#pandrogyne

[disease]

GENESIS P-ORRIDGE & LADY JAYE [NYC, 2000s]

[braveexhibitions]

Genesis Breyer P. Oriddge

[heinstress]

THEE MAJESTY

[your-bigender-big-brother]

Today's Gender of the Day is: Pandrogyne!

Pandrogyny is the idea of neutralizing gender as a potential future for the human species, and is the conscious embracing of gender roles, sexual orientations, or cultural traditions so as to render the person’s original identity completely indecipherable. It predates the term ambinique, which is the blending and blurring of society's gender expectations and gender roles into a uniquely new future gender - one focuses on the eradication of gender while the other focuses on an entirely new type of gender.

"Pandrogyny" comes from the words pan- for "all" and androgyny, but it goes far beyond the idea of its root words and is not the same as androgyny or being an androgyne.

While it is technically a neutral identity, it goes beyond the idea of being transgender or gender nonconforming - thus, it can't quite be called a nonbinary identity, but rather an anti-binary identity. It is seen as an art form that transforms the body into something new and transcends the gender binary. When identities blend to become one idea that is separate and indistinguishable from the original, that is pandrogyny.

(Note: Pandrogyny is the noun form, pandrogynous is the adjective, and pandrogyne is the word for a pandrogynous person.)

[losergendered]

ID: a set of two images. the first is of nils with a white outline in front of a flag splice of cutes listed identities. the second is a blank flag splice. nils/decora has pink skin and pink hair in two pigtails. fae is wearing pink cat ear headphones, a pink spiked choker, and a strawberry dress. END ID

Nils/Decora, who uses it/cute/doll/fae, is an adorbian, agendercute, agerehoarder, androgyne, autipinkic, babyboypenamic, bespregender, bilesbianarchic, chronipinkic, cinnamogender, cutefluid, decoradearu, decoragender, dousteleuic, duogender, erokawacoric, jirakeifugender, kandistimmic, monsterenergygender, pandrogyne, phostricksmodial, pindollitan, reclaiskyeic, softgirlaesic, squeukandic, superfibellula, tremadoric, twinstargender intersex boygirl with a gender hoard of over 700 labels! It is also an aesthetum, anisic aroace, autflux, byumasexual, gaybian, object-partnering, pan abro lesbian, plushum fae extranth P-DID host! Doll is alderpollint, kin with dolls, Jade Harley, The Little Prince, BMO, Eridan Ampora, Shouko Nishimiya, My Melody, Milk (Sanrio) and Ebony Dark'ness Dementia Raben Way, and has autism, ADHD, BPD, coulrophobia, contamination OCD, dermatillomania, dermatophagia, fluctuating empathy, health anxiety, H-EDS, hyperandrogenism, hypersexuality, IBS, MaDD, NPD, panophobia, POTS, and psychosis! It's an age regressor and has a special interest in Eurovision and extreme horror!

For @ethdamgender !

Picrew (link)

[morffyne]

[pxssagat]

We Are But One - Pandrogyne / TOPY / Psychic TV

[robbialy]

From • @pandrogyne “We don’t believe in any either/or maps of reality or behaviour. Never have. Improvising, exploration, pressing one’s own limits — that’s how we discover what might really be going on. Cut-up everything. Body, mind, flesh, identity — relentlessly break and short-circuit any form of control you can reveal or locate.” - Genesis Breyer P-Orridge, “Non-binary: A Memoir” (p.274) 📷 DM with info #genesisporridge #nonbinary #pandrogyne #throbbinggristle #psychictv #topy #topi #ptv #pride #abramsbooks https://www.instagram.com/p/CfrpgtODgXKpNiMG5lRKurihld1YBFAWYtH-1w0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[paintitblackdesign]

[arionomus]

Dreamcrusher - Pioneer Works

[disease]

THE PANDROGENY MANIFESTO | 2006 GENESIS P-ORRIDGE & LADY JAYE

[juniperscribe]

Very much not insta – from last weekend at the #genesisbreyerporridge show. Works that all revolved around the #pandrogyne project/relationship with #ladyjaye . Several years back there was a great Love & Radio (podcast) episode on it. It may now be behind a pay, but is well worth tracking down. #art #gallery #conceptualart #queerart #letterforms #throbbinggristle #psychictv (at Pioneer Works) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cf240KkMx_S/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[sunkern-plus]

not enbian as in "nonbinary as a singular third gender who presents androgynously/neutrally who desires other nonbinary people who do the same", but enbian as in "nonbinary person with a weird outherine xenine gender who loves the whole spectrum of nonbinary people"

[beaft]

since it's nostalgia hours tonight - i don't remember the first time i learned about gay people, but i do remember quite vividly the first time i learned about trans people. it was through fanfiction.net - i visited the page for an author i liked and discovered that they identified as both genderqueer and as a "pandrogyne", and had a male alter ego that they broke out for drag king performances.

i had to google just about every other word (i must have been about 12?), but once i figured out what it all meant, i was fascinated. i think i went back and visited their page about once a week, just to reread the bio and think about how cool and interesting this person was and how much i'd like to meet them. fucking wild to think that only a little over a decade ago that was the only trans representation i had ever seen, anywhere. equally wild to think about how a total stranger can massively impact your life without even knowing it. the internet is good sometimes, maybe

[outherworldlycoining]

MIDERIAN

[PT: miderian]

Definition

[PT: definition]

A monolexic term for midbinary, mainly, but not only, for those who do not like to describe their genders using a word that contains "binary" in it.

The counterpart of aphorian.

Flags

[PT: flags]

The diagonal flag.

[ID: A flag with thirteen diagonal stripes. In total it has seven colours. From the outermost stripes to the innermost one, these are: light read (2 stripes, one on the upper left and another in the lower right), right next to each there are two (one on each side) dark pink/magenta stripes, followed by a pair of lavender stripes. Next to each, there are two dark blue-violet stripes; beside them, nearing the middle, a pair of light blue stripes can be found, followed by a pair of dark turquoise stripes. Finally, the last and innermost stripe is a pastel teal one./END ID]

2. The five horizontal stripes flag

[ID: A flag with five horizontal stripes, each of a different colour. These, from top to bottom are: magenta, cyan, purple, blue, and pink /END ID]

How do I see and experience midbinary genders? A graph.

[PT: how do I see and experience midbinary genders? A graph]

[ID: An image with a transparent background and a trapezoid in the middle. Inside the trapezoid there are five shades, from bottom to top they are: In the lower left there's another trapezoid inside it, pink in colour with the number one written in the middle. In the lower right a third trapezoid, this one blue with the number two in it, can be found. Between the pink and blue trapezoids, a purple figure occuping the void space between the two + some space in the middle appears, containing a number three inside. Above it, there's an irregular cyan rectangle with a four inside. Latly, in the uppermost part of the trapezoid there's another one. This one is a pastel magenta and has a five inside it. /END ID]

As it can be seeing in the graph above, I would divide miderian/midbinary qualities into five primary categories:

1- Feminine genders, regardless if they are related to fiaty/lierinity or not, and fiagenders/lierine genders, regardless if they are related to femininity or not.

(Fiaty and lierinity are both terms to describe genders that are female or related, proximal, similar, derived or somehow connected to femaleness. Including woman, qupha, caiene, mione, juxera, erasque, etheria, etc)

2- Masculine gender, regardless if they are related to miaty/virinity or not, and miagenders/virine genders, regardless if they are related to masculinity or not.

(Miaty and virinity as both terms to describe male genders and genders derived, similar, proximal, related or somehow connected to maleness. Including (wer)men, terine, valene, proxvir, viresque, etherio, etc.)

3- Genders that are in between (without being the combination of) feminine and masculine genders, or between (without being a combination of) fiaty/lierinity and miaty/virinity. Mainly othergender androgynous or ambiguine genders.

(Examples: some androgynes, some ambiguines, proxangi, ambesque, angiesque, ambix, angix, troigue, etc)

4- Genders relared to epicenity or midbinary neutrality. Genders that feel like they are in the middle of the midbinary spectrum. Being simultaneously all midbinary qualities and neither at the same time.

(Examples: epicene, midbinary ambigue, unigender, juxtene, troicene, pandrogyne (original definition), etc)

5- Brand new midbinary genders that are fully distinct from feminine and masculine and/or fia/lierine and mia/virine genders, and rather than existing in between those dichotomies, exist completely separared from them. Qualities that can be described as midbinary outherinities (itherinities), like for example altraeninity.

(Examples: daen, ambinique, proxaen, trinäq, etc)

This graph doesn't take into account combinatory qualities and genders like, femache, gynx, androx, etc. because it focuses only on primary, non-combined, qualities and genders.

As an amphinitique, I actually experience the combinatory qualities and genders rather than the non-combinatory ones expressed in the graph. The graph, thus, represents the qualities that form the gender qualities I experience, rather than the qualities I experience themselves.

I'm simultaneously both miderian and aphorian, and I see the qualities I experience and the qualities that form them to kinda exist in a mirrorred fashion. For every miderian gender I have, there's an aphorian counterpart, and vice versa.

[sympolite]

this is absolutely apropos of the "was kurt cobain trans" discourse that always happens Every Fucking February 20th And April 5th. it's a lot of messy, angry, teary-eyed hollering about Kurt and me and how i discovered myself and why i decided to live, but also why people fucking hate thinking of being trans as a positive thing and why i hate that. cw for suicidal ideation, some drug usage, and transphobia.

so it's 2010. i'm 15 and in a suburban high school. i'm stuck in the liminal space of understanding that i was a trans woman, but also understanding that all i had was a feeling of being disconnected from my body. i had this inexplicable jealousy and yearning to be like all the moody grunge-lite girls that dissected roadkill and stank of menthols and weed. i had moved on from considering myself just a sad, apathetic cis boy with a sensitive side and projecting onto Dead from Mayhem. the hypermachismo of heavy metal was a place i was never welcome, but the anger and angst of being forcibly masculinized was still with me. cue Kurt Cobain.

Kurt Cobain was the new fixation the moment I heard Bleach (via Mayhem's Deathcrush EP and Melvins' Ozma). i tore my pants at the knees, i fell in love even harder with my guitar, and i always got shoved into the urinals by all the scene boys for being an "off-trend homo" with pink nail polish i borrowed from the girls at lunch. the irony of being too girly for guys who wore makeup wasn't lost on me.

so I found myself scouring his journals, seeing how much he talked about being effeminate, growing breasts, hating machismo, being an ardent feminist, revering women, wearing dresses in his private life, and I said to myself, "fuck, this sounds so much like me. Maybe I can get away with being a self-loathing closeted trans woman if this is what it looks like. Maybe he was like me, too."

which, i shouldn't have to stop and do the Spongebob Flying Ice Cream Truck bit and say i'm not imposing my identity onto Kurt fucking Cobain. frankly, i think that's both a loaded accusation and a nonsensical one. in a world where being trans is a non-issue, this would be a non-issue, but alas, this is the "trans women get banned for selfies" site.

it's almost always treated like it's a sin to wonder if a historical figure might've called themself trans, given the chance to, by analyzing their own words and thoughts about themselves, the way they presented themselves in their daily life and art, everything. interestingly, speculating if someone might have been gay/lesbian in the same way is treated with no moral weight, as if we all live in a world where everyone is openly, happily pansexual and that has no bearing on any other part of your identity.

it especially sucks to see from other trans people. i get that patriarchy constantly imposes its will onto our bodies, our minds, our relationships with ourselves and each other and all of culture, i really do. god knows that's stunted all of us in a lot of ways. but that said, do you really think that's the same thing as looking at someone having internal conflicts so much like yours and saying "huh, i wonder if they could have been like me?" how is that "imposing your identity" onto someone? do you think you're going to plague this person with Curse Of Being Dysphoric decades after they died? get real.

"but Heather, what about trans musicians who are alive right now? what about back then?" yeah, i'm a trans musician; what about us? did you go and mosh with the guitarist/singer for Pollyanna (NJ) when you were so stoned you were vomiting out your three-decade depression spell? did you listen to Throbbing Gristle and daydream about being part of your own Pandrogyne project with the only other trans kid in your high school? do you actually care about trans musicians, or are you gonna post a listicle on Medium that reccs everyone Against Me and Cavetown for the umpteenth fucking time? spare me! there's an hour left for Bandcamp Friday, actually - go throw your spare change at some of us if you're that concerned!

i'unno. i'm mad because frankly, i think we as trans people really love to hate ourselves on behalf of patriarchy and wrap it in a veneer of... whatever fucking sociological buzzword is hot right now. anything to convince ourselves that seeing ourselves in people we admire is bad, helping people learn more about themselves as trans people is bad, letting trans people make their own judgements is bad, being trans is bad, bad, bad. eventually you internalize that being alive means being trans, and if being trans is bad, being alive must be bad. if i hated being alive that much, maybe I was like Kurt. too much. i knew the combination to my dad's safe. i knew how to use a shotgun. i knew how to disappear into Northern Michigan.

but i knew how to stop hating myself, too. i'm a math major, kinda. i calculated the number of days it would take me to outlive Kurt. the date figured out to be April 6th, 2022. i said to myself "girl, if you can fucking make it that much further, you have to stop coasting on high-dose edibles every fucking night. you have to go on HRT. you have to love yourself. you have to live."

it's been thirty years since he died, and two years since i decided to take estrogen. i'm finally starting to see myself as a person with her own complicated life, her own shortcomings, her own successes, and her own reason for being alive: i just... have to, y'know? why shouldn't i be? i can't be happy if i'm dead.

i like to think Kurt was the same way: just another flawed human being with his own complications and crowning achievements, as different as they are from mine. i don't really see myself in him anymore. i see myself within me, and that's the best place for me to be.