#shes the same person i went to the frank iero concert with a few years back

[prehistorictriforce]

btw my friend got barricade for mcr the same night i went to see them and she got a setlist and ive never been more jealous of another person in my life. she peaked where i never could. 

[shining-chemicals]

It's funny how the music I listen to evolved.

When I was about 10 years old, I got my first mp3-player. It was quite old and often broken. The music that I could listen to, sounded bad because of rustlea and it got cut off often. I didn't care though, I was happy that my dad gave it to me (even though my mum was against it, but that's another story). I listened a lot with it. Mostly songs of a Flemish music program for kids. So only national music then.

A little time after that my parents found out that my mp3-player was of really bad quality, but I didn't want them to buy a phone, because I was happy, idk I was a strange kid. I was happy that I had some rusty music and I didn't need more I guess. It was around that time that I saw "The Lazy Song" from Bruno Mars on TV and I asked my dad to add the song on my player. He added the whole album and for a few months I only listened to that. It was one of my first encounters of the English language. Yay.

On my twelfth birthday, at the end of 6th grade, I got my first phone. It was a very cool one, 'cause it had a touchscreen and a yellow case. I always loved yellow. Still my favourite colour and yes I am a proud hufflepuff. Deal with that. Anyways, this phone gave me a new possibility, bacause now, I was able to search and download my own music. So I discovered some more music. Mainstreet (a Dutch band), MBAND (a Russian band), some single songs and music from movies and musicals. I really began listening to international music, and as I said before, it helped me evolve my english. That, and also Harry Potter (the first movies me and my sister watched with english audio and Dutch subtitles. Now we watch every series and movie with english subs and english audio. Yay).

Around 9th grade my phone broke. The buttons for sounds and the on/off button didn't work anymore. Well I got another one. With almost unlimited music download possibility. New music wave. Serguei Lazarev, Alexander Rybak, Kpop (yeah your heard that right my dear emo friends, and i can still read the Korean alphabet).

Actually Kpop gave me some good things. So I'm happy that I went through that phase. It was the final thing to make me a non-rascism person (i am ashamed of the fact that i was, indeed, rascist. I'm not anymore though. Thank God for that). Also, I got my taste of fashion there.

Then. The emo begins. It actually doesn't begin good. It has a story too. There was this girl, a friend of mine. Let's call her A. Well she had her own problems, not gonna get into that. She listened a lot to punk/hard-rock kinda things, didn't know back then. I always judged her for that (fuck past-self me). That's not important. She had a friend (let's call him S). She was in love with him, he wasn't with her. He was also a friend of my sister's. He was a huge fan of Twenty One Pilots. Anyways, this friend S told my sister about A's problems, and my sister told me. So I knew A's problems and I knew that S told my sister, even though he was supposed to keep it secret. I did the stupidest thing by telling a good friend of mine (let's call her E) about it. I asked E not to tell A, because it would only make things worse. She told A. Still mad at her for that. Everyone found out, it was a huge mess, I hurt myself, started crying and hating myself (hasn't stopped), etc. I knew I needed help. And then I remembered about that guy S, who was a fan of tøp. I started listening to it. I fucking loved it. With whole my heart. The whole summer of '18 was a tøp-summer. It was also with the start of Trench. I was really happy. I still am. I wonder what I would be if I hadn't decided to listen to them. Fucked up probably. I still am, but I try to become better. Anyways. I went to their concert in March too. Magical night. Tøp teached me to think about what you feel.

Through Twenty One Pilots memes and all I heard a lot about the other bands of the emo quartet. A lot of a certain "Gerard Way" too. Also "Frank Iero". Well I posted a post on my tøp blog (if anyone's interested it's @trenchil ). I got to know this perfect girl @fangirling-account . She told me everything about mcr. Everything. (And I can't thank you enough for it, dear) I love mcr. I love them so much, but I guess you know that, based on my little blog here. Mcr teached me to accept myself and not trying to be someone I'm not.

I plan on getting into other bands too. Green Day, p!atd, fob, ya know.

Also, when I get into something, I mean getting slurped up in the tornado of songs, inside jokes, memes and feelings. The whole damn package. Sometimes it hurts, but I love doing it. It's called obsessing and I love it.

The thing I enjoy about music nowadays too, i the fandom. You get to share your experience with the world, there are other people who get you, there are people you can have a discussion with. People who have the same interests of hands (looking at you @areebbbb).

Anyways music kinda saved me.

[welcometoneptune-blog1]

my mental condition causes weird-ass dreaming conditions.

(Sorry for the format, I'm on mobile.)

So, a bit of backround on this condition. It's really two different things melded into one. Maladaptive Daydreamer Syndrome and Derealism & Depersonalisation. Maladaptive Daydreaming Syndrome, or MDS causes me to have extremely vivid, realistic daydreams and to have no control over my daydreams, but lucid dream at night. So it's kind of switched, I can't control what I do in my dreams when I'm conscious, but I can when I'm not. It makes it so I cannot stop myself from daydreaming. I'll do it at random times, even during a conversation, while I'm reading a book, watching a movie, in class, even while I'm doing something that requires my full attention, I'll somehow daydream. Like I said, I can carry out a full conversation without knowing a single word I said to you, or even that we spoke. I've gotten through multiple class periods without once leaving my daydream. (This is why I'm leaving school and doing online schooling) MDS also makes it so I remeber Dreams/Daydreams from the beggining of when I developed it (4 years ago) to now, I follow the same dream path, or plot, for a while. Like a story! I follow the same story line for a while until my experiences/surroundings/books I'm reading/music I'm listening to change. That sort of introduces Derealism and Depersonalisation (D&D) (haha) come in. Derealism causes me to feel like I'm constantly in a dream or a daydream, even if I'm not. Lights are weird, I can't remember five minutes ago, my surroundings are super whacked up, so is my vision. I can't ground myself, I can be sitting in my bedroom and I won't recognize it. Depersonalisation is like that- but with myself and my body. I don't know who I am, I don't understand myself, I look in the mirror and just feel.. odd. Like I can't quite place where my nose is. It causes lots of mental breakdowns, anxiety attacks, and random crying. Like, I cannot control my tears. (Dodie Clark also suffers from D&D) Now.. Music. Music comes into play a lot. It helps me ground myself, feel something familiar. Like I said, a lot of my daydreams are centred around certain songs or genres or bands. I follow a dream path, or a story line, based of those songs and my own emotions. Members of a band may often slip into my dreams, and I found that I feel a personal connection with them because of the emotions they've already shared with me through their music. To my friends and family, it seems as though I'm obsessed with that band. But really, I'm just emotionally connected to them. It's a connection I absolutely cannot break.

Both these conditions help my depression and anxiety grow. All these things that fuck up my brain combined with an eating disorder and my body that gets seriously sick at least twice a month seriously screw stuff up for me. But my depression is weird. It's a different kind of depression than most people have explained to me that they feel. They explain it as a dark, looming cloud pressing them down. What I feel- and what others may experience as well - is the feeling that you have no control over yourself, that you are not you and no matter how hard you try, you will never fully understand who you are. Because you're so many people. You've lived so many lives, felt so many things, been so many genders, sexualities and ages and identified in so many different ways, lived in so many eras with so many people. You can't possibly know which one was the original you. (This slightly affects me in my beliefs. I believe in reincarnation and the possibility that I was once all of these things and knew all these people I've met in my head.) And of course, there's nostalgia.

Nostalgia for past you's. Past dreams, past realities. Realities you've moved on from. A song may trigger feelings you felt in that dream. For example, Nine In The Afternoon by Panic! At The Disco. This was my favorite song to dream to about all of second grade. I remember the dream was based loosely on the music video. Now, whenever I hear that song I can't help but feel extremely nostalgic.

Anyway, dreams and daydreams meld, making me forget what happened while I was conscious and what didn't. I follow the same dream path for as long as my brain feels there is more to happen.

My current dream began when I (unconsciously) dreamt my own fiery death, then returning as a ghost to my apartment, which also housed my sister (@ellie-thats-all-there-is), someone who wasn't quite but had the face, past, social relations, and career of Gerard Way, and multiple characters from passed dreams. The person who was Gerard Way but wasn't quite was my roomate, and we were close. Like siblings, or maybe parent and child. But we were not blood related. When I returned to my apartment, I found him passed out drunk on the floor. He responded aggressively to seeing me, angry, thinking his drunken brain was causing him to have hallucinations. He eventually passed out. After some time passed, he woke up, this time more sober. He was frightened, but I was able to calmly explain to him that I had appeared beside my grave, which I found salted and burned (for god's sake). I told him I had no idea how, but as time passed, I was able to do things only people with bodies could do, such as eat and sleep. Together, we came to the conclusion I was slowly coming back to life. We didn't know how, but something caused it.

Anyway, that's the overall plot, but many things happened, such as going to concerts with him, when summer ends being told I had to go to a new school with a new name, stuff like that.

But last I had another dream. One I woke up in tears from. It began on the school bus, but it was night. We were all dressed up. There was a dance at the school that we were headed to. The steps to the school were massive, grand, elagant. They dropped off at the sides, though, with no railing. It had to be at least 45 ft. of stairs. Remeber this for later. I climbed the steps to the dance hall, and inside found a dance partner. He was my sister's friend, I met him a few weeks ago at a hot spring. He's 3 years older than me. We danced, he was kind, and we spoke about school and my sisters. For some reason, I had the impression that he would propose to my sister. I was glad with that. I liked him. The moment shifted, I remember running into the bathroom, then out the doors of the dance hall. I suppose my extreme depression and thoughts of death caused me to do this, but I walked to the side of the stairs and jumped off. It was a gorey and grotesque suicide. And it stopped there, then repeated. I was on the bus again. I was given a second chance. People knew of my suicide. It must have been the night after or something, but we were back at the dance hall now. I chose not to dance with the boy from before. I found a girl from school, standing in the corner in the bathroom. We decided to ditch the party. We ran miles and miles, past the city, past everything we knew together. We came to an old house. Behind it was my place. A place I came many times before. It was a field, with thicks of trees along the edges and occasionally in the middle. It was a spacious field, went as far as the eye could see. Wild flowers, sunflowers, red berries, willow trees and long grass. At the back of the field was where a large hill, maybe the beggining of a mountain, started abrubtly. If you climbed a few sharp, jagged cliffs and rocks, which weren't too high, you'd come to a river, just below one if the cliffs. That was the cliff her and I sat on. We kicked our feet over the little river, which was more of a stream. On each side of the hill, or mountain, was an opening. Or- how do I explain this? The hill, which was quite tall, was not very wide. You could walk around it. The tress that outlined the field stopped just before the hill? making a path between the hill and the trees on both sides. You could follow that path, behind the the hill, and come to an even larger field. We never went back there that time, as we weren't looking for an adventure, which we knew that would be. There were psychics and witches and coyotes and all manner of things back there. And even though I was good friends with all of them, her and I just wanted to sit on our little cliff above the stream, or river, feeding each other strawberries, laughing, and kissing in the light of the sunset. It was peaceful. I haven't felt so happy in a while. This experience connects to the song She's The Prettiest Girl At the Party And She Can Prove It With a Solid Right Hook by Frank Iero and The Patience. Maybe today, in my daydreams, her and I will go behind the hill.

[thisisheffner]

Trace Cyrus confirms Metro Station reunion, new music in 2020

When Metro Station first started, they created a neon-emo music phenomena, gaining massive mainstream attention with their track “Shake It.” The infectious dance anthem made its debut on our iPod shuffle playlists in 2007, and we almost guarantee it’s still a song you revisit.

But Metro Station were more than studded belts, straightened bangs and skinny jeans. Since the band’s official breakup announcement in August 2017 and their final album, “Shake It” has remained a scene staple and a go-to sing-along at every Emo Night.

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Metro Station are certainly ready to shake things up again. AltPress exclusively chatted with Trace Cyrus on what’s next for the pair and why 2020 is the time for the band to reunite.

Metro Station have really been stirring some stuff up in the scene in the last couple of weeks.

TRACE CYRUS: Yeah, we randomly just got back together [and] started working on the music. That’s the reason I’m in Los Angeles now. I came to work with Mason [Musso] and just restart this Metro Station thing. I think a few years ago, I just got so burnt out on the touring side of music that I just wanted some time off and to get my personal life together. And now it’s just things like TikTok and Spotify and all these new things that didn’t exist before have made “Shake It” and Metro Station take off in a whole new way that we thought would never happen. It’s really, really cool, and it just inspired us to want to get back together and make new songs. Yeah, it’s nothing that we really planned. I just called up Mason one day and told him, “Let’s get the studio,” and now we’re working on it.

It’s no secret that everybody who’s in the music community knows and loves “Shake It.” It was wild because we’ve been noticing a lot of artists are returning or getting back together lately. 

You know,  I saw a couple of comments of people using that comparison. But we’re not getting back together because we’re seeing other bands trying it like that. We’ve just been inspired by the streams and how much love Metro Station are still getting after all this time. Like, I think “Shake It” got 26 million streams just on Spotify this past year.

That’s insane. You haven’t toured or released new music in over two years.

No, we have not at all. And we haven’t been promoting it in any way. Like, never pushing Spotify or any of these new apps that came out. It’s just our fanbase is still out there somewhere, and they’re searching for us. So we just want to give them what they want.

Do you think things such as Emo Night continuing to play “Shake It” is helping to keep scene music alive?

I think so. I think that Metro Station got to a point where things like “Shake It” became so popular for us that it almost became uncool that we were the guys that sang “Shake It,” because it became so mainstream. And then enough time has passed that this new generation of SoundCloud rappers have made emo cool again. It’s something that I thought was going to be made fun of forever for being this little emo scene kid and the younger generation has completely come back around and made what I was doing years ago completely relevant and cool again. And they all have respect for me for what I was doing back in 2007, 2008, 2009, because I was ahead of the curve then. So it’s just really cool.

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Have you ever had any new emo rappers or other artists hit you up to sample any Metro Station tracks?

We’re in the talks, [but] I don’t want to put any names out. We’re in talks [about doing] a rap feature right now for our first single. But I don’t want to say. But I think it’s gonna get people excited.

That’s super exciting to hear. So obviously, Metro Station are getting back together.

Actually, Mason just left. We were in the studio here in Calabasas, and we just finished our third song back together in the past week. So it’s been going really good.

When are you anticipating to start releasing new music?

The goal is for me to come back here after I get to spend the holidays with my family and then shoot our first music video and just put a single out to the world. Most likely be like, “Here’s our first song and video and then album on the way.”

That’s incredible.

It’s awesome because the chemistry me and Mason have in the studio has just always been there from the first day we met. You know, we went in the studio and made a song together when we were 17 years old. And I hadn’t seen or spoke to Mason in over two years. And I just came up to L.A. and, you know, within a few hours we had made a whole new song that we are so excited about that we feel I can make another stamp on the music industry. So when you have a chemistry like that with someone, it’s just awesome. When you get back in a room and you realize nothing changes.

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That’s awesome. What sound are you going after? Is it going to be what we know from Metro Station, or is it going to be completely new and adapted?

No, we’re trying to go back to our roots. It’s definitely that more upbeat dance vibe. With the last stuff we did when we got back together a few years ago, I feel like we were trying to experiment and do different things. We did a full acoustic project and just different things we typically wouldn’t do. I think we’re to the point where we just want to give the fans exactly what they want to get. It’s not about making songs that we want to hear or we like. I think as artists, we start to do that a lot of times [and] our opinion starts to mean more than what the fanbase or the rest of the world’s opinion is. And right now, we just want to give people what they want and really have those top 40 upbeat dance tracks that, you know, you can rock out to.

I did a little digging on your personal Instagram, and I noticed that over the last six months, you’ve been sharing old photos and talking about old tours and Myspace. Are you planning on changing your look to match that aesthetic?

No, those pictures are just fun to look back [on]. It’s funny, though, because my mom genuinely wants me to grow my hair back out like that, but she’s an ’80s rocker chick, you know? She still wishes that Mötley Crüe and Guns N’ Roses was around. What I did then, it was kind of my own twist on that because that was a lot of stuff I was inspired by growing up. Like, that’s what I feel like the scene kids were. We were taking a version of what was done in the ’80s and adding our own twist to it with a lot more tattoos and a little more crazy piercing stuff.

So yeah, that’s just that’s a part of my past, and I’m blonde now. My hair is short. I’m a completely different person. Like, it’s just funny to go back and post those pictures and look at it because shockingly, it was one of the most successful times of my career. But it’s something that I can’t help but look at and laugh, you know? It was me experimenting and finding myself as a man and getting to know myself. But somehow it just worked at that time in the place in the music industry. It was a fun time, though.

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It is fun to look back on it. It’s interesting. Metro Station were a massive band who were revolutionizing the emo scene style.

We were just young. You know, we wrote the first record when we were 17 years old. The album came out very shortly after that as soon as we turned 18. And I just think that people, they were also in their awkward phase and learning to be who they were, and they got to grow with us. And it was cool. We came out at a time where most of the bands I was touring with, I was younger than everybody. So I think that we just came out at such a young age, [so] we really connected to the young teenage generation. It was a really good time. And I think it was just cool, too, because it was so different from what anyone in my family was doing and what anyone would have really expected me to do. And I think that shock value of me being a Cyrus and being related to Miley and things like that, I think it surprised people. It really did. And I think just everything together just worked. I don’t know how it did, but it did. Like, I still look at the plaques on my wall of Metro Station and what we did, and it blows my mind at times because we didn’t have a game plan. We didn’t go to my parents for help asking what to do when it came to getting a manager or a record label. We just made songs, put them on Myspace, and because of Myspace, it changed the rest of our lives forever.

Yeah, absolutely. Without Myspace, do you think you’re gonna be able to reach your fanbase in the same way?

I don’t know. I think the blessing and curse about a song like “Shake It” is you always want to do better than that and beating that song or getting more plays or more sales or whatever it is. It’s something that we might not ever do again. And it’s something that I realized I need to stop obsessing over and [something] I’ve already left my mark with. I’m just trying to not obsess as much about always trying to do better than I did at that point in my life and realize that I might never have a hit that big, and that doesn’t matter, you know? I just want to make music, and the true fans that stick around and want to hear it—that’s great. And I truly believe that I can perform and play concerts for the rest of my life, even off the music I’ve already done.

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You said you’ve recorded a couple of songs together. When are you anticipating the first single to be released, and can you tell us anything about it? The title or what it sounds like?

I really don’t want to give it away. I think that this song that we just wrote is going to hit it home so perfectly with everything that’s going on in pop culture right now and what’s going on with the younger artists and stuff. And I think this song we’re about to do is really about to open a lot of ears and get a lot of people’s attention. That’s all I’m gonna say.

Fair enough. I know we’re all really excited to hear it.

We’re really excited. Like I said, the first song Mason and I did, as soon as he left and I got the mix, I played it hundreds of times, and I just got that feeling that I would get with old Metro Station songs and just them being so infectious, so you have to keep it and replay, replay, replay.

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How have your family and friends reacted to the new music?

I honestly haven’t played anybody anything. I’ve been in L.A. the past week, locked up in the studio, and other than some of our business people we work with, I haven’t played the music for any family or friends yet.

It’s kind of nice because you have a little secret, and it’s all yours right now with Mason.

Yeah, it’s cool. I feel like me and him are at a really good place. Unfortunately, we’re both 30 years old now, which sounds crazy, but wisdom truly does come with age. And when we get back together, we talk about the old days when we were 17, 18, 19 and just the drinking, the drugs, the party life…Our keyboardist Blake [Healy] was older than us at the time. He was like 25. And we met him, and we were like 17. And we were just saying yesterday, like, “If [only] we would have listened to him…” Because he was logical. He had his head on straight, and we were young, we were wild and we didn’t care about anything but having a good time. And, you know, once you grow up, you realize [things] about safety, money, and priorities. You realize being a rock star [and] being on top of the world doesn’t always last forever.

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