#sk1 not

[caffinull]

I got all the way down to 5lbs before my goal weight a couple of months ago. I can’t believe I ruined it like this. I’m a fat fucking whale again for the fourth time after being skinny for a whopping two weeks. Yeah, I’m doing well starving myself and walking and working out every day so far, but I want it back now. I don’t know how many more times I can do this.

If you are new to disordered eating or are just seeing warning signs, RUN.

Get help. Some FEW people can maintain the ultra skinny body but they aren’t healthy they aren’t happy. Most likely disordered eating will just keep you miserable and you will gain all the weight back over and over and over like me. Please log off tumblr and Ed Twitter and don’t look back if you can.

[sk1fanfiction]

blood of the covenant/water of the womb

The Black sisters are so tragic.

I mean, imagine:

As kids, Narcissa is the baby sister that the elder two dote on, while both Narcissa and Andromeda look up to Bellatrix, the proud, beautiful, powerful, accomplished, perfect eldest sister, who has always known who she is and where she's going, but especially Andromeda, since they look so alike she's always been encouraged to act like her too but since Narcissa doesn't have the stereotypical Black looks and her parents didn't follow the Black naming scheme she's encouraged to be her own person a little bit more.

At Hogwarts they're all Sorted into the same House, Slytherin, which only increases their bond. Bella does really well at school, probably the top of her class, which makes Andy, who's only a year or two behind hyperaware of where the bar is. She walks, talks, and dresses like Bella.

Until

Andy follows in Bella's footsteps (who's probably Head Girl by now) and becomes a prefect, but she gets assigned to do rounds with a Muggle-born Hufflepuff. And despite everything she'd been taught, everything she knows to be true, she finds herself falling for him and the worst part is she can't tell anyone, even Bella, the one she has always been able to confide in, always reassured her and set her on the right path.

Meanwhile Druella and Cygnus are arranging Bellatrix's marriage to Roldophus, someone she doesn't even like never mind attracted to but because she's the perfect Black and the perfect daughter she has to do it. And Andromeda sees and fears how she could get trapped, too, how there's another Lestrange boy in her year.

Meanwhile a strange foreign Dark Lord comes to dinner and he's so different to Roldophus and all those other men who think because she's a woman she must be weak and she's just a vessel for their pureblood children. And despite the way she shouldn't feel this way, Bella doesn't care. He listens to Bella's opinions and he takes her seriously and he sees her magical talent and her thirst to prove herself and he's not scared of her in the way others say that she's 'too intense.' And when he offers to train her, and adds that he never does this, she says, one better, I'll follow you.

Andromeda and Narcissa watch this strange man burn the Dark Mark into their sister's arm and they don't know what to think. Narcissa's scared Bella will put herself in danger, that she'll do too much, give too much of herself because she doesn't know when to pull back. And Andy's scared Bella's going down a path she cannot follow, because deep down she can't say she believes in blood supremacy, can't say she hates Ted and she can't figure out a way through so she leaves.

It's like part of Bella's heart has been ripped out. They were all close, the Blacks, but Andy and Bella had a certain je ne sais quoi, they were thick as thieves and inseparable. Bellatrix is the one who burns Andromeda off the tapestry, crying while she does it, the scorned love for her sister, the anger and shame that Andy chose that Mudblood over her turning that love to bottomless hate.

Meanwhile Narcissa, the lucky one, watches it all. Narcissa is the one that gets it all, she's the only one who's able to marry for love and stay with her family but there's also this Andromeda-shaped hole in her and there's a Slytherin resentfulness of being Bellatrix's supporting act.

Every night that Bella is on a mission, Narcissa stays up, even while pregnant with Draco, until she knows her sister is safe.

That fateful Halloween she waits and waits and waits but Bellatrix never comes home. When she finds out her last remaining sister is serving life she completely breaks down. Won't sleep, won't eat. The thought of leaving Draco without a mother is the only thing that helps her hold on. Regulus, Andromeda and Sirius are dead/burned off the tapestry/imprisoned; she and Draco are the last Blacks, that makes their bond even stronger, makes her scared of losing him like she did her sisters. She curses Voldemort for putting her in danger, aware of her feelings for him and that Bella would do anything for them, swears she'll never let that happen to her son.

All the while Andy raises her daughter, who hates the name she gave her in the same way Andy know she would hate the Blacks. Narcissa and Andy watch each other from across crowds; Tonks and Draco are never at school together, never know more than scattered off-hand mentions of a cousin on their mother's side. But both Narcissa and Andy fantasize of a reconcilation, of Tonks babysitting Draco while they rekindle their bond. Neither bridges the gap. That burn, that rift cannot be healed. But they still ache for each other.

When Voldemort returns that fear for Draco grows, but it's tempered with the joy of having Bella back after mourning her for 14 years -- Bella, traumatized, starved, jagged and torn up at the edges, different, but alive.

And just like knowing he was innocent kept Sirius sane, Bella's love and trust of Voldemort is what made her able to hang on. Yes, they're both drastically different physically (the snake face and the emaciation) and mentally (both shaken, less confident), but everything else can be the same. Maybe better.

But everyone is scared. It's not the same world, where the Death Eaters have control and are undefeated. Voldemort is scared of that boy, Narcissa is scared for Draco. It's clear things are not the same, things are not normal. Far from it. Fear makes Voldemort angry, and cold, and distant and nothing she does feels good enough.

And that boy -- lying hateful filthy boy -- he dares suggest that her Voldemort's filthy-blooded like him. No, he must just be taunting her, scaring her. But there are things Voldemort's said, things he's done -- she would notice, the way she hangs on every word he speaks and plays their conversations in her head over and over again in Azkaban -- Bellatrix just does her best to silence it and block it out, all these confusing things, she's a great Occlumens after all.

She'll make things certain, make things right, trim off the weakness, cut out the sickness. Like Sirius. Like that young woman with Andromeda's face and Andromeda's laugh, that filthy half-blood Andy left her to create.

Narcissa can't keep Draco safe like she, the baby sister, couldn't keep Bellatrix safe. When Voldemort burns the Dark Mark into his skin she sees her son emaciated and dead-eyed.

To assuage Narcissa's fears Bellatrix trains Draco like Voldemort trained her; but he's not the same, he's weak, he's moralistic, he looks at her with wide scared eyes and he's a failure. The glory of the Blacks is gone.

All the while, Narcissa's fear grows, when Lucius is imprisoned, when Voldemort's ire turns on her family, on her son, sets him an impossible task. The despair she feels, she hasn't felt for nearly sixteen years -- Bellatrix more interested in eking out morsels of approval from Voldemort and turning her frustration on Draco, and Narcissa by extension.

All the while, Andromeda's fear for her daughter grows, of the danger she puts herself in as an Auror and a member of the Order, and she's reminded of Bellatrix, of how she gives everything of herself and how Nymphadora does too, begging, begging her to hold back.

She's not good enough for him, not with the sickness, the weakness still clinging to her. Bellatrix very much wants to kill the woman with Andy's face. She's always been perfect. It's everyone else around her that's wrong, everyone else who has to go. She'll do better. Try harder.

And when the Snatchers catch that filthy boy, and he slides out of her grasp like a buttered eel, Bellatrix hits the bottom rung of the ladder of despair. She doesn't know who she is, anymore.

Voldemort's retaliation and rejection breaks Bellatrix's heart, but it hardens Narcissa's.

Bellatrix will do anything to make him happy. She finally kills the witch with Andy's face -- do you see -- do you love me now -- but he's still cold, still frightened, still different, and she despairs, but it will be all over when Harry Potter is dead and he can breathe again. They've won. It will be alright. It will go back to normal. She can have it all again -- Voldemort and Narcissa and her perfect, pruned family.

Narcissa will do anything to keep him safe. And so she chooses Draco's life, she lies, her heart in her throat, in front of her beloved sister, to the Dark Lord, with unshed tears in her eyes and Harry Potter's 'corpse' before her.

Bellatrix's death is something Narcissa knew was coming, deep down She mourned her sister sixteen years ago and she mourns her now, but it will all be worth it if Draco survives this ordeal; Potter must win, he must live, Voldemort must die. And Bellatrix will never allow this.

She wishes she could tell Andy that she understands.

[d0b3tt3r]

Being on Tumblr while on the stationary bike at my gym is unmatched

[bitchfitch]

I'm making a few flowers of different sizes to go with the Big one and idk I like how it came out :] I missed freehanding

[a-shrieking-cloud-of-bats]

10-11

whew

loads of enemies in bot lane, a single defender generally cannot hold them, they clearly want you to nuke them with the cannon which wouldn't be an issue if the defenders could kill them fast enough to make them into the little squid beasts

top lane is very sparsely populated but has a lot of heavier units

also those giant attack bastards go through bottom lane sometimes too and they are Amped because there's loads of squids at any given time

might be time to give up forte only chapter 10

there miiiight be something to be done with wind chimes because she does blow through the first health bar of most of the enemies but hmmmmm

[talesofozdizz]

as a pusher how do i value enforcer? i already have a promoted weedy who wants skill masteries, is there a point in e2ing him?

[wanepillow]

[hypnodramahq]

Katsu do Strike Team SK1

[3dwithus]

Two Trees SK1 Review: 3D Printer Testing

Review by Will Zoobkoff StudioZombie3D

Featured designs: Pipe Cox, fixumdude

[hammondcast]

NAMM Oral History Interview Jon Hammond

#WATCHMOVIE HERE: NAMM Oral History Interview Jon Hammond 

 Jon's archive https://archive.org/details/JonHammondLongVersionJonHammond_NAMM.orgOralHistoryInterviewDate_January13_2011 

Youtube https://youtu.be/Faq_A58v4sE 

NAMM Oral History Jon Hammond

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Topics

 Anaheim, ASCAP, B3 Organ, Blues, Frankfurt, G27, G37, Jazz, KYOU Radio, Leslie Speaker, Local 802, Mini-B, Musicians Union, Musikmesse, NAMM, NAMM Oral History, Onions, XB-2 

 Jon HammondInterview Date: January 13, 2011Job Title: President and FounderCompany: Jon Hammond & Associatesaccordions electric organs Hammond B-3 Hammond Organs Jazz Music Manufacturing MusiciansJon Hammond 

Dan Del Fiorentino & Tony Arambarri

Jon Hammond has successfully created a career based on his musical talents and his passion for the music industry! As a musician Jon has performed with many legendary players and as a clinician and product artist he has introduced many innovative products to music stores and their customers over the last 30 plus years. Jon is closely identified with the two main products of his career, the Excelsior Accordion and the Digital B3 Organ.Subject Info Jon Hammond Interview Date: January 13, 2011 Job Title: President and Founder Jon Hammond & Associates Jon Hammond has successfully created a ... of his career, the Excelsior Accordion and the Digital B3Organ. (accordions, electric organs, Hammond B-3, Hammond Organs)

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 2011-03-10 21:52:35

Color

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Anaheim, ASCAP, B3 Organ,  Blues, Frankfurt, G27, G37, Jazz, KYOU Radio, Leslie Speaker, Local 802, Mini-B, Musicians Union, Musikmesse, NAMM, NAMM Oral History, Onions, XB-2

tony arambarri, dan del fiorentino, Anaheim, ASCAP, B3 Organ, Accordion, NAMM, Oral History, XB-2 Organ, Sk1 organ

tony arambarri, dan del fiorentino, Anaheim, ASCAP, B3 Organ, Accordion, NAMM, Oral History, XB-2 Organ, Sk1 organ, fisarmonica

[infamisparrhesiastes]

#whatwesmoke #SUNGROWN #SK1 #smallbatch #familyfarm #boutique #cannabis #connoisseur #culture #flower #dank #ganja #weedstagram #1620 https://www.instagram.com/p/Cn5t373LkI4CFRBiMdj9qzC9SKdTDteGqvJ9lw0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[timbosela]

made another miku 😳😳

I'm trying to play around with sk1 but using rgb color sliders are tough 💀💀

[sk1fanfiction]

noooo stop woobifying them I like them fucked up and problematic!!!

[d0b3tt3r]

THE SIZING ON THE JEANS I TRIED ON WAS SMALLER THAN SIZE ON THE HANGER! I FIT IN A SMALLER SIZE

[lizzisimss]

Nina CC List:

Body: vibrantpixels_armThicknessSlider, cinnasims_bodypresetpack#1, ratboyMouthPresetTwo, heihu-collection-faceoverlay_foreheadcrease, nesurii_lightitup-highlight, Simbience_HauteSkinblend, Pralinesims - UltimateEyebrowCollection_MaxisMatch, SC-OrtusBirthmarks-SK1, PS - Eyes_N157

Make-up: [ d r e a m g i r l ] 3 D_l a s h e s_V6, JH [COSMETICS] EYE MAKEUP #6, JH [COSMETICS] EYELINER #115, JH [COSMETICS] LIPSTICK #135, Pralinesims_Lip_N236_LucidDream, [greenllamas] SLASHER_Diffused_Liner, breezytrait petals makeup pack (merged), TwistedCat_Lashes_NO2_glasses, Twistedcat_Stalker_Eyeliner, Twistedcat_Stalker_Eyeshadow, [PEACHYFAERIE] BACK TO SCHOOL COLLECTION MERGED, Pralinesims_Nails_Female_N27_SugarMilk, Pralinesims - UltimateEyelinerCollection

Accessories: Pralinesims - UltimateEarringCollection

Everyday: [jadecatsims]naveah_hair, [Gorilla Gorilla Gorilla] Cropped Ruffle Turtleneck Sweater, [boonstow] abstract face pants f, [Jius]LeatherPlatformAnkleBoots04

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Sleep: [greenllamas] Faerie Set - Esther_Hair_V1, {lxhtopps} - Winnie Baby Tee, serenity_Maddy&CassieMatchingSet_Pants, [Jius]FlatformSliders01, Pralinesims - UltimateGlassesCollection

Party: [GegeSims] - Kaira Hair, [AH00B]-Trinity_Clips, [greenllamas] GREENHOUSE_Sage_Skirt_Duo, Madlen Iriza Boots

Swimwear: [GegeSims] - Luna Hair V2, Caiocc_af_RibbedBikini, Caiocc_af_CrochetedBikini, [Jius]LeatherFlats02

Warm Weather: (sheabuttyr) - paloma passion twists V7, [Gorilla Gorilla Gorilla] Tube Jumpsuit, [Jius]ChainLoaferMules01, S-Club LL ts4 bag N02Cold Weather: JohnnySims_Enrique_Hair_Merged, Cement-yuHAT_CottageCasual_FishermanCap, [Gorilla Gorilla Gorilla] Winter Trench Coat AF, adrienpastel_EP13_CargosFemale, CLUMSYALIEN [RAE SCARF], [Jius]HighLegLeatherBoots01

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[bitchfitch]

if you are squid you do not see this. my scope management is Fine.

Delphinium crochet pattern.

trumpet bit:

magic ring

rnd 1: sc6

sc-sc in sc3

sc3 sc-sc inc sc3

sc4 sc-sc inc sc 3

sc3 sc-sc inc sc6

sc

sc 2 sc-sc inc sc8

sc 3 sc-sc inc sc8

sc rnd

sc4 sc-sc inc sc8

sc rnd

sc3 sc-sc inc sc10

sc2 sc-sc inc sc12

sc3 sc-sc inc sc12

sc rnd

sc4 sc-sc inc sc12

sc3 sc-sc inc sc14

sc2 sc-sc inc sc16

sc3 sc-sc inc SC 16

petals

row 1, SC2 along trumpet, ch18,sk1, sl1, sc1, hdc, DC, dc-dc Inc, tc3, qc 4, qi4, qi-qc-tc-dc, Sl in base of chain.

row2, sl16 up middle bit.

row 3 sc1,hdc, dc-dc Inc, tc3, qc4, qi4, qi-qc-tc-dc Sl in base chain.

sc2 along trumpet.

repeat 5x

clit petal thing

Ch8

sk1, sl1,sc1,DC, tc-tcx2, tc-tc-dc-tc-tc, tc-tcx2 DC, SC, SL ch4, sl1

labia petal thing.

ch9, sk3, sl1, ch1, tc-tcinc, qc-qc, qi-qi, qi-qi-qi-qi-qi, sl3, (mirrored), ch9, sk3, sl1, ch1, tc-tc inc, qc-qc, qi-qi-qi-qi-qi.

hot glue clit and labia around trumpet opening.