#shet ang ganda

[pasagip]

idk kung ano meron sa kantang to basta masarap syang pakinggan lalo na tuwing gabi like mga ganitong oras habang nagawa ka ng gusto mo gawin ganern pero feel ko maganda rin to pag nabyahe ka tas ganito kanta mo, oh diba heaven HAHAHAHAHAH

[the-slut-verses]

i think the mimic and the sad lonely dude it was mimicking in s2 e21 of incarnation read should have had just gay sex instead of,,, the real dude getting murdered and replaced

esp since he talked about how the mimic may possibly admire him and like his lil tics and quirks that's why it wanted to be him 🥺

[iruiji]

HSR but Pinoy reader

So ito ay loosely based sa NAPAKA CUTE NA ANIME: Campfire Cooking in Another World with My Absurd Skill 

TW: Puro mura 'to bhie, pag nagreklamo ka mamaya pagtapos mo magbasa tusukan ko ng tissue yang ilong mo :D

pano ka na isekai? 

so naglalaro ka ng star tail (dailies) bago maaksidente sa kusina.. nasabugan ka ng gas para deds na talaga- charot! nagluluto ka ateng tapos bigla nag apoy yung kalan tapos nausok tapos deds- de joke sumabog ka talaga kasama nung LPG HAHAHAH

taena ko no, mapanakit?

sino unang na meet? 

si Sampo, actually. like, hours before mo mameet mga trailblazer. so diba ikaw na isekai, tapos na discover mo na meron kang access sa online store - bumili ka agad ng warmer tapos kitchen utensils (shala wala nang isip-isip! matalino na tayong lahat pag na-isekai alam na natin gagawin agad HAHAHA) 

enter Sampo, "That smells delicious!" tapos syempre natili ka bebs, nagulat na OMG SI SAMPO NA WALA PA SYA SA ROSTER tapos syempre kalma lang ses, kasi di pwede sabihin na kilala mo sya 

so ayern, pinakain mo si Sampo, halos maiyak naman sya sa sarap, tapos nagkagulo sa labas kasi hinahabol si Sampo, hinila ka niya kasi ise-save ka nya, dun kayo nauwi sa ilalim ng snow (strong ka ses kaya di ka tinatablan masyado ng snow kunwari) 

meeting the gang gang

Caelus (CUTIE PATOOTIE OMG apaka inosente mo bhie sarap mong halikaaan) discovered you both under the snow, and then OMG INIWAN KA NI SAMPO GAGI AHHAHAHAHAHA. Halos lumuwa mata mo kasi SI DAN HENG! KRAS!! nasa harap mo OMFG (shet bhie ang sarap nya BWAHAHA). You explained na wala kang kinalaman ke Sampo, na kinidnap ka sa bahay niyo after nya kainin yung pinaghirapan mong lutuin 

so ayern medyo naawa naman si March 7th (amputi nya ses!) saka Caelus kasi you look lost, ateng, and seriously, anlayo ng hitsura mo sa mga tao ng Belobog, so naghinala agad si Dan Heng na hindi ka taga don, pero di muna niya sinabi (maya na, excited yarn? HAHA) 

so ayun dumating si (drool) PAPA GEPARD ANG GWAPO MO MARRY ME, ahem, dumating na nga si Pogi #4 para arestuhin your ass (hng, double fuck), tapos syempre nilabanan siya ng main cast WOOOOOO LIPAD PANTY! ay wait! HHHAHHAHAHHAHA kaluluwa kasi!! amp giatay 

tapos ayun pinaglaban nina March 7th na mga aliens sila (kasama ka dun lol), and si Gepard naman nPAKA DADDY MO SHET ayun dinala tayez kay cocogoat- este cocolia pala, tapos ayern syempre alam mo na may maligno na sumapi kay ateng so shatap ka na lang kasi dakila kang marites eh, baka ikapahamak mo pa pag nagdaldal ka lmao 

so ayun sa hotel inexplain mo sa kanila na na isekai ka lang dito and you have no idea how to get back or how the hell you've arrived here in the first place (with tears!! dapat bhie yung pang Oscars na may kasamang pag-wipe ng luha!) - and Dan Heng SHET PAKASALAN MO DIN AKO WOOF WOOF sinabi na may hunch na talaga sya nung una pa lang (GWAPO NA MATALINO PA SHET NAOL TALAGA TOTOO)

syempre kunwari di mo alam kung ano Astral Express so nagtanong ka, and SYEMPRE OMG TINANONG MO KUNG PWEDE KANG SUMAMA SA KANILA and your reason is, "I can cook!" BITCH YES YOU GRADUATED AS A CHEF WAG PAPATALO! PINALAKI TAYONG PALABAN NG SEXBOMB!! so ayun sinabi ni Dan Heng na tatanungin niya sina Himeko at Welt - to which you responded with, "Who?" LINSYAK, YES! TALINO MO BEH, WOO! Para di ka nila pag-isipan na may alam ka about sa kanila HAHAHHAHA naol advanced mag-isip 

naka skin white yarn?

So anyway, so eto na nga: Si Bronya (puta ang ganda nya sa personal??? girl??? naka etude house yarn?!), tapos ang cute ni Pela shet! What's not so cute though is yung hinahabol na nila kayo - and then ni-rescue ang gang, tapos na-meet mo din sina Oleg at Seele (shet maganda din?? wtf ateng??? buysit tong si hoyo kinukwestyon pagkababae ko). Anyways, kinaltukan mo si Sampo ng dalawa kasi ANG GWAPO MO DIN TANGINA KA DI AKO MANYAK PERO PAHIPO NAMAN NG SIDES MO BHIE AY WAIT- iniwan ka niya nung andun si GEPARD 

anyways, so ayern nga na discover niyo plano ng Wildfire and si Natasha (mommy??), nagpunta kayo sa abandonadong orphanage, then Seele and Bronya talked, bla bla bla, tapos nagpahinga ulit sa hotel underground – dun mo actually nalaman kay Dan Heng na OMG PUMAYAG SI HIMEKO AT WELT NA MAG-STAY KA SA ASTRAL EXPRESS AT THE MEANTIME OMGOMGOGOMG 

meeting kay Svarog – syempre napalaban ang ganggang (omg ang cute ni Clara!! Iuwi sana kita kaso lalasugin ako ni Svarog- ay wait, why not? AHHAHAHAHA kalma tayo ‘te! Juice-colored) ayun nasa tabi lang kayong dalawa until tumakbo sya dun sa robot para protektahan (aww. Pero kids don’t try this at home, tanging mga professional at mga batang walang tsinelas lang ang gumagawa neto.) 

so ayun excited kang natulog – then nung nagising ka nalaman niyo na si Bronya naglayas para kausapin si Cocolia and syempre sinundan niyo kasi syempre medyo friends na din kayo (kahit ang ginawa mo lang naman is titigan siya for like 35 minutes – ang ganda talaga syet bagay mag kpop idol – but I guess most of them are), na meet niyo si Serval ulit (shet bangganda din wtf?!) tapos ayun tinulungan niya kayo na makarating sa restricted zone and na-meet ulit si Papa Gepard ILANG BESES PA BA KONG LULUHOD BHIE, then boom! Gepard got his ass smacked by his sister (WHOOO FEMALE EMPOWERMENT LEZGO) 

anyways, BOOM SHAKALAKA, main fight with Cocolia 

asan ka? Andun sa likod, nanonood lang with popcorn na binili mo online HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA  

angagawen mo bhe?! Kusinera ka bhie omg, hindi ka hero! Ang cool ng laban- shet na malupet, tapos ayun na-skewer si Caelus like a sheesh kebab (HOLY PAAAAKKSHET!!!!) tapos BOOMMM came back with a flaming claymore and a vengeance 

*cue epic Wildfire battle song* 

the end pero nagsisimula pa lang talaga tayo mga bakla

ayun halos matapon popcorn mo kasi SHET NA MALUPET, kapag nag fe-flex muscles ni Dan Heng at Caelus naglalaway ka XDXDXD hoy bhie!!! Pulutin mo yang baba mo sa snow omg mag hunus-dili ka!!!! >.< 

anyways, after nun medyo naging melancholic atmosphere kasi namatay si Cocolia and nag-usap kung sasabihin ba totoo – medyo agree ka naman kay Bronya na itago muna, labas ka na kasi dun bhie eh. 

pero after naman nung sad na moment nayun, nag-offer kang magluto para sa kanilang lahat!!! 

this is before umakyat lahat ng taga underground sa taas – nagluto ka muna ng maraming dishes for everyone sa clinic ni Natasha and OMG halos maiyak mga tao kasi sobrang sarap ng luto mo lolol. Nibigyan mo si Natasha ng ilang recipe para in case na kelangan nila ng bagong ideas, lalo na at napaka limited ng ingredients dun. 

SI MARCH 7TH EXCITED KA NA IUWI KASI PEBORIT NA NIYA ADOBO LMAO 

medyo mangiyak-ngiyak ka bhie nung nagsi-iyakan mga taga underworld nung nakabalik na sila sa Admistrative District, shet, nakaka touch din yung speech ni Bronya (sniff ang laki na nya grabe parang kelan lang char HAHAHAHA) tapos andun ka sa table kasama sina March 7th, Caelus at Dan Heng tahimik na nanonood.  

medyo natahimik ka nung nakapasok ulit kayo sa Qliport Fort kasi na-realize mo na omg, this is fucking real, this isn’t a joke – and gusto mo mag curl up para umiyak pero strong ka bhie eh, kaya huminga ka lang ng malalim and blink your eyes rapidly para mag shoo yung nagbabadyang tubig sa mga mata mo 

anyways, so nag teleport na nga kayo sa Astral Express, and then you meet Himeko- 

TAPOS BHIE DUN KA BIGLANG NAIYAK KASI NAGLARO KA NG HONKAI IMPACT 3RD DATI AND NAG-UNINSTALL KA NUNG NAMATAY SI HIMEKO KASI SHE’S ONE OF YOUR FAVES- 

so ayern, medyo nag-panic sila kasi buysit nayan, ayaw tumigil ng iyak mo! Bhie! Calmdawg!!!   

after mo kumalma (shet and sarap i-hug ni Himeko apaka fair skin) tinawag mo syang Ate kasi di mo mapigilan – grabe bhie sobrang ganda nya rin!! And medyo oldie si Welt pero gagapangin pa din AHHAHAHAAHHA pagpasensyahan na po napaka-kalat ko 

you told them your story (while minding the consistency para di sila masyadong maghinala), and very kind sila pati si pompom, naintindihan nila pinagdadaanan mo, so since walang available na kwarto in the meantime, pina stay ka muna sa kwarto ni March 7th while Caelus stays sa kwarto ni Dan Heng 

next morning, nagluto kang breakfast and gustong-gusto nina Himeko at Welt yung Sinigang mo! (LMAO HINDI TO TYPO, YES SINIGANG HINDI SINANGAG SA BREAKFAST) Medyo ayaw kasi ni March saka Caelus nun eh, while si Dan Heng naman yung tipo na basta safe kainin, la sya pake (pero hindi sya mahilig sa maanghang) 

anyways, OMG DUMATING SI KAFKA – cue the jawdrop coz HOLY SMOKING PATOOTIE, MILF ang datingan niya omigosh!! tapos ayun si Himeko tinago ka agad niya sa likod niya, and ikaw naman nung sumilip nag-meet agad mata mo kay Kafka so nakita mo na medyo nagulat sya – huh, so di ka nakwento ni Elio sa kanya? (ay friends kayo te? di mo naman ako ininform HAHAHA) Si Pompom naman hinila mo na rin sa likod mo kasi medyo nanginginig sya and you hugged him to calm him down 

kagaya nung sa storyline, kinumbinsi sila ni Kafka na pumunta sila sa Xianzhou Luofu dahil dun sa Stellaron, and bla bla bla, honestly di ka masyadong nakinig kasi alam mo na yun eh, mas tinitingnan mo yung payong nya, actually – nasa umuulan kaya syang lugar habang naka live, or aesthetic lang? 

“And who is this cutie, hm?” 

OH SHIT you yelped when KAFKA SUDDENLY POPPED UP IN FRONT OF YOU OMG LOL 

“Uh-“ quick! say something cool!! “I cook?” 

DA FUCK BHE GINAGAWA MO?! HAHAHAHA SHUNGA!!!  

natawa lang sayo si Kafka, shet! pero medyo natakot ka, kasi parang iba yung tingin niya like kinakabisado nya hitsura mo, so nagtago ka lalo sa likod ni Himeko hanggang sa umalis na si Kafka 

phew! that woman is officially bad for your heart!! 

anyways, habang nag-uusap silang lahat sa cabin about sa next plan, ikaw naman nag decide na ilabas na lang sa luto yung kaba and jitters mo. then after lunch sinabi ni Pompom na magsiupo na dahil mag wa-warp na kayo sa Xianzhou Luofu 

to be continued ang kabaliwan bhie!!!! 

HAPPY NEW YEAR MGA HANGAL KAUSAPIN NIYO KO SAMAHAN NIYO KO SA KABALIWAN KO BAGO KO PA LAWAYAN SI PAPA JING YUAN, BLADE AT IMBIBITOR LUNAE!!!!! ANAKAN NIYO KO PLS

[kairiscorner]

PART 2 PO SA TEENMIGGYxREADER NA ENEMIES TO LOVERS?????? HAVE A GREAT DAY PO 🫶

HI PO 🫶🫶🫶 ok so i wanna spare you from the angsty outcome ate @binibinileonara and i discussed, BUT HERE'S SOME HAPPY ONES FOR YOU q(≧▽≦q)

when you two met in the first quarter of the ninth grade, naging kaklase kayo. ansaya.

you never really forgot the stunt he pulled in grade 8, it kinda stuck with you as terrible memories, but what overwhelmed you wasn't a boy who hated you or had bad intentions, it was, surprisingly, a boy who wanted to make it right with you.

he was a completely different person when you met him then, and it really creeped you out how weirdly nice he was being. like whenever he'd see you, he'd tell you to have a good morning/afternoon, and he was... always grinning at you. it freaked you out a lot.

ok he found out that, if you broke up with your partner from the first part over the summer... he'd actually be quite sad, not for his sake, of course, because ykyk, but rather for your sake because he felt bad that you couldn't catch a break from such awful things having to happen to you.

he, very guiltily, looked through your ig stories over the summer, and he accidentally liked one of them. he would, kind of routinely, look through your ig during the summer of the eighth grade after reflecting a lot about what he said to you and did to you. he really wanted to be better, he meant it, but he just had to see you.

the problem was, even if you two lived close by, he couldn't bear to see you. he hated himself already for making you feel terrible, what more if you saw him just for him to satiate his emotions?

well after he liked your story by accident, he... couldn't find your account. gee, i wonder why.

he was ecstatic to see you on the first day, but when his friends and your friends realized he was being overly nice and sweet to you... they figured something was up.

your friends took you away from him and his friends took him away from you. they didn't know anything about him wanting to redeem himself, so they just made his job harder. but now that you two were classmates, he'd use every, and i mean every, opportunity to make it up to you.

he grew over the summer, was so much taller than in seventh grade. but he never made fun of you for anything, none of your insecurities or lack of anything, in fact, he complimented you a lot from then on.

"ah, bagong gupit? ang, uh, ang cute. shet, cute talaga?" "ano yan? new phone case? ay wow, nice." "bagong... salamin? grabe, ang ganda, pramis."

HE SOUNDED LIKE SUCH A TRYHARD TO PLEASE YOU I CAN'T

when you needed to carry heavy stuff into the classroom, he'd scoop it up for you. if you were carrying your bag, he'd do it for you--and in case you thought he stole anything or put something in there, he'd empty all his pockets, take off his shoes, everything.

he'd never do anything to hurt you, at least, not anymore. he realized his feelings meant different things, he never meant to make you feel like crap, he wanted to make you happy, he just never thought of how to do it.

and that's when he learned from you one day when you confronted him about his intentions with you that you weren't seeing that person you were dating in the eighth grade. you were single.

"shit. ano tong nararamdaman ko. bakit. tumitibok. puso. ko. tang. inang. yan."

a/n: LINTIK NA PAG-IBIGGGGG

tags !! @thecoolerdor @binibinileonara @q2ie

[nyctoaerah]

TANGINA GIRL ANG GANDA NG MGA ANO MO, UNG STORIES MO😭😭 LIKE GIRL ANG GANDA NG ENDGAME LIKE WHAT? LIKE ANG TAGAL MAG HANAP NG YAN ROR FICS NA GOOD ABD THIS ONE THE CAKE BRO - 🤍💗 (also can I be white heart anon 🥹🤍🤍?

HOY PUTANGINA NA JUMPSCARE AKO DON SA ROR PWRT😭😭😭 di ko alam na may nagbabasa pala ng ror ano ko dito sa tumblr💀💀💀 AKDKSZH, WTF, di ko talaga magets kung ano nagugustuhan nyo sa endgame (no offense) pero ayaw talaga namin ng co-author ko kasi na ccringe kami parehas dun huhu😭 PERO THANKYOUU! I’M GLAD THAT YOU LIKE IT KAHIT ANG SHITTY NG WRITING DON🫶🏻🥹

YAN FICS ROR NA MAGANDA BA KAMO? HAAHHAHAHA, GAGS DAMI KONG ALAM. BIGYAN KITA NG ANO, RECS.

Our little sun, (not explicitly stated that it’s a yandere book pero it’s giving yan vibes) Marionette (same dito pero maganda sya) Head Over Heels, (DEFINITELY MY FAV OF ALL YAN!ROR BOOKS THAT I’VE READ<333)Monomania (discontinued to pero maganda talaga sya, nakakatawa mc HAHHAA) tsaka Little Darling.

Check out my wifey @maruuyume ! Maganda sya mag write and apaka ganda ng stories nya, you’ll enjoy it promise, s’ya yung author ng our little sun, ocean deep, and marionette<3 https://www.quotev.com/MaruuYume

IDK IF U LIKE CROSSOVERS, BUT IF YOU DO, THEN GO FOR Arsenic Blues, it’s a pjo x ror ff! It’s really good! Another ror x pjo din na maganda is ocean deep!

SHET, AG YAP NANAMAN AKO HAHAHHA TANGINA NERD TALAGA PAGDATING SA MGA INTEREST E😭😭 pero ofcourse babes, you can be 🤍 anon!🫶🏻🫶🏻 Mwah mwah, thanks for your support!!

[magomo]

Not Harry Potter-related post. This will be in the Filipino-English with lots of modern slangs. It may not be legible to my friends/ moots here 😆

MARIA CLARA AT IBARRA

My own take on this fantastic series, especially on Fidel’s character. “Maria Clara at Ibarra” is a teleserye or a tv series in the Philippines based of Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo, two novels of our national hero, Dr. Jose Rizal. It’s about a Gen-Z Filipina being isekaid to the world of the novel. This may be a long post. Cuz I’m just gonna be ranting about my theories and my thoughts

I initially did not watch the first few weeks of Maria Clara at Ibarra properly. I watched it syempre pero kapag yung scenes are parang pinupush together si Klay and Ibarra, di ko pinapanood. It did not sit well with me. Ibarra was known to be faithful and for him to fall for another girl named Maria Clara was such a major OOC and I didn't like it. So sabi ko since di ko bet di ako manunuod coz I don't like talking bad about actors who are actually good at their jobs.

But then! Turns out that was just Klay's kalandian era. Buti na lang nagbalik loob ako. Sinabihan ako ng kapatid ko na lalabas na character ni Sisa and that got my attention! Sisa has always been a character na madalas i-dogshow ng mga tao. Pag nasabihan ka ng "Si Sisa ka ba?", it meant "baliw ka ba?". But we knew there was so much more to her character. Anong nangyare sakanya? Bat siya nagkaganun? How is GMA going to execute Sisa's tragedy? Dami kong tanong. So ayun nanuod na ko ng maayos. And grabe!!! As in grabe! Andrea Torres! Yung chills! Potek grabe yung chills ko sa mga eksena mo mamsh! Literal chills tapos naiiyak ako kase shet! Ang galing mo Ms Andrea Torres! Yung pagportray niya as Sisa was seriously superb. Sisa was more than a baliw! Pinakita nya na people who suffered so much in life, kahit gaano sila kalakas, masisiraan talaga ng ulo. Lalo na nung may mga vultures and nakita niya remains ni Crispin. Grabe yung iyak ko. Sa totoo lang I can't even explain it well. Nagwoword vomit na lang ako kase honestly speechless talaga ko. All I know is ang galing galing ni Andrea Torres.

And then there was Fidel. The greatest mystery of the MCI Universe. Trailer pa lang sabi ko sino role ni David Licauco (bebe quoh)? Eh crush na crush ko pa naman si David since Mr Chinatown (lande mo gagu). So that got me thinking. And I think lahat naman tayo. There was no Fidel in the books. So sino ba siya? Nahook tayo sa character niya kasi wala nga siya sa books. He got us watching kasi gusto natin siya makilala. We want to know who he is, what he is like, what his role is. And honestly speaking, the mystery of Fidel's character was actually the basis and the heart of many theories sa MCI. Nagresearch pa ko, pero wala talagang Fidel. Akala ko nga nung una original character din si Fidel. Like, his character was made up to compensate Klay's lack of romantic partner. Kase I was sure na hindi bibigyan ng ibang leading lady si Ibarra, si Maria Clara (Julie Ann San Jose) lang tlaga. And nacurious na din ako paano magiging flow ng kwento kase nga andun na si Klay so may mababago at mababago talaga. Andun na din si Fidel, na wala naman sa book so pano ba makakaapekto yung role niya sa story. Because of that, nagpile up lang theories about sa story. And ganda lang ng effect nun, lalo na sa youth! They even bought physical copies of the book 😭 sobrang nakakaproud. They were curious too kung paano na magiging flow nung story. And because of the theories, it got all of us thinking. We were analyzing all of their actions, we were theorizing their characters, we were trying to predict ano na mangyayare. In a way, nadevelop yung research and investigative skills natin. What I really commend about MCI was that it remained unpredictable until the very end. Last night na ngayon and we still don't know kung ano mangyayare. It got us hyped from start to finish. Yung antics and quirks ni Klay makakarelate ka din. Tawang tawa ko sa shenanigans niya pati yung paggamit niya sa mga modern slangs. And yung FiLay!!! FiLay nation make some nooooise! Yung enemies to lovers samahan pa ng slowburn at belligerent sexual tension then mutual pining is *chef's kiss*. Anlaptrip ng bangayan nila, yung pang aasar nila sa isa't isa. Bardagulan era at its finest 😂 lagi silang highblood pero grabe yung kilig.

Ako naman my own theory was that Fidel was a minor character of the book but he was a Tabula Rasa, a blank slate. He was like the Daphne Greengrass of Harry Potter. Her name was mentioned pero yung story niya was blank. Kaya nga fanfiction writers are fond of her kasi she doesn't have her own story so writers make her stories on their own. I thought Fidel was like that. Ibarra and Maria Clara's story was already written from start to finish. Their stories were predetermined. Kaya nga kahit anong gawin ni Klay, namatay pa din sila because that was how their roles were written. The only difference was the way it happened. In Klay's version, Maria Clara died protecting her man. Clarita was also so much stronger here than in Rizal's version. Ibarra died, not alone, but surrounded by his friends. Also, both of them died in Klay's arms. Kaya siguro nag-hold on si Klay sa pagkabuhay ni Elias. He was supposed to die sa first book. He was proof na kaya ni Klay baguhin yung kwento. This was the case with Juli as well. Pero siguro, di talaga pwede for our main characters. Anyway, back to Fidel. As I've said he's a blank slate. His story was not predetermined kaya hawak niya yung destiny niya. He can choose what path to take without it interferring with the story. Feel ko nga kung sumama siya kay Klay sa modern world, the first time she went back, okay lang. The story would go on kahit umalis siya sa book. Pero may plothole. Unlike Daphne Greengrass na may pangalan at least, si Fidel wala talaga. I thought maybe iba name niya sa book. Pero I don't know kung sino. So kahit ako, I doubted my own theory. Inisip ko na lang baka totoo yung theory na galing siya sa real world. Basta para siyang si Haru of Extraordinary You (July Found by Chance). Diba nameless extra siya tapos biglang nagkaron ng role? Parang ganorn.

And what a plot twist! Ang ganda and ang galing! Naisip talaga yun ng writers. I wouldn't have thought about it. Pero shet napa-palakpak ako nung nalaman ko essence ng character niya and legit naluha ako. That was brilliantly written. Very fitting and mapapasabi ka ng "HOW COULD WE FORGET ABOUT THEM? THEY DESERVE TO BE RECOGNIZED TOO!"

In a way, tama din pala yung theory ko. Fidel was a minor character in the book na "hanggang dito" lang yung role. And iba nga yung name na ginamit! His role was too minor na yung palayaw niya lang or yung pinangkukutya sakanya, Albino, was used and not even his real name. His character had no notable scene nor significance as his role supposedly started and ended as “Crisostomo Ibarra’s playboy friend who used to attend the Seminary”. He was only in at least one scene and was only mentioned a few times. That was it. Pero dahil sa entrance ni Klay sa book, nagkaroon siya ng maayos na papel sa kwento. If it weren't for Klay, he was gonna remain the playboy he was and magiging boyfriend ni Victoria. Dapat yun na yun. But because of his arguments and confrontations with Klay, nagkaroon ng color yung character niya. His involvement with her gave depth to his character and a bigger role. Fidel was initially a misogynist, who hated Klay's straight-forwardness and her being too opinionated. Yung ugali ni Klay na di nagpapatalo infuriated him to the point na ang tawag niya kay Klay ay bruha ("witch"). However, due to her influence, narealize ni Fidel na napaka narrow-minded niya pala and there's more to Klay than the annoying palasagot Binibini na di mapigilan ang bibig. He found her kakaibang ugali, morals, and ideals to be intruiging. He was attracted to her just as much as he hated her. This was why he gravitated towards her. Ang ganda ng character development ni Fidel. He was just a privileged and entitled man na walang pakialam sa kahit ano prior to Klay but because of her influence, he actually saw kung ano pinaglalaban ni Klay and he did not only fall in love with her, but with the country as well.

*simping* I love him, your honor. 😍

Because of this development, Albino evolved from just being a side character, who was not even given the chance to use his own name, to being Fidel Delos Reyes y Maglipol, Ibarra’s best friend, Klay’s greatest love, and a symbol of the revolution. Because of Klay, the not-so-important side character Albino became the very significant main character Fidel. He became more than just a letter, more than just a word in a book. Because in the end, he was so much more. He was meant to be so much more. He symbolizes the unsung heroes of the revolution. Those who contributed a lot but remain unnamed to this day. THE WRITERS WERE WAVING THE HINT IN OUR FACES AND WE DID NOT KNOW ANY BETTER! He was "unnamed"! That was the clue! He was one of the unnamed heroes na madaming nagawa sa bayan pero they were never acknowledged.

Wag ka na iyak, bebe quoh 😢

Kaya nakakainis yung nagsabi na nalihis daw kwento ng MCI kase nagfocus na sa loveteam. Sinasabi pa na wala naman si Fidel sa book bat naging important bigla. I was like ???? what the hell are you saying? FiLay moments were literal crumbs! Crumbs! Fans were licking crumbs kase sobrang onti ng mga scenes nila together. We were thirsty for such moments! Akala siguro nila puro loveteam na lang kase di naman sila nanuod talaga. And maingay kase FiLay fans sa socmed. Puro fanedits lang naman napanood ng mga taong yun. They did not watch until the end kase ni hindi nila alam kung anong essence ng character ni Fidel! Kung gaano ka-deep yung significance and yung symbolism ng character nya. And galing ng move ng GMA na bandang ending na nireveal kung sino Fidel. It kept us on our toes, anticipating kung anong mangyayare, or kung sino yung may tamang theory. Yung pagbuild ng character niya was slow, which was a good thing. He was unlikeable nung simula. He deserved that slap from Klay! Dasurv mo yun Fidel, dapat nga isa pa eh! Even as he was falling for Klay, he was still prejudiced. Madami pa din backhanded comments from him (that “langit ako at ikaw ay lupa” will always be gold lmao). Pero yun yung kagandahan dun. Unti unti nating nakita yung pagbabago sakanya. And ang natural pa ng execution. Hindi yung porke nainlove eh bigla na lang nag 180 degree turn yung ugali. He was not like that. Kasi in real life, hindi naman talaga bigla nagbabago ang isang tao. The process was slow pero nung namulat na si Fidel, he became a key member of the revolution. ("Ang namulat, hindi na pipikit" *ehem* sorry not sorry *ehem*). Also, Fidel's character saved Klay's character from almost becoming Ibarra's "kabit". We don't tolerate third party in this community. Yung pain ni Maria Clara nung akala niya na kerida ni Ibarra si Klay. If you have been cheated on or kahit hindi but your partner made you doubt your relationship, magegets niyo si Maria Clara. She had to stop herself from seeing Ibarra kase that was what was proper that time while Klay was kasakasama niya sa bahay and kahit saan man. She was the fiancée and napaka unfair nun sakanya. Buti na lang, the magkatukayo were given the chance to become best friends to the point na sobrang minahal ni Klay si Clarita and that was ultimately the very reason why she decided to go back to the book, to save her.

Anyway, eto muna for now. Babu!

SAME DAY EDIT!

TANGINA! TANGINAAAAA! ANG GANDA NG ENDING SHEEEET

Mr Torres is a book keeper/traveler. And was that Ate Helana I saw? Another minor character in the book, with Mr Torres, in the real world, most probably with memories. AND FIDEL!!!! BEBE QUOH 😭 May pocket watch din siya! Does that mean book keeper din siya? Or maybe one of Mr Torres's alitaptaps or isa sa mga tao niya? Pero bakit sila Ibarra and Maria Clara walang memories? OMG Barry x Clarisse! MAY BABY PA!

Okay theory time! So my take here is siguro the minor characters in a story are the ones who are capable of book travel. Pero once nasa book na sila, in-character na. So nakakalimutan nila na taga real world pala sila. Kapag tapos na ang story saka lang nila maaalala na taga real world pala sila, and then either back to the real world sila or pupunta sila sa ibang story, kung saan may emergency at need ng intervention ng isang book keeper. And yung role ni Fidel, kung ano lang yung role ni Albino sa original novel, hanggang dun lang siguro siya supposedly and mawawala na siya dapat after niya mafulfill yung role niya. However, due to his interactions with Klay, napatagal siya sa book and mas lumaki yung papel niya sa kwento. For the main characters naman, I think they were never in the book to begin with. Kase diba sa books, there was never a mention of their physical descriptions. Nasa imagination natin yun. So siguro the main characters take on the image of real life people, preferrably yung malalapit lang pala satin. And whatever their role is, whether they survive or not, whether they have a happy ending or not, kelangan nila mafulfill yun or else the story won’t end. Kaya walang memories si Barry nor si Clarisse.

Another theory is maybe napili ni Mr Torres si Fidel na maging book keeper. Kase the last time they saw each other, nakikita na ni Fidel si Mr Torres eh dati hindi. And siguro may some kind of test. Siguro he has to prove himself pa as a book keeper bago siya makabalik kay Klay. I call dibs na galing siya sa Mga Ibong Mandaragit, a novel by Amado V. Hernandez. The novel acts as a sequel to Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo after all. Or baka siya yung dahilan ng emergency sa Mga Ibong Mandaragit lol.

So Fidel is not a counterpart. He is still himself. He is the same Fidel that Klay met and fell in love with with. The same Fidel we all fell in love with. Our Pambansang Ginoo. Hanggang dulo ang ganda ng plot twist! Literal goosbumps! Figuras Cabalisticas now makes sense. Pero di ko na i-eexplain dito kasi the subject is too complicated and mahirap ipaliwanag without my usual word vomit. And magiging mahaba na tong post masyado haha.

AND GRABEEE! MGA KA-SAKLAY! WE WON! FiLay ENDGAME! NAHANAP NA NI FIDEL SI KLAY! WALA NANG BABU! 😭 And alam niyo yung maganda sa ending? There were no words exchanged. They were just looking at each other and smiling. Kase di na kailangan pa ng mga salita. Antagal nilang hinintay ang isa't isa. 13 + 7 years kay Fidel jusko talk about faithfulness! Dude the longing! The yearning! Pano niyo kinaya grabe. They finally found each other and this time, there will be no more goodbyes. They have a long life ahead of them.

What a journey! Kudos to GMA! To all the actors and staff! You all did very well! Salute to Dr. Jose Rizal. Isang pagpupugay sayo. 🙇🏻‍♀️ Tanda ko nag cutting class pa kami sa Rizal class namin back in college as we didn't see the relevance of the subject sa Civil Engineering, just like how Klay didn't see its relevance to Nursing. Sorry po 😞. Pero kung i-isekai niyo ko, dun din sa may Fidel plith thank you pows huhu.

I will not stop raving about this series. Ending na pero pinag iisip pa din tayo. Andami pa ding ireresearch. Dami pang theories. And that's the reason kaya ako magrerewatch at magbibinge watch neto from the start! WALANG MAGPAPAHINGA SA FANDOM NA TO!

YAKAPIN ANG KULAY! MABUHAY ANG PILIPINAS! MABUHAY ANG MGA ANAK NG BAYAN!

I'm going to miss everyone so much 😭 8pm weekdays will never be same again

[akonaman]

SOMO X TAGS

Sa sobrang stress ko napa gala na naman ako ng wala sa oras. Masama loob ko sa mga nangyayari sa paligid ko but i decided to not care at all. Gagi yung mga meetings inooverthink ko talaga siya ng isang buwan na, wala na kong peace of mind at all pero i think "medyo kaya ko na siya imanage". The subtle art of not giving a fuck baby! Lykkkkk eh ano kung tanggaling niyo ko? Chos. I know i need this job, but i only have this one life, bakit ko sasayangin?

Habang nasa SOMO, di ko din alam bakit yung chicharong bulaklak binili ko, ayun 3 days na kong may Lbm haha. Ang ganda ng pink skies sa hapon sayang lang kase pagod na ko at di ko na naabutan yung banda. Rinig ko lang yung boses ng nakanta from afar pero mapapa shet ka talaga. Swabe non koya!

Kinabukasan sa tagaytay naman sa kainitan ng araw di ko rin alam bakit sa skyranch. Alam ko naman sa sarili ko na di ako nag eenjoy dun pero iba kase yung ingay ng mga tao dun. Feeling ko at home ako. So wala naman akong natutunan sa mga gala ko pero medyo nabawasan yung mga iniisip ko.

After that reality hits, life sucks but who cares? Pero deep inside im dying.

[walaumalistulog]

Binisita ko ang kaibigan ko today sa kabubukas na meryendahan sa tapat ng milktea cafe ng mama niya. Napapansin nila na napapadalas ang pagdalaw ko. Well, natutuwa sila at laging puno ng halakhak ang bawat mga kwentuhan. Sana naman umorder ka na ngayon. Oo, Tita, o-order ako ngayon. Well, Friday, so I decided na mag-milktea. Ang tagal ko nang hindi umiinom ng milktea dahil nagsimula akong maging conscious sa blood sugar level ko simula nung isang taon dahil sa pasyente kong nagkaroon ng impeksyon ang paa mula sa sugat na hindi na gumagaling. Ending, pina-amputate. Ayoko nga! Takot kong sinasabi sa isip ko kapag naalala ko ‘yon. Well, nasa lahi na kasi namin ang jabetis. Ito na yata ang ilan sa mga inheritance na natanggap ko mula sa mga magulang ko. Sa lahat ng mamanahin, talagang sakit pa ang namana ko! 

Habang nagba-browse ng mga flavors, may dumating na bata na nanghihingi ng barya. Feeling generous ako, sabi ko, ilibre na lang kita. Kita ko sa mata ng anim na taong gulang ang sudden boost of bliss, kitang-kita sa mukha, na mukhang ngayon lang makakatikim ng milktea. Binilhan ko na rin ng french fries. Ang bilis naubos ng bata ang milktea, parang nangalahati na agad, wala pang ilang minuto. Ang bilis mo naman uminom! Bati ko. Ngumiti lang sa akin, nahiya na natatawa, kaya itinigil ang patuloy na pag-inom ng milktea. Sabay may dumating na bata, na mukhang mas bata. Apparently, kuya pala niya iyon. Ano ‘yang iniinom mo? Tanong ng mas nakatatandang kapatid. Well, kaya pala purposely niya kinalahati ay para sa kapatid niya. Napakabuting bata. Gusto ko rin sana bilhan pa ng isa pang milktea at fries ‘yung kapatid, pero naisip ko na mas malalim na nasaksihan ko walang kasakimang pagmamahalan ng magkapatid. Halos naluha ako sa nangyari kanina, hindi ko alam dahil sa tuwa, o dahil naiingit ako na buti pa sila may fries, samantalang ako ay wala. Ang saya pala makapagbigay ng maliit na bagay sa mga nagugutom. Kung tutuusin, pwede kong bigyan ng barya na lamang ang mga bata, pero mas gusto nila ang pagkain, dahil nabibingi na sila sa musika ng ganda ng mundo sa maingay na kalam ng kanilang mga sikmura.

Once in my life, na-feel ko na ako sa Vicky Morales sa Wish Ko Lang! sa GMA 7. Wihiiiishhh ko laaaanggg~~! Baka magtawag pa kayo ng kaibigan niyo, ha! Biro ko. Sabay nagpaalam umalis. Binilin ko sa mga bata na isama nila ako sa mga dasal nila ngayong gabi. Opo, sagot nila.

Pagkatapos ay nagtungo ako sa pinakamalapit na lotto outlet. Tumaya ako para sa 6/58 na may premyong higit isang daang milyon. Fucking shet! Ang sarap. Kumuha ako ng card, nanghula ng mga numero, hmmm… parang tatama itong 14! Saka itong 48… pati itong 27! Madalas na itong 16, eh… ay itong 59! Gago, walang 59! Kasabay ng panghuhula ko sa winning lotto combinations ay ang pangarap ko na sana, yumaman ako, para mas marami akong matulungan. At para makapunta na ako ng Machu Picchu. Ibinigay ko sa teller ‘yung ticket ko, ‘yung isa, lucky pick. Pagkatapos ay diretso ako pauwi.

Inilagay ko sa altar ang lotto ticket. Lord, baka naman! Ako naman, masyado nang mayayaman mga pulitiko sa bansang ‘to.

Pero what if, pasukin ko na lang ang mundo ng pulitika? Hamak na mas madali iyon. 

Pwede.

Napatingin ako sa tarpaulin ng isang pulitikong trapo na ang tsismis ay maraming patung-patong ng charges ng korapsyon.

Eww, nevermind!

[kimhortons]

saturday. 17/06

this week lang nag away kami ni J. halos 1 week kami di nag pansinan, bumalik siya ng Naga nung monday na magkaaway kami, parang ito yung worst but silent na away namin so far. kasi umiyak ako sa harap ng terminal non haha. tas kahapon lang kami nagkabati kasi umuwi siya, pero kung di siguro siya umuwi, until now di parin kami nag usap.

so ayun nga, halos 1 week kaming walang pansinan, walang message na kahit ano, hindi na siya nag uupdate sakin ngayon kahit mag kaaway kami. ang weird tuloy kasi recently napapanaginipan ko na naman nga si G. 2 consecutive days, siya yung nasa panaginip ko although nasa background si J nung 1st and 2nd, tapos ito lang na pinaka recent, like kanina pag gising ko naalala ko agad yung panaginip ko with G. tulad ng ginagawa namin noon nung kami pa na lagi kaming lumalabas at nag dedate, sa panaginip ko nag yatch pa kami, same old, princess treatment. feel na feel ko yung love niya sa panaginip ko, tapos nagising ako, naka yakap sakin si J.

nakwento ko na 'to sa bff ko, same kami ng pag analyze kung bakit ko napapanaginipan, baka kasi meron akong hinahanap na something kay J na nandun kay G. yung sa unang panaginip ko kasi, nagkasalubong daw kami accidentally, nagkamustahan then nag picture tas nakita ko raw sa myday ni G yung picture naming dalawa tas ang caption niya "ang ganda amp" something na ginagawa naman din ni J kapag nasabihan ko. ewan ko bat ganon sa panaginip e nung kami naman ni G noon, halos once in a bluemoon lang namin ipost ang isa't isa. hindi pa nga malalaman ng ibang tao na magjowa kami until mag break nalang kami e. haha.

sabi ko nga, parang merong nawala sakin simula nung nag break kami ni G na mas lalong hindi ko tuloy maibalik nung naging kami ni J. hindi ako sure kung hindi ko ba nagustuhan yung version ng sarili ko sa piling ni J, or namimiss ko lang ba talaga yung dating ako, kaya feeling ko namimiss ko rin si G?

normal ba na nafifeel ko 'to? ayaw ko ng nag aaway kami ni J kasi feeling ko malapit na lumayo yung loob ko sakanya. though pinag uusapan naman namin tuwing magkakabati kami, kaso minsan feeling ko paulit ulit nalang. natatakot ako na baka dumating nalang yung araw na bigla kong marealize na ayaw ko na pala talaga. tas meron pa akong happy crush sa work, na hindi naman kahawig o kamukha ni G pero shet, pareho sila ng kilos. huhu. tas the more na pinag kukwentohan namin nila Ericka, parang mas lalong nagiging real. pero good thing kasi di naman kami close nun. parang hindi dapat 'to nangyayari. huehue.

though okay naman na ulit kami ngayon ni J. feeling ko lang talaga merong nawawala saken na hinahanap ko at gusto ko talagang mabalik. hmm.

[sturmovik]

Gundam: The Witch from Mercury Ep. 2 impressions

[G-Witch episode 2 spoilers]

Shet ang ganda! There was no action at all this episode but I think it's better than Ep. 1. The emotional beats, the plot + character development, the art, worldbuilding, the voice performances. Woooo my god this anime has exceeded hype so far!

Poor bb Suletta can't catch a break. But alas, that is what it means to be a Gundam protagonist.  I love Miorine too, good subversion on the damsel/princess in distress trope imo; even if she's trapped in her father's corpo nightmare kingdom, she's asserting herself and trying everything she can to take back control of her life.

Oh, I also noticed that this timeline does have unmanned/AI-operated mobile suits like Gundam Wing. But unlike Wing's mobile dolls, which were super-efficient killing machines, the drone suits here seem to be more like fodder. But it's too early in the show to say for sure. 

Something to note about the red MS after the ED: it deployed what looked like its own Bits or "drones", perhaps its own GUND system that allows it to control autonomous weapons. My guess is that in providing Gundam Aerial (w/c uses illegal tech) an avenue to exist, the other corpos will start bringing out their illegal GUND tech using similar excuses/loopholes, kicking off an arms race and escalation of tensions.

Now I wanna talk about the worldbuilding since this episode we get to learn more about the world of the Gundam Ad Stella (AS) timeline. I really like it so far. I think it’s a vision of a future that could happen if people like Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos are allowed to run rampant in space. Just look at how they run their companies now; if they expand to outer space with similar impunity, they'll turn it into an authoritarian corporate dystopia just like AS Gundam.

The trend in recent Gundam AUs (like IBO and WfM) seems to be putting emphasis on powerful private institutions like corporations holding authority in outer space, rather than state actors like the Federation and Zeon in the UC*, and I think this is a reflection of how Gundam interprets our present-day trends and projects them into the future. Who are the loudest, most influential, and most capable (in terms of resources) advocates of space colonization and exploration today? It’s not world governments, but aggressive megacorporations who see opportunities to expand out to space in order to shape the kind of future they want for themselves. This latest Gundam presents a rather dark projection of that future, and I am interested in seeing how our protagonists will challenge the oppressive systems that hold it together.

*though even the UC has this angle, particularly with the massive earth-space corporation Anaheim Electronics, which from Zeta Gundam onwards holds what is essentially a monopoly on so many industries, mobile suits in particular, giving them power to start and end conflicts with impunity whenever they deem it profitable.

To end on a lighter note, oh my goodness LOOK AT THE ED! you don't draw Suletta and Miorine like that and not expect us to ship them!! (+ in the OP they were holding hands and smiling at each other aaaa) My heart cant take this they’re so cute!!!

Consider me 200% on the hype (and shipping) train for Witch from Mercury. See y’all next week.

[studiokwon]

tayo kapag alas-siyete ng gabi (7pm)

Alas-siyete ng umaga (7AM). Hindi ka pa nakakatulog nang maayos, hindi mo na rin maalala kung ilang oras mo lang napikit ang mga mata mo. Exam na naman.

Ni wala kang panahon para magsuklay o maghilamos dahil ang dami mo pang hahabulin... parang ang dami pang hindi naaaral. Pagod ka na hindi pa nagsisimula ang araw mo.

Sa kalagitnaan ay narinig mo na ang tunog ng doorbell  — food panda raw. Wala kang maalala na umorder ka pero sa sulat na nakalagay sa paper bag na may big breakfast meal at hot coffee ay alam mo na. Ayan na naman si mahal, walang kupas.

'Good morning, ganda. Kumain ka para may lakas ka. Wala kasi ako d’yan para ma-kiss ka. Char not char. Love you, mahal.’

Ngayon, nakangiti kang tinatapos ang ibang topics na kailangan mo pang aralin. 

Pero kinakabahan ka pa rin kaya bago ka umalis ay humugot ka ng lakas ng loob sakan'ya. Humingi ng pasensya dahil ngayon ka lang nakapagpasalamat sa pinadala niyang pagkain kanina. Muntik mo pa ngang makalimutan yung calculator mo kung hindi pa niya pinaalala. 

Ito na ang gyera. Mamaya na lang ulit, mahal.

Pagod.

Sa gitna ng ingay ng mga tanungan kung ano ang tamang sagot sa exam ay nagdire-diretso ka na lang. Tila bingi. Tila bulag sa mga kaklase mong nagpapaalam sa'yo. Tanging tango lamang ang kaya mong ibigay sa kanila.

Nag-aral ka naman, napuyat. Shet, hindi na nga ako natutulog. Parang hindi talaga sapat. Parang kahit anong aral—kulang. Isang exam na naman ang nagdaan na kinekwestyon mo kung para ka ba talaga sa program na 'to o sa unibersidad na 'to. Hay.

Alas-siyete na. Gusto mo na lang humiga, umiyak, matulog, at kalimutan yung exam kasi ano pa nga ba ang magagawa mo. Kainis. Para kang si Liza Soberano ngayong nakatitig sa kahabaan ng Sunken Garden. Ang lungkot.

Alas-siyete na. Sakto lang sa pagod na nararamdaman mo ang biglang pumulupot na braso sa katawan mo. Ang init ng yakap. Sobrang init na pati mata mo ay nadamay.

Hinehele ka ng mga bisig na nakayakap sa'yo. Sampung minuto, hinayaan ka lang niyang umiyak. Alam niyang pagod ka. Alam niya yung paghihirap mo. Alam niyang kakayanin mo ang mga susunod na araw kasi ikaw 'yan 'e.

Humiwalay ka at kinuha ang pagkakataon upang titigan ang kaninang nakayakap sa'yo—ang mga mata niya ay puno ng pag-aalala. Hindi mo napigilan na lumukot na naman ang mukha at tumulo ang mga luha. Parang sa bawat patak lumalabas lahat ng pagod at puyat.

Buntong-hininga, nakayakap siya ulit, "ang baby ko, inaway na naman ng accounting. Hindi natin bati 'yun, okay?"

Napatawa ka. Parang sira. Effective naman.

Inayos niya ang buhok mo sabay nakaw ng halik sa noo at tungki ng ilong mo.

"Kain na lang tayo? Area 2? Rodics?"

"May presentation ka bukas diba..."

"Kaya 'yun. Kasama naman kita. Ang importante sabay tayo."

Nauwi kayo sa Area 2 at kumain ng sizzling tapsilog na sinamahan pa ng mango graham shake. Hawak ang mga kamay mo ay nilakad niyo muli ang unibersidad bago ka niya ihatid sa dorm mo. Magkikita naman kayo bukas pero miss mo na siya agad. Siya na pumawi ng pagod at lungkot mo. Siya na okay lang maging pagod basta sa dulo ng araw ay sabay kayo ng tinatahak.

Buti mayroon kang Soonyoung.

Salamat at mayroon kang siya na sasabayan kang umiyak, tumawa, at maglakad tuwing alas-siyete na parang inyo ang gabi.

[pasagip]

✨🤌

[hashirun]

Shet ang ganda ng The Starless Sea, why didn't I start reading this sooner? Antagal na nito sa akin.

Anyway I spent pretty much the whole afternoon reading, dozing off, dreaming, waking up, and reading again. It's nice to escape reality like this, alternating between fiction, oblivion, and dream. Sana lagi na lang ganito ulit.

[jillianwarts]

hahahahahahahahaha bat di niya ko gusto? Ganda ganda ko, bait bait ko pa, sarap sarap ko pa magmahal HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA shet ako ba to gang mura kuha eh 😂😭😂 char lang sa ganda ganda

[taaaaangi]

Treasure Relay Tour Manila 2024

Sobrang bilis ng panahon, parang nung nakaraan kaka-announce lang na may Asia tour sila tapos bumili ako ng ticket before ako mag Taiwan tapos ngayon d-day na.

3pm na ko umalis ng bahay kasi hindi naman ako ma-freebies talaga and sobrang init. As a solo con goer, hawak ko yung oras ko, so tinantya ko na talaga na dapat pagdating ko ng MOA yung pipila na kami papasok ng Arena lol. Pagpasok ng Arena, sobrang surreal nung feeling kasi shet finally, after 1 year of being a fan makakanuod na ko ng con nila. Nakakatawa don bawat section may biglang sisigaw tapos pati mama ng mga members chineer din so ang saya hahaha Yung mama ni Hyunsuk and Junkyu nasa arena din kaya mas lalong nagwala ang lahat. 7pm sakto nagstart yung concert. Ang ganda ng stage jusko, may pafireworks sa loob. Nadala yung concert stage nila from Korea and Japan to PH kaya pala mahal yung ticket kasi ung stage nila bigatin din. And naiyak si anteh sa Orange talaga. Jusko, buti na lang talaga kalmado yung pag video ko sa Orange stage nila kahit naiyak na ko haha sobrang favorite ko talaga ang Orange tsaka Thank You. Yan yung mga kanta na gusto kong marinig ng live and nakakaiyak talaga. Nakakaproud ganon. Iba din yung energy nila pls. Parang ako yung napapagod sa ginagawa nila sa stage kasi talon kung talon ang mga bata. Ang ligalig talaga nila. Yung ghoster trio sobrang ligalig. First time ko din makita si Jeongwoo na ganon kahyper kasi most of the time medyo may pagka nonchalant siya pero sa concert talon siya ng talon, pareho sila ni Asahi na talon ng talon. Ano kaya yung naamoy nila sa NAIA at ganon sila naging hyper hahahaha charot. sobrang smiling face ni woobear nung con, kahit na seryoso dapat sila ngumingiti ang bata. Wala akong matinong fancam kay Asahi talaga kasi napaka ligalig talaga. Tapos puro tito dance pa ang bet niya hahaha pag may weird siyang ginagawa natatawa na lang ako kasi bakit ka ganyan, sahi??? lol pero ang cute lang. sobrang comfy talaga siguro niya sa crowd. Most awaited din ng lahat yung high note ni Hwannie sa RUN, diba sa PH, walang fanchant fanchant, as in kakantahin talaga buong kanta. During sa part ni Hwannie sa RUN, sis, tumigil lahat sa pagkanta, tumahimik ung buong arena tapos parang lahat nagpigil pa ng hininga habang nag hhigh note si hwannie, nakakatouch tapos after nung high note mabibingi ka sa sigawan. Hwannie, you are so loved. Sabi din nila na based sa reboot con in Korea and Japan, pag high note na ni hwan nappressure siya tapos tinatapik niya yung head niya ganon pero nung sa Manila con, sis nasayaw pa nga siya bago siya mag high note. Sobrang nag enjoy talaga siguro siya at hindi niya ramdam yung pressure. Isa din sa nilolook forward ko yung fan projects, akala ko talaga hindi siya magagawa kasi lahat busy sa mag video ganyan, yung Wonderland na white ocean na-achieved. yung PH flag colors na-achieved din. Yung call for encore na BOMB, na-achieved din. tapos ang nakakagulat yung biglang nagplay sa background ung Orange habang naka fan project mode kaming lahat, so as a bida bida kinanta na din namin yung Orange, basta goosebumps talaga kasi hindi yon planado. tapos akala pa namin hindi nakita ng Treasure yon, pero girl, habang kumakanta kami ng Orange, pinapanuod pala nila kami mula sa stage. Si Hyunsuk ni hindi na nagtago, nakatayo talaga siya don nanunuod. Grabe, Asahi. Thank you for your masterpiece. Queen Orange all the way. Hindi talaga ako sure kung wala ba talagang doubele encore sa Korea at Japan pero kasi kahit nung last Hello con, nag double encore sila tapos ngayon ulit sa Reboot nag double encore. For all stops na ba yon? or exclusive for PH lang? kasi jusko, pano ba yan. Mayabang nanaman kami nyan, char.

Anws, yun nga iba talaga ang energy ni Jeongwoo at Asahi dito. Yung smiling face talaga ni Jeongwoo all throughout the soundcheck and concert. Yung pagtalon talon niya, like parang sa lahat ng upbeat and party songs nila sobrang jumpy niya. Natawa nga ako sa isang tweet na video ni Jeongwoo na tumatalon, si bouncing baby boy daw hahaha pota. basta. aabangan ko mga fancams nila sa next stop talaga, i-ccompare ko talaga yan hahahaha nako, asahi at woobear panindigan niyo yang pagiging hyper niyo. Nagpa ayuda din si Jihoon ng abs pls. As in yung taas niya ng shirt kulang na lang hubarin na niya. SI Jaehyuk din nagpa abs. Ang alam ko talaga sa Move, pag concert performance hindi sila nagpapakita ng abs or hindi sila nag llift ng shirt talaga, sa mga special moments lang daw, so pano ba yan charot hahaha

Si Haruto, ang nonchalant during con haha ewan ko kung in character siya or masama ang pakiramdam pero ang nonchalant niya hahaha yung one moment ang hyper tapos maya maya magiging nonchalant nanaman hahaha pero isa siya sa sobrang active sa wv, nag post ng photos. tapos yung kumalat na vid nila ni yoshi sa pool na binatukan siya hahaha sis, tawang tawa ako hahaha may twitter talaga yan eh, alam niyang may video sila non, ni hindi niya daw alam na may nakakita sakanila non. Hindi kasi sila talaga inistalk ng fans. hindi kami saesang pls char. isa din si ruto sa nakapag gala talaga ng mapayapa sa Manila. Nakanuod pa nga ng basketball sa mall lol. Si Doyoung yung nag uupdate sayo kasi nag update siya sa wv na safely arrived na sila sa Manila hahaha. Si Jaehyuk, sobrang gwapo. as in, ang soft ng features and bagay na bagay yung blonde hair niya. Lahat ng lumalabas sa feed ko na photo niya mukha siyang anghel ganon.

Also, sobrang hawt ni Hyunsuk please. Sobrang bagay sakanya yung green hair. Parang hindi siya nilalagnat the day before the con kung magperform. Sobrang hyper din niya pls his genuine reactions sa mga fan projects na ginawa namin. Crowd controller talaga ng PH si Hyunsuk, yung sa second encore na, ang sabi niya talaga put down your phones tapos umangal lahat tapos napa sigaw siya ng cute " I said put down your phones" tapos girl, lahat sa VIP napatago talaga ng phone hahahaha takot sa commander. Si Jihoon naman puro tagalog ang binabanggit. May kodigo pa yan siya hahaha Ang cute din ni Junkyu and Doyoung. Sobrang iba yung glow nila, parang may mga ring light yung mukha ganon. Ang playful din ni Junkyu, panindigan mo yan Kyu hahaha. Si Yoshi naman sobrang AI ng itsura. Parang 5 days siyang hinulma ni Lord ganon. Kaya napagkakamalan na photoshop ung mga pictures eh. sobrang genuine din nung reaction niya nung after namin kumanta ng Stupid. Gulat ata siya kasi kabisado namin ung kanta hahahaha and sa POV nila sobrang lakas pala nung kanta kasi parang hindi siya malakas pero sa stage pala sobrang lakas, kaya pala nagulat sila sa sigawan nung ment nila.

Finally, si Asahi. Ang daming ganap ni Asahi this time kasi nagpost siya ng dump photos pagkadating nila dito. Nag comment siya sa 7 lucky fans sa weverse (once in a blue moon) that even the members nagulat. Sobrang hyper niya din talaga, forda talon talaga ang tito namin. tapos tito dance siya all the way. Yung pa zumba niya. ang dami nang steps. Nagkarate pa, namaril pa nga sa MMM hahaha. Nakakatawa yung before siya magpa zumba, nag stretching talaga siya. Alam niyang sasakit din katawan niya after hahaha pero di kami sinama sa stretching jusko. Officially talaga, si Asahi ang Zumba Instructor ng PH. As in, nag aabang lahat kung kelan gagawin yung zumba dance niya tapos teulight instructor din siya, siya sinusundan ng lahat sa pagbagsak ng teulight. Yung Thank You stage niya, alam kong natatawa na siya pinigilan niya lang kasi dapat seryoso siya hahahaha pero kasi habang nakanta siya, may timing pala don sa next lyrics pero kasi nga bida bida tayo kaya ayon inunahan namin siya kumanta tapos nangingiti na siya nung tinignan niya yung audience hahaha pigil tawa siya eh, napa smirk na lang ahaha basta ang dami daming happenings sa stage. sobrang chaotic nila and sobrang galing lang kasi 25 songs yon pero sobrang dami pa din nilang energy tapos live pa sila kumakanta. The best talaga. Iba talaga ang group sa YG pls.

PCD ERA!!!!!!

Pumasok akong si Asahi bias, lalabas pa din akong Asahi bias at Jeongwoo bias na. hahahhaa Woosahi talaga.

[andengdeng]

2:15 AM

Thu Apr 18 2024

Hi. Where do I start?

It’s been a while. Actually, hindi ko rin alam bakit ko ‘to ginagawa. Pero ewan. Bigla ko lang naisip mag Tumblr ngayong gabi, tapos nakita ko ‘yung old posts ko. Siguro gusto lang kitang i-update sa kung ano man ‘yung nangyayari sakin ngayon.

Parang wala. Right now, my life seems dull. Lumilipas ‘yung mga araw na wala akong halos nakakausap. Ito lang. Kaya rin siguro nagsusulat ako ngayon sa sarili ko. Ganun na ata ako ka lonely. Lonely? Haha. Di ko alam. Alone and quite lonely. Siguro ganun.

Nagsusulat pala ako sa Microsoft Word ngayon sa bago kong laptop. Ang pangalan pala niya ay Stargaze Macmac Garcia. Stargaze kasi ‘yun ‘yung huling bulaklak na natanggap ko. Macmac kasi wala, Macbook siya, eh. Garcia kasi syempre love ko siya. Ang ganda niya and ang saya niya makasama. Marami na rin kaming napanood together simula nung makuha ko siya last December. Ang saya nung December at nung -ber months last year. Sana laging ganun. Thank you sobra sa parents ko kasi hanggang ngayon inaalagaan nila kami.

Ano ba ang gusto kong i-update? Ayun. ‘Yung state of mind ko ngayon ay hindi pa rin nagbabago. I think I’m still depressed. I think it never went away naman. It’s just that right now, it feels heavier. I’m scared that it will feel even heavier as I go along because I never address it.

Sa relationship ko sa food at sa katawan ko, ganun ulit. Same way I felt back when I was a kid. I still have body dysmorphia and because of that, I’ve been depriving myself of food. It’s good, though, ‘cause I’m not yet getting the feeling that I want to throw up everything that I eat. Ganun kasi ako nung high school. Hay, kung may resources lang sana ako, nag gym na talaga ako. Kaso wala eh. Tiis muna.

Sa pera naman, ayun ganun pa rin. Hindi pa rin ako financially stable. Wala pa rin akong sariling pera. Ang lungkot kasi 26 na ako, pero andito pa rin ako sa same situation na ever since, gusto ko lang naman makalaya. Kailan kaya giginhawa ‘yung buhay namin? Sana tinadhana na maging okay kami.

Sa love, ganun pa rin. Ilang taon na akong malungkot. Feel ko nakarma ako pero feel ko rin I’m being too hard on myself for thinking like that. I know I did not deserve it. I also know that I don’t deserve the treatment that I’ve been constantly getting for years. I am tired already. I can’t even explain. Nandun na ako sa point na dahil sobra na ‘yung sakit na na-endure ko these past few years, hindi na ako interesado. But hindi naman ako makawala. Years from now kaya, ano na? Nakakatakot isipin at imagine-in lahat. Wala akong scenario na nakikita. Siguro ayaw ko ring isipin. Mas lalong ayaw kong gawin. Sobrang sakit kasi, parang hindi ko pa kayang pagdaanan ulit ‘yun. Pero kung hindi man kami talaga, sana kayanin ko. Ang importante lang naman ay ‘yung maging okay siya. Pero shet, pag nagkataon, wasak na wasak talaga ang puso ni nasty mac hahaha. Di ko kilala kung sino ‘yun. Tama ba spelling? Lol.

Inantok din.

Goodnight. Usap tayo ulit sa susunod.