#pls like to make me feel validated

[nats-uvi]

Angst time :D👍

You can read my rambling about her in the tags

[kyliivan]

“Sampo sounds too deep in his new voicelines” SUCK IT UP BITCH THAT’S MY MAAANNNN

[xerospaced]

If anyone, esp anyone diagnosed Autistic, wants to validate a very autistic but very not diagnosed chick who has done tonnes of research over years that like... my autism is valid even tho the system of diagnosing autism in adults (esp women, especially black women) has failed her...

I wouldn't say no 🙃

[untimelyambition]

i am begging on my hands and knees for jon matteson and bryce charles to sing a song together. since i first watched npmd, every single day without fail i have thought about their harmonies together in hatchet town (“if he gets me next i could be three” and “fits the bill, he fits the bill”) literally the sickest harmonies in the entire show, i turn into a little gremlin every time i hear them. their voices sound SO good together it actually makes me a little ill. my favourite song my favourite line my favourite harmonies, their voices blend perfectly and i am so desperate to hear them sing a duet to hear them singing together again pls pls please pls pls pls. pls.

[lesenbyan]

You know. I think I like G'raha for some of the same reasons people i know dislike him but likewise in the agreement on these facts is also why I dislike fandom G'raha. 'cause like. He isn't the same character as the Exarch. the G'raha we know and travel with in EW is not the same man as the Exarch, even with his memories, and I don't mean bc he's younger. like.

okay. I was raised on way too much sci-fi, okay? I got deep in it with paradoxes and time travel and alternate and parallel realities before i was 10. I had a lose grasp on certain quantum mechanics concepts at 13. you give me a time loop and I will immediately understand two things:

every loop is an alternate universe converging off of the same single point as there can be (are, depending) near infinite universes off of every single point in space (<- this is why AUs are called AUs after all) and thus

even if it's the same face, even if it's the same name. even if it's the exact same past up until now, even if everything is perceptibly the same, and this is crucial, they are not the same person.

(I promise, I'm getting there)

This holds true, even in a closed paradox bc you now have a chicken and the egg scenario. Like we all kind of understand the grandfather paradox, we understand that if we kill our grandfather before the respective parent is conceived we couldn't have been born and thus couldn't kill him, ad nauseum. but even if you close it. Even if, say, you're your own grandfather, every loop something's going to change, even if it's not noticeable, even if it's not in your life. something is gonna change. A fundamental fact of how i understand the theory to work (granted I'm no scholar) is every time you go back in time you're not actually going back on your linear time, you're creating an alternate universe which will then be the universe you also fast forward through when you go forward in time.

That being said, the G'raha Tia that becomes the Exarch is not the G'raha Tia that we know, this is proven the fact that the G'raha Tia we know cannot go on to become the Exarch bc the Exarch did not live these post 5.3 experiences. And from there that means the Exarch also didn't come from the G'raha we knew in Crystal Tower. CT and EW G'rahas are the same. the Exarch is from a parallel reality G'raha that yanked us bc the us from his reality died before he woke up and that is how that reality will always play out and we just so happen to be from the reality he reaches into/splinters to save a future. not his future. the people of his future are far beyond his reach and have been since he traveled to the First.

And I think all of that is incredibly fascinating. Especially bc if the G'raha we know was the base of the Exarch you'd think, now that the Exarch's memories are part of him he'd act more like him. but it still doesn't sit right on his shoulders. bc it's not him. This is someone else. this is a role he can play, a mask he can slip into, a dance he knows. but it's not who he is. it's not where he's comfortable, like he was comfortable for 100 years. You see it in Thavnair, you see him steel himself for it. he sees what's happening and he knows what needs doing bc he's got the memories of managing a panicked peoples before in the middle of tragedy. But it's not him. The Exarch is a different man. And I wonder, desperately, how G'raha feels about that man.

[crimeronan]

every time i get an ao3 comment on a horror fic along the lines of “jesus fucking christ. this is so vile what the FUCK what the FUCKING FUCK THIS IS SO FUCKED UP” i hug my laptop to my chest and kick my feet and roll around in bed giggling like a schoolgirl who just got a love letter from her crush. omg you got physically nauseous.....? eeee

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

people can use this site however they want but there's something almost- idk, sad? about how few people are actually using their blogs. you can turn themes on and have skeletons dancing in the background. you can make everything hot pink. your blog is your scrapbook and you can put whatever you want in there. tags are okay at organizing things so you can have just a whole archive of cool shit to look at later. i know people complain a lot about people liking stuff about reblogging for engagement, and on one hand i get that- it is WILD to see a drawing i spent hours on get only 12 reblogs and 60 likes. Absolute culture shock compared to my previous fandoms. but i don't think you should reblog anything to make artists happy. i think you should reblog things so you can find them again. i think you should queue things to appear on the dash at specific times on certain days. i think you should reblog things so when you're talking to your friends about xyz post you saw you can look in your blog's archive and find it again. i think you should reblog things so that your dash is filled with one really sleepy cat. with the loss of reblogs there's the loss of engagement, which Does hurt the community-focus that makes tumblr so appealing, but idk i just wish people were more excited about the incredible amount of customization that tumblr allows and took advantage of that more

[kg2hub]

kindergala? more like: lou singlehandedly revives the kindergarten tumblr rp community part 2 electric boogaloo /lh /silly

[finalset]

on god I wish I could have one aspect of my brain be normal im gonna have to bring up my Forbidden Topic (nothing I’ve mentioned here) to my therapist but it’s sooo fucking humiliating and I’ve been getting therapy fatigue fr like I just wanna be in my chill era god pls let me just b happy hdhjcnvnffjsjsjf

[bunnihearted]

hmm i like actually wanna kms

[daydadahlias]

any time i feel like my life is slipping away from me I remember the “open eyes right at twenty-three” line from take my hand and realize that im not even 23 yet. i have time

I’m going to say this in the most loving and compassionate way I know how

💙 you need to shut the fuck up 💙

im teasing but seriously the internet has so warped some of y’all’s perception of what age is and it’s genuinely so disappointing. If you are under 25, your goddamn brain is not fully developed and you need to chill out with this “im on the edge of my deathbed the second I turn 20” bullshit, especially if you’re a woman because media is constantly trying to convince you that you’re worthless if you’re not skinny and fresh-faced. Trust me, you’re fine. Your life is not slipping away. You’re literally not even a quarter into it. If you wanna come back and have this conversation when you’re 60, by all means feel free. But until then imma need you to buck up buttercup.

[theidiotwhowritesthings]

Hi! I was wondering if I could be added to the taglist of A Fresh Start? I’m currently rereading it and it’s just SOOOO good and I can’t wait for the next chapter!! 😭

Of course you can, beautiful human. I'm still in awe so many people are into the story (especially when you and others mentioning re-reading it??? omg thank you that's such high praise in my eyes).

Speaking of next chapter, I'm gonna be working on it tonight😉 (i'd say today rather than tonight but i have been slacking so bad on my actual OG stuff between writing for din and reading about din good lord this man is killing me).

[juusasu4evagrrl]

Genuine question, does anyone want to hear about naruto from the prospective of a Liberian person grappling with the generational trauma of a brutal civil war or is that too heavy??

Like there's, I like sasuke cause he's a cool dude, very wholesome do tell, and then there's, I like sasuke cause the government also tried to eradicate my people group that one time and holding empathy for that dumbass kid teaches me to examine a my own experiences with compassion, honestly what a downer like who cares.

I don't know thoughts???

[pollenallergie]

me writing thousand-word drabbles to randomly send to my moots: :))

me when i remember all the unfinished wips i’ve got: :/

me when i remember that i haven’t written and posted an actual fic in ages: :(

me when said moots respond to the drabbles with the exact level of excitement/hype that i was hoping for: :)))))

me when i do actually post something and it gets minimal to no active engagement (reviews, unique tags, reaction pics, hype, etc.): :(

me when i remember that creating long, drawn out AUs with my moots and sending drabbles back and forth to each other is more fun and emotionally fulfilling because it means someone will actually actively engage with my writing by hyping me up and/or sending me their own thoughts and opinions and ideas instead of just leaving a like and (occasionally) a tagless/commentless reblog before disappearing back into the void: :/

[soupy-soup-lex]

The current mood

[fleeting-sanity]

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