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together, we do the same thing again //
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#satoru gojo#i still dont fully know what im doing w my render but i think im landing somewhere#pls let th transitional shift b over im tired of this grandpa#i know i am always like its natural fr styles to shift dont fight it just experiment and go with it see where it takes u#but god is it frustrating not being able to tell if u even like what youre making while youre making it#every piece being a full leap of faith bc u cant recognize what the 'ugly phase' is and therefore cant convince yourself tht it will pass#exhausting i tell u#anyway . gojo.#having a lot of fun w yellow-blue-grey lately so i figured id test them out on gojo more#i usually veer sharp in2 either neons or cool tones fr him but lately ive found the bruised pallid yellow look 2 b really striking#throw some periwinkle down fr contrast bam#i also realized its been a while since i drew gojo w his blindfold so theres that also#idk man i just work here#monthly gojo quota met and perhaps even exceeded#ALSO been looping clouded innocent fr ages and ages its so good so have more vocalyrics in caption smile
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ooo if you’d like to, bad boys? your art is so shaped /vpos :DD
bad boys 4 u <3
#sphynx sketches#sphynx asks!#trafficblr#limited life fanart#grian fanart#smallishbeans fanart#solidaritygaming fanart#swear i’m still doing the requests LOL. some real stressful stuff happened in my life recently so im even more exhausted than usual.#plus i’ve been working on some personal art so mcyt was on the backburner for a minute. been thinking about my ocs more lately#but i have some things i want to do so maybee if i don’t procrastinate like hell i will have some more art for tumblr soon
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of all trades (2/?)
#mine#not so daily sid#sundry sidney#d20#dimension 20#a starstruck odyssey#aso#fanart#hellooo .. this is simpler because i honestly only had like an hour to do this before i was too exhausted to draw and needed to go to bed..#insiders view i post these one day after i do them bcs i usually end up finishing these at gnarly hours of the night when nobody should be#osting.. i did a face study based kind of on emily axford but then i got a little carried away and stopped looking at the ref#such is life i guess . anyway this is not as interesting tomorrows sid will be better im sure
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"Why don't we lower the net?"
JESUS CHRIST HOW MANY LIFE LESSONS CAN YOU EVEN FIT IN A STORY? ARE YOU NOT TIRED FURUDATE? ARE YOU NOT TIRED OF COOKING 24/7?
#how is this man not exhausted#dropping BANGER after BANGER after BANGER after BANGER after BANGER after#im foaming at the mouth#and usually when it comes to stories like this after incorporating like three or four different themes it can start to feel a bit forced#NOTHING ABOUT ANYTHING IN HAIKYUU IS FORCED UGH#when the storytelling is so good you're actually pissed off#haruichi furudate#coach nekomata#kuroo tetsurou#thinking about how this simple piece of wisdom altered his perspective forever#especially after being the person to lower the net for his best friend#kozume kenma#haikyuu#hq#haikyuu!!
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*siiiiiigh...* I miss them.
Very quickly done Nerevar and Rasha because aughhh... It's been a while.
I might do more stuff! Maybe tomorrow. Not much to say here other than I miss posting <:3
#im too tired to ramble like i usually do#and these arent anything remarkable#so i have nothing much to say#anywayyy im trying#back to my 'doing my best' era#sort of since the exhaustion is getting to me this week really bad#autism is autisming currently#tes#the elder scrolls#morrowind#indoril nerevar#nerevar#nerevarine#tes oc#rashaposting#art#digital art#muscariart
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World’s best matchmaker and brother-in-law, everyone.
#ok im genuinely so frustrated and disappointed in myself because I wanted to draw 2 other things to go as bonuses with this#ynow what i USUALLY do but im so exhausted like i feel so drained i think art block is starting to creep up on me#because even drawing this was a challenge .. and normally im really good with getting out harder compositions than this so#:/ i just want to draw.#i think i jsut need to sleep on it im fresh off of an all nighter#ok theyre in their late 20s here when jordan and al just met.#hmm how do i make wesker look younger ooh i know *gives him 1 loose hair strand#resident evil#oc x canon#resident evil oc#biohazard#oc#re oc#biohazard oc#albert wesker#fengshuioc#jaiden manalang
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bumpin that ....
ndsjmsm im so tired. redrew kon as this ↓ bad boy

#scp#scp foundation#dr kondraki#erm#clefdraki#im so sorry idm what ca.e over me.#actually i have no shame#sorry anyways. or your welcome idk i wont yuck ur yum#dr clef#almost didnt tag him#im more exhausted than usual today the post nut clarity might hit tommorow . probably#scp fanart#fanart#illustration
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imagine this. you are win metawin, young and famous and rich. you have a cool older friend and co-star who is also young and famous and rich and a badass who has a cool image. and then your friend gets a co-star and undergoes the most drastic princessification ever. his my melody obsession comes to public light. he sulks every chance he gets. people realize how babygirl he is. you realize how babygirl he is. all because of his new co-star.
win is better than me, I would be airing his business out because what do you mean my friend had a whole other personality that no one knew about. that, ladies and gentlemen, is skynani brainrot.
#skynani#sky wongravee#nani hirunkit#win metawin#gmmtv#usually idgaf about what thai actors do#i only watch the shows and follow the drama#im a kpop girly so all the parasocialism gets exhausted there#but skynani is driving me insane#their dynamics are so???#they like each other so much it makes them look stupid#nani my cutieful adorable babygirl princess#i can't believe he is only two years younger than krist
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im trying to sleep but i can’t
how’d you know that?
#gfh is parallel to this argue w the wall#even disregarding the theory abt tb being the clancy before ty and pretending ty giving him a mask isn’t meaningful#and pretending that ‘you can take it off when you’re ready’ ‘they won’t know it’s you’ don’t mean anything#the contract’s non lore meaning - to me - is abt the pressure and obligation tyler feels to keep making music to help us stay alive#when he’s struggling with his own battles. knowing that the loss will be far greater than himself but being exhausted#ANYWAY IM NOT GINNA GET CARRIED AWAY TGERE BUT WHAT IM GETTING AT#is that it ties back to the meaning of guns for hands and how he begged ppl to channel their pain into his music and how he made it for us#gkd it’s 2am i am NOT explaining this right#but like . yall know what gfh is abt. its not just ‘turn our guns to a fist’#it’s abt ‘i simply tell them they should shoot at this simply suggest my chest’#i don’t think we properly acknowledge the amount of pressure we have inadvertently put on this band but tyler especially#i cannot imagine how exhausting it would be to feel like you are partially responsible for the mental health of tens of thousands of people#i’ll probably come back to this in the morning and try articulate wtf i’m trying to say better but like#tldr i adore tyler and think there’s a LOT of pressure on him to channel his pain into his music to help us and fear he’s exhausted#i hope they have a nice break after the breach era and that he manages to get closure#idk i can’t words rn im fighting to keep my eyes open i just love him and worry and yeah#anyway whatever haha gfh tc parallels waow#art2 and craft2#cliqueart#twenty one pilots#tøp#torchbearer#breach#clancy#josh dun#clique art#the contract#also this was a relatively quick piece i did not try to render this ‘properly’ like i usually would w this brush/style apologies#however this was just meant to be a palate cleanser between dr pieces so i refused to work on it for longer than 2 hours#ALSO THE GUNSHOT MOTIF DUH I WAS THINKING ABT IT SO MUCH I ASSUMED ID SAID THAT
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Oof I finally have a few hours for myself---
Anyways! References! Here are the reference sheets for my AU "Beyond Reach" it's messy but it gets the job done :3
I have a few illustrations planned for this au, so stay tuned hehehe
#Im going to be incredibly busy next week as well#Im just chasing A LOT of deadlines#and it's honestly a bit exhausting so I usually pass out or just relax#drawing requires energy that I don't have :')))#don't worry tho#after that week I might be less busy#I hope#trolls#dreamworks trolls#trolls band together#john dory#trolls 3#trolls au#trolls john dory#branch trolls#trolls branch#Beyond Reach au#beyond reach#BR!JD#BR!Branch#references#reference sheet
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ooooo, prompts you say??~
knowing how much I love when someone requests one of my lil guys so I can write them in a fun situation, I'm gonna toss you a f/ukuzawa, aaaaaaand add to it a side of cat allergies +M/ori involvement
do with that as you will, you can choose if the M/ori involvement is minimal, antagonist, helpful, anything you want, just gives you a lil thing to work with~ <3 excited to see what you may cook up if you so choose to!!~
hello !!! you gave me this and i ran with it so hard. thank u for the ask and i def had a lot of fun with this,...... i hope u enjoy it too !!
Nothing Beyond my Grasp
fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs characters: Fukuzawa Yukichi, Mori Ougai cw: sneezing kink !! mess, vouyerism, implied character with kink notes: hi it is 3 am i am so tired goodnight. you guys are lucky imm too tired to be embarrased rn because this is the horniest thing ive written so far !!! its a little kinky. i really like to explore their dynamic in a kind of unconventional way. i dont know if alot of people know about fukuzawas ex-assassin stuff because it was never really directly stated in anything besideds the novel but thats !! why !! hes basically silent throughout this whole thing. in the novel it says he walks compltelty silently most of the time so i think thats such an unconcious habit and it also splays out through most of his life. enjoy. iam going to pass out now gutten night !!!!
Very quickly, Fukuzawa had turned into one of Mori’s favorite people to study. In his unique line of work, he met plenty of unusual people, but none quite like him. Fukuzawa was mysterious- nearly silent, prone to snarling when provoked, and reminded him altogether of a caged wild dog. Really, ‘Silver Wolf’ was the perfect name for him.
Earlier in the evening, Elise had dragged in a bedraggled-looking stray, and entirely susceptible to her, he allowed her to keep it until she got bored with it. Not that they had much choice, anyway- it had taken to whipping its tail about in the corner and hissing as soon as she released it. Mori found himself glancing at the time more often after that. This was a new chance to study Fukuzawa. How would he react? Would he open his heart to another stray? He already had one.
Ever habitual, punctual as a means of politeness, Fukuzawa swings the door to his humble office open as soon as the clock strikes 9 p.m. He looked weary, the combination of preparing to open his agency and body guard work clearly taking its toll. Mori liked to see it- it lowered his guard.
As Fukuzawa moved to his usual spot he passed the spot where the cat had chosen to reside, which took his closeness as a threat and started to hiss and swat. Mori honed in on Fukuzawa’s face, watching the softness in his eyes. He kneels down, palms open, posture soft.
Mori snorts as Fukuzawa slips a treat from his sleeve, holding it out in offering. He doesn’t expose his hands very often, so Mori studies them closely. Calloused from years of sword fighting, etched with fading scars and an array of scratches. Clearly, this is a hobby of his.
He watches as one hand slowly stretches the treat forwards as the other one seriously knucks the underside of his nose, pulling at a particularly long scar. Mori wants to know what its from, but he knows better than to ask. He would never receive an answer. Fukuzawa appears to be making some progress, as the cat starts slinking along nervously, gaining confidence, until Fukuawa twitches into himself. It hisses and jumps back, pressing into the wall as he does it again. The movement leaves Mori quirking an tebow. Fukuzawa moves in a way that is meticulous and calculated, and something so unintentional is novel. Is exhaustion getting to him that badly? The thought sends a shiver down his spine.
Regardless of whatever is weighing him down, Fukuzawa appears to be undeterred. He fully sits down, placing the treat on his lap, and fixes Mori with his usual cold stare. “Where did she come from?” he asks, sounding almost.. Concerned? It's hard to tell with him, and Mori’s not quite familiar enough to parse every micro-intonation, yet. He gives a lazy shrug. “Elise brought it in. Feel free to take it, I dont like dirty things.” He lets the implications hang in the air, relishing the way Fukuzawa’s brow furrows. Always so easy to push. He might not be the only source, he realizes, because he soon scrunches up the bridge of his nose too, and shutters into a raised hand, twice in succession, before sniffing and giving his head a small shake.
Suddenly, Mori realizes what happened the first time. He decides to stay silent, and
feigns interest in his work while watching Fukuzawa from the corner of his eye. He observes him as he tends to his nose repeatedly, staring off with a hazy kind of expression. He also bears witness to the stray bringing itself to Fukuzawa again, settling in his lap, and makes sure to note down the look of joy.
He chuckles at the absurdity of the scene in front of him. “Looks like you’ve got quite a way with strays.” he muses. Fukuzawa starts, apparently haven forgotten about him altogether. How irresponsible. “Are you going to manage to keep me safe like that?” He teases, tiring of this silent treatment. Fukuzawa scrubs at his nose again, answering with a curt “I’ll manage.” that’s a bit fuzzy around the edges. He doesn’t bother to bring up what they both know- Mori doesn’t need his protection.
He finds himself developing a particular interest in Fukuzawa’s nose, which has started to crease, and develop irritated redness around the rims. The abuse is certainly doing him no favors- he watches it be crushed against a palm when it starts to twitch. Fukuzawa even, almost meditative, breathing has started to stutter, just barely visible underneath all of his layers, but Mori knows better than to think he’ll get a show that easily. He’s going to have to work for it.
“Got a tickle?” Hw pried, not like he needed to confirm it. His response comes in a rough head-shake, and he rests his head in his hand, sighing. “Use your words, Fukuawa.” He chides. The man in question curls his lip, but obeys anyways, a breathy “No.” that catches in his throat. He presses another harsh knuckle to the side of his nose, eyelashes fluttering, and flinches into his hand again. A breath escapes this time, stuffy and unsatisfied, and Mori has to swallow down his delight. Fukuzawa is so easy to manipulate- he can’t help but try his luck.
“Really? You look awfully itchy, though. What's gotten into you?” Unsurprisingly, he doesn’t get a response, though the more accurate notion is that he can’t, because Fukuzawa jolts into his shoulder again.
“hH'EHSCHHh-!” it’s greater than any other sneeze Mori has heard out of him, desperate to break free. Fukuzawa’s whole face sparks with irritation, and he pinches the next one between his thumb and forefinger. It squelches with the pressure.
With another shuddering exhale, he glares at Mori. “Nothings wrong.” he declared, but with congestion thick in his throat, so it came out all wrong. Mori scoffs. “Use a tissue, atleast.” He doesn’t get a response, unless a ticklish, smothered cough counts.
Mori actually focuses on his work for a couple of minutes, and when he turns his attention back to Fukuzawa, he can’t contain his shock. His condition has considerably worsened. He’s mid sneezing fit, crushing release after release between pinched fingers, and a tear rolls down his cheek. He looks so utterly pathetic, heat starts to pool in Mori’s gut. Fukuzawa manages to quell the fit without a single noise leaking through, a rather impressive feat. He tends to his nose again, now a dark pink. When he angles his face just right, Mori can see wetness threatening to spill over.
All this abuse seems to do him more harm than good, because not even a minute after his previous attack is he hitching again, canine teeth catching the light, and choking down another volley. He’s not as lucky this time- sound starts to leak out between his fingertips, a preview of what is surely soon to come. Husky gasps and stuttery exhales announce the start and end of each sneeze, only agitating Fukuzawa more. He almost seems to growl as he pants for breath, scrubbing at his nose once again, like it’s offered him any relief thus far. Mori watches the skin crinkle and stretch. He frowns down at Fukuzawa, itchy and irritated and so extremely allergic. What a fool.
“You really shouldn’t stew in an allergen. Really, Fukuzawa, I thought you were smarter than that.” He bites his cheek, watching how the word alone is enough to make his breath catch again. Oh Fukuzawa, the master of self-control. He’s waging a war against his own nose, fighting tooth and nail to maintain his usual mask of indifference. It makes every quiver so much more noticable.
When he’s promptly ignored, Mori makes an effort to remove the mangy cat himself, but Fukuzawa quickly shifts back. The sudden movement breaks his concentration on wrestling control over himself, because he tears forward with a “eH'RSCHHh-oo!” What an incredible sound. So desperate and unrestrained. Mori wants to hear it again, wants to watch Fukuzawa hopelessly to himself, wants to pick apart every piece of it. And he’s always been one to make sure he gets what he wants.
Fukuzawa straightens his spine, face flush with irritation and perhaps a bit of embarrassment. He stares at Mori with a challenge in his expression, like he’s daring Mori to come after him. Mori’s not afraid of him, however, especially not in that state. He just needs to make him crack.
“I can’t believe you’re so willing to put up with such a tickle for a stray like that. Look at all of the fur, Fukuzawa. It’s all across your robes.” he’s smart enough to know what Mori’s doing, and make sure he knows it, but that means nothing. His breath still stutters. “It’s on your hands, too. You’ve been rubbing it all over your nose.” Mori clicks his tongue, scolding. “How careless.”’hiH-!” Fukuzawa’s eyes flutter closed, hands rising towards his face. The anticipation is almost too much.
“That must tickle, Fukuzawa. You look awfully itchy, like there’s fur in your nose.” That sends him over the edge. Mori’s stomach twists with anxiety. Fukuzawa takes in a ragged gasp, head tilted back towards the light, and gives Mori a glorious show.
“eH'RSCHHh-iewh! ‘RSZHHIh-! hiA'ESZHHUh-! hH’RSZHHh-oo!!” With each wretched sneeze, Fukuzawa is thrown further forward, bringing in more dander with every inhale. He’s hopeless to it, hands hovering uselessly, giving Mori a full view of the mess he’s made.
“e'ETSZHHh-! ‘ESCHHUh-! heH'RSZH-! ‘rRSZHHh-oo! hiH-! hiA'ETSCHh-!” They’re pitchy and vocal, unconstrainable. One particularly sonorus “ ‘RSCHHEUHh-!” sends the cat scampering off, and Mori almost purrs when its bushy tail runs directly under Fukuzawa’s nostrils. Oh, he's helpless.
“ hI'RSZHHh-! ‘ESCHHh-oo! hH'RSZHHEUHh-! ‘RSZHHih- hH'ESCHHh-oo! ‘DSCHHhih-!” He’s entirely doubled over now, and some small, still human part of Mori worries he might smother himself. He makes no motion to help. He never wants this to end, each release so pressure inducing. It’s simply too much.
All good things must come to an end, though, and Fukuzawa manages to wrangle himself under control. Raw, desperate sneezes are replaced by clipped stifles that still rock him forwards, and almost a full minute passes before he emerges, deeming himself out of the woods. Lord, he is wrecked. If Mori were a weaker man, his arousal would’ve been much more obvious. He manages to keep himself under control.
Fukuzawa’s face is flushed and swollen, his eyes red rimmed and eyelashes heavy with fat tears. Every panting breath he takes in has the slightest wheeze, so Mori takes pity on him and deicides to play his role as doctor. He makes short work of acquiring an anti-histimine, holding it out like a dog treat.
Fukuzawa doesn’t meet his eyes as he takes it, but hes polite enough to nod his thanks. He swallows it dry, throat clicking, and there’s silence once again until it breaks it with a snarling “‘RSZHHh-oo!” that escapes his clutches.
“Silver Wolf” was most certainly a fitting name.
#sneeze kink#sneeze#snz#sneeze fic#snz fic#sneezing#i am exhausted its like 4 am at this point#i was supposed to go to bed early wtf 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#theres probably so many typos in this. dont tell me i dont want to know#i dont have msnt thoughts to share with you i just really like comparing Fukuzawa to a dog / wolf because he literally is#thats like his whole thing#also thank u so much for the req !!!@ i really had so much fun writing this it gave me an excuse to write out a concept ive had for a very#long time#i think the dynamic between these two is very interesting but its sooo hard to find fics abt it#because i fear im not a fan of fukumori#i have so many thoights about fuku but im too tired to share rhem#this is so random but what do hou guys listen to while you write???#bc i usually just listen to my reg playlist but it kind of. kills the mood#im tryna jack off why is radio head playing dafuq 😭😭😭😭#i need to be put down#goodnight#inhope hou ejjoy#༺❀༻
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Speaking of a previous fandom post I just shared: I have Not stepped away from fandom this fall, I’m just dealing with some health stuff and I’ve been pretty short on the energy I usually have. I’m doing okay and should be all the way better soon! But energy has been going to real job and pottery (which is also real gig job with taxable $ involved but pottery is the art form I have consistently fallen back on for comfort the past decade). I still have so much interest in unfinished fics and art I hope to return to in the new year. And I’m still hoping to noodle out some drawpiles with @sango-blep as my body and energy level allow. But yeah, still here just working to keep my nose above the water.
#arting#stupid rant is stupid#i miss u supercorp i think about u all the time#also the few minutes i usually nab writing during work jobs has been nuked with lots of product photography#so then when i get home im sore and exhausted#also new worry unlocked#the adhd drug shortage has finally hit me and i could only get 20 of my 30 pillss this month#i still have a chance to find those missing 10 but i have to wait until im almost out and get an additional rx from my dr#which is not stressful at all and eating into my energy reserves#anyways
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honestly im still mentally exhausted but being able to listen guy giggling and making jokes and talk about something that i barely understand is healing my poor little heart
#i love guy so much#i know im not hyping it up like usual but im so exhausted rn im sorry#i wish i have more energy to be happy like usual#redacted guy#redacted honey#redacted audio#redacted asmr
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Someone set off a barrage of fireworks at THREE IN THE FUCKING MORNING 👹 when i get my hands on uuuuu
#THEY SCARED MY DOG >:(((#grrr#literally woke up my whole house#we tend to get a few fuckers setting off shit WEEEEKS before the 4 of july but are u fucking serious usually its around 10 or 11 at night#i hop they got the fucking cops called on them (as if those cunts would so anyrhing useful im just out for blood and exhausted)#people 👹👹👹👹#boopshoopsramblings
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art posts will die down this month! :) just letting you know that my March Madness was most certainly a fluke. i dont usually make 12 pieces per month 😟 thats a year's worth of art in a month..
#my yapping#miscposting#im not sure if this is indicative of anything..#but it is rather alarming considering that i usually just make 1-2 pieces per month#ive raised this to my psychiatrist but she seemed to think nothing of it#but like. if you know me and how i talk about art youd know that its weird#art is very exhausting mentally and physically#so the fact that i made 12 PIECES in quick succession???? its concerning#it might be mania but idk though. i dont feel very energized about it#ive got the same energy as a murder victim enscribing their killers name in their blood
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femininity and masculinity are not these authorless unchanging script paradigms that you contort yourself to meet. please for the love of liberation stop reinventing the vedas. femininity and masculinity are expressions of self. nothing is like inherently ontologically feminine or masculine. the feminine or masculine active property is YOU. everything else is an expression. for example. long hair is constructed 1:1 with femininity and i care for my own as a direct and explicit expression of my femmeness and beauty. a few months ago i met a stud with locs down to her knees. longer hair than mine, obv, but NOT an expression of femininity and had really nothing to do with it at all.
#when dykes say ‘it’s not the clothes that make you fem or masc it’s what you do with them and how u wear them’ this is how i interpreted it#im talked out ab this for now#tbh it made me a little crazy (im fine now) but being off my meds is hitting me finally (tired) and my response made me realize i spend way#too much time online and i take it far too seriously#emotionally exhausted#anon i hope you got your questions answered#what you were missing is 1) femininity is complex 2) femininity is independent unto itself and not just a corollary to masculinity#and 3) affording femmes the dignity of the recognition that we actively chose our gender presentations and performances over any other#im also talked out ab this for now because the energy i’ve put towards thinking about this this past week i usually employ elsewhere so it’#my head has just kind of been like. i can’t stop thinking about kashmir#and this is the conversation that we’re having?#i’ve been sad is my point#i will happily still talk about my gender (i mean i talk about it constantly for those who have eyes to see) but yeah#👍🏽#femme
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