#one of my favorite concert experiences

[fastorslow]

Florence Welch, 2019

[illumi-nati-png]

Your desolation led you into this

Vile incarnation of consummated bliss

I know you need it now to make you feel alive

- Spillways, Ghost

[fennthetalkingdog]

I'm just figuring out how important music is in my life! This is coming from a long while trying to cut down on my music use, mostly because I was listening to it so much that it felt more like I couldn't do anything without popping in some earbuds, and partially because of other personal reasons. Some of my routines changed, forcing me to not listen to music while doing certain things, and it ended up becoming that besides working on homework or drawing, I didn't listen to music at all. But I've given myself a break today since I have nothing to do and since, for reasons, I'm feeling just a lil crappy today—and boy, I'm starting to realize again just why I love music!!

I love the diverse music taste I've developed over the years! My family is not only big about music but big about listening to it loud, so the majority of my music taste for most of my life has just been Christian hiphop (Lecrae, KB, Andy Mineo, Trip Lee, and ironically Tonex, whose album where he was struggling hard with his gayness has been my favorite concert movie since I was 5) and gospel music (Kirk Franklin, Tye Tribbett, etc.). And music was one of the few connections between me and my race (I grew up feeling pretty estranged from my blackness as a kid, but the popular songs they played at the YMCA in the 2010s were some of the few things I could use to feel more connected) and between me and my classmates/friends at the Y (I still have fond memories of playing FNAF songs in mat forts and reciting lyrics at pool parties). But I got tired of knowing I could never bond with anyone besides family friends music taste-wise when I was in high school, and so I started listening to secular music on my own time. And that's how I first found Ghost and Pals, a vocaloid artist and one of the first secular music folks I listened to as a kid (can you smell the religious trauma yet? Lol), and that's how I bonded with one of my best friends in early college (ironically, also my first time being publically queer). Now I listen to Kpop, anime songs, songs from warriors MAPs, songs from musicals (Hamilton and In the Heights <3), latin songs, metal songs, and even some secular songs young me would've been too scared to listen to.

And music has always been one of my biggest sources of stimming! I can't dance to save my life, but music will sure get me to flick my fingers and hit my fist against my shoulder furiously. Music was one of the first clues that I like stimming with vibration too (since I love laying against the car door and turning up the music loud enough to feel the world shake around me). And music was one of the first things that made me look into ADHD or autism (specifically, listening to Ghost and Pals songs for a month straight and getting my friend at early college [who also has ADHD] to start looking at me funny when I was discovered doing chores and listening to one of three songs for the fifth time). Music is so cool it'll get me to wax poetically. It was one of the things that kept me together during my roughest times and soothed me during my best. I listen to it while I write, while I cry, while I hang out with my friends and family and while I chill by myself. It's how I relax after a long day, and it's how I feel safe. I feel kinda emotional finally having music hit that spot in me without feeling like I need it to do stuff.

[seilon]

pro: ran into a coworker at a bar last night who I don’t really talk to usually (he works upstairs, I work downstairs) and we talked and im pretty sure we were highkey flirting and he bought me a drink and the bar merch shirt i was interested in and thanks to the power of alcohol i guess i asked for his number and he gladly gave it to me and. yeah

con: i have the second worst hangover i have ever had and have been fighting for my fucking life just to eat saltines

[blizzardfluffykpop]

You sent me an ask so I shall return the favor! What is the most recent Kpop group you’ve gotten into and how did you find out about them? I always love hearing fan “origin stories” lol

Thank you for returning the favor~ That would be The Boyz 🥰💖 I love hearing fan "origin stories" too hehe (This is gonna get long I love them sm)

Anyways I've known about them since debut? I loved Bloom Bloom Pow with my whole heart when it came out and tried to fall for them then- It didn't work. The next time was when The Stealer (TS) came out~ I had watched them perform for Road to Kingdom- because ptg was on the show too- But I really loved TS cb- sm so that I bought the album about 6 mos later with my favorite members as inclusions at the time (Eric, Kevin and Hyunjae). But nothing came about of it even after watching the weekly idol episodes... Then came Whisper era and I ended up biasing Changmin (Q) and loving that song but again nothing came out of it.

(A little backstory is that Changkyun (I.M) got me into Dominic Fike's music-) Thus, when tiktok showed me Juyeon, Changmin, and Sunwoo dancing to Babydoll earlier this year as a dance cover: I fell. And then I finally checked out Watch It~ But Hui had his solo and it distracted me completely from falling further. Then I had gotten sick and decided 'well, what if I watch their content?' And I did... I watched their hello82 interview and their reaction to fanart of them, and lastly their mafia dance. And I loved each sm that I decided to check out more.

It was the first time I had watched their content and wanted to see more. And now, I watch their content almost daily. It's kind of like they revived the joy of kpop for me? My (old) ult of ults has been on hiatus due to the military so it's been stagnant content lately for me. But then they came in like a breath of fresh air- and I simply can't get enough. This month will be 3 mos and I honestly hope I'll follow them for a long time. (I think they're my new ult of ults tbh)

And lastly now here I am as a Younghoon and Juyeon bias (with bias wrecker: Changmin... he's doing everything to be bias again). And with them having a comeback I loved with my whole heart this past month, I think it really solidified them with me. Honestly, I'm so happy with them.

[kindahoping4forever]

****Small spoilers for The 5SOS concert****

I just got back from my first ever 5SOS concert in Bristow!!!! (Other than when they opened for One Direction a few years ago) I decided to let myself be surprised from the setlist and I'm so glad I did and they played pizza after getting a chant from the audience. THIS WAS BEST NIGHT/CONCERT OF MY LIFE!!!!!

Your first time seeing them omg that's so exciting! It sounds like you had a wonderful night, I'm so happy for you! 💙

[confused-stars]

Heck yeah man. What is your current favorite song and why?

!!! it's been the Simplest Words by The Narcissist Cookbook for years now. and i don't see anything taking its spot any time soon tbh

the melody is kind of more pop-y than a lot of his other work so that makes it really easy to sing along to, and the lyrics are just so immensely relatable. anxiety haver core

my favorite part has got to be the outro though. it's sung by a bunch of fans recorded separately and then put together and i think a lot of fans have a soft spot for it in general. these are the lyrics:

This body is built on the ruins of all the people I have ever been Wise men build their houses on rocks While the rest of us settle for skeletons

the first line is something i'm planning to get tattooed when i finally get top surgery

[cheekblush]

not having any friends is truly heartbreaking

[every-eye-evermore]

oh god……………..

This song came on while I was writing and I fully had to stop what I was doing and stare into space

[seekingthestars]

happy wednesday, going bss is the best thing and also i've been so tired this week i don't wanna do anything also i have a ton of projects at work and i'm just sorta. existing. vaguely.

[myfriendtheghost]

I THINK MY FAVORITE BAND IS PLAYING AT THE RYMAN AGAIN AND I’M SO EXCITED I COULD CRY

[bybdolan]

also. while i am on a roll. i have been thinking a bit about Taylor's vocals (as one does) and one thing that keeps popping up in comment sections when people say "hm she isn't good live" is that fans defend her saying "oh she just gets shaky when she is nervous!" or "she is always rough when she hasn't performed in a while!" (and of course "this is not true"/"she is a songwriter that's her main thing!" etc). And it got me thinking about the very peculiar nature of the commodity of live shows because personally if I paid $500 for a ticket I would want and expect the singer to bring their absolute a game but on the other hand they also are a person with bad days/weak spots/etc. How much empathy should I, as a customer, then have?

[astrxealis]

being someone who started xiv w 5.3 (basically! though i caught up with everything with 5.5) man all the changed in xiv since then (like the earliest dungeons being changed, the ending of 2.0 with the fights being made to be better) kinda make me sad because i am a sentimental person but also it really has improved the game even if i do miss the past, however uh. worse it may have been! also because my friends who get into ffxiv will never be able to experience what i have and as time goes on that will continue to happen, and then new players as well... so yeah. feeling this way esp with regard to cape westwind the hardest fight in game T___T

[rustinged]

catching pokemon and refusing to change their nicknames cause I’ll never learn their name otherwise </3

[gonkaccino]

did some calculations and determined that, somehow, against all odds, the loneliest time is in fact my favorite thing carly has released. It’s incredible but it seems to have happened