#please accept my apologies

[season-77]

I watched 'Prelude' again yesterday, just for no reason...

okay, you got me, I wanted to ogle at Morse in his blue coat...

But that scene always makes me feel sorry for Strange... The harder he tries to take Morse's place, the worse it turns out for him ...

And the look on Thursday's face when Strange asked what he had on his sandwich today...

[lakeofsilverpike]

Rewatching the first three episodes. Today I am struck by the scene in 2x01 with Lan and Tomas. I have some angsty thoughts to share:

Lan says, “She wants me to leave.” I want to suggest that perhaps before Moiraine started trying to push Lan away by saying cruel things and ignoring him, she may have actually had a conversation in which she explained that she wants him to leave to protect him. He said no, and after a few more iterations of that conversation, Moiraine acknowledged to herself what she always knew, that asking wouldn’t work. That she would have to be so cruel as to drive Lan away from her.

It just makes my heart break more for her. Moiraine who maybe gave it a go with words, hoping she and Lan could part with their relationship intact, with words of love, and without Lan thinking she hates him. But Lan of course refused to leave and so Moiraine felt she had no choice but to push him away to try to save his life.

Lan tells Tomas that Lan needed the bond to tell him when “[Moiraine’s] tired, she’s hungry, she’s angry, she’s afraid.” It’s interesting to me that Moiraine can obviously still read Lan perfectly. Each jab and insult and attempt to push him away reflects her absolute understanding of him and what he’s feeling.

Lan tells Tomas that he is almost as stubborn as Moiraine. It’s like Lan knows he’s going to give in already, can feel that he’s let Moiraine wear him down. I’ve struggled with fully grasping why Lan is having trouble reading Moiraine here. I understand fully that he is hurt by her actions. I even understand why he might leave. But understanding why she was acting as she was - that seems to obvious. Lan, should be able to understand easily, should know that of course Moiraine does not believe he is beneath her or that he failed her. Just knowing Moiraine for twenty years, he should know. Looking at her face, her ridiculously expressive and open face as she speaks of meeting him. Lan should know her feelings for him and why she is acting as she is. There should be no doubt.

I think I’ve settled on a reading of Lan that he would normally be able to read Moiraine perfectly well without the bond, but he is so consumed by his own feelings of failure and guilt that he is unable to focus on Moiraine and her feelings and motivations fully. He feels he failed Moiraine. He gave in to his wish for a night of pleasure and that choice allowed Moiraine a chance to mask the bond when he would think that normal. Lan cannot get through to Moiraine. He cannot get her to talk to him. He cannot help ease her pain. He cannot give her back what she lost. And he takes this as his failure and focuses on himself and how he’s failed.

When Verin and Tomas at dinner encourage Lan to just sit with Moiraine and support her, this is what they are seeing. Lan’s guilt, while focused on Moiraine and his desire to help her, actually obscures him to what she is actually feeling and what she needs. He focuses on himself, what he’s done wrong, how he’s fails her, what Moiraine’s actions mean about him. And he struggles to see what her actions mean about her, her deep love for him, her willingness to sacrifice his love and support if it means Lan will live. Moiraine is simultaneously trying to cope with a tremendous loss and trying to push away Lan to save him. And I don’t think he fully sees this or understands it.

Sitting with Moiraine in silence may not have gotten Moiraine to be less determined to push Lan away as she believes it’s the only way to save his life. It may not have made her talk to Lan. But Lan sitting there and thinking about Moiraine, being open to seeing Moiraine, really seeing her as Lan has for twenty years, may have allowed him to understand Moiraine’s motivations. But I think he was too focused on what Moiraine’s pain and loss meant about Lan and who he is and his perceived failures. And ultimately that is what keeps him from understanding Moiraine in this moment and why she is doing what she is.

This is not a Lan blaming post. He’s doing his best. And Moiraine does know him incredibly well and can read him perfectly and so she hurts him with perfect precision. But man does she need a hug. Because Adeleas is right when she says Lan is taking things too personally. He blames himself for Moiraine being hurt because the loss of the bond impacts him and his feelings about his role in life, he is unable to truly see Moiraine. A woman who is coping with a life altering loss and also trying to save Lan and in doing so denying herself any support. Someone go hug Moiraine!

[pipstr]

I decided to reupload this post because of misunderstanding that it caused. (English is not my native so sometimes I make mistakes with translations)

652 chapter when he says it btw

[okwonyo]

today's release was so embarrassing and disappointing i apologize.. i will delete it soon and i promise i will post something better tomorrow (/ _ ; )

[stinglesswasp]

Forehead smooches 💋

It's important to smooch your Soap at least once per day <3

[amikoroyaiart]

'It's okay, you can rest. I am not going anywhere.'

[zorosdimples]

mdni - a messy zoro thirst that is a continuation of this thought (zoro has an oral fixation) <3 reader has breasts and a vagina.

maybe it’s because he always has a sword in that smart ass mouth of his. maybe it’s because he can’t simply sit still—he needs to keep some part of his body moving. maybe it’s because he spent well over two decades of his life without physical affection.

whatever it is, when you’re alone with zoro, he’s bound to get his mouth on you one way or another.

“stop bein’ difficult,” zoro huffs as he hovers over you, the faintest lilt of amusement lacing his tone. a hulking hand crosshatched with scars encircles both of your wrists, pinning them above you to rest on the wooden floor.

the swordsman is so strong that jerking your arms with all your might doesn’t move his steel grip an inch. he licks his lips and they split into a devious grin, cheeks dimpling.

“zoroooo. m’tired,” you whine, resorting to an emotional plea.

“why’d you join me for night watch then, hm?” he taunts. the hand that isn’t restraining yours rests firmly on your belly.

“wanted to spend time with you.” your sweet admission makes his heart flutter, but he refuses to give you any latitude.

“and you are, baby,” he says smugly. his free hand dances down to the hem of your shirt, slipping underneath, rough fingertips grazing against your flesh to rest atop the waistband of your shorts.

the airy sigh you breathe lets him know that he has won, but his hand doesn’t move any further, his lone eye searching yours for approval. he tsks as you hold his gaze in defiance. he shifts to bring a large knee up to rest snugly between your soft thighs and chuckles when you stifle a moan.

“c’mon,” he entreats, resting his forehead hotly against yours. “let me have a treat since i’ve gotta stay up all night.”

“fine,” you whisper, too tired and riled up to hold him off any longer, no bite to your voice.

the word has barely left your lips before he pulls down your shorts and underwear and presses your knees to your chest. zoro brings his face down to your sticky cunt, hot breath and intense stare sending a shiver through your body. his eye flickers up to yours and doesn’t waver as he lets a glistening string of spit drip from between his chapped lips onto your swollen clit. he dips down to smear the spit with a chaste kiss.

“jus’ enjoy,” he rasps before utterly devouring you until you’re a whimpering, overstimulated mess. after that he’ll nip at and suckle on your tits until he’s ready to go back down and suck on your clit until you cry.

you just have to take it.

[strawberrycartt]

The worst pirate you've ever heard of

Piece I made for @/mammonzine on twt

[bleaksqueak]

[khickuwa]

to more tomorrows.

[love4hobi]

j-hope through the eras:

We Are Bulletproof Pt.2 (2013)

[liusia-piu]

Киць-киць-киць-киця, киця-кицюня

Мур-мур-мур-мурка, мурка-манюня

[impossibleprincess35]

We have to talk about Bail Organa.

Because this dude has all the sauce, the rizz, the swag, the charisma, the whatever the kids are calling it these days.

Because this dude, with that hair cut and that facial hair, won over this bad bitch (and I give you both castings 'cause LOOK AT THEM):

And I just don't think we talk enough about how fucking awesome Queen Breha and Senator Bail Prestor Organa are.

[555bunnies]

💜💗🌌 New custom :D ! A space themed collie

[monstermoviedean]

sam externalizes blame for all the things he hates about himself and dean internalizes blame for his.

[smile-files]

there's something interesting to be said about how nickel's female friends have to constantly school him on how horrible he is but animationepic won't say it