#or maybe I just want a Person SOMEWHERE

[propheticfire]

I've made the acquaintance of some lovely people on Twitter; two of them are excellent writers, and everyone in this group is so nice and supportive and smart and fun!

But they all like to talk about dark themes and angsty plots and all that stuff. And there's nothing wrong with angst and things, but it's very much not where my enjoyment lies. I like a dead dove on occasion, but like...even in the taboo themes I enjoy, I want it to be soft and loving and caring, etc. So even though I like this group of people, sometimes I'm just skimming over their posts and not engaging because it hurts.

And the two writers are very much on the same wavelength and can riff off of each other so well! But they understand the characters in a different way than I do, so again, even though I love them and I love (most of) their stories, I feel like I can't engage beyond just vague words of support.

I think the reason this is bothering me is because I feel like so many places I go, I am not Enough for that space but Too Much for normal spaces. Lmao especially in fandom, I feel like I'm not enough of a Freak for the Real Freak corner (affectionate), but too much of a Freak for the normies. And I always run into people who are so in tune with each other that they can just go and go and create and flourish, and I am envious. Not that I have any creative energy these days anyway, but still. I wish...

[dovewingkinnie]

maybe if you got a stool or something- nvm hes bullying you

[cuoredimuschio]

okay, but where's my steddie AU where steve wants to learn to play guitar to impress a girl he's infatuated with and he remembers that munson kid was always hanging up posters for his weird band at school, so he hikes out to eddie's usual dealing spot behind the track and asks (with far less groveling than he really should have) if eddie will teach him how to play, and obviously eddie says no because why would he want to help king steve, but of course, steve offers to pay him, $20 a week, and well, that's the kind of get-the-hell-out-of-this-shithole-town cash eddie really can't afford to refuse, so fine, he'll teach steve to play and they'll spend inordinate amounts of time together tucked away in eddie's room and they'll start to see that they have more in common than they thought and that they kind of had each other all wrong, and eddie will put his hand over steve's to help him get the placement for a tricky chord and it totally won't awaken anything in either of them?? where is it??

edit: i started writing it

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Anyone else just not feeling like a real person much lately?

[silkjade-archived]

i haven’t been here much recently, and i’m sorry i’ve only been negative on the off chance i’ve been online, but let me just say one last piece before the end of this month, so that maybe the next might be better….

[swordmaid]

anyway shri’iia’s epilogue outfit which is a mix of 1900s male stage costumes and also that one camp outfit mod. look at the ring hehe 🤭

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Maybe this is an unpopular opinion... but part of me doesn't want Satoru to come back :c the life of a jujutsu sorcerer is full of suffering, pain and sacrifices, Satoru has already done his duty, I just want him to rest in peace with his friends...

YOU . YOU DID THIS TO US …

… /j :33 I DO AGREE W YOU ANON. i think there’s definitely something to be said abt the fact that we all want him back even though there’s a pretty good chance that satoru himself Wants to rest…. that it would make him happiest . to be with suguru. i want him to come back very badly and i want him to be allowed to let go of his burdens as the strongest but honestly … i’m starting to think that was an unrealistic thought 😭😭 either way i need him here . for my mental health .

[chrisbangs]

i finished thesis, won an award, and have graduated.. hello 👋🥸

[fjordfolk]

Troj doesnt care much about unfamiliar dogs but shes very environmentally strong so we'll go to dog club sessions and people approach us like oh :( i see shes timid :(

Meanwhile Troj's just planted with her butt on the grass going 😌 slack leash, barely awake, brain cells gone off to wherever they go when they're off, perfectly zen and i just have to stand there like mm sure?

[quietwingsinthesky]

the last unicorn post from earlier has me thinking about the master. that yana is still in there, you know? is still someone he was, if even for a brief flash across the life of a time lord. there’s no way to unlive that life. there are ways to twist it later, sure, to make utopia into hell on earth. but the life was lived. in much the same way that the doctor can remember, can feel, the love he held onto as john smith even as that life is ripped out of his hands. the doctor choose denial and then grief and then to shutter it all away. and so john smith died, and so professor yana died, and the doctor and the master live on. the doctor has done this before, and he lives in orbit around humanity, trying to keep the best parts of them and hold them deep enough to take root (which he can pretend he gets to choose, as a time lord. as a human, it all floods in and can’t be dug back out.) but what about the master, right?

to borrow a turn of phrase: i think there are two time lords left in the universe, and they both learned how to regret.

[toytulini]

me, stupidly and weirdly resistant to listening to audio books vs reading a physical book for no real reason: man i wish there was a way to like, read a book while i crochet like i do with tv shows and movies and podcasts

[beanghostprincess]

A lil question: What do you all think about Ko-fi for writers? The writer being obviously me, lmfao.

I've seen quite a huge, huge increase in the amount of asks I get per day, usually with prompts and concepts that, even if they're not for fanfiction technically and anons aren't asking for them, it's quite obvious that they're asking me to give my opinion or to write something based on that. Because you all know I always end up writing fanfics about asks or just a long, long analysis that could end up being a fic. Anyway- The thing is, I gladly do it for free because I absolutely love it and those are not commissions or people actively asking me for fanfics. But I was thinking that if there are so many people interested in my views and writing (apparently you all like my writing and want more, which is, wow, fucking awesome to me) maybe you'd be interested in me opening a Ko-fi?

It would work kind of like this (please, if somebody has more ideas, tell me. I have no idea how these things work and it'd be great if you could help):

Ko-fi for donations and commissions. Simple as that. Because I want to write my own original book and I also keep writing fics. It's a good way for some of you to donate if you ever feel like supporting me and my work. Because, I mean, let's be honest, I need the money. It's not directly paying for a service, just donating to motivate me to keep writing! And then I'd just take commissions of whatever fandom I'm in (or damn, maybe you want me to write something original with a concept of yours!). The commissions would be posted anyway in my AO3 account however, they'd be that, commissions for the people who specifically want me to write something they want. I don't have in mind yet how the prices would go, but you would not pay for a genre of fic, but for the amount of words. Like, you pay an amount of money for 5k-10k words and more money if you want something in between 10k-20k (with obviously a range. Dw, I'll think about it) etc, etc, etc.

I am aware of the whole stigma surrounding fanfic writers profiting off their fics, but I am not selling anything, actually. Ko-fi would be for donations to support me and commissions.

Let me know what you think, please, because when I say I get a ton of asks per day I am not joking and I thought "oh, well, if people like my opinion/writing so much they'd be willing to pay a lil bit for new, specific content". That being said, you can send asks like normal and I will always give my opinion on things and even write fanfics if I like it a lot, but if you truly, really want me to write something for you, I could open commissions.

[suis0u]

I'm still here just not really active because I don't have a lot of time currently and with being just tired and exhausted after work... my art WIPs etc have to kinda take a backseat at the moment, I'm sorry.

There are so many things planned this year already and changes happened at my workplace (but in a good way, I'm learning about CGI/Blender :D!). I'm excited for most of them, hopeful that everything will work out and trying to keep my anxiety under control (No overthinking!), but it will also mean that I won't have as much time for my hobbies as I would like to have, but I'll try my best~...

[jadetheblade4]

What do I call these emotions? Are they wanted or unwanted?

[bibleofficial]

god bless sleeping 12hrs nightly

[the-kipsabian]

..ive really just reached a point where i dont even really care about uploading fics anymore huh