am so anything can happy until 5 pm. Im just hoping nothing crazy is happening.

Okay so this day off has been really great for me. Especially since we are still expecting a merge. And we all know once merge hits the party don't stop. However, I'm really interested to see what happens with this vote. Maynor is all alone but I need him to make the merge. Aside from Brian he is my best ally. Not to mention Nathan and Annabelle want to work with me. If they go I won't be heartbroken but I could use the allies. Then there is Bryce and Marie. I have no relationship with them but in a merge situation I think Brian could pull them into something. So I guess best case scenario Keaton goes. But also as long as it's not Maynor I would have to readjust my strategy.

OK, so it's been a couple of days!  I said I'd do confessionals daily but it just doesn't work with how little is going on in the game on the winning tribe!  I know that Nicole approached Sharky for some alliance with her and Dennis, but I just... 2 people doesn't make the numbers on the tribe and Sharky will be more loyal to me as opposed to them!

I guess I didn't really talk much about the swap either because it did just happen.  Basically I got majority of my OG tribe (Nicole, Dennis, Sharky, and myself), but I also got Matt and Nick.  I ADORE Matt and so I plan on working with him in the long run of this game if possible, and I'd love to make Nick the first boot from this tribe hehe... he needs to go before he gets his hands on any more items.  He thinks Sharky was the vote against Charlie and not me, so maybe Sharky snapped, but I genuinely don't care at the moment because Nick wouldn't feed me any information like he would feed Sharky since I know Sharky's playing a good social game.  I like Nicole and Dennis but I just don't care about longterm plans with either of them.  Ideally, I'd love my endgame to be me, Sharky, Marie, Bryce, Matt, and Nathan so that I sit perfectly in the middle of people I want to work with, but I don't know if that's their ideal plans with me, soooo!! I love dis game, and I'm really glad I got this day break after my team carried my ass because I just needed some quiet time…

I like this tribe because we won the challenge.. nothing has really happened besides me talking to some people and making some stronger connections... we all see a merge being what comes next and i cant wait for it to happen.

Idk I think this tribal will go ok but people haven’t really been talking to me a whole lot on this swap so hopefully no ones lying to me and I’m getting fucked over tonight we’ll see I guess fingers crossed!!

We swapped and lost immunity and I have no idea what's happening once again. I'm gonna vote Keaton again because of his behavior and hopefully I'm not the one being voted out ugh

Marie is voted out 5-1.

[killerqween94]

Saw this on my TL and thought why not, I'm extremely bored.

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

I honestly don't remember. Which is sad, hand holding is great.. lol

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Shy, unless I know you well

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

Idk, depends on when ig?

4. Are you easy to get along with?

On my good days, yeah I think so

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Hmm, probs not lol

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Idk, I really like a nice smile/laugh, and a person that can make me laugh.

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Realistically, nah, probably not.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Lol.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Not really, I mean depending on who I'm talking to. Like if I was talking to my gma I'd be extremely uncomfortable lmao.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My supervisor lol

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

"Okay, I'm definitely down for a wine night though:)"

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Thats so hard 😭 I hate these questions cause they always change. Okay maaaybe 1.Untitled by Knuckle Puck // 2. Pretense - Knuckle Puck (basically anything by knuckle puck) //3. The enitre Feel Something album by Movements // 4. Atlantic by Grayscale // 5. anything by Post Malone lol

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Absolutely 😊

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

I like to, yeah

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I took a train to CO and had the best vacation ever.

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again if you could?

Ummm, maybe

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

I do

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

I see him around every once in a while lol

19. Do you like bubble baths?

So much yes.

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Sure, I'm indifferent

21. What are you bad habits?

That's a long list 😧 umm, I lose things(often), I get distracted really easily, I ramble sometimes, and lots of other things lol

22. Where would you like to travel?

Italy 🍝🍷

23. Do you have trust issues?

Kind of

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Coffee! Or music and a bubble bath if I take one that day.

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

My stomach/torso among a million other things

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Hit snooze like 20 times lmao then get up and wash my face.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Darker, im pale as shit

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My close friends.

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Yeah, but that's always a bad path to go down.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Maybe. I'm still not sure how I feel about marriage.

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Lol and some.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Lmao, umm definitely Jensen Ackles, and Dave Franco

33. Spell your name with your chin.

AMH A lol

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

I really used to like to play vollyball and softball.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV, easy.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Many times lmao

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Nothing usually lol

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Pass. Idk

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

LBL is one of my favorite clothing stores, but idk I like a lot of places.

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Lel ive been out of HS for a while now and I still don't know entirely what I want to do

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Idk, I'd say I'm definitely the type of person that gives a lot of second chances.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Most likely either I'm distracted/spacing off, or sad/overthinking something.

43. Do you smile at strangers?

I try awkwardly lol

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Outer space.

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Sometimes I'm not sure, but probably the people I care about and the idea that something good might happen that day.

46. What are you paranoid about/worst fear?

Everyone I care about leaving me.

47. Have you ever been high?

Yes 🔥🌴

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Lol yes

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Not really

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Blue I think?