#sobs silently

[burningsalamander]

          Headcanon: 1 of ???

          Natsu’s mental health has pretty much stunted his emotional growth at a young age.   After losing Igneel at such a young age,  it left him with extensive abandonment issues that he never truly sought care for,  or even bothered many with.  Natsu hangs on close to the friends he keeps around because of this fact.  He’s afraid of people leaving him,  or losing them completely.  Fairy Tail was his refuge from his own feelings,  knowing that everyone around was accepting of him and any baggage he had,  he rarely thought to express his abandonment to anyone.  He felt comfortable,  and would never burden anyone else with his own feelings or be a downer,  knowing others have it much worse than he ( Erza,  Gray,  Laxus,  etc ).

          On top of ingrained abandonment issues,  Natsu suffers from PTSD from Grand Magic Games and Tartaros.  Watching Lucy perish,  missing the opportunity to save her,  it broke him.  Even if it was a Future version of her,  every Lucy was Lucy to him.  His best friend,  cut down before him.  It nearly tore the boy asunder.  Even after the battle,  defeating Future Rogue,  those wounds held deep within.  The ‘ X ’ shaped scar stood firm upon abdomen,  a grim reminder of what they’d gone through,  what he personally struggled with every day.

          His reunion with Igneel in Tartatos was arguably one of the best and worst moments of Salamander’s life.  A short lived hello,  followed promptly by a painful goodbye.  Seeing Igneel lose like that ... the most powerful person he ever knew ... cut down so easily.  It drove him crazy.   Anguish gripped the boy,  holding on and never letting go.  Tears continued to pour,  and all he could think to do was separate himself from everyone and everything.  Again,  not wanting to bother everyone with his own problems,  and wanting to get stronger on his own,  in order to be able to protect the ones he loves.

           After suffering two devastating loses of life,  because he was too weak or too slow to stop it,  truly messed with Salamander and led him astray.  He suffered from a severe depression afterwards.  It led him to escape and become stronger on his own,  regardless of anyone’s feelings about it.  He is selfish in some ways,  this being one of them.  

[kelin-is-writing]

The butterflies in my stomach going CRRRAZZY over him…

[iamespecter]

Is Pauline dating both Agnes and Caine?

I mean, it hasn't happened yet, but.... the fic IS leading up to THAT point, technically making it a slow burn-

I would also like to voice out that I think I might be the first to ship exclusively Caine x Pomni x Ragatha, but Caine and Ragatha want nothing to do with one another except be buddies at most (a v-type poly relationship) and I cry myself to sleep knowing I've repeated a cycle from my FNAF days

[gojoest]

i am thinking about girl dad satoru measuring his daughter’s height by drawing a line on the doorframe and tearing up every time at the difference and how she’s growing up too fast….can’t she just stay his little girl forever? :,) he is not taking it well, really, and it’s your job to pick up the pieces

[jetkast]

Sometimes I think about how Jin Ling goes by that instead of Jin Rulan and I just vividly picture his young mistress persona going like "yeah my not uncle was an unaware pining cut sleeve and my mom kind of just enabled it so... juijui and I just try to pretend it didn't happen -- it's cringe af" and I die a little in both grief and hilarity

[brontollow]

[kangyeosaang]

chanyeol · cream soda dance practice

[ping-ski]

not enough people talk about "dont turn the lights off" ngl. this song + the daycare theme song have been ON LOOP for me. on loop while i draw. on loop while i do chores and cook. on loop while i work. on loop if i need to concentrate on something- no ANYTHING. it's such a comfort to me. this song has a DEATH GRIP on me. WHIMSY UNMATCHED. you don't understand how much this song fuels me to keep creating DCA content for myself ohhh my god.

"lights on" doesn't even compare for me (WHICH OFC i like the song + with the recent release of "best friend" im still giddy)

which, i feel the need to add, this song is pivotal for my motivation to write EBY (wip dca fic im working on rn). like idk i feel invincible when this song plays ig lmao.

[seven-tastic]

[fonteyn]

Carmy Berzatto in Season 1, Episode 3 of The Bear.

[charmac]

Mac and Dennis in Gun Fever

[sekai-no-reita]

[meyhew]

anyway louis is by and far one of the strongest, most resilient people i know and even more impressive is his refusal to let life and its difficulties harden him into someone he’s not. for him to stay as humble and generous and kind as he has is so very admirable im so proud of his journey so far and so excited to see what the future holds for him. if anyone deserves the best in this world it’s him 🫶🏽

[lynnylovefool]

If you look very closely, you can see me in the left corner sobbing furiously!

[h0ped3lusion]

I just found out that not only does Drifter refuses to pull out his sword in the Central, he also refuses to throw out explosives but would throws out little flowers instead,,,

[themundanedumpling]

now that myab is airing i have the urge to read the source danmei novel but everytime i try to read a sqc novel it reminds me of utter trauma and devastation i went through when i read sqc's wu chang jie