#so either I'm actually losing my mind or something bad happened that I don't remember

[raccoon-queer]

I am this close to going crazy kjfadlksj

[junnieverse]

HICKEY PRANK ➳ ENHYPEN

➙ pranking enhypen (part. 2)

pairing: enhypen x gn!reader

genre: crack, a little fluff

request: " hii i just read your enhypen prank wars hcs and sunghoon’s was so funny, how do u think the rest would react to a hickey prank???? "

warnings: lowercase intended, not proofread, heeseung's drabble is a little suggestive (just a teeny, tiny bit), reader accused/thought to be a cheater in hyung line's drabbles (jake ends up crying, my poor baby)

a/n: enjoy anon! sunghoon's was not included so you can find his in my original post [ here ]

🖇️ — 양정원 ; JUNGWON !

there was just something so fun about messing with jungwon and seeing him all flustered afterwards making him ten times cuter

after seeing a bunch of tiktoks trying this prank, you thought it would be a fun attempt to get a reaction out of him

you had been on a facetime with your boyfriend and purposely turning your neck to show the mark you quickly turn the camera as if nothing happened but ofcourse jungwon noticed and immediately ended the call to go over to your house

hearing aggressive knocks on your door, you open it to find a breathless jungwon who tried to catch his breath before he spoke up, "Y-your neck- what is that mark?"

he points at it and you laugh at how he came all the way here to ask about it, "It's the hickey you gave me wonnie." you playfully lie

with no response, jungwon just nervous laughs claiming this was obviously another one of your jokes but your serious face was telling him otherwise

"Wait but that can't be true... I don't even remember... doing that to you..." he shyly whispers the last part as his ears grow red and you can't help but resist the urge to squish him

"I'm just joking Wonnie, it's not real, see?" you admit wiping off the make up showing him the shades on your finger

"I- you really gaslit me-" he says baffled as you squeezed his cheeks laughing it off

🖇️ — 이희승 ; HEESEUNG !

heeseung was always messing with you and you wanted to get him back, sweet revenge

after his last prank with him rejecting your kisses, you thought the hickey prank your friend had suggested was perfect, nothing too crazy and harmless..?

you had planned to go to the basketball court around the area to shoot some hoops together but heeseung was not expecting for you to open the door and see a few suspicious marks on you

"Where did you get those hickies?" he immediately questions as his eyebrow raised

"Who else if not you obviously." you retort back pulling your shirt up a little

"It's either you're cheating on me... or that's fake, but because you are actually so down bad for me as I am for you, cheating is out of the question." heeseung tells you as he had it all figured out and there was no point in denying it

rolling your eyes, your boyfriend notices and chuckles, "I can't even prank you properly. How did you even know though?" you ask curiously as he wraps his hands around your waist

"You and I both know I have my favourite places to mark you babe, maybe if you payed attention to that detail I would've fell for it." he explains before winking as you were at a loss for words

🖇️ — 박종성 ; JAY !

"Jay, sweetie, I'm sorry, it was an awful prank... not like the hair dye one but still... you can't stay mad at me forever right..?" you beg as you clutch on jay's arm as he continues to ignore you

here you were trying to win your boyfriend over after a hickey prank gone wrong and he had completely iced you out for past hour

after the crazy dye and shampoo prank you pulled, your shenanigans were far from over, you simply turned them down because it was evident there was only so much jay could put up with before he sold you on amazon (as he quoted himself)

after catching sight of the little hickies on you, jay was quite evidently... losing his mind

he just couldn't believe it, you were seeing someone else... did you no longer love him

having finally admitted the truth that they were all fake make up looks, jay was unmoving... stunned to say the least (I'm talking "ah jinjja... ottoke" mix of emotions jay)

even after that he still didn't say anything and you were starting to think you broke your boyfriend

maybe it was time you ended your stunts, he had his members madness to deal with alone, his partner shouldn't cause him any more early grey hairs

🖇️ — 심재윤 ; JAKE !

jake was your dream partner, everything you wanted in a man, he could say the exact same thing about you, the perfect other half he needed... although these were one of the more small moments where he jokingly started wondering what he did to deserve all these heart attacks you cause him

although nothing could ever prepare jake for how much his heart dropped when he saw the hickies on your neck and collarbone, I mean those were the visible ones, who knew where else they were

he was very well aware that was not his 'artwork', he would've remembered and let you proudly show them off after all

"(Y/n)... do you not love me anymore baby, is there really someone else..?" he asks in disbelief trying to find sincerity in your eyes

upon seeing how your boyfriend's eyes were filling with tears, you knew it was time to end the charades

nobody liked seeing jake sad, especially you, that's when you realised maybe you took it a bit too far

"Jakey no don't cry babe, it was a prank, I would never do that to you." you hurriedly reassure him as you wiped the few tears that fell from his eyes

you boyfriend was pretty playful and would laugh along to your pranks but maybe this one wasn't the right way to go

🖇️ — 김선우 ; SUNOO !

having had a more than wonderful relationship with sunoo, one would never expect you to prank your unsuspecting boyfriend

let alone so heartlessly with a hickey prank which would probably make him extremely upset

but here you were watching a youtube tutorial on how to make a realistic hickey print and the little bruise like spot on your collarbone was... nothing perfect but you thought it was a good attempt for your first try

you had walked around with the fake love mark on you and the entire time your boyfriend had said nothing about it

approaching you with a make up wet wipe in hand, sunoo gives it to you, "Honey, you have some make up on your neck, what happened?'

with your jaw dropped you couldn't believe how miserably your prank went

"Oh c'mon, was it that bad, I wanted to do the hickey prank on you-" you tell him as your head drops and sunoo holds in his laugh

"Really? Wow your make up skills are bad then." he tells you helping you wipe the make up off your collarbone

🖇️ — 西村 力 ; NI-KI !

you and riki were still pranking each other and after the ps5 prank and having thought that would be the cherry on top, you thought your next one would surely end this war

you decided to prank your boyfriend by attempting to hide a fake hickey and getting his reaction

for the past afternoon you had been covering your neck which ofcourse riki had noticed because it did seem as though you were hiding something

"Why do you keep covering your neck when I'm around, are you hiding something?" he asks seeming skeptical as he raised a brow

"Oh it's nothing, my neck is just itchy... and bruised." you lie hoping he would buy it

"Wait bruised, lemme see." he says worriedly

before you could even try to stop him he pulled your hand off and his eyes widened at the fake hickey mark

"W-where did you get that... because it sure wasn't me-" he says frustrated almost close to tears

"It's fake! Yeah I got you, I win again!" you proudly yell as you do a little victory dance

riki couldn't take these heart attacks any longer and surrendered, you were officially the prank master

[justlarkin]

Honestly, there's so much going on with Perun that even pinpointing what his deal sounds exhausting. These are my incoherent thoughts.

Mind: With the way they explain that Perun's sacred artifact causes his own mind to be warped and lost during each use until he loses his former self, I definitely feel like there was more to Perun and Veles' history that he doesn't remember. Perun changed, most likely for the worst, from abusing his sacred artifact. I'm pretty sure Volkh did say that Perun wasn't always like this when he was defending his reasoning for staying by Perun, after all.

Loneliness: Volkh described Perun's life back in Kitezh as lonely since everyone else was intimidated by him and his position. Veles is the exception to this since he obviously has no issues with opposing and insulting Perun.

Veles: From what Perun can recall and from what we have seen, Perun has thought highly of Veles for a long time, if not always. Ignoring his usual arrogant speech quirks, Perun has only spoken positively of Veles. Even when the rest of the world was calling him a Devil, something Volos viewed as derogatory, Perun never did. It's always just "the poet" with him. Not just "the poet" though, he's Perun's "favored or beloved poet", who he admires deeply.

Volos: Perun randomly attacking Volos and them seemingly having a mutual hatred only for it to be dropped when they get to Tokyo and Volos attending the school owned by the guy he views as his brother's killer is very odd and I suspect mind shenanigans.

Dream: Then there's the dream where he, or whoever's memory it belongs to, sees Veles heading somewhere in the snow storm and tries asking him where he's going.

1. If it's not Perun's memory, then I couldn't possibly imagine it being anyone else but Volos' since he was the only other person known to be close to Veles. If Volos' memories are mixed within his own, it would explain Perun's feelings towards Veles, even if they were actually enemies, since Volos loved and respected his brother. Though I don't like the implications of Perun doing that to Volos.

2. If it was Perun's memory, what was he even doing? He seemed so annoyed when he demanded to know where Veles was going? Did he follow him out there into the snow storm or was he looking for him? It's only a snippet of a memory, but it was like he was trying to stop Veles from leaving. At least that's what I think right now.

Perun Didn't Kill Veles: Veles wasn't hunted down and murdered by Perun or anything like that. They had made an oath and Veles broke that oath. He already knew the consequences of doing so and did it anyway. Perun was not responsible for what happened. It was Veles' decision.

Furthermore, Veles is known for punishing those who break oaths and considering the power of Veles' words, the oath was most likely made with his own sacred artifact, meaning that Veles quite possibly actually killed himself.

Farewells: Perun doesn't seem comfortable with the idea of having to say goodbye to someone forever. It's why Veles' death disturbs him and it's why knowing that the one he views as that poet is still somewhere he can reach makes him happy. He doesn't do farewells.

Current Theory: Perun was very lonely since everyone was intimidated by him and avoided him due to his position, so he developed a habit of messing with everyone's minds to keep them around and even going as far as trapping them once they perish, so they can't leave him. Veles was the exception to this though as he was brave enough to stand up to Perun and this either began a friendship or just a one-sided one on Perun's end. Though, I don't only think it was that. Perun loves Veles' poetry and it's important to remember that Veles' words, his poetry, are his sacred artifact and it causes division and separation. Perun's mind is such a muddled mess after being mixed with so many other people and he acknowledges it as a bad thing. But maybe listening to Veles' poetry could undo what he did to himself and bring him a moment of clarity and peace. It's a nice thought to me.

This part is only a guess on what possibly could've caused Perun to attack Volos. I don't know if Perun is a jealous person, but he does seem rather attached to Veles and has a fixation on being No#1, so maybe he reacted poorly when Veles would leave him to spend time with Volos instead and he realized Volos was more important than him to Veles. I feel like that would explain why Perun was harassing Volos, but seemed to randomly drop it and gives motivation for Perun possibly using his sacred artifact on him. After all, Brother does outrank Friend on the familiarity meter and being Veles' brother is what Volos suspiciously never mentions. If Perun took that away from him, he and Volos would be even, at least in some bizarre logic. Veles obviously defended Volos from him Perun and their relationship became more antagonistic from there.

Veles probably recognized that Perun was not only hurting everyone else by refusing to accept separating from them, but also himself since he accumulates wear and tear on his own being every time he uses his millstone. So he tried singing about farewells and separation to hopefully breakthrough to Perun with his poetry, but it only angered Perun at that point. And as a last resort, Veles made that oath and violated it, knowing he would die, so he can prove his point to Perun and make him realize that he needed to accept letting go and saying goodbye. He also could've wanted to traumatize Perun by killing himself. That is a very Veles thing to do.

[yanderes-galore]

I don’t know if someone already requested it, but can you do a concept with Dust Sans where the darling are trying to survive against him?

Yeah, I can try. I'm not used to Undertale AUs but I'll try. I only really know DustTale from a fangame I saw so if anything is off, that's why. I tried to do my research and keep the personality still both Sans and Murder! Sans. I don't wish to offend the creator so I tried my best here. I hope you all like it nonetheless. I doubt the original author will see this but if they want me to take this down I can, just ask, I wish to respect them. This is just for fun.

Yandere! Murder Sans with Darling trying survive against him

Pairing: Romantic/Platonic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Hunting, Guilt, Death/Murder, Delusional behavior, Horror themes, Actually is a bit sad, Angst, Dubious relationship (as in, it's not even focused half the time).

As I wish to respect the author, I will try to keep Dust/Murder Sans as in character as possible.

Those who know the AU, even if I don't know all of it, know that this version of Sans is insane due to all the murder he had to do.

Sans’ goal is to kill all the monsters before Chara/The Human does.

Even his own brother, who he then hallucinates.

The most in character way to write something like this to me is this;

You are someone close to Sans before all the genocide routes.

He cared about you once… before all of this.

Then he saw you die… so many times.

It hurt… it all hurt.

I feel even if you were close he'd still end up chasing you down.

After all, DustTale appears to be a race to see who's stronger; The Human or Sans.

He wants to break this cycle.

Do the others even matter if they don't remember the resets?

I feel with this version of Sans there's a good chance you'd die.

By his hands… maybe as some sort of mercy killing.

Sans probably doesn't want to kill you, similar to how he felt when having to kill his own brother.

Yet as he falls into insanity… he feels it doesn't matter.

In reality, isn't he making sure you don't suffer?

You'll either die by the human once again… or him.

He'll make it quick for you.

In Sans' mind he feels this is for your own good.

You no doubt don't agree due to the fact you don't remember resets.

All you know is the skeleton you used to care about looks and acts different… and wants to kill you.

So now you're running through an abandoned Underground, trying to hide and/or escape from your old friend.

Sans' main goal is to defeat The Human.

However, I HC that he hesitates at some points right up until he loses his sanity.

Even during his insanity there may be moments of clarity where Sans recalls memories of you two together.

Maybe friends in one route, something closer another, but never really enemies…

Until now.

Some monsters have evacuated, some have been killed.

While running you may have even seen Sans kill some monsters.

The sight chills you.

Many know of Sans' killing spree, plus you fear you may not last through it.

Your fate, as it is in every route, is already sealed.

You can try your best to survive but you can only go on for so long.

You can try to hide, you can try to run…

Sans may just find you if The Human doesn't.

Part of him feels bad, part of him wishes there was a chance to spare you.

There isn't… not until he has The Human dead.

After resetting the timeline you two can be happy.

He's given up everything to defeat The Human, he's seen you and his loved ones die too many times. 

You may not understand it… but he's doing this for the both of you.

Once he wins, you can be happy in a new reset.

Hopefully… the last one.

But in order to have that happen… he needs to have your power.

Surely you won't blame him in the end.

Perhaps you both know that deep down it's inevitable.

At some point, through Snowdin, Waterfall, Hotland, and that dreaded corridor… one of those places will be your final resting place.

If only you knew how much this hurt him.

If only you remembered all those memories you once had together.

Unfortunately, you don't, which makes things somewhat easier.

He keeps telling himself that this is for the better.

You can help him take down The Human.

He pushes that thought in his head when he corners you.

You plead to him, he tries to ignore it.

It feels horrible… But there's no chance for mercy.

He promises to you that he'll make everything better… that he'll fix things…

Right as he summons a bone through you.

While you wither away into dust, he promises himself he'll fix things for you.

After all, he already feels stronger!

He'll just… make it count.

If this doesn't work… he'll try again.

He promises he does this because he cares…

He's just lucky you won't remember this, you'll just see him as Sans in another route.

He hopes that's true for you.

He hopes this fixes things

He wants to be happy with you…

Which means he'll keep doing this, even if it means killing you, to obtain that happy ending.

Even if it's futile in the end….

[kevinsdsy]

my bad in advance for the long inbox, feel free to ignore if it's annoying 🙏

squid game x aftg but specifically the pairs with the marble game and who i think would die and how. Since it's pairs in the game I'll only do duo pairs for this one and it'll be the more popular pairs...... BY THE WAY, PLEASE free to argue against any and all of these (this goes to you and whoever see em). ALSO LAST THING BEFORE I BEGIN, i think most if not all pairs are capable of finding out the loophole for this game but for the sake of angst... let's pretend they don't lol.

Andreil:

Most would believe that Andrew would die for Neil but for me, that's not the case. Neil would 100% do like Ji-Yeong (240) did in the series and trick Andrew into winning. I can see both versions, let me be clear. But Neil is the "fell WAY harder" of the two and this man walked through fire in a cult and subjected himself to torture willingly just because of a vague threat to Andrew's safety. I highly doubt he wouldn't be more desperate than Andrew to ensure the other wins. Not to mention, he's an S-tier liar and gaslighter as well lmao.

Kevdrew:

Andrew sacrifices himself 100%. But I can't decide if they do it fair and square or if he tricks Kevin. Like, in my head I know Kevin wins. He just has that survivor's luck but I can't figure out how since the only way I see Andrew dying for someone is by protecting them. So, by that logic I'd have to argue he dies getting shot by a guard maybe after Kevin loses the game but before he gets eliminated, Andrew reacts first?

Kevneil:

Alright now for these two, I'm taking two things into consideration. Like the previous, Kevin has survivor's luck, I can't see him losing (this won't age well.) and also, Neil plays martyr. However, I can see them deciding to play a fair and square match to truly decide. No tricks or anything, just a complete 50/50 game that Kevin happens to win.

KevJean:

Remember how I said Kevin not losing won't age well? Yeah. This is the bad age. I can see Jean trying to die for Kevin, but man do I love the image of Kevin's guilt eating him alive from what happened to them so he decides to sabotage himself. This one might ooc, I cannot lie. But I think I can allow at least of these to be self-interest, no? For the sake of accuracy though, Jean would definitely try to make sure Kevin lives. I can see that 100%.

Jerejean:

Ouch. Okay so this one I just.... Sigh. Okay Jean dies here. It's just a gut wrenching feeling that I know he does. The image I see the most is Jeremy hesitating to do something he knows might kill him, not wanting Jean to die but that instinct of self-preservation is too much. So Jean notices and decides to do it for him. He makes the decision and bang, just like that he's dead and Jeremy's watching with wide eyes and shaky hands wondering what if he weren't such a coward.

Alright that's PT.1, I'll cut it off here because I'm sure this already a lot of yapping nobody gives a fuck about BUUUUUT on the off chance you liked it, lmk if you want a PT.2 because I have yaps for each pair in the series....

+ Squid Game Anon?

HI SQUID GAME ANON FEEL FREE TO GIVE MORE OF YOUR TAKES OMG I LOVE TO HEAR IT and i had the biggest squid game brainrot when it came out so its like two worlds colliding hehe

i actually agree with andreil i think neil would 100% sacrifice himself but andrew would have to be tricked because there is also no way andrew would let neil sacrifice himself so it would just be emotional damage either way 😭

i agree with andrew sacrificing himself for kevin too but i genuinely think kevin would realise what andrew is playing at and he would be so pissed and upset and try so hard to tell andrew to at least try. he needs to try and be the best and play the good fight but andrew might play it off bored til his last breath?? (we’ve concluded from the car accident that andrew does not mind sacrificing himself in the process) so i think that’s how it would go.

with kevneil i see kevin winning too actually, but i truly believe neil would sacrifice himself for kevin… like i genuinely think neil values the lives of his foxes more than his own ((reference to tkm)) so yeah…

and yeah…. atp im just convinced everyone would sacrifice themselves for kevin 😭😭 because i genuinely believe jean would sacrifice himself for kevin ((also a lot to do with the fact he tried to commit…)) but i also believe kevin would want to play a fair game against jean and he would once again try his best for his opponent to try their best and have it be a fair game because like u said the guilt would eat him alive…

AND YOUR TAKE ON JEREJEAN WHERE JEREMY IS STILL THINKING IT THROUGH TO SACRIFICE HIMSELF AND THEN JEAN BEATS HIM TO IT…. OH I NEED TO KMS

[sourbinnie]

title -> cenere pair -> ex!wonwoo x gn!reader plot -> the ashes that he once believed would be an eternal flame, are still there as he tries to remember a time where it didn't hurt to look at you. genre -> angst + no happy ending warnings -> reader is kinda bad in this one + drinking + cheating words -> 1665 lowercase intended

puoi cancellare il mio nome

farmi sparire nel fumo

come un pugnale nel cuore

come se fossi nessuno

cenere / lazza

it almost felt like a dagger to the heart the way you were smiling right now as if nothing ever happened between us. seeing you dance in the dark with another guy, moving your hips to the beat, swaying from side to side and losing yourself in the moment. you didn't even notice me standing there. why would you notice me anyways? you didn't pay attention to me in our whole relationship, why would you care right now? it's almost as if i've been a shadow on your life, placing the darkness in your light.

i had no idea what i was doing at this point, how could someone so cruel bring so much out of me? i was delusional, convinced that the good old days would come back. i had you for a moment and you disappeared in the wind like a candle being slowly turned off with a breeze. maybe it was for the best that i lost you, you didn't care about me, you never did. your eyes always told the truth as i tried to read your mind but it was no use. seeing you again was a daydream and a nightmare, for once you were always beautiful, stunning actually. you've never lacked the looks and the brightest of smiles. then the fear approached, the one where i had to see you again and remember every night where i got my heart broken in a different way. i don't want to specify since i don't think it's worth the time of anyone and all my friends already know.

"yeah i don't know what they're doing here either." a voice startled me but at least it pulled me out of my thoughts. it was none other than seungcheol, my good friend, known him since i was 5. "i thought i told mingyu the situation clearly but it looks like he forgot and invited them anyways," he continued and i just nodded but still didn't look away from the pair of arms holding them. it was such a bittersweet feeling seeing your old lover who left you to pick up the pieces in such a romantic way with someone, it almost made me nauseous if i wasn't so proud.

"it's okay, they're allowed to invite whoever they want to at the end of the day." i said and fake smiled, but i knew that it didn't come through and i did not care enough either. "i'm in a debate of whether to go home or get drunk as fuck so i can forget everything & anything right now," i said as pure and honest as i could be.

and that's when it started, the shots, the mixed up drinks, the unknown flavors coming my way. so stupid that i didn't just go home, now i was unstoppable ranting about them. "yeah they left me" "i clearly moved on" "why am i talking about them? well i saw them and thought about this so yeah" "oh shit is that their new man? he's ugly as fuck". i would never say this shit out loud if it wasn't for the liquid courage running through me and the nerve that stroke in me just seeing them wrapped up like they belonged together, like a few months ago we weren't meant for each other.

"okay let's stop with the drinking for a moment 'cause you're going insane right now," jihoon said as he took the bottle from me and i just sighed. yeah he was 100% right and i couldn't deny it to him. he was probably the most rational friend i had between all of these fucking dumbasses but i still felt the crave to do something about these awful feelings invading me.

"i'm gonna talk to them." i said and i swear i felt everyone looking at me, maybe i did really go insane after all. 

"why? it's been months and they've moved on." jeonghan tried to reason with me and as much as i knew he was in the right, every impulse in my body was telling me to get up and go. do a scene in the middle of the party maybe? to shame them? to put them on blast? okay maybe not so much. but i was still gonna talk to them, some way and somehow.

"i just wanna see how they're doing." i said and it wasn't a lie but it wasn't the truth either. "listen i know it's fucking stupid but why would they come to my best friend's party expecting not to see me hm?" i asked and raised an eyebrow waiting for an answer while i was met with pure silence. "also i am done with everyone trying to look out for me, i am okay i think? or i'm trying to be".

i said those words and left to catch my breath outside. the cold air hitting me immediately but i still felt better than being trapped right there with everyone judging me for every decision i make like it was my fault that i ended up in the place that i was. 

"wonwoo?" their voice was so sweet and i knew the concern was purely fake but oh god did i miss everything. i was waiting for another stab in the heart, wasn't i? for them to erase me like i was nothing again.

"(y/n) hi." i responded and my fake smile met their real smile. "long time no see huh?" i said like i haven't been counting the months, the days, the hours like a lunatic. 

"yeah it's been a couple of months right? i still have to send your stuff i'm sorry." they apologized but i didn't even remember they were holding onto some of my stuff in their apartment. i was weak to the knees for them and i was really hoping that we wouldn't talk about the break up but what else was i looking for then if not an answer? what did i want from them? closure? hell no. 

"i don't really care, you can keep it." i mumbled as i tried to compose myself from all the sudden thoughts i was having about us or what used to be us or what i would've wanted to be us. "how you been?" i asked genuinely and looked them in the eyes for the first time since i got out.

"could've been better but overall trying to hold on you know?" they said, smiling politely, i just nodded as i whispered "same" and saw how they got closer to me. their eyes never leaving me, it almost felt like i had something on my face the way they were staring. "i hope things get better for you, not gonna lie to you though it's been going down since we broke up..."

i did not expect that in any way, shape or form. i just looked confused, perplexed, waiting for an answer but i knew i had to ask first before i got that.

"how so? you left remember?" maybe not that kind of question, as harsh as i sounded i knew i had to get to the point before i lost my mind. 

"i did but that doesn't mean i wanted to." they responded and that only made me even more confused than i was. trying to sober up for the talk we were having. "so many things happened and i know i fucked up quite a lot, distancing myself, being petty, saying things i didn't mean to but overrall just thinking it was okay to cross the line with you," that's when all the memories came floating back like they were in the air, like polaroids drifting through me. 

"it's way more than that (y/n), you played with me, my feelings and my state of mind," i said honestly, a bit too brutal for but at least it was me expressing how i felt. "i just wanted you and you wanted everyone else, i cannot explain how you made me feel because i don't want to go through that again, god i still fucking want you and i fucking hate myself for it." i said, shocking myself and biting my lip to not let any more stupid words out.

"i know, i know you deserve better, that's why this is not a speech for you to take me back but one for you to let go." they said and i looked at them again, expecting for this to be a prank but they could never lie to me, they're terrible at lying. "mingyu invited me and said i should talk to you, i should've approached you earlier but my boyfriend insisted that i should wait and-".

"boyfriend?" i asked.

"yeah he's the one i was with, jaehyun is his name." they muttered almost as if they were feeling guilty for telling me that they were dating someone while i just admitted how i felt. "wonwoo... i'm sorry, i fucked up and i really wanted to stay friends with you but everything passed by so fast, you blocked me, you gave me my things, i tried explaining a million times but you just wouldn't listen to me, to how i felt":

"why should i have? huh?" i asked and laughed bitterly, it's almost as if they couldn't understand the hurt that they've done in the process. "you care so much about yourself it's unbelievable, you understand that what you did was crossing the line yet you expect me to understand how you felt when you left me hanging for so long? when you decided to play with my feelings? when you are now with the guy who you kissed that night while we were still together?" i couldn't stop shaking my head, it was a habit at this point. the weight on my heart felt like it was crumbling as i looked at them one last time.

"have a good life (y/n), don't come looking for me ever again".

[thehorrorsoftheblackbunnymask]

So, some shit happened a Friday where pretty much, in short terms, like, two of my friend pretty much told me every problem they had with me and my friend group.

It kinds got me pissed off, and what got me mad is when they called me a liar.

So, three years ago is a complete blur. It was a very Traumatic time in my life because I was in inconsistent consistent contact with my abuser and just my mental health was just ass. My mind pretty much blocked out that entire school year except for theater, and even that's a blur.

So apparently, I remembered something wrong, and when shit came up abt it, I talked about how I remembered it. And when I said that year was a blur, one of my friends asked why I would forget something so important. Cuz my brain blocked it out, but anyways.

What really pissed me off is the fact that I'm not seeing one of them til the end of summer, and that day was her last day. It's the fact that they did it on her last day. It's the fact that she chose to end on that note with me.

And when it came to my friends, they mentioned how my crush, who's a close friend of mine, was walking all over me and lacked respect for me. It made me mad because they don't see our complete dynamic fr.

And afterwards, they act like nothing happened.

Nah, fuck that shit.

I'm a bad person with bad thoughts and some may consider insane ideals and morals, so I have to put on some kind of mask just so people don't see me for how I truly am, and so I don't fucking get carried away and lose myself and fall back down into a spiral. But, that single interact is causing causing cracks. I'm terrified on the fact I'm gonna lose everything just because of some bullshit. I hate it when my groups mixed, so I keep y'all separate. Sorry if you feel left out, but that's just how I am. This why I hate having a lot of friends, someone is always upset! Not everyone can be happy, I'm sorry. But I don't know what you want me to do. It's a pre-etablished groul you're entering on and I don't know what you want me to do. I have separate friends for a reason, and you just don't fit and I'm sorry for that. Would I be upset if I were you? Yes, I've been in your spot before. But, that's why I always leave and either be on my own and go to my own group. Not everyone can be included, including me, and I'm sorry for that, but I don't know what you want me to do.

You tell me every problem you have with one of my friends, I'm sorry that happened and I'm sorry you feel that way, but I don't know what you want me to do or say to him. He ain't gonna listen to me

I know I defend my friends for some crazy shit, but you don't know what they symbolize for me. Am I wrong for that? Most likely, yeah.

I'm actually tweaking out, I'm sorry. But cracks are starting form and I feel like I'm going crazy. And don't just ask me if I'm OK since I'm being quiet after y'all just said everything wrong with me. You chose to end on that note with me.

I'm a immortal, jealous, apathetic, two faced lunatic who lacks a single sense of self or self worth. You know this.

[farasen]

Leon BPD post

Now, a little disclaimer beforehand: I'm not an expert in mental diseases nor personality disorders, I'm not a psychiatrist or even a psychologist, my knowledge is pretty surface-level. I'm not affirming anything and understand that this is a children's cartoon so the following is nearly impossible to be true, and I'm definitely not trying to offend anybody on purpose. It's just me mumbling about my headcanons, and I'll be interested in hearing your ideas about Leon's mental state, cause he's truly a character tbh.

First of all, what is BPD or borderline personality disorder? It's a mental condition in which person's has drastic mood swings, instability in relationships and self-image.

One of the biggest signs of BPD is fear of abandonment, which Leon clearly shows in s1e8. Actually this is the episode that makes you question his mental health state the most, but I digress. So, in this episode he struggles with feeling left out because of all the lies of some dude, though he never had a good reason to even consider this. That could be connected to paranoia, as he most likely assumed the worst about others and how they view him if his initial thought is that his friend are ganging up on him.

That also leads us to another sign of bpd: unclear self-image. In the same episode Leon has these moments where everyone saying that they should leave him behind and kick him out of the group. Thus, we can assume, that deep inside Leon is not that confident. Furthermore, he always does something to make himself seem to be the best. For example, s1e2 where he wants to be the one to score the final goal or s2e12 where he almost leaves the team to live his dream.

Those moments mentioned above in the 8th episode can be considered as a sign of dissociation too. That is when he breaks down after reading "Marlon's" letter. The voices he hears and the whole change of the surroundings into gray, which, I guess is an artistic choice, however, it still represents him being at his lowest and losing touch with reality.

Another very important sign of bpd is instability in relationships. That often goes along with black and white thinking, which means there's no gray area for those people. It can lead one to either adore or absolutely despise a person. And sometimes the switch can happen in the blink of an eye. Now I don't really remember Leon having a "favorite person", but he does change his attitude towards people who do not what he's expecting from them. Take s1e9 for example, Leon changes his opinion about Markus after finding out he was playing for the other team. While it seems reasonable at first, later on he still refuses to change his mind and even acts as if he doesn't know him. Or in *guess what episode* 8. Marlon immediately becomes his enemy after some lies in the school newspaper. And it's not only about his brother, but the whole team, since all of them were saying bad words about him in his delusions. Also s2e4, a moment with Willi. Yes, everyone thought he abandoned them, but Leon was the first to jump into conclusion...again.

What can also outline bpd is mood swing. Honestly, I can’t remember Leon having those, but I remember one moment from s1e3 where they all came to the field and Leon was like «screw it, I’m out». Maybe that counts as a mood swing? Also, perhaps, the way he acted in the 8th episode can also be considered as a mood swing

Speaking of impulsiveness, it’s definitely s1e1 when he challenges Siegers without thinking. Plus he gets in verbal arguments a lot, though it's more about anger issues.

Now let’s count how many BPD symptoms he has:

Fear of abandonment - yes

Unstable relationships - yes

Unclear or shifting self-image - yes

Impulsive, self-destructive behaviors - yes

Self-harm. Suicidal behavior – no, but obviously you can’t put that in the kid’s show

Extreme emotional swings – mmm, even though there are some moments with it, I wouldn’t say so

Chronic feelings of emptiness - no, not really

Explosive anger - yes

Feeling suspicious or out of touch with reality – yes

6/9 which is enough to get diagnosis.

Another question that can occur: why is he like that?

Well, things that cause BPD can be different, but we wanna look at the child neglect. I’ve already talked about Wessel’s family, but I feel like I need to mention it again. So my theory is that their mother left when they were still at the young age, so their dad had to raise his sons by himself. That could’ve caused trauma for Leon, which later progressed into BPD.

In conlusion,

And I think that’s all I wanted to say. Idk, if you liked this stuff I might do a similar thing with the rest of the gang.

[madamrynodm]

Batman (2022) Sequel thoughts/ideas/wishes

Ok I've thought about this way too much to keep it to myself. So, I cast my thoughts to the void and maybe the void will give me a gold star for my efforts

I've got 2 big hopes/what-ifs for the sequel to The Batman. Easily became one of my favorite superhero films ever, and I cannot wait to see more! Anyway

2 big hopes: Dick Grayson and the Court of Owls. I wanna see them. I wanna see them so bad. I think there's potential for a SICK story if they go that route

1. Dick Grayson. PLEASE GIVE US ROBIN I BEG OF YOU! I think BatPat is a great candidate for a Robin story. Him being fresh on his journey to understand who he is as Bruce and Batman would be great to see contrasted with a young Robin on the trail of vengeance. We could watch him struggle with the desire to help Dick get justice for his parents' deaths (something BatPat hadn't gotten), but also want to protect him from the dark pit Bruce found himself in in the last movie. I'd like for Dick to actually be a kid in this rendition, maybe a teen. Either way, let him be young. I wanna see Bruce lose his mind trying to be a parent while Alfred watches smugly

2. Court of Owls 🦉 They'd be perfect here! Now, I don't want them to be the Big Bads yet. Let's just uncover them. The death of the Graysons can lead the film, and we can discover a deeper conspiracy linked to them later on (set up a 3rd movie?). If I remember correctly, in the Court of Owls run (2011?), they orchestrated the Grayson murders to try and nab Dick. Bring him into their fold as a new assassin. The Court could also play into Bruce's continued struggles with the Wayne family legacy and the "sins of the father" theme (what with the Court manipulating the Waynes for generations)

Ok ok ok now for the meat and potatoes of my rant. Here's how I'd run the Batman sequel if I had any power or even vague experience in filmmaking:

We open the movie loud. The opposite of the first. I'm talking bright lights and loud music. It's a carnival, a public event. Something to raise money for Gotham. Bruce is there, and he hates it. But, hey, if he wants to help the city, he's gotta step up his public game. We follow him through this loud, oppressive environment to the big top. Time for the main event. Circus begins, all eyes on the center ring. Introduce the Graysons! We got Mom, Dad, and Dick all performing their hearts out. The movie gets louder, everyone loves their performance!

Then, it goes dead silent. The Graysons fall. They die in front of everyone, right there. Bruce and Dick both have front row seats to the tragedy. The circus goes nuts, but we don't hear a thing. Cut to later, Dick is alone, maybe with the police, an EMT, idk. Anyway, in a scene that mirrors the mayor's kid in the 1st movie, Bruce sees Dick suffering alone and takes him in. (I don't know if that is when a formal adoption happens or if that's saved for the end of the film)

Moving on, Bruce takes to the streets as the Bat, investigating the Grayson deaths. Something's wrong. This is shaping up to be a murder. He later investigates another murder. Pull this scene from the comics, Owl motifs, warnings, all that. Movie follows that line of tying the seemingly unrelated deaths together and finding the Court beneath it all.

Maybe give Dick a bit of Tim Drake and let him catch on that something is up with Bruce. Dick wants in, he wants to find his parents' killer. Bruce lets him, recognizing his desire for justice and thinking that it'll help this kid. Shenanigans ensue. Like I said before (I think), a central arc we could see is Bruce now watching the path of vengeance from the outside, trying to help this scared and hurt kid heal while giving him and his parents the justice they deserve. Further examination of what it means to be a hero, what it means to truly heal, etc.

We can wrap up with Dick bringing the killer to justice and finding some peace. But it ain't over yet, as Bruce realizes that there's something deeper going on. Gotham's boogeyman, the Court of Owls, is real! And they're up to something! BA BA BA!!

I think Dick should become Robin in act 1 or the start of act 2. Either way, if we are gonna get a live action Robin, I wanna see him in action! Also I wanna see people like Gordon and Martinez react to Bats just... suddenly having a child around. Let Dick make bad jokes please 🙏

Whew! That's is for me! I finally wrote this all down, maybe I can clear out some brain space now

[nebulousfishgills]

I recently extended Emily's transformation scene in Diplopia since when I originally wrote it I hadn't read Breaking Dawn or Life and Death to understand how transformation works in this universe (which I have since done) and figured I'd just post it here as well for funsies since I'm actually quite proud of it.

(Tagging @practically-an-x-man since I think you'll be interested)

Emily felt a sharp pain in her neck as she felt Caius' teeth sink into her skin. She seethed, feeling her blood trickle down the length of her neck. Caius let go, pulling back to show his lips stained with her blood. Emily only had a second to process it before she felt a clear burning sensation in her neck. At the moment, it wasn't as bad as she remembered getting struck by lightning had been, but it still hurt.

It got worse the more it spread, slowly and agonizingly, but Emily didn't dare scream in pain if she could help it. She sucked in rapid breaths through her teeth while letting out the occasional gutteral groan from the back of her throat. Once her body started rapidly twitching, the edges of her vision started to black out. Emily's lip quivered as Caius held her close, almost protective.

"It hurts..." She groaned, the only thing she would allow herself to say. The burning pain only grew worse, Emily shrieked through gritted teeth. Caius soothingly shushed her, dragging his fingers through her hair.

"I know, agapé. It's okay. Just let it happen." Caius said to her. He laid Emily back on the bed as she started seizing up. By now the pain was blinding, but Emily still refused to scream. She refused to show weakness, not even here.

The burn only continued to spread, reaching her arms and chest before long. Fire was a source of comfort for her, but now it felt like she was being roasted alive, tossed into a bonfire carelessly. The imaginary flames licked at her, melting her from the inside out. Was her hair even still attached? If her whole body was on fire, surely her hair was being singed off in the process.

Not my hair. I can't lose it again. Henry loves my hair.

Finally a loud, gutteral scream tore itself from her throat once the burn had reached her toes, her heart beating hard and fast as if to fight against the war within her body. Beating, bravely beating to resist the burn. Her last line of defense. But it ached, if not from the fight but from the hurt she'd felt before. Yearning for Caius to make the pain stop, for Henry to hold her, assure her that it would be okay. Keep fighting. It hurts, but you can't give up. You're strong, you'll endure this. You'll be okay.

It sounded like something he could have said many times in their past. The lab, the fall into the void... or maybe the voice she was imagining came from Caius right next to her, encouraging her to hold on. Suddenly she couldn't tell which was which. Reality seemed to blend with imagination, time seemed to slow and speed up all at once. Her eyes were open, then closed, then opened again, but it was dark either way. She thought she saw red, but it could also have been her mind imagining the flames that danced around her body. Consumed her.

How long had passed? Minutes? Seconds? Maybe even hours? She couldn't tell. Emily felt her body moving here and there, although she couldn't tell if someone was moving her or if she was spasming alone.

Maybe death wouldn't be so bad. Wasn't death supposed to be cold and dark? She craved the cold, whatever to soothe the burn.

I thought becoming a vampire was supposed to be an escape from my pain and fear, my way to finally feel peace. If this is peace, I don't want it. Just let me go home, please, I just wanna wake up and be home. Am I awake or asleep? Maybe I'm dying. It feels like I'm dying. Death sounds nice right about now. It's cold, probably peaceful. That's what Henry wanted for me, right? Peace? A nice, comfortable absence sounds wonderful.

Emily had no way of telling how much time had passed or was passing. Minutes felt like years, days felt like seconds. She heard voices through the burn, the fog, although they could have belonged to people or just risen up from her imagination.

Isn't she beautiful? She'll only get better. I didn't think it was possible for her to look even more beautiful. She's everything we'd hoped she'd be... I just wish you were here to see it.

You're so beautiful... We're going to change the world, just the two of us...

She's almost done, I think.

A perfect specimen. No doubt her strength will have grown... Alas, we have to leave her for now. I need you for something.

A specimen? She thought. No, I'm not a specimen. I'm a person. I stopped being a specimen ages ago.

Could you have used a more revolting descriptor? And no, you can surely handle it yourself. I don't want to leave her.

I need you for it, but if she wakes, you can come back.

Fine. I'll be right back, my love. You're being so brave... so strong... I love you.

Maybe it was seconds later, maybe an hour, but the burn, that horrible burn started to fade. She could feel her toes, her fingers. It was like she'd dipped them into an ice bath. Sweet relief that spread to her hands and feet. Slowly... although her heart, her poor brave heart only got hotter, beat faster. The very fires of hell descended upon her chest, only getting worse the more time passed.

Emily could feel her face cooling off, slight stretches of her skin as it almost reformed around her features. A tingle ran up and down her right half, dancing across where her scars should be. Things were shifting, or perhaps finishing their changes. Her heart beat faster and faster, growing hotter and hotter.

Feeling returned to her arms and legs. Her limbs and digits twitched experimentally, the movement felt refreshing. And smooth. Her torso cooled off, only left with her heart, beating faster than should be possible, hotter than all the other heat had been. Emily couldn't even scream, she just gasped for air that wouldn't come. She lurched, groaning before falling back.

Finally, finally, the burn faded. She would have thought death finally had claimed her had her awareness told her otherwise. Then, after a hard fought battle, her heart gave three final strong beats, Thor's last steps after defeating Jörmungandr. It's earned a nice rest.

Her heart and body finally stilled, allowing herself to sit in a perfect, burn free bliss.

[dangerpronebuddie]

#but i had a thought#do we think eddie really doesn't remember or did he say what buck needed to hear?

Oh, babe, don't get me started on this because I have so many thoughts laskoaksaoks there are a few possibilities there: Eddie really doesn't remember, he remembers something he can't tell Buck for whatever reason, he remembers something that would upset Buck at that moment. But there's also a lot to consider. In my fantasy land I exist in a space where they'll do what was done in castle when Kate gets shot, Castle says he loves her and then she says she doesn't remember because she's not ready to deal with the feelings yet and that will come up again. Because since I'm a "the shooting is Eddie's oh moment" truther and Buck is in a very vulnerable place, he wouldn't admit to it, so to say he only remembers the basics is what he thinks is best for Buck, since Buck is not in a place to receive that confession or maybe Eddie is not ready to say it yet. But it is a possibility that Eddie says that he doesn't remember because what he remembers is Buck and that would just upset Buck. And it's not even that far off, to say if he does remember something, he remembers Buck, because Buck was the one that went to get him, Buck is the one who got him in the truck, Buck is the one applying pressure, so for his focus to be solely on Buck is plausible and kind of expected, but to say "oh, all I remember is you" would not give Buck what Buck needed at that moment, it open a different wound, for both of them really. And there's also the layer that Eddie is uniquely placed to understand how it was for Buck to get him at moment, and Buck is not coping, so he could've also done some projecting and decided "I'm not gonna be the one to trigger him here, not when he came to me for safety" and just, lied to protect him.

So basically, I think he remembers and didn't want to confess, a little "I can't tell you what I remember because what I remember are my feelings about you and I can't tell you that now maybe at all", I accept there's a chance he remembers and said he didn't because he didn't want to trigger Buck further since he's already in a really raw state of mind since he died. There's also always the he's telling the truth and he doesn't remember scenario. That one could stay that way and he never remembers or they could trigger him in some way and extend the conversation further. But, personally, I'm a he's lying believer.

Darling we're on the same wavelength lol!

That man definitely remembers and I too am a believer in the shooting being his "oh" moment. He reaches for Buck twice. Twice! And I absolutely adore that he didn't lose consciousness until he knew Buck was safe.

I absolutely love that they allowed Eddie to be Buck's safe space. Eddie knows exactly what Buck's going through (to an extent, I mean he didn't actually die but still.) He gets it. He had no idea how to process his survival. (Drag and drop Buck into Frank's office already I'm begging at this point.) (Frank's my hero honestly.)

If they play it out and have Eddie remember I might have a coronary. That is my ideal scenario. Something could happen to trigger those memories, for either or both, and it could be an excellent opportunity for them to talk about something they've been avoiding since it happened.

If Eddie really doesn't remember, I wouldn't be surprised, but he's hidden things from Buck before (*cough cough* will) so I'm fairly certain he remembers. But even saying he did would've revealed way too much to Buck. Buck didn't need a confession on top of his death- which he's still refusing to process- so Eddie gave him what he needed at the time.

I wonder how they would bring that up again, if they do at all. They could respond to a shooting, or a bad call where best friends have a similar experience, or even respond to a call on that street. I just think it would be so wonderful if they actually ran with it. 6x12 was the first time Eddie actually talked about it, especially to Buck, and I think now that Eddie's in therapy he could be more open to talking about it.

And honestly the body language is what makes me really think he remembers and is protecting Buck. He doesn't look at Buck while he describes it until he says "this is it- this is the last moment of my life." THAT RIGHT THERE tells me he remembers. He avoids eye contact the rest of the time he's talking about it and subtly shakes his head. Hmmmmm.

I dunno. Anything about the shooting makes me go feral so... yeah.

[bara-to-heart]

Rules Need To Be Followed

Hey, it's Kazumi and Riddle here to give you the rules we'd like you to follow on our account!

Of course, Kazumi. Anyone who can't follow these rules knows what's waiting for them.

Riddle dear, don't threaten people... But honestly these rules aren't that hard to follow so-

1. Riddle is a minor (17) and so am I. Any mildly suggestive things are okay (think kissing, flirting, etc), but nothing full on explicit/NSFW. Platonic relationships are definitely okay!! Any blogs that don't want to interact with minors should steer clear.

2. Please remember to be kind! Riddle is a person too, and he can get hurt. Any asks that I deem harmful will be deleted.

3. Any time me and Riddle talk together, I will be in blue and Riddle will be in white. When he is talking alone, he will also be in white. To add to that, I will most likely be speaking in the tags because I talk a lot (and so Riddle doesn't see my chatter). Please feel free to ignore this! I absolutely don't mind.

4. I use headcanons in my portrayal of Riddle; I try to be as canon compliant as possible with the knowledge that I have of him.

5. Absolutely no homophobia, racism, transphobia, etc. Regular DNI criteria applies here.

6. If Riddle doesn't respond to you, please don't feel too bad! He is a student and works hard to get perfect scores throughout all of the classes he takes, as well as participating in his club. It is not a surprise that he might lose track of time.

7. That being said, I am also a full-time high school student, and so it is likely that my replies will be fully messed up (read: I tend to procrastinate by doing fun things and then I have a week to catch up on all my schoolwork). Please be mindful of that and don't spam me and Riddle.

8. OCs? Absolutely! I love seeing your OCs. Make sure to send in a description of them either beforehand or in your starter (unless Riddle doesn't know your character at all, I guess - but it would still help to have a general overview). If there's nothing of the sort, I will automatically assume that your character and Riddle have never met. However, I am not comfortable with the first interaction with an OC being a romantic one, as it has become a problem before for me.

9. I can speak a little bit of Japanese (my parents are Japanese but I haven't actually tried to learn it well so it may be messy (though I'm working on it)) and I am learning Spanish (in school) so! I am willing to write replies using those languages as well as English (and I will automatically use honorifics like "-senpai" for upperclassmen so keep that in mind). Spanish I can't guarantee though because it kind of can suck (as well as Japanese).

10. I also love shipping and am not very selective (I love seeing rare pairs, and in general seeing how their ship would work out). So, feel free to do that too! Before they get into a relationship, though, they need to have at least some sort of interaction beforehand (because I want to get to know you too, and even if you're playing a canon character, I still want to do some regular stuff first) To add to that, I am a multishipper, so each relationship happens in its own verse.

11. OOC talks? I love them, but if you aren't talking directly to Riddle or something about him, then I'd redirect you to @kazumirambles which is my regular ol' talking blog (so I don't spam anyone).

12. Anons will always be treated platonically by Riddle (as he doesn't know you that much), but you are welcome to send all your love to him! He does enjoy having the attention. Also, if you want to be known with an emoji, you will be tagged as "kantokusei [emoji]" so there's also that!

13. Mun does not equal muse!! Riddle may say/do things that I would not do or that I don't condone. We do not share the same feelings or actions all the time.

And finally, remember to have fun!

Of course, and make sure to follow the Queen of Hearts' rules as well.

Yes, but don't let that hold you back (Riddle no I will at least loosely follow the rules I swear)

[blubushie]

The types of animals people have sympathy for baffles me. You run over a squirrel with a car, nobody gives a shit. You let a fish suffocate in a cooler like most folk do while fishing, not a peep. But if you have the audacity to give an animal that folks find charismatic or relatable (typically larger mammals) a good, quick, clean death? Suddenly everyone loses their minds. It’s astounding to me that there are people who will gladly eat a pork chop they buy at a grocery store will then come at bitch about someone hunting invasive pigs. The invasive pig is the same goddamn thing but immensely more sustainable, and it probably lived a better life than the factory farmed pig in the refrigerator section of the grocery store anyways. And as an added bonus, they usually taste better! Literally where is the issue?

Nah yeah that's exactly how it is lmao. The funny part is that people call me cruel and shit, I've been called a monster and a murderer and cold-blooded and all that shit and it's at a point where it just doesn't get to me anymore. It's funny to think that the bloke what spends his days blowing out brains is the same bloke that pulls over to move a snake out of the track so it won't get hit by a driver who cares less than I do.

Funny part is that I actually get emotional when I hit an animal with my car. Reckon it's just not the same thing when you're anticipating it like when I'm working. It's only happened twice. First time was in NM when I hit a squirrel that ran across the road at the worst possible time. Felt horrible for a week after that. Second time was NSW near Dubbo with a wombat and I felt TERRIBLE. Pulled over, put my hazards on, got out, made sure it was dead, rolled it over, saw it was male, immediate sigh of relief because no pouched young. Then I dragged him off into a shady spot a few metres from the road near some bushes so any scavengers wouldn't be struck if they came to feed. I was only there for twenty minutes but I must've apologised to him two dozen times because I felt so bad about it and it was definitely my fault since I was tired but I was trying to get to Sydney ASAP and I feel bad just remembering it.

I also don't let fish suffocate, either in an esky or on the bank. If it's a carp it's getting thwacked and bled and left on the bank for the scavengers (fuck carp). If it's something I'm going to eat it gets thwacked and bled and gutted to eat.

And yeah, the supermarket meat vs hunted meat disparity is fucking hilarious to me. People also just don't realise where their food comes from. Had a woman bitch to me once about me being a roo shooter and when I asked her if she's ever eaten kangaroo she said she not only feeds it to her dog but that she also buys kangaroo steaks at Woolies but "that's different because it's farmed." We don't farm kangaroos in Australia. All kangaroo meat in the shops is sourced from wild animals and gotten to you by a roo shooter. Your steak? Roo shooter. Your dog food? Roo shooter. Your leather? Roo shooter.

People want to eat their meals and not think about where their food comes from or the fact it was a living animal once and that's the problem. If it's in an abattoir it's behind closed doors and they don't have to think about it. Nevermind the fact it's unsustainable and damaging to the environment--they don't want to think about it.

[keiyaku-tako]

Every Contract Needs a Set of Rules

Hey, it's Kazumi and Azul here to give you the rules we'd like you to follow on our account!

Yes, Kazumi-san. Everyone who wishes to speak to us needs to follow by these rules. After all, any contract has rules, does it not?

No need to speak so formally... But yeah!

1. Azul is a minor (17) and so am I. Any mildly suggestive things are okay (think kissing, flirting, etc), but nothing full on explicit/NSFW. Platonic relationships are definitely okay!! Any blogs that don't want to interact with minors should steer clear.

2. Please remember to be kind! Azul is a person too, and he can get hurt. Any asks that I deem harmful will be deleted.

3. Any time me and Azul talk together, I will be in blue and Azul will be in white. When he is talking alone, he will also be in white. To add to that, I will most likely be speaking in the tags because I talk a lot (and so Azul doesn't see my chatter). Please feel free to ignore this! I absolutely don't mind.

4. I use headcanons in my portrayal of Azul; I try to be as canon compliant as possible with the knowledge that I have of him.

5. Absolutely no homophobia, racism, transphobia, etc. Regular DNI criteria applies here.

6. If Azul doesn't respond to you, please don't feel too bad! He runs the Mostro Lounge and he spends most of his time doing that, doing schoolwork, participating in his club, etc... He sometimes loses track of time. He will reply, just be patient.

7. That being said, I am also a full-time high school student, and so it is likely that my replies will be fully messed up (read: I tend to procrastinate by doing fun things and then I have a week to catch up on all my schoolwork). Please be mindful of that and don't spam me and Azul.

8. OCs? Absolutely! I love seeing your OCs. Make sure to send in a description of them either beforehand or in your starter (unless Azul doesn't know your character at all, I guess - but it would still help to have a general overview). If there's nothing of the sort, I will automatically assume that your character and Azul have never met. However, I am not comfortable with the first interaction with an OC being a romantic one, as it has become a problem before for me.

9. I can speak a little bit of Japanese (my parents are Japanese but I haven't actually tried to learn it well so it may be messy (though I'm working on it)) and I am learning Spanish (in school) so! I am willing to write replies using those languages as well as English (and I will automatically use honorifics like "-san" so keep that in mind). Spanish I can't guarantee though because it kind of can suck.

10. I also love shipping and am not very selective (I love seeing rare pairs, and in general seeing how their ship would work out). So, feel free to do that too! Before they get into a relationship, though, they need to have at least some sort of interaction beforehand (because I want to get to know you too, and even if you're playing a canon character, I still want to do some regular stuff first) To add to that, I am a multishipper, so each relationship happens in its own verse.

11. OOC talks? I love them, but if you aren't talking directly to Azul or something about him, then I'd redirect you to @kazumirambles which is my regular ol' talking blog (so I don't spam anyone).

12. Anons will always be treated platonically by Azul (as he doesn't know you that much), but you are welcome to send all your love to him! He genuinely appreciates it (it gives his ego a boost). Also, if you want to be known with an emoji, you will be tagged as "kantokusei-san [emoji]" so there's also that!

13. Mun does not equal muse!! Azul may say/do things that I would not do or that I don't condone. We do not share the same feelings or actions all the time.

And finally, remember to have fun!

Was that really necessary?

Yes, don't be so boring Azul. Having fun is important!

[bendybutnot]

DAMNIT I WAS WRITING ANOTHER POST BECAUSE TWO PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED AND I WANNA RAMBLE AND I FORGOT TO SAVE

I LOST EVERYTHING I WROTE FOR MORE INFORMATION

AN HOUR I WILL NOT GET BACK! VALUABLE WORDS I WON'T REMEMBER!

It's fine it's fine, ILL WRITE IT ALL AGAIN IN DIFFERENT WORDING!!! YyyyyyeeeaAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

ALRIGHT.

SO, the animatronics being the boys? HILARIOUS, PERFECT EVEN, WHY THE HELL NOT. SO, THE MAIN CAST IN SECURITY BREACH IS FOUR, SO WE'D NEED THREE MORE BECAUSE WE'RE ALREADY COUNTING WARRIOR'S IN FREDDY'S PLACE.

I'm thinking, maybe Legend, Sky, Wild. I totally didn't almost forget I chose Wild in the first lineup before I forgot to save. I'm totally not salty at myself.

But that's just the main four, so if there's more animatronics they could either be random or more of the boys.

WE'D ALSO NEED A SECURITY GUARD.

Oh my god I just got an idea for Tatl to be the security guard what has the world come to/j

AND WHO TAKES MOTHERFUCKING WILLIAM AFTON'S PLACE????? GANON?????? MIND YOU I DIDN'T THINK THIS THROUGH I ONLY THOUGHT OF A VAGUE CONCEPT AND SOME STORYLINE BECAUSE I REALIZED IT AND I WENT "AINT NO WAY THIS IS PERFECT"

Alright alright, so SOME STORYLINE I THOUGHT UP

Mask has two older sisters, Saria who is 12 and Navi who is 14. Mask himself is ten, don't ask how they're literally all two years apart, I don't know either 🤡

So, they had good parents. They were really good parents actually! (Or they could've actually been really bad,,,) But then they died somehow and some way. Be creative! The siblings get sent to an orphanage afterwards, but they really don't wanna split and end up in different houses (completely reasonable, I'd say), but then maybe that does happen! A couple might want to adopt one out of the three, maybe even two out of the three, but not all of them. They don't really like that of course, so they could possibly avoid it and run away! Yk,,, bonus points if the reason is even sadder. BONUS BONUS POINTS IF THEY DO GET SEPARATED. BONUS BONUS BONUS POINTS IF THEY GET SEPARATED AND MASK TRIES TO RUN AFTER THEM BUT GETS LOST.

So, this could go Multiple Ways. They could get the hell outta there and just decide to live alone, a pretty bad idea in hindsight, but they make it work! Navi, however, decided to go off into a near arcade restaurant thing because they needed the food and she decided to go and try sneaking some out! It was a stupid idea, especially because they knew children were going missing in there, but Navi promised to be careful and return as soon as possible! The younger two let her go even if they REALLY REALLY REALLY don't think it's a good idea, and surprise surprise she doesn't come back! Saria and Mask are, of course, WORRIED. BECAUSE OH GOD THATS IN THEIR WORST NIGHTMARES.

They faithfully wait for her to come back, being sure to get themselves as much food and water as they could. Mask is good at sneaking, so he can do a pretty good job at that! If only the stores hadn't started to catch on 💀.....

It eventually becomes WAY TOO LONG for Navi to be missing, and as the days go by, the two get even MORE worried for their older sister. Now, Saria gets the idea to go look for her in the arcade thing that hasn't been decided on what it is yet unless we decide to completely go by SB and make it something like the megaplex. So Mask is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REEEEALLLYYYY reluctant on letting Saria go, but against his 100% better judgement he lets her go look. He doesn't really like the idea, because he REALLY doesn't wanna lose both his sisters, but what's he supposed to do?! Nobodies gonna listen to a little kid!

He ended up being right, because Saria didn't return either.

He has a dreadful feeling in his stomach, one of worry, because OH GOD BOTH HIS SISTERS ARE MISSING NOW 😭😭😭. It takes him around a week? Maybe less? To go look for his sisters. And then this spirals down to the haywire animatronics (Warriors being an acception) and the horrors to behold of getting tracked down by blood hungry animatronics and some creepy lookin' lizard who WANTS HIM MCFUCKIN DEAD

Okay so, he honestly just sneaks into the place by trailing along with a huge crowd. Nobody even notices he's there, which is honestly by SHEER LUCK, but he'll take it. He spends some time sneaking around, looking for his sisters before he gets sidetracked by something cool in the building. A security guard tries to lure him away, but he doesn't really think that's normal and he basically nopes the security guard and runs as fast as possible, security guard hot on his trail.

Now around this time, Warriors could malfunction and leave Mask a PERFECT hiding spot, OR, if the animatronics end up looking more humanoid than like animals, he hides in Warrior's green room! He hides anywhere he knows the security guard won't find him, and eventually, a malfunctioned Wars is brought in the room!

BUT THATS JUST ONE OUTCOME.

THERES SO MUCH THAT COULD HAPPEN WITH THE DIFFERENT MENTIONED OUTCOMES I IGNORED WRITING, and I'll write more later it's just late and I'm tired and energetic at the same time 🤝, there's so many plot holes I could fix that huge plot hole in a different story I'm making with it 🤡🤡🤡, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LISTENING TO A NEW RAMBLE I'LL WRITE MORE LATER HAHAHAHA

[borathae]

hey hey hey

okay so here it goes

So I was thinking about how MV!tae proapably wasn't interested in Jungkook prior to "Rache", or maybe he was but wasn't going to do anything. I imagine that cell incident just woke all of the sexual yearning inside of him you know especially after he left emprisonnement he just was so deprived of touch and affection and his grief for jimin made him just incredibly parched for a romantic/sensual connection with a boy.

So one night my boy just can't get kookie out of his head, what had happened, his touch, his mouth, eyes and skin and you know how tae is a such an artist and creative he decides to put it in pen. he writes the mostly explicit sexual letter confession you can think of (I GOT THIS IDEA FROM ATENEMENT MOVIE) detailing what he wishes to do to him etc but it's like the atonement movie, full of yearning, filthy and carnal and full of need but sentimental tae style vocabulary and sweet talking. and it helps him get it out of his system, with koo being away with yoongi so he hides that letter and forgets about it.

NOW, present day jungkook was one day in tae's atelier maybe he was looking for something or tae asked him to look for a specific document and he finds it!

I really thought of it as a drabble first where you'd write either: 1. the content of the letter simply to us or 2. the incident where jungkook finds it and confronts tae and what happens after.

ok that what i was thinking of i'm sorry if it's too lengthy sibigirl but i just love this idea so much and i love the atonement movie so much maybe tae even got this idea from the movie idk

Not you mentioning Atonement, how DARE YOU listen. I watched this movie when I was like fifteen and even back then I was broken by it. I think I need to rewatch it now with my mature and wise mind (LMOAOA KIDDING I'm still an idiot, just more romantic and soft afnadsnf) and get my heart broken 😭😭😭 also back then I didn't know I was bi yet, so I think if I rewatched it now I'll just lose my mind over James McAvoy and Keira Knightley equally fnadsnf 😶 EITHER WAY FAJDFJ that was my rant about beautiful people and sad movies fandsfn

i feel like Kookie would be way too polite to actually open the letter at first

because Tae stored it in an empty envolope with no receiver on it

so he'd just go "what's this?", pick it up and then put it away again

"nothing for me" he'd say innocently and go looking for the document Tae needed

meanwhile Tae had a moment of panic watching the entire scene unfold, secretly going "fuck, fuck, fuck"

but then when kook puts it away again, a wave of dissapointment overcomes him

"why didn't he open it?" he would keep thinking that all throughout the day

they would spend the day together painting next to each other and listening to music

and while koo is all like "lalala" singing happily to the sings whilst painting a sundown

Tae can't help but think about the letter

he forgot about it too and only remembered that he wrote it when kook picked it up

and NOW HE NEEDS KOOKIE TO SEE IT

DESPERATELY

he needs it to BAD

so after kookie left for the day, Tae made up a plan

it wasn't even a great plan

he places the letter next to Kook's half-finished painting, knowing that he will see it the next day

and he did

at first Kook was confused going all "huh? what's that envelope doing here?"

while tae is all like "I have no idea, perhaps you forgot it yesterday?"

and sweet koo goes all like "I did? I can't remember."

while Tae is all like secretly inside "JUST OPEN IT OMFG!" but to Koo he is all calm and collected "perhaps you should open it?"

and kook hahaha he goes "but I don't know if it's for me. I can't do that, it's rude."

and Tae literally wants to throw something because how CAN SOMEONE BE SO BLIND TO WHAT IS GOING ON??

but to him he goes all "you won't know until you didn't open it. please I am so curious what it is"

and so Koo does and he begins reading

while Tae sits on needles

he watches how Kook's face gets redder and redder and how he begins to fumble more and more

and by the time the letter is over, Kook is breathing heavily and his pupils are so obviously dilated

and he lowers the letter

the silence between them is fucking intense

tense and heavy and so goddamn suffocating

Kook is silent and Tae's thoughts are racing

why isn't he saying aynthing? why is he looking so shocked? does he hate it? was he too disgsting in the letter?

Tae is SCARED

and then Kook moves

using his powers for it and leaving Tae no time to react

one second Tae is sitting by his painting and the next he finds himself colliding with a wall

HARSHLY

like the kind of roughly and harshly that a human would probably walk away with broken ribs

but Tae isnt in pain

no, Tae is moaning because Kook is holding him, pressing him against a wall as a second later his lips claim his' in a passionate kiss

no words needed to be exchanged because their bodies will do all the talking