#queen kit darling

[floriansecrets]

Continued from X @atangledesire

Kit let out a small squeak along with the outch as she turned around hearing an even familiar voice. The fennec couldn't recall the last time Rouge was at the castle, though knew they weren't one to stay in one place. Not to mention Friedrich was making it aware he wasn't happy about the thief's present in the castle, though knew he was also doing his job while respect her wish's as well.

"You certainly know how to make an entrance Ms. Rouge. Though you can also simply request to be let into the castle if you wish to see me." Kit didn't wish for Rouge to get hurt if they attempted to sneak in and got spotted. The guards here were trained to attack on sight anyone attempting to break into the castle.

[florainkingdom]

Continued from X @cxffeeshxp

"Wait, what? I believe you misunderstood my intention. I mean, I do wish for us to be friends, though I would never do such a thing." Kit truly needed to work on her social skills as now that she thinks about it then it really does seem like she's sucking up to Kitsunami. "I simply thought you'd be interested with the chance to study a dragon of our world since nothing else as seem to catch your interests."

[citizensofeggtonarchived]

Dimensional Alliance - Closed RP With fstbmp

@fstbmp

Kit was in her lab, working on a new formula that had come to mind in hopes of making progress with her work. The queen had more time to work today given how little she had to do today in terms of royal affairs. "The compound should be stable in theory, yet one misstep and it could cause rapid decomposition of the bones. Too risky to use," the fennec said, ripping out the page from the book and using some fire magic to burn it.

Kit's attention went to her ear piece making an odd buzzing sound, placing her fingers on it to see if perhaps she was getting a call as her magic glasses slowly disappeared off her face. "Hello, is anyone there?" The queen was greeted with silence while the buzzing sound continued. The fennec took out the ear piece, not seeing any damage however something else caught her attention. Thanks to her Lucky Star only she could see the change in the composition of the compounds and magic in the air, some sort of strange energy she's never seen began flooding the room.

Suddenly the room went completely white to Kit causing her to panic and fall out of her chair. The queen watched as the elements in the room began to reform in her vision, though now was looking at some bright circular object, appearing to me made out of the new energy she had seen moments ago. The fennec squinted managing to make a form walking through. She began to worry perhaps this was an attack, someone managing to force open a portal right into the castle. Regardless, of what was going on she was the Queen so had to look the part, so she stood up and had a calm expression on her face. "Hello, is there something I can help you with?" She would be cautious about this stranger, still trying to make out their form as her eyes were adjust to the new type of energy in the room.

[eggtonafterdarkarchived]

Continued from X @atangledesire

Oh no, the stranger is flirting with her now as Kit's attempts to try and dismiss things seemed to have backfired. The Queen was out of options as she was still far too nice to call the guards. The fennec's thoughts went to them mentioning seeing the Crown Jewel of The Kingdom and for once she was quick to catch the meaning of what they meant.

"What? I don't think you'd find someone like me interesting in bed. I mean, I'm just a simple royal who spends all her time doing paperwork and having meetings." Kit was again trying to defuse things, though without realizing she showed she was trying to hide something else. Perhaps another side not many people got to see. "Plus we don't even know each other's names and isn't that important?" Changing the subject always worked, right?

[newwavesylviaplath]

top ten evan peters moments that keep me awake at night:

(inspired by a silly little chat i just had with @dangeroustaintedflawed )

10. saying his fave lady gaga song was alejandro

9. the ring he proposed to emma with

8. that one shot of him as kai anderson in jail

7. comforting emma after she got arrested

6. his grey zara sweater that i never shut up abt

5. playing piano/guitar and making music in secret

4. that one insane gym photo

3. the paparazzi pics of him with black hair and a salad

2. coachella '24

1. the blythe doll incident

honourable mentions: playing austin sommers and also anytime he wore his hair half up half down

[princessbun-ee]

evan peters is so lana del rey

[akillerbeforeyou]

super hot intro post

amelia, she/they, 19 years old, trapped in the midwest.

used to write on wattpad and decided i wanted to start writing again so here I am! feel free to send in requests and I will get to them as soon as possible (which shouldn't be long considering I have nothing to do)

who i write for:

evans characters: tate, kit, pre and post death!kyle, jimmy, kai, and austin.

others: dandy, sally, misty, lana, possesed!sister mary eunice, the countess

i'm an american horror story writer so ill probably stick to those characters for the most part, but I'm also down to write for other evan peters characters (ex. quicksilver, colin zabel) so go ahead an request!

what i write: usually i only write fem!reader but I'm open to writing gender neutral. i don't do heavy descriptions of what the reader looks like (race, size, etc.) because I don't feel educated enough to. i do both smut and fluff oneshots, I haven't tried my hand an angst but I might in the future.

please let me know if you want to be moots!

[compulsoryroyalty]

@rxbelling-hxrald (Omen) asked:

"Remind me, what exactly have I agreed to here again? I mean I'm happy to help but this is getting a little ridiculous." (Hello stranger :) )

"Oh please, you're perfectly fine, Sir! I appreciate your help none-the-less."

She turned to face the... frankly embarrassing pile of broken Lagomatrons. Apparently, according to Friedrich, a whole lot of them just sort of... collapsed? All of a sudden? Either that or went rogue, as he described it.

It. Doesn't make sense. Like at all. Unless Professor Lagomo had a remote connection to these things...? And he was simply doing maintenance? That also doesn't make sense--she was sure that he mentioned there wasn't a way he could connect to these if he wasn't in direct proximity.

So then why would the lot of them just start to...

Oh, it didn't matter. She can worry about it later.

"You see, I had sent a couple of the Lagomatrons to fetch some medicine for me while I recovered. For whatever Vulpis forsaken reason, I've come down with a terrible migraine and none of my normal medicine is helping any.

"With Friedrich gone and with all of the other guards busy at the moment, I could only think of the recommendation he gave to me before he left. Your name is Omen, right?" A jet black uh... thing with spiky hair and a strange arm. Clearly some form of magic, though what kind she could never properly parse.

"I only need you to take me down to the pharmaceutical and back. Act as a temporary bodyguard, as it were. I uh, hope that isn't too much trouble for you."

[atangledesire]

"Outch!" Kit to Rouge

Rouge slid from the shadows ever the stealth expert and decided to give Kit's ass a nice rough SWAT!

" Hey there Honey... miss me? "

[lonelycatsblog]

MUSIC LOVERS ASSEMBLE!!

i feel like starting a tag chain so i hope this works out :)

reblog this with 3 songs:

the song your listening to right now (or last one you listened to)

your current favourite song

a song of your choice

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mine:

its now or never - elvis presley/love in the dark - adele

trastevere - måneskin

nevermore - queen

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[deadghosy]

Do you know about the Welcome Home fandom? So what about Wally Darling!Reader?

HAZBIN HOTEL X WALLY DARLING! READER

prompt: you are a greeter of the hazbin hotel! Who knew a muppet looking demon could be so colorful.

You are so soft spoken! Like that soft voice you have can hypnotize anyone into doing anything.

“hello, welcome to the hazbin hotel. i’m your greeter.” You say with a “:D” face

You’re so colorful and you’re definitely shorter than Lucifer…i can see Lucifer picking you up like a damn doll at times as you just smile with your muppet ass smile.

You’re just TOO DAMN CUTEEE! 🦆💗 literally even husk grumbles and gives you apples by the bar for you to stop giving him those doe eyes you give him when you are needy for apples.

I feel because of your muppet look, it would bring attention to yourself as a muppets looking demon is quite rare around the pentagram city, or even hell itself as Lucifer and Charlie have a muppet or Marionette look. 

Literally you are friends with Lucifer because of it and he finds your muppet look adorable. Even with your 3 ft height. (Yes I looked up his height and damn he short as hell!😭)

You are just chilling after greeting some new sinners in the hotel as you read the news paper, Lucifer comes out of no where. Dead ass reads the newspaper trying to understand your likes and dislikes.

“Lu-Lu?” You said softly as Lucifer awkwardly smiles and does finger guns at you. “Oh what a coincidence? What are you doing here..?” He says awkwardly as he sweatdrops at his attempt to start a conversation with you. “I live here?” You said raising a brow sitting down the newspaper.

“Oh I do too! What a very crazy thing?!” He says pointing his finger at himself as he poofs away in embarrassment as you just sat there…..*cue in pure confusion*

Alastor would not hate you because you are colorful, lemme be realistic. You two would be mutuals. Not like “oh I hate you but you are cool” type shit. I mean you two are the people who wave at each other but never approach each other because you don’t know if they like you fr. 🥲

One time a sinner had shoulder bumped you on purpose thinking you wasn’t gonna do anything…BUT NAH! YOU GRABBED THAT MF BY HIS NECK AS A SHADOW COVERS YOUR FACE, only leaving your eyes showing as you kick they ass out. You ain’t dealin' with no bullshit at this establishment. And for your friend’s sake.

Angel likes to play with makeup with your face since it’s calling out for his makeup kit. Literally he does blue eyeshadow on you.

I headcannon you wear blue eyeshadow just like how Wally’s eyelid is blue up there. Dead ass it would be cute if it was just blue eye shadow and you had a natural blush on your cheeks. You are quite beautiful reader💗😘

Since Angel is a drag queen, he would also try to make you wear drag queen makeup only for you to sneeze at how much product he used…yeah he never used it on your face.

You’re beautiful natural anyway…just don’t sneeze in his face. Ever again.

You definitely look like you listen to 1970-80’s jazz music as you dance in the lobby with Alastor nodding along happy. Just two jazz buddies liking jazz.

I can imagine Charlie trying to hold you back from eating the fruit gift basket for the guests…you’re only aiming for the damn apples as your mouth was drooling for it.

Imagine Vox has you on his channel because he brided you with apples. He stalked you through your tv you had that has rainbows and apples on it-

Well anyways Alastor “recused” you because you just sat there “begging” to be saved is what he saved when you munched on an apple confused by why Alastor came to take you away from Vox.

If you and Lucifer hung out doing hobbies together, which he suggested. You’re panting a portrait as he makes a duck based off of you….he can’t help but show affection of making you a duck version of yourself.

Niffty and you definitely get along well as hell! As you two have the same fashion taste as you both will dance to the genre of music you guys like.

With you being the greeter, you always have a soft smile and a soft approach to make the guest and residents feel safe in the hotel.

Sir Pentious will absolutely admire you…like a friend crush. He just wants to be your friend but you are too pure to approach as he thinks he won’t be cool enough to be your friend.

Imagine Valentino seeing you shopping and he tried to approach you only for a red smoke to cover you as you blinked confused to see an overprotective Lucifer smiling at you as you had teleported to the hotel. But with Lucifer, you could see his real feelings as you felt confused.

After a few months you and Pentious became friends because of one of his egg boiz named Frank said his “boss” wants to be friends with you. You giggled and nodded as you and sir Pentious do trust exercises together when Charlie host them.

Husk had dilated eyes and purr at you because you scratched under his chin which made him snap out of his cat daze and slap your hand as you giggle with a soft gaze.

I headcannon Velvette to be your girl who makes your outfits in primary colors. Like that or just cute aesthetic kid core fits. 💗‼️

I can see how reader always gives balloons to sinners who had trouble reliving their childhood. So they give balloons out to the sinners who had childhood trauma. You are a greeter, and a hell of a good one. 🦆💗

Imagine how Wally! Reader has those safety pins that say “Welcome!” And it’s so cute because you made them a t hand and Lucifer saw his you had effort in it so he made you more to give out to the guests.

I feel like Valentino will try to get you under his contract so he can use your pretty look since you seem like a femboy….but really you’re just a little guy who likes apples and his friends.

YOU’RE ONLY 12 APPLES TALL! 😨

But the hazbin crew literally cockblock him to the point he just stops doing he was trying to do to you.

I can see Lucifer trying to impress you at times as he never has a friend that had a cute appearance like you so your blank eye stare always catches him off as you just stand there smiling so adorably.

I headcannon waking up to find an apple by your night stand as a note reads “hope you like the apple, my angel!”- Lu-Lu. You just blinked at the apple completely ignoring the note and eating the apple as you smile at the taste.

“…yummy apppleee….” You say until you open your eyes looking at the note. “Wait what.”

You had gave Lucifer back an apple basket with rubber ducks that had painted apples not it for your appreciation of the apples he gave you 

[floriansecrets]

Continued from X @soaked-sammon

Kit wasn't sure how she found herself in this situation as this was supposed to be a simple visit to another world and see how she could help. The Queen then met Surge and seemed to hit it off pretty well with the other to the point where she invited them to her temporary room to continue their conversation. Then one thing led to another and now the fennec found herself in a rather lewd situation.

Kit jumped lightly feeling the small voltage of electricity go through her body as Surge grabbed her hips. At least she was wearing her lab uniform and not one of her dress's. "T-This is certainly- ah, a lot for a first meeting~ Maybe we should- mmmmm, take things slow~?" Despite saying this the Queen's actions betrayed her words as she found herself now bent over her portable lab table. At least there wasn't anything on it right now.

[florainkingdom]

Continued from X @atangledfate

"And I can truly respect your passion, however, I simply ask you tone it down just a small bit. If Tween hears about this, well, as much as I love my younger sister, she isn't as friendly as me." Kit didn't wish any fighting to break out as she knew Tween well enough. With the said, the Queen did give a small blush at Rouge's joke.

"I also request you stop with your 'joke' to kidnap Queen Kit. Many of the guards won't find it very humors if they overhear you making it. I myself as doubled security with how often you make it," Friedrich said, seeming to appear from nowhere. It seemed the gamba was wary of Rouge.

[citizensofeggtonarchived]

@coffeehousemuses

Kit would be lost in thought as she wondered at how the meeting with Lady Tala would go with Surge and Kit sitting across from her in the limo. The fennec was thankful she agreed to come, though also felt bad as it'd most likely come down to her having to rely on the tenrec due to her having any real lack of fight ability or power, something she was all too used to. She was a bit surprised that Kit wished to join, though he only seemed interested in learning more about this world. The Queen would snap out of it feeling a pump in the rode which shook the limo ever so slightly. With her head out of her thoughts she should break the silence.

"I must thank you again for agreeing to come with me. I'm sure you have other things you'd rather be doing than having to meet another royal, even if you do get the chance to fight someone." At this point Kit felt bad she kept introducing Surge to all these different royals despite knowing how much they dislike them. "I'll make sure to make it up to you when we get back to the castle. I'm still hoping we can solve things without the need for fighting." The fennec had never been a fan of violence, often trying to defuse situations with her words.

"Though I'm sure everything will go smoothly. After all, my younger sister Twee has done a great job at keep the peace with the Wolf Clan." Of course Kit wasn't Twee nor did she have any real strength or power that would even earn her an ounce of respect from any wolf. The fennec would have to pray the respect they have for her younger sister would be enough for them to be willing to work with her.

"Oh, but here I am just rambling on and on without giving you a chance to give your opinions. It's just something I do when I get nervous so I hope I didn't bother you by my rambling. I mean, I'm sure you two have your own thoughts on the matter, yes?" Despite Kit being aware she was rambling it seemed she was having a hard time stopping showing just how nervous she was about the meeting.

[eggtonafterdarkarchived]

Continued from X @atangledesire

"Sounds like a lovely time to me~" Kit figured there was no point in playing coy around Rouge given the fact she already had the other in her private chambers for some 'activities' that were most enjoyable. "What do you say we head to my room and see where things go this time~?" Clearly the fennec was horny at the moment.

[linos-luna]

Thank you for the kind words. I really appreciate you 💕

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My Queen ❣️🔪

Yandere!Hyunjin x Fem!Reader

Warnings: Yandere! Some violence, stabbing, delusion, obsessive behavior, fingering, some oral

(Pt. 2) (Pt. 3) (Pt. 4) (Pt. 5) (Pt. 6) (Pt. 7)

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“W-where am I?!”

You looked around, realizing that you’re on a bed in a room you don’t know with your wrists tied up with zip ties.

What happened? What was the last thing you did?? Your mind was racing with thoughts when you heard the door open.

“Hello, love.”

You turned to see a familiar face. Hyunjin?

He’s a friend of yours, well… was. You hadn’t talked to him in over a week. He was nice but sometimes a little weird. He’d follow you around and sometimes knew things he shouldn’t… you told him you needed some space. You’ve always had a little crush on him but that idea was definitely out of the question now.

“Hyunjin??” You looked at him with concern. “W-what? What’d you do to me?? Where—??”

“You’re in my home, silly.” He chuckled while moving closer. “Well… our home now.”

“Hyunjin, what are you doing?! Why are my wrists tied??”

“Well I don’t want you to escape.” He said before leaning in to kiss you, only for you to turn away.

“Hyunjin this is sick. You can’t do this…”

The man roughly grabbed your chin and turned your head to forcefully kiss you.

“Y/n. You’re the love of my life.”

You were unnerved by his calm demeanor and want sure what to do. Your heart was racing.

“You’re my queen.” He said while sitting next to you. “I must keep you here, in my castle.”

He’s losing it. He must be. What kind of person does this?

~~~~

A bit later, he brought you some clothes. They were from your closet at home. Outfits that you’ve worn before.

“I think these look cute on you.” He said with a smile.

“Well… I can’t put them on with my wrists tied.” You said while holding up your wrists.

“Yes of course, love.” Hyunjin nodded and got some scissors to cut them off. After doing so, he put them back in the drawer and kissed your hand. “I’ll be making dinner. Come out when you’re ready.”

You nodded and as soon as he left, you grabbed the scissors. You waited to hear him go to the kitchen and slowly opened the door.

When sure that he was distracted, you made a run for the door. Unfortunately, you were instantly spotted and grabbed from behind.

“What are you doing, darling?!” He said while trying to get ahold of you.

“Hyunjin let go!” You yelled while trying to cut him with the scissors, only grazing his thigh.

“Stop it! I don’t want to hurt you!” He took hold of your wrist in the struggle and was able to take the scissors from you.

You stomped on his foot, hoping to get him to let go. But that only seemed to agitate him. Instead of letting go, he had the scissors open, cutting the inside of his hand.

Suddenly there was a sharp pain in your shoulder, making you pause and scream out loud.

You stumbled backwards into his arms and looked at your shoulder. The scissors where there. Stabbed in pretty deep.

“Oh baby… darling I’m sorry!” Hyunjin said frantically while dragging you to the couch. “I didn’t mean to hurt you!”

“Why would you do that?!” You sat on the couch crying, watching as the blood stained your shirt.

“I didn’t mean to!” He said with tears. “Darling I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to hurt my sweet queen. To pierce her pure skin!”

It was hard to not cry. The pain was searing and wound deep.

“I would never hurt you! Never! Never!”

“Take it out!” You yelled.

“Not yet! You’ll bleed out.” Hyunjin said with a sigh. “I’ll get the emergency kit.”

You sat there in pain as he left to get the kit. He came back with a box and grabbed the bandages.

Hyunjin moved your sleeve down and you winced as he pulled out the scissors then nearly screamed as he pressed cloth against.

“I’m sorry, love.” He said while cleaning it up. He bandaged the area up then wiped your tears.

“Your hand…” you said while motioning to the blood there. “You cut it.”

“This?” He said with a smile. “It’s nothing.”

You sighed as he lifted you up bridal style. He took you back to the bedroom and gently set you down .

“I’m sorry I had to do that.” There was clear guilt in his voice and he was on his knees in front of you. “Forgive me, love.”

You only looked at him with a tear stained face.

Hyunjin took your hands and squeezed them tight.

“I love you. I really do! I always have.” He said while looking up at you. “I was so hurt when you stopped seeing me a week ago! I cant live without you, y/n.”

“You didn’t have to kidnap me—!”

“I didn’t?!” He yelled, suddenly standing up. “I had to!”

You scooted back a little in fear and he instantly calmed down.

“Sorry! I didn’t mean to scare you.” He said while taking your hands again. “I’m sorry! I’m sorry!”

“Hyunjin… you need help…” you said in a shaky voice. “Y-you need to let me go…”

“But I love you.” He replied with a whine.

“This isn’t love!”

“No!” He yelled. “Please, darling… I’ve brought you back to the castle… I must care for you.”

“Hyunjin… t-this isn’t a castle…”

“You’re right.” He said, now letting you go. “Not until it’s up to your standards. My queen deserves better!”

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Two weeks later and your shoulder still hurt. It may not be throbbing, but you should definitely be seen in a hospital.

Although you were kidnapped, Hyunjin was pretty gentle with you. He cuddled with you at night and cooked you all your meals. He’d practically serve you… like a queen. In a sick way, you found it sweet.

You and Hyunjin were on the bed. He gently kissed your lips while had on your hip.

You were laying down as he hovered over you.

It was uncomfortable and you didn’t kiss back; yet, he kept going.

“Darling…?” he whispered. “Why aren’t you returning my love?”

You only stared at him, not sure what to say.

“Please…” he held your cheek. “Let me… let me tell you everything I love about you. How committed I am.”

“How… how committed are you, Jinnie?” You froze, realizing what you said. Did you just call him a nickname?

Hyunjin’s heart skipped a beat when hearing you say it.

“I love your physique…” he said while kissing you and rubbing your waist. “Your gorgeous face and hair…”

You looked down at his hand as it played with the material of your skirt, making you a bit nervous.

“You’re the sweetest person in the world… also strong.” He continued while kissing your lips. “Your lips plump and eyes glimmer with love.”

“What?”

“You love me, don’t you?” He asked while his hand roamed under your shirt. “I take care of you, I love you.”

“Hyunjin—”

“I mean, you called me Jinnie!” He snapped. “You must love me!”

Your heart was racing as he played with the material of your bra.

“My sweet queen, I want to prove it to you!” He said while getting close.

“P-prove what..?”

“My love of course!”

“Hyunjin- agh…” you moaned softly as you felt his hand under your skirt and rubbing your clothed cunt. He was circling his fingers over a wet spot that was forming.

“Please.” He whispered while playing with the cotton material. “I need to spoil my queen… to prove my love.”

You closed your eyes as he continued rubbing you. He was waiting. Waiting for your word.

“You have needs, my love. Let me fulfill them…”

You weren’t sure what to do at this point. You were pinned to the bed with not much choice. In a way… you kind of wanted it.. but no! He kidnapped you! Are you insane?!

You were getting increasingly needy as he rubbed you and you finally gave in.

“Okay…”

“Really?”

You nodded and he flashed a big smile before sitting up and lifting your skirt. He was about to undo his pants, only for you to suddenly grab your his hair.

“Nuh uh… no cock…”

“What?”

“You heard me.” You sighed. “No. Cock.”

“But—”

“You want to please me right?!” You snapped.

“Yes of course!” He replied quickly. “More than anything in the world!”

“Th-then… only fingers…”

He nodded while getting back to your thighs. He gently kissed the inside of your thigh, close to your cunt.

You breathed slowly as he kissed over your panties.

You whined as the underwear was slowly pulled down and gasped when feeling his fingers rubbing your clit.

You moaned and arched your back as he inserted two fingers.

He kissed your lips while slowly moving them in and out and you let out breathy moans.

“Cum for me, please.” He groaned. “I wish to taste your sweet essence.”

You did exactly that and nearly screamed as you felt his lips on your bare cunt. He lapped up your cum like a starved man and made some groaning noises.

“Thank you.” He said while grabbing your cheeks and desperately kissing you. “Thank you so much, my love!”

You said nothing. Only laying there, tasting yourself on his lips.

After a minute or so, he got up and grabbed another pair of panties from a bag. The bag with your things.

After putting them on, he lay next to you and rubbed your cheek.

“Everyday… everyday I will cherish you… everyday I will love you.” He whispered while locking eyes with you. “My love knows no bounds…”

After a while, he fell asleep and you sat up to think about what just happened. You wiped some tears from your cheeks and quietly cried. How could this happen? How could you let it happen?

It was hopeless. This man was not right in the head. He’s delusional. Does he really believe you are a queen? Does he really believe this is a castle? Has his mind snapped. And more importantly… has he always been this obsessed?