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[rksaememories]

BREAKING DOWN.

💌 @rkyerim 

          TRIGGER WARNING: negative thoughts, etc!

it’s as though all of this is new to her once again, as though she’s back at square one. she hadn’t this reaction at the new years festival, but that was because saerom had hit her head before she had enough time to properly react. what is she doing? who is she and where is she headed? she finds herself frantically searching for a bathroom, having held it together for three or so minutes to get herself evaluated. those three minutes felt like an eternity. upon finding a bathroom, she’s not even sure if it’s the women’s or the men’s, she’ll find out in a minute.

she barrels through the door without much thought of what’s on the other side, or if anyone is in her way. to her luck, it’s a women’s bathroom; bright lights reflect off of the tiles with clean, empty stalls ( or so she thinks ). another pointer tells her this is the women’s bathroom because it smells a lot better than what she presumes the men’s bathroom would smell like. saerom almost finds herself tripping over her own feet. she stops herself reaching out for the basin, her knuckles white from her tightly clenched fists. she looks up at herself in the mirror, she feels empty.

her hair is an absolute mess, not even from dancing, it just didn’t look that great when she did it this morning. her eyes are red, bloodshot and no amount of concealer and foundation could make up for the circles and bags forming beneath her eyes. she looks tired, sick; like she hasn’t slept in a week ( which is a reality, she’s lucky to get two or three solid hours of sleep and even then her mind is plagued with thoughts of all kinds ). saerom’s head falls and the silence of the bathroom is now filled with the sound of her sobbing. 

[rkheejin]

‧ ₊ ˚ ♡ MGA SEASON FIVE, EPISODE SIX— THE GROUP PERFORMANCES!

           •  •  •  vixx’ shangri la  ❪ 1:15 — 5:05! ❫                      w. kyungsoo, hyojin, suwoong & eric

     on her lips sits a beaming smile of triumph, satisfaction radiating outwards, and finally, she can allow herself a moment of peace. it feels far better than she'd originally thought it would, hearing her name among those considered the best for the second time that season, and she's elated ( she knew, oh she knew, that this performance would have been her best chance at making it back to the top— sure, they hadn't taken first, but they had gotten damn close. heejin could live with that for now ).

     even if she wasn't number one, she'd still been recognized— despite her shortcomings, despite the obvious weak link she was sure she proved to be in terms of certain skills when compared to kyulkyung and minho, she'd still managed to shine and show off her very best. heejin could never admit her true thoughts, too fearful of vulnerability amongst those she still needed proper time and a more relaxed setting to grow closer with, but she'd been worried.

     the thought of having to rely on her teammates to the possible point of them almost needing to carry her along as a way of compensating for her weakness' had plagued her all throughout the week. it had been a strong motivator for her as well, however, especially with the chance of her solely being eliminated if she couldn't match up to them and help keep them steadily afloat amongst the others— so, heejin had wanted to improve, had wanted to get better, and she had done just that with agreeable success.

     yet, despite being safe for another week, eliminations still manage to make her heart stop with full force and disbelief.

     she’s still proud, her body buzzing with unending excitement, but it no longer reaches her eyes the same way it had only a few short moments ago. what does reach her eyes, however, is the brunettes frame as she's made to leave. heejin doesn't even try to hide the obvious frown that pulls at her lips, brows furrowing in her own dejection— things seem to shatter then; wishful, rosy visions of her and jungeun continuing on in this journey together, succeeding together, advancing towards their dreams together just as they'd promised each other they would before all of this started.

    now, it's just her.

     she's lightheaded— it's an odd sensation, to cruise almost seamlessly on such a desperately craved high, but to still taste nothing but bitter disappointment.

     it's hard to focus after that, ears still ringing as her emotions fight for dominance, and it's all heejin can do to keep her features from conveying anything too telling anymore.

                                                                      ♡

     with her emotions already proving to be mildly unstable, her heart still throbbing from both eliminations as well as events in her personal life, now beautifully stained in vibrant violet hues, heejin has no idea what she should expect when her first day of proper practice with her new group for the week rolls around. introductions had gone as smoothly as any, dynamics presenting themselves almost immediately, and despite the unknown, heejin is given at least some insight from the very start— coach cheri was as sweet as her name, coach ella was not one to play games with, and coach wonwoo proved to be far softer than his piercing eyes probably led others to believe.

     it interests her greatly, especially once all eight of them are together and ready to get down to business. that interest, however, slowly dissolves into thinly veiled annoyance as days pass, and it's all she can do to keep herself from raising her voice in front of greedy cameras and impressionable seniors.

     heejin wants to succeed, wants to make sure she only gives her best— that had become her goal from the very moment she had learned who her coaches would be ( who her teammates would be ). they were a mixed bunch, more balanced in some areas and greatly skewed in others, but that was the least of heejins worries— she’s done this before; she’s worked with those different from her, managing to put on performances that succeeded despite these differences.

     but now, surrounded by four men as the only female contestant on her team, the determination to make herself stand out and to not let herself be overshadowed by those bigger than her ( physically speaking, of course ) had taken root in her mind strongly. she understood the risks someone in her position posed— not being able to hold her own, not being able to stand out properly, not being able to showcase the same amount of charisma as the boys on her team.

     she wasn't blind. she knew there were so many out there who still failed to see a girl's strengths when surrounded by boys doing exactly the same thing.

     heejin wouldn't let herself be seen as weak, not by anyone— not when labels like could hurt her standing in the long run.

     she needed to focus— doing so was easier said than done.

     the first real sign she picks up on comes during part distributions once they've all agreed on a song, and heejin is more than happy in how she excels the most vocally amongst them all. deciding her parts comes easily, her naturally higher tone and timbre slotting almost perfectly with every line she tests out, and for just a second, heejin believes the unanswered tension she can hazily feel in the air is simply there because they're all mostly still so fresh to one another— wanting to tread lightly when it comes to newly met people was only natural, after all, even when it came to people as friendly and outgoing as suwoong seemed to be.

     her gaze finds suwoongs frame the moment he voices himself, eyes darting back and forth between him and kyungsoo as her lips remain sealed. she doesn't move from her spot before the practice mirrors where she'd started trying to fine-tune certain points of their choreography, phone in hand as the recording they had taken of them dancing silently plays on. his voice rings so clear in the quiet of the room— can i try this part, too?

     it's rare that she ever finds herself witnessing squabbles like this, and it's in the way she sees kyungsoo stand his ground, the way suwoong doesn't falter in his challenge, that heejin thinks she finally understands why the air seems thicker than it really should be.

     personal attachments and grudges were a tricky thing— they were the main reason heejin didn't feel the want to get too close to anyone during the duration of the competition, people like jungeun, yuri and kyulkyung being those among the exceptions. she hadn't come here to make friends; heejin came here to compete, to show her talents and move on to the next stage in her life. there was no time to dwell on personal feelings, not when practice and performing required as much energy and attention as possible.

     maybe, had she met certain people in a different setting, she'd have felt more interest in making proper friends— but that wasn't the case here.

     she remains silent as their little debate comes to an end not too long after, trial and error settling them right back where they’d been. in her mind, there was no use in coming between others arguments, not when she wasn't needed ( not when this wasn't about her ). heejin already had more than enough to worry about— if her teammates could solve whatever issues they had between one another amongst themselves at some point, she felt no need to stress over them. for now, she needed to worry about herself.

     unlike last week, every group would be down a member once eliminations were over. there were no longer any safety nets, no cushions to relax on regardless of how outstanding your team was. one of them would be gone come thursday, whether they felt it justified or not.

     yet, it seems distraction after distraction is all she gets the longer they practice. granted, not everything dissolves into ruin, their general teamwork skill fairing well at certain points of the day. no one explodes, causes disruptions, or sours the mood more than it'd already been earlier.

     the first time suwoong hits her with his fan, however, fingers unable to get a proper grip before it delivers an audible whap to the back of her head, heejin wants nothing more than to yell at him ( had this been the only incident that day, had she not already been a little tired from how hard they'd all already been working in order to perfect what they could, maybe she'd have been more lenient and not so ready to explode, but it's not— no, she feels he'd done his best to disrupt her multiple times already, bumping into her a tad too harshly from time to time in the groups efforts to get their movements more in sync ).

     she does well to keep it together, however, the only tell of her feelings being an annoyed quirk of her brow, lips forming a tight line, a sigh leaving her silently to let out built-up steam. she stares at him for a moment, gaze hard as she gives a small shake of her head, and his apology falls on somewhat deaf ears— she doesn't want to hear it, not now. "it's fine, let's just keep going."

     she has to save some sort of face in front of them all, has to show, while she's not one to push around, she can be civil when the situation calls for it.

     it surprises her, however, when suwoon extends an invitation out to her to join him and eric during a very much needed lunch break the next day. her mind is still reeling from the events that'd taken place not even a moment before— the tension in the room coming to a head, exploding in an outburst between kyungsoo and wusoong, and heejin can't help the way she visibly flinches as the former bursts out of the room, his fan hitting the practice rooms floor with a thud. maybe it's the shock of it all that prompts her to accept despite her own personal feelings, wanting nothing more than to get out of a room sophisticating with negativity.

     for the most part, she remains quiet as the others reveal their own feelings about things within the group, but it comes out of nowhere— she'd wanted to leave it be, keep herself silent until all was said and done, mainly for the sake of making it through the week without causing even more distracting rifts between them all. but she can't.

     she's gone too long holding her tongue, with keeping herself silent where she'd normally be so outspoken and ready to let her thoughts known. it makes sense, she thinks, that at some point, her exterior would chip. so, as she voices her own annoyances to suwoong, tone curt brows furrowed as her gaze stays locked on him, it feels as if some kind of weight has been lifted from her shoulders. it's an unfamiliar feeling, but then again, letting everything go after bottling it all up is something heejin has never done before.

     she hopes she never has to do it again.

     her confessions help some, but there's still something in her that wants to stay annoyed— call her petty, childish for holding into to things that very well might not be there, but her own assumptions and drive to prove someone ( anyone ) wrong won't let her calm down completely. at least she's given an apology.

     with monday comes mild fatigue— both mentally and physically, the worst she thinks she's felt yet during the competition ( more so than last week, when her emotions had been in an all-time confusion ). it's a lot to keep her gaze forward and mind focused when it seems there's always something causing a distraction, her body finally succumbing to slight soreness with how dance-heavy their routine is for her. heejin has always been a singer, has always put her time and attention towards strengthening her vocals over everything else, so she'd been well aware that being thrown into such dance-heavy routine requirements for two weeks in a row would take a toll on her body at some point.

     it's as she giving her body the proper stretches it needs before they all officially begin with more practice, face bare for the first time in front of them all ( unlike the last few days where she'd decided to do light makeup ), that suwoong and kyungsoo bring them all together. she wants to hate how nice the former is to her now, holding out the donut box they'd brought for the group as a final way of hoping to quell any lingering negative thoughts, but even with how stubborn she is, heejin knows better— she understands what this is, a silent peace offering.

     heejin swallows her pride, a small half grin making its way onto her lips as she reaches in for the first pick. "thank you." we're ok.

     with one final heart to heart, all five of them present and willing to speak for the sake of bettering morale and motivation, that day proves to be one of the easiest to breathe she's had since they came together. it's refreshing, ending things off on a higher note as they finally break and begin to practice.

     dancing still proves to be her vice, but there is undeniable improvement in her movements, heejins will to work harder and clean up anything pointed out as lacking or messy at its highest— with everyone now relatively on the same page, it's easier to out her focus on improvement, and as their final few days pass, she's happy with what she's able to showcase. she no longer has to hope for her vocals to boost her standing when paired alongside her dancing, more confident pulling off a routine as elegant and unified as theirs is ( even with the changes that'd been made to make it a bit easier to follow ).

     the day before filming, fans in hand with varying enthusiasm from each of them, fans are gifted to the three of their coaches— the serve as thanks for the time spared working with them, messages written as a way of immortalizing their gratitude. while the week may have been a trying one a good chunk of the time, with things ending on a higher note before the big day, heejin feels good.

     now, they just had to perform.

                                                                      ♡

     everything feels so different, contestants sat backstage, rather than in front of the stage alongside the judges. it's an unfamiliar feeling so heejin, staff members working around them all as last-minute preparations are done here and there before filming officially begins. she's not sure what's got her skin buzzing with electricity more— the bigger stage, the potential usage of more intense props in the hopes of making stages pop, or the crowd of 1500 people who would be watching them all live as opposed to relative silence and smaller numbers they'd all come to know once filming began.

     whatever it is, heejin wants more.

     eyes bouncing from face to face as everyone settles down to begin, a brief sense of melancholy washes over her— it's still so odd to her, jungeun nowhere in sight when she should have been there ( at least, heejin believed she should be there ). it still saddened her knowing that her best friends run had been cut right before the beginning of the end, but it was a reality she'd been forced to accept during the week between episodes.

     she'd come to terms with it in a way, as unfair as she wholeheartedly believed it to be, and strengthened her resolve— she would continue on and succeed for the both of them, and when the time came, they'd meet one another on the same field once more.

     as performances start, it's easy for her to let her mind wander for a moment, offering a brief moment of peace to steel herself and prepare her mind. vaguely, with her eyes stuck to the screen showing what the others are performing, she lets herself nod along to song choices and analyze. then, as if no time at all had passed, it's finally their turn to perform.

     stood before the judges and live audience, heejin is sure to keep her head high, a confident grin on her lips as she holds her fan loosely. with a cue from suwoong, they sound off their unified introduction before individual ones are given. when it's time for heejin to give hers. "i'm jeon heejin, youths over flowers' gladiolus. like a sword, the very thing this delicate flower is named after, i'll make sure my passion pierces your heart." for the dramatic flair, she opens her fan adorned with the pattern of the very same flower as if it's second nature, raising it slightly to cover the lower half of her face, letting only her eyes and the bridge of her nose show as she bats her lashes prettily.

     as suwoong ends off their introductions with his own ( heejin can't help the way her eyes roll playfully, suppressing a grin ), they're quick to find their positions, fog rolling at their feet, and suddenly, the playful mood they'd originally brought to the stage is gone in favor of something more somber with the dimming of the lights, intense and alluring.

     heejin no longer smiles, her features instead schooled into something more along the lines of captivating, eyes dark to match the mood as the instrumentals begin, the flick of her wrist down with a certain grace, one she'd been sure to perfect as best as possible over the last week. they had to do this right, in sync with one another in order to achieve the polished effect it was meant to give off as if they were all single parts that made up a whole.

     moving positions as starts off the song, the lights becoming brighter once again, heejin makes sure to focus on the sharpness of her movements while also trying to keep a certain fluidity to her body— it's an odd balance to try and find right from the start, but she does her best, sinking to her knees along with the others slowly as suwoong is revealed and sings his own line.

     coming to the center, heejin commands her own attention, vocals smooth, warmth present as she starts the second half of the verse and delivers her lines with tempting charisma. her gaze is intense, holding focus from those watching her. she's glad her portion for this part of the dance isn't too distracting or overbearing on her body, allowing for her to perform it well while keeping her voice steady.

난 네게 취해 아득한 향기에 기대

     she's swift in her change of positions as suwoong comes to the center once more, moving back to where he'd previously been standing before making his way back to the front. her features stay consistent, this brief time of being hidden as they all form a line as suwoong and eric do their parts for the bridge letting heejin put a little more focus on keeping her moves as in sync as she can. arm fanning out as it should, the line eventually parting as the two move off to the side, heejin comes forward with an air of mystery and longing.

모든 숨소리가 너인 것만 같아

     as she finishes the pre-chorus, moving back into position with the rest of the group, the chorus begins, hyojins vocals taking control as they all dance in sync. when practicing, there had been no questioning heejins trouble with making sure she did the moves correctly, even once certain moves that had proved to be a bit too difficult had been changed in favor of something easier. while rhythm wasn't the issue, it was more of making sure they all timed their movements correctly. there was also the matter of making sure she looked strong, charismatic, as she moved her body, letting herself follow the beat well as the others did the same.

     moving forward for the second half of the chorus, she does so with intent, gaze dead center. she moves gracefully, certain points allowing her to do so, and her voice is strong as she delivers.

난 취해 좀 더 취해 이 꿈속에 빠져들고 싶어 넌 다가와서 내게만 스며들어

     the next time heejin is meant to sing wouldn't be showing up for a bit, and so, she chooses to do all she can when it comes to her facial expressions and dancing. with no longer needing to focus on making sure her voice sounds as good as always, she's free to move with a certain edge, and she's able to look out amongst the crowd and judges every now and then. whenever she does, she's sure her eyes a half-lidded, lips never wavering from their neutral position ( though, sometimes, she does let a sliver of a smirk cross her lips ), long hair adding to the illusion whenever it happened to fall over her face perfectly.

     it'd act like a curtain, and once the chorus arrives again and she steps forward to take over the second part to it, she runs her fingers through her hair with her free hand slowly, freeing her features and adding to her own appeal.

난 취해 좀 더 취해 이 꿈속에 빠져들고 싶어 넌 다가와서 내게만 스며들어

     as she finishes and the others take on their parts, it all comes back down to focus— making sure every step she takes is one without hesitation, making sure the aura she bleeds is one that fits the tone of the song, making sure that, even when she isn't in the center, she still demands some form of attention by the look in her eyes. it's all simply a buildup, unknown to the audience, and with each line sung, each part of the choreography taken care of, everything changes as the lights dim once more, just as they had been for the start of their performance. this time, however, unlike how tame everything had been, this dance break holds more power in it, demanding precision heejin normally wouldn't care to give.

     now, however, she performs it with great attention and vigor, hoping to capture it's beauty and intensity the best that she can.

     she can feel her heart racing, breaths labored, but she does her best to keep herself from letting them out through the mic. instead, as they finish the break and the lights flicker back to normal, she takes a deep breath during their brief moment of rest before she belts out a high note, layering over eric as he begins the first part of the final chorus. then, she steps in to deliver her last vocal lines.

가까워지는 넌 다시 또 마음에 피어나잖아

     as their performance comes to a close, the chorus ending and all of them striking their ending pose, their fans all flick in unison as the lights dim for a final time, marking the end of their time on stage. heejin takes a moment, letting herself catch her breath before she shows her face fully once more, a smile growing on her lips. as they give bows all around and are ushered off of the stage, she lets out one last sigh.

     all there was left to do now was wait for their verdict.

[rkiny]

     ˙ ˖♡ AUGUST EVALUATION ( 2019 )!             • • • performing suga sweet by faky w. @rksomi & @rkyerim!

                          ———————————————————————— ‧ ₊ ˚ ❪ ♡ ❫.

     there's something about being able to perform with a group that nayeon absolutely loves, multiple people working together with strong determination and the will to succeed providing to be driving forces. she's always been a people person, someone who loved to share ideas, collaborate whenever given the chance, and simply have a good time while doing something she enjoyed.

     evaluations for this month prove to fall in her favor, then, the moment she understands she can work with trainees outside of kt. don't get her wrong, she adored her fellow label trainees, bonds having strengthened and morphing into new, wonderful friendships ( something she was so grateful for ), but when one was made to work with the same people for months on end without a little variety, it was easy to fall into familiar patterns— it was easy to get comfortable and stop pushing yourself.

     after letting herself stay stuck in her mind up until she'd gotten signed, nayeon no longer wanted herself to stay stagnant. those days were over, and while she still might hold some of that familiar timidness deep in her eyes, she would no longer let it hold her back from trying new things. so, when she's approached by yerim, the prospect of working together for the month alongside another trainee named somi, the sweetest girl who nayeon immediately found herself adoring one their first meeting had happened, the oldest of the trio said yes in a heartbeat.

     aside from wanting something fresh, nayeon had missed the purple-haired girl ( it was not long after agreeing to their group that nayeon vows she'll never waste the opportunity to reach out to friends signed to other labels if the chance to work with one another ever presented itself ).

     nayeon silently comes to realize as they work together, japanese, and even some english in her case, rolling off the tongue tentatively in the hopes of doing their chosen song justice ( it was the perfect choice for them, if she was being honest, with a feeling that was light and pure fun. she was sure they'd ace it ), that as the oldest of the three, she needs to show she can be relied on— that, if there was any trouble in learning choreography, pronunciation, if vocal lines in general, she should be there to provide all the support and help she could. it's a role she takes to without fail, one she's used to in a different setting, but it comes easily as if it were second nature.

     for her, the ever nurturing soul she was, maybe it was second nature.

     it makes her happy, being able to help others, and receiving that very same help back in return from the younger two, their knowledge in english an incredible help in making sure not only her japanese lines were pronounced correctly, but her english was as well.

     by the time their set to showcase their performance for evaluations, nayeon feels like they're more than ready— aside from the efforts they'd taken to make sure their vocals would be good, their pronunciations well, they'd also taken the time to learn a simple choreography to go along with the song, something just as sweet as the music itself, and nayeon couldn't be any more proud of them.

     it's with animated smiles, fluid movements, and steady vocals that nayeon performs, her joy evident by the way her eyes seem to shine and cheeks flush with pink. she's happy, their positive attitudes shining through as they finish strongly, and it's all nayeon can do to stop herself from squeezing the life out of the two younger girls as she takes them both into a hug once they're done.

     "you two were great!" her voice is warm, a large smile on display, front teeth glowing under the lights. "now, let's celebrate!"

[rkheunji]

hide & seek / yerim and jihyo

hide and seek. a game so simple but the company managed to make it a little difficult and jihyo couldn't say she minded. there were worse people to be tied too and she was sure that they'd win. they were still preparing and being tied together. the staff member just finished with two of them and moved on. once there wasn't a third party hanging around, she grinned at yerim.

"that competitiveness can come out now." hers was at least. they didn't even get a prize, this was all suppose to be fun. "we have to come out on top." it was easy to see how she was a child. "you have my back right it? in it to win it."

[siyeonrk]

on my sleeve.

heart-to-heart with @rkyerim !!

( tw !! illness )

since siyeon returned last summer, she’s noticed a considerable shift in her grandmother’s state. what had once been a feeble, fragile elderly woman was now much more confident, much more comfortable in her own skin and in her daily life. her recent inability to do the things she had done all her life hadn’t changed; she still struggled to reach things in the cupboards and to stand long enough to cook a full feast for the two of them, but she didn’t worry about them anymore. she doesn’t seem distressed when she needs a hand getting her stiff bones to click into place when she rises from the sofa, nor when she doesn’t have the energy to go make herself a cup of coffee in the late afternoon, and the guilt of having to ask her busy daughter and son-in-law to get her groceries every week is long forgotten, too, because she has siyeon now. she has someone willing to bring her in a fresh, hot drink and ensure that her fridge is stocked with only the tastiest snacks. she doesn’t have to reach the top shelves anymore, because siyeon’s stored a stool under the sink for herself. 

but that doesn’t mean that it’s easy. seeing her grandmother, the woman who had raised her with so much energy, suffer at the hands of time is hard. she hates seeing her wince when she’s getting up, seeing her struggle to spend time with her friends sometimes. she wouldn’t ever step away, she couldn’t live with herself if she did, but it’s good to have someone to talk to every so often. 

“hey, sorry to... unload on you like this. I just... I’m starting to get overwhelmed, you know? I’m really worried about her and I don’t know what I can do to cheer her up. she had to miss out on a trip out with her friends a few days ago because she couldn’t stand up for long enough. it’s... really hard seeing her like that.” 

[rkseokwoo-blog]

— shop-a-holic

@rkyerim

Shopping might have been Seokwoo’s third or fourth favourite hobby, depending if people counted eating ice cream and cake as a hobby or not. After the announcement of the evaluation vacation, or as he was not calling the eval-cation, Seokwoo was more than hyped to buy a few new items and round out his wardrobe. It was rare he got any chance to have vacations when he was growing up, the absence of free time and money to take a trip anywhere like they were heading later in the month.

“So what’s on your list, Yerim?” He asked, turning his head to look at the female trainee as he closed the door to his car. There had been a back and forth on whether driving would be a good idea, but if they bought anything big -- he didn’t want to have the difficult task of transporting it home. Once training was over, he’d secured Yerim as a shopping partner, having pestered other trainees over whether they had everything, or if they needed anything.

Somehow he had ended up with a list of requests, more than someone wanting to come with. Thinking about that...

He began to dig through his pockets as he locked the car with the key, and glanced towards the towering mall they were about to head into. “Did you see where I put the list? The one with the stuff everyone wants?” His brow furrowing, already leaving his car behind.

[rkxeve]

new memories ;

@rkyerim

it’s always exciting to get new sphere trainees. it’s so fun to figure out the “hazing” for this round ( though, to be fair, the things they do are never actually mean or malicious -- hazing is more of a word that’s lost its original meaning for the trainees of sphere ) and to start seeing new faces around training. eve is usually front and center in figuring out hazings and approaching new trainees, but this time she doesn’t have much of an idea of what they decided on. silently she hopes that whatever they pick, it won’t mean that she and luna will have to adopt a new pet -- as much as she loves samuel already, she’s unsure if they’ll have time for another pet on top of him. 

she sees one of the new trainees in instrument lessons, and she spends the whole time trying to decide why the girl looks so familiar. eve is pretty sure she was on the latest mgas, though she didn’t make it far -- eve remembers that she wasn’t eliminated, so she wonders if the girl just left for personal reasons or what. either way, she figures the mgas are probably something the girl is sick of hearing about, especially if the memory isn’t as positive as eve’s memory of her own season, so when she approaches the girl at the end of lessons with a bright smile, she’s careful not to say anything about the show. “hi! you’re new, right? i’m eve, or sooyoung i guess. i go by eve mostly, though! do you wanna head down to lunch together?” she knows that she has a tendency to babble and be a bit too energetic when she’s excited, but it’s hard to help it -- she wants to be as welcoming towards the girl as possible. 

[rksakura]

kt flyer to @rkyerim ! ( 9 / ? )

sakura rarely saw yerim these days. a friendship that she once kept to heart ( and still does to this very day ) but cannot talk to her on a daily basis due to busy agendas and trails of the past. though, it seems that she’ll be seeing her more around the seocho building. “hey there!” she tries to put on a smile the best she can, even though it’s a forced one. “they have me sending out these flyers for some odd reason..” she’s folded the papers in triangular shapes as it’s easy to manage than stuffing her whole backpack with the full sheets. “would you like to take one?”

[rksaebom]

*flourishing.

chaeyoung looked around her new room, and her tummy filled with butterflies. she really couldn’t believe something like this was happening. it was like yerim was her fairy godmother or something. it was the first time she’d ever felt independence, and the first time she’s been away from her dad. she feels a tug in her chest when she thinks about it. had he always been this way? she shakes away the thoughts, focusing on the task at hand: decorating. 

the big furniture was already moved in and set where it needed to be, but now she needed to open all the boxes and start organizing everything. she sighed, using a box cutter to open up the first box and look at her things. it was gonna be a long day. 

she decided to put some music on so it wasn’t so quiet. ‘instagram’ by dean began softly playing into the room. she decided to change as well and pulled on a baggy t-shirt as well as some cotton shorts. it was a hot day and moving around so much to unpack was just gonna make it worse. after pulling her hair into a quick ponytail, she began unpacking the first box which contained all of her photography things. 

                                                                                        ( @rkyerim )

[rkxsoojin-blog]

Poor Unfortunate Soul

a starter for @rkyerim​

“Okay, but like...how long until you’re in hot pants shakin’ it on stage is what I wanna know?” Minkyung asks with a smirk, tapping her phone absentmindedly, managing to catch a king salmon, Yerim’s hair visible in her periphery as a smudge of purple. 

 She doesn’t really understand why the girl wanted to be an idol, thinking that she was just a little too...finicky, to be able to deal with all of the baloney she was certain to deal with; Yerim was the kind of girl who liked things her way. But Minkyung does think that Yerim would make a good idol from the outside perspective; she’s pretty in a cute sort of way, she has some rhythm, she was good at masking her cynicism behind a hairflip and an angelic smile when she wanted to. 

 “What was the contract like? Was it crazy or is that just once you like...debut, do they make you sign the crazy one?” she asks, looking up from Animal Crossing to Yerim’s precious little face with a snort, “You know I wanted to be a lawyer when I was in middle school? I thought that I could like...be an advocate and help people or whatever, from within the system.”

[rkmg]

rkyerim

{ ✉️⤑ minoodle 🍏}

› i miss you 

{ ✉️⤑ yerim 🍒 }

› i miss you, too › and jinsoul… and… freedom  › are you super busy? 

[rksaememories]

GIRLS LIKE US.

💌 @rkyerim

saerom was usually a pretty chill, okay person when it came to new people joining the company. in fact, she was usually pretty excited to have new people at sphere. she enjoyed meeting new trainees and seeing fresh faces around the company. made the days a bit brighter. but just this once, saerom is a little floored, perhaps dumbfounded when she sees the way choi yerim moves in their daily dance class. perhaps the right word is threatened. saerom feels threatened. for the first time in well, forever. and she doesn’t like the feeling. 

in the past, saerom wasn’t a singer or a dancer, she was just a dancer. but saerom knew that she had to work on skills other than her dancing if she wanted anything to become of herself in the idol world. so she picked up rapping and taught herself from scratch. the same went with her singing ability. although it wasn’t as good as her dancing or even her rapping, she still had a voice that was able to be trained and polished. now, she’s not so sure. having sat back and analysed the new addition to the company, saerom decides the only way she’s going to be able to truly scope out the competition is to get to know her. she’s not the enemy, she’s just a rival.

and a really pretty girl. ( ah, her gay is showing. )

“ah, yerim!” says one day after practice. it’s coming up on lunch time. now should be a good time to approach her. saerom’s just hopeful she doesn’t have anything planned. if she does, then she’s going to look really stupid. “it’s yerim, right?” saerom asks, tucking a strand of short hair behind her ear. she’s looking down at yerim, she must be in the 150s. she’s tiny to saerom, who stands at 170cm. “i didn’t get a chance to officially introduce myself earlier, i’m saerom.” she officially introduces herself. “call me sae though, if you want. um! i just wanted to see if you were doing anything for lunch. let me take you out, my shout?”

[rkheejin]

               ————————————————— ‧ ₊ ˚ ✧ ❪ UPDATES • • • GENERAL ❫.

‧ ₊ ˚ LIFE & PSYCH.

june, july and august were all rather inventful months for heejin— from starting and finishing the mgas, becoming a trainee under trc, ending her relationship with jaehyun after almost 7 months of dating, and starting her relationship yerim, there was never a moment where something wasn’t happening.

she liked the fast past nature of life, however, so despite how tiring it may have seemed ( as well as the added rollercoaster that was her emotions due to her relationships while still in competition ), she was as determined and strong-willed as ever, especially once she finally signed her contract.

moved out of her older sisters’ apartment after signing, partially because she wanted to live closer to the trc building, partially because her sisters' relationship with her boyfriend was getting serious and she didn’t want to be the third wheel anymore.

now shares an apartment with jinsoul ( @jinsoulrk​ ) and she loves it.

emotionally, heejin is very cut off at the moment, the reason being that yerim needed to leave her in order to go back home to chicago for personal reasons. deciding to break up shortly after yerim left because of how hard long-distance relationships can be, heejin has begun closing in on herself and pushing herself harder with her trainee responsibilities.

‧ ₊ ˚ TRAINEE LIFE.

was determined from her very first day give everything her all— fiercely determined to showcase her talents and make it known that she deserved to be there.

however, she was a bit hesitant and peeved at first with tiger jk being the one to sign her, only because he’d rejected her during a private audition back in april.

there’s also her bias towards royal and wanting them to sign her.

performed breakthrough for augusts evaluations ( this being her first eval ).

CURRENT DAYS AS A TRAINEE— 31.

CURRENT DEBUT POINTS— 13.

USUALLY AROUND— jinsoul ( @jinsoulrk ), sua ( @rksuas ), yujin ( @yujinrk ) or changmin ( @changminxrk​ ).

‧ ₊ ˚ RELATIONSHIPS.

hasn’t talked with jaehyun since they broke up on july 20th, more for his own sake than hers— changed his contact to something more formal and deleted all of their messages, but still has his number.

began dating yerim july 23rd after the younger confessed the week before. heejin had been incredibly confused on her feelings and sexuality but knew she wanted to be with yerim after a lot of self-reflection. while she was upset with her break up with jaehyun, she thought it to be the most obvious path since she didn’t want to drag his affections on any longer and seem like she was playing him.

with yerim leaving september 4th, heejin has been very down but refuses to show it outside of the privacy of her apartment. she doesn’t like people she doesn’t trust seeing her so vulnerable, so only a select people she’s close to really know just how upset she is. on the outside, fellow trainees most likely just take notice that she seems to be working much harder with their schedules ( it’s really just her trying to distract herself and not think about feelings she’s not ready to face. ).

that being said, heejin is single and emotionally uninterested.

‧ ₊ ˚ TRIVIA.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO— only you by zara larsson.

FOOD CRAVINGS— peaches.

CURRENT FASHION— as girly and feminine as ever, still encompassing a lot of soft pinks and whites, but now comfortable sweats and sneakers are a constant with all the time she spends training.

RELATIONSHIP STATUES— single & emotionally uninterested.

[rkiny]

˙ ˖✶ cooking by the book. ❜

( a rkcomcenter starter w. @rkyerim ).

     nayeon is in a great mood, head bopping gently to a silent beat as she reads over the instructions and takes inventory of ingredients set out for them to use ( she’s well aware that everything they need to complete the centers chosen dish for this class, kimbap, had been given to them— she just can’t help but want to double out of habit ). with a small nod confirmation, she smiles, rolling her sleeves up slightly as she turns to her purple haired companion.

     “ok, yerimmie— you ready?!” she puts an extra ounce of enthusiasm to her words, just enough to hopefully give the younger girl an energizing boost. nayeon had practically needed to drag her out today, and the older was determined for them to have a nice time. it’s what yerim deserved.

[rkheunji]

sister sister / yerim & jihyo

good things did come a little unexpectedly, first had been mark. jihyo had been beyond happy to see him again but this was even better. her sister was now a sphere trainee and that meant she could see her way more often. it helped, they were friends before, they found out about their father at the same time. well, jihyo knew about him but that meeting had ended in her shouting and leaving. she hated the man.

but she did love her sister and she made her mission to track her down today. she didn’t want to be too overbearing. so she waited and now that she was sure yerim was settled, she was off to find her. once she did, she threw her arms around yerim with a grin. “hey!” 

[yutark]

new instagram post !! —@yu_n

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never leave a girl with your phone for 5s, they always take a pic for no reason. lol. but i’m excited to show you guys what we’re working on. it’s a secret project (⌒.−)＝★ please anticipate yerim (@chyerim01), and please, yerim, don’t take any more pictures with my phone. i went to get a drink for 5s. smh next time i’ll find the worst one to uploadヽ(~～~ )ノ