His Lighthouse: Two Steps Forward (LedgerJoker x f!reader)
Two Steps Forward...
series summary:
Y/n is an aspiring writer living in Gotham City and struggling to find her next muse. Her recent novel is getting all the buzz, earning her far more attention than she signed up for. But when a chance encounter results in her nursing The Joker back to health, will she find the time to write another best seller or will her own story become front page of the Gotham Gazette?
chapter summary:
Now that Y/n has come to the realization she is housing Joker inside of her apartment, the process of living together can truly begin. But how will Y/n and Joker get along when they don’t have much in common?
Without further ado I hope you enjoy the story!
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The silence was deafening inside the interrogation room.
Everyone was in disbelief by Joker's behavior and no one believed that he actually spared someone's life, especially the person who claimed to know him the best.
Batman studied his enemy from all points of view. He knew Joker was notorious for leading people into a false sense of security but this time, he seemed rather genuine. Bruce could sense the remorse, sadness, and some traces of honesty from Joker.
But under the cowl, Batman was smarter and knew this could very well be a trap. Something about Joker felt off. Either he was being serious for once in his life, or he was pulling off his best performance yet.
Without knowing which scenario was true, Batman decided to proceed with caution. Violence was not the way to handle this. He would have to take things slow. Batman looked around the room and found the Polaroid film that started all of this before returning to Joker's side.
"This girl-" Batman pointed at the picture, "Is she still alive?"
Joker rolled his eyes. He was far too tired to entertain this conversation any longer.
He blamed you for his sluggish brain. You introduced him to the wonders of a good night's rest and got him addicted.
Before he met you he skirted by in life with the bare minimum for sleep and as a result, he was always in a grumpy, bitter mood. Being with you he became energetic and full of life, a complete opposite of his persona as The Joker.
He couldn't function properly without a full eight hours of rest, something he didn't get the night before since he stayed up thinking. A shame really. It hadn't been a full day since he left and he already missed your contagious energy.
You spoiled him rotten on life and he couldn't, in fact he didn't want to go back to the way things were before he met you.
Unfortunately that wasn't meant to be. He was Gotham City's most wanted and you were a mere (semi-famous) citizen.
You deserved so much more than he could ever hope to give you. Yet sitting here on the cold concrete floor inside GCPD headquarters made him question if turning himself in was the right thing to do and that it wasn't him running away from his fears of inadequacy.
"Focus Joker, if she's still alive we can save her! Don't you want her to be safe?"
Oh right. Joker forgot Batman was trying to play detective here. Maybe turning himself in was a bad idea after all. Your apartment was always quiet and peaceful. Funny how he was just a few blocks away from your place. If he closed his eyes he could map out the exact route to end up at your front door.
Joker rolled his neck as much as he could while being restricted inside a straight jacket and then yawned. His inner clock alerted him it was close to dinner time and his stomach growled, craving a meal it would never taste again.
"I told you, Bats. I would never hurt her. I... heh, well I made a promise noT to."
"That doesn't answer my question Joker!"
"Well which one am I responding to, Bats? You've asked so many.. they all got jumbled up together and I can't..." He let Batman grab ahold of his jacket, yanking him up off of the floor.
They met eye to eye and the standoff shocked the police officers watching the live feed. Batman really could stare down the scum of Gotham without fear.
"I'm not playing games with you tonight. The girl! Where is she?" He demanded.
There were other crimes that needed his attention but he couldn't leave until the situation here was handled. He grew impatient and dragged Joker back over to the desk and roughly sat him down.
Joker settled without complaint but couldn't resist teasing his nemesis. "I see you're using the good cop/bad cop rou-tine. Fine, I'll play along." Joker licked his lips and pretended to think up at the ceiling.
He spotted the multiple cameras watching his and Batman's every move with a knowing eye. He hated being watched like some kind of circus attraction. This interrogation was dragging on and wearing Joker down. "What time is it?"
"What does that have to do with anything?" Batman replied.
"Depending on the time... she could be in one place or another, so I can't answer unless ya tell meee."
Behind the two-way glass Jim Gordon facepalmed himself. "Good to see Joker back to his old tricks." One officer mentioned.
This wasn't looking too good. Jim glanced up at the clock ticking away on the wall. It read a quarter till eight. They've been at this for hours with no progress.
Not even Batman could decode this abnormal version of Joker. They would give the caped crusader another half hour before booking Joker per protocol. Perhaps they would finally get prints off the clown before he busted out. Jim and his other colleagues turned their attention back to the feed when Batman's voice raised over the mic.
"Are you implying she's in multiple places? I won't fall for that again." A brief memory of having to choose between two people came and went.
"Uh no. I'm implying that she's a stubborn girl and she's probably out of Gotham City by now. We had a, uh.. nasty fight last night and before you ask, I don't wanna talk about it Bats. As a man, I hope you'd under-stand."
"I don't. Now talk!" Batman yelled.
"Geez.." Joker shifted in his seat. He wanted to keep you a secret for as long as possible and so far, he was doing a good job.
You weren't some dirty secret to hide from society. If anything, he wanted to show you off to the world but for your own safety, he made it a top priority to keep you far away from danger. Himself included.
He only trusted one man and gave you his contact info in case of emergencies. Like you'd want anything to do with Joker after he left you high and dry but it was an option he hoped you never had to use.
Joker just wanted you safe. You meant more to him than you'd ever know. He never felt this way for someone before so pure possessive instincts forced him to put your safety above his own in any situation. Joker considered his rivals and other enemies in the city, any persons of authority, and especially Batman, a threat if they ever found you.
Joker already had other competition to scare off, (which he meant discreetly eliminate) and with the way you spoke so highly of the Dark Knight, it irked Joker's already frayed nerves. Just sitting across from Batman now reminded him of the kind words you had for Gotham's savior. It took a bit longer but overtime you regarded Joker in the same way.
He missed your positive outlook on life.
The way you acknowledged his character flaws, (you knew in the end Joker wouldn't change) but you treated him like a normal human being, and it meant everything to him. Joker felt like he changed as a person while remaining true to himself and he would cherish that feeling forever.
It was hard to describe the way you loved Joker and he felt like a fool for throwing that bond away, but he had to. It was all to keep you safe.
In the meantime he would take your advice and find joy in any situation.
He wouldn't waste a perfectly good opportunity to mess with Batman and the GCPD pigs that were watching the interrogation. Joker nodded to himself and met Batman's stare head on.
"A real man knows when his hands are, tied." Joker wiggled his arms in the straight jacket earning an eye roll from Batman that made him bite back a laugh.
"You want me to talk, then listen well. She's alive. Last time I saw her, she was sleeping on a tearstained pillow. It feels like in the end, all I did was make her cry. But in order to protect her.. I had to become the, uh, villain in her story."
Batman raised an eyebrow underneath his mask. "You weren't one to begin with?"
Joker snorted. He glanced over at the room's mirror which he knew GCPD's finest was using to watch him. He unknowingly made eye contact with Jim Gordon and replied to Batman's jab.
"Not at first. I was many things to her but never the bad guy. I tried so hard to make her hate me but she's.. something else. She would cry and get mad— but she always forgave me afterwards. Nothing I did scared her away. Say Bats! Would you believe me if I told you My Light and I started out as..."
A roommate. You weren't used to having one. Since you never went to college and were an only child, you always had a space to yourself.
Upon moving to your penthouse in Gotham City, silence was abundant, save for the noisy hustle and bustle out on the city streets below. It was just background noise to you.
Your apartment was an oasis of tranquility in the middle of the city. You were used to unlimited freedom to do whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted, within your space.
Decorating to your heart's content, blasting music that you liked without any neighbors banging on your door, ah the joys of living on the top floor. You didn't walk around nude (too many windows and Gotham was far too dangerous for that kind of thing) but if you wanted to cook in a dinosaur costume, you could! That is until Joker became your temporary flat mate.
You talked the clown into staying until his stitches needed to be removed but you didn't discuss the living arrangements while being held at knifepoint. It kinda slipped your mind at the time.
Thankfully you had room to spare however Joker seemed content with crashing on your couch. After your little 'disagreement' at breakfast, Joker avoided you like the plague and for the time being, you kept your distance too.
No matter how angry he got he kept his word and never harmed a hair on your head. Granted he was rooted to one spot, so there wasn't much harm he could inflict. In the beginning you only bothered him when delivering him food or the worst task of them all, taking him to the bathroom.
That initial interaction was a tough pill to swallow. Joker couldn't walk on his own and your bathroom was soooo far away. He refused to wet himself but you were so focused on that laptop of yours, he couldn't get your attention.
He understood you were a writer and once you got into a groove it was impossible to stop, but this was ridiculous!
The words were flowing so fast from your mind and onto the word document that, to Joker, your nimble fingers danced over the keyboard like a master pianist.
He tried sighing– because that usually got your attention, but not this time. At first your ears didn't pick up his broody exhale but the second time he sighed just a bit louder, his patience was rewarded.
"Earth to Y/n. Your patient is dying!" His sarcastic words made you pause but you quickly recovered and continued working with your head bopping to some imaginary beat only you could hear.
Your back was facing him so he didn't see the way your lips were reading your work as you went, nodding along. To him you were blatantly ignoring him.
Weren't you supposed to be taking care of him? Joker tried, better yet failed– to get your attention again until he was forced to use a different tactic.
Meanwhile, you had an excuse for your distracted mind. Your work kept you busy and awake.
After the whole breakfast fiasco, Joker declared he was taking a nap, leaving you with a huge mess to clean and a story you were itching to start. Not to mention you wanted to tackle laundry today and you really wanted to bake something sweet to eat for later.
So much needed to be done and you knew Joker would thwart every last task if he were awake.
This weekend couldn't get anymore stressful. But you were a queen of multitasking and started a load of laundry in between cleaning up the broken chinaware and leftover food that spilled from the breakfast tray, and restored your living room back to its pristine condition.
You moseyed into the kitchen and made a large Charcuterie board for whenever Joker decided to wake up from his nap. You munched on the scraps while you tidied up.
While biting into a fig your mind noticed the similarities between Joker and a common house cat.
Before you compared him to a puppy but that wasn't true. He was mooching off your food and doing nothing but sleeping around just like a cat would. However Joker was on the mend so you cut him some slack.
He needed to stay hydrated so you brought him a few water bottles and placed them near his couch– you've since given up ownership of it, and returned to your desk to type out a few more pages in between folding clothes.
The early morning was bleeding into high noon and it was a rather pleasant day out despite the rain. You lit a lemongrass candle for productivity but jumped when a heavy sneeze sounded off in the room. Did he just?
You looked over your shoulder but Joker appeared to be asleep so you went back to writing. You hoped he wasn't allergic. 'Note to self: discuss allergies with Joker for meal prep later this week.'
This thought was mentally filed away and jotted down in your nearby journal for later. The timer on your phone still displayed forty five minutes until the dryer went off so you bunkered down to get the current scene you were having trouble with squared away. Did you want a direct approach/solution for your main character or should you incorporate the tertiary character in to have a cameo appearance to assist? Time seemed to fly as you worked, though you hardly noticed.
You were making good progress until a water bottle flying over your shoulder and hitting the wall in front of you, stopped all brain function. Your heart was beating wildly. Where did that come from?
In that moment you briefly forgot you weren't alone. You had a roommate now, one that was quick to violence.
You spun around to face him. "What in the.. Joker! Was that really necessary?! What if that water messed up my laptop?"
He rolled his eyes and shifted up into a sitting position. Hearing your dramatics after waking up from your weird smelling candle was not something he signed up for. He noticed it was a few hours after breakfast judging by the sun's rays pouring in from the giant windows.
The orange juice you forced him to drink after breakfast had moved through his system and upon waking up his mouth felt like the Sahara Desert. Thankfully he spotted the water bottles you left for him and downed two before he tried gaining your attention. If he factored in the water and the juice from earlier, he needed to pee. Badly.
And so, everything came back full circle. He refused to wet himself but at least he had your attention now.
"Forget about your laptop, Y/n. I've been trying to get your uh.. attention, for the past thirty minutes." He scratched his head and it was then you noticed his uninjured leg tapping impatiently on the hardwood floors. You only knew Joker for less than a day but you've never seen him so jittery.
You blinked rapidly trying to grasp his words. You stole a glance at your phone to find that you literally lost track of time.
"Wow, okay um I'm sorry, I didn't know it was this late. My mind is on this plot and I just.. ugh, I'm rambling. What do you need?" You asked him.
"The bathroom."
"Um it's down the hall, can't miss it." You waved in its general direction but Joker didn't move.
He stared at you and waited for your brain to catch up with his predicament. You were proving his theory of you just being book smart truer by the minute. Were you really that scatterbrained?
"What?" You asked. His stare was so intense it made you self conscious.
Was there something on your face? Was your hair too wild? Your eyes travelled down to his bandaged leg and your brain slowly loaded the required information to respond. "Oh. OH! I-I really didn't think this through..."
Joker merely smiled wide. God, you so desperately wanted to brush his teeth. But that was another fight to get into later. He would probably threaten you again but you didn't care. You hoped they weren't permanently stained.
In the end, that's how you ended up supporting half of Joker's weight as you two walked to the bathroom.
You collided roughly into your hallway table trying to keep Joker upright and you knew the area would bruise by tomorrow morning, but nevertheless— you two made it to your bathroom in one piece.
Intricate floor tiles greeted you when you flipped on the lights.
Crisp and modern or as Barbara described it, 'a whimsical Y/n flair,' was present throughout the room.
You rented the apartment mainly for its large bathrooms. The focal point of this room was the original claw foot tub sitting atop a raised platform underneath a skylight window. All kinds of plants surrounded the tub and abstract art of Gotham City hung on the walls. The walls themselves were a crisp grey that paired beautifully with your matte black fixtures.
Original subway tiles, chipped just enough to be vintage but still modern looking, graced the wall behind the standing sink and encased the giant walk-in shower that looked like it could fit three people and a spare. Your bathroom was straight out of a magazine.
Joker whistled lowly. "How much are your uh, royalty checks? I should change professions."
"Was that a joke or are you being serious?" You asked. His low huff answered your question. Of course Joker would never change, but a girl could dream.
You had ample room to walk in together side by side and you guided him over to the John that was behind a half wall near the tub.
"Okay.. I think you can take it from here. I'll be um.." This was so awkward.
"Don't you wanna stay? I might.. slip and hit my head on your opulence." He grumbled, looking around the fancy room.
You never knew when Joker was living up to his name or just being honest. His sardonic humor was difficult to pinpoint. "I hope the towel rack takes you out on the way down. I'll be outside."
You heard his zipper echo in the room and eeped outta there so fast. You slammed the door hearing Joker's signature laugh bounce off your subway tiles. He knew just how to get under your skin and the worst part, you let him!
It felt ridiculous standing outside your own bathroom but you patiently waited and then... waited some more.
You rocked on your heels, twirled your thumbs, and stared at the splatter paint art hanging on the wall outside the bathroom biding time.
You did anything but listen to Joker inside. But after a while it became too quiet and far too much time had passed. How long did it take a guy to use the bathroom? Definitely not this long.
Your knuckles rapped on the wooden door. "Joker, are you alright?"
You didn't hear a response and immediately thought the worst. What if he lost his balance and hit his head like you had joked? With your terrible luck, you probably jinxed the guy.
You didn't hear any thuds but the possibilities were endless floating around inside your head. Your heart was beating fast as you burst through the door, frantically looking about and preparing yourself for the worst.
Joker wasn't unconscious on the floor and there wasn't any blood either (thank goodness) but seeing him reading your private bathroom journal was not what you expected. He was like a nosy toddler always meddling into things!
"Put that down!" You rushed towards him but collided into his side when he blocked you.
"So.. this is where your ideas are stored. My, my Y/n.. you have quite the uh, imaginative brain."
Oh god what did he read? You forgot to hide your notebook earlier! You felt like a teenager catching your mother reading your first WIP for the first time.
Utter embarrassment flushed the tip of your ears scarlet red. The situation became worse when you jumped up and down trying to snatch your journal away from Joker.
If you weren't so hellbent on retrieving your notebook, you would've noticed the height difference between you and him.
"Don't read that! Joker, stop being a bully and give me my journal!" To him, your pleas were befitting that of a child.
A buzzing noise down the hall gained his attention but it didn't distract him much into lowering your journal to where you could reach it. He leaned his weight on the console sink and raised an eyebrow in your direction before nodding towards the door.
You stopped reaching and followed his gaze out the bathroom, catching the last buzz alert from your dryer, and answered Joker's silent question.
"It's laundry day. I need to fold those before they get too wrinkled. Are you done in here?" You gestured vaguely around the bathroom, earning a signature Joker huff.
It sounded like a sharp exhale but it also had qualities of a low growl. It intrigued and confused you at the same time on how he pulled it off. How you interpreted it, it was his lazy version of an affirmative response.
But he used it interchangeably for negative replies too. Whatever it was, it became something your ears grew accustomed to in such a short amount of time. "Alright then. Let's get you back to the couch if you're done."
"Lead the way." Why did your name fall from his lips so suggestively?
Were you just imagining it? Perhaps, but when you walked towards Joker with arms open wide, he didn't take your pre-offered shoulder to lean on. Instead he didn't move at all, causing you to awkwardly hug him. Only then did he wrap his arms around you and bend down to whisper in your ear.
"I happen to like the err story idea on page nineteen. Mind sharing your thought process on how that came to be, hmm?" He pulled you closer, urging you to rest your head on his chest.
You barely reached it with how short you were. The comical height difference returned and now it was the only thing on your mind.
Joker, Gotham City's most wanted criminal, was holding you in your bathroom and subtly sniffing your hair. It smelled divine to him and he subconsciously squeezed you tighter because of it. You smelled like rosemary, lavender, peppermint, and some kind of fruit he couldn't quite name. The combination was intoxicating and before he knew it, his hand was snaking up your back and into your hair.
Could your reaction even be called panic if your brain simply shut down?
Everything was a blur. One minute you were ready to escort Joker back to the living room, the next you were listening to his heartbeat pressed up against your ear. It was strong with a drum like beat yet gentle on the eardrums. Steady– never faltering. You could listen to it forever and never get bored.
Your body accepted the tune and you sagged deeper into his embrace. You didn't get an ounce of sleep last night in order to stay up and watch over Joker so you were working on fumes. That was the worst idea ever.
Your brain wasn't functioning at all to warn you that this was wrong wrong wrong.
Didn't you warn yourself not to get attached? To not get too close to Joker? He was like a magnet, dripping with poison, with caution tape wrapped all around him. You should be running far far away but if being held like this felt so good, you could only imagine what falling in–
Wait.
Were you seriously catching feelings for him? You only knew Joker for a day; What was going on upstairs in your brain?
Like steering a boat out of the fog, you came back to your senses very disappointed in yourself.
By no means were you desperate or some hopeless romantic that falls in love with every guy she meets. You had standards! And very high ones! You didn't date often but you knew what you wanted and what was best for you. Too many real life dating mistakes and reading more in books and other media, showed you what was toxic and what was considered healthy.
Falling for a guy in less than twenty four hours sounded like a cheap grocery store erotica storyline.
Then you had an epiphany. Page nineteen.. page nineteen!
Your journal in the bathroom stored the majority of your scrapped book ideas. The worn journal was bursting with rejects and long forgotten ideas that were either too boring or too embarrassing to expand on. If you remembered well, page nineteen was the latter and contained heavier material if Cindy ever approved you for adult fiction. Correction: if you ever mustered up enough courage to publish such a genre.
And Joker read it. Of course he did.
You pushed out of his hold with more force than necessary. Joker blinded in shock but didn't budge an inch.
Your privacy as a writer was compromised. Who knows what else he read? Page twenty one was just as worse. You felt like crawling into a hole to die.
He noticed your flushed face and labored breathing. What had gotten you so worked up?
"F-Find your way back to the living room alone, you.. you jerk!"
Joker watched you stomp out the bathroom, mumbling something about an 'invasion of privacy' under your breath and leaving him stranded. Women were so difficult to please but what did he do to get on your bad side? He thought back on the conversation but nothing stuck out. Yeah he bullied you a bit, but nothing too serious.
Women and their mood swings he surmised. But how was he going to make it back to the couch?
"Stupid jerk reading my stuff, being so freakishly tall, and ugh!" You yanked the last article of clothing out the dryer and into a basket before slamming the door.
It was your last load, most of which that needed to be hung up before wrinkles set in, but there were a few items that could be folded. Your mind shifted gears from Joker to focus on your chores.
You were busy hanging up a silk shirt when you heard the first thud. You turned your head towards the door but rolled your eyes and returned back to your task at hand. So what if Joker hurt himself? You were mad at him right now.
He stopped halfway to the living room on a decorative stool to catch his breath. Why was he so winded from just walking? Had he underestimated his injury? He seriously hoped he didn't need to stay here any longer than your two week recommendation. He didn't want to spend more time than necessary around your flip flopping attitude.
Joker grumbled to himself but he took time to admire your tasteful interior design. You mixed low-end comfort items with bold and expensive statement pieces. No two things matched but somehow worked together to create a fun and aesthetically pleasing home.
Just a few paces away was your couch, a stiff vintage monstrosity appearance wise, which surprisingly wasn't the worst thing Joker rested his head on. It could be better. It did its job and he wanted to return to its limited comfort to stop his head from spinning. Tip toeing around you and your mood swings burned more energy than what he had initially stored up.
The trip to the bathroom took ages but Joker made it back in less than ten minutes, including his mini break. He landed roughly on his unbandaged side, sighing.
He wished you were around so he could rub in the fact that he didn't need your help. He kinda enjoyed your presence, (when you weren't a whiny woman-child) since it helped fill the emptiness lingering around the spacious apartment. He wasn't joking earlier when he asked how much your salary was.
You mentioned before how your place took up the entire top floor but Joker knew he was only seeing a glimpse of that square footage. Your living room was quite large and the connected dining room behind him explained some of the missing measurements but Joker wanted to see more.
He craned his head backwards and spotted a glass sliding door across from your kitchen that led out to a balcony, although he couldn't see how big it was from this angle.
He should've stayed up and snooped around. Maybe later, right now his body was craving another nap.
Although he didn't sleep for long. Joker woke up more grumpier and stretched out the remaining traces of sleep from his body. He briefly considered the possibility of him sleeping too much but brushed it off. His bandage were still intact and a glance out the window put the time around mid afternoon. If he were out on the streets, now would be the perfect time to begin the day's work; chaos and destruction.
Somehow your apartment felt different as the day dragged on. It still kept its whimsical charm but it had a chill in the air. Joker had no doubt your mood affected the place.
The candle that originally woke him up, some kind of citrus that tickled his nose, had long since burned out or been extinguished which meant you were in the room at some point.
The open floor plan once again gave Joker an advantage but atlas no signs of you were found. You weren't at your desk across the room and you weren't curled up in the accent chair next to the couch or on the floor nearby.
Just how long could a female's mood swing last? Approaching footsteps halted all other thoughts in Joker's brain.
How pathetic he felt sitting up in attention. Your presence emerging from the hallway sent an unknown feeling stirring up within his chest. Joker's eyes quickly latched onto you trying to find any opening to get back in your good graces.
He shouldn't care about you. He just needed his nurse in good health to take care of him. The quicker he was healed, the faster he could be out of your life, so why did he find himself getting used to staying here? More importantly, why did he want to see you happy again?
He shouldn't be getting attached. Kill him now.
You were barefoot and your dainty feet barely made any sound on the hardwood floors as you made your way to the kitchen. Not once did you spare Joker a glance. He tried to ignore the feeling your cold shoulder gave him but failed.
He remained silent as you opened the fridge to rummage around inside but the longer you ignored him, the more he couldn't stand it. Curse you for making him crave your attention!
"Y/n.... I'm bored."
Maybe you weren't intentionally ignoring him. He raised an eyebrow at how you jumped after hearing his comment. Was it possible you lived alone for so long that you weren't used to another's company? Your reaction sure confirmed it. The same way he had to get used to relying on someone for help, you had to adapt to another person being around. Day one and it was already a disaster in the making.
You quickly recovered from your fright. "What do you usually do in your free time?" You asked.
Hmm, it appeared like you were back to your normal self. Joker didn't know what he would've done if you didn't respond.
"Well." Joker chuckled to himself. "If I was locked up, I'd taunt the guards until one was stupid enough to come closer and uh escape. Oops! Don't tell them that's how I got out."
You didn't know if he was joking or telling the truth. Either way you didn't comment and continued arranging a plate.
"But if Gotham was my oyster, I'd paint the streets with blood. It's a shame I'm stuck here with you." Finally you turned his way. The fire in your eyes was gone; did that mean you weren't angry at him anymore?
You walked out the kitchen with a few plates and Joker watched you like a hawk as you came closer.
He broke your blue set earlier so this set was stark white with intricate plum blossom flowers along the rim. On it was a serving of various fruit, cheeses, and cured meat from your charcuterie board. You were really pushing this healthy diet on him.
"Yeah, what a shame." You mumbled. "If you're so bored then watch tv." All you got was a cold glare from Joker.
"What? I'm serious. I have unlimited channels, the latest streaming services available, and every gaming system at your disposal. There is no way you can be bored." You rested your hands on your hips.
Joker's forest green eyes followed the movement before darting back up to your face that was set in a frown. So your mood hadn't improved as he thought.
"Do I looK like someone who watches tv?" Joker grimaced. Your left eye twitched but you didn't argue with him.
He didn't and you knew he was a man of literature if being a fan of your work was any indicator. But that would change while staying here with you. You would expose Joker to normal things found outside of a prison cell.
He grew curious when you walked back to the kitchen and returned with more bottles of water.
Just as he was about to question your motives, you plopped down on the couch next to him. The sofa had enough room for the two of you but it was still uncomfortable to have you so close.
He recognized your scent and having it up close again stirred up bad thoughts in his brain. He shook them away as you grabbed a remote out of thin air and turned on the wall mounted tv. How did he not notice that?
It came to life, already the homepage and you scrolled through it looking for something Joker might like. True crime would be right up his alley but if he was really bored, he needed something both engaging and new. You smirked to yourself and hit play on a show already in your watch list.
Immediately a scene started where a group of women were at a familiar restaurant arguing over something trivial.
"What the fu—"
"Hey!" You shushed his mouth grabbing the plate from the coffee table and placing it on his lap. "No cursing in my apartment."
Your hand reached over to snag a piece of cheese, unaware Joker was reaching for that exact cube. Your fingers collided with his. He stole a glance to see if you noticed but you were focused on the 50 inch tv.
"The tv is on the wall.. not on my face." How did you know he was staring?
You gave him a side eye and he grunted before facing the screen. Two minutes in and he had questions. "Is that...?"
"Mhm. And the blonde next to her is Linda Linseed, wife to the Mayor, and the girl getting ready to jump over the table is Cecile Hamming– wife to the guy who owns the slew of posh hotels in Burnley."
"What are we watching, Y/n?"
You yawned. "Real Housewives of Gotham City."
Joker resisted the urge to smother you with a pillow. He did however smack your hand away from his plate. He tried to ignore your puppy dog eyes but caved in. The plate had two servings of food, he just wanted to mess with you.
The first few episodes were a bit confusing and you had to fill him in on the drama but after a while, Joker caught up and was hooked just like you hoped he would be.
His reactions were funny to watch as he openly agreed with Kimberly's gripe with Cecile, although you grew concerned when he started listing ways he could kidnap Linda after seeing majority of her house from the show. Maybe this was a bad idea but thankfully he moved on and turned his frustration to poor Allison for starting some unnecessary drama with Michelle at the dinner party.
You tried staying awake, you really did, but the lack of sleep from last night and the roller coaster of emotions you faced today were weighing down your eyelids. You were crashing fast and the last thing you saw was Linda and Michelle's fallout onscreen.
Joker was too invested to notice you dozing off. The plate of food was long gone and he didn't realize he had sat up halfway into the season in suspense. Joker underestimated just how fascinating a group of housewives could be until today.
They did the most boring things like go to luncheons and attend charity events but with a camera crew following their every move, a competition to see who was the better female made those mundane tasks all the more entertaining.
Reality tv was another way for Joker to study people's mentality. Money, power, and pride made these women feel entitled as if they could talk to people any kind of way and still be treated with respect.
Their behind the scenes interviews showed they truly believed they were the victims whenever people defied their wishes and stood up to their rude behavior.
Bonus points, Joker got to see high prominent members of society's homes should he need to 'visit' them someday. These housewives were dumb for airing out all of their business but it made for good tv and Joker had to thank you for introducing it to him.
He turned to do just that but found you sound asleep. You put the term sleeping beauty to shame.
Your wild curls covered your face until Joker brushed them aside. Now he could see your sooty lashes resting atop your high cheekbones. Even asleep you kept a gentle smile on your face. A new episode played on in the background as Joker drank in your features. He thought back to the compliment he gave you when you first met in Chinatown.
"Pretty and smart, I like that."
How stupid he was. Of course you were smart, his mistake was with describing your beauty.
Pretty was an insult when you looked otherworldly. Like some cliché movie scene, the afternoon sun shined perfectly on your face, making you grumble and turn to snuggle up on his shoulder to escape the pesky light. His body froze like Mr. Fries.
Two conflicting sides of Joker battled with itself on what to do. One part wished to let you sleep in peace, you more than deserved it with all the stress you've been through.
You felt so warm resting against him. Joker wasn't a fan of human contact but he didn't hate your contact. But who was he kidding? He was a jester at heart and the urge to plug your nose and scare you awake was second nature to him. He raised his hand up to pinch your nose when a ringtone began to play from some unknown source.
Joker jerked away when you sat up straight from your nap and fumbled inside your pockets, ultimately digging out a cell phone, which you answered.
"Hello?" You grumbled.
"Hello? Is this Y/n L/n?" A familiar voice sounded over the phone that made your stomach do cartwheels. It immediately cleared up your remaining traces of sleep. "Yes!"
"Okay, good. I'm sorry for the sudden call. This is Bruce from your book event a few months back?"
"The Bruce Wayne, yes I remember. How could I forget?" You rubbed your eye with your unoccupied hand and grew defensive. "Um. How did you get my number Mr. Wayne?"
You heard him sigh on his end. You still failed to use his first name. "I must confess Y/n, I grew tired of waiting for you to call and asked Barbara for your number. I hope that wasn't too intrusive of me."
"Mm, I guess. Barbara and I are close friends. She knows who to trust my number with. I-I.. I'm the one who should apologize. I've been so busy lately that I forgot to call?" Why did you word it like a question? And what sensible guy would believe that bold face lie? Who forgets to call someone for almost a year?
In the background, Joker's eyes narrowed at your antics.
Apparently Bruce believed your lie. You heard him laugh over the phone and the deep timbre calmed your nerves.
"I completely understand Y/n, I once sat on a merger offer for half a year. It was hidden behind a stack of building schematics. Accidents happen."
Building schematics? Your brain must've been still foggy from sleep. "Yeah.. accidents.." You didn't speak after that and Bruce cleared his throat before speaking up.
"The reason why I called you this afternoon was to see if you were available to talk. About my biography of course. We can discuss things over dinner if you're available."
It didn't take a rocket scientist to know a biography was just a ruse for Bruce to ask you out. Even without Barbara's confirmation, your own instincts told you that Bruce had an eye for you. "Mr. Wa- I mean um, Bruce.. I'd love to go to dinner with you—"
Joker's eye twitched even more. "—but I've been going through some things recently and I can't right now."
"Is it something serious Y/n? If there's anything I can help you with.." Bruce stressed over the line.
Why did he have to be such a gentleman?! Your heart did flips until you glanced at your temporary roommate. You didn't know that Joker's deadpan stare was a ticking time bomb.
Inside the madman's head, he was plotting a thousand deaths for Bruce Wayne. He already couldn't stand the pompous guy, but now Joker had an actual reason to hate the billionaire. And yet you were eating up his fake concern.
How were you going to explain your situation to Bruce?
I'm sorry! I can't go on a date with you because I have Joker, yes that Joker, staying inside my apartment. What's that? You're calling the police as we speak? Oh how thoughtful of you Bruce!
Yeah, sleep deprivation was making you more delusional than usual. Unfortunately you still had the real Bruce on the phone calling out your name in his kind, but worried tone.
"I'm here. I promise it's- it's nothing too serious. I just... " You panicked and met Joker's aloof jade eyes.
He blinked, offering you no help whatsoever. Your mouth hung open as your mind tried to drum up a plausible excuse and like always, you found a loophole and blurted out the first thing that came to mind.
"I adopted a stray cat!"
You could hear the crickets chirping. And God bless Bruce for being so understanding. He took it all in stride. "You adopted a cat?"
"Yes!" You all but screamed, "I found it badly injured out on the street one night and I've been nursing it back to health ever since! The poor thing was half drowned and malnourished! I've been trying to feed it and heal its hind leg as much as I can but the little thing has an attitude!" You could feel Joker's deadly stare stabbing you in the back.
He was smart enough to deduce he was the 'poor kitten' in your tale.
You continued fabricating your lie to Bruce. "I've never taken care of a cat before so I've been losing sleep these past few weeks on top of trying to save my contract. I have a metric I have to keep or my publisher could terminate my agreement. Writer's block, and a new roommate, oh Bruce will you ever forgive me?"
Smoothing things over with Wayne by poking fun at Joker's situation would not end well but it had to be done. Your life may very well be on the line after this phone call, but at least you had a chance with Gotham City's most eligible bachelor. It wouldn't amount to much if you were dead but, hey.
"That's very admirable of you, Y/n. Adopting a pet takes a lot of responsibility." Bruce mentioned over the phone.
"Thank you. It's definitely a challenge. He lashes out and hisses when I try to feed him and don't get me started on the attention seeking." You giggled.
It felt good to vent to someone even if it was half the truth. What Bruce didn't know wouldn't kill him. It could get you killed though.
"Well I can't say I blame him, Y/n. I would act out too to get your attention."
Alrighty this conversation was going places. You laughed and jumped off the couch. Pacing and or rambling was a habit of yours whenever you were flustered.
"I wouldn't say he's been acting out–" The long forgotten plate of food shattered on impact when Joker threw it on the floor.
You whirled around in shock only to find Joker, arms crossed on the couch, looking every bit the murderer he was. His narrowed eyes sent a clear message. He was no joke to be taken lightly.
"What was that Y/n?" You dragged your eyes from forest green and returned to your active call. "Oh nothing.. just more attention seeking... and another mess to clean."
"I will leave you to your parenting then." Thank goodness the call was wrapping up. "Y/n?" Bruce called.
"Y-Yes?"
"I meant what I said earlier. If you need help, I'm just a phone call away. Judging by how you answered the phone I take it you didn't save my number. I took care of a few strays in my time, so please. If you need me. Just call."
Now you felt absolutely guilty for lying to the guy. Why couldn't your life be normal and be able to say yes to Bruce?
He respected your hectic life for now but how long would you hold him off until the truth came out? You were acting on impulse but harboring a criminal would eventually have lasting consequences, either down the line or now. You had to tread carefully to keep you and your friends safe. So you mustered up your best carefree voice and responded.
"Thank you Bruce for your generosity! I promise after this situation dies down we can start on your biography. I've never backed down from writing a good story"
"And what a story it will be. Have a great rest of your day, Y/n." Bruce bid you goodbye and finally ended the call.
You locked your phone and blew out a long stream of air from your lungs.
You finally sorta kinda talked it out with Bruce just like Barbara had suggested.
Although you didn't tell him the whole truth, it was enough to get your dilemma across. You avoided another dinner date with the businessman and bought you some more time to think about if you liked Bruce the way he definitely liked you. Romance was the least of your worries right now.
Your living room was several degrees colder than before and the chill originated from behind you. It was time to face the music. With an audible gulp you turned to face your new roommate.
This was the version of Joker that Gotham feared. Up until now you didn't invoke his wrath. Okay. Maybe just a tad after breakfast, but nothing like this.
This Joker was silent, calculated, and vindictive in his pursuit to intimidate the helpless lamb in his sight. You being the lamb and he the roaring lion ready to devour all in his path.
You didn't understand why he was so angry in the first place. Did your analogy really offend him that much?
"Figures you'd be friends with that entitled, trust fund brat. Are you his squeeze of the week? Did I in-ter-rupt your late nighT booty call?" Joker sneered from the sofa."
"First things first, what's your problem breaking my stuff? That's the fifth plate you broke in less than twenty four hours! Second, you ain't got no right talking out your neck like that! You don't know a thing about Bruce and I, so dial back the rudeness!"
You glanced down at your lock screen. "Third, it's barely three pm. What late night are you referring to?"
If Joker could get up he would. This hindrance of a leg injury did not help maintain his reputation. He couldn't crowd your personal space and intimidate you and as a result, his words held no harmful power like he wished them to.
"Oh my dear Y/n... it's you who doesn't know a thing about Gotham's wannabe savior. What has he done for Gotham other than sign a check?"
"You seriously wanna go there? What has Bruce done for Gotham City? Lemme sit down because this is going to take a while naming just about everything he does! You don't see his impact because you're so busy being a terrorist!" You marched up behind your accent chair and glared daggers at Joker.
He was amused by your little rant. He also noted how you kept a respectable distance from him. Good, it seems you learned from last time not to underestimate him. He sat back to watch you pop off, however his cocky smirk disappeared the more you spoke.
"Have you ever thought about the extensive funds and resources it takes to clean up and begin reconstruction whenever you decide to blow up a hospital just for the fun of it? Bruce is so considerate and pays Gotham City's hefty property taxes, that you accumulate, because he's the only that can afford it! While you're out tormenting the streets, he's setting up foundation chapters and creating a better future for our youth, the same children you recruit for your gang. The books you claim to like are purchased from my publisher, by Bruce– and shipped out to charities for young teens to give them hope after you crush them."
"You leave deep, ugly scars on people and run away laughing when people, good people like Bruce, are forced to comfort the victims with empty words about justice and peace. It's an endless cycle, Joker! You are the reason this city will never heal. You and your desire to watch the world burn! Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe there's people who want world peace? Who wants your reign of terror to end? Do you ever stop to think that there's people that like living?"
By the end of your rant you were wiping tears of frustration from your eyes.
Joker was finally hearing some of your philosophies about Gotham City. He wasn't a fan of the sappy dreams you had for its future.
He thought the two of you would share the same ideals and bond over the real injustice found in Gotham, like worthless people were in powerful positions or perhaps the broken system, but now he knew you were just another entitled citizen blinded by your wealth.
None of your washed-up views of Gotham entered his ears and seeing your tears soured Joker's mood.
He didn't know what came over him but his next question fell from his lips before he could think about the consequences.
"Do you like living, Y/n?" Joker asked.
You scoffed. "What kind of dumb question is that?"
His black face paint exaggerated his hooded eyes and highlighted his annoyed glare. "A simple one. Do you... li-ke living? You live alone. All you have is your laptop and your stories trapped inside that uhh, pretty little head of yours. You don't go out. What kind of life is that Y/n? Being cooped up inside this glamorous glass cage, looking down at the tiny people whose lives are much more exciting than yours?"
He clapped his hands together making you jump from the loud noise and it echoed throughout your suddenly too big apartment.
"So I'm askinggg... do you like living?" Joker grinned.
At last. Joker finally unlocked a side of you that even you didn't know existed.
He could see how his words resonated and struck deep based off of your watery eyes. Those large, expressive e/c orbs that he secretly liked. So bright and open, they were now clouded over with fat tears ready to fall at a moment's notice.
He expected you to yell back. To continue rearing your ugly head until you realized; you could be a monster too.
He predicted your anger to escalate from your feisty attitude that he knew you had. The way you handled yourself in his presence; either you were crazy or very bold, but you never failed in surprising him.
You didn't scream. You didn't retaliate.
You did the opposite of anger. You remained tight-lipped and remained frozen in place except for your balled up fist quivering at your side. This was not what Joker was expecting.
With a heart wrenching sob, you tucked tail and ran out the room. Joker was speechless as a door slamming afar off ended the heated scene.
Was that it? All the wait and buildup to finally see you snap yet he was met with a different type of unraveling. What a waste of time, he thought.
The corrupted city you so fiercely defended didn't hold a candle to the truth you portrayed in your books and Joker felt like you lied to him. His expectations of you being an educated scholar were thoroughly squashed after seeing the real you.
Joker chose to ignore how your close relationship with Wayne made him feel. He should feel indifferent towards you and your love life because you said it yourself. All he cared about was fire and gasoline with copious amounts of chaos mixed in for good measure.
You weren't wrong in your analysis but the way you read Joker like an open book irritated him. He was supposed to be shrouded in mystery, so how were you able to see right through him? Those eyes of yours weren't normal, you weren't normal.
You were brave for talking back to him and not backing down when he threatened you. But he couldn't brush this aside. No one made fun of him and got away with it. He was the clown. He pulled the pranks. He always got the last laugh.
However watching you run out the room crying, Joker didn't find his joke funny. Not. One. Bit.
The sun was setting over the horizon and from his perch on your couch, Joker could see the very people he rubbed in your face earlier, living out their lives.
Gotham never slept and as the street lamps lit up one by one with the fashion district also nearby, the city flickered to life in a sea of light.
Joker was at his peak after dusk but with the multiple naps taken today, they gave him an added burst of energy to run wild.
The tv was still playing the season finale reunion episode though he paid it no mind. His current objective was making it to the bathroom again. Joker thought about your words from earlier.
"--until those stitches are removed; you're my responsibility."
He couldn't forget your fiery words. You said them with such conviction he knew them to be true. But now he wasn't so sure.
You abandoned your patient, (granted the patient said harsh things to his nurse) and left him to ruin.
You knew pressure on his wound was bad and the bandages on his leg proved that point. A red stain bled through the gauze and Joker knew it would only get worse if he continued walking without your help. His pride was being tested and in the end he caved, calling out for you and hoping you would hear him. If you did, your feelings were still too sore to offer him aid.
He waited ten minutes and when you didn't appear with your bright sunny smile, (did he just admit he missed it?) Joker knew he was on his own.
Fine. He'd been alone for the majority of his life, what was another hour or so?
He was perfectly not fine with you staying in your room. When you weren't around, the weird feelings he had for you remained dormant. Although Joker needed assistance, he managed to make it to the bathroom without your help.
He was panting once he came out and shifted his gaze down the hallway to the black wooden door with a golden doorknob. Besides the bathroom, four other doors remained a mystery to him in the hallway.
One he knew led to your laundry room but the other two were unknown to him, but he took an educated guess that your bedroom was at the end of the hall.
It was too far for him to investigate and Joker reminded himself he didn't care about your feelings enough to check on you. With an annoyed grunt, he prepared himself for the walk back to the living room.
More brain rotting television was consumed as Joker wasted the rest of the night, lost in thought.
Were you coming out of your room anytime soon? Did he go too far in teasing you? Just what was it about you that made him act so unlike himself?
You had a way of confusing Joker. How could someone be feisty and demure? Smart yet scatterbrained? Annoying but easy to be around? You were something else, that's the only thing Joker could agree on. He wouldn't retract his words and he refused to apologize, but he really wanted you out of your room and back in the living room with him.
He didn't realize how soothing your fingers typing on your keyboard were until the silence without it buzzed loudly in his ears. The tv played on but there was something missing here and by the night's end, Joker vowed he would get it back.
Your emotions always got the better of you.
If you didn't sleep the night before, you became cranky and overall a bad person. It wasn't a good reflection of your character but after a nap, you would revert back to your bubbly self, ready to apologize to whomever you crossed during your cranky mood.
Only this time you weren't the one who lashed out. Your feelings were hurt. Joker attacked you with venomous words and the truth hit way too close to home for your sleep deprived mind to handle.
It hurt worse because he was right. You didn't live an exciting life and you didn't take the initiative to travel and explore it more.
You remained cooped up inside while longingly staring down at the people living below. You lived vicariously through the stories you created and any opportunity to make new friends, you immediately shut down. Bruce was begging you at this point to go on a date and you lied every time to avoid the interaction. The only person you could blame for your boring, lackluster life was yourself.
Did Joker have to poke at your insecurities, absolutely not, but he didn't know they existed so it wasn't entirely his fault.
You knew his nature. Cold, heartless and deliberately cruel. Anything that came out of Joker's mouth was bound to be hurtful. It was only a matter of time his barrage of words struck you down. And down is exactly how you felt.
Joker was naturally a curious person so you made sure to lock your bedroom door after you slammed it closed.
Hardly anyone came over besides Barbara and Dick, but they never stepped foot inside your bedroom.
You were extremely lucky to have an entire floor as your apartment but your bedroom was your true safe haven. In here you could escape the cruel world and be your true self. The rest of your apartment was bright, airy, and pristine. Your room was a stark contrast. The walls were painted pitch black with the ceiling painted as a mural of the moon and stars, complete with mood lighting.
A giant window overlooking the fashion district took up an entire wall and another was your floor to ceiling bookshelf, color coded of course.
Without a doubt the most expensive thing in your room was your Alaskan king bed imported directly from the "Last Frontier" state. It came with the apartment and you couldn't go back to a traditional king after rolling around the 108 x 108 inches every morning.
You had no reservations when you cannonballed onto dark silk sheets that welcomed you like an old friend. The one good thing about a high thread count was it absorbed tears without staining.
Time was lost as your tears disappeared into your mountain of pillows and with a click of a button, your curtains moved on a track to shield you from the Gotham nightlife view. You didn't want to see the very thing that caused your tears.
'Don't let Joker's words get to you. His job is hurt and destroy. He doesn't care about anything so you shouldn't let him drag you down.'
Your mental pep talk cheered you up enough to stop crying however your melanotic mood lingered.
You picked up this week's book club read from your nightstand and digested a few chapters but even a good book couldn't lift your spirits.
So you turned to your backup computer that you kept in your room. The shared word document had saved and transferred over onto this hard drive but you didn't feel like writing within your current mindset. If you were able to get any words out, it would be bogged down and tainted with negativity.
Your English teacher once told you 'never write when you're sad' and to this day you swore by her words.
You turned to your blog and social media accounts to pass the night away. For the past two days, your every thought revolved around Joker. You needed to detox and self care. He would be fine on his own for the rest of the night. You didn't want to think about him right now. A night of self care sounded like the best medicine right now.
You planned on drawing a bath and adding some essential oils and lighting a few candles to relax– not falling asleep before your self care routine could truly begin.
You watched a few beauty tutorials online and shopped around for a pick me up dress when your eyes started to close on their own. A fan mentioned you in a post and you wanted to reply, but you never got around to it. Before you knew it, your head hit the pillow and you were a goner.
Much needed rest was needed and your body soaked up every minute it could until you woke up naturally, yawning and patting the bed covers for your phone.
You thought you left in the living room with Joker but thankfully you found it on your nightstand glowing with a slew of notifications on the screen. You ignored them for now and read the time. It was a little after eleven pm and your stomach grumbled out wanting some attention from being neglected for so long. If you were hungry you knew Joker had to be as well. All you two had today was breakfast and a cheese plate. What kind of nurse abandons their patient?
You couldn't help it. Your health was just as important if you wanted to heal Joker but no amount of self care could erase him from your mind. You invited him into your home (and unknowingly in your head) so he was now your responsibility. No take backs.
'Just two weeks then you'll be free. Why did you volunteer for this Y/n?' You thought to yourself.
"Because in some twisted way it's the right thing to do. Ugh, I hate being an altruist."
You pulled the light throw blanket off your legs and stretched on the side of the bed. Despite the late hour, your room was lit by the artificial starry night on your ceiling and you used the light to maneuver around the room to the en-suite bath to fix your hair.
Bedhead was not cute. Not much could be done to the slightly matted mess but after a bit of fighting with a pick, you made it look presentable. You definitely had to style it again before bed.
The matching sweats you wore were wrinkled from sleep so you walked over to your closet to find something better to wear.
It was late in the evening and you really didn't feel like cooking something for you and Joker. Thankfully Gotham City never sleeps and it would be easy to find some street food from a nearby vendor or you could pick up some takeout to call it a night.
With the intention of going out in public, you donned some black fitted jeans and threw on a baggy hoodie before pairing it all with a denim jacket to shield you from any possible rain. A classic outfit with comfort in mind. You grabbed a pair of sneakers before facing your bedroom door.
Now you felt silly for your tantrum, you even locked the door!
Your emotions were all over the place but after catching up on some much needed sleep you were ready to be a member of society again. You weren't some recluse like Joker painted you out to be! Sure your life wasn't as action packed as others, or engaging enough to be on tv, but you were happy and that's all that mattered. You took a deep breath and turned the doorknob and stepped outside into the dark hallway.
Quiet. If your instincts didn't tell you Joker was still in the apartment, you would've thought the place was deserted.
No lights were on and all of the doors remained shut. It was odd how your own apartment felt foreign but nevertheless you cautiously walked towards the archway that separated the private rooms from the main apartment space.
The first thing that caught your eye was the raindrops on the windows that made up the far living room wall. Gotham and its constant rain. You might have to ditch your white sneakers for rain boots after all.
The TV area looked normal upon first glance. A commercial promoting A.C.E Chemicals jobs was on the screen and its flashing lights illuminated the living room and parts of your dining table.
Joker wasn't up so your heart calmed down. You might be in a better mood mentally but that didn't mean you were ready to socialize with the clown.
Your bag was still by the door where you left it. Your keys would most likely be inside your jacket from last night as well as your wallet. Just a brisk walk over and you could grab everything and walk out.
That is until Joker's voice instilled fear in your bloodstream. "And.... where are you going?"
Why did it feel like you were caught sneaking out the house by your parents? His voice held an authoritative, militaristic tone that you jumped to obey. You dropped your shoes and they clattered on the hardwood floor in the suddenly quiet apartment.
Joker had been awake for a while. He couldn't go back to sleep after you left.
The tv watched him as he thought about how to patch up the rocky relationship he had with you. Until you deemed him healthy, he was stuck here so he had to play the part of a helpless patient. He could do that. And the minute it was time to leave, he'd consider letting you live.
But first these ridiculous emotions you stirred up within him had to be eradicated. He would not be distracted by romance and lose sight of his goal.
That was his plan– yet you made him toss logic out the window. He heard your door open and he immediately honed his hearing on your every step.
You walked out into the main area and paused, no doubt wondering if he was awake. He stayed perfectly still on the couch in case you came over to look but when he heard you drift over to the front door he decided to announce that he was up. Were you seriously going out this late on your own?
You looked like a deer in headlights. The moonlight shined on your frozen figure as Joker turned around to see you properly.
Women changed outfits constantly just like their mood swings. He wondered what mood you were in now. Were you still mad? Upset? God, he didn't want to see your tears again. They did something to him that he didn't want to confess to yet..
You failed to reply and he grew impatient. "Well?" He urged. That jarred you back into focus.
Your e/c eyes blinked in the dark and you stumbled over your words. "I-I uh. I was um..."
You winced when Joker spoke over you, "Full sentences, Y/n."
"I was going to get us takeout!"
So there was some logic to your madness. It was still stupid. "Not at this hour, no you are noT." He fixed you with a stern look and you scoffed, looking away.
"Quit acting like somebody's daddy. The city is on a curfew so no one will be out anyways. The most dangerous criminal is currently sleeping on my couch, scolding me like a strict parent."
Yup, you were back to your bold, fearless self again. Joker wondered what you did for the past seven hours to get back in such a good mood.
"Where else am I supposed to sleep bunny? With you?" You saw his grin backlit by the bright tv light, making you roll your eyes. You really hoped that nickname didn't stick.
"I have a spare bedroom Joker." You stated. And so one of the mystery doors in the hallway was revealed.
"I didn't know."
"You don't know a lot of things because you don't ask." You sighed and scratched your natural hair. Just talking to Joker zapped the energy you had stored up to grab dinner. "Are you even hungry?"
He used that universal huff of his and you translated it as a no this time.
"Great, because I don't feel like going out anymore."
You shrugged out of your denim jacket and tossed it onto one of the dining room chairs before walking towards Joker. "Let's move you to a proper bed, how does that sound?"
Absolutely divine. "Can you carry me?" He whined when you came closer. Joker was such a man-child. You couldn't help but giggle at his pouty lip, stained a deep red from his makeup.
You grabbed the remote and turned the tv off, plunging the apartment into darkness, save for the moonlight shining in from the windows.
You swore Joker's eyes glowed with their intensity. They were two green spotlights in a void of black and you shook your head in order to stop staring.
"I am not carrying you, Joker. We'll make it there slow and steady just like we've been doing. Do you need to use the bathroom while we're up?" You asked.
He stood on his own and towered over you. And for a moment he became lost in your beauty.
The way the moonlight bounced off your h/c and twinkled off your bright e/c stole his breath. His mission, his desire to watch Gotham burn, was a distant memory whenever he locked eyes with you. He didn't like that.
He pushed past you and made it a few paces before you caught up to him and offered your body to lean on. "I went to the bathroom on my own during your uhh, mini tantrum. I have a won-der-ful nurse."
"You don't have to rub it in... I'm sorry."
Joker sighed and left it at that. He got an apology from you. You were back in a good mood after all.
That should've been enough for these strange feelings of his to quell yet they still bubbled in the background, waiting for something else. If only he could determine what they wanted and be free of this burden! You were a walking headache but he couldn't get rid of you, at least not yet.
You filed that information for later. Joker could walk on his own but with the way he worded it, it didn't sound like an easy task and after passing the kitchen towards the hallway, you picked up on Joker's labored breathing.
Correction: he couldn't walk alone yet.
You cast him a worried glance when you stopped at the door down the hall from your room. Almost all of Joker's weight was resting on your side and he looked in pain. He needed to be off his feet, fast. A gust of cool air hit you both when the door swung open.
If Joker wasn't dizzy he would've admired another tastefully decorated room of yours.
Ironically this theme was the apartment's standard cool neutrals with green being the main color. The original hardwood floors continued throughout the apartment and a giant vegan cowhide rug lay out on the floor of this spacious room. A medium sized leather couch and two chairs, one slate grey the other a deep sage, sat in the corner in front of an electric fireplace overlooking another great view of Grant Park. Windows were another standard in this high-rise, another perk for scoring the penthouse.
Above the fireplace was a signed piece of art depicting a scene from Will Hunter Bill from a talented fan. It brought the room together and gained a lot of likes on social media when you posted it. But neither of you were focused on the decorations. Joker's eyelids were falling, making you worry and you tripped up trying to guide him to the bed.
Fate had a funny way of putting you in these situations. You met Joker by bumping into him and once again your clumsiness got the better of you, dragging Joker down with you.
Your back hit the bed followed by the heavy weight of Joker landing on top of you. For someone so tall and lanky, his full body weight knocked the air out your lungs.
"J-Joker! C-can't.. breathe..!"
It took him a moment to come to. He felt your hands trying and failing to push him off of you. "You're talking Y/n, soooo you can breathe." Joker mumbled in the crook of your neck.
This heavy, arrogant motherfu.... Fine. Two could play this game. You took a deep breath and wigged your arms free.
"Quit movin' bunny."
"Then.. get off.. of me!"
Joker snorted and the gust of air tickled your neck. "You can't lie and say you hate it. Give me a minute and I'll uh.. think about moving." Just to tease you more, he nuzzled your throat with his nose and your soul left your body then and there.
Thankfully it was dark in the room so he couldn't see the maroon flush dusting your cheeks. Joker knew how to mess with you but this time you wouldn't fall for his tricks. Yet your mind wandered.
It wasn't a bad situation to be in. You'd been in far worse, however your mind was screaming a mantra of 'he's too close! He's way too close' and your more logical brain happened to agree.
"W-Wait, what do you mean you'll think about moving? I will not be trapped under you tonight! Get. Off!" You tried moving Joker again but it was like pushing a mountain.
Joker was having way too much fun. He chuckled and swatted your arms that were trying to push him off.
Why couldn't you lie still and let the man rest for a bit? Your couch wasn't the most comfiest thing in the world and it had been ages since Joker laid in a real bed with proper cushioning and even longer with someone. You were so warm, he found himself dozing off if not for you squirming underneath him so provocatively.
"Y/n. Be still." He warned.
Of course, you ignored him so he spoke up before you did. "I can'T move, gunshot wound remember? Be a good girl and stay still and I'll move when the room stops... spinning."
And just like that you ceased all movement.
Your face was burning up at this point. White noise buzzed in your ear and you had lost all feeling in your legs. It wasn't Joker's actual words that made you stop but the meaning behind them. Your brain turned into a record player playing his words back on repeat.
'Be a good girl..' It was official, you were a goner.
Time ticked away as you watched the rain beat against the windows as you waited for Joker to get up. Your mind was in a haze and you didn't feel Joker shift or hear him call out your name. However you did feel when he cupped your face.
Your breath caught in your throat and your eyes quickly locked onto Joker's.
Up close you could see lighter shades of green swirling within the overall forest hue. His hand was clammy but his thumb felt like a branding iron swiping along your lower lip. Joker never felt anything softer. Even in the dim moonlight, he was transfixed on the natural pink tissue calling out to him.
He forgot what he had asked you. He forgot his own name really. The only thought on his mind was what your lips would feel like. He wanted to find out. He would find out.
A gravitational pull brought him closer and closer to his next conquest; until you picked up the energy in the room.
Everything slowed down frame by frame. Your eyes widened right as Joker closed his. A lock of his green hair fell and tickled your forehead with how close the Prince of Crime was. You noticed it was a beautiful shade of brown and the ends themselves were dyed his signature green.
You always wanted to dye your hair but never mustered up the energy to commit to the upkeep. Thousands of other insignificant thoughts floated inside your head as Joker closed the distance between you and him. In the last centimeter your brain whirled back to life.
Your palm slapped over his mouth and some unknown energy helped you finally push Joker off of you.
And like a freight train, time slammed back into motion with brutal force. You were already at the door before Joker could process what happened.
"There's an en-suite bathroom if you need anything I'll be down the hall goodnight!" Your words were all in one sentence by your heavy breathing.
You needed air, you needed to get out of this stuffy room. Now. Before anything else happened.
Joker had rolled onto his side and opened his mouth to question what went wrong but you had already sped out of the room and down the hall, disappearing into your own. He saw a flash of black paint before you closed the door with a finalizing slam.
Your back was against the door and you were trying to calm your racing heart. Joker... almost kissed you! It felt like a fever dream, you couldn't believe it but it happened.
It was real! And the perfect lipstick print on your palm confirmed it.
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