#please have mercy on my poor heart i cant take it anymore

[fuckkyourlife]

Cant even fully enjoy Sebastian and Ciel coming back because-

THAT LAST PANEL OF FINNIAN BROKE MY WHOLE HEART

[strxife]

Warnings: Mature themes, 13+ content

Vampire Aristocrat!Cro x Poor Villager!Reader

Precocious Tutor teaser~

Fandom:dear dere

Side note : Y'all go cancel Hoshi she made me work my butt off making this just to ask someone else and tell them theirs was better IN FRONT of me 😃 /joke but not really fiwuerfhuwui

Also say hello to Mr.clean guys! @nymphicmuse

Just how did you get in this predicament? You thrash to stop his mouth becoming closer and closer to your collarbone but his hold… His hold on you was too tight but not too much for it to be suffocating. I’m the end your thrashing was coming in vain when he opens his mouth preparing his fangs as you brace for impact.

But how did you fall for it all? Now that you think about it your life does flash before your eyes. Is he going to suck on you empty you till you're pale and bony, or will he have mercy on you? Now you have time to think and it’s true what he said you’ve been incredibly dumb, that’s the only way you can phrase it right now as you thrashing becomes slower until it stops.

A couple days earlier-

You just got home from getting groceries just to be greeted with a black card without an envelope on top of the carpet to your house. You look at it strangely before you go down on one knee and examine it wanting to see what’s on this mysterious letter. ‘Shouldn’t there be a envelope?’ You think to such a weird letter and also couldn’t they just put it in the mail box?

Picking it up you get back on your feet and read the front in your head. ‘Hello we are interested in your assistance with a tutoring job.If you are interested please report to report to the top of the mountain at the mansion if you accept the offer you will get 3k per week.’

You stare at it blankly. 3K!? ‘No,no,no I must’ve read it wrong let me re read it…’ You re read it again with a look of shock it’s definitely the right number. Then you look at it with disgust… ‘It’s one of those rich aristocrats that live in the upside of the town they’re out here paying 3k for jobs while we suffer just to support our families.’

You doubt anyone is going to actually go it’s probably some lame joke by them.You crumple it up into your pocket not caring if you damage the letter. You know they were just testing you... joking that they have the luxury of mindlessly paying people 3k.

What a sick joke.

little did you know in due time you would desperately need that money.

“Papa what do you mean they cut off our funds!?” You speak harshly to your grandpa who only responds with sweet sorrowful murmurs. "The aristocrats are paying more and more taxes and we now don't have enough money to support us..."

He strokes your back soothingly as your sorrowful cries echo in the small room as the couch creaks with each tremble of your thighs as you papa embraces you in a pleasantly soothing hug.

"It's all going to be alright [Y/N] I'll find a way to get us some money." he whispers in your ear...how is your sweet and caring old grandpa going to get enough money to pay for the aristocrats unreasonably high taxes

No you can't depend on your sick old grandpa anymore hes already endured so much...you cant put him through that at least anymore.

You were walking around cleaning the house when you stumble upon something on the kitchen counter curious you take a look. 'Its..the same card?' the same card you got today was in your hands which you thought you had crumpled. In horror you go to your pocket fishing out the crumpled card.

You found it how was another one on the kitchen counter. You set them next to each other feeling weird about the current predicament when you hear your name.

"[Y/N] Is something wrong?" your grandpa sweetly calls out. You cant worry him with this.... "Nothing Pa! Just looking through our papers!" you say as normal as you can muster.

He gives you a half hearted nod as if he still didn't believe your words 'Dang Pa is really smart.' you think in your mind before rereading the card once more glazing your pointer finger over the words as you read in a swift movement.

'Maybe this might not be a joke?' you ponder in your mind before intensely shaking your head no, it must be a joke everyone in the downside of town gets under paid they would never give away over a cent for commoners.

But what if it wasn't a joke what if you were the one who doomed your weak papa? What would that feeling be like even if there was the slimmest of chances of helping your papa you would take it.

'This is what I need to do' you grip the letter lightly knowing the extra letter on the kitchen counter could have been a sign to stop holding back and help who needs you the most.

You decided.

You will go to the mansion...*ehm* castle on top of the hill/mountain....

and thats how it started....

[mousehole5000]

wow i made this draft on november 1st i really took a break from this huh anyway tgcf chapters 121 - 142

i realize now this coffin scene was inevitable. feel kinda weird about hua cheng  back and forth from Teen to Big Man but it is very funny that theyre having their “dude dont look at my boner” moment while in the jaws of a water dragon

pei ming: why didnt you guys make a bigger coffin so you didnt have to squish together like that? xie lian: haha yep!! anyways what brings you here?

“In the grand, spacious centre of the entrance hall sat a person. And this person, dressed in all black, its face snow-white—was a corpse! Instantly Xie Lian shut the doors soundly.” - king of minding his own business.

okay this is where i stopped putting notes here for a while but i did save some in my e-reader so here’s some of the highlights

“Guzi used to have a good sleeping form, but perhaps with his cheap dad’s bad influence, now he was also spread out on top of Qi Rong’s stomach like a dead fish. Lang Ying himself was curled neatly in the corner, and was covered by a few shirts. Xie Lian lifted the blanket covering Qi Rong, suppressed the urge to smother his face, and covered the two small children.” - xie lian funny moments. also it would be really funny if qi rong redeems himself by learning love through these misfit chiildren and it might actually endear me to him but i hope that doesnt happen

Every heavenly official was yelling, and even Ling Wen was throwing a fit. “DON’T THROW EVERY BIT OF USELESS INFORMATION MY WAY, HOW MUCH DO YOU THINK I HAVE TO GO THROUGH EVERY DAY? DON’T YOU ALL KNOW TO USE YOUR BRAINS A LITTLE BEFORE ASKING ME?!” - ling wen marry me right now

“An expression like “seen a ghost” that only mortals experienced was now showing on his face for the first time. Shi Wudu’s pupils shrank to the smallest they could, and he blurted, “You’re still alive?!” “I’m dead!” He Xuan said coldly.” - okay everythings going tits up rn but i did laugh

i did see spoilers re: ming yi/he xuan reveal + shi wudu’s fate beforehand so i dont have a genuine reaction other than oh shit

“He slowly enunciated each word. “I won’t touch your fate. But, here in this place, chop off your brother’s head for me.”  CLANG! He threw a rusty blade onto the ground. Shi Qingxuan stared at that blade, his eyes wide. He Xuan continued, “Then, never show yourself before me again, and I will pretend you’ve never existed in this world.” - okay idk what else is going to happen but rn im concerned that this is like the 2nd biggest ship. i guess we’ll see?? i mean i am really curious whats going to happen to them. shi qingxuan keeps calling he xuan “ming-xiong” and i... sad

shi wudu im not really invested in you as a character but these next two bits... interesting

“If I don’t die but have nothing, then that’s truly a fate worse than death. If I’m not the Water God, I can’t take care of you. I won’t even be able to protect myself. I’m scared that we won’t even last two days…TAKE IT!” - damn. something about the wealthy losing everything and not knowing how to live without it bc thats their entire life and identity

“EVERYTHING I HAVE TODAY, I FOUGHT FOR MYSELF. I WILL FIGHT FOR WHAT I DON’T HAVE. I WILL CHANGE FATE I DON’T POSSESS. MY FATE IS UP TO ME AND NOT THE HEAVENS!” - okay so the whole committing spiritual fraud by tormenting a man and his family to get your brother a cushy title thing aside this was kind of badass. heretical? possibly. but still. also is he intentionally riling up he xuan so sqx doesnt have to kill him? if so damn...

also okay as long as im here im just gonna say it. the choice that he xuan gives shi qingxuan is fucking brutal but i actually think its probably as fair as it could be. sqx didnt know about or participate in what happened to hx but they did benefit from it greatly while hx lost EVERYTHING and i can understand he xuan’s thinking of “if you really feel bad for what happened to me then you have to make a sacrifice and understand the suffering and this is as clean as its going to get” and theres a bit where sqx is trying to beg for mercy but cant get the words out which im guessing is bc theres no good argument!! what happened was fucked up!!

“When Pei Ming saw that reinforcements had arrived, he didn’t appear particularly delighted; instead he threw the sword into the ground, then rubbed his nose and said, sounding grim, “You all just had to come just as I finished making these, what the heck.” - pei ming making coffins chopping down trees with his sword i love it #wastehistime2k17

“Xie Lian brought that basket of eggs along, and gave them away as souvenirs from the mortal realm. Many who received the eggs were overjoyed; some deciding to eat it along with their own blood, and some proclaiming they would hatch an eight-foot monster.” - GHOST CITY GHOST CITY

“Placing the brush down, he blew lightly at the ink and smiled. “If I like something, then my heart will not have room for any other, and I’ll always treasure it. A thousand times, a million times, no matter how many years, this will not change. This poem is the same." - thats nice and all but king... get therapy. i actually have further thoughts but tbh i dont want to put them into words bc they are simply too personal! moving on

didnt take any notes but somewhere in here was the bit with mount tong’lu opening and hua cheng losing it and kind of um. hm. that scene. thats another trope i really hate tbh i dont care for it as a way of including physical intimacy between characters and idk if it really ever adds anything but whatever moving on

The Half-Maquillage Woman - kind of interesting monster idea bc women and aging…. yeah. however i think this would be a lot stronger if there were a) more girls and this was b) discussed or illustrated at all prior to this moment. still interesting that its included knowing the author is a woman tho and there’s been comments on how ling wen is perceived vs pei ming. this book does keep giving me hope for interesting female character arcs i really want it to deliver something

quan yizhen..... i get u

lmao i have a note on a bit with lang ying that says “please dont be hc in disguise” and..... my clown nose was on but at least i knew that. for real this is bothering me how much he’s just. always. there. i know he’s a lead but we didn’t really need him around for a lot of this. oh well.  okay now to my current notes

“Yet it was precisely because it wasn’t cooked that it had to be eaten quickly. Once Xie Lian cooked it, it wouldn’t be edible anymore” - fucking fantastic

“Xie Lian hugged his belly. “Of course! Only after having met you did I rediscover that it’s such a simple thing to be happy, hahaha…” Hearing this, Hua Cheng blinked. Xie Lian’s laughter quieted a bit, realizing what he just said was a little too revealing.” - okay i know i said what i said about being tired of hua cheng being everywhere but... the line…. the fact that theyre laughing together…. :pleading:

“It’s not,” Ling Wen said. “At least, I believe, there will definitely not be another in history who can create a dish called ‘Incorruptible Chastity Meatballs’” - and truer words were never spoken

“I, DO NOT WORSHIP GODS. “I, AM GOD!” - this was every bit as badass as i hoped but no one told me it was immediately followed up by a little bit of the ol dinner theater fjalkdsfjsd. also puqi shrine noooooooooo

“Xie Lian sighed as he thought, “Qi Rong has taken Guzi away, who knows if the poor child was eaten or abandoned. Wind Master...... ..... who knows if Black Water took him away. Pray they’re both safe.” yeah hey are we going to fucknig. find out what happened to the child???

and yeah i dooooont really care for the age regression? thing thats going on. i just dont like that trope tbh. but tiny hua cheng whipping out his fat ghost king wallet in the store was funny tho. it is really funny that hualian are just like wandering around some random towns while the heavens are in an uproar. i guess theres not much else to do but its funny

“Me too, me too. You all know of my shixiong, right? Talented, with an infinite future! He only had one small vice: he loved playing women. Decades ago, a little prostitute ghost seduced my shixiong and sucked him dry into human jerky, and that Hua, Hua, Hua, that ghost king dared shelter her.” - yes omg give me the forbidden hua cheng lore i love this for him for real it goes along nicely with xie lian’s principles about giving another cup. god i love shared values

“Hua Cheng poked again, and a small hole appeared on the wall, as if the wall was made of tofu.” - how’d he do that. why is this a ghost king power. its useful tho

*me shaking qi rong when he pops up* WHERE IS THE CHILD

mu qing fu yao is here okay im happy now. once again no one has a good grasp on their secret identity and i love that. this inn has descended into chaos and im delighted and im glad lan chang is back

“The good ol’ kitchen was suddenly squished and crowded, loud and noisy. Fu Yao was chasing that fetus spirit leaping up and down, Lan Chang was chasing after Fu Yao like she had gone mad. Half of Qi Rong’s face changed shape by the way Xie Lian was pressing him down on the chopping board, his back turning into a target for those yellow talismans Fu Yao hurled while being observed by a crowd, and Lan Chang would step on him from time to time.” - this is pure chaos. i love that mu qing was in that room when the mob checked and he didnt say a word didnt open the door just sent out a talisman as a warning. king your disguise is transparent

“Xie Lian remembered the way Feng Xin laughed until he was hoarse when he first heard that verbal password all those years back, and couldn’t help but feel nostalgic, even though it wasn’t the right time.” - awwwww omg im emotional about this... faithful friend feng xin laughing at xie lian’s stupid joke password and remembering it!!! ;_;

“They have, but they’re not effective,” Feng Xin said. “Usually they’re the most diligent in scorning the Palace of Ling Wen, like they could do the job way better if they had the position. Now that we need them to take up the task, not a single one can do even half of what she does.” - typical... typical typical typical

also emotional about the fact that feng xin contacted xie lian at all.....

also!! emotional about lan chang as a mom and wanting to help out sick lil guzi.....

xie lian forcing “fu yao” to let him help “his general” is making me.... what is friendship if not playing along with your buddies little shenanigans while also making them accept your help

“Someone like Mu Qing, even though he’s narrow-minded, petty, sensitive and skeptical, has a bad personality, constantly guessing, doesn’t say nice things, likes to nag, always offending people and has a lot of people who dislike him, has no friends, can remember small, unimportant details for a long period of time…” ”Xie Lian went on in one breath with a straight face, but in the end he concluded with, “...But I’ve known him since we were kids, after all, he’s still got principles.” - XIE LIAN PLEASE AFJDLKSFJDL omg ive seen this quote before but i figured he was talking to someone else not actually to mu qing himself fgjasdkfjsl. god thats amazing. hey im gonna help you out because i care but i will roast you first <3

waaaaaait so is lan chang aka jian lan that girl from book 2 we took a page to talk about and then disappeared? that has to be it why else would we have stopped to discuss her

“Jian Lan spat on his face, then choking his neck, she slapped him twice again. “WHAT SHITTY SUPREME! YOU SURE KNOW HOW TO BLOW YOURSELF UP! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, THINK YOU’RE EVEN WORTH TO BE THOUGHT OF AS EQUALS WITH THE OTHER THREE SUPREMES? WHAT ARE YOU EVEN GOOD AT? YOUR THICK SKIN? OF COURSE I DARE HIT YOU!” - oh this feels so good i cant lie. YES GET HIM!! CHOMPING AND VIOLENCE YES!!!!

okay this description of cuocuo.... im... that sure the hell is a creature

this book is so entertaining bc i already saw spoilers for the feng xin/jian lan/cuo cuo reveal and yet i could never have predicted the circumstances that brought it about. imagine being feng xin. the heavens are in an uproar and your only friend/enemy has been jailed for possible fetus spirit-related crimes but he escapes along with this female ghost who keeps causing problems. you figure “fuck it lets see if dianxia kept his old phone number” and he has but then he hangs up on you. you’ve got fuckall else to do so you go find him. mu qing is there but he’s in his disguise the two of you were using so you could watch over his highness while staying aloof. you think you see hua cheng only he’s a chiild for some goddamn reason but who knows at this point. the female ghost is also there and theres a fetus spirit climbing trees and biting your arrows in half. you realize the female ghost is your ex and the little demon is your son. it bites you. what do you do

amazing that despite everything going on everyone is still playing along with the “fu yao” persona when it would probably be easier to drop pretenses at this point. then again tbh if i could explain my actions to my friends while pretending to be a third party.... i probably would so.. carry on

“With all his devotees gone, only Feng Xin still treated him like the Flower-Crowned Martial God and His Highness the Crown Prince. ” “...his protection charms were all seen as trash. However, Feng Xin was still determined and tireless in handing them out; telling Xie Lian, look, you still have devotees.” “After all, he was the darling of the heavens since birth, high and mighty. Feng Xin so naturally spun around him like he was the world, so how could he possibly have his own life, his own heart” “Whether or not that fetus spirit was Feng Xin’s son, if it was that period of poverty that made Feng Xin lose the girl he loved, Xie Lian wouldn’t be able to forgive himself no matter what." ohhhh my god this relationship i. im...

oh my god i still have 30 more chapters until book 4............ its naptime now i think

[littlelittleticklishboy]

4 Every bully has his weakness

(Pre story:)

Lucas and I grew up in the same town. After years of being separated we were once again in the same class. But this time was different. He chanced, in a bad way. Alongside others he bullied me every other day. But Lucas had a weakness. He was extremely ticklish. When i got older and we passed our exams i was having a fantasy about one thing: Tormenting him until he begs for mercy. )

PLEASE NOTE: This scenario is a fantasy that i came up with. The story plays when we both passed the age of 18 all characters in my stories are boys over the age of 18+

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March 27 2027

*I was just cleaning up the attic and came across an old photo book of middle school.”Class of 2016” I flipped it over and saw the face of Lucas Madison. He and his group of friends tormented me everday. Calling me gay, stealing my stuff, beating me up. I became angry and i trew the album away. I layed in bed and fell in a deep sleep. Thinking of the one thing i always wanted to do with Lucas.

Into the dreamworld:

*I was driving in the street were Lucas was living. We both lived in the capital of our city and by complete luck we lived about 10 minutes apart. Lucas had very rich parents and got his own house when he reached the age of 18. I parked my car next to his driveway and got out. I opened the trunk and hid inside. I knew Lucas had a meeting every friday with his college friends and he left everytime at 5 pm. While waiting i was thinking: “After all these years i’m finally getting my revenge.” i’ve made the perfect plan to give my old bully a piece of his own medicine.

Wait untill he gets outside

Ko him with sleeping powder

Take him to my house and start having fun.

*at home everything was set. This plan couldn’t fail. I still was exited and my heart was beating out of my chest*

*At 5pm i saw Lucas leaving his house. I couldn’t see much because of my hiding spots so i was listening very carefully when i had to strike. When he went passed my car i jumped out of the trunk and smacked the sleeping powder in his face. He fell down right into my arms and i dragged him into my car. Now the fun will really start!*

Payback time!

*We arrived at my house and it was time to put my plan into action. I opened the backdoor and lifted my victim up *Lucky for me lucas is very small (155 CM) and not very heavy. I took him into my house and walked up the stairs to my bedroom i layed him down on the bed and put his hands and legs into the cuffs that i installed before his arrival. I also blindfolded him and gagged him with a piece of crap paper and ducktape. I then sat on the edge of the bed and looked at my old sleeping Classmate. I had some time to think back about how he was in high school

My history with lucas,

*I Knew Lucas way back before high school. We met at the age of 5 in first grade. We both lived in a small place where everbody went to the same school. Quite frankly he and i, alongside a few other boys were bestfriends. It was in 4th grade that my parents took a divorce and me, my mom and my brother moved to the big city, leaving everything behind. When i went to high school we came into the same class. But everything had changed. He was now a populair kid and he, alongside the other boys started tormenting me everyday. He made my life miserable. It was by pure accident that i discovered Lucas was by far the most ticklish boy in our school. The girls gave him a lot of tickle attacks and he was always crying for mercy in a few seconds. I always dreamed of tickling the crap out of him*

Lets begin:

*And now i have him all for myself. It was time to get started. I grabbed one of his shoes and untied the shoelaces. I pulled the shoe of his feet revealing a blue socked foot. I dragged a finger across the sock to wake him up. Lucas started to wake up and first went bonkers. I heard him screaming but after a few seconds he stopped and went dead silent. I could feel that he knows he’s fucked. I dragged a finger across the feet resulting in a shock reaction. I pulled the sock of his feet revealing a perfect sole. . He had a size 7 and very clean feet. I spidered some fingers across his feet. At first he didn’t move an inch. But when i tickled under his toes i released a different kind of scream. I hear the sound of muffled “Stops, fucks, and laughter” and i was very exited to explore the rest of this tickle toy. I pulled of his other sock and starts tickling both feet. Lucas was yelling from laughter in his gag. His face was hot red en wet from his tears. After 10 more minutes i gave the poor boy a break to catch his breath*

*after he catched his breath i grabbed a pair of scissors and with 4 cuts lucas was shirtless. He has a nice tan and a very soft skin he had a slim posture and no hair at all. I circled one of my fingers against his nipples making him freak out at first. When i started to rub the other one i heard that Lucas was holding back a moan. I stopped teasing for now and grabbed a bottle of oil. I gave him a massage while spreading the oil. Lucas was silent. I put the bottle away and started a full attack on his upper body. The room was again filled with gagged screams. After a while Lucas screamed so much the ducktape fell of his mouth. He spat out the gag and he is back to his old self. He immediately started yelling at me: “What the fuck are you doing!!” Let me go you perverted fuck!!!” yooooooooou caaaaant do this” I switched places from sides to armpits releasing a bigger reaction than ever. “If i were you i would back that tone up little boy” i sped the tickling up and very soon after that the demands turned into begging and apologies. He was screaming and tears were flowing down his eyes. After another 20 minutes i stopped. “Time to move you” *I said* i untied my victim and as i suspected he was to weak to resist. I lifted him up and carried him to the basement*

Round 2

*i arrived into the basement and already had a setup for the next part of my revenge. I had an installation to train my uplifts and attached cuffs to the bottom and top. I spread his legs and tied him up. “Lets make things more exiting” *I said and i blindfolded him. “Hmm something is still not right” i said. “Aaah you are still wearing to much clothes” *referring to his jeans* he was wearing a nice black levis jeans. I unbuttoned the jeans and pulled it down, revealing a black calvin clein boxer. “YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME! YOU ARE SICK!” “I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE BUT IF I FIND OUT I’M GOING TO KICK YOUR ASS!!” *He continued to insult me and i gagged him with a sock of him and a piece of ducktape.

*unlike Lucas i did made quite a change growing up, which was the reason he didn’t knew who i was. It was almost 10 years since middle school and at that time i was short, chubby and nerdy. Now i was a long, grown, classy man who was sick of being the victim.

*I grabbed some baby oil and started to massage my victim. Spreading the oil over his whole body. I grabbed 2 feathers and started circling the tips over his nipples. Again I noticed that i was fighting the sensation but after a few minutes i heard soft moans and his body started swinging from left to right. I put the feathers back on the table and started spidering my fingers over his upper body. First the sides i went up and down and adjusted my speed every time. He tried to hold in his laughter but i saw that his face was turning red. I moved my fingers to his armpit. I started with one finger, poking inside the armpit, still no reaction, i added 4 more fingers and focused on his left armpit, still no reaction. I then stopped and waited a few seconds. I then surprised attacked him with all my fingers at the same time and he bursted into laughter.

He shook his arms and legs into the cuffs but was going nowhere. I moved one hand to his left side and started to attack it. I saw tears rolling from beneath the blindfold and his laughter turned into hysterical screams. I grabbed 2 electric toothbrushes and flipped them one. I started from the bottom of his feet and went up slowly. When i reached his groin i placed the toothbrushes on both sides releasing a scream of fright. I removed the gag and he immediately started to beg. “Please mister, i beg you” *He was gasping for air and words* “I cant handle this anymore” “whatever i did to you i am sorry for but please please release me” *I stopped tickling for a second and replied with “I Appreciate your apology but its far to late for that. In the past you had your fun tormenting me and now the tides have turned” *I stopped talking for a second* “but since your are sorry i’m rewarding you with a short brake. *I Saw that he was relieved*

The test

*I grabbed a glass of water and gave Lucas a sip of it i cleaned the sweat, tears and oil from his body with a wet towel and looked at him again. I knew Lucas was homophobic but i also noticed a small bulge in his underwear. I knew the tickling turned him on in a way and now it was time for a little game* “Now for your reward im testing how much you can handle” *I saw a mix of confusion and fear on his face* I grabbed the scissors and sliced his boxers away for his height he had a pretty big cock, it had no pubes and was a little bit erect* “No Please dont do this.... Im not gay or whatever” “i fear that you dont have a single thing to say about this” *i replied* now you can make it stop by begging me to cum. Untill that moment i’m non stopping teasing you. Lets see how much this big boy can handle. “NO WAY” *He screamed* “IM NEVER GOING TO BEG YOU TO LET ME CUM PERVERT” “We will see about that”

*I grabbed a feather and started to stroke up and down his shaft. Accelerating my pace. Lucas tried with all his power to fight the sensation but i wouldn’t stop till i broke this boy down. I replaced the feather with an eletric toothbrush and starting rubbing his balls. Moving up and down and between his legs. He was still fighting but his cock started to erect slowly knowing that my methods were working. I moved the toothbrush back up and paused it on the tip of his cock. The vibrations of the toothbrush was very intense for Lucas and finally i heard a moan, and another one, and another one. “Just give in Lucas, i Know you are enjoying this. I doesn’t matter. “I oooh.. i aaaaaah.... I dont like it..... please staaaahp” “You can say what you want but im not stopping till i hear you confess and beg” With my other hand i grabbed a second brush and started to stimulate his nipples. Going from left to right and in circles changing the speed* i saw that the fighting has stopped and saw him Relaxing his body. The moans intensified and his dick was now rock hard, I grabbed some lube and started to jerk him of. When he reached his climax i stopped. “Why..... Why.... are you stopping” “Say it” “Never” Okay we try again in 20 minutes. I gagged and blindfolded him again, started a timer and continued to tease the fully erect boy to his limits

20 minutes later

*after the the timer went off i stopped and removed the gag and blindfolds. “Well?” *I said* *he was dead silent. His whole body was covered in sweat and he was leaking pre cum* “okay lets try again in 30 minutes this time” i grabbed the blinding tools again when suddenly i finally heard it “Okay you win... I like what yoy doing” *he stopped for a second and with a face of mercy he begged: “Please finish it and let me cum” *I smiled and said “Good boy was it that hard?” *I grabbed some lube and continued jerking him off. The moans became louder..., and louder..., and louder, he then widened his eyes and shot a massive load in the air.” He then passed out. From all the exitement

*I was thinking he had enough. I untied him, cleaned the cum of his body and did some new clothes on his body. I grabbed his backpack and looked for a house key. I grabbed the boy and carried him to my car. I drove him home, layed him on his bed and left.

The next day

*Lucas woke up and was in a state of confusing. He had a very unusual dream in which he was kidnapped, tickled and jerked. He jumped out of bed and saw some clothes he didn’t recognized. It was a very expensive daily paper training suit and quite frankly, the one Lucas always wanted. He checked the pockets and found a note. He read the note saying.

“What happened tonight is our little secret. Even you will never confess it i know you liked what i did. If you ever want to have more fun text this number .....” See you soon

Regards TA”

P.S You didn’t change one bit after high school :)”

*He couldn’t believe his eyes. It wasn’t a dream at all. He was kidnapped by a strange man. He thought back at middle school and he thought Of all the nerds he picked on. He then grabbed his phone, dailed the number and texted “Hey.... its Lucas.”

This was a blast to write. Im now looking for a way to make the layout of my stories better. Work in progress

[television-overload]

This is it, everyone...

WiFi is turned off to avoid spoilers, Tiva playlist is playing, popcorn is made, and I'm sitting with my laptop in my nest/lofted bed. T-minus 5 minutes until this episode.

So without further ado... Here is my live blog of NCIS Season 16 episode 13: "She." I don't feel like bombarding the NCIS tag with separate posts, so it's all gonna be chunked into one.

7:58 pm: IM SO NERVOUS I CAN'T HANDLE THIS I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS, FEELINGS, AND CONCERNS

My internet connection had better be flawless, you hear that dorm wifi?

Minor technical difficulties, but here we go! I'm stress eating my popcorn 🍿

Ooh, Gibbs voiceover. Who is diving? Bishop?

Yes! Roll the intro!

I have waited three weeks for this.

Kasie is so thoughtful! I love her. And Jimmy is such a great friend. I love their friendship.

"Woodwork the crap out of it" bahahaha

Gibbs + children = the cutest thing ever

Ellie is so good with her.

Aww poor Lily! That is horrifying!

Looks like they put every terrible thing that can happen to a kid into one case. So sad.

Gibbs knows that was Ziva's case! The way he remembers it was ten years ago, then abruptly leaves the room to "get some air..." Is he finally showing some emotion over Ziva's (alleged) death?

So, is her mother alive? How did Lily get out?

"EVERYONE" else involved *wink*

Wonder what Kasie had in mind for Torres' jar

FIRST MENTION OF ZIVA!

I have literally no idea where this will go next...

Finally Bishop is saying what we've been saying for years. But I now have a bad feeling but they're going to hint that Ziva is still dead...

Awww, she wishes she could have learned from Ziva. Maybe that is a good sign. Hmm.

Ooh, Ellick fight

Ninja...

WHEN ZIVA MAKES A PROMISE SHE NEVER BREAKS THAT PROMISE! ITS LOOKING UP AGAIN, BOIS

Looks like their suspect is actually Tony 2.0. And if Morgan turns out to be alive maybe it will be the same for Ziva

ZIVA HAS A SECRET OFFICE!

Lily is gone? Oh, nevermind.

Oooh, Sloane is opening up!!!

THIS ALL SEEMS LIKE A TIVA PARALLEL

Oh, something is hidden in the doll!

Lily is a good little actress

Boom, Vance showing who's boss

My popcorn is gone. Now I can type with two hands.

Go get 'em, Gibbs

Torres over there lying to Gibbs for Ellie ❤️

This lady knows Ziva!

Please let there be some clue about Ziva in this shed... Or if nothing else a picture of Tony and all the things she loves.

I am LOVING all the Ziva music. I missed this.

AHHHHHH ZIVA SIBLINGS PICTURE! WE ALL KNOW SHE USES PICTURES TO COMMUNICATE

WHAT DO THE DIARIES SAY?

AM I GOING TO BE USING CAPS LOCK FOR THE REST OF THIS EPISODE?!?

Go away commercials, I need Bishop to tell Gibbs about Ziva!

Well, I haven't cried yet this episode. I was really expecting to. I guess we'll see.

Also, NO FLASHBACKS YET! THERE NEEDS TO BE A FLASHBACK!

Can McGee read Hebrew? Oh, nevermind.

Here come the tears! Is this entry about Tony??? MY HEART CANT LIVE WITHOUT HIM ONJGKROJCBFU HELP ME! 💔

ITS ABOUT SOMALIIIAIAJAJAAAAHHHHHHH

OH SWEET MERCY, MY HEART IS SOARING

TONY IS ON HIS WAY BACK TO PARIS

NOW ITS GETTING REAL GOOD

KEEP READING, MCGEE

ZIVA HELD IN ALL THOSE EMOTIONS ALL THOSE YEARS SHE IS THE STRONGEST FEMALE CHARACTER EVER

SHE WAS TORTURED EMOTIONALLY FOR SO LONG

THEY BEST GIVE ALL THOSE JOURNALS TO TONY

Torres would have liked Ziva :(

Gibbs I awfully calm...

Oof, Bishop is in the hot seat.

Does Gibbs know something? Do I dare hope?

My heart is literally pounding... I can't take this.

Jimmy was Ziva's confidante, awwweee. Tell us your secrets, Jimmy.

Showing Bishop that Ziva made mistakes too... Good.

I have a bad feeling about what we'll get in regards to Ziva's life/death at the end of this episode... I hope I'm wrong.

Also, Gibbs, you just gonna casually name drop the episode title of the episode that broke my heart?

THATS RIGHT VANCE, YOU KNOW GIBBS IS BASICALLY ZIVA'S FATHER

ExcaUUUUUSE ME, Gibbs, how dare you? Do you want the fandom to resent you more that's they already did for your reaction during Family First? You take that back right now.

I hope Lily's dad is actually a good dad! I like him.

TONY AND TALI PARALLELS

Kasie is dealing with the dirty working conditions much better this time.

McGee is kinda out of it. Good. Feelings.

What will Torres use his empty jar for?

...I think they might keep going with the Ziva is dead bit, and I am not happy. I want Ziva to honor that promise, but I guess it's sweet that Bishop wants to do it for her.

It's about time someone challenges Gibbs' rules. Good luck, Bishop.

AHHHHHH GIBBS IS FINALLY LETTING IT OUT!!!

HE BLAMES HIMSELF! HE STILL BELIEVES SHE'S DEAD

DIDN'T ANYONE TELL YOU WRITERS ABOUT HAPPY ENDINGS????????

Bishop ain't giving up

I love Gibbs and Kasie

Woah, does the lab have a second entrance? How did Bishop disappear?

Is Bishop gonna get shot?

There's that Gibbs voiceover again. What is he talking about? OH IS HE READING ZIVA'S JOURNAL???

That is a deep pond.

Torres go get yo girl!

Can we get a Tiva family reunion like that, PLEASE

Let it in, Gibbs.

Some quality Gibbs and Ellie time. I like it.

Has Bishop officially been adopted by Gibbs?

Whatcha got there, Gibbs?

Oh lol. Its rule 10. Time to scrap that rule. Dump rule 12 while you're at it.

OH MY GOOOOOOOOSSSSSSHHHH NO WAY. NO. WAY. HANG ON.

HOLY MOLY HOLY MOLY

ZIVVVVVAAAAAAAAAAA

MY HEART IS POUNDING

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

IS THAT ZIVAS SCARF???????!!!!

I. I can't even type right now... They really did it. I can't breathe. I'm so in shock I can't even cry! This is all I hoped for and more! I'm going to lose my freaking marbles. I feel sick. And faint. I need to lay down. Oh. My. Goodness.

That's it folks. We have our answer. And they'd better freaking come back to this plot later, cause I'm going crazy.

I have so much to say, but I don't want to type anymore. I just want to sit here and think, and cry, and scream. And watch this ending about a billion more times.

So I guess, signing off. Happy Ziva day, everyone. Thank you and God bless you, writers.

[chrisemrysfics]

This is a masterpost of the three other posts out fou that were flagged, and I decided to repost them, and I did them all in one because they were all anons, and all Poker Pair.

You’ll notice the tag I’m using now for ns//fw!

The first time Tyki and Allen made love?

That tends to remain story-dependant for me, for example unless it changes last moment, it’s in chapter 6 of Journey of our Hearts that they first make love. Which I won’t say more on, to keep the surprise~

Still, there are little things I can see consistent, though that’s of course my own take (well, as most of my replies are).

I don’t see them planning it, at most they talked about it, and I can see very early on Tyki and Allen establishing a trust of knowing they can ask to stop anytime. It’s not just Allen, because sometimes Tyki is the one who is overwhelmed, especially when Allen seems to let his walls drop. Intense make outs session have happened before, and Tyki isn’t always the one who lead them.

But yes, there comes a day they just can’t stop, or maybe something happened that makes them unable to keep their hand off each other (one or both admitting to being in love; one speaking of how much they love a certain aspect of the other; etc).

And the thing is, while I can see Tyki having had experiences (but I am someone who headcanon he isn’t one who seeks sexual pleasure that much), Allen hasn’t. There’s honestly many ways one can interpret Allen in regards to such things as relations and being intimate, and my own take is that as much as he’s no prude and isn’t afraid of sex, there is a big difference between not being ashamed of himself, having desires, and with actually trusting someone with his body.

To Allen, there has been almost no one who touched him in a positive sense. The first one who did not harm him was Mana, but Mana is his father. Cross is a weird case for Allen, because the man is rough, but unlike others, Allen does trust not be harmed. He trusts that Cross won’t be the next Cosimov. Maybe Allen kissed some girls, and boys, but there’s also how Allen was fully focused on fighting.

For months, years, Allen lost himself in learning to be an exorcist, so he could pretend he isn’t still broken by Mana’s loss. By the time Allen starts to feel he might be interested, he’s walled himself big time. And he does not feel that ready to risk people’s reaction about his arm. I also headcanon that one time, his arm was treated as exotic, as an oddity to test, and this made Allen just as uncomfortable.

So Allen has been trapped in a place where he has wants, even if only to know how it feels; but he keeps being unable to lower his walls. He keeps not finding people he can allow close in such a way. And the few he could have, they have their own walls, and by the time it could have happened, Allen’s own walls have strenghtened (especially when it gets after the Ark).

Until Tyki, someone who has both white and dark enough to make all of Allen feel at ease. And Tyki isn’t surprised, because for a while now, he knew. He learned to know Allen, and that’s why he guessed  Allen wasn’t able to let someone close before, in such a way.

So of course, Tyki is torn between the sides that want to turn Allen into a moaning mess, ravish him like a claim, and the side that want to treasure that trust with gentler lovemaking. And funnily enough, Allen feels both those wants, too. Their first time is heavy on attention, on communication, on little awkward times and littles laughs, because sometimes Tyki gets worried he got too rough, sometimes Allen doesn’t know what he wants anymore, and then both laugh.

I would also say they mostly spend it with foreplay, with kisses and touches, until Tyki discovers Allen really loves Tyki’s bites. It’s when they get more into it that the above comes into play, yet they don’t stop, because they don’t want to. In the end, they spend a good part of the night at it, between cuddles to rest and going at it again, between soft touches and rougher ones, holding each other and pinning each other.

When they finally have spend all their energy, they end up cuddled again, Allen more relaxed that he’s ever been, Tyki feels a deep fondness he doesn’t think he ever did, and both realize they can say with their bodies much more that what their words can.

They also totally sleep so much after that, and you can bet there’s a certain golden golem who records their peaceful sleepy faces and how cuddled they are.

Sexiest things they would do, positions and so on ? Sweetest things?

Sweetest things first, I totally see them both adoring to kiss the other everywhere. Tyki can never get enough of slowly having Allen come undone just with kisses, and soon learns Allen is so weak if you kiss his neck, his left arm, his chest scar or his face scar.

But then, Allen too loves to see Tyki grow weak. I kind of want to say it’s accidental the first time, maybe Allen kisses Tyki’s own scar, maybe his neck, and he notices Tyki shudders as he sighs, and Allen gets a glint in his eyes that make Tyki gulp, and heart beat wilder in anticipation. Tyki can never remember this one night without blushing.

Also: they cant go a lovemaking without sweet words, but also, heated talk. Tyki’s favorties are, “You’re beautiful” and “Forget everything but me”, with the occasional sighs of “My Allen”. Allen tend to be left without ability to form words, but he will often calls Tyki’s name is various ways, and it drives Tyki crazy.

Sexiest… Well it links with asking about positions and stuff. Allen tried to, he tried really hard, but one time Tyki felt so turned on, his vines showed. He assured that Allen wont be hurt, actually whispers about how Joyd wouldn’t harm Allen, and he hears a dreamy reply of, “I know” and then Tyki finally see, he realizes Allen staring at the vines and more flustered.

It was Allen’s turn to gulp, when Tyki smirked so smugly, because Allen knows Tyki has seen right through him. Let’s say that then, Allen cannot move arms and legs, cannot see, and for a second his heart is beating too wild, but then he feels the familiar kisses at his neck, and he’s never been more turned on. Laying on the bed at the mercy of Tyki, he’s never felt so safe and Tyki has to be slow because he can tell Allen could get overwhelmed, but he doesnt, Tyki listen and watches all the signs.

Poor Allen totally passes out by the end, Tyki is a worried mess, but then he has a very affectionate Allen on his hands when Allen wakes again. It takes everything in Tyki not to coo because Allen is like a happy cat.

Also: Allen totally gets back at Tyki another time, and gets the same brand of creative with Crown’s Belt. The fact Allen’s Innocence is apparently more than okay helping Allen make love to Tyki, make Tyki so weak in a few seconds flat.

Fun fact: you will notice I have never said exactly how far they go, if one tops or rides if they go full way, and that’s because any and all replies are true. Sometimes they’ll just kiss all over. Sometimes a bit more. Sometimes full way. Sometimes Allen likes to let Tyki take the reign, and sometimes it’s only to better take him. Word play intended. Sometimes it’s Tyki who let Allen do as he pleases, take command, and sometimes it’s only so Allen can take in as he pleases, leaving Tyki to control the urge to roll them over. Sometimes Tyki doesn’t control that urge, but it might be Allen whole goal. And sometimes it’ll be Allen, who pins Tyki, and Tyki is secretly so pleased and weak to this possessive Allen.

On a last note, they might or might not have gotten creative with whipped cream.

What's your favourite ns//fw poker pair headcanon ?

I think that might have to be that Tyki seems to just know what Allen wants, but also what he needs. And it’s nothing about being the Noah of Pleasure, it’s in fact fully because Tyki just learned to watch Allen’s expression and body language, and then Allen himself is more open.

(on another note: my favorite headcanon is that Tyki and Allen grows very intimate, but in more than one manner. It’s how Allen allows Tyki in his personal space, how he’ll learn on him, how he’ll let him touch his arm; and how Tyki steadily built trust between them)

Allen is persuaded he needs someone he trusts to break him, to make him desperate for their touches, and in the first heated kisses, Tyki almost fall for it. But Tyki is very observant, way more than Allen even realize (and especially when it comes to Allen), and he knows what Allen truly needs is to feel loved. Of course there are many ways they can go at it, but my favorite headcanon is how feeling loved is what works best.

So once Tyki started heatedly, just when Allen thinks he’s going to get rough or tease him mercilessly, Tyki becomes tender, and it’s more than enough to have Allen looks so vulnerable. He’s not used to it, he’s only used to people wanting to hurt him, or people being careful.

He’s not used to Tyki, who he knows could harm him in so many ways, instead treating him as precious and desired. And you can bet Tyki will touch and kiss everywhere, including his left arm. The first time that happens, Allen get so worried, but Crown Clown does not harm Tyki.

In fact he’s totally feeling pleasure, and Tyki is more than happy than he’s not treated as an enemy by Crown. He half knew though, because from the moment he first started to treat Allen as a lover, Allen’s Innocence had felt less hostile.

Also: Tyki makes sure to whisper in his ear that Allen is beautiful, and when he’s kissing the left hand, he places a kiss at the green cross, murmuring a thank you, and then he’s smirking a bit and looking right into Allen’s eyes, he adds, “You know I love your master as much as you do, that’s why isn’t it?”

What Tyki won’t be prepared, is for Allen to grow bold, to touch and kiss the scars he gave Tyki, and on some days Tyki is the one who is pinned down, kissed and marked. Tyki will still touch Allen everywhere, but he sure understands a bit more how Allen feels when Tyki the one making love to him.

Because that’s the thing: they make love. I’m pretty certain Tyki even says it once, telling Allen something like, “I’m not fucking you. I’m making love to you,” because Tyki knows Allen won’t realize it if he’s not told. And very early, Tyki wants Allen to know, to not misunderstand it and to realize he’s being loved, not used.

(Something else I grew to headcanon from rps, is that Allen grows to enjoy being bitten. Tyki is more than happy about it. And they might or might not love to have Tyki’s vines show. Personal hc is that Tyki can make vines stay on Allen’s body, he just touches somewhere and lets a vine slide on the skin, it’s almost like tattoos that move.)

(On that note, Tyki is extremely in control of himself, yet he’s not consciously thinking about it. He just knows he wants to make Allen feel good, and that’s why even if he gets creative, uses his vines or even his choose ability, Allen won’t be harmed. Tyki is still careful depending what he does, always hyperaware of whether or not Allen is growing uncomfortable.)

[advaysinghraizada]

IPKKND 3 - Episode 1 - Reactions

Alrighty ladies and gentlemen it is K I C K O F F time!!!!!!

“All eyes are on Chandni who is haunted by a traumatic past” 

Wow I literally never in a million years would have expected that lord alMIGHTY WOW #shooketh

okay wow so we are jumping straight into mysterious boy Advay, huh? Goddamn Barun lord I have missed you.

That beard though jesus have mercy. Leaping into a pool? Makes sense? Debatable. Looks good? Hell yes.

 IKFSDKFSDK JTO SAVE A PUPPY

OMG MY HEART

THATS IT FOLKS FROM THIS POINT ON I EXCUSE EVERYTHING HE DOES EVER IN HIS LIFE 

HE SAVED A PUPPY

HE IS A GOOD MAN

END OF STORY

ALSO IM SOBBING @ MY ARNAV’S MUSIC IN THE BG JUST KILL ME PLEASE. 

Haye meri jaan <3 Am I talking about Advay or the puppy? You will never know.

“Meri zindagi mein masoomiat ki, pyar ki, koi jaga nahin hai” UM .... okay boy... okAY ... hmmmhmm

 *Humko Maloom Hai fades in* ishq hi toh masoom hai, Advay, you idiot boy. You’ll learn in time. 

mmmm okay okay, Arnav’s revamped theme which I guess is now Advay’s...very nice.

Wow he is getting deep and personal right in episode 1 okay. 

side note: poor baby boy

yes thats right, he’s baby boy. anyone who saves a puppy is baby boy and thats the end of it.

WhAT IN THE FUCK IS HAPPENING. WHO THE FUCK DID ALL OF THIS TO HIS FAMILY. IDK WHO CHANDNI NARAYAN VASHIST IS BUT BOY I SUPPORT YOU IN THIS MISSION OF YOURS. LETS FUCK SHIT UP YES

Stop it Chandni, Advay and I are on a mission to destroy you, you can’t look cute and ruin it for the both of us.

Oh mY goodness....... was Advay Dev? Why do I feel like he was? 

Did you just open that with your mouth? HOW the fuCK do you have teeth girl? 

Does everyone in this house dress this extra??? 

There’s Mahadev<3 

and apparently Silsila Yeh Chahat Ka... okay

fitting though, the song is about awaiting a lost love to return and Advay, according to me, is Dev, Chandni’s lost love

and just who the fuck is this bitch?

shes a murderer like guaranteed

complete with creepy music and everything 

Sam Dand Dhand Bhed .... very fitting 

Masiji... after Mamiji ....

Hello hi nahin... only bye bye 

....... oh Chandni ...... baby child .... 

who are these bitches talking shit 

how horrible.

CHANDNI THATS IT IM GONNA PROTECT YOU WITH MY LIFE OKAY BABY 

And who is this guy? 

a father??????? 

he doesnt look very pleased with her.... like at all 

maybe uski shakal hi aisi hai?? or maybe it has something to do with the “3 raat ghar se gayab” wali baat 

Good question mysterious man 

OH GOD MY HEART 

 HE DOESNT REMEMBER - I CANT 

Sorry Advay I dont think i can support your vengeance endeavour anymore baby, can’t we all just be happy? 

i dont??? his mother??? okay idk i guess we’ll just go with it 

But on a side note: Advay wanting to set her on fire is very fitting now considering his own mother was set aflame

WHO IS THIS PERSON NOW HOW MANY FUCKS LIVE IN THEIR HOUSE

You look like a rude bitch, i dont think i like you

the murderer mother!!!! you basically admit it you dusht aurat.

My Mahadev will not grant you anything you horrid woman. 

screw your khazana :/

oH GOD ..... PARIVAAR KI IZZAT 

TO HELL WITH YOUR IZZAT 

Leave my daughter chandni alone you horrible freak. im stealing her from you, she’s mine now. 

Oh Chandni my sweet love. I LOVE YOU PLEASE DONT BE SAD. 

Ladki badnaam hai??! I’ll stab you in the throat man meet me in the pit. 

I can’t, my heart breaks for her. 

O M G ...... who did this .... please god please don’t tell me Advay was responsible for that. Please don’t. 

WHOEVER IT IS I WILL HAVE THEIR HEAD ON A PLATTER. 

Anarth hojayega. YOUR JANAM WAS A GHOR ANARTH.

Advay..... save Mahadev

somehow he’s gonna manage to do this all by himself?

ASR = The Incredible Hulk? 

aWWWW THEY’RE BOTH RUNNING 

Chandni runs away from confrontation and Advay is looking to run straight towards it.

AW BABY 

Dev is Advay like guaranteed, im convinced 

and i’m also heartbroken that who she takes her strength from is trying to ruin her life </3 

ok so seriously is he going to somehow stop this murti from falling all on his own

apparently he is...?? 

also i hate how good you look Barun this should be illegal.

CAN SOMEONE HELP HIM INSTEAD OF GASPING AND POINTING JESUS CHRIST

here goes the hulk 

i am shocked that this was considered plausible by a room full of adults.

precap: here comes Dev.... you just dont know it 

djklfjdfkljdskf AAJA VE MAHI TERA RASTA UDIK DIYAN 

HONEY

NEITHER OF YOU HAVE ANY IDEA

Advay aka Dev stoP THIS 

SHE HAS SUFFERED ENOUGH HOW DARE YOU 

KAISA PARDA ILL HIT YOU IN THE FACE 

*clears throat* All in all, a nice introductory episode :) 

[buddaheadcannonsonice]

Rika's back and MC gets left P. 4

Rika is back and MC gets sick at the same time she feels abandoned. Part 1 (x) | Part 2 (x) | Part 3 (x) | Part 4 (x) | Part 5 (x)

Rika felt a sense of satisfaction

She got off being the one everyone considered the most

sure, she lead MC to the RFA

sure she made a lot of trouble for MC and the rest of the members

But the one thing she did not want anyone to forget or even ever know really was

it also meant she could take her out of rfa with ease

And they wouldn't ever know it was her or care if all went to her plan

-- Yoosung --

From the last time MC invited Yoosung over, he remembered where she now lived

Why didn't I visit her sooner?

Yoosung made his way to her building, knocking repeatedly and waiting for a response

Where is she? It's almost midnight…

He almost gave up when she didnt answer either calls, text, or the door

Rika! Yoosung was surprised to see his cousin walk by

“Yoosung, what are you doing here so late?”

I came to see if MC is okay, shes been MIA for a while

“She’s fine! I talked to her not too long ago and she said that she was going to visit her family for a few weeks. I forgot to tell you guys about it too… sorry.”

It’s fine, don’t worry about it! Though, it would have been better if she told us herself…

“I dont know the details, but something about one of her family members being recently diagnosed with a terminal illness.. Yeah, it was terrible. She said they started to cough blood and she went to go help them through the process. Poor MC.”

You’re genuinely concerned for MC, you’re so nice Rika.

“Ofc, shes a memeber of the rfa too!”

Sorry, its just i know you dont know her that much, but im glad you guys get along well. Do you know when she’ll be back?

“I think after the funeral. Though it may be longer since i dont know how shell be okay after all of that. Next time we talk, ill ask her, okay? How about we go visit V? Im sure hes awake and wouldnt mind if you came over for a sleep over”

Yoosung felt like a huge boulder had been lifted from his shoulders now that he knew MC was physically okay

He felt bad that she didnt tell anyone that she was leaving to tend to a sick family member

But he felt that he would forgive her since she seemed more of a private person

I should get her a gift basket when she comes back; poor MC will be greiving when she returns- I could add chocolates and that coffee she likes with an uber soft blanket. Yeah, i wil do that for sure when RIka tells me when she comes back

Yoosung wanted to be a shoulder for MC when she came back since she was there for him when Rika was gone

he wanted to prove to her and himself and RIka that he was more than just a college student who played a lot of video games; that he was also a capable man

-- Zen --

Zen has entered the chatroom.

Zen: MC! Please call me when you get this!

Rika: Zen, I forgot to tell everyone that MC went back to her home country to take care of a sick family member. I didnt want to say anything right away but she told me just recently that it may be a while before she returns because of how bad things are …

Jahee has entered the chatroom.

Jahee: Oh no that’s terrible. Is her family member in that bad of condition for MC to leave without saying bye?

Rika: I am afraid so. From what I know, they are really ill that it is now deemed terminal.

Zen: Oh man, i really thought something happened to MC

Rika: What do you mean?

Zen: I dont know, I thought maybe she got bored of us and left us or something happened to her health wise. I hope she knows that we are all here for her when she comes back

Rika: Dont jinx anything! I’ll let her know though that you were worried whenever we talk again ^^

Jahee: Please do. Id feel much better though if I could talk to her soon. Do you think you can let her know to call me please?

Rika: I will pass the message along!

Zen: me too please, I really miss her :c

Rika: I will, you guys worry too much ^^ dont worry guys, everything will be perfectly fine ^^

Zen: alighty then, i gotta go and meet some directors to talk about my wonderful gorgeous face making its appearance on stage soon, bye~

Jahee: Oh my heart!

Rika: Good luck!

Zen has left the chatroom.

He didnt trust Rika

He didnt even trust Jahee at the moment

He knows he saw MC at the store that night

And it seems highly unlikely that she would just leave without explaining the situation

Especially if someone she cared about was really sick

Would she?

-- Jahee --

From what Mr. Han had been accumulating she knew what was going on somewhat

Though if the rest of rfa should know she didnt feel like she had a place to tell them

She did abandon MC just like the rest did

She wont deny that what the rfa did to MC was abandon her at a time she would have needed them 

despite all MC probably gave up to help them 

But she didnt want anyone to be in the unknown

Although, she didn't know if Rika was lying or telling the truth maybe rika did know mc was sick and didnt want to tell because MC said so

Jahee didnt want to risk anything by letting the cat out of the bag cringing

For now all she felt like she could do was gather as much as she could about people with pneumonia 

She would look into it since that was all Mr. Han told her

Maybe find some coffee as well for MC and maybe chocolates as she thinks about pleading for forgiveness 

-- Jumin --

He had no right to act like he should care for MC anymore

The moment they all left her, everyone in the rfa lost all the rights to care for MC

The only thing he could do was offer her the best treatment possible when he found out what she had it made him very uncomfortable to not know what she was suffering from

aside from the stabbing pains of being betrayed that he couldn't fix for her

but that was only if Seven could find a way into breaking MC out of there

But he knew the longer they waited the worse she would get

When he saw MC through the camera on Sevens screen, he knew he never wanted to know what it felt to lose someone again

After he though rika died, he felt like his world tipped over

But if he loses MC, he knows he wont ever have a reason to go on living with himself

He did find comfort knowing that MC never seemed to have had lost her personality and all that made her so easy to be around

By the looks of it, it was all thanks to Paco who never seemed to leave her side

Are you almost done?

“I want her out of there as soon as possible as well, okay?”

Jumin was taken back with how Seven snapped

“Dont let it get to you, he always gets like this”  the famous ‘Vanderwood’ who leaned on the side of the wall said

I dont want to know

He decided he didnt want to get into what Seven did on his own time also bc ‘Miss’ Vanderwood was slightly scaring him

“Just get the IP address so we can get there and go”

“I cant just do that! Well, I can but there seems to be more stuff this guy is feeding me atm and its all about MC”

“Look at it when you get her out of there! Poor girl must be seconds away from kicking the stupid bucket”

Excuse me?

“DOnt take it to heart, he gets angry when he has to wait before a job”

“Shut the fuck up, I still have my taser, you oaf”

What do you mean hes feeding you?

“I mean, this Unknown guy wants her found but for some odd reason he cant let her go… idk myself, but it looks like hes just doing his job”

“What makes you say that?”

“RIght here it says: Job. No. Yes.- Unknown”

Isnt that a good thing then? That means we can get MC out faster

JUmin didnt care for all the extra side stuff

He wanted to just get to the point and storm in there to save MC and take her to the doctors he had on standby

Just hurry up!

“I would want to bu- OH shit”

Jumins heart stopped for a millisecond thinking that MC died

When he didnt see anything abnormal on the screen that showed MC he was confused

But looking at what Seven saw

He understood

Is that Rika?

-- 707 --

Watching RIka give MC injections of unknown substances made him physically want to scream

Why would she do that?

What was she even giving MC?

Where is Unknown?

“Damn, white loaf can really go on strong” he ignored Vanderwoods snide comment focusing on V holding MC down so Rika could give her another injection

“Let’s go now Seven, no more playing around!”

Okay okay, let me just get this on my laptop so we can watch as we go

“If we take my helicopter we could be there quicker”

Yeah lets do that

Seven was in a daze

As he looked into the breadcrumbs Unknown was giving him

He began to wonder why Unknown even took MC away if he was going to help them in the end

Unless he too was forced into do this all

But why would Rika do this? What could she gain from this?

“Please dont”

Seven turned to look at Jumin who looked at him when they heard MC’s voice

“Ready or not here it comes~” Rika sang

“You both may want to look away” Seven heard Vanderwood say before turning away

Not once had he ever looked away from the screen while on the job

--

You begged her to stop

Whatever it was, it wasn't the same anymore

You began to remember names and faces but you couldn't match them together

Please stop this, it hurts!

“Sweetie, you're dying anyways, this is me being merciful and helping you go faster. Be thankful.”

What about that other stuff? What was that other stuff?

“It will all be over quickly if you just listen to her, please MC”

You turn to look at the stranger with the sunglasses: who’s MC?

Am I MC? Are they talking to me ?

You think you know them but you can't match any faces or names at all

“I'd ask if you have any last words you want me to give to someone but at this point, you probably don't know if you have any friends or family “

You shake your head trying to think

Somewhere someone has to know who you are

Why can't I talk?

You panic; thrashing your body away from the woman and man

“Stop it!” You hear it before you feel a stinging sensation on your cheek

“Like I said,you're already dying “ the woman says as she huffs for air

The look on her face scares you

It looks like she's enjoying whatever is happening

“You should never talk to strangers “ you feel the weight of something hard crash on you holding your face down on the now cold floor

“Don't ever go to places you don't know”

The pressure intensifies making your head build more pressure like it will explode

“Rika, that's too much” you hear the man from earlier

Help me please! you silently beg 

You wonder why he doesn't help you

“Stay out of this V”

You feel something stab your shoulder

Then you don't feel anything at all

-- Vanderwood --

Seven was annoying

Richie rich was annoying

They all were pissing him off

The rush to get to where this girl was chaotic

He was used to the silence that Seven would accompany him with

But not like this

This silence was deafening and suffocating

-- V --

He didnt want to harm MC

she was one of the good ones 

but he didnt want to make Rika any worse than she already was

He knew 707 or Jumin must have caught on by now 

with the help he got from Unknown, he knew they would make it but not soon enough

He made sure that whatever happened; it would all be on him 

Even if MC may never wake up again

even if Rika would spend a lot of time in the hospital 

even if Jumin and everyone in the RFA should come to hate him

even if he should become the villain; 

he would do whatever it takes to preserve Rika’s legacy and love and pride

He just needed for MC to hold onto life 

She was already sick 

and the medication he had replaced with the medication Rika wanted Unknown to give her seemed to have been working 

He made sure Unknown gave her the treatment she needed

But he didnt anticipate for Rika to inject her with a strong dose of whatever she had made for MC

By the looks of it 

it definitely was not the same that he had Unknown give her

-- Unknown -- 

Any minute now, it would all be over 

one way or another, MC would no longer suffer

He knew that by lying to Rika he was compromising his safety as well as Saeyoung’s

But he couldnt kill MC slowly

not with what RIka had made for her 

No. 

Instead, he made sure he gave her the medication she needed 

he made sure that Saeyoung would find the bread crumbs he left 

He expected Rika to pull something big for the finally so he made MC an antidote to what Rika had 

he didnt give it to her yet but he would have to leave it for Saeyoung to find if Paco didnt find a way of getting the vile out of his jacket before they got to MC

All he needed now was to find a way to make amends 

To MC and to everyone else 

but he would do that after he found a way to forgive himself and Saeyoung 

because if he didnt make him hate him; none of this would have happened 

and MC would have had treatment for this and have never been involved 

When would Saeyoung see how toxic both were to everyone else?

Especially to someone good and simplistic and perfectly normal like MC. 

Did Saeyoung even know?

Did his brother know how toxic both brothers were to everyone?

Like how toxic they were to one another.

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Responses to {Part 18} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^ 

@im-that-chesire-jax said: “…i-it’s Dracula!”  OH MY GOD IM CRYING RIGHT NOW??? WHY AM I CRYING YOU CANT LEAVE IT AS A CLIFFHANGER LIKE THAT (I mean you can, you just did) BUT I AM AMAZED BY YOUR WRITING I WILL BE ITCHING FOR NEXT WEEK TOU COME.

Thank you babe! I’m happy you liked it and that you’re looking forward to next week c:

@takura-rin said: Ahhh, the new chapter was so awesome ;; I’ll almost forgot that the update was today.. I’m so exited whats happening next ;;

I’m glad you remembered that the update was today! hehe, thank you so much for reading it :)

@mysr3 said: Saraaa OMG WHAT HAVE U DONE! My heart just stopped at the ending(screams) can’t wait for next chapter. Well done love❤️ ahhh plz will there be drama in next chapter. Even Yoongi’s character is evil but he is my bias, hope his character is somehow okay. I love the part when JK introduced Y/N to his family, interesting encounter n well explained details. U portrayed him such cute little boy who needs his mum to help with revealing his secrets. I screamed when he announced Y/N his partner n GF ><

A cute little boy haha yes! I guess even Vampires can be nervous when introducing their gf to their parents. But even more so for Jungkook because his gf is a human and he is a royal Vampire heh~ Thank you so much for reading the chapter my love!

@animeimmortal said: “lovely. Oh thats lovely. Awwww that’s nice. ^^ . Great looking party. what. What. WhAT. FUCK. WHAT. SHIT. WAT. FAK. WHHAAAAAAAT. oh shit.” I Won’t Stop You part 18 - a summary (cont.) also: DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMN BRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHH

What a perfect summary! hahaha~ I really hope you enjoyed it and thank you so much for reading it!

Anonymous said: OH MY GOD IT WAS SO GOOD!!! I may or may not have laughed when she said “it’s Dracula,” but I can’t wait until the next part! There’s something about your writing that draws the reader in, and I feel as if I’m really in the story. You describe things in such a way that it’s like it’s happening to me, and I’m feeling the same things that they’re feeling in the story. You’re so talented and I hope that, if you enjoy it, you never stop writing because you’re so amazing at it.

Ahhhh thank you so so much! It’s so good to hear that you can really feel all the emotion as if you are truly there. You’re so sweet and kind and yes, I really do enjoy writing so I won’t be stopping! haha thank you for reading and messaging me too :)

Anonymous said: Oh dear I’m not gonna survive the next chapter am I? Please have mercy and don’t kill me entirely, you’ve already done half the job in this chapter

Hmmm I wonder c: hehe thank you so much for reading and despite being half dead, I hope you enjoyed the chapter!

Anonymous said: WHY DO YOU DO THE THINGS YOU DO!? DO YOU KNOW HOW AMAZING YOUR STORY IS!? DO YOU KNOW KNOW HOW MUCH STRESS AND PTSD IT GIVES!? THIS IS AMAZING AND THE CLIFFHANGER AND EVERYTHING JUST URGHHHHHHHH

I apologise for any stress and PTSD caused! D: You’re welcome for the cliffhanger :P It seems I’ve caused a little distress with it - whoops :) hehe thank you so much for reading the chapter!

Anonymous said: Omg just read the new chapter and I don’t know how u do it. I literally felt like I was feeling her every emotion, like seriously you should have seen me, I was shaking in my chair from the anxiety! I love your work and will continue to follow you and read everything you write!! LOVE YOU XXX

Awww poor babe but I’m glad I could make you feel the emotions she was feeling in the chapter! Thank you so much my love and I greatly appreciate that ^^ I love you too!!

@omelys-space said: OH MY LORD THINGS WILL GET REAL NOW !!! Holy Shit I am so excited 😍 And Jungkook is such a babe man I wish I could date someone like him such a gentleman  Protect your girl!  So cute and Taehyung and Jimin just yes 😍 Thank you for this update it is amazing and a huge thank you for updating every week ❤❤❤❤

I know right when will I ever had a protective Vampire boyfriend to keep me safe from evil Vamps like Yoongi :c hehe~ Thank you so much my love and I’m so happy that you enjoyed it!

@semisweetsuga said: AAAAAAAAAAA THAT WAS. SUCH A GOOD CHAPTER I’M DECEASED AHHHHHHHH

HELLO KOTO THANK YOU BABU I’M HAPPY THAT YOU WERE THOROUGHLY SHOOK

Anonymous said: OK I’VE JUST FINISHED IT AND OMG CAN YOU NOT WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LEAVE IT ON SUCH A CLIFFHANGER although on a calmer note I’m so so so happy we’re now getting to the actual climax of the story 🎉🎉 - silent anon (cont.) Aside from being more-hyped-than-necessary for next week already, I also can’t wait to see how the rest of Jungkook’s family are going to react to OC calling Yoongi ‘Dracula’ - silent anon (not so silent anymore) (cont.) Also Happy Valentines !!! And I want to second what jiminiespinkie was saying about you being better that many published writers - she is 100% correct, you’re such a good writer you could honestly just get a writing career right now. I hope you were just being modest when you said you’ve got a long way to go before publication, and that you’re well aware of and are completely confident in how good of a writer you are - silent anon (So sorry for the spam, I keep forgetting to add things 😷)

You think this is the climax of the story?….that’s…interesting. c: Thank you so much for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy next weeks as much as this weeks! And yes, Happy Valentines Day to you too (even tho it’s not Valentines Day any more now but I still got a lot of love to give lol) And in regards to the publishing idea, I HAVE looked into different options, but tbh it makes me so anxious haha. Like, it feels really pretentious of me to actually charge money for people to read what I write. Like real talk, I would feel really weird asking people like even for £1 for a book lol but who knows what will happen in the future. Maybe you’ll see a published author called Sara Eren in 10 years time or something haha. Thank you so much for your lovely and encouraging words, they really made me happy and I smiled so much ^^ You’re so wonderful!

@jauntyjin said: I CABT FUCKING WAIT U TIL NEXT TUESDAY TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS

YAY I HOPE YOU’LL ENJOY NEXT WEEK’S UPDATE TOO! :D Thank you so much :D

Anonymous said: Happy Valentines Day Sara! ❤️ Your writing is something I live for, and I’m so blessed you’re blessing us with a new chapter of “I Won’t Stop You” on this day ✨✨

Happy Valentines Day lovely anon! You’re so welcome and thank you so much for reading it in return ❤️

@moonlighthollow said: Ok first of all I’m SO impressed on how well described &matching(if that’s even a word to describe someone idek😂) your characters are,i mean i can totally imagine taehyung being like this even tho he isn’t gay(･ิω･ิ)but his behavior, the way he talks &the way you describe his expressions are SO on point idk if that makes any sense😂besides of that i love this story so much i think it’s my fav. Story of all so far cause it’s so well written &researched😍& OMG I’M DYING YOONGIS PART IS NEXT OMFG

I’m really happy to know that you think everything is well described ^^ Don’t worry, it makes perfect sense! I understand completely what you’re saying hehe ^^ Thank you so much my darling and I hope you’ll like next week’s update too! :D

Anonymous said: Oke-No. I’m not okay. You know, I’d want to hit u, but that’s not nice and u are SUCH AN AMAZING WRITER. So I’ll just go into cardiac arrest until next monday. Bye.  R.I.P

Pls don’t hit me I’m very small and unaggressive and I’d probably cry my eyes out lolol Thank you so much! I’m really glad you liked(?) the chapter haha! Thank you again my love ^^

@wonderful39530 said: If I could have a pic that could express how I’m feeling about chapter 18 on I Wont Stop You lets just say it’ll be all over the place!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!!

Awwwww thank you so much babe! Thank you for enjoying it and reading it, that means so much to me ^^ Stay awesome my dear!

@hayley797-blog said: You killed me.You killed my non existent heart.I wish you could update sooner I can’t wait a whole week…but I guess I just have to wait.Omg I loveee your stories

I apologise for killing you *tries to bring you back to life) haha :c I wish I could update more often too but it takes time to write each chapter unfortunately! Thank you so much babe, I’m so happy that you’re enjoying it!

@fashionkilla124 said: THATS IT IM SELLING MY SOUL TO KFC FOR 5 DOLLARS I CANT NOOO YOONGI WHY

NO DON’T SELL YOUR SOUL TO KFC. SELL IT TO ME INSTEAD. ;D

Anonymous said: Ah I love your writing! Do you know how many chapters might be in IWSY so I know the date I will die? Fighting!

Thank you so much darling!! And no, I’m sorry but I have no idea how many chapters there will be!

@audreymv said: IM NOT READY OMG WHO JUST WALKED IN???? Omg i am on edge and like beautiful. Your writing makes me want to cry and i might just like how. You are so amazing Sara. How dare I not read this for 1 week like. This is my favorite series and you are one of my favorite writers, too. Why are you so amazing. Just i am so overwhelmed. Like please let something not go wron

YOU DON’T KNOW WHO JUST WALKED IN??? xD Ahhh don’t worry about not reading for one week, it’s okay! You can always come back to here because it’s not going anywhere! Thank you so much my love, you’re so sweet and lovely to me and I really appreciate it more than I can describe ^^ Thanks for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy next weeks’ chapter too! :D

Anonymous said: And yet again you slayed me with your amazing writing skills, seriously, you never fail to make me happy every single thursday -cat anon

Hello Cat anon! Yay, I’m so happy it slayed you hehe~ ^^ I’m so happy I can make you happy every single week and I hope I can continue to do that for you as the story continues as well! Thank you so much my dear :D

Anonymous said: I’M MAD AT YOU BUT I REALLY LOVE YOU AT THE SAME TIME BUT LIKE SERIOUSLY YOU CANT JUST END THE CHAPTER LIKE THAT BC AAAHHHHHSMJISMID. IDMMXKSM C M J. SKAK,SMIC. IWSY IS GREAT KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK

PLEASE DON’T BE MAD AT ME ;; It seems I’ve caused a few people some distress with my cliffhangers once again, but…it’s fun :P I’m innocent I swear! heheh thank you so much for reading the chapter my dear it means a lot to me!^^

Anonymous said: hOLY FREAKING SHIT. THAT ENDING WITH THE GUYS (Yoongi, Jhope, Rapmon and Jin right?) LEFT ME DYING I WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT OMGOMGOMG I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK??!?!?!? I WONT SURVIVE I HAVE TO KNOWWWWWWWW

DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNER! lolol c: You’ll have to survive another week to find out my love, but thank you so much for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy it again next week! :D

Anonymous said: OMG THAT CHAPTER I’M CRYING IT WAS SO GOOD also I’m a Lil confused so like what must one do to become a full vampire?? Like what was it that made jimin so relieved?

Thank you so much my love! And in regards to Jimin, I guess you’ll just have to wait for the story to explain as the chapters continue! Sorry, no spoilers ;D

Anonymous said: FUCK👏 ME👏 UP 👏WITH 👏THIS👏 NEW 👏CHAPTER 👏 Like I swear whenever Jungkook gets all playful I DIE! And that Yoongi reveal at the end literally is so great to the plotline. I swear you are one of the best writers out here and thanks for taking your time with such a masterpiece 😊

Yessssssss I’m so happy to know that! And ikr right? Playful and flirty VampKook got me feeling so hmhmmgkflmgspg lolol c: Thank you so much for your wonderful words, they mean the world and more to me, you have no idea ^^

Anonymous said: Your fanfic is amazing, I really love your writing, pls write some smutty blood sucking thnk u <3

I may or may not have a Jackson Wang oneshot Vampire!AU planned in the future~~ blood sucking smut included heh~ But you didn’t hear that from me! c: Thank you so much my love ^^

Anonymous said: SARA NOOOOOOOO. WHY YOU DO THIS?? I’ve been literally dying for jungkook to tell y/n what he really is omg I wanna know what’s gonna happen to them. AND NOW YOONGI SHOWS UP?? AND SHE RECOGNIZES HIM OMG. CRAP IS ABOUT TO GO DOWN. PLUS I WANNA KNOW WHAT Y/N IS OMGOMGOMG STAAAHHPP. How are you such a good writer omg.  - 7:45 anon

Hello again 7:45 anon! I’m so happy to know that I caused you a great deal of panic with this chapter :D hehe~ Thank you so much for reading and I hope next week’s update can evoke the same feelings, too :3 I hope you’re having a great week!

Anonymous said: SARA!!!!!!! HOW COULD YOU STOP THERE OH MY GOD!!!! I FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS GONNA BEAT OUT OF MY CHEST PLEASE TELL ME WHATS GONNA HAPPEN!!! IT WAS ALL GOING SO WELL AND THEN BAM THE D R A M A ABOUT TO UNFOLD

It’s always most calm before the storm c: Hehe I hope you enjoyed reading the chapter and thank you so much for reading it! ^^

Anonymous said: Tuesday is so far away 😩. How could you end it there oml. This is not a cliffhanger if I’m being thrown over the edge already. Great job great job. Tuesday can’t get here fast enough

Awww I’m so sorry my lil babes :c *pulls you off the cliff* it’s okay~ hehe Thank you so much and I hope that you’ll enjoy the next chapter!

@sehkii said: ooomg i love i won’t stop you sm and the way you right just??? blows my mind??? likE HOW??? i love how you’ve kept us on edge with everything going on and i think i figured what the mc is? at least what she can do? i mean you basically put it out there in the newest chapter but i’m pretty sure the mc speeds up the vampire transition time? aND THE REASON YOONGI WANTS HER IS TO CREATE AN ARMY OF VAMPIRES TO GET BACK AT THE JEONS??? THis is my theory but honestly i’m ready for anything fuck me up

Yes - it certainly appears that it is one of the powers that her ‘condition’ is made up of. But, I wonder if there is a deeper reason or meaning to it? Hm? c: Your deduction is clever and on the right path, so thank you for being so observant and picking up on that aspect, it makes me smile so much as the writer to see that :D Thank you also for reading it and messaging me afterwords with your theory, I enjoyed it quite a lot ;D hehe^^

Anonymous said: IM JUNGSHOOK. CHAPTER 18 GOT ME ALL THE WAY F***ED UP (excuse my language) LIKE EVERYONE IS LIKE 'Aye party lit af’ then it’s like *doors swing open* 'omfg ashdvnglf he’s arrived* and I’m just sad and lonely and upset but still extremely happy and in love with you. But like why you do dis. We have to wait a whole week to see what happens next. I love you 💜 ~LilKookie Anon

Hello LilKookie anon! LOL AYE PARTY LIT AF hahaha I laughed too much at that - why did I imagine Namjoon screaming that when I read it? xD Please don’t be sad and lonely, I’m always here for you ^^ and I love you too! Thank you so much for reading it and enjoying it my love, it means a lot to me! ^^

Anonymous said: Hey, I just wanted to let you know that your fics are still part of my self care routine. It’s Tuesday nights now :) Love your writing!!! - self-care anon

Hello self-care anon! Long time no talk my dear, how are you keeping? Have you been taking care of yourself? I hope so! And YAY I’m so glad I can still be a part of your self-care routine ^^ Thank you so much my love!

Anonymous said: I. AM. SCREAMING. OH MY GOSH. When she started chatting with the family I thought “oh man, what if Suga comes.” AND THEN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. NO NO NO. Lolol Serrena super confused though. “what’s wrong wth the human???” Wow. You can’t just end it there!!!!! Wow. I am, wow. WOWOWOWOWOWOOWOW. Help. #IWSY

Lol yes! Because Serrena has no idea that the reader even knows who Yoongi is! The only people who know of her past thus far is Jungkook, Taehyung and Jimin bc of the Montgomery’s essentially fucking up and not realising that there was a young girl being left without parents too…:c Thank you so much for reading the chapter my love and I’m so happy you enjoyed it!

Anonymous said: OH SHIT ALL HELL WILL BREAK LOOSE. THEY WERE GONNA TELL HER WHAT THEY WERE BUT FUCK YOONGI WHAT ARE YOU DOING JUNGKOOK WILL KILL YOU ALL THE JEONS REALLY. JUNGKOOK MUST BE SO CONFLICTED LIKE KILL YOONGI OR STAN WITH YN TO PROTECT HER. AND YN OH SHIT SHE IS GONNA PISS HER PANTS, FOR A GOOD REASONS. SARA I’M FUCKED UP SHIT OMG NO THIS CLIFFHANGER WRECKED ME I’VE SAID I NEED TUESDAY TO COME BUT NO NOW I REALLY REALLY NEED TUESDAY TO COME OMG POOR YN. JUNGKOOK FIX IT TTUTT OMG I’M SCREAMING SARA AHH

I APOLOGISE FOR WRECKING YOU WITH THE CLIFFHANGER BUT LETS BE HONEST YOU SHOULD EXPECT THAT FROM ME BY NOW ;D lolol Thank you for reading and again I apologise for any distress I caused with the cliffhanger muhahaha c:

@coppertopging said: AHFBEKDIVHNEKSIFNGNEKWFHRJR!!!! YOU ARE THE QUEEN OF CLIFFHANGERS!!! WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?!??! *proceeds to ugly sob* i don’t like you right now…

*bows* yes, that I am ;D PLEASE LOVE ME I PROMISE I’M NOT THE EVIL CLIFFHANGER QUEEN I CLAIM TO BE :c lolol But…I hope you enjoyed it? xD Thank you for reading my love ^^

Anonymous said: HOW DARE YOU YOONGI OMG

*shakes fist* DAMN THAT RASCAL

Anonymous said: SARA I LOVE  YOUU THANK U SO MUCH FOR TGIS SERIE OMG THIS SO GOOD I NEED A DRINK

I LOVE YOU TOO AND YOU’RE WELCOME THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING - also, I take no responsibility for driving anyone to alcoholism due to my stories :x

@fragmentedxmemory said: OMG I Won’t Stop You is an AMAZING story!!! Holy cow so much emotion in the last chapter!!! I’m in love with this story and I’m in love with your writing talent. Keep up the great work and can’t wait for part 19. 😍😍😍👌🏽👌🏽

Hello lovely! Thank you so much for your wonderful words, and I’m so happy that you’re enjoying the story so far ^^ Thank you for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy the next one too!

Anonymous said: Jungkook: talks about how precious the reader is to him  Me: *is a crying mess*

Fun fact; my mum reads these chapters before I post them and she was a crying mess at that part. She thought it was so endearing of him to say and it made her very emotional aww c: Thank you for reading my dear!

@jynxy24 said: NEWEST CHAPTER MADE ME- URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I couldn’t wait for school to be over. Hahaha, I’ll have to study for an exam now, thanks so much for this amazong chapter, Sara! ^^

Ahhh Jynxy thank you so much for reading babe! I hope you can study well but don’t overwork yourself either! I hope you do well in your exam my love :D

Anonymous said: I LOVE THIS CHAPTER SO MUCH I’M SCREAMING - wedding anon

HELLO MY LOVE THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING I’M SO HAPPY YOU LOVED IT :D

Anonymous said: (IWSY is amazing my every message is by default talking about that haha) ANW thanks to you Sara I actually looked into got7 and Guess who just found a new bias 🌚 Choi youngjae 💙  -eggyook anon

Hello eggyook anon! Thank you so very much for reading the chapter and enjoying it ^^ You’re so awesome! AND OH MY GOD REALLY THAT’S AMAZING YES YOUNGJAE IS SUCH A PERFECT RAY OF SUNSHINE HE WILL FILL YOUR DAYS WITH ENDLESS LAUGHTER AND RADIANT LIGHT you made an excellent choice c: I’m so happy you could look into them because of me, that makes me so so happy c:

Anonymous said: IM SCREECHING YO THAT CLIFF HANGER THO HOW DARE U. THIS SHIT REALLY BUTTERS MY EGG ROLL U KNOW. IM SO HYPE FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER OML. I WANNA CRI FML. Also ilysm and I hope you’re happy and healthy ok bye 💕

“That shit really butters my egg roll” I’M FUCKING DYING NO STOP I LITERALLY PEED NO I HSDBGSKJDNGSN oh ym god i can’t breathe that fucked me up I’m using that in my own life now thank you so much for this eloquent expression LOL thank you so much for reading the chapter and I love you too! I hope you’re having an amazing week and I hope you are also happy and healthy my dear ^^

@cynicalspacehoe said: Oh. My. God. Chapter 18 had me extremely shook to say the least. Amazing job as always!

Thank you so much my dear I’m so happy you liked it! ^^

Anonymous said: Omg I.. The newest chapter of IWSY was amazing! It made me feel all kinds of things. I was so happy and nervous and terrified (and aroused) when the protagonist was feeling those things. UGH. YOURE AMAZING.

Yay I’m so glad you could feel all those wonderful things :3 YOU’RE EVEN MORE AMAZING thank you so much for reading it my love ^^

@ineffabl-y said: EVERYTHING CONNECTS AND MAKE SO MUCH MORE SENSE I’M SCREAMING AHHHHHHHHH🤸🏿‍♀️🤸🏿‍♀️🤸🏿‍♀️🤸🏿‍♀️

Yes yes yes everything will connect and things will all start to be revealed c: Thank you for reading honey! :3

[fuckkyourlife]

The way Suguru says Satoru is my 13th reason

[mysafehaven786-blog]

8/23/17

11:51am 

I have not been proud of they way I have been acting lately. I have gone back to many of my bad habits and I am tremendously disappointed in myself. This has caused for my anxiety and tears, fears and sadness to come back. I am my own worst enemy and my happiness and miserliness lies in my own hands. I have learned over the past few months that I can make myself completely, blissfully and tremendously happy or I can make myself be very depressed and miserable. No one else is the cause for my happiness and unhappiness but me. 

I have made myself so unhappy the past few weeks. I am so disappointed in myself for my bad actions and for slipping back into my bad habits of lying and deceiving. I  was happier and more at peace when I wasn’t committing these acts. 

I have caused so much harm to this poor guy and I don’t want to do that any longer. I want to ask for his forgiveness and then never repeat these mistakes or hurt/harm him again. I have no excuse for my actions and it scares me how evil I can be at times. It really does

But I have also seen that I can come past these habits and overcome them and leave them in the past. I just need to be strong, more in my faith, wiser and I can do this. I just need to be on top of my prayers, stay away from sins, keep my heart close to allah swt. thats all i need to do and i wont slip back onto the wrong path again. 

I have just disappointed myself but I know I can bounce back from this and become a better person. With the help of Allah I can do anything and I know if I ask for sincere forgiveness and change then he will forgive him. I just hope i can let go of these habits once and for all. I woke up today with the words “ i hate myself” and i did this because im about to be 25, i have no job and I’m not married. I feel behind in life but I don’t want to hate myself. I want to be patient and find myself back to being happy and proud of myself. I hope that every time I want to sin and go back to my old habits I remember how unhappy and sad I was when i did it and I hope I am able to let this guy go once and for all. 

“With his infinite power anything could be done. ask allah for his pardon” 

Ya Allah pardon me, forgive me. I have wronged myself in so many ways. please forgive me of these sins and bring me back to you. give me strength through the pain, temptations and anxiety. I ask you to give me peace, heal my soul from the sins and wrongdoing I have done and purify me from the inside and out. 

Oh allah give me the strength and motivation to get good grades, study for my tests, get into graduate school, get a sub teaching job and give me peace give me strength and help me reach my fitness goals. keep me happy and keep me motivated. 

Practical Islam: How to Repent Properly

Say, “O my servants who have transgressed against themselves (by sinning), do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins, Indeed it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.” 

Surah 39, Ayah 53

1. “I’m bad, I cant ever worry about sin anymore, ive done too wrong” Allah says dont lose hope in the love, mercy and care of allah. he never wants to punish us. why would he want to? Allah will forgive all sins

2. I will wipe your slate so clean nothing will be left. he is the only one who will forgive everything. he is ready for you to start new. 

3. he says im ready to forgive you, but you have to come back to me, turn your hearts to me. submit yourself, obey. before punishment comes to you forgive to allah swt. 

4. angel of death will take your soul. 

5. Allah said he will forgive anything. he can wipe your slate clean. 

6. “I rependted, i’m okay, let me move on.” no you should always worry about your sins until you are in jannah. Do as much good as you can to out do the bad you did. 

7. We are human, we make mistakes, we falter, turn back to allah though. he wil forgive you but dont plan to comitt the sin again. 

8. 1. admit your sin. 2. regret your sin. 3 forgiveness. 4. promise not to do it again. 

Amy Young: You’re Not a Terrible Bad Bad Person

1. I have learned over time, countless years of trial and error that I feel better and life feels better when I give myself the benefit of the doubt. I feel so good inside 

2. ex. I am frustrated by someone elses behavior, you’re best friend told you she would call you but she didn’t make the plan for friday. then you find out she made plans w someone else. in that moment maybe jealously, rejection, hurt feelings. then you can give her the benefit of the doubt. she didnt mean to screw me over maybe she just forgot. 

3. You are never intentionally trying to hurt yourself and cause harm to your self. even when you royally screw up. would you purposely hurt yourself? cause yourself more pain? No not intentionally. even people who make destructive decisions are not trying to ef up their lives. were lost, confused, struggling scared and thats okay. 

4. example, its night time, i lay at bed and waste hours when I know I have to be up early. so they next day when im tired I have two options. 1. be pissed at myself. or 2. give myself benefit of the doubt, i wanted to relax and unwind in bed. 

5. take it easy, be gentle go easy on yourself. when you can do that, it takes so much of the pain away that doesn’t need to be there. don’t judge yourself, condemn yourself. be gentle and kind to yourself. 

6. You know you try very hard to better yourself. you made a mistake its okay. do yourself a favor and make this a practice. im doing the best I can. I will try harder next time.