#shit *I* felt betrayed

[conanssummerchild]

unpopular opinion but i dont really think it was bad of rick to make rickbot. i mean he was falling back into his obsession with finding rick prime so he made a replacement for himself as to not completely disappear from morty's life the way he did from beth's (well the way he did from beths in other dimensions, since his own beth died ig) if he tried to act normal while being completely consumed by trying to find rick prime he wouldve probably been even more of a bad grandpa than he usually is, so he replaced himself, maybe morally its not the most correct but like its a step up from completely disappearing, he actually thought of morty this time, which i think speaks volume for his character development idk. and i mean he said it all himself in the last scene of that episode. he refers to it as "my darkness", which is accurate, he says "hunting him destroyed me" which is why he didnt want to include morty in it im assuming, "its going to take over your life morty" "maybe trying to stay healthy while doing it" "its the most painful shit ive ever had to deal with" like he was actually taking morty into account for once dude, im not saying rick is like perfect and im very aware hes done super fucked up shit, i just dont think this is an example of it

[harbingersecho]

[merlinposting]

Watching House MD for the first time ever. Naturally, because I have eyes, I’m a Hilson truther… but you can’t even say I’m making shit up?? 6x10?? The ending, the eyes, the fucking whatever the fuck is going on… I can’t. I can’t even do it.

[godofstupidsentences]

As much as I love Theo Raeken as a villain and in general s5, it would have been so much better if they had kept him being a villain a secret for longer

[hamartia-grander]

I'm actually so sick and fucking tired of people who think covid is comparable to the flu. Just bc you or a family member got it and didn't die doesn't mean it's not super fucking serious and life threatening, ESPECIALLY for disabled people/people with health issues/autoimmune disorders. Every time my father sees me wearing a mask he rants about how covid is just like the flu and that everyone is over reacting and [insert shitty conspiracy theory here] and it makes me so upset every goddamn time. I got covid half a year ago, despite doing everything right, thanks to my parents' stupidity. I was sick for 13 days, entirely bedridden and feverish for 9 of those days. I physically couldn't get out of bed, not even to piss, the entire first day my mother had to half carry me everywhere. Same thing the second day, when she dragged me to the doctor where I tested positive. The first five days, I couldn't even look at an electronic device and had to keep the lights off all the time bc I'd actually vomit. I had a migraine that didn't go away no matter what medicine I took, for the entire the first week. My nose was constantly stuffy and my sinuses were so backed up I couldn't breathe through my nose, which made breathing in general so difficult and painful bc my asthma was also exacerbated. So my chest hurt too. All my normal chronic pain was magnified tenfold. I had a 103 fever for three days in a row, then it fluctuated between 98-100 the rest of the time. Thinking about it right now I still remember the pain and how it felt. I've had strep throat, a lot as a kid. I've had chicken pox, and the flu several times, because my parents never fucking vaccinated us. I have never been more sick in my goddamn life than I was with covid. And this is just me. Yes I'm disabled and yes I'm still being tested for possible autoimmune disorders (my mom and her whole side of the family have them) but even still I'm not nearly as at risk as a lot of people, and I was still more affected than anyone in my entire family, who have all also gotten covid because of their own stupidity. My taste and smell were never affected, but I'm still losing hair from it, which is apparently also a symptom I never knew about.

Wear. Your fucking. Masks. Covid is still around, it's still super fucking serious, it is NOT just like the flu, and you had fucking better take it seriously. Even if you don't care about getting it yourself, at least show some goddamn consideration for others whose health and lives are at risk.

[chaoticdelinqueerwithglitter]

How to describe Bonten:

"Everyone in there is traumatized because a lot of bad shit that happened during the Kanto Incident" + Takeomi

[likeafairytale]

"I'm a servant. Slave, actually. And you might be a princess, but you're a prisoner just as well. Or have you forgotten that prince Aeron still didn't give you your bracelet back?" - Yasmeen to Calypso

What happened following Yasmeen words was something Calypso never thought, in a million years, she would do. She slapped her. She always knew she was a bit fierce and bratty. That she could have a bad temper when she wanted. She was the golden child after all, used to everyone giving in to every whim she had. But she never thought of herself as mean. Or maybe she was, but people just never told her, because she was her realm's delight, so no one wanted to upset her? She wasn't sure, but Yasmeen words resonated in her and made her took action before thinking. Calypso was impulsive and she has shown many times she was capable of being a brat when she wanted, after all, she cut her old maid's hair just for being a Fae.

❝I may be a prisoner here but I still am a Princess and I won't let anyone disrespect me!❞ She was herself surprised by her words. They came out by themselves. It was as if her body wasn't hers anymore, as if someone else took control of it.

She knew she could go to extreme length when she was angry, once again, her first maid might remember that too well, at least her brothers liked to joke about this incident. But she thought her action with her previous maid came from a place of hatred, because she was a Fae, and therefore ignored her most of the time, so she obviously believed she would never had to be harsh to Yasmeen like she was to her.

But it might also be because the truth was that Yasmeen was right, and Calypso hated that. Not that the human was right, but that she was herself a prisoner. People still referred to her as ‘Princess Calypso’ well the few ones who were talking to her at least, but was she a princess still? Because she didn't feel like one anymore. The only privilege she still had of a princess was a constant companion, in Yasmeen, but since she surprised Yasmeen and Morgana talking a few days earlier, she realized that Yasmeen wasn't given the role of maid or friend or confident, but the role of jailer. Making sure Calypso wouldn't left. Not that she could anyway. Hence the whole discussion right now.

Without thinking she touched her wrist where her bracelet was supposed to be, her eyes still on Yasmeen. Her stormy eyes were full of sadness that she tried to hide her best, but she wasn't really sure she was succesfull to do so. Compared to Yasmeen or her oldest brother, she wasn't good at hiding her feelings. Just right now, the reality of what she have done, hurting Yasmeen, hit her and she felt sick in her stomach. She didn't want to. She didn't plan to do it. But maybe she was truly her father's daughter. Maybe violence was in her veins after all, instead of the kindness she always thought she had from her mother.

Calypso was shaking now, and she took a step toward Yasmeen, but this latter might have thought that she was about to slap her again, or worse, blind her, because she took a step back and the mermaid just wanted to cry. She never thought she could be menacing to someone.

❝Yasmeen, I... I'm...❞ she started, unable to finish her sentence.

She couldn't say the words. She was sorry. She truly was. Calypso wanted to hug her and tell her how sorry she was and how much she regretted what she just did. That she was still her friend. That she needed her. And she wasn't angry anymore. Because those were true; she wasn't angry now she was sad that it turned sour so quickly and it was part of her fault too, she had to admit it. But, once again, Calypso was Triton's daughter, and though it was acceptable to apologize to your family, it wasn't to apologize to other people. She wasn't teach how to do so. She know she could but she had too much pride. Her father's words came to her and she hated how often them came to her lately: if you show weakness to other people, and apologize after your first strike, you're doomed. They will know they can keep hurting you and that you will crawl back to them, like a weak little goldfish. Deep down she was scared of those words being true.

❝I won't need you any time soon. You can tell the Queen and my husband that I'm not feeling well and won't assist to any dinner or meeting for a few days. Not that my presence will be miss anyway.❞

She tried to switch between sadness and concern to indifference, but she knew it didn't work as she wanted to. She had a lot to learn and she vowed to herself to ask lesson to Yasmeen on how to do it. Because they won't be mad forever, right? At some point they will talk back... Everything was so blurring and uncertain now, she didn't know what she did to deserve this falling from grace... Yasmeen didn't say anything, actually, Calypso only knew she left the room because of the door closing behind her and once it was done, she did something that she didn't do since her mother's death; cry. True tears, not this tearless cry every merfolks were doing. She was wasting her tear for her friendship, for the loss of her friend, not knowing if it will be forever. For the loneliness she will feel now. And she knew damn well that somewhere, Aeron and Morgana will probably laugh at her, thinking that she should have seen it coming. And for the next two weeks, not only Calypso didn't leave her bedroom, no matter how hungry she could have been, but for two weeks straight a light rain poured nonstop on the Fae Kingdom, the only indication that Princess Calypso wasn't over it yet.

[cervideity]

I saw your tags about how you think Vio is not heroic when he tells Shadow why he IS a hero, and now the idea will not leave my brain. You are so correct. This is the best understanding of Vio's actions that I have ever seen.

YEAYEAHYEAHYRAH . OH MY GOD . the whole fucking speech about heroism and then they all blast shadow to bits or whatever. oh my god. its such a . brutal contrast to me.

"but as a hero, i never strayed from my hopes and my goals" oh my god VIO. VIO.VIO CRUSHING HIM IN MY FUCKING HANDS. YOURE DEFINING THIS AS AN IMMUTIBLE TRAIT . SOMETHING YOURE BORN AS . RATHER THAN A COLLECTION OF ACTIONS OF MORALS . AS IF CHANGE IN THE FACE OF CONTEXT IS NONHEROIC. WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT SHADOW PROVES ***WRONG*** LATER. i love violet link. i love his flaws. im actually shaking him around. BLOOD. i love how vio is flat and unmoving in his belief here, and shadow is angry and hurt and visibly emotional, and shadow still gets to be in the right!!! even though he was deeply flawed and handled everything very messily, (and also BECAUSE shadow handles things emotionally) he changes his actions! and proves himsrlf a hero!!!!!!explo

[geddy-leesbian]

wait I kinda forgot but there was actually a less angsty draft too where they would have stopped Krauser before he found the machine

[newvegascowboy]

part of making Cato was bc i wanted to give Red a love interest (which im still working on) but it also gives me a way to get Red to Phoenix post game. Cato like haha btw i know where your mom is. also you have three siblings and Red is like WHAT

[groundgreenhouse]

I assumed ”I forgive you” was Aziraphale forgiving Crowley for not going with him?

[classicjdog]

CURSE MY FUCKING SHITARSE INTERNET I JUST WANT TO PLAY SOME FUCKING TEKKEN GAAAAHHHHHHHH

REINA IS SO FUCKING SICK AND I CAN'T PLAY HER AGAINST REAL PPL I'M STUCK FIGHTING THE STUPID AI FUCK

[asleepinawell]

there was some post I reblogged the other day that was like "being in your 20s is terrible things keep happening to you but you still have to go to the grocery store after" and I made some snarky comment in the tags about how your 30s aren't much different and a couple people in their 20s were depressed about that in the reblogs. and I just want to amend that slightly

like yeah we live in a capitalist hellscape and the realities of that mean we're all Going Through It and there's no magical age that makes that stop and you will always need to buy fucking groceries in spite of it all, but, BUT...

there's some sense of stability I've hit in my thirties that even when I'm dealing with the worst shit imaginable has made a difference. I don't mean stability as in a career or relationship or even mental health, but just kind of being more grounded in myself and having a better foundation to operate off of while I deal with The Horrors™. it's an internal stability. it isn't "good" or "bad" in terms of emotions, it's just a part of existing

obviously this isn't a universal experience, but it is something a bunch of other people in the same age bracket as me have expressed to me as well

and while this may be something you'd attribute solely to privilege or ease of life, let me say that when I hit 30 I just got steamrolled with a bunch of severe chronic health issues that upended my life. a lot of other terrible life things happened in that same time frame. shit really sucked for a while and I still have a bunch of those health issues and may indefinitely. and yet I still feel like I'm a more stable person, regardless of how I feel at any given time. I've been me longer

sometimes being me is not great but having a more firmly defined idea of "me" AND the experiences of just dealing with shit and surviving and getting through the day over the years is a solid foundation to build off of and one that sprang up without me consciously being aware of the process. it's something that happens over time as you go through life. it's likely it'll keep progressing as I someday hit my forties, fifties, etc

it doesn't fix everything. you'll still need to buy groceries. but it's not nothing. I'd even venture to say it's a lot

[vaugarde]

man. hate to say it but i finished karma files and idk how i feel about it

[deepspaceclawstation]

I feel so stupid rn

[mainfaggot]

why does it always feel like im trapped in my own life