#please god im going to explode

[madame-mongoose]

[anemonet]

HOLY FUCKING SHIT IM GONNA EXPLODE

[alchemania]

“Don't you hate her?”

Furina turned, eyebrows raised in confusion. “Huh?”

“Your creator. Don't you hate her?”

The girl pondered a moment, looking unsure. “I..don't know.”

“You should,” he asserted. “All this time you had to suffer alone, for what?? People who didn't even care about the real you?? People who were ungrateful and selfish and only cared about themselves, at the end of the day??”

“Not everyone is like that,” Furina protested, shaking her head slowly. “I ..did suffer, but it all worked out in the end. Besides, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her-”

“The same could be said for my mother,” Wanderer interrupted, eyes flashing. “I came into being because of her, but that doesn't make her a good person, or a good parent. She hurt me. These two facts can coexist. Focalors created you, yes, but she also subjected you to 500 years of suffering where you couldn't confide in ANYONE or risk losing everything. Wasn't that awful?? Wasn't it a horrible time? You were all alone living on a hope and a prayer, and if it went wrong, it would have been all for nothing. You were a means to an end, and what do you have to show for it? Sure, everybody was saved and all was well, but now you're just - a person, and people hate you for what you did, people hate you for what you DIDN'T do. Was it worth it?? Are you satisfied?”

“I am,” she nodded, after a beat. “Because, this is what I was created to do. And, I'm free now. I don't know what I'm going to do, but at least my life is mine. I can do whatever I want. I can live.” Wanderer's jaw clenched, and Furina frowned, nervously. “..why are you so angry?”

“Because SOMEONE has to be!” he shouted, voice cracking. “I mean- I heard about the trial, they were gonna kill you- they lured you there because you wouldn't talk, right? And then after everything, did anyone apologize to you or- praise you, for all the hell you went through? Anything??”

“.. Neuvillette is taking care of me.”

The pain on Wanderer's face was almost palpable, at that.

“..anything else?”

“.. it's fine," she tried to appease. "It's not like I serve any purpose anymore. Like I said, I did what I was created to, so I'm not of any use and-”

“Stop.”

“..what?”

“STOP- talking like that,” Wanderer snapped, eyes suspiciously glossy. She sounded so much like him, who he used to be, and it hurt so badly.

A blank sheet of paper has infinite potential, but it is nothing as long as it is empty, he'd said, a good while ago. He'd been wrong about himself, and Furina was wrong now.

“You're not just - what you were made for. You don't - what happened to you is wrong. You're not DISPOSABLE now that everything is over.”

“It- it was for everyone's sake, compared to my suffering, it's obvious what's more important! I had to save them! It’s what I was born for! It doesn't matter -”

“It DOES,” he yelled, eyes glowing an almost neon icy blue, and she startled. “Stop acting like your suffering was something that was necessary. Stop acting like it was just for the greater good. That doesn't matter! The fact of the matter is that you suffered, and you were hurt, and you're STILL hurting! And- barely anybody is there for you..your creator, she should have been there for you, she should have protected you, but she didn't. She didn't. And you - you have every right to be angry with her, for not being there for you. For you being unable to live, until now. It was wrong, even if it was, as she claimed, for the greater good. Don't defend her.”

"She loved me-"

"And she left you, so not enough."

Just like my mother ..

“...Wanderer,” Furina ventured, worry all over her face.

“What?”

“You're crying…”

..oh. He hadn't even noticed, but his cheeks WERE wet, and he put a hand to one with a start, quickly scrubbing at his face. “Ah-” and he pulled his hat over his face, to hide it.

“..it was a lot. I often wondered when everything would end. I wanted, to tell someone so badly what was going on,” Furina admitted, and Wanderer looked up, eyes red from weeping. “There were a lot of times I didn't think I was going to make it, but. But I did, and, and everything was okay.”

“But are you?”

There was a long pause, and the two of them stared at each other until Furina slowly shook her head no, hot tears streaming down her cheeks.

“See? You're - we're both so messed up, from everything, and no one was there,” Wanderer almost whispered, looking out the window. "No one was there to help. ..You're strong as hell, I'll give you that. If I was in your shoes, I don't know if I would have made it. It seems people are stronger than I've given them credit for..”

It was something that surprised him, again and again.

“I just don't understand why you care..”

“.. I don't know why I do,” he shrugged. “Maybe because you remind me of myself, and. It hurts, looking at you and feeling like I'm looking in the mirror. But someone has to be in your corner and -”

“And you want to do that?”

A pause.

“..Well, if you don't stand up for you, no telling who will.”

“You don't have to cry over me. I'm -”

“If you say you're not worth it, I am going to bodyslam you,” Wanderer growled, eyes flashing, and Furina put up her hands.

“I wasn't going to! I was going to say that I will be okay. Not now, but. Eventually. I'm healing. I promise. There's people who care, like you.”

Wanderer fell silent then, looking away, and she reached out and squeezed his hand. “Thank you. I'm still wrestling with - with what I want to do and where I'll go but. It's nice to know that I'm valued just for existing.”

“That's all you need to be valued,” he muttered, looking to the floor. “You don't have to prove the worth of your existence. It's fine to just be.”

“..are you talking to yourself, or me?”

He looked to her then, expression unreadable, and she smiled sadly, in understanding. “Both is good. It's okay to just be. We're here, and we'll be okay.”

“Yeah,” Wanderer whispered, giving a shaky breath. “..we will."

[yyece]

i need jesus

[nebuladreamz]

Hey guys

So Love, Death and Rollerskates huh

[simandy]

The guy i based Alex on had a baby girl recently and named her something SO CLOSE to Amaris (Alex daughter's name) that i had to sit down to process

[cappiecarp]

i will shimamitsu the world i am insane i am crazy they are so yuri.... if u disagree u r wrong this is straight yuri. i hope they explode i will explode them with my mind they are rattling in my brain. they are so cat and dog and silly

anyways so my friend req'd danganronpa from me and i have no new art to post so if u see me posting danganronpa i need you to step back and pretend u didn't see anything

[cyrusthemagician]

YOU DID WHAT NOW?

SCREAMS INTO MY PILLOW AND KICKS MY LEGS AGGRESIVLY

PLEASSE IM IN SHOCK URJFH IM GONA RAMBLE AND SOUND WEIRD ASF GRGEGG

BehfghGGDHD YOU ARE LITTERALY MY FAVORITE TADC CRETAOR.. ARTIST.. PEROSN AGAHDH, THIS FANDOM HAS SUCH AN INTENSE GRIP HOLD ON MY TWINK ASS AND WHEN I FOUND OUT ABT UR AU I WAS LIKE "WHAT THE SHIT THIS IS AWESOME" AND I STILL AM LIKE.. YK, TAHT BUT SEEING YOU.. YOU REPOST MY ART (ART IS A VERY BIG COMFORT AND HOBBY AND OBSESSION FOR ME ESPECIALLY FANDOM STUFF) HAS ME ON THE FLOOR ON A PUDDLE OF MY OWN TEARS

I WOULD BE JUMPING AROUND MY ROOM AND STIMMING LIKE HELL IF IT WANST 10PM PLEASE I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHDGDGG/PLATONIC/VERYPOSTIIVE

AGGRESIVLEY HUGS YOU AND SNIFFLES PATHETICALLY/VPOS @sm-baby

[demolitionrats]

actually before i go to sleep,

it's so frustrating as a Deaf musician and music fan that finding lyrics is so inaccessible. some bands and artists release their lyrics immediately (kissing them on the lips as we speak) but for the vast majority of new music i listen to, it's going to be impossible to find the lyrics anywhere. why is it so hard to be accessible?

[crowblincray]

Why do my sneezes need to be so violent? They don't even give me a chance. Just boom boom boom.

Face exploding, everything else holding on for dear life, brain hits full reboot. Take at least 5 minutes to finish buffering after.

Come out of it feeling like I just survived biological warfare, pollen grenade, go!

[miltonlibassistantn1fan]

To the anon who keeps messaging me about wanting to help me please keep in mind I am a real person and the person you keep messaging for me is a real person

Like. No one owes me to like or reblog my art

[rouge-the-bat]

ough so sleepy but brain too busy. buzzing around all the things i need to get done (which isnt that many) (but its still extremely overwhelming to me) dear god i just need an off switch for my brain. slow the hell down man

[infizero]

im going fucking insane DELTARUNE i need DELTARUNE i cant fucking TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thegreeninyoureyes]

I think I’m emotionally exhausted rn and that means that my deepest desire at the moment is to isolate myself to rewatch koisenu futari and cry

[gnc-tits]

my worst quality as a student is that if i think an assignment is not worth my time i just dont do it. like thats not to say if i think its annoying or dumb i dont do it bcoz i still do some of those but if the net gain to my education and me personally isnt substantial i just wont do it! like what is the value here. what does this teach me like actually. like girl shut up

[the-ceiling]

i just finished hfjone