Dysmorphia
Ik gender, sexual orientation or anything of the sort is not an issue in the cotl-verse in canon, but Kallamar, Kallamar is special. to me at least.
when you're so used to long flowing tendrils, pretty gowns and a crown that literally resembles (ik it's supposed to be a dunce hat but i'm ignoring that lol) one of those old cone shaped princess hats??? the one in kids shows back then with a streamer at the tip that flows down along with the hair?
when femininity becomes almost second nature to the point where "Brother" only bothers him juuust a little bit, who cares he could brush it off. call him whatever. he's too afraid to correct you anyway.
but now as a follower, he has none of those luxuries, no pretty tentacles, no crystals, no gowns.
just his body...his ugly, slimy, scarred, thin, sorry excuse of a body with a forehead too wide and ears- his precious ears, nothing but shredded lumps at the sides of his head. (Though it was always like that post Narinder, he always hid it with pretty jewelry that matched him)
he's too afraid to ask more of the lamb because of- well because of everything- so instead he asks the tailors for an old marital robe and wears it even though he isn't wed to the lamb (it sparked a LOT of misunderstandings, Leshy found it funny for the most part)
it hides him. hides the shame. it feels okay, for once.
but every now and then it comes back, like an itch, he can't scratch.
thus. here we are.
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"Yo! Shinji has something for you!"
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It arrived!! (I’d preordered months ago and forgotten, so now I have a surprise book on the top of my to read pile)
i love u so much. this is so unreal for me.
today it's real. after like 3 years and a lot of editing and lot of crying... body's a bad monster.
i wanted to make a book that actually talked about the reality of mental illness without being a gore-fest. anything violent or said by abusers is blacked out in this book. it is a survivor story that's actually about the survivor instead of about the trauma. this is a book where i trust my audience to be like, so cool about things.
i love u all and this book is an act of love. i hope u like it, genuinely, even tho it's a weird, fucked up little book that is incredibly hard to explain to other people.
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So, early 00s/lifelong Aragorn girlies. How we doing.
Lovely gif by @arcanefox207
I for one am very unwell.
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vets when Belphie is hospitalized: “he’s the sweetest and best boy omg we keep crowding around bc we love him sooooo much omg”
vets when Pangur is hospitalized: “well. she’s not happy haha. nearly got me. we sprayed some feliway.”
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what's with the weird glorification of smoking that's come back lately
like
I've seen so many posts that paint opposing smoking as some impossibly Loser-ish or puritanical stance and I really don't get it
it makes you, your house, and your clothing stink, destroys your teeth, and gives you lung cancer. opposing it is. Correct. obviously addiction is very complicated and quitting can be hard, but just saying "smoking is gross and harmful as a practice (including vaping)" is True and Right actually
some of you have never grown up hearing about how some beloved family member died a slow, agonized, wasting death of smoking-induced cancer, or watching it firsthand for yourself, and it shows
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