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densitywell · 6 months
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Imogen harassing an innocent crepe maker bc she thought he was the guy who threw dirt at Laudna as a kid 🤝 Ashton going to throw a rock at a child bc they called Orym old man
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mettywiththenotes · 2 months
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Thinking about the possible aftermath between Tomura and Izuku after the war, and how Inko might feel about it
Like... You tried to kill my son multiple times. You held him hostage once. You tried to kill everyone. The attack from your villain group is the reason he isolated himself from the people who love him. I can't understand you. I don't think I want to understand you. How could you do all of this? Why did my son want to save you?
Why, in the end, did it work?
You're in this room with these heroes and I don't know anything about you but still I never imagined someone like you could look so small. I don't know what they plan to do with you. I don't know what to do either. I used to think you should leave us alone, locked up and shut away. But the way my son looks at you, the way he hangs onto the hope for your future, the way he looks even more changed after coming out of that final battle, I wonder if he wants there to be another way. I wonder if locking you away is the right thing
I offered cookies to my son. I only offered them to you because I felt obligated and nervous about what you would do if left out. I can't forget the look on your face when you took one and bit into it. You thanked me, quietly, and it was strange to me that a villain like you could behave in such a way
You look small again. You keep to yourself despite how rude you can be. You keep bringing out that video game device when you're bored and take up space anywhere you can, on the floor or on the couch, in people's way. There's paperwork to do, a pile they want you to fill out before going forward, and you're groaning like it's homework. You behave more like a teenager than a villain. You're more like a kid, sometimes
I made cookies again. This time I offer one to you because I want to. You take one and thank me before you even take a bite. It's like you already know they'll be good
I could have sworn I only had one son
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jils-things · 4 months
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SKADJKAJFKSFSAA content warning: embarrassing moment during my dinner out... /lh
#so - my dinner party right? while eating - i couldnt help but notice the waiters that attend to our tables were... young and nice looking#SAGFHHJAHJGSDSAGAS LISTEN JUST LISTEN#one of them stood out to me - he just looked.. really good looking#i promise you i dont fall easily irl -- but this guy just caught my attention#he had the whole waiter outfit though it was more casual - i frowned noticing that he didnt have a nametag on like the other workers ASDDJA#everytime i passed by - i would glance at him and just.. idk appreciate him adjsahsjfksfs im so sorry if this sounds weird HELPLASDAWHA#he just kept visiting our table since there were many of us and i would just smile when he pops up#now when everyones done eating - he would pick up their plates and bro. he took one plate in front of me and i was not ready for it SDFGSHF#picked up the dish next to my sister and i was like ASDAHFJSDAGSD (BREATHE)#BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOT WORST? (OR BEST?)#IT WAS GETTING LATE. THE RESTARAUNT WAS CLOSING UP AND THE WAITERS KINDA SLOWED DOWN WITH THEIR PACE#they were moving the chairs back in order. the guy i like decides to sit down. and hes there. just breathing#SUDDENLY HE STARTS TO REMOVE HIS BOWTIE AND I WAS LIKE.OH OKAY OKAY. OH#i thought that was it BUT THEN NOOOO HE UNDOES TWO OF HIS BUTTONS AND I SAW HIS COLLAR BROOO I WANTED TO GO HOME SO BAD#AND THEN WE WOULD ACCIDENTALLY MAKE EYE CONTACT WHAT KINDA FUCKIN WATTPAD STORY IS THISSSSSSSS#I WAS SO . EMBARRASSED BUT ALSO LIKE AKSJDAKJFS WHY IS HE SO FINE HHHRRR#i was legit praying to just think back to steven like i dont know how to handle this genuinely ahjdfksafhsfsa#what a day that was......#~ rambling#man i hope this never happens to me again /lh
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vzajemnik · 14 days
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im truly in such a fascinating position in my life right now i think
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months
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#its sort of funny. i think my medication is working pretty well. i feel stable in a way i never really have before#is it the dopamine stablizer or is it my ion channels? whos to say. it doesn't matter. but it also doesnt change some things#the ways i think and react negativly to change. but it makes it easier to deal with. i still experience this strange dispaire on the#weekends or anytime im not working. i think the oddest thing is thst i dont think ive ever been this consistenly sad#not in a depressed sort of way. just a passing thoughts make me tear up sort of way. it doesnt feel out of control. it just feels like a#prelude to grief i guess. bc my mum is still in the hospital and its so hard to kno what that means from halfway across the country#my sisters are both home right now. they both live within 3hrs of where we grew up. one sister lives in the city my mom goes to for#treatment. so they have the opportunity to see her more than me. i dunno if they do tho. we dont really talk. i dont kno if they're as sad#as i am. if im overreacting bc i cant physically see what's happening. what the feeling is in the room. not that she would probably complain#shes the suffer in silence type. my dad keeps texting us pics of our shitty lil sunroom that hes redoing#to make my mum a lil sanctuary. he must be sad too. its his wife. hes staying with her in the hospital rn. i dunno its so weird#when i talk to my counselor she assumes i find out info thru calls or talk to my sisters abt it and i gotta b like nah we dont really talk#i get my info thru text. i havent talked to my parents on the phone in like a month. i dunno we just dont talk. so i dont kno how to reach#out and be like yo so whats up? shoulf i plan on coming home this summer for a bit?? like???#this is the disadvantage of leaving thr place where you grew up. probably when i finish my phd i should move closer to home#somewhere in the Appalachian mountains maybe. somewere in the eastern deciduous forrest. somewhere with thunderstorms.#but thats years from now. who knows what ill b doing. for now im just sad and tired and i dont quite kno what to do in the short or long#term bc im feeling the weight of my mental limitations rather intensely. but maybe im just being self limiting#whatever. i dont have a dead mum yet. shes not even on hospice care. things are just uncertain and dont look so hot#i just dont see how it can get better from here when chemo gave her secondary blood cancer and shes still full of tumors#i dont think im being that dramatic. it just objectively seems not great for survival#unrelated
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is-the-owl-video-cute · 10 months
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ah genderkoolaid (the op of the queer post) is one of those transmisogynistic bloggers that believes in “transandrophobia” :/ his pinned is all about it
oh anon this is not a can of worms I’m equipped to speak on in depth due to not publishing anything about my agab or gender identity on this blog.
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fitzselfships · 5 months
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Again, not self ship related but I'm posting it here so the person I'm talking about won't see it. Anyway I am thinking about my crush so much right now GOD I remember now how painful it is to have a crush </3
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arihi · 1 year
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On my bullshit again but I still maintain the (once again very bastardized and westernized) idea of ‘healing’ a la “you don’t owe anything to anyone” and “cutting people off is maintaining healthy boundaries” is a brain rot and people are so caught up in their moral superiority of [have had a single thought of introspection at least once] they don’t realize how black and white and inconsistent these ideals are
#again it’s like debating the concept of something instead of the something#people far removed from the messiness of actual relationships theorizing on impossible perfect practices and states#or alternatively people terrified of that messiness and trying to use a universal rubric#not to get too weirdly deep into this but like#what a weird carceral mentality to have!!!#like relationships and social interactions are measurable#sorry this does tie back into EEAAO bullshit hahaha#but seeing people call it JUST a feel good movie tells me our values might not align#is it a feel good movie because they dared to try to be hopeful about a continued relationship?#what was the ‘right’ ending then? Evelyn is never allowed to interact with her daughter again? Is that the ‘fair’ end state#how heartless!!#and I do say this as a daughter from an abusive household and specifically dicey relationship with their mother#Evelyn chose her and Joy chose her back and they’re trying to make a messy hurtful relationship hurt one another a little less#Evelyn isn’t ‘rewarded’ by a continued relationship with Joy#the entire movie was about them communicating their mutual desire to try and understand each other#and in the end they still don’t really not fully#but they’ve committed to try#Evelyn was shit about Joy and that is a fact and it’s something she continually faces over the movie#does that mean she’s never allowed to try to reconcile#it wasn’t ‘my generational trauma excuses my behavior towards my daughter’#it was ‘i have been faced with the hurt I’ve inflicted on my daughter and holy shit I’m also a broken person’#I felt like the movie showed Evelyn trying to reconcile but also giving Joy that option to not take it. As would be her right#but she does take it. Because she ripped apart universes to try and find a mother that would understand her#and despite the entire many worlds she still wants that#even if it hurts the both of them and it makes them feel like even smaller pieces of shit#because in the end they would rather experience those short happy moments with each other than without#and I think EEAAO is a great movie about the messiness of these relationships#anyway I can’t put a FULL media analysis in the tags and I’ve already tagged enough lol#but I will literally never run out of things to say about it#I tried to type more but Tumblr said you get 30 tags and then you need to shut up lol
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worstloki · 2 years
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Thor, known hero: You're on speaker so behave.
Loki, known villain: or what, you'll spank me?
Steve: >.>
Tony: >.>
Natasha: >.>
Bruce: >.>
Clint: >.>
#Loki and Thor being familiar can be something so beloved#''Loki. Loki. Loki. Loki.'' ''WHAT'' ''Amora did a thing and now all my limbs tingle weird'' ''Ugh. ok. did you try lavender?'' ''thank u''#Tony: hey Thor let me see your phone for a second--#Thor: [clutching it to his chest] you will not use it for information. Loki has likely warded his phone. maybe mine too i don't know#Tony: oh come on#Loki and Thor meeting up and doing stuff when not facing each other in battle is so <3#Thor and Loki joke flirting and all the Avengers losing it#Loki showing up at Thor's place like hello brother do u have any coloured pins laying around#Thor and Loki video calling each other the day after a battle when they're both still healing from injuries they gave each other#clint gritting his teeth like r u for real texting loki right now. and thor not paying attention is like ya did u want to ask him something#Natasha: you realize he could be using you for information? he could be trying to figure out the layout of the building or the team dynamic#Thor: what? Loki isn't like that.#Natasha: he's an enemy#Thor: he really doesn't need me to find out those sorts of things#Bruce like i can't believe you broke your brothers arm and he kept fighting and Thor is like haha yeah i am proud of him <3#Steve: you need to stop referring to the tower as our lair#Thor: but--#Steve: it's not a lair that makes it sound like we're the bad guys here#Thor: :/#Steve: Loki put you up to this didn't he#Thor: no but he did suggest I start calling you my master and I am now considering it#Loki absolutely knows the Avengers find it weird when Thor and he are casual so he starts teasing more often#sometimes the Avengers are too embarrassed to look him in the eyes when the next fight comes#Thor and Loki being on opposite sides but also setting time aside to hang out and try and mend their relationship is so >>>
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steakout-05 · 3 days
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me hearing about someone or something being queerphobic in some way and wanting to know what happened: 🤨☕
me when the "queerphobic" stuff in question is just people being supportive of contradictory labels and other identities that most people don't understand, and the drama is just exclus people complaining about harmless stuff again: 😒🫗
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densitywell · 10 months
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ok. shitty imodna aesthetic be upon ye
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thethingything · 24 days
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had to lay down. woke up at nearly 7am. got overwhelmed by our sleep schedule once again being fucked because yesterday we actually went to bed at roughly the right time and thought "oh this is great we've fixed it". decided that we're just gonna deal with it and it'll be fine. and then our brain decided that no actually we're gonna have a combination of emotions that's maybe gonna give me another breakdown if I can't figure out how to deal with them but I have no fucking clue what to do with them
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#I fucking hate this. we barely did anything yesterday because we were too fatigued and then slept at a weird time#and we're still too fatigued to do much and we need to do the stuff we'd normally do before bed#and by the time we've done that we'll probably need to nap because we will feel so much worse if we don't#and I don't want to have to try and fit my whole day around trying to fix my sleep schedule but once again what else do I fucking do#and the whole last month has been like this over and over and it's because we got covid in February and have been way more fatigued#so we have to keep laying down and when we do that we just pass the fuck out#also waking up at like 7am (shortly before what should be our bedtime) leads to us feeling really sick#the way we used to feel when we had to get up early for college. like our body can't handle it and makes us feel like shit#and to top it all off the emotional shit I'm dealing with has nothing to do with this and it just another overwhelming thing on top of it#dysphoria and homesickness my fucking beloathed#I just want to be awake at the right time and have a nice stress free day and feel relaxed for once#like we keep trying to take time to relax and set aside time to do something fun and relieve some stress#and we still end up just as stressed and when we decided to spend a whole day just trying to relax we just ended up even more anxious#I'm so fucking tired. just let me sleep at the right time. just let me fucking relax for once in my life
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trashbaget · 2 years
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#wrote a fucking poem#because a bitch is fucking feeling things#cue venting in the tags because this is where i'm feeling comfortable to do it right now#a while back i caught the love bug for a friend and tbFCKNh it was the very second time i'd ever actually fallen In Love with someone and..#the first time it didn't end well. long story short: i asked him out and he turned me down but we stayed friends and it actually made us..#grow closer regardless. a little while later i'd realized my feelings were Different and it just came out one night when we were having a..#really deep conversation. and i'm glad i told him because it helped me get over him and we got better and things weren't weird at all. we..#stayed really good fucking friends. now i didn't get to see him for a summer and i definitely don't have feelings for him anymore and i'm..#sincerely happy for him and his now partner. i consider him (and always have) my best friend. (among others but he's definitely Up There..#like no. 2 probably) but way too soon after Talking was summer and we were both farthest from everybody and are both the kind of ppl who..#pretty much don't text anyone except like 2 ppl and we are not one of each's 2. today i got to see him and a bunch of our friends for the..#first time since fucking april and god have i missed them all. but seeing him again kinda fucked me up a second. threw me for a massive loop#i got Weird (neg) and i was NERVOUS as HELL at the start and for a few minutes i couldn't figure out what it even WAS because i hadn't felt.#that way in a long time. and i am not about to catch those feelings for him again because No. i chilled out after like 3 minutes bc i got..#reacclimated to being around ppl My Damn Age again and things weren't Weird (neg) anymore. we talked we joked we sincerely said our I Miss..#Yous and we hung out. with everyone and alone for a bit because ppl had gone out and come back and it was FINE it was NORMAL () and we..#were GOOD. we ARE good. and i don't love him in that way anymore. i love him as a friend. and that love is definitely more intense than with#other friends because we have a deeper bond and yes because i Loved him. but the fact is i don't and it's ANNOYING to react like i still do.#and getting nervous like i still do. and i kept worrying that something i'd do might make it seem like i do and i don't and just UGH having.#feelings is annoying. i've never been able to stay friends with someone after having feelings for them at all let alone INTENSE IN LOVE FEEL#INGS!! like wtf!!! and this is sincerely one of the best friendships i've ever had and i don't want to and Won't. lose him especially for..#this but god DAMN am i not having it right now. and my head's been spinning like a fucking tornado in the 5min ride home and i accidentally.#wrote it out in a poem because the words wouldn't go anywhere when i just tried to brain dump about it because Of Course They Did. because i#can't think about this man in anyway except poetically and i can't write a poem unless it's about love in some degree and just UGH love is#and i'm gonna leave it there because i'm running risk of repeatin myself.#if you read all this i positively adore you and also you need to touch some grass bc reading the vents of internet dwellers is for suckers#i am just kidding i really do sincerely appreciate you and love you very very much thank you for caring#please ignore the following organizational tags:#writing#poetry
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monster-noises · 2 months
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I love second hand book shops, I got to them frequently and always leave with Something and have a good time just peakin around
But i gotta say
It's one of the Worst spots for me in terms of imposter syndrome
I feel like everyone's uneasey with my presence as though i'm a stranger who just stumbled into their inner sanctum and they're.. they're gunna let me stay but they're gunna be weirded out the whole time and breath a sigh of relief when the Strange Unwelcome Freak Leaves
It also happens at record shops and sometimes at small antique shops or cons+festivals
Just this immediate foreboding of being Angrily Tolerated in a Space I Don't Belong
#monster noises#it's Incalculably stupid because 1) it's a store. anyone can go in there.#and 2) in all those locations... I do beling there!!!!!!!! not even in the sense of point 1 where it's a retail location but like!!!!#Book shops Record shops Antique malls Cons... are all like super 100% right up my alley nerd shit these Should be like '''''my people'''''''#which is i think a strong contributing factor to this pervasive feeling like#there's an underlying current of not just being in there to Shop but that i want the other people there to Like Me? I guess?#in our limited interaction?#i want them to see that i'm One Of Them and it makes me nervous#because whenever i am trying to be a Part of something i Immediately feel like some kind of isolated hollow fraud#like i'm worried that i not only Look like a poser#but that i Am#secretly#a Poser#so secretly that I don't even relaiE i'm a poser#it probably doesn't help that i also always have The most off-kilter interactions with the staff in these scenerios#it's never anything truly embarassing#but it's always like i try to be as nice as possible but their reaction is never what i expect#and it throws me off#it's a hard thing to pin down in words but like.. it feels like they are more than anything just Waiting for me to leave#if not from the get-go then from the moment i open my mouth to answer a question#and like idk !!! i'm trying so hard to be open and friendly and not just use canned response but also not be Too weird or too loud#and be engaged in conversation but it never works!#it's like i ooze some deeply unpleasant vibe and it turns everyone off me immediately when i enter their space#i'll see other customers having lovely conversations with staff and stuff and then when it's me it's like Cold#truly it does nothing for my self esteem#not everyone has yo or is going to like me but i really don't think it's too big an ask to not be scrutinized by store staff Constantly ;<;
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hella1975 · 2 years
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my mum now knows what fanfiction is and thinks it's 'really cool' and that i should 'give it a go'
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canichangemyblogname · 3 months
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I finally saw the Barbie Movie and it was… really just a movie. Gave me something to do for two hours, but it didn’t feel substantive. Had some good messaging for women who needed to hear the same message the “brainwashed” Barbies needed to hear, even though that concept sounds patronizing now that I’m putting words to it. I have other thoughts, but voicing them feels a little like beating a dead horse. Women far smarter than I have provided incredibly cutting critiques of this movie and its portrayal white feminism, girlboss feminism, and capitalistic feminism.
#really weird that the genocide of indigenous people happened in Barbie Land too. I caught that Barbie Land Mt. Rushmore scene#no one making that movie probably thought of the implications of that#a part of me was wondering if I was Too Trans™️ for parts of this movie to make sense to me#because I have never understood the way we sort things into binaries and the way we gender things#So I was constantly like: '*This* is their masculinity?' There was no teeth in its critique of masculinity. Hell. There was no critique#there wasn't even a real critique of the patriarchy as a system of power or the masculinity it inspires#it was just a vague caricature of men and the idea 'Men don't understand us. They just talk at us rather than to us; mansplain and stuff...#...but they desire us and want our affection and attention so we can weaponize that to our advantage for our power.'#Umm...no you can't. They don't actually like you; they see you as a status symbol. You can't use a feature of the patriarchy to take it dow#whatever...#oh. also:#Me: ‘Oh my god. Look at all the fanny packs.’#my mother: ‘Do you see they’re in a Metallica font?’#‘Yes…’#‘You know what Metallica’s logo looks like right?’#‘Yes.’#‘So you get it?’#*blinks* ‘…No.’#‘🙄 So you don’t know what it looks like.’ *proceeds to show me a picture of the Metallica logo*#‘Okay. Yeah. Looks cool? I suppose they chose that font because of that.’#‘They chose it because it’s masculine.’#‘Huh? What?’#‘Have you even heard Metallica before?’#‘Yup.’#‘So you know it’s music for men.’#‘Umm… I don’t know about that. I think any one can like their music. I get it’s a band of white men but anyone can like metal & that genre.#‘🙄 It’s men’s music. That’s the point.’#‘Is it? Or have the Kens just appropriated anything they think ‘looks cool’ and proclaimed it as something ‘for’ men?’#(like— I got the impression they were just repeating what they saw and heard#did the creators think Metallica is 'for men' or did they recognize men's tendency to appropriate and gatekeep?)
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