#please don't make it easier

[skyberia]

I'VE GOT A FEELING YOU'VE BEEN SELLING ME OUT!

[every-moment-a-different-sound]

Today marks a year since I made my first gif!

I've gotten so much better since I quickly exported this gif a year ago. I hadn't planned on becoming a gifmaker at that point, I'd just wanted a gif for a post and so it's not edited at all. The entire thing took me about 30 minutes, and 29 of those were spent googling how to export a gif in Davinci Resolve 😂

But here's what I can do now:

The colouring and sizing and basically everything about it is so much better. And I'm still learning so much!! Just today I took a bit of time to learn more about the channel mixer in photoshop, and now I know so much more than I did this morning. I can't wait to spend another year learning even more and getting even better at making gifs!

And since I know some people enjoy seeing them, here's before and after of the gifs I made today:

Learning how to make gifs has been so much fun. I've met so many wonderful people because I started gifmaking, and I've had more fun in fandom than I have in years. So I just wanted to say a quick thanks to all the people in this fandom that have been so encouraging and kind and so incredibly generous with their time and support, you're all the best 💜

[keiksycake]

Hetalia Gangsta Chapter 541 (me!!)

The people have requested that I continue suffering, so please appreciate this scanlation that is made up of my tears and shame /j

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Btw I'm pretty sure the google street view of their house is not what Prussias looking at but just for our view and the lore

And here is the link for all the cleans again! (They're lazy and horrible this time but I decided to still include it in this post...)

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[qussymagnet]

QUARK PUSSY

If you are in the United States, please go vote! No matter what, please go vote! I'm begging you!

QUARK PUSSY

[swagveryswagamazinf]

misclickduo n slimeriana stuff I forgor to upload^_^

[camellcat]

first xander brought her back with human breath and determination... then willow with supernatural power and love.... smth smth two halves to keep their third in balance from drifting too far into either side and losing herself.....

[rosegoldthorns]

I just love the miscommunication circumstances with Damian and the Batfam -NOT bc he grew up in a cult- but bc he grew up in wide range of cultures that did not include the USA.

Like when he first joined the family, he refused to eat any of Alfred's cooking because it was "poisioned". In factuality it tasted bad to him because it was bland and English but since he had probably not cooked before damian could not articulate that it was just not spicy. Instead because it tasted weird he decided that it was poisoned and it went as well as one can expect.

It wasn't until he watched Alfred make it that he released it was just unseasoned and most defintely not poisoned, it was in fact so lacking of powers that Damain concluded that there is no way he could be poisoned accidentally even.

Just like stuff like that. Please give me multicultural shenanigans that confused the hell out of everyone.

[black-and-yellow]

The Video Game Boy

He's the portrait boy. He is the one who is a drawing

[ray-of-destiny]

zooble!!! this is probably the best tadc art iy've done so far! there are certain things iy'd change, but especially considering it was also the second zooble drawing iy'd ever done, it's really not bad!

reblogs > likes!

[lusty-morningstar-official]

You're so beautiful~

*They start moving their hands against Lucifer's bare skin gently*

-Angel anon

Mmm... I love how your hands feel~

[kreftropod]

Got 2dm of snow overnight and nowhere to be today, so settling in to re-watch all of the Wheel of Time show now that season 3 has released. Still makes me giddy that so many new people are getting introduced to the world of WoT through the show <3

[llycaons]

so many modern wx bdsm AUs are sooo generic though like I could flip through any modern AU tag for ANY popular m/m ship and find the same attitudes and dynamics. it's boringggggg

[sp-growingpains]

i saw yours tags in that stan post about alcoholism and i have to agree as someone who not only has family that are such, but also had friends that were as well. it’s scary. there have been times where i was scared of both those family members and friends. and to see stan’s being treated as a way for “angst” breaks my heart. he obviously uses it to cope because he has no other outlet, no other ways of dealing with stress and it sucks. also addictive personalities are a REAL THING and can be 100% serious if not treated, which is 90% what stan has as well…i wish this fandom would take that seriously. i really do. because it can end badly for him and offers if not taken as such. which is why i want to see more of stan recovering. taking the time to do so. be proud of it. that feels so much more rewarding to me! ( btw, i’m happy you managed to get help, you’re going to do great <3 )

TW: ALCOHOLISM, SEXUAL ASSAULT, MENTAL HEALTH - Once again, do not read further if you're not okay or you don't have the mental health for it! Okay?

Forgive me now if all my points don't come across correctly or if it feels like I'm rambling? For something like this, I should have written it out, proof read it, and then edited it. But it's all off the hip and a collection of thoughts I've had since I've gotten it.

We good? Okay...let's go!

Hey friend. I have not been ignoring this ask! I kinda wanted to hoard it like a little goblin in my inbox because, honestly? I am so very touched by it.

It is things like this that make me want to continue to talk about it. Trigger warnings are important for things like this, but it's also so very important to talk about it. When you it out there like this, people connect and come together.

And ya know? If it takes these little cartoon assholes to do it. That's fine. Do what works for you and brings you closer to other people.

Because really you know what saved me? Community.

It was other people. It was my therapist. It was a group of individuals who were fighting the same battle - or had. It was my friends and people who loved me.

It was shit like this. Things that got me out of my head! Obsession and addiction is a real thing and like all things in the world, moderation.

You can do it. You can learn discipline. You can move forward. You can overcome it and be better.

The scary thing about alcoholism is that most of the time, its a different experience for each person. It didn't start out as a problem for me. It started off as a few beers with some friends. Then it turned into a few beers every Friday and that started the slippery slope into drinking every weekend.

It's not always falling over yourself, throwing up on yourself, blacking out. I wanna make that clear. Mine was. Mine was also spending money I didn't have - money I could have put away for today.

When Stan was using it as a way to get out of his head and get through the day, that was one of the rare moments I felt heard. And it kinda scared me. I love that episode, but I struggle to get through it because it hits close. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?!

It's the end of the episode that one no one talks about! How he realized that he didn't need it to get through life! That people around him helped him get out of it! That experiencing new things in life and focusing up on hobbies helped him see color again. Life is scary. It's sometimes very lonely. It's hard.

I've seen some people talk about how Kyle was a horrible friend in that episode. Just like in Raisins when Stan was going through it. Just like in Guitar Queer-o when they had their fight. Once more into Freemium isn't free.

Look, in my opinion, that's the scariest fucking thing about addiction. I fully believe, from the bottom of my heart, no one is beyond saving from that. But those are MY ideals! There may be people who are just like me and feel the same. I would do anything for my best friend, and the people around me.

But you know what? I don't fucking blame Kyle or Stan for the outcome of those episodes. Because it's not Kyle's job to "fix" his best friend. In every episode, he does try! He tries to be a friend, and I'm gonna give Kyle some major props here, he calls him out on it!

When I was still an alcoholic, no one called me out for it. Why would they? They didn't know what was going on behind the scenes. They saw Ashe as this goofball who could pound back a bottle of whiskey and be "fine" the next day. They didn't know I was already thinking about my next drink and how amazing that felt, despite the splitting headache.

I liked me better when I drank. I liked the Ashe that I was. She was loose. He was funny. They weren't caught up in the fear of saying stupid and not being able to recover from it.

But I hated who I was the next day. I hated that I didn't take my life seriously. That I felt like no one would like me if I wasn't putting away as many cans of beer as possible.

That's incredibly sad and lonely. It felt like the only person who understood me was the bottle, and that wasn't the case. I just couldn't see it, and neither could the people I still call my best friends or my ex-fiancé.

I wish I had a Kyle then. Maybe things would have gotten better faster. I don't know.

I have heard so many real stories from other people. Lived it through watching family. It runs on both sides of my family, and because of that, I was able to come out the other side better. Like I said earlier, it's different for everyone. That's what makes people so wonderful. So fantastic.

No, the fact that we suffer or struggle - but who we are after. Your experience is not mine. I can sympathize. I can relate. But I'm not you.

So I tell my story. I talk about these portrayals in media. I try to be careful with my writing and my art because of it. Because if it changes just one person, it it helps just ONE individual; then I've done my job.

You gotta walk to get better. If you can't walk; you crawl. And if you can't crawl, you find someone to carry you.

Because you wanna know something that's so heart warming from that stupid fucking show about dicks and butts? Is that Kyle and Stan are always friends again. Kyle always welcomes Stan back. Stan learns more about his mental health, he learns how to regulate these desires! That's wonderful! That's so fucking wonderful.

I want that. I want to bring a media or a platform where people can feel that way too! I wanna be there for you, welcoming you back! I want a day where you can come out of any situation, having learned and become better for it. That you have a home, someone you feel safe with, and that you're alive!

Anon; I'm proud of you too! I am so very proud of you! You don't have to respond just please, please keep going. I know it's scary living through it, experiencing it, being around it.

Let me make this perfectly clear again. Those ideals and the way I feel are MINE. You owe nothing to people who hurt you. Nothing to people who would use this substance to harm and do unspeakable things! At the end of the day, you gotta live with you. Protect yourself, love yourself, and surround yourself with those who want to live with you, too!

I have been on the other end of a man who liked whiskey and four year olds a little too much. I have been on the other end of a mother who would rather spend her money on vodka and cigarettes instead of worrying about feeding her children. I have been on the other of the very real slippery slope of addiction. I walk on the other side of PTSD, Depression, Mania, and being Bi-Polar.

They do not define you. They are you, sure. But that is not all you are.

Your past with alcohol, your present with alcohol, your future with alcohol - that is not all you are. You are so many different shades of blues. And I love you.

[uncanny-tranny]

One tip I learned as a young kid that I use now for my IM injections is to relax the muscle I'm injecting into make it as painless as possible. The idea behind this is that when your muscles are less tense (i.e., when it is relaxed), the needle will have an easier time penetrating into it to administer medicine.

Here's how I, personally, relax my muscles for injection:

Put on music or a YouTube video that piques my interest

Make sure I am focused on exactly what I'm doing to ease my anxiety; basically, being intentional and mindful

Sit myself down since I inject into the thigh, then slightly position my foot further than I normally would when I sit

Jiggle my thigh a bit before prepping it with an alcohol wipe (I don't know why, but this helps me so much)

Take a deep breath before injection, making sure the injection needle is at a 90° angle

Look away! (helps because I have very shaky hands that get worse when I look at what Im doing. Do check on your progress as you push the plunger down, but I find I don't have to look to know now)

This will be different than if you do SQ injections, so this is geared toward folks who are doing IM. These tips are things I find, personally, to be helpful, and so I implore anybody reading to realistically explore if it would work for yourself.

[lunarharp]

figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..

[chronosbled]

{ Because of @hakusins, I now feel like properly expanding upon (female)Dickson's DoL variation after talking to her a little. I had the basics of an idea for Dickson, yes... her name is still Dickson because I don't like any female names I come up with for her and she will still go by the nickname Dick to others, but now after listening to a bunch of music and doing icons, I actively have a deeper idea for her. }

Basic Idea (that I came up with talking to @stestylius-arts): Dickson comes from a rich family where it's mainly just her and her grandfather. Said grandfather is a piece of shit though and does shady business in the city of DoL, also expecting her to do the same at some point and take up his company. But she's not really into doing bad shit just because. She'll do it for important things or just because of something she deems important to her. She's somewhat mentally unstable, but taking her medication keeps her from freaking out on others. Somewhat timid and has perfect grades.

Deepened Idea: Dickson comes from a very large rich family, but lives with her grandfather, guardian and half-cousin. Said grandfather is a piece of shit and does shady business in the city of DoL, also expecting her to do the same at some point and take up the company — said shady shit being human trafficking, black market trade, human experimentation, organ hunting, illegal drug production and sales, kidnapping, assassination, prostitution, and more. Instead of Dickson's grandfather or guardian being in charge of the dirty work, Dickson is the one who handles everything. Due to the way she was raised, Dickson has no problem getting her hands dirty whether it's slicing someone open and harvesting their organs or sleeping with rivals for information and killing them afterwards, everything is free gain to her. Additionally, she serves as a scientist within her grandfather's company and a makeshift doctor. She's extremely mentally unstable, but retains a perfectly normal reputation within the city of DoL, leading many to believe she is a compassionate person. She retains perfect grades at school and appears to be extremely friendly, but be warned, making friends with Dickson doesn't always end well for all those involved. Due to never experiencing any type of kindness or compassion in her life, she is prone to falling head over heels for those that try their best to look out for her — resulting in her to develop obsessive and possessive mannerisms towards her target of affection, often following them around without them knowing or bestowing them with constant gifts — but surely she has nothing to do with the sudden disappearances of those who are malicious towards you, right? There's no way Dickson could ever be a serial killer... right?