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bussinpoots · 5 months

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Getting asked at the Gym by my trainer: "So what was your reason for deciding to work out like this?"

What I said: "Just want to finally get on top of my health." What I meant, "I feel dumb for this being my mini fitness dream, but I always wanted to be one day asked to in one of those mr beast hide and seek videos. i dont even want the money (i do need it but this is a silly dream im talking about) I just want to be the guy who is absolutely batshit insane but seemed normal when first on camera but is like. hiding gymnastic king god. My proudest accomplishment is that I've never been found in a hide and seek game. It's lame as hell. I want it so bad. Do I think this would ever happen? fuck no. But I pretend in my mind it will and it gets me up to work out bc what if mr beast turned up at my door like "Hi niche faceless guy who used to stream 10 years ago but didn't keep up with it. be in my video." then he flies me to America to be in a video.

My second dream for when the first one doesn't get me out of bed is "the circus will never hire you if you wont even get out of bed"

either way im still clown

#“you have a trainer why do you need mr beast money”#bc that's the only thing I spend money on that isn't food or fuel #i live with a family member that needs in house care but she pays our bills in exchange for that #so i dont have bills to pay right now #that wont last forever though so im trying to get a better job #bc i cant keep just selling pictures of my hands to that one british guy i only know by his ulquiorra pfp #plus i only see my trainer twice a month compared to some of the other people he sees multiple times a week #he lets me know how much progress i made and gives tips and shit. plus lets me know things like what i need change for certain goals #bc im bad at research and hate using the internet so idm paying someone to just. help me sometimes #i should do furry commissions and get bank #but i haven't drawn furry stuff for years except for my pfp #and that was just a quick thing from b4 i knew how to work firealpaca or just digital art in general

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deoidesign · 3 months

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I'm so mad that post was misinformation because there is actually an EXTREMELY important conversation to have about the production schedules artists are forced into. There's no need for exaggeration, the conditions are bad.

I work for webtoon. My publication schedule is weekly. While publishing I'm required 10-15 pages a week. Fully colored.

This means I'm finishing a 150 page fully colored graphic novel every 10-15 weeks.

When my comic is not updating, I am not getting paid. Any time writing, editing, or off is out of my own pocket. I don't get healthcare. They do not provide any assistants. They expect me to promote myself; they chose to deprioritize me before I even launched and gave me an end date half a year in. I never had a chance.

And this is the industry standard! Every company has artists forced into crunch hours, overtime, and burnout. Artists are literally dying early due to it. So many of my friends can't afford to go to the doctor.

It's unsustainable and untenable, and it's also the expectation our audiences have.

If we want to have this conversation, there's plenty of conversation to be had with the realities of the situation. It's bad as is.

#and people get mad at us about 'short updates' lmfao #the companies are absolutely abusing our passion and our desperate situations #but readers genuinely offer little to no grace #if I am going to be able to leave #then the conditions for me to be able to leave need to exist #and they just Dont right now #I'm not making nearly enough to pay my bills without webtoon #I NEED the job #I dont have a car #I cant fucking afford one #I can't drive anyway #I NEED TO WORK #THIS IS MY JOB #I want to leave I'm being mistreated but I CANT!!!#anyways. whatever #I'm so fucking upset that someone just idk spread misinformation #and now the conversation is about like nooo she was under the same shit conditions as everyone else #she's just a really good writer #like okay that's awesome and I'm really glad #but WOULDNT IT BE NICE IF SHE WASNT ALSO OVERWORKED?#AND ALSO IF GOOD WRITERS WERE ABLE TO WRITE WELL WITHOUT HAVING TO BE OUTLIERS???#god it makes me so so so mad!!!!#fucking ruining a really important conversation to have!!!#we're mistreated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we just are!!!!!!!!!!1 #I'm not paid enough to build the savings to take risks!#this 6 month break was EVERYTHING #I NEED to start working to pay my bills now #like it's over I ran out of time #its heartbreaking #I hate it here

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brother-emperors · 1 month

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sforza siblings :)

just. scribbling out galeazzo and ascanio, during one of ascanio's visits back home. somewhere between 1473-1475, probably

⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app / insta / tip jar!

#italian renaissance tag #i want to draw them hunting together but i realized i dont know anything about. hunting. wrt this context specifically #so that comic will have to wait until i finish reading this book on akhenaten. i gotta do Actual Research for that comic #but not until i finish reading about akhenaten #i should probably add mccall's making the renaissance man onto my research list instead of my fun reading list #i saw ludovico sforza mentioned in the table of contents and i do love the sforzas #tragically. you pay bills and suddenly $35 for a book feels intimidating. the economy & jobs market is in shambles etc #anway. the things i would do for a collection of sforza sibling letters all collected in one place and also in my hands Right Now #drawing tag

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wall-e-gorl · 2 days

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oh btw, work is reducing my hours cause summer is ending and they dont desperately need people there anymore so ill be more gung ho about my comms being open once october hits o7

#(this is good btw)#i dont pay bills i dont buy our Groceries im not gonna be desperate for money #ill just have more time to actually draw comms in a reasonable time frame #i do have them open right now i am just not reblogging the post and making it obvious and stuff #id love to have the time and energy to draw as much as i want to but GOD work takes so much time and energy and recovering time #the otherday i had to spend several hours just laying down cause something at work gave me a headache and by the time it was gone-#i had no time to do anything before i had to sleep

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brine-in-my-eyes · 2 months

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is anyone at the club feeling dizzy snd uncertain

#im bothered by alot of things right now and im gonna vomit #apparently my moms medical bill reached up to fucking 500k so uhm thats neat. my dad even said he literally can barely afford to pay for it #shes back home now with a tube attached to her and im still here taking care of the house. i really feel kind of numb sometimes #i dont want to be with anyone today i just want to be alone #thise house feels so small inside #and i hate how my bed feels #delete later #i dunno #even this chocolate drink i made for myself tastes like shit #im not strong enough to do this on my own everyones congratulating me for enrolling into college but im still still so tired and scared #but its always me who has to be everyone elses comfort i have to be the one to clean i have to be the one to cook i have to take the burden #because im the eldest im the oldest im the more experienced and i cant do this anymore its too much all the time

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cherrygarden · 6 months

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#i hate being more financially responsible than my parents #I HATE IT #like i've lived through them obsessing over bills and having our services cut many many times and risk our shit being taken from us #and have to listen to my dad making phone calls begging for money from friends and how humilliating that is #and now we're doing a little better but i was raised with that stress and that just doesnt go away #and i see them spend money on shit we don't need and that would be fine if we didn't still have many debts and health issues we keep postpo #postponing bc we don't have money #and since my exchange i've been feeling so guilty about how much money it cost them #and ive talked to them about it when i was applying to give them the chance to tell me no and reconsider #and during it bc i felt like the worst person alive for needing to eat #and after bc i put them in so much debt with my uni that i can't enroll for this semester #and so much shit has happened and ive been feeling guilty and a waste of money and space and most of the time i feel like a shell of myself #and they see it but they dont know what to do because instead of comforting me ever they just put me in a psychologist's office #and just now my mom smiled at me and told me that since they weren't able to give me any presents last year they were talking #and wanted to buy me tickets for lollapalooza this weekend #and i want to go so badly and i entered so many giveaways and stuff but i didnt win so i was also sad about that #but i just looked at her like 😐 because we are definitely not in a financial situation to be spending money like that #like i appreciate the gesture but i've taken enough from them and i already feel guilty #i told her i would feel guilty and wouldn't enjoy it bc they literally don't have the money #and she said ''oh we just can't pay the full amount that we owe right now but we have enough''#???? then put the money on a savings account????? not spend it because you have '''extra'''#which you dont even have!!!!! i told her to prioritise our health bc we all have to get blood work done and exams and multiple doctors and #our general bills!!! like there's more important things that would put me more at ease than a concert which yes would have made me happy #but not like this and not when it's a present out of guilt and inability to know me #and i was crying and she was sad at my reaction and i had to apologise for not accepting it and being like this #literally told her ''i also wish i wasnt like this'' and she said nothing #so that was a fun start to my day :)))))))))#i hate that she thought it was a good idea and i hate that i had to say no #at least i didn't say any of the hurtful things that went through my head so i'll take it as a win #it sucks that we both feel guilty over the uni situation becuase we're both equally at fault

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chitin-crusader · 8 months

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kindof losing my mind bc uhhhh. how am i supposed to like. afford to live.

#i am going to whisper in the tags bc i feel odd about YELLING my bs into the void #i do not have a job yet largely due to physical and mental disabilities #but when i DO start searching for one its like. 90% of online job listings out there are ghost listings #basically none of them hire disabled people and i have disabilities that REQUIRE accommodations #my job search is significantly narrower bc of my disabilities theres a ton of shit i just straight up cannot do #and they all pay about 1 ball of lint & two quarters.#i live in california which thankfully is (relatively) safe for me to transition #but its also. California. which is. Expensive. to live in.#and i have medications i NEED to be a functioning person monthly #on top of taking T at some point #so like ummmmm. chat am i fucked!!!!!!!!!#i could leave california but where do i even go thatd be safe for me AND affordable #its just so hard to get motivated to be independent right now when like. im 18 years old and i can barely walk anymore #im grieving my physical ability at 18 years old #i should be doing that at 70 #and everything costs So Much theres no fucking shot i find anywhere in california i could afford IF i can even FIND a fucking JOB I CAN DO #unless i wanna live with my mom forever (who is constantly wearing on my mental health and i DESPERATELY need some distance from)#or live in a literal closet for $2000 a month #what if i have to sacrifice my meds to pay rent i literally am not a functioning human without them so i 100% could not work while off them #idk shit looks so fucking bleak for everyone right now but being disabled makes it a hell of a lot worse #i used to be excited about being independent now i just kindof dread it. or it seems more like a pipe dream #i dont wanna live with my mom til im 25 yall #and transitioning is expensive. and my mom is not going to cover my medical bills lmfaoooo #and idk whats going on with my physical ability so im probably going to have to pay for more doctors appointments #and tests and TESTS AND TESTS #for possibly years #til they figure out what the fuck's wrong #just not excited to live in poverty bc i am a young person in america and basically every young person in america is living in poverty atm #and also not excited to live in a world where i walk with a cane at 18 #original

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savage-rhi · 1 year

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I'm very much a, "fuck yeah and fuck you, I don't need validation! I'm me, cunts!" kinda fella, but sometimes I could use support.

#today i fucked up by reactivating my fb account which i haven't done in 2 yrs just to check on some folks id been sending good thought to #place is depressing everyone is miserable and everything feels fake and my mind is like #LOL this is why we left bitch byeeee #so i deactivated again went to work and idc what anyone says there are folks like me that can and do feel the energy and emotions coming of #people and it can fucking suck especially when so many are disregulated so i got a sensory overload and boss was nice enough to let me take #a bunch of breaks today and even scream in her office cause She Gets It (TM)#the weather is rainy and cold i'm getting so many fibro flares idk how i'm moving anymore #ive missed so many days of work already and it's not even fully winter yet i still have my job and im thankful i have an understanding team #but that doesnt pay the bills im still trying to find a way to pay for that doctor appointment coming up #graduate courses began for college and i think i'm gonna be okay but damn did they throw too much info all at once at me and that made #my adhd brain go WELL SHIT #ive been feeling incredibly lonely and not wanted in so many spaces that im struggling to even communicate with the few that i know do #love me for me and nothing else im trying so so so hard to keep being there for people and to keep loving #people that need it cause i don't ever want another human being to ever feel as miserable and unwanted as i have felt #but im also tired because i feel like thats all anyone ever sees me as just this being that can take their woes away and make them feel #amazing and i love that i can do that and listen to so many traumatic stories and help folks process that trauma my boss and many throughou #life have told me i have a gift for healing people and a vibe to me thats different than most and it feels good being around me but today i #just felt like people keep taking and taking and taking and i dont expect anything back thats not who i am id rather give than receive #but damn it i just wish someone could just give me the biggest hug in the world dont even have to say a thing just hold me and be present #and hold space for me to just feel weightless id cherish that more than anything in the world right now #on a positive note...#my dinosaur vo stuff got traction im getting a new cosplay put together i havent done that in 4 years i got to pet a wild deer i made #a coworker laugh so hard his juice went out his nose and my boss peed a little #im slowly taming another wild flock of turkeys and i got a bag of my favorite takis the guacamole flavor #i got a lot to be thankful for and i acknowledge it #but damn it im tired #thank you for coming to my Ted Talk rant and rave #if you made it this far: you're an incredible human being and i love you #please go treat yo self to something nice and know i love you for you

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lupismaris · 2 years

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Planning travel is just a big old song and dance of "okay I know I'm poor, chronically disabled, and beholden to the man but this is a smidge ridiculous"

#i hate being the killjoy in all my friendships/relationships but my pto is not given up front its earned and i have to save sick leave #and every lodging is more than i can afford rn for maine in oct and if we go Oahu in jan i have to save days and $#and sure i can do those two trips but i doubt i can also manage a third big trip on top of it or at least i cant think it right now #because i still dont know if im in remission so i dont know what my health treatment looks like this year i don't know what to expect #and yes i want to travel i want to be reckless with abandon and leave my little life for the wild blue yonder but i cant just #leave myself without sick leave In case i end up with yet another diagnosis that requires immediate treatment #or spend money i need for said treatment or to pay of my cards/bills from the last rounds etc #sighs ignore me im just very tired #state employment is good but it doesnt pay much

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bingobongobonko · 3 months

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maybe i shouldnt have. er. bought glasses but like i went for the cheapest option too so im mad as hell that i barely cut it w rent this month still -_-

#gritting my teeth. my job cut my work hours in half severely and i admit its kinda been shitty but gah. everyone got cut its not just me #a lot of ppl are really fucked over right now #BUT I NEED GLASSES!!!! AND GLASSES I WILL HAVE!!!! too much pressure on my good eye and my shitty eye's strugglin 2 do shit #but i do get paid this wednesday so i just need 2 like. clamp down on. uhm. i dont know. i get paid wedn so #thursday i go buy my meds then i pay the light bill and anything else remaining im holding on to as tight as possible. not an inch #i just need to get lightbill and meds and then clamp down #like i hate saying this but ig eating less. unsuree. i dont rlly eat breakfast anymore so maybe that works but jeez. that is stupid. fym #fym food costs money. shut up #sorry if this comes off as complaining im genuinely ok im more trying to rationalize everything #like its not doomsday yk. ig im just frustrated a little but i always find a workaround

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perceivedgodliness · 8 months

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every 2 weeks i receive enough money to buy pretty dresses and i stead i have to spend it on rent and groceries why is this world so cruel

work would feel more worth it if i got to buy pretty clothes from it

#the bin #one reason im looking forward to moving back in with my parents #i wont have to drop $850 a month on where i live so i will be able to afford brand dresses #minimum wage there is higher than what i even make right now! and even if im still paying for my groceries itll still be so much more money #my groceries adent that expensive comparatively. tehyre still way too much but yknow. i #my parents suck but not having to pay rent and bills is worth loving with them again. not that i ahve a choice #well. until i get my licence at least. since my sister refuses to teach me so i gotta move in with them and get it #might aswell but myslef some brand dresses while i dont have rent suffocating me!

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fantastic-artemis · 1 year

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How to find a job that doesn't make me despair to live

#I LOVE the library but i've been part time for two years and i am not making enough to support myself lmao #i am very fortunate to have a lot of savings but i live alone in an apartment i signed for when i had two jobs and now that my income is #cut in half things are rough #and i have interviewed a dozen times or more for a promotion to full time and they aren't budging #and then yesterday one of the managers was micromanaging me and my shitty coworker was mocking my menial tasks lol #bc he is info staff and i am just lowly circulation so i have to keep my head down and shelve the books i guess?? even tho he doesn't do #jack shit and gets paid double what i do and is full time #like i got scolded and told to stop preparing for my presentation that is tonight bc i should have been making sure the books were in the #right order on the shelves lmao #meanwhile this guy has been booking vacation flights all morning #and even if i get full time and even though i work at a comparatively VERY well paying library #im still not going to make much #i have a degree in journalism and communications that im not using bc that shit made me feel dead inside #and i wanted to do something that mattered #but the things that mattered are not paying my bills or buying me a new winter coat or allowing me to do things like get a haircut or buy #clothes that i like or go out with friends or start new hobbies #and im just like is it worth it??? is this worth it???#like im not desolate or anything but i deny myself things every day bc im fine now #but i dont know how much longer i have to make the money stretch #and im tired #i just wanted to do something real that helped people #every day i get to work around books and talk about books and help people access social services #i helped a kid with homework and an elderly lady access job resources and showed a kid his favorite book series that he got so excited #about that he yelled all in the same day and it was fantastic #it mattered #but #is it worth it???#this was the dream i worked so hard for and now im looking at all that hope and effort like. this didn't save you either #idk yall its rough out here #me

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risaonda · 1 year

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me when I realize

#venus ambassador give us a post #i did the math instead of just floating through time and space #not my upcoming paycheck but my next paycheck after this one will be my first actual real one since may #theres a world where on top of the hours i have set already i may be called in and get even More #on that note why am i getting asked to cover so many shifts suddenly right now where was this when i had 1 job #i went a month with no work and now can i cover a shift almost everyday 😐 once im driving itll be so epic #but right now im like um heehee. dont take me saying no now as forever rejection #anyway dude i cant wait to finally not just sit here with like $20 max to my name at a time if im Lucky #would love to go back to being able to pay bills on time and not paying a bit off every time im paid #and by the time one month is paid the next months bills are ready #cant wait to maybe actually be able to start rebuilding savings #🤪🤪🤪🤪😩

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communistkirby · 6 months

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Help a Black trans dyke follow her blue-collar dreams!

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yo! for those who don't know me, my name is Beryl (she/they/it/xe pronouns), and i am a disabled afrolatine trans woman living in the south with my husband, who is also disabled. we moved down south to escape homelessness and an abuser, and while we are fortunate to be living in much more affordable housing than we were in before, we still have rent and other bills to pay even though my husband is too sick to work and has been crowdfunding online for our survival for years. i have always wanted to become an electrician, and have an opportunity to apply to my local electrician's union as an apprentice, where i will be paid and trained and have a guaranteed job once my training+apprenticeship are complete! the only downside is, the application costs money we dont have right now, and i also have to pay to get copies of documents i need for my application, and to get my license back (i have been without one for nearly 3 years after losing it and being unable to get my license renewed). i am going to need a total of $90 to cover the application fee itself, all the costs associated with getting my driver's license back, and getting the last document i need for my application mailed to me. having this taken care of would be beyond huge for me, as i would be able to apply for and begin earning money for myself instead of having to rely on donations, and it would take a MASSIVE strain off of my husband, who has worked himself sick trying to help us stay afloat, both through crowdfunding online and in the past working at regular jobs even though he was in no state health wise to do so. i have venmo and cashapp, and my husband has paypal if folks prefer that to chip in (if you send thru paypal leave a plug emoji so my husband knows its for me!) thank you so much.

(please do not tag this post unless it is for an accessibility reason!)

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uglytrannymess · 7 months

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I was just beaten, stabbed, and shot all in just the matter of a few days, each day a different incident or attack by an individual in my family and outside of my family by ppl around me, I had to get several stitches in my legs, arms, hands and even some in my face after being jumped and beaten and stabbed, I had a bullet pulled out my leg and my side, I was shot 8 times, 4 times in the legs and 2 times in my right lower abdomen and another 2 times in my left lower abdomen, I been in and out of the hospital including the mental hospital for suicide attempts as well as being harmed by transphobic ppl, I've been struggling paying for costs of a vet visit after my kitten was killed by my moms dog after she had her dog kill her, I've been raped, molested and abused by my family and ppl in my schools and neighborhood and I just get tired of being in this same situation surrounded by poverty, I live in a neighborhood where I'm constantly threatened for being a black trans woman and I have NO ONE TO TURN TO, I've tried getting help finding a new job but it's harder after constantly being fired for molestation at work and sexual harassment and constant work abuse I've been thru whether it was employees or managers targeting me with harassment and bullying within the workplace and it's been hard in general trying to get help with financial situations, paying for medical bills and get med assistance from the government and the city as well as mental health help for therapists, psychiatric help, and safe space havens or shelters, I've also been from mental health facility shelter to homeless shelters and been harassed, abused, raped and molested in EVERY SINGLE ONE, i am currently living in a rundown home surrounded by poverty and bad conditions, rusted bursted pipes, i have no plumbing, no water, no way to get anything to drink, to clean stuff with, i dont have water for dishes to be cleaned, laundry to be washed, or to bathe or shower in or to take a piss or shit in either and there are several dead cats in my basement as well as raccoons from all the holes in the walls, I had to freeze in the winter and was trying to get help from the city with some government assistance and I'VE YET TO GET ANY HELP, ANY THERAPISTS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH I'M STILL ON A QUEUE, I HAVE NO HELP FOR MENTAL HEALTH MEDS, OR PSYCHIATRIC HELP, I can't seem to afford to get help with much even after succeeding my Gofundme goal because I had to use most of that money for food for me and my cats and keep cleaning products to get my home clean WHICH IS STILL A MESS. so what i need anyone to do for me if yall POSSIBLY CAN, is reblog this as much as you can and please share my links to donation help with pet food, water, meds, med help, mental health help, finding an apartment, getting a bed or mattress, and any daily needs and necessities IF YALL CAN.

My goal is to get at least $2500 to $3000, I know it's alot but rn I need as much as I can possibly get, yall can send anything, nothing is too small it's ALL APPRECIATED. IF PPL CAN SEND AT LEAST 25 OR 30$ EACH IT WOULD HELP OUT SO MUCH, BUT AGAIN ANY AMOUNT IS APPRECIATED. THIS is REALLY IMPORTANT!!....I'M TRYING MY BEST TO SURVIVE RIGHT NOW!

Cashapp: $Slasherstan91

Venmo: Negrophiliac (I know the name's wild 😭)

Chime: $MarsRayL

Paypal: paypal.me/MarsRayL

#black tumblr #black trans women #black lgbtq #mutual aid #black lives matter #black mental health #black women #please help #donation post #please donate #extremely urgent #need help #please reblog

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swagging-back-to · 1 year

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also i have like two buckets full of stuff to put out next weekend for a yardsale. any profits I get will go towards buying weed <3

#and i bagged up some clothes too #i should really get rid of more clothes but i still struggle with the idea of "but what if xyz and then i have to beg for new clothes' from #when i was a kid even tho I'm able to go out and buy clothes whenever i want without asking anyone #and it's hard to have a minimal closet rn because the washingmachine (brand new) is already broken and not working right anymore #it never does a full load always leaving them soggy without spinning. right now it wont even fill the basin #literally wont even wet the clothes and then it's like 'lol I'm done'#makes me lose my fucking mind #the only possible way to bypass it is by putting in no more than FOUR CLOTHES at a time and putting it on the bedding setting #im soooo glad i dont pay the water bill #literally fucking ridiculous. and then you have to put those same four clothes in for 4 rounds of the washing machine cause they still have #stuff on em #like.#:))))))#this post was derailed hardcore #but no fr i finally got rid of so much shit that was just laying around taking up space. anything that i cant sell I'm just gonna throw awa #cause i need to downsize to move out #i even managed to downsize the number of boxes i already have filled with stuff. takes up easily half of what it used to.#im also gonna be getting rid of my mattresses soon and replacing them with a futon cause i like them better and it would take up less space #they technically arent even my mattresses in the first place & they suck. like sleeping on the floor. I'm buying a futon on Friday <3 #is this what having your shit together feels like???

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