#please let them be okay

[knuckie-head]

Too late

[zaya-mo]

Ohhhh my god it's Omega and Crosshair

[noblogname765]

Neil’s quotes from 2019, back when S1 was released. 🤍 I so can’t wait for S2!

[heretherebedork]

Please. Please. Please. Let them be good. Let them be okay. Let them be the best I can hope for. Please. Just a little blessing. Please let their romance be enjoyable.

[brandonwashere]

I want a new junoverse episode but I’m also terrified of what’s to come 😭

[smokestarrules]

The teamup of the fucking century is about to happen

[rexthefox]

It's okay guys Uzi just showed N some MCR(My chemical romance) songs and he's having an emo arc!!!

(I literally just looked up random lyrics from MCR songs and picked ones I thought were funny.)

THIS IS HOW I COPE.

[gravityglitch-blog]

So, a few thoughts before the new episode hits. I am having very normal levels of anxiety about it, I keep coming up with theories and discarding them just as quickly. Mostly I'm trying to figure out the Absolute Solver.

This has probably been brought up before, but "Absolute Solver" kind of sounds close to the word "absolution", meaning forgiveness.

Could forgiveness be a theme in these upcoming episodes?

I don't know, maybe this is nothing, I'm just a nervous fan

[darkkryptonian]

Summary: This is the continuation of Maya and Carina after 6x07.

A/N: Yes, I am brokenhearted. Yes, I cried while writing this. No, I don't know what to do with myself. I just want them to be fucking happy. Why can't they be happy?

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Carina has always been strong. She took care of her father and his manic episodes throughout her entire childhood.

She was also used to being alone doing all of it. She was used to having no one to take care of her.

It was all before she came in. Maya changed the way she lived. She was her rock. She made sure that Carina knew that it was okay to fall apart.

So, when Carina stepped out of that room, knowing that she may not see her again, she didn't have the option to fall apart, because she knew no one would be around to hold her. She looks back to her wife, who is now sedated and calm in her bed, she suppressed one last sob and left.

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She didn't mean to leave their home. But that was all she could do. Maybe she was the problem. Maybe she was the reason why Maya was in the spot she was. Maybe she should've done more or maybe less.

But right now, none of that mattered. She has lost one more person and this time it felt like her broken heart will never be repaired. 

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Utter silence. That's what she felt when she woke up. There were no voices in that hotel room. There was nothing that could indicate the presence of anyone.

She was alone. Truly and utterly, alone. 

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It took her an entire day before she could gather the courage to step into the hospital again. She felt as if in the chaos of that place all the eyes were on her, judging her for leaving her wife alone.

So, she looked down and moved towards her floor, not stopping anywhere. She rounded all the mothers, spoke to them, did her work as if on autopilot, and did not look into anyone's eyes. 

When she came out of her fifth critical surgery for the day, she was completely and utterly spent. But, she couldn't stop. She knew if she did all she would want is to go and meet Maya and that was not an option.

After going through the same patient notes for the seventh time she realized that she needed to see Maya. There was no way she could function anymore. She needed to see her wife. Even if she pushed her away once more, she would at least talk to her.

So, she moved towards the patient rooms. As soon as she got out of the elevator, Andy was standing there. Talking to Dr. Altman. 

Both of them looked at her at the same time and all she wanted to do at that moment was disappear. She could feel their gaze on her, and she needed to leave.

But something stopped her from backing away. Something made her move forward.

“Is she okay?”

She asked softly. As if to hide her existence so close to Maya.

“She has been better.”

Andy replied with kindness in her eyes. She knew her friend, she knew she tended to push the people she loved away when she was going through something, and she knew Carina leaving was no one's fault.

That made Carina tear up again and she looked up to compose herself a bit.

“Has she eaten? Is she talking to anyone?”

She asked, looking at Teddy.

“Yes and No. No talking. She just fell asleep.”

Teddy said and placed a supportive hand on Carina's shoulder. All she wanted to do was to rush inside and be by Maya's side. 

So, she did. She will leave before Maya wakes up. She will. She will leave. She repeated in her mind. She stepped inside and Maya had her back turned to the door. She locked her door softly and walked forward.

She was afraid of facing her. Terrified. But, she needed to see her. So, she rounded the bed and finally faced her wife. Her beautiful, strong, Bella whose face was now adorned by a wound, whose body was plugged with several electrodes and tubes. 

She sat on the chair by the bed and placed her hand near Maya's. Not touching her. Respecting the bounds.

“I know-”

Her voice got heavy and she had to stop for a moment.

“I know you don't want me here, Bella. I understand why you wouldn't. I just wish it wasn't like this. I just wish I could hold you in my arms forever and protect you from everything.

I am so sorry for all the parts I played with you being here, like this. I am so sorry for pushing you. I know this is all my fault and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness.

I just…”

She stopped again, wiping her tears and composing herself.

“I don't know how to live without you. Please, don't leave me. I cannot live without you. I have never… Begged someone to stay. Because I know I am not worth it and I have learned to accept the loneliness that comes with it.

But, I cannot… Please don't… Please, Bella. I love you.”

She finally let go of the tears she was holding in. She placed her head on the bed and let go of all the emotions she had tried to bury in her. She cried and cried till she didn't have any tears left.

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The exhaustion of the past two days finally took over her and she fell asleep right there. By Maya's bedside. During the night, her hand instinctively reached out for Maya's and she held on. Tightly. As if she was afraid that if she let go, Maya would disappear.

The next day she woke up to slight movement beside her head. In a few seconds, she was reminded of where she was last night and her head shot up to see Maya looking at her with confusion on her face.

“I'm… I'm sorry. I will leave. I shouldn't have… I am sorry. I am so sorry.”

She sputtered and stood up. She was going to leave when her fingers felt a little hold pulling her back.

“I love you too.”

It was spoken softly. But at that moment it felt like the most significant promise that she had heard. She softly kissed the tips of fingers still in her hand and placed a kiss on Maya's forehead.

“I love you very much.”

[clay-core]

the last green lives left and now the most hated on the server, but they have each other!

[dragon-chica]

THE BABIES ARE BEING BORN

Fiona is currently in labor, at the moment there are two (2) babies, but I am very concerned, not only because she is certainly a first time mother, but they are both smaller than the sickly runt (my beloved darling, who did not survive) of the other litter.

It looks like one orange and one tabby :')

[kitkatwinchester]

WHAT THE F*CK!

Okay, I was not emotionally prepared for an episode of Supernatural, okay?

The visions?? The traumatic flashbacks?? The omens?? The ghostly voices??

I mean, I should've been, because it's a supernatural-themed show, so I should know, but jesus christ this is terrifying and upsetting and ahhhhhhh I wasn't readyyyyy.

"So does that mean there have been three more suicides?" "Or three more about to happen."

NOPE! NO THANKS! I'LL PASS!

Also Isaac the poor baby. Nooooo. He has so much trauma and I just...WHY DOES HE KEEP BEING PUT IN SITUATIONS THAT EXACERBATE IT GOD D*MMIT!

And then Boyd! I don't know who Alicia is, but clearly, there is trauma there, and he does not deserve that.

And now, Scott just got a "call" from his "mom", and I just...

CAN YOU GUYS STOP IT!! PLEASE?! CAN YOU NOT?!

And now Stiles got a text from Lydia, and it COULD be Lydia, or it could not be Lydia, and GOD D*MMIT I HATE EPISODES OF THINGS WHERE WE CAN'T EVEN TRUST OUR OWN CHARACTERS ANYMORE!

SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON PLEASE!!

AND THEN MAKE IT STOP!!!

...anyways.

Edit: Okay so it was, in fact, actually Lydia, and Stiles, Allison, and Lydia are, in fact, actually fine in comparison to our werewolves, so thank GOD for that and thank GOD for them saving Ethan because he may be our enemy, but he and Danny are honestly soooo cute and he doesn't deserve to die. Anyways Stiles, Allison, and Lydia to the rescue!

[winters-rose-daughterofcain]

It's actually so important to me how flawed Penelope is you don't get it. She's complex and she's kind and sweet and caring and loving and bitter and manipulative and insecure and she's young and hurt and fucking up and making mistakes and hurting people and loving people and handling things in the worst way possible with the resources she has on hand and she's allowed to.

So often for a fat (and I say that within the context of the show, Pen is a fat/pus sized character within the narrative even if Nicola isn't) character to have any storyline outside of mother or joke they have to be the perfect victim. To be fat is to be victimised by society to some degree, it is to be told you are unloved and unwanted and unworthy without anyone saying those exact words, we all know this even if we don't want to except it. It's why almost every fat character is bullied in some way even if it's passed off as a joke, and they are just expected to take it because to actually acknowledge the pain and hurt and damage that causes is to acknowledge their humanity.

There is no space for complexity when you do not recognise the humanity of a character, there is no room for mistakes or grace or forgiveness in a narrative when the character is presented as lucky to simply be there. This goes doubly so for romance, as rare as it is to even see plus sized girls as a romantic lead, when they are there is no room for mistakes, the standards they are held to are so vastly different because they can't fuck it all up, they have no room to make mistakes when people question why they're even there in the first place.

But not Penelope. She fucks up so many times over, she creates half her own problems trying to fix things or make herself feel better. It dose not shy away from the damage and underlining issues and insecurities the life she has lead has left her with, and it's sympathetic to be sure, but what she dose with it isn't. Because fat people do not have to be the perfect victim and honestly most of the time are not. Because when you tell someone how little they are worth and how out of place and undesirable they are at every turn and expect them to internalise that, especially a young girl with very little power at her immediate despoil, it doesn't always come out in a very nice palatable way. It doesn't always create nice sweet uncomplicated people who cry a little when insulted but otherwise brush it off. It creates people like Penelope, it creates anger and resentment and bitterness and a need for control.

Whistledown is so many things, not all of them negative, but it is the cause of so many problems in her life after she made it as an attempt at a solution. It has caused her to hurt people and betray people and lose some of the very few genuine connections she actually has. She manipulates people and misleads them to keep her secret, because keeping a secret like that will always result in that. Her motives are sympathetic, she rarely dose anything to bad without reasoning, she has all the excuses in the world and still at the end of the day she fucked up. Her and Eloise are the second love story of the season for a reason. She adores that girl so much and she is absolutely miserable without her, as Eloise is without her. They love each other so much and there is so much pain between them now, they're practically crying every time they look at each other. And even tho the situation was complicated an messy and not completely her fault, she did in a way cause it. She's hurt people and she's hurt herself. And I love that.

Because she's a main character. We know her and Eloise will make up even if it isn't the way it was before (arguably a good thing but that's a different post.) Because she's a romantic lead, because we know, even if we don't know how they get there yet, that she will get her happy ending with the man she absolutely adores and who loves her just as much. It will not be easy I don't want it to be easy, Colin has every right to be angry and hurt and betrayed and he deserves to have the space to say whatever it is he's feeling and to have a negative reaction, but he will forgive her. Part of that is just because of who he is and the relationship he has to her (mandatory Colin appreciation moment) but it's also because the narrative has given her room and grace to be flawed.

There is so much to love about Penelope. She's so intelligent, and she's funny, she's a good listener, she makes people feel heard and important, she's kind, she's attentive, she's romantic, she's creative, she's beautiful. She is a victim and people and society do hurt her, but that's not all she is. She's given the space to be more and still be forgiven and loved just like anyone else. Because her actions is what she's apologising for not her existence. She dose not need to earn her place in a love story just because she's fat, it's her actually flaws and mistakes that exist in abundance no matter how sympathetic some of them might be, that she has to make up for. And I adore that and her.

You take away so much of her character and her agency and her complexity when you say she did nothing wrong or that she's the absolute devil. Let her be flawed, let her be someone trying their best and failing at it, let her make mistakes. But give her some grace, for once the narrative is. Her happy ending will come Bridgerton is a romance show, but she'll have to work for it. Colin and her will work for and earn their happy ending together, because they love each other and because of who they are and what they mean to each other they will find a way to make it work, but also because the writers let them and her find it.

[lighthouseas]

no you don't understand. when byler kiss i need them to be gasping into each other's mouths and holding onto each other for dear life. i need them to be shoving each other into things and knocking things over because they're so desperate to be closer. i need them grinning like idiots against each press of lips. i need tears. i need forehead touches. i need hands running down each others' bodies. i need

[emiliagrant]

Buck and Tommy ♡ flirty, kinky and in love

[beanghostprincess]

Yamato asking Ace if he wants to call it a night and Ace instantly, without any hesitation, going "no, of course not, how could I EVER say that when we only have this night to be together?" makes me melt every time. And the way Yamato starts giggling and kicking his feet? The way his eyes shine at Ace's words? Like, "he actually wants to spend the night with me!!!". This is the most teenage romance thing I've ever seen. These two guys were in love.