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Beaten in Lips -Klaus M. x OC Fic

(Twilight Cross-Over)

Warning: SMUT!! Abuse (Physical, Mental, Emotional), Toxic Parents, Abusive Homelife, Whipping/Scars, Adoption, Oral (M and F receiving), Penetration, Mates, Biting, Mention of Drugs and Alcohol

Word Count: 11.7k

Summary: After Bella found out the Cullen's were vampires she freaked out and informed her best friend Y/n. She made fast friends with the Cullen's as did Bella, especially Jasper. What happens when she finds out she's not meant to be a Cullen...maybe not meant to be a Cold One at all?

"I still don't like the fact that you're leaving." Edward spoke and I rolled my eyes. "She could tell anyone Carlisle!"

"Y/n, are you planning on telling anyone our secret, effectively endangering our entire world and everyone in it that you love, such as Bella and Jasper?" Carlisle asked and I shook my head. "There you go Edward, she can go visit her cousin now." I knew about the Cullen's being vampires. Bella was my best friend and she came to me when she first found out and was pretty freaked, I became very close with Jasper soon after they found out I knew, he couldn't smell my blood fr some reason and we got along very well, talking about books and music, we told each other everything, and I do mean everything.

"Be safe Darlin', are you sure you don't want me to drive you to the airport?" I shook my head, seeing the taxi pull up outside.

"I'm fine Jazz, I'll call you when I land."

"You'll text when you're safely at the airport, and safely on the plane, and when you land and when you get to your cousins house, I want to know you're okay. Call if I need to come get you, I will if I have to, okay?" I nodded.

"Okay Jazz, I promise. Take care of him Alice, distract him so he doesn't notice when I don't call 20 times every day." I said hugging her and Jasper growled.

"You will call at least 10, tell me everything, wear your coat, and don't go outside after dark, um, what else is dangerous for humans? Oh, don't take drinks from people you don't know!" I waved as I walked out the door, not wanting to hear any more of his rules, though I doubt I could escape, he would just text them to me.

The plane ride was okay, I took a nap and texted everyone for a while before arriving at the airport only to be tackled by my cousin. "Elena!" I cheered upon seeing her, she hugged me tightly...almost too tightly but I let it go, getting hugged by Emmett everyday really desensitizes you to tight hugs.

"Y/n! I'm so glad you're here! We are going to have so much fun!" We went back to her car and she took me to the Grille before anything else, knowing I was starving. We spent the evening there, hanging out with her friends. I had missed Caroline and Bonnie but now I got to meet Damon and Stefan as well as Caroline's boyfriend Tyler.

"I have to go to the bathroom, I'll be right back." I walked to the bathroom and did my business before pulling out my phone and texting Jasper.

Kitten: Safe and sound. Elena took me to eat and I believe we're about to go home. I'll talk to you tomorrow.

Tiger: Text me when you get home first.

I sighed heavily before texting him again.

Kitten: Jazz, I know you're worried about me without being here to protect me but you need to calm down, I'm perfectly safe, this is a small town where nothing ever happens!

Tiger: That's what people say about Forks, and you know what lives here? US!

I couldn't help my giggle before texting him back.

Kitten: I promise there are no vampires here, I've been keeping an eye out for red or golden eyes, I'm perfectly safe. Relax.

Tiger: Fine, text me tomorrow, goodnight kitten.

Kitten: Goodnight Tiger!

We had gone to the carnival once and got our faces painted, he's called me Kitten ever since and I call him Tiger to annoy the fuck out of him. I walked back to my table before seeing a man taking up my seat. "What is it Elena, it smells divine, I just want to know." His accent made me weak at the knees and I almost didn't want to interrupt them because I wanted to hear it again.

"Y/n!" Caroline yelled and everyone including the new man turned to me, his jaw dropped and he looked about to faint, but what he said stunned me.

"Mate." I looked at him unsure for a moment before he collected himself. "Sorry, I should get back to my mate at the bar. Goodnight everyone." They all stared after him but I continued on, grabbing my wallet from the table as Elena stood, looking about to be sick.

"Elle, are you okay? Come on, you look sick, I'll drive." She nodded and I helped her to the car after saying goodbye to everyone but they all stared at me as if I was the second coming of Christ.

"You go on to bed, I'm going to make myself some tea and relax for a minute." Elena said and I nodded. It was strange being in this house without seeing Jeremy but I knew he was off at college, making a mental note to skype him to check in as my final "goodbye" before I'm turned.

"Are you sure? I can wait." She shook her head.

"Go, it's fine." I shrugged, grabbing my bag and went to get ready for bed.

I fell asleep okay but woke up feeling someone stroking my hair. I opened my eyes but there was no one. "Jasper?" I called before remembering where I was and sighing, knowing I was not getting back to sleep. I grabbed my phone and dialed a familiar number and he answered on the first ring.

"What's wrong? Are you hurt? It's 2 in the morning there, what happened?" He asked frantically and I chuckled.

"Calm down Jasper, I just woke up, it's weird not having my best friend here is all. You know I don't sleep well." He sighed, slightly relieved.

"Yeah, I know. I wish I could help Kitten." I groaned.

"Fuck you Tiger, stop calling me that! It makes me sound small and weak."

"Right, and you're so big and ferocious." He sniped sarcastically.

"Yes, as a matter a fact I am...am I disturbing you?" He chuckled and replied 'no'. "Good, I'm sure this is going to be a regular thing at night." It was then that I heard this noise, it sounded almost like purring and my entire body relaxed. "Jazz, I'm gonna go...I feel...really...mmm..." My head hit the pillow and was unconscious.

I woke up the next morning with a text from Jasper letting me know I completely passed out on him last night and I chuckled. I showered and did my morning routine before going downstairs and finding a note from Elena telling me that she went to the school to help set up for Prom under Caroline's regime. I rolled my eyes, her school started 3 weeks after ours and ended 3 weeks after so I knew I would have to share my cousin with the school but I was here for 2 weeks and there was only a week left of school so I was fine with it. I grabbed my wallet and phone before beginning my walk to the grille and ordering lunch since I woke up so late. "Are you eating alone?" That voice sent shivers down my spine and I turned to see a beautiful face.

"Yeah, Caroline had Prom committee and forced Elena along with Bonnie I'm guessing, it's in like 2 days so she's frantic. I'm just lucky she didn't pull me down with everyone else I suppose." I joked and gestured to the other side of the booth I was in. He sat down, holding his hand out to me which I gladly took.

"Klaus Mikaelson."

"Y/n Cullen." Carlisle changed my name when he adopted me from my parents, they never really cared much about me and didn't care if I 'moved out' a year early, at least that's what I told people.

"Nice to meet you, love. Can I buy you a drink?" I was stunned by this.

"Oh, I'm 18, I don't think they would serve me." He shook his head.

"Nonsense, they serve your cousin and her friends all the time. I'll be right back." He walked up to the bar and ordered the drinks before walking back. "See, no problem."

"Alright then, what am I drinking?"

"I got you a long island iced tea, your cousin and her friends love them." I nodded.

"So...it's none of my business but you and Caroline seemed to be close last night, are you guys...?" He shook his head, chuckling.

"I tried a few times to ask her on a date however she's with Tyler, she's a sweet girl but we will never be anything more than friends...if you can even call us that." I giggled, taking my drink from the bar tender when he brought them over.

"I was just curious. I thought she was with Tyler, but she also dated Matt, then Elena dated Stefan but then Damon, and now Stefan maybe, then Bonnie dated some dude named Luka then Jeremy and now Matt...I can't keep up..."

"Yes, it is hard to keep track in high school I suppose. However I wouldn't have bought you a drink if I was dating your cousins best friend." I looked up from my drink shocked.

"This is more than a friendly drink then?" He shrugged.

"If you want it to be, no pressure. You seem nice and I only know what your cousin has told me, but I'd like to get to know you. Maybe talk you into staying in Virginia instead of going back to Forks." I giggled again, not understanding why this man had such an effect on me.

"I suppose if someone catches my interest I could stay longer than 2 weeks, though they would have to be pretty interesting." He ordered another round of drinks and we spent the next hour getting to know each other. "You're a lot of fun to talk to Klaus, thanks for keeping me company."

"Of course love. I'm enjoying our talk too, would you like another?" I looked down at my empty glass and felt my head spinning slightly.

"Part of me wants to say yes because it's really good, but the rest is dizzily saying 'please no', I don't really drink and I've had 3 of these now. Maybe just water?" I laughed and he smiled as well. He ordered me a water when my phone suddenly began ringing. "That'll be Elena." I said, pulling it from my pocket to see something much worse. "Uh oh..."

"What?"

"It's Jasper."

"Your adopted brother?" I nodded and he looked confused. "Why 'uh oh'?"

"He told me not to take drinks from strangers, and I'm actually a little drunk right now...trust me he will notice. He'll get on the next flight and drag me home by my hair." I explained as the phone stopped ringing.

"He's that protective?" I nodded.

"Jasper and I are super close, closer than I am with any of my other adopted siblings. His girlfriend Alice is really great too, we go shopping together. Emmett and I play a lot of video games, Rose tolerates me and Edward despises me with a great passion. Don't ask why." I said, seeing him about to question it. "His girlfriend Bella is my best friend and I take up a lot of her time. He doesn't like her spending time with Jasper and I, says Jasper is dangerous and I'll be just like him or something like that." I shrugged.

"Is he?" He asked, quite seriously and I shook my head.

"Jasper...he's done some bad stuff, but he's different now, he wouldn't hurt anyone and Edward can't get over the things he did when he was alone and didn't know any better. Jazz is a really great guy, loves his girlfriend, got accepted to Princeton, and took care of me when I had no one, I hate Edward just as much as he hates me because he can bad mouth my best friend like that."

"You are really passionate about that." I nodded.

"I know everything that he's gone through and none of it was his fault, he chose to make his life better, no one forced him, and I think he deserves a chance." He nodded.

"I agree completely. Everyone screws up, that doesn't mean they're not a good person at heart." That I when my phone decided to ring again and I looked at the caller ID to see Emmett and smiled.

"Hey Em." I grinned, answering.

"Hello kitten, so you'll answer for Emmett but not me?" My head hit the table as I realized my mistake.

"You took Emmett's phone didn't you Jasper? I didn't want you to yell at me."

"If it's about how drunk you clearly are then you're right, I'm going to yell at you. Where did you get alcohol?"

"My new friend, he's super nice, he-"

"HE!? When did I say you could talk to someone of the male species?!" I groaned, knowing Klaus could hear all of this since Jazz was yelling.

"Keep this up and I'm going to call Alice. Or Esme!" I realized I had him.

"You're a bitch. Please just make sure you're safe? Don't trust a strange man to take you home?"

"He is not strange! Are you strange?" I asked Klaus who was trying to hold back his laughter.

"I don't think so, I try not to be. I would be glad to take you home however. You can stay on the line with your brother if you want so he knows you're safe." I nodded.

"See Jazz, I'll keep talking to you, I'm perfectly-woah!" I slurred as I stood and felt my head spin.

"I've got you, it's okay. Come on love." He helped me outside and into his car before I put the phone back to my ear hearing Jasper rant off all the things that could happen to me making me sigh. I hung up and quickly called Esme.

"Hello dear. Jasper is ranting, I don't think he's realized you hung up yet."

"Yes, well I'm safe so can you stay on the line with me? I don't fancy being shouted at." She chuckled and it sounded like bells.

"I'll stay with you, now you know I don't mind you drinking, you're 18, all teenagers do it but please do it somewhere that you don't have to leave and you're safe until you're sober again. It'll make your mother feel better." I thought for a moment as Klaus drive us down the street.

"Next time we drink, can we get drunk at your house so I don't have to leave right away?" He smiled at my loophole and nodded.

"Of course love."

"Put me on the phone with this boy."

"Oh mom, no! Please no, I just made a friend, don't ruin this!" Klaus snatched the phone from my hands and put it to his ear. "HEY!"

"Hello? Yes, I took the phone from her. I'm driving her home right now...yes she's safe...I won't let anything happen to her Mrs. Cullen…Klaus…Yes…I'm 26…No, she's just a sweet girl, Elena had prom committee so I sat with her while she ate lunch, I'm friends with some of Elena's friends, that's how we met. I will take care of her as long as you make sure her brother doesn't come and try to kill me." He joked and I heard Esme laugh. "Alright Mrs. Cullen, we're at Elena's now, here you are." I took the phone back and opened the door, falling onto my lawn.

"OW!"

"What happened?!" Jasper shouted from beside Esme.

"I fell out of the car."

"Taking care of you is going to be a full time job, isn't it love?" I nodded.

"Yep, I'm a danger magnet. I'm home mom, I'll call you tomorrow, or later tonight...that depends what time it is now." I giggled and she sighed.

"Sleep it off Y/n, please? Carlisle says sleep on your side with a bucket beside the bed." I nodded.

"I will make sure I do that. Thank you mommy." I hung up as Klaus helped me to the door and I opened it quickly. "Enter, ye who dare." I teased, nearly falling through the door as I did.

"Hold on love." He lifted me into his arms and I squealed as he walked up the stairs and into the room I pointed to. He removed my shoes and jacket, placing a trash bucket next to my bed. "I'll call and check on you later." He said putting his number in my phone and texting himself so he had mine. "Sleep." He kissed my cheek gently before leaving and I passed out before I could even say goodbye.

I woke up at my normal time of about 2 in the morning and sighed, dialing a familiar number. "How are you feeling kitten?"

I sighed. "Too tired to insult you back, I'm sorry about earlier Jazzy."

"It's okay kid, I need to let you have normal experiences, Alice and Esme put me in my place, I just love you, I don't want you hurt when I'm not there to help you."

"I get that, and it may seem stupid, but I trust Klaus, he's sweet and he took care of me. He wasn't trying to get me drunk, he didn't know I wasn't the average teenager around here that drinks at the grill daily like it's normal. We really got to know each other and I told him the truth about you guys adopting me." I usually just told people "I practically live there" as an exaggeration, but I told Klaus the truth...not the whole truth but it was more truth than I told most people.

"She told him about us!?" Edward growled from behind him and I flinched.

"Just that you're my family now, and you took me in when I needed you...oh and that Edward is an ass. Klaus want's to beat him up in my honor, isn't that so sweet?" Jasper had a good laugh at that and everyone else seemed to as well.

"I think we'll get along with this guy." Emmett shouted to me and I smiled.

"Just don't get too close, you know the consequences of that...I'm sorry but you aren't going to be able to talk to him after this trip...I think you know that..."

I sighed, tears coming to my eyes. "Yeah, I know...I just wish it was different..."

"Well It's Not!" Edward screamed and more tears came to my eyes.

"Don't listen to him, he's-"

"It's fine, I'll call you later. I'm going back to bed Jazz."

"Y/n-"

"Bye." I hung up and let the tears fall. I love my family, and I would never want to leave them but part of me wishes that Bella had never told me this stupid secret. How could someone I just met be this important to me already? I went back to bed still crying into my pillow and wishing I had never come to Mystic Falls at all.

I decided to make the best of the little time I had with Klaus and we spent the next week and a half together. We went to the mall, to the movies, for walks in the woods, and we spent quite a bit of time at his house, which was full of drunk honesty. In all this time I had barely called my family and though it bothered Jasper he knew I was trying to deal with never seeing the man I had so quickly fallen in love with again. I was currently snuggled into his side on his bed, watching a movie when the last thing I had ever expected happened, he leaned over and kissed me. I was stunned at first but moved to kiss back quickly, putting my arms around his neck and pulling him closer. "I'm so in love with you." He mumbled as he moved to my neck and I whimpered as he nibbled over my sweet spot.

"I love you too Klaus, so much." He laid me back on his bed and lifted my shirt off, kissing his way down my chest and over my bra, biting my nipple making me hiss in pleasure, never expecting that to be something that I would enjoy.

"Oh you like being bitten huh?" I moaned, nodding my head quickly, and yes I understood the irony. He pulled my bra off of me quickly and wrapped his lips around my nipple, working on the button on my pants, pulling them off before switching to give my other breast equal attention. I reached out, pulling his shirt over his head, seeing his chest for the first time and groaning.

"Jesus!" I trailed my hands up his chest before pushing against his shoulders, flipping us over and straddling him, kissing him again and nipping my way slowly down his torso. I pulled his jeans and boxers off all together and dropped them on the floor before continuing my decent, kissing his tip lightly before rubbing my tongue against his slit making his hips jump slightly.

"Fuck baby girl, wrap those pretty lips around me, please?" I did as he asked, wrapping my hand around what wouldn't fit in my mouth. His fingers wove their way into my hair and I relaxed my throat as he pushed me down onto him, forcing me to deep throat him. "Your mouth is fantastic love, fuck! I’ve been dreaming about that gorgeous mouth since I gave you that first drink. That tongue is everything I knew it would be Princess!" His moaning turned me on more than I wanted to admit and I put my hand into my underwear, rubbing my clit to stop the ache. "Oh baby, did I forget about you?" He pulled himself out of my mouth and practically tossed me onto my back, kissing me through my panties. "You're soaking wet love, so responsive, I love it." He eased my panties down before kissing my clit again, making me open my legs even more. He pushed 2 fingers into me as he continued sucking on my clit, letting me wrap my legs around his shoulders as he did so. "I'm in love with your pretty pussy baby, you're so tight. You're so ready for me aren't you?" I nodded. “So needy for me? You’ve been dreaming about me just as much as I have about you, haven’t you? My desperate little girl.”

"Yes, please? Please fuck me?" I pulled him up to me and kissed him hard, tasting myself on his lips before he lined himself up and thrust into me, stilling right away and giving me a moment to adjust.

"Relax love. Just relax." He kissed my neck before he started moving again and I gasped at the feeling. "Your pussy is so tight for me, I just barely fit inside you."

"Didn't know...it felt like this." I moaned as he thrust a little harder, pulling me up so he was sitting on his knees and grabbing my hips to bounce me up and down onto himself, shocking me a bit with how strong he was but I didn’t dwell on it for long. "If I did, I would have jumped you a long time ago." I teased and he chuckled kissing my breasts and feeling me get closer and closer to the edge as my pussy squeezed him.

"Are you going to cum for me baby?" I nodded, whimpering and holding his head to my chest. "Let me feel you cum all over my cock, cum for me love." I felt him bite my breast as he came and it pushed me over the edge making me hold him even tighter as I cried out embarrassingly loud.

"Fuck Klaus!" He pulled back, laying down and pulling my face right to his neck, snuggling me tightly.

“My perfect girl, that was everything I imagined and more. You’re all mine now my love and I’m never letting you go.” He held me to him tightly and let me fall asleep on his chest with my face in his neck where I kissed the little freckle there that I’m in love with before giving into my exhaustion not having realized how much sex actually wears you out.

I woke up the next morning still in his arms and pulled away carefully before looking for my clothes, prepared to go make him breakfast before I noticed myself in the mirror. I have a bite mark in my left breast, covered in dried blood. I was horrified, not that he had bitten me but that it seemed like his teeth had punctured my skin like James' had Bella's wrist...it looked like a vampire bite, and yet I wasn't changing or in pain. No human could have done this and I felt fear running through me immediately, pulling on my clothes and finding my torn shirt. I grabbed Klaus' and pulled it on, grabbing my phone and wallet. I had noticed strange things about him of course, he moved strangely fast and was weirdly strong, but I had seen Elena and Damon do the same things so I brushed it off...maybe I shouldn't have. I'm sure if I had calmed down and thought about things I might have just waited for Klaus to wake and asked him questions but I was in panic mode, meaning my thought process was more frayed than usual. I called a cab and went straight to the airport, not wanting to risk seeing my vampire cousin, needing to get home to where I was protected. I bought a ticket to Seattle and boarded the plane quickly, making it home hours later and getting a cab to Forks. My family was waiting outside as the cab pulled up and they were very confused as I handed the guy cash and walked up the steps, hugging Jasper, letting my tears fall. Alice rubbed my back gently as Jazz lifted me up and carried me inside, up to my room and laid in bed with me, letting me cry it all out. It had to be at least a half hour I spent sobbing before I finally started breathing normally again, I had long since finished thanking god that Alice loved me and didn't mind Jasper laying with me like this when I'm upset, even if they weren't mates. "I'm sorry I ruined your shirt." I whispered and he snorted.

"It's fine, will you tell me what happened now?" I shook my head. "Y/n, did he hurt you? I'll kill him you know."

"I don't think you can Jasper...he's...different...I didn't start noticing things until after we had sex but he's weirdly strong and fast, his eyes change color and he...he..."

"He what?" Jasper asked, suddenly very serious, I could see the Major fighting to come out. I pulled Klaus' shirt off of me, not caring that I was only wearing a bra and showed him the mark that I had cleaned off in the airplane bathroom. "Come here." He lifted me up, carrying me down the stairs quickly.

"Why is she half naked?" Edward asked, not really caring as he read his book.

"Carlisle, she was bitten by a traditional." Everyone gasped except Bella and I, not having a clue what they were talking about.

"What?!" He ran over as Jasper turned me around and Carlisle inspected the bite mark. "Jesus Christ. It's a mating mark, he didn't bite you to feed from you which should make you feel better...or worse..."

"Slightly both...now I understand why his first word when he saw me was 'mate'."

"That didn't tip you off after living with 2 mated couples?" Emmett asked and I glared.

"He covered it up quickly okay? I wasn't looking for signs of vampirism since he didn't have red eyes!"

"No, traditionals keep their eye color unless they're feeding, then they turn black, they get veins under their eyes and fangs." I shook my head.

"His eyes were yellow, not black Carlisle. They flashed yellow whenever he got mad, but he covered it up quickly, I ignored it cause I thought it was cute." He looked at me strangely.

"That is odd. I've never heard of a traditional with yellow eyes. Maybe he feeds off of animals too?"

"I don't think so...that doesn't explain the blood bags in his fridge." They all looked at me as if I had lost my mind. "I ignored the obvious! I get it! I'm sorry that I wanted my boyfriend to be normal! I thought maybe his brother was a vampire and he wasn't, wishful thinking, they're all vampires! Elijah, Klaus, Kol and Bekah!" Carlisle's eyes snapped to me suddenly and he looked like he was going to have a stroke. "Carlisle?"

"Klaus...Klaus Mikaelson?" I nodded. "Niklaus Mikaelson is your mate? Oh good lord."

"What's wrong dear?" Esme asked, quite worried.

"The Mikaelson's are the original vampires, the ones that started the traditional race, strongest beings in the world."

"Well, something good did come out of the human after all, she's gained us a powerful ally against the Volturi, now Bella doesn't need to change!" He cheered, making Bella glare.

"No, you don't understand. Traditionals, the Mikaelson's especially, hate cold ones." Everyone looked at him, suddenly afraid.

"Let's get rid of her then!" Edward glared, holding Bella tightly. I was beginning to believe he is bipolar with that complete 180 he just did.

"NO! Stop suggesting things like that!" Jasper snarled at him.

"Yeah, Mikaelson's or not, she's our sister now Edward." Emmett defended me and Alice stood by my side, wrapping her arms around me, ready to pull me from the room if need be.

"They hate cold ones! He's going to come for her and we all know Jasper isn't going to give her up! I will not die for her!" Edward shouted and before I knew it Jasper was on him. He was ready to pull Edward's head off when Emmett jumped in, dragging them outside and into the front yard to save Esme's house. We all followed them out, standing in the driveway and watching this unfold until a tree was uprooted and thrown at us, knocking the humans to the ground.

"Thank god it was a small tree." Bella groaned as Emmett tossed it away before running back to the fight, Rose and Alice now trying to stop the fighting, getting tossed around as well. Carlisle and Esme lifted Bella and I up, holding us and avoiding the practically flying vampires as they got tossed around. All 5 children kept going at it as a car pulled up the driveway and 4 familiar people stepped out. All of them stepped around the fight and walked over to us, Klaus growling, making Carlisle release me as I continued picking twigs from my hair.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but that was no reason to run like that love, I was planning to tell you the truth this morning." He told me as he began helping me with my hair.

"Jasper protects me...I got scared and I knew I was safe with him...I'm sorry." He nodded, looking at the fight that was somehow still going on. Kol was cradling Bella into his arms and whispering to her, she looked shocked and like she was about to be sick.

"Kol found his mate." Klaus chuckled and I looked at him stunned. "So did Rebekah and Elijah, maybe you running was a good thing, eh love?" I nodded, seeing Rebekah keeping an eye on Jasper along with Elijah looking at Alice and I grinned, happy that I didn't have to lose my brother and sister. "No love." Klaus said when I tried to pull away and I sighed.

"Just wait a minute." I stepped closer to the fight and screamed, trying to sound scared. "JASPER!" His head popped up like a meerkat and he shoved Emmett into Edward, quickly sweeping me into his arms and snarling at everyone. "Alright Jazz, I just did that to stop the fighting, you were the one they were all trying to stop you idiot."

"He suggested killing you kitten, what was I supposed to do?" He growled and I 'grr'ed back at him, making him let me go before forcing his head up to look at Rebekah. His eyes went wide and turned black before lifting me and placing me into Klaus' arms. "Don't let Edward near her." Klaus nodded, looking unsure about him before he sped over to Rebekah and held her tightly, smiling when he saw Alice and Elijah already holding each other. I looked away, not wanting to interrupt their private moments as I looked to Klaus.

"So, vampire and werewolf, that's pretty cool. Is that why your eyes turn yellow?" He looked at me shocked. "Yeah, I ignored all the odd things, praying your brother was a vampire and it would explain the blood bags in your fridge, but I'll get used to it. I got used to cold ones and shifters, I can get used to traditionals and werewolves."

He smiled, and god did I love that smile, it lit up his whole face. "Yes, I am both, I will explain later. For now I need to figure out why one of these two gentleman wants to kill you." He was staring at Emmett and Edward but Emmett quickly removed himself from the situation and went to Rose who was standing beside Jasper and Rebekah. "You threatened my mate? I don't take kindly to threats child, not against me or my family, but you're making threats against my very human mate...that is just unacceptable."

"Carlisle said you hated cold ones, I didn't want you coming here and hurting my family." He tried to explain but I wasn't letting him get away with that.

"No, you got pissed because for a split second you thought I would be useful to you. He thought he could get you to go against the Volturi for him when he found out how powerful you are, he wants Bella to stay human. I was a stupid human that you couldn't care less about until you thought you could use me to get your way! Don't lie!" I could see how angry Klaus was but honestly I didn't care, I would love to see him tear Edward apart.

"Niklaus, don't." Kol said, placing a hand on his shoulder when Klaus put me down and went for him.

"Are you going to tell me we should give these people a chance?" He growled, his eyes bleeding to yellow and his teeth sharpening.

"Yes, most of them, however this boy is mine. He's been stringing Bella along, claiming her as his mate." Klaus looked at him shocked but stood down, allowing his brother to tear Edward apart, and he did quite happily.

"Please? Please, just give us his body, we'll take him from here, you'll never see him again...please?" Kol wasn't about to stop as Klaus pulled a lighter from his pocket. I looked into Carlisle's eyes and looked at Bella who was clearly thinking the same thing, jumping into action with me. I moved at the last possible second, as Kol lit the flame and tossed it. I caught it and tossed it away quickly as pain shot through my hand and Bella grabbed ahold of Kol before he could try again.

"Jesus love, what the hell?" Klaus held my burned hand in his, not understanding in the least why I would do that.

"He made my life miserable, I hated him, he lied to my friend and his entire family and I want him dead more than anything..."

"Okay, then let me-"

"But we won't do that to Carlisle and Esme. They've given us so much, we owe them a hell of a lot, the least we can do is make sure our mates don't kill their son." Bella explained, holding onto Kol tightly and looking at him as if pleading.

"Please Nik? If he ever comes near us again he's all yours, just let him go for now?" He sighed, looking to Kol who was clearly pissed but nodded.

"Thank you...thank you girls!" Esme cried, hugging us to her tightly.

"This is a onetime thing, I'm not going to stop Nik from killing people, I can already tell my life is going to be full of people trying to get me to make him show them mercy, you're a murderous psychopath aren't you?" He looked sheepish but nodded none the less. "I love everything about you Nik, you know that. I won't do this again, if he tries to hurt me or Bella once more, he is done." I told the Cullen's and they nodded.

"Of course, I'm sure once we talk to him we can change his mind, we would never want you girls hurt." Carlisle spoke.

"We should go." Elijah spoke to his siblings who all nodded.

"He's right, we have a hotel to check into." Rebekah told them as Klaus tossed her the keys.

"We'll call you tomorrow Carlisle." Alice promised as she ran inside before coming back 10 seconds later with bags for all 4 of us, jumping into the front of the car on Elijah's lap.

"I guess I'm driving? How are we doing this?" Nik smirked, lifting me and darting to the back of the escalade, laying down the third row of seats and physically tossing me in, laying himself on top of me. Kol sat with Bella pressed against his side while Jasper was on her other in the second row, Rebekah starting the car as Nik leaned down, kissing the side of my neck, loving the fact that I was already wearing no shirt as he kissed his way down to my mark, licking over it.

"How is it that he's already feeling her up?" Kol asked, gesturing to us.

"Hey! I've put the work in! I've been wooing her for 2 weeks, that's longer than I've ever pursued anyone in my 1000 years of life, leave us be and take Bella to dinner!" Nik hissed and I looked at him shocked.

"2 weeks is the longest you've waited for sex?" He nodded, not ashamed at all.

"I never cared about those women, they were never meant to last, I would wait 10 years for you if that's what you needed." I smiled, seeing the honesty in his eyes, he definitely wouldn't be happy about it but he would wait.

"Good thing you don't have to do that." I grinned, pulling him down to kiss me. He was laying on his side blocking everyone from seeing me as his hand found its way into my pants. I gasped as his finger grazed my clit and he kissed me deeply to swallow anymore noises.

"Niklaus, I don't know what you're doing but it needs to stop!" Rebekah hissed.

"Yeah Y/n, I love you, but you're my sister and I don't want to hear about what you do, let alone see it." Jasper growled.

"I don't know what you're talking about sister, I'm kissing my mate, that is all, we are still fully clothed, besides her lack of shirt of course." Nik sunk 2 fingers into me as he said that and my mouth fell open, no noise coming out as he smirked down at me, happy to see my expression.

My hand found the back of his head, holding his hair in a tight grip as he pulled my bra down with his teeth, sucking one of my nipples into his mouth. I had to bite my hand to keep his siblings from knowing of our actions. I found it a major turn on that all one of them had to do was turn around and we would be caught, it was just making it all the more exciting to me. Nik's thumb grazed over my clit and I could tell I was drawing blood as I continued biting my hand and he switched nipples. He looked up at me a moment later as I began squeezing around his fingers, he somehow looked smug with his lips around my tit. He pumped a little faster and pressed his thumb against my clit harder, shoving me closer and closer to the edge.

"We're here! I found it!" Bekah yelled just as Nik grazed his teeth down, tossing me over the edge and kissing me again, pulling his hand away and swallowing my scream as Bekah parked the car. Jasper opened the back of the car so we could get out and Nik practically had to hold me up as my legs gave out from under me.

"That good?" He whispered and I made a noise of contentment against his chest. "I brought your things from Elena's so you have something to wear, plus what Alice packed."

"Thanks Nik, you're so sweet. Are you always going to be this sweet or is this just for the dating phase of our relationship?" He laughed as he pulled his bag down as well.

"You are the only one who will see this side of me, who I was when I was human, I was a very nice, fairly shy person, I thought that part of me died a long time ago, but you brought me back. Besides that I think we’re a little beyond dating, baby."

I blushed as he walked us into the hotel, all his siblings quickly renting a room for the night, Jasper of course paying for his and Rebekah's like a gentleman. Nik looked ready to say something as they walked away hand in hand but I held tight to him. "Don't, Rebekah is a grown women, and Jasper is the kindest man I have ever met. He has a rough background but he is a complete gentleman and will treat her with the utmost respect. Give him a chance." Nik looked down at me for a moment before going to the desk to get us a room. I locked eyes with Rebekah as she got into the elevator and mouthed 'thank you' at me. "Some part of me likes the fact that you're only like this with me. It's selfish but I can't find it in myself to care." He smirked, pulling me to his side tightly in the elevator moments later.

"You are my mate, you will always be most important." My eyes widened as I looked at the numbers on the screen, seeing we were now up to the 20th floor.

"Jesus, how high is our room?" I looked at him and he smirked but tried to hide it. We stopped at a floor only 3 away from the top, making me sigh in relief that he didn't get us the penthouse suite however the floor was marked 'H' and I was confused. As we walked off I noticed there was only one door in the hallway and one at the end. We walked all the way to the one at the end and I thought I would faint when I saw the label. 'Honeymoon Suite'. "NIK!" He shushed me quickly, opening the door and ushering me in. "We are not married."

"Of course not, but this room is open until next week and we're only staying a night or 2, I told you that you will want for nothing in life, I'm going to give you everything, and that includes fancy hotel rooms." The entire room was a soft blue color, the giant bed was bigger than a normal king size and was calling to me, I could practically hear it, but when I stepped further in I honestly thought I would have a stroke. There, on the far side of the wall, was a giant hot tub.

"I was going to say we should go out for dinner with your family, but let's not do that-" I spoke dropping my bag and stumbling into the room. "-let's stay right here-" I slid my shoes off, kicking them away. "-spend the entire night together-" I unbuttoned my pants, ready to continue before feeling Nik's arms around me, halting my motions. "No, I wanna get in, I want it." I whined and he laughed at my childishness.

"We will love, however it's late and you need to eat. Look at the room service menu first." I glanced at it as he went into the bathroom, quickly writing down what I wanted on a pad of paper and turning on the jets, pouring lavender oil in and stripping.

"I wrote down my order." I smiled, pointing at the table when he came out and saw me in the hot tub.

"You act like you've never been in a hot tub before." He laughed, going to the phone and dialing it before pausing when he saw my face. "You haven't?" I shook my head, relaxing as he ordered the food quickly and came to sit by my side. "You never told me much about your life before the Cullen's." I shrugged, not really wanting to talk about it. "Please tell me? I want to know everything about you love."

I sighed, sinking deeper into the warm water, knowing eventually I would need to tell this man the truth, no matter how ugly it is. "My parents were assholes, I was an only child and the only reason they got married was because my mom got pregnant with me in high school. They resented me for taking their lives away, mom never went to college, worked shitty jobs and my dad went to school for god knows what, dropped out 2 years in and spent the rest of his life drunk. I still don't know how they paid rent, I can't count how many times our water or electricity got shut off, barely ever had money for food but they had enough money to drink. I got a job when I was 14 and kept it to myself, finally had enough money to feed myself a little, do my laundry more than once a month. I never really had any friends until Bella moved to town, she sat with me to avoid the popular bitches that wanted to get to know her, soon after she got obsessed with Edward Cullen and figured out they were vampires, she came and told me right away and she started hanging out with them, dragging me to sit at lunch with them more often than not. Jasper took a liking to me right away, he couldn't smell my blood and I suppose it relaxed him, Bella ended up staying over one day when I was there and Jasper took me home, I couldn't get him to just leave me up the street like Bella did, I suppose because he felt my nerves. He was horrified when he saw my shitty house, it was a crap place on the edge of town, lawn was covered in empty beer bottles and shit, my dad was passed out on the porch, I thought he was going to have a stroke. I guess he came back later that night to check on me and heard my dad screaming, I don't remember much, my dad was standing over me kicking my ribs in, and then he was across the room. Jasper took me and never looked back. Carlisle got my parents to sign adoption papers and picked up everything I needed and I haven't seen them since." I gave that whole speech while staring up at the ceiling, not wanting to see Nik's face when I told him everything.

"You will never have to live like that again love, you will be spoiled and pampered every day of your life, do you understand me? Anything you want, you ask and it will be yours." I giggled at the conviction in his voice, he was completely serious.

"Nik, I don't need a lot in life, a place to sleep, food and clean clothes, it's all I need besides you."

"Those are basic necessities of life, no one should be deprived of them, especially a child, I'm so sorry you went through that." I shrugged. "Don't shrug it off, it's a big deal, you spent your life hungry and abused, don't pretend it doesn't matter." I leaned over the edge of the tub and kissed him, shutting him up finally as there was a knock on the door. He jumped up and took the cart of food from the man before I hopped out, drying off and hopping into the bed seeing my mates stunned face as I sat naked on the bed waiting for him. "Jesus love, you're trying to kill me."

"You can't eat with me naked?" He smirked and I knew it was a dangerous look on him.

Somehow I ended up with my tray of food beside my head, laying on the bed with my mate inspecting every inch of my body and kissing it. "God you're so beautiful." I finished my French fries and knew there was physically no way I could cut my steak in this position.

"If you want me to stay here then you're cutting my steak for me."

"That's fine, I don't trust you with a steak knife anyway." I snorted at that as he sat up and did what I asked of him, feeding me himself.

"Nik, I can do that part, I-"

"Nope, I want you to stay in this position and relax."

"This is ridiculous." I laughed, continuing to eat what he gave me until I was finished and we spent the rest of the night in the hot tub. I never once in my life thought I would have sex in a hot tub but I can cross it off my bucket list.

"Nik, we need to get ready." I groaned as he held me tightly in the bed. Everyone had agreed to go to lunch together at 12 and that was 2 hours from now.

"We have plenty of time, you need to relax." I sighed and he kissed my head, jumping up and walking towards the hot tub, looking at the oils that were there.

"What are you doing?" I mumbled into my pillow but he still understood somehow.

"These aren't just for the tub, they can be used for many things." My eyes went wide as I took in what he had just said and he laughed when he understood where my mind had gone. "Jesus Rebel, no! You would need much more preparation than oil for that."

"I'm so glad you've thought that out so well." He came back over and grabbed my ankles, pulling me down the bed so I was flat on it and he poured some oil onto my back, straddling my waist and beginning to rub it into my skin, making me moan. He worked out all the knots in my muscles and I was practically jelly when he got to the bottom of my back. "Your hands are magic. I don't want you to stop." He chuckled, leaning down and kissing my shoulder.

"Who said I was stopping." He moved down so he was straddling my legs as he began massaging my butt.

"Is this weird...this feels weird?" By the time he was finished he had massaged all the way down both of my legs and insisted upon my chest, though I believe that was just for his benefit, before dressing me and pulling me down to the elevator, and to the restaurant.

"Why do you smell like lavender?" Jasper questioned as I sat down next to him.

"My new shampoo?" I lied.

"No...it's stronger than that...and it's all over you..." At this point Alice took a sniff of me and so did Bella.

"I don't have vampire senses but I can smell that, what is it?" Nik looked like he was going to explode from holding his laughter in too long.

"Nik rubbed me down with lavender oil from the hot tub." I stated and it whipped the smirk off his face when everyone turned to look at him.

"You rubbed my sister down?" Jasper snarled and Nik had the decency to look afraid.

"You already knew we had sex-"

"Yes, sex, it's a onetime thing, not rubbing someone down, inspecting every inch of their body." He turned to me and I shook my head, seeing him sigh and turn back to Rebekah as she ordered her food.

Nik looked at me curiously. "What was that?"

"What?"

"That, with you and Jasper." I shrugged and knew immediately he wasn't going to let it go. We all ate comfortably, getting to know each other a little more before deciding to stay in the hotel for a while to show them all around.

"Tell me." And I sighed.

"Nik, let it go."

"Not until you tell me." We were walking around Port Angeles together and I found a cute little book store.

"Look, let's go to the bookstore!" I walked in and got him involved in all the books, knowing we would be here for quite a while now.

I had worked very hard the entire time we had been together to cover up the scars all over my stomach. I had Alice help me find the right kind of makeup that I needed. It's water proof and it covers the scars perfectly, I just reapply it every morning and wash it off with rubbing alcohol. I figured if I could wait until I was turned he would never see them, but he wants to know and understand everything I went through so badly, I would feel bad for lying to him. While he was distracted I went to the car and got a few packets of alcohol wipes that I use, taking it to the bathroom and rubbing the makeup off.

"Hey, did you find something you like?" I asked him.

"Yeah, a few things. I've never actually been to Port Angeles before, but I really like it." I nodded, knowing I would regret this later.

"Give me the keys. I'm going to take you somewhere." He was confused by that, he knows I don't like driving, but he gave them to me anyway and I began our journey back to Forks.

"Are you showing me your old school or something? I'm confused. I've already seen your house." I turned to my old street right at the edge of town.

"No you haven't..." I mumbled and he looked at me confused for a moment, before realizing what I was doing.

"Love, no. I just wanted you to tell me the truth, I didn't want to take you back to a place you hate so much. You don't have to do this."

"Yes I do. There it is." I pointed to the house out of the passenger side window. It was old and rundown. The paint was chipping off, the roof was falling apart, the screen door was hanging on by one hinge and the yard was covered in beer bottles, jack bottles and trash.

"That...doesn't look like it's fit for human life..." I snorted, knowing that was damn true. I parked the car across the street and got out. "What are you doing?"

"Showing you, my dad's truck isn't here and there's no light's on in the living room, which means mom is gone. Come on." I opened the door, which was never locked, no one in town was stupid enough to just walk into our house.

"What is that smell?"

"Good question. In all the years I lived here, I never did figure that out. I remember this." I picked up the bat that dad always left by the front door. "Dad hit me in the head with it the first time I was out late with the Cullen's." I took his finger and brought it to the back of my head letting him feel the dent.

"Jesus Christ. Rebel, you-"

"Never thought I would see you again." There was a giant rat sitting on the kitchen table. "Ever seen Cheaper by the dozen 2?" He shook his head, in awe of how big the rat was. "There was a rat in that movie called The Chizler, that's what I've called him since I was 5...he just won't die."

"Do you want me to kill it?"

"Nahh, if my dad came home and he was dead he would know someone was in here. Come on." I led him to the stairs and turned to him. "Step where I step." He looked startled by that but nodded. I remembered the old ways to step up our stairs without falling through like a combination. "This was my room." I opened the door and it was just as I left it. There was a dirty mattress on the floor with a pillow case on it stuffed with newspaper that you could see falling out of it. The wall paper was ripped all over, there was old school work and water bottles on the floor, but it was about as clean as it could have been. The closet door was held on by god knows what, full of moth eaten clothes. He looked around for a moment before turning back and grabbing my arm.

"Let's go, I'm getting you out of here."

"Wait, you haven't seen what I came to show you yet. He always left it in here somewhere, made me get it at night...mom never let him use it on her, so it must be here, where would...ah ha! Here it is." I held up a whip with a metal handle and leather strips, tiny metal tips on the end of each one. The look on his face when I held it out to him broke my heart, he looked like he was ready to fall to his knees and bawl his eyes out, he looked crushed. "Alice found me some great makeup...you can't even tell I wear it, completely water proof, rubbing alcohol gets it off." I lifted the front of my shirt and allowed him to see the scars upon my stomach, an area my father picked because it was the easiest for a person to hide. He fell to his knees in front of me and touched them lightly as if he was going to hurt me otherwise. "I was going to keep them covered until I was turned but...you wanted to know what Jasper was talking about. He knows better than anyone about being ashamed of your scars...he wanted to make sure you didn't say anything about it if I had shown you." He kissed my stomach a bunch of times, wrapping his arms around my waist and hugging me with his face against my belly.

"Thank you for trusting me love...I'm so sorry you had to go through that." He stood, hugging me to his chest. "Let's get out of here. You never have to see this house again." I nodded, following him before ducking into my parents' room and running to open my mom's top drawer. "What are you doing?"

"Ruining my mom's month." I chuckled, grabbing her pill bottles, dumping them all out on the bed and taking the bottle of brandy by dad's side of the bed, dumping it over top of them and ruining them all. "We can go now. Step where I step." I walked down the stairs and out the front door with him quickly.

"Never again love, I promise." He said as I turned to look back at it. Apparently I looked a moment too long because we missed the truck pull into the short driveway.

"Look who came back." That voice sent chills up my spine as I turned my head and looked at my father. He was a beaten down looking man, long beard and hair, my mom however would have been fairly pretty, if she hadn't done drugs, she looked like she had been on meth for her entire life. "Thought you had moved into that rich doctor's house to be their little whore." I jumped as he shouted at me and Nik's arms went around me immediately.

"Glad you finally came for a visit sweetie. Brought someone with you too, how did this happen?" I grabbed onto his hand and pulled him towards the car.

"Come back here whore!" To my horrible displeasure I stopped, having a near chemical need to obey that voice, knowing how bad it gets when I don't, but Nik held me firmly, pulling me along and I didn't fight him. "The Cullen's stole the bitch once, who are you to do it again?" He growled and this time Nik stopped, turning to look at my father.

"I'm her boyfriend...in fact...this isn't the most romantic setting, but I've been wanting to do this for a while." He turned to me and pulled out a velvet box, getting onto one knee. "I love you, more than I've ever loved anyone in my life, I know we haven't been together long but I know you're it for me. I will love you and cherish you every day of your life. You've seen that I can take care of you, I will gladly give you everything you've ever wanted, now will you make my wish come true and allow me to call you my wife?" I was stunned, I couldn't find my voice for a few seconds, this being the least likely way I ever thought I would get proposed to.

"Yes. I love you Nik, so much!" I felt tears in my eyes and for once on this property, it wasn't out of pain and fear. He slid the ring on my finger and held me to his chest tightly, looking back at my father.

"I'm her soon to be husband, and I can promise you that after this day, you will never see your daughter again. You tortured her all her life and now, I'm going to treat her like the princess she deserves to be treated as. You have one last chance to say goodbye." My father's face was growing red and I thought he was going to explode at this rate. "Get into the car love." He instructed, taking the keys back, waiting until I did, just in case my father tried anything, though my mother stopped me.

"Sweetie, what do you think you're doing? First you run off and join the most perfect family that ever lived and now you're running off with Mr. Richy Rich over here, and leaving us with nothing?" I chuckled slightly, before getting back out.

"You're right mom, I actually do have something for you." She smirked and I walked over, Nik right behind me as I pulled out a 10 dollar bill from my wallet. "This is for the 10 bucks I stole from you when I was 15 so I could go to the movies with Bella and Jasper. You didn't have cigarettes for 3 days so...I'm sorry." I said as sincerely as possible, running back to the car as she looked ready to kill me and Nik hit the gas, laughing his ass off.

"Did you really steal 10 dollars from her?" I nodded.

"Yeah. Edward and Bella were going to the movies and Jasper invited me to go with them, and obviously it wasn't a date so I didn't want him to have to pay for me. It was the first time I had ever been to the movies."

"What did you see?"

"Pirates of the Caribbean 4. It was good, I love Johnny Depp." He laughed out loud with me as we were about to turn back out of Forks. "Wait...I have a ring on my finger..."

"Yes...we got engaged. It comes with a ring love."

"We need to go to the Cullen's. You can stay between Edward and I but I have to show Esme, please?" He sighed, but relented, driving us back there. When we got up the driveway they were all waiting on the porch, obviously not knowing we were coming.

"Y/n? Is everything okay?" Carlisle worried and I nodded.

"Yeah, I wanted Klaus to see where I lived before I moved in with you." They all looked shocked, knowing I had sworn never to go back there, I had never told anyone but Jasper the whole truth about that place.

"You must be something special." Esme spoke to Klaus as she walked down the steps and he looked at her curiously. "She's never told anyone but Jasper the truth about that house." She pulled me into her arms and I truly loved her mom hugs.

"I wanted you to be the first to know...you're the closest thing to a real mom I've ever had." She smiled at me happily, knowing it was true and that I thought of her as my real mom. I held out my hand and she gasped, looking back between us and pulling Klaus into the hug as well, nearly crushing us both.

"AHH!" Rose screamed from where she stood on the porch beside Emmett, whooshing down here to hug me followed by Emmett and Carlisle. Edward wisely stayed on the porch offering a quiet 'congratulations'.

"I'm glad you've found your forever darling. I always knew you would, I just thought I would end up having to turn him." Carlisle teased before shaking Klaus' hand. "Thank you for taking care of her. I may not know everything but I know enough, and I know she needed you in her life." Klaus nodded.

"Thank you. I'll bring her to visit whenever she wants so keep her updated when you move." I gave Esme and Rose my new phone number, Emmett and Carlisle being able to get it from them before getting back into the car.

"Now we just have to tell Alice and your sister...Lord help us all when I tell Alice. She's going to want to plan everything." He was laughing at me like I was going to suffer through that alone. "You will be helping."

"No. No, no, see that's where you're wrong. I will be paying for every little thing my Princess wants on her big day. You will plan, with whoever you want, and I will give you...this." He handed me something from his jacket pocket and I took it curiously until I saw it was a black credit card with my name on it.

"You're insane. I can't take this! I-"

"-Am going to be my wife, what's mine is yours."

"But I can't say the same thing to you, I don't have anything."

"You are enough, money doesn't mean anything to me, it's just something that piles up after so many years, it only really matters when you don't have any. I promised you the day of your dreams when I proposed to you, it's a requirement of marriage. All you need to do for me is tell me what kind of suit you want me in and what day to show up." He teased, taking my hand in his and driving us back towards the hotel. "Elijah texted me. They're in the restaurant waiting on us for dinner." I nodded as we pulled in and walked towards the table where our family was at.

"There you two are. Where have you been?" Bella scolded teasingly.

"Y/n was showing me her old home." Not a second later the water that Jasper had been fake drinking was all over the seat next to him, that thankfully had no one in it.

"You what? Why?" He questioned, knowing how hard it was for me just because he had seen it accidentally.

"What's the big deal?" Kol wondered, He, Elijah and Rebekah knowing nothing about my life before the Cullen's at all.

"Nothing, it's...um..." Jasper couldn't seem to think of a lie, not wanting to lie to his mate anyway.

"My father was an abusive drunk, my mom was a drug addict, my house was falling apart, it was a mess inside, I barely had food in the house, the electricity and water got shut off every other month and my pillow at night was stuffed with newspaper. Is that it?" I asked Nik who's jaw was hanging open. "I feel like I have to tell the truth someday and I feel a lot better about how I left this time as opposed to last time."

Jasper looked proud of me and I felt Nik snake his arm around my waist, kissing my head. "You never told me that, I knew he was mean to you but I never would have brought you home every night if you had told me." Bella said and I smiled.

"It's okay Bells-"

"No, it's not. I let you go back to that." Kol wrapped his arm around her and I made her look at me.

"If you had done something then, my life wouldn't have turned out like it did now, you wouldn't know Kol, you'd still be getting married to Edward, I would have been put into the system. Maybe, Maybe aunt Carols and I would have still met Nik but I doubt it. Everything worked out." I comforted her, placing my hand on hers before Alice gasped.

"Is that an engagement ring?!" Everyone looked at my hand and I looked at Nik

"I'm telling you, she spots these things a mile away. You can help, HELP me plan, it's still my wedding, you have your own to dream about someday, and god save Elijah when that day comes." Rebekah looked at me but didn't seem to know how to say it. "You can help too Bekah." She grinned, squealing before getting up to hug her brother, sitting back down. The girls all spoke about it for the rest of dinner while the guys congratulated and prayed for Klaus.

"Come on love. Let's go to bed." I grabbed my bag when we got back to the room, going to take a quick shower before getting out, dressing and applying the makeup to my stomach and going back to bed. Nik pulled me to him, kissing along my neck and I almost regretted putting on clothes as they were just going to come off. As he kissed down my neck and sighed as he pulled my shirt off to find I had reapplied the makeup. "Love...why did you put it back on? Come here." He lifted me up and taking me to the bathroom where he cleaned off all of the make up. "I love you, no scars are going to change that, do you understand?" He growled and I nodded quickly.

"Thank you Nik. I love you too. Always."

"And forever." He finished, sounding cheesy.

"You're a goof!" I laughed and he smirked.

"But I'm your goof-". He held up my hand with the ring on it to show me. "-until death do us part."

The Part 2 of this Fic will be a DDLG chapter

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INTRODUCTION

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Age/Birthday: 34. August 28, 1988

Zodiac: Virgo

Gender/Pronouns: Cis-male. He/him

Birthplace: Providence Peak, Colorado

Profession: Currently unemployed/indisputable screw up

Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual

Relationship Status: Single

Religion: somewhat practicing Islam

Faceclaim: Serkay Tütüncü

tldr

tw: substance abuse, alcoholism, parental neglect, bad parenting, crime, prison

dad was a crime boss, mom was obsessed with being the next real housewife of summit lake, and needless to say adem and his siblings didn't get to have much of a childhood

as the oldest, adem took on a large role with his younger siblings and basically raised them. when their dad was arrested 15 years ago (2007) and thrown in jail, even more responsibility fell to adem's shoulders as he (19 yrs) and aksel (15 yrs) were now responsible for financially providing for their siblings as well

adem began to lean on various drugs and alcohol as a coping mechanism to deal with all of the pressure

four years after his father was arrested (2011), adem (23 yrs) realized he was on the verge of becoming an addict. he refused to let his little siblings see him that way and so he left behind his savings that he'd meant for college with a note that said "I'm sorry" and skipped town

after years of wandering from state to state, and with the help of alcoholics anonymous and narcotics anonymous meetings wherever he travelled, he was finally able to get his act together and sober up (circa 2016). during his time with aa and na, adem was exposed to religion. and while the christianity aa and na talked about didn't really resonate with him, islam did. growing up, he didn't want much to do with his parents' religion, but as he struggled with sobriety, it became an anchor for him to hold onto. he began practicing various aspects of the religion, such as occasionally attending prayer on fridays, using prayer as a form of meditation almost when he would struggle with his addiction, etc. it became a very grounding practice for him

after this 'accomplishment' was marked off his to do list, he then turned his attention to getting the money he knew his father had left behind in various accounts that the feds hadn't seized

he saw it as justice for what their father put his family through

he eventually managed to work his way into the business enough to get the money and has just come back to providence peak in the hopes to restore things with his family now that he is finally in a place where he can take care of them

personality

( + ) determined, can be incredibly thoughtful for the right people while at the same time can appear incredibly inconsiderate??, charming

( - ) addictive tendencies, overly self critical, acts like he doesn't take anything seriously meanwhile he takes so many things way too seriously,

think damon salvatore's level of snark & sarcasm

a complete MESS and uses this to cover up the fact that he's actually a very serious guy who takes the world and his responsibilities very much to heart

pretends to never take himself seriously but is actually riddled with guilt

can be charming af when he wants to be

Is never a better human being than when he's around children

interests

his little siblings

his motorcycle

spending time in the outdoors

playing pool

#about #my wc page is a mess so pls bear with me!!#i'll be adding more ideas soon!#providence.intro

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probably-need-sleep27 · 3 years

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One character is over hated in the the vampire diaries fandom and here my thoughts about it

Elena gilbert is one of the most hated characters in Tvd, it bizarre how hated she is so let look at why she's hated

Fandom calls Elena selfish

She played with the Salvatore brothers

She's had hand in killing Kol

She is slut shamed

She left Stefan for demon

She indirectly killed Bonnie grandmother

Elena was 17 years old child who was took advantage of after losing her parents, Stefan stalked her for months because she looked like Katherine, demon forced himself on her multiple times during the vampire diaries and also killed her brother multiple, this is romanticised but again two vampires who was 163 years old took advantage of her, she was gaslit when she didn't agree with Stefan and Damon plans, it wasn't her fault Bonnie grandmother died and bonnie mother was force to turn into a vampire, this is Stefan and Damon fault only, remember Elena was 17 years old teenager who lost her parents and Jenna, she wanted to sacrifice herself but everyone was keep making decisions for her, does that sound like she was selfish?, fandom solely blamed Elena for killing Kol but again Kol would've killed Elena and Jeremy, it was self defence even if both of them planned it , she is still demonised for it, she is also slut shame for getting with Stefan and Damon in the fandom

Elena is a minor when she got with Stefan, Stefan is over 163 years old so let that sink in for a minute.

Let talk about Demon for a minute, Demon Raped, abused and made Caroline into his blood bag, demon Stans will try and justify this saying he's learned from his *mistakes*, this dude killed a pregnant woman, does that sound like good and kind person, he harass 17 year old because he could and no one stopped him, he made decisions for Elena and force his will on her, how many people have he hurt because he could?, he tried killing Jeremy because Elena rejected him

Let also talk about Stefan while we're at it, Stefan stalked Elena for months and knew about Demon abusing Caroline, he did nothing about it, he nearly killed Elena multiple time, Stefan isn't good guy no matter what Julie or other people make you believe, he force Demon to turn into vampire, he's also Ripper who never learned control nor did he accept being vampire, he's not innocent nor should he be this so called Hero that the vampire diaries make them out to be, he also force his will on Elena and made all her decisions without her consent, I could go on but I won't.

Elena is Human and she couldn't go up against vampires, she might be selfish but she's freaking teenager, demon and Stefan is the worst thing that happened to Elena.

Let talk about Elena and Rebekah relationship for quick second, Elena didn't betray Rebekah because how can you betray someone who you had no loyalty to, Elena told Rebekah about Niklaus killing her Mother but again that was childish and immature thing she did, but I want to point out Klaus tormented Elena and killed her aunt out of spite because of Stefan and Damon actions

I probably missed few things but one of the main points I want to make is Elena is Child who lost everything, she's annoying and selfish but she was willing to sacrifice herself to keep her family safe, I'm just going to throw this in here Bonnie sacrificing herself is Bonnie choice and no one else

It all come down to bad writing and lack off character development, she's Mary sue but without powers

I highly recommend going to @theagnostictheist, they have some good analysis on all of vampire diaries characters, if anyone have anything to add then please do

#Tell me if I miss anything #pro elena gilbert #anti stefan salvatore #anti delena #anti damon salvatore #anti the vampire diaries #Elena gilbert #The vampire diaries meta #anti elena gilbert #anti klaus mikaelson #I'm pretty sure I missed some things #I don't like Elena character but she get so much unnecessary hate #I wanna hear your opinions #Demon was never redeemed nor did he regret his actions #Meta #Elena gilbert meta #Anti Stelena #This isn't anti post on Bonnie because she's one of my favourite characters #Proelenagilbert

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bakerolivias-archived · 2 years

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how is alaric so pathetic and incompetent it’s kind of sad tbh. he’s a terrible father to the twins, negligent and forcing them to feel they need to compete for his love against hope. he’s even worse towards hope, disrespecting her dad and acting like he was some unforgivable person and terrible human being- which, honestly, if he and klaus have bad blood it makes total sense and is fair enough considering the shit klaus pulled but he was always protective and devoted to hope and worked hard to improve himself, and literally gave 3 million dollars out of his own pocket, which is the cost of like.... 20 middle/high schools, so that the saltzman twins, supernatural kids everywhere, and his own daughter could have a safe place to learn and grow and live at the salvatore school. it’s rich, alaric’s attitude towards klaus especially when talking to his orphaned daughter, because it’s not like he’d talk to de/ena’s daughter about damon that way or tell her about all the r*ping and harassing and abusing damon did, especially to alaric’s ex wife and the woman who birthed their children, caroline?

and then alaric endangered the literal teenagers and children so many times, letting them fight on their own against the monsters and boogeymen of the supernatural world or whatever and angered the parents so much he lost like 98% of the school in his stupidity, and then struggled to pay taxes lmfao to keep the school alive. his treatment of the kids (literal underage children and minors) whom he deemed to be supposed bad apples is atrocious, and in so many ways illegal (i find it hard to believe parents didn’t have anything to say about their kids being locked in prison worlds never to be seen again and trapped with a psychotic serial killer, no less). even klaus, or someone infinitely more capable, like caroline, could have done a better job than him. he failed in every single role - headmaster, father, father figure, educator, and protector.

#anti alaric saltzman #legacies #legacies spoilers #be quiet anna

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tweedlydumbtweedlydoo · 4 years

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Not Perfect (JJ Maybank x reader) pt. 3

Summary: JJ Maybank is the one who makes sure your kook lawn is immaculate. Your family may look perfect just like the lawn from someone looking from the outside in, but it turns out you and JJ have more in common than you thought.

!!warning: This story talks about abuse through out, so if that’s triggering please don’t read. This is strictly fiction. THERE IS A PART OF ABUSE IN THIS SO PLEASE PROCEED WITH CAUTION IT IS MARKED WHERE IT STARTS AND ENDS

Masterlist: Not Perfect

A/N: Sorry i didn’t get this out yesterday. I was able to go home from the hospital yesterday and was exhausted. Also, I think i proof read this after I typed it up but I don’t remember?? I don’t feel like doing it now. So, if there is any mistakes please ignore them. Anyways, hope you guys enjoy! xx

Tag list is at the end. Let me know if you want to be added xx

**MASTERLIST**

Requests: OPEN {CLOSED}

I am currently taking requests for:

The Vampire Diaries/The Originals

Elijah Mikaelson

Damon Salvatore

Criminal Minds:

Spencer Reid

Derek Morgan

Supernatural (I’m only up to season 2, so please don’t request something with spoilers)**

Sam Winchester

Dean Winchester

Outer Banks (Netflix):

John B Routledge

JJ Maybank

Rafe Cameron

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When you awake the next morning, your head is pounding. And the smell around you, it was not your usual strawberry smell. It was musky, like some guy’s cologne. You peep out of one of your eyes. You were in an unfamiliar room in a stranger’s bed and it looks like a stranger’s shirt. You grip at the shirt looking down at it, “Oh god, what the hell happened last night?” Wincing you sat up, grabbing your head. Hearing voices outside the door, you froze, eyes wide.

“She’s been passed out all night. Should I wake her?”

“I’m sure she’s just hung over, JJ.”

“JJ?” You face palm your forehead, “Oh shit..” You groan, throwing the covers off you, looking around for your phone.

JJ quietly opens the door, careful not to wake you but he sees you’re already up, looking around the room. “Uh… good morning.”

You jump, facing him, “morning…”

He can tell by your face, you’re frightened, “We didn’t do anything last night.” He holds his hands up in surrender, “You vomited all over your shirt last night and I changed you.”

You glanced down at his shirt and then back at him, “Oh god.” You groan, “What time is it?”

He pulls his phone out of his pocket, checking the time, “It’s almost 2:30.”

“2:30?! Oh god my dad’s going to kill me. I um.. I need to go. Like now.” Looking around, “Where the hell is my stuff?”

“It’s by the door,” He motions behind him, “I can take you home, if you’d like.”

You nod, eyes pleading, “please?”

He nods, stuffing his hands in his shorts, “John B already left for work though.. so you’ll have to ride on the back of my bike.”

You fixated yourself behind JJ on his bike, “You sure this is safe?”

He chuckles, nodding, “Yes, just..” he clears his throat, “wrap your arms around my waist.”

You slip your arms around his waist, tightening your grip, “I’m trusting you, Maybank.”

He glances over his shoulder at you, “I won’t let anything happen to you. Promise.”

You knew he was probably just being reassuring to help calm your nerves of getting on the back of his bike, but the statement felt more sincere than anything.

When you two pulled into the driveway of your home, there were cop cars everywhere. Police standing in your yard and your parents on the front porch talking to a couple.

“What the hell?” You get off the bike as JJ stops and turns it off. He follows you to the pathway that led to your house.

“Y/n! Oh god.” Your mother steps down the front porch, running to you and engulfing you in her arms.

“Sweetie we were so worried about you.” Your dad explains, hugging you and your mother. He can’t help but give a ‘if looks could kill’ look at JJ. You’d rode in on the back of his bike and had been with him.

“Well, I’m fine.” You say, pulling away to look at them. Your mother is holding your cheek, looking you over, making sure you’re not hurt.

JJ clears his throat, “I’m going to get going.”

Your mom and dad look at him, your mother’s eyes darting back to you, “What were you doing with him?” That’s when she sees the t shirt, which is clearly not yours. “y/n y/l/n. Oh my lord! Get yourself inside this instant. I can’t believe you were with the trash last night!”

You step back from her, looking at her like she’s crazy, “What? Mama, he’s not trash. He’s a decent human being.”

“who took advantage of you.” Your dad says, he’s motioning a police officer over.

“What are you doing?” You ask, looking at your dad.

“He’s not going to get away with this honey. You just tell the officer everything he did to you.” Your mother says, running her hand over your hair.

“Oh my god! No.” You shake your head, pushing her hand away, “He didn’t do anything! We didn’t do anything!” You look at JJ then your parents.

“Honey, you don’t have to lie to us.” Your father looks at the officer, “You need to arrest him. He’s the one who had my daughter last night. And it seems he took advantage of her as well.”

JJ holds his hands up in defense as the officer’s reach for him, “Okay, hold up, I didn’t do shit!”

“He didn’t do anything!” You begin to panic as the officer grabs JJ.

“Son, don’t make this any harder for yourself.” The officer explains. JJ’s eyes are wide and looking at you.

“Stop it!” You grab the officer’s arm, “he didn’t do anything to me. You can’t arrest him.”

The officer looks at your father then at you, “Ma’am. It’s okay, you’re safe now.”

Your father grabs your arm, pulling you away from JJ and the officer, “Let the officer do his job.”

“I didn’t do shit man! Come on!” JJ argues, as the officer starts to drag him away.

You rip your arm from your father’s running to JJ, wrapping your arms around his neck, “I’ll get you out of this, I promise.” You pull away to look at him and he nods, the officer pushing him into the cop car, slamming the door.

You turn to face your parents, anger all over your face, “What the hell is wrong with the two of you?! He didn’t do anything wrong!” You push through the two of them and storm inside, slamming the door.

~THIS NEXT PART DEALS WITH PHYSICAL ABUSE, PROCEED WITH CAUTION AND DON’T READ IF TRIGGERING~

“you think you can disrespect me like that?!” You dad screams. After the last cop car pulled out of your driveway, your dad had barged into your room and yanked you out of your bed, throwing you into the nearby wall. You knew this was coming, it was just a matter of time.

“He didn’t do anything!”

He sends a kick to your side, causing you to cry out in pain, the wounds from before not fully healed, “You don’t disrespect me like that!” He yanks you up from the ground by your hair, pushing you against the wall, his hands grip at your throat.

“Please.” You gasp for breath, gripping at his wrists, your eyes pleading.

“You’re an ungrateful bitch.” He spits, back handing you, “you’re to not get involved with trash! You hear me?!”

You sob, nodding.

He leans to your level, gripping your neck once more, making you look at him, “The Cameron’s will be here this evening and you WILL be on your best behavior. You WILL interact with Rafe Cameron so we can close the deal. You understand?!”

You whimper, nodding, “y-yes.”

He sends another punch against your face. He stands, composing himself. “If anyone asks, that boy was the one who did this to you.” He pushes his hair back as you sob on the floor of your bedroom, before stepping over your body and out of your room, slamming the door behind him

~ ENDS HERE ~

Your father and Ward Cameron had been at each other’s throats for years, for power and wealth. However, the last couple of weeks, things had changed, and new business deals were made. You were to woo Rafe Cameron and get close to him, to help your father close the deal with Ward. That’s what you and your father argued over yesterday before you went storming out of the house. You didn’t want to do it. You didn’t want to be a pawn in one of his games.

This wasn’t the first time your father had beat you. It all happened when he lost everything years ago. Your father made a deal with someone and it ended badly, causing him to lose everything. He took his anger out on you and has since then. Even when you guys moved to the OBX to start over and he started making money again, he took his anger and frustration out on you in any way possible.

Your mother knew of the abuse, she’d helplessly watched a few times, but she couldn’t do anything. She was a coward, wanting to live this luxurious lifestyle and in return she allowed her daughter to be beat. You hated your mother for it and you hated your father, but you were the perfect family. You had to be the perfect daughter and play along. Get good grades. Don’t party. Don’t drink or do drunks. Be a good girl. Your family had to keep their reputation up as this perfect family. However, your family was not perfect. There’s no such thing as perfect. It was all just an act.

When you finally had calmed down, you pulled yourself off your bedroom floor and made it to the bathroom. Your lip was busted, a new bruise forming around your eye. You slowly lifted your shirt, whimpering at the motion. The new blue and purple bruises covering the faded bruises. You slowly dropped the shirt before making your way out of the bathroom. You needed to help JJ. He was in this mess because of you.

When you arrived at the police station, everyone turned their heads at your new look. They knew too, but your father contributed enough to the police force that they turned the other way. You stepped up to the front desk, “JJ Maybank, he was brought in an hour ago.”

The lady types into her computer, shaking her head, “He was released as soon as he arrived.” She looks at you.

“Oh.. okay. Thanks,” You walked out of the station, looking around. You knew he hung out with John B Routledge and headed toward John B’s.

“So, wait, he arrested you?” Kie asks.

JJ nods, “Yup! Thought I had taken advantage of her.” He rolls his eyes, plopping down on the couch.

“That’s messed up dude.” Pope says.

“And then they just released you as soon as you arrived?” John B asks, “Why? I mean why go through all the trouble just to let you go?”

JJ shrugs, “I have no clue, man. But some shit is going on with her family. Her dad’s fucking psycho.” He does the crazy motion with his finger, “He’s always giving me this evil look. Anytime I see him.”

“sounds like it.” Kie leans back on the chair.

JJ looks down at his blunt, rolling it in his fingers, “I think he beats her.” JJ looks around at the pogues.

“No. There’s no way.” Pope says, “I’m there every week and never suspected it.”

“Plus, they’re perfect.” Kie adds, “I mean anytime they go out, they’re this perfectly happy little family.”

“Yeah but you guys don’t know the signs. I do.” He sighs, standing, “The way she changes when he’s around or when he touches her in anyway. I do the same thing around my father.” He mumbles, “Plus, what she said last night about what her dad did to her behind closed doors. It’s just sketchy dude.”

“JJ you can’t make that assumption though. She was drunk,” John B says, “I know you’ve been through hell, but she’s living a completely different life than you. Her family’s rich and perfect. She’s a kook. There’s no way her dad’s beating her.”

“I guess things aren’t always as they seem, huh?”

The pogues all turn around at the voice and are shocked when they see you and your appearance. The outline of your father’s fingers over your throat were starting to show. Your lip busted and your eye bruised and swollen. Their eyes are wide as they stare at you.

“Oh shit.” Pope says, slowly standing.

JJ takes in your appearance and all he wants to do is throw a punch through the wall. He slowly steps passed John B to get to you. He can see your eyes filling with tears as he steps closer. He doesn’t say anything but gently wraps you in a hug. He hated when he was right.

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zalrb · 4 years

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hmm maybe you could just rank them according to your personal preference?? i think it would be a little different from the other one right

Sure! I’m sticking to canon ships.

1. Stelena

I have an entire masterlist dedicated to why Stelena is number 1.

2. Forwood

Oh, Forwood:

Caroline and Tyler were fundamentally altered because of their supernatural conditions and that shift was the basis of their relationship. Becoming a vampire empowered Caroline, she had a sense of strength that she never had, she was confident and centred, she became everything she wasn’t in season 1,

which allowed her to be emotional support for Tyler

who, because of the werewolf curse, became everything he wasn’t in season 1 too: humble and vulnerable and grateful for assistance

and that allowed him to actually take the emotional support from Caroline

so they actually grew together through this time, complementing each other and seeing different sides of their personalities, surprising each other even though they’d known each other since childhood.

And also no one gives Tyler credit for being a loving, whipped boyfriend

and like

and just look at them

I don’t care what anyone says, this is such a cute exchange

3. Stebekah/Steferine

I put them together because which one I prefer more depends on the day. I like Stebekah because they’re dark and there was a lot of potential there:

I think that Katherine unfairly gets credit for the second half of a Dark Stefan ship. Every time Stefan has been rebellious or dark and has had a woman at his side, it’s been Rebekah such as in the 20s:

And such as season 4. When Stefan was just tired of all the Delena and Defan and triangle bullshit and was like fuck it, I’m doing something for me, I don’t care if it’s a bad decision, he went to Rebekah for some crazy sex with a crazy ass vampire:

So I think Rebekah has insight into the depraved, dark, deviant Stefan because she relishes it with him

I like Steferine a) because of Dobsley chemistry b) because I find their dynamic interesting

[Steferine is] the one ship that the show portrays the baggage and the hurt and the sort of inescapability of certain connection quite well although it’s not emphasized so I wonder if they actually portrayed it well on purpose? But anyway.

The reason why I think it’s done well is because I think the relationship contradicts the idea that loving someone is always good, Katherine’s “love”/obsession with Stefan in fact continuously destroys him and hurts him […] She is more in love with the idea of Stefan loving her than she actually is with Stefan. That’s why she hijacks Elena’s body in season 5 and attempts to seduce him because let’s think about that. Katherine hijacked the body of a woman she hates and tries to seduce Stefan as that woman, a woman whose break up with him was a trigger for his PTSD, a woman who was in a relationship with his brother and she doesn’t think or care about how seducing him as this woman would fuck with his head:

It’s also why in season 2 she threatens to kill Elena while Stefan watches because it doesn’t matter if he’s scarred or hurt, what matters is owning him:

And Stefan knows that about Katherine and yet Katherine knows Stefan’s psychology, she knows how his mind works, she knows which ways to get through to him:

and that creates a lot of tension for Stefan and you see it because it’s like, “you legit ruined my life though, like you completely fucked with my head, fucked with my life, I hate you, like I legit hate you”

and yet, AND YET, I can’t help but be of comfort when you’re in need

and as much as I hate you, when you’re around there’s just, there’s this thing (because Stefan always looks like he’s a half-step away from having hate sex with her)

At the same time, Stefan is never able to let Katherine in completely

And he also experiences catharsis by being able to torture her in season 2 then kill her in season 5 and despite dying with her, killing her again in season 8, he gets to continuously avenge himself which other victims on TVD don’t get to do

4. Beremy

Here is the thing about Beremy and my opinion on them is definitely framed by the fact that I now know that the only other relationship Bonnie is really in is with Enzo and I think Bonenzo is bullshit, but the thing about Beremy is that Jeremy goes hard for her (especially in season 2) and I don’t think that’s quite acknowledged.

I definitely think that Kat deserved a better screen partner because Steve didn’t really have much of a presence onscreen

but I do think his lack of presence is also why a lot of good and cute Beremy scenes go unnoticed.

and I don’t think their chemistry was bad, like it’s not Grahamwood chemistry, it’s not Somergraham chemistry but it’s not like Steroline flat or Delena cringey, it’s decent:

like their first kiss is a good first kiss

and I’ve also said that they’re at their best when they do angst, that’s where they live. It’s not Stelena angst or Forwood angst but it’s pretty good angst

The way Enzo is supposed to love Bonnie, I think we actually see with Bonnie and Jeremy

Jeremy is this puny pre-hunter human but he goes into the tomb for the moonstone so Bonnie won’t have to use her magic.

In 2x18 when it was all don’t tell Elena that Bonnie will die trying to take down Klaus, Jeremy essentially chose Bonnie by telling Stefan what was going to happen.

Like look at the way he smiles here:

but the writers really fucked this over: And here’s the thing about that. I can understand the fact that Jeremy never really got closure from Anna and that seeing your girlfriend get dragged out, screaming, by cops and knowing that your uncle killed her would be traumatic. But it’s like JP wanted to humiliate Bonnie with this triangle because first of all, Bonnie is the only character who’s been cheated on and not only are the overall stakes of the show super low for the consequence of Bonnie using her magic to be Jeremy being able to see his ex-girlfriends, it’s a petty way to punish Bonnie. Moreover, it’s not just that Jeremy kissed Anna, it’s not even just that he’d been talking to her and essentially having an emotional affair with her, it’s that he degrades his relationship to Bonnie for Anna and when Bonnie finds out, Jeremy legit couldn’t give a fuck and he does nothing to get her back and he’s just never apologetic about it, not toward Bonnie anyway and then it just gets to the fact that Jeremy has a tendency to only care about the women he dates when they’re about to die and it’s just, I understand why the whole Anna situation keeps people from shipping them or giving Beremy the time of day.

5. Maroline

OK Maroline gets a lot of flack and it’s not that I don’t understand why and it’s not like they didn’t have issues but 1) their coming together was organic and on a show like TVD, having two people come together organically is actually pretty rare, it’s basically Stelena, Forwood and Maroline. I enjoyed the fact that despite being opposites, they found emotional common ground, they bonded over the fact that they were both lonely and they both felt isolated and they were both desperately seeking someone to love them

and their respective stories support this interaction

it’s not just something that’s said to be said, we see Matt’s life, we see him have no parents, we see him to the best of his ability try and keep tabs on Vicki, who is dead but he thinks she bailed, we see Elena fall in love with someone else right in front of him, we see Caroline’s abusive relationship with Damon, we see her insecurities from Day One in the pilot but their bond didn’t just stay at them wanting company, they actually had fun spending time together, they actually liked each other

and I liked that it was no pretense, I liked that it was Family Guy and junk food. You know, Klaroline ha the champagne and the ball gowns, Forwood would just “be” a lot, you know, they were the enjoying each other’s silence kind of ship, Steroline as a couple .... but Matt and Caroline, like, hung out and I liked that.

2) They were super realistic for a teenage relationship and I respect that. Like this is so high school

I remember being 16 and doing things to “test” my boyfriend or the guy that I liked, I remember my guy friends being reluctant to express liking a girl because of what their friends would say, I remember being a teenager and just doing teenage things, which is what Maroline did,

I don’t fault them for that, and yes, in season 1, Matt would be like, we’re not going to last etc.

and I don’t blame people for being put off by that, I wasn’t because it’s pretty 16/17-year old boy but you also see how that doesn’t seem to be what he actually thinks

and we see that expand in season 2

which is why the infamous Mattlena hug scene in 1x17 had me, like, the writing is just contradicting itself now because in 1x16, we have this out where Matt explain being over Elena and seeing her as a friend and at peace with the fact that she loves Stefan because he’s into Caroline so having Caroline look in on them again was like, we’ve already covered this especially since it’s not consistent after 1x17 either.

Like the whole thing is that she can be exasperating --- and people forget that Caroline actually can be exasperating, she made an offhand classist remark about Bonnie liking the bus boy, which Matt overheard, she was dealing with vampirism and Tyler’s transformation but Matt didn’t know anything about that so she just came across to him as hot and cold, he didn’t have context --- but he loved her anyway

With regards to when he finds out she’s a vampire, I like how people are more pressed about Matt being involved in trying to take her down when he has no frame of reference for vampires other than the fact that one killed his sister and they’re not like, wow Liz, that’s your daughter, but I also like how as they ‘grow up’ and become entrenched in the Supernatural, despite the fact that Matt consistently says he wants nothing to do with it, both of them look out for each other

6. Klaroline

I’m pretty indifferent to Klaroline, I don’t have strong feelings about them but I have maintained that they are better than Delena

Even Klaroline does a better job with that dynamic and those kinds of arguments than Delena because you see Caroline be like “I can’t do this, why the fuck am I even here?” every time they’re together

the dynamic DE was supposed to have better, the “fiery” “passionate” thing works for them because they know how to argue and because they play up the conflict

I’ve also maintained they have good chemistry: and yet their chemistry begins winning me over in the scene and I think what really sells it is that Candice reacts to the phone call in a way I’ve only seen Caroline react to Klaus and it’s this sort of… she catches her breath/is stunned

I have a vid that’s basically just of their gazes because they’re always charged, they have a very seductive chemistry and it suits their dynamic because the more Caroline interacts with Klaus, the more she’s drawn to him and that shows with the kind of chemistry they have where, as someone who is quite indifferent to their dynamic, the more they interact onscreen the more I want them to remain onscreen, I start off unimpressed (much like Caroline) and move toward being engaged (again like Caroline) and like I said, they do their dynamic well too, Caroline’s annoyed-but-charmed and Klaus’ arrogant-but-charming

(although their physical chemistry is not great) I just don’t think they have any real narrative.

7. Simara

This is purely about Dobsley chemistry: I have spoken about Silas and Amara quite a bit actually, but honestly, mostly in relation to the chemistry between Paul and Nina because I think that the SIlas and Amara storyline is textually weak and it felt rushed, there isn’t much nuance so I don’t find their story particularly tragic because we didn’t spend enough time on it but I still find them tragic because of how Paul and Nina played the tragedy.

Like it was a storyline that just let Paul and Nina do their magic onscreen,

they didn’t have to try to undercut it with dialogue or anything so I appreciate Simara because I love seeing Nina and Paul working together but in terms of the content, I’m like I don’t really care.

Last: Delena/Bonenzo/Steroline

You can look at the masterlists!

#stelena #forwood #maroline #beremy #stebekah #steferine #simara #the vampire diaries #tvd

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propilyano-prostranstvo · 4 years

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Why Katherine Pierce Deserved Better: An Essay

Warning: Long as shit.

I can’t think of anywhere best to start with the beginning of her story. At sixteen she was betrayed by her father with her child being ripped from her, with not even a chance to hold the girl she was giving up. Right after, she was exiled. Your parents discarding you is traumatic, as is childbirth even with a medical professional- add on not being able to hold your child? That has to cause PTSD.

She, then, thought she found safety with the Mikaelson brothers. Little did she know that yet again, the people that were supposed to keep her safe, were going to betray her. Also, it’s heavily implied that Elijah didn’t tell Katherine a plan he had to keep Klaus from sacrificing her and basically told her to trust him- something Katherine had zero idea how to. Once she fled, as any normal human would, and escaped, Klaus killed her entire family. Klaus also left their corpses so she would see the gruesome death they suffered. Once again, giving her more PTSD. The man she loved, Elijah, betrayed her. I’ll touch on Elijah again later.

Then, she was on the run for nearly four hundred years. Not getting close to anyone or anything and got used to basically being the most primal version of her vampiric self. Enough to make anyone a little unhinged and unaware of how to behave compassionately. However, she met Stefan and at first I do believe saw him as a plaything, but it quickly became more. I think Stefan sparked something in Katherine she hadn’t felt in a long time. Do I think Stefan loved Katherine? I don’t know. I do know; however, Damon did not love Katherine. Damon was obsessed and in love with the idea of her. I think the same could also be said about Stefan, but a different delusion. Stefan said she was an angel, which we all know is untrue. Damon saw the darker parts of her, which I also think isn’t fair. Neither one completely take hold of Katherine. Everything she does is out of survival. Not selfishness, though her actions are selfish and self-serving. Those two statements can exist together. Also, do I think Katherine compelled Stefan’s love? Absolutely not. Do I think she took away his ability to decide to look past her being a vampire and that caused resentment when he became one? Absolutely. Stefan is a man that likes to make his own choices, and he was robbed of it. I, also, think he had the most complicated feelings about her than anyone on the show. He hated to love her, because he thinks by loving her he is agreeing with her actions. I’ll touch on her and Damon more later.

Sadly, Katherine’s past caught up to her and she had to leave her home, which was Mystical Falls, again. Once again, the loneliness crept in, turning her even more sour.

Now, to the part of the show where it’s in present day. She’s the villain... but is she really? Or is she working for and a pawn to the bigger badder villain? She was just trying to stay alive, which is a basic human instinct. She had no reason to care about Caroline or Bonnie or really, Elena. Especially when her doppelganger has the man she “loves”. Once again, I think Katherine has a Damon like mentality with Stefan. It’s not love, it’s obsession and possessiveness. “If I can’t have Stefan, no one can.” You don’t talk about someone you truly love like that. She fixated on him because loving him made her feel like a better person and if he loved her back, she could be redeemed. She said it herself.

With turning Caroline and her plan to use her as the vampire in the sacrifice, it was harsh. I won’t defend it further than she saw her as a pawn. BUT, even Caroline herself has said that since that day she has been a better person. Tyler agrees that becoming a werewolf made him a better person, too. She even admitted to liking Matt from the get-go. So, who’s really a victim? The only one really is Jeremy and Elena. I genuinely believe that Katherine doesn’t like Gilbert men (which is odd because it’s a trend) and it’s painfully obvious that she is jealous of Elena. I’ll make another post about that soon. But, lets face it, Katherine could’ve easily killed Elena. She’s killed so many people I stopped keeping track, so why was Elena so hard? (Because she’s the protagonist, lol) but also, one could argue that Katherine’s heart was never truly in it. All of her plans involved time, something she knows the gang can fight against. She’s known as the smartest villain on the show (that didn’t get their own spinoff).

Let’s talk hypocrisy now- mostly with Damon and Caroline. First, Damon has done worse deeds than Katherine. He killed an entire family linage for years, turned Bonnie’s mom, killed Jeremy, mentally/physically/and yes, sexually abused Caroline most of season one, killed uncle Zach, killed Vicki, killed Lexi, compelled a woman to date him and basically made her Caroline 2.O. But, he got a redemption arch... why? I’m adding that he killed Tyler fucking Lockwood Caroline’s list almost feels slight next to Damon’s but it proves a different point- First, everything she did when her humanity was turned off. Second, slept with the guy who once tried to kill her best friend and did kill her ex’s mom(Klaus)... while still wanting said ex back. Don’t get me wrong, I love Caroline, but seriously? She’s going to give Niklaus Mikaelson a break, but not Katherine Pierce? Because she turned her? Klaus killed aunt Jenna!

Now that we’ve talked about what happened to Katherine and most of what she did wrong, let’s talk about the times she was actually selfless. Remember when I said I’d touch on her feelings for Damon and Elijah?

First, Katherine Pierce’s main goal is to survive, yet she risked that by giving Damon the cure for werewolf venom. “It’s okay to love them both, I did.” I think she loved Damon, but was never in love with him. She went out of her way to save him. She could’ve kept the cure for herself, but then Damon would be dead. Also, she stopped Damon from killing Mikael because she knew it would kill him.

And her relationship with Elijah always proves to me to be the most heartbreaking of all her relationships, besides Nadia. She gave him the cure, her only bargaining chip, to prove to him she was loyal. She could’ve used it against Klaus and ended things once and for all. He’s also the only man she’s seen to respect and love. She never once manipulated him. In my opinion, that was the only man she ever truly loved and he chose his brother over her. Another piece of her already fragile humanity gone.

She was also constantly saving Stefan. She got into the safe with him when he could’ve killed her... when her main goal throughout the series is to stay alive. She saved him from Mikael/Klaus. You could say she saved both brothers from their father.

Also, she only died in season five because she wanted to be there for Nadia. Which, proved to her traumatized mind, that love was a weakness and the enemy. I’ve said it on my twitter and I’ll say it here: The Salvatore Brothers got what was coming to them in season eight. Then again, though, I could be bias... I’m not a fan of either.

So, did I miss anything? I’m sure I did, but this is long enough, lol.

#katherine pierce #katherine petrova #katerina petrova #katerina pierce #the vampire diaries #tvd #anti damon salvatore #anti elena gilbert #slightly #obviously this is opinion #warning: opinions

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I’m gonna be honest and say i don’t understand hating a vampire diaries character without just kinda finding them annoying ... bc how can you say one of them is truly worse than the other

Damon : killed jeremy

Stefan : almost drove elena off the bridge her parents died on literally the most traumatic night of her life (threatened to turn her) (probably just bluffing though)

Caroline : (it’s gonna be mostly season 1 stuff bc she’s the queen of development) made SEVERAL insensitive comments about Elena’s parents death all the time

Elena : complained about Katherine attacking her directly when she turned Caroline even though Caroline was the victim (although Elena was a big chunk of the reason she did it)

Damon : also threatened to turn her in season 1 (also probably bluffing)

Damon : took advantage of caroline

Damon : the whole Enzo, whitmore, fire thing was pretty bad but i also don’t know what else he could’ve done so idk

Stefan : stalked elena like hardcore before befriending her lmao

Damon : kills innocent people .. a lot

Stefan : (for most seasons) puts himself above damon and preaches abt how horrible he is to elena while damon does the opposite and defends stefan to elena

Elena : didn’t notice bonnie was dead over that one summer until she needed her magic (neither did anyone else but that was kind of the point)

Elena : will brush the brothers off and instantly become jealous when they sleep with someone else (i mean me too sis😂)

Elena : romantically involved with Caroline’s abuser (damon)

Caroline : romantically involved with the man (Klaus) who tried to kill her best friend (Elena) more than once and some of her other friends and he also killed her bf at the times mother

Caroline : (going off the Klaus thing) was hypocritical when explaining why Elena can’t be with Damon bc he’s dangerous when she slept with Klaus (unless you think rape is worse than murder idk...)

Elena : slut shames Caroline in a situation Caroline was obviously the victim in and never got the closure she deserved from it :(

Damon: constantly makes matt feel like shit for not dying in that car crash and it isn’t his fault

Damon: won’t allow Elena to make her own descions (if it means protecting her usually)

Stefan : lets Elena make her own choices but it includes the ones that will obviously have her end up dead

idk : the whole jessie thing is complicated Caroline was insensitive to Elena again regarding Damon bc she killed Jessie but i kinda felt like she had to kill Jessie i mean ...Damon’s her bf

Damon : doesn’t want Elena to have the cure because he thinks she’ll fall out of love with him (selfish)

Stefan : wants to find the cure badly on the off chance that human elena = stelena ! (selfish)

Stefan : went on and on about how Damon’s way of teaching Elena to feed was wrong even though it wasn’t and he taught her an effective way to feed without hurting anyone (the reason stefan couldn’t handle feeding was bc he’s a ripper tf did that have to do w elena ??) (seemed selfish like he had to be the one to show her)

Damon : was aware that Elena was NOT aware abt the intimacy of blood sharing annnd had her do it anyway (he seemed to think he was just all out of options though bc she wasn’t keeping anything down and was literally starving) but i digress

Stefan : didn’t have to kill Vicki

Damon : didn’t have to turn Vicki

Elena : constantly makes passes for Damon’s terrible behavior

Stefan : forced Damon to turn

Matt : is always talking abt how much he hates vampires ok buddy we know

Damon : literally tortures katherine while she was dying, like she was awful to you yes but give the bitch a break as Stefan said “she deserves peace”

Katherine : jumps into Elena’s body and just starts screwing up her entire life (Katherine obviously did a million more things but she’s supposed to be a villain so)

Stefan : doesn’t really admit his faults often has this “holier than thou” attitude (like as opposed to damon who is self aware he sucks)

Damon : killing Alaric ... several times 😂

Stefan : spilled the beans abt Katherine being a vampire to his father which started the whole mess

Stefan : hypocrisy (going back to the freaking out on damon for impulsively and forcefully feeding elena blood when he does the exact same thing later on)

Elena : (i was gonna put using Bonnie for her magic but i can rlly only think of 3 times she’s actually done it herself the rest was stefan and damon doing it to save her which she rlly had nothing to do with tbh)

Elena : that time she makes Jeremy kill Kol and kills an entire sire line of innocent vampires

Elena : not apologizing for her actions whenever her humanity was off (it wasn’t her fault at the time but afterwardsss yes ma’am it is)

Elena : leading on the salvatores (i kinda felt for her though she truly didn’t want to hurt either, can’t rlly help who you fall in and out of love with)

Damon : using Andie the same way he did Caroline although (not saying it was right) he seemed to rlly care abt her

Stefan : killing Andie :(

Caroline : accuses Damon of taking advantage of Elena which is impossible because he didn’t know about the sire bond and refused to touch Elena when he did find out (however Caroline was also just speaking off of what she should’ve been told when Damon did in fact take advantage of her in season 1) but still

Damon and Stefan : sure Elena was doing them wrong but did they both rlly have to sleep with the girls that tried to murder elena lmaoo

Bonnie : she’s just a lil judgy but is always saving everyone’s ass so...

Stefan : not telling Elena about Katherine

Stefan : didn’t he like murder all the founding families or something ( fact check me idk wtf i’m talking abt here haha)

Tyler : i think he almost raped Vicki

Damon : threatening to kill Matt if Jeremy didn’t let him out to see Elena

Damon : did not have to kill Stefan’s bestie even though it did help the council trust them :(

A lot of people : got pissed at Damon when he punched Kol at the michaelson ball but didn’t say a word abt the fact that he saved Matt’s life when he did that?? idk that just confused me Stefan literally just asked him if he was crazy

Elena : telling poor baby Damon his love for her was a problem :(

Elena : Breaking poor baby Stefan’s heart :(

Bonnie : was so cold to poor, scared, Caroline when she turned :(

Caroline : (before development) purposely putting herself in competition with Elena all the time

Stefan : he’s a ripper just as much of a serial killer as Damon

Everyone : says Elena wants everyone to save her all the time but like pretty sure she would’ve died for all her friends but THE SALVATORES WOULDNT LET HER ever it was not her fault lol

Elena : remember that one time she didn’t have to kill Rebekah (well dagger)

Caroline : telling Stefan abt Damon and Elena having sex (he deserved to know but she said she would keep it a secret)

everyone : using bonnie whenever it’s convient for them

Caroline : was really awful to her mom (improves later)

Caroline : forcing Stefan to turn off his humanity (then again her humanity was off)

Stefan : he didn’t rlly have to kill dad but like i kinda get it blood lust and all lmao

Everyone : hates on Elena for not knowing Bonnie was dead but nobody knew when Katherine was passengered inside Elena for freaking weeks

from : someone who likes pretty much every character, and someone who like pretty much every ship, i don’t get how can y’all hate ANY of them without it being basic annoyance none of them are worse than the other, life works different when your entire entire life is on the line 24/7. you can say you hate one for *insert evil act here* and you can pull up 30 more for every other character. you guys are lame and loooove to hate :) as for ships Stelena and Delena are BOTH toxic “Vampires are a toxic species” - the wise Stefan Salvatore BUT ships like matt and elena would be boring as hell considering the universe we’re in meaning the toxic friendships and ships aren’t rlly all that toxic considering their environment you guys forget they’re not us. they’re not human.

#tvd #delena #damon salvatore #the vampire diaries #vampire diaries #anti elena gilbert #anti damon salvatore #anti stefan salvatore #anti delena #anti stelena #caroline forbes #bonnie bennett #matt donovan

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I think found out why Stefan said that Damon is the better man

I wrote this theory a few months ago. I was re-watching TVD on Netflix and watching clips different scenes on YouTube and reading the comments about how people didn’t understand why Stefan said that Damon was the better man when It's clearly Stefan. Even as a Delena shipper, I was confused because I didn’t understand what Stefan met. So, I decided to do some digging I think I just understood the whole story of TVD that has to do with Stefan and Damon. I told some friends about this and they said that they actually wanted to re-watch the series again to see if my theory checked out. This is just a theory or more of an analysis of Damon, his love story with Elena and How Stefan realized that he is the better man.

So let me start with the beginning

Basically ever since Damon and Stefan were kids, Damon has Basically sacrificed everything for him (his happiness and his well being) in order to protect Stefan from their father who was abusive. Everything that Stefan did, Damon knew that his father would get angry for, he took the blame for in order to protect his little brother. This can be proven in some of the flashbacks of when they were kids in the show.

Damon loved his little brother so much and probably didn’t really ask him to do much for him. All Damon did was to try to please their father, but also protect his brother. He went to war to please his father but also to make sure that Stefan didn’t go. But their father was never pleased. He always saw Damon was a disappointment. But I really think that their father saw Stefan as the good child only. Only because Damon took the blame when they were growing up.

And then Katherine Joined the game

From what I can remember, Damon and Stefan both knew that both of them were in love with Katherine and that they were okay with it. Damon didn’t mind sharing Katherine with Stefan because he thought that Katherine truly loved him and his brother (I know that’s messed up but that's the only thing that I can think of that makes sense of them sharing her) Damon was madly in love with Katherine, he was willing and wanting to turn into a vampire for Katherine and wanted to with her forever.

But Life has its ways

After Katherine supposedly “died” in that church and after their father killed them and ended up making them into the transition phase of a vampire, Damon lost the will to live. He wanted a life with Katherine and since she was“dead” he wanted to just die and not become a vampire. So he finally decided to ask his brother something as his dying wish. “Just let me die” He wanted to not drink any human blood and dies as a human because if the love of his life wasn’t alive for him to live with forever, he would rather join her where she is.

But Stefan had other plans. He did the one thing that he will regret and that I honestly believe that created the Damon that we know from the series.

He didn’t let his brother die

In one of the flashbacks, he threw a girl on Damon’s lap and basically caused his older brother to turn. After he became a vampire, Damon was furious at Stefan. The one thing that he asked of his brother to do for him was to let him, he didn’t do Damon would’ve gladly sacrificed everything for his little brother because he loves him so much, but his brother couldn’t do the same for him.

Damon was done. He was tired of being the nice guy id this was how he was going to be treated. He was done protecting Stefan from everything. He felt betrayed by his own brother, one person that he thought actually cared about him. But it looked like he didn’t in Damon’s eyes. Damon told Stefan that he was going to live in eternal misery because he did this to him.

And that’s the day that Damon and Stefan went their separate ways

Damon just gave up on life. He knew that from now on that he’s going to be a monster, so he might as well become one. He put up a facade that he didn’t care about other people and learned to accept himself being a vampire and maybe even started to like it a little. The only thing that he kept locked up besides his old self, was his heart.

Throughout the years before he met up with his brother again, he believed that Katherine was the only woman for him and that no one actually cared for him. He emotionally and psychologically stayed in solitude for years until finally, he met his brother again.

And he missed Stefan.

A lot He was still mad at his brother for what he did, but also in a way forgave him for what he did. He just wanted his little brother by his side.

But that was short-lived when Stefan enlisted to join the army to make up for what he did when he was a ripper. Damon wanted to go with him because for years he’s been alone and never around the one person that thought still cared about him, his brother. He knew that he needed his brother, but Lexi begged Damon not to go because it would only hurt Stefan because he would start to wonder why Damon is walking around without any guilt and go back into being a ripper. She asked him for once to not think of himself. This is true cause ever since Damon became a vampire, he was finally able to do stuff for himself without thinking about his brother. But since he never had this amount of freedom, he basically tended to be seen as selfish because he never really had to do something that was fully his. He decides to not go for his bothers sake and sacrifice his happiness for Stefan again.

Soon Damon ended up turning his humanity off and Stefan gave up on his brother. Which even more caused him to stay with his switch off longer.

Which will I believe is the Damon that we see in season one.Because the one person that could help him, gave up.

This is where I gonna talk about when he met Elena and their love story since it does play a part. ( Stelena shippers, be nice, please. I was Stelena before DE so I’m not trying to rub my ship in your face)

So Damon met Elena first on the night of the death of the car crash that would lead to her parent's death. Damon still had his switch off during this time. The only reason why he didn’t kill her was that she looked like Katherine. Damon still thinks that Katherine is his and doesn't want to kill someone that he feels that is in his possession. Also, he could've thought that she wasn’t worth killing since he told her to forget their little chat.

Due to his humanity being off Damon gave up on life even more and had a love for killing and feeding off of people. How it got turned back on was because of Katherine. When Damon couldn’t find Katherine in the tomb, he lost it. He broke and that’s how his humanity comes back.

How he fell in love with Elena

So Damon of course at first was attracted to Elena because she looks so much like Katherine. The woman that was his first love. That was during the time when he thought she was dead or MIA. But slowly he fell in love with her because she was the one that he felt that truly cared about him. She saw the real him underneath that facade that he has and ended believing that he was for years.

A monster

When everyone saw Damon as a lost cause, Elena didn’t give up. She was the only one that truly cared and saw the man that he was before he gave up. Damon wanted Elena to love him because she was the only one who knew who really cared since his brother gave up on him.

But he wasn’t the one that Elena loved at first. It was his brother

Stefan

Stefan basically had everything that Damon didn’t.

Everyone loved him and so did Elena. Damon loved his brother, but he was tired of Stefan having everything. He wanted something that could be truly his. But he knew that he couldn’t be selfish with Elena. Even though he will sacrifice his life for her before anyone else because she was the one who actually cared for him. He didn’t want to make her love him. The care she had for him was not worth risking and after finding out that Kathrine never loved him, but his brother Stefan, he didn’t want it to be a lie. He wanted it to be real.

So he put up with the pain of seeing the one he loved the most, the one that he showed his old self being with his brother. The one that had everything. He wanted Elena to choose him herself. But as time went on his emotions kinda got the best of him a few times.

Those times are like the scenes in the hotel and when Stefan left Mystic Falls to name a few.

And while this was going on Elena started to fall for him, but she ended up in denial. But everyone knew it.

Then she became a vampire and Damon felt like it was his responsibility to take care of her. It was his blood that did this. He wanted to teach her what he knew cause he wanted to pay her back for all of the things that she has done for him. Damon still loved Elena regardless if she was a vampire or a human because to him, she was still the person that cared for him.

When the sire bond situation happened Damon was heartbroken because he really believed that for one he had something that was his, Elena’s heart. But the sire bond made him question if she really actually loved him or if it was a lie. So to have his heart from pain and to hopefully get away from Elena, he went to a cabin to help train Jeremy.

He still loved Elena so much, but he wanted her to love him by choice. He knows that Elena has feelings for him but he doesn’t know if she loves him.

He was willing to give Elena the cure because he wanted her to live a happy life without him because he believed what everyone believed him to him be A monster and a bad influence on Elena.

But Elena declined and told him to take it. He didn’t want to take it because he didn’t want to live old and die if Elena was going to live forever. He wanted to either be with her forever or not at all. He still saw himself as wrong for her because that is what everyone thought of him and he thought that of himself too.

He’s been a bad person even though what people see is a mask. He became his mask.

He gave up on being the nice people because he didn’t want to deal with the disappointment like what happened with his father. He wanted people to actually care for him and not give up on him if he messes up. He gave up on life because he tried to be nice and sacrificed so much until he had enough when he nothing in return.

To him, his brother didn’t care. No one did. So he thought “you know what? If that’s what they think I’m a monster then okay, I’ll be one.” So he did

And then Elena inspired his old self to come out more.

When Elena told him that she loved him, he was happy. He was finally happy because he got Elena’s heart.

And then he died.

And Elena erased her memories of him

Which made him upset because he wouldn’t do that because she changed his life and made him happy and reminded him of who he used to be.

Then Elena got put into a deep sleep and he was depressed because she was the one to keep him from sinking.

Then season 7 and 8 happened which lead to a lot of stuff (especially finding out that their mom was alive)

So, Why Damon is the better man?

Stefan didn’t really realize what he did to Damon until years after they separate. He did kill his father for being a monster to Damon, but he never realized why Damon was so mad at him until later. He regretted not letting his brother die because he created the monster that his brother is and he is paying for it.

He tried to help his brother but ended up giving up after multiple tries. Which at the time was kind of a wrong move.

Which is lead to the whole series of TVD lol

In the end, Damon decided that he was going to sacrifice everything to save brother and everyone. For one last time, Damon decided to show his old self and sacrificed everything, just like he did when they were growing up. What Stefan saw was not the monster he created, but the brother before the monster

And that person was the one that Stefan knew had to live.

So he sacrificed himself and made Stefan human.

To make up for that dying wish that Damon had for him back in 1864

#damon salvatore #stefan salvatore #defan #delena #tvd #vampire diaries #elena gilbert

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sixmorningsafter · 4 years

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An Apology Letter, SMA Love Letter, & Gabi Appreciation Letter

Let me begin this review by apologizing. Not just for waiting almost a year to review this insanely awesome chapter (don’t even tell me I don’t have to; I’ll drive up state just to take you by the shoulders and shake you and that silly thought out of your head; it is an honor and privilege to tell you how awesome you are!), but also for the tone of this review feeling so haggard. 2018 was, as Damon told Kai, “not a good look”, and I feel like it’s digested all the gall and sass and shit-starting energy I usually dole out for these reviews, so here I am, a regurgitation, still holding to the fact that you’re a fabulous writer who deserves all the praise I can possibly muster for your efforts. Despite having a life (or not, considering, ya know, med school), you still post on this page; you’re clearly still carrying the headcanons and the plot and the characters with you. I know the feeling of having the desire to write but feeling too tired, physically and emotionally, or disinterested or unmotivated, or whatever so I can’t even sit in your inbox like “hey love sma! You write soooo good. You’re awesome! and uh when are you gonna update?” Of course, I’d love an update, but I also know you. You want to put out your best work, what you’re at least 95% proud of, and it’s so obvious in Chapter 17.

Side note: I reread Chapter 16 and my review to give myself context and bolster some pizazz just for you.

REPLY: Let me begin my response to this review by apologizing for MY TEARS. Cass, you’re just an absolute light in this bitchy eclipse of a world and your ridiculous kindness radiates off every sassy, stubborn, talented, vulnerable, open-hearted part of you and I’m so, so happy I get to call you a friend. The fact that you took the time to write all of this despite your ridiculously busy, full, grad student, WEDDING-PLANNING (at the time) life, largely because you knew it’d put an idiotic smile on my face? You’re just a gem of a human being. I don’t know what else to say. I’m trying to keep my responses as succinct as possible because I’m so eager to post this and share your insights and writing with everyone else, partly because they always make me and my dumb writing look smarter than it actually is, but mostly because it’s a crime to keep it from the world. Anyway, onward and upward:

Bamon + Kai + the Pig Cadaver

To remind the audience, Bamon had a pretty petty and deep-cutting fight last chapter; Damon got over himself, with the help of Kai (kinda), and now Bamon are on better terms. That being said, these two dumbies are so… nerve-wrackingly good at detaching themselves from conflict. Like, I feel like Steroline would have put up walls and ruminated hard on something as harsh as Damon’s mention of Bonnie’s shitty life, but Bamon are King and Queen of sweeping the bad shit under the rug.

REPLY: I think it’s so cool that you point that out because it made me realize that’s one of my favorite things about writing Bonnie and Damon: they’re ability to both deliver and take hits. They’ve both gone through some really dark, messed up stuff - the kind of stuff people with more traditional upbringings tend to tiptoe around because they don’t know how to talk about it - so it’s almost like to be accepted in their entirety, they need to be around people who are unafraid of that stuff. Unafraid to go there. Unafraid to bring it up, unafraid to cross lines sometimes, unafraid to make jokes about messed up experiences and accept them about each other without flinching. I think they can recover quickly from those kind of blows from each other because in a weird way, at least they’re being acknowledged. At least someone’s talking about it without getting that wincing, deer-in-the-headlights look and acting like it’s a forbidden topic. Obviously in the last chapter, Damon took it too far and was trying to actively alienate her with his comments, but in general I really enjoy writing their budding sense of familiarity with each other. Anyway, good thing I’m being succinct right the review hasn’t even really started GOOD LORD.

Damon jolting Bonnie like she’s being electrocuted is so unbearably cute to me. So domestic. So friendly but also playful but also coupley… I’m dead.

“Wow, you’re really going full nerd.”/”Oh… you sweet summer child, you haven’t even begun to see full nerd.” In my previous review, I (demanded) mentioned wanting more nerd!Bonnie, and you delivered. What an honor, truly.

“It was like he’d [Kai] never left, except now he was surrounded by a bunch of wires and a mini Tesla coil.” I don’t know if I ever mentioned this, but I think it’s so funny and silly that you embedded some serious sci-fi shit in this romcom fic. Like, we’re really out here, considering is Kai an alien? Can Kai really teleport or “dissolve in and out of the time-space continuum as he pleases”? He’s not just creepy or socially inept. He’s also fucking extraterrestrial.

lmfao in chapter 16 or 15 or whichever it was where they explored Kai’s apartment while he went swan-hunting, I had to make a choice about whether to keep things semi-realistic or just go balls-to-the-wall cray re: Kai and I think we all know which route I decided to take 😂

“Still, it was a surprisingly appealing thought, the idea of having some kind of effect on him.”/ “Snagging the unsnaggable.”/ “Ruffling the unruffable.” We out here, making up words and shit; my Word doc spell-check is having a field day. But her observation about having dealt with guarded people kind of relates to what I was tryna say earlier on: both Damon and herself are very guarded, and her ability to see that nothing truly sticks to him is reflective of that same for her.

“It was like he was coated in oil, like his entire personality was adapted to glide through life without ever catching on anything around him.” / “Even the good things.” Talk about knife to the gut (why yes, this is a reference to the future Steroline conversation, which I am using to demonstrate how fucking enamored I am by this understanding of Damon’s character). I feel like Damon started as the kid thinking “if things are good, then something bad is gonna happen” to “good? bad? what are those and, more importantly, who fucking cares?”

Just another day of Cass making me feel like a far better writer than I am because she always gets exactly what I’m going for and then explains it better than I do. That’s precisely his trajectory, man. He went from a kid with no control of his own life, constantly bracing for impact, to a kid who realized nothing can control if you don’t give a fuck. If good things don’t make you happy and bad things don’t make you sad, you’re always at equilibrium. You’re always at a steady-state. And most importantly, you’re at a steady-state that no outside factor controls.

“Maybe the oil coat went more than skin-deep.” Foreshadowing! I like this conversation a lot though. Insight about Bonnie’s past (another gracious gift promised last review, thank you SMA goddess for such a blessing) and her PTSD and embarrassment about the shit show that is her parents.

Bonnie’s “I wish I could turn it off like that.” Speaking of shit shows, nice nod to canon.

😂😂😂

“Was that—vulnerability?” Yes baby, revel in it! Idk if you did this on purpose, but it’s like Damon is leaning into his previous realization of her cracking his “varnish” (just realizing his description of a glossy seal is an almost visual parallel to Bonnie’s description of him being slick with oil (I’m thinking like petroleum)… anyways). Like, “she’s already seen me lose my fucking mind in the cellar, being a little vulnerable about it won’t hurt, right?” I mean, yes, but also, Bonnie is a shit-starter too, babe.

“Were those—emotions?” / “I hate knowing you.” / “Are you okay? Do you need some water?” and later paired with “How does it feel to be a human being?” / “Stupid.” / “That means you’re doing it right.”

You know how I feel about Kai’s “Friends!” He is so weird, and I love it, but I’m also afraid that I love it. Thanks!

Yeeeesssss, I wanted to show him slowly starting to adjust to the fact that she’s seen things. Him. And you know what, here they are anyway. The world’s still spinning. She’s still being her weirdo competitive self. So maybe it’s not the worst thing to have (albeit accidentally) let someone in a little. A big motivation for me re: Bamon in this chapter was getting them to the point where they eased into being comfortable sharing things with each other. Not everything, obviously, but way more than they share with the average person. Kind of like a ‘well we’re stuck in this ridiculous situation and we’re unexpectedly more alike than we think so maybe we just lean in a little’. So I’m really glad that’s what you got out of this, WOOT.

Kai’s everyone’s friendly neighborhood son/serial killer and I think it’s best to just let yourself adore him and hope for a minimal body count.

The Matt Talk

I think I already told you I was so emotionally distraught this chapter. If you’re new to SMA, hi I’m Cassandra and I’m always an emotional mess when it comes to Gabi’s writing. But, this was some next level shit. You’ve said so many times you’re worried about how these emotional scenes go, but like fuck dude. You went hard, and it was so difficult for me not to be actually crying. Idk, I’ve never been in Caroline’s situation or known anyone to go through this, but the whole injustice of it, you know? The possibility that any woman could be going through this or has gone through this. I’m not belittling the men who have been abused in their relationships, of course. What I am saying is if I am taking this personally, having never experienced it, but as a female, knowing this could very well happen, that means your writing is fucking spot on.

Full-disclosure, your entire breakdown of this scene is just the most beyond fantastic thing that I don’t even want to break it up with shitty responses. I’m pretty sure reading your insights about it affected me more than the entire multi-week process of actually writing it, so idk how you did that but here we are. For the millionth time, your responses are the only reason I think maybe all my fumbling and exasperated editing is somehow producing something half-okay. I’m dying whale noises. Bye.

Setting the scene up with Steroline in the tub, for being their poetic selves tryna be symmetrical in their emotional moments and emphasizing how thick the silence around them is… oof dude. I know you have that “movie” mentality when you write, and idk how you fucking do it, but it definitely translates. Idk if you’ve ever been in a moment like this, where you need to say something of Importance to someone of Importance, but your voice has just gone on vacation for a minute, and you’re sitting there with an empty tongue, and, in my experience, the person tries to prompt you about what you’re trying to say, but I’ve been in moments like this. So, this set up was so poignant for me. Luckily, she’s talking to Stefan, the boy who listens to even Rebekah earnestly and wholeheartedly.

Caroline’s Gazania daisies metaphor: shit breaks my heart. How long did she think about this? The metaphor is like… a detachment. Like, how light bends in water. Her story is the light, the flower metaphor is the water, allowing the story to refract, to be that much more removed from the reality.

“A flicker of intimacy based not on things they’d experienced together, but rather things they’d experienced apart.” I think it loops back to Bamon too, whether neither are eloquent enough to make that seamless connection. I think that should be the tag line of each ship; these very different people are tied to one another by feeling what they’ve felt and relating it back to what the other(s) has (have) felt.

I think you’ve very skillfully woven canon and SMA for Matt’s story. TVD made him the human golden boy, and SMA has him resentful and dark… and it just goes to show how environment can really shape a character’s outcome. tvd!Matt saw the supernatural as the reason his life was so shitty and suddenly had a purpose; sma!Matt didn’t have that scapegoat, so without rhyme or reason for his shitty circumstance, he fabricated that it was somehow Caroline.

Fucker.

“Senior year was kind of a train wreck” to “We were still okay, though. Still us.” Rereading this part made me seriously think of like… a slingshot. Like, all of this is just leading up to the snap and the release of Matt’s true colors. And how devastatingly it was that Caroline didn’t know, honestly couldn’t know, that it was going to happen.

Shit like Matt being mad at Caroline for proudly blurting out she got accepted into NYU when Vicky had just OD’ed is so fucked up to me. To be actually mad about it. Bro, stay mad about it. But that’s the point, isn’t it? That this was the final straw for him, the last thing to tip him into batshit abusive fuck mode.

As a therapist, I could easily say, he is clearly shaped by his circumstances, he didn’t have enough support or self-esteem to fully develop the core values and strengths that he needed to not become this abusive piece of shit, that there might be some self-awareness by the way he tries to remedy a bad fight with a great breakfast (or a learned behavior to get approval again). Even if I do consider those things, irl and even with Matt, it’s in no way condonable, and I don’t think I could ever be able move from this point of view.

“She’d lived like that for months, a blur of turtlenecks and concealer, of overbright smiles and obsessive thoughts, of guilt and blame and normalizing the abnormal, of questioning if what she thought was happening was actually happening.” / “Could actually be happening.” Just reading this summarizes all the females who are in relationships like this, who question whether their partners’ could actually be raping them… ugh. It breaks my heart even now, writing this review.

(Honestly, I had to step away and resume the next day)

Caroline’s comeback: “He was staring at the old Caroline. The one he hadn’t broken in. The one that ran on gall and instincts, that didn’t dim herself for anyone, that’d jump in front of a bus for the people she loved… She’d grown back into her skin. Unshrunken till she was towering over him, a bright, brilliant light staring down at a meager lick of flames.” This whole bit was so good, so relieving, so satisfying. I know what Matt did still haunts her, but Caroline coming back and reclaiming who she is, even to present time, is so, so satisfying.

“Let’s be real, though, Bonnie could probably beat us both up.” / “Definitely.” – these were my thoughts when Caroline was defending her lol.

The Universe Speech: ilysm but also fuck you for being so good at this lol. I am so mad at how good you are at this, and you’re kinda like shruggy shoulders, I’m-just-trying-my-best. Get your humble ass out of here. “I think you’re a universe. I think you’re full of suns—and comets and black holes and everything in between. And when one sun burns out, you’ll just flare into a million more, unapologetic and infinite, because nothing… not pain, not heartbreak, not even the entire exec board of Emory apparently, can stop a universe from expanding.”

And Caroline immediately clicking with the metaphor? (rewriting her Gazania metaphor story I hope) And she runs with it like, “It couldn’t help but make her feel like maybe she hadn’t lost anything. / Maybe she’d just outgrown it.” and “An infinite, chaotic expanse of dazzling light and annihilating dark… capable of anything but responsible for nothing outside of stretching out toward an invisible horizon fiercely, constantly, even in the face of billions of years of gravity pulling her back”. THIS IS MY SHIT DUDE. First off, this visual representation of a person is so beautiful and inspiring and so full of grace and forgiving, you know what I mean? It just shouts volumes to how okay it is to fail sometimes or to feel Feelings, and how it shouldn’t and couldn’t be used against her. It’s literally the expanded and improved version of “reach for the stars” – more like be the universe, among the stars, and reach for the unknown. BIG OOF.

“I can’t possibly follow that up with my dumb Elena drama” / “Hey, not a competition.” – someone recently quoted someone else to me, saying It’s not the suffering Olympics, and it’s resonated with me so hard, dude.

Steroline throwing back things the others have said, Stefan’s “Whatever nice thing you feel like you have to say, it’s okay” and Caroline’s “You can’t escape me! / I’m unapologetic and infinite!”

I don’t remember if its this chapter or last, but Stefan indulging in Caroline’s playful side, and Caroline recognizing Stefan’s sassypants is by far my favorite Steroline Thing ™ in this story. Parallelly, Bonnie’s Damon-ain’t-shit attitude, and Damon’s she’s-more-than-I-anticipated revelation is my favorite Bamon Thing ™.

I am overwhelm-sion.

I am aegoifhjaeoeagidhy.

That scene took me weeks of editing to get in a remotely publishable place and even then I was like WELP SURE HOPE THIS ISN’T OFFENSIVE FLAMING GARBAGE LOL ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND OUT *POST* so. Needless to say. This response means el mundo. I am in full turtle.

But real quick, exiting emotional turtle stance to say that I feel like you and I have always been super in sync about liking writing that celebrates messiness and imperfections and humanity in all it’s mistake-ridden earnestness so I’m not surprised you liked the universe metaphor as much as I did. Fuck suns and their one-dimensional asses. We stan universes in this bitch. Asteroids. Supernovas. Blow some things up. Crash into some planets. Sink into some really deep darknesses. It’s okay. There will always be bright, brilliant stars all around you, too.

Bamon, Kai, Bonnie’s Feral Sweet Tooth, and The Food Fight

Speak of the devil: “She shook her head, lips curling into a droll ‘get over yourself’ of a smile, and for some reason, something about the look stuck out to him a bit.” AND, MY FAV: “For some reason, he liked it.” YES YES YES YES.

He’s hopeless.

The “Love It” arc (why yes I did use that word very specifically to refer to the sassy snap). On a tangent, Kai on Twitter, Kai on Pinterest… for an alien, he’s very adaptive.

He’s got his entire home planet hooked on snapchat.

Oh, here it is again: “Now that he knew what a genuine fucking weirdo she was, he was a little curious about what she’d actually been thinking.” I know fluffy moments such as Never Have I Ever (before shit hit the fan) are most likely over, but if they were to return, I suggest Truth or Dare, and Damon asks Bonnie what she thought of him when he’d met Caroline (and her) at that club. Listen, both Damon and I want to know. I’m not saying make it happen, but I am.

There’s another dinner coming for their last snowed in night because I’m nothing if not repetitive and I think Truth or Dare is a trope I can definitely work in. I mean, I wouldn’t want it to feel left out given that I’ve used every other fanfic trope known to mankind.

“Wow!” Bonnie exclaimed, leaning forward to peer at the uncanny cake topper with a bewildered look. He even got her one earring right. – I’m cryinggg

He’s special.

“Can we just… go through what all of these heavenly things are, because I may look calm, but I’m actually losing my mind.”

“Absofruitely!” This is a mine of just so many fucking gems.

Kai Knowing: I feel like he’s just a mind-reader, because he already stated he can’t read people very well. But I absolutely love how both Bonnie and Damon are like, oh yeah totally super in love you betcha bud, and Kai’s like, I see it for realsies this time. Bamon 4 Eva bb. Love at first bicker, honestly.

lolololol I just loved the idea that their growing connection was so goddamn obvious that even the self-declared Worst Person Reader Ever was like ‘wowza so this is love huh?’

The Food Fight. I love the “She was glaring at him, eyelashes coated in frosting” line so much. It’s both cute and endearing, and the fact that Damon is paying that close attention.

“Cupcake Quidditch seems kind of fun.”

“It’s stupid dangerous, not to mention a giant waste of food.” Lol Bonnie.

Bonnie being on the shooting team—and Damon also being good at shooting. AU of an AU where SMA Bamon are spies or assassins (Mr. & Mrs. Smith). But only sma bamon. Fuck canon.

We don’t know her.

But also yes to this AU. @coraxes once wrote this awesome drabble where Bonnie and Damon met as teenagers and because of it I’ve always wanted to do some alternate timeline where they grew up in the same city, weaving in and out of the same seedy social circle as teens, flickering in and out of the periphery of each other’s lives, but always having this strange tension whenever their paths happened to cross, you know? Just these rare, vaguely loaded interactions where they both saw glimpses of the fact that the other was smarter than this, better than this, you know? That they both were. The point of this all being that I could imagine them both showing off whatever it is they know about guns, lololol.

“It’s not very captain-y to bathe in the blood of my enemies either but hell if that’s going to stop me.”

She’s also special.

“Temporary timeout” leading to the “Truce” leading to “she suddenly hit him with the look, like Bambi and Tiny Tim and sixteen puppies and every Pixar character ever created had been thrown into one of those face-combining apps” which ultimately leads to Damon’s “fine” and his absolute bewilderment “He just blinked in confusion, unsure of what the hell had just happened.”

From “he held out his [launcher] and she stared at it for a beat before grudgingly taking it” to “in the split-second before she spoke, he suddenly knew exactly what was about to happen” STRAIGHT UP, UNFILTERED GOLD. Like, there’s no other explanation, really. You’re the Midas of Belvafore. I’m calling it, it has been declared, no take backsies or arguments from you, young lady.

I AM NO SUCH THING BUT I WILL TAKE IT ANYWAY.

The Elena Talk

Stefan’s safe space being Bonnie’s room – my heart. There are a lot of things I don’t like about canon, you know, but it would have made so much sense to have a stefonnie friendship (more than bamon, honestly). I didn’t know I needed it until SMA lol.

Listen, I was never into it until I wrote this. I don’t even know where it came from - I legit think the clips for the first trailer I made just worked out that way so I rolled with it, but once I started writing it it felt so natural? They just bounce off each other so easily, it’s one of my fave dynamics to write in a fic full of dynamics I love to write.

The glow-in-the-dark stars: I can totally imagine Stefan helping Bonnie move into every new place, and once all the boxes are in, he’s like, all right now for the real reason I helped you move in, and he rearranges the constellations by memory.

LMAO YES.

The fire escape call backs lol. I feel like every single person in this universe is a shit-starter—it just comes easier to Daroline lol.

The segue from the glow-in-the-dark stickers to “Bright things fade” in reference to the bright, warm, gooey-ness that was Stelena. You already know, I am impressed times a thousand, as always. I also think using this space theme between them is interesting and something to be explored. (I feel like an English teacher, and like maybe it was intentional, maybe it wasn’t. Either way, there is something there, and honestly, as the writer, it was your gut feeling to go with this theme, so maybe it was a subconscious effort, if not fully intentional). (Fight me).

We can go with me having complicated, writery instincts with layers and intricacies that are all very intentional or we can go with me not being creative enough to come up with another metaphor.

The Meet-Cute has a quality that makes it perfect for Stelena. Yes, you are the author, and yes, you created what is ‘perfect’ for them, and yet? It could have easily been a different meet-cute, not Stefan’s speechlessness or her instant smitten-ness. God, he is such a Ted Mosby. But, at least, he’s learning from his Elena experience, that love may not exactly work like that. Maybe love-at-first-sight is a thing (hard maybe), but like Caroline soon alludes to, it’s more devastatingly impactful if love is grown as between two friends or even two people who don’t even like each other (both ships, honestly).

THE TED MOSBIEST. I honestly had trouble writing some of that scene because I was trying to walk the fine line between ‘this guy is sappy and unrealistic but ultimately earnest’ and ‘this guy has imposed wildly unrealistic ideals onto the world around him and it comes from a place of entitlement and privilege and neither the narrative nor the characters condone it’. I’m a big hater of the Ted Mosby’s of the world because I feel like they go through the motions of ‘growing’ but actually just keep doing the exact same thing and falling head over heels for girls that ‘disappoint them’ without ever seriously looking at themselves, so what I tried to do in the scene was show the side of Stefan that’s kind of messed up AND the side of him that realizes he’s kind of messed up. I wanted Caroline’s original dislike of him to make a little more sense, but also wanted to show you why he’s different from the prototypical Nice Guy. He knows that he was unrealistic. He knows that he purposefully turned a blind eye to red flags. He knows that he was putting too much weight on something that had a flimsy foundation at best. But he’s still human and admits that he’s never felt something that electric before, despite all that knowledge, and that’s why he hasn’t been able to shake this for two years. SO yeah, he’s an interesting one to pin down.

Sidenote about the Salvatores: I think it’s interesting that the first person Rebekah calls is Stefan, Stefan calls Lexi. Does that mean Lexi calls Freya? Freya probably doesn’t call a damn one of them lol. It’d be interesting if Lexi or Freya called Rebekah, for non-logical thinking, you know what I mean? I feel like Freya (even though it should be impossible to feel anything about her, considering she’s just a thought at this point) is very well-grounded, and she has a harder time thinking with her heart—and that’s why she might call someone like Rebekah. Omg, could you imagine that they all want to call Stefan, but if he’s busy, they call one another like, “Okay what would Stefan say? What would Stefan do?” Lol, headcanon.

Honestly this is perfect. And you’ve got Freya down to a T so idk how that happened. One of my fave things is getting headcanons about the Salvatores because they’ve basically had like one scene (two for Rebekah) on the phone and yet everyone just gets them. Every headcanon I get is spot-on. It’s delightful.

“Sounds like you and me”… “You said scowls and blizzards and vomit-inducing disdain, right?” lol oh Caroline. Allergic to a sincere moment, either reacting very, very violently or with a joke to help alleviate his discomfort.

She’s a syrupy little thing.

“Nothing could diminish the drug-rush feeling that’d flooded his veins”. I think it’s interesting that his reaction is “Nothing could ever make him forget that he was capable of feeling that much” and not that he wanted to feel that feeling again. It seems like him staying with Elena was him resupplying that feeling, but irl, it seems like people are more likely to relationship-hop, thinking that the relationship/the significant other was at fault, that love in its full drug-like capacity is worth it and they need, need, need it. It’s interesting that he turned inward and actively avoids feeling that way. He later says “It’s so hard not to want to feel it again” but what keeps him from feeling that way again? Is it Caroline’s fear of a person’s potential to ruin? Or maybe it’s just that he hadn’t found someone who is like that? Does Stefan even date around? I’m curious about your insight.

This actually took me a while to pin down in the story because canon was so all over the place with Stefan’s love life - I feel like he had a new love-of-his-life-from-the-past every season and if it wasn’t this random guest star, it was the other one, you know? He was kind of a serial monogamist in canon and yet still managed to have this distinct air of believing in a singular soulmate/’Elena’ lowkey being the be all, end all, you know? So I basically ignored that confusing shit and conceptualized him as a very picky person when it came to love. He doesn’t fall easily - or before Elena, ever. He mentions dating Valerie in high school and I’m sure he went on a few dates here and there in early college, but Elena was a punch in the face for him. He didn’t know what it was about her. He’d never felt that way about anyone before, not even close. Love wasn’t even really the drug-rush, it was her, specifically. That’s why he hasn’t felt it again, that’s why he’s scared he never will - it was entirely tied to Elena. If we wanted to analyze the ‘why’ of it all - why her, why would someone so picky just see someone and feel something they’d never felt before - I would probably say that Stefan grew up with a very specific picture of what he wanted in life, and for whatever reason, she looked exactly like what he’d imagined. The dark hair. The soft features. The romantic eyes. I think it also ties into canon a little, too, since in TVD he was immediately drawn to Elena because she looked exactly like Katherine. Immediate, visual enrapture. So yeah, long story short, I don’t see him as a guy who dates around a lot. I see him as a guy who, pre-Elena, thought he knew exactly what he wanted and never really compromised until he (thought) he found it. And now I see him as a guy who realizes that was an incredibly stupid way to think about love but worries it’s the only approach he’s capable of/that’ll make him feel that incredible feeling.

“But I’m scared I will anyways… And you’re scared you won’t.” Oof. Biggest oof.

I like how Stefan says he doesn’t want to sound like a cliché, but he’s a Disney prince. It only makes sense that he would feel that way, you know? It only makes sense that his life would play out that way. Who are this boys’ parents? How did they indoctrinate him? Or, rather, what thing made him this way?

He’s a mess. This is what happens when you’re the lone golden boy in a family of six and everyone indulges your unrealistic bullshit as cute/funny.

Your writing, for this movie montage of their love, is so perfect. Rude. The imagery! The word-choice! The whole thing reminds me of a caramel-candy commercial, where everything is warm and gooey and slow-motion. Clearly I’m not as cultured to compare to a Sundance film lol, but nonetheless, you did an excellent job describing that warm-toned, rose-colored-glasses kind of love.

Wow, I just realized how much Stefan sounds like the stereotypical ‘male author’. Except he has some decency not to describe the weight of her breasts or her aura during sex (eyeroll). Even his “and he was happy to be her anchor to that for the rest of their lives if she needed him to be”. Idr when, but Stefan shakes off some fairytale notion, saying ‘life doesn’t work that way’ or something – that is character development that we didn’t know we needed!

CAN YOU IMAGINE STEFAN DESCRIBING THE WEIGHT OF ELENA’S BREASTS now I need it

Yeah, honestly, I already said it but I’ll say it again - half the battle of writing that scene was giving Stefan just enough Ted Mosby/Male Author vibes to make him realistically flawed but not going too far as to making him someone you’re actively not rooting for anymore. I think you make a great point, though - he’s growing out of it and recognizing the role he played in his relationship failures and I think that’ll hopefully be what sets him apart.

Also, kudos for the Colorado trip call back. I think it’s very telling how invested and how thought out your process is for these characters by how you using some passing details like, Steroline skirting around their Matt and Elena stories, and then actually using them in their ‘origin’ stories… like, again, you didn’t have to, but you! went! there! and you did a phenomenal job, dude. Again, just a testament to how invested you are. Sure, you could say you wrote it out of order or something brush-off-y, but to even consider, oh hey continuity is a thing, is great. We stan an Awesome Writer!

lmao I’m so happy you get as much enjoyment as I do from little details like that - I’m usually pretty terrible at it because updating within a normal time frame? Don’t know her. But anytime I see a chance to make a random detail I threw in years ago feel remotely deliberate, I’m all over that shit.

“He felt the barest flicker of defensiveness shoot through him… instead he thought back to the trip”. Hopefully, before I submit this, I would have submitted a list of headcanons I have. One of them is that Stefan’s so well-adjusted via his introspection, that I think one of this parents are a therapist of sorts. I’m just calling it.

oooo, I LIKE that. Largely because Therapist Parents would annoy the everloving hell out of Lexi, lmao - I feel like she’s the prototypical daughter of therapists who goes out of her way to be unpredictable just so her parents can’t psychoanalyze her/figure her out.

I wonder if Stefan still thinks he and Elena could have OTP. Like, he says “or, at least, as much sense as the idea of her and a guy like Liam will ever make to me”. Because if Liam is like canon Liam… she and Liam made total sense (aside from her still being a vampire). Oh but wait… Elena is an artist, not pre-med. Because Elena x Liam made sense in TVD, being pre-med kids, flirty and competitive and ambitious. If she’d never known about the supernatural world, it would make sense for her to be with a Liam, and not a Damon, because Liam is the human version of intense/consuming… Sorry about that canon tangent. Canon, I don’t know her?

Who is she? I think I went to high school with her but we weren’t friends.

What’s SMA Liam like? Or is Stefan’s bitterness getting in the way of seeing, maybe, that Liam did make sense for Elena?

Re: Liam - it’s basically what you said above. Very different from canon Liam. Definitely played more of the canon Damon role re: this cocky, morally ambiguous bad boy that appealed to the darker/superficial/more selfish parts of Elena (that she felt she had to hide from Stefan). I think at the start of the story, there’s still a part of Stefan that thinks Stelena was OTP but the further it goes and the deeper he falls into this thing with Caroline, the more that part disappears. I think it’s really easy to idolize something when you have nothing to compare it to, and even more so when you have no closure so you stay stuck on it and time keeps passing it and making it more and more immortalized. With Caroline in the picture now, though, I think it’s shifting his relationship with Elena into a different, more exposing light and revealing some of the insubstantiality of it all.

Elena’s “it’s was like all those awful parts of me were allowed to exist again” speech is so heartbreaking. I know we’re here to cheer for Stefan, be on his ‘side’, and in no way am I saying cheating is condonable, but it’s another great example of how a writer can make you root for both sides of a broken-up couple. A mentor of mine once told me the sign of a good therapist is for each person in a couple to think you’re on their side. And I’m applying this to writing now. Not, in anyway, can I apply this to Matt (fuck that guy), but I get it for Elena. And it totally makes sense that Stefan was like that, or has a potential to be that way.

This was exactly what I was going for so I’m so happy that’s what your fancy talented therapist brain got out of it.

I love how Caroline’s conversation of ‘you can be this way and the situation was not your fault’. Basically, to say to Stefan ‘you don’t know if you could have loved the real Elena’ and ‘you didn’t deserve what Elena did’ is such a good conversation to have. Because knowing this Soft Boy and knowing how most people feel when their partners cheat, it would make sense for him to blame himself. It seems he does that by the way he holds himself back from doing that to Caroline.

Wow, he even comes to this realization, “he hadn’t been able to reconcile the idea of both of them being a little right”. Don’t I look dumb lol… time to retreat….

NO because as I was writing that dialogue I kept getting it wrong and either making it sound like Caroline was blaming him completely or too much on his side and I was struggle-bussing to strike the exact balance you’re describing so NOT DUMB AT ALL. Exactly what I was flailingly going for.

Caroline’s “Okay, now, you’re just indulging.” Another headcanon, Steroline have made a rule to say, “do you need a moment” for any self-indulgent emotion in a conversation. But they only allow a moment. That’s it. ~feel and let go~

Wow, Caroline a combination of all the Salvatore Sisters? Works like a Freya, thinks like a Bekah, talks like a Lexi.

😂this just got vaguely Freudian but also, yes.

“I don’t want to be the guy who makes people feel like they have to pretend around him. That guy sucks.”/ “That guy does kind of suck” BUT ALSO “You may have a certain gooey idealism about you that makes people want to, I don’t know, believe in good things.” My fairly-new/just-for-SMA Steroline heart!

There’s hope for them yet.

The Knife Speech: yes. Wouldn’t it have been kinda funny if, instead of pretending to stab herself in the stomach, she pretended to stab him, a perfect foreshadowing. Also her “I’d imagine that’s when you’re really fucked, so… best is yet to come for you, Salvatore.” BUT WAIT. Perhaps the knife stabbing of oneself is the imagery of allowing one’s self to be stabbed, to be gutted, to be vulnerable enough to be in love. (Here goes English-teacher Cassandra again, please forgive her, she’s eager and truly a huge fan).

This is a perfect example of you making me sound like a hundred times better of a writer than I actually am because I legitimately do not remember who she pretended to stab in the gut and I also thought you were going to say ‘wouldn’t it have been kinda funny if she actually stabbed him and he died gurgling in shock’ and was ready to enthusiastically agree.

On a different note: “Wouldn’t you like to know.” / He’d very much like to know. How does one create such sexual tension in one small exchange? Big oof again.

Honestly this makes my life because I always feel like I’m SO BAD at getting these mood whiplash lines to pack enough punch. Like they always do in my head when I can see the delivery and the camera shot and whatnot, but when I write it I’m always like ‘eh. I mean. I guess’. TRUST YOURSELVES FRIENDS.

Bamon in the Bathroom

First off: “In my defense, you goaded me into playing” / “Yeah, well in my defense, I didn’t know I was releasing the fucking Kraken”. L O L

Bonnie’s winning – “But hey, a win was a win, right?” – I love it. Never underestimate Bonnie Cutthroat-Competition Bennett!

“You’re kind of a maniac, you know that?” paired so deliciously with “Didn’t say I wasn’t a maniac, too.” AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I think I forgot how much I loved bamon and all their goodness? Especially your version. Ahhhh!

“You know, for a doctor, you’re really bad for my health.” Bad for your heart! ‘Cause she’s got it racing! Oooo, burn!

That’s such a Kai line I’m dying.

Bonnie getting all defensive and going off about how she doesn’t mind “being the person that someone needs at the end of the day” (serious Stefan vibes, doesn’t he say this at one point also?), and Damon being all, like, heart-eyes and shit, calling her ‘surprising’ and stuff. Good content, yes, yes, please continue.

Ooo, didn’t even make that parallel between Stefan and Bonnie (because I am, in fact, a garbage author) but it’s so cool that you bring that up because on Stefan, that line can easily sound a little self-aggrandizing - it’s coming from (again) a place of privilege, of playing the hero because he’s had this charmed life and it’s the right thing to do, but from Bonnie, it’s almost the exact opposite. She didn’t have that growing up. She was the person without anyone in her corner. So with her, it’s not a hero complex, it’s a victim-turned-survivor motivation. I feel like I’m being really mean to Stefan in these responses lmao I gotta back off, I adore that kid. Just keepin’ it real.

“Maybe I’ve handled enough” in a playfully dramatic way, and yet, Bonnie’s full realization that (the man of her dreams) Damon probably has been through enough, and she knew what that was like. Sad boy hours.

Sad boy days.

Bonnie avoiding tension by returning to tending to his wound, Damon avoiding tension by returning to his sexy-mysterious-guy vibes. I almost titled this “SMA and the Many, Many Ship Parallels”.

The whole scene that I shall call “I go by daddy, actually” which is just vague enough to make me laugh wildly in this library full of undergrads studying for finals—and because the scene is so ridiculous and hilarious and so, so Bamon, I will die cackling.

I’m brainstorming ways to bring more ‘daddy’ energy into chapter 18.

Belavafore

“Why are you like this?” / “We’re embracing the great outdoors!” Use what he loves against him, honey, you’re doing great.

“Okay, you’re right, I’m sorry.” / “No, you’re not.” / “No, I’m not.” / “Would it help if I said I’m proud of you? … I really am.”

I love how much lighter Steroline has become. Like Caroline just casually throwing the responsibility of “Go for it” / “Forgive yourself for something” to Stefan is so… unlike her. I feel like she’s the type that shows people up whenever they’re afraid to do something, like tell their waitress this is not what they ordered. Because that’s exactly it. This whole forgiving themselves thing was not what Caroline ordered- just a side of cheesy jokes on Stefan.

GIRL YOU AND ME BOTH, I was so tired of writing their tension oh my Gooooooodsicles. I basically spent sixteen chapters trying to earn the ability to write them this light and this comfortable and this open with each other so I SAW MY CHANCE AND TOOK IT.

“I can’t believe we’re listening to happy4eva dot com.” / “We’re not, we’re listening to me” / “Is that any better?” I agree with Caroline and am fully happy to admit I am in love with Stefan’s sass.

“Some of us are capable of taking this seriously” / “What makes you think I wasn’t serious about the printer ink?”

Leash him.

Caroline’s “Here was all she needed to be” realization and acceptance is giving me so much life, I’m teeming with so much love and pride and straight up inspiration, dude, bless.

Caroline’s cathartic sobbing, and Stefan’s, “I think you might be forgiving yourself.” My whole heart is just FULL and maybe I TOO started crying, YOU CANNOT PROVE ANYTHING.

Filed under: scenes I wrote horribly the first few times and still was not convinced I got right by the time I finally posted it so thank God it made someone feel something because ya girl was skressed.

Bonnie going onto the fire escape without coat or shoes, despite hating the cold, just to be there for Caroline, to hug her and be happy for her forgiveness journey is the most Bonnie thing, and I am living for it.

Tag-line for Damon: “She could always count on Damon to be a shithead”.

Bonne saying her date was horrible, Damon mentioned Kai still being present – so mom and dad of them! Did I mention this in a previous review? Maybe. Ugh, I love them so much, I don’t mind if I ramble the same few things about it and your incredible writing of them.

Baroline deciding for the boys ‘this is something we are doing’. *arc snap* love it!

“You jump, I jump, Jack.” I’ll be honest with ya, when I first read this, I was like, dude I love you madly but it feels a little too late to bring this friendship quirk up in here, but then I was like, who the fuck says? You did a great job explaining the context of it, and I love it! Please bring it back! You know, when you write more…

LMFAO no girl I thought the exact same thing, so much so that I went back and edited it into the chapter where Bonnie apologizes to Caroline after her bender. It was totally too late to introduce but I was like ‘I don’t really know what else to put here so we’re gonna pretend this has always been a thing, join me friends in this who cares revisionist approach to writing’.

Steroline being protective of Bonnie’s feelings paralleling with Damon’s protectiveness of Bonnie’s physical wellbeing. It’s just much like, ‘I’m not good at the emotions thing, may I offer you a blanket and some boots instead?” Very in-character of him, this is good, good stuff.

YES, exactly what I was going for! I feel like my entire reaction to your review is either going to be YES EXACTLY YOU WORDSMITH or ACTUALLY I AM FAR TOO DUMB TO HAVE DONE THAT ON PURPOSE BUT I LOVE IT LET’S GO WITH IT.

Bonnie using the ‘you were mean to me’ to get Damon to participate!!!

Caroline’s only known Damon for a month?????? This would make sense, a little, but also it feels like so much longer. (this isn’t me side-eyeing the author, she’s busy and doing important things, but also…)

😂😂😂😂

Bonnie’s prompting of Damon, “And?” felt very much like when you’re at the doctor’s office, and they’re listening to your heart, and they’re prompting you to take a deep breath “again” and quiet and waiting. Was this on purpose? Even his “how many do I have to do?” and her “Just one more.” Feels very much like when they’re in the bathroom, and he’s being a literal child under her medical care.

This definitely falls under the ‘not smart enough to have done that on purpose but I love it so let’s go with it’ category.

“Fuck you world, I’m perfect!” inspired by our resident sociopath (who has no regrets, naturally lol). LOVE. It really aligns with Caroline’s “here” realization, and later, Damon’s “okay, noted” response. It’s kinda messy of them, considering they’re clearly not, but the acceptance and willingness to say, fuck you world, I don’t need to conform to whatever, is so nice. So, so good. So much growth. And the title name-drop! And all of them cheering one another on (especially Stefan)!

“…Damon sasses, making Bonnie’s bright laugh even louder, and in that exact moment, with Damon’s hand caught in some kind of Z-snap and Bonnie gasping for air and Stefan’s eyes crinkled from the size of his grin, she felt something shift for her… And looking at the laughing faces surrounding her, their movements arrested in some kind of vibrant slow-motion, the glint of the flurrying snow around them like magic, she couldn’t help but think that it had to be something good.” (okay maybe now I will admit to more crying).

Kai vs the Neighbor and Caroline’s realization of ‘this guy is crazy I like him’. She doesn’t like a cat, but Kai, she’s here for. “That was amazing!” / “Thanks! I still don’t understand you.” love it!

I think I’ve edited this scene (what don’t I edit) since you read it but I think all the parts that stood out to you were ones I mostly kept the same, so that makes me really happy. I had a blast writing it, particularly Kai vs. The Neighbor and everyone just giving in to hedonistic self-acceptance for that one, sparkling minute. It felt needed and I’m so glad it seemed to trigger all the right emotions.

Scrabble, Backstories, THE Kiss

I know this is not what I was supposed to take away from this, but I like Bonnie’s dark moments, lol. Like her joke about her mom not being around. Like, it makes her more real. Like Stefan’s sass makes him more real. No one is just the One Trait that ‘defines’ them, whatever the fuck that means.

I love writing those moments. I talked about this a few paragraphs up, but a big part of why I love writing Bonnie and Damon is exactly those moments - the ones where she can make a joke about her absentee mom and Damon can laugh at the idea of Kai assassinating them. They need that. They need to be able to do that. It doesn’t feel real to me otherwise. It doesn’t feel special, you know? Why are they so drawn to each other if not for precisely that? Their ability to be every part of themselves around each other - the hopeful parts, the selfish parts, the angry parts, the vulnerable parts - is what makes them tick the most, so I’m excited I’ve gotten to the point in their development where they can do that. There’s a scene pretty early in chapter 18 where they have another one of those moments, where Bonnie lets Damon get this sort of ugly/twisted glimpse at her that she’s hiding from everyone else, and she does it with this casualness that I really enjoyed writing. She’s not afraid of judgement. She’s not afraid of what he’s going to think. She knows he gets it, and he does, and it’s simple but I think it means so much more than grand gestures or big sex scenes do for them (but those are fun too lol).

Aw Damon wanting to know more about Bonnie. We see a lot of Bonnie’s curiosity about Mr. Enigma, but he’s embarking on this conversation without really knowing where it’d go or what he wants from it.

That’s a big shift that’s carrying into 18 - Damon’s officially starting to get hooked. It’s been so fun writing him in this shifting context of developing confusing feelings because he’s kind of a disaster about it - especially because Bonnie’s distracted by all the Steroline drama so she’s not even full cognizant of it.

Wow, why am I just noticing this: “He thought about the fire escape, about the things she’d claimed to forgive herself for, and dwelled in the awareness that they’d all been just as performative as his” !!!! excuse me! NOT OKAY. I guess they haven’t had the chance to talk it out like Steroline did, and maybe that’s part of the reason it was more difficult to jump onto the forgiveness train right away.

Yeah, they still have a long way to go. Honestly, I don’t even know if forgiveness really fits what they need. Bamon strikes me more as just needing to accept themselves, and I think being able to accept each other so casually and completely will play a big role in that.

“He wasn’t sure when she’d started taking up actual real estate in his thoughts, but it was kind of a disorienting realization.” !!!

“He used to let himself feel every last lick of it [his anger], blistering and white-hot… it’d bite and fester at the inside of his skin till it wore itself out slowly bled out of his pores” that’s good stuff there, dude, great description.

“That was all before he’d met Katherine, though. Before she’d shown him how to turn it all of instead.” Nice nod to that dumpster fire of canon. Datherine was such an interesting thing that could have been cool. The debauchery, honestly, instead of Damon desiring to be ‘good’ or some shit.

I honestly don’t even remember their canon dynamic and I think it’s probably better that way.

“She’d moved on from the question. He’d had an out. But for some reason, he had this weird, anxious feeling, like an opportunity was flashing past him and he didn’t want to just let it. So he kept going.” We stan character development and growth. You go, baby!

I wonder what it was like for Damon, to re-testify. Was he all shelled-up, the Damon who jokes his way through, who doesn’t give a single fuck about anything, or was he Lily’s scared son, traumatized and hurt, unable to make eye-contact or even lift his head during his testimony?

I think he was forcibly numb to the whole thing until he saw her. Probably being sarcastic under oath, acting like this was a waste of his time, but distinctly edgier than usual. I don’t think he was planning on seeing her and I don’t think he was even supposed to, given the whole witness protection thing, but knowing Lily, she probably dreamed up a way to make sure she was being transported at the exact moment she knew he’d be there, and seeing her and how entirely unchanged, unrepentant, undulled she was after seventeen years, daring to look at him like a project she was coolly proud of, just flipped him out a little.

“She looked protective./ He wasn’t sure anyone had ever looked protective of him before.” AHHHHHHH.

Once you have a Gryffinpuff in your corner there’s no shaking them.

Damon’s “Here” paralleling to Caroline’s “Here”. Two sides of the same coin, though. Caroline’s “here” was liberating and existing meant so much for her, but Damon’s “here” is just existing, not feeling or holding on to anything.

Okay, I will admit this one I did on purpose.

“Kai could probably kill them both if we asked.” Dark!Bonnie, yas queen, slay!

“They didn’t just ‘happen’ / “I did them. I actively ruined those people’s lives.” I know it seems like I’m grasping here, but this just really seems to echo Caroline’s speech to Stefan, that Elena made choices. Bonnie made choices too. Does this mean Elena is just as redeemable as Bonnie is? Stay tuned to probably never find out.

Elena Redemption Arc 2029

Damon: “In fact, it’s [accepting the ‘bad’ parts of her] not going to change you at all—they’re already part of you, they’ve always been part of you. I’m not saying they’re shiny or pretty but honestly, fuck shiny and pretty.” Stefan’s rejection of Elena’s ‘darkness’, Damon’s acceptance of Bonnie’s ‘non-shiny, non-pretty’ elements. I’m just saying dude, conscious or subconscious—your Inner Writer is doing amazing, sweetie, please keep it up forever, thanks.

“Goodness wasn’t default coded into you but having some perfect life that never tempted you to be anything else.” / “To me, that’s a hell of a lot prettier and shinier than someone who never had ugly as an option.” *sings quietly* Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?

lmfaoooo why do your expressions always murder me

‘I’m too tired to be funny’ fuck you this entire review is either poignant af or hilarious I was ill-prepared I was MISLED

“Your desperation to paint me out as some kind of reluctant hero is your real flaw—in fact, that should be the part of yourself you’re ashamed of.” OKAY THEN STOP BEING ONE

He’s so dumb. And we haven’t even gone into the Tyler arc.

Baroline quoting Defan to throw their own words back at them like ninja stars, pinning them to their words’ truths.

We love a good Pin The Truth Bomb on the Idiot game.

“I’m just saying there’s a chance you aren’t a complete supervillain.” / “I’d be a great supervillain.”

(I just had an overwhelming sense of maybe, someone in this very library, could be a SMA fan also. How wild would that be???)

I wrote this HP fanfic a long time ago that got weirdly popular and someone once left a review saying they saw someone else reading the new update at the airport and they ended up talking about it together for a little while and it was the greatest moment of my entire life

“He wasn’t sure what made him do it. Wasn’t sure if it was a pride thing, a contrarian thing, or a product of whatever weird mindfuck of a thing had been brewing between them over the course of the night, but before he even knew what was happening, he slid his hands up her face and caught her mouth in a swift, deliberate counterargument.” !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damon’s analysis of Bonnie: more exclamation marks

“And that even without the varnish, even with all bitterness and fear and anxiety bursting through his cracks like light, he was worth seeing.” Actual tears in my actual eyes. I am not a crier, Gabi, what have you done

He’s a love-starved stray, LOVE HIM. PET HIM.

Bonnie being all weirded out by the intimacy of the kiss, Damon apologizing about it, “He felt a flicker of resentment over the charm of her awkwardness.”

“If he didn’t know any better, he’d think it was the beginnings of another panic attack.” It’s the knife! (you know the Vine where the kid is running alongside a pool, and the woman behind the camera says, “what’cha got there?” and the kid is like “a knife!” and she’s like “no!” that’s this.)

I’M DEAD.

INEVITABLE. BOOM.

LOOK AT ALL THOSE CHICKENS

Steroline and the Case of the Heart-Eyes

“Laughing on that fire escape was the happiest he thought he’d ever seen her.”

Stefan being unable to deal with Caroline’s weirdo silence. Being nervous and worried about it, being super boyfriendy without actually noticing it. Him finally, full out, asking her what’s her deal.

“I’m out of reasons.” It’s so simple, yet so awwwww inducing.

Stefan going into straight up panic mode is so hilarious to me, even though it’s supposed to be more on the serious side lol. Like, I can just imagine Paul Wesley’s scrunched face, pushing away, avoiding any sort of physical interaction—and I’m cackling.

oh my God now I’m cackling

why is he like that

lmao I just see eyebrows I can’t

“I’m not that guy.” / “I’m the guy who can barely breathe right now because of the smell of your shampoo / who literally can’t open his eyes because if I look at you right now, I’m going to kiss you / who’s a few involuntary stares away from having the exact pattern of your freckles memorized—in fact, I honestly might already. Six on the right, six of the left, rebel freckle.” My heart. Gabi, stoppppp! I didn’t even ship this ship before SMA!

He writes his Boy Scout-ass self blame him.

“I’m pretty sure what makes me happy is you.” I cry so many tears. “I think I might finally be at the point where I’m more scared of missing out on that than I am of what letting it in might do.”

“His heart began humming in his throat at the way she was looking at him.”

“The hope in her eyes grabbed his stupid heart but its stupid heart throat and why the hell did he even pretend he had any actual choice in any of this?” There you go, buddy, finally getting with the program. A parallel to Bamon, and Damon’s wtf is happening to me caring about this cupcake of a person?

“No banning of the full spectrum of human emotion.” / “Do your worst, Disney prince.” / “Don’t know if you can handle that.”

Another artful sex scene. I know they’re not your Fav to write, but you do a real good job. Especially for these two and this moment of it being Real.

Bless, I just never know how they’re going to come across. So easy for them to feel cheesy. Glad this one didn’t tip too far into that territory.

Caroline’s “No” and Stefan’s “a soundless projection of determination so palpable it bent the air into a word.”

“Her eyes were mosaics, art made out of jagged pieces – chipped trust and cracked pride glued together into something flawed and lovely.” Stefan has ruined every romantic thing for me. Thanks, bud.

He sucks.

Caroline’s ‘shift’ (which I am now just realizing she refers to as ‘a lock snapping undone’; giiiiiiiirl) and Stefan’s “and he felt the knife go straight through his gut.”

I can’t read that metaphor now without thinking about her legit stabbing him like a black widow and just completely 180ing this into a slasher fic.

Bonnie and the Contract

Short scene, yes. Bonnie’s absentmindedness, not just because of Damon, but because she doesn’t have eyes for this lol. It’s so casual how you described it too, “just some clothes, abandoned mugs, scatter of papers”, the usual, ya know, nothing to see here lol. Damon’s attempt to keep her from looking at the contract. Like, he was all mischief and trickery a few days ago, waiting for this very moment, and now, he’s all ‘oh uh you may wanna….’ tongue-tied. Short scene, yes. Great cliff-hanger, absolutely. Awesome way to close off what felt like whole movie worth of content? A million percent yes, sign me up for more!

Writing it def felt like a whole movie’s worth of content lmao so getting to that short, final, zippy cliffhanger scene was glorious. Felt like delivering a placenta. Like I’d already birthed the thankless succubus of a baby and all I needed now was the placenta I barely had to push to get out, you know? This metaphor got lowkey gross but fun fact one of the women whose placenta I delivered in OB wanted to keep it so her and her husband could eat it and I was like coolcoolcoolcoolcoolcool.

Okay, so this is a monster of a review for a masterpiece of a chapter (100+ pages, right?). Coupling happy and silly scenes with these intense confessions was amazing, and your fear of the emotional scenes not clicking is unwarranted! You’re truly a phenomenal writer, and I know I tell you all the time, but you need to hear it always and forever! I was recently telling my sister writing is my actual passion, and by the way in which you write, it seems like it’s, at least, one of your passions too. Like yeah, medicine is gonna be great, you’re gonna be awesome, and maybe I too will be successful as a therapist, but your passion and talent shines through your writing. YOU! ARE! GREAT! TRULY!

I will not apologize for such a long review, like I always do (13 pages babyyy), but I will apologize for basically rewriting the chapter in this review. I tried my best to simplify and summarize, but bro, so! many! good morsels of gorgeous similes and metaphors and descriptions and dialogue, and did I mention I am in love with your characters? your writing? your goddamn brain? Lol.

(Okay, I think I’m done. This took me almost three weeks to write.)

I truly hope you’re doing well, and if you’re writing, YAS, but if you’re not, you know what? You do you, girl, slay in whatever you’re doing. I am your support! I am your cheerleader! I’m here to bolster any sort of feeling you need! Love ya, toodles ;)

(If you’re new here and you got to the end of this review, hey I’m Cassandra, and you’ve made the best decision to read this fic. Gabi, look away, you’re not supposed to see my gushing about your story yet again. You, Reader, good on ya!)

Girl, I don’t even know what to say at this point. Your reviews are always just so lovely, so funny, so thoughtful, so insightful, so goddamn smart - I’m honored to have you as a reader, dude. Truly. Knowing you’re going to be reading challenges me to write better (and that’s actually true of a lot of you, if you’re reading this!). I adore having your therapist brain reading this, too, because it’s such a character-driven story and I’m writing about a lot of things I’ve never actually been through but have done my best to inhabit, and having your perspective is so wonderful. You find the motivations and you see the dimensionality and half the time your reviews actually give me ideas because you see things I don’t. So basically, all of this to say thank you. I adore you. You’re wonderful. And the one good thing about having taken so friggin’ long to post this response that I AM ACTUALLY WRITING lmao, and despite your busy life of saving people’s sanity and BEING FRIGGIN’ MARRIED, I hope you are, too! Love ya, babe. This was so kind. You’re a universe.

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