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PLEASE for the love of GOD, LET AMY BE GIRLY IN STH 4
#and don't let Ian Flynn anywhere near the writing team#Sonic the hedgehog#Sonic the hedgehog movie#sonic movie#Sonic the hedgehog 4#Amy Rose#i just want to have a girly role model without people going#“uhm actually by letting this girl wear a dress and like the colour pink and have a crush and blah blah blah ur actually pushing stereotype#onto young girls“#im soo sick of hashtag girlboss#i want to see a weird girl get to be girly without anyone raining on her parade#please for all things good and holy#sonic movie 4#also sick of “reverse sonamy” but thats a rant for another day
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— it was all for Lu Guang?
Link Click Live Action (2024)
#link click live action#时光代理人#link click#liu chang#cdramaedit#screaming crying throwing up fr#any time i use this phrase going forward please imagine this scene#like holy fuck man#my gifs#synco talks#i think everyone needs to experience the jumpscare. i hope the gif baits you to watch#i like how after his scream his face kinda goes back to his usual expression#can't have sound but i also love how his voice pitches when he's like “cheng xiaoshi. can i... ask you a question? 🥺 ”#also love how cxs has to lean away as he approaches#he looks good with untied hair ngl#it's all just so. delightfully unhinged good job#the main lcla trailer juxtaposes this shot of him throwing the thing here with the same thing happening in arc 1#super blink and youll miss it#lc has enough smug villains give me sopping wet meow meow villains#man's never beating the scorned jealous lover allegations. sorry that shiguang are soulmates in the show called shiguang agents#anyway watch lcla
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#ok besties please pray for me about the following things:#1) i just got home from my grandpa's funeral and can we pretend you knew the whole time and don't need to say anything#for whatever reason it is not something i'm wanting to process online or even really with in person friends#all's well and he's with the Lord and the funeral itself was gorgeous#but there's various pain and grieving in the family and also the family time gave me a good bit to think about#2) i have 8 days before visiting family ~again~ for a bridal shower in ohio#and leading up to this trip i was sick and the trip was moderately exhausting#and i'm feeling more and more urgently the need to actually let my body rest but the obstacles are constant#and during those 8 days i need to do a great deal of dissertation writing and editing#plus you know. easter#3) i just got sent an apartment listing for where i am moving and it feels real and pressureful in a new way#both the stress of should i go for this one do i want to deal with the problems?#and the sadness of committing to something new and letting go of here.#both those things i believe will be helped by me getting inside and eating dinner so i will be doing that soon#on the praise side this puts me close to some of my grandpa's siblings#who were all at the funeral and so excited for me#i really really love and admire that side of the family more the more i know them#they were also a really big family and very hardworking and faithful and! good at celebrating together!#ok that's all i love you guys. if there's any week to be processing big questions and having a funeral it's holy week
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Please excuse the smudginess we used tracing paper for detailed drawing, because no way we were going to risk putting an eraser to the only copy of our sketch when it contains FOUR people at once and just figuring out the anatomy took us an hour.
Also took the liberty of inserting ourselves in there because again. FOUR people, when there's only three blorbos we wanna draw, so... why ever not at this stage? We're hanging out with the blorbos now. We've earned it
#saltposting#saltdrawing#draweverythingjune2025#death note#Okay this is where I switch to French because the sweat blood and tears that went into this drawing cannot be conveyed in English:#LA PUTAIN DE SA GROSSE RACE DE NIQUE SA MÈRE. 4 PERSONNES À DESSINER ????? UN MARDI ?? LE MILIEU DE SEMAINE ????#IL FAIT 28 FUCKING DEGRÉS DANS MON APPART ET JE DOIS DESSINER 4 GENS D'UN COUP ????? ALED OSCOUR ????? CHIER DE MERDE#<- That was me when I saw the prompt. And like it was worth it but holy shit y'all. Holy shit. What the fuck.#Really happy with the result despite the numerous approximations and “eh fuck it it's good enough”s that happened#like. Look at this. Look at this fucking thing that I spent three hours of our life making. It's good. Look at it#I'm experiencing first-hand kismesissitude with it. Didn't *not* have fun but Jesus Christ my fucking God I would not have CHOSEN this#sorry. Not feeling entirely sane I think I need to go lay down it's too warm and I was laser focused for too long lmao#Oh also!! All that practice drawing everybody's clothes and faces earlier in the month came in handy#all we absolutely needed to look up was whatever happens with the collar of Near's shirt. Everything else good enough from memory#would some of it have been better with a reference absolutely. Did I want to hunt down references we didn't already have at hand?#Honestly hell the fuck no!!!!#Like genuinely I loved drawing this and I had fun and I love looking at it now but. My brain. My poor brain. Melting and dying#But please!!!!!! Look at it.#Also 2 had a really weird moment drawing our face because before I added the glasses it was like “wtf that's our mum”#(like that was a good sign wrt having gotten the face right because our mum and we look so extremely related to the point of absurdity#like people who've not seen us since we were kids know who we are because they remember her and we look so much like her#but that was really fucking weird lol. Then I added glasses and that fixed it but xjkgjfg that was funky)#Also 3 everybody's wearing socks because that was the absolute easiest VS figuring out shoes or feet. But like. It's DONE.#Which is making me notice I forgot to add burn scarring to Mello's arm but I sincerely absolutely cannot be arsed to fix that right now#please pretend it's there thank you so much. If you've read the whole tags thank you. I'm gonna go lay down now
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very invisible but very mean audience
#i might mean nonexistent#but they kinda do#in my brain#i just???? gOD im so scared to draw#like why the fuck am i even doing this#im not even good at it for the time i spent doing it#which is more than a decade#and i know it’s shit and stupid thinking#but theres always always always an audience whenever i do smth#moreso when i draw#but literally whenever i do anything at all#and theyre all fucking mocking me#and laughing at me#and its just been like this ever since i was a kid#just…oh my god can it please fucking shut up#im not drawing for anyone at all but my#stupid ass fucking brain cannot be convinced#ahahahahaha fucK#lord why did u make me scared of nonexistent things#wHEN#when will i finally feel like ive achieved smth#as a fucking artist#holy shit it’s never ending
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Sorry I can't get over that Moment Abby and Sam had. You want me to continue watching this show as if I'm Being Normal??? You want me to think about other character's plotlines when THIS just happened????? Who do you think I am??? give me more of this holy shit
#it was such a short moment too#oh my goodness i need So Much More of this#oh please PLEASE#i think i rewatched the scene no joke at least 20 times#now i'm trying to continue watching the show but i can't#i need time to recover#something So Sapphic just happened on my screen and you want me to just MOVE ON????#and then you give me straight people scenes????#i need to drink some water#i can't deal with this right now holy shit whaow#i need to continue the show to see if there's more god I HOPE THERE'S MORE but i'm really too into my lesbian feels to watch all the other#in between stuff right now#sorry this is doing big sapphic things to me this is so special to me right now#lea's random thoughts#ginny and georgia#ginny & georgia#abby littman
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In PZ I am now in the absolutely FASCINATING position of possibly having too many calories. Because one (1) of my sheep has some kind of mutation (I checked her genetics in debug bc I was like 'that cannot be normal') where she produces enough milk for like THREE STICKS OF BUTTER PER DIEM. ON HER OWN.
Bless Butterball, literally all I will need to make it through winter (if I survive that long) fat and happy is her and the fishing pond.
However, I have her and chickens and several other sheep and some cows.
The cows are not producing milk, unsure what's up with that, but like. They do not need to. They can just produce more cows, eventually. Even that's not that important because I have traps and the aforementioned fishing pond.
#I hope I live because now I have named one of the sheep and I'm Invested#like#I have to live and make bigger pastures. for my sheep. and her little sheep descendants.#I am less emotionally invested in the cows so far but may get there we'll see#so far I'm mostly like 'sheep are clearly and by a great margin the best thing you can have in this game'#they produce milk AND wool AND you can pick them up to move them#moving cows is highkey annoying#I actually went into the game files to up the container limit on animal trailers#bc I was like#are you actually trying to tell me that during a desperate situation I am only putting one cow in a two-animal trailer.#please be serious.#and they may eventually rebalance this but at present I'm like 'why would I bother with pigs all they produce is meat'#now if they turn them into corpse disposal systems I will revisit that#but I'm really not sure feeding livestock you intend to eat zombies is a good idea#the zomboid virus isn't zoonotic in game but if this was real life I would be very worried about that#now imagining zombie pigs and holy shit that's horrific I'm deleting that thought#feral pigs are bad enough thank you they do NOT need to be Worse and Scarier#tea plays too many games#project zomboid
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i feel as if im going mad so im going to just put this out here. real quick. movieunleashers starters ramble.
i cant stop thinking about how mudkip broke down in that one scene in "Typomaniac," when Chespin called him mean. for a second he lets his mask slip a little bit and to me he just... acts his age. he starts crying and calls chespin mean back. maybe im just hyperfocusing on this one detail but mudkip is about 12 years old.
and that just makes me wonder what happened in this guys life that brought him to where he is now. and it makes it all the more tragic how his whole world revolves around chespin, but he is the one bringing him the most pain. and how young he was when he died.
there is a large theme of growing up in "Rare Candy." the characters ages are emphasized in that particular episode, and one of the main conflicts is fennekin wanting to evolve faster.
the thing about characters in these stories is that they're not allowed to just be kids, to have a childhood. so many bad things happen to them. like. mudkips whole, Everything. fennekin when she was famous in typomaniac, or dealing with her own insecurities/pressure from society about her relationship w chespin. and chespin always having to shoulder his friends problems & always somehow managing to stay positive despite everything.
why cant they just. play video games. eat ice cream or something. go to the movies
at the end of the day, i think both mudkip and fennekin are characters who grew up too fast. by distancing himself from them, chespin refused to follow in their footsteps and just wanted to stay a kid.
good for him.
#starters movieunleashers#rambles#long post#mudkip starters#fennekin starters#chespin starters#NOT TO SAY THAT BEING 12 YEARS OLD ABSOLVES YOU OF ALL CRIME BUT GOOD GOD#i honestly think it was good for chespin to distance himself from them??? especially mudkip. holy cow#he seemed... happier(?) in wild oranberries but tbf its hard to say for sure#bc chespin loves doing this thing called “lying”#also. i saw the end credits sequence#not sure how to feel about it i do not have enough information to go off of#but i suppose itll make more sense... all in due time#but going back to what i said earlier i think the issues a lot more complicated#i worry about chespin that boys friendship is basically just “i can fix him!” like girl. no#THEY ALL NEED THERAPY#INCLUDING THE GANG FROM LAVENDER TOWN#*ESPECIALLY* THOSE GUYS#please. ill cry#i cant help but think this will all end in tragedy#i hope mudkip gets a good ending or at least a bittersweet one#like again. he kills people. but hes also like not even in high school and i feel bad for all of them#anyways IM SORRH GOR YHE LONG RAMBLE I RLLY LIKE THIS SERIES??? AND THIS THOUGHT WAS EATING ME ALIVE SO I RLLY WANTED TO SAY IT#hey gang. new hyperfixation#hm. i should also mention the “watching his close friend die on front of him and feeling responsible for it” to the list of chespins traumas#i domt think fennekin was a “bad friend” as much as i think she just had her owm things toing on#and its entirely chespins choice to dostance himself from her
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// hopping in again because 2 am is in the timeframe where i become so hyper on accidentally finding vibes like a nocturnal predator
. https://youtu.be/8Gopg80VXwc?si=j_vS5a5xUWvgiBRC
somehow sounds like t.i
// ASHES ASHES DUST TO DUST THE DEVIL'S AFTER THE BOTH OF US //

#[ ooc ]#i have Never heard of this song until now and now i'm obsessed holy fuck holy shit#“tell me i am good enough” me when i am a random doll who wants to please everyone to the point it's a source of manipulation#from the parasites in my brain#by making me think i'm being useful when i do things for them while also not hesitating to put me down when i fail#( i easily accept these words because i truly believe that everyone else's wellbeing is more important than mine#and do not like being seen as a failure or useless because it makes me do feel worthless#as i lack internal validation for myself#so everything is a personal failure on my part even when it isn't )#i hollow out my being for the people that only serves to take and take and i fully let them do it#it's what is 'good' for me after all - at least that's what they tell me#... yeah here's some psychology
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man. the most persistently irritating thing about daniel emond's "kill the whale" is how fucking GOOD it is at times.
every day I think about The Quarterdeck and how phenomenally it portrays that scene and the magnetism of agreeing to Ahab's quest even despite fear, and Dusk and the subplot of Starbuck falling in love with Ahab and being terrified of what that means, but ESPECIALLY Fedallah's introduction song where Fedallah is presented as a woman with agency, who looks the audience in the face and dares us to judge her for the life she has chosen.
Fedallah is presented as the captain's lover, the captain's party trick and pleasure, and owns the shitshow she lives in, and only chooses to reject that life once she tires of Ahab's fetishization and exotification of her, and then uses the very thing Ahab fetishizes so much (her prophecies) as a way to spell her own doom and drag Ahab down with her, freeing herself. The shivers I still feel when I hear Fedallah's triumphant crow of "come back here" as she sinks below the waves and Ahab watches in horror, knowing she is next.
that fucking ruled to a degree that shook me!!!!!!!!! and hearing Grace McLean and Amber Gray (and Danielle McKnight) duke it the fuck out through song was just genuinely magnificent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and then the narrative kicks you right in the throat by calling queequeg "q" for two hours straight and making his marriage to ishmael lowkey racist hate sex
#moby dick#kill the whale#daniel emond#daniel if u see this i do genuinely think you have such a fantastic musical brewing here i am being so serious#u 100% have my ticket if this ever goes live#but i am also on my hands and knees begging you to talk to a pasifika person about this for like one hour minimum Please#norman sann is incredible and deserves to be a huge part of this show do not get me wrong#but you need to figure out what you're doing with q because bro. if you join the long line of ppl denying pasifika rep in moby dick#notably the book with a protag love interest Who Is Pasifika#you will be FUMBLING an otherwise Incredible bag. holy shit.#(also as a personal note please make fedallah textually zoroastrian please gbdjfhdjfndj)#ok thats all#<- tags that might sound insane but this guy regularly looks himself up on line and has found ME specifically THRICE across dif. medias#so the chance of him seeing this is nonzero so. just covering my bases#anyways#mossy speaks#god fedallah in this show makes me INSANE 'you will not summon me and you can tell yourself your own bedtime stories' had me SCREAMING#it takes a LOT to get me to root against ahab#ESPECIALLY hot lady ahab?????? with the fuckinfkfnf. grace mcleans presence and her lowkey strip tease???? like dude i was so cooked#i got distracted. talking abt fedallah. anyways. dude the way she rallies against ahab is genuinely so subversive and brilliant#like THAT is good shit. why was the whole musical not this good. auaugrhrhhrhrhdhhhgjgjkgn#mobydick adaptations r so consistently bad to mid but with specific things that change your entire life sprinkled in and leave me like 🧍🧍#(not counting hayashida's album. that is genuinely flawless. no notes. 100% stand by it)#but this adaptation comes the closest to touching greatness. i just 😭i need it to be Better in the parts where its lacking. bc it has-#SO MUCH POTENTIAL. and the CAST????? AUGHGHHHHHBFJ. god. every one of them is divine#anyways yap session over im normal. ivr been thinking abt this for days but im normal now
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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YOU WERE RIGHT YOUR MANIFESTATION IS INSANEEEEEE
CHAMPION!!! 🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭 AND ON A HARD COURT
VAAAAAMOOOOOOS!!!! What a match that was!!! But tbf it looked like Jannik got in his head a bit at the end
The commentator saying Tennis is in good hands got me 🥹 it IS!!! can these two play every final ever :')
#can my manifestation also work on our scarlett car for the love of all things good and holy 😭#gods of luck please stick with us
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i knew things were going way too smooth lately..
#i truly fucking hate being alive when will this eeenndddddd#things were not that smooth at all but they were going up and that's never a good fucking sign for me#my job contact got extended until the end of the year and i found a nice little place to rent for a reasonable price#even got a fuckin pay raise that was unlikely and impossible as hell to happen and yet somehow it did#and now im bawling my fuckin eyes out because a friend im in love with got engaged#and i should be so fucking happy for her but I can't and i feel like pure shit because what kind of a friend am i#i fucking hate being in love it NEVER ends well i always catch feelings for the most impossible people ever#im so damn tired i want out#this past year and a half has been fuckin hell and i don't even know what's the point#im so damn tired#in barely held together by 3-5 more or less not that unhealthy coping mechanisms but they are starting to wear out and :)))#i genuinely don't know what to do to feel better. to feel fuckin anything other than being a miserable fuck#i want to enjoy my hobbies. want to enjoy anything literally but everything i do is just an obsessive distraction from my life#whatever man#i hate that i only come here to scream about my shitty life and whine about what made me cry in the past 2 weeks#i found some edits in my drafts from August might post them because why the fuck not 🤷🏻♀️ at least theres something skz related#but for now I'll just dip and keep wishing every night that I don't wake up in the next morning:'))#holy shit im such a whiny idiot. why. just why.#just keep ignoring my text posts please im embarrassing 😭#shut up vivien no one cares
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divisive thought here, but can we stop sexualizing Aziraphale and Crowley? I personally don't like it because they were the first cannon asexual characters I ever saw in media. I felt seen for the first time in my life and it gave young ace me the hope that I needed, to know that we are real and not just on the internet. Y'all are human beings with free will and can do whatever you want, but please remember that it hurts some of us when you sexualize the only representation we get. Idk if to call it ace erasure but when I have to go hunting for the asexual crowley/aziraphale tag on Ao3 it makes my heart sink a little.
-Love a passionate media loving apothiace person
#asexual#good omens#acespec#archive of our own#ao3 fanfic#asexual awareness#asexual awareness week#ace erasure#y'all have free will but please just keep us in mind#for the love of all things holy let the smut die#divisive opinion ik#you don't have to agree you have free will#just be kind#harrassment=blocked and reported
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hibike euphonium s3 ep 12 - HOLY SHIT
i was doing the "can i guess who's who" and from both narrative and sound editing and in-universe-vote perspective i was pretty sure kumiko was the second player so when rEINA PICKED THE FIRST-
#synco talks#hibike euphonium#i hope im not spamming a quiet tag sorry#that was a GOOD twist omg#i didnt see it coming but narratively it really does work. good job!#ok but “we all chose this team together” demonstrably false when half of them voted the other guy#also im obsessed with all the parallels going on all the time#i love parallels. parallels my beloved#wait yeah OF COURSE reina could recognize the sound wtf if even i could -#so im not surprised that she did know#but it is cool that the story is pretty good either way#'how would i not recognize your sound' AUGH screaming crying#HOLY SHIT NOT THE FINGERTIP PARALLEL AAAAAAAA#ok time to browse for the gifsets please gifmakers do your magic#why is this the prettiest thing ever#the vas are KILLING IT at their performance#oh THANK FUCK there's one more episode i wasn't sure if this was the season finale#what a good ep! what a good way of taking the story! 10/10#perhaps recency bias but honestly this might be my fave season yet. one story told very tightly#im so normal about this show augh#i wish this came out one year earlier so i would've actually bought merch at the little kyoto exhibit i saw#also - HOLY SHIT THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN IN THE ORIGINAL??#honestly narratively i do think this is a good change but oh mannn
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Hello! I am here to ask about your Dior headcanons re: the political cohesion of Doriath. 👀
Oh man, I didn't expect anyone to actually take me up on that!
(Okay so I got partway into writing this and then realized I should probably note up front that I tend to stick to the Silm (& LOTR/the Hobbit where applicable, but they... aren't, here) as the most authoritative version of canon, and I can get into why and where the nuances/exceptions are there (I do say tend to stick, it's not hard and fast!), but that's mostly a side note here: the point is simply that I don't really factor other drafts or the poetic Leithian into my take on Doriath, Thingol, Dior, etc, just what we're told in the actual Silm. I also read the Silm as an in-universe history text compiled by in-universe scholars, who, being people, are going to have their own biases and blind spots, even when they're doing their best to be accurate!)
So, this is a two-part thing: #1, there's the political cohesion of Doriath before & at the time of Thingol's death, which i talked about in the tags of the post that prompted this ask but is kind of necessary as context for the Dior part to make sense, and #2, there's the actual Dior headcanons. Both of these parts are very long because I've never really seen anyone else suggest any of this stuff and I want to explain where I'm coming from thoroughly enough that it actually makes sense to people who aren't me, but the TL;DRs:
TL;DR 1: I think Doriath was probably a hot mess politically after Thingol died, with tensions between various groups of Sindar and Laiquendi in the leadup to Thingol's death & Melian's departure, and more political tensions afterwards between those who wanted Beren & Lúthien to come be the new rulers, and those who thought they should stay gone, with someone still in Doriath taking over.
TL;DR 2: I think Dior became Eluchil, potentially at the request of some portion of the Iathrim, hoping to help prevent Doriath from devolving into civil war, and saw dealing with the Silmaril-F��anorioni situation as a lower priority than stabilizing Doriath's internal political situation until it was too late.
1. The political cohesion (or rather, lack thereof) in Doriath prior to Thingol's death
So, okay, the thing about Doriath is that we don't actually have any real idea of like... how much the Iathrim liked being the Iathrim? We're never told about any intra-Iathrim conflict, but a) the Silm was probably compiled mostly by surviving Gondolindrim or their descendants, so they wouldn't know about anything liike that unless surviving Iathrim told them, and after the Second Kinslaying I don't imagine many Iathrim would've been eager to talk about how things had actually been tense/messy/etc when they could remember everything as having been perfect until it was ruined by the Fëanorionrim, and doubly so after the Third Kinslaying, so why would anything like that make it into the Silm?
and b) what we do know about Doriath is that it wasn't really Doriath as we know it until Morgoth came back to Middle-earth, and everything went to hell.
At the start of the first age, you suddenly get Doriath (the fenced land!) being the one protected area of a continent that used to be totally free and open. How many Sindar actually didn't particularly care for Thingol's style of leadership, or simply preferred to live nomadic lives, going basically wherever they pleased, until suddenly that wasn't safe anymore, and you were only guaranteed survival if you were close enough to Menegroth to be within the Girdle when it went up? ditto how many Laiquendi had no interest in swearing loyalty to Thingol right after their own king had just been killed, but again, made it to safety and stayed there over taking their chances on their own in the outside world? (None of this is meant as any insult to Thingol himself, by the way; he can have been a good king who did his best for his people and still rubbed some of his new subjects-by-necessity the wrong way, through no fault of his own or theirs.)
I think it's entirely possible that there were always potential political tensions under the surface in Doriath that just... never got written about, because they never boiled over into actual political conflict, and so it was never the sort of tension that had any bearing on the historical record.
Except then Beren & Lúthien happen to the world, and a few years later the Narn, and in the blink of an eye suddenly the only king Doriath has ever had is dead, and the only queen Doriath has ever had is gone and the Girdle with her—and more than that, the only rulers the Sindar had ever had for three thousand years before Doriath existed.
And where a few years earlier I think the Iathrim would probably have turned pretty universally to Lúthien, now she's abandoned them for her human husband—and while she's my favorite character in the entire legendarium hands-down and I don't blame her, I think that's another place there might have actually been some very mixed feelings among the Iathrim that nobody wanted to admit to later because how could anyone have been upset with Lúthien—and on top of her abandoning them for him, I think it's extremely probable most of Doriath did not actually get over their xenophobia about humans in general or Beren in specific when Thingol did (we know for sure at least some of Doriath didn't, cf. Saeros insulting Túrin's mother & sister to his face), but again, who's going to admit to having had a grudge against the holy couple of Middle-earth after the fact, you know?
Conversely, there could've been a sizeable faction of Sindar who had been totally loyal to Thingol until everything happened with Beren & Lúthien, but who found his actions towards them and/or Finrod to be where they drew the line, and while (unlike B&L themselves) that faction stayed in Doriath, there could've been a new, additional tension on that front.
Finally, for all we know there were multiple factions within the Laiquendi of Doriath, with political tensions stretching back to before their king died, rooted in who-even-knows!
2. Dior
All of that, of course, sets up a very, very messy political situation for Dior to walk into.
The Doriath stuff is arguably more speculation than actual headcanon, but here's where the unambiguous headcanons come in: I don't think "Dior Eluchil set himself to raise anew the glory of the kingdom of Doriath." Obviously that's how it got written down, but bluntly, I can't see Beren and Lúthien having a kid that stupid or, like, power-hungry and arrogant?
What I can see is a situation where the messenger that brought word of Thingol's death and Melian's departure asked Beren & Lúthien to come take over as the new king and queen, we promise we're not mad about you leaving and we won't be xenophobic to your husband anymore we swear it's fine now pretty please, Beren & Lúthien said no, and the messenger either asked Dior as a second choice, or said "okay fine none of that was actually true but Doriath is falling apart and we need a leader ASAP and there's about eight different contenders* (mostly kinsmen of Thingol or Laiquendi) being backed by various factions and it's going to devolve into civil war any minute so if you care at all—" and Dior said "would I do?"
(* Ask me about my Galadriel headcanon)
I don't think Dior necessarily wanted to be king of Doriath, and I don't think he saw the throne as his birthright or anything like that; I don't think anyone involved, from Thingol to Lúthien to Dior himself, ever considered the possibility of Thingol dying and needing an heir! I think it's possible he was asked, or at most that he offered, and either way, I think he saw becoming king as taking on a responsibility for the sake of others.
(Which, like, "well here's a potentially impossible task that I'm going to take up even though probably no one thinks I'm actually capable of it, but it's my duty to help others as best I can" sure does sound to me like an attitude one might develop when raised by Lúthien "I kicked Sauron's ass cast a sleep spell on Morgoth and persuaded the Valar to find a loophole in the fabric of reality" Tinuviel and Beren "I stayed by my father's side as an outlaw to give my mother time to lead the rest of our people away hopefully to safety knowing I would never see her or any of them again (and then spent several years being a giant thorn in Morgoth's side for good measure)" Barahirion, where "apparently my grandpa I may or may not have ever met died, guess that makes me the king of a place i may or may not have ever been" does... not.)
I also think he either took on the epithet Eluchil, or was given it by whichever factions of the Iathrim accepted him as king, when he actually became king. Obviously he's going to be referred to as Dior Eluchil even before that in retrospect because that's how he's thought of later, but that doesn't mean it was actually a name he always had, you know?
The final thing is, I think if Dior essentially walked into a political situation five seconds from devolving into civil war, it makes his inaction regarding the Silmaril prior to the Second Kinslaying make more sense: the Fëanorioni have been sitting around doing nothing about the Silmaril in Doriath / with Beren & Lúthien this whole time, the letter saying "hey that's our Silmaril give it back now" is probably just a formality, and Dior's only been ruling for a couple years, there's still plenty of people dubious about whether he should be king at all, he might well be subject to at least some of whatever xenophobia remains about humans in Doriath, and in general all the work he's done on stabilizing the kingdom will absolutely come undone again if he screws up; he's trying to keep a kingdom from falling apart, the Silmaril thing can wait.
Of course, it wasn't a formality, and it couldn't wait, but why would Dior have known that?
#shrikeseams#replies#doriath#the silmarillion#dior eluchil#lotr#lotr meta#i guess?#character: dior#jesus christ this is so much longer than i meant it to be i'm so sorry#also my lunch break was supposed to end twenty minutes ago WHOOPS please forgive any typos i have no time to fix#also there wasn't a good place to stick this in#but i also think everyone in doriath probably has PTSD about thingol's death#(many of them may also have had PTSD already esp the laiquendi or those of the sindar who had to return to menegroth in a hurry#when the first waves of orcs showed up#but anyone who didn't already almost definitely does by the time dior gets there#because holy shit our king is dead the girdle is gone none of us are safe now and he was murdered before the girdle even fell#so have we even been as safe as we thought all this time or were the last couple centuries a lie?)#but yeah those are my dior headcanons!! idk if that picture of doriath or dior in particular are to anyone's taste but mine#but if nothing else i like the idea of dior getting to be... an actual person? and someone i can see having been raised by beren & lúthien#and he doesn't really get to be either of those in the silm and i rarely see him in fanworks getting fleshed out like other characters do#and i think that's kind of a shame#you know?#also yes i am completely ignoring that dior's name theoretically means ''successor'' bc like. why would they name him that#that is from an early draft and there is no way to know if ''dior'' would even have stayed his name#if tolkien had gotten around to updating all the names in B&L/CoH etc into modern Sindarin#never mind if it would have meant anything remotely similar#this is mostly a first-draft post written in one sitting in the space of 45 minutes partially while late for work#i have Definitely left many points out and i am sorry if anyone has questions about things i probably have answers / can elaborate further?
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