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don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#sorry it's even scribblier than usual :') hopefully my chickenscratch is legible#anyway come here and join me in the corner where we go to be embarrassing about anime characters#just. between riddle and trey's dreams i've been thinking a lot about how#trey knew this kid for like two months when he was nine and then never really got over him or how their friendship ended#which. honestly. understandable given the circumstances#and then when they finally met again riddle acted like they'd never met before and neither he nor trey ever intended trey to be his vice#but every time riddle talks about his childhood post-incident it's basically#'oh yeah i constantly thought about trey and che'nya and fantasized about still being friends with them! this is fine and normal'#(there's a bit in one of his birthday cards where he talks about crossword puzzles and shit man that one got me)#idk. i can't put this into words very well#just...the implications that riddle was actively resisting trey's friendship#(presumably because it ended SUPER badly last time and he's learned that if he shows he wants something it gets taken away from him)#and trey had to work REALLY hard to just to get to the point they were at by the time canon starts#that was progress somehow#y'all can call him boring all you want but trey's defining feature really is that he keeps being like#'everything's fine :) this isn't a big deal :) i don't care that much'#(trey on the inside: THIS IS THE BIGGEST DEAL THAT I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT AND I WILL NEVER LET IT GO)#anyway i continue to be absolutely murdered by the timing of riddlepunzel directly after this#riddle's line about not wanting to keep standing in front of a door that's never going to open...#hey. hey silly gacha game about anime disney boys.#you are not actually allowed to do this to me#oh shit oh damn i'm out of tags and i haven't even talked about cater yet. NO BUT I HAVE LOTS OF FEELINGS THERE TOO --#(i am crushed under a falling safe looney tunes style)
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LIFE UPDATE/ACTUAL BLOG STUFF: Long post about language learning.
So ive been trying to learn a new language for so long and decided to put a pause on stuff like duo lingo bc thats all conversational learning wich doesnt work for my brain. So ive decided to learn korean as im forced to learn ground up and start how we all learned our native language block by block (pun not intended lmao) and im slowly getting hang of the alphabet and am so excited to learn, more so than when i was trying to learn spanish which is good motivation. Hopefully i can become fluent because its known once you tackle the hurdle of the second language others come easier.
I want to eventually atleast for a small part of my live speak at least 3 languages besides english: Korean, Spanish, ASL. and who knows maybe i could learn more but this is already a very lofty goal XD
If anyone has any tips or advice pls feel free to lmk.
#sludge posting#language learning#my brain will expand whether it likes it or not#learning korean#something finally feels like progress
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part 1 of a little comic / art sequence that i've been working on! :D it's part tribute, part experimenting with brushes n colors and trying new thingz :]
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and thus continues my endless quest of spreading the carrot fics like a plague! if you've seen my art floating around you probs already figured that this au holds a very special place in my heart, forever and always!!
if you haven't heard of it, it's a fic series by @crowned-ladybug called carrot soup!! it made me wish i could speak colors and i need more people to share my struggle xd
go check it out if you're into sweet voice lore and qpr level gayness and just wanna feel warm and soft and warm (hurt/comfort my beloved) <333 there are some heavier themes cos everyone's traumatized but they're working through it! be sure to check the tags and stay safe! <3
#hlvrai#half life vr but the ai is self aware#frenrey#carrots au#<- gotta remember to tag the other ones as well#art tag or whatever#yippie im so excited to finally start sharing these with people!!!#there will be at least 5 parts in total maybe more idk#i just wanted to illustrate this little snippet of the first fic#maybe i'll draw more of these if i get another vision#i am still trying to work on the animatic so that would probs include most of my visions anyway#i think im gonna post a wip sometime soon just in case i lose interest#also i crave validation and reading people's tags and comments makes me so so so happy!!!><#btw it kinda feels nice posting something like. after a while#cos it's been quite a bit since i finished this first.. part? page? thingy#and it's nice to finally stay out of the whole instant gratification thing#please do still go crazy in the tags tho? if u want?#mkay enough rambling for today i've got things to do#like be cozy n read fanfics n drink water n stuff yk?#all the important thingz#and who knows maybe i'll even make some progress on.. whatever it is that piques my interest today#bye for now!!! take care and have a very orange day <3
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my humble stack of polar (+adjacent) books + the side view that immediately shows which ones i've read lmao
#pax posts#📓#polar exploration#i just finished Polarschimmer and i loved it tbh. (mostly) lighthearted polar fun times.#super interesting to read about contemporary polar research though i wish she'd provided more detail cherry-garrard-style but alas#ive read all of the books standing next to the stack except for South! but soon i prommy#for now im finally starting frozen in time i think. little franklin interlude for fun and me-time#also i feel like i never talk about it but ACD's arctic diary genuinely means the world to me it's so silly but i love that thang#i read the terror whenever im not in the mood for other books bc it pisses me off so bad that i regain motivation to read something else👼🏻#so progress is slow but honestly idec about her (dan simmons' the terror) like that. sorry#anyway sorry for yapping in the tags but it makes me smile i love you polar exploration i love you polar regions
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final file wasn't too big — here's the full timelapse 👍🏿
#my art#timelapse#progress video#I like to work with whatever color feels nicest to work with then switch at the end 🤷🏿♀️#working B&W start to final does something to me idk
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Sorry I'm not over the Flower Husbands thing yet, what bothers me a particular lot is interpretations that say Jimmy can just leave because he's an adult, he's smart. So that means he would never get caught up in an abusive relationship, that just doesn't happen to smart adult people. Jimmy would just say that he's unhappy. And the implications that this happening to him would make him inherently stupid or incompetent (because it feels like some people are really against the abusive interpretation because it paints Jimmy in a bad light (It doesn't))
#Not shutting up about this I have too many feelings#Jimmy is very open about his feelings and Scott has shut him down over his worries before when he did voice them#with stuff like “well what did you except to happen”#Dont think Jimmy would keep trying to express his woes around him#blabber#And to me again this make's Jimmy's character sooo compelling#his progression through the series after s1. How Scott continues to have something out for him#and him actually finally properly opposing Scott in LimL and taking enjoyment from attacking him in SL#fuck yeah go my son
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Inkubus
#splatoon#these aren’t super new but I never posted them#Frye gets crown horns bc it’s cool and she deserves it#anyway hello I’m alive#I’ll hopefully get back to writing soon…!#I got a new job earlier this year and I think I’m hopefully finally settled enough my brain will cooperate#I actually opened my docs for the first time since like. summer.#so. progress?#I feel#like I should write something short to get back into it so maybe I’ll finish a WIP oneshot first…#those tags were supposed to be one tag but o wel#maybe I should do a poll. I have a few WIPs and polls are fun. tag poll for WIPoll: y/n?
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weird mixed feelings once again
#i feel like my relationship with my sister has gotten progressively more honest#in that she's finally willing to admit how crazy the stuff our parents did was#now that she's in the same position and not psychologically tormenting her children#and so on the one hand it's really nice to have her finally acknowledge it#but it's also like....so one sided#in that i tried to talk about it years ago and got nowhere#and had to do the work on my own to process it#and now it's great that i can help her with that but also like it's not a mutual exchange#it's like no matter what the situation is#or who I'm even talking to#if there's anything i need help with it doesn't matter and i have to do it alone#and then only after I've done it do i get anyone to talk to#but it's also like almost being put into a therapist position it's not a real conversation#even when i try to bring stuff up it shifts quickly to me being in that role again#it has to be something I'm doing that is causing that because of how consistently this is the case#but i don't know what
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obligatory valentine's day Jurm screenshot redraw this screenshot is like a yearly / twice a year tradition for me HAPPY VALENTINES DAY GANG 🗣️🗣️🗣️
im never shutting up about this scene. JACK CAUGHT HIM WITH SUCH PRECISION??? DIDNT EVEN STUMBLE LIKE THIS MAN IS USED TO SNATCHING NURM UP LIKE THAT??? WHAT???? I know what you are.
Will post the next two minentines later but I gotta go to SCHOOL FIRST.. HHHHH
#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm nurm#mcsm jack#nurm mcsm#jack mcsm#clemont_ine#minecraft villager#I feel like I'm missing something but I can't tell what.#HM.#Anyway#Side note but I love how like. Each of the drawings so far progress#Ignoring the first one which I never posted and never WILL post cause it's so ass dude-#But like the first one with my old jack design. Jack grinning like an idiot with Nurm nervously chuckling in his arms#The second with him gazing dreamily into his eyes while Nurm is like 😳 um. UM?? 👀#And then this omg. Nurm finally relaxed; hand on jack's chest; both smiling fondly at each other#Sigh. They make me SICK TO MY STOMACHE. BURN THEM#I know that like. Theyre basically cannon and they just slipped under the “no romance rule” radar (hah) during the making of S2#But HOW THE FUCK#some of these clips man. Oh my god if they were a straight couple they'd have been on thin ice#I HAD MORE TO SAY BUT TUMBLR LOGGED ME OUT AND MADE ME THINK I LOST THIS#THE POWER OF THE YAOI IS TOO MUCH IM NOT RISMING IT MAN
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you know. i was also really worried i would come out of this like deeply resenting my parents or something like that but i think doing this made my own relationship with them a lot better in a weird way. their reaction made me feel like i understood them better than before
#z.gen#sorry i really am oversharing SO much LMFAO#but like. idk. it feels like all the effort ive poured into healing myself has finally bore fruit#it feels like the last piece of the puzzle for me#i try to practice as much humility as possible and keep to myself since i dont want to idk. spoil any progress by jumping ship rip#but all the time and effort and self reflection and coping just finally stuck. i understood why it wasnt working and i needed a reason#i need something to work towards and not limiting myself means i have that now. i can live my life now peacefully#shit is so beautiful like life feels so whole and complete#ive gone through such horrible shit but this was like. the last thing#and shit bru ive been through A LOTTTT for me to be saying this like shit is rlly sweet LMFAOOO#maybe ill buy some wine on wednesday and kick back
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making big strides now that I'm not crippled by pain and wanting to shout it from the rooftops but somehow feeling awful about it because I'm not doing it fast enough. #livelaughlove
#im fraid ill actually never be comfortable flaunting my progress on social media unless deranged via substances or the delerium#of plainly existing with a factory recall brain#anyway i finished the final chapter and made some incredible developmental edits and im kinda sobbing about it. per the usualllllllll#always feeling like the 'i cant hold all these limes'-guy#theres so much left to do and no victory until i have something (incredible and completely flawless) to show. thats a healthy mindset right#im going back to the mines. but if you heard a lil celebratory eep. that was me#adding delete later as a failsafe because even this vulnerability feels like an involuntary alien probe. GAH.#FRUSTRATION AND JOY AND ANGER AND HOPELESSNESS AND ALL OF IT LIKE POCKETSAND IN YOUR EYES
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Things that are in my tallit but they get progressively worse:
Cat hair
Human hair
Saliva (for weaving in ends)
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#tallit#personal thoughts tag#shalom crafts#unsanitary tw#the thing is that this will get washed thoroughly before i tie the tzitzit on#look if you can weave in ends without wetting the yarn to get through the needle more power to you#however you have to accept that there's a non-zero chance a hand woven/crocheted/whatever project has saliva in it#which makes it even more critical to wash projects#though tbf projects with very bulky yarns don't have that problem#the blanket i crocheted for a friend was very easy to weave the ends in for actually! but it sucked!#i feel like a peasant when i wet yarn with my mouth. i wonder how many people have done that in history#there's something kind of mystical about it. it's gross to some obviously#but if you can get over that part... you put in SO MUCH of your literal body into a project. it's a kind of death#death exchanged for life. something something maybe the curtains were just blue#i am finally weaving in some of these damn ends though. after probably close to half a year#it just somehow doesn't feel like i'm making REAL progress on this tallit if i focus on weaving in ends. it's dumb
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my boy-coded behaviour for most my life makes my exploration of gender due to newfound freedom era lean more into feminine things but my anti-capitalist feminist value system makes this feel like a betrayal of my moral code.
#like. i wanna try makeup . but the money the beauty industry will funnel from me to possibly give me new insecurities ? ewww#and do i want to try makeup for fun or is it the patriarchy ? is it the i need to start maintaining a reputation. working to employment#and the prettier the better ☝️ or am i just like hehe i like sparkly cutesy im cutesy patootsie <3#or am i unfortunately falling victim to i like a boy.. a vain boy.. so im getting. vain 😔 as well.#also possible that the absorption into highschool popular friendgroup has turned me 😔 into a loser. they stole my thinking skills#or even . ive fallen victim to the capitalist society i live in due to finally hitting Exhaustion Threshold due to uni and social commitmen#like i think ive gotten ok w shit i shouldnt be ok w#why are yall saying the shit yall saying actually. dont say sped or skid in front of me why am i letting u do that.#also why the fuck do u think its ok for u to call ppl autistic insultingly and then also call me autistic like i cant . see the fucking lin#hm? the fuck ? like maybe the reason i rebut the autism accusations from u isnt cuz i dont think im autistic its cuz through experience#u seem to think that makes one lesser. i dont want to be lesser ! fuck u ?#i know it is not meant this way but god. some ppl. like think just a little bf u speak babe.#sry this started one way then went another i feel my moral compass weakening and im scareddddd#its hard being kind and loving when no one is kind and loving. and then they make fun of ppl who are trying to be kind and loving.#and u r just a guy. ur just a guy in the world and u want to fit in and be loved so. what do u do 😔😔#be firmer in my moral beliefs bro has consistently said he realized other ppl could be smart and interesting after meeting me#and has sat and listened when i gave my sociological perspective on shit whenever i felt i could#and has changed behaviour bc of it#girl. girl. smtimes literally just say what u think.#though sometimes i hear ppl say shit#and i realize i have only been in progressive spaces and ppl my age say that shit !? am just kind of stunlocked for a minute. like.#ew. anyway. ppl keep telling me i just need to tell him that when he says that shit it makes me uncomfortable (pisses me off tbh.)#cuz he. clearly fuckin. likes me and cares about my opinions on such matters. ill get around to it GOD let me be cowardly for once.#also i need to get an idea on why men who Love women and Hate men piss me off.#cuz he has said shit and i have told him that feels Wrong but i dont know why. my intuition hates it#and its just him going like wow its so awesome when women are like. >= men ? isnt that. great <3#and like. i guess. nothing ur saying is wrong and i know u and u have. good intent here u just hate ur dad core but. hm.#i feel it stems from a feeling of gender essentialism in it ?#like its an exception. for a women to be. better than a man at something.#why do women exist in comparison to men ? why is it impressive when a women does a 'traditionally male' thing ?
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I miss my old high school friends and classmates o(-(
#i talk#I miss my old dude friends too#I wish they hadn't grown up to be dumbasses#and the ones who were still chill moved away / I lost touch with#I regret not getting closer with one gal in high school who I ADORED#She was so cool and also the first Bi person I ever knew. though at the time that thought didnt cross my mind#I didnt care about labels then or now but back then I also just straight up didnt give them thought lmao#''labels?? sexuality??? who cares I'm cramming for finals''#anyways. she was so cool but I cannot for the life of me find her anywhere online#not even frickin LinkedIn (/neg I hate that place)#Gal straight up vanished after high school and honestly? mad respect but also [redacted] I MISS YOU#YOU WERE SO COOL AND I LOVED YOUR STORIES AND YOUR CONFIDENCE#AND I WISH WE HAD CLASSES TOGETHER SO WE COULDVE HUNG OUT AND BEEN CLOSER#we only had 1 class together in high school and 1 in middle school. I think?#I remember I told my Japanese classmates I would genuinely miss all of them#and a lot of them were startled by how earnest I was about it#because like. we all get alone but the whole class wasnt friends with each other#but I dunno man. maybe it's just a matter of loving what'a familiar#but I do care a lot about people even the ones I dont interact with much#I dunno just feeling a bit sad and nostalgic tonight after seeing that FE post#At least I'm still friends with my best friends#I've known her over half my life and honestly god forbid one of us moves or something#because I think I'd instantly drop dead in genuine despair#aghhh#interacting with people has become so exhausting over the past few years#but I'm trying my best#Trying to let my friends know I love and care about them#instead of dropping off the face of the planet for weeks or months#but it's a major work in progress#Anyways that's enough oversharing for the next year or two
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I don’t usually comsume caffeine (my body just doesn’t handle it well) but given that I am starting work again and extremely fatigued as a result I fear I must begin experimenting with it again. Anyway. Time to see what 100mg of caffeine does to my (extremely exhausted, zero caffeine tolerance) body today.
#the wizard speaks#health tw#<- only kinda but tagging just in case lol#I have today and tomorrow off (though tomorrow I need to cook and Ranger has his training class#) so today felt like the best time to just really jump into the deep end and see how I react to an energy drink lol#gonna listen to my audiobook and try to do some crafts#maybe read some more fic if I can get my eyes to focus on words#hopefully take Ranger for a walk later if the caffeine makes me feel capable of that#poor boy hasn’t had a walk the last two days because I had work and his patience is clearly wearing out lol#the last couple days he was relatively chill but today he is very energetic and needy and clingy#gonna work out a system with my roommate to get him walked more often now that I’m working again and needing more rest#it’s just hard because he’s such an anxious dog#he’s made an amazing amount of progress with his reactivity and walks are a lot easier for him now but I’m#worried about him losing that progress if someone else is walking him and not following my process exactly lol#I fear I’ve become a bit of a helicopter parent#I am excited because well hopefully be moving into a place with a fenced yard in a couple months#which obviously won’t replace walks but it’ll be easier to get him a bit of excercise even on my low energy days#when I got him I didn’t think that it would be an issue to not have a yard for him to run in because#I didn’t know yet that my weirdly long lasting health stuff was going to become such a permanent thing#I thought I was finally starting to get over an abnormally long stomach bug or something but alas. chronic illness be upon me#so when I got a dog I expected to be capable of taking him on long walks and to parks and stuff to run every day#anyway that’s enough rambling about my guilt over not being able to take better care of him lol#I do think I set unreasonably high standards for myself#by virtue of animal husbandry being my special interest#he is better cared for than honestly most dogs I know#his vet says he’s very healthy and his trainer says I’m doing great work with him and he only rarely seems bored or stressed by#lack of activity or enrichment#and that’s really only when my health has been particularly bad AND my usual backup systems aren’t in place#like if my roommate is out of town or something
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rewatching bbc merlin really has me like buzzing in my mind with so many thoughts. Like I'm kinda watching it backwards atm going from S5 to S4, I think I will jump around 3, 2, and 1 but just,,,, there is so much especially in S5 that makes me !!!!!!!
Honestly, I feel like this fandom has to give the writers more credit. Like they did a damn good job, and to me, it's such a good tragedy. Especially how S5 plays out, it takes everything and just tears you down, and down, and down. It's perfect, perfect with flaws! But still perfect
#bbc merlin#merlin#yeah idk on that note about the writers - this fandom is way too harsh#like i know we all have ideas on how it should have gone#but i think we lose how it's still a story that they planned from the start to end like that#they did their job they set up from the beginning and it is good as a tragedy imo as someone who has studied tragedies#hot take but the characterisations are consistent - i mean like as consistent as they get for a 5 series show#they did better than most and i dont feel like any characters get like their previous characterisation assassinated#that includes Arthur and Morgana btw they clearly have arcs that work well and where Arthur's is a slower progression - Morgana's is like a#lit match - slow at first but when it gets going it's going and then gone - it's wonderful#i mean look at s5 it literally starts by talking about Arthur's bane aka his fatal flaw aka his hamartia#which is himself and i dont think it's as much as the overdone hubris but rather Arthur's love and trust for others - but that like in many#tragedies can be debated#okay something else that can be debated is the peripeteia - i think a good example of it is the Disir episode because that's when Arthur's#fate becomes sealed anything after that point is fruitless because the Triple Goddess has decided he must die because of his rejection of#the Old Religion - it's a reversal of fortune in a sense that Mordred is alive to play his part in Arthur's death - as Merlin puts it. You#could see it more as Merlin's peripeteia rather than Arthur's but still#if we wanna debate it more Arthur's peripeteia would probablyyyy be when Mordred stabs him because that's when his death becomes imminent#it's a reversal of fortune because he's dying from that point forward rather than a strong king he is a man dying#the anagnorisis is another point to make. You could say for Arthur his anagnorisis is all of the finale - like this constant realisation of#Merlin and his magic and realising all that he missed all that he didnt see and now it's too late because he's dying#I'd say Merlin's anagnorisis comes with the whole Mordred and Kara ordeal and how he realises his mistake and how it's gonna cause the#downfall of not just himself but Arthur too#then catharsis - see i think it's the only part where the tragedy falters because do we get catharsis from Arthur's death and Merlin's#immortality - where he's still at the lake centuries later?#i think in some ways yes and in other ways no because I don't think BBC Merlin is following an Aristotle's tragedy#i think catharsis comes more from Morgana's half of the tragedy - seeing her die - and i think further catharsis comes from knowing it's no#over forever that there will be a second chance for redemption for both Merlin and Arthur#but it is a more difficult one for sure#anyway point is that S5 specifically has a tragedy storyline that is very well done and we should credit that more tbh
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