#so im constantly thinking 'but how do i explain that im nb?'

[couchie]

Fucked up ship bingo harrykim and jh discoelysium

-@mansplainmanipulatemalewife

MY BELOVED MUTUAL WHO IS WITH ME THROUGH MY FLOPS <333

ok so kimharry

i am going to expand on everything i marked and you dont get a say in it

-> undeniably t4t

i dont care much for t!kim tbqh, it's become too mainstream for me. my approach for it is "eh, why not?"

now harry on the other hand...

oh i am FERAL for t!harry you have NO IDEA. TRANS MAN HARRY? AUGHHHHH. TRANSFEM HARRY? OUGHHHHHHH. NB HARRY? WAUGHHHHH. IM HERE FOR IT. it's so fuckin good n i eat it up every single time. his canon issues with his masculinity gives perfect content to toy with his gender in every which way and it is divine

and so yeah that is to say. t4t kimharry is a fuck yeah

-> terrible for each other (affectionate)

they clash. thats it thats the post. opposites attract typa stuff. thats why i marked the "(affectionate)" one

-> playing with them like dolls (taking them on dates and making them be all cute)

DOMESTIC KIMHARRY FUCKS. FIGHT ME ABOUT IT. we see them under a time crunch interacting with the mystery of a hanged man looming over their head and their districts in a pissing contest and with harry freshly amnesiac. i want to see the fall out. i want to see the progress. i want to see them when they're not focused on other plot things and we can get to the character development part. i want to see how they deal with themselves and each other on a normal day

-> thinking about them Always and Forever

yeag

-> LET THEM HAVE A HAPPY ENDING‼️‼️

BRO THE BAD ENDINGS FOR DE... MY HEART CANT TAKE THAT SHIT. let them be nontoxic partners. let them have good stuff in life. let them have each other. PLEASE.

-> the DEVOTION oh my GOD

there was a whole post analyzing how theyre devoted to each other and why theyve latched onto each other dont make me rewrite it

harryjean

WE GOT A BINGOOOO WOOOOO🎉🎉

ok here we go

-> i want them 2 make out with blood in their mouths like vampire bats

i dont think i need to explain, it is quite concise. do i think this will solve anything between them? no. should they do it regardless? absolutely yes

-> divorced <3

in my humble opinion they are more divorced than harry and dora are. yall r underestimating the power of toxic masculine work friendship in which they hang onto each other to not kill themselves and then one of them just forgets about it. maybe the divorce is one sided but they are. they rly are.

-> they will die together in a heart shaped pool of blood

(⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)

-> terrible for each other (derogatory)

oh ueah absolutely. they constantly fought and argued and anything and everything. they made the other's anger levels skyrocket, on purpose, just to get a rise out of em. but they still needed each other. it's not like either could afford a therapist, much less working in a place that was actually not-actively-killing-them-slash-making-them-suicidal. they were all they had

-> "you should see the other guy" *points at a dead body*

that finna b jean fr

-> playing with them like dolls (Psychological Torture)

they are The guys for angst <333

-> thinking about them Always and Forever

yeagh

-> sicko 2 sicko communication

absolutely

-> they should kill each other

self explanatory <3

tiny little disclaimer i didnt play enough to meet jean and this is based off of what i gathered about him from other peoples' jeanposting so if it's ooc. oops. it's basically the version of him i crafted in my head

[bingotime]

i keep seeing these posts and. aiee... look... i feel like ppl are allowed to disagree with me its just. idk. like. transandrophobia as a concept is.... shrug. idk how to explain it im not smart enough i just feel like. people dont quite process that trans women are quite literally mistreated by the same community theyre supposed to be a part of, and a lot of people add to this. its not that we all dont face the same oppression, it's that trans women experience a really fucked combination of transphobia AND. AND. AND -> misogyny. nb people still face oppression, trans men still face oppression. but trans women are disproportionately affected by it!!!!!!!!!!! ppl gotta understand that, that's not saying nb folk and trans men DONT experience transphobia! shit, that they dont end up on the receiving end of misogyny!!!!!!! but trans women are particularly fucked over by this shit bc bro imma be fr. the ire and hate, alongside the acknowledgement and being known by general society, its targeted at trans women. people outside of queer communities will see anti-trans bills focused against trans women, will see rhetoric against trans women, all this shit. this is what they will see FIRST. idk how many times ive told somebody im trans and they were like. oh ur a trans woman? and i had to explain the concept of a trans man, bc people have no idea trans men exist. and it happens! the media DOES this, the trans scare is FOCUSED on destroying the livelihood of so many women!!! it does this!!! trans women are the ire of the media and in the minds of so many people, this aint a crazy ass thing to say i dont think?

and transandrophobia implies that androphobia itself exists, which is. eh? ehhhhh. in the context that is, that androphobia is the oppression of men. like it just. a man can experience racism, a man can experience sexism, a man can experience misogyny, a man can experience homophobia, but guys dont... get oppression because theyre men. and i mean the hetero normative idea of what a man is, because once you step out of that idea, you are no longer seen as a MAN. once you leave that little box, you are no longer considered a "proper" man. do you see what i mean. you arent discriminated against because youre a man, youre discriminated against because you fall "short" of who is considered a man. androphobia as a concept just... doesnt exist. there is a patriarchy that exists to disprove that. what trans men experience is real and it exists and it is volatile, but it is not transandrophobia. that aint the word for it personally. youre allowed to disagree with me tho. but this isnt to say, that, again, trans men and nb people dont experience transphobia, one that still intersects with trans women, yet are spoken about even way less. trans women are forced into the spotlight, often with awful connotations attached. and trans men are underrepresented and unspoken for ykwim. crimes against trans men get underrepresented, trans men who experience sexual assault never talk about it because people imply their experiences as trans men are a way to escape that trauma, and trans men are seen as clueless and infantilized constantly. it exists man!!!!! it happens man!!! and it sucks!!! both of these fucking suck! but trans women CONSTANTLY have to deal with the attention of the world on them, this is why ppl say its horrendous! cuz it IS! while trans men struggle to be seen, trans women have to deal with always being seen and being mistreated and all this shit. like i hope this makes sense but theres a clear difference. trans women are the focus of literally everything anti-trans bc they are seen as a direct threat and victimized at the same time!!!!! its this intersection that makes transmisogyny so particularly vile!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[inlovewithobsession]

bro i think i might be nb

[sorryimanon]

Pairings: Bakugou Katsuki x fem!Reader, Izuku Midoriya x NB!Reader

Warnings: some angst, FLUFF, and our boys being the best boys.

In which they comfort you after a rough day or week

A/N: im sorry if Izukus section is shorter than Bakugou’s. trying to practice writing other characters. enjoy!

Saturday's are reserved strictly by the majority of the girls from class 1-A, leaving the guys to hibernate inside their dorms as they allow the commencement of girls night. You've never rain checked nor rejected the idea of spending  quality time with your friends, considering all the tribe's and trepidation's everyone has endured together during their time at the academy. It's nice to just strip away the stress and dip your toes in pure relaxation.

Unfortunately, you woke up with a bad case of cloudy thoughts. For the past week you've been carrying the weight of dread, causing your mood to drastically change throughout the day. You'd be having a civil conversation with someone one minute and then the next minute you're completely irritated by their presence. You've tried to balance it out and fix it overnight with the regimes you researched on the internet. A new sleeping schedule, healthier diet, yoga, and even went to the extreme of writing in a journal. It was all so cut throat and prestigious, nothing close to your liking. Katsuki made fun of you for it one day when he snuck into your room and read the many inscriptions in your journal entries.

"This stuff reminds of Deku. Always shoving his nose in that stupid notebook of his," he didn't care much to hear your refutes about Izuku. "Anyways, what's with all this depressing shit you are writing? You don't really feel this way do you?"

You didn't give him a definite answer that day. Only a curt "no" and he resumed rambling about his day like nothing happened, having you listening with his voice like white noise going in one ear and out the other.

And that's how it went on throughout the duration of the prior week before Saturday.

Inside the confinement of your dorm, you made the rational decision to sleep in instead of attending classes. The chilling thoughts kept you up all night, never once allowing sleep to take full throttle. You tossed and turned around on your bed, unable to shut off your brain. So when you woke up in the peak of late afternoon, you weren't surprised to see the unread messages on your phone. All of them were from your explosive boyfriend.

King Explosion🤍: Oi you running late? Mr.Sleepy head is taking roll call

King Explosion🤍: y/n where tf r u?

King Explosion🤍: fine don't answer me ig

King Explosion🤍: are you at least coming down for lunch? i made curry last night and imma make you finish it

King Explosion🤍: fking hurry before dunce face eats it

King Explosion🤍: nvm he ate it 😐

Katsuki never intended for the message to be funny. He's probably blowing actual steams of smoke through his nostrils and ears while chasing kamanari amongst the halls. The comical imagery made you laugh harder. At least he made you crack a smile. You haven't shown any emotions let alone a hint of enthusiasm for tonight.

Maybe it'd be best to sit this one out.

"Hey, we're missing a person! Where's my y/n?" Mina asked after scanning the group of girls huddled around on the carpeted floor.

Momo shifted uncomfortably on the cushioned pillow she stole from the couch. "Y/N said she wasn't feeling too well to join us for tonight. Something about food poisoning and throwing up every hour."

In unison all the girls gasped, along with a concerned 'ribbit' from Tsuyu.

"Well I hope she gets to feeling better. I wouldn't want her to endure such sickness for much longer," Tsuyu croaked out.

Everyone in the circle agreed and promised to pay a visit later in the night to check on you.

On the fourth floor, Katsuki stared blankly at his phone, hands shaking due to the repressed anger he's been holding. Each of the messages he sent previously were all left on read, including the one he sent an hour ago asking if he could have a cuddle session with you before girls night. Yes, even an ill tempered guy such as him enjoys sappy shit like cuddling. After pacing back and forth in his room for a solid 5 minutes, he was now dead set on confronting you in front of your friends.

Katsuki made a beeline for the elevator and aggressively pressed the 1st floor button repeatedly in hopes it'll make the process go quicker. He reached the commons area in precision time, overhearing the girls giggle after someone suggested playing truth or dare. He towered over Uraraka's figure, casting a demonic shadow version of himself in the circle. Hagakure shrieked and clung onto Jirou.

"Where's y/n you extras?" He demanded, voice deafening the brunette under him.

"She didn't come tonight. She's in her dorm room sick," Jirou explained to him as she tried pry the invisible girl off her arm.

"Like hell she's sick!" Katsuki spun around quickly and retreated back to the elevator, mumbling obscenities under his breath. "She's going to pay for being so careless and irresponsible."

The commons room fell silent once the explosive blonde disappeared behind the doors of the elevator, all eyes searching each other in complete shock. Uraraka was the first to speak out of the small group.

“Should we warn y/n that Bakugou is coming for her?”

Jirou averted her gaze to the direction bakugou left off from, a ghost of a smirk spreading on her face.

“Nah. Knowing y/n, she can handle the asshole on her own.”

King Explosion🤍: can i come over? i wanna cuddle, i miss u

The text message kept flashing behind your eyes every-time you closed them - a sad image of Katsuki waiting impatiently for you to reply back with a heart or one of those unusual memes he unapologetically adores. You knew he’d be furious, no doubt about it, but you rationalized your decision and concluded it would be best to avoid your boyfriend like the plague till this undesired feeling dissipates. Katsuki doesn’t do well with people being emotional, let alone handle his own emotions for god’s sake.

Your own thoughts were interrupted by someone raping the outside of your door. The continuous knocks made your head spin, a painful sting ghosting back and forth between your eyes. Remembering back to an hour ago, you messaged one of the girls that you weren’t going to make it to tonight’s session. Surely they respected your wishes and continued on with their hangout? But you forgot about the one person who’s persistent and stubborn like a cat.

“I know you’re in there y/n! You may have fooled your idiotic friends with a lie, but you keep on forgetting you’re terrible at lying!” Katsuki hollers against the wood of the door, not once being considerate of those living above her.

He’s right. You’re absolutely horrible at making up excuses for yourself. Dating someone as intuitive as him will be the death of you.

“If there’s something going can you at least let me in? You can’t ignore me forever y/n.”

Again, he’s right.

You slipped out from the comfort of your bed and padded towards the door, mentally preparing for the blonde to scold you once he enters your room. What you weren’t prepared for was the tears swelling up in the ducts of his vermillion eyes - his hands clenched tightly into fists as he looked down at you. Your breathing hitched when his arm outstretched to rest on the door frame to keep his trembling body steady.

“What the hell y/n? Why the fuck have you been ignoring me?! Did I do something wrong?!” He asked, not caring about his current appearance.

You grab ahold of his other arm and absentmindedly started rubbing it affectionately, trying to coax him into calming down. “Katsuki no! You didn’t do anything wrong! Why would you think that?”

“Because dumbass, you’ve been distant this past week,” he paused, choking on his words. “Are...are you breaking up with me?”

Your eyes shot up instantly at his horrifying assumption. “Katsuki, if I tell you the truth, will you promise not to make things worse for me?”

He tilted his head in confusion, but nodded once you led him into your messy bedroom. Once inside, your boyfriend plopped down on your bed, watching intently as you anxiously bit down on your nails - a nervous habit you picked up at the beginning of the school year.

“I’ve been feeling weird lately. Ever since the beginning of last week. I don’t know how to describe it but, my brain is constantly feeding into my already negative state. Telling me things I know aren’t true but I’ve convinced myself they are. Almost as if a grey cloud is hovering above me,” tears were already starting to pour down your cheeks. “I just...I just feel so miserable and lonely and useless and irritated and- I’m so sorry for ignoring you. You probably want nothing to do with me after this!”

You manage to turn away from the sight of the blonde during your speech, ashamed of pouring out your emotions onto a person who disregards other peoples emotions and constitutes them as a quote on quote “pussy”.

From behind, you can hear faint shuffling nearing your already shaken up figure. A pair of muscular arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you into a wall that could only be described as his own chiseled chest, doing the same as you did moments ago with his arm - lulling you to calm down a notch before he stared speaking.

“If you been feeling this way, why lie when I asked you a few days ago after reading your journal?”

“I know how you are, Katsuki. You get very uncomfortable when people talk about their feelings. So, why should I be any different?”

Your boyfriend suddenly maneuvers you around in the circle of his arms, shifting to where you’re now making direct eye contact with him. His gaze intense and unwavering.

“Because you’re my girlfriend? I don’t give a rats ass about any of these extras. When it comes to you, I’d make an exception for. I made that promise to myself when we first started seeing each other. So don’t think for a second that I’ll disregard your true feelings, dumbass.” He stepped a couple of inches backwards, ankles eventually hitting the bottom of your bed - making him fall and dragging you along with him. You landed on top of him, head still buried in the depths of his hard chest. The vibrations of his chuckle shook your whole body. Katsuki gently titled your head to be leveled with his, a red tint of blush painting his pallid cheeks.

“I’m being serious though. Don’t be afraid to come to me when things get tough, okay? I love you too much to see you like this.”

Next thing you knew your boyfriend stole your breath away by meshing his plump lips onto yours, hands snaking their way into your hair and carefully massaging it. By all means, you let him have his way with you by kissing the sadness away, tears puddling together cheek on cheek.

He let go eventually, pecking a quick chaste kiss on the side of your mouth before hauling you further into the bed. You settled on letting him spoon you, knowing how much he likes the feeling of your backside pressed against him, and the fruity aroma of your hair infiltrating his senses.

“I promise Katsuki,” you said after some time during the cuddle session.

He shifted in his spot, head placed firmly in the crook of your neck. “Promise what?”

“That I’ll come to you when these thoughts return again. I should trust you by now, and I need to not let these emotions ruin everything in my life. I love you that much.

Your confession swelled the very last evidence of Katsuki being a human being, his heart.

He smiled weakly to himself and nuzzled more into your shoulder, brushing his warm lips against the tender skin. “You better, dumbass.”

-

Today was just so exhausting, and the big fat 'D-‘ written in red ink on your final report was the icing on the cake. To make things even worse, Aizawa reminded the whole class before the exam that this was to determine wether or not if you'll be joining the training camp that'll commence the following winter break.

Hopefully this was one of your teacher's terrible deception tactics into making everyone do their absolute best, go plus ultra even. But to your dismay, he was indeed very serious of the matter this time.

It wasn't your fault, not entirely. You stayed up all night listening to another one of your boyfriends rambles, the conversation lasting till 2 am. Izuku grew worrisome and anxious ever since his encounter with a gruesome villain, thus resulting in him to pour his emotions out onto you. Poor baby kept mentioning the safety of All Might and you.

Solemnly, you left class and trailed back to your dorm room, wanting to ignore the jovial atmosphere inside the cramped room as everyone traded and talked about their scores.

Izuku noticed you leaving abruptly and got up from his desk to follow you behind, bidding a quick goodbye to his friends.

Your room was dark and dramatically colder than usual, a trickle of light threatening to pour in from the cascading sunset. You laid down on your stomach with one of your pillows propped on your head, in hopes to shield away anyone from seeing your ugly-crying face.

Too late because Izuku was already standing outside your dorm room, swaying back and forth on his feet while biting down harshly on his lip. He can hear your soft cries seeping through the door. He doesn't know why he's hesitating, he's your boyfriend after all.

Moments later you hear the acute sounds of someone knocking on your door, followed by the soft spoken voice of your green haired boyfriend.

"Baby? Can I come in? I-If that's okay with you I m-mean! It's alright if you need some space but you left class so early I figured something happened to you and I got really worried because you always wait for Iida and uraraka to walk us back to the dorms as a group and maybe it had something to do with what I was telling you last night-."

You crack the door just a smidge before fully opening it, revealing your bloodshot eyes and tear stained shirt to him. His breathing hitched once his eyes fixated on your disheveled state. 

"Can you comfort me? I need you right now Izuku," your voice cracked a little, throat still tight after the crying session.

His strong, lean arms wrapped around your body momentarily, encasing you into a bear hug. Hugs from Izuku were amazing, no exceptions. He placed a quick peck on the crown of your forehead.

"C'mon, let's get inside and snuggle. How does that sound?" he asked as he unwrapped himself and took your trembling hand, leading you back inside the dimly lit room.

Izuku laid you gently down on your side once reaching the bed, crawling alongside with you before  draping the covers over the both of you. His familiar hands snake around your waist and nudges you to roll over. You obliged and shifted your body to face his, sparkly green eyes staring straight at you.

"Tell me, what's wrong baby? Does it have to do with the recent exam?" his thumb started tracing delicate lines on your hips, your uniform long gone and now replaced with comfortable clothes instead.

"I failed Izuku...I did so terrible on the written exam. I kept falling in and out of sleep during the test that I didn't have time to finish the middle portion of it," you exhaled a shaky breath. "Who knows what'll happen on the practical. I'll probably fail that too...I'm such a failure compared to everyone."

Izuku grabbed the tender flesh of your cheeks and directed your vision to level with his. He looked angry and concerned.

"Don't say that y/n! You're not a failure! That exam doesn't determine wether or not if you're good enough to be a hero. I've seen you in action hun, and I know for a fact that you're possibly the most strongest person I've met in my lifetime! You're ambitious, smart, determined, and so freaking beautiful." He then kissed you tenderly on the lips, his eyes closing slightly due to the contact.

"So...freaking...beautiful." He whispers against your mouth.

His sentimental words were enough for you to push back the negativity and simply enjoy the intimate moment.

Izuku lifted his head away from your face to rest it against your temple. "You're going to do great things, okay? One failing grade isn't going to be the end of the world. Trust me sweetheart, I've had my fair share in failures during our time here in Yuuei. But look at me now, still standing."

You nuzzled more into his chest, tickling his chin with your hair. Faintly, you can hear the pitter patter of his heart beat bursting through his rib cage.

"Would you love me even if I was a horrendous looking-failure?" you were clearly teasing him, but sometimes Izuku became dense when it came to that.

"Y/n! W-Why would you ask that! Of course I would you dummy! I'd love you no matter what."

This time you return the favor and kiss him, knowing how to easily fluster him in seconds. He whimpers into your mouth at the sudden contact and cups your jawline affectionately.

The two of you stayed like that till the moon shone through the balcony curtains, illuminating your skin in a dusty glow.

Lips bruised and swollen red, you laid lifelessly in his arms, letting him wove his scarred fingers through your hair. Izuku would occasionally stop to peck your lips, then resumes his attention back to your hair.

"I'm sorry by the way. I shouldn't have kept you up last night before the exam. I'm such a horrible boyfriend..." he admitted suddenly.

"Yes. Yes you are."

He gasped and stopped his movements altogether, obviously taken aback by your blunt words.

You giggled and said, "Kidding. You're the best boyfriend. Apology accepted.”

After hearing that, Izuku shoved himself onto your chest and let out muffled cry. "D-Don't scare me like that. Almost made me have a heart a-attack!"

[snailsaalt]

my only text post here and its about morrigan and lilith being gay

i feel like i have to talk about it here. like twitter gets to hear about it from me all the time so they know all my thoughts on the matter but you guys are lucky so you dont hear me talk often on any of my blogs. i should ruin that!! unfortunately for u guys tumblr doesnt have a character limit either. anyways every so often i show my morrigan/lilith art in nondarks spaces and someone always goes “ouh wai i thought they were sisters!????” an d i have to explain how foolish they are and that they should learn the shitty fucked up lore with a 10000 plotholes (but its allowed to because its dope as hell) like. this is like the sailor moons cousins thing but people actually fucking believe theyre cousins. darkstalkers fans stay losing anyways heres a high res of this fruity ass png bingus with an e drew in the 90s  

i know its obvious that peopl who think theyre sibs just have never touched a ds game or looked at any official images ever but. i think they should because ds arts amazing but more importantly morrigan and lilith are little fruits. morrigsn a grape and lilith is cherry.

i hate ressurections artstyle + artist whitewashed anakaris and felicia + drew jedah without heels. but ykno. i will take my wins.ALSO LOL.. BUTT WINGS FAIL MOMENT THIR WINGS OIN THEIR BACK!!!!!!! anyways

the titty press on the window. the breath. morrigans gaze. the hand hold. cishet games have no fucking idea what theyre up against. gona talk about the actual game now

its so fucking gay. anyways im gona jus talk abou my hcs now i think jedah is jus liliths mom. hes v open abou his fave child bu they still make lilitha da spagheti.... also i think its funny cauds like.  i think u guys kno i ship jedemi which i could go over why in this post but this isnt ABOUT THEM. its about MORRIGAN. and MORRIGAN 2!!!!!!!!! back to what i was saying jedah being liliths mom but also marryign demitri would make him morrigans father in law.. but also... since jedah turned ozom into fetus of god ozom is related to all of them too????? lol. i just think jedah turning his enemies into his children is funny and no one talks about that enough. anyways i feel like a lot of people just see two women (or in this case demigirls i think they r both nb) being close and instantly think “ouh theyre so close theyre like sisters HEHE!!!” and like. its so obvious they explored eachothers bodies. like i dont hate u if u intepret their relationship that way like maybe im an iddy bit concerned abou how you view your siblings but whatever i wont think about it too hard i think people think its cute and funny dynamic or whatever and thats it but like. i also dont wana see that cause..... i simply do not ! :] anyways i constantly feel like a freak caus of that but i think i am a freak for different reasons thatre morally ok but legally bad but lets not talk about that lets talk about the satanic subtext. jesus obviouslly was inspired by jedah w/ the savior and the rapture and the betrayal (ozom didnt betray jedah with a kiss hes homophobic and also has no lips :’[) but ALSO!!!!!!! god made eve from a piece of adam. lilith was made from a piece of morrigan. lilith was made a demon for thinking that she was equal to adam, lilith believes shes morrigans equal and betrays jedah’s little utopia attempt. they choose a life of being gay with stupid fucking goth bimbo and hedonism instead of saving the world and they benefit from it... i dont think ive ever seen anyone talk about that at all an when i bring it up to the 8 other ds fans with rights theyre all like “ouh ive never thought about it like that!!!” i think people kinda just avoid looking at morrigan in a deep way in general even though shes one of if not the most important character and theres so much interesting stuff you can look into like her struggle to be herself and have fun or giving that up to make makai less of a shithole, her power being taken away in a society where power is EVERYTHING, her relationship with demitri going from “lol this dudes so fucking stupid and easy to make fun of” to “ew this rat fuck is trying to make me his mindcontrold servant because the only way he could possibly think of someone as anything positive is if theyre below him” i say that but people kinda avoid looking at ds lore in a deep way in general so yea. lol. ds turned me into the joker theres so much cool shit you can talk about but NOO most of the bs is porn boobs titty asscheek balls and NONE OF ITS EVEN GOOD. I SAID IT!!!!!! DESPITE WHAT THE SO CALLED “TOLERANT LEFT” MIGHT THINK ABOUT IT... like how makai is made out of gods corpse and no one knows how big it is and the fucking door that killed jedah also killed a fruit noble (his name is persimon the door kills fruits....) anyways i have a ds server ive never posted a link to here.... i’ll drop it in this post i guess https://discord.gg/wMBGrda theres probably a lot i forgot to talk about despite the fact i wrote so much LOL. anyways the servers mostly lore discussion or jokes but there are 2 people there that play the video game.... crazy ik.....

[swiss-cheeze]

Spencer Reid & Aaron Hotchner || ‘I love you’ ‘then perish’

REQUESTED: YES/NO

Gender: uh, they/them but there are mentions of the reader having their own kids; obviously there are single fathers so the reader 100% can be male or female or simply NB if that's what you prefer.

Warnings: child abductions/killings, normal CM crime talk, talk of trauma/abuse/drugs/drug abuse/the stuff Spencer has gone through, dismissal of trauma.

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Aaron Hotchner

10 children had been abducted, in less than 48 hours. We all know the statistics, which is why you didn't exactly understand why the hell you were still allowing children to go to school and out to the park. You brought it up to Hotch.

“Why is it exactly that we’re still allowing children to go out?” you questioned with crossed arms, the team looked at you skeptically but stayed silent.

“Because it’ll draw out our abductor that we can apprehend,” Hotch said, staring at the victim board. Every single photo was of a child or a family with children, this abductor didn't leave any trace evidence except for a handwritten note from the child saying how much they hated their home life, it had gone through forensic for prints and to make sure the writing was in fact done by a child; it was, each and every one of those letters was written by the kids.

“Why don't we lay low, say the FBI aren't doing their best, it'll drag the unsub out, or keep the kids home! He’ll get bored an-”

“And skip town for more children and probably leave the others behind to die (L/n)” Hotch cut in with a stern look, “I understand you have children of your own but-”

“Hotch this has nothing to do with that!” you exclaimed, the team is now filtering out of the door, “it has to do with the fact we’re trying to do our jobs the best and this isn't the best! The mayor and council are on our asses about everything and we’re still allowing more children to be taken!” you threw your arms around in an effort for Hotch to see what you’re saying, but he refused.

“(L/n) this conversation is now over,” the unit chief said harshly, “we are doing our best and our best is-”

“Agent Hotchner?” a voice called, an officer had walked into the room without realising, “more children have been kidnapped,” the officer handed you the evidence bag, or bags you should say, “four notes, four kids, but there’s um,” the officer took a breath and cleared his throat, “a body has just been discovered and the chief thinks its Ashley Leif,” and with that the officer left. You sighed as you looked down at the letters, feeling the weights in your hands, the tears, the markings, the- hold on. It's signed. You cocked an eyebrow as you placed the bag on the table.

“What is it (L/n)?” Hotch called, you didn't answer and instead took the evidence bags with you to the front of the building where the rest of your team stood waiting. Hotch could see you handing the letters to Reid, obviously to read through faster and determine if it was in fact written by a child, as your mouth moved at a million miles an hour, a lot of the team nodding along with you and talking. It felt cold without you in the room with Hotch. Maybe he should take your advice.

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Five kids dead, 8 still missing. Four days. You walked out of one of the offices as the wails of a child-less couple followed before you closed the door, the officers seemed to give you sympathetic looks as you stormed into the conference room yourself and the team were in.

“We have nothing,” you exclaimed as you slammed the door, causing J.J. and Emily to jump at your sudden outburst, “we have notes, we have a signed piece of paper that isn't a child name in the database for this town-” you flopped into one of the seats with your head in your hand as Emily came up and rubbed your shoulders.

“We’ll find him (Y/n)” the woman said softly, you didn't say anything as she left and the room went quiet again.

“How is he even getting these kids huh?” you asked, “they just suddenly up and leave in the middle of the...night…” it took you a second before you glanced at the crime scene photos of the child's bedroom; undisturbed. The team caught on as you quickly moved to the board and examined every photo, taking them all down and laying them out on the table in front of you as the team curled behind you.

“What is it (L/n)?” Rossi asked.

“It’s all undisturbed,” you muttered softly, you could feel the breath of your teammates against the back of your neck, “what...what if these kids aren't being taken?” you questioned, “what if they go out at the time, say a family dinner with a friend, they go home and that friend asks to stay the night, they take the kid and then-”

“The crime scene is undisturbed because the kids trust who it is; ‘come help me outside for a moment’ and they go” J.J. finished for you, you grinned as you phoned Garcia.

“Ready and waiting!” Garcia's voice came through the speakers, her fingers poised.

“Are there any friends from every family? People that overlap that are maybe mentioned in social media of most if not all the families?” you asked.

“Family friend, me likey” Garcia said happily as she started typing, “uhh, we have one; Emelia June, friends of all the families and- oh no” Garcia softened her voice.

“What? Garcia what is it?” you asked quickly.

“She's a director for a class the kids all went to for arts and crafts” Garcia said quickly, “her class roll is sent to your phones and tablets now!”

“Address Garcia?” you asked quickly as the team started putting on their vests, you included.

“Work and Address on your phones now, go get her my babies!”

“Rossi, Spencer, Emily go to the work address, the rest of us will go to her home and go from there, Emelia is dangerous and is most likely holding those kids in a separate location,” you said as Emily and Hotch started rounding up some officers and the rest of you ran to the cars.

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Emelia was caught but had to be interrogated in order to find the kids, luckily they were all unharmed and had food and water, she was sentenced 25 to life.

“(Y/n), can i see you in my office please?” Hotch called as you started packing up your files to finish at home. You gave a slight side eye to your friends before wrapping your bag around yourself and walking to the office in question.

“Did i do something wrong?” you asked monotone as Hotch waited behind his desk.

“You took ahold of the investigation when apprehending Emelia,” Hotch said, “that isnt your job-”

“Neither was yours to let those fucking kids die” you said quickly as your arms crossed over your chest. Hotch sighed.

“I understand this is hard for the both of us with our relationship both work and romance but you need to trust me (Y/n)” Hotch sighed, this only made you angrier, “i know you find it hard to trust others and to be trusted but for this to work you have to understand i know what i'm doing and what i'm doing, including my job, is right” by now you where fuming, “i know this case was hard especially with you having kids of your own-”

“Fuck you,” you cut Hotch off, him looking at you surprised, “i have kids, you have a kid too Hotch. You had a wife and when you came to me seeking some sort of love and affection i was happy to give it to you when you needed it, i loved those dates, i loved everything but really? I'm getting too personal with that case because I care about young lives?” you asked with a scoff, “im sorry but if thats a problem for you then we have a pretty big fucking problem here” you motioned between yourself and Hotch on ‘here’.

“(Y/n)-”

“No, dont ‘(Y/n)’ me,” you said with a laugh, “you do this all the time! You dont allow me to do my own job-”

“Let me explain-” Hotch started once again, but you stopped him by walking out of the office.

“My resignation letters went in three weeks ago for Crimes Against Children, i go next week, i'll say goodbye to the team tomorrow” you said walking down the stairs and past your teammates who heard everything.

“You're leaving?” Derek asked, you could hear him but you didn't acknowledge him and kept walking, Hotch walked slightly faster and grabbed your arm, pulling you back to him.

“I love you (Y/n)” his voice was low and wavering, it was full of emotions but you couldn't care less.

“Then perish” you said finally, and with that.

It was all over.

You yanked your arm from Hotch, turned, and walked off without looking back.

Spencer Reid

Spencer was sick of it, he really was. He loved you, of course he did, but there was always something about you that just didn't sit right with him; you weren't too clingy, you weren't too protective, you were perfect. But you didn't believe he had all the trauma he constantly said he had. You jump scared him and of course his fist almost comes in contact with your nose, you scream his name and he comes in with his gun held just to see a photo of a dog, you always dismiss his trauma at the worst of times.

Anniversary of his abduction and drugging? ‘Lol no that doesn't happen to people like you, even back then’.

Anniversary of Maeve's death? ‘So you love a dead girl more than you do me? Oh thats rich Spence, thanks’ and youd walk out of the apartment and wait for SPENCER, to send a fucking apology.

Whenever he talks about his mum or her mental state? ‘Spencer you won't inherit whatever it is that she has, skitzy whatever’ you say with a laugh.

The team could see how much Spencer hated it, he was always on edge of everything. What he hated the most was when you decided to surprise him at work, everyone could then see how uncomfortable he was with you next to him, not how a couple was supposed to work.

So, he messaged you, asked for a chat over coffee. And here you are at the first coffee shop you both met, you giggling at a little baby blowing spit bubbles.

“(Y/n), can we focus on why i brought us here?” Spencer asked softly, he was trying, and hoping to some god that you would try as well.

“Yeah in a sec Spence,” you cooed at the little baby again.

“(Y/n) please,” Spencer was now desperate.

“Okay okay, Jesus Christ I can't do anything without you breathing down my neck can i?” you asked annoyed as you sat in your chair properly rather than directing your full body to the baby.

“Me? Breathing down your neck?” Spencer asked suddenly.

“Duh, you always do, i can't go anywhere or do anything without you there to ask every question in the book-”

“No (Y/n) that person is you,” Spencer cut you off angrily.

“Don't cut me off, Spencie” you reminded the boy, that was the last straw. Spencer slammed his hand on the table in rage causing a few people around to jump and stare, not good.

“No, you listen to me (Y/n)” Spencer started, “don't you dare call me that. Don't ever call me Spencie, you know why?”

“Because some girl from prison called you that” you mocked as you took a sip of your drink.

“Exactly, wanna know why i don't like people calling me that?” you shrugged, “it's called PTSD (Y/n), or PTSS. It’s real. That abduction I went through? That fucking happened, i was taken for two days and was drugged and tortured,” you sighed.

“Spence you know how i feel about that-”

“Yeah? And have you ever thought about what i feel? Huh? Ever think why I get so jumpy around you? Because i'm a federal fucking agent, i see worse shit than you could ever dream. And forgive me, but I try my best to keep you away from that stuff because I don't want to scare you with it but at this point I don't care anymore. Maeve? She's real, she was real. She was the most amazing girl in the world and you know what? I never saw her a single fucking time until the day she died. A murder suicide. I wept for weeks and weeks, wanna know who was there for me?” Spencer held up his hand and started counting off on his fingers, “my teammates, my supervisor, my mother, the people in my favourite coffee shop and bookstore. THEY WERE CONCERNED FOR ME WHEN I STOPPED COMING IN FOR TWO WEEKS” Spencers voice raised slightly, not enough to shout but enough to get through to you, “i have PTSD, i have trauma; and it's not right for you to dismiss it like its nothing. And that includes my mother” and with that Spencer was done. He grabbed his wallet from his pocket, shoved a $5 bill on the table and started walking off, you took a moment to catch up before walking after him.

“Spence, what- what?” your brain couldn't keep up as Spencer walked out of the shop with you in tow.

“We’re over. Go home” Spencer said without looking at you.

“But, I love you!” you exclaimed, disheartened, hoping that last bit would help you, but Spencer kept walking.

“Then perish” was all you heard as he continued walking away, confidence radiating over him as he left you to your thoughts.

And honestly? Thinking back on everything.

He was fucking right.

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

so, I've been idenfying as a lesbian for almost one year, I'm just 15 and I probably don't know anything but I'm completely sure about my attraction to women and about my lack of attraction to men who look/are cis straight, i don't want to be transphobic or biphobic with my labels and the word I feel the most comfortable with is lesbian but im sometimes attracted to nb people/trans men(who don't look cis) and i don't know if it's hurtful for trans people to call myself a lesbian if my attraction is sometimes like that, should I call myself bi ? also, if I said bi, everyone would understand "she likes men and women" and i don't like men, I mean, if you look/act like a man im surely not attracted to you and right now I'm kind of confused about what the labels even mean

I appreciate your concern about these things and trying to find answers. I’m not going to tell you what label you can or should be using but there are some things you should know and be aware of when picking a label for yourself.

Regarding non-binary people: some nb people would not mind a lesbian being attracted to them, whereas other non-binary people would feel misgendered by that. So when you find yourself attracted to a non-binary person and you two actually get close then there needs to be a conversation about this. How do they feel about you identifying as a lesbian? Are they okay with it or does it constantly feel like you think of them as a woman? If your friends/family know you as a lesbian does that by extension mean they will always assume your non-binary partner is a woman? and so on.... Also note that bisexuality does NOT mean “attraction to men and women”. It means “attraction to more than one gender”. So someone who is attracted to women and non-binary genders (but not to men) can still identify as bisexual. Unfortunately there are many misconceptions about bisexuality and a lot of people still think it means just men and woman or just cis people. But you should choose a label based on what describes your sexuality well and makes you feel good - regardless of what false ideas the mainstream society has of that label. If we would have to wait for society to catch up on the right definitions of all our labels before we could use them then we’d all never get to pick a label. Not to mention that meanings can change over time. But I get that you don’t want people to assume you are attracted to men, some people identify as “bi lesbian” to express that they are attracted to multiple genders but not to men. Maybe that’d be an option for you. Or just saying you are “queer” which is a nice vague label that can mean any kinds of things along the line of “not straight” (or “not cis”).

Regarding trans men I honestly think you should educate yourself further on trans issues and gender. Because you say you are attracted to “trans men who don’t look cis” and that you are not attracted to people who “act/look like men”. I’m sure you don’t mean to harm anyone or to offend. But in saying those things you pretty much imply that you don’t think of trans men as real men. Even if they look feminine or are closeted - they are still men. And unless a trans man has a lot of internalised transphobia, I don’t see how any of them would really be okay with a lesbian saying she’s attracted to them. (There are trans men who date lesbians but those relationships are basically existing on a foundation of misgendering the trans man which is not a good thing.) Whatever a trans man “acts” like, that is the behaviour and personality of a man. Whatever a trans man looks like, that is the look of a man. And that being said: not all cis men look the same or act the same; some cis men have feminine features and not all cis men are the stereotypical fuckboi president of toxic masculinity-ville. But you only make this distinction regarding trans men? That ends up sounding like you don’t view trans men as men. You cannot say “I am not attracted to men” and then follow it up with “but I am sometimes attracted to trans men”. Those two statements cannot co-exist. Either you are attracted to men or you are not. By saying you are attracted to trans men but not cis men you are basically saying that trans men and cis men aren’t the same gender and you still think trans men are women.

Again, I know you mean well, so don’t take this as me talking down on you. I’m just trying to explain where you should dig a little deeper and learn more because I assume a lot of this is just coming from a lack of knowledge. It’s normal to not ~know~ all these things right away and we all sometimes make mistakes. Labels, sexuality, gender... those can all be complicated and sometimes even seem contradictory.

Always keep in mind that a label is supposed to fit you - not the other way round. If “lesbian” is the one word that seems right to you then by all means - keep it! But know that you can’t expect every non-binary person to be okay with this and if a non-binary person expresses that they are not comfortable with a lesbian being attracted to them then you either gotta change your label (to bi, for example) or not make any more advances towards that person and move on. And you should rethink how you view trans men and transness in general.

Maddie

[heart-forge]

Hey! Im nb, and i tend to jsut stick with they pronouns bc that's what i use. As far as nb representation, for me it really only matters that the character has a moment where they outright talk about being nb (like saying "im not a girl" even if using she pronouns), even if they dont appear androgynous. i personally dont think it needs to be explored a huge amount, but as long as it's outright stated and maybe clarified that yes, theyre nonbinary, thats enough for me. i hope this makes sense!

You totally make sense and I’m starting to think that outright saying so is one of the most genre-friendly way to go about such a thing. I’ve gotten good suggestions but BR is my only “mostly similar to the here and now” setting where I could use certain clothing or merch to indicate an NB character without having to grind the story to a halt to interrogate one character’s gender ;; I think that’s broadly what I’m trying to avoid though, but it comes from years of having NB explained to me by cis writers.

Remember how M/as/s E/ffe/c/t And/r/o/me/da where you weren’t allowed to play as a NB protagonist but there was an As/a/ri who was constantly having a gender lecture in the background even after all the garbage we’ve been put through wrt them? 

That’s what I’m trying to avoid, and I know there’s ways to do it without prompting a fricken apoplexy in readers but I’ve never personally experienced a lowkey NB reveal that was not 1) obvious based on relative androgyny compared to other explicitly gendered characters in a gross misunderstanding of The Point as it were, 2) based on clothing “fake-outs” where again the creator stares into the camera where a mostly binary presenting person wears the “opposite” presentation, 3) I sit through a gender 101 lecture that a) sounds strange based on language and setting, and b) grinds everything to a halt to explain to me, who either can also be NB or for some reason cannot be but definitely knows more than whoever wrote the lecture does.

[jxles]

✧･ﾟ(   artemis + erika linder + woman   ) 𝒎𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒂 !!  have you seen (   juliet (jules) hellström  ) around ? (   she/her ) has been in kaos for (   twenty-six years   ). the (   twenty-six year old   ) is a (   wildlife officer   ) from (   kaos, greece   ). people say they can be (   hard to work with   ) but maybe that’s not too bad ‘cause they can also be (   tenderhearted   ). whenever i think of them, i can’t help but think of (   eyes that speak for themselves, the contradiction of the softest toughness, feeling of safety and warmth   ).  ･ﾟ✧  

(  penned by lauren, 23, cst, she/her  ).

hiii, i haven’t been in a group in a very long time but im excited to be here!! a lil nervous, going out of my comfort zone in some areas, but all around excited. fun fact, i had a mumu group almost just like this a couple years ago, except the difference was the gods kept their memories so they were all wilding out being human hahahah

feel free to skim this lol. but im in love w some of y’alls characters and i can’t wait to start talking to you and interacting! please feel free to message me whenever srsly! im in the discord you can find me there or pm me here.

one thing: is im very slow and have a disability and it’s rly hard for me to keep up with and concentrate on really long stuff, so keeping interactions just a bit on the shorter side will get our characters much farther with me lmao.

you can find her pinterest here, and i’ll make a playlist soon enough.

BASICS; brief about/family/small details

Honestly she might stab someone (if they actually somehow know her name) if they call her Juliet instead of Jules. 

She turned 26 on October 16th (which is the traditional day in celebration of Artemis as the goddess of nature and animals). 

She was born here in Kaos, I felt like it was important. Artemis was close to the nature in Greece specifically, hanging out around important rivers and forests constantly, befriending and loving the creatures in these areas. The nature of Greece was Artemis’ home, so it only made sense to me that when they were sent here she would wind up right back in it.

She’s very obviously not Grecian though, lmao. ((Erika is clearly Swedish, but German is a much more common demographic in Greece (actually one of the most common for non-native population). Scandinavia is all part of Germanic origins anyway, therefore,)) I think her family immigrated here from that region long before she was born!

She isn’t religious and has honestly never thought about it. (Laughable considering she’s a deity.)

She has a twin brother and he’s honestly like... too much for her to deal with lol. This is definitely me giving her a human brother that is the equivalent to the pain in the ass that Apollo was for her lmao. She loves him, but she will most definitely hit his ass when he’s annoying her. lskjdflskjdf

She doesn’t have a close relationship with her parents. There wasn’t really anything wrong with her upbringing (wow, me? making someone’s childhood average?) but they were never like close in the slightest. Her parents didn’t really want to be together, they only were for her and her brother, and the tenseness just radiated constantly. It wasn’t awful, but it obviously wasn’t ideal and even as a kid she’d much rather be playing with bugs in the backyard than hanging out inside. Once they’d grown up, her parents split. She has a more easy going relationship with them now, but she doesn’t feel the need to call.

She has a few tattoos here and there, for sure, but I haven’t picked them out yet.

She has two cats, and a snake. She doesn’t have a dog of her own, because she fosters them instead!

RELATIONSHIPS/SEXUALITY

TLDR below. Her gender is very difficult. I tried to explain it on my app but flailed around like a dumbass lmao. It’s a very common lesbian experience to be caught in this weird gender limbo. Not truly cis, but not really trans either. ((((Lesbians in my support groups all joke, “No gender, just d*ke” slkdflskdjf)))) So many of us connect to being a woman and womanhood only through our love for other women. And Artemis is definitely a lesbian, and I smile because through my eyes, I feel like I can see this being an experience all the way back to her. She declined and refused basically traditional forms of being “a woman” -- childbirth, marriage, sexuality specifically for men... and yet, she is the goddess of childbirth, fertility. It screams to me her love for women, and her connection to womanhood only being through other women. It’s very interesting and very complex, and very hard to explain to someone who doesn’t experience it. But yeah!!! 

My character is definitely also not feminine. I don’t think Artemis is either. I look at her statue where she’s leaning and got her hand on her hip and I’m like wow that’s some serious butch energy lmao. Big d*ke. Idk!!

TLDR: Jules is (def soft butch) lesbian, and her gender is neither trans/nb, nor quite cis either. 

On that... god, she loves women. Like, how can you not? They are soft, and all of them are complex, and gorgeous in so many ways. Artemis was surrounded by like 50 nymphs at all hours of the day everywhere she went lmfao. Gotta catch em all LSKDJFLDKFJ. 

So, Jules is definitely a stereotypical lesbiab in that she lowkey falls in love (in some way, and not necessarily romantically, just such a deep appreciation) w every lady she meets because, uh? Women? Magical, stunning, brave, phenomenal, spectacular, showstopping.

Because of this, and Artemis’ inclination to have every lady imaginable, Jules has a very hard time being in relationships. She doesn’t have like issues with it, and isn’t like completely afraid of commitment, it’s just kind of how it is. She loves to meet new women, and learn about them, etc. Butttt it’s not out of the question, if she meets someone super special. Artemis did get stuck on Callisto for awhile.

OCCUPATION

She is a wildlife officer, so you can find her around any local parks (protected water and forests, etc) doing her thing. 

Making sure people aren’t abusing the nature or the animals, watching for wounded animals, protecting hunters, etc. All kinds of stuff. 

She was never really interested in college, just not into it. She’s not really the scholarly type. She could have gone into zoology or something of that nature, and she thought about it, but it ultimately just wasn’t her thing. She’s happy where she’s at.

PERSONALITY

She’s a little hard to work with. She likes to do things her own way. Unlike most kids with siblings, she didn’t enjoy giving way for her brother. But I mean he was also a dumbass (in her humble sisterly opinion lmao) and she never felt the need to bend to his ideas. 

Still, she’s super kind and understanding -- uhhhhh at least with women, (she kind of >.> dislikes men-kind, always has but it’s only increased as she’s gotten older and more bitter toward ways of the world, and after an assault that isn’t necessary for intro tbh or who she is), but still. 

She is so so so so so soft inside lmao. She presents very tough just kind of naturally, but watch a lady smile at her the right way and her heart will melt smh.

She is definitely not a people pleaser. She does not care. Like, at all.

Um I feel like this wasn’t very good. I probably forgot something, and probably explained too much of other things. But!!! I just want to post this now so here we go lol. I hope this works well enough. I’m not good at bios so... some facts n stuff!!! Please message me aaaaa, I also @’d and messaged some of you, as well!

[redwoodrroad]

hey whisper in the night spoilers

under the cut because im thinking about jormag’s like reach over others regardless of species, and i wanted to share

(i also took a nice scenic picture and wanted to share but please have a read if youre interested!)

im really intrigued by this notion that jormag is apparently 1) speaking through the puppeteering of dead individuals and 2) speaking directly to characters via back-of-the-mind-type whispers

it’s very mordremoth of them but like.... as sylvari commanders have noticed, it’s “different”

it’s especially different Because jormag is speaking to sylvari commanders or sylvari in general. we’ve seen other dragons speak before, obviously, but never have we seen a dragon invade a person’s mind (other than sylvari), whether just for little whispers or for straight up bodily control re: the final cutscene...... then of course there’s the implication that everyone in the campsite at jora’s keep massacred each other, and all of that got me thinking:

jormag has domain in the ice, but they also have a reasonable grasp over norn—male norn are particularly vulnerable—and i think since learning about mordremoth, ive assumed (and maybe other people have assumed) that norn are sort of minions of jormag in a similar way to how sylvari are minions of mordremoth. maybe not in conception, but i think it’s pretty safe to say that if jormag really Really wanted to, they could snap the tether on the norn and say “okay go fight for me, do what i want” and control / alter as many people as they want the way mordremoth did for sylvari during heart of thorns

what we learned from This chapter...... is that jormag doesn’t just have reach within norn, they have reach across anyone, realistically. there are some limitations of course—that part is unknown, though im thinking it’s either proximity-based or dragon-magic-specific, largely TBD—but for the Most Part, jormag can talk to anyone they want, control whatever body they want (when they’re dead), and create hallucinations for anyone they target

this all leads me to believe that jormag is somehow wildly different from the other dragons, and maybe this is just an example of anet utilizing narrative flow to keep a story compelling—constantly introducing new villains that are somehow bigger and badder than the last is inherently intriguing, even if it risks breaking the rules—but if this Does break the rules of dragon magic, i’ll be really interested to see where that’s going and how far that will be taken

what i mean by that is we learned that sylvari are dragon minions to mordremoth. it explains why sylvari are impervious to non-mordremoth magic; e.g. they cannot become undead via zhaitan magic because one dragon cannot take a minion from another dragon, basically. we assumed that norn are jormag minions, but norn can be affected by other dragons, and jormag is affecting people who are Not norn, including sylvari! now we haven’t seen any icebrood sylvari yet, but i think that if even one of jormag’s domains—persuasion if not ice—is affecting sylvari, that’s Big news i think

that said, we have also learned that dragons can “ask for permission” to alter a person—re caithe—so maybe it isn’t so much a matter of asking for permission to affect the minds of jormag’s victims but rather, jormag is Persuading their victims to Let Them give jormag permission to affect them. i think this concept will come up again in the future

also to keep in mind (maybe this is more of a personal note for me but i thought of it just now too), three elder dragons Are Dead, and the game has already established that those magics dont just go away—they go to the next dragons who are either awake or stirring. thats what we saw all throughout living world season 3 in the fire islands and up in bitterfrost (nb interesting that we havent seen any icebrood that display zhaitan / mordremoth / kralk characteristics but there might be something to that). so it could also be the case that jormag is waiting before utilizing the magic they obtained from their dead uh. dragon brothers (maybe minus kralk because we did kill him in the mists)

all of that to say...... i think jormag is much more powerful than the other dragons for whatever reason because of their reach and their affect on people. im not good at concise explanations, and theres no argument here, I’m really just throwing ideas out there haha im sorry but i do hope this makes sense. jormag is wild to me, and if we start to see more dragon weirdness that changes the game or changes our understanding of dragon magic, i’m really going to be intrigued

[flurrin]

finished Carole and Tuesday (as far as it’s out). it’s just really, really badly written in the end.

I liked the voice acting of the AI-obsessed character, he sounded a lot like Marek from Broken Age.

The animation is...good...but also kind of bad? The designs are so detailed that the movement gets noticeably stunted and all the scenes of really good detailed animation go to the rival, who is just standing on a standing, not even dancing or anything. i don;t understand this decision. you’re going to make these extremely expensive sequences and then not even do a bit of choreography beyond bobbing from side to side and waving her arms sometimes?? some of the techniques are good and clever, i like how Tuesday’s CG guitar looks, it’s very well integrated.

In regards to the LGBT stuff:

A man mentions he’s bisexual in the first episode, but the only man he's attracted to is much younger than him and he'd be compromising an existing relationship (with a woman...) in order to pursue it. (later another man hints at being bisexual but he also is not in a relationship during the series save for...)

After endlessly teasing the idea that they're still attracted to each other and going to get back together, a man's ex wife is revealed to be in a relationship with another woman (complete with someone screaming WHAT? at the top of their fucking lungs)

A woman is gender ambiguous and this is revealed to be due to the environment she grew up in, not because she's transgender or anything. Also she's a completely failed child star so....is the implication that she failed as a star because she got more mannish as she grew.......?

One act called the Mermaid sisters is a group of nonbinary people who "want to create a new type of being" between male and female, as if nb identities don't already exist, and who are just nonstop the butt of "ew, look how weird they are" jokes. They're written and designed to behave like queens in drag and they're set up for failure by the narrative and it's supposed to all be very funny and yikes :/

Like I'm trying not to judge the character designs that intentionally seem to resemble man-in-dress tropes because they're usually not written that way, no one expresses discomfort at their appearances (which is good) but a LOT of them are written with flamboyant gay stereotypes anyway so it's. Uncomfortable

There’s also a Psycho Lesbian who is Tuesday’s biggest fan and messages her constantly, asks for a hug and immediately bites her neck to “mark” her as “mine” and then attacks her savagely when Tuesday says she isn’t interested and it’s wow all kinds of bad. i was afraid she was going to commit suicide, too.

More than that though the writing is so bad that im more than halfway through and i still don't know what the show is supposed to be about. Apparently these two girls Did a Miracle at some point and we're supposed to be excited to see...anything about what that is.

One scene that stood out to me in the beginning is Tuesday walking into Carole’s apartment and saying “Wow, it’s so big!” and Carole explaining it used to be the owner’s storage room (which, by the way, has no value as information given to the audience). Then Carole finds out Tuesday was rich and lived in a mansion and Tuesday is like what??? that’s a mansion?? but everyone on my street lived in a house this size. if Tuesday didn’t think she lived in a mansion, then why would she think the apartment is big???

then when they land their first concert they meet another music star whom they don’t know and who barely knows them and he, unprompted, just gives them completely inapplicable advice (he says like “you know sometimes bands forget the music they set out to make...but you girls...you haven’t forgotten” DUDE THEY JUST STARTED) this is not how humans behave?? he doesn’t ask them any questions or even really greet them he just makes them nervous and then mansplains music to them in a way that makes him seem like an Old Mentor except they’ve literally never met and we will never see him again after this episode, nor will the themes he imparted come into play

They have a rival but literally the FIRST time they meet is like ep 7 and she's just like "I hate you and we're rivals" THAT'S NOT A STRONG RIVALRY JUST BECAUSE YOU INSIST ON TELLING US THAT IT IS.

the fact that we haven't learned anything about one of the main protagonists is played as a SWERVE when we've been sitting here like come on. Just say. You're choosing to withhold this information.

These two girls know nothing about each other and decide to start a band and i really can't picture that happening UNLESS they were a little in love and yet no one ever confronts those feelings and as SOON as they start to have a fight they're just immediately ready to put everything on the line for each other again. This isn't how humans act. None of this is.

anyway it was really disappointing. i didn’t expect it to be a love story, but i expected it to BE A STORY, and it really isn’t. the character’s problems all just get solved with no consequences just CONSTANTLY--their manager gambles away all their money but they’re never seen working part time jobs again regardless, Tuesday’s hand gets STEAM BURNED ALL THE WAY UP HER ARM but she’s fine the next day, Tuesday gets caught and brought home but they just kidnap her back and the TV station somehow still doesn’t know that she’s the daughter of a presidential candidate

i can’t even guess why its set in the future? i think the main themes of the series are supposed to be about AI-constructed music vs. human-constructed music but we, the audience, can’t tell the difference (because in our reality it IS all written by humans), nor are we meant to. it’s so fuckin weird

[secretagentspydetectiveninja]

this is a weird question but what's it like being aroace? I'm writing a story and i'm hoping to include more diversity but as I've had no experience w these kinda things I'm trying to ask around to get more knowledge (I've been doing the same thing w my trans/nb friends! Sorry!)

Hey no worries, feel free to ask away, it’s really awesome that you want to include more diversity in your writing! If you ever want to IM me here or on discord or wherever if that makes it easier then go ahead.

Uhh as for what it’s like, obviously it’s going to be different for every person so be sure to ask around, but in my experience it sometimes feels like people are being very arbitrary with their actions? Things like flirting or actively trying to pursue someone romantically, to me it feels a bit like “...okay but why though??” I don’t even dislike romance, it’s just that sometimes it seems kinda... random I guess.

It does make listening to most pop songs unrelatable, though, and even though I sometimes like romance in fiction I seem to have a lower tolerance for it than most people I know. (And I can’t even tolerate smut at all. There’s the ace part for ya!) And as you get older you’re reminded how different things are for you, with people constantly talking about their SO’s and asking you when you’ll get one. I’ve seen other people mention an analogy - a world where everyone keeps going on and on about a certain perfume but you just can’t smell anything unusual at all and wonder what they’re on about or what’s wrong with you - yeah, I’d say it’s kinda like that.

OH, and ever since I was little, I always kept latching onto characters and deciding that they’re uninterested in romance and sex (well before I even knew what being aromantic and asexual was). You know Treasure Planet? At first I was heartbroken that they cancelled the sequel, until I found out they’d been planning to give Jim a love interest in the sequel, and suddenly I was quite jarringly relieved, because why?? would he need or want a love interest?? he’s Jim Hawkins!! Why would you ruin his personality with a love interest??? that’s so unnecessary??? (See? Aroace headcanon right there, lol)

And I thought I had crushes in school, but I picked them. Like, if someone asked me then I would just pick the most good-looking person I knew. Or if a friend said they had a crush on someone, and I didn’t think the person looked totally awful, then I would say I had a crush on them too. Honestly, I thought it was normal to do that, I thought having a crush was thinking someone was cute-looking, and that people were making up the romantic/sexual attraction bits to sound more grown-up ;_;

Also, I think non-aroaces don’t really see this side of things, but people get really aggressive with the amatonormativity, it’s that ingrained. I mean, my parents literally outright told me they’d rather I was gay than aroace when I explained things to them. And “friends” have harassed me when I came out as ace, I’ve been told basically everything on those “what NOT to say to aro/ace people” lists right to my face, been pressured into lying about things because people won’t take no for an answer, my family don’t believe me at all and constantly try to convince me I’m wrong. (Except my brother, you rock dude!) It’s not something that non-aroaces are aware of because it doesn’t directly affect them, so it’s easy to understate the amount of overall abuse, gaslighting and erasure that’s faced by aros/aces. Unfortunate but true ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And on top of all that, you know that when people say “of course I consider friendship just as highly as romance!” deep down, they probably don’t actually mean it, lol. Subconsciously most people do indeed place a higher value on romance than friendship. It’s much easier to notice when you’re aro.

One last thing... I hate soulmate AUs. There, I said it! They rub me the wrong way, even when you’re including the whole “but soulmates can be platonic too!” thing. It just feels... iffy.

Okay that was all probably an incoherent wall of text, sorry about that! If you’ve got other questions or more specific questions I’m happy to answer those to the best of my ability! I hope things go well! (And I hate to shamelessly plug my own fic, but I was writing No Romo for Aro/Ace August and it’s not done yet but it’s the most aroace thing I’ve written, hehe, it’s probably a better glimpse into The Life Of An AroAce than this will ever be)

[adziedoodle]

So ive recently come out as NB at work and school, but everyone ignores it. I dress as masc and femme as i can but im still a "lady" i dont know what im doing wrong and it makes me very uncomfortable. I know my body type isn't what ppl think of when they think NB. Any tips on how to deal with this ?

(I’m sure you already understand this but I’m just saying what’s been on my mind since I first read this message... i hope i’m not sounding too patronising or rude!)

Unfortunately, things like gender this take time for people to really understand and act on - esp. if you consider the likelihood that they’ve never probably really acknowledged genders outside the binary before. 

As a non-binary person myself I’ve learnt that, while your gender may have been something you’ve realised a long time ago, for them it’s still something they are trying to understand or even make an effort to remember about you/others like you. 

Using the right terms, name, pronouns etc when referring to you takes time and  I know it can take a lot of effort for us to remind them about. Like, due to the ‘cisgender/binary gender is the default’ world we live in coming out is an on going process rather than a big event that can completely permanently changes people’s opinions once. 

It can really suck, and i’m sorry to hear your uncomfortable and upset that folks are seemingly ignoring it :/ but, if there’s any reassurance i can give you, you’re not doing anything wrong by living your truth to the best of your ability. Like, this isn’t your fault or because you have the ‘wrong’ body type - there is no right way to be non-binary as it changes from person to person, from expression to presentation. Really, it’s the system we live in that’s at fault, not us as individuals just trying to live our life the way that’s most comfortable. In time, I’m sure people in our schools and workplaces will respect and understand us, (and there are already people in the world who do!), but for now we just gotta embrace out internal understanding of who we are and how we present that and know that we are still valid folks even if those around us don’t recognise that right now.

Please keep moving forward, pick your battles right, refrain from exhausting yourself by constantly feeling like you have to explain to others and know you’re still a valid non-binary individual, even if there are external factors not lining up with how you feel internally.

Love you! believing in you! if you ever need to vent about them Non-Binary Struggles™, my inbox is always open!

[genericrevenge]

(for the transmed ask thing) 4 5 7 8 11 13 17 18 22 23 26 27 34 37-40

FUCK IM SORRY I FORGOT ANON4.) ARE YOU ON HRT?nope. sadly. i only recently got diagnosed with gender dysphoria, but i hope that's still a step in the right direction.5.) ANOTHER HRT QUESTION IM NOT QUALIFIED TO ANSWERsorry7.) BEST/WORST REACTIONS COMING OUT IRL/ONLINE:worst reaction so far was my mom. ended up in a lot of tears and frustration. best irl and online would be my friends. i fucking adore my friends and im so fucking grateful they support me.8.) ANY DATING TIPS/EXPERIENCES AS TRANS?nope. i am very much single, lol.11.) ARE YOU ABLE TO PASS?sometimes! my hair is shoulder length right now, but i got gendered correctly most often with my hair about chin length. sometimes if i wear a hat or don't open my mouth to talk, people will automatically call me a guy. but mostly i have trouble. 13.) HOW OLD ARE YOU?i'm 17.17.) DID YOU EVER HAVE A MOGAI PHASE?ugh, unfortunately, i did. i first thought i was a lesbian (didnt last long because i couldn't force myself to like girls), then adopted the label "genderfluid asexual panromantic." it was bad. thankfully now i'm just a normal trans dude.18.) HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN A TRANSMED?since...10th grade. that was when i went from a liberal mogai feminist to a way more conservative transmed. i currently dont align myself with any party, but i'm definitely more centrist than before. my only problem now is that the transmed label has been corrupted by enbies (like everything else) and now i'm reconsidering my label.22.) HAVE YOU TRIED TO EXPLAIN YOUR IDEOLOGY IRL?yeah, lmao. there are some horrible enbies at my school, and i got reported for wearing a hat that said "nonbinary = non valid" and the school made me not wear it anymore. i live in a fairly liberal area, so often people disagree with me (like in my sociology class. someone said gender was a spectrum and i was not happy). that being said, my dad understands truscum ideology and supports it.23.) WOULD YOU DATE A TRANS PERSON?sure! i don't see why not, tbh.26.) WHAT TRANSMED ACCOUNTS ARE YOUR FAVORITE?off the top of my head: @snugbat @milloboi @chimera-bones @antinb and @yellcourse (y'all have great blogs, thank you) 27.) UNPOPULAR TRANSMED OPINION:i am strongly anti-nb. it's kinda sad that that has become such a contested opinion in the transmed community.34.) ARE YOU AN ARTIST OF ANY SORT?yeah!!! i play guitar and i absolutely love it. holy shit i fucking love playing guitar. i only recently started (last september) but it's one of my favorite things to do. i can play two fall out boy songs from beginning to end :^)37.) MALE AND FEMALE SOCIALIZATION VS. BIOLOGICAL DIFFERENCES:ah, nature vs. nurture. both definitely play a role in how one views themselves. i think there are clear biological differences between men and women, but no one should be treated unfairly because of that. not acknowledging the differences is unscientific and illogical. male and female socialization is tougher because it changes constantly. i think if enbies stopped internalizing gender roles, then some would accept their gender-non-conformity and not need to use the nonbinary label (since that's the problem with a lot of them). 38.) IF YOU COULD BE GIVEN ONE THING FOR FREE RIGHT NOW WHAT WOULD IT BE?a new shirt. my favorite one has some holes in it and my other ones are pretty old :^(39.) IF YOU WERE ABLE TO, HOW WOULD YOU INFLUENCE THE PUBLIC'S VIEW ON TRANSMEDICALISM?definitely let people know that this is the logical, evidence-based, scientific route, and also let people know that we don't hate trans people. we really just want better things for trans people.40.) ANY TRANS LITERATURE YOU'D RECOMMEND?not currently, unfortunately. most of the books i've seen irl aren't interesting/are cliche/are about enbies. i have to still read Some Assembly Required by Arin Andrews, though.thank you so much, this was really fun! i'm sorry again for not responding sooner 🤡

[allogloss]

a while ago i had a transmed join a trans/nb server i run and after i asked them to explain themself said that “actually most transmeds respect trans people and believe in NB” meanwhile today i made a post telling transmeds not to follow me and i’ve gotten reblogs for hours talking abt various things but mostly how it’s not transphobic to not date trans ppl lmao

transmed honestly have no respect for anyone bc they have no respect for our boundaries. and like why do ppl feel the need to constantly bring up the not wanting to fuck trans ppl thing like is their train of thought "oh a trans person exists better tell them i dont wanna fuck them" its so unnecessary.also this reminded me that there was a trans gc that i was thinking about joining and then they posted new rules about joining and were like no terfs/twerfs/transmeds/or ace/aro exclusionists which like???? how does that relate??? like thats definitely not the same thing and im really tired of them being compared like they are

[kosmicdream]

hi i just discovered your webcomic !! i very much love it a lot and i was wondering if yo could maybe clear up the worm's anatomy ? cuz like, one minute they have boobs except its referred to as a he and then it has a dick but its still a queen ? don't get me wrong its insanely cool but if you would be so kind as to enlighten me on the subject it would be very much appreciated !! keep up the good work !!

I’ve been getting a lot of new readers and I think its been a while since i’ve gotten questions about this, so I suppose I don’t mind recirculating some information again. Hopefully i can cover a little bit more of the deeper nuances about worms and their relationship to gender/sex/pronouns that i haven’t talked about before. Its best to keep in mind that pronouns and also body parts (genitals/breasts, ect) arent always indicative of gender or sex. I think this is safe to say this is true for.. even outside of my story.

**SOME SPOILERS BELOW IF YOU HAVENT READ THE ENTIRE COMIC... SORRY I RAMBLED***

Anyway-- In the case of hydragora worms (which ill focus on as they are the ones with the king/queens classifications), their pronouns are not even exactly related to their genders or sex at all! but rather the type of ‘class’ of worm they are. Technically, all worms are able to lay eggs and also fertilize them. there are no “girl” or “boy” worm. Sometimes their rituals with how this process happens are different depending on what kind of worm they are, but they are all able to shape-shift their bodies to look how they want-- well, based on what they eat-- so body parts like boobs and genitals are really just accessories. For some worms, they’re important parts of their body that help make them comfortable, for others they couldnt give a fuck about what is swinging around. it really depends on the individual. Worms can mate without even having any visible genitals just as long as they squirm around in the necessary fun fluids with some sort of .. open.. orifice to absorb it with.... worm sex can be real damn freaky i wont get into it rn.

Back to the pronouns though. What does it mean??? Well, Kings do not actually mean male and Queens do not mean female..Even though we humans generally associate these pronouns/words with male and female! To make it as simple as i can, I try to explain or ask others to think of it like..Kings (he/him) - Typical characteristics: Lazy, Important, Need to be worshipped and protected. Very sexually appealing. Also have mysterious powers. Often have little weird crowns.Queens (she/her) - Characteristics: generally very large, can regenerate, specifically hunt down kings to kill them. Super strong. Generally have cool looking tails for some reason. Very colorful because that is useful for intimidation and showing off how strong they are.Regular worms: want to worship kings + protect them, also desire to become knights. technically speaking-- i would say that the lack of pronouns is the most ‘suitable’ pronoun to describe them. some even casually adopt he/she/they pronouns but usually in the space of interacting with other species. anyway, they’re loyal and subservient. knight worms: the special king-appointed upgrade of regular worms, they often adopt he/him pronouns through this process but it is reflective of their close bond with their king. (the very simple format is thinking the three basic worm genders as LAZY, MURDER and WORSHIP.)

*ok more specific character spoilrs below YOUUUVE BEEN WARNNNED IM WARNING YOOOU ok done warning**

Some worms break from this system and try to reinvent or reinterpret pronouns for their own while still interacting with worm culture/society. A couple examples of worms that do this are Agent Paper and Nail. (although really, its hard to think what worm character in ffak does not do this lol) Paper is a woman wishes to be viewed/treated as a woman by ANY species she interacts with. But! this doesnt mean she identifies as being a queen worm however- even tho she uses she/her pronouns. She just is a female worm. That identity is important to her even if, for a worm, it is far more ‘binary’ way of thinking than worms typically exhibit. Other worms will probably view her as a wanna-be-human or close minded. But just because the majority of worms are very fluid in many aspects of their gender/bodies/identity/sexuality doesn’t mean paper has to conform to this fluidity as well. The idea of a ‘Binary Gender’ for worms is typically very confusing (or an example of someone who is misinformed) to those who understand that worms generally do not adhere to a binary system. Especially for a worm who is NOT trying to disguise themselves as a human and integrate with human society (Aka, like Dylan who mostly interacts with humans and generally tries to remove herself from worm culture/society completely. Dylan does not even WANT to be considered a worm while paper still LOVES being a worm and associating herself with worms. shes just a woman worm. dylan is a woman. just not a worm woman. she will begrudgingly accept she is still technically a worm, but the identity of woman is less important to her and is more just the default of being viewed as a cis lady by humans and dylan is like ‘yeah whatevs’.)Nail is a queen worm, which typically have she/her pronouns, but he goes by he/him pronouns and also is fairly assertive of that. However, this doesnt mean he is a man or wishes to be viewed a ‘Man’ or ‘Male' (specifically) or even as a “King.” its more like... his own interpretation of what he/him means, which is about authority, dominance and most importantly: power. If he would pick a ‘binary gender sort of thing’ (while rolling his eyes bc he thinks its stupid while also thinking its important enough to get annoyed at when people dont respect his pronouns) he would pick being a man and would vehemently reject being viewed as a woman, but in a more deeper level that is not actually how he sees his he/him pronouns as a man thing. (even between being NB/male/female he would still pick man because that just seems ‘direct to the point.’ and satisfying) He also generally rejects the label of Queen worm too, but will begrudgingly or unenthusiastically accept that he is one. He is also considered an ‘odd’ queen because he is very small in stature and generally has muted colors of browns/tans instead of flashy ones. He has been teased at this too that he wasnt QUEEN enough by being so small and puny lmao.

To backtrack a little, As worms integrate with human society, or even hekatons (which that species also mimics a lot of human society), they will often adopt the ideology and system of how pronouns are used. Or at least, will be forced to process how other species will view them based on the shared language of using the same words, despite it meaning many different things... to not only groups of people but also on the individual level. I think thats an important thing to consider that there are many different dynamics, interpretations and journeys interacting all at once and influencing each other and are constantly evolving and branching out. Even the lines between what is a king/queen/other worms really ARE is blurry because its all on a spectrum of.. various physical characteristics and behaviors.

And to go into EVOLUTION and BLURRY LINES... As we can see with a worm like, Jacket for example... while he is specifically NOT a king, he is also more like a unique blend of features from queens/regular worms and also knights. because he WANTS to be a knight he already uses he/him pronouns despite not actually having a king already and hasnt even gone through the specific knighting process. Jacket sees He/him as words that mean total loyalty to the king. Whoever the king is. And if someone were to try to put him in a specific box of queen/king/knight/regular worm they would be unable to place him b/c he is something else unique entirely. and while jacket uses he/him pronouns i think at the core of it he literally does not give a fuck about language at all, or genders, or labels. those are all nonsense things. he relies only on instinct and desire.

Phew. ok I could ramble on and describe every one of my worm characters, but I’ll leave it at there for now. Crimson is even more confusing bc she is a fucking hybrid human/mandragora worm, using a goddamn hydragora body, and has like 2 other clone heart selves and all this other fucking bullshit. i have been writing this for like an hour. lmao

I hope some of this is communicates at least, its a little difficult to orchestrate and articulate all the levels operating here at once in a simple-to-digest manner. the fun thing about ffak at least is that if you dont want to think about this stuff you dont really have to--although id think it enriches the experience a bit.