#remembering stuff

[tapakah0]

song:

Billie Eilish - Bellyache

[tychos-huzband]

i remember back in like 2017-ish i got these mlp toys of starlight and twilight and because i didn't really watch the show at the time i thought starlight was twilight's mom because they're both purple and have similar names and in my mind starlight abandoned twilight as a filly (left via train) and eventually came back to apologize and reconcile with her?

yeah my little brain was strange hehe

[codenamesazanka]

there's this japanese novel-length Dabi/Compress fanfic I read once. It was a reincarnation AU where Mr. Compress is the only guy who survives the canon story, and when he dies, he gets a second chance at reliving his life with his memories intact. Before starting his new life though, here was how he died:

HPSC did not want to give Compress the death penalty until they got all their League questions answered; but Compress wouldn’t talk, so he ends up spending years in Tartarus without an official sentence :(

A very sad and broken Endeavor uses the Tartarus-imprisoned Compress to cry about Dabi. Ostensibly Enji was supposed to interrogate Compress about the League’s crimes; but Enji was more trying to learn more about Dabi from Compress because Dabi and Compress were lovers; Compress does not ever say a word tho and so just spends the time listening to Enji cry about all his regrets about Touya on a weekly basis. lol

Finally after 15 years, Compress decides to end his own life his own way: he agreed to reveal everything if Endeavor/the Heroes would bring him to Touya’s grave to let him say goodbye. There, and in front of the heroes, Compress kills himself by biting off his tongue and dying silently while everyone thought he was bowing.

This has the additional bonus of publicly embarrassing Endeavor/the heroes/government one last time because they let such a high profile criminal die under their watch.

[punkerbites]

aaaand then i read all that could be read in the guns n'roses fandom. i moved on to my chemical romance. i never had an emo phase (i used to be a metalhead but had an open mind), just thought the music was cool and the ficdom had amazing stories

(yes, i read the dove keeper. awful. hated it. bad story, fucked up plot, never understood the hype around it.)

and then i started writing. just trying to write, not even on my computer, but like, HANDWRITTEN FANFIC. i was just testing the waters

i then moved on to the gazette. and then kpop. and by 2016 or 2017, i had written And posted my first story ever. it got quite popular but i deleted it a few years ago 🕊

[mrbrrop]

God..

Okay, so I've trying to remember stuff for my second autism assessment appointment (AAA is a perfect acronym) and I was thinking about meltdowns specifically,

I just kinda used to think that I hadn't really had public meltdowns in my life, but then I remembered 5 SEPERATE VERY PUBLIC MELTDOWNS

1 in elementary school where I started crying and yelling and hitting my head against the wall because of the sparing uniform and the heat of the gym we were in for class

A second one in middle school where I was forced to do kayak and at the start of the class some duchebag put a bunch of water in my kayak when I was already on the verge of a meltdown from the fact that I had to stay drenched in a shirt and shorts for 1h30! Then we started the activity where we had to get from point A to B and I keep getting caught in the fucking plant spikes on the side of the canal so I just started fucking crying and yelling until a teacher finally fucking came so I yelled at them and they just got annoyed and left me (a 12 yo) alone in the fucking canal whilst everybody else moved on, so I yelled and cried some more unable to fucking move the fucking boat so I started hitting the boat, myself, and the plants (I very fucking angry) and at the end someone finally came to help me and I FINALLY got out and proceed to sit in the locker room not moving or changing until everyone left and a teacher had to threaten to lock me in there whilst they went back to school with the rest of the class (I had very awful teachers)

A 3rd one at my mom's house (My mom who swears up and down she doesn't think I'm autistic) when I was 15 (something like that) and I was so overwhelmed by my clothes that I went upstairs in my room and got in my underwear, threw myself down on the bed and started crying, how I usually handle my meltdowns : privately. But then my mom comes upstairs to talk about something (don't remember what) and she just starts to touch me and try to hug me whilst I beg fucking BEG her to stop and she doesn't so I have to kick her off of my bed with my feet. And later, when I had calmed down a bit, I ask my mom to close the blinds with as much words I can manage so like 3, she does and starts fucking talking and asking me questions and shit which I don't answer (Cause 1 I can't, and 2 I don't want to), so she gives up and leaves (finally)

A 4th one at the start of this year when I was in the psychward and I had to wear a hair net (I cannot handle having stuff one my head at all (I can't even wear headphones)) because of lice or whatever so I refused and offered to stay in my room, shave my head, anything really but they kept insisting to point where they pinned me to a wall and forced one on my head, which I took off immediately obviously, and then they gave up and left my crying in the hallway, where the only thing I could do was silently hit the floor as hard as I could.. and then 2h later a nurse came to open my room.. (fucking hospitals..)

And a 5th one, like a month ago, where I was in physics and I had missed a class so I didn't understand what we were supposed to do so I tried asking the teacher but he would look at me like I was an idiot and proceeded to explain nothing and then the groups for the project formed but since I had missed a class I didn't have a group and no one would explain to me what we were supposed to do, so I put my head in my arms on the table started crying silently, until I couldn't stay quiet so I left the class and went to the bathroom, the teacher just said to tell him if when I left the class. Then, at some point, the teacher goes looking for me and finds me in the dark bathroom next to the class, sat behind the door, he proceeds to have a one-sided "conversation" with me then concludes that I'm coming back to class (which wtf? Cause I didn't say shit and shook my head no when he asked). Then, a school staff person comes to seek me out, and they ask me to write what happened and open me an empty classroom where I can calm down. (The least awful one of the bunch)(and the teacher gave me a 0 because I didn't do the project when I was only in his class for 10min tops (he's an insane ass that everyone hates btw))

All that to say I do have public meltdowns but I usually do everything in my power to seclude myself before it gets really really bad BECAUSE people are dickheads with no notion of boundaries and respect, so they end up making the meltdown so much worse to the point where it's actually fucking dangerous!

Which explains why the few public meltdowns that I remember only happened when I could not escape the situation.

[theredqueenandthebloodwyrm]

I need y'all's tips and tricks to how to remember things you've learned in classes. Like the subject material itself is interesting, I love it! But like a week (sometimes less) later and I can kind of recall stuff but not as good as I should.

So how do y'all retain information? Flashcards? Lil games? Gimme all your advice.

[mostlybats-partiallyrats]

According to Google photos one year ago today I was taking pictures of butterflies and the community garden. Actually I remember that day, it was a really good day. Guess I'm living my life right👍

[alleesaur]

doodling a bunny vs doodling a hare

[quartz-the-cosmic-manta]

i actually experienced something like like this over the summer. my sisters, mom, and I went to the house of an old friend of my mom. my mom stayed in this one room, and I mentioned how the last time we went to their house, there was a flight simulator set up in that room. the last time we had been there was... idk, maybe December 2018. my mom's friend was surprised I had remembered that. he forgot that that was there the last time we visited

movies where someone hears an important message only once and retains all the details….

girl if that were me, we’d be fucked. I have to reread emails like 4 times.

[morganbritton132]

No one tells you when you get a Big Serious Job™ how many fucking abbreviations you’ll be forced to learn.

[saturnvs]

wild horses

[vivitalks]

best types of brennan NPC

autism haver

stoner

frat bro who has unlearned hypermasculinity so hard that he's gone 100% the opposite direction about it

anticapitalist proletarian

the most insane person you've ever met

[goldensunset]

did you know? if you do your laundry you can get your clothes back

[bamsara]

Small reminder that you should really download your favorite fics off of AO3. We are seeing mass censorships well as the chance that anything, such as another severe DDoS attack can shut down the site making works unaccessible and possibly lost for good.

If you do not know how to download fics, it is a simple 2-button click. I've written a tutorial here.

You think your stuff is safe until it's suddenly not, and then often times it's too late.

This post starts with AO3, (because it seems to be the common denominator across all users on this website /joking) but I recommend extending preservation efforts to anything online if you can manage to download it.

I'm not saying panic and start buying tons of storage devices to hold immense amounts of stuff. A cheap usb can hold plenty of things. You don't have to stop using services still available if it's more convenient to read books on your phone than to fill your backpack with 7 of them.

But you should still get (either buying or creating) physical versions because nothing is guarantee that it will remain forever. From shows being pulled from streaming services, to banned books, to losing access to digital copies of media because the service doesn't support it anymore, the account is lost, or the company goes under. This goes for messaging platforms as well. Your role-plays with your friends on discord can be lost forever, your photos can too.

This doesn't even include media most vulnerable to censorship and how quickly it can be removed, and quietly.

You think it will not happen to you, it will. Do not wait for unforeseen circumstances. Go back up and preserve what you can, your future self will be happy that you did.

[justlikebullets]

gettingd a beer bottle thrown at your head is not fun. i would not recommend